How Islam Freed My Soul

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Yusuf Chambers

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Yusuf Chambers was trapped in the darkness of his life. He was depressed and felt dead inside. He was searching for the truth, and truth freed him. Listen to his story of how he escaped the captivity of darkness and entered the fold of Islam.

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What I live in a Christian country, I go to a big church is built on the same specifications of Noah's Ark. And the guy says I cannot help you, my friends.

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So I left and I went home, and I got drunk,

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drank, and I was supposed to smoke, so I could forget the answer. So I could forget myself. And I was again locked up in the dark room chained to the chair, not knowing where to turn, where to look where to go. No, no, you didn't get me. I've got a problem with it. I've come as for some support in a very difficult time. I've got a problem with this girl. Please help me.

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She's no good for you. You get rid of her. She get rid of you.

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What?

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you for real? She just told me to leave. And now you're telling me to leave her? What is this? What sort of a religion is this? He said, read this please.

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I take the books away. I read

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for two weeks. I'm reading Sierra.

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History of Islam. Everything how to make goosal how to make widow how to get divorced, how to get married, how to do this and God arakata every single thing you can imagine that a Muslim needs to know if I read more than most Muslims read in their entire life in like two weeks. I guarantee you. So hon Allah is reading and reading. And I went back to her. I knocked on the door and I said to her Hey, x. She was my ex by that time.

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I said to her, my dear.

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I really have to apologize you.

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Your religion

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is great.

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rajim Bismillah R Rahman r Rahim al hamdu Lillah wa Salatu was Salam ala rasulillah Karim.

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We start by praising Allah subhanho wa Taala.

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We send the Peace and blessings upon the Beloved Prophet Muhammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam.

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And indeed, those who follow in his righteous footsteps until the Day of Judgment is established. a nun truly has knowledge of that day.

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Apart from

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Allah,

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apart from Allah.

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Today I want to address the topic,

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address the topic and explain like a part of my history.

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The topic is how I escaped

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the captivity of darkness. the captivity of

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darkness and the brother just mentioned it's upon Allah you know, when you see reverts that coming into the fold of Islam by the bucket loads everywhere.

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Everywhere you go, as long as you just explained the message of Islam,

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you'll find someone will come out of the woodwork

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some of these part of the wall he comes in he you know, the wall falls down and he comes he takes Shahada

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everywhere you go, I was in Africa. I visited six countries in Africa.

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Africa, and the people are hungry for Islam.

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We had one gathering where 40 or 50 people took Shahada. We couldn't handle the number of charges that were coming.

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I was in Pakistan and people are really accepting this Islam.

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Many people in Pakistan and the lands with some of you come from they've left Islam.

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They were sold the dream by the scientists,

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the oma of the modern worlds.

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They were sold a dream that they came out of nothing.

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And they had no purpose, but to be eaten by the worms. This is what they were told.

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But even their olema their scholars are arguing and they have a big laugh.

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There is no definitive statements coming out of science today.

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You see,

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for 26 years,

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I existed, like the brother had mentioned, he said he wasn't a life. He said it was in existence. That's exactly what I was gonna say, my life. The first word in my lecture, I was in existence. Here wasn't a life for 26 years, I was confined. I was in solitary confinement in a dark space attached to a chair with a blindfold on, I could only call and people couldn't hear.

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That is what it's like.

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For many people out there, if not the majority of people out there who don't claim that Allah subhanaw taala created them and they have a purpose

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to worship Allah. Many people, most of the people, I would say

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they have an existence. They are in solitary confinement. They are shackles, they are diseased in their mind because they don't understand why they even here.

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This is the reality.

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So reality

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can you live your life without Islam?

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Okay, you can miss your Salah here and there. You can do some sins so on and so forth. But you know, it comes Friday. Hey, yo Juma read of the Muslims.

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You go to the masjid, and you seek the repentance of Allah you seek Toba?

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So you got something to live for? Even if you just do it every Friday.

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Back in the day, when we had no Islam, we had no Kitab Allah. We had no Rasulullah sallallahu alayhi wasallam. What did we have to rely on?

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Who could we consult?

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Apart from our own hearts? Who could we consult?

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Who can they consult with?

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Who can they consult with?

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for 26 years, I was living in this dark room and glimpses of lights used to come through the window.

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I used to hear voices coming through the window telling me this is right. And that is right, and isms and ologies and schisms, and all of the other things that all the different philosophies you can imagine used to come into my room.

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The only

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thing which didn't come into that room for 26 years, 11 years of those I was actively searching. The only thing that didn't come my way was the Koran. for 11 years it took that core and to come through that door.

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I want to ask you brothers and sisters.

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I want to ask you with sincerity. I want you to answer with an open heart.

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Every journey.

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It has three characteristics, right?

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A journey.

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You define a journey because it has a beginning.

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It has an ends and what else does it have?

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What else put your hands up and tell me what does that journey

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How do you? How do you actually characterize that journey? There's two, there's a beginning and an end. And there's something else.

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What is it?

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Anyone know?

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Okay, so I'm gonna ask you in the morning, you come here at eight o'clock.

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We're going on a journey.

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We starting from Oslo.

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Eight o'clock,

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what are you going to ask me?

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What are you going to ask me?

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You're gonna ask me, where are we going? Right?

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So the third characteristic of a journey, the third criteria of a journey, is a purpose.

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So outside if you look outside, and this is what we used to go through,

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most of mankind's is on a journey where it definitely had a beginning they were born.

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And it definitely is most certainly 1,000%. If you can have 1,000%,

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it has an end.

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Life, it has a beginning and it has an ends.

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But for most of people, the most the majority of people living in these lands, there is absolutely no purpose whatsoever. So the journey becomes useless, it is worthless, it is meaningless.

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So this is why

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in these necks of the woods you will find in Europe and the West, and the sophisticated part of the world that we live in today,

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you will find

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people are ending the journey themselves.

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They stop the journey, and they jump in front of a train.

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They stopped the journey, they jumped off a bridge.

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They stop the journey they take too many pills.

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They kill themselves. They drown themselves in their sorrows with copious amounts of alcohol and drugs. Because the journey doesn't make any sense because they don't know their purpose.

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So for 26 years, can you imagine being locked in a dark room chained to a chair? Do you know what it's like?

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Does anyone know what he's like? Does anyone know what it's like to be a captive of your own self.

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And then you have a maid next door.

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I'm Muslim.

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And he never tried to explain the purpose of life to you.

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He says in his book,

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called the people to Islam.

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It clearly defines what a Muslim is.

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He has a man that he understands who he takes his his best friends, his work even his instructor, as his Savior, his prophet muhammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam.

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He has this man. Some of the people living next door to the people I'm explaining to you about.

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They have so much knowledge.

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And yet,

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the man is still locked away in the dark room

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without any understanding.

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Let's be honest brothers and sisters. How many people live in the street? Where you live?

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Who are not yet

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in the understanding of the journey.

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How many people live right next door to you?

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Maybe one family, you brother.

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You sisters, how many women living next in your streets that don't know the purpose of the journey?

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How many?

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Of course you say you love Allah.

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You love Allah.

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And you love this man. Rasulullah sallallahu alayhi wa sallam more than you love yourself isn't a brother. That's why you grow your beard.

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You grow your beard more than one fistful.

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You establish yourself in the masjid.

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You wear your Hema, your hijab sisters, because you love Rasulullah sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, more than you love yourself more than you love your mother law more than you love all of the people in your street and it shows, because you don't care about the people in your streets.

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You don't care about them at all,

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is the reality.

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for 26 years,

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I was searching for the book of instruction.

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I went to every person I could possibly go to. I went to university for three years, and I signed up and my intentions and don't forget actions about my intentions, famous Hadith.

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I went there to find the purpose of life.

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So I didn't care whether they give me a piece of paper. As long as I found out what I was doing in these planets. I wouldn't care whether I even got a third class degree.

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I wouldn't care

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for 11 years. Then I arrived at the University. I'm cutting my journey short.

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But I'm not killing myself. Because I have the deen of Islam.

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I have a purpose. I have a motive I

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have a reason dedra de France, French.

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So Pamela, there I am. I'm at the University.

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I'm reading books by Gandhi, you know, Gandhi.

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Gandhi, Ji by

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Gandhi by

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very good band.

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Very, very good.

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The only thing I didn't like about Gandhi actually was his loincloth. It wasn't cool, you know, the loincloth. jedes.

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But the rest of it, I kind of liked him, you know, because he was fighting the Brits. And I loved anyone was fighting the Brits.

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He had, you know, intelligence.

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And what he thought is what he did. So I read a lot about Gandhi.

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I was reading about Tolstoy,

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Dostoevsky, all of these different famous writers, Russian authors.

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I was reading Rene Descartes and many, many other philosophers.

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When I left school, by the way, I hadn't read one book.

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In fact, I had the accolade of being the only person in my class who had never read a book.

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And I had some other people

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that were

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that were had the accolade of reading all the books in the class, you see, so I was the one no books, they had all the books. As what I was like,

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I was failing myself. Probably.

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I was failing myself probably

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wasn't I

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was I mean, of course, the first words of the coroner. Extra, extra Bisbee. Arabic, Allah, Allah read in the name of your Lord who created you. So I should have read but they were reading john and Paul, Peter and Jane.

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And books that didn't give you knowledge just taught you how to read. So you can become a consumer so you can buy and sell and then you die. What for nothing.

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Is that the purpose of life? I said to myself, no way. And then my friend, not No way. Yes way. I said to my friends, they would take me out to the pub. You know what the pub is? Who's been to a pub here? Don't put your hands up. Okay, you can be there. Yeah.

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You left your ex Muslim Of course.

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And of course, you can put your hands up.

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Or if you're a person who wasn't a Muslim.

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They used to take me to the pub every weekend for eight years. I was with this one guy called Brian.

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And he used to take me there and we used to say look, let's find love

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with it find some love in this world because the world didn't

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Have any love. I remember my mother and my father, right? In the years that I spent with them. 15 years I spent with my mother, I never got helped by my mother or my father.

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You see, my father, at the age when I was one, four years of age, the last thing I said to my father was, You better leave because my mother doesn't like you.

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And he left.

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That was it.

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Life was like that. And life is like that, for a majority of the people out there. Don't be fooled. Just because you see the smile, don't judge the book by the cover. Don't make that mistake, just because they're smiling. I don't mean to say they're happy. Actually, when someone smiles a lot of the time is because they're nervous.

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Many people have got no reason to smile. If you're existing, and you're not living, and you have no purpose, and you're on a journey, and you don't even know where you're going. You're not smiling.

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majority of the people like that, right?

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So I'm out in the pubs every weekend, and we're trying to find some beautiful girls and we can't find them.

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And you find one beautiful girl and the next one, she goes and then the next one comes in she goes and the next one, like a conveyor belt. Oh, I'm bored of this now. Is this what life is really all about? Come on. Let's see something different. Now. Our This is painful. Get me out of here. I'm a Muslim. And no one ever told me.

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Eight years like that?

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For eight solid years,

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in and out.

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And I noticed something about these people.

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They got the same problems. They're all smiling. And then they start to tell you all about the problems they've got.

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I'm depressed.

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I kind of

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Oh, no, you're worse than me. Get out of here. I'm coming to these people so I can find the purpose of life so I can get to know myself. And they're telling me now we got bigger problems in you, my friend Get out of here.

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For years and years, it was like this.

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I got to the point. When I used to meet people in the street they say Oh, hi.

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You know you get that. Hi, what did they say? No way. Hey, hey.

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You know, slight nervous. Hi. Hi. Hi.

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Rohit, you

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used to meet the people in the street. And someone used to tell me, I don't like you. Why should I even say hi to you? What is high mean? anyway? has to analyze every single thing I used to say and hear. Hi, Sharon. Man, why am I your brother or something? Do I know you?

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That's what they say in the street now. Do I know you though? in London? Yeah, you do. I mean, does I know you like bruv

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Why are you doing Why are you in my face for Bob? Hi. I was just saying hi. Actually.

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Seriously.

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You know where? Where does? Where does good buy come from?

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Where does the term good buy?

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Where does it come from? Does anyone know?

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Good. Bye. God's bless.

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God bless became by yo.

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hate you too. That's what he's become like now. I was listening to my son on the phone the other day. You know now It ain't cool to say hi anymore.

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Yo,

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sharp. Why are you calling me for

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like now? Seriously, it might not like it is not like that in Norway. In England is like that the youth

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Yeah. What? Yo

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is that conversation?

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Is that really a conversation? Or is that just you dissing the guy? You just this the guy that was his best friend he told me is my ears my bredrin you know i mean bredrin we bedroom. We don't need to talk. We blunt we cut the knife knife, join the blood, blood, we know each other. We don't need to talk anymore.

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So to surface this

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so I used to analyze every conversation I got to the point where I say saying people say you're mad. You need to go to a doctor. In fact

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My best friend for eight years, he sat me down on a one Friday night before we were due to go out and make the same mistake we've been making for the last eight years. Going out down the pub.

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I got to the point where I was drinking juice, orange juice, and they were all getting completely miserably drunk. And I was drinking orange juice watching them.

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These guys are not real, are they?

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Oh my god.

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What am I doing in this place?

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He was killing me. Do you know how painful it was?

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Do you know how bad it was for you?

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You go home, you know you. The crowd is gone.

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You see the crowd is gone. They've all gone home. So the little boxes in the streets, watching another box in the corner of the room.

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brainwashed brain dead.

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What did you say? I don't know. It's good, though in it. Who made the movie? Who cares? Just watch it and shut up. That's what he's like.

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I was sitting, I go home after one of these nights. And for one day, it took me one day to recover. One day just to recover from the agony of being with people I didn't know who didn't know me who didn't want to know me. And I didn't want to know them. But we were forcing ourselves. Let's love each other.

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Where's the sense in that?

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Where's the sense in that? Do you go out on a journey? Without knowing the purpose? Do you hell? No one in this world goes out on a journey before they find out the purpose of the journey. Am I right? Right.

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I'm in the university.

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I'm in the university. Now. I'm thinking great. Top 5% of the world's statistics prove top 5% of the world's population of the world. Where do they go university? Yeah, man, I'm gonna find the answers. I'm gonna find me some real people. Yeah, I'm gonna become a real person. I'm going to real know what I'm doing in this worlds. I walk in first day in the campus, a whole bunch of Hellenistic 18 year olds running and charging around looking for the same thing as I was

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the purpose.

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I say, I'm not going to find the purpose here. So I start to find the mature students, I find some mature students, I find this person I find that person and they give me some books. They give me some literature and someone they bring me they say come to this group is a Buddhist group. It's in Brighton.

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So I go to the Buddhist group, and I start to learn Buddhist meditation. And after three months, I plucked up the courage and I asked the Aamir of the center. I say Amir sub

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bicep.

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KLA? Tico

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Tico Tico.

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Can I just ask you a question? What is the purpose of life? Who is God? Why am I in this planet? Please tell me. He says to me stirring his herbal tea. So remedy you see herbal tea.

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And he says to me, the purpose of life is to contemplate the Supreme, the Supreme nothingness.

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What did you say something that I heard you say like you said you contradicted yourself? Did you just say the supreme is nothing and nothing is supreme?

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said yeah, that's what I said. I said, I just wasted three months of my life. Thank you Goodbye. And I left.

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Her went another day. I knocked on the door of a church.

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And I was knocking on the door and the guy opens the door with a dog collar you I don't know why they call it dog collar. That's offensive.

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I mean, Christians could complain about them saying there's a dog dog collar, you know, very unfair. Anyway, I knock on the door and he says to me, what can I do for you? I said, I just need to know the purpose of life. Can you help me what was God? He said, Come back Monday.

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What did he did? I just hear you, right? I just want to know who is God? Who am I? What's my purpose?

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So he says to me, come back Monday. I'll go back Monday. See, maybe this guy is going to tell me something. And I'm crying inside. I'm crying.

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I'm crying. I'm waiting for the answer. So he says to me, Look,

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if you want to know the purpose of life, you need to do a theology degree. Does anyone know what theology degree is? It lasts for four years. So this guy's made me wait from three days. And now he's making me wait four years to get the answer. You understand? That's, that's problematic. So he says to me for years, I said, Look, I looked into theology, I looked into doing the course at the Trinity College, Dublin, I turned it down. So I'm not I'm up for that. I'm not gonna do it.

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He said, Well, then, you know, really, I'm really sorry, but I cannot help you.

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I see. Pete, you're a priest. You wearing this dog collar, you're wearing the robes, and you got a big judge across. He said, Look, let me tell you the truth. He said, You know, I come in the morning, I open the door. I let the people in, they worship if they want, I let them out. In the night, I closed the door. I said, that's my job.

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That's my job.

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That's your job. And you don't know about God and it's your job.

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That's a fraud. That's fraudulence

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I went out there is like, Mike Tyson had smacked me in the jaw in his prime.

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What? I live in a Christian country, I go to a big church is built on the same specifications of Noah's Ark. And the guy says, I cannot help you, my friends.

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So I left and I went home, and I got drunk,

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drank and supposed to smoke, so I could forget the answer. So I could forget myself. I was again locked up in the dark room, chained to the chair, not knowing where to turn, where to look where to go. And then I start to read some books about astronomy.

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I'm reading books about astronomy, and I'm looking up at the stars the night sky. Does anyone who in the room looks up at the night sky loads, put your hands up if you do

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mostly sisters, right?

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sisters or stargazers?

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See, if you look up at the night sky, if you get the opportunity in Oslo, can you see the night sky? Can you in London, you can't see the night sky at all. The more you live in big human settlements in dwellings where human beings are millions, the less you can see of the cosmos telling isn't it? You see. So there I am. I'm living in Brighton, in Lewis Lewis, close to Brighton, Lewis, small village type place. Probably a very big town compared to Oslo. But anyway. And then I'm looking at the night sky. And reading these books on astronomy, I start to realize the astronomical ones. That's what they call astronomy, right? astronomical, very big distances, the nearest star of a cinterion, four

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light years away, light traveling at the speed of light for four years can never you can never get there. You can't get to the nearest star. You no one in this planet can get to the nearest star, not even the greatest scientist in the world can get to the nearest star not even if they tried

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the nearest star. And then I'm reading about stars and millions of light years away. And that's in this universe. And that's not compared to the universe is beyond that. And the universe is beyond that. And the universe is beyond that. And the universe is beyond that.

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I'm looking up and I'm crying every night I'm crying. I'm saying Oh, whoever created that. Tell me the truth. Let me know. Oh, let me escape from this darkness.

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Darkness, darkness upon darkness.

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Ignorance upon a grunts

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every night getting worse and worse. And desperate now. I've done everything I've done veganism. You know, veganism. You can't even eat or take the products of the animals. I've tried that one.

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I tried veganism and vegetarianism. I've tried every ism and schism Believe me. Nothing ever worked.

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And then one day

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I'm in the university. And this is like you know, condensing 11 years into Time's up. Time's up. What's that time's up

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11 years into 30 minutes.

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And then out of the blue,

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just just when I am thinking seriously contemplating what they call hairy carry, contemplating the ends, thinking about the end of the journey, because there's no purpose for the journey, so you may as well end it yourself.

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And these parts of the world we know have the biggest statistical analysis of people that make suicide right? in these parts of the world, Norway, Sweden, Scandinavian countries,

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then Benelux, Benelux and then European America, and then the Muslim world, you it's right down the bottom of the scale telling isn't it? Because when you have a purpose, you have a drive, you have ambition. You have a man to follow, you have a book of instruction, you see a difference. And you guys take it for granted and you don't share it. This is the real problem. So I'm there. I'm in the university campus, and I've done all of this stuff. And this girl who I got to know she says to me,

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look, sorry to say this, Tim, but you can't come to my house tomorrow.

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I say Well, what do you mean? What do you mean you I can't come? Is this the way people who love each other they treat each other? This is the first time I found the person who loves inverted commas. He loves you. What does that mean? anyway? I love you for the sake of your money.

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I love you because your face is so beautiful and cute.

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Who do you really love? And why? That's what we should have been asking her anyway. She She says to me, you can't come to my house tomorrow. I said, Why? She said it's my religion. I said Why? Why is your religion telling you to throw people out? You'd love she said to me, Well, don't cut my religion.

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I was I'm gonna get mean.

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I said, Well,

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you know what? Either your religion is wrong.

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Or you are wrong. simple stuff. two options you or your religion. So she says to me

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get out.

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Now really gone and done it.

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I go in the morning, Islamic Society.

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Knock on the door in the university. Hi, I've got a problem with a girlfriend.

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Go girlfriend.

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You will have a problem if you don't get rid of her.

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I'm telling you.

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No, no, you didn't get me. I've got a problem with it. I've come out for some support in a very difficult time. I've got a problem with this girl. Please help me.

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She had no good for you. You get rid of her. She get rid of you.

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What are you for real? She's just told me to leave and now you're telling me to leave her? What is this? What sort of a religion is this? He said, read this please.

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I take the books away. I read

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for two weeks. I'm reading Sierra called history of Islam. Everything how to make guzzle, how to make widow how to get divorced, how to get married, how to do this and God arakata every single thing you can imagine that a Muslim needs to know. In fact, I read more than most Muslims read in their entire life in that two weeks. I guarantee you. So Hannah law, reading and reading. And I went back to her. I knocked on the door. And I said to her Hey, x. She was my ex by that time.

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I said to her, my dear.

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I really have to apologize. You.

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Your religion

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is great. You are the problem.

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Why didn't you tell me that we should have been married?

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Why didn't you tell me? You led me down and your religions. Good man. I wish I could be a Muslim.

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Ah.

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Now what did she tell me?

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She was angry with me.

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She was like crying. She was saying you're ruining my life. You're messing me around

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and telling her Islam is good. And she's telling me You've messed me up. She doesn't understand the dour

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and understand Islam.

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There I am, for two weeks, another two weeks, I'm struggling, and I'm really wanting to try to get to know her. And I really am doing it now, even though for years and years, I've been studying the purpose of life and trying to escape from that dark room, and I'm almost there, I'm thinking, wow. And then she tells me, you know, this is not for you.

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It ain't for you this religion and then at the end of it

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one day, I started to fast for Allah.

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What was that month,

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the month Shahada Ramadan,

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the month of

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the month of blessing, the month of eternity, the month of the eternal challenge to mankind, the month of the quarter and the month of the quarter and the quarter and that is never been changed by human hand that is memorized by millions, some kids the age of five, the month when the Mohammed sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, he got the way he he got revelation, and then month when that quarter and was revealed, and mankind had been announced to be saved, to have their perfected way of life given to them presented to them in a book over 23 years that caught on on that month. Allah subhanho wa Taala sent me to that girl and the girl sent me away. And I went to the Islamic Society that gave

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me the books. And I understood why for 26 years I've been living in a black room, a dark room with a blindfold on with no purpose with no game plan, with no rules with no book of instruction. Allah subhanho wa Taala guiding me like this by a person who I found love from Allah subhanho wa Taala from something that you love, He will guide you to something which is better for you than any of that.

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Islam.

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No brothers and sisters,

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is for everyone.

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It is not a requirement of you to be a Muslim, that you should have a white hat and have a brown face.

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I am testimony to that. So is this brother over here? So the brother over there, and the two sisters who accepted Islam and all of these harmony? I want you to do me a favor today.

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I'm not going to expose you because it's well it's a good exposure, right? Who is a revert? Who is it? Put your hands up? Okay, now Stand up. Stand up if you revert. Okay. Did you do that? Stand up, stand up my brother. Please. you revert. You really believe it? Okay, how many 1234567 Any others? All of you stand up I just want you to show yourself to these Muslim brothers who have been here all of these years and who have neglected you.

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They've neglected you and your brothers and sisters who are outside.

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Okay, you can sit down.

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You see, Islam is for Norway.

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Islam has to be for Norway because there is nothing else left. Nothing else left after Islam after Islam there's nothing else to go beyond nothing before and nothing after.

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socialism has failed the world capitalism failed. The world's globalization failed the world's all of it failed. The world's

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European economic system is in meltdown.

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America owes trillions and trillions of dollars and therefore it has to go to Iraq and steal the oil. True right.

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Everyone knows that don't have to be Muslim to know that.

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The world is in economic meltdown because they use Riba interest doubled and multiplied upon multiplication. And it destroys the wealth of the individual of the country of the world of kulu. Al Ameen. The whole of mankind is suffering because of it, because we don't have Islam.

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our economic system finished

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our social service system in England right now for three years. They've been taking money the rich has been taking its money back. The banks are making more money in the economy today than they have for the light collected over last 30 years in the most dreadful recessionary times in Britain and America, who is the biggest gainers, the banks, right

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has to be something seriously evil. Right?

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The world needs Islam for 1000 years, Islam ruled over the worlds

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with Islamic law

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with goodness and higher on Baraka, and people in Spain, they were able to live the Jews and myths. The Jews admits many of the historians, the top Jewish historians admits that under the Islamic banner, Islam gave the ability to the Jews to have that golden age under Islamic rule.

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And we say that we will they they are afraid of us.

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What they went through in the 30s in the 40s the Jews is what the Muslims are now going through as well.

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We being chased and demonized and publicly slaughtered and told that we are not people that are required

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and we have to make a serious change.

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We have to make a serious change. Allah subhanho wa Taala. He calls us he says quantum hydro Metin okra Jocelyn us You're the best. Omar the best nation raised up as an example for all of the nations because what you command the good and you forbid the evil if you don't command the good forbid the evil What are you? You're cannon fodder.

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You will be gotten rid of Allah does not need you today. We want to start to make the change and hamdu Lillah wa Salatu was Salam ala rasulillah Kareem