Tazkiyah Retreat 2019 – #03

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a little coffee. In the cafe we'll have a shopping summary with only one of the 10 melissani of cocconi. Allah teaches you it's not us. It's not me my planning my talk. My ability are smart. You know what we all say? I'm talking about myself. It's a pea who decide who he wants to bring, who he doesn't want to bring who he wants to teach who he doesn't want to teach my job what we learned yesterday

what we learned for two hours yesterday

be exactly my goal. from morning to evening as I living my normal my usual days to be the advocate for law to be the servant of Allah I mean if you say slave, this is Pamela maybe Allah knows why there is more than one word in English to translate because if you say slave what comes to my mind I submit to Him

when we fight I translate to servant what comes to my mind. Work for

seats, two things. Remember, yesterday, I told you three things. I hope you remember. So we said three things in a bad remember, yesterday? What did we say?

Haha, love and submission. So when I am an obedient, I'm talking about us. I am too tired to do what pleases a law for yourself. We always bring it as an example. It's a struggle issue sorta for most of us, specially woman. After you finish everything you really cannot. Nothing left in you. And you just need one to go to sleep. Remember you are which parts of agda Translation

submit exactly what you're asleep. Say I'm asleep. Right? I want to submit to His work, even if I cannot. When do I use the word servant.

When he wants me to do something I'm not talking about only that he wants me to do something. And I don't want to do it because I don't like it. Or I want to do the other thing which I like. Then remember your assorted why love comes in. This is very interesting. I was thinking yesterday alone. Why love is part of a moving part of being.

When you love something, what do you do?

If you like it, if you love someone, exactly. If you love someone, whether it's a human beings, a spouse, as a child is someone, you do things even if you don't like them,

right? I'll give you an example. Others in this room, and for the youth for the mother when your son is out of town. And you pick up the phone says Mom, I'm coming. You're tired. You probably called you at 9pm says Mom, I'm coming tomorrow, I probably will have only a few hours, I'll be there for breakfast. Right? You jump out of your bed, and you start cooking things he likes not what you like, even if it is hard or difficult, true or false. Because Islam and for the youth if I want and I love to be in this best college, I am going to study all these topics that I hate with passion.

But I'm going to do it because I love I love to be in that school. Did you see my point? So let's from the beginning put one of the things we're going to take out without this chart that I am I want to be

the servant of Allah with the three things I'm going to submit it's easy said hard to apply, but at least I want this is what I want. I want to submit. I want to serve and I want to love. If you start with love first The next tool becomes

spontaneous you don't have to worry about this. The problem is we say we love Allah. When Allah forgive us what a claim is this. Especially when Allah put us to the test. So remember this, my goal is to love Allah subhana wa tada what we want to do today, in whatever what time will give us inshallah, we're going to talk about a couple of principles in test care before I come and talk about the heart. And then throughout the day, maybe the afternoon we get talking about what are the diseases of the heart.

And then each one of you don't have to tell anybody. You're going to come to the conclusion. am I sick? Believe me, all of us the answer is yes. No manakamana

everyone then I'm going to say which one is my sickness? I have allergies, I have sinus I feel as diabetes, high blood pressure, you're going to put and then we're going to talk about what do I do about them? Because I cannot change unless I know I'm sick. This is the first thing I tell my patients when I see them in the office. If especially if they have like difficult things, that's fine, but they told me come and see you. This is very difficult patient to treat.

Because they don't see what everyone else has seen. versus somebody says everyone telling me I'm okay but I know there's something wrong with me. This is the best patient

so this is how I'm going to go to walk in as I am living not yet. Going there. I'm going to say don't be ashamed. I know I am sick. I know I am not where I want to be or you want me to be helpful. And again reminder of yesterday the best act of worship you do to Allah is asked for his help a bother to discharge Tiana they call it this is an act of worship on your turn. Tomas as you're

changing your map, put a blessing in my life. Help my children, make them good human beings. Let make them good Muslims, all these. This is a bad little esteana. So the first thing I want to say after I say Bismillah Alhamdulillah wa Salatu was Salam O Allah Surya. Something that all of us I want you to write this word down. You're going to be very surprised when I'm going to tell you

the word called and if lots sincerity.

Just write it down because it's something we all know. Oh, yeah, I know. And let's talk about first question, I'll ask everybody. And hamdulillah you all are here. Michelle, what about a kilometer and you want to get close to Allah? Are we sincere with Allah?

I think this is both beautiful answers, not as he wants me to be or even I want to be and I think this is even fairer. Sometimes I am. And sometimes I'm not. Which one is more

depends on the person depends on

depends on me, my heart, my inner depends on my surroundings, and where I am. Single with easily when you're again, I always give these two examples because it's very practical. in Ramadan, or you are in Makkah and Umrah or Hajj, you want to floss is definitely better than if you're alone in the halaman praying, right? Do you pray the same way you pray at all? But I know nobody knows you. You told your family go I'm going to be in the Herald we meet for dinner. So you're alone in the house of Allah and you're doing it off and on? Are you the same person when you're in the house alone and praying? So the surroundings absolutely affect and this is very practical. Key Point interest here

is my surroundings. So yes, I am a merciless, add to it to certain extent, and depends on the circumstances. So what is the floss?

What is it? If not, you know, you said we are not so what is it? What's the perfect one? Somebody stands up and says, sister Hey, I am a lossless and I said and hamdulillah tell me how and you're going to tell him what he was telling me.

I'm sorry.

Yeah, sincerity and obedience. That's translation.

Tell me things you would do because this is we need practical tests. So I am almost

everybody gets up in the morning and play some people go to the masjid Actually, that's not necessarily they are Muslims. And nobody knows. By the way, Allah only knows if you are a Muslim or not or iron. But what's the sign of Islam? What How do I know for sure? Well lie. You're on luck. You know, this is what I say. Well, why you know I did it for your sake. And you're talking to Allah holy.

When you are, number one, not looking for any reward from any human being

at all, now, this does not accept any percentage. It has to be zero. You are not doing it for praise for money, for love of other people, or for love of others, to get better station in dystonia.

And most important, and this is the site to me, when it doesn't matter. If people praise you, or people attack you, nothing change inside you, you continue to do what you are doing.

Let's say one more time. And think of your whole thing, force tone, don't think of your anybody yet.

Think of your home, when it doesn't matter. If people around you, friends, family, praise you, or attack you, and this praise, you put you down, it doesn't nothing changes inside you, you keep doing it, and you keep saying you're doing it for you.

That's effortless.

Like when you convert to Islam, in the beginning, before you start seeing the difficulties of it, may Allah make it easy for everyone. And will I say this to my beautiful Eagle sisters believing the difficulties we go through of what is happening in the news, sometimes, because we have a lot of Eagle

it's a big ones. And sometimes our families are harder than the non Muslims. Some of you may know this. But in general, in January, this is what that scholars teachers who underlined the sour month for with the mind, one praising and not praising even worse, when they put you down. It's exactly the same, nothing changes.

Easy,

very difficult. That's why they say as loss, one of the hardest thing on the human need. And this is one of the scholars says because the knifes has no shear in it, you will get nothing from it. We love to be praised. We love to see the result of our work. It's natural. So imagine, imagine, I study for eight hours. And then I go and I did excellent in front of my teacher. And then he gives me zero, or she gives me zero.

And nothing changes because I've turned to online as your life studied for you. And next time I'm going to study the same as what happens next time you're not doing how many times you prepared something for family, for extended family, for the community. Right, especially for the community, and you get nothing but attacks.

Right? We all are smiling, anyone involved in a community work? You know what I'm talking about? How many of us continue to do it?

What do you say natural? You know what? They don't deserve it?

Why do I want to do that? What am I getting out of it? Then I am not.

And I'm not doing it for Allah so hard. I'm doing it for people. And if they praise me, I keep doing it and do even better.

So it's very difficult thing to do. That's why you have to keep reminding yourself, you have to keep reminding yourself to ask Allah to keep his former. Because you reach points when you say I'm done.

You say this with your family. Right? You keep looking for them simple, right? They can keep complaining about the food you put on the table. I don't like pasta for chicken. And then you say you know what, forget it going out the normal kitchen is closed,

then you didn't do it for a while.

Because I know this is one of the beauty that makes you love a lot unconditionally. I know he will reward

anyone has a doubt. I know he will reward me. People may may not sometimes they do sometimes they don't. But I know a walk constantly, always. As long as I have to do something, the thing I'm doing is a tool requirement. Some of you may notice, remember yesterday two things

as long as I am doing has to these two conditions, absolutely absolutely accepted and rewarded. regardless what people think. What is the these two conditions, two things. two things. Number one, only the word only you have typed it in capital letter. Put it in right? vague, only for Allah only for Allah and number two goes with the sooner or it does not goes against the sooner.

You have these two things, you're on your deed what you did, or said that is accepted and rewarded. And this is not my words.

So it doesn't matter. People loved it. People liked it. People placed you on Twitter. They put all the pictures they they thought you had

In dislike and finger down, it doesn't matter.

So Panama the social media these days, test, our efflux

test this is what I think one of the keys to stay away from last day or to stay was to stay away from social media. Because we get weaker all i got only five likes.

Oh my God really unfollowers has to come it has to penetrate. You know what I'm saying? It has to make me really happy. So if loss and it is the condition to active acceptance of a deed is an ethos and one of the beautiful saying, one of the righteous people says, All human beings are losers, lunacy.

All people will perish, and they are losers, except those who have knowledge.

wait some time yet?

All those who have knowledge are losers, except those who

exactly allow me to those who practice what they learned. not yet done. All those who practice

are losers except those who are worthless.

And most of the homeless are on the verge. Sometimes yes, sometimes.

All human beings are losers except those who learn and all those who learned are losers, meaning what they learned will be useless unless they practice and all what they preach those who practice is going to be used unless they are sincere. And those who are sincere. They are on the verge they are on the energy because this can change

and loss or loss Potala citizen sorting by one or more different

one now. Mia hilarya Abdullah

Allahu de Wanda Dino akima very simple all the all children memorize it one of the Four Swords we memorize I'm sure everybody right? Albion will not only will they have not been ordered but to do it or not. Yeah Buddha like we talked about it last night worship a lot. Okay, why did you put a synonym D worship Allah with sincerity wasn't enough. Why

did you think of it wasn't enough Omar. Abdullah just to obey Allah, Mussina with

sincere sincerity. There's many Hadees about this cup one of them which I really liked it man came to Swati sort of surfaces from the side. And he said the honest one

of us is a Jew. from Allah

to Allah so Allah What about a man went out for Jihad for the sake of Allah for two reasons. One to be rewarded. And the second one, so people will praise you.

What's wrong with them? Wait for jihad, not to work in their stomach foundation or work in school when for jihad, meaning come back or doesn't come back? So he said, What does he do things he said want to do for fighting but he wants a job and also people who praise Him raise his children after what was the answer?

Yeah.

Nothing?

No, nothing. Yeah. Three times the man asking the question for

another man What? Because you know, sometimes when you hear something so astonishing and say maybe I didn't hear it, well, maybe maybe I was confused, fired.

And then we'll saw this AutoSum every time we say nakshi Allah and then he put the statement and he said in Aloha. So now jacoba luminol amor de la can Holly Sangha. Julio.

Allah does not accept any deed, the deed unless it is only purely for him. This is

you know how you understand this very well. Woman especially

when you when someone you love, and they tell you I love you.

And then you find out they love someone else.

How do you feel

betrayed and hurt.

And you see, it's not true. What kind of love is this sharing? I won't accept sharing in my feelings.

Don't we say that?

Now Jacobo will allow me. So this is one of the things I am going to start learning. Most of us does it but we don't think of it this way. And most of us, as you said, it's sometimes 1515 3070 or 2080, I am going to work on making it only for Allah.

As you say, this statement gets ready, you will be tested on the spot.

on the spot, you will be tested. And something new is gonna come and say, You just said it's only for a while.

You just said it's only for a while. And then you hear someone say something bad about.

You said you just did it for a while. Who cares? Whatever they think.

So number one in this process of fescue, in this process to go to Allah, any act i am doing for a while, and remember yesterday what we said. We said a bad act of worship is not only the five when you pray fast towards a cow, go to hide your shadow. Everything This is an act of Agata

This is an act of rebellion.

You are quiet. Why?

Because we are learning something to get close to Allah. Is there any disobedience in it? There's a lot of loves looking at us and seeing us doing this at hamdulillah. However,

each one of us myself number one, y'all know I'm doing it for you only. They praise me. They said to me, they think I'm the best speaker they think I'm the worst speaker. It doesn't matter. If all of them showed up. Nobody showed up one person registered 1000 people registered. It doesn't show. It doesn't make any difference. Same thing for you. Each one of you came in here to learn for a month. Everything was disorganized. They put through somebody I don't like and the food was not good. What is this raining, I have to walk all these.

This is one by one takeaway from the class for the claim you did when you put your foot in the plane or you put your foot in that car

testis and actually you respond this little bit surprising I love it when a lot this to me in this concept why

exactly is I will be exposed not necessarily in front of people. I will know. I've come in when I say you just said it's

so obvious loss, any act you do, as long as it is halal. And we're going to come to this data very soon, how I change my daily actions to an act of anything you do as long as it's pleasing to Allah is not against us.

This can be an act of I gotta make it for was pantalla you will be surprised what my scale how heavy the scale will be? how heavy the scale would be.

b. So this is his loss. And the only way and I love this a statement of how and why and I don't know who said it. The human being or the service of a loss will not win the battle against shape except by floss.

Now you're too humble sort of diminished a funny level of philosophy as a soldier, that servant of Allah will not win this constant battle that we feel a lot of the time and we win sometimes, unless I am sincere.

I am sincerely sharing with you this beautiful swan is going to sit on Saturday.

So who started

so how hobby when I say every

one of them people promised to give genuine giving. Right? So Saturday was when the Roswell salt was entered.

Of course he was with him. And then when they conquered Lanka and moved back, they were about to leave to Medina. Saudi Arabia was sick. He actually died after this sickness. So he looked at the last one is autosar and he said the following. He said,

yo slow loss at 101. I was happy. I am not going to be going with you on the companion. Can you imagine this? Can you imagine your knee and imagine I just feel it. Like this is here we are with the Roswell Santa Santa. And everybody going back to St. Louis and you and me and me state. How we would feel.

Oh guy Exactly. He said

101 I was fighting because they have a market in Medina. I'm not going to go with you Jordan. You

Imagine you'll get the answer. This is why it is in this chapter, Pilar roswaal is also in excellent 200.

You're not going to be left behind, you'll get the word

to make you feel better, you're not going to be left behind.

However, if you are going to be left behind, but you are going to do any act, cemetery be on your wall, only for the sake of a wall is it to be higher,

or

if you're going to stay behind, however, when you are staying behind, you're going to act or do anything he said a common any act, he didn't specify. But with a three condition. Job itself he was only for

only four or more. That's actually there's only one condition only for a lot. This what will happen is that the

more good will come your way meaning you're not with me or Swati Santos, you're not with your companions, but they're still here somewhere else. That's a good news for you and me. There is good news for you and me You can chop it up which Allah only is that the more good is gonna come your way. Why donnager and your station will be elevated. What if you will be exalted, you will be honored. What do we want to?

This teaches me, it doesn't matter who's around me.

It doesn't matter if sometimes Allah subhanaw taala doesn't put me around over Swati santosa or the Sahaba the Lai cough. That's what he told you. It doesn't matter.

It's just be sincere. ask Allah to teach you to show you to help you. Teach me, show me Help me, teach us show us help us to do it for you.

And one of the beautiful thing it says one of the reasons as I said a floss is difficult because I have no gain out of it. Either personally, or collectively or my family or Indonesia. I get nothing out of it.

That's why how many silly or sadhaka to see any action you do it in secrecy winded, let alone you give charity secrecy in secrecy. It's better

because the loss is easier.

Especially in secrecy and wasa gets in, in the Quran. And what did he say? Introduce Allah RT for your ma y to her or to 200 for Allah.

We've kept the one who would say if you give charity in public, that's good.

However, if you do it in secrecy, and you give it in there to the needy, you hide it, hide it or show it, it's even better.

Let's try it is one of my teachers there was she always used to give us this Shiva. This advice she said each one of you in this panel I'm sharing with you what I was taught. Each one of you. Make sure you have a one good deed in secrecy with Allah. We have to look a habia to mama.

One good deed. You don't know nobody needs to know about and don't belittle or say this is better whatever. One good deed with a law in secrecy.

You will never know that they have judgment that's what's going to come in with this for each one of you. Anything that is easy for you available possible. Something that no one knows about. You're not going to get the reward of it Indonesia

Have you at all now Maria could like a hug here now. And one of the signs

that sometimes a wash or was that we think we are mufflers and we are not a mufflers. Something happens and this is a very beautiful stories paralyse. It's written in said in many places. There is a man for 20 years chose zero flying solo in the first row of them as

for throne

21 day he came late one day and he prayed in the second row.

What is wrong with them? And hamdulillah we got to them and

then inside him. The thoughts came in all what would people say about you today?

You and the second?

Immediately he said serpin on

all these years I was pretty

In the first row, so people will see me in the first row.

So when sometimes you think you are homeless or I am worthless and something happens to expose me, I say Alhamdulillah Allah exposed me. So that's good news. Why? Because I'm going to change otherwise I will be living in my own dreams mausolus unless pantalla said there you have it in your handout, and aluna Shaka Eonni should have you thought, I am the most the most unneeded of any partner with me.

I do not need any partner with me this is more

of a national accounting issue from a national Kirby whosoever associated anything with me.

Anything with me, director who wishes I left

with it.

Now don't think of the word shoot that you are I worship something with a wasp that I'm talking about my knee, my floss. So I go to the masjid to praise or people will say she Mashallah she's a good girl. She's a good woman. I am so generous for my to my guests when they come so people will praise me.

And if they don't praise me, I get very upset.

initial condition does not mean this partner she does not accept it at all, in every deed in every action, Train yourself on this and that is why one of the ways of getting theory is your rabada ion is better than Yoda evaton in public.

You need to start working on your act of worship. Let's think all of

your Salah work on it. Whether it is the obligately Sanyo or the nafeesa or any of the sooner that you do alone nobody knows what the house is sleeping and you sneak down in the living room nobody is there anymore praying work that this setup is better than the Salah you do it in the masjid when you came and the Salah is not here to honor all the sisters are sitting and you're the one praying and everybody's looking at you and you feel it

your act and your deeds in secrecy shouldn't be work on it to be better than yours in public. That's the first rule to go for floss.

number one number two

don't wait for the praise

don't wait for the praise forget the praise or the thank you

but more importantly Don't get upset when they don't do it.

Don't get upset when they don't do it I'm not teaching you to be a muscles This is how I look at it

unless teaching me and holding

on why still teaching me the hard way unfortunately because it's painful it's painful when you do things for people and then they do not appreciate that alone if they not only not appreciate but they attack you or they put you down What did you do it's nothing I don't like the food What is this? was teaching you to be Muslim? So look at it positively. Again everything you learn you do your will in your life is from Allah and why Allah for Allah that's how

everything comes from a law and work on it. That's what made this person say this a lot me this person does not not to praise me allow me this person to praise me a lot. What is he teaching? Why did you let it happen you're

this dialogue with almost Pantheon and that's why you need the Holy One a few minutes a time I own with a lot to sit down and let him make you look inside. And if lost the first people who the hell fire will be ignited with who are the

first one

person is happy

now

along with a new an IOU that person wants as your lawyer memorized it for you. And he said no. you memorize it so people will say you're half

tongue so so it's a scary people memorize the Quran. You know, how hard is it to memorize

I will say how not easy. I have to keep seeing remind myself who I am that he gave me his words, and nothing. It was not for him, I would not have done it.

And when people ask you that I have a lot more with me I have a lot to me. There's a lot of people much better than me. But for some reason he did not give it to them. Yeah, maybe he gives a much more better audit. And the second one

what each person

or each person will see because they show off, they give money to charity. And then they give money to charity. So people will say they are generous. second, third,

originally quoted and he said,

a person skilled for the sake of a walk, and a walk we bring him and says, So what did you do? He said your wife fought for you and I died and I said on bosses. Nope, we did not fight for me. We'll fight. So people will say you are

courageous.

To last class, that's why almost all the books that you study, whether it's in test here even in Maumee, Ohio they put this as the first chapter and if lost on me, because everything else follows I need from the beginning you know like when you want to cook and the first thing you say you know what I need to get the kitchen clean the counter clean before I start. Now we all say this because I don't want any contamination. Especially if you're doing something like this or that's like I don't want on your smell and therefore I let me clean the kitchen or the counter when I'm working.

I was exhausted. This is how it is for system. And I am taking the rune the path to get close to almost pantalla I need to be sincere, worthless for a lot only when you when do you get it when you don't see people anymore what we said it last night. Some of you came to me and said this is this is overwhelming.

When I don't see people anymore, a white lady that I see you I love you are fine. If you praise me him, Let them praise me. If I am at this stage and I will if I still get upset if you said something or he didn't say something that I am not there.

And if loss

one of the scholars also said

to be sincere an act is harder than than to do the act itself.

To be sincere in the act is harder than the act itself. Imagine that you want to give

$1,000

right now maybe some of us

Let's give another example you want to do give me give me something difficult to do.

A deed that's difficult to

wake up every morning at 4am in the morning doing 200 for two hours.

Every morning, it's as easy only difficult right now unless pantalla get us there.

They tell you to do this two hours of sign up for Allah only much harder than the two hours of sauna.

lease will aman assured domina Marine officer to do the act sincerely with full sincerity is harder than doing the deed itself. That's one of the things a full bail who's a very pious man he said not doing something because of people not doing something because of people is ostentation, not doing something because of people is ostentation, meaning I am not gonna fast Monday

because my co workers will think I am extreme

or my family or my friends. So I get into a good deed because of people that show up that's a yeah ostentation want to please people you don't want to please people

what well Am I don't mean any nasty *. And you do things for people is sure.

So I first Monday, because Monday we go to that I'm just getting seen every Monday we go to this class in the masjid or Monday, I meet a lot of my friends and then usually that you bring food and I'm going to say I am fasting

that's your

animal.

So don't do things because

Have people and do not not do something? Because if people

do it, so what makes me do something? And what makes me not do something? Let's make it simple? What? Why do I want to do this thing? The answer is

for Allah and to pleasing Allah, why shouldn't I do something?

Is not pleasing to Allah. I'm not gonna do it, period people I use this term always people is nothing the equation.

People is not in the equation.

How do I know the people is affecting my life? When I keep saying what will they say about me?

What do they think of me?

Then I am not a lossless yet. I floss.

And last, to make it even harder for you

is levels.

So let's say we are 100 in kindergarten, right? kindergarten? Class misurina. Number one.

So this is the basic. I don't see. I am doing something.

So I don't see I'm fasting one day. I don't see it. It's nothing. Really I don't see I'm doing something big holiday called the throttle it anomaly and I don't see it. What did I do? Just last Monday, nothing. This is the first system second.

And Hamas remember will only

allow the anila? You do not look which we said this, you do not look for any reward. You're not expecting anything? And of course not. I think this is the hardest one.

Especially when the act I am doing is with people. Sometimes we do this with a law.

Yes or no?

Have you heard somebody who says you don't want to look at me, the moment I stopped waiting for a job and getting closer to Allah see what happened to

you here now.

My friends left me, I started getting sick. I lost my job.

So what was I expecting when I did things for Allah to get richer, I didn't expect anything. That's a loss. So leave, stay away from expectation, expecting a return from someone. That's two, three.

You are not happy or pleased with what you are doing.

You're not happy or pleased with what you are doing.

Or you are not pleased with what we are doing. Give you an example. Every practical example will make it easier for you. How many of you here love baking?

Okay.

So you'll be cake. Or you bake cookies. Let's say cake. Right? So when we make cake, especially if you're going to put frosting, right? And you look at the cake. What is the possibility you will like what you want doing? You're gonna keep saying, I keep looking maybe looking at strawberry. I think if I put all the chocolate more here, then you'll look at it at the answers. And everybody comes to tell you Wow, it's beautiful. Yeah, it's okay.

Right? And then people look at you says you're perfectionist. You're type A

this is what I need to be with my work with a lot of highlighter.

That's very easy way of understanding it.

So instead of you faster, say Monday or Tuesday or Monday and Thursday, I'm not talking about obligations by the way.

Right? What do you even let's take obligation so you say 100 an hour. Blimey, I woke up on perfect, you're on time.

I the tool. And I'm really good today. So I say you're saying to yourself, I read two pages in the whole solid 100.

That's not that's that's dangerous. You should say to yourself, don't say to people, you want to two pages.

Need 450 pages and

you're able to do one thing. Can you do better

to yourself.

But don't say this to people. For people on the contrary, you say martial law, my luck if you're stronger. Because you don't know how people will take this they may it may put them even lower but for yourself to be a sincere Don't be pleased with what you are doing. Because it can be better. It can always be better. We always say say this to our children. You can do better.

I know I can do better. Sometimes we say this

dorsals I know I can do better, but I think I was very tired today. So I floss and floss sincerity alginate who is a legendary of spirituality he says and the floss is a secret between a servant of Allah and a law.

No Angel knows about it and they write it

and no shippon knows about it and spoil it. And there is no inclination that we turn it away.

Meaning and loss when I know I am a muscles, it's something between me and Allah only silver it's a secret secret between the land between the serpent and Anwar. No one knows no angels knew about it and they liked it. Only a lot knows.

Only Allah knows why you want doing it.

And when it is sincere and true show your bond cannot get on it.

It will not spoil it when it's true and sincere shavon has no way to it. And your or my inclination will not get into it. It's like something becomes solid. Solid hard like

this something may be those of us and hamdulillah while building a job for a while. Nothing new news, different but you have been doing it let's say for 10 years. For you a job now is

it's solid, you don't even think off you get one day you will be able to take it off. It takes time becomes solid. When I train my actions all to be worthless. It will get to that point where I don't need to remember what I'm putting on my hair.

I don't even have to people to remind me that you are on your own and of course I am. Naturally floss how long it took you in the job to get to this.

How long our yo how many failures? How many weaknesses? How many times you looked at them and says What did I do?

I don't think I'm ready. I think I look ugly. I think I'm not ready for this. How many times and how many times you are tobacco senior I've never really crossed take it off.

No luck have to. Honestly the struggle same thing I struggle with people who have struggled with so now but at one point now I am doing that.

When you struggle for it doesn't come free of charge as we save for the

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