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Bismillah al Rahman al Rahim Al hamdu lillah wa salatu salam ala Rasulillah. Early he was happy or my word or Baidu, said Mr. Lai obrigado

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these are the other brothers do that you're listening to. We have on my left hand side very appropriately, so we're gonna Zakariya Annika I look

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over my left my left hand menus

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and then we have to my right, Lana, che Luna Alcoy al McCree Salim pig likoma Erica scenario and our special guest in studio tonight none other than half of

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then we shall conquer Iran Hassan and become a ceramic Martin live ricotta

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I tell us your most embarrassing moment

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your most embarrassing moment

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I need to break the ice plan that I'm not I'm not ready for that moment but I think that's what I'm going to talk about this is one of my

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one of the oddest moments in my life. So Annaleigh we looking forward to that we're looking forward to that. Just adjust your mic a bit I think it can come closer to you so you don't have to stretch your neck talk like that before we commence guys I think it's only appropriate that

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we do this do I find this no

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yes and um you see this you see

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before the time and all that when you come here and then it's like what happened to that other thing but we'll get the we'll get the one of the soundtracks that you Yeah, that's right.

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Before signing

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this is some phenom buddy Matt Adams

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in China shout out to him

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going guys

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going.

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I know moments.

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Not yet.

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It's not over till it's over. fat lady sings is

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a fat lady didn't see we didn't see it tonight.

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So while that's playing out, I'm gonna just explain the purpose for our gathering here tonight. Shallow Tyler.

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It's the last night of Ramadan. 1443 2022 and

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potentially the last night of Ramadan of our lives if Allah takes our souls in the coming year.

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And we all sit with the worry that we didn't do enough. We didn't. We didn't receive what we hope to achieve and we sit with but the very Greek you know, having wasted time and not taking advantage of the full potential of the month.

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And we sit to the worry and the concern about is the calm

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will make it inevitable.

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So as we depart with the month of Ramadan, slowly but surely, we decided to have this program tonight. Because we have a story about st karma to che is to karma and muda and

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sacrifice and Rama and Allah we thought we would want to share this my good friend of the sheikh Salim he contacted me and he said is this brother sitting next to him now tonight rather than we

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and he did something amazing so who's going to start us off with the story

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and when gonna let him start off with the story because he's gonna go straight to the juicy bits right so I was gonna start off with I think I think Zakaria knows him the longest Yeah, it started it started Zakaria was supposed to kill him Durban tonight

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and if mascarene full day at the mosque, we can always just land the green screen

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okay, you go ahead run. So it's normal Rahim o salat wa salam ala Karim Allah

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Assad actually my story to tell now we're gonna get you guys that do probably note and we will the longest

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not only the parents setting come from the same village in India so that makes sense like different what villages that tell us you never told us this before. Moreover,

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So that's kind of like in the in the inner circles that's like you know even if you're not related you still in each other's space all the times you kind of like family come from the same Gao use the lingo men use the lingo.

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If I can read goofy or you can use the GAO lingo that's Bahamas, I mean, nothing we are a longtime Al Hamdulillah one of the things that I am after that and we I do remember when we was actually bully

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Yoba bullies AusNet Medusa bully, so Mohammed use of Bully,

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bully

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B double O L EY. Right, who says bully? No, but you must say that right now, because they think was bullied and you use something else bully? But you can tell us about it? No, no.

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You really did. Rahima who was

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I was also actually actually the same time actually. Why don't you do something? I started thing full time

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in 2002 and USA until 2006. And I was the I was deported from 2004 I think 2003 2004 But you are the perfect time to offer support and to anyone wanting to support the full time to US industry. Okay, so I think 2000 through 2004 That's when I came the but I was important. Yes. But the difference was I used to go with the full time students on the weekends and public holidays and the early days and all of those things. So I knew all the full tempo is all the multi guys.

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He wasn't nine

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I just knew the man. I'm just joking. NASA very good guys. Mashallah. So then he was was the certain bureaus at the time, but then

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I remember I went to I was in high school at the time, actually. And when I got to grade 11, mid grade 11 Then we joined us and South Peninsula High School. So you're obviously completely safe.

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Before that, but I think you finished in when when

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you join grade 11. At Islamia.

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You went to Islamophobes for the first half of the year and then came to SP in the second half of the year. So you finished obviously in if that was

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let's say 456. You ended in 2006.

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Seven was when we were in grade 11. Yes. Correct.

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And and when it came to SP joined my class immediately, and I was gonna read it. You're gone.

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You were the weather wasn't good. Yeah, no, by the button, then go further. Just Oh.

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That wasn't even Ewelina. So you didn't see you with? It's enough. It's enough. I can mute you.

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So

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I'm gonna let me do an across and we're quite a close knit group of Muslim friends especially in the class. We fringed everyone hamdulillah Hubble's was with you guys.

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Smile FedEx when I started

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to smile. When I forgot to shatter two Bibles. It was given a shattered everyone's eyes McElhatton as I was I eat and as eat everyone and the goddess of factura and a biller Have you got married in a Betta mashallah was the Alamo is in Oklahoma is a lot

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doesn't actually hunger level quite close knit dressing added. I think that should have been the first time.

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So we were quite a close group of Muslim friends a Hamdulillah.

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But friends with everyone nonetheless.

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hamdulillah and I think, you know, going into high school after doing your health, then, you know, it's a it's a real struggle to maintain consistency. Yes.

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Especially if you don't have an environment of that. Is other people doing that with you? And

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and I think that might have been like the beginning of

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the corrosion. What'd you say?

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I think I think yes, I think I think then we can take now I was gonna say can you take us through what happened next? So so I'm gonna I'm gonna speed it up a little. So it was quite a lot of detail there. But yes, I would say that.

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They just let me just rewind a little bit. So in 2005 I think it was a last year Sheikh Yusuf booty at the school at his house, if I'm not mistaken. Yes. And most of the students then move to geometric era and in Sculptra, and

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I went also in, in 2006. It's easy to look around. This is just them. Just take you Thank you. Okay.

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He said John.

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Mia Toluca you can't say Jamia to Quran, Quran then it becomes Jeremiah to Kuru now they go on

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anyway so then I went to check you and I will say for for about a month or two Wasn't it too long? And I just I just I couldn't adapt to the environment something about the environment was just too so different to the house you know, being the

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chef you supposedly fit into being around the house the environment the people around you.

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I just nice man do something different for me compared to being a JQ JQ was

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it was good. It was good. But for me it was it felt a little too strict for me, like you know, personally, I couldn't handle it and

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to strip back and say,

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Yo, no, no, no, let's say structured. They say structured I think that's the better word. It was very structured. They had like they were very set in certain things and how things were done and it was all day thing. And

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you know, by the house it was a little bit more relaxed. It was nice you can become a Risa eight o'clock in the morning or seven, eight o'clock and 12 o'clock you're free. You have a long lunch before the afternoon students game you know,

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there's a lot of things you can pack in that I'm going to talk about that what but so often that dive into

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what's my daddy know, to help me find find it find another school so that time he was very close with Sheikh Hassan deli, the one that used to the shooting used to dump men

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I think he studied Medina. And that he was very close to him and so we asked him Okay, can I can I go can I go to him? Can I can I can finish off my Quran

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how many Jews did you finish by shift when you were the I finished 17 Okay, even I finished 17

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and that 17 is still in place and that 17 was was was was good hamdulillah and then went to show

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a lot of mercy on him and he was he was he was he was he was good they helped me out a lot Hamdulillah I did my my sub buying Suburgatory but I didn't I didn't do a lot of door and

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that time off just to just to enlighten the terms over the Subak and Subak door and door it's a system that the students would use your new lessons your immediate back lessons so your recent lessons and in your old back lessons so door would be the bulk of your work it's always the bigger portion and then your Subak door would be the recent lessons and your Saba could be the the daily new lessons that the student will learn anything

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so I let that time I'm gonna say I was doing my my gifts but mentally I wasn't I didn't know what I was doing. That is That is true. I I wanted to get back into school when I was in grade eight in SP and it was for me school was good you know I enjoyed school and

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do you mean that you didn't really understand the value of what it is that you're busy with at the times you went? Oh, you and all the rest of us we we didn't understand the value? Yes, I didn't understand value and for me it was like the only way I'm getting back to school is if I finished my Mac if that is what went through my mind. And that year I put my head down and I worked very hard for certain to squeeze it into the one year the other years. The first year I worked hard second year I took it easy third year easy but in the last year I was like I need to I need to if I don't finish this now I am not going to get back into school anytime soon. So you just wanted to finish

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that and I just wanted I look I think you know relatively speaking when he's talking about taking it easy but surely there is no easy with back listening. So you can be taking it easy in terms of how fast you learn your new lessons. Yes. Your back lessons or rock solid I mean I was just joking my brother were joking earlier because he was also the in that you know you might especially as part time students when we might have had like a choose for door quota for

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you know some back door and then maybe like even a page of a page for for new lesson.

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But

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before you go ahead read that choose to the teacher. Oh, it was in a listen to you. You probably read that juice like four times already. You read it yourself. Maybe twice you read it to your brother anyway they just to make sure you know what they knew read it while we're sitting there and read it again. So I mean, it was like when I think back then was when I think back then it's like you're you're actually at that thing a lot. And I can recall from my own experience that time, you could go blank

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and get on the beat

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I think you get stuck the new icon but

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you don't know where you're reading but you want to be able to still read on yes exciting reading sleeps yeah no that's true any reads so he sleeps

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we don't want to steal the thunder of your show by summarizing

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the video that

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no no Yeah no I noticed thing and you know part of that is you make them to add a that you know you work when you when you when it's time for you to decide but it's true it's still it's amazing actually I also I was also thinking about it

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if I think of the amount of dough that we do now by a chipmunk Daskal three I just we've been doing a shift motor shift modalities my mouse studies that humans do we share that definitely help each other to shake motor and he's watching he's been sharing machine learning the link to me asked me for the link for for some time now and yeah, he's excited. I'm Lila and he's been part of my journey and

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like, he doesn't know the guy this is the challenge to

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close for in this humbler? He was was he was the he was a little bit before me. Okay. So she was also students that she was really

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anybody watch a YouTube video last night but no one has occurred yet I can seem to you know, the sheer bullying of our generation in the speech like the new the new ship will is like the new ship really. But

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yeah, so So let me just get back to my story. David is like the new chef pulling if you see Mukhtar eyes

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the exact same thing that we call the panda cake.

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A panga cake, a cake. And

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then we put your work into place. But yes, when we were when he was a bully at school and if I also think about our little dog I used to read you know, even though I was 1314 I just at that time and some new work, you know and you put it together you know you have managers are you bringing at least another often maybe a quarter somewhere close to you to your to your Subak and you read you work and you and you get your the next day you bring in other ideas. And as you grow, it starts to increase but you know,

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get off off extra year or the year or something like that. And

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it's amazing actually Hamdulillah that time when you were when you were younger, and the brain was very much like a sponge. It's still the it seems like it's still the it just takes a little bit of work to get it to that level. And then okay, but let's get this let's get back to the i i mean to check your Sandali and I did my Subak mosaddek Torbay and are pushing hard that year to finish that.

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And when it came towards the end of the year, hamdulillah Ay, ay, ay basically loaded, my my my mind up was was was 13 extra edges. And

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I told you, it was the somebody's phone is making dinner or flight mode is probably the easiest.

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And you finished those 13 in the

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1300s

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on the ninth of December 2006, either weather down program, like go ahead, like I had last night and use a bully who was also the badass and it was really nice from the law. I remember. And that time I still remember even though I learned to work that force, I still remember the work was the work or some of the and share Sandali would you would tell me that domino.

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Now we're going to do your door, you're gonna do your door. And

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I just I was at a school for four years that time and I was really behind and I was feeling pressured to get back to school also at the same time. And also in my final year while also doing I was going I was going to uncle's at that time for tuition for maths and physics, to try to get me back into the system and things like that. So also thinking I'll be able to get back into school and work on my door. That is what that's what I'm thinking, you know, and not knowing that. I don't have the discipline, I don't have the understanding. I don't know what I gained, and I don't know how fast I can lose this, you know, and they always tell you and they remind you and it's the first

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thing and that is what is so much so different for me for yesterday's program. You know, I yesterday I cited my loss of Africa it was I had to do my work over to the point of where I was reading Subak two sides every day. It was that difficult. It was it was everything was was you know, it was gone. It was gone. I was $1. So I think you said you foreshortening a big step we're gonna I'm gonna go back I'm just giving you a sense don't know what you do. And what do you say you just finished he's in 2016 2016 so that time it was good to strong hamdulillah and

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and like and like I said when I

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And then after that I asked we went to Mr. Guy Erica, you know at Islam uses last year desliming I think before the Knicks are opening up articles something from from second and a year

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asked him you know, I needed to need to get get me in at school or something, you know, and he got me at school and they lie and moved up from moved up to grade 11 That's basically where we are, we've got and started gay living at Islamia. And while I was here this summer, just go to family law but at that time also thinking about my Quran and things like that. That time I don't remember putting in a lot of effort into my Quran. I remember the paddock having the baraka was all the time. From the time I finished, when I when as I was busy building up, but when I finished my Mac Matthew for the first time, this amount of Baraka, I could not explain it was just a loaded up. It was also

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I thought I was putting everything in front of me.

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It was amazing. Like we if you wanted to do something, it was the winner in domestic Annika, it was the last time at school, it was like the second last day of school. I could get I'm actually I'm in grade 11 Just like that without any applications without any going doing doing anything. You know, just you know, that's probably go smoker in No, but

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I understand but I mean, you know, there must be some Baraka somewhere. Yeah, and I'm just giving an example. That's not that's a new one, there's only one thing and also, I went to Uncle Zane earlier for met. But I only did one month of physics in December, only one month of physics. And next year I went when I went to go live and I took math in physics as my subjects, you know, now to them, I did engineering and with one month hamdulillah the baraka and the amount of the way I was able to absorb and learn in taking things. It was amazing. So, throughout that time, I could feel I could feel I didn't I just felt the queerness was me, but I wasn't I wasn't doing revision, I wasn't doing like

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everything else was just working out all the time, all the time. Everything fell in place when when I moved over to SB and as in as strictly school is now the structure is everything is put into place. So to move over and, and for especially for I remember Mr. Isaacs use like a Mr. Bagels, I remember I remember them saying that

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Mr. Isaacs was was you know, I didn't I don't know if I was one of the first students that just got thrown back into school and skipped few grades and not try that try try to make its way without failing, you know, without without trying to without trying to drop the school's standard or something, you know, at the same time, that's it and we're always in a in a class as well as SP which was like the top performing class.

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So let's say was in your Crossman? Yes, I was in you could just see using macros with a cloth right we know that's what you

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carry on.

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We understand why you see it you understand why you see you in a glass

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break not for the same reasons. I was in a class in grade eight and grade nine and then after that in handy

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now I

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have the like I carry through through some of the subjects were easy, you know like biology. I didn't know the what everything was but easy to pull in at

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this time. So you're doing really well at school but you were being negligent of the Quran. Yes, I was reciting at all. I was only reciting maybe only we're coming towards. Or Madonna was excited. That's the time when you feel it. You know you feel now many other fans can relate to your story Subhanallah

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No, don't lie, sir. Okay, so So look, I don't want to skip the juicy parts but essentially what took place because of your negligence of the Quran. You are forgetting you're forgetting okay hold that thought all that thought. Although we we also had a number of programs in Ramadan

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some of which have already sort of you know seen seen its fruition one of the programs is is not yet done it's in fact it's now taking place the the cooking program and cooking for the the less fortunate for the devil read or Utah Munna tama, Allahu Akbar, we hope in sha Allah to be from among those who feed for the sake of Allah subhanaw taala somebody because it's something that they love to do. So I just want an update about the program before we carry on.

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Because many of our viewers have participated in contributing to Zakouma clean and all of you so I have my brother backstage is going to be joining us now.

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So when he got off with La

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sala de la Mola Nunez and who filed

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okay for Hailu combs.

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How's everyone? Oh, good. Oh, good. You're not supposed to look the idea.

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it because you didn't start cooking it but the another work that you have to do before the time also takes quite a bit of effort. Give us an update how for you guys did you manage to get everything what's the story

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okay firstly because of my tiredness I'll blame Milena Olympic for that you will understand why goes

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yeah they had a long program last night but our Hamlet was a nice program we still

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know you was you lead you lead inshallah to the future because Danny Scheifele mark

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you yeah now let's look at Al Hamdulillah. Who ladies.

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I'm not the sponsor of that program. I escaped after the after the juiciest part of the program, but it was still I'm sure a lot of juicy parts that happened after

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the hatom completion at Turanga Raj Masjid

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brother traffic and team was there as well. Hamlet was very full. This was super

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Jima.

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Okay, can you tell us more?

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Okay, so our family law we have managed to secure all our ingredients for our 160 pounds of food.

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But we are actually going to be cooking 61 pots of food

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handler the amount of people that have Baraka

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Milena, if I could, then I would most probably be sitting on 65 parts, the amount of people that are called me today just do and people beg and plead and cry over the phone. It's it's an unreal. If it's one area in Cape Town, one suburb, in that suburb is literally divided into 10 different parts. And we will be sending

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six parts of food to that suburb itself.

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And the others are crying because they're not getting.

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So it's extremely sad. But we can only do so much

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hamdulillah our community of Cape Town, if we really look back, it's two years that we've had COVID and there were programs happening but not to the extent as it is now. And Luca, Allah subhanaw taala has opened up the doors for us, we could firstly enjoy the month of Ramadan within the Masjid. There are with programs, so many Gorod programs etc.

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And people could go back to work and not work from home. People could actually earn more money within this month than what they did in the last two years.

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But people also need to sit back and think

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Oh Allah subhanaw taala opened up the doors for us. Now you got more money is supposed to give more as well. And I can tell you this watch community of Capetown Subhanallah I think we are one of the most generous people around the world.

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Not the richest, but the most generous, Mashallah. Absolutely, absolutely. And that's that little bits will lie. When we did the podcast first time around yourself Nafeez and i

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There were people that started depositing monies. And I will say this much to you. The next day, it was literally 50 grand 60 grand 100 grand 150 grand 50 grand and that's how it came in. And at the end of the day, I found my chicken supplier which is Fairfield meats, and then this was two weeks within Ramadan. And only the fourth day of advertising the fourth day.

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On that day I could phone fulfilled and book an order 700 kilos of chicken and had the money for it.

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How many people read into the feed on eat with the 61 party in my house?

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We are looking at feeding approximately seven six and a half 7000 People

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love Akbar Allah. Allah except, I mean I mean and and it doesn't end the people are still just

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phoning and wanting to be part of the program. So my appeal to the broader community of Cape Town first and foremost is we will be starting the program at 8pm at magical Manawa hopefully all in Studio will be joining us for the two hours and tag beards, your Linux anastomotic to me

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that millennials are Korea,

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Melinda Korea that is live

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online so you can't say no.

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And you say that you

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have just don't have to say yes. I

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mean, I mean, so yeah, we started.

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We're going to start at 8pm. With duck beard to us. Yes Milanese shot 8pm Insha Allah

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will will do a vote of thanks to everybody as well. We don't do this for name and fame. But we also have to allow people like yourself disruptive media, AJ, that is how you guys get on board by showcasing certain projects within Cape Town. So that is your Baraka. So it won't be online. I just want to get in here. We're gonna wrap up now shortly with yourself. Give us the last word, just a word of thanks to all of those who contributed from your side Bismillah Sure.

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The only words I can say is Shukran. Thanks, And Alhamdulillah to you, you and you. That's everyone.

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You cannot name people because we won't do justice. I don't know who donated what. But our handler this program is happening. And on behalf of myself and the budget committee of muscular maneuver, we thank each and every one sugar and guys we appreciate it and may Allah grant everyone in studio on all our llama specifically and I'll provide all the baroka in the lives

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and to each and every one shukran welcome salaam Rafa. Well the best inshallah we see tomorrow next.

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That was math. I have to start Yeah, that wasn't that was nothing besides the first set policies. In the minute I'ma come after the verse that you quoted in a minute or more commonly watch the law, we feed you in nama only, for no other reason, then for the countenance seeking the countenance seeking the pleasure of Allah subhanaw taala law no the domain come Jaza and what Ashura we desire no reward from you, we desire no things from you. And subhanAllah I can hear that in the voice of our beloved brother Shafiq. He doesn't want anything out of this of his facilitation of whatever it is yeah, he's mashallah mashallah, you know, these guys not just my brother, but these these individuals who

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who do these things when they're not only am I not hot fat, but there are people who have concerns with Dean and they want to contribute in whatever ways they can. So you must see them on the night before or you'd like when you busy preparing you well you don't really prepay because you that good I can say that you're that good. But when when when you're sleeping in it for aid and we sleeping and getting ready for the next day. These guys are spending the entire night like literally the entire night amidst fires that are incredibly hot

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and they doing so without getting a cent of rica recompense they're going to be sacrificing that each day because they died in the defeat they can't really they can't really function properly eyes bloodshot closed the smelling of smoke usually as to throw this close away because you know the fire so intense but we pray that with the sacrifice in that you know how much those blazes that Allah save them all from the fires of Jahannam and all of us I mean you're up okay now

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to be you know that to be continued? Let's let's let's continue. I just mean I just I just wanted something just maybe inshallah also autonomous, baraka and all that food and it will get to all the people it needs to get through. I mean, you will go wait for

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the green welcome. You have Melissa Korea on screen and have it done with the green welcome

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So, data so we resuming at Portway my Quran was starting to disappear

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I'm Adan gameplay say guy delivered when boss grade 12 and in grade 12 It was when Ramadan came it's time to it's time to open up your Quran for me it was like now opened up Macedonia and that stuff and open it up and start going and going through it and

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I can immediately feel like okay certain things are in place you know, but everything is not lost. Everything is not lost but I can feel that there's a few edges are now this dropping especially the the last few you know, and

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from the law. I still felt it was it was still the it was it was still the and the baraka was the paddock I was still there.

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At the end of in high school with in rhetoric identity if you remember we all had these, these

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these

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that's when you can get your

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luck

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Do you want to answer that you want them to assist the see she's got a question for Malina Anika I can go eat that so the question is inshallah okay so

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so when it came to

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pass one tell us putting baraka for me i

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I don't even remember Monica that we had this transit bursaries that came out Yes.

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And they were amazing bursaries you know, to pay for your engineering studies, yeah, pay everything cover you to stay at Campus pay for your food. It was amazing it was at that time it was it was really, it was really amazing. And there was a few of us that applied

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that applied for it. And it was for us to apply for it and Hamdulillah we got we got those bursaries and national, I finished, we finished metric and hamdulillah got decent marks. And I got into law by the way to see if we can get into study and Hamdulillah we got into university studying engineering. And

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for me, the baraka is totally I still feel I know, I know myself, that it's totally.

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And

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first year university comes and hamdulillah things are going well.

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I am struggling here in the air. But you know what some of the courses is a bit difficult. It's not that much memorizing. I was I was like it I was I was doing good on for four years, or five, six years. And for me, it was like, I was a bit tired of memorizing I was thinking now maybe my doctor must know you thinking and for me, it was always like the, the logic the thinking part, you know, so I started I've been doing medical engineering.

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And

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I was like, No, you can just cut me when you want to when you want to carry on. And that first year came of, of engineering studies. And

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you know, it was a campus, we had

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the capital city and the cafeteria was the and the GK that you might find that was the and you also know Ramadan is coming and you're working very hard. I remember the amount of time and effort I put into my engineering studies, it was just a lot I used to leave. I used to get up at six, seven o'clock we on the road, we get to campus, I only leave campus at five o'clock every day, I get home at six, I have a small Knapdale nine, set as my status till 1112. That was my routine for five years. It was extremely odd for me, but I worked at that status, but I put in an amount of effort. And if I look at that time, we did put time in for my Quran. That's that's what happened, you know,

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and I, when I think back to it, that's what that's what I think, you know, we it was it was not for me. And I was telling I was telling someone today like what's the answer? What's the answer? I look back and I know I

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I do think I would have done some things differently.

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If I was listening to Quran, just, you know, you're walking around campus, and you're working for distances. I wish I you know, put so in other words, are you saying for that five years when you did do engineering studies, you had no connection to your reading? I not know anymore? Not not? No, not my entire five years. That's what I wanted, I want to get there. So after my, after my first year, I knew where I was with my Quran. Then I realized click a this thing is going away. The Baraka is the product, I never stopped, I can never stop, but it's going away. And I can feel it's going away. And, and it's coming to a point where I'm panicking, you know, secretly I'm panicking. But my

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studies is keeping me this much focus on these things. But no one sees it no one understands what's going through what's going through my mind. But in my mind, I'm

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I'm not crying it. I'm not crying it but I'm getting the you know, and

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after my first year I looked I wanted to kind of do back get to get my code and his forces again, that was now my plan. And at the time, I realized I still didn't realize the tool that I had with me. But I realized that I'm losing something precious.

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And why I didn't realize it truly is because from that time until now, you know that I understand at least I understand a little of the Quran. It's true. I'm now trying to add that into me add it into my mind to my life to my family

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and so that time I didn't know but I knew I was losing something and I could feel it I when when especially in the month of Ramadan that that month that month hits you so hard so you you know when you when you go through that and you listen and I'm standing there and I'm and I can I know I know who this person is reciting you know, and I can hear the word okay? I lose track here in the as I'm listening to them but I can yet i can i can feel

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It's it's there. But the fact that I'm losing track this now, that is, n is a habit. I think also the fact that Luca, you're not actually leading leading

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the way it takes toll on you mentally because, you know, once at once it takes its toll in the sense that, you know,

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because you're not leading, you don't have that pressure that that drives you to learn now.

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And also, while you're standing the it's like the pacing almost,

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you know, am I the fourth reason Am I not theme is? No, I understand what you're saying. And, for me, I think I was, I was, I was, I was coming to a point where I'm getting embarrassed to even want to stand in front, you know,

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the amount of,

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you know, there's a certain amount of effort you have to put in to learn your work. So that you can stand in presented. And,

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you know, like, the top, the top golfers, you know, they, they make it look easy, you know? And

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when I asked them, like, if I asked my chef mokdad Does he do his work? He still believed his work, you know, they still flip the work, even though I can hear him beside any time of the day, and you can stop and continue stopping going. It's amazing. It's amazing. But that is that is what I say. And now for me, I have to I would have to learn a quarter. And the early learn it you know, almost to the point of maybe it's not Starbuck, Starbuck, Starbuck door, it's totally but I need to put time in in that in that schedule. You know, I'm coming home six from campus, and only six till six to nine now keep squeezing in intro. And, and I make

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make a trip to Africa at the end when I get back. And I must, I must do my homework, I must study for me it was it was odd. The engineering, it was odd. And it required me to put a lot of effort in where were you studying engineering to city to city. You know, what a lot of guys do now campus. And I started I think it was speaking up already when I was there. And I was actually at Campus our times campuses overlap as well. Then we used to sad for me though, because of the high school I went to

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I went to campus.

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But what guys do is when they have a free period in the day or something, then they go sit in the check and they read and then some of them actually, like partner up. And then they read to each other. Because I mean, if you don't have something I think campus you can that that is our free period, the meridian whatever, it's gonna be wasted. This this. The reality is that is a social Fe campus as well.

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That's true. That's true. Yes, you know, your free time.

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Depending on we or what you perceive us what assignments you have.

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You don't, I didn't use my free time, that productive to go to the, to the JK to go and sit in and eat or someone you know, but I knew I knew that the Quran was slipping. And I, we had this person meeting I'll never forget, we had this bursary meeting. And they basically gave us this, like a statement, you know, like, Okay, we've paid so much for our studies for the year and they gave us this amount of money. And they gave us he showed us the contracts and things and like, you know, if you leave it, then you have to pay this back at a certain amount of interest and things like that. And that time I was miscarried, you know, and I wanted to I wanted to leave it at that time and just

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get to market and because the faster I can get to market and quickly the faster I can recover, that's that was what's going through my mind you know, I knew now I lost something and and now I understand but from a mature perspective, technically this is this is now the most important thing now to me, and I need to try to get this thing back. And when I looked at it and I looked at from the bursary perspective and we owe them I owe them so much money if I leave and I was I was I couldn't I couldn't the numbers I couldn't comprehend because I mean for someone that's a student and making anything you put you in a panic, so I thought okay, what I'm gonna do is

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push for my studies as soon as my studies are done, I'm going to

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my intention is saying she was my size didn't get back to my Quran. That is and

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I made too often on that. I made I made a lot of two I am not going to lie to you. I made a lot of I picked up on Quran You know, I I started reading

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as much as I couldn't, I didn't have the opportunity to put a lot of things together but I just I tried to read as much as I can, you know,

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whether it was off I just had every day. I had a singer we I would read Monday to Friday and weekends I take off that I know that this is our how I used to do it. You know I used to make sure if I did my entire Friday then on Saturday Sunday I can take a break that but I used to make sure at least I'm

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Doing off I just hit enter. And that time I knew already ricochet police at night and we needed to eat three hours every day. That is, that is that is how you're gonna keep it strong. So I already I didn't do that to start now started to pick it up but only add to off

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and

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I could I knew it was I knew it was slipping away and I was at the point of where

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I don't I don't know what to do i I'm struggling and I'm making dua and auswide Allah is putting things in place for me, and I didn't know that today I can look back and I can see what he did for me.

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You know, and and I am so happy for that because you know, you decided to continue to iron out but if we're the inheritance of the Quran from Allah's mercy from Allah smell kita there's not enough stuff in my body and and that, you know, when I went through that i&i recently, and I was I was thinking that Matthew can't do that much

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about the masculine Yes. of elimination of biology.

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Whether it should

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be lazy, oh, hyena,

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Icarus

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Tajweed

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Mala G doula Toby ADINA, workI learn in Moto M middle of Bic iLoud off mat I'm Milan Baker in fell glow Hawker now highly Kirby or

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what whether in China, Allah subhanaw taala says certainly if we wanted, landed Havana Villa de o Hina Illich. To remove what we had revealed to Muhammad Sallallahu Sallam

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while he landed Havana we would have removed it. So Mala Ji Dolakha be here Elena la que la when you would have not found any agent to help you against us in rough meta Mirotic except the Mercy of your Lord in Nevada who Karnataka Kabira certainly Allah's Bounty upon you is great.

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Sure,

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Allah, for that.

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From the left is one that has been with me for a long time longer than I no longer I can feel anybody needs any motivation to know your creator, you say, I can come speak to me and I will I will explain to them all the mercies I've seen without a doubt Subhan Allah. And, and for me, for me, I had this bursary.

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And I took it took me five years to finish my my four year degree and he finished it. I finished it in five years. And after the first year, I wanted to try to get out of the of the of the of the contract in order to put into place. Because I knew they were I found a few people that were that were able to get out of this contract. I don't know if I can, if I should say how much it was at that time. If you're comfortable with that time, I owe them 500,000.

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That's that is that is for the return that was the amount, you know, what year was that? It was my first year in your fourth year. So now you're going to start to enable us to basically start working now I have to start off million of I don't call it didn't call it paying it off. And if you work within the company, you're seen you don't have to pay the person. Okay, yeah, that's where that title comes into place. So the agreement is, I work back for the amount of time that they paid for me. Okay, so hamdulillah meaning five years, you need to stay with the company drivers, I need to stay with the company. So at the same time.

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At the same time, it's it's a blessing, you know, and I didn't know that time, but I tried my best to

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get out of it so that I can get back to mokara because now in my mind, I'm seven years old already got I'm remember I panicked. And I've been now I know from my second year, third year and it's on my mind and even Ramadan is coming and it's like I am so it's coming to me and it's it's in my head. It's in my head. And

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and and it'll take taking that for me in my mind. I just couldn't I couldn't handle that eliminate. I couldn't handle it. And when it came to the time when I had to work, I didn't know what was happening. I still remember I was sleeping. It was it was really February. Didn't start January and my mom calls me and she says they're phoning you from Santa Ana. Us. Are you are you driving? Are you safe on the road? We expected you here at nine o'clock odd that's the phone call at number

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Okay, I'm laying in bed waiting to get the response.

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And I'm thinking, okay, seems like I have to have to get back there. And I have to I found the lady I thought okay, Luca, I say Bismillah when it comes through and hamdulillah there was some family friends in Saldana, and they made it easy for me. And I said, Okay, I'm gonna have to go work now because I couldn't get out of it, you know? And I don't I don't want to put that burden on anybody. You know, that's a lot of my I'm sure if I had to ask my father to make a plan for me or something, I'm sure you would have done something you know, you would have helped me out anyway. You can you know, you always try to come to the rescue with something you can do. But I didn't ask anybody and

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in my mind, I was like, Okay, I'm gonna go work and that time they put us in Saldana and Hamdulillah

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I was staying by by by Uncle Auntie the Intel Dinah

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ugly bryman Aunty fuzzy that was in the post also Mr. Grande I think she was just like my mommy in you know she was my mommy in Saldana and she an ugly but I'm he was you know II II fully love the Quran when I got the he loves the code and he loves everything about Islam. He had so many things you he was teaching me so many things about Islam there that opening up my world you know, for me it was I just heard you my lecture on Friday and I learned something in Module militia and I'm not debating any to anybody I'm not trying to gain anything extra after that talk, you know, to gain some knowledge now for me I just get to do my lecture checks in for a week and you carry on so now

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when I came to Saldana

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and I made until the prime and you know we he had all these tabs in the school and you know all different things now eventually read any length

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even at a you know, you even went through a Bible and you put all the tabs here and some of the you know he did a lot of things here and it's really it's really

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I don't know what's the word to use but I'm delighted he was able to do a thorough

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scholarly,

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scholarly that's the new DSM studious quizzes the Inquisitor is actually not a good word because it basically means but yeah, but you can be inquisitive and a good visual a child is inquisitive and inquiring mind is more appropriate if it's like for a good way but studious just

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gets used to it yes, it's important I think a lot of people must know that that's how we should be you should we should be curious about our DNA we should ask questions we should know him that was inspirational to us panel. It was and I think also at the same time being in

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being in South China

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I think also my brother knew how well in this area and and just elected me on a

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inquisitive doesn't mean that but I mean generally when people use it comes with that type of connotation anyway, I just want to put up this comment here quickly.

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Barbara, this is apologies. We will be feeding 12,000 people out of the 16

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channel and you

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know, okay, tickets what number did you say before six six, it's like double the amount I told you I just Baraka alone.

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Okay, let me take you back. So I think I was right I knew how my wife was spending that time

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and he put me in Saldana in a way in the sense of put me by someone that's close to the Quran and also put me in a way away from Cape Town so you know I'm not saying in a bad way but when Ramadan comes in Cape Town, the love for Ramadan you speak you feel it. You feel it every everything that I do everything it's pumping and it's amazing. But for me it made it even though it is a blessing it makes me sad because of my Quran. It was mad that was not not taking Ramadan as making me sad and that's just that could add that I so dearly. It's a reminder of this bittersweet things you've got going and I think also Angela put me the

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to make it easier for me if I think about it, that's the only I saw for us not so far from easy to get to Saldana and it wasn't the one yes I'm Lila

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when you can with all the things yeah I'm the lady was really nice. It was amazing. And

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yes and yeah you remember you remember the auntie the es en de la so they that is what I ate when I was in salt Anna and after being one year doing salt and I got married, um the following year to nebula and we stayed in the separate section by the house you know by

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This uncle on this house and his entire family, they, you know, they they are very team orientated you know, they that's how they are, you know, they because because of how they were brought up, and for me, it was amazing. And we were tied to the to the mosque, you know, I've got to be important and with the mosque, but it's, I think I think the place is called the back by about I think Well, number one was the level one was number one was shot at the mosque at the in the Holocaust, or one who Naina Catchings

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from the lemma one was serious Hamdulillah. And he stayed the on the premises as far as I remember. And

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so, you know, for that, we can think, you know, we drive up that out Juma. We go up the road. And when I was at work,

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that time when I started working in Santa Ana, they didn't even know they they had one, there was one or two Muslim people they didn't know or cater for halau didn't have anything for South Africa set solar facilities or anything, you know, it was so work didn't create any environment for me that was maybe beneficial for me in that sense. But the nice thing about work the it was,

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it was I don't know if I was I don't want to say anything wrong, but it was almost like you're on holiday man. It was it was it was relaxed. It was those traffic that just maybe have the drama of so dynamic, because it's like this little town. Yes. And they just need to work. It's not busy like Cape Town. Yes, I kind of get what you're saying. When you speak about the Ramadan vibes. You don't feel it as much, because firstly, there's not as many Muslims.

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This is not the same as the Is this Islam Muhammad Hassan is happening. But the same bus that you get here in Cape Town, you didn't get it overly. So if you wanted to get advice, you need to drive all the way up to the mosque, if you wanted to. If you're close to the mosque, you gated the you know, like the small little bars you do get it in. But

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from where we were staying at, that's what I'm talking about. No. And when you go to work, you just leave by 10 minutes or so before the time and you did eight o'clock in blocking. How long were you there for four years, for four years, I was there for four years. And like I said, after my first year, I got married second year, and I'd be like me there from the law. And

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from that time, she knew my,

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my, she knew about my Delima my Dyneema she knew. And she she actually told me she reminded me that you actually set with you. She told me today, see you every Saturday what I remember from that, but that time I said doesn't work. Same off I just every day at least. And then I started to put Starbuck together 28 I did 3029 28 By myself. But so it looks it was took a bit of time. But I started to put it together. You know, I made it up until 27. And I was just trying to work with what I had, you know, and just trying to get something going. And even from front to back. Now from now I'm talking about it was only four I just choose 27 Just kind of branching from the front, because

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you've seen 27 That can be held back for a long time.

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So remember the back four. And

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you know, as I was reading through that, I could feel it too slowly. But it was of course much weaker. But that time I knew now what I knew, and I just kept on making, Ramadan came and I kept on making dua, and my wife knew also exactly what the aim was what the plan was. And, you know, she was letting she was studying through UniSA

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a law degree. So I would ask her, like, you know, this is what the context is for this. This is what the context is for sabbatical. This is what the contracts, you know, trying to get out of the gun that I need to get out. And not in a bad way I didn't I wanted to. I it was it was a good place for me to work because the environment was in such a way that when I came home, I was at peace came home early. And I could relax a little bit and sit with my Quran. And I could spend time with my wife all in one day. It's amazing. Like, you know, if you think about how busy it is, yes, but the I was able to do that. Yeah, it's like it's like living in Gordon's way. It's like living. It's not even that

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far from Cape Town. But you don't have this and you still love the

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Dean better than this phone.

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public property if people if people come to visit you It must be serious. Because you know, the petrol money now, but the thing is, so now it's like phone damage. Yeah, I still respect your time. Even even that like people won't invite you necessarily because they know you to form and so they don't they don't bother you as much. So that is a good thing.

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It's a mode and I'm assuming you signed up for that. Yeah, know

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what you signed up for?

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I don't remember signing. We just say so. And I'm just a student anyway, so

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all students keep on learning. Now.

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And

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so So I was on a two year, two year engineering training program. And

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after the two years is supposed to move up a level, you know, and

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I, two years went by, and they never moved us, you know, they just kept us, they kept us the

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third year game, they still kept us the same spot. And now I am now looking for other reasons, like, no, these people are not promoting us. And, you know, this is what's happening, trying to try to do anything. Awesome. likea you can, of course, keep us here because of this, you know, and don't want to let us go, you know, because at that time, I knew a lot of people that not a lot, I knew quite a few people that they paid for in the studies, but they were able to go work other places get out of the bursary. You know, and I was, I was thinking to myself, like, that is what I wish I had, you know, and still not understanding Allah's mercy and what is what is putting in place for me. And

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also the fact like, I say, my wife like Hamdulillah, without a doubt, like, you know, if you went to no matter what the hospital, like, they've put you with me as a mercy because of the time that we together, right, and I will come to that, I'll come to that. And, and I was saying that

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three years, four years went by, and I asked him not to get I might do not qualify for sabbatical, you know, just, I just wanted one year of how I ended the idea of I wanted to get to micron as fast as I can. And

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that time I didn't have, I didn't have any any kids yet, you know, so to just meet the wife, and, um, the expenses were low expenses were low, which is a little bit of, you know, better money was, okay, it was just up the road and back.

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For for work, you know, there's no traffic, and there's just the two of us, and we were easy, hamdulillah I'm delighted we, all of those things, played a big role in, in our I, in my mind, I was putting money away,

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to pay off whatever I had on my person, I wanted to pay it off. This is how I was dedicated to getting hours I put all my mind and my effort into paying and getting every year worked out, you know. So the first year it was 500,000. The next year, when I looked at it, I owe them 640 or something, the interest, they still want you to pay back to the entitlements.

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You think using that you're working off one year, and you're gonna subtract one year that it's going to be now 400,000 But yeah, why the interest works.

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After your five years, you still sitting at only 400,000 Instead, I think I think if I'm not mistaken, that could be 300,000 In my last year, one year, I had to pay off, cost me 300,000 That

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that's that is zoom, beyond SubhanAllah. And so so so for me, it was it was

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it was very challenging at that time. And Hamdulillah I got the opportunity to I thought okay, now what I'm gonna do is I need to now there's no way I'm getting out of this, I'm going to have to work my 60s, the same when I studied, I couldn't get out of my studies couldn't get out of my work, how are we in from the one to the other, everything just kept on flowing, you know, and my two eyes always been there. And Ramadan, my two eyes made even stronger, you know, I kept on pumping it and asked me ultimate Allah to, you know, I would still make what I could Anahata for the man things like that, you know, and

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I wanted I wanted that, that

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I wanted, I went to school, like I was without a doubt and it just shows like hamdulillah putting your mind to do that, you know, also Allah allowed me to get close to it. And in my in my in my first year I also I got a position in Pretoria

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and family law went up to Pretoria that we bought a house and the cemetery helped me out a little bit to get get place with that. And I had a lot of money saved up but I wanted to pay them off. So I put that together and I was able to get the place. And if anybody wants to know this is the easiest way I can think of just some kind of give some business advice or financial advice and by all means, okay, so

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you you ever bond you you pay? It's not it's not maybe the best financial advice but this worked for me. I paid up my bond to such a point that I only owe them 1000 rent for 20 years.

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Example That's how much I would pay for example that would what that would be paying. Generally you pay if you ever Melinda and asked you to pay things as an implement. That's what they told you. Yeah. So you, you you squash you bond to such a point you don't buy it out. You just wanted to touch a point that the interest is, is weak. It becomes weak on what you have

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It was him. So Hamdulillah, I was able to put the money in the it's been it's, it's being held in place, but it's benefiting me, you know, because I'm only paying 1000 a day and to stay in a place that's close to work. So traveling is also okay with at least a low from the law. My wife is easy on the law, she still knows my, my target. She's with me all the time. She knows she seen me cry during Ramadan goes by that that time I was crying. When I was in South China, I remember I was crying that that is a time where

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Ramadan came in, and the tears would come, I couldn't hold back because I knew what I wanted. And you can see how long I've been trying to get out. I tried all that I looked at all the different things, you know, what a bike will do. And

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how many levels martela allowed me to go to Pretoria and build my engineering career. I still don't know yet how it's going to benefit me yet. But but I'm positive also my dial up, put it in such a way that it's going to me because I looked for a lot of posts were when I was trying to move and get out and change things, you know, try to get closer to Cape Town. So I could do something part time and I tried to do lots of things. And I looked at all the posts and the requirements and things like that. And I couldn't I couldn't even meet it, what what we were doing, what we were doing in Saldana didn't allow me to, to meet the work to get into character. And even if I had to get work in Cape

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Town, and they couldn't match my salary again, and that would make me put me into serious debt was paying back what I needed to pay back. As far as how they gave me they moved me to Pretoria he kept me there for two years. But he didn't only do that he allowed me to grow in my field into a point of where I feel like I've like I got some qualifications that will benefit me now Inshallah, if I need to try to get work if I want to go prime and move on to do things. And for me, the fear Inge, I got to be orange, I started with some of my GCC studies, I got a lot of other certificate, things that will help me both to do you know, to, to get some you know, and I mean, the PRN is one of the main

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things even for Cape Town poor job in Cape Town. Bucha is a senior level and it's a good thing to have in your in your pocket. You know, that's, that's one of the main things I look for. And

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so, so when I got the and

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I, I think often I got when I got to work there, I did. I my mind, I didn't tell them, I didn't tell them, but I knew what I wanted to do. And also, when I was there, it was almost like you're studying engineering even you're studying in any field. And maybe you do certain things only, you know, you do certain subjects only maybe math only with us only but you you had to learn a lot of things to get a degree.

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So a t sound with a but you're not maybe accessing it as you want to access it.

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And

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when I when I got to Pretoria

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the way the work the way they work environment was at asked me to open up all my textbooks on campus. And I started in the first hamdulillah they gave me what for four to five months the gaming work but they gave me a few months and I brushed up my entire degree in that four to five months in a while I was the I then I just kept on building and building on it to a point to a 100 This is not me this is not me bragging about anything. I just I met some people that

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were so proud of the type of work and the mindset that I was building you know, they

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I went to their to Chile to check me on certain things. But when I came out, they weren't asking me for my email address for my contact details. And in the same time, yes, I understand that. That work is possible future work and things like that, in my mind, I'm thinking but

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one target was one target, getting all sponsors Quraan

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five and a half years game, I contacted HR and I said look your HR, how much of this person is most left left, you know, and then they told me by this month, so you should be squeezed.

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So I was like okay, I'm almost six years now into my career.

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And it's coming to this point now we I can feel what I want to do. And I know what I want to do. And it's gotten to a point where I don't know if it's gonna fall into place. But also one that has mercy is the and I'm gonna explain I'll give you step by step mercy by mercy and point a point that is I felt it and it came to a point I'm okay Luca.

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She was a

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she was that time she was pregnant with baby number two. And now you are having children and a person who's worried about finances and you're worried about timing and you can't just move up and down and it's difficult for the wife to move up and down and just do things because you know you need to be there as as when you need to capital

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least defend things also, you know, they do a lot to us and we, we, we tried to do it even weekend our little part, you know? And I

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I know I came to a point where I was like, Okay,

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I'm going to now look for place. I'm going to look for place to my Quran. And the first school that came into my mind was surely because my cousin was at that time and they were doing really good hamdulillah they were, I didn't want to go back to to JQ I wanted to share it was the closest reminded me of Sheikh Yusuf Bulli. He was for me what I heard about high school was the quality of the students coming out for me is that is what what pulled me now I'm able to do that. And then

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I can't I'm not I'm not 100% Certain out there

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and

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you remember him from a chair? I remember I'm sure we were talking about it today actually. And I remember in in math when I was Porter who was actually a Boolean denier but

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even if you didn't know him you heard about him

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I was I was telling I was telling Showtime that when I used to come in part time and I delete my work if I if I really appreciate what I'm saying in that

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come in common comments idea you'd actually so so so shift with the system was the full time students

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are they to learn and read they work in the morning and then they assist you with the afternoon students that will come and only off the four of us for when she actually managed to come and go please that's when the full time students can now go home and go learn your work but

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mokdad shift motor or motor at the time was one of those that you would read the checks and go butcher by him because he was like this guy Billy shipment yeah he's ready to he's ready to screen you if you make some a few mistakes they know tell ship now you don't feel bad. But meantime you know you back listen. You used to get a few Steiger when you used to get a piece of paper with that what you reading on on the and as the not mistaken tax and told so told is when they like told you like that to tell you get it figured out.

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And, you know, you want the guy that's gonna just you know, just put the money and you know, enough to make them not check you again now, but not so much that they're gonna make you repeating the schedule.

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I didn't get those guys at night, Mashallah. They were doing that was like, teacher Speaker I blocked the blue eyed boy. Yeah. So so so part of that literally, that he was of what I know, she had Mokhtar

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amongst the students at the time. Probably spent the most time with Jeff because he came to me as a very, very young boy was probably five or six years old. And he started a clerical patchable shift by shift everything, are you better suited yes or no Quran? And then went through and check system was you first read, though, like almost all Quran, and then you start memorizing. So you went like through the entire moon from the beginning in time when I think she was probably first Quran teacher as well. She stuck with Jekyll right at the end. And even after completing shifts thing was you're going to school, but you're here in the afternoon. Go butcher. So yeah, one to choose whatever it

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was, and they would come in school clothes and he would have to go yes. He told me that.

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He told me today and I was amazing. Hamdulillah he told me he finished completing this he was when he was 11 years old. And in the holidays, he said it was the first time she gave us holidays and she asked his mommy to bring him to come sit there every day and finish his work. And handle it. I'm grateful now because of where I am. And I'm Lila I was wanted to put these things out in such a way. So

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when it came to I'm backtracked my last year now as working as my sixth year. My bursary is now finished still working.

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And

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my my mind yesterday, you know, you know, get to micron as fast as I can. And I planted in my mind, okay, can I take one year, two years, one year and I spend this amount of money per month so I'm gonna back away this amount of money you know, that's exactly our our structure that in my mind.

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And

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if we stay in Cape Town, I'm delighted stable, my parents, so Catherine that

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still contribute for groceries and by the rent and electricity and water, that's a big expense, you know, and, and just cutting that out, helps a lot. And then I will just have to pay my school fees, school fees for the kids and you know, whatever, whatever other small things that needed to be put

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before and

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I asked my daddy

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you know that I'm sure motor school was I think was was really the opposite why the battery swap mosque and my parents have a pharmacy opposite Yeah. And I think I asked him to go all chicken with Daddy No no for if I can get his number so that I can contact him and find out if I can get a place to you know,

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I did not I can't recall exactly how I ended up calling him first or what happened but I remember calling him in October and he told me why I think it was July and he told me that you are number six in line for Moscow.

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And

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I'm now I'm a little bit concerned because I mean, I don't want to be number six, I want

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to know what's happening because there's so many things I'm outside of the world, you're number six on the waiting list. I'm number six on the waiting list is

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already full school is full. For next year, it was already full. So I was number six on the waiting list. And shipment that keeps who is close more, you can tell that he controls the students that amount.

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So that you can track what's happening. And that all those things I spoke to him I remember we spoke and all the things that he said just made me think, you know, this is the type of environment I need, you know, I need someone that didn't minds me of, of used to bully. I need someone that was that I know, knows this Quran that didn't know is strict with his date with that. I know he's gonna, you know, it's gonna put in effort for me, you know? And so what he said is, he told me that and like I said, That was number six in that.

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Now the Mercy comes, October comes I found I found you. I say what their ways my position now? I don't know. I want to know, you know, and you can't give me a proper answer. I think he told me I was way too late to the month and

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I think I found in the next day or the first of November or something and he's you know, there's a day and I'm and hamdulillah is the first thing is a spotlight for me. And I'm like okay, hamdulillah that's good.

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I tell the this estate agent you know, he was we stayed in this is

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what you call these complexes. Townhouses type of thing.

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And Pretoria in Pretoria? Yes. And it is a daily and you just walking around and I just get him outside when I came to work. And I asked him, I tell him, it's Friday. It's Friday afternoon. And I tell him I'm thinking of selling the house. You know, that time I was thinking maybe I can rent it out, you know, something like that they can do? I just told him I'm thinking of selling the house on the Friday

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Sunday morning, if it's me or the buyer for you, it's waiting. Just like that, and I am I didn't know what to do. It's like you know, I didn't know what I'm going to be dealing with. So first time selling our house it was the first time buying us is the first time selling out so for me it's new territory now everything is new territory. I don't know if we're gonna make a loss if we're going to make a profit if you're gonna lose out what's happening. And hamdulillah that's so quick. There's now the mercy coming and it's and it's flying. It is flying towards me.

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I had to I had to leave work i to put in my notice for my resignation. And

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I put it in in such a way that hamdulillah they had mercy on me I was I ended up being I was able to come home in Cape Town. My wife was due to give birth on the fourth of December somebody so everything is now picking on each other I need to be she's always just always giving birth in Cape Town. Same day likely. Yes. But a year later, and she's doing Cape Town.

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A doctor you think I've done everything you said okay. And so she needs to be so she she leaves a little bit before when she comes down. And hamdulillah the house is now being sold. The people I met the people that wanted to buy the house from the amazing people. They were they were good to me. They made it easy for me. No hassles nothing no issues Hamdulillah

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I put in my resignation for work and things I left from the laboratory Pretoria of December. I came home to Cape Town That was my last month of versus not December 2019 9019 Yes December 2019. Yes. And

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this is now finishing finishing. This is now 14 years 13 years 13 years now after after my Quran you know after but I mean I always wanted his mercy. Everything came so quickly and everything fell into place.

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Like like you know like dominoes in other ways. It fell into place so perfectly. I couldn't I couldn't understand it.

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couldn't understand. I mean, just and I don't know if you know, this is now also under his mercy This is now a sign that he's everything is now put in place ever position at school

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the house is being sold out. In essence, I was in Cape Town while some of the things were going through, I didn't have to worry about anything from the law, these things were all put in solid dated for you, the amount of money that was now saved, because of the house being sold was part of the amount of money that I would be using to to find my studies to find my time being at home. So for me,

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for me, I was fine.

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With that in place without me realizing not only that he put it in place so much so that it's covering me longer than I expected Subhanallah longer than I expected. And I didn't know how long it took me to but I told him what that one year two years max, that's what adult told him one year, two years. And that time we didn't do anything No. And

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and

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I came home from the law. I was in time wife gave birth work in that everything came to end and Bismillah next

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we started was Quran. And

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I'm from the last one that I thought was yummy, because I was a butcher cutter.

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I'm still there at school. And we started to start and I couldn't say some of my dad's mutators or some of my things will outdo them. I asked let them in but

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it's been a hit rock Marriott Rahim you there's Zillertal out to Zynga Allah. I couldn't say

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I kept on saying it wrong. I kept on saying I kept on my pronunciation of words out, you know? And, and

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he kept with me, I'm not going to let that slide. Oh, no. So So for me, I'm sitting there and he stops me, you know, and

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it keeps on stopping me. And for 234 months he kept on working on it any so much so bear with me now trying to come in. And I asked him using his mind he's like I'm gonna teach this guy's the one city is old that one is old. I'm gonna I'm gonna try to buy the hamdulillah also wanted to elaborate with a day for me in the first year. That first 15

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First of teenagers are pulled back immediately in the first 15 years that what I what I learned initially under really it was it was the you know, and then you relearned 15 years in Rania. Yes, is still a stone, not as far as as someone that is just doing door. You know, if that is something which I want to pick up with one month, they would maybe get all the

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news one month, I look at my my cousin example. You said a weekend, you know, and he goes through everything and he makes it good. He just puts his grand back in order, like even like, you know, once in a while he does this and it's amazing. I don't know I haven't as long as I can ask a question.

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You can also do

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Okay, now, but what it means is is not going to tell you Okay, no, okay. But I look at a look at I'll give my mouse example, you know, and how he said with his work, because I asked him and I told him that, No, we never see you set with your work. And, but he picks us up. And he's listening to us every day. And the way he listens to five at the same time, I remember she used to bully us to do the same thing. He will be sitting on his chair is two of us recycling is one sitting here on the side. And there's one sitting on that side. Yeah.

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If you don't know, your work, he's stopping you. And it was amazing. And I'm, and I'm seeing the same thing, you know, and

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just to just to just jump in, he also

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actually tried that. Also, we knew the students are sitting and eating. And I tried Okay, once or twice or more than once or twice, to listen actively, to all of those voices at the same time. But for me, personally, I couldn't, at best, you would know this one is reading the 30s Jews, that one's reading the 10th Jews, that one's reading the fourth Jews, for example. And then you are able to trick with each of them with a reading so you listening to this one. So I would find myself I'd be looking at this one's lips. And so I'm listening yours my eyes looking at you. And I'm listening with my ears over the to them and you're scanning the other ones. So every now and then just to

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check, you know, what's the vibe like because you can see if someone's reading, they know what they're doing. And if they're making a mistake and they sort of doubting so the idea of focus listening and being able to scan and immediately pinpoint and I think you know usually if you if you hear

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as my theory right if you hear Quran so much it's like if you ever blacked out on a web page so for somebody years Quran so much something doesn't sound right. I mean the rest we actively listen to at the moment they something's out of place now, which

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All of this by the way doesn't substitute at all for one's own dissertation that's also what we found that afterwards we thought like she was just a battery like that's super hard. But yeah to have been reading on his own in order to be able to keep that skill up which is the same thing I'm sure she explained to you in your raising money Monash I'm not even sure when they go pedal out, because how many how many repelling? Only I to go see because you bank for the waves

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yeah hamdulillah so, so yes.

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I I ended up going after the first year with a 15 so, so after the first year with a 15 No, it was

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the I know, I know. COVID is not an easy thing to talk about. But career wise for me. It kind of put made it a little bit easier for me career wise. So I didn't miss out working example. You know, things slow down. And it made it easy for me to focus on my Quran we didn't go out often. Things we did I didn't have to put in a lot of effort at all we just had to be at home things like that. We didn't have to make plans to go you go there you go do this. Do that to me. maspin Allah's plan in making bringing your only back, we notice COVID Let me bring you back. When it wasn't COVID You would have had to see to all this other stuff and whatever, whatever. But now the old stop for you.

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Maybe, maybe, maybe, yo, let's definitely you know, we know we go we'd give it a

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for me, for me it did. It felt it felt like it was a blessing. Yes. And I think that can testify to it because he could see how I was able to concentrate and focus. And throughout the time, can I just can I just stop you and tell you Look, I didn't know your whole story yet. But you your story is really inspirational Michelle

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I'm going to get the lay the rest even before he's getting to the rest I'm really hyped up about it and I'm feeling very inspired by it. So

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I'd like to maybe also come back to the advertisement from Olaf Nikita bollettino Safina I mean I buy dinner, those we have given as in as inheritance, those whom we are chosen of our slaves, that is over and above everything all of us parents, students, anybody involved neodymium moment, if Allah chose you for this, we you out of your own will stray in your natural take you away from something, but Allah, it's like that became part of your freetronics and that is, you know, the thought that was on your mind all those years that you were telling me about that you will say no. So it was like yo,

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Armenia student is the maybe that went through the system, but they don't have that same key and worry and concern me as just like, okay, you know, I did it. And it's gone now. And you know, that, that that's that

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that is only evidence of the fact that Allah didn't actually really choose that now, I think that that is your story is gonna it's gonna reach financial and gonna be a source of inspiration for me. I mean, that's my

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must keep me motivated to always learn also, I mean,

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that is the intention for this. For me, coming here also, at the same time, it's stopping for me that is that makes me sad in the sense but the happy now hamdulillah but you know, it's so far journey and it's on my mind, and inshallah I'm gonna keep it, keep it going.

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So, second year game, and second year was difficult for us in our family. COVID was a bit more hectic that time and

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we had a few geneticists in the family, it wasn't easy.

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So then we lost in the span of about a week. So uncle Milena the Imam of the masjid mosque in Victoria Redman share his wife and his grandmother and then your your grandfather's brothers will

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lay out

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and there's a lot in a short time it was difficult and at that same time I wasn't at at I was in classes and I was at home of course we were it was okay to be at home to do some revision to learn some sub markets okay, I was already in that process my mind was already there you know what I was doing what I was gonna be doing it

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so

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but it was time was limited my time

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gave me I think only eight months out of that year out of my second year in order for me to

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to get to use for

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for increasing my my Mac my door my Quran and even though I mean I use the entire talk mines I mean like this too.

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To add to my to my,

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that I just add to my mind to my heart and

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humbly learning this now this is my third year now.

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And

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I started off this year

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if I'm not mistaken I think I had about

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I'd about ages.

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And

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I saw that very well this year. And throughout this time he was telling me like I was wanted, I didn't make it easy for me in my in my journey. He didn't make it easy for me at all. It was like You asked for this. And my, my feeling was I asked for this and I'm going to ultimately give it to me, but I must be tested. That is I still feel like that now. And I'm still taking it like that and also analyze. And as long as I know and I feel that these tests me, I'm okay, I'm and I'm gonna do, I'm gonna go I'm gonna push Michelle, I was sick. I was I was sick quite often. We had COVID we had stopped at geneticists

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you know, the first time in COVID game we didn't know what was happening with Marissa was, you know, there was a lot of things that now that that stopped us, you know, and

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he made the split clauses happen. Some was coming on Monday and Wednesday only and all these different things that had to go into place and you had to put your work together. Up until now in this year hamdullah. When I started I

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I was able to in the first month I the way up bullying that I just was amazing. Second mouse game, I had insomnia and never ever experiencing so many people. So first I'm I have insomnia, and it hurt me and it hurt my progress, in the sense of it takes me an extra day to recover. And if I did something I couldn't sleep at night. And then next day when I come to my Theresa, I don't know my work. Even though I set the night before I just could maybe get two hours sleep or something and after be back. Gemma data's so lenient with me. Now you can come in at nine o'clock and I'll listen to you. It's fine. You know, the other boys are there but the US you put in so much effort in so

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much time in infamy, you know. And for me, it's just as wonderful put me at the right place at the right time. I think I'm scared to think we asked I would have gotten that type of treatment. You know, I am a softy. I can see JQ, I couldn't make steak, you know. And in my mind. Yes, people say you're a checklist. But I'm gonna share with you as nice as I can tell you what's nice with us. I didn't get didn't get didn't get a lot of shots. Even. We didn't get a lot. Sorry. No, me, Jason. Okay, now we must be jealous of you. You got all the shots. I just had to see the other ones get the shots. They told me.

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Yes. And.

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And

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so Hamdulillah I just want the look with me at the right place with the right side. It was able to have a solid with me. He was able to understand, I would say Shahrukh Khan coming to the issue. I feel like I haven't been I've been neglecting the family. I need to take them out. I need to, you know, and to spend time with the wife, I need to do this. I need to do that. Like in my in my second year. Check me off every Wednesday. So every Wednesday or Tuesday night, night date night.

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I don't know Saturday is Family Day. Brothers, Canada, it was listening, please don't think that you can go ask if you have

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different students and the wisdom of the teacher, of course dictates this. Knowing a grown man with the situation and so on would deal with the situation accordingly. If you've got a kid that's 10 years old, he doesn't get to go to Russia on every Wednesday because they have a special and

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he doesn't get it. Yeah. So we know these days. It was the the wisdom of the teacher was also after the Grace of Allah is the grace of that parent and the teacher that is involved, the guides and also the the Grace of Allah on the student, tell the teacher you know, I put my progress in your hands whatever you say out if I must do it, just instruct me know, and behind Allah, the combination of it all is a real manifestation of Allah's mercy.

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I give you example of that right now because that is something that I couldn't understand. I couldn't understand what you spoke about right now. I understood that he was, you know, he was there was some mercy and how you're explaining to me but there was some parts of it that I couldn't comprehend. I couldn't comprehend how this ad is used. I'd know you better than you know yourself. You know, I'm 32 years old. I know everything about me. And I know what I can do my limits where I'm gonna crash when I'm gonna you know, I that's that's my mind. Mind is telling me that then. So So February months, it was difficult, a short month. Every second day I was out. And every, every time

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I learned something new, I wasn't able to sleep. We didn't go in. We wouldn't go in and then

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Excel could sit at Manresa, tight trying to recite any work. And it won't come out. Chipotle is to say city La New sabak New video camera decided to me. Okay, Daniel the server, certainly learn the subject. When you're done giving me opportunity like that. How do you come to your teacher and you don't know your work, you know that. And that's not supposed to come in the morning knowing everything ready to go. So I wanted to be prepared. And

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I couldn't, I couldn't get it right in a month and I had patients for me the entire month it was mortalities we that entire month. i Oh, my month. I was only able to bring one

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and I didn't know that time is thinking shoutouts really excited about Ramadan. He's already excited about Ramadan and hamdulillah one of my colleagues Hamza, he finished that time he was on his way to completion and

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I was thinking okay

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I don't see it in my plans, you know, June is realistic for me. My birthday, I'll pay for my birthday someday. It'll be okay. Now June June, it'll be easy. And it will still be calm. I just keep on the same level. You know, you bring it to three I just adore and you know, and you and you get on and off you finish comfortably in in June. And having the letter out this entire time. Like

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my my wife and my parents helping me with the small ones, the little ones we're not entertaining them keeping them busy while I'm sitting was my work you know, I'm sitting I'm sitting in the study room I heard him cry, but I have to know my work the next day it's going through my mind so

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math didn't know so long.

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god, okay.

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Okay, I'm gonna debit up math.

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So So I am I am at the end I'm at the end and just want to say if you can to my parents my family also supported me in the sense of

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keeping my my children epi busy while I'm sitting with my work so Hello What are you Adams crying inside for me now that's all that's all it's all you know when your child is crying you need to be there is to have them if one is growing and one is fighting over the other one I was in the middle you just want to use sitting in the room by Chang I'm just questioning that want to change his nappy he doesn't want to do it and I just don't want to be learning I have to sit with this account move from account move. I have to and hamdulillah she she she she she just allowed me how many last year that was either tell you like also under put the right person for me and I told her this without a

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doubt

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i i do have that that was part of the mercy from the time already

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from that time already and I want to add to that you thanking but I would also like to thank your family, your wife your parents on behalf of the Ummah for granting you that that's that is the type of sacrifices that the families of older men make and people don't know that men because the Eileen the half is in the limelight doing the work but the people that made that possible they in the background they in the kitchen they looking after the kids they sitting up in the mornings and we can all of us we can relate to that already with them in abundance and grant them all the heat and Vitagraph every single house that you ever decide each anybody else I mean, you know you know these

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especially with malata yeah

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to understanding now adding in the mosquito by people read plans which was going holiday okay. If anything comes to handle the mid what what would you say to other guys like that are in your first year? Your first year your high school year, your

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year of seeing it slipping away men as if they right now what would you tell them? I think we must do it at different stages. What did you do to the guy? What did you say to the guy strictly now what should you do to the guy getting violent? What would you say to the guy who finds himself where you were when you just started school? Then what would you say to the guy who you know just finished school?

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What did you say to the guy that find himself where you were in your studies? You know finally me?

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So 100 I would say I would say that

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your your

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this is difficult the first the first person. I would say it's important for anybody who's Westland to quit and just to at least know what they got the odd

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that is

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fed that helps a lot with regards to motivation with regard to knowing what you want to keep, you know, so

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A amazing piece of true. And if you just know a little bit of what you memorize the entire book of Allahu Akbar at mazing. For me going through some of the translation, the amount of things that you learned, it's amazing. And

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so for the person that finished

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in so attach himself back, especially if he's in high school or something in history, attach himself back to his madressa. Yes to do His will start, yes, to put something in place with as you start to be spent in his to do that, from the start. If he can do it in high school, you can carry that with him.

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He was good Quran is strong. It doesn't even affect these mental strains for the day.

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You know, I'll give you an easy example. And I don't mean to brag, but not me. But this is this is Jeff matar, you know, us riding on his way to town, he told me that you're driving to town, and I'm thinking what that is, I'm gonna recite my, I need to go over some work, you should be thinking about it. I said, I'll come start the 70. Maybe, I don't know. 70. That's what went through his mind. And thinking that it's going to stimulate him, in the sense of fun, make me think sounds gonna keep me alert on the road. That is, that is his thought process by going over 70 now.

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And he said, I just read 17 and go to the half, and I was in town again. But I was so tired. And I think you know,

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you style, your style, and he wanted to decide 17 so that it can wake him up.

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But a good idea. So easy with him, it doesn't take much if it's too much effort. And if you can keep on building on it and get to that point where it doesn't take much effort.

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You can multitask with it. You can recite and pause and recite and pause and have a conversation on the side. If you can do it with ease, you can see I pulled is just like, a lot of joking. And the rest is saying what we can literally multitask with sleeping and eating.

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No words alone. That's amazing. I'm just saying and that's the shows where the mindset is, you know, and, and

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this is what I look up to. Yeah, I look up to this, and this is we, we this is my next target. Okay, so what did you say to the guy? At what point do and that was not to the to that was the first guy Yeah, that's the first guy right? He just finished his he's now he's going back into school, university, whatever. What do you say to the guy who, you know, he's used the system is Khurana but

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but he finds himself like at a critical juncture now like going from university to, to from high school to university. And he sees that, okay, I didn't give macarons hack for the past three years.

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I

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needs to that guy needs these two years opportunity maybe to get to his Quran. And he can maybe do something else also, you know, Arabic Do it, and pull the Quran. And just It's enough that little Arabic goal is enough to motivate him to push so hard with this Quran.

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Are you saying like, instead of jumping from school, straight to university, to maybe do like a gap year type thing? Yeah, it's something that can but alongside your Quran, yes. Yes, alongside is good.

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But that is the person that does as of course, like, you know, not so it's not been so long ago that he that he neglected that and that's why I specifically chose that point. Because I mean, you know, when you get back to it, like you recognize that you've neglected but it's not so long,

01:43:37--> 01:43:53

then it's easy to get among us, it's easy to get back, it's easier. Yeah. Then then then letting you know, slip more than one. And that is just what I would say to that person, the person that will be in my view, first second year of campus.

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It's it's to us to see ways good and easy now, and to be honest with himself, and to make Toba for what he's made mistakes with and also and Allah knows we are and we what we're doing and what's you know what? So you have to be honest, you have to be honest with yourself and that is what made me sad you know all the time I was honest with myself and you need to understand what AWS what Allah has given you and where you are. And then that only you will immediately try to make a plan okay 25 is solid five I need to work on realistic is easy, not too difficult. Something like that. Just give me example you know, I would definitely have if I could, if I had to go back that time I will

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definitely have time to do that. And maybe towards the end of your of your of your studies, maybe five or six like when I was when I was before I started to work. I will be similar to be some of that advice baby won't be five to 18 that's maybe week or something. But if you picked it up earlier on you can do something about it in such a way no matter what, what I want to change now and what I want to change for people as quants do things I see

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Is

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what you could add first, and then you work second, you know,

01:45:07--> 01:45:35

always try to put it forth, I'm going to change that is my first time, I will get back to you in a year or two and tell you wait, what it does. But I asked one person about it, and they gave me a positive remark like, you know, the subject matter if the easy one was the first person I just told him to do acid, just on my mind, you know, if I get work, if I go and apply and put myself into work next year, will be worried about my Quran. You know, I want it to be

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the with me first. So I know the news is idealistic, but let's say

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work allows me to sit was my work, maybe I can get to work, I can start at nine o'clock. So every seven to nine in the morning, we'll see when, you know seems like a good time or something. And then from nine I can work right through I know I did something in my day started in my life and my day, my time is starting with my Quran. We are sorted by your time. But I don't want to do it later. And I don't want to push things out because that's what happened to me in the first place. I had studies then you started work, then you add this thing in. And the thing that you want to push out to Quran as I had it, I don't know if other people with this with it, whether you added anything in and what

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gets pushed by the Quran. So this time, I want to swap it around

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and put that thing first. And I will tell anybody that that as the Quran and it's still the end, they want to push towards it. But yeah, for that.

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I want to jump in here and say that, for those who come across this podcast, share it with anyone who was any level of interest in the Quran, the kids are at high school, they were in school, the teacher they used to study heavily once upon a time, they would like to study, I think there's a lot of benefit to be taken and there's so much more that we could explore. I actually want to ask,

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I want to ask one another Acadia to just wrap up with some lessons that nano fans can benefit from as well. Especially, you know, people who don't even consider themselves as you know, it's not a possibility for them. And then I'll ask you silently enough with the iron shell. I just want to first say that to the sister that asked the question about yes about the ship I'll put it on the screen while we've been on for quite long enough topic is a bit different to now topic of discussion for tonight. So do acknowledge the question received and perhaps inshallah Mala weekly ever, we're going to have continued we're gonna have to continue the podcast maybe after it was also three,

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three separate requests for programs on parenting.

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The last one we had with Sheikh Ahmed and having Ahmed and his arm and walima firewall, we spoke a lot about parenting in the parenting podcast that we intended to have. So inshallah the NIA is D and we will work towards it myself as

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you know, I think you know, just in terms of your your request of lessons that I learned from convenience pilots. Okay, then we raised my friend also mean I like I said, you know, when you friends achieve things in you, like happy for the

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event also Nana, like normally when you your friend, maybe graduation, it's like, okay, cool. So it's like, yeah, but like I told you last night, but you know, it's actually a very proud moment for me. Now, of course, a video. I don't know, 10 me, I've never I never, you know, like, like, I didn't know him beyond just, that's the guy that you know, you see it. But

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the amount of joy that is very obvious on your face. It's coming from a place for deep inside, when you when you speak about the type of love that you speak with. It's inspiring, you know, that's why it's even before you concluded your story. It's extremely inspiring, and I hope and I pray that inspiration reaches many. Yeah, so all of us first and foremost. So So for me, I find deep inspiration in the fact that Luqman you can struggle with the Quran at any level, but you know, Allah gives you according to the state of your art and what you put in. So, you know, we must all try to pit our relationship with the parents constantly instead of bettering the relationship with

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the Quran and also being appreciative of what you have valuing that and asking Allah to increase in value. You know, in the month of Ramadan, we're doing a number of Hadith Yeah, in our article programme on you know, purifying, so stuff like that. And one of the key things that I focused on in one of the clauses that stood out to me as well, is the fact that sometimes you might just ask Allah

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there are things you can do but certain images are asked aluminum, Allah makes it happen.

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So, but clinic is connected to that, right? Who's going to ask Allah to undervalue something and the one that desires it medicine, you you must, you must, you must have

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that concern in like the same way like you desire to ever get eaten visiting engineer right? He's people who sitting with that desire and I want to be that I want to ever house I wanna and yet you're the person who has it he's got the desire for the Quran and Allah opens up the way for him and it comes from Regina and my style that list,

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man Jahad afina you know, it starts off with you, you must make the Mujahid you must make the effort you must want my agenda Why did you just the same but the one who seeks will find me you must first develop that seeking Sheikh Salim your your concluding remarks just in terms of you know your observations as a Quran teacher as a person who has been through the journey of hate knowing all the people involved knowing have it done media? What's your your What would I say the parting advice, you know, for those who this message is going to reach and they benefit. How have you benefited from this this narrative

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for everyone who filed and NanoFab

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butcher,

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sample butcher, according to whatever your level, whatever your ability is, butcher we've heard of people that have zero ability to read Quran, but

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they come from a legacy way the fathers grandfathers also had no ability to or either, let's say down the line, someone in the family now learned Quran. Further up in the line. They were someone that couldn't read Quran. But what was his practice? And I heard this from someone Vidya Yeah, somebody told the story that oppa used to sit by the table, and oppa couldn't butcher, but every morning of the Fajr oppa will come and he will open his Quran. And he put his foot on the table. And linear runs his finger over the verses of the Quran

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that was open, if a tool ran, he couldn't read, but he would look inside the Quran. And he would read like that to this finger, and he goes through one page. And when he's finished, and put the Quran away, and tomorrow he comes again. So I mean, we would easily discount the effort like that. But look, later on what Allah Allah granted that from Opus offspring, they came those that were able to then read Quran, and hope as if it was in his ability, you could see he could use his finger and he could move his finger. And he did that. And he did that religiously. So if you if you ask him tackler, sir, to the Quran, and I can talk me through, don't discount that if admin yes, you're

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going to be shy. And that is perhaps to be expected. We're, once again we are disciples read and we think you know, we're gonna read some open the Quran and we're gonna butcher like lecture butcher, also, when it doesn't work like that.

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Our beloved chickens, man, he's probably busy finishing the hatom of now amatola increasing.

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But he's been reciting Subhanallah like a freight train. Just moving right? At a very, very fast pace. But with such clarity of recitation that I have never even heard of before, like that pace of recitation. So, you know, we shouldn't think that you know, GFS my English now just because my alien they can relate to but you know, it was years and years, and hours and hours of odd work that will into that. So if that is what we prepare to do, then definitely a little granted. Right? I mean, so it starts by butcher, whatever you can, if you can't read Arabic, read the English.

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And of course, all of this will be coupled with if at all da

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was at index has been with us for this pregnancy she uses favorite words was budget to the weather. It was definitely was definitely one other comment that stands out.

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She see right, Imam Suraj Wallenberg.

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Allah. You taught in Portland for many years. And then he moved to St. And he taught at the madrasa and I was working in the madrasa one day and he was sitting at the front in the masjid. And he looked at me and he pointed me and he says J Timothy three these were the Quran, Salah and he works on this Imam and that was it.

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It fulfilled at least for the Quran. How much do you want it? How much do you desire it? And how much are you willing to ready to put in? Haven't been

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you know, they're allied I hope we're not dealing with them if they don't let the nominee we're going to go on. So why not pick up the ICT? I'm

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sorry, but from the

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images Aquila. Hi, everyone. It's been an inspirational program. I'll accept and make it the means of inspiration to all of us next time in sha Allah, enjoy your eat if you don't speak again before then, and enjoy your final moments of Ramadan. Before that. Alexis said I would like to lie over again.