Stay at the doorstep of your Lord – Late Night Reflections #10

sallahu wa salam Farrakhan have you know, Muhammad wa ala alihi wa sahbihi wa seldom at the Sleeman Kathira my, my bad, to be honest with you kind of like I feel a little bit emotional a little bit now, looking at the crowd and realizing that this is going to be our last night, during these late night KOTTARAS in this beautiful month of Ramadan SubhanAllah. I'm just going to think like tomorrow how we was going to look like we're going to be same time tomorrow. And then the day after that, and then a day after that, how our life is gonna look like from now on. It's an interesting thoughts of Hanalei. I mean, looking back at all these beautiful 10 knots, I remember the first night when we

started, there was a so hard, it's like, oh my God, how are we gonna go through all these nights? And now that we come towards the end, we look back and say, subhanAllah Wow, that went so fast. And now I believe hamdulillah will come to the conclusion of this blessed month of Ramadan. We only ask ALLAH SubhanA wa that accepted for myself, but Allah will ask Allah subhanho wa taala, not to deprive us the rewards for Ramadan because of our shortcomings. We ask Allah Subhana Allah to forgive our shortcomings out of the land. I mean, you ask Elijah to accept our our CRM, our we ask ALLAH SubhanA what arthritis among those who witness that will carry out.

And since it's going to be our last night here in shallow data and development, Islamic Center, and this year, alas, not the Ramadan. It's referring to, to really study this chapter. That chapter is basically it's one of those emotional chapters as well to the title and Arabic is ill them better, more luck, which means stay at the doorstep at the doorsteps of your Lord.

You stay there, which means keep knocking on his door, keep knocking and not gonna knock it but even because eventually, he will open the door Subhana wa Taala for you. As we come out of this month of Ramadan. Some of us are bruised.

Not necessarily physically, but probably emotionally. Maybe spiritually. You'd have gone through experience in Ramadan, and now you realize, oh my god, I'm gonna go back to my old self. And I hate my old self. I wish I don't go back there. I want to continue where I am right now. And some of us, you know, kind of like looking around says, Well, how can I ensure that I'm not going to go back to my old self? And that's what this chapter comes in.

You stay at that at the doorstep of your Lord Subhana wa Taala and you keep knocking on this door until it opens. Imam who is Rahim Allah Tada full Jamberry laterally and Uladzimir Birbhum Allahu Allah Cooley Han. So it's very important for the Apple, someone who's reasonable. The smart ones says basically, you should stick to that door and stay at the steps of that door waiting there for your Lord. Allah Cooley had an all your affairs which means positive, negative, high, low all these efforts. You stick to the door Juanita unlockable daily, firstly, he and you grab to the concert to that to the rope of His grace subhanho wa Taala holding on to his grace subhanaw taala in Assa,

we're in a time whether you're being a sinner where you've committed a sin, or you did well always hold on to that row always hold on to Allah subhanho wa Taala Rama holding on to Allah azza wa jal God, well yeah, good luck owns one vehicle what he be and you should find this sole source of solace source of companionship, even though you're alone, finding companionship with Allah subhanho wa Taala even though you're by yourself, so when you are alone, it doesn't mean you're lonely. Just like I know I'm sure that some of us probably here in this massive crowd mashallah some of us are looking into themselves and realize no matter how big the crowd is, I still feel lonely.

So that that kind of loneliness is not really about, about the environment around you. It's from the inside, call, find work hard washer. And if you start feeling that when start feeling loneliness, even though you will do a lot panna cotta Allah once you start feeling that sense of loneliness, felt the urge to hit fear of identical Mahesh you need to try your best to remove that cause that is making you feel such like what what is causing you to feel lonely even though you're with Allah azza wa jal maybe it's a sin that I've committed. Something that I've done and it keeps bothering me. Every time I would like to enjoy Allah subhanaw Does companionship by contemplating thinking or

maybe making dua for him. The shaitaan comes back to me tells me you remember what I did last night? You remember this? Remember that? And suddenly I feel that you know what I can't be in His presence. You start feeling lonely again. Because you need to start working on this remove that whatever is causing you to feel that loneliness, stay away from it, and then call for umbrella enough so Houma. Dunya Tala Bahaman. Still though, if you find yourself inclined towards the towards the dunya the affairs of this world, he says then turn to Allah subhanho wa Taala and ask that same dunya there

Good inclining sorts ask Allah for that.

Like don't let yourself pursue it on your own. No brainer. Allah subhanho wa Taala into it and make sure that Allah is the one who's making it easy for you. Obviously if you're gonna bring Allah into what are some of the matters of dunya? What kind of a first of all you're going to ask Allah subhanaw taala for has to be something will he be pleased with? But what I will do for you call amarilla and if you find yourself as a client towards the Afra same thing you ask Allah Subhana Allah to make it easy for you to fulfill the duties that will deliver you to Jonathan Williams will Allah Kala and Haifa Burma my room, Amina dunya Sal, Allah has la Huckleberry. And if you start

getting scared that what I'm what I'm desiring of this dunya it's gonna ruin my heart. Then what do you say? Ask Allah subhanho wa Taala to keep your heart sound, like making sure that your heart is not attached to what you're asking for.

That matter that you're asking for is in your hand, not in your heart, color water, but more of the who. And when you're sick, you look for medicine for it. And you talk about spiritual sickness and illness. So look for the medicine in the Quran, in the DUA in the CRM and CRM and the Ibadat called for in the home with Saleh Allahu la nuit Lu My God, because if your heart is sound and strong and healthy, then it would never desire something that will hurt.

Your heart will never desire something that will bring harm to it. If you work on your heart very well. Carla Montana Hi that Hi Kara, kind of Elijah Rohit. Whoever does that in his life, you will find yourself living prosperity in this dunya spiritual prosperity. Call a viral animal Dorothy Hadid had mula Zamata Taqwa. However, to have that sense feeling of spiritual prosperity that requires from you to lead the path. The path of Taqwa righteousness and piety are in no layers to hold on. So we'll be here because that companionship you're looking for with ALLAH SubhanA wa Tada is not going to happen unless you have Taqwa. It's that sense of a sense of conscience of ALLAH

SubhanA wa Tada. Futile Allah's or the love of Allah subhana wa Taala would help you find that sense of companionship with him Subhanallah without a call back at Coronavirus, Baba Toccoa de SHA Aruna and coalition in India and lead USA. He says the pious people the righteous ones, probably they distract themselves from anything. They might get busy from do anything except a luxurious oil, meaning turning back to Allah subhanho wa Taala with their hands up and make a lot of dua ask ALLAH SubhanA wa Taala and make a lot of that.

They can be distracted from the hedges maybe from Quran, Quran or anything, but from asking Allah azza wa jal nothing distracts them from that. Why? Because we have learned earlier that the essence of dua is what is led by the itself that sense of brokenness, that sense of poverty to Allah subhanho wa Taala as Rama need and so on. That's what it means.

Cut off lover and Nakota but have no Muslim Messiah took her own room for Carla and Mohammed bin wasa. It was said in history that put a verb no Muslim, he was one of the leaders who conquered the east for the Muslim state back then. Well, when he was when he was lining up his armies to face the enemies on from the East. He looked at them and he got scared a lot of the sight of it was very scary for him. So what did he do? He said look around he says, I know Muhammad Anwar was Mohammed devinwatson. Mohammed Bin was a was one of those orlimar that was solid, righteous people who was with him in that army per kilo for Yoxall. My mana Jonathan Allah Cha cosa. They set him he is in

the far right side of the army. He is leaning on his own bow and he is turning with his fingers to the sky. says his his finger is pointing to the sky. And he's making

like basically we saw him last time we saw him. He was by himself on the far end of the Army, the side of the right side of the Army, and he is staring into the to the sky meaning what he's calling Allah subhanaw make a lot of Da so kotoba when he heard that he says call up to this bar unfairly that I have Bula immunity LPC Fisher here, that single finger that he's pointing to the sky is dearer to me more valuable to me than 100,000 swords.

Like I would win with that finger, pointing to Allah subhanaw taala and making dua to Allah so that I would win with that. Better than having 1000 100,000 warriors would mean

calophyllum photo highlight him when they conquered that army called Allahu Mackintosh now he went to Mohammed bin masa is I asked him because what do you have been doing what what exactly what you were saying?

Jamia took, he says I was trying to bring for you the means of say

Access, like all the means of success and victory, I was trying to collect all of this for you. And that's the meaning of the DA that we call upon Allah subhanaw taala. So now, once again, in this last night that we have in this month of Ramadan, we come to this moment is that okay? Now I went through all the journey, where that where that journey should end, if it should end anywhere, it should be at the doorsteps of Allah Subhana Allah to Allah as Rama and that is where you should actually now put all your effort or energy so that this Ramadan doesn't go waste to Allah. Chef. And I think one of the things that's actually very important to take from this, by the way is, this is

actually not a

just an end of Ramadan thing. This is your constant life. And that's actually the point that's being made is Aina antem. And Bobby Modak, where are you from the doorstep of your Lord. And this is actually very profound palette. This is a beautiful, beautiful chapter.

If you ponder upon some of the meanings here, and I'll actually actually was thinking about some of the names that came up here and some of the incidents that we can also put to it because people remember often the stories with it. The first thing when he says, in alpha will end upon this idea that you should be at the doorstep of your Lord when you commit a sin and when you obey Allah subhanaw taala. And that's a very profound thing because Allah azza wa jal mentions when it comes to the sinner, Allah subhanaw taala says When did he know either he shot and a lot more emphasis on that God Allah for stuff for only the newbie him, right when they go through the normal Biller, when

I'm your little LMFAO and a warm Yeah, good morning. So those who when they commit that sin when they have that moment, of love law of heedlessness, that kind of Allah they remember ALLAH subhanaw taala for still follow these and obey Him and so they then go back to Allah's parents and seek forgiveness for him in the Lilina Teto either masala if I'm going to shape on to let Kuru Lazarus had mentioned that those who have Taqwa the quality Eliza assign this to a person of Taqwa because the machete will fall sometimes, you know, the Motoki the person who has Taqwa is still going to make mistakes, because the Mutsuki is still in son is still a human being. So sometimes he's going

to make mistakes or she's going to make mistakes, but

one part effeminate, shaytaan shaytaan just touches them. Like you start flirting with a sin that you maybe were unfamiliar to because you've been holding yourself back to that goal. You remembered what you remembered Allah subhanaw taala is of the Quran to fasulo Quran the Quran explains the Quran that Allah right for either Han mobile, Ceylon, and suddenly they can see deeply Subhanallah so the remembrance of Allah azza wa jal, when you commit a sin, too often people wait for the consequences of sin rather than thinking about the one that they sinned against. And there is an opportunity there. In fact, you know, people ask about that hadith of the Prophet sly southern where

the angel Allah azza wa jal commands the angel to hold the pen when you commit the sin. And to give you a period there where if you repent to Allah subhanaw taala in that time, then the sin was never even written, like, you know, Allah azza wa jal doesn't even erase the sin the sin was never written, and Allah just puts down tells the angel write down the deed of this default of seeking forgiveness. One of the deeper meanings that some of the intimate mentioned is that if a person repented in that short period of time, that probably means that they didn't repent due to external circumstances, there was the pure thicket of Allah after they committed the sin like whoa, what did

I just do? I stuck through Allah. Right Stuff for Allah. Not to say that the bad of Toba that the door of Toba ever closes for you. But that at that moment, if you remember the last 100 psi you'll you'll immediately in AUSA, then you come back to Alas, prints out then that could be a means of belsito for you, not just a means of darkness in the heart, it could be a means of clarity and perception and closeness to Allah subhanaw is on one on top. And when you when you obey Allah subhana wa Tada. This is probably the more dangerous one.

Because a lot of times people get to a point in their religiosity, where they no longer feel like beggars at the Door of Allah subhanaw taala they feel like they're sitting in the living room at this point.

Like, I'm good now, you know, so when I slipped a little bit, yeah, you know, but hamdulillah it's not like I've committed a major sin. But the prophets lie. Some of them like when you saw him make your app,

the DuraVent Messiah keen that you're a beggar to Allah subhanaw taala. And you would think that he committed a great sin or something because of the desperation, not the assumption that he's making. So what is bringing you back to Bob Moloch the doorstep of your Lord and as you go through this, this, this this chapter first and foremost, he makes it a point to say that once that Bab that door and that closeness to Allah subhanaw taala is not one that's found in a particular place that's in your head what's in your actual seclusion? It's in your moments right of closeness to Allah.

Awesome. Hello, it's Adam. And not here mentioned a few very profound things in regards to Bliss and Adam it has set up a bliss felt like he was in the living room.

Okay, bliss felt like, I'm good. I've left all those other gin behind. And I'm in this comfortable place in paradise. And he failed to work on the disease in his heart, which was what? Pride, that pride that kept on developing. And so, you know, that sudden outburst with Allah subhanaw taala doesn't come out of nowhere.

There are signs before you get there. Were like you owe me Allah. Like I thought, I've passed this motherhood, I've passed the stage. I left all those other people there outside the house, but I'm literally in the house right? A Jinn that was given a position, a rank where he's amongst them, and I think amongst the angels, and so he failed to treat the disease of the heart that he had, which was pride. And Sophia Rahim, Allah said that whoever sends out of Chautauqua out of desire has a much easier path back to Allah subhanaw taala than the one who sends out of Kibera or the one who sends out of pride. Because Adam, it isn't I'm sent out of desire, bliss sent out of pride. So Adam

is not found it easier to come back to his Lord subhanho wa taala. But the prideful one feels too proud to go back to the doorstep. You want me to go back to that place with you? Yeah, Allah. We've already passed this. I already worshipped you already got to this point. I'm already an abbot. I'm already a worshiper. I've already got to this point. Oh, you're going to expel me? Sure. Right. He felt like he didn't need to be there anymore. And that self righteousness is so dangerous because it's so hard to detect Lola to the newborn, for shelter and income Aqua medallic and urge urge the prophets lie. Some said if you were not to sin, I would fear for you something much worse than sin

and urge urge, like you are conceded. You think because you pray this much you think because you give this much charity, you think because you have this much knowledge. And you look at your brothers and sisters who are sending in more obvious ways. And you say those Mr. Kean that are outside of the house of Islam, you know, and hamdulillah I'm sitting comfortably in the living room of Allah subhanaw taala you're not because the prophets lie, some remained at the doorstep. And if anyone could ever claim to have already been comfortably seated in the house, it was a sort of loss of a lie someone but he remained at the doorstep. And so what does that translate into in terms of

the desperation of your DUA like when you're asking Allah for forgiveness? Or you you know, there's Christina Lund Billa, that you should have a good assumption of Allah subhanaw taala to help with alpha fat flow, I need that you love to forgive so forgive me. But were you were you thinking about the greatness of Allah subhanaw taala and were you thinking about the sins that you've actually committed and bringing that and inducing a sense of, of emotion with your Lord subhanho wa taala. And then he goes on when he talks about the wounds with taqwa, taqwa being a prerequisite to that once that intimacy with Allah subhanaw taala. You know, this religion is so beautiful, because every

single one of your EBA does, has a direct connection to Allah subhanho To Allah dua where he does like everybody I need for any Corrib

so when you when my servant makes you out, then he is close to me, a Salah salamin Silla, it's your connection to Allah Subhana Allah to Allah, your direct connection to Allah Subhana Allah to Allah Salah to Mirage and movement, it's your ascension to the heavens as the prophets lie. Some received the Salah, the gift of Salah and the heavens, it is your ascension to the heavens every time you go into your Salah Assyria. All of the deeds of the child of Adam are for him except for a song. Right? A summer league. This is my personal deed, this is something he's doing for me and hedge. Right? And at bat you come to my house, your guest of Allah Subhana Allah to Allah as a car, a sadhaka to sell

to feel vulnerable, Rob that secret charity that extinguishes the anger of your Lord like this is something you deposited in an account and you hope Allah azza wa jal brings it back to you on the Day of Judgment no one else knows about. Like these are deeply connected. These are deeds that are very personal between you and Allah subhanaw taala, your thicker, a thick that other people don't know about your wisdom that other people don't know about the times that your mouth is closed and you're saying, you know, handle Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah, your tongue is moving, saying that ilaha IL Allah,

you're doing tests via your moments of tears. That's once that's closest to Allah subhanaw taala. But you don't get there without Taqwa. And too many people and this goes back to the point of bliss, that bliss made the mistake of taking his status for granted and not dealing with his sickness of pride. Had he dealt with it at an early on stage, then maybe he wouldn't have ended up in that disastrous state. And a lot of religious people that pray a lot that give a lot that do a lot, right. They use their good deeds to distract from their consistent sins and their consistent sickness.

You know, so look that one sin that you will leave for Allah Subhan Allah to Allah will bring you into His proximity because Allah has a hammer, right? He has his kingdom, the prophet slice and I mentioned that the kingdom, the boundaries of Allah subhanaw taala are His are the things that he's prohibited for you? That one little sin that you're insisting upon but mashallah you're praying to Michelle, you're coming to the masjid but that one little Knucks that one little deficiency that you don't feel such a great urgency to get rid of? It will grow. And then Allah azza wa jal says that's what it is. It isn't like you'll even become arrogant with that sin like this is who I am back off

don't judge me I'm going to keep on doing this over and over and over again that one thing that you give up and humble yourself and break yourself for Allah subhanaw taala will be better I had one more thing shift but I'm taking way too long. So if you have any comments on this, okay, I'm just getting my throat okay.

I thought you wanted to correct me.

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Unison obeyed. Rahim Allah to Allah Yanni. SubhanAllah. I thought of the statement from Unison or obeyed when you were talking about bad Mola Unison obeyed. Rahim Allah said I knew an old man who told me that I don't think Allah azza wa jal will ever forgive me. Like I've lived my whole life and sin and it was like, none of their a large none of the treatments. None of the words that I was giving him was comforting him. And by the way, some of you have had that type of conversation with Sheikh Yes. Or am I over the last few days? Like I don't, I've been really really bad. Like, I've been failing way too many times at this point. And he said he had a dream. And in that dream, it was

set to him home and I had an auto Baba did anyone ever come to our door? catalana and we turned him away.

Has anyone ever come to my door and been turned away from me? No one has ever come to the doorstep of Allah subhanaw taala and been turned away. Have you ever have Have you ever come to my door and been turned away? You've never come to the doorstep of the last primetime been turned away. So it'll tell them you know that elitism that sticking at the doorstep Am I at the doorstep with my dura and then finally, you go to the battle and Muhammad the new asset came up and Mohammed bin Wasa, Rahim Allah. This was a man who feared Allah subhanaw taala a great deal. He used to he was the one who said that if sins had a stench than the angels that no one would sit next to me. If sins could

smell, the no one would sit next to me talk about high self awareness. Everybody else knows him as an abbot, and he knows himself as a sinner. He says if sins had a smell, no one would sit next to me. And he used to cry and he used to wipe the tears all around. And he used to say that I pray that every single place these tears are touching will be protected from the fire. So he is he's at the doorstep of his Lord, begging his Lord for forgiveness. Everybody else is like Mohammed bin wasa is here. And he's like, I'm at the doorstep of Allah leave me alone. Stop putting me in this rank. I'm gonna stay at this doorstep until I die. And so for him to be the one that sought after like where's

he at in the battle? It's very profound because that is what differentiates us from the other superpowers of the world. We find our power through our desperation to Allah subhanaw taala we find our is our dignity through our desperation and our brokenness to Allah Subhana Allah to Allah. We mentioned this all the time. That's the model the Allah has on on one side little the Allahu Anhu we're about to enter into the river and some man will the Allahu Taala and who said that Allah Azza wa ala heliyon? Soren Allah Medina Allah Subhana Allah Allah will give his ollie on Sierra Leone Sudan, Allah Alia well you'll hear on Allah Medina Allah Subhana Allah Allah will give victory to

his Willie and he will make his Deen clear he will give his you know the people of Islam victory in Aamir Khan filled JC though no one above you on top of people has not as long as sad we don't have the sins in this in this group of us that overcome our good deeds. We're going to be fine. We're going to be fine. And so you look at Rasul Allah says someone better

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when you call upon your Lord so your LORD answered you you saw the prophets lie some the night before bed there and the prophets lie Selim could have slept at peace before you know at the night right and said you know what like we're good because who's better than the Prophet slice I'm in these this the small group of people that are with him like we're good right like we should we should know the angels are going to come we should take it for granted.

But also la sigh some spends the entire night with his hands so high to the sky that his his cloak falls off. And even Abu Bakr Radi Allahu Taala and him seeing the tears of the prophets. I'm seeing the prophets I'm at the doorstep of his Lord is taking his garment and his cloak and putting it back on him and saying like, Allah is going to answer do you think the prophets I somehow doubt that Allah would answer him? No, he didn't. So we're talking about that transformation at the end of Ramadan right before Eid, he didn't have doubt that Allah would answer him, but he had the desperation.

I have a person who was, you know, in crisis, and so even a while back and all the Allahu Taala and was comforting Him. And so this lesson for us is very, very important. Your good deeds and your sins to drive you back to Allah Subhana Allah to Allah, because it is not your sins, it is not the fact that you are a sinner that will get you to hell. Nor is it the fact that you do good deeds that will get you to Jannah it is the Mercy of Allah subhanaw taala when you seek forgiveness for your sins that will get you away from hellfire. And it is the Mercy of Allah subhanaw taala that he accepts our broken up beat up good deeds, and takes us to genuine regardless of those things, and so both

your sins and your good deeds to drive you back to the doorstep of Allah and he never ever ever turns away his servant from his doorstep.

Well, as you were speaking, I was already thinking about the brothers and sisters who are just standing there by that door on a distance really. And they're just staring at it.

A lot of people in that position in their life right now. You see the door and you stare from distance and just like look it out or just like should I?

And I don't know if he's going to open the door because I don't think he's an opening and maybe he's busy.

Maybe he's dealing with those are better than me. He has more important things than me. Maybe this maybe an opinion this analogy because that's in real life. What happens honestly with us as Imams, even sometimes I sometimes we walk outside of the masala and then I look at people just from this look at me and just like hesitating, and just gonna say, Should I go and say sir, I'm gonna you're gonna say sir, I'm gonna just because you're gonna

handle as a human being eyes when I noticed that I just go straight to the sister. I wanted to look new here.

And for them, it's just like, oh, Bismillah and then they open up a handler of Batman. Look, we're humans. And we will find joy doing that.

Imagine if you go and you knock on his door, even though you think that you're not worthy of that. Just knock on the door.

And he will open a shot about that. I know that a lot of people like us again, they keep looking from this and just like, well, I don't know if I should do that. I don't know. I don't deserve that. Stop doing this to yourself.

Because you're not going to know until Allah you try.

And people ask me person says, Look, how did you become a NEMA? A personal story? And how did you become an MI? How do you become where you are right now. So it all started with this really knocking on the door. But what though? So we were kids at the time I was still maybe 1011 years old. And we have a bunch of kids running around in the neighborhood and having fun and playing with other kids and so on. And then we heard from some was Ramadan. We heard from some people, some other kids saying Hey guys, in the masjid, they they actually they have some programs and fun activities. And they give prizes and this and that. And 10 years old 11 year old kids would expect of them Hey,

prizes for free IPS Miller's go within servicemen levels. So let's go. Right.

So I remember all of a bunch of little kids walking together in that as one day around the hair salon. Even we didn't even know when saw the door was. So when we arrived, we saw there was already gone and done. But there were a bunch of kids in a side room just like the multipurpose are very similar. And I could see the kids running around and they can

mess over there. But

that's what we saw. We came in and we looked on the right side there was that glass door leads to another glass door. And behind the second glass door we thought Yeah, And subhanAllah was like, Whoa, it was like chaos like Zoo. Kids are running and jumping. So we start staring and looking. We did not they're not a knock on the door. We did it.

We were just looking and we kind of like amused by what's behind this glass door. And we always thought like, I wish that door can be open to us. Wow. Which was good Johnson. We didn't even finish that thought. One of the kids from the inside. He saw us.

So he made it. He comes and he open the door. He goes come in. That's what he said come in, and we looked at each other. It's like

we just came in.

And the rest of history we never came out.

Because we really took an advantage of a moment that Hanalei just was presented to us in that moment as kids as kids. So what I'm asking my dear brothers and sisters stop staring at the origin. Stop staring at that door. Please knock on it. Knock on the door, cry your eyes out on the doorsteps of Allah subhanho wa taala. You might have been clean Rahim Allah Allah He mentioned the story is an interesting story because he's speaking about one of the writers that he was one day walking in, and the neighbor in a neighborhood. So as he was walking, he suddenly he heard some sort of like a noise coming from behind one of those doors, never heard those. And then he said kind of I was wondering

what was going on. All of a sudden he says, a door opens, opens out, you know, to the neighbor to the street. And then a young kid dashes out running. He was running, running and crying. And then suddenly he goes after him. His mom came after him with whatever she had in her hand, yelling at him.

If you come back, I will I will do this older zoo and the kids keep running around and the mothers are so angry just came back and she snapped the door closed. And then he just like was amused by that sight. So he stopped there. He just like, honestly what's gonna happen.

So he's looking at the kid from far from far away and the kid running and running, and then just kind of stop someone that's coming back again and start kind of like, coming closer, going back again, back and forth, back and forth, wondering what to do, where do I go? Where do I go? And so the island was just sitting there watching him and watching what's going to happen somehow. Suddenly, he said that that kid eventually realized he had absolutely no escape, no escape from the wrath of his mom, except by going back to his mom.

And then that kid, he went to the door, but he did not dare actually knock on the door. So he sat at the doorsteps he said, maybe crying, and it's like kind of getting tired and exhausted. Then he started laying down on the on the doorsteps then he cries out, his eyes out until he fell asleep. Basically.

He says later on, at some point, he said, the door open. And that same mother that was carrying whatever stick, you know, after that child, she saw that baby there. She just she just melted.

She melted, she couldn't see any digital data that she grabbed him. And she hugged them, she squeezed them. And she started crying and the baby opened his eyes here was his mom, he felt okay, he just gotta let go because I'm not going to. I'm going around right now. His mom is just like kind of like crying and says, Please don't do this to me again. Bla bla bla bla, like what all mother would do right then on the baby again.

But the idea is that Pamela that that story that Adam was referring to said, like, if this happens between humans,

if that level of mercy and compassion exists amongst humans, and Allah subhanho wa taala, according to the Hadith, he promised you that all what you see of mercy and compassion that exists amongst humans and animals and everybody on Earth, it's one out of 101 level of Mercy out of 100 mercy and He is saving the 99 for the agora.

So I want you to imagine that you probably that baby there right now that you're so scared of the wrath of your Lord, because of what you've done. The crime you've committed. Boy, you're going to go

where else is gonna go? So just save yourself the trouble. Come back again to the doorsteps cry your eyes until you fall asleep down there. And hopefully ALLAH SubhanA wa will open the door for you. Even though you're unaware of it. You're not aware you're asleep? Because you just submitted yourself, you know what, whatever is gonna happen. I accepted that job when it came to the doorsteps of his mom. He knew if she's gonna smack me she's gonna discipline me she's gonna whatever I have no other place to go. She's my shelter anyway. Same thing with ALLAH SubhanA wa Tada what else? What else do you gonna do man?

So give yourself that shortcut and go straight back to Allah subhana wa Tada and ask Him for His mercy. It's worth it.

Now manager Hola Mundo que la Lake. The data we make there is no escape or no shelter from you except to you. I was thinking about the shift this idea.

You know, 100 black hats at Acadia keen to worship Allah subhanaw taala until certainty comes to you. One of the things about these are about these worshipers is that you'll find that the ones that feared a loss of hundreds out of the most, they had the most peaceful deaths. Like a death they were the most hopeful of people. You know, like they they worship Allah span of time you would see them and there's there's a great fear of Allah as a trepidation, a healthy trepidation, not one that makes a lust pants on unapproachable. I think that's one of the problems and the way that we talked about last time. Sometimes we make him inaccessible and approachable because of our sins, and to

make him more approachable, that does not mean belittling your sins, that means extolling his attributes of mercy and generosity. And these people understood this to a point that, you know, worship your Lord until Yaqeen comes to you until certainty comes to you the word certainty here you have been speaking about death. Why? Because it's that death that this person that's been sort of at the doorstep of his Lord, right? What happens? The angels come down with the coffin of agenda.

And they say, Come on in Allah to half of what, wherever she will be generated at Quantum to I don't, okay, you can come now. You've been at the doorstep this whole time. Go ahead and come to the Mercy of your Lord. Come to the Mercy of your Lord. Come to his little one come to his pleasure with you. Go ahead rugi come on out. Like they literally say come on out, but it means come on in because leaving this world means entering into that world, right. So come on out. Come on in.

And that soul of the believer out of Fatah out of joy will jump out. May Allah make us amongst them along I mean, every sheet will be generated let you continue to do and here's the journey you've been promised, knows what I meant before and Rahim who hasn't been given to you by Allah azza wa jal does not use names by accident or randomly law for Rahim. Therefore, he's forgiven you for everything that you were worried about burdening you. It's being left behind in this dunya Rahim, who Rahim on build movement in Ramadan for dunya Rahim and Phil as an ambassador, Allah Tala anima said, Rahim is a special mercy that Allah receipt reserves for the believers can have been what we

need in Lahemaa. So for all those sins, you were worried about holding you down, leave him back, leave them outside the house, they're not coming with you into this home, or him as generous as you thought this host was going to be as merciful as you thought this host was going to be, watch what happens next.

We're just getting started. Right? The generosity and the Mercy of your Lord, the whole Karim subhanho to Allah and that's why some of the element mentioned that you find in the, in the word of many in the of the seller of the pious predecessors, that they paired the name of Kareem with Allah's name of a fool or, or Apple right to constantly invoke the most generous because

if you think of the most generous person in the world, okay.

And people come to their door you know, you hear all these stories, you know, people that like leave food out in front of their door, you know, have a 24 hour kitchen we talked about Saturday, but about a little the a lot of time on home being one of those people operating a 24 hour kitchen outside of is house, right? And people that would say anyone who needs anything just come to me.

Imagine l caring,

every generous person that has ever existed. I want you to think of the top five most generous people you've ever met in your life, right? Just just generous of spirit, generous of wealth, all of the column that you've read about in history, all of the column of the people that you have encountered, all of them were just, you know, a dip in the ocean of the kingdom of Allah subhanaw taala who gave them the Quran who gave them that nobility who gave them that generosity, right? Al Karim. That's why the prophets I seldom said, you know, Allah is too shy. So here's how you And Kareem. This is this is interesting how Yun Karim Allah azza wa jal is shy and he's generous,

usually generous people. They got a little, you know, chip on their shoulder. You know?

They got a chip on their shoulder. Right? huggy Karim? Allah subhana wa Shyan generous Allah subhanaw taala is shy that his servant raises his hands to him. And Allah lets your hands fall empty. It's not happening. Right? And that's why that's why because many of you are going to wonder now okay, this kind of I don't know am I one of those people staring at the door? Am I one of those people at the doorstep? Have you ever gotten into it you're and let your heart and your your heart pour out and do it

and then realize where did the time go?

Like you started making sure I see it every year and autofill by the way,

people are like nervous to get their whole notebooks and stuff like that. I got my six hours a day. I'm ready I'm gonna make drought for my parents and make dua for my neighbor and make dua for my cat I'm gonna make dua for the like, I got my google doc of my drought list and I got all these things I'm ask Allah for and then Subhanallah at some point, you see them put the notepad to the side and just do this and just flow

and like Maghrib comes in it's like

what happens? What happened is Allah wanted to give you something.

Outlook Allah Who Masonic with Allah, Allah subhanaw taala let your tongue move to ask him and there is no Hitman that's why we've read all the data and who said there is no deprivation for the one who has been given the ability to ask you flowed Your heart just poured out your your tongue just kept on flowing that was divine that your tongue was moving in ways that you weren't you couldn't have planned it you couldn't have scripted it your tongue moves but you have to commit yourself to the posture the time that I'm going to spend an hour and I'm gonna see where this takes me you know these these shields keep talking about 200 belaid and they keep talking about you know all the way

this feels and onsen connection to alas pants I like I'm just trying to get my five prayers down. You know what I used to. I used to read the Hadith about the prophets like someone who said Allah azza wa jal says Wilmar Takadanobaba Ilya mdbc That my servant does not come close to me with anything more beloved to me, men of Torah to her they would accept that which I have made follow up on him and then he continues to come close to me with a no often with the voluntary deeds until I love him. And I realized that a lot of people maybe are misreading that hadith to where it's like I'm struggling with my

five prayers Why am I even going to pray a little bit? Like why do tahajjud

sweetness that you'll feel from Allah subhanaw taala that's the sweetness that will make you realize that there is no palace, no position, no favor, that is more blessed than being at the doorstep of your Lord. And if Allah lets your heart open up, and Allah lets your tongue flow, that's because he's not just Karim in what he can give you he's Kadeem and what he can activate inside of you that's part of his cut on to other elements that Subhan Allah, Allah azza wa jal descends in a way that's befitting to him and Allah extends his hand in a way that's be fitting to him and then Allah subhana wa Tada says, Whoever comes to me walking I go to him running.

So Allah subhanaw taala gives access and then he activates and he accelerates like It's like his Kalam is working from both directions from the silent school.

It's unbelievable his column, that's all his generosity, he doesn't have to do that for us. But I want you to commit yourself to that time that I'm going to I'm going to go into there. Even if I can only do this once a week. I'm serious just once a week once a week I'm going to spend some time alone I'm going to create an environment for myself where I'm going to go in to do that and I'm just I'm not going to prep for it. I'm just going to let it take me where it takes me

and put my hands up to Allah subhanaw taala and as I will back it will be a lot of data and who said if you're trying to cry and you can't cry then make your face as if you're about to cry until it happens

that's level record while the lower no that's not shipped yesterday bridges are almost today man that's a record all the hola I'm gonna said you know what make your face like you're about to cry, push yourself create the factors until it happens.

until it comes out right? And Allah Subhana Allah Allah sees that in his servant in the lesson hundreds Allah al Karim Hey, Allah azza wa jal looks at this person and gives you and gives you and gives you you know what happens when he keeps giving you you're never going to leave his doorstep right? Because you realize like I'm not I'm not satisfied with this yet Allah keep on it, I want more, I want more I want more I want more and there's nothing greater that Allah will give you then himself then that owns that's being spoken about here that not only for that owns May Allah subhanaw taala grant us that intimacy with our Lord Subhana which added day and night alone let me

add one more thing to whatever he said. Allah Allah in the statements here are the local who owns don't feel worthy be you should find comfort you should really find comfort and peace in seclusion with him being alone with Allah subhanaw taala that's where you find your comfort you have peace and tranquility really, when you're alone with ALLAH SubhanA wa Tada cloudfone Walcot washer. If you feel that estrangement if you feel that kind of you know that

dissatisfaction the pieces lost as missing from that moment, qualify as the head fear of Elmo hash you need to work on removing the barrier that causing this estrangement between you and Allah subhanaw taala we need to work on removing that thing. All of us have these things between us and Allah subhanho wa Taala we all have these shortcomings and sins and things I know that each and every one of us as we speak right now you remember one of those things

then you can now you're talking to yourself sir yeah, I need to work on this thing. Because I believe this is the thing that really is stopping me from having that enjoyment being with Allah subhanaw taala alone.

I can't enjoy my salah. I cannot enjoy my staying in the masjid. I cannot enjoy my fasting when no one else to know that I'm fasting I couldn't do any of that sin because there's something in my heart that's over over burden in my heart that is blocking me from finding that peace and tranquility and comfort with Allah azza wa jal why because like I said, you know you want to look at the door you keep looking at the door but you realize that what you brought to present is so embarrassing.

I don't know knock on the door and show this the last version. So it might have been God Rahim Allah he says look, if you want to enjoy that comfort with Allah subhanho wa Taala then work on yourself.

What is that preventing you from enjoying it? What is that? Is it your your phone? Is it your your your? Your TV? Is it your laptop? Is it your desire to you know, be with somebody in particular? Is it just being you know, at night doing whatever you want to do with matters of dunya? Is it your money? Is it your job? Is it your fame? Is that your name? What is it? What is that thing that is truly blocking you from enjoying this moment of solitude with Allah subhanho wa Taala you need to work on removing this thing?

Because without removing it, you can always keep staring at the door. And again thinking should I? The answer is why not.

But you need first of all to throw whatever that is in your hand and go bravely knock on the door and ask ALLAH SubhanA wa to open the door for your molars panel to open his door for your anatomy and all of you tonight. Sure, can I get 10 seconds on this? Just a minute 30 seconds 10 seconds. The only guests that Allah subhanaw taala won't let you in the house. What is your sense think of it that way?

unwelcome guest the guest that you can come. But don't bring him don't bring her that guest is that them that you keep on insisting on that you're just unwilling to acknowledge even to start repenting from No, no, you can't bring that guest here. That guest has to go. You're welcome here. That's important for us to think about to in regards to this chapter. So let's say a few questions and shallow data before we give it a chance to wrap up this session with some of your reflections and shallow down. Some I don't want somebody to ask a question before if it's possible, Shawn, and I didn't ask a question before.

Somewhat repsonse

My question was in regards to the grave. So we know what happens to the bleeding soul in the grave. The two angels come down with the essence of Jelena, and we know what happens to the disbeliever. But what happens to the one that is being tested on the day of judgment, because they didn't receive the clear message in the grave?

This is one of the so you're saying the one who didn't receive the clear message? What happens to them on the Day of Judgment? No, not on the Day of Judgment. We know they're being tested on the day of judgment, but what happened to them in the grave?

So the grave is a preview of the Day of Judgment, right? The grave is the preview of the Day of Judgment. So there are some people, the prophets lie some said this ummah Tabata, this ummah is tested in, it's great.

So there are some people that are tested in their grave, before they, before they meet a law sponsor, just like there's some believers who go to the fire before they go to Jannah.

A lot of times, you know, and I just finished the Judgment Day series, right? So I was researching this stuff pretty obsessively for a few months. And one of the things that sometimes it's hard to keep in the Hadith, the order of events, seems a little different, or the order of Allah doing this or doing that seems a little bit different. It's not contradictory when you just kind of take a step back and say, well, Allah subhanaw taala is not subjected to our ideas of time or even structure like coolant, what are the law requests now what Allah is going to do for the individual Allah is going to do for the individual at the end of the day. And so if you look at the majority, that the

interesting thing with the with the grave,

you don't find examples of people to the best of my knowledge that Allah azza wa jal delays their punishment of the grave to the Akutan, so that he can punish them there instead. But rather every you should look at it that every punishments prior is either part of a consistent punishment or a part of purification before the ultimate destination. So what does that mean?

The you can be punished for your sins in this world. And that could actually serve as a means of expiation so that you don't have to face it in the grave and then face on the day of judgment. And some people will be punished in this world and be punished in the grave. But I've lost friends, I will forgive them on the Day of Judgment. So it's sort of like those punishments are taking away, they're chipping away. Now, obviously, the situation that you want to be in is where you're asking Allah's parents out for his mercy, you're asking the love for His forgiveness. And you're asking the last time not to punish you in any of those places in any of those realms. But then what Allah Azza

does with the individual is up to him subhanaw taala. And obviously, the individual is dealt with in such a way that sister side

sounds like

yesterday, we were talking about, like setting high goals and high ambitions for the sake of Allah. So what if we're on the path of pursuing these goals and ambitions? And over time, you start to realize that as I'm pursuing these things, I'm actually gaining fulfillment for myself. I'm gaining respect in the community, I'm gaining popularity, I'm gaining followers, I might be even getting paid, might be even getting paid for, for trying to pursue these ambitions. But I told myself that I was doing this for the sake of Allah. So is there a way to gauge on your journey towards pursuing that goal? Am I still doing this for Allah or has the balance tip towards I'm doing this for myself

once again, if you remember we talked about the journey versus the destination right?

Sometimes the journey is much more rewarding than the destination itself. But in regards to doing something good for the sake of Allah subhanho wa Taala and then you get praised for it in the dunya. The messenger of allah sallallahu Sallam he was asked about that particular issue. A man came to the Messenger of Allah He said call out also Allah, Raju, Yama, amarilla, Yama, doonas Valley. Sometimes I do something for the sake of Allah azza wa jal in my intention for the sake of Allah, but then I get the praise from the people. Is that going to diminish my reward is going to take away from the value of what I'm doing for the sake of Allah subhanaw taala. So the messenger of Allah he says

called Tillich

Add your Bucha moment Tilka. As you know, Bucha moment, he says this is the immediate and the quick good news for the believer, like, this is the good news for you in the dunya, before the ACA, so Rama, they comment on this, they said, look, as long as it does not change your intentions, then you're good.

If those words of praise, they become Halal music in your ear, and you always pursue them more and more, right now you start doing more of it, because you're soliciting these now words of praise and fame and so on, then you don't want to give anything that you're doing. But if those words of praise or reproach, they're completely neutral to you, then you're good. So again, they measure that by saying Madhava, damn sour, when words of praise or criticism are equal to you, because you know, your intention, you know, in your heart, that you're doing it for the sake of Allah subhanho wa taala. So the praise of people doesn't change, the fact doesn't, it doesn't going to encourage me to

do more of it. Because I'm already doing it for the sake of Allah subhanaw taala and then criticizing me for it, even though because I'm still doing it for the sake of Allah, I'm not going to stop because some mean, people keep telling me not to do that in Allaha na.

So what I would add to that, because I think that, you know, sometimes it's it's confusion at that point, right? Whether I even know if I'm doing it for loss plans or not at that point. The goal and this is a very important thing is that you start to do things only for the sake of Allah Subhana Allah to Allah to a point that

the eyes of others becomes irrelevant, they become background noise. And so what that means is, you have some very measurable things to ask, you know, to gauge this. Alright, so one of them, for example, is

if people stop praising me for do I stop doing it? It's probably like the easiest threshold. So if I if I stopped getting praised for it, will I abandon it? If people don't see me doing it? Will I not do it? So sometimes,

may Allah protect us? Because obviously, I recognize unknown public figures and they lost pants I protect us from this alarm. I mean, sometimes we rely exclusively on those public deeds. But

do you do the private deeds to that? No one from the public knows about. And so Fianna 30 Rahim Allah to Allah He used to say that anything that I have done, that other people have seen, I don't depend on that in my journey to Allah subhanho to Allah, because I don't know if shaitan took a bit of my intention for it. And some of your intention keeps on changing colors at times, right, like you think you got it down, and then something gets it. So you have to have a share of secret deeds, that are not just a means of continuing that journey to Allah Subhana Allah but they're also a proof that this journey is about Allah subhanaw taala not about others. And when you start to chip away at

that, and just say, I don't have any time or any, any energy for this, I'm just gonna do this all the time. And that's a problem. And that's where Maddie foot comes into this. And this is what we hope that aligns unlocks for us. Like it will help Valhalla. I had Josie Rahim Allah to Allah narrates that no one knows the creation and the creator, and then prefers the sight of the creation to the sight of the Creator. If you knew that, if you start to love the sight of Allah upon you, then it's like, you know, to give you like, the easiest example of this to figure this out. Let's say that there's someone really important that just walked into the room, and you have to give a

public lecture. Okay, your entire attention as the speaker is going to go towards that one person.

Okay, because that person just completely outweighs like, that's important to you that person is a person of high status, or that person is someone who can do stuff for you, that person is just that, like, suddenly the intention there everyone else's audience but like, that's who you're talking to. That's Allah subhanaw taala he is your greatest audience. And so you just have to make him the most important of your audience, not necessarily delete the audience. Just extol the main, the main, the main audience that is sought, which is Allah subhanaw taala time alone.

Any other questions? Cinemark Rahman de la Rocha. I don't know if this has been asked yet. So my apologies if it has but going back to the very first point that Shelley hasn't made about how to handle our at the very end of Ramadan, and, you know, we look forward until you know, inshallah keeping those good habits that we have with our Salah and with our di and whatnot, in sha Allah after Ramadan. But my question is, you know, what's something or maybe multiple things that we can do as a community in sha Allah in order to benefit each other and you know, kind of help each other? You know, continue those habits with, you know, our Quran recitation with our solo and with our dot

I think

So this is what I mentioned in my hotbar you need an ice start statement and I quit statement.

And my what's mandatory is one, one I quit statement one I start statement. And I hope everyone does this in Charlotte. I hope you every single person just takes one I quit statement one I start statement.

When it comes to good deeds, slow gradual means that it stays just like when Sheikh Abdullah was here, Chef Abdullah was talking about muscle gain. Okay, it's the slow steady, not the once in a while, not the, you know, all over the place, slow and steady. So, you have buckets of sins, which are emerald and Kulu, the diseases of the heart.

And the believer protects themselves from self righteousness by interrogating themselves with every single one of them or either Kulu like you will read about this disease of the heart and you will say, do I have this President? Do I have indications Am I starting to even, you know, inclined in any way that would help that that would that would cause me to develop this disease of the heart. And then you have Alyssa and it ALLAH SubhanA wa Tada the means by which you attain Allah subhanho wa Taala when Juliette Honeycutt and then the destructive laws and then the means of salvation back to Allah subhana result. So bucket those, this is my salah, this is my fasting, this is my Quran,

this is my charity, this is my public service. This is my private spirituality. Here are the buckets. Okay, where are my grace deficiencies? Okay, how can I build something steady, small and steady and each one of these things and write it down? I actually think one of the can tell you one of the greatest takeaways of us studying women and Josie Rahimullah is that he really wrote down everything

he was writing, he wrote down everything, right? He even wrote down his innermost thoughts and shared them with the OMA. Okay, like he's writing down personal moments of doubt. He wrote down everything. So write stuff down, write down your goals, track yourself, and go back and analyze those things. You know what I used to teach behind the scenes. Within McGraw, one of the things I used to do is I'd say write a letter to Allah subhanaw taala. How many of you took behind the scenes, by the way, oh, man, I need to reteach this somewhere, maybe, maybe in Dallas inshallah. But I'd say write a letter to ALLAH SubhanA. Tada. And then write three things that you want to change

about yourself, make three, three commitments over the next six months, and then write your address on the envelope.

Like, we'll send it back to everyone in six months.

You know, subhanAllah, Chef, like, I can't tell you how many times people come up to me like, I six months later, like, ouch.

You know, like, because I write it down, put it in an envelope, and then let it and then we would send it back to them in six months, which the mother of HQ wasn't very fond.

Like, that's just the instructor given everyone a hard time where I'm like, gotta collect all these envelopes every single class and then among them has to send them to every single attendee. Six months later, I don't think they ever sent the wrong letter to someone else. So that'd be super awkward.

give someone an identity crisis. I don't even know who I am anymore.

But like it's powerful when you can confront yourself with your own commitments, your own goals, your own writing. So let that be the case and shot lots of data for each of us to actually track our goals and Charlotte's on after after Ramadan. If I may add one more thing actually, for you to do what Jeff Hammer was talking about what he really he described for you is individual activities. If I want to suggest something extra for you to do work on your community activities as well too, because Allah subhanho says so Terrassa will also in then and Salah because Elina M and Y mo Salah had the will to also will have the will to ourselves. So he said, everybody is in a constant state

of loss, except for those people who have faith act upon it. And then they enjoy the good among themselves, and they make sure to remain steadfast on this path. So the first two is for you individually, the second are for the community.

You cannot be strong on your own. You have to strengthen yourself with the presence of those good brothers and sisters around you in the community. So if you are going to start you know a path, a journey to Allah subhanho wa Taala you need to have arrived. And Hadith even Ambassador de la TerraNova Prophet SAW Selim says call in the monastic even latter category GRR ala people are just like 100 camera you can barely find one cat one camera suit for a ride suitable ride on the journey. Why? Because every camel is good for me. It's probably but if you want to go in on a journey in the desert, you have to have a strong, strong camel that can help you survive that journey. So you're

not on a journey to Allah azza wa jal and if you're going to have a friend, you need to have that friend whom you can trust with your life on that journey.

Someone that will push me forward to go to Allah subhanho wa Taala not to keep mystery in the middle of the desert, and just show me Mirage and then I keep chasing Mirage because of them and eventually I get thirsty and I die. So it's very important. It's so crucial that in addition to your individual activities, look for community activity like what the least you can start with, I would say my suggestion, one Salah in the Muslim

every single day, not every Friday.

Every single day, you need to make commitment to pray one Salah and demoiselle VT surger Shah ser Maghreb depends on your circumstances, maybe you're at work, maybe you come late, early, whatever there is, one Salah in the masjid.

You can start with this in sha Allah, Allah suddenly you realize when you started going to the masjid more frequently, you become part of a community and I openshot that can help you stand your Eman and build around as well. Too shallow. I'm gonna make a quick plug. If you go to the opinions website and you read the basic reports. Basic is actually a metric that our brothers Dr. Eggman emerging and others are working on. Basic means beliefs, attitudes, spirituality, institution, and contribution. Can you all repeat that back to me?

Whereas like, someone got a doctor, most of us like I got this belief, attitudes, spirituality, institution and contribution and these are the things sort of wholesomely that we take from the Quran and the Sunnah that come that make a complete Muslim, right? And so actually, what we're what we're working on is how can we insha Allah to either,

you know, basically customize our plan back to Allah subhanaw taala to fill in all of those buckets, because we're all important buckets that we have in our deen, last question from the Sisters of Shelton.

Santa Monica.

Um, so I know that we've talked about the diseases of the heart. And to my knowledge, I noticed that you're accounted for what you do and not necessarily like what you think or what you feel. It's just like your actions. So my question is, how can we consolidate diseases of the heart being something that we need to like actively, like, reflect on and fix? If it's something that's like internal versus like, an actual action because of the disease of a heart?

No man.

First of all, Allah azza wa jal does not want you to torture yourself over the abstract Allah subhanho wa Taala wants you to remedy the obvious, and then dig deeper. And that's a very, very important feature of this deen and then your relationship your silk to Allah Subhana Allah Allah azza wa jal does not want you to,

to drive yourself crazy thinking what's wrong with me? And what's this and then like not, and just just makes us feel defeated and depleted. That's not the purpose. And that is one of the tricks of shaitan that's actually one of the tricks of Shavon Shavon will come to you and tell you, you're not good enough to approach Allah. You're not good enough and you don't even know where to start right? So he'll actually extol Allah subhanaw taala to you when it's convenient for him to do so because at the end of the day, he wants to deactivate you in your journey to Allah subhanaw taala. So remedying the obvious, and then digging deeper into the causes, so that you can remedy those internal causes

as well. The diseases of the heart are identified by manifesting manifestations, active manifestations, and so

I need to remedy my backbiting. Like we talked about backbiting a lot, because, you know, Allah knows best but you know, when the Prophet salallahu Salam says that most people go to hell because of what the tongue harvests, right? If you think about the shares of the tongue, like, you're more likely probably to backbiting today than you are to tell a lie. You might tell a lie as well. false testimony major sins, right slander major, major, major sin, right, but like the gossip and the backbiting, so what's it what's a way that allows parents I will take that to the disease of the heart layers called calm and calm and si Hakuna Fado, Minko Minho, when Annie salmony satin, I

certainly couldn't hate on anyone. Hey, why are you talking about people Don't you realize that they actually might be better than you, those people that you're just backbiting and gossiping and looking down upon and making a mockery of you know, that person might actually be someone that's already of Allah Subhana Allah that's having a difficult patch right now. Who do you think you are? And so what? Okay, so what's where do I have to dig deeper internally? Do I think I'm better than people as though I talk about them so much? Or am I distracted? Am I Am I distracted? Do I not have a sense of urgency? So then I go back and I say, Well, how do I remedy pride? Okay, then I need to

look at my own sins and other people's good deeds, not other people's sins and my own good deeds and I need to focus on that I need to adjust my lens towards other people. Okay. How do I remedy being distracted? Let me read these ions about the article to ponder upon the hereafter do more to make me think about the hereafter. Remember death visiting the graveyard. There are remedies for each one of these things. So it starts with tackling the obvious

And then here's the beauty of your relationship with Allah subhanaw taala and this is what I can promise you. When you show Allah commitment to tackling the obvious he will unlock to you what is not so obvious and give you the tools to tackle that as well. Because that's what Medina Jaha goofin Allah Nadia Nam sabudana those who strive in our paths and we will unlock those who are striving our way we unlock paths Marisa basura what whatever the Josie Rahim Allah was talking about what not what he was talking about yesterday we were talking about that he wrote about yesterday that like I you know, I don't wish I died 20 years ago because I know Allah better now. So if you commit

yourself to tackling the very obvious, then Allah subhanaw taala will help you to remedy and Charlotte's either not so obvious as well.

We would like to spend the next actually maybe 1015 minutes inshallah Allah with rapid reflection from your side. If you've been with us here for the past 10 Nights, maybe five of them three of them, we've been one of them. And they've learned some they want to see you want to hear from you guys your takeaways in Charlottetown What did you guys learn? What do you want to give as a feedback in terms of hamdulillah some new benefit you want others to benefit from Inshallah, what is it that you have benefit from these sessions inshallah so, each one of you whoever wants to talk to challenge share with us their benefit from these sessions? You guys have one minute inshallah we'll

turn on the microphone, no more. So who's gonna start first

until we get to the microphone from the softer side, if you read the shadow card, this is

a lego

one thing I've learned these 10 days mashallah, this community is beautiful. So thank you so much for sharing your space.

The people hear amazing, Mashallah. But

I also learned, there's so much to learn. There's so much to learn. So Inshallah, the resources will become available.

I'll work towards that. Zach Aloka. Thank you very much. Yes. Salam aleikum. First of all, thank you so much for the for the help. I learned so much. But one thing

from YBNL Josie, I learned that the more we know God, the more we know about God. Like the more we feel the Halawa of worshiping God. So that's the so the more we know about Allah subhanho wa Taala the more we become sweeter to worship Allah azza wa jal Yes, find that joy in worshiping and

I sent Baraka sisters.

If anyone wants to share their reflection in sha Allah, Allah and the benefit, raise your hands, so you could get a microphone and tell them I get one of the brothers in

Santa Monica

Thank you very much for this.

What I learned actually not just learned, for me these sessions, late at night,

late late at night, were actually life changing. I learned so much from them, especially about the DUA I did not really realize how important the DUA how important we really need to humble ourself and be

direct go directly to God because

other people believe that in order to for example, get the you know, gain the forgiveness from Allah, you have to sacrifice whether the sacrifice were the blood or sacrifice, whatever, but what makes our religion this religion unique, that you don't need to do any of that. You just need to go directly to God. And He will open the door, knock on the door and he will open the door for you. Thank you very much Zack Lucha sisters,

Salam Alikum

I'm actually not from the community. I'm from DC and I was able to come and benefit. Welcome. Thank you. Thank you. I'm actually for me every year I try to change one thing about myself during the month of Ramadan. And there was a challenge that was made a few nights ago to try and pray with it every single night which I haven't in the past. But that's my one takeaway for the next year in sha Allah and beyond to pray with it every night. So I loved I was gonna be with her and more than she I love

how many of you are from California by the way?

California. Okay. Can you all stop messing with our real estate prices please like you can visit

but please do

not feel like I need to seek forgiveness from you. I put you I set you up.

I said to

his family is from here from Texas.

okay, Welcome home. Welcome home. Sorry about that. Sorry, but not sorry, but welcome home, this is

the best way to say go back to it.

But besides that Barack laughy I mean, the thing is Suhana just so full of hope, you know, he, besides the Ramadan, these last 10 days has been unbelievable. Like, you know, he's just something I can't even explain. I mean, it starts full circle red comes in the first day when you guys started talking about it with Josie and the mountain and the river, and the possibility of, you know, how you go about, like, you know, snow, you know, it's not just, you do good, and then you know, you're good. And then you stay away from bad, you know, it's both right, you do good, and you stay away from back together, right? And then, you know, now coming back to the last day, what you're

basically saying stay at the doorstep. Subhanallah just basically saying, you know, never give up. Keep that persistence, perseverance, inshallah Tada, and then mela

does that. I think everyone starts cinematic.

I think just one reflection that I have that these talks have made me realize that a lot of times I think there's a sense of in our community that, you know, young professionals don't want to come to the masjid or that youth don't want to come to the masjid. It's fine. A lot of these late night reflections have really shown the complete opposite, that Valley Ranch can Villa the board of volunteers have really gone above and beyond to make the space welcoming and comfortable for all. So I hope but one of the inner functions and I think something going forward that I really hope to see within our community is that after Ramadan in sha Allah, we have all those young professionals come

back to our mission, we have all those youth come back to the mission. And really, you know, we ought to recognize that the board and the volunteers are working so hard to make this space not only welcoming, but one that's inclusive to all those various socio economic status, gender, race ethnicity, so not only I hope that we keep them in our gods, but also that posted them online we make a commitment to come back to this space and child deserve

a fair my Am I says I want to add to this actually reflected my personal really reflection on the on our team, our brothers and sisters, the volunteers who have been working so hard from the very beginning of the month of Ramadan. And frankly, last year Subhanallah when we had our volunteers, mashallah they did you know, serve around 1000 people, maybe more or less, and so on, but this year, we're talking about 1600 1700, on average night will start hitting the masjid. And in addition to that, of course, mashallah coming to the late night hotter, as our numbers are also doubling as well. So they've been working so hard, so hard, and many of them unfortunately, they've been a

little bit you know, kind of,

you know, kind of a little bit people, so were harsh with them a lot of it. And there were so many of them came to me with tears in their eyes, really, I want to make this that you guys you understand the struggle they go through, and they're not going to come back to you to tell you, you're hurt me. You need to apologize to me. But you do hurt them sometimes. And that's the reality. So for those brothers and sisters who come here, and they think they're entitled to come to the masjid because at the house of Allah subhanaw taala. So I don't have to stick to any rules of the Masjid. I asked you to really seek forgiveness from those brothers and sister that you might be you

know, rubbed the wrong way and maybe hurt them because these these volunteers were only trying to keep your everybody safe. And they tell you there is no room inside not because they're doing it for themselves. It's because they want everyone to stay safe. So please keep them on your data. And I want to highlight a few people in shallow data here this man who has seen standing over their brother has exactly

the security desk he does run away

May Allah bless him bless his family or Bananaman an unbelievable volunteer everywhere you go he's standing there to help her handler and brother Fazzy as well to is not what is it? I'm not sure all the volunteers mashallah May Allah bless them on the sister side. There are so many of them Marshalls is the restaurant so fuzzy over there. Also, Sarah

Sonova Sonova does in answer to Aisha all this and many more, of course of Hana sister sort of unfurl from the board. You know, they take the share as well too, from the glenlyon pile on but coming to them but I just want to make sure that in a night like this when we thank Allah subhana wa Tada for the opportunity to be in a method like this I just want you to also make sure you thank these brothers and sisters for a wonderful service that we can't say thank you enough to all of them deserve

up slavery prompt Allah so I'm from New York and I would say the Laguna have

mashallah welcome home.

That I am enjoying so much on this Masjid. Especially there are two sessions which is one match the after the asset and the asset is giving her this does he have this? That was a great

session to learn a lot about

the Hadees and the deepness of the meanings of the Hadees. And after that, we recite the Quran, which is is very benefit for the community. And this session the one which is now going on this 10 days,

Imam Joseph, Rama, Allah, whatever we are, he took taught us, and we took the he told us that these are these are the Hadees and these are the way how you do your life and all the pattern about the water goes down and about the acceptance of doors and all those things, which is a heart touching matters. And we learn a lot about you. And I would say thank you to the community. And thank you for the headman Jamal and for the board people and thank you from my heart that this is such a great masjid and we Allah subhanaw taala give this Masjid till the Day of Judgment and make more and more benefit from this massive army and give the I would say that the community should these schaffen you

know this time this is the time when the lot of Allah ma last two days two years a lot of former has big scholars, they've been gone. But these these people, they are the trainer for this community

accept the you know, the whatever they are saying there's a great thing they are doing.

Just students of knowledge are still learning and we're trying to serve our committee in the best way you kind of shallow that we're coming from you especially on Kanye, this is a beautiful thing. We appreciate that Zach Aloka

on the sister side.

So Mike,

something I learned is pick up the microphone. Sorry, better. Yeah, one thing that I've learned is that the sacrifice between work and you know, learning your deen is not as hard as you think it is. And that we need to spend a little bit more time on pondering the translation of the Quran, you know, more than just reading the English words but contemplating the true meaning. That Calaca Thank you very much beautiful under Allah.

So I go brother Abdulaziz epic, just wanted to start off with a huge Zakouma law here.

Your your your efforts here and your Lena talks. They were appreciated. And I think I can speak on the behalf of everyone. When we say it's very beneficial to Imams and overall Dean.

I just wanted to make mention, a couple nights ago, your talk we had talked about the wall, and we're really hit me was when you're mentioned that Allah subhanho wa Taala he's going to respond to walk. And that doesn't necessarily mean he's going to accept it and give you what you're asking for. But rather, he's going to respond. And if it's not in this dunya it's in the app hero which is like so beautiful. Thank you very much. Last reflections on the suicide inshallah.

ceremony.

I think for me what the most difficult thing that I realized in the past 10 days is that our most difficult jihad is the jihad of enough's. And that no matter what we do, whatever fitna that we have in the world, our neffs is going to be our biggest battle and the only way that we can combat that is by coming here coming to these spaces and gaining knowledge and sha Allah is aka lover Thank you very much appreciated all this feedback. And now I'm sure that we have so many more from the brother side. One last one last one a charlatan because we have we have another surprise for you without all of you before we close the show. And slowly might be one of those examples where you said knock on

the door.

knock my door. No, no, no. But like you see an imam or someone you're like should I talk to them? Do you need help finding his office?

Down the hall to the left that's mine.

So yes,