Is Allah Hearing My Du’a Late Night Reflections #5

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eligible estimator administrators Mr. manleigh Human have the denial of anatomy one on one a lot a lot. I mean when applicable to them with subpoena a lot more somebody was telling me about a karate cola silica Muhammad sallallahu alayhi wa salam. ala alihi wa sahbihi wa salam to Seaman cathedra Hamdulillah. Brahmin. We really been blessed these last few nights we had chef Abdi Nasir, and then we had moved the unbeatable hub. And today we have our dear friends JPS of Kali from Epic across the cross the river so yes, it was just I Sorry, sorry. I forgot to introduce the guest of honor. She is a Burgess. Of course, Masha. Allah.

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Y que you didn't get the dresser. The memo about the dress code? I did not get any. You guys actually send memos about dressing. There's where's your vest yesterday? What's going on? Really? You're supposed to have a vest. Invest in this program. What do you told me? Okay, let's say I don't really someone can please give them a vest? And a Topi? No, no,

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I don't have this anymore. No, topis I would not long ago. That's old school.

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What are you saying?

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So we're gonna continue this, hello, meet discussion that you guys had, like 20 years ago on YouTube, because we still haven't figured it out as a community. So please continue the discussion on next time. Next time. On a serious note, I had a lot of ramen, you know, the blessing of going to Epic recently as well. Chef yesterday.

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Told me to speak about sugar. So to reward you and out of gratitude to you. I let you sit next to Chef Yeah, super just as a reward. But no, we were great. We're very grateful to you for being here, Chef and we're happy to have you at home the novel I mean, and it's a topic. It's a deep, deep, deep topic. So just before I introduce the topic, briefly, inshallah we'll do a line by line quick read of it.

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You know, it's parallel. When I was putting together the judgment, the series, I knew right away that the topic of unanswered your apps that show up on the Day of Judgment is the most important thing to so many different people because this could be the crisis of a person's faith. And we were talking about an agility Rahimullah on how vulnerable he is in his writing and this is actually one of his most vulnerable chapters. So inshallah Tada we'll we'll start small and 100. Also on some hours from now on, it will stop being one letter for your poodle Rahim Allah Tada. He says,

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speaking about the delay of dua, cholera at Mina Bella and Rajab, under the movement Yeah, do Salah your job for you carry Rudra bottle total Muda. What are your thoughts on the job? He said that I saw that from the tests is that a believer makes dirt and the supplication is not answered. So he continues to repeat the drought. And the time continues to go on. And he sees no impact no effect of that for him, but he left an element in the heart I mean, at Billa Abdullah Illa de atado in a sub, so he needs to know that this is one of the tests that requires patience, one that you're already good enough see minute Westworth see fita heat and Joby model dunya. I tell you either clip and the

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sickness that needs to be cured is not the answer to the drought, the delay and the answer to the drought, but rather the West WESA the whispers that come into a person's mind when the drought starts to be delayed for a very long time. So he continues on and this is very beautiful. He says what up Adama the demon had an urgency said by the way, I suffered from something like this. So I went through something like this. So in the who knows, it has been as EDA said, there are two Wahba left to fill them out of the job for AQa at least so yeah, julu fi Hyderabadi KD, he said that I went through this myself and I kept on making your art and I kept on exerting myself in the

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supplication. And then bliss came to me and he started to use his tricks for towels and yeah, cool. And caramel was there, while both gloom and doom, Samantha either to tap here and Joab said so he says to me, you know, if Allah has all that he has, if his generosity is limitless, and if a bowl if deficiency cannot be attributed to him if he's if he's never stingy, then why is he delaying the answer to your drought? So this is a bliss shaytaan talking to him, so called Tula who is that yeah, they're in so I told him go away Oh, cursed one summer I told you either to call them whether or walk alakina I don't want you as an advisor, nor am I nor do I put my trust in you. You're not the

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one that's going to help me solve this problem. So I told the police go away. And then he says some route to Isla NFC. He said then I went back to my enough's so now I'm having a conversation with myself for call to Iraqi one Musa Canada was was it he? The inner who lolium Yeah confy tahirul IJA butta INLA Enya? bluer Cal mocha zero fee Maha Robert De La La Teva in hikma, so I went back to my knifes, and I told myself, beware, beware of letting the effect of that Whisper of the bliss that he just put inside of you stay with you. For verily if the only thing that comes out of this trial of yours, of the delay of the DUA is that you

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Go to war with the shaitan than that is enough of a wisdom in and of itself that it puts you at war with the shape on and helps you overcome the enemy pilot for Salini for Salini and tahirul ejabberd famously had the nausea so that my soul said back to me myself said back to me my NAFSA then, you know helped me get through this helped me understand the wisdom of this take me on a journey with this delay, and obviously I'm paraphrasing, and I'm not reading the translation because honestly it was it was awful. For coal to cut 13 brawny and Allah azza wa jal Malik, well in Maliki at a sorrowful been memory Well, I thought fella was handling it earlier today. He said that I'm talking

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to my knifes now and I said it has been proven already we know through divine revelation that Allah is the king. And the king forbids and the king gives and there is no way for you no route for you to dispute with the king about what the king withholds and what the king gives was sunny and who got Sebata tekmoto Who will did little cardio syrup Dinara at Shea masala will hit mutter large Sakuragi. What cardio? Watch will Hekmati female yeah for Allahu clubby mean a Shia in to the Filati. yucks had to be held Musleh phala Allah had them in that he said, and it's already been proven as well that Allah Subhana Allah has wisdom that is beyond anything that we can encompass.

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And just like so not everything has to have a clear wisdom to it, meaning you trust the wise and we're going to go into detail with each of these, but you trust the most wise, you trust Allah subhanaw taala he has that wisdom. And so sometimes you're not going to be able to see the wisdom of every single thing, just like the doctor with the patient. Sometimes the doctor does things that the patient doesn't quite understand. But at the end of the day, it's actually to the patient's benefit. So it might be that this is from that. So that's the second possibility. With 30th And the third thing and the whole idea cornuta Hiromasa. Well, it's their job to Madala what could call an abuse

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Allah Allahu Allahu wa salam ala is Allah lab to be fade merlon Your strategy, your goal there Oh to fella Mr. Jubliee said the third thing possibility is that it may be that Allah subhanaw taala delaying it for you is actually to your benefit. And had he hastened the answer for you than it would actually be to your harm. And the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam said that a slave of Allah is in in good in a good place, until they say I made dua and it was not answered. So Allah will continue to enter the drought of the slave until the slave says, I made your art and it was not answered. What was there and the fourth thing and the whole idea conium dinerral II Jabba the alpha

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the Alpha Team fique verbum Iacono V mat kolayca Shubha Oh Carl buki worked at Euro if he ruffler o to Zadie Rico better key female Mary Hi Jackie Lee them been mass productive Ito Bertie Minho. So he says the fourth possibility is that it may be that Allah subhanaw taala is holding it back because of something within you. Something within you. So perhaps there is a Shabbat there is something doubtful in your food. So there's some haram and your sustenance, right and you're earning in your worldly earning, or your heart at the time of dua is heedless, or you are being increased in punishment because of a sin that you have not sincerely repented for yet there's an outstanding sin

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that you have yet to sincerely make Toba, for. That has the unbearably high the hill ASVAB law unlucky Takara even Microsoft so look for the answers in this regard so that perhaps you will find out the reason. Then he goes into some stories he says Cambodia and rbse while the Allahu Taala and who and then as a man who knows that a baboon origini fidelity, for Jah for Rahu for Wakasa the Barbie doll what Amala was heavy for DACA for color ATHLEAN and god damn kappa Jana who for Carmel urged me you were Faraja for so in Abuja Z and daddy catholicon had a clean mean watchin fee. He should have the lemma Zara to Shubha xylose la Hebrew her actually this one, I'm going to want some

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explanation from both of you in Charlottetown. But seems like what he's saying is that there was a group of people from outside that were in his home and it seems to be some sort of hostility in them being in his home. Correct. And so he removes something from the outside. So there are people from the outside that are in his house some hostility Allah on him, I'll let the chef yes he was talking about I think What do you mean when he measures over here basically, he was like tried by some people taking over his house right? So he removed that something he felt there was sugar in the right and the kind of like construction of his own house will remove that Allah remove that develop

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for him. Yeah. SubhanAllah. So he says he removed that there were some people that took over his house and he removed a brick from the outside. That was new. And when it was taken away, the people left the house and he said the shipper the doubtful thing was removed therefore, the companion or the

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The hostility was removed as well. Why number Rahimullah was Rahmatullah here I think he under wholeheartedly inquiry when caring for another half will Caliban law who for men or who and Yummly Verado a different message it was ALLAH Maha Raja for boss bustle Cal Bula who from Alba Ankara facade and wound cattle facility there until Callahan for Karla Khanna and the Moon karoun. The manner and eat Femina annual caribou alumna to indolic for Cana Mara Ito. So Ibrahim Al Hawass was one of the Tabata in I believe, third generation Muslim, known for his asceticism, and to Soloff. In that regard, he went out to correct some people to forbidden evil. So he's going out to stop someone

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from doing something wrong or to correct an evil and a dog stops him and starts to bark at him. So he says, I went back to the masjid and I pray to records and I make Toba to Allah subhanaw taala. And then I went back out and the dog was submissive to me, you know, wagging its tail and opening the way for me. And so I went and I corrected those people. And when he was asked about that, he said that I had an evil myself I had a sin that I had committed myself. And once I and so the dog forbade me but once I went back to Allah and made Toba then that's then what happened is what happened in front of you, when Hamas and Nico Youngberry and yucca and basil and MK saw the key

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behind the mud loop through the Americana theater slowly he's the other two isn't. Oh, to hear when and multiparty higher for Canon mineral Isla, he says And the fifth thing is that it might be or you should look for some of these reasons it may be that if Allah gave you what it is that that you're asking for, then that would increase you and sin or it would delay you from a Manitoba from a rank that is better for you. And so Allah forbidding you was actually better for you. What Kudrow yeah and borrow the self Anna who can is Allah Allah, Allah Allah and so it's narrated that there was a man that was one of the pious predecessors was asking Allah for the ability to go out and battle

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had to be he had the phone in Africa in resulta, who served were in CELTA 10 assault Subhan Allah so He was stopped and it was said to him, that or it was inspired that if you were to go out you would be captured. And if you would be captured, you would leave your religion so it's better for you that Allah did not even let you you know pursue this Bob the station that you were trying to pursue of going out and fighting visa vie the law. Because Allah knows that if you were going to be captured, you would have left your religion was sadness and the horrible Americana Fatima tough. Tough. Tough be Dina who suburban little coffee a little dab will logy whoo hoo suburban village. Divali be here

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and in my school, we'll have a VA hero be delille and now Lola Javi. He knows Isla Mara inochi Allah, Allah Baba logy.

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It may be the sixth thing. It may be that Allah Subhana Allah to Allah causing you to miss what you are missing is the very reason why you're at his door and pleading. So the thing that you keep on asking Allah for and the thing you're missing is the very reason you're staying at his door and pleading with him and begging him and had you gotten what you were asking for then that would busy you from the Door of Allah subhanho wa taala. And the proof of that is that if it wasn't for this trial, you wouldn't be making your art like this. The reason why you're into art in the first place and you're and you're so immersed in your supplication and concern with your supplication with ALLAH

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SubhanA wa Bucha is the fact that you need something from him. But how cool is it mamina Healthy Stevonnie him bilberry Falada Humphrey de la niram be our third Federal Home in Derby, yesterday Thornaby. So he says that Allah subhanaw taala knows from his creation, what takes them away from him. So Allah subhanho wa Taala caused them into a situation with some tests and trials that brought them to his door to hide them in a narrow field play Ebola. This is actually a blessing in disguise of a trial or disguised as a trial to the trial that's been given to you that is a blessing because being at the Door of Allah subhanaw taala is actually a blessing. We're in number Bella el mundo

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Maya Sulak Maya Shula ki Anhu Amma up mochi bagni at the fee Jana Loki, and he says that a true trial is what takes you away from Allah subhanaw taala. Even if it's nice and sweet, if it takes you away from Allah, then that's what the trial is. But what causes you to stand in front of him and before him and pleading with him? That's where you're going to find that Allah subhanaw taala is going to increase you and what is good. And this is Subhanallah such a beautiful narration he ends with here. What could what could hook er and Yahia alberca and the Hora rob the horizontal Philomena and I'm gonna ask you chef Yasir qadhi to comment on that part.

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You're here in Boca it was narrated that he saw his Lord in a dream. It's a colleague, Rob, Tim DeLuca whether to God, he called out to his Lord in his dream he says yeah, oh yeah Allah Oh my Lord, how often do I call upon you? And you don't answer me for cada Yeah, in the hippo and Asmara. soltec. Yeah, Allah. He said, Oh yeah, I love to hear your voice in your hippo and SMR salt. I love to hear your voice meaning I love to hear you and your well either to the birdie had to heal Asha to Tasha Vultee Bhima who are unsettled luck men who solely Martha Turkey midwifery fallin our teeth out in means Allah Lin will coffin Allen Barbie Oh Tasneem and ilaro bill.

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And so if you take time to think about this, and to contemplate and to go through the reasons of the delay of your DUA, and you would instead of trying to rush getting what you're asking Allah for instead of being so concerned with getting the thing that you keep asking Allah for, instead, you would focus yourself on making that sincere repentance for the sin that might be holding you back or busying yourself by being at the Door of Allah subhanho wa Taala and submitting yourself to the Lord of all those who claim lordship Subhan Allah so it's a long beautiful chapter and I apologize to the machine if I was reading through it line by line obviously, but inshallah Tada The floor is for both

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of you. Whichever one whoever wants to start with

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your overall comments on the chapter Then we'll go shallow section by section Smilla hamdulillah Salatu was Salam ala Rasulillah. While early he was like being a woman or whatever, my bad firstly, that was very beautiful is that Kamala Harris? I must confess that I didn't understand the format was here. I thought I was gonna give a lecture so I came prepared for a lecture and now we have a shot I have mashallah

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Josie settle Hatha, which is much better than anything I would say. FYI, this passage I have translated in in the book that I wrote about was 25 years ago, I have a book about why the weapon that believer so this passage of say the lottery is translated in chapter eight, I think, which is about the wisdom of a delayed response. So it's a bit minor, so you can read it over there, inshallah. So to summarize if you'd like, so how long do I have? I don't understand the format is different. I apologize. I don't know the format. So what's the format of the questions, you're going to be asking questions,

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your reflection on what you heard today. So I have what 510 minutes so that, okay, okay. So, the way we should look at this is actually slightly different than most of us typically understand what we do. The fact is when we make dua, most of us are in one dimensional mode. What I mean by this is, There's us and there's our dua, and we just want to walk straight till our dua is given to us. Okay, we need to break away from one dt and move into firstly 2d, and then a SHA, Allah breakaway for that to get into 3d. Okay, what do I mean by all of this, if no, Josie kind of summarizes some of what I'm trying to impart here, and that is that we need to stop being so self centered on just the one

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aspect of what I'm asking for, and I want it, we have to move beyond this and understand that first and foremost, look at the broader picture. And that is that there is more to making dua, than getting the Torah answered, there is more to the DUA, and there is a wisdom in making that is more than just you getting what you want. So two dimensional, you begin with yourself and you start analyzing what's up with me, why is it that this dua is taking so long? And it will Josie references a number of these points? First and foremost, ask yourself what am I doing wrong? What is the impediments in my way and journey to Allah subhana wa Tada, right, you need to move beyond the

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selfishness of I want x because there is a wisdom Allah is depriving you of x because of a greater good. So what is that greater good? What is that two dimensional? You begin with yourself, the 2d is yourself. And that is you situate yourself in this whole paradigm? What's going on here? Am I doing something wrong? Do I have sins that are blocking my dua going up? Do I have haram risk because one of the biggest impediments of dua is how long it is. Right? Well, time will wash out how long will it show how a woman go out on your stage ah, Buddha. The provinces give the most eloquent example of a person dying of starvation traveling in the middle of the desert. He's begging Allah Yara brr

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generally such a person would elicit compassion from Allah generally you're all alone. You're wandering in the desert, you're lost. Do you need Allah's help? Then the prophecy is added But hold on a sec. His whole money is haram. He's eating haram he's drinking haram he's wearing around how does he even think Allah is going to respond to him? So that's a terrifying wake up call for us is my it is halal. What am I doing wrong in my own

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analysis of what's going on. Also, a lot of times we're stuck with Diaz of this dunya Oh Allah, I want this job. Oh Allah, I want this degree and Subhan Allah this call hella, and it's all permissible to ask Allah this dunya. But maybe just maybe we have our priorities wrong. Maybe there are bigger and more important than I was we should be making? What are my priorities? Is it dunya? Is it job? Maybe the passion I'm using to get that particular job is misplaced. There are far more important things I need for myself. And I'm not asking Allah for them. hedaya telkwa Mo Farah? Much more easier and guaranteed. So the two dimensional, you analyze yourself, you see what's going on in

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my own life? What impediments do I have? Right, you also realize is still in the 2d Right now I haven't got to 3d in the 2d you still realize that? Okay, this is a test from Allah. So there is a wisdom in this test. And Allah knows what I don't know. Remember the story of Musa al Qaeda? Never forget this beautiful story. Three incidents right? In surah, Al Kahf, three incidents, and every one of them. You don't understand the wisdom when it's happening. Every one of them. Why is this happening? The Moroccan were generous, they allowed Musa and Heather on the boat, and lo and behold, the boat sinks. They would think we were generous. Why is Allah punishing us this way? Okay. And the

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second story where the boy is killed, the boy is killed. And the parents are like, Hold on a sec, this is what happened. We're out of nowhere, some mass murderer came in their perspective and killed the boy. In the third story. The orphans don't have money. And their mother is begging Allah, where's the money? I need money right now. But in all of these stories, they're only looking one dimensional. They're only looking literally one step ahead. They're not understanding it's 2d. They're not understanding. Allah knows. And you don't know Allah. He didn't want to be that animal was an integral Chihuahua. You might hate something and it's better for you to watch and watch or

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you might want something and it is not good for you. Remember the story in the CRO? That hypocrite promised Allah, that Oh Allah, I promise you, if you make me rich, you will see me the most generous of all people, and he kept on making dua and he boasted publicly. And then when Allah made him rich, he said, I don't need to give women home and I had Allah lane, turn them in fogli he then Assad the unknown what an akuna minal solder in for them. Down manifold the divine will be whatever level humoured you don't Allah reminds us insert Surah to Tober. Literally, Allah reminds us of this incident, there are people who they made a promise to Allah, Ya Allah, you will see, just give me a

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million just make me wealthy make me the VP of this company, make me with this person. And when you're 20 and you make all these promises, then when you get to 3040 and Allah has given you all those promises, what happened to all of that? Maybe it's better that promise is not enacted. Maybe it's better as the Hadith in Sahih Bukhari as well that the processor was giving money. And one of the Sahaba said, Yeah, Rasulullah Why don't you give to so and so fo Allah He, he's a Pokemon, and the process of ignored him second time ignored him third time, the process has turned to him and said, oh, so and so. Sometimes, I don't give money to people, even though I love them. Because I

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know that that money will be a temptation for them. And it's going to cause them to go astray and they're going to be dragged to hell on their faces, so I don't give them the money for their own mercy for their own drama. This is the Profit System knowing the Sahaba imagine what they've done with Allah Allah azza wa jal knowing us. Allah knows what is the test and trial for us. Allah knows what is good for us what isn't good for us. So that's the 2d and again a lot can be said here, but time is limited. What is the 3d? Where do we now go even beyond the from the 2d to the 3d, the 3d here what I mean here is the psychology of very bottom from concentrating on ourselves and our wants

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and our problems. We now move on to the psychology of a badass 3d We think about Allah subhana wa Tada Who is Allah and who are we? What right do I have to demand something from Allah? Have I given even partially the book of Allah such that I am now demanding I want this job although I don't have it have you given have I given a fraction of the book of Allah? What gives me the arrogance to write the kibble to then say back to Allah, I don't have this why don't I have it? What have I done in the first place? Who is the Robin who is the Babu? Who is the hacky? Who is that normal for you? So three dimensional, we bring in the psychology of riba itself what is the purpose of dua? The Torah

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is not just because we want x no three dimensional dua is the essence of Riba. There is no act of worship that better demonstrates a rather than no act of worship, and that's why it proceeds and said it visited with a dry hole in a bathtub. And it also now without the Da Da is the quintessential aspect of worship. Why? Because nothing combines between service you

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and fear and hope and love and a booty here than you raising your hands and begging Allah subhanaw taala. For something you need, you are implicitly you are implicitly affirming every name and attribute of Allah. Allah is a fool. Allah is semi Allah is for sale. Allah is a we Allah is disease. Allah knows Allah hears Allah loves Allah can give you simply by raising your hand, you're automatically affirming all of this. You're also affirming. I can't do any of those things. That's why I'm asking you, Oh Allah, I'm not singing. I'm not pulling, I'm not adequate. And so dua is the essence of worship. There is no action not even Sajida. Because we can do such though and our minds

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are thinking about our workplace tomorrow, right? But you cannot do dua that you need. We're not talking to others generically, parrots memorize no dua that you need, your son is sick, you're failing an exam, you need to pass it right, any door that you need. And you discover the reality of Eman. You discover the reality of God, you discover the relative grupo de therefore three dimensional, you realize you know what the spirit of dua is more important than the actual fulfillment of the DUA, to actually be in the mindset of dua, to make dua from the album the audio from the inner body and soul that state well law, he is a bigger blessing than any duty away

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blessing that you're asking for. I want to repeat that any worldly blessing you're asking for the state you will reach for a prolonged delay and your Eman is going higher and higher and your loss is going higher and higher and your hundreds increasing and your relationship with Allah is getting stronger that state it is more precious to you and more needed by you than the actual fulfillment of the drop. So if you understand 3d, and stop being so self centered, this is me this is my job. No break away from that there are higher mocassins, there are higher goals to the DUA than your miniscule one dimensional fulfillment of what you want. And of the highest of them accosted is the

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IV ha of the Obadiah the manifestation of the servitude of the servant in front of Allah subhana wa Tada. And that's why Bill Josie himself says there a beautiful passage in sight somewhere else, where he mentions that and is also frequently says the same thing. He says that the righteous servants, when they start making dua, and it's delayed, they reach a had a spiritual state that is more precious to them, than the fulfillment of the actual dua. And they began to appreciate that had so much so listen to this, that they secretly wish that the DUA is continued to be delayed, because they realize that when the dua is fulfilled, they will lose that had with Allah.

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This is the three dimensional aspect of dua, where we stop being so self centered. And just think about the one aspect of I want to this Subhanallah life is more important than this. And you're a good deal to Allah is the most important thing. So the three dimensional you bring in Who is Allah? What are the names and attributes of Allah? Who exactly am I? What is my relationship with Allah? What am I supposed to be doing here? And if of delay, do I causes you to rethink through all of this, then we'll lagi your daughter has not only been answered in a better manner, that is the essence of why Allah created you think I went overboard? So did this beautiful 100 moment, let's

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build a session right now.

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You gave her lecture.

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This is so beautiful to summarize, subhanAllah the the essence of whatever JoJo Kamala was trying to convey to us really, and if I want to focus on Sunday, when I go back again to two things, the number one thing what you mentioned earlier about the essence of what the Prophet SAW, Selim says, well,

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that in itself is an act of worship. The DUA itself is an act of worship. What does that exactly mean? If Allah subhanaw taala commands you to to worship Him? They need to debate what kind of worship I'm talking about him. Fasting is an activator. Pray is an activity that requires an antibody going for hydrogen atom about a given Zach as an activity Vida right. Now, what are you waiting for? When you pray five times a day? What are you waiting for? When they give you the car? What do you wait for when you you fast and you go to Hutchinson, so are you looking for any immediate reward right away? Or are you waiting for the reward to be where? In Jana?

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That's what our focus is right? How is that different? Because of the AHA and it's always an act of worship.

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It is absolutely something you have to believe that your DUA is answered for sure. It's 100% answered, but not necessarily in a way that might be meaningful to you.

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It's in a way that ALLAH SubhanA wa Taala sees pleasing to you ultimately, if not in the dunya and then the ACA. So your duty is to make the DUA which is the Riba itself so I need to worship Allah subhana wa Taala by making the DUA now, expect

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In a specific response, that your fault

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because a lot that no guarantee that for you. And that's the example you mentioned about the story of avocado and Musa, I mean things were happening, people were not expected. But the outcome of what ALLAH SubhanA was accustomed to happen to them is way beyond their expectation, like the example of the of the boat for them, these fishermen will go into the boat and Musa alayhis salam, and the further action could have made a hole in that boat. And obviously, when they left, the people did not see the hole until later on, I guarantee you these people in the soda Hall, they start maybe cursing and cussing, and whoever did that to them.

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But then later on, they serve the barricade, and these boats are about to be confiscated. And then they see all these fishermen crying their eyes out on the shore. But then the soldiers come to their point and they go, no go, there's all on the boat leave it,

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that same hole, that they were cursing and cussing at the person who did it later on over this about that same home. What a blessing. Whoever did that, thank you very much right? In our life, we always focus on the holes.

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That's what we only see the hole was beyond we don't know. Similarly with the DA, we only focus on what the answer

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but the answer is not coming. Or at least that's what you think. But the answer is, oh, this has been coming to you. Which is why Subhanallah the beautiful statement of your help but God when He says God, Allah, Allah subhana wa Taala when he answered him, he has been asking you about my Lord, I've been making dua, where's my answer?

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And Allah subhana, Allah told him, You got your answer. I'm listening to you. I love listening to you.

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You already got your answer. I am listening to you. I'm loving it. Imagine if Allah Subhana Allah loves listening to you and hearing who you are. Isn't that sufficient?

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Whatever you ask for that for you get it, it might be deterred from doing whatever you could do better. But here the GFS was talking about the heart, the condition, the mental, emotional, spiritual state that you're in right now. That's something beyond any world again. So here you have a guy he got his answer. I said, Look, I answered you already. I'm listening to you. And I love what I'm listening what I'm hearing right now. But if I give you what you asked for what's gonna happen, you're not gonna stop talking to me. You got to stop asking me I'm gonna stop listening to you. So is it better for you to for me to keep listening to you than getting what you personally asked for?

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That's one thing second thing Subhanallah and I remind that remind you

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of is the hardship

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oh man, a lot of people come to me this declarative. How do I know that Allah subhana wa Donna answered mice the HA I said look you guys are taking it wrong. That is the hara in itself for those who don't wants to Hara is when you want to make a decision about something that you're not sure about. So the Sunnah of the Prophet Salah sound that you make will do and did you pray to Raka and you make dua ask ALLAH SubhanA wa Tada This good and that thing to make it easy for you if it's not taken away from you and give you that which is best. So most people do is the hara for what what is the main thing people make a step out of origin ma

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marriage right? So they make us different and they come to me says I made a staccato so how do I know that? My my you know, I got my answer. I said look for the guys. The answer is always positive for sure.

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The problem is are the systems in austere Clara? She keeps saying I'm not really sure that look Subhanallah you got to take it as wrong. At least the Hara is not a decision making tool. Because what's happening to people think about us? They make us divine they're waiting for an answer. There is no flying bird there is no no rainbows hologram, both those colors, those colors, colors, most people waiting for an answer. Well as the Hara is not about getting your answers about you, worshipping Allah subhana wa Taala by delegating the affairs of your life to him and asking him to help you make the right decision. That's what it means. So your job is to make it better. And once

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again, once you start making dua, Utah has been answered, Allah has hearing you, he's listening to subhanaw taala. How does he will to answer you, does not for you. Allah, I want to I want to make this very,

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I'm going to bring both of you in Charlottetown into a place to be a little bit personal challenge.

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The fact that the Josie rocky Mala Tada says I had this happen to me, I've been there. And I think that, you know, there are a lot of times when the righteous feels so unrelatable like, I don't know what's happening and are these people read so much Quran and all they do is worship Allah. When you have one of these people, the most prolific writer in Islamic history saying I've been there like I had to go through this long conversation with my neffs and keep the shaitan away. First and foremost, there's something redemptive about that, that look that is going to be a test in and of itself, that you're going to sometimes have that feeling right and the Prophet SAW Selim said Don't

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say that oh, to for the O to further Mr. Jubliee. I may do and I was not answered. That's one of the whispers that will

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Are you sinful for the Whisper? No. In fact, they're Eva and this is the first part of this would have been the Josie Rahim Allah says the fact that you are exerting yourself just like with any doubt that comes in your mind or in your heart, the fact that you're fighting against the doubt is in and of itself a sufficient wisdom because it strengthens you. And your ultimate benefits are to your ultimate forwards you advances you and your ultimate pursuit of a loss pantiles pleasure. So the fact that you that you went through that, that you're fighting with the Shavon is in and of itself, in and of itself, something very beautiful. Now as for the polyp, as for the Ask matter of

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law, Allah Mehta o'clock Allah, he's taller than him. I know you read it on your tip of the second webinar, thought law Rahim Allah to Allah once. Once Allah subhanaw taala allows your tongue to move. It's because he wants to give you something. Allah is the one who let your tongue move. Allah is the One Who let you make dua, Allah is the One who gave you access to his door of law Subhanallah as the one who gave you that direct connection. And Allah loves to hear your voice, even though even though he doesn't need your voice, he doesn't need your existence. But Allah loves to hear your voice And subhanAllah that part of the chapter, honestly gives me a lot of

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you know, it takes me back to that that statement will be even more capital, the law and like the prophets, I said to obey, Allah has commanded me to read through it to be in it.

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And he said, he started he said, The other sort of lightweight, Allah named me some money. Allah said reads, it will be like you, Allah said, obey my name.

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And he said, Yes, and obey just broke down crying.

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So how is it when Allah says, I like hearing your voice? You enjoy your conversation with me at night? I enjoy my conversation with you at night.

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Think about that, these last 10 nights, I enjoy my conversation with you at night. And so as we come to this, and I really want both of you Inshallah, and I'll try to do my part in this as well, any, see how much we can open up a bit,

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too, obviously, within within the bounds that are that are good. But we've all been there, right? Like we've been in those moments where I'm making drought for something and it's fall, it seems to be falling apart. And we know the text. And it's one thing to know, the text that look at the end of the day, it's not about the follow up, it's about who you are requesting from not the request that you're making and loving to be in that relationship with him and trusting that everything's going to be given to you. But

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can both of you kind of share and as much as personal as you want to get when you've been in some of those moments where like I'm trying to figure out like, and then later on in life, it made sense. Or, you know, you came to some realization.

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So firstly, before I answer your question, you raised the point I wanted to, to mention, and you mentioned in passing, and I want to just harp on that a little bit more, even though Josie the I Lana, the Ocean of Knowledge, one of the greatest luminaries of our entire 14 centuries, he himself was struggling, like all of us struggle.

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No matter how much you didn't you have.

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You're still human.

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And he himself had to like what's going on? What is it my driving answered? Now what I really loved, he opened up because as you're doing the books a little hotter. So your word this is like his personal autobiography that is meant for his spiritual soul. It's a very beautiful moving book. I love the fact that he opened up for us his own inner dimension, inner debates, you can even say an inner demon, right, and how he has to conquer that inner demon. It's human brothers and sisters, it's human, to feel these doubts and to have to go back and forth. But you have to win yourself. That's what real Josie does, right? So I wanted to make that point. And please go back to this in

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Arabic or in English, wherever, and listen to this whole conversation, he has to fight his own soul and conquer his own soul. Now, who is fighting the soul, a part of his soul is fighting another part of the soul. This is the essence of internal jihad. This is what the job of the knifes is where you have these doubts and issues and another part of you with the demand side, the Sneem scientists to come and take that other side down. So that's a very important point that doesn't matter who you are. It's not a weakness of the man to go through these types of things, even though Josie is going through this. Now, as for your question about personal anecdote, actually, my draft book mentions

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it. I have a book called the weapon of the believer. It's like 24 years old now. So I love that book. Not me. I'm a bit older than 24.

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And I write in that book, and if you don't have it, please do find it online or whatever. It's one of my most. Personally, one of my favorite books that I've written. I've handed it out. It's a very emotional book. And FYI, is also my most popular selling book, right? The reason I think it is the most popular selling is because I wrote it with passion. And why did I write it with passion? It was at a time of my own life where I

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was undergoing one of the biggest tests and trials that I have ever undergone in my life. I have spoken about that in one of my library chat. So I don't want to go into the actual details here. But let's just say a very big volume had been done to me a very massive injustice, and my reputation slandered. And, you know, I was going to come back and not doing my Masters because of a slander because of a lie that people had said about me. Okay, so given a one way visa to leave the country, and to come back here, and I was marks wise, great whites accepted, I was technically supposed to go to the masters of Medina, but because of internal issues and standard stuff, that wasn't happening,

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I was writing this book, making dua to Allah to write the injustice done to me.

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So the entire summer of 2000, and I remember vividly because I got accepted in that summer, the entire summer of the year 2000. I was just doing research on behalf of myself. And I was writing the book for myself from the color I want, and I'm making dua, and there was a time limit on that because I had a visit I had a visa that was going to be I was going to leave the country, I had to be accepted by a certain date, or else I'm leaving. Okay, so literally, I'm making dua, and I'm writing the book of dua, as I'm making dua, hardly in my life, have I done more any stronger spiritual dua than in that phase, you know, and so all of these quotations and all of the books that

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you write in Sharla, you can feel my own spirit in it. And it was ALLAH.

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I finished the first draft the second draft, I'm finishing up, and I'm writing the introduction to finally send to the publisher, and I have a week or two left before I'm packed my books to leave the country. When phone call comes out of nowhere, I didn't even know the guy complete, you know? And he goes, Yeah, yeah, I said, I'm sure you know, your TA has been answered. And I remember clearly I fell into such that that night and just, you know, hammered and it was just, and I bought that in the introduction, you greatly read the introduction, like, you know, the Doha was answered right before, like, the 11th hour as they say. So I have seen and there is no question if you know, the

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whole story. For me, this is a caramba it's like a march. It's not gonna happen otherwise, you know, Allah intervene because of the DUA. Otherwise, there is no way if you know what's going on in the country. How did that happen? But to be honest, there are other times when I have made dua, and I didn't get what I was asking for. That's also the case. We are all human beings. And yes, just like if no Josie has to struggle, yes, you have to struggle what's going on? Am I doing something wrong? Am I sinful, you know, is Allah not happy with me? Shaitan comes and tells you this, you know, and you have to remind yourself Well, firstly, we're always have a constant journey to Allah. But

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secondly, and I need to make this point, not having your DUA answered, the way you want it to be answered is not a sign that you're an evil person, you're a loser, you're a failure. No. Because first and foremost, as both of the machines have said of Josie says before him, we have to get rid of this mentality. My dua wasn't answered, No it was answered. Your dua is guaranteed to be answered. Your dua is guaranteed what God ordered only a stumble upon a short what you are Bucha This is a conditional clause in Arabic. This is a conditional clause, you do x you will get why Allah has a conditional clause about dua, your Lord has announced to mankind or to Rooney, you make

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dua to me, a scheduler come I shall respond to you. This is a clause and the answer to that clause, guaranteed response, the provinces that have said use their job only your two hours will be responded to end of story period, you should not doubt your daughter's responded to. Unfortunately, we're in the one dimensional mind, we think the response is to get what I want. No. Perhaps Allah gave you something better. You didn't even realize it. Perhaps Allah averted a calamity. You didn't even realize it. Perhaps Allah will reward you on the Day of Judgment and what you will get is infinitely better than your meager jump that you wanted, and you were making dua for so Allah has

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responded, stop thinking Allah hasn't responded. That's point number one, you shall be responded to don't start making dua. Point number two.

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If the Prophet says in himself can make dua and Allah says no, I'm not gonna give you that. Then how about me and you?

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Even the two hours of the Prophet says I'm not all of them were given Hadith isn't without the Muslim ban. On others, the prophets have sat down come up with a Latin Farrakhan, a native woman, anti white experts with Hadith, I made dua to Allah for three things. He gave me two of them and he did not be one Subhanallah

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denial does not mean that your rank is lower, we will be law Allah has a higher plan than you. By the way, what were these three T three these three things? Number one, that my Alma shall not be destroyed by an

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natural calamity. I don't want my own mutt to be destroyed by natural. So never shall the entire Ummah be destroyed by because some of the previous nations were destroyed like this way. Number two, no foreign nation no foreign civilization will come and conquer them completely. Yes, portions can be conquered, colonization conquered 80% But the home is never going to be conquered 100% And Allah gave him that. What was the third that he didn't give him? The process of Make dua Rob, let there be no inner fighting amongst my ummah

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and for a wisdom known to Allah, Allah said, No, I'm not going to give you this. So we have civil wars from the time of the Sahaba up until now we have what we have between the OMA but the process of asked and Allah said no. So never think that because you didn't get what you wanted, that your DUA wasn't responded to because there's other ways of responding and never think that just because you didn't get what you asked for that you're a failure or loser. No. Your dua itself. CERT shows that you are a worshipper of Allah. And perhaps your highest state ever in life will be when you're struggling to have the DUA answered, and you're praying constantly to get what you want. Perhaps

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that state will be one of your best states and will cause your shofar just like you only the tabular, he said that Allah azza wa jal responded to him that hey, I want to hear you. That's why I'm not answering your DUA because your state right now was better than anything before and it's gonna be better than anything after so during this timeframe, I want you to be in the state because I myself am enjoying it. So never ever think that wait, Allah azza wa jal will give you what you want. And insha Allah in that struggle, your iman is being proven to yourself and to Allah azza wa jal.

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This beautiful Subhan Allah regarding the what have been new Joseph himolla. Speaking about unrest in terms of his own trial, one of them I believe it was my most prominent in his life, which we spoke about at the beginning of the series, his biography his son, like you know what, he's the most prolific author out there the Muslim ummah is mashallah the greatest, you know, preacher and speaker, you know, just panela people that repent when you hear His voice and this and that. Still ALLAH SubhanA tried him with one of his children, that he made a lot of divers goddess and just didn't happen for Hickman, or wisdom on Allah knows Hanuman Madonna, when it comes to Sahaba della

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Duran, whom they themselves also they said Carla Madonna Sorolla, where's the where's the victory that Allah subhanaw taala promised? What does that exactly mean? They'd be making da da da da da. And then it just wasn't happening right? When the Sahaba or the Allah Duran, and they came to the Prophet Salah Salem, Billa, Hubei and others, they came to the prophets and so when they came the prophets of Allah Salam when they were still in Moscow, and he was resting in the shade of the kava, Salah Salem, almost like a taking a nap. And let's have a look at the Prophet Salah said I'm in a situation like this and he's just taking a nap. What's going on here? So this is your Rasul Allah,

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Allah, the ruler and another sensor and why don't you make dua for us? Why don't you ask Allah to give us victory? The professor asked me just quietly the setup and his look at them, because look, they were before he went through a lot of hardships way bigger than yours. And he mentioned two examples. alasa. But the point he said, Look, ALLAH SubhanA wa will have his will, he will fulfill his promise. He will fulfill his promise to you. But it's going to be on his terms, not your terms. So the same thing and your plan, Allah has a plan for you. He is going to make you live go on his terms. But he will guide you through Tapana with Donna. Now, my personal experience, Pamela, it's I

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don't know if I've ever actually mentioned this in public. And but it happens around 2012 2013. It happened that my wife and the kids, they went actually to travel to Amman, Jordan span and they were supposed to come at the end of the summer. But then for a reason Allah subhanaw taala knows

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things get complicated, they were unable to come.

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And the problem with that, and the biggest issue was the uncertainty of how long they're going to stay there. So it was a day to a week to pile up, say tomorrow after tomorrow, two more weeks, three more weeks, all that stuff and SubhanAllah. During that time, the kids came back and my wife stayed behind. And then I had to be the mom and dad the same time and also finishing my master's degree and all these kind of things and being the Imam of added and all that stuff. Not so many people knew about what was going on. And some people didn't even know that my wife was absent. She was absent for more than 15 months, 16 months actually.

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During that time I got really exhausted, really exhausted it just how you get to this moment, sometimes you're unable to, to continue it just like a moment where you feel broken. But that's when I realized how Allah that the sweetness of all this experience after towards the end of it. The point is that I was making dua that Allah subhanaw taala make it easy that they come and we reunite the family together and all that stuff and so on.

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And the kids at the time were still young, the oldest was 13 and 11. And nine, it was so hard to cannula. So sure what happened

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after all these 1516 months, that was it, I was really, really tired and exhausted. But somehow it was a Friday.

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And I was getting ready to give God with a Joomla and the old masseter I came into the Masjid. For some reason I felt so peaceful. It was just a moment of peace and tranquility. And I just prayed to raka wedding to go and remember to give the hotbar and I sat down. And I'm listening to the people reciting the Quran, the humming of those citations that was so beautiful, so peaceful. I raised my hand and said, Lord, just show me a sign.

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Just show me this, I just want to know if I should stay longer to wait longer. Or if I should just pack up and go be with my family.

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I'm asking us for a sign. And then I want to give the football Subhanallah and lift that Friday. I was so exhausted in the morning, I didn't read sort of curve. So as I was going to pick up the kids from school, and driving and Osiris or little calf, and then I came to the story of Musa CERAM. And the last word I pronounced was the word Musa. And then my phone rang. I'm looking at the phones. So should I answer them finish my Surah first

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hour of the brother zero not but eventually. I said let me answer him. So as we go shift, you have a minute. I said, Sure. So what is it? He goes, I had a dream. I said, Okay, he goes, I saw Prophet Musa and my dream.

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interest interesting.

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So what is it about he goes, Musa alayhis salam, he was looking at the dome at night, and the stars were so beautiful. And he pointed to the stars with his staff. And he started moving it and the whole dome started moving and going around and swirling around with his movement.

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He said, What does that exactly mean? As a desert Calaca

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it was why I told him this dream wasn't wasn't for you. It's for me.

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Because we're serious. take us seriously, I'm telling you, it was not for you. It was for me, thank you very much.

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Three days later, my wife as she was back home

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SubhanAllah.

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I was just like, for me, it was like unbelievable. I realized in that moment, when you come to this moment of absolute brokenness, when you realize that ultimately, no matter what do you try with people and this and that, and so on. So when you realize you've exhausted all means to get your things done your way, he's going to deal with his way.

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And the sooner you come to this realization with Allah subhanho wa taala, the more peaceful your life is going to be. And the more you will reconcile with all these hardships and difficulties because it's just part of a journey.

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It's on his terms, that things will be done. Lulu

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I think very beautiful, Mashallah. And I appreciate both of you, being willing to be a bit personal with these things. So hello, I think,

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you know, one of the things that becomes so crucial for us, is to understand that sometimes the greatest joy, but the greatest struggle, is actually when you don't find any answer whatsoever. And it does not alleviate or does not become,

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you know, lifted. It's not alleviated for you in this life. And you draw all the pictures and you put all the puzzle pieces together, and it's still not working and you still do teslim to Allah subhanaw taala you still say Robbie slumped? I'm good. Yeah, Allah, if this is what you've decreed. I'm gonna wait till the Day of Judgment. And I will be.

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You know, I'll, I'll seek that reward from you, then. It's Pamela and I was thinking, you know, it's no secret with me. I mean, for me, it was loss of my mother, Elena Hama, 15 years ago. And I've lived my entire life through that tragedy. And

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I think that for the first time, in COVID, I started to feel a closeness to a lot of people because so many people started losing their parents, you know, so I used to kind of feel left out in that sense, right.

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And one thing I always try to tell myself and I'll say it, particularly to those that have lost loved ones.

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I did an interesting reflection on sutiya seen this year. It's a you noticed how every time you read the Quran, something hits you for the first time and you go, Whoa, and I had a very interesting reflection on Yeah, later call me or them on the mouth or follow the rugby or journeyman or micromill, the righteous man who is killed in Surah Yaseen, who says, If only my people knew, if only my people knew what my Lord has done for me and how my Lord has honored me. Now obviously, this is speaking in the sense of hostile to those that were hostile to him and there's so many law

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sense that we often take and speaking about the debt or the care that the Day that the caller to Islam should have for the one that they're calling, right? If you don't love people, you can't give them down. If you don't care about your students, you can't teach them, it doesn't matter how brilliant you are. And if you don't want people to be saved, you're not going to be able to save them. You can't you can't be a dairy and not love the person that you're trying to save. That will require us that empathy. And so we often talk about the lessons of empathy from that, and it's empathy for people's ACULA. Right? When my reflection this time, I was like, SubhanAllah.

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How many of the righteous that have departed, that we grieve over? If they could talk to us would say, what are you crying about?

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So this idea of being self centered a bit, you know, when we lose our loved ones, and there's so many different dimensions to this, there's the sending forth of a parent to the RTR, there are some times the more difficult and then sending forth the spouse and certainly for the child, even

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And subhanAllah when we talk about the children, and the people that lose children,

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and the pain of that and you don't ask Allah for those tests, you do not ask Allah for those tests. Don't ask your Lord to test you ask your Lord for degrees. That's also part of Tasneem, by the way is don't challenge Allah will say, Yeah, Allah, I want this severe test so I can reach the smoke. No, no, no, ask for the MACOM don't ask for the Bella, let Allah test you as he sees fit. You think about it, like, you know, we saw people in these last few years make dua next to their parents bedside, and their parents died out in front of them. And that was a crisis for many of them. And subhanAllah that if those people that have gone away truly were accepted a shahada

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would they want to come back

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home in adversity Angelica Allahu teittleman cannabis as a beloved now bustle, the love of Tyler and Homer says that

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when his father passed away, I busted the law and who passed away and the man said to him, the Bedouin man said to him, better for you than an ibis is the reward that you have now that he's been taken away from you, if you do proper sub internet T sub. If you do proper patience and seeking the reward Allah Hi, I'm Michaela bass. And by the way, if Bassel the Allahu taala, and who has his Robin now is with his Lord. Now, the comfort that God offers is greater than the comfort that the sun offers. When you send forth a child, your brothers and sisters and people leave behind children in this life hoping that they will, you know, grow up and and be an extension of their southern

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majority and things of that sort, you've sent forth a Shaffir, you sent forth an intercessor that's waiting to enter you into Jana. You know, whether it was a little fetus or a child to take you into Jana and take you into a bait baits and hemtt house called the House of praise for the one who praise Allah subhanaw taala through that hardship, when he sent forth the parents, you spend the rest of your life on Earth, trying to live up to it trying to be there extension trying to trying to be great sometimes for them, even when you can't be great for yourself, you know, when you don't have the drive yourself for yourself to be to be driven by wanting to do good for them. And that may

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be that those people that you've sent forth are enjoying the reward. And you are enjoying a closeness to Allah subhanaw taala as a result of it or the potential of a closeness to Allah that can join you with them and that reward. And then one day you pass away.

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And we're sitting here in the masjid or you're sitting here in the masjid after I'm gone or when we're gone. And those that have passed away are saying, If only those people of your IC knew.

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If only that brother I used to pray next to New if only that sister I used to pray next to New if only they knew what Allah subhanaw taala has given to me. And so again, you can't do this, you cannot come to terms with unanswered your eyes unless you believe in a better place that they're answered. And that place is the alpha. That's where we seek this reward. We don't do all this for dunya we do all this for alpha, you have to have that mindset. Once you start mixing up the two goals. You're at will lose potency you'll grow and resentment rather than closeness to Allah Subhana Allah to Anna and your faith will suffer. But when you put the akhirah as your place of desire as

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your place of reward, and what Allah gives you this dunya you said hamdulillah for it along the way a lot you have with Lancome Allah sanitize, making, making it a little bit easier for you along the way. All these gifts, the gifts of each other honestly the gifts of companionship, the gifts of each other all these gifts hamdulillah but look for the market as the place of your desires the place of your reward. So my last point is I grant us Tina for dunya Hassan was in Archeologia hasta la cleaner other Banagher May Allah subhanaw taala grants the best of this life and the best of the next and protects us from the fire. And I want to specifically make that for two people. Dr. Jamal

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Badawi, the whole lotta who's who's Ill ask the last panel. Dr. Gmod is our is a pioneer for us and we owe it to him.

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Any effort that comes out there's a share of it that we can attribute to Dr. demanded by the we may lost parents I'd give him she thought cure him and preserve him to reward him an expert has sins and also a sister duty at the mother of sheffey acid Fanime Dr. Daria Femi who is very ill right now very sick and is very serious situation. May Allah subhana wa Tada give her full she thought last panel to allow her to pass through these critical moments with Shiva and may Allah azza wa jal grant her and her family the reward and the ease Allama Amin and Chef Yusuf Machir our own panel over here may Allah subhana wa Gretton him full Shiva and return him back to us and give him the full reward

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of these nights that he saw a llama I mean

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I think we'll take questions now

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sound will come up though I got to say gather how's it going?

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So that book of the wire that you mentioned, it was a very tough time for you to write that book and you were focusing about you know, like, it was a very hard part part of your life. How do you manage time to write the book and to you know, give it your all to get that book and Matsuda has rewarded you so much with you know, zero years bestseller which means has given you a lot of risks. So you know that hardship in the long term gave you a lot of risk and a lot of benefit. And that's pretty much and also the Eid Salah that Anita you mentioned in the Southfork ranch this is only going to be what you got to be the speaker

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Am I allowed to announce the Eid Salah here at VRSC I don't know if this is a halal competition.

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We weren't really sure when we were making this whole week we're making go I won't really show up. So Dallas is going to see in sha Allah the biggest the grandest, the most epic read that has ever seen the most epic armory that has ever seen.

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Can you answer the direct

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and it is open for all the Dallas in fact, all the Texas in fact, Atlanta, whoever wants to come at Southfork ranch shall be taking place 930 On the day of read on Monday. And of course Southfork Ranch is of course the famous ranch where the famous series Dallas itself was filmed. Not that I would know anything about that or who Jr is who killed him. I don't know any of that. So but that's where it was filmed. So it's a historic moment as well as Charlotte that frankly it is iconic and the fact we're gonna have maybe 10 Muslims coming in Charlotte, anyone who goes don't come back I stopped

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what's the Okay, we won't say welcome home again. We'll say

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we won't tell anybody. Don't worry, just congressman and hamdulillah Plus, we'll have rising carnivals and every anyway, so that was your second question. And yes, I will be. I've been scheduled to give the

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as though I was answered I guess Yeah. 930 Inshallah, on Monday, see you all there in Chava. As for your first question, subhanAllah I found the book therapeutic. It was a very tense time of my life. As I said, Allah has blessed me to be almost five decades now. Subhanallah honestly, that timeframe was one of the most stressful times of my life for multiple reasons. My wife was nine months at that time with my eldest and you know, financially strapped it was just a very difficult time overall, Visa situation, uncertainty. Subhanallah it was just overall, so many things happening. So the book was my therapy.

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writing the book was therapeutic. And I put my heart and soul into that book, really. So that's why I think anybody who reads it they feel it's in there because I felt I've never been as emotionally invested and I'm gonna have what almost dozen more than dozen so this book was the one that it just it really overtook my own life and I was doing nothing other than this because otherwise my mind it's okay. We're all human beings man. Very, it's things are traumatic. Doesn't matter how much anymore ever, whatever. When a trauma happens, it hurts. It really does. And we are humans. We're flesh and blood. All of us here anybody you see, we're all flesh and blood. And when things happen

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that are difficult, our lives are affected, our mentalities are affected, you know? So, I found the book my therapy and that's why it kind of, you know, alleviated some of the stress and then hamdulillah what happened happened to show up so I've been answering your question in Sharla.

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Sisters have a question.

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recently discovered Tessa woof and I've come across different perspectives on this topic. I wanted to hear what you think and know about this.

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But her question was about to sell off. She said she recently discovered to sell off and it gave her some different perspective on this topic. It's a wide, it's one of those those branches and words that obviously has such a wide connotation to it. And the way that we respond is there is that which is grounded the spirituality that is grounded in the tradition that doesn't exceed the bounds and you'll find even the author himself,

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delineate between the Praiseworthy, and that which isn't praiseworthy, and the praise and that which obviously, is immense of a means of spiritual purification, and bringing us closer to Allah subhanaw taala. It becomes blameworthy when either the practices exceed what we learned from our messenger sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, or the ideas themselves, start to guide the practices away from that. And so, obviously, again, I think that when we're talking about these types of discussions, and there, I mean, there is an element of that spirituality in the pursuit of spirituality and the methodology of that. And spirituality is certainly not random. It has tools, it has mechanics, we

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have tradition that we lean into, we have scholars that we look to, but we're always guided sort of by that original revelation with ourselves alone. Just a quick,

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free plug in Inshallah, I have a 30 minute lecture online in my q&a Number 141. Regarding Sufism, which is a bit of an academic talk, and it is a very, inshallah neutral, where I try to explain what is the source of Sufism. So you can listen to this online, it's on YouTube. So you just Google my name, and then regarding Sufism, and it's Asha IQ number one for one episode.

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And if I can ask this as the questions are still we only have about 14 minutes, so please keep it to the topic, inshallah. So whoever has a question, make sure your questions about the subject and show lots of unanswered glass. And so

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is it normal to feel a lack of entitlement to ask Allah for things sometimes, like, sometimes I feel like I'm asking him for so many things that it comes off a little greedy, or I'm not thankful for the blessings that I've been giving. So I dedicate some time to be thankful during to the blessings that I have, how important is it to do that? And is it normal to feel that way? Sometimes.

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So there, there's multiple angles of this. Firstly,

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at one level, it is healthy to feel this if it's done properly, but at another level, it is a mistake, and I'll explain, okay. It's healthy to feel this in the sense that you should all of us should feel that Allah azza wa jal has given us so much. And we haven't thanked him for what we're giving what we have been given, yet. We're asking for more. So there was an element of shyness, and that's good.

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That's good that you understand that, you know, what I already have so much, and I haven't been thankful enough and I want more, that having been said, We should never stop asking. So the shyness should remain there. But we constantly will continue to ask because what is the alternative? Who else are you going to ask?

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You must ask because you are a creative being that has La hawla wala Quwata, Enderby, now, you can do nothing and I can do nothing. Right? We must ask because we are completely helpless without Allah. And so when the prophets have said, Hadith isn't a widowed, not a single dua that you make, except that Allah will give you either something of this world or a verta cry a calamity or give you something at the after the Sahaba said, Yeah, rasool Allah, if that is the case, we will ask Allah for even more, even a stack, right? And the prophecies have responded, he smiled and he said, Allahu

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Allah is much more than what you can ask for. Allah is much more than what you can ask for, right? And remember, the famous Hadith could see that our prophets are some said that Allah says that if all of the Creation gathered simultaneously, and asked me all of their needs that they can possibly imagine, and I gave them every single god that they asked me to, it would not diminish my dominion, except like the needle dipped into the ocean diminishes the ocean. So when you're asking somebody who has the treasures of the heavens and earth, when you're asking somebody who is educate him, then don't be shy. Go ahead and ask. Don't be shy because they won't be shared because of you, as I said,

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and also remember this, that you not asking means nothing. Your existence is contingent on Allah giving you existence. Your breath, your sip of water,

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It is Allah giving it to you whether you ask or not. So don't link your, what you have with Allah with you're asking Allah because Allah azza wa jal is giving even if you don't ask,

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Allah is giving even so you're asking is only a manifestation of your Obadiah. That's all that it is right? Therefore you continue to ask because it is going back to the 3d that I mentioned. Right? And our mother issue said it's also reported as a hadith but it's not as diverse already. It's actually more of our mother Asia, or that our issue of the Allah one has said that, if your shoelace breaks, then make dua to Allah that you're blessed with a new shoelace. Because unless Allah gives you a shoelace, you ain't gonna get a shoelace. There is no such thing as a trivial dog.

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So you feel embarrassed not because you're asking Allah but because you haven't done your heart. But you still ask. And this goes back to the psychology talked about the three dimension, right? The higher comes from yourself. And by the way, Allah Himself isn't how you Allah Himself as if when you make dua again, it doesn't without that the Prophet system said in Allah Hi ye Yun get Iman, yes to Him and Abdi He, Allah is Shai. Allah has bashfulness Allah has a modesty that is befitting him and Allah is generous. Allah is bashful that when his servants raise his hands up to him asking something that he allows those hands to come back cifra with zero the word zero comes from Super

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Supra with nothing in them. Allah is Hain so go ahead and feel a sense of I know I don't deserve this Oh ALLAH but then say what? Oh Allah, I need it because you are the Rob and I am the abbot. Although you are my molder of Allah, there is no ILA to call besides You, Allah. There is no Rob other than you. If I don't ask you, how am I going to ask? So yes, you feel that embarrassment. And then you continue to ask ALLAH SubhanA wa Tada.

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If I want to add one more thing, actually, that was the story of a young lady Salam with all the tests that he had to go through. And then Allah subhana wa relieved him from that test eventually, and he gave him everything back. You give him his family, his wealth, his life, everything he got everything they thought was set up, that Allah subhana wa sent upon him gold raining, basically. So what did he do? He grabbed his stove, and he start collecting all that gold is though, collecting more of it. And Allah Subhana Allah sent to you? Are you Allah Monica, didn't give you enough that you don't need this animal? Because yes, my lord, you did? Well, I could live in LA unfold look, I

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can never have enough of your bounties.

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So what comes to the subject of greed? It's the wrong perception. What comes to Allah subhana wa Donna, we think what you're asking is too much. But that's even a wrong concept. Because what Allah says, There's no such thing as too much. Really, whatever you ask is absolutely nothing. So keep asking. There is no such thing. But however, just like Seamus was talking about, don't forget to be grateful as well to all show your thanks. And your servitude to Allah subhanaw taala Allah, Allah will take probably one more question from the sister, and then we'll we'll wrap up, it's gonna sound like them, check out the I really loved your description of the different dimensions of the wall,

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and how in the third dimension of the wall, a person in a state of such need and such desperation, they they create that relationship, they become so close to Allah, after they're answered, and they enter a sort of period of ease and in their life, how do they maintain that closeness to Allah when you're in that period of ease? And that is why it says that the righteous person understands that when the dua is answered, they're gonna lose that connection.

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And so deep down inside, even as they're saying, oh, Allah, I want I want their heart is saying, Yeah, but not yet just keep on delaying, because their heart begins to become addicted to the love of Allah to the relationship, the conversation, right? That closeness that you feel, at that time of need, you know, you're not going to feel it when there is no need, right? So at some level, you understand that's going to happen at another level, you try to make up for it, you make up for it by being grateful, and how is gratitude shown? Generally speaking, gratitude is shown by being in a better state after you get what you want than you were before you had it. Okay? So being in a better

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spiritual state, having extra Ibadat having extra charity, having extra you know, nothing or to have Judo thicker or whatnot. You demonstrate to Allah that you appreciate because we don't want to be like half a dozen verses in the Quran that Allah says, the order of operation are those that are, you know, not worshipping Allah properly. Allah describes their state that way that Mr. Han will do when they're in a time of need Tao Allahu Allah with Dean, they make dua purely in class, right? They're making dua standing, sitting and lying down. Then when Allah responds to

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Do your Quran your Quran here doesn't mean they reject Allah yet don't here means they become ungrateful. Okay, we don't want to be like those people, how do we not be like those people, as I said, perhaps And realistically, you might lose that had that you had with Allah, but then you may come in other ways. And as I said, the main thing to do is that and this is a by the way, the general rule of thumb, that anytime a good deed happens anytime you go for Hajj, let's say Ramadan, anytime a blessing happens, that you should be better post blessing than you were pre blessing because Allah says in the Quran, in nama Yatta but Allahu Menon would chuckling Allah accepts from

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the people of Taqwa. So if Allah is accepted your Hajj Allah has accepted your Ramadan Allah has accepted your dua that means inshallah inshallah you've done some Taqwa aspect. So then you need to demonstrate that Taqwa by actually having a different lifestyle. So this is inshallah in a nutshell will lower

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ciabatta will wrap up. Zach LaFell, Chef, Yasser for coming by. We appreciate it. And we have a lot of rhyming. I think one of the beautiful things, obviously is just the closeness but the nighttime of our communities and we've been having a lot of that that town and working together with the knights on so we pray for the Brotherhood to increase between our communities. How many of you have been to Epic before brotherhood? Raise your hands.

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Okay, how many have not been to Epic?

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This week, Inshallah, and I'll see all of you for epic either shall you must retire. That's about 40 people. But um,

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how many of you like epic more than VR stuff?

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That's three people. That's

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how many of you are from Epic. So there are more people from Epic

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than those who raise their hand for liking epic more than various Sisa. Guys, I'm

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Matt, we

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will have a conversation.

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I'll make dua for you. And you know, we I'm just going to put this out there for our heat salon.

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For our acela, we're going to be doing one or insula shift. Yeah, super adjustment, we're gonna taxi one's going to lead solo one's going to get hold of us. So you get you get a two for one deal here.

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And we won't be that mad at you if you go to to their acela, but we, we hope Inshallah, that we can continue to do things to increase the bonds between our communities within it, the Brotherhood, the sisterhood, it's a time for that it is a time for that. So it's very It should be noted that the do the profit slice and the one thing was that he wanted unity and his salatu salam, and Allah azza wa jal has entrusted us with that moja as well that we strive and we struggle to unite our ranks to unite our hearts and that is a favor of Allah subhanaw taala that I want you to take that with you in sha those that are watching online, those that are here, you know, ALLAH SubhanA, Allah to Allah

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says, with Guru netmeds, Allah here they come is Quinton Aragon for Allah for being a guru become for us back to be near Mati one, remember the favor of Allah upon you when you were enemies, and Allah is the one who brought you together. And so you became once again by his blessing he mentioned it was only his nightmare twice. You were brothers. So may Allah make us brothers and sisters, those of us that are here across the Masada across the globe, may Allah always allow us to see each other as brothers and sisters, and to grow together and that which is pleasing to Him. May He give us the foundation of this revelation in our hearts and our lives, in our ethics and our institutions. And

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may Allah subhanaw taala allow us to do the work of the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam long after after he has left us and may Allah subhanaw reward all of the Messiah, all of the institutions of the masajid that are working together and may Allah as those that allow us to catch later through other May Allah Subhana Allah have mercy on our loved ones who have passed May Allah subhanaw taala cure our loved ones who are ailing the ones that we named and the ones that we have not named. I mean Allah subhanaw taala accept from us all allotment I mean just talking a little heightened Sharla timeout to add it tomorrow we'll continue with with actually talking about that so we're

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gonna continue on the the notion of hardships another very beautiful chapter. May Allah reward the man with New Jersey Rahim Allah to Allah what are the whole mullholland his immortal child still amongst us in this book may last Prandtl accepted and we got to hear about your bid in the night either whether whether whether you can Mohammed Bin lightolier Immortal child in the draft book, may Allah azza wa jal accepted from you chef Zach malachite and I'm going to do it chef yes and we're just always does which is please allow the machine to proceed, inshallah to Allah and enjoy 30 minutes with the night tied to themselves and then at three o'clock we will start our at the Sophie

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acid with a big smile on your face. Can you tell everyone to leave us alone?