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Lessons from the Anbiya #20
Channel: Mirza Yawar Baig
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Bismillah R Rahman r Rahim al hamdu Lillahi Rabbil alameen wa Salatu was Salam ala l mursaleen. Mohammed Rasulullah sallallahu alayhi wa sallam to sleep on Kaziranga Sierra Nevada.
My dear brothers and sisters.
Let's rattle data set in the lahoma Nika who said lunarlon nebia un levena amanu sallu alayhi wa sallam waters Lima.
Allah said Oh, you will believe
la said Verily Allah and His Malaika send Salam and blessings on Rasul Allah Salallahu alaihe salam, and oh you will believe you also sent Salam on Rasul Allah so I Solomon addressing with Salaam
Salas so send them how they should do that.
And this is
that itself the question of the Sahaba itself with one leg anyway is a means and it's a lesson for us to learn
on how to approach matters of Deen not using our own intelligence or so called intelligence or not using custom and practice and not using our likes and dislikes. And say this is how I would like to do it. In matters of the we refer the matter to Rasul Allah He sallallahu sallam,
we do what he did, we do not do what he did not do.
And about this, we are very particular and strict, because this is the fundamental principle of the Sharia of Islam,
that whatever in matters of rabada whatever.
Rasool Allah, Allah Allah did
is halal is permissible and what he did not do is not permissible it is not valid.
In matters of dunya in matters of our worldly affairs, whatever so Eliza Salaam prohibited is haram. And what he did not say anything about is hella. So to put it in another way in matters of Deen or in the matters of rabada. Everything is haram, except what the sola is Allah, Allah Allah, Allah permitted meaning what he did.
And in matters of dunya in worldly affairs, everything is halal, except what he prohibited
and and also
the many ads in the Quran where Allah subhanaw taala reinforced this point. But that is not my
focus here. So I will not go any more into this. What I want to say is that the Sahaba asked a question and the question they asked was jasola this is an ayat of the Quran, Allah subhanaw taala has ordered us to send salatu salam on you, how should we do it? And as I said, this is the the question itself is a matter of learning for us that we don't invent in the matters of the we do not no matter how nice it sounds to, no matter how beautiful it sounds to you we do not in invent
in matters of the we are guided by the teachings of Rasulullah sallallahu alayhi wa sallam. So they asked him and he is the one who taught them this way of sending salavat on him, which we know today as the rue de Brahim. Allahumma salli ala Sayyidina Muhammad Ali, Mohammed Casali de la Rahim Allah Allah.
Allah, Allah Mohammed Ali Mohammed Kumara Allah, Allah Allah by him in the Gambia
to say dinner which I
mentioned in the first part of the dude is not part of what was taught. He taught them Allahumma salli ala Muhammad Ali Muhammad Tomas Allah tala Rahim Allah, Allah him in the Gambia, we add say that as a matter of our own respect and love for Rasulullah hamdulillah there is no harm in doing that.
And I definitely personally feel very comfortable doing that. Anyway, my action is not readily Indian. So let me not talk about it.
the point I want to make here to you and that relates to our lesson today, which is lessons from the life of Ibrahim alayhis salam. And that point is that every time we send drogen salam and rasulillah salam, we are sending the rudan Salah on Ibrahim Alayhi Salam and his family.
Today we live in a world where
they say if you are not Google will you are not
You don't exist. And we seem to be totally focused on social media and on name and fame and on being mentioned in social media.
And any actions we do any things we do, we are so conscious that they should be noticed by people and that issue it must show up in social media. And we must get all the likes and
so on and so forth.
Think about this, that here. What do you say about name and fame? Where the fame is decreed by Allah subhanho wa Taala. And Allah subhanho data gives people a
for sending Salam on those who don't those he loves. And what is the reward of sending the guru then Solomon on our show solemn? One time Allah subhanho wa sallam said Allah subhanaw taala will send Salam on you 10 times for every single time you send to the ceramah Mohammed Salah Allah will send you send on you do then Salaam 10 times. And remember when we are reciting the rue de Rahim. Every time you are sending gurus and Salam ala rasulillah salam, you are sending Durga Salama Ibrahim Elisa Alhamdulillah, this is the beauty of being obedient to Allah subhanho wa Taala.
We continue with the story of Ibrahim alayhi salam, when he
am looking at the back there because I can hear I'm looking at the back there because I can hear a hummingbird.
And I can't see him absolutely incredible creatures.
The way they beat their wings at over 1000 RPM, you can see the wing beats. I was once one of these demands I was doing in the house of a friend of ours. And
there was a fuchsia,
fuchsia hanging porch
where I was sitting, and this Hummingbird came and they were five or six fuchsia flowers.
He came and put his big into the fuchsia flowers like a ship like a bell. He put his big into each one of them. And each one of them he goes in and he comes backwards and he goes another one comes backwards. I mean it's flying backwards. Now, the thing is interesting thing to think about is that he's beating his wings at 1000 rpm. And in the middle of those wingbeats he switches the angle of the wings, the angle of the beat, with obviously the bid that takes him forward will not bring him backwards. So if he has to reverse, he has to switch. And this switch he makes, at least from from what I could see, he didn't stop beating his wings. And if he had stopped beating his ear have
dropped. So he continues to beat his wings at the same speed. And he goes forward and then he switches the angle of the beat and he comes backwards. And he does this so smoothly that it's almost impossible to at least it was impossible for me to to differentiate and this is I'm speaking from my own deductive reasoning, to say that this is what this bird was doing. Amazing. So Allah, the holder of Allah subhanaw taala.
So we come back to the story of your primary Salah where he left his family in this barren Valley in Baku and I mentioned to you how
Allah subhanaw taala decreed that help should come from them from the type of drive of your home. And
you know the the logical impossibility except because it was the home of Allah subhanaw taala that's the only experience that's the only logical explanation that one can give that this was this happened because Allah subhanaw taala decreed that Allah subhanaw taala put it in the hearts of people. Otherwise, there is no way that this tribe of people,
powerful warriors and chieftains would submit to the
to the authority of an amzing authority. I'm hesitating with what is the authority and there is no there is no symbol of authority. There is nothing I mean, just that there's one lady now tells them that they first come and ask Do we have your permission to settle in this valley? What permission divided in belonged where she was Jesus came to a few a few hours before that or de la la
Before that, the but they say no, because she was there so they can we have a permission. And then she says yes, you can settle here, and but the water will belong to us. Now remember who needs who needs who more. Right? She needs them far more than they need. They don't need a dog. But she needs them because she needs support for a child. She needs somebody to be there. She needs neighbors, she needs good people. But she is connected with a loss of Hannah Montana. So her focus for need is not the euro. Her focus for me is Allah subhanaw taala. She is not among those who was running up and down the mountain when there was nobody there and saying Allah, Allah, Allah. And as soon as she
sees help, then you forget about Allah and now it is your home. Right? No.
She knows you know where it comes from. She knows how it came. And she is not getting disconnected from the source of power. This is the meaning of talk. Well, what else is out there? Tell me Allah. What is it our goal is to connect with Allah subhanaw taala to stay connected, and to stay connected, even when circumstances turn in your favor. Even when you start seeing resources, even when you start seeing the help and mothers of Allah. Allah subhanaw taala coming you don't disconnect with Allah subhanaw taala you don't say You know what? I was praying that yo that intelligent making lot of guy and whatnot, whatnot. And now say that what happened? Oh, no, no, but
you know, nowadays, I'm very busy. Why are you busy? Because, you know, I got this wonderful job and I have to drive
an hour every day to get to work, but that's fine, you know, but I have to all this. You know, whatever my sales targets and whatever else do I have to pressure? I have a lot of pressure on that. So I am no I'm sorry. I kind of missed the hedges for the last few months.
So when you were praying the regularly I mean, did you know I was I had a job I had lost my job I was home I was very worried and so on. So now when you are in difficulty, you don't towards Allah subhana wa Tada. And when Allah gives you ease, you disconnect with Allah subhanaw taala so now of course Allah has no need for you or your worship. But I'm saying that if Allah subhanaw taala wants to make your worship than what must allow do for you, I think about that, right? Think about that. So when
let us not be on those
who turn to Allah subhanaw taala
only when there is need because then Allah will put you in need so that you never turn away from him. Yeah, so be Be careful with this thing. We love Allah subhanaw taala so we are connected with Allah subhanaw taala all the time, continuously. That's the whole point the whole point is to stay connected is not just to get Connect getting connected, what do you what do you need to do to do to get connected, celebrate raga Salah
like you, then what happens then the issue is to stay there.
And why is that an issue that is beautiful. Constantly we think of Allah constantly with vigor of Allah Subhana Allah hamdulillah everything you see around you remind you of Allah subhanaw taala as keeping keep remembering
if there is a problem, whatever problem you know, some pain is that whatever some some
issue with the job work, you know, family, whatever it might be, what do you do? Yeah, Liar, liar.
And then it is relieved, I hamdulillah you are fit and fine. What do you do? Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah
This is the lesson that we learn from the lives of the animals.
So now think about this. As I mentioned just the other day, that era where a seller made his dog
and when he reached a place where they could not see him he turned around and he made his dog and he said Robin is going to mean Luria t be bad in a disease or in in the bicycle moharram ravanelli up masala I want you to remember this. He is telling a lot of horror tell a story he said well I have made some of my offspring well in an uncomfortable Valley by your sacred house and I mentioned to the other Baba primary Salam and why he used these words why he said that. So I won't repeat that here but that was in the last lesson.
And then what is the first thing that he's saying?
Lima Why did you do that?
Lee up masala
so that they may establish your Salah
Up masala. Further I feel that Amina necesita Havili
And he said, therefore, you're our Rob,
please fill the hearts of some people with love towards them
was oh Mina Samarra de la la home Yes guru and provide them with fruits. So that they may give thanks, I think about that in times of such trial
in a time of such trial, where he prayed
because if he got is the first son, as the intelligent, told us, he got his first son at an age of 80 plus.
So, think about for how many decades he must have been making. So, he may exist for decades for a son,
and Allah gives him and when this child is an infant,
he has to leave his beloved wife and his child in this uncomfortable Valley.
And conditions. Now, this is again,
the is again issue,
which we have to think about that, let's see that Allah subhanaw taala
tells us the whole
the way this whole thing works, which is that we tend to get
overwhelmed and taken up with circumstances with conditions. So if somebody is talking about,
you know, somebody talking about
jobs, and this and that, and so the almost instant reaction is Oh, but you know, the economy's done, or what is it because of this COVID there is a general job cut everywhere.
Right. And I'm because of COVID, because of people working from home,
the kind of job that I do,
that has the market for that has shrunk.
And so on and so forth. We get overwhelmed by the conditions. Now just let's look at the conditions at the time when the prime Elisa Lam left hydrolase Salama mother, and it's vitally Salaam. in that valley, what did the conditions look like? The conditions looked like certain depth, right suddenly, and that also not quick depth, certain debts, and very painful more than likely very painful death. Because believe me when dying of hunger and thirst, now is not easy. dying of under hunger and thirst is about the most painful way that one can die. Because of this hunger and thirst will get weaker and weaker and weaker. And then at some point, you get dementia, your mind goes, and you get
completely, you know, totally disoriented, you get your you become just go crazy. And then very slowly, you die. I mean, it's it's a very, very painful, and a very horrible way of dying. That is what circumstances
So he brings his wife and child and will be with me wherever I go. I mean, he knew what was happening. So he brings him them, he leaves them there in that situation.
And what are the circumstances, the circumstances are certain that that's, it's finished,
he can go back to where he came from. And that's it, you know, end of story.
Allah didn't tell him we we don't know that Allah told him that, you know, all of this is just do that. Don't worry about it, I'll take care of them.
This will happen that will happen. I wonder you will come back here and you will find this and No, I mean, this is a test Whoa, leave them there. Tell us what will happen to them.
Whatever Allah has decreed.
Now, in that situation, having left them there, he does not complain.
He does not show any disappointment.
And then he says, I left them there to establish yourself
in times of great stress,
the first thing that the Bible is talking about is the establishment of Salah.
Now think about that. I'll come back to this in a second. But think about the Sahaba. They asked this question, when the sola sola Salaam told them about the gel. And sorcerer Salaam said that
at that time,
it will be a period of 40 days but one day will be like one year.
We'll be like one year.
Now, what did the Sahaba ask?
They didn't ask, how is it possible that a day will be like a year? I do mean that allegorically speaking that sometimes time just doesn't seem to pass.
Sometimes Time passes very fast.
Right? I'm sitting and talking to you now in September 2020. I came here in September 2019. One year has gone. And if you ask me, does it feel like one year has gone? Answer? No.
It doesn't feel like one year is one I've seen four seasons.
I came here in fall, and I'm going to see fall now if Allah gives me life for another month, I'm going to see fall inshallah.
So I would have seen four seasons in this country.
But the point is that sometimes Time passes very fast, sometimes time just doesn't pass.
So the cyber didn't ask all these days, we have a tendency to ask all of these philosophical questions. So it's always you know, you do mean this. Do you mean that?
No, they said, jasola. How should we pray?
Because there are five Salawat, which are fourth, during 24 hours,
five Salawat for during the day. And now you're saying that a day will be equal to a year?
So how do we pray during this time?
Think about this. The problem becomes when we change the way we view something.
You know, there's a friend of mine.
When I was leaving, my branding,
my branding company, when I was sort of changing my career, from being a tea, and in that case, I was in rubber. So tea and rubber planter,
when I changed my career, so I resigned from my company, and I was, I got a job in Delhi. So I go to Delhi.
And there was this
friend of mine, a very dear friend of mine.
And so he was my assistant. And I came and sat with me one day, and he said,
Give me some advice. You're good, you're leaving and going. So give me some advice, what must I do? So I told him get an MBA.
He said, From where? So I said, from the I Am the Indian Institute of Management,
because that's where I went to. So I said, you know, very good institution, the best business school in India. So, go there. Because at the end of the day, the Frankly, I mean, I don't like to say this, but the MBA program really teaches you nothing. It's all theory because all MBA programs are most of them, if not all, are taught by people who never did business themselves. the only the only post graduation where you learn from people who are not practitioners is completely ridiculous system, you will, you're learning how to, there's nothing more hands on than business.
But we think that learning how to do business
is possible from someone who never did business themselves. And if you don't believe me, or those of you who are in MBA colleges, when you go to the college tomorrow or you speak to your professor asked him what is his business?
Does he own a company? Does he have a company? And if you if he does not have a company? How the hell is he teaching you? Right? It's like learning driving from somebody who never drove a car and learning how to fly a plane from some form of based on just book somebody who's teaching you theory of flying easy. Okay, now this instructor of mine is teaching me all of the theory. What he does he have a pilot's license does he get Can he fly a plane? No, no, he cannot fly a plane never flown in his life. He's never going to fly a plane he's getting paid to teach me some theory based on this book. I mean, really, I mean, this is completely
you know, insane. Anyway, that let me not digress. The slide said to Suresh Yeah, I said, get an MBA
as well. He had
had just got married. And he had
he had a boy and he had a baby. So he, he told me but you know, I have a wife and son.
So this is a problem.
So I told him,
whether it's a problem or it's an asset is that depends on how you look at it.
If you want to look at it as a problem, yes is the problem but
If you want to look at another way,
think about it like this, that you are going to the time and the bar.
Now, when you come back home, you will have a cooked meal.
You don't have to worry about housekeeping.
You can concentrate fully on your studies. So now, how do you see your wife?
child is not in the equation because a little kid but is an infant. So how do you see your wife
as an asset or liability?
So he said, Yes, I didn't think of it like that.
And that's what he did. He went to I am underwater. We took a flight outside and is deliberate in many mega soccer circumstances, but planula he was focused on his on his studies, and then he got an MBA. And
so the point I'm making here, the reason I gave you this live example, is because how do you see Salah
where we began was that circumstances were
difficult to say the least. Whenever I'm really sad, I'm left hydrolase Sam and his violation I'm
out there in the middle of nowhere, and he went away. circumstances are very difficult. But what is his first thought his first or third? His first thought is, I left them here to establish Salah.
Now, why does he think that way? And what must we do? And also think about it the purpose of these lectures is for us to reflect on our lives. How do we see Salah
the other day I spoke to you about doing a SWOT analysis and I said to you in your strengths, does Allah feature right if you do the SWOT last strengths, weaknesses,
opportunities, threats. If you wrote for yourself,
would Allah subhanaw taala feature in your strengths?
Today I'm going to ask you the same question with regard to Salah euro if you did a SWOT analysis strengths, weaknesses, opportunities, threats would Salah feature as one of your strength.
If not the primary strength. My primary strength is Salah, my primary strength is to hydrate I want to say that
and I'm not talking about saying this because of you know,
becoming smarter or some coaching or
peering pious I'm saying Do you really believe this?
Do you really believe this? Do you really live your life like that? Do you really consider that is Salah the first thought that comes to you the moment you
Is Salah, the first thought that comes to the moment you are in difficult.
This is what happened to the Sahaba is wild. I had a madman any time. They were in difficulty. The first thing they did was Allahu Akbar.
Tell Allah your story, ask Allah subhanaw taala for your help because they knew this is what Allah subhanaw taala said yeah, you were Lavina Amano Stein with somebody was Salah. Oh you will believe take the help of sobor patience, fortitude, perseverance, consistency, steadfastness.
Using your intelligence using all the means or everything that you have all the means at your disposal, and then Salah,
asking Allah subhanaw taala for his
even arrival, his alarm said Salah, because that was the acid
and he knew that the one who prays automatically Allah preserves it automatically Allah protects him. Automatically Allah subhanho wa Taala helps him so he says Oh Allah I put them there for you for your Salah to establish Li up masala to establish your Salah.
So automatically they must be taken care of because what's going to happen now What did what was the diagnosis lm jasola? Yeah, yeah, Allah in butter. Yeah, Allah. If these are killed, there will be nobody to worship you on the on the land. He didn't say that we nobody to establish an Islamic State. No, he said there's no one. There will be nobody to worship.
So these are the ones that worship you or Allah preserve them or help them from sources that they cannot imagine less than Malaika for them.
People who understand the value of Salah, use it as their biggest asset
As the most powerful asset they don't need encouragement and pushing and so on to pray you know the for Salah for Salah is the boundary condition man if you if you leave for Salah we don't even know whether you are in Islam or out of Islam Allah knows best.
So for Salah is absolutely critical but apart from that I am not talking about first I'm talking about the hedges I'm talking about extra
people who understand they go behind that
and as I have understood this
the windows windows are seldom said one day equal to one year. They didn't they didn't get involved in philosophical discussions about you know, what does it mean? Now it will have
24 multiplied by 365
days or is it or hours or is it going to be
each hour will seem like that, whereas actually to still be 24 but it will feel as if it is like when this temperature feeling it is 21 degrees feels like 34 degrees.
You said Dr Rasulullah sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, how much we pray?
Do we still pray five?
Or is it five? multiplied by?
You know? So is it the same way? Or is it going to be every so many hours? Or? I mean, how do we pray? Why? Because when do you need this Allah more?
These are the days of the job.
He's talking about the days of the job, absolutely the worst possible situation that can face humanity
is this time of the gel.
They are asking what must we do at this time?
The Saba sauce Allah Salah as an asset as a tool as a resource, as a weapon.
You didn't see Salah as a border. Today, let us ask ourselves, how do we see Salah?
How do we
do csula acid as a tool? Do you see Salah something as something that I will use and I must use in order to solve my problems in this life?
Or do I see Salah as this ritual thing that I must do? And if I don't do and, you know, maybe I will get punished in the UK? So let me do it. Or am I among those who just don't do it or do it itself? Or I'm too busy?
I'm too busy. I'm too tired. And to this to that. I mean imagine I know some people I've seen some mothers for example, say does your son pray? pray father? Oh no, no, you know he's very tired.
So he doesn't go by don't do it. You know, he's so tired, I feel sorry.
You should feel sorry that your son is disconnected with Allah subhanho data instead of that you feel happy about that.
And you feel sorry to wake him up.
For further we're not talking about father.
daughters, usually they wake up sons.
Get this preferential within quotes preferential
preferential shortcut to Ghana,
you you raise them disobedient to Allah.
And when they get strong, they start disobeying you.
And then when you start feeling the pain, now you invoke Allah, now you bring them to this chair and that's a please speak to them about the duties or that their duty to parents. Please speak to them, what are the rights of parents?
before their duty to you, they had a duty to Allah and it was your job to teach them the duty to Allah. If you had taught them the duty to Allah, they would have been doing the duty to you because the duty to Allah shows them the duty to
the source of your power, the source of your authority parents, the source of your, you know,
preference in life that you have,
is Allah subhanaw taala. So you want to cut them off from there.
Allow them to be cut off. I mean, maybe you didn't do the actual cutting. Maybe you just allowed them to be cut off. And then you want to not insist on reducing duty to me, what do you do?
If he cannot even pray to Allah subhanho wa Taala on time,
what duty Are you expecting from him?
You did not even wake him for further you, you you conditioned him to believe that his own
relaxation that his own Aram that his own leisure that his own rest was more important than the other
unities in the rest comes through Salah
LLB degree lay that in nulu
rest comes, peace of mind comes because of Salah, not because of living Salah
you didn't teach them that
you condition them to believe that their so called rest, and for a lot of them, you ask them, but why is he so tired? I mean, was he doing bits or what was he doing carrying bricks on his head?
Why is he so tired? Or you know, he went to work and come back home. And then he goes to the gym. And then you know, in the in the night he is just for relaxing. You know, he's on Facebook and this and this in this and then he slept at only two o'clock in the night.
you will have understood
the secret of success. That was Salah. So he said the up masala Well, I put them here so that your Salah will be established.
And if Allah subhanaw taala accepts that and of course in this case I'll accept religion Allah always accepted if somebody says that my life is so that my your hokum is established in it. I am going to live my life in such a way that your hakomi Allah, your order your your will your pleasure is the primary consideration for me. If you are going to live like that, then Allah subhanaw taala will protect you Allah will help you Allah, Allah will solve your difficulties. I am not making all of these statements on behalf of Myra geladeira Oh, he said it himself. Mama yet okay, la Lu Maharajah
see the ayat of surah tala two and three were one year tequila Hydra Allahu maka Raja Zhu min
samanya tawakkol Allah Allahu
Allah said the one who has taqwa, Allah subhanho wa Taala will solve his problems will will extract him from his difficulties
will make life easy for him. What is the first star sign of taqwa? It is Salah.
There is no Mata Ki who is not who's not a muscle Li
there is no motor de who does not pray.
first sign of the why Salah analyzing the one was duck was and this is the mercy of Myra della della we didn't put a he didn't put a marker there and said the one who was duck was so much where the one was duck was equal to that of Ibrahim Alayhi Salam the one was duck was equal to that of Mohammed Salah Li Salah no
one was stuck on how much I love Toronto Dallas for whatever it is
maybe my Salah is third class maybe my Salah is full of all kinds of distraction but I pray
I pray five times a day
at its correct time I don't delay the Salah I don't do all that but when I go and stand on the masala My mind is somewhere My head is aware my tail is
I'm trying to make an effort.
I'm not justifying that I'm not saying this is okay no no no it's not okay. I'm trying to make an effort I keep asking Allah Allah Allah please please please help me Allah please make my Salah good. Please accept it but I am sure that at the time of Salah I am on that muscle and not anywhere else.
And then I go a step further I wake up in the night for the Hajj. And then I pray my to do whatever number of records Allah subhanaw taala enables me to pray, I pray I pray that I make I beg and plead is Allah Believe me. I mean, this is the mercy of Allah Allah did not put a put a mark and say has to be like this. But if you are not even doing it
if you don't pray at all
you pray when you will like bring
today I did tomorrow I do today. Today well you know i i pray to Allah.
Allah made five barbatus a
world of difference out of the sisters makes Allah the central piece of your life.
Leo ki musala Why you alive? Leo masala. make this into a slogan for yourself.
Okay musala So, that Salah is established
Why do you live? So that Salah is established?
Right? Why do you earn money so that Salah is established why waiting so that Salah is established while you go to the gym. So that Salah is established for everything
then what happens is that even our focus becomes correct. You cannot be earning haram so that Salah is established it comes automatically everything falls into place. You can be eating haram
so that's what what are you eating?
So if I'm saying My life is so that Salah is established, then everything becomes clear everything falls into place, everything becomes
right for me.
As well as avanzada della della would be pleased with you whenever two displays to give us all this central piece to say, why am I alive? So that Salah is established? May Allah give us the ability to do this and to give us and show us the bark of this inshallah was Allah Allah Allah will carry while he was having his mind, but I haven't forgotten what I mean. What I'm doing