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I was honestly hoping that they did not put the title of the lecture
on the on the screen because it says the Koran nourishment for the soul. And
so interesting title,
especially because the soul is still a mystery to many people.
So we're going to add a little bit on to that title. And that is that the Koran
as nourishment for the soul, meaning here for your heart, in your for your heart as we know,
man, what separates us a living human being from a corpse is that we are made up a body and what
body and soul.
But if we talk about nourishing that soul,
then we're actually talking about nourishing that which Allah subhana wa tada is going to look at on your piano is the profit it is a lot to center, since a lot of events already come what i
what i can do
a lot of data does not look at your bodies, or your figures. This is important to recognize we spend a lot of time on our fingers
and want to slim down want to use Ramadan as an opportunity to slim down a little bit. jog around the weather's breaking them you see people doing all types of things because they want to focus on their fingers, doesn't look at your fingers and does not look at your external features. We have some people who spend an hour in the mirror every morning for mascara and blush and foundation and all types of stuff just to find the right color match
on the top.
So they spend a lot of time focusing on that. And not enough time focusing on what a lot of candidates have is going to look at, which is the heart.
data looks at your hearts. And so what we want to talk about today
are those things which are important for nourishing the heart and specifically for it, and the effect that it should have on our hearts.
Before we get to that, I think it's important for us to analyze
the staple of the heart.
What is it that the heart lives of?
We know that the staple of our bodies,
food and drink. But what is the staple of the heart? Actually, this is going to be a bit interactive. So I hope you all have your massage and you're paying attention. What is the staple of the heart?
Yes, that's correct. And the proof for that is a statement of the last kind of data, where he says another thing that we learn
in Hulu, there it is through the remembrance of Allah subhanho wa Taala that the heart finds tranquility. That means that the hearts stability, just the same way that you have to eat a certain way for your body to be stable. And for your body to be healthy. Your heart needs a stability. It needs the ability to be healthy, otherwise it is right it's going to go from condition to condition is not going to find the stability that it needs to be healthy and it's through that stability that the heart finds its prosperity it finds its tranquility and that is for what it is to the remembrance of Allah.
And so, we look at the profit data scientist and he says methodology yet cool. One of the layers cool method okay he will make it and this is collected by Muslims the profit is the one who remembers his Lord, the example of the one who remembers his Lord and the one who does not remember his Lord is the example of the living person and the one who is dead.
Simple Sam Tamia
data says this little economy man in his 70s
that declared the remembers a loss of habitat to the heart is like water is to a fish for came three of whom had 270 the Falcon man
what is the state of the fish if it leaves the world in other words, the same way that the fish cannot live without water is the same way that the heart does not live without being enveloped by the remembrance of Allah subhana wa.
we all know that Allah subhana wa tada has commanded us in the forum to remember him Eliza just says guys with the nanos put a lotta VidCon could be your mom. Oh, you believe? Remember a lot much. Remember him a lot. What's up people, booklets over I'll see them and glorify Him in the early part of the morning, and in the evening. This is a command from a loss of data. And one thing that we should be very clear about, I don't want to digress on this topic too much. But a lot, so it just does not command us to do anything. Nor does the Prophet is like was sent in commanded us to do anything except that its benefit for us outweighs its harm, that it is purely beneficial, or that at
least his benefit outweighs it's hard for us.
allies, oh, Joe is not commanding us to do anything because he benefits from us obeying. It is we who benefit from our obedience to Allah subhanho wa Taala. Even if you don't understand the reason why behind them, we don't know what the Hitman is. Sometimes, maybe because of our limited understanding as individuals, not as a woman. But as individuals, we may think that it doesn't make sense.
And that's okay. You just have to learn a little bit more almost kind of added does not command us to do anything that is not beneficial for us. So the mere fact that our last rent data has commanded us to remember him a lot
means that this is something that is beneficial for us. And that remember, some of us we're going to data does not just mean that you sit around, and you say some catalog.
But anytime you're waiting in the doctor's office and driving in a car both, although that's a good thing. remembrance has to start in the heart.
You are aware of the last time you're conscious of what's happening. And there is a relationship between the heart and the tone.
That's a story for a different day. Somebody might say now, okay, this talk is supposed to be about the poor. And you're talking about Vicki.
What is the relationship between the poor and
the scholars of Islam we have consensus on the following point. And that is that the best degree is still out of
the recitation of the Quran. We never know. For him parking along Chad says in this email.
He had a bowl and car.
This is something that again, is consensus amongst the stars. He would have been no, he said, No. That the best. Didn't
that allow the presentation of the prime is the best of all epcam it is the best of all.
And then he says What about Google? In order to get set up go, we got to get to that point a shout out to Adam, he says and what is meant here
is that you read with reflection over the time.
Not simply that you recite the 400
essentially site and that you ponder over it means that you contemplate the message that a lot of tablets Allah is giving to you in the Koran.
That being said,
That being said, do we all agree that the four iron is the best? Because if you don't agree racing, you don't agree racing? And nobody, if you do agree, raise your hand. Okay.
All right. That being said,
in blue, since the Koran is the best, because what I should recite in record
now, we're not going to let any of the children a sense of the adults in so we're not going to make the dogs look bad. Yes. You came up with some old we just said that the Brian is the best thing. And you say you can't recite Brian and
and reward. Why?
Right. Okay. So the profit is select to select clarify for us what is legislated to say in before it is to do so because something is better in general, does not mean that in every situation, it is better. That's just something to understand about Islam in general, that there are certain situations certain times where the thing that is better may not be best for that occasion.
So for example,
After selecting the question,
is it better to do as Thomas sabar
those videos that you do in the morning time? Or is it better to recycle
the addictiveness better in this scenario
for the reason that the time frame is limited for as possible. But once the sun comes up, you're not going to be going as caught as somebody who still be reciting the Koran. So it's actually better to do as con at that particular time, even though before it is the best thing that is in an unrestricted sense. All right, let's just assign points so that we have some fifth of the dean because the same thing happens in Ramadan. When it comes to total weight, is it better for me to go to the masjid every night? Is it better for me to have a half? And should I just stay in my house and recycle? Or if
there are many things, many scenarios that come up?
And the rule is this, that the following that the virtue
that is related to the bed itself,
is the word of itself takes precedence over the virtue of the place where the mandate is performed?
Again, I didn't want to get into these kind of things. But I think that sometimes these are this is this is real, of how to worship the last countdown, you know. So, for example, I'll give you a quick example, shall we get back to our time?
where is the best place for a woman to break?
At the best?
Okay. This is their particular sister. She's been to San Marcello, she memorized McAfee home too. So if
they, if she stays home
Andromeda, she's got a risk reciting the first rocket capital.
And the second rocket can move on to next in Winton, capital incidence. Her total prayer is going to be how long
2025 minutes, baby. Okay.
She says listen, I'm no
I'm not feeling great at home. I want to go to the Mexican when I go to the restaurant and I'm behind the humanity man the sights even though I don't even understand everything he's saying. I understand like, gentlemen, these type of things. And it gets me excited. And I cry and I get this feeling North salon that I just don't get when I'm by myself.
Where is it better for her to break?
Okay, so now we all agree that it's better for women to spread the message.
Under those circumstances, it is better for a woman's afraid.
And again, what we're talking about here, again, is to go back to the rule is that followed
that the virtue that is directly related to the event takes precedence over the virtue
that is related to where the event is performed. We get this a lot of times overseas, you know, you get some people. And they'll be, for example, at the Capitol, they want to pray on the roof. Because there's a Bible, that it's not there on the second floor, for example, even though it's further away from the men.
And so in that scenario, where a person feels a different feel, in the sauna, they have more for sure, they are able to breathe more there and other places they may feel confined,
that is better for them, even though they are further away from the fight.
We talked about the crime being the best.
And before we get to
how the court should be a nourishment for our hearts and our souls and how we should approach the four iron. And rather than I just wanted to take a step back
and look at the the miracle that the Orion is because I think that we appreciate
the miraculous nature of the Orion
the speech of US and Canada.
I think that we appreciate that more. We spend more time
in the Quran, as we know,
was a miracle that was given to our Prophet it is.
It is the everlasting miracle, all of the other prophets that came before our messenger is a lot that was sent in.
We're given miracles that were temporary. And they were miracles that were specific for the people to whom they were sent.
many examples of this if we look at for example, Mossad is Salatu was
he had many miracles as well.
But the prevalent miracle that is mentioned in more than one place in the Koran is what
I can't hear you speak up Don't be shy.
What is the what was the miracle that is most oft repeated opposes miracle. Yes.
Okay, I lost my dad who spoke to him but that and that is definitely a miracle. He's cutting
the stamp, the stamp, okay. So the people who were seen to be from the higher echelon of society during the time of Lucifer, the magicians, the Sorcerer's, and they were the ones who are accusing Musashi salado. So that was sorcery.
And so we had our own set to the greatest of sorcerers and told them that they would have a great reward if they were able to defeat moves.
And so moose is about to say.
I mean, they challenged him and he told them that our mo is that our appointment is going to be hilma Xena,
which we can translate literally as the day of adornment. But what was your Rosina? What would that be like in our time, despite the
fact that he
is saying, bring everybody what happens when he everybody comes up. He wants the entire nation to see what's about to happen.
Because he knows that he has more stuff than is sent from our last panel tab. And he knows that a lot of his hotel never lets down on his own. Yeah.
And so there he is, with his staff, and the best of the Sorcerer's are there.
And so they said, you go first, but we go first. Go ahead, you got you. You can go first. And they went Sahaba leguminous. And they performed their magic on the eyes of the people.
And then what happened? Moosa threw down his stamp, and it turned into a snake. And that serpent did what? It devoured they imagined it devoured.
And then what happened after that was amazing. For Olympia, Sahara to set up. Those sorceress fell down on their faces and prostration call em and Don't lie to me. There was no hesitation, there was no before I take Shahada, let me think about it.
See, my boss might not give me this promotion.
He is Sahaba to stand up, call an amendment.
They said we believe in luck denied.
The Lord of moosend have an immediate boost belief in submission to Allah subhanaw taala because they were the most knowledgeable of the sorcerer. And they know that we're positive was not meant
that this hand would be from popularity.
And then fear our name is arrogant said that you are believed, before I give permission.
And they did not care about what the consequences were going to be, and told them that he was going to crucify them and cut their limbs off from opposite sides. That did not deter them from their belief in the last time. How
do we have any evidence of this other than the forearm itself? No, that miracle was for those people. And those people only glanced at it until today. It didn't last until the time he silius alive. It was a temporary miracle meant to convince the people who move sideways salatu salam was calling to Islam. We look at the miracle of Isa and inside to select this many miracles, including what and what what what was prevalent at the time was a solid, solid percent.
Medicine and healing,
right. And the greatest form of medicine that is still trying to do is to figure out how to bring someone who is dead back to life.
Because that is an illness that they have no cure for is no cure for death. And so these days, so not to say I was given the miracle, beginning the land by loss mentality permission to bring life back to the dead. It's a form a bird out of clay and then blow into it and then bring life to.
But again, where's that bird today? Where is that man did he support vector, we don't have any tangible evidence of that, other than what we know, from the poor animal training.
The miracles of the Prophet alayhi salatu was Salam were men.
But that miracle that still lives on, that has reached us today is the miracle of the Quran.
And that miracle of the Koran is not just something that is
in its recitation, that is in the syntax of the Quran, for the structure of the Koran, but also to the meanings of the Quran. And so many other ways that the Koran is majestic. In it is a miracle from Allah Subhana. What's added is his speech.
And if we just spent a little bit more time with the bride,
then we would feel
the effects of that miracle that allows Canada to Adam
challenged, he challenged the people who are around the Prophet it is to say, during that time with the miracle of the prime, because what was prevalent amongst the Arabs at that particular time was one, poetry.
I mean, even until today, you find the poetry of the Arabs is on another level. But back then, when you talk about their dilemma, when you talk about the their approach to poetry and what that meant to them, and the status that it had in society at that time, the way that they would gather for poetry competitions, and so it wasn't handled to either reveal.
In five cases of the Koran a challenge to mankind to come with that which is similar to the more I like the prime for that which is similar to or like 10 is what the Koran tends toward us with the Quran. And so Allah
to we will
lay soon at the beginning, the one who can about
what you are saying that is all of mankind and Jim once again,
to come forth with that which is like this Koran. They would not be able to come up with something like that, or even if they were helping each other out all of mankind.
Allison Cameron, sadnesses me a song called effect
We saw it with me. Are they saying that this court
is fabricated? Tell them to come with one song. One song that is like this crime and allows my dad says me up who have
convinced to the lgp soy misleading booster yet? Are they saying that it is fabricated, tell them to come with 10 soldiers that are like this one, and they will come with an AI. That is like the Warren Mac 10 stores or that anything else this court on
cannot be imitated.
And for that reason, it is critical for us
as Muslims to recognize the virtue of this foreigner
qualities of the bride as it relates to nourishing our souls and our hearts, Allah subhana wa tada sent down the Quran
as guidance and refer for the limbs.
He sent down before I as guidance and praqma for the believers. Okay.
What is it when we think about nourishment?
What constitutes nourishment of the bank? Because let's not just say food and drink.
And I'll tell you why.
Is all food good for your body?
Is all food nourishing? No, which is why we're actually prevented from eating certain foods and drinking certain drinks because they do not nourish the body. So when we talk about nourishment, what are we talking about?
What kinds of foods and what kinds of drinks? Those that do was?
Okay. Okay, so the textbook definition is that which is necessary for growth and development, and your health. These are this is what is nourishment. When we talk about nourishing the hearts and nourishing the soul. We're talking about that which is necessary for your spiritual development, that which is necessary for your spiritual health.
Now, when we look at the Quran,
then we know that this is from this event, or the qualities of the poor eye is that it provides that spiritual nourishment that we need. That is what we need for spiritual health. One of the first things that we are in need
his guidance from Allah subhana wa.
And that is what the four iron is.
Anybody know what is?
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looking for? I wasn't looking for that I
was looking for.
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Who then who can live with chopping? Wood chopping, that the Koran is guidance for those who had a tougher fight? How do we know that guidance is one of the most important things that we need for spiritual health. We know that because a loss of handle what's added commands us to ask for it
over 17 times a day, at least 17 times a bit. And so what do we say? In these we asked the laws of Canada to Ireland for guidance. And so there is nothing. And this is why taking the stand and taking a lot of time
says that he pondered over what is the best do I to me?
And he found that it was insulting.
And that is why and so what effect it has no and as we know and that is why last paradata obligated us to ask for them more than we asked for anything else. Because again, we go back to our basic rule, which is that a loss of data only commands us that to do that which is beneficial for us. And so those things that are most beneficial
For us, Allah subhanaw taala commands us to do them more.
So asking for guidance, the Koran as guidance, the Koran as the light.
So what we need along that path because the path gets dark, if you don't have the length of the Brian, is there an iron that any of you have memorized it talks about the four eyes being light.
I'm sure you've been
cut the data for a long
Not so much in life has come to you from Allah. Allah Subhana. Allah describes the Koran itself as being a ruler.
And your boy is what you need for life.
And so last time with Adam, when he tells the Koran when he tells the Prophet alayhi salaatu wa Salaam that he has sent in Him room in every event that it is a a spirit that it is a soul that has come to you from us as immaterial to property I have a lot to add images of the scholars of Tafseer. They say that here he is talking about the four iron that he describes the four iron as the more because it is the four iron that brings life. It is the one that brings light, even though that is the case.
Okay, I'm running out of time, but I need to say some things here. It's very important.
Even though that is the case, many of us
many of us
of not spending enough time with the foreigner.
if we look at the statement of the loss of habitat
where it says we're Chronicles Hulu Yaqui been in a coma tougher who had the core Ana Majora.
Allah says that the messenger said, oh my lord.
My people have abandoned the Koran.
My people have abandoned the Quran
says that abandoning the Koran is five different types. And I want us to pay attention to these points because we need to use Ramadan as a changing point in our lives. The way that we approached the Koran and Ramadan is going to be in the land to either change the course of our lives and our relationship with the Warren but first thing you have to do is understand what it means to abandon the Brian because some of some of us may say no, no, I read the cried every day. Well, how much do you read, I read a couple pages. Or some of us may say I read some of the brightest
students on campus every Friday. I don't abandon to Brian.
And if we understand what it means to abandon the Koran, to be in the land to add up, we can make sure that we don't fall under any of the categories of abandoned.
Mining Allah says that hedgerows for iron ore bending into four iron is a five different types. The first is to abandon listening to the Koran and believing in
abandoning listening to the brine and believing in the prior. So if we understand that, then our point of action here is to do want to make sure that we listen to the Quran on a regular basis, which is a bad play. The second
is to abandon acting or implementing the commands of the Quran
which is a totally different type of abandonment than the the first. The third
is to abandon using the Koran as your judge another words, how do you judge what is right and wrong? What is positive and what is negative? Do you look at what Allah says? Or do you have a different scale? Is it your culture?
That you determine what is right and wrong because of my culture because of what my parents taught, you know, because of what the laws of society may say or is it that you use the Koran as your judge?
The fourth type of abandonment is
that you do not reflect over the Koran that you do not try to understand its means. So you abandon understanding the Koran.
And the fifth time is to leave off using the Koran
as a medicine as a treatment,
whether you feel a mental ailment, spiritual ailment, a physical ailment, your first recourse is to go to a self help book, to go to the doctor to go. And that's not to say there's anything wrong with going to the doctor.
But we should not forget that the Koran is as she said, that the Koran is a cure, and especially when it comes to the illnesses of the heart. Now I want to take a step back and look at what some of the scholars say, when it comes to abandoning the presentation of the Quran.
And even admin, Rahim Allah
says that he has not heard from any of the scouts
that a person should read the Koran in anything less than 40 days. I don't know if there's too many negatives in that statement. I mean, let me try to say that again.
If you do not read the Quran from cover to cover, in a matter of 40 days, then you have abandoned the recitation of the grind.
This is the man PacMan rocky mobiloans. Adam says that he hasn't heard anything
less than that from this Congress. And that is because many of the scholars say that if you do not read the Quran, from cover to cover in a 30 day period, then you have abandoned the recitation of the Brian.
I want you to let that sink in.
That means that what many people do, and I really want us to understand this point, because we're we're moving towards Ramadan now where, I don't know 17 days away maybe from Ramadan. Many people look at rather than as the time when they read the prime from cover to cover.
So they print schedules. This is what you should read the first day. And this is what you should read the second day, we're going to do this reading at the masjid on the third day for everybody to come. And they print these sculptures out. And that becomes the aspiration of the Muslim to read a juice a day in Ramadan
even though even though
see this is going to take a long time. But I need you to stick with me on this really.
And I'm saying this from the bottom of my heart. Because we have such low aspirations we're not rising. Because our aspiration is to read a choose a day in Ramadan. That's when we stop. And then after Ramadan, we go back to the pathetic state that we're in right now when we read Facebook, Instagram and whatever else more than we read the Quran,
the half hour that it takes you to watch the 11 O'Clock News
is enough for you to read the shoes of Brian.
And believe me believe while learning the world will not change if you don't watch the 11 O'Clock News. It'll still be the same the next day.
You have to look at the time and I'll get to that inshallah. But I really want to understand something where can we get this idea
that we're supposed to read a juice a day and run around and then put the book back on the shelf after Ramadan. Many of us because of the heavy use of the profit is
where he talks about or where it is mentioned in that study that gibreel would come to the Prophet sallallahu wasallam in Ramadan what you used to watch out for I can then and that he would study with him the poor eye throughout the month of Ramadan and that this was his practice and every one of that except for the last Ramadan when they did that twice.
Let's let's look at that very quickly is reading the poor is reciting the Quran. The same as studying the Quran. You daddy suhu
When state would study the Quran together, together, and that's how Ramadan was split with the property. So it was so damaging. Does that mean that that was the only time the revelation of reciting the Quran during the month of Ramadan.
So we get stuck on it. The prophet SAW it was something definitive, I need to pull data from China and which was outside of rather than he said, he stood next to the practice of medicine in ninth grade. And the population began reading sorts of buckets. And he thought he nervous sight 100 eyes and he was like, Okay, and then the process is finished. And he said after he resigns, but that is when a young cat is going to make records that approximately sound like bracelets. And he said,
and he said episodes, and he sat across like some kind of make record and then it promised like, sort of like back and read out in blind.
If this was the state of the profit is selected
outside of Ramadan, then what do you think that the Prophet Soleil son was doing? in Ramadan?
The majority we look at the the companions of the love of China and home who had any type, the ones who who were very
the ones who were known as being for firemen, and memorize the crime, their normal practice was to complete a recitation of the crime that is from cover to cover
once a week, and do you know how to use to do that? Who has
Mashallah. Anybody want a must have right now, please?
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Anybody have a list? Pull out your phone. You got other stuff? You gotta have
Okay, raise your hand once you do because I need some help you. How are we? Okay, excellent. All right. So this is I want you to remember this, you ready 3579 1113 the rest. Anybody can repeat that 3579 1113 the rest the rest. So let's hop to this three minute what both of them
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nine, nine, you get the point right.
357, they would read the first act effects, of course in the first three swords, and then they will be five soldiers that was every week. And they would complete their recitation of the Quran. Those are high aspirations, not adjusted them. And then some kind of luck. Everybody has to know where they are and start where they are. So for some people choose a day, maybe a lot, especially if you do nothing every day.
But that's why I'm saying. So Tom, we have like three minutes now.
Because we do have to pray and so forth. Get ready for something. I want you to look at it like this. Please change the way that you look at Ramadan. And he never said me, I think a lot of time, was famous for a hutzpah. Every day in Ramadan, he would read the Quran from cover to cover every day in Ramadan. And some of you may say, but what about the prohibition of the Prophet ideas
of not reading the Quran in less than three and that's where you want to go to the bat go there and read the Quran every three days.
Because this was very normal in the practice of the subject in Ramadan, that they would read the Quran every three days. That is they were finished everything to look for every three.
To make this as practical as possible and shallow time. Starting from today, this is what I want you to do.
Starting from today, at least read a juice of course, starting from today, sorry, they have to just start like having fun. And for those of you who do not understand Aaron, also read the translation of the bride. also read his translation. I had the Jews, what I want you to do carve out a specific time of the day. So whether that's after a shadow before you go to sleep, whether it's after budget and before you go to work, whatever time works for you carve out a special
time during the day, that is unpredictable, you're not going to give that to anybody else, you're going to turn off the phone, you're going to use that time for reading the Koran, and time yourself. See how long it takes for you to do that, just do that for a week. Do that for a week. Next week happens next week, double that go up to a juice, so you know how much time it takes you now carve out time for you to double that. So you'll go from a habit just this week, to a juice next week. And then by the time Ramadan comes, you should be going at least to juice
at least to Jews again, and do that until you get to the last 10 nights in the last 10 nights you need the up to three Jews to delve into it, you will see that you can do it, you will see that it is not take as much time as you think it does. It doesn't take as much time as we spend on many other things that will not bring us any benefit in this life. The next I want to conclude by just saying this last thing, last piece of advice in our overtime, rather than is not a month of socializing.
Many of us have the wrong concept. We should be generous with our wealth, rather than look very conservative with our time. How do you use your time in the month of Ramadan, many of us get to these big gift charts for the last 10 nights of Ramadan. And we go over for man's house and land his house and we go visit them and you have a target house.
Happy to give target the last 10 nights around and I will tell you why this is important. You had to target the house and then what happens? Of course, you've missed the virtue of bringing money in domestic. Okay, then you sit around after the fun and you talk and you talk too much after you already ate too much.
And then you talk too much. And so what happens is oh we lost track of time by the time you get to the masjid. They've done praying and he said you come in and you start praying and he said well the man sprints are weird and gets all confusing for you that you got to ask what am I supposed to do? Should I join the first two right? That's great. Stand up What do I do? Okay.
And then you finish brands are we and then because you ate so much. It's always very lazy.
And this is how you spent the night and couldn't be late to
stay away from these huge difference in the last 10 nights of Ramadan. use that time to starve your ego. to starve anything else and feed your soul. Feed your soul those last two nights are very important. in them is a ninth the last data says is better than 1000 months we asked the boss what kind of data to make this from amongst those who take advantage of his blessings to make the Koran the spring of our hearts and the event which does away with all of our all of our anxiety all of our grief and loss accounts animals best satanic alarm