Virtual Eid Khutbah

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We begin by praising Allah subhanho wa Taala we ask him, the Almighty for his help, we ask him for ease we ask him for relief on this joyous day. And we ask him to send his choices of blessings and salutations upon the final messenger, our beloved prophet muhammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, his family members, his companions and all those who tread upon his path with utmost sincerity until the day after.

My dear brothers and sisters in Islam amico subhana wa Taala he says in the noble Koran Yeah, you Hello Vina Amano, po Maha Pato courting, while Mouton. Illa

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this ayah to talk about the people of taqwa and the victory. That is assured for the people of taqwa the success that is assured for the people of taqwa in this world, in this world as well as the hereafter. So therefore, I'd like to start off by reminding myself and then all of you all, tuning in, listening and watching this stream,

to be conscious of your maker, during every single second of your knives, if you wish to attain success in this world, as well as the Hereafter, when Allah subhanho wa Taala make us all from the people of taqwa and making make us from the victorious and successful ones. I mean,

many brothers and sisters in Islam, yes, we are in the midst of a global pandemic, perhaps at the brink of an economic meltdown, we ask Allah for ease. But at this juncture,

let's just focus on what is ahead of us. And that is this day of eight. So Allah Subhana Allah Allah He blessed us with the month of Ramadan, he gifted us this month of Ramadan. Subhana light was a month, where we stood in a crayon, where we were in siyam, fasting, abstaining from what Allah subhanho wa Taala wanted us to abstain from spiritually disciplining ourselves, training ourselves, striving to become better individuals. Now the month has left us we are on the joyous day of Eid, and the command of Allah subhanho wa Taala. Despite the turmoil, the chaos and the turbulence around us the command of Allah is that we should celebrate this day in a manner that is pleasing unto him.

subhanho wa Taala.

So we celebrate ensuring that we do not breach the laws of our lands. So that's an important reminder at the very beginning. If social distancing as an IF lockdowns primarily if lock downs, strict lock downs are in place and adhere to those guidelines, adhere to what your authorities have put forth, and help them in their fight against the pandemic in their fight against COVID-19. And at this juncture, we pray earnestly we pray sincerely that Allah removes this virus, and that Allah brings about ease healing and relief upon all of us, and that he takes all of us back to normalcy soon. I mean, so for the reminder,

in the form of the EAD hotbar, because I'm sure most of you would have played Solitaire

at your homes with your families. And you're tuning in to listen to a reminder, in regards to the day of aid. I'd like to touch on

two important components in regards to the deen of Allah subhanho wa Taala.

And this is highlighted through the words of our messenger sallallahu alayhi wa alayhi wa sallam and I feel it to be very strongly pertinent to the times that we are in to the landscape that we are navigating through. The Hadith is recorded in the book of Muslim Rama, Allah the narration goes along the lines of these words, aka Macaulay slotless ajibade, the Umbrella Movement.

I'm going to be paraphrasing and translating. Just to give you the gist of the narration. The professor Lal Islam says how amazing how wondrous are the affairs of the believer. And then he said a long while evangelism goes on to say and this this aspect is only for the believer. Why? Because when he goes through good times when he experiences good times, what does he do? He renders shook he renders gratitude unto

law he is grateful to Allah subhanho wa Taala. And when he is tested when he goes through trying and difficult times,

like what we are in when he goes through turbulence when he goes through chaos, that what does he do? He holds on to Sabra, he holds on to patience. And both of these matters. These two matters are good for the believer shook and sobre Subhana Allah, almost as if they are the two rings of a believer, my dear brothers and sisters in Islam, the two wings of a believer for the believer to hold on to to ensure that he or she is able to easily so through this worldly life, because what is this worldly life? Our maker he says, unless he holla Parramatta What does he say in sort of Hallmark turbo I can be adding he'll more kohala Konishi

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Tada. So how does a believer navigate through this landscape? How does a believer understand and perceive all of this? My dear brothers and sisters in Islam, it is of utmost importance that you do not lose hope that you do not lose faith.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel Bismillah the tunnel may be long, but the light is there with the help of Allah subhanho wa Taala so be optimistic as per the teachings of the greatest optimist to ever walk on the face of this earth. Mohammed Salah Watanabe was salam, O Allah, ma my mother, my father and myself be ransomed and sacrificed for him so long while he when he was sent him on this joy his day the day of varied that has glorify a lot. Let us celebrate the praises of Allah subhanho wa Taala. Let us emulate the messenger sallallahu alayhi wa sallam by holding on to optimism, do not give in to the dark forces of negativity, do not give into those dark whisperings

of the devil, hold on to optimism, hold on to light hold on to faith do not choose to be a spreader of fear

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is spreading.

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that is more contagious than the virus itself is the fear in regards to the virus. So just as how much we're taking precautionary measures, and it is of utmost importance to do that I'm not undermining it. Anyway, I'm emphasizing that yes, you must take precautionary measures.

But just as how much we're taking precautionary measures in regards to ensuring that we do not become carriers of the virus.

We must ensure that we do not become carriers of negativity carriers of fear. Rather, let us choose to spread light that has choose to spread faith. It has choose to spread hope and positivity whenever and wherever we can meet your brothers and sisters in Islam. You know the words of the messenger sallallahu alayhi wa sallam smiling is an act of charity Subhan Allah so smile, help others to smile. Help others to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Do not push them into an abyss. Do not push yourself firstly into an abyss of darkness. And likewise do not push others into these dark canyons. May Allah subhanho wa Taala protect us all May Allah help us to see the silver

lining May Allah help us to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

So this My dear brothers and sisters in Islam, this mindset can be achieved by holding on to these two wings that I just mentioned, these two components. So in this hotbar I'm going to be dedicating one part of it to the to one component, and then the second hotbar to the second part. So let's start off with sovereign patience because we're going through trying times

Going through chaos or going through turbulence. So how does a believer perceive all of this, the believer holds on to patience. And my dear brothers and sisters in Islam, I know some of you might be thinking because see, the test, the calamity is upon varying levels. Just imagine. And this is why it's so important to empathize, the prophet was an empath. And this is why empathy is a virtuous trait that we must adopt, to be able to empathize with others. Just imagine, think of the families who have lost their loved ones to this pandemic. Think about how they must be feeling the pain that they may be going through, think about the families who have their loved ones.

were being tested positive with this virus, and perhaps they are under medical treatment. We pray for them. May Allah ease their affairs, the ones whose lives were claimed by this virus, we pray for them, we pray for these families, they are in our thoughts and prayers. So I said that it is upon varying levels, because some of us have been directly impacted by it. Some of us indirectly, some of us economically, some of us financially, some of us from a medical angle of health.

So out there, we've all been impacted in some way or the other, but at varying levels. So you know, you might think it's easy to say Be patient, be patient. But you know, if you only could see the world from my angle, I just can't hold on to patience, you might say. So this is why my dear brothers and sisters in Islam, it's a work in progress. It's a work in progress, and we shouldn't look down upon people and think, Oh, you know what? I'm the patient one. Look at this one grumbling, complaining, whining, you know, saying blasphemous things. No, no, no, no. Let's leave all of them My dear brothers and sisters in Islam. You see this trial, this test has to say serve as a wake up

call, to help us mend our ways. And most importantly, to start off by purifying our hearts, let go of the grudges let go of the hatred, let go of the anger. We're just after the month of Ramadan.

You see, you're after the month of Ramadan. And if you're still judging others, then ask yourself, what is the point of me going through 30 days? Okay, nine days of training Subhanallah this, this spiritual boot camp? What's the point of me having gone through all of that, if I still can't stop negative thoughts about others, penetrating into my heart and and controlling my heart? What is the point? We need to work on our hearts to constantly constantly think good about others has no one. You see, this is a concept that needs to be touched on and emphasized a lot in today's landscape. Host no one thinking good about others. It's not easy. It's not easy. It's a work in progress. And

we need to constantly keep training ourselves to you see these thoughts, these negative and bad thoughts. They keep coming and on top of that you have shared on and now he's out of his shackles is going to be you know rampaging all over all around. May Allah protect us from him and his traps. He's going to be whispering these thoughts. So you to constantly keep working on yourself to reject those and repel those thoughts, those negative thoughts about others. Whenever a bad thought comes into your heart about someone, replace it immediately with a good thought. make excuses for that individual don't get into the bad thoughts don't get into the judgmental thoughts. So my dear

brothers and sisters in Islam, coming back to patience.

It's important that we train ourselves to stay away from staying saying blasphemous things in regards to our maker to stay away from

questioning the decree of Allah subhanho wa Taala. You see when you talk about patience,

you have three types of patience as has been illustrated to us by the scholars. Number one, patience in regards to

adhering to the commandments of Allah subhanho wa Taala and pleasing Elias

you've got the commandments of Allah subhanho wa Taala you have to be you have to hold on to patients and adhere to them.

Number two patience in regards to staying away from sins. And if you want an example think about marriage.

Marriage can be used as an example for both of these categories. Patients in adhering to the commandments of Allah.

You know you're young,

you want to indulge in Haram. But you know, that it is from the Sunnah to get married. It is from the commandment of Allah, that

that kind of relationship can only exist within the framework of marriage. So you hold on to patience waiting to

insha Allah act upon that commandment of Alliance. And along with that, you know that it is haram to do anything outside of marriage. So you stay away from sin again holding on to patients at this juncture, we pray

For everyone out there looking for a soul mate that Allah subhanho wa Taala blesses you with compatible and righteous spouses. For those of you looking to get married, may Allah ease your affairs help you all to get married, and bless your marriages. I mean for those of you who are married, may Allah bless your marriages and take your marriage from strength to strength. May Allah help you to invest in your marriages and reap longevity in terms of your relationships in terms of your marriages. For those of you who have children, may Allah bless your children and make them a coolness to your eyes. For those for those of you who are expecting children, may Allah bless you

with children, children who will be righteous and full of goodness, I mean,

so coming back to the structure of patience, number three. So patience, I mean, number one, patience in regards to adhering to the commandments of Allah. Number two patience in regards to staying away from sins and disobeying Eliza voucher number three, patience in regards to the decree of Allah in regards to trials calamities and challenges,

the decree of Allah now this what is happening the global pandemic, it is from the decree of Allah subhanho wa Taala. It is beyond our control is from the decree of Allah azza wa jal La hawla wala quwata illa Billah. Just as how he turned the entire world around in a matter of days, he has the power, he has the mind to turn everything back to normal and return to Him we ask him for help. So at this juncture, let us not question a lot. It does not question the decree of Allah. And it does not utter blasphemous things. Like I said, I know it's upon varying levels, but let's strive to hold on to patients in the southern oola at that beginning, you know, at the beginning at the brunt of

the brunt of facing this trial, this calamity this challenge this difficulty hold on to patience, turned to him cry, pray, invoke supplicate unto him earnestly and he will turn things around my dear brothers and sisters in Islam. Yeah, are you holiday in a monastery? No, this savasana What does Allah say in the Quran? Oh, you who believe sick? Yeah, you Ella Dina minister, I you know, seek the help of a lobby Sabri was Sana. Look at that with patients and SATA patients. And we see this straight it's a profitec trait, a virtuous trait in the lives of the Prophet sallahu wa salatu salam you see it in the life of a Eubalaena to Islam he you know his name Subhan Allah is a synonym for

patients. The prophet Job the Prophet a you you see it in the life of use of violence led to Islam jacobellis led to Islam his famous statement for soberano Jamil beautiful patience,

beautiful patience and because he held on to patience, the light at the end of the tunnel what was the light him being reunited with his son, the tunnel was extremely long. But eventually he was reunited with his beloved son use of Aristotle Salam was not as bad the story in the Koran, look at the life of Muhammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam trial after trial challenge after challenge difficulty after difficulty, despite him being the best of creation, the greatest of all prophets and that is why the professor al Islam is reputed to have said in terms of those who are tested the most by Allah they are ambia the prophets so I'm thankful and then the very next best afterwards the

very next best. So the closer you are to a lot the more you're going to be tested with Eliza virgin. The prophets were the closest and they were the most tested by Allah subhanho wa Taala. So my dear brothers and sisters in Islam, let us hold on to patience. Let us make dua to Allah, that Allah subhanho wa Taala helps us to hold on to patience helps us to be pleased with his decree, or od to be less Robin will bill Islam Medina will be Muhammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam and every year. So with that we conclude the first part of the hotbar and we will go on to talk about sugar in the second part in sha Allah aku polyhedra was tough for LA honey welcome Melissa la Muslim in Temecula,

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Allahu Akbar, Allahu Akbar, Allahu Akbar. Allahu Akbar, Allahu Akbar Allah in in La la la la, la, la La Hamed. Al hamdu Lillahi Rabbil alameen wa Salatu was Salam ala nabina Muhammad wa ala alihi wa sahbihi wa sallam among

the brothers and sisters in Islam.

Be conscious of your maker.

Adhere to His commandments.

Stay away from that which he has prohibited. Be content with what you have in your lives. give out as much charity as possible

and strive to follow the teachings of the prophets that allow

While you ready to sell them at every juncture of your life, may Allah make that easy upon all of us, I mean, now moving on to

the second concept, the second component, if you will, of the Hadith that we mentioned in the first part of the sermon, I shook gratitude

will make us happy hautala talks about sugar in the Quran.

The prophets that along really, really well Selim talks about this trait. And this is another prophetic trait, rendering gratitude,

rendering gratitude LaserJet he says in the no noble foreign law in Chicago, as he then naccho, while in cafardo, in a has initiated, if you render gratitude, if you practice gratitude, as he then I will give you multiplied, so hang, I will multiply it for you, while in the fourth time on the other hand, if you are ungrateful, if you reject and if you're ungrateful, then the torment of Allah is severe. May Allah protect us from his torment. I mean, so many brothers and sisters in Islam, it is of utmost importance to practice gratitude on a regular basis.

If you're talking about lessons that this pandemic has taught us, one of the most important lessons is that we're not supposed to take things for granted. And we're supposed to appreciate the little things in life.

You know, in the rat race that we were caught up a few months ago, a few years ago, we just focusing on the big picture, have not lost sight of the little things around us. And we started to take these things for granted. But today, now we value and we realize that all these other things have in a way faded, you know, the wallpaper, the little, little things. So hang on Allah de matters so much.

And this is why if you were to sit down and actually journal, you know, these days life coaches, they, they are strong advocates for this, and they teach and preach this journaling, in terms of your gratitude in terms of practicing gratitude, if you were to list

and our America subhanho wa Taala. He said this 1400 years ago, when in doubt do in the Noble Quran as it was revealed to the Prophet salallahu alayhi wasalam When in doubt, do not dooney Amata la de la sua. If you were to try and enumerate the blessings, the bounties, the favors and the boons of Allah subhanho wa Taala that are so high, you will not be able to encompass all of the blessings you will not be able to enumerate all of the blessings of Allah azza wa jal. So if you were to sit down and journal,

the blessings, boons and favors that you are enjoying you will come to a very swift conclusion that you are following in an ocean of the mercies and the boundaries of Allah subhanho wa Taala.

The fact that you have a roof over your head, think about those who don't have a roof over their heads. The fact that you have food over your table, food on your table, think about those who are starving, with no food panela starvation. And hunger is actually claiming more lives than then

a lot of sicknesses out there so many people starving, and having enough food to eat.

Think about those who are not able to go and relieve themselves due to perhaps renal failure, or their kidneys shutting down the fact that they have to go to the hospital every few days, to hook them up, hook themselves up to a machine and let the machine do what your kidneys are doing.

To take your kidneys for granted. Don't take your eyes for granted the fact that you can see such a wide spectrum of colors. There are those who see nothing but pitch blackness,

the fact that you can walk the fact that you have a family, the fact that you have your mother with you, your father with you. For those who have lost their mothers, you should listen to their, their lemons. For those who don't have their father's with them. Listen to the elements. Listen to the lemons and the sadness or the orphan.

For those of you who have spouses, for those of you who have children, listen to those who do not have children, how much they're yearning and pining away for children. So don't take any blessing of Allah for granted. And for you to put things in perspective, list down the blessings, my dear brothers and sisters in Islam because the blessings that I You see, we have general blessings that we all enjoy.

But there are specific blessings that you know that maybe in my life that are not in your life, you may have blessings that are going on in your life that I don't have in my life, the ones that we can relate to. So sit down when you start journaling these blessings that you know, bullet pointing them down. You will come to realize that Subhanallah Yes, there are negative things

But the positives very quickly outweigh the negatives. And there's so much for me to be grateful for. There's so much for me to be rendering gratitude. And then the minute you start rendering gratitude,

it is a lost promise that he will give you many fold manifold. This is the promise of Allah subhanho wa Taala. My dear brothers and sisters in Islam, like we mentioned,

categories of Sabra, we have three pillars, three fundamental pillars of sugar, and I would like to quickly run through them. pillar number one,

acknowledge the blessings of Allah subhanho wa Taala. Some of us, we have not even acknowledged that this is a blessing in my life. We've taken it so much for granted. So number one, start off by acknowledging the blessings of Allah Ya Allah, you have given me this year Allah, you have established such a nice source of income for me, you know, you have given me a job, Yama, some of us we have taken our jobs for granted. They've taken our sources of income for granted. So hon Allah. So first, acknowledge the blessing that you have been blessed with. start things off by acknowledging and that's why, you know, I said, if you even want to, like literally write it down,

if you can't do it mentally, if you can't introspect and reflect on the blessings, then write it down. actually make it a physical thing by you write it down, acknowledge the blessings in your life.

Number two, proclaim them. Allah says in Surah todo ha, what does he say?

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see the light to help educate others. So in terms of the blessings that you have my dear brothers and sisters, this lamb

you fulfilling the rights of those blessings is by you doing things that are pleasing unto Allah with those blessings. On the other hand, if you were to use that blessing in the displeasure of Allah subhanho wa Taala, you are asking for tropism. May Allah protect us all.

And the last pillar,

constantly keep seeking the help of Allah, Allah esteana constantly keep seeking the help of Allah, for you to be able to use these blessings in the service of Allah subhanho wa Taala in the service of the Dean of Alliance, Russia, in matters that please Allah subhanho wa Taala your talents, your abilities to each and every one of us, we are talented in some way or the other. Sometimes, you know,

you don't know your own worth, the prophets are aligned Islam as a reporter have said, as per particular idea that people are like mines,

gold and silver mines, you just need to go in and and that is why the Prophet was this exemplary leader. He had qualities of leadership where he was able to harness the abilities, the talents of an individual and help them see it for themselves. And, and and guide them along that path. That is a true trait of a leader, Muhammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam. So you and I, we all have talents, we have abilities, you might be thinking, you know, I don't know, I really don't have any talent. Let me just hold myself up in my bedroom. Now, you have a talent that can be used in amazing ways you can change the world. You can

you see today, you're seeing these big names. They've done some colossal things may amazing things. And you're thinking, you know, how can I ever even dream of becoming like that? At some point, my dear brother, media sister, they too were like you? Did they come into this world? You know, with all that? No, they started off just like you but they had this dream. They work hard in terms of achieving that vision, that vision and Allah helped them and here now they've achieved the change in the world in some massive, productive and good way. So therefore don't give up on yourself. Even at times like this and you know in difficulty

opportunity comes as well. So seize these opportunities because opportunity rarely knocks twice. Seize the window of opportunity and do amazing things My dear brothers and sisters in Islam proclaim the blessings of Allah subhanho wa Taala. So as we come to the conclusion of this reminder on this on this beautiful day, it has spread happiness that has spread faith and positivity. Yes, I know we are in lockdown. And I've put out a couple of videos before this in terms of what or how we're supposed to celebrate during lockdown. Again, I remind all of you and myself adhere to the guidelines put forth by your authorities do not do not breach them. They're in place to mitigate the

spread of the virus. But along with that, by staying at home spending quality time with your family, you can go on to celebrate aid by by spreading the cheer by spreading the festivity using whatever tools that are at your disposal. For example, you could go online you could organize you know something on zoom perhaps you could call them up people you could reach them well you could send out WhatsApp messages you could check on your family members keep keep keep in touch, don't think Oh you know what? This is it you know we can't go visiting we can't do anything we've lost a community feel you have lost it as in physically but but let's do something virtually at least where we keep in

touch and, and and keep the ball rolling. And along with that it is constantly be in prayer. It has used this aid to turn to Allah Summa sincerely pray unto Allah subhanho wa Taala that he takes things back to normalcy, so that the coming aid insha Allah Allah,

we will spend it normally in the massages in the houses of Eliza virgin, by the will of Allah by the permission of Allah subhanho wa Taala. So with that I come to the end of this reminder, we conclude by making dua

to Allah subhanho wa Taala that Allah forgives us of our sins, that Allah accepts this month of Ramadan from us, the clam during the month of Ramadan, the CRM during the month of Ramadan, that Allah Subhana Allah Allah makes us better individuals. We pray that Allah subhanho wa Taala helps us to purify our hearts and we sincerely pray that Allah removes this virus entirely and that He cleanses the planet entirely of this virus and that Allah brings about ease that Allah brings about relief that Allah brings about healing, and that Allah subhanho wa Taala ticks all of us back to normalcy soon. May Allah subhanho wa Taala protect our countries. May Allah protect humanity at

large May Allah help us to be united. May Allah help us to be good to one another Be kind to one another. Man Allah Subhana Horta, Allah put good feelings in our hearts and take away feelings of toxicity, negativity, hatred and anger, rancor and all these other negative qualities from our hearts May Allah subhanho wa Taala make our hearts like the hearts of birds, like the like the people who are going to intergender inshallah, to Allah. And we also pray that Allah subhanho wa Taala eases our affairs opens those of goodness and prosperity for each and every one of us. Every single one who is saying I mean is their affairs open those of goodness establish them financially

give them good health, bless them with long and productive lives, protect our elderly, protect those who are prone to falling ill protect them from this pandemic and protect all of us from every form of evil in every form, if every in every shape, but Allah subhanho wa Taala and just as how he unitrust across these platforms on this joyous and happy day, a lot more fiddling with many minutes. A lot more fiddly than what mininova me now to one Muslim in a Muslim at La Jolla in humble words. Yeah, how you Jaffa Yom dromeda canister reef filler tequila Illa unforeseen Topher dianella a column indolic. were asked Elena schatten an akula Yeah, how you Jaco you rock medic? anastasis

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