Healing A Broken Heart

Assalamu alaikum This is SME metalhead and you're listening to serenity streaming live on one legacy radio, I want to actually begin by apologizing for my voice, I'm actually a little bit sick. So my voice is gonna come in and out. But the topic today is actually one that I think is very, very important. And I think it's something that applies to a lot of us, as we walk through this life, we're going to encounter things which end up hurting us things which ended up breaking our hearts, basically. And whenever we encounter something that's painful, there are different ways in which we can respond. And basically, I think the way that normally, usually when we do encounter, something

that hurts us, the way that we most of the time, the way that we respond, is that we blame. Or rather, we see the creation, as being the cause of our hurt as the cause of our pain. And so for example, if somebody hurts me, or does something or withholds from me, something that I want, what I'm going to do is I'm going to see that person as the one who caused this pain to me. And in this case, I then blame the creation itself, I blame that person or I blame, you know, whatever it is of the creation for the pain that I feel. Now, at times, there isn't a, you know, something that it's not a person that I can blame. So maybe something happened, where maybe there was a natural disaster

or something. And it basically, you know, it wiped out all of my, you know, all of my belongings, I lost everything in this in this natural disaster. And so in that case, because the human being doesn't have another person to blame, what sometimes happens in that case, is humans will actually turn and blame God Himself. And this is the sort of the predicament of a lot of atheists where you find that it's really driven by a sense of anger at God. So because you feel angry, how could God do this to me, so as a result, it leaves that person to disbelieve in God altogether. And it's almost like,

in a sense, it is almost like you're, you're thinking that you're going to punish God, by by refusing to believe in him. And so, a lot of what, you know, what, what drives atheism at times, is, is actually a sense of anger and, and really driven from a sense of arrogance. But basically, the healing process are basically how the only way that you can begin to heal, once you have been hurt or once you have had a broken heart, is when the moment that you can start to stop, what the moment that you stop seeing the creation, and instead see Allah subhanaw taala the moment that you can you can see through the the creation itself, and in what happened to you, and in whatever hurt you and

instead of seeing that, that person, you see Allah subhanaw taala as the one who

out of his wisdom had this or allowed this to happen to you. And now what I want to do is actually share a hadith. It's one of my favorite Hadith, where the prophets lie Selim on the authority of Abdullah, if not best, who said, so one day he was behind the prophets I send them and the prophets I send them turned to him and he said, Young man, I shall teach you some words of advice. Be mindful of Allah and Allah will protect you. Be mindful of Allah and you will find him in front of you. If you ask ask of Allah, if you seek help, seek help of Allah. Know that if the nation were to gather together to benefit us with anything, it would benefit you only with something that Allah had

already prescribed for you. And if they gathered together to harm you with anything, they would harm you only with something Allah had already prescribed for you. The pens have been lifted and the pages have dried. And in another narration of this Hadith, it says that the prophets Elias and him said, Be mindful of Allah, you will find him before you get to know Allah in prosperity, and he will know you in adversity. Know that what has passed you by was not meant to befall you, and that what has befallen you was not going to pass you by and know that victory comes with patience, relief with affliction and ease with hardship.

So you see from this hadith the prophet SAW Selim is explaining that even if every single human being all the nations

were to come together. And they Their plan was that they were going to hurt you with something that they were going to all come together and plot against you that those that they could not hurt you, they could not do anything to you except what Allah subhanaw taala had already written for you, what Allah subhanaw taala had allowed. And similarly, if all of the nations were to come together to try to benefit you to try to give you something, or help you in some way, they would not be able to do it, except by what Allah subhanaw taala had already prescribed for you. So, what we need to see from this Hadeeth the lesson here is that it isn't the nations it isn't the people who are giving or not

giving it isn't the people who are hurting or not hurting, but rather these are all almost like puppets, you know, Allah subhanaw taala is the one in control. So the question then is, Well, okay, some people might then turn their anger towards Allah, right? Okay, it's not the creation, so then I'm going to turn my anger towards Allah instead. But here's where that anger towards Allah would only come out of a lack of knowledge of what really was happening to you. And that's what I want to get into. In another Hadith the Prophet sallallahu Sallam said, that, he explains that for a believer, their matters are strange. And this is only the case. For a believer This is really deep,

because the prophets I send them said, that there's this strange sort of,

you know, circumstance, there's a strange state that a believer is in, where every single thing that happens to the believer is actually good for the believer. So imagine that, that no matter what happens to you, it's actually good for you, it's better for you. And so he gives the example he said that if it's if, if something comes to that believer that they like that they want, they are grateful for it, and so it's good for them. And if something comes that they don't like they are patient, they have Subbu, and therefore, it's good for them. So in the case of a believer, you see everything that Allah subhanaw, taala sends to you, is actually good for you. Now, one of the

examples, I think, that really illustrate this concept of very well, is something that we all can relate to. And that is, you know, when you're little, and you go to get a vaccine, so your parents, they take you to get these shots, and the the way in which you respond to this vaccine can be very different depending on your understanding of the situation. So some people might go to the doctor, and when they get this vaccine shot, they get very angry, they might get angry at the doctor, you know, because the doctor had caused them pain, and another person might actually get angry at the needle itself. Right. And, and, and that idea of when we get when something happens to us, and it's

painful, we can react in a number of ways. And the one who gets angry at Allah subhanaw taala, when these things happen is like the one who gets angry at the doctor for giving them a vaccine. It's like the one who gets angry at the doctor, because of the pain that the that the shock caused them.

Or the one who gets angry at the creation, because of this pain that they went through is like in the case of this vaccine, it's like turning to the needle and getting angry at the needle. So you're looking at in general, and you start cursing the needle? Because Because the needle caused you pain? No, you look at this, it sounds ludicrous. But first of all, the needle has no power. Right? The needle is a tool that's being used by the doctor. And the question is, it's a tool being used by the doctor, is it for your good or is it for your harm. And the point is that this vaccine is for your good, even though it hurts, and that's the point. But once your understanding increases, and here's

where you can look at kind of the different reactions, if you bring a two year old, and you put a two year old in that doctor's office, and that two year old gets the vaccine, that child has no idea that this is good for them. And that child is going to be angry at the needle and that the doctor, okay? And the reason why is because that child does not understand. The reason for this pain. All the child sees is the pain. All the child sees is the needle. The child does not see the doctor, the child does not see the cure. The child only sees the pain and only sees the needle and and that's like the lowest level right where you have where we interact with when we when we do undergo

heartbreak or pain and all we see is the pain and all we see is the creation the person who hurt us. It's just like that child who's getting mad at the needle because they

That, that, that event that that that happened to us or that pain that happened to us or whatever did cause that heartbreak or that pain is actually something that Allah subhanaw. taala is in control of, and allows him to to us for a reason. And then just like the Hadeeth said, that nothing that has that has befallen you, was meant to pass you by, and nothing that has passed you by was meant to befall you. And so here, when we look at the situation of the one who either, you know, gets mad at the needle, or gets mad at the doctor, basically, the reason why this happens, is because in both of these situations, the person fails to see basically fails to see the needle as a

tool that's being used by the doctor. And it's not being used to hurt you, but it's actually being used to cure you, and in fact make you even stronger. But it takes a certain level of understanding to under to see that situation, as it really is. And if you think of, you know, beyond the example of the two year old, then you can think about maybe a child who's a little older, whose understanding is a little better, say you take now a 10 year old, and you put them in that same situation. And that 10 year old now has to get this vaccine, well, that 10 year olds reaction is going to be a little different than the than the two year old, that 10 year old kind of understands,

okay, this is for my own good. But that 10 year old, still a little angry at the doctor. Yeah, and this, this is kind of what we might call Subbu. So we have three different levels of responses to hardship or pain. The first is the one of the two year old, it's the response, where you don't understand that this is good for you, or can be good for you, depending on your response, that you don't understand that and so you react with anger, you react with resentment either towards the creation towards the the the decree of Allah or towards Allah Himself. And that's the one who has the least knowledge of the situation. And then you have the second response, which is the response

that we are required to have, at the very least. And that's the response of sub. And this can kind of be likened to the reaction of the 10 year old, the 10 year old is going to get that shot. And inside that 10 year old might want to be might want to scream inside that 10 year old is pretty angry, but they know enough to sort of, you know, grind their teeth and say thank you to the doctor. Yeah, so this is suffer, that when even when it hurts us, even when we don't fully see it as good for us, we still grind our teeth, and we try to be patient. And at least that's the very least that a believer should have. And in short, not a believer will be rewarded, if they have at least that

level of reach that level of the reaction. And in that case, that is the one who the Prophet sallallahu wasallam describes when he says that any hardship that or any pain or any sorrow, any suffering that a believer undergoes, actually removes their sins, like leaves falling from a tree. And that will be in this category, the one who has sub the one who's at least, even when it hurts inside there, at least, you know, and sometimes sebata is, you know, sometimes again, there's a pre sobota, which is, you know, to support. And that means that you're striving to have sub and this is you know more so that the situation where it hurts inside you don't understand, maybe you know, it's

very difficult for you, but you're still striving to be patient with it. And that's still rewarded by Allah subhanaw taala and the reward of sobotta, the reward of striving to have sobor is actually subud itself, that Allah Spano Tata will bless that person with sub and the prophets I send them tells us this in the Heidi, mental sub Laura, you saw us beautiful law, which means that whatever strives to have patience, or Subbu, that Allah Subhana, Allah will bless them with actually being patient and having sub. And, and that situation is, is again, very, it's rewarded by Allah subhanaw taala. And the reward of that is that you have your sins removed, but then there's a higher level.

And I would liken that level to the reaction of an adult in the situation, when an adult walks in and has to get a vaccine. That adult actually thinks the doctor, and when that adult when that person thinks the doctor, it isn't a fake Thank you. It is a real thank you from the heart, because that person sees fully the situation that this this little prick. It's nothing compared to the benefit that I'm getting from this treatment. And that is the reaction of rhythm. That's the ultimate and I mean, that's the highest level that we want to attain in in terms of how

We respond to pain. And that is that we are actually pleased with the decision of Allah subhanaw taala we're actually thinking Allah subhanaw taala for curing us, and I'm going to take a short break right now, inshallah, when we return, we'll continue on the topic of healing a broken heart

Assalamu alaikum This is a hint and you're listening to serenity streaming live on one legacy radio. Before we continue on the topic of healing a broken heart, I actually want to encourage you guys to inshallah, get involved at the chat box in the chat box. And you know, feel free to share your experiences to ask your questions. I mean, one of the things I want to do is hear from you and have this be a discussion have it be interactive inshallah and, and so we can interact, I can interact with you can interact with me, and as well as people being able to interact with each other in the chat box. So go ahead, and, and, you know, write your questions if you have questions or, or even

reflections that you'd like to share. So, in talking about the, you know, the the response, how we respond, when we are hurt, and how we, how we respond, you know, there's things in our, in our past, perhaps, where we can't really let go, we're not able to let go of a hurt that happened to us, or a loss, or you know, somebody in our life who really, really hurt us, and we hold a grudge, or, you know, someone left us and we just can't get over it. All of these things are, are parts of dunya, that we that we, we have to basically experience. And the question really is how we interpret and how we respond to these things. And in like, the example that I gave about the vaccine, it is that

Allah subhanaw taala is the one who's in charge, you know, just like the doctor is the one who's in charge, it's not the needle, the needle doesn't, you know, act on its own accord, but rather, the doctor controls the needle. And if we, as human beings, just see the creation in what happens to us or in what hurts us, it's just like a person, just seeing the needle and getting very angry at the needle and cursing the needle. Because Because it poked us, you know, the idea here is there's someone in control, and there's a plan for us. And there's a wisdom. And And that brings me to why it is that that someone would get angry in the situation at the doctor. And the reason why someone

would get angry at the doctor in this situation is either because of a lack of understanding and knowledge of the whole curing process. So this is like the situation of the two year old, the two year old. The reason the two year old gets really, really mad and, and screams and cries. And we have adult versions of this right and towards Allah subhanaw taala. Right, we throw our own tantrums, right, but they just come in different forms as adults. But the reason why this happens is because of a lack of understanding of the whole situation, the two year old has no idea why this is happening. The two year old has no idea that this that this poke that this pain is actually curing

that child is actually making that child's immune system stronger, that the two year old doesn't understand that. So it's a lack of knowledge. It's a lack of understanding of the situation, and why it's happening and of the whole curing process. The second reason why we might react with anger is because of a lack of trust in the doctor himself. So if we feel that the doctor does not have our best interests in mind, then we will not trust that doctor, we will we will feel and will feel angry that that doctor hurt us because we don't believe that that doctor has our best interest in mind. And when we think about Allah subhanaw taala if we really understand that Allah subhanaw taala is

more merciful to us than a mother is to her child, then we would never, we would never distrust a law. We would never think that Allah is trying to hurt us. Allah is never trying to hurt us. Allah subhanaw taala wants what's best for us. I mean, if you think about a mother and an infant, and you can't imagine that that mother would ever want to hurt that infant or as the process

Slice lm explained in his head, he would you know, would you think that a mother would throw her baby into the fire. And the same way that that would be something you can't conceive but rather much, much more because Allah subhanaw taala he tells us, the the prophets I send them tells us that Allah has mercy is for his servant is greater than the mother's mercy for that baby. And so Allah subhanaw taala doesn't want you to hurt Allah doesn't give you these things in your life, because he wants you to feel pain, Allah subhanaw taala wants to cure you, Allah subhanaw taala wants to wants to heal you and Allah subhanaw taala wants to free you. And it's really, really important that as

soon as you're able to see things in that way, then everything that comes to you will be good for you. Just like the prophets I send them said that this is the matter of a believer, and it is only the case for a believer. Because you're able to see that even if something hurts you. But Allah subhanaw taala wants Good for you. And if you know that, then you will be able to realize that yes, even though this hurts me, this is a cure. Even though this hurts me, it's good for me, and it's freeing me. And it's healing me. And the second reason why someone might distrust a doctor. So So doctor comes in causes you pain, okay? In the treatment. The second reason why you might distrust

The doctor is if you don't have full trust in the doctors ability or capability. So you if you think a doctor is incompetent, then that's when you would react with anger towards what they're doing to you. And if you undergo pain, you're going to be angry. And the reason is that you don't trust that that doctor knows what he's doing. Now think about Allah subhanaw taala do we trust that Allah knows what he's doing? Do we trust that not only does a lot have our best interests in mind, that he knows what he's doing. He is an island, he is the most knowing. And he has a Hakeem, he is the most wise, he knows exactly what he's doing with us. It's not like you're going to a doctor. And you know, this

person didn't even finish med school, you know, you're going to be pretty distrusting of this doctor. Yeah, but we're dealing with Allah subhanaw taala, we have to know him by his attributes, that he is the most knowing He is the Most Merciful. And he is the most wise in his decisions. And so whatever this doctor is doing with you, you know, it's good for you. And when you have that trust, guess what happens? What happens then, is that the treatment itself can can fulfill its purpose. Because when we don't allow, you know, it's kind of like, if if if you don't allow a surgeon to do the surgery, or you or the doctor gives you a prescription, and you refuse to take the

medicine, it's not going to cure you. The idea here is that when we allow we have to allow the treatment to do its work, we have to allow the doctor to do his work. A trusting that one, the doctor has your best interests in mind, and to the doctrine knows exactly what what what he's doing.

One of the, the quotes which I really really love of it, I'm gonna go ahead and read this quote and then inshallah hear from you guys in the chat box. This this quote of eternal claim is from a data just solid King. And he says that the Divine Decree related to the believer is always a bounty, even if it is in the form of withholding something that is desired. And it is a blessing, even if it appears to be a trial. And an affliction that has befallen him is in reality a cure, even though it appears to be a disease. Unfortunately, due to the ignorance of the worshiper and his transgressions, he does not consider anything to be a gift or a blessing or a cure, unless he can

enjoy it immediately. And it is in accordance with his nature. If he were only given a little bit of understanding, then he would have counted being withheld from being withheld from as a blessing and the sickness as a mercy. And he would relish the troubles that befalls him more than he relishes his ease, and he would enjoy poverty more than he enjoys the richness, and he would be more thankful when he is blessed with a little than when he is blessed with a lot. Why is it lame saying this because this is like the one who, you know, he goes he finds out that he has cancer, okay, the doctor tells them that that you know tells the person that he has cancer, but then the doctor says

but I can undergo that, you know i can i can perform a surgery on you and I can remove the cancer and after the surgery you will be cured of your cancer. Well what's going to happen is you're going to go to the doctor willingly and lovingly, and you're going to give up you know you're going to trust that doctor and something

Want to note here, you don't need to understand. And in fact, you're not going to understand every part of that procedure. Right? When you go to have a surgery, you don't say no, first, you have to explain it all to me, I have to understand everything that you're going to do in the surgery room, otherwise, you can't do it, you don't do that. The reason you don't do that is because you know that the expertise of the surgeon is different than yours, that the understanding of the surgeon is different than yours, and that you can't necessarily understand what that surgeon is going to do in the surgery room, but you have trust that they will, that what they do will be good for you, and

that what they do will be curing you. And so you go to that surgeon, you go, and basically you're telling the surgeon, go ahead and take a knife to me, I mean, that's what you're telling the surgeon that I trust you enough that I'm going to, I'm going to go under the knife. And and I just trust that you're going to cure me. Now imagine we do this with a human being. But we're not willing to do this with a loss of power with odd, we're not willing to to trust him enough that when he gives us something, we know that he's curing us. And in this case, after the surgery, you know what happens, I don't know any faith, anyone has undergone surgery, you know that after the surgery, there's, you

know, it hurts, there's pain in the whole recovery process. But when we feel that pain, we're not, you know, cursing the surgeon, right? nobody's doing that. No one's calling the surgeon every day and be like, Look what you did to me, you know, we are thankful, we're like, thank you so much, thank you so much, you cured me of my cancer, nobody's gonna care that it hurts a little bit, because they've been cured of this horrible disease. And in the same way, you know, Subhanallah, we have so many diseases inside of us, and do we not want to be cured of them. These are the types of diseases that are worse than the physical diseases, because we can have you know, cancer in the body

is something you know, the body is temporary, the body is something that's going to pass away anyways. But when something when there's a diseased inside of the heart, inside of the soul, this is something which is if it's not cured, now we're talking about, you know, going to the hereafter going, this is now talking about the infinite realm, that if we're not purifying ourselves in this life, then we're going to go and face Allah subhanaw taala, with a dirty heart, we're going to go and face Allah subhanaw taala with a soul that's not purified. And you know, that's part of it, that's part of this life, if you think about it, that this life if you think about it as a

purification process, so that when we get to Allah subhanaw, taala, we're clean of our cancers, like we're, you know, we're rid of those diseases and those, and those deadly attachments, which really are just sucking the life out of us. So if you think about life like that, then you know, you're much more able to not just be patient, but even thank the doctor, and have a rhythm and this is the highest level. And when you react in this way, when you react with regard to hardship, something really, really wonderful happens. And that is that you're elevated in your status with Allah subhanaw taala. And this is the highest level in the end, the greatest reaction to to hardship.

Shall I'm gonna take a short break and take a look at the chat box. So go ahead and write your comments and questions.

Assalamu alaikum This is his ninja hint. And you're listening to serenity, streaming live on one legacy radio. We're speaking today about the topic of how to heal a broken heart. How do we get past the things in our lives that hurt us, the people in our lives that that caused us pain and letting go of crutches and forgiving? Basically, one of the you know, the the point that we're making today, is that our problem and why we hold on to things why we can't let go, why we we hold grudges and are angry with with people is because when something happens to us, we see the creation instead of seeing Allah subhanaw taala it's like seeing the needle instead of seeing the doctor when you're

given a vaccine. And and in this example, is that the way in which we see everything that happens to us if we see everything that happens to us in the correct light as believers

Then we will see that everything is actually good for us. If we have the proper response, the prophets, I send them talks about this, that the response can either be patience or gratitude. And in both cases, it means that the matter is good for you. Because your response is, is is either patients or gratitude, depending on what it is. Now, some of the questions from the chat box, there's more than one question that, that talk about the issue of emotional pain. That, you know, doesn't mean for example, one of the questions is, it doesn't mean the fact that I have this emotional pain, does it mean that it's a punishment for me? And and I think that anytime we look at

what what we experience in life, and the question of whether something is a punishment, or whether something is a is a blessing, really, the answer has to do with our reaction to it. So if our reaction to that pain is like the two year old, if our reaction to that pain is to get angry, at the doctor, in this case, Allah subhanaw taala and Allah is high above any analogy, if our if our response is to get angry at Allah subhanaw taala and and the the decree of Allah subhanaw taala, then it may very well be that this is a punishment for us. However, if our response is different, if our response to that emotional pain is that we actually get closer to Allah, you know, sometimes

when things are difficult for us, when we feel pain, it drives us to make the hot to Allah, it drives us to pray a little more, it drives us to become more humble to Allah subhanaw taala and have more of a state which Allah subhanaw taala talks about in the, in the, in the Quran, which is called Paul Dada. Dada is the state of intense humility and desperation and need for Allah subhanaw taala. And this if if this hardship and this emotional pain drives us to that, then it actually is not a punishment for us, but rather a blessing, but rather a cure, as we gave an example of you know, the surgery that's removing the cancer, or the vaccine, which is making you stronger. Now, how does

emotional pain the question would be? How does emotional pain cure you? I mean, it seems kind of counterintuitive, right? How would emotional pain be a cure? Or, you know, remove a cancer from us? Well, here's the thing. A lot of us have these false attachments inside of us, a lot of us might love things, and depend on things in a way that we should only love and depend on Allah subhanaw taala A lot of us have our hearts full of other than Allah subhanaw taala we we are focused on other than Allah subhanaw taala. And so what happens is, as a way as an indication, almost, that there's a problem, you see, because pain, the thing about pain, and you think about this in the physical

world, it's the same rule, that physical, that pain, whether physical or emotional, is a is a driver, it's a motivator to make a change, it's a motivator to act, it's a motivator, to basically do something to alleviate the pain, right? Because we as human beings, naturally we want to, we want to avoid pain, this is natural. And so if we feel physical pain, we're going to it's going to motivate us to change something to do something to alleviate the pain, in the same way that you know, you know your hand, if your hand touches the fire, that pain that you feel is going to make you remove your hand from the fire. And in the same way emotional pain works in in a very similar

way. When you are continuously feeling emotional pain from something, it motivates you to change to do something to change the situation. And so the pain itself is not just a chore because as we know if we respond with Subbu it removes our sins. This is the Hadith of the prophets, I send them but it not is not only a cure, but it's also it's telling you there's something wrong here. It's telling you there's a problem in your attachment. It's telling you there that maybe this the way this relationship is is not healthy. And maybe the reason why you you feel that emotional pain, and it's so intense is because you have made something else other than Allah subhanaw taala The most

important thing in your life. And if you do that, if you make something other than Allah subhanaw taala the ultimate focus of your life, or the the most the highest priority, the thing that your life revolves around, you will for sure because emotional pain. This is like this

is a is a rule. And if you think about this, even this, sort of this, you know, law of the universe type thing is actually a mercy. And it's something designed by Allah subhanaw taala, to push us away from other than him towards him. So if I am, you know, taking something else as my ultimate love, you know, so I have someone in my heart that I have higher than Allah subhanaw taala or I have something in my heart higher than Allah subhanaw taala it might be my job, or, or my career, or my looks or status, or another person, even my spouse, or my children, any of these things, if they are higher than Allah subhanaw taala in my heart, you know, what's going to happen is that that thing

itself, my career, or my job, or my status, or my spouse, or my child will actually be that which causes me the most emotional pain. And it's amazing because because I have made something else, and taken something else and put it at the place where only a loss should be, that thing itself will be the cause of my greatest pain, that thing itself will be it will cause me the most emotional pain. And the reason this happens is because you've put something somewhere where it was never meant to be only Allah subhanaw taala should be the most important thing in our lives. Only Allah subhanaw taala should be our ultimate focus, our ultimate love. And the moment we take something else other than

Him and put it in that place, that thing itself will cause us a great deal of pain. And in that pain, what happens, we'll see think about a person who continuously hurts you again and again. And again. And again. What happens over time, naturally, no matter how attached you were to that person, you will start slowly to detach, you will start slowly to it will weaken the attachment. And so by this means that Allah subhanaw taala designs, that the dunya itself, the more that we get attached to it, the more that we get attached or love something greater than Allah subhanaw taala that thing will actually hurt us again and again and again. And in that is actually a mercy. Because what it

does is it makes us detach, it makes it we can lose our attachment to that thing to the dunya which was an unhealthy attachment. And this doesn't mean that it makes you not love that thing anymore. But it makes you reorient the way in which you're attached to it and put things back in their proper place that Allah subhanaw taala should be the ultimate focus and that everything else should have its proper place in your

in what you love, but not the place where Allah subhanaw taala should be calling Holly Heather was stopped following Li walakum in Hong Kong. Rahim. subhanak Hello, shadow and Illa Illa. And as Dr. O'Connor tulelake was salam wa Alaykum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh