Roaming Ramadan 2024 #15 With Akhi Ayman – UK London
Date:
Channel: Wael Ibrahim
Series: Wael Ibrahim - Roaming Ramadan 2024
File Size: 17.29MB
Related
- Abu Bakr Zoud – Allah describes Ramadan as a few days
- Muhammad Salah – Reflections Ramadan 2023 04 – And indeed We have eased it in your tongue that they might be reminded
- Kamil Ahmad – Ramadan with Allah – Episode #4 – Khushu – Humility
- Hussain Kamani – Stories of the Companions 16-0-2024
- Ibrahim Hindy – Coping and Thriving
- Mohammed Faqih – Struggling With Faith
- Hangout 05 – Yahya Ibrahim – Sunnah
AI Generated Summary ©
The importance of avoiding anger and not just saying no to something is emphasized in a conversation on the natural process of life. The speaker gives advice on how to define one's anger and benefit others, and talks about a video he made and his personal story. He also discusses his regret lists, including regretting past actions and not wanting to change himself, and emphasizes the importance of preparing for death and not looking back into past experiences. He invites others to join a conference in Hong Kong to encourage people to join.AI Generated Transcript ©
My brothers, my sisters in Islam, we'll come
back to a new episode of Roaming Ramadan,
lessons on the road. I'm still in the
UK, in London.
But this is really very, very special episode
to my heart. Allah.
With me is Hari Bashir,
A very dear
brother to my heart. Allah, Allah knows how
much I love him for the sake of
Allah. Akhir Ayman.
And
subhanAllah 'Atheem, I knew
brother Ayman from my students back in Perth,
and I, tended to ignore their calls for
me to watch your videos. So every time
they say, Aqi, Ayman, can we play a
video? I say, no. I I don't watch
these people.
Like I I don't know why I had
a very bad impression without even knowing the
man's heart. You should continue to avoid. Akhai
Ayman. No. Astaghfirullah. And this is a lesson
for for us.
We shouldn't ever make decision or come to
a conclusion
without verifying the information. Alaykim Saha, I was
invited
to light up a light conference,
and guess who was the host? Aqi Amin.
Now what brought me even even then when
I knew that Aqi Amin is with us
in the conference, I was like,
who's this guy again? Still, SubhanAllah, al Adhim,
Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala was teaching me a
lesson. Until a very dear student to my
heart,
Abdullah Yakut,
who is a very special, you know, student,
came to me. He has a little bit
of disability. I call it ability, but differently.
And, he told me, I saw your poster.
He's following you on TikTok, on Instagram,
and he said, please, when you meet Aqi
Eiman, tell him to send me a shout
out.
And my heart trembled because I only then
I realized the impact that you're making
on youngsters.
Then I started watching your videos, and I
knew that you are you were a troublemaker.
No.
Thank you. Thank you for having me. Allah,
it's a great honor because you've only sat
down with my shayikh, Then you come to
sit down with
your, you know, a hawk.
You never know who is better in the
side of
of Allah. Use both of us and all
of us I mean in the dawah scene
to serve his deen. Just to let everyone
know, now I'm in the sheikh's life. Unfortunately,
I'm gonna use and abuse him.
I have your number now, Sheikh. So you
will run the phone calls. We'll see. He
don't he don't know how the Egyptians work,
but we'll see. So I will do well.
Don't even make that comment, Sheikh. Yeah.
Cool. And would you make the comment? You
comment as much as you want. Like this
is unplugged, uncut, unplanned, whatever you wanna say
so long as it's. The guy's from Egypt.
Habibi,
so I wanna I wanna deal with that
interview differently. I don't wanna, like, use the
traditional way of,
about yourself and so on.
But I want you to imagine the old
Ayman who is sitting next to you right
now.
So
what would be the first thing comes to
your mind? What would you say to the
old Ayman?
Now being in that position now, Akhiyayman, the
man who's wearing Mashallah white top influencing people,
what would you tell
the old aiman and all those people who
have anger issues? What would be the first
advice to give? Oh, we start with that
inshallah, and then we take it from there.
Sheikh, to be honest, the first thing that
comes to mind right now while stating this
is
that remember the destroyer
of pleasure.
Remember death.
And so many of us when we're in
such a rage and anger,
We forget ourselves or what our purpose is.
It's your anger. Anger comes from the shaitan.
So if I had to advise myself
as the one that came to the prophet
Muhammad, say
advise me. He said do not get angry.
He said advise me, you Rasool Allah, so
do not get angry. And they were kept
on going back and forth, and he kept
on replying with the same thing, do not
get angry. Mhmm. Anger got me
to displease Allah. Mhmm. Anger got me to
displease my parents. Anger got me to displease
my soul
that belongs to Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala. Wow.
That's very deep now. So how do you
define that? Elaborate on displeasing yourself.
Displeasing yourself because you know yourself.
You're not You're not
you don't belong to yourself.
We belong to Allah and to whom we
shall return.
Yes. We have organs
and and a and a heart and a
brain to think and a heart to function
the rest of the body, but the reality
is the body gets buried. The soul gets
lifted up to Allah and gets accounted for.
So what I mean,
you've let I've let my soul down
because my soul
is something that Allah has allocated in every
single person.
It was created to only worship Allah alone.
That is the right of Allah.
And when the youth figure this out, they
would begin to start loving themselves and what
their purpose is in life.
That's very deep, Ayman.
Where did you study, Ayman? Like, you know,
did you go to Medina University or Umul
Qur'an? Yeah. Or Al Azza? I studied in
My brother Anuj Junior. No. Remember one thing.
Wallahi, people who maybe
Ayman's
very humble brother,
and he knows
where he stands. He said, like, you know,
I I actually asked him earlier. I wanna
tell you what we're gonna discuss, and he
said you said no. Let us let it
be just natural. Natural. What comes from the
hardship, it reaches the heart. And that's what
matters. That's what matters.
Habibi, I I hope that you wouldn't mind
if if we go a little bit deeper
into this discussion because what what we are
doing here, we really need the only intention
is to benefit whoever is watching that maybe
was in the past Ayman
state. Uh-huh. And that's basically your intention why
you came
to to Davao is that you wanna benefit
those people and you wanna bring them back.
I have witnessed yesterday a father who brought,
a son. His son. And I saw you
in the corner if you remember, and I
thought that this brother is actually part of
the volunteering team. Then I went like casually
interrupting the discussion, but I saw you very,
very Mashallah Tabarakallah giving a very harsh advice
to the brother, and then you winked to
me to leave. Then I left because you
were so to that extent,
people are looking up to, brother Emmanuel. We
should support him in any way possible. Sheikhullah
means a lot from people of knowledge and
people that are above me, and
I'm ready to be put in my place.
I'm ready to be advised. I'm ready to
as long as is according to the Quran
and Sunnah. That's it. If you go today
and you decide to make a video about
me
cursing me and refusing against me, I would
say what quran and sunnah do you know
to do this? No one could ever tell
me, but Amos said it publicly. My brother,
I've never
ever recorded any of my content.
The fact of the matter is
I don't have a page
that pushes out my content to that I
record.
So if you received a comment sorry. A
video of myself
of me making a mistake, come to me.
Don't make a video because you can't say
I even said it publicly. No. I said
it to the crowd that was there. And
even after the talk,
if I did make a mistake, the around
me, there's always
there. The imam of the masjid, he will
correct me in front of everybody off camera.
What makes you what gives you the right
turn? Not only that, I mean, you are
in the public space now. I have a
sheikh who usually
record videos a lot and and post online,
and sometimes he record a special video
saying that a brother of mine called me
to bring to my attention that I read
the verse of such and such wrong.
The correct verse is this much, and he
sometimes he apologized for making mistakes. So he
will create a video by himself to correct
himself. You don't have to
ask somebody else to go out there and
expose you. Those people who are working just
to expose others. May Allah forgive us all.
The deep part that I wanted to discuss,
brother Ayman, you told me, you shared with
me privately, I hope that this wouldn't be
any. Sure.
You said you were behind bars. Yes, Sheykh.
And your mom, may Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala,
have visited
you. No. And you have observed something that
made you decide that that's it. I don't
wanna go back to that to that past.
So, Sheikh,
people people say to me, what made you
change? What made me change, sheikh? It's not
prison itself.
It's seeing my mother in her modesty.
People need to understand what hijab is or
what modest is. In today's day and age,
hijab is just a head scarf.
No.
Hijab is from head to toe. But when
I say modus t,
everybody knows that every part of your body
is covered
with clothing that is modest.
My mother came to me in her modesty.
A woman of
came to visit me in prison.
When I saw her being searched because she
was getting searched to make sure she's not
been in by people.
When I saw that, I said I can
never let my mother go through this again.
So you decided right there? I made an
oath to Allah. Not not not right there.
When my mother left me, I went back
to my soul. I went straight into and
said, you Allah,
I am never gonna come back to my
old sick and twisted ways. I'm never gonna
try to displease you. I'm going to fear
you to my best of my abilities. And
I said to myself, and I'll say this
to myself now, do I fear Allah?
I don't.
I don't fear Allah the way he deserves
to be feared. Do I worship Allah? I
don't. I don't worship Allah the way he
deserves to be worshiped.
Why? Because they're doing a distraction.
Mhmm. And that, when I realized that's a
reality. Seeing my mother in that
in that state, I said never again.
And in that situation, my mother was coming
to visit me in one prison, coming to
visit my another brother in another prison, and
the 3 3 of us was in prison
at the same time. So imagine she's going
to different prisons. Painful, of course. Very painful,
Sheikh. Why am I gonna let my mother
go through that?
And how many years do you remember spending
actually time with your mom? Because you're obviously,
you're outside. Sheikh, I am grateful.
I am grateful that Allah
granted me to spend 29 years with my
mother.
And the reason why I should be grateful,
and I believe every single one of us
should be grateful, is that the prophet Muhammad
sallallahu alaihi wasallam when he was born, he
never had a father.
So there's no excuses for anybody that's watching.
At the same time, the prophet Muhammad Sallallahu
Alaihi Wasallam returned back to Allah sorry. His
mother returned back to Allah at the age
of 6 years old.
Am I not grateful that I spent 29
years of my life with my mother?
Why shouldn't I be grateful?
I'm grateful. Allah gifted me that. And despite
the fact that you went the wrong way,
her impact was still there on you. Like,
her presence in your life was still pulling
you back to the right track. 100%, Sheikh.
I'm gonna be honest with you. I was
saying this to Sheikh Bilal. I said
he said to me, like like, I'm sorry
that you lost your loved one. I said
I didn't lose my loved one. My loved
one is Allah.
My loved one is the prophet Muhammad sallallahu
alaihi wa sallam. I didn't lose my mother.
She's not my loved one. My mother is
a backbone that I can never have back.
My mother, allah, I mean, my mother was
a heartbeat
and my heart would never beat the same
without
her. That's something you don't get back.
Inshallah, unless you stand in front of Allah.
May Allah reunite you with
all of us
Habibi,
the the the
the 3 regrets.
Okay? The 3 regrets that you wanted to
advise the youth out there not to even
think about. Like, you regret it in a
manner that makes you everyday think
how to pull back the youth from that
path to be? Sheikh, my first regret, I'm
gonna be honest with you.
I regret
delaying
or neglecting salah.
When I was on the roads, You see
there comes times where the roads distracts you.
You're making money.
You've got to ride out, chase your enemies,
you've got to put them in their place,
or you gotta put other people first. If
it's girls, if it's money, if it's cars,
I neglect
leaving my salah for them. I neglect not
thinking about my salah.
That's my first regret, Sheikh. My second regret,
it has to be displeasing
my parents
and not realizing that my parents is my
best friends in this dunya. Not taking their
advice seriously. Percent.
But knowing they are my true companion
in a,
like,
in As a person care for you. Yeah.
It's my parents. My parents know they want
good for you and they want, and they
would never wish bad for you. Your parents
might advise you. It may come across arrogant
or them putting you down, but the reality
is they're doing this because they love you.
They want you to outdo them in every
aspect of their of your life compared to
theirs.
Among third regret,
which is more important than anything else,
It's my regret.
That's displeasing or lying, actually.
Yeah. That should be your, like, top top
list. It is my top, but I mentioned
it right. Just raise it to someone, my
god. Yes. Displeasing Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala. Displeasing
Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala to such a level.
Allah
says,
do not be like those that forgot Allah.
For indeed Allah makes you forget yourselves.
And we forgot ourselves because we put anyone
and anything before Allah.
We please anyone and anything before Allah subhanahu
wa ta'ala. So that's my big great, Yesha.
You said something today in the speech
that really struck me. You said, I don't
fear death.
My question is,
have you experienced
death or near death experience as they say?
No. And why today you don't fear death?
Because
whenever whenever we mention actually that subject,
our skin shivers, brother. No. Okay.
We were going to the the unknown. Yes.
We know that we're going to Allah.
Have we done enough to to I agree.
You know? So how how did you experience
any near death experience and I've been you
don't feel death? Sheikh, I've been stabbed on
2 occasions.
I've been shot out on 3 different occasions.
Alhamdulillah,
I didn't Allah, by the law, subhanahu wa
ta'ala's mercy and grace,
I never passed away.
And at the same time, I live with
a bag on my stomach right now.
So I've been in that situation. And when
I say I don't fear death,
I don't think any Muslim should fear death.
I believe we should fear the state we
die in. Absolutely.
And this is what we need to prepare
for. We need to prepare
every single minute of the day like death
is walking with us,
and he's waiting for you to slip up.
There was a time I said to myself,
I'm going to act like no one else
exists or Allah
is paying attention to no one except for
me.
I said today I'm going to have this
mindset that Allah has forgotten about everybody and
is only thinking of me. He's only watching
me. Sheikh, I walked
and I breathed and I lived and I
prayed
like Allah is only watching me. By the
end of the night, I slept very well.
I said, I like this feeling. Let me
do it tomorrow as well.
I like that feeling as well, Sheikh. Not
looking, not spending more time on my phone,
spending time with my family, and so on
and so forth. I had this mindset. Not
saying that Allah Allah sees everything, but this
is a mindset that I gave to myself
just to see how I will carry myself.
I did it.
But the moment I fell back and I
started getting distracted,
I realized I loved that feeling.
So you fought for it. And I fought
for it. And I still fight for it
now.
And I believe if every single person allocated
just one day to just say to yourself,
you know what? Let me act like Allah
is only watching me other than everyone else.
And you will see in your actions,
your soul tells you we gotta step up,
and you will see yourself.
Here you go my brothers, my sisters in
Islam.
I I was actually discussing with brother Amin
yesterday about, like, man, you you could have
died in in that process. Like, there are
stories we didn't share, we can't share. May
Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala protect you and your
family and everyone.
But you have seen here, despite all these
difficulties that the brother went through,
Allah brought him back because he was so
sincere
to make a positive change in his life.
And he did, and now he's standing side
by side
with world renowned speakers around the world. Thank
you very much. Subarq'ala. Inviting people to Islam.
I I was walking with brother Ayman the
past couple of days. Masha'ala, the love that
the people have for him,
the support that he gained from the public
is amazing. So,
I think everyone should stand
behind those people who make a change and
never to look back into their past because
the prophet, salawahu alaihi wa sallam, told us
that al Islam Islam
deletes whatever
went before it. May Allah grant us a
sincere tawba. May Allah
protect you. Thank you so much.
Allah, pleasure, pleasure, pleasure. You are.
And,
we hope and we pray that,
on the one last message Yeah. For yourself.
Before you say the message to myself,
I I hope and I pray, and this
is on camera, inshaAllah, that one day you'll
be part of our conferences around the world.
We have conferences in the Philippines, in Hong
Kong,
hopefully in Australia. Allahu'ala.
But what do you wanna say? I just
wanted to say, Sheikh, do not change yourself.
I love you how you are. I will
never change myself. Please.
I love you. What do you mean change
yourself? This is my daily life. As in
like as in like, do not change yourself
and how you carry yourself around every single
person. Allahu alayhi wa. Because how you are
with me is how you are with every
shayhi. Alhamdulillah. How you are with me is
how you are with your kids. How you
are with me is how a man that
when he looks at us from a distance,
he would say to himself, this is how
I wanna be when I grow up.
A man that is loving and caring for
every single person that's around you. Yeah. And
He bullies me though. He don't
He bullies me though. He don't