Nouman Ali Khan – Remarkable Stories – Death – Dealing with Grief & Loss with Hamza Belfedhal

Nouman Ali Khan
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The speakers discuss their experiences with Islam and their journey to the UK, where they faced challenges and faced tragic events with their former founders. They also discuss their experiences with their former founders and their upcoming trip to Dublin. They share their experiences with their former founders and their upcoming trip to Dublin. They also discuss the use of cutting words for grief and the importance of responding to grief, and emphasize the need for a response to it.
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Soon as I got that news,

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my heart sunk to my stomach because I

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must have hit you so hard.

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I didn't know what to think. Allah

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has never tested me with something like this

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ever.

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Tubes in his mouth and wires all over

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it, something out of the movies. That's the

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guy I spoke to 15 minutes and this

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is what happened.

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I remember one of the challenges was that

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we were swimming in a place called the

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44 here in Dulere.

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And it's a place where people jump in

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through water.

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Because one thing you need to know that

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me and Suhayb Rahmahullah and Riyadh will never

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ever go swimming alone. It's a thing that

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we've never ever done. We're always together.

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I got unexpected call that I need to

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leave Ireland. I need to go to the

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UK as soon as possible. Okay. Allah

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wanted me out of the country.

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As I'm on the way back, I get

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a call from Sahib Rahim Allah. Connection got

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interrupted and disconnected.

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15 minutes

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after, I get a phone call. And I'm

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hearing walkie talks in the background. I'm hearing

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a lady speaking in the background. Oh. I'm

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like I'm like, what happened? Man, I can

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hear the machines.

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People crying and.

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It's a kid's on his he's on his

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final moments. Saka Rathe Moat, he's about to

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go. I've

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never ever been hit with something like that

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in my life.

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Like if it wasn't for Islam,

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I would have lost it. I would have

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gone crazy. That's the only thing that was

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holding me back.

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Allah tests you based on the first salamah,

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the first hit. You can't lose yourself in

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the first hit and then be like, oh,

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yeah. Allah is telling me, you failed.

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Allah tested you on the first salamah. What

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are you going to do?

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How are you? How are you? Tell me

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a little bit about yourself.

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So, my name's Hamza. I'm born and raised

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in Dublin, Ireland.

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23.

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My parents are from Algeria.

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That's basically in a nutshell

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about myself.

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What do I do? Yeah.

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Alhamdulillah,

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we

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established the youth organization here in Dublin, Ireland.

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Me and 3 of the brothers,

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it's called 1 Badi 1 Ummah.

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It's based on the hadith of the prophet,

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peace be upon him, where he's explained that

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the ummah is like 1 body. Right. If

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a part of it hurts,

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the whole body doesn't sleep at night until

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How how long have you been doing the

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youth group thing?

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I've been involved with the community ever since

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we were raised. We were raised in the

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local mosque, one of the biggest mosques here

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in Ireland. Yeah. And,

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to be honest, we were raised with any

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academic events,

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any different halaqas,

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by our elders, etcetera. So

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the idea started off

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with, when we were just 3 in the

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borders, me, Riyadh and Suhayb

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where we decided

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to raise funds for a charity, basically. This

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wasn't

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Like an international charity? Yeah. Basically, it's

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a it's a registered charity here in Ireland.

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We started off with Human Appeal, Human Appeal

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in Ireland. That was our first,

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ever

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charitable organization that we've ever started with. And

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we started as something that's

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we're doing good for basically

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the people for the sake of Allah Subhanahu

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Wa Ta'ala.

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And I think I remember one of the

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challenges was that we were swimming in a

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place called the 44 here in Dunlari, nearly

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where you had 2 today at Loza, especially

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2 minutes away from it. And it's a

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place where people jump in to the water.

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It's very cold. And we decided to do

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it in the winter months. Are you serious?

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Yeah. You jumped in the cold water in

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the winter months. Yes. While it was snowing.

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While it was snowing? While it was snowing,

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yeah. Like even So the intelligence level is

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unusually high. Very high,

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Yeah. It's, it's an interesting one, to be

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honest.

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Alhamdulillah, we start we started off as an

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idea. How, like, especially

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stupid things people call it interesting. Yeah. Okay.

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But anyway, go on. Go on. So you

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could tell how, basically, the idea kicked off.

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We were adrenaline junkies basically. Yeah. Always looking

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for a thrill.

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Everything, anything that's exciting. Nobody got hurt, right?

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Nobody got hypothermia or No. No.

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For the challenges, no. But,

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as we started to establish the organization, it

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was me, Riyadh, and Suhayb We,

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we thought of we're thinking of different names,

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and I think Riyadh came up with the

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names. Why don't we call it any one

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body, one ummah, and one body, one nation?

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We started off with different names. We fell

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off with, like, we're comfortable with 1 body,

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1 ummah. That's how we established it. And

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we started off with doing activities that

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hasn't been done before in terms of,

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swimming in every single county in Ireland. For

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example, swimming in every single city, like you

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say in America, in Ireland in 5 days.

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So we've covered every single city in Ireland

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and we swam in every single county in

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Ireland in 5 days to raise funds for

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the Irish homeless. And,

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Interesting. Yeah. And it caught attention by the

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news media because it hasn't been attempted before.

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And they could, like, we've raised, it's only

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it wasn't a large amount like our previous

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fundraisers, but the impact that it had

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on the Irish people was far much better

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than the funds that were raised. Why do

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I say that? Because

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we raised around 2 or €3,000 which is

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it's good but it's very minimal. Right. But

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the impact it had when we were looking

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at our social media accounts and we were

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looking at the comments, there was Irish people,

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non Muslims commenting

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oh my God, 3 Muslims are doing things

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that the people of Ireland are not doing.

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They're helping our own. 3 Muslims are doing

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this, and why are we doing this? So

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when they're looking at Muslims and Islam

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from that channel How beautiful. Yeah.

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So, you know, moving on we decided to

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really

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like, this started to grow gradually,

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and we decided to, I knew, like, we

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can actually make something out of this, you

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know, for our, like, we know the prophet,

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peace be upon him, said that there's 3

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things that follow,

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that continuous

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rewards after your death, and one of them

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is

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continuous charity. So why don't we set up

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an organization where it would benefit the 3

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of us even after we pass away and

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we can pass on to the next generation?

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And that's what we've been doing lately. There

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has been times where,

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it slowed down, people get busy, you have

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work, college, etcetera.

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But still go until this day. And

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we've recently had

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a quite tragic incident with one of our

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founders, like I mentioned, Suhay Bahramahullah.

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Where it happened?

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He, actually drowned in the same place that

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we were doing these crazy challenges in.

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How old was he? 23, same age as

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me.

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Wow.

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He,

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the story about it was, it was me

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and the Muad.

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We were

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thinking about it, it still mind boggling me

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till this day. Uh-huh. How Allah planned everything.

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Because one thing you need to know that

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me and Sohayb Rahimahullah and Riyadh will never

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ever go swimming alone. It's a thing that

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we've never ever done. We're always together.

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We've never ever swam alone since we've known

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each other. And

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in the past couple of years, like me

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and Sohayb became and he's he was my

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best friend.

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And,

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like, every single

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day, I'm seeing him.

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So

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the the day before the incident,

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I got unexpected call that I need to

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leave Ireland. I need to go to the

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UK as soon as possible. On board, I

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needed my help, basically. Okay.

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And it was like 11 PM near midnight.

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So any excuse that I gave to my

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brother, he found a solution to it. Oh,

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I'm too tired. Oh, I'll do this. Oh,

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I can't walk a flight. Okay, I'll do

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this. Every single problem I gave him there

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was solution to it. Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala

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wanted me out of the country.

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So I left,

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it was meant to be a one day

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quick trip. Yeah. I'm back. As I'm on

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the way back, I get a call from

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Sahib Rahimu Allah and,

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he's going, Hamza, yo Hamza, where you at?

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I'm just coming back from,

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Manchester.

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I'm going back to Dublin.

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Where are you?

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And, he flipped the camera, and it was

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the same place that we were in, 44.

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I was like, are you jumping in? Are

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you jumping in?

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Then the connection got interrupted. I was in

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the motorway. And,

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the thing is like me, like, Subhaib radiAllahu

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was really looking forward to entering

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swimming because, like, he was graduating this year,

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he finished his final 4 years of computer

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science,

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And he was under a lot of stress,

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final projects.

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And he was really looking forward

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to getting it off his chest. And one

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of his ways on releasing stress is swimming.

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He really got addicted to it.

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So and coming up to it,

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I used to always go to the place

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and I was, Oh, sorry, but you're coming

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down? He's like, No, no, no. I have

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to focus on my studies. You know, my

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mom really wants me to focus on my

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studies. As soon as I finish, let's let's

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go. And we had plans for Saturday

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to really and he go swimming and

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have food and catch up, basically.

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So the connection got interrupted and disconnected 15

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minutes

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after it, I get a phone call from

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one of his older brothers.

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And

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it's from a fake account on Instagram, so

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I didn't want to answer. And he's calling

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and calling and calling and calling.

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I answered, Assalamu alaikum, who's this?

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Assalam, it's Mohammed.

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Who is Mohammed? He says, I'm Suhaib's brother,

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where are you?

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Coming back to Dublin. Where's Suhaib?

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I don't know. I spoke to him 15

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minutes ago. What are you what are you

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talking about? And I'm hearing walkie talkies in

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the background. I'm hearing a lady speaking in

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the background. Oh, no. I'm like I'm like,

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What happened?

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He's like, Who who is he with? I'm

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like, I don't know. There was no one

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there. It was only me and him speaking.

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That was it.

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What happened?

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And there was nothing there.

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Couple of minutes go by and

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I started

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any thinking about the worst. It's a car

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crash. Drowning? No. It's impossible. So I was

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kinda drowned. He's amazing swimmer. We've been swimming

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there for years. He wouldn't drown. That was

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out of the picture.

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So I'm looking at Google Maps. I'm zooming

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into roads. Has there been any accidents? I'm

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zooming in. My head's playing crazy games.

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And then we call one of his older

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brothers,

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and he says,

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yeah, he's in critical unit.

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In allah. Intensive care and he's been found

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drowned.

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Soon as I got that news,

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my heart sunk to my stomach because,

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we were coming. You were driving at the

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ferry? Yeah, I was, yeah, we were hopping

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under the ferry and then I told him

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my heart. I was like, my heart, my

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heart. Like, I don't know the feeling. I

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can't explain it to you. And he was

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like, pull over. Pull over. Pull over.

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I don't know. It's like someone just came

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and gave me

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a smack. I've never felt something like this

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ever in my life. I've lost my grandmother.

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I've lost my cousins, I've lost my grandfather,

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I've lost.

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But

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with this individual So you didn't see it

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coming at all. And not like,

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like we've lost any

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guy from the youth

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a couple of years ago.

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And

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any of I was always the guy that's

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consoling,

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have patience. Sabar.

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It's okay. It's in the.

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But there's a famous saying that says,

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How easy is it to speak about patience

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When it's not your calamity. When it's not

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your calamity.

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And that was just playing on my head

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over and over and over again. Now I

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understand.

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What people are going through. What people are

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going through. And then,

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oh my God. I must have hit you

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so hard.

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I didn't know what to think. I didn't

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know what to think. I'm going around, I'm

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walking around. There's still hope. He's in critical

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unit. Yeah. There's still hope. He's gonna get

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up. We're gonna speak to him. He's gonna

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get back on his feet.

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All of these thoughts. I'm in the very

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the very street hours from the UK, it's

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3 hours. I'm

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just sitting down, I'm thinking, I'm walking around,

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I'm praying, making duh, I'm walking around up

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and down. I'm just I don't know. My

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mind's doing

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back flips.

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And,

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we we go to the hospital straight away

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as soon as we land, and,

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you know, they said they can't

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no one's allowed to enter at the moment.

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There's too many people. First thing in the

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morning, the next day I go

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and,

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see him there, and it's just

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tubes in his mouth and wires all over

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it.

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Something out of the movies.

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Like, that's

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that's the guy I spoke to 15 minutes

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and this is what happened?

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Like,

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what?

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And,

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I'm a guy that usually never really tears

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up.

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But seeing my best mate there in that

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situation,

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There's just that flowin', you know? And,

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it's very hard to see, you know?

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That was like

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my blood brother, you know. He was literally

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Yeah. My blood brother. Like, yeah, there's there's

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people that you meet in life and

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they're even closer to you than

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your own blood brother. I have an older

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brother, but suhaima

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Allah was closer to him than me.

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And he was

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an individual that always motivated me in terms

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of salat. He was known for not missing

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a single prayer in the masjid. He was

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known for his manners. He was known

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for doing good.

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And he hates cameras.

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One of the things I always remember about

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Subhayhi wa rhammulahi hates cameras. I'm a guy

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that always records. I'm always on social media

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promoting everything. He's gonna have to record me.

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Don't record me, bud. Don't record me. And

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he to the point where he's like, okay,

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Khasa give up, this guy's never gonna stop

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recording me. Just do your thing. So he

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always likes to hide

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his deeds.

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And,

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that's one of the things that,

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like, I'm still shocked about. Like, this is

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the things that I know about him that

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I've seen.

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What he what does he have hidden between

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him and Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala that we

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don't know about?

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You know? Yeah.

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So

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that moment in my life was, well, lies

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like I've never ever

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been hit with something like that in my

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life. So Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala has never

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tested me with something like this ever.

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And like I said, we've been through calamities,

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we've been through hardship, but this one was

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a real test.

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Like, Allah has really put me to the

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test there. What are you gonna do now?

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Are you gonna be patient? Are you gonna

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be

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and,

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the critical unit was a nightmare

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every single day. I I couldn't leave the

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hospital.

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I couldn't leave the hospital. I left the

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hospital for one day. I couldn't sleep all

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night.

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I'm at home. I'm just opening my eyes.

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I'm just thinking. I was like, I can't

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sleep here.

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I had to go sleep slept in the

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hospital. We got the most uncomfortable sleep in

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my life, but it is what it is.

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We got, like, 2 couches and slept, and

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I used to wake up with back pain

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every single day, but I've done the job.

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And that's that went on for now, nearly

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2 or 3 weeks, just sleeping in the

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hospital. I couldn't sleep at home.

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And,

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and then the doctors and the consultants just

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kept saying

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to the family, there's no improvements,

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and there's little to no brain activity in

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in the brain.

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And,

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they were basically telling the family that we

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need to take the plugs off.

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And the family was like, no. Islam, we

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can't do that. No. There's hope. His heart

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is still beating.

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It's been going on back and forth, and

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they were like, listen. That's it.

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Legally speaking in Ireland, he has to go.

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We've given him more than

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what we can.

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And the family was like, okay. What kind

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of alternative

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solutions do we have? They were like, take

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him somewhere else.

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All of all of Ireland wouldn't accept him

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in the state.

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So they started calling home. He was from

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Libya.

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And, Libya was like, no, you can't accept

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him in the state.

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But,

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they made a few other phone calls

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and a lot of dua, a lot

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of a lot of connections. Alhamdulillah.

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They decided to accept him.

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And, they put him in a on a

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on a private jet ambulance, and they took

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him.

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And, 2 or 2 weeks or 3 weeks

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after I get a message, make a dua.

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Make a okay. You've been making dua? What's

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this?

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So I decided to call him, and I

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can hear the machines. There's

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people crying and.

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He's a kid. He's on he's on he's

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on his final moments. He's

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about to go.

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Here we go. I'm home alone now. My

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parents are not home.

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And I'm hearing different stories. People are saying,

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and

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I'm like, what are you talking about? I'm

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speaking to his brother right now. The machines

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are still blaring. But the other day I

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know that the machines means halal, the hats,

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has stopped beating.

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So I'm starting, like, my emotions are taking

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over me now. You know, he's not dead.

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He's not dead. Where did you get the

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news? He's not dead. He's not dead.

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And, that's it. When he said, Allah's

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command to

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Allah. That's when the real reality sunk in

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because

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that little bit of hope was killing me.

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He can survive. He can survive. He can

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survive. Yeah.

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But then

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the stamp of reality came and just

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ended it all. It's reminding me of when,

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my sister had cancer, and then it went

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away. She went and she had chemo. She

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didn't tell anyone. She tried to hide her

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from the family,

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and it went away. Then it came back

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much stronger,

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And,

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she got hospitalized, and then now it couldn't

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be hidden. So now everybody got to find

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out. The family got to find out,

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And she got to a point where

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she had to be put in a specialized,

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unit.

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But in Dallas, where we live,

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they consider that a nonemergency

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because the medical system in the United States

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is,

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I don't have words to describe the corruption,

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but it's not an emergency. So you can't

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transfer her to the specialized hospital.

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So we find out that the closest specialized

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hospital is in,

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is in Houston,

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4 hour drive away.

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And we're like, okay. Can we get an

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ambulance to at least

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take her there? Because they would take they

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they might take her if you go in

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through the emergency room.

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Not actual transfer, but you block in like

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in a walk in emergency,

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they might take her.

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Wouldn't give us an ambulance.

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Wow. So I for the first time, I

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drove an RV. You know, those mobile Yeah.

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Yeah. Yeah. I I got one of those.

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My her her husband,

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he drove the car. I carried her into

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the back, and I'm just lying her lying

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with her in the back, just making sure

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she doesn't fall because she couldn't even sit

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up. Wow. And we drove through the night,

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like,

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to the to the hospital. I put her

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in a wheelchair, and we walk in. And

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then that's how she got admitted admitted to

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that. Because the first hospital told her she

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has

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she's not going to last a day, but

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they wouldn't let her go to a hospital.

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They wouldn't have transport?

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No. No. So then we went through the

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emergency room. They diagnosed her in an hour,

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then they put her in the cancer unit

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that they were refusing to put her in

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otherwise.

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And now she's there, and she would literally

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be you know how you were sitting next

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to your friend and you couldn't leave the

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hospital?

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I don't live in,

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Houston. I live in Dallas. So I just

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I'm now at this point, just living in

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the hospital,

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practically and down the street from it. I

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got my parents,

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a hotel. I'm just going back and forth

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from the hospital. And she'd wake up maybe

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5 minutes in a day, 8 minutes in

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a day, say a word or 2. And

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she used to work with me at Vienna.

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So,

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you know, and she just in, in like

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half conscious, she'd just say my name. I'd

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be, I'm right here. I'm right here. And

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she'd refuse to eat. And then

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the only one she'd drink something from is

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if I'm holding it for her. So like

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I'd give her and then

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just 2 weeks before then, she had arranged

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for me to go to a program

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in, Malaysia.

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And

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I canceled it because I'm I'm not gonna

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leave her. Of course.

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So she comes to her conscience, and she

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goes, why aren't you in Malaysia right now?

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And I was like, no. I I'm not

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gonna go. I'm not gonna leave you. She

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she gets really upset with me. She says,

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I you have to promise me. I put

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that together. You will go. You will not

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stay behind. Go and come back.

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But I will not be I'm not going

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to eat anything if you don't go. She

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starts she she goes big sister mode on

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me. Right? So I was like,

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I can't upset her in this state. Yeah.

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Yeah. Okay. I'm going. I'm going.

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So I go

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to the programme, and

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I still remember. I get the I I

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come back from the program that night in

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the hotel, and I get a call from

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my my younger sister that she's gone.

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And,

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my entire family was in devastation. I was

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frozen, and I, like,

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I didn't know what to think. And I

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I don't even know how I I don't

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remember the flight. I don't remember anything. I

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don't just

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I got there, and

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my family was in disarray. Nobody

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this is the this is the first time

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we're dealing with something like this in my

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family. And she was my she was my

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best friend. Wow. Like, I've had many friends

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in my life, but nobody likes Saima. Like,

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she was my best friend. And if you

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if you saw us together, you wouldn't think

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we're siblings.

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We're 2 different worlds, but she was my

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absolute best friend.

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And him.

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And him. And you know, it's not an

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easy thing to,

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to deal with, especially the whole part you

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said, you know, like, okay. She's she's drinking

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now. She's eating now. It's gonna it's gonna

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get better. We used to eat we used

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we used to dream for that. Yeah. But

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there was actually nothing. Yeah. There was nothing.

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Because we had the from the 3 weeks

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that we were sleeping in the hospital. Yeah.

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Which you shouldn't be sleeping in a critical

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care unit, but they they found out that

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we're very emotional.

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So they've done a

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few switches. But

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we've seen at least 6 or 7 deaths.

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Families coming in. My sister's about to die.

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She dies. Move on. We've seen so many

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patients coming in and out and Sahib is

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still there. Right. And one of the patients

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was like, oh, my sister is moving her

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right hand. Or I wish

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Sahib opened his eyes. I wish Sahib and

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I think they were giving him some,

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medicine where

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and it was only a reflex from his

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eyes, and his eyes would would open. I

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was like, oh, Suhaib's listening to us. He's

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reacting. He's reacting. And then the doctor you

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know, the doctors were telling us, no. This

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is only a reflex from the eyes. I

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was like, no. No. No. They don't know

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what we know. We know we can hear

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us. The soul can hear us any bit

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of a hope that there was. So after

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after he was gone Yeah.

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How did you

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feel?

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How did you deal with

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all of that experience?

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Allah here.

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I didn't know how to deal with it,

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to be honest. Yeah?

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He was one of the guys that

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whenever there's nothing there or there's nothing or

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no plans, Saeb. Yo, Saeb, you wanna

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go?

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Dad's gone.

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What do I do now?

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Yeah.

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Who's gonna join me in my swimming?

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How are we getting Like a it's such

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a part of your life. It's an extension

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of yourself almost, you know? I didn't know

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what to do. I bought one One of

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the things I used to always remember is

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when the prophet, salallahu alayhi wasallam, lost his

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son, Ibrahim.

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Yeah.

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Of course, like,

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I

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was actually on social media and I was

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just,

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like I always tell this to to the

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brothers beside me,

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like if it wasn't for Islam,

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I would have lost it. I would have

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gone crazy. That's the only thing that was

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holding me back. Allah

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is testing me. Allah tests you based on

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the first salamah, the first hit. You can't

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lose yourself in the first hit and then

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be like, oh, yeah. Allah

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is testing me. You failed.

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Allah tested you on that first salamah. What

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are you going to do?

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And as soon as that hit me where?

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So had it not been for Islam, what

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would have happened?

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You know, you look up families here without

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Islam, and the first thing they result to

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was

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alcohol. Let me forget about it. Drugs. Let

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me forget about it. Let me do this.

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And

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Islam holds you back. Yeah.

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Yeah. Akhan is better for you. You know,

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like, I was thinking about this conversation and

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like,

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the word for grief,

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in the Quran there are a few. But

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one of

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them, one of the more intense words, huzun

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is the common word for grief in the

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Quran. But karb

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is actually a much stronger word. Al karb

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al a'adeem, for example.

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And Allah uses that for

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and he uses it in 3 contexts.

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He uses it for Nuh alaihi salaam,

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who

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in his own way, for the longest time,

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has false hope

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that things are going to turn around for

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his family. Right? But he's holding onto that

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hope. And then every day that that hope

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is not met is another,

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you know, another

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poke of pain, another stab, another stab, another

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stab. It's not just when his son drowned.

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Like, in a sense, his son was drowning

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every day. You know, and he's dealing with

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that. Allah uses garb for,

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Musa and Harun and their nation.

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And those are 3 different kinds of kirk.

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Like

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Musa

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his entire life

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of grief and the things he went through,

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and Harun

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as his brother and also a slave of

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the Israelites. Right? And all the things that

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they went through on all the atrocities that

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they saw that they couldn't get out of.

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And

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but then the 3rd time,

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Allah uses it and He says, min kulli

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karbin, like Allah will rescue you

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from all kinds of kerb. And it's interesting.

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Allah uses the word tanjia, like rescue

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with kerb. Like, it's not something

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you can get out of yourself.

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Like, this this kind of grief is not

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something that a human being is capable of

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overcoming on their own. It is something Allah

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only Allah can rescue you from. You would

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think rescue you from, like,

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a deadly thing, a danger. Allah uses the

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word rescue for this kind of and then

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I I started wondering, what what does karab

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actually come from? Because, you know, Arabic words,

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they have this interesting origin. Right?

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And karb alhamu shadeed, fine. That's the the

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dictionary meaning is intense grief, but it actually,

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was

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used when you when you take the shovel

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and you dig the inside of the earth

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and you bring it out.

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So the outside of the earth is tough,

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but the inside is soft soil.

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Right? When you dig in and you bring

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the inner softness out

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Yeah. That's actually karbul ard. Okay. And what

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that means is there's emotions inside me. I

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can handle myself. I have composure on the

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outside, but something happened that cut me deep

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and something deep and raw inside

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was ripped out and pulled out of me.

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Right? And that's one of the meanings of

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Then it's it's used for the sun. Like

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Karbo Shams says when the sun is drowning

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or it's setting in the evening. Right. So

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all of its brightness is going away. You

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can feel

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light going away

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and slowly disappearing.

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Right? This darkness is taking over you. The

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feeling of darkness is taking over you.

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Was used for like,

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when a container is almost full.

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And that's why the Ulema used the word

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to describe grief that almost overwhelms you, like

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it drowns you in itself.

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You know, so it's so incredible. And finally,

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was used for like raqdul ghhalif. Like, when

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you tie a bucket, you have to tie

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the rope really tight for the well.

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That knot was actually called a Qarab.

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And like, it's a grief

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that binds you. Like you can't undo it.

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You can't get away from it. It keeps

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coming back. It keeps hitting you. And Allah

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keeps Allah says something so profound here that

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he's the only one who can rescue you

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from it. Like, you know, of course, people

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go through traumatic experiences. Right? And they go

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through grief and they're like, how do I

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get past this? How do I move on

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from this? I keep having these thoughts. I

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keep crying. And, you know, I've met people

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that lost their mom and they say my

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mom was my everything.

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And it's been months, it's been years and

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I cry like it just happened.

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I can't get past it. And of course

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we have the story of Yahuwah Alayhi Salaam

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who

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like, it's actually the hope that's killing him.

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Like if he found out that Yusuf was

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dead. Yeah. At least, you know, there's a

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It's

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closure. I can move on, but he doesn't

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know what happened to him.

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He doesn't know if he died peacefully or

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he died a violent death or is still

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being abused. He doesn't know anything.

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It's just stabbing away at him all the

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time. Mhmm. Right?

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And and Allah then says the only one

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who can rescue you. Some people will be

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tested with longer periods of grief, some with

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shorter periods of grief, but the only one

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who can rescue you in the end is

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Allah. Is Allah

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Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala.

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And people will people will run

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to the club to escape their grief. Video

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games,

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binge watching TV,

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drugs, alcohol.

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Right? They'll Exactly. They'll start doing, you know,

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thrill sports or whatever, you know, just to

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escape

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their grief.

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And

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literally

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the term you use is escape, right? Escapism.

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And Allah says there's no escape. The only

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rescue

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is Allah

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Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala. Like what an incredible,

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you know,

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powerful thing that Allah has given us that

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in His words we can find,

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we can, we can find relief Allah. You

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know, the last thing I'll share with you

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on this is like

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Nuh

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right? How long, how many years of grief?

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And

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Allah says about him, like

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Nuh called on us

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and how how beautiful, how amazing we are

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as givers of a response. Meaning Allah says,

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I'm the best giver of a response.

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And then he says,

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Then he says, we rescued him. Now the

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critical question is,

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if Allah is the best one to give

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a response, how come he didn't give it

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sooner?

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Right? Like the best response would be the

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moment I felt grief,

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Allah solves it. And it's not like I'm

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going to make any better dua than Noor

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because it's kind of a prophet. So

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I can't beat him in Ibadah. Exactly. So

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and if he's making dua for 950 years

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and Allah is not relieving his grief, and

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then Allah says he's the best to respond.

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The Ayah is teaching us that

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the relief and the rescue,

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it's not on our timetable.

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You have to give yourself to

00:31:00 --> 00:31:02

Allah and he, he will decide when the

00:31:02 --> 00:31:04

relief will come. Exactly. You know,

00:31:04 --> 00:31:06

it'll come for Musa's mother in a few

00:31:06 --> 00:31:09

hours and she'll be reunited with Musa

00:31:09 --> 00:31:11

and it'll come with,

00:31:11 --> 00:31:14

Yaqub alaihis salaam after many years and he'll

00:31:14 --> 00:31:16

be regularly reunited with Musa. And it will

00:31:16 --> 00:31:19

take 9 50 years for Nuh alayhi salaam.

00:31:20 --> 00:31:22

You always use the example of, like, all

00:31:22 --> 00:31:24

we see is pixelated images. Allah subhanahu wa

00:31:24 --> 00:31:26

ta'ala sees the full picture. That's correct. Yeah.

00:31:26 --> 00:31:28

And that's Yeah. That's what it is. And

00:31:28 --> 00:31:29

Subhanallah. One of the areas

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Yeah. You think we've just created you uselessly.

00:31:34 --> 00:31:36

Yes. You're not gonna come back to us.

00:31:36 --> 00:31:37

So

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this life is just, like, it's a test.

00:31:40 --> 00:31:43

It's the nirma of Islam, man. Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah.

00:31:43 --> 00:31:45

The blessing of having Allah's words

00:31:46 --> 00:31:47

to help us get through

00:31:48 --> 00:31:51

these really challenging times in our life, you

00:31:51 --> 00:31:51

know.

00:31:52 --> 00:31:52

And

00:31:53 --> 00:31:55

just, just having the comfort of knowing

00:31:55 --> 00:31:56

that

00:31:57 --> 00:31:58

we have to do our best

00:31:59 --> 00:32:00

to be able to be reunited

00:32:00 --> 00:32:02

with the people that we love. Exactly. Right?

00:32:02 --> 00:32:03

Because the

00:32:04 --> 00:32:06

gathering is happy happening whether we like it

00:32:06 --> 00:32:09

or not, it's coming. Yeah. But whether we're

00:32:09 --> 00:32:10

gonna be united on the right side of

00:32:10 --> 00:32:12

things on the wrong, that's still up to

00:32:12 --> 00:32:15

us. Exactly. That's still, you know. So now

00:32:15 --> 00:32:16

it becomes

00:32:16 --> 00:32:17

when I lose a loved one, when you

00:32:17 --> 00:32:20

lose a loved one, then our motivation to

00:32:21 --> 00:32:23

get away from darkness and to run towards

00:32:23 --> 00:32:26

Allah's light, like Exactly. That should become all

00:32:26 --> 00:32:27

the more intense because

00:32:27 --> 00:32:29

there's loved ones at the end of that

00:32:29 --> 00:32:31

journey, not just for ourselves in our meeting

00:32:31 --> 00:32:32

with Allah, but they're also there

00:32:33 --> 00:32:35

and they're waiting for us too, you know?

00:32:35 --> 00:32:37

Exactly. SubhanAllah. And like one of the critical

00:32:37 --> 00:32:39

questions as well is like, what are you

00:32:39 --> 00:32:41

gonna be known for after you pass away?

00:32:41 --> 00:32:42

For

00:32:42 --> 00:32:44

so Ibrahim Allah who is known for a

00:32:44 --> 00:32:46

man of the masjid. The imam of the

00:32:46 --> 00:32:46

masjid

00:32:47 --> 00:32:49

has bears witness, but he never sees

00:32:50 --> 00:32:51

a line of fajr without Suhayb.

00:32:52 --> 00:32:54

It. And the people that are around him,

00:32:54 --> 00:32:55

family, friends,

00:32:56 --> 00:32:57

people that don't even know him. Like one

00:32:57 --> 00:32:59

of the guys that he said he met

00:32:59 --> 00:33:00

him for wallahi, he said he met him

00:33:00 --> 00:33:02

for 10 minutes. This guy is from the

00:33:02 --> 00:33:04

UK. He's met him for 10 minutes. The

00:33:04 --> 00:33:05

conversation was suhayb.

00:33:06 --> 00:33:08

And when he heard suhayb passed away, he

00:33:08 --> 00:33:08

flew

00:33:08 --> 00:33:11

from from the UK to Ireland to join

00:33:11 --> 00:33:12

our group speaking about Suhayb. He said, oh,

00:33:12 --> 00:33:14

Allah, I had this conversation with his brother

00:33:14 --> 00:33:16

for 10 minutes, and he had a big

00:33:16 --> 00:33:18

impact about me. I don't know what this

00:33:18 --> 00:33:19

guy achieved. I don't know how it hit

00:33:19 --> 00:33:20

me, but

00:33:20 --> 00:33:22

your brother's something special. And some people are

00:33:22 --> 00:33:24

just special to Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala. And,

00:33:24 --> 00:33:27

alhamdulillah, I till this day, I look up

00:33:27 --> 00:33:28

to him like, how how am I gonna

00:33:28 --> 00:33:29

beat this guy?

00:33:29 --> 00:33:31

And he was known for a masjid. And,

00:33:32 --> 00:33:33

we decided to

00:33:33 --> 00:33:36

fundraise for a masjid and a quranic school

00:33:36 --> 00:33:38

for him. Because he was a man that

00:33:38 --> 00:33:40

was known for that. And it's only right

00:33:41 --> 00:33:42

that we do something on, under his behalf

00:33:42 --> 00:33:44

to carry on his legacy inshallah. Well, you

00:33:44 --> 00:33:46

know how beautiful our religion, like death is

00:33:46 --> 00:33:46

a tragedy

00:33:48 --> 00:33:50

across the board in humanity. And for us,

00:33:50 --> 00:33:51

death can be a means of celebrating the

00:33:51 --> 00:33:53

good legacy of someone. And it could be

00:33:53 --> 00:33:54

a means of carrying,

00:33:54 --> 00:33:56

like, perpetuating a goodness

00:33:57 --> 00:33:59

and even being jealous of the one who

00:33:59 --> 00:34:01

passed in a good way.

00:34:01 --> 00:34:03

Right? Like we're like

00:34:05 --> 00:34:06

it is like they made it. May Allah

00:34:06 --> 00:34:09

forgive him and grant him the highest levels

00:34:09 --> 00:34:10

in Jannah, but it's

00:34:10 --> 00:34:12

a beautiful truth that Allah has given us.

00:34:12 --> 00:34:15

And the stronger we connect with Allah Subhanahu

00:34:15 --> 00:34:15

Wa Ta'ala

00:34:16 --> 00:34:17

and with the core of what we believe,

00:34:18 --> 00:34:21

like the easier life becomes to navigate. Thanks

00:34:21 --> 00:34:23

so much for sharing that with me.

00:34:23 --> 00:34:25

I know it's a difficult experience to recall,

00:34:25 --> 00:34:26

but

00:34:26 --> 00:34:28

I appreciate it. And I think, inshallah, it

00:34:28 --> 00:34:29

will benefit others who are going through

00:34:30 --> 00:34:32

their own trials that Allah has given them.

00:34:32 --> 00:34:34

You know? Allah is Saba. Yeah. Saba is

00:34:34 --> 00:34:36

a, it's a light word. As soon as

00:34:36 --> 00:34:39

you're afflicted with it, it carries a huge,

00:34:39 --> 00:34:40

huge meaning behind it. Yeah. Alhamdulillah.

00:34:41 --> 00:34:42

And your man of Sabr

00:34:43 --> 00:34:44

give you good risk and make you a

00:34:44 --> 00:34:45

good continuation

00:34:45 --> 00:34:47

of the inspiration your friend gave you. Ameen

00:34:47 --> 00:34:50

You Rabbis Allah to forgive your assistance and

00:34:50 --> 00:34:51

grant to the highest level of judgment. Ameen

00:34:51 --> 00:34:53

You Rabbis Allahum Ameen. Thanks so much for

00:34:53 --> 00:34:53

sharing.

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