The Quranic Solution

Moutasem al-Hameedy

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Alhamdulillah

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Muhammad who want to start you know who want to stop.

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center had the had you Mohammedan sallallahu alayhi wa early he was a chaperone

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to her a coup d'etat in Baghdad, collaborate the agenda Allah Allah beaucoup la polla let him to not

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pull praise is due to Allah, we praise Him. We seek his aid and we ask for his forgiveness.

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We seek refuge in Allah from the evils of ourselves and the evil consequences of our actions. Whomsoever Allah guides, none can lead astray and whomsoever Allah leaves to go astray, Nan, Nan can guide I testify that there is none worthy of our worship and devotion but the Almighty Allah alone. And I testify that Muhammad Sallallahu ala he went early he was a lamb is His servant and His Messenger or you who believe, fear Allah as he should be feared and die, not accept and surrender as Muslims. All mankind, be dutiful to a Lord who created you from a single person and from him he created his wife, and from them both he created many men and women and fear Allah through whom you

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demand your mutual rights, and observe the rights of your kin. Surely Allah is Ever and all water over you, or you who believe. If your duty to Allah fear him and speak the truth, he will direct you to righteous deeds and will forgive your sins. And whoever obeys Allah and His Messenger has indeed attained a great achievement. The best words are the Divine Words of Allah, the Almighty. And the best guidance is that of Prophet Muhammad Sallallahu Allah who were early he was selling them. And the worst things in the religion are the newly invented matters. For all the newly invented matters in religion, or heretical innovation and bidder and every bidder is misguidance.

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Allah subhana wa Tada in the Quran,

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in many places, clarifies the reality of this life that we are going through this journey that we are going through.

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And he describes it as a test.

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And as temporary.

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And it tests test is going to be full of hardships, full of hurdles, challenges, and unexpected circumstances. It's not going to be an easy ride.

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But Allah subhanaw taala placed us on this earth for a reason. And that's to test us

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and test

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cannot be achieved without people being pushed to their limit being put to the test. This is why this life is full of problems. And if you were to consider life itself, life itself on Earth is a problem.

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Life on Earth itself and a problem here I don't mean that there is something morally wrong with it. But I just mean that it is difficult. It's a challenge. The word in Arabic that we use today for problem is much kill almost killer. But that's a little bit of an updated use of the word muscular muscular in the Arabic language means confusing.

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Apparently confusing on the surface.

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office. It's confusing. Now we started to apply this to the challenges in life.

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But in the older times, this was called a tiller. What we took today today called problems. The early generations of Muslims called that if tiller. The Quran calls it IB Tila, a test.

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Allah puts you to the test. That's what this life is. But when we Muslims have been swallowing a lot of secular jargon and stuff, and mindsets. On a worryingly, unkind, unconsciously, we started thinking in secular terms, we call them muscular problem. But Allah calls them tests. And you can see the difference between the two words, each one takes you down a different path.

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Now the best way to deal with the problems of life, the challenges and the tests of life, the best way to deal with this are the best advice, the best source of advice that we have accessible to us, that can equip us with the knowledge, the skills, the mindset, and the necessary wisdom. To handle the test of life. What we call problems

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is divine revelation, the Quran. And here I'm talking about problems and challenges at the level at the personal level.

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At the personal level, you have inner problems, you have internal problems. Again, another secular secular world word that we borrowed, with all of its problems,

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is emotions. We call that the emotional life. The Muslims call it the inner life, the inner experience, the heart, the neffs. That's the word.

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And it's completely based on a different mindset. But we have borrowed stuff that is non Islamic again. And we think we can handle the world with a non Islamic mindset, a mindset that rejects Allah, this is what it's based on denial of Allah. But again, this is not our topic.

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The best source where we can find the wisdom, the knowledge, the skills, the mindset, and all we need to be able to handle life's tests, which we call problems, is the book of Allah subhanaw taala.

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And the way it was implemented and acted upon by the prophet muhammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam in his Syrah, and then how his companions a lot they, Allahu Anhu. Afterwards,

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they implemented his own wisdom in their own life and their unique circumstances. So what we are trying, what we will try to do briefly is to highlight some of the advice that we have in the Quran, and the implementation from the Prophet salallahu salam to how to handle life's problems. So we have as we said, personal problems in inner problems, internal problems that happen within ourselves. And again, we call them today emotional problems,

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psychological problems, then we have relational problems, we have problems with our spouses, we have problems with our children, our siblings, our friends, with members of the community, with colleagues, we have problems with other people social problems, then we have at a higher a wider social scale, we have problems that a society suffers from, or a community within a society suffers from,

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then we have lower problems and challenges at the national level.

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Then we have problems at the level of the Ummah itself, the Muslim, the global Muslim community.

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And then we have problems that are global to everyone else, to everyone here in existence. And the problems or the, the wisdom that you'll find in the Quran works at all levels,

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works at all levels. And if you contemplate the state of many people, you will find that they bring about more problems into their life than they need to deal with. That's why because they are using the wrong advice, implementing unhelpful detrimental strategies that actually exacerbate their challenges and make them fail the test and again, which we call problem. So we're just going to highlight some of the most foundational issues in the Quran that really help us position ourselves in this life, position ourselves in a way that gives us an advantage, a very powerful advantage to handle life's tests at Liberty lab.

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The tests that Allah put us through again, I'm going to emphasize this again, so just don't feel

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you bothered by that what we call today problems.

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Life itself is a test

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is the biggest problem that you have surviving this life, navigating this life

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being able to deal with this life safely and make it back to Allah subhanho wa Taala without having to go to the Hellfire without having been had to without,

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without having to be tested in the hellfire.

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That's the biggest challenge that you have. That's the central problem that you have. And if you don't figure it out,

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then all of your efforts to identify, to analyze and to address other problems will be contaminated.

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Other problems will be missed and identified because this problem

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frames everything else in this life.

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Because

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the nature of problem or test and the solution, it has directional momentum, what we call a problem is something that pushes against our natural flow or our natural direction. Let's say you're trying to make some money as a business, then some financial situation or some issues with the market, limit your capacity to get profit to make profit,

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or some legislation, work against the profit that you do or minimizes the margin of profit that you get. You call this a problem because it pushes against your direction.

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So that's the nature of problems problems are things that push against the direction that we are heading into.

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And the test of this life is that you take the direction that leads to Allah and Jana

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This is why we say in Surah Al Fatiha Dino set up almost 13 Take us Oh Allah guide us to the straight path. Guide us on the straight path keep us upon it. path you're talking about a path you are on a journey. Check on Islam, Tamia hammer, Allah says a nurse who liaison almost half here in India, he says I'm here to suffer this life is a journey. And people are always traveling, you're always traveling to Allah to that's the direction that you should take. And that's the way you can pass this test. And that's the way you can succeed and in the face of all of these problems. But when you when this direction is not clear in your heart,

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and you don't commit to it 100%

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It becomes your reference point, then you will not be able to recognize what's a real problem. And what's a fake problem, you will be projecting your confusion on situations you will call an opportunity a problem.

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And you would

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call a problem, which is detrimental to you an opportunity and you will act accordingly. So you're acting in your own detriment. You're being your own enemy. And that's why the Arabs say Al Jazeera Hello, I do want FC, the ignorant person is the enemy of himself. Why? Because they're acting on lack of wisdom and lack of knowledge and what they do, exacerbates the problems that they have. And brings about new problems, unnecessary problems.

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So without identifying the real problem, the central problem of this life and committing to that direction

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we're going to have we're going to invite into our lives a lot of unnecessary problems we will miss identify situations that are good and conducive to our well being will identify them as problems.

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So dealing with a problem is not a one step or a linear process of a couple of steps. dealing with problems is more of a strategic attitude is more about positioning yourself in this life. Right? So you can minimize the problems and their potential. And then you can make the best out of them and propel yourself in the direction of success with Allah subhanho wa Taala This is why Allah subhanaw taala says in the Quran man Amina salah, I mean the Quran Alonza who will mean that, you know Hi yah, Tompa yoga.

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Whoever does righteousness acts, does works of righteousness, good deeds, but good deeds are not limited.

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They are, there's a huge spectrum of good deeds, while they are in a state of belief, male or female, we shall give them a good life.

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We shall give them a good life. They are here now head on with energies Vietnam agilon

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Yes, any McHenry at minimum and we shall reward them according to the best of their deeds.

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On the Day of Judgment, so Allah promises that if you follow the guidance of the Quran and the Sunnah, that Allah is going to give you a good life here in this world. And Allah says in the Quran, people think the Quran is something that has nothing to do with life. The problems of life need what we call secular education. The Quran just makes you feel good, it gives you spiritual high.

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No, that's not true. The Quran is here to fix this worldly life and our destiny in the next. That's why Allah sent down the Quran as guidance.

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And Allah says, this, pointing to this fact that if you truly commit to the worship of Allah and the direction to worshiping Allah, so you position yourself strategically in this life, a lot of your problems are just going to go away. And a lot of the persistent problems will become weaker, and they will open up for solution. Allah says Allah Quran. Well, hello, may I want to be like, can you run?

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Or should the test Vita? What either Latina who? Mila Dona agilon of Lima? Well, I had the Yuna serata mustafina.

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Allah says, had they done what they were commanded.

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And they done what they were advised to do what they were instructed to do,

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it would have been better for them, they would have achieved better results. So if you think by this obeying Allah, you're getting a better result, then you are fooling yourself you are incurring more problems, but you don't see. Because when you when you don't truly commit to Allah, even your perception is confused. You will not be able to see a problem as a problem. So you will be inviting more problems while not seeing that and thinking you're smart.

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And the prophets also themselves in the Hadith, that is collected by email within a Muslim synthetic Hadith

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when qanats dunya hemma. Who

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Allah Allah who shipped it, Allahu Allah, who was enough UCLA who Bina Haney, well, I'm yet to human at dunya Ilam equity.

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woman candidate fer to Hannah who down Allahu Allahu Allahu Allahu Allahu wa jal, I love you now hopefully it will be he will attend to dunya where he I love him. Whoever has this worldly life as their main concern, meaning they're not committed to Allah.

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This life for them is a pursuit of the pleasures of this life, wealth,

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reputation, power, wealth.

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You know the toys of this world, then Allah, the prophets, Allah Salam says, then Allah will increase the worries which we call problems, Allah will increase the worries of this person and magnify them. And Allah will place a sense of lack and poverty,

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right in front of the eyes, meaning wherever they go, they will never be satisfied, and they will never get enough, they will become too greedy and unable to satisfy that greed. So it becomes a rat race chasing something that is unattainable.

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And they would only get from this dunya what Allah already wrote for them, it will not increase their provision

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will encounter take a hammer to hammer whoever has the actual as their main focus meaning Allah subhanaw taala they're here they know here that their problem is to make it safe back to Allah back to Jelena. That's what this life is and every detail in your life is supposed to be part of this journey.

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Then for this kind of person who has this focus on Allah,

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Allah subhanaw taala will reduce their worries,

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Allah will reduce their problems and their concerns and simplify their life.

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And if you know who you are, and Allah will place a sense of satisfaction, richness, wealth and abundance in the heart of this person.

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To the more wealthy than people, who have much more than they have.

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What Atwood dunya here, Arima and this life will come to the service of this person, even if it's against its own will.

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So if you want to solve your problems, personal,

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relational, social, or even global, the problems that the Muslim ummah faces and we've been in this vicious cycle as an ummah, for the last 350 years, and we've been trying the same solutions committing the same mistakes. We're not learning from the problems, and we're still where we are and we actually worse off

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And this is why Allah subhanaw taala at the level of the Ummah, Allah says in terms of lion softcom.

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If you truly commit to Allah and give him his rights, and make him the highest in your pursuits, then Allah subhanaw taala will give you victory will give you dominance. We still read that, you know, we turn a blind eye and then we are more convinced about material means that we are convinced of the Promise of Allah. And when then we say, Why doesn't Allah answer our dua.

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So when we Muslims are at least a critical mass among the Muslims, have this focus to Allah subhanaw taala things will change the dynamics of life are more than what we see. And Allah promised that if people uphold his guidance, and make it the uppermost and they live for it truthfully,

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without cutting corners, without winging their approach to Islam,

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without being pretentious, and focusing only on showing of, but it's something genuine in the hearts, then Allah will change the dynamics of the world. And Allah has done it many times. The Quran is testimony to this, the Hadith of the prophets of Salaam is testimony to this, the life of the prophet saw Selim is testimony to this and Muslim history testifies to this as well.

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But we are not convinced why? Because it seems that we believe in modern theories of history and politics more than we believe in Islam. Yes, it's serious, Let's call a spade a spade.

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So that's one of the biggest frames that and problems and issues that we have, if you truly identify the biggest and central problem in this life, a lot of the problems will go away, then a lot of them the solutions for them will reveal themselves.

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And it's not just lip service. But you know what, we're not giving it a chance. We're not trusting a lot enough to really do that.

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So that's why we stay in this vicious cycle of doubt.

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Then one of the biggest issues that we as an ummah have to understand

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is that in order to act, we need knowledge.

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In Islam, acting without knowledge is haram. Haram.

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If you don't have the knowledge,

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and what that means the proper knowledge to handle or deal with a situation you should not venture into it. Allah says clearly in the Quran, one, Article four, do not pursue one attack before man essener can be here in that which you don't have knowledge about, and knowledge here is enough sufficient knowledge, not just your head a few things, or you read a couple of books, or you heard of, or you listened to a few lectures or podcast and think, Oh, I have the knowledge, no, this is the this is the delusion of knowledge.

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And Allah says, then all of your senses, you will be questioned about the question about them.

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As Muslims, we're not supposed to act without knowledge. And if there is a situation, you should not volunteer to deal with it without knowledge. And that explains why the companions that only Allah Who unknown a question would be asked to one of them, and they would defer it to someone else to someone else to someone else. And the chain goes on and on and on until it comes back to the first person. Not because they didn't know, not because they were just not interested, or indifferent. No, because they knew

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that if they were to slip while giving an answer, or giving guidance without having proper complete knowledge about a situation, that they would be held accountable, and that's severe. But you know what, now with social media, everyone speaks. Everyone is a scholar, and you know, with the and with the ideologies that we have swallowed, everyone is an activist.

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All it takes is just go out on some kind of event and start speaking,

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without knowing what the situation is, without understanding how these things work. Without understanding what Islam says about this, and you have the masses now trying to tell the Muslim scholars when to speak and when not to speak, and what to say and what not to say. And what's your specialty computer science, not to put computer science down?

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pharmacology, medicine, engineering,

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history, geography.

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What does this have to do with Islam? Just because you had a few lectures?

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You don't know.

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You don't know. And he's lovely Allahu Anhu. When he said he said a beautiful statement. He said, Man, I mean, I'd be man I can have my UFC two XL. I mean, mostly, whoever acts without knowledge, then the detriment that he brings, the damage that he brings is more than the good that he will ever bring.

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But we don't believe in this because you know the dynamics of today tell you Oh, be an activist. Raise your voice. Let the world know about it. Tell people what to do.

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To raise awareness and all of us are talking about matters we have no clue about. Muslims are shouting slogans that have sugar in them.

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They have defiance to Allah that have ill thoughts about Allah, and they're not aware. I'm just an act. I'm not talking about religion, I'm just being an activist. That's not an innocent place. A Muslim means someone who adheres by Islam.

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Allah kolyada was the for Allah you will have confessed.

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And hamdulillah horrible Alaminos salat wa salam, ala Sayidina, Muhammad Ali, he was happy he urged me. Again, I had more things in mind to say but again, we run out of time, but just want to highlight a couple of things. In Islam, the Quran divides the Muslims into two types of people.

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Those who have knowledge and those who don't have knowledge. Now, those who don't have knowledge are not completely ignorant as we might think it means they have not reached mastery. They are not experts who spent their life studying Islam, and reaching the level of mastery where they can speak with knowledge and understand the situation that they are applying Islam to. So those who don't know might have a lot of knowledge and might have a lot of like some general education and information. But they don't have knowledge because what we call knowledge is not what most people have. That's just some sort of exposure.

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Knowledge is systematic, and it has structure and has rules. And it has a certain chain of narration that you have to be part of a tradition to be given the right to speak and open your mouth. Allah divides Muslims into these two types, those who know those who don't know, those who know.

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Not all of them know every situation, but when they have the knowledge about a situation they should speak.

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And those who don't know, what are they supposed to do be activists go online and chase people and and start doing things and saying things and suggesting solutions? No. Law says first degree in quantum law. Ask the people of knowledge when you don't know we have reached a time in our Ummah, when the masses want to tell the people who know what to do. And what to say.

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It's really a fiasco.

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people you don't know that means you just don't know.

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How can you suggest? How can you profess? How can you oblige others and, and, and set ways to dealing with a situation.

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And it's not a matter of personal issues or not like that. But if you act without knowledge, you are harming the owner.

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You're bringing bringing detriment to the owner. That's what it is. You act without knowledge, you bring in more detriment. There's no it's not innocent, they can't be innocent. And that the fact that you are not aware of the consequences, doesn't mean they're not there. It doesn't mean that Allah is not going to hold you accountable. Because as a person who doesn't know not from the people have knowledge and have what it takes to be from the people of knowledge, you are not allowed to open this mouth and say anything.

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Period.

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We ask Allah subhanaw taala to guide us but just to close, if we are Muslims, stop believing in borrowed ideas and living according to those corrupted mindsets and ideologies. And just start to live more from the Quran and Islam and give more credit to it in our lives. Things are not gonna stay the same impossible, impossible.

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But we Muslims are thinking like non Muslims, most of us.

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huge chunk of our thinking of how we process the world and how we see the world and how we analyze and perceive the world and how we process everything. A lot of it is non Islamic and runs contrary to Islam.

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And that's why we have problems.

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And what can you do as an individual, you're not in a position of authority of influence, know what Allah will ask you about yourself.

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Be just a candle in this darkness, you might not achieve much by the way, the things that really the work that really gives impact to the owner is built when no one sees what you do in your private life. What you do in the privacy of your heart and your mind, your thoughts, your intentions, how you spend your time. What do you do at night?

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How much patience you have in the face of the challenges of life for the sake of Allah, no one knows about yourself, rake, you're doing that for the sake of Allah. These are the things that lift the ummah. Yeah, they lift the Ummah they changed the dynamics of the life that we live. But you know what all of us because of the

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ideologies we've swallowed all of us want attention. All of us want to be public figures. And we think that's how to be a person of influence or a person have a positive impact in the world. These are the lies that were fed to us.

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It's all about showing off. It's all about personal pride. It's all about creating your personal legacy. There's nothing for Allah there. When people use Allah as lip service,

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