The Feeling of Pain after Sinning

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My dear brothers and sisters

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this life that we live in

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is one of test and trial.

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And one of the biggest tests that we face

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in our relationship with Allah subhanho wa Taala

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is that struggle that takes place with our enough's

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and wanting to disobey Allah subhanahu wa.

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And so sitting

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in and of itself is not the problem.

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But rather the problem is

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a lack

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of feeling remorse after committing the sin.

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And so my dear brothers and sisters Allah subhanho wa Taala is great.

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And he only swears and takes oats by that which is great.

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In the Quran, whenever Allah Subhana Allah makes an oath

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he makes an oath by great things.

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Law Cosimo de Mille.

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Allah swears by the Day of Judgment.

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And then right after that, one oxymoron enough Scylla one

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and I swear

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by the soul that blames itself,

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this soul that is constantly

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blaming itself

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over everything it does, everything that it says this so

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that whenever he commits a sin

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it feels something.

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And so, it blames itself Why did I do this?

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Today? Why did I commit this sin?

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Why did I lie? Why did I backbiting

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Why did I steal?

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Why did I commit Zina? Why did I do this and that?

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blaming itself.

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And so my dear brothers and sisters, this feeling of regret and remorse.

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This is a sign of your emotion in your heart.

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One lady and I either have a shotgun

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and fuscia home decorilla

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those who when they commit evil,

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when they commit aphasia, when they oppress themselves when they do injustice to themselves, what do they do?

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Straight away? Do you remember Allah decorilla her first alpha truly don't obey Him. They remember Allah, and then they turn to Allah seeking His forgiveness. When the yellow Pharaoh do Luba Illallah. wa salam you Saru imfl, Meola, moon, and who forgives sins besides Allah.

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And then they do not persist in those sins, as long as they know. Meaning they don't persist in those sins knowingly, if they return to those sins. It's because of their heedlessness, it's because they have forgotten that repentance that they need with Allah subhanahu wa taala. And so my dear brothers and sisters,

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the problem is not in committing sin.

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The problem is,

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in what we do, after committing the sin,

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will we persist in it?

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Or will we feel remorse and turn to Allah subhanho wa Taala

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the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam says

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khulumani Adam hotta

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the every single son of Adam

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is not just a sinner,

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but rather a frequent sinner,

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a means of frequent sinner.

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We all frequently disobey a law that is the nature of human beings to commit sins, to make mistakes to slip.

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But what did he sallallahu alayhi wasallam say after that

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well how you will have thought

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With the best of those who frequently sin or those who frequently turn to Allah in repentance,

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my dear brothers and sisters

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oh boy ubelong sorry are the Allahu Allah

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he narrates that the Messenger of Allah sallallahu alayhi wa sallam said,

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No Anakin lamb Taku

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young Pharaoh Allahu lecom.

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If you did not have sins,

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for Allah to forgive you for those sins,

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ledger Allahu be home in lieu

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of Allah whom.

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If you did not have sins that you commit,

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that you turn to Allah seeking His forgiveness for them,

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then Allah would have replaced you with the people who do have sin,

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who do recognize their sin, but they turn to Allah seeking forgiveness for their sins, and so Allah forgives them their sin.

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It doesn't matter how great our sins are. It doesn't matter how frequently we sin.

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What matters is how frequently are returning to Allah in repentance.

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One day

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humbler robiola one

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one of the scribes of the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam

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who was tasked

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with writing the Quran

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he was on the streets, he was in the streets of Medina and he came across Abu Bakar of the Allahu

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so Abu Bakr radi Allahu Allah has How are you? How are you gonna?

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handle a reply?

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No.

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Hunger Allah has become a hypocrite.

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Boo Boo Bakr radi Allahu Allah. He looked at him

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and he said

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what are you seeing Havana?

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Hands on? I said,

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Oh Abubakar

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when we are in the company of the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wasallam.

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And he tells us about the Hellfire about Jenna.

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Until we see it.

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As if we are seeing

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God Jenna, and I have for you right before our eyes.

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We feel this sense of he man.

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Then

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we go back to our family

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and our children

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and our businesses, our day to day lives. When we leave the company of the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, we forget about all that he reminded us of.

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So Abu Bakr radi Allahu Allah.

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He said to humble

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will lie.

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In Nila Judah.

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He said I swear by Allah. Who is this? Abu Bakr radi Allahu Allah.

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He said I swear by Allah, I experienced the same thing.

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Who is this? It is Abu Bakr radi Allahu Han.

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Who this entire oma

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if the man of Abu Bakar was to be placed on one side of the scale

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and the rest of the owner there he man was to be placed on the other side of the scale. The man of Abu Bakar would weigh more heavy.

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Hands on I said let's go to the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam.

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And so they went

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and hands on.

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He said Yasuda wa nasaka hamdulillah messenger of Allah. Allah has become a hypocrite.

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The Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam looked at him and said well Maddock.

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Why

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and so hamdulillah told him

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When he told Abubakar, he said yeah Rasulullah when we are in your company, and you tell us about Hellfire, you tell us about Jenna.

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It says if we see it right before our eyes,

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but then when we leave your presence, we go to our wives, our children, our day to day activities.

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We forget about much of what you have told us.

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So the Prophet sallallahu had he was sending them said

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what led enough to Mohammed in ba

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come to Muna Alana Taku de la

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Wolfie dicker.

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He said, I swear by the one in whose hand my soul is.

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If you were to always remain upon that state,

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when you are with me, the state of man

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and you're clean.

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in which

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you are always remembering Allah, everyone moment, you see jedna and the Hellfire before your eyes, if you are to be in this state at all times,

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loss of a head kumala equal to V furoshiki

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that the angels

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would meet you and greet you and shake your hand while you're in your beds. And while you're in the streets.

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While our Kenya hawala, sir,

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but

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you have to give time to this. And you have to give time to that meaning that there is a time for a reminder and being reminded, and there is a time to enjoy in your dunya. But that doesn't mean

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that we forget about a law to the point where we disobey a law, and we sin, and we don't care. And we don't turn to Allah Subhana. Allah in repentance.

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And so my dear brothers and sisters,

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so long as you are blaming your neffs, constantly,

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constantly turning to Allah in repentance, then you're on the right path. But

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if you're not doing that,

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then Although

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you are physically alive,

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you are spiritually dead.

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Although your body is full of life, your heart is dead.

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And so, if you go to sleep at night, and you haven't prayed a lot to Asia,

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and you wake up, wake up in the morning

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and you go to work, you go to school without praying for God.

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And this is how you live,

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not feeling anything inside of you, blaming yourself.

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And this is a sign that your heart is dead.

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If you're looking at her arm, listening to her arm, without feeling any remorse inside of you, what have I done

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then your heart is dead.

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If you're always lying, backbiting, speaking haraam without feeling any remorse inside of you

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without blaming yourself. What have I done

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this then your heart is dead.

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Don't be sad in my dear brothers and sisters.

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Do not be sad in

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if you are slow upon this path,

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this path to Allah subhanho wa Taala that you are treading.

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Don't be sad if you're slow. Don't feel sad in if there are hurdles in your path. You are better than the one

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who has stopped completely from proceeding to Allah Subhana who Adana, you are far better than the one whose legs are paralyzed, and he's not moving forward.

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The Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam said

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Allah subhanho wa Taala says men Taka Radha minissha brah to corrupt to mean who the raw

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whoever comes near

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To me by an by a hand span

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I come near to him by an arm span woman called rubber meanie de la Taka rub to mean who took her up to mean who and whoever comes near to me by an arm span

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by come near to him by a fathom by six feet.

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Woman attorney um she

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I tell you to her water and whoever comes to me walking

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I come to him running

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barakallahu li walakum qurani Levine whenever anyone er can be mad at him you know it was declared Hakeem aku matches Maroon we're still federal law. How do you welcome Melissa he didn't know cinnamon could lead them they know how to festival Viru who in know who can have a pharaoh? to LA he in Canada wherever

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Alhamdulillah

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washoku Allahu Allah. Allah tofi Tina, what a shadow Allah Isla de la la la sharika lahu tawi militia

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what to do and no Mohammedan Abu rasuluh he

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sallallahu wasallam Baraka li li when he was a woman serology he worked at aura who lie to me Dean for Taku la vida de la Taku have his surgery one najwa Yeah, are you hella Dina man otaku la

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dama delivered. What up law in no law hobby room Bina Tama loon, my dear brothers and sisters,

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if you are someone who commit sin

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and have become so accustomed to committing these sins,

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that you no longer feel remorse inside of you.

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Because when you commit a sin for the first time,

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you feel the pain.

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You feel that remorse, you feel that regret, what have I done?

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You remember Allah, you realize that Allah has been watching you, you realize the punishment that awaits you.

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You feel the anger of Allah subhanahu wa upon you.

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And so you turn to Allah in repentance.

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But then after that, if you return to the sin,

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a second time,

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a third time

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or fourth time,

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you keep on going back to it.

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That sense of remorse, that pain starts to weaken.

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Your you become accustomed to it.

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You become used to it

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until there comes a time when that pain goes away completely. And you no longer feel any remorse in you

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any regret in you

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for that sin.

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If you are of such people, then beware.

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Beware because you have been stripped.

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You have been stripped

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of the most valuable thing to the believer.

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And that is

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Marie fatawa.

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Knowledge of Allah. Yes, you are ignorant about Allah subhanahu wa taala.

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ignorant of who Allah is ignorant of the attributes of Allah subhanho wa Taala His names, his attributes,

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you're ignorant about Allah subhanahu wa taala because

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your proportion

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of ignorance of Allah is in proportion to you disobeying Allah subhanahu wa tada and in proportion of your heat limit of your heedlessness of Allah, in proportion to that is how much you feel Allah subhanahu wa tada watching you.

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And so if you don't feel

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any sense of Allah watching you?

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Then this is a sign of your heedlessness of Allah, and your lack of knowing who Allah subhanho wa Taala is, my dear brothers and sisters, when does our veneration of Allah, when does it appear?

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This concept of the taleem of Allah,

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when does it appear?

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It appears at the time of committing sin, and right after it.

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And so if you commit a sin, and you don't care and you're heedless, and you don't feel the pain,

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then it shows that you don't venerate a lot. You don't have any respect for Allah.

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But if after committing the sin,

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you feel the pain, you feel the remorse. Then this shows your veneration of Allah. This shows how much you truly value a loss of Hannah who went to Allah and where a loss of Hannah who stands in your heart, even Masaru Ravi Allahu Allah.

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He says that a believer he sees his sin,

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like a mountain that is about to collapse upon him. Whereas the wicked, the fragile. He looks at his sins, like a fly that comes across his nose, and he sweeps away at it.

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It's no big deal.

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It's only something small, it's not a big deal.

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And so my dear brothers and sisters, wake up from our heedlessness, it is time for us to wake up from this state of heedlessness

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and the state

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of not venerating Allah subhanho wa Taala in our hearts

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It is time for us to to Allah subhanahu wa tada

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in true repentance, and one of the conditions and pillars of a true repentance is

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that you feel remorse and regret over the sin that you committed.

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And be aware.

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Be aware of a day that will come when you wish that you can go back

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and turn to align repentance. But it will be too late.

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While it sets set it over to Leila Deena Luna Surya

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had either helldorado who will know to call in need to be told.

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And repentance

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is not for those who commit sin.

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And then when death comes to one of them,

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they say

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now I repent. Now it's too late. Why? Because the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam said

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that Toba is available for all of us, except when the soul starts to leave the body.

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So at that time, it's too late. Why? Because now you see everything in front of you.

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You see the angel of death,

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which you can never see in this life. Because the angels are from the world of the unseen.

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But now you've moved on to the world of the unseen.

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You're no longer a person of this dunya you are now a person of the era. You see the angel coming to take away your soul.

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It's too late now.

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The soul is coming out of your body. It's too late, just like fit a home. When he was drowning, he said. Now I believe in the Lord of Moosa and when it's real.

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But couldn't

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you know volley mean

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now, it's too late now.

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It's too late. Now. Why? Because now you're dying. Now you see the angels coming to take away the soul, your soul right before your eyes.

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It's too late now.

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And that time

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can come

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The moment

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the angel of death

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when he comes, he doesn't come with an appointment. When he comes knocking on our doors, he comes without an appointment. Don't think that you have a long life ahead of you don't think that when I am 67 years old, then I will turn to align repentance, then I will leave my life of sin. Then I will worship a law

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that day may never come. You could die today. You could die tomorrow. You could die next week.

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You could die young, you could die all

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we ask Allah subhanho wa Taala to make us from among

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his frequently remembering slaves and to make us from among those who frequently repent and seek His forgiveness alone. No villain Massimino? Well, mostly Matt. Well, me Nina Mina, La Jolla, even

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