Reconnect with your Creator #03 – Tawbah Going Back to Him

So let's go ahead and start Bismillah Alhamdulillah wa salatu salam ala Rasulillah. While early he was so happy woman Wada, La Molina my info now on foreigner Bhima alum tena in the Kissimmee on Would you Would ya la manera who will be coming and William fall I'll be Leia SHA one FC letter schwa Illa you smart, urban Allah to superloop and Nevada is Hadith Anna will have an amulet and Kurama innacurate internal hub, of which roughly Saudi Wessely, only Watlow, La Plata, Melissa me of Congo poli, before we start, I'm sure everybody is aware of what is happening in the world. And it's the word disaster is not even

the fit. I don't know how many of the videos you've been seeing. And it's devastating this to say, I suppose a lie. So this morning, I just couldn't share it with anyone. This is a young woman. And I couldn't remember if it was in Turkey, or in Syria, that this is a young woman at least 30 wear hijab full Muslim, she's out with the children is under the rubble.

So you can imagine what she was seeing and doing, looking at the troubles and the children is under. It's beyond the I mean, beyond the human being. So the reason I'm saying this is because we really need two things. The first question you all have to ask yourself, What can we do for them?

Life cannot continue the same. Because this is a major, not only a major earthquake, it's a major sign from Allah subhanaw taala he allowed it I kept saying to myself, he allowed it it says earth right if he wanted to know earthquake, you would have told the earth Stay where you are. Right? And why isn't the Muslim country all these questions don't don't question Allah Who wisdom prayers. What are you telling me? What are you telling me there's a hadith I shared that with you about a month ago and we talked about sins, if you remember what happens in the world and then we start seeing more earthquakes. You remember,

you all remember what it is Salah when singing becomes norm, when alcohol becomes norm, and when relationships outside marriage becomes no one of the first thing that's going to come out is earthquakes. So it is a reminder to us to do two things. This is where we are real Muslims and we really care about each other. How many of you put them in your DUA since morning? Literally, you can you think of it may Allah protect us all I was kept saying I was like your OB that not because I am special. Just your heck my old wisdom your Rama if this is me, what I want from you make a dua to Allah make it easy. Your Allah mattock, Y'all not the fee, may Allah make them feel warmer? Yeah

Allah those who live who are lost, give them generically for DOS, DOS, those who lost people early but Allah coulby him you know, like this mother, I still have images in my mind and my brain, my body actually, in every month I was like a lot, a little bit on our caliber, that like keep our heart tight, close, strong. This is huge. I mean, the more the more images are coming, the more and the weather is the other option. The other problem it's very cold and snowy and it's icy. So even the relief is becoming very difficult. And it's these are matter of days. I mean within three days it's moves from rescue to basically just get out the bodies. So number one is DUA and sincere dua

number two, absolutely start donating at the front of mine who says I barely can do I put food on the table I said Can't you do $5

Stop drinking this coffee every day for $5

and then give it give it that's to a number three donate absolutely anything. I mean there is a lot of even I just got a message that's even Amazon actually. Now there is a in Amazon you'll go and then it goes directly to the

Turkish consulate in Chicago. And they will take it directly they need everything. You know how you think of it. You went to bed

and you had all the plans of the day and all the plans of the year and all the plans of the week. And for 17 You're dead or for 17 You left in your pajama as this is also one of the images we saw the family and you have nothing

Subhanallah this was a physician his family individual ama outside because it is not seen FC

so when you see these image, remember things can change in a minute. And it is time to go back to Allah this is what I keep saying to myself before anyone what else Allah will show me to remind me that this is temporary. This can change in a minute. This could be easily me

what else you will do?

So don't take it lightly. Don't one day you know you watch TV and then next day back to

No, no. This is going to take a while is one of the worst in more than 100 years. And that area and it is populated. You've probably all of you have visited Turkey and you see how it is. And I'm sure northern Syria is the same. It's these are populated. It's all buildings where families live together. So do

a lot of charity and the most important one. So each one of us has to do a lot of stuff far. It could be me. It could be my son, because it's one of the results of sinning is earthquakes come out what the perfect Nitin lattice even in London Ilana moment concasseur While I'm on Hola, Harsha de doulike pub was at this resort will be aware of a test that is not going to affect only the wrongdoers. These people are probably much better than me. I'm sure they are. And this is what Allah says beware of a test that is not going to be affecting only the wrongdoer is going to be affecting everybody. While I'm on a luxury that I have, and know Allah has severe punishment, and this is in

front of us. 5000 this morning, I'm sure now if you check, it's so they are they are expecting it's going to be in the in the 1000s. And remember North Syria, we don't have a lot of information coming. So we really don't know what is happening. What we are seeing mostly is we are seeing from Turkey, because of the easier communication. So don't take it lightly. This is not like any other day. Remember, I'm sure many of these people who had plans for Ramadan Subhan Allah, they may even have invited people to their home there is no home anymore. May Allah Subhana Allah protect us all May Allah Subhana Allah make every sign that comes to us is a way of us to remember and to change,

can't keep doing the same thing. And Allah keep sending this we live in a state which is on the line of earthquakes also, it's one of the ones so hamdulillah Allah saved us and keep reminding yourself and this is a good time also to learn a special Algeria as special supplications when we go through difficult times. Doha, Qatar, Doha, they say dualistic for La Ilaha into Subhanak in the country MinnowBoard me keep saying it in Hakuna Amina volume in all of us. People are different but all of us have disobeyed Allah subhanho wa Taala and may Allah subhanaw taala help them you're of BME Subhanallah again, and I love this when what plans things and I didn't plan it. I didn't know they

were going to be an earthquake the week of I'm going to be talking about Toba.

Turn back to Allah

to reconnect. Remember what we are talking about? We have seven weeks to Ramadan. Our goal is to reconnect to Allah subhanaw taala before Ramadan comes in and we said the first thing about reconnecting to Allah is what is knowledge is no know who you are. Know who's Allah subhanaw taala know why you are here. We are an agonal Rima remind everyone. We are not here to have fun.

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we are not here to enjoy our life only and I'm not saying don't enjoy your life. But that's not the only reason I am here. Can't focus 80 or 90% of the time on having fun we drink we eat where I'm gonna go for vacation. What I'm gonna go next. That's not what Allah put me here for. I'm almost him I'm here a servant of Allah subhanho wa Taala so I need to learn. Learn about Allah subhanaw taala learn about yourself, learn why you are here. Learn what is Allah wanting from me and what is he expecting from me? That's number one. Last week we talked about love. And I hope all of you went home and start examining yourself. Do you really love Allah? subhanaw taala and what does love me if

I can ask because people are coming anybody who's young to be on, especially children less than 12 they need to be upstairs please discipline the lock it I've said this many times may Allah reward you.

So number two, is the love of Allah I hope now when you say someone asked you do you love Allah? You will think zillion times before you raise your hand. Because every claim we do we need a proof. Do I really love Allah? Is Allah really number one in my life is every decision I make based upon His pleasure, or based upon me and what people wants from me and what I like. Now once you start loving someone, that relationship with Allah, it's going to be much easier. If you think of it Allah is Exalted, but think of it as you have a relationship with someone

who do you want to connect with?

Usually people you know, but that's not enough. Because not everybody you know, you want to be connected sometimes you think I wish I don't know them. Usually people you love.

Right. And how do you love someone you know them. They do things for you.

They don't disappoint you, they are there for you. When you ask them they do it. Then once you do that, you start looking at yourself. And you say, Did I hurt them?

What is my relationship with them? Is it one way?

When I need them, I call them or it should change. It should be both ways. I love you. You love me. I asked you, I give you, right. This is what's tilbyr This is when you return back to Allah. And the first step in returning back to Allah. You, you and I and all of us. acknowledge what

acknowledge what I want to hear it. We are. Yes, I acknowledge I am a sinner.

Doesn't mean 24/7 But I have definitely disobeyed Allah. Could be one time in my life, which I doubt it could be one time in the week. And I also doubt it. Probably today, I'm sure.

And I'm not talking major or minor. I'm talking in general.

Now, you will love someone and you find out that the text you send was not the best words. What do you feel?

Ouch.

Ah, I was going to correct this. Where they understand I did it by mistake. That's the one

that's when you start returning back to Allah subhanaw taala. To return back to Allah subhanaw taala. Number one, you need to analyze the relationship. We agreed we have it last week. We agreed we love him Alhamdulillah. Now

who is the wrongdoer? Subhana exalted?

What did I do?

What did I do?

Or I will add, what did I not do?

If we look at and we're going to be very honest with ourselves, this is the most important thing, sister there is some chairs here. And the front, you can come from the side or from wherever you like.

To, honestly, to turn back to almost pantalla you have to be so honest with yourself. Don't worry about people.

Honestly, I care less. Because it's not about me and people is about me and him. You need to sit down and ask yourself this question each one of you from this morning. Till today till now.

How many times we have disobeyed Allah and I said we

how many times everybody is different. And you need to write it down.

Once you identify it, you're in the light.

Now the next step, what should I do?

Because our main problem is young and old, is we are defensive. You know what's defensive me? Who can tell me the youth what's defensive?

Someone tells you, you hurt me. He said, I didn't mean it.

I didn't do anything. Why you're making it too, too big deal. You're too emotional. You know, all these words, we say that's defensive.

Versus the same thing. And you say, really?

What did I do? Tell me I'm okay, I'll take it. Just tell me. I didn't pay attention. Huge difference. When I am not defensive of change.

When you are defensive or I am defensive, we will not change my always

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way when I talk to people, and if I start seeing them defensive, I explained one once and if they start being defensive, I said, That's it.

I didn't, I think let's let's use the time in a better way. And that's to the adult before the youth

don't defend your sins.

That doesn't mean this spear. You need to also learn this, because nothing is warmer Rohilla never dispelled from the Mercy of Allah subhanaw taala.

Acknowledging is something differencing is something else defending I'm not going to change. If someone looks at you and says, You know what? When you come to the masjid, you need to dress a little bit better to say what's wrong with me? Don't tell me it's my choice.

Absolutely. It's your choice, but outside the Masjid.

This is his house. He has rules not mine.

If you don't want to follow the rules, if somebody comes to your house, and your role, you put a sign on the door and I've seen it in many homes I attended and they say Please take off your shoes. You have seen it. I've seen it too many places and they put actual

This for you a shoe rack, and they sometimes or they put you a shoe cover. And sometimes people very generously even put your slippers. They come in with their shoes, what do you do?

You're gonna remind her, right? She didn't do it. What are you going to do next time?

I want to hear it next time, not this time she's in your home. She's your guest. Now, what are you going to do? You will not invite

period. And if you say this to anybody, so you know what, it's your right. It's your home.

So here I am. When I start acknowledging that I am doing a mistake. That's the first step of turning back to Allah. And by the way, he doesn't need my Toba.

Honestly, Allah doesn't need me. And he doesn't need you. None of us.

There is billions people out there. What's so special about if I prayed or I didn't pray, who cares?

If I said that hamdulillah or I didn't, who cares? Right.

And this is the Hadith, which is a Cuzzi Hadith the meaning of LaWanda Willa como esta como Jigna cannula club, masa, daddy Kofi mole Killa. If everyone this is Hadith, saying of Roswaal risotto, if everyone is a Komodo, nothing all the humans and all the gins were as if one person and that person is the highest level of Taqwa of Allah has conscious everybody, nothing in the domain of Allah who would be pious more. And the opposite is also true. In the Hadith, he says, again, in Sakamoto NaHCO, a wala como Hara come first and last, and the humans and the Jews, if they were all facile, they disobey Allah publicly.

Nothing will be less in the domain of Allah.

It is for me. And this is one of the beauty of this Deen because when I obey Allah, I'm doing it for myself. And when I disobey Allah is I am doing injustice to myself. So the first step, after you know about Allah subhanaw taala and you learn and then you start loving him or resuscitate the love, because we all love but the love is sometimes take vacation. Let's resuscitate the love the next step natural comes in, you're gonna say what did I do?

Like you love somebody because I hurt her. Or I hurt her. I know that. I don't know how to make it up for her. And you start talking with your friends and people say you know, text her a cook for her send her flowers, whatever you do and works. What is the flowers I Central was planted?

Is there flowers?

Yes, but not flowers.

You turn to Him. You turn to him with this heart and with these eyes that shedding tears and he says your Allah forgive me.

Period doesn't need much. And you know what he will be? You know the Hadith. La Allahu Allah do Farhan. We told that he had to

be told that your Abdi min Hadith, Allah is way more happy and he Allah was widely sought was is giving a parable. Now, Allah is way more happy

by the fact that the servant you and me the sinners that we disobey Him morning and evening. And I decided, I saw the video of the earthquake, I heard that lecture in something happened in me. And I said, You know what, enough is enough. I need to go back to you.

That had that state in me. Allah will be so happy with you and me, way more. And that's the parable. He said in the Hadith, that someone have one of you in the desert alone with the camel and all what he needs. And he used them completely. And he stays alone in the desert. And he said I am going to sleep till I die. This is the Hadith I'm just translating it. And then he sleeps and then he wakes up and he finds it. He finds in front of him the camera with everything in it out of his joy. And he says to Allah and tab do another book out of their happiness. He says y'all Allah Thank you, you are my servant I am your Lord. And Allah so Allah saw to salaam says a thought machine that if he is he

made a huge mistake out of happiness. Imagine you and me turn to Allah in your next sada here in Asia in your sujood and you say your Allah please forgive me. Allah way happier than this man who found the camel well

to a generous Allah we have and how miser we are.

We're so miser with ourselves we don't even have time to say your stuff your Allah. But I have time for everything else.

Toba timing back to Allah is not a choice.

It's an order. Do you know that? It's an obligation is like you do salah, like you do hijab, like you fast Ramadan coming? It's an obligation and it's not my word. What did Allah pantalla says? Yah yah Latina Amanu

to bow it Allah He tell obertan muscle,

or you who believe you and me, all of us young and old, to repent, to whom to boil Allah and what kind of Toba just like that tongue but I'm not so Ha, sincere one and not so high in Arabic, the one that remove everything.

Truly repentance, meaning if I am sincere, nothing gets things in my book.

If I am sincere, and I'll give you the signs of sincere Toba when I go to Allah subhanaw taala and my book in front of them, those people who died in the earthquake done the book is closed now.

So imagine I am going to go to Allah and I just said a stuff with Omar before I went to bed.

And it's actually one of the Sunon is before you go to bed is you ask Allah for Toba.

Before you go to bed do this this is one of the lessons we need to learn is don't you go to bed with a disobedience of Allah go to bed and sleep with will do asking Allah do whatever you can read them on with other three columns. I uttered corsi the last part of sword will Bukhara and the last thing you say is your love. Please forgive me. And imagine I die. That's it. I have it in my book. Sincere. I mean it your Allah I did so much today. But please, tomorrow will lie. I feel so bad. And tomorrow. I want to be the best. And you die. He knows your Sensi. He knows you're truthful. That's it. You go clean.

Beautiful. You'll be so happy. What a minute. Yeah. Kitabi I mean, what does he say? The person who Allah who will give him or her the book in her right hand? What do they say? You all know it? What do they say? I have call you ha omocha Okita via, you're going to say yeah, come and read my book. You know when you when you have a test, and then they give you the result and you scored amazing. What are you going to do? When I walk with everybody shows us? Right text everyone copy of it? Because you're so happy. And that's what he said.

For your Kulu ha Omokoroa okie tabby. In Neilan two unnamed mula confy Serbia. He says come on. Come on this come on read. I was ready. I prepared

what a mom and oh Chiquita wha hoo wishy murder.

The one who may Allah protect us all. They will given their book they will be given their book in the left hand. What is it gonna say? Yeah, later Needham. Autokey. Tabea. Well, I'm a dreamer, he salvia. Ya later ha Karna to all the MA of Unani mallia. Allah Kenny Sol banya? The person who's going to be given the left hand, what is the left hand?

The book is heavier. The sins are more.

That's the left hand. heavier, more sins? And how can we have more sins and every good deed timestamp?

Every good deed timestamp. You spend one hour in the masjid today, today? That's your equal 10 hours? How can I have a left? My book is in my left hand, meaning for every good deed I did. I did 10 bad deeds. So if that's the case, then my left side will be heavier. This is the yard it's a parable that that is the left of the hand. It's not really left in hand. But the left is usually the negative.

And when I or you may Allah protect us, not us will be given the book by the left side. We're going to say whoa on me. I wish they didn't give me my book. I wish I was dead.

Yeah, later I cannot tell all the I wish when I was resurrected, I'm dead. Because now and by the way, when we are in front of Allah, and he is asking us, this is the biggest punishment.

And that's what he said. He said Astra, Swati salatu salam

ala monokey Shall hisab when Allah look at you and says why on Tuesday at 630

You are this?

Why on Monday this you were this? Allah knows. And he knows why I did and I did not that question is a punishment by itself because who is asking?

Who is asking?

You need to think of this the creator, the one who has all the power,

the one who feeds you and me and the one who allowed the earthquake to happen, and the one who allowed one building to go, and the next one stood up. Did you see all this? Have you have you have you asked yourself why these people are walking in the street and the others died in the building? That's his corridor.

He gave those walking in the streets another chance you and me. And those in the building no more chance to boo it Allah He told her to not turn back to Allah. A Chilean one, not a fake one. You know, what's the fake coin? Wallahi we see it. That's it. I'm not going to do this anymore. And within an hour.

That doesn't mean doesn't happen but you are not sincere. You didn't put the effort. In rasool Allah salatu wa salam said the following. You have a necessity in order to in order to become people. All of us are returned back to your Lord asked for forgiveness. And he says about himself in the A to Allah He philleo me tomorrow.

I want you literally if you go today and you only learn this hadith, this will change you go back and he says yeah, you are nice people. People to Lou Illallah turn to Allah. I turned he not to me. I for any tubal in Allah, I turn back to Allah 100 times in the day

biller and a combined Allah and I want you to think with me Give me your hearts. What did the rest what they saw to some talked about?

And all his day? What did he talked about?

Khan Allah Allah Rasool, right, what everything we learn. It's from him all the Quran, we learn, it's was given to him. What did he do?

What did he do? He mocked people hasha he backbite IT people hasha he looked down at people, he didn't help. He didn't forgive, he didn't pardon. And he does 100 times a day. And another had in another narration. They said we counted, we sat with him and we counted 100 times

the Sahaba counted you know they used to watch him and learn from him. What about you and me?

When was the last time you said a staffer Allah other than when you were upset?

It's so sad.

Turn back to Allah to boo it Allah He told me better not so hard to go back to Allah. A true one. Another Hadith. He said Ali salatu salam in the Julio on wa lb if sometimes he sang about himself. Sometimes I feel my heart is covered.

It's not seeing clearly. I don't know if it's right. I don't know if it's wrong. I don't know. I should do that. It's okay. Like it's not okay. Ya know, I know Kobe. I feel it. And what does he do? Immediately? He said Pastor Phil, Allah awful young Sabina, Mara. That's the other number. I seek refuge in Allah 70 times

70 times we really need to date focus, and I'm not going to give you numbers. Just keep asking Allah for forgiveness. Yeah, you don't get in touch with Hannah, can you control me? Not volume stuff. Federal law. Again, for those of you who, who and Giacomo Lochhead who showed up a little bit late. Be careful. What's happened in Turkey could be my son.

Could be my son. What the COVID-19 lattice Ebola, the Ebola moment? Aha. So be aware of a test that is not going to be affecting only the wrongdoer.

It affects everybody. So start your journey off. Forgive asking Allah for forgiveness.

There was a verse in the Quran every time I read it, I was like, what what? You're a big what is that?

What Allah Azza Torah, Swati Serrato said

to him, the last verse is solid Muhammad, you know what he said? farlam.

Know,

Allah ilaha illa know that there is no God but Allah, Allah and Eros risottos and doesn't know who taught us. That's not it. That's not the one that makes me I was like Pahala if he doesn't know who knows, and then we're still fairly damn big.

And ask forgiveness.

for your sin, to Roswaal a salatu salam.

So it's time for all of us. If you really sincere, which I think you are, there is no reason not to think the other way. Even if you think you are not, no, give yourself the benefit of doubt. And say, You know what? I really wondered, maybe I'm weak. Maybe I am not consistent, but I wondered, and I'm sure you are, otherwise you will not be here. Because you know the subject. It was on the flyer, so you'll know what we're going to be talking about. But start from today. Don't wait too long. Milan. I don't know what's going to happen tonight.

470 17 is when the earthquake hit. Most people were in their bed.

And I was wondering who was up?

Praying pm

and it hit at that moment. Allah

What are lucky people they were

that they were with talking with Allah and Allah decide to take them back to him. Versus May Allah forgive us? Whatever we do in the night, so to boo it Allah He told me, No, so there is never too late.

And that's what I was worried I saw to Sam said, in Allah, Layer Layer Caballo Toba lab, Milan Neuberger. He said, Oh, Allah will accept your repentance, as long as and he used the word you are over. How many of you have seen someone dying? That the last breath anybody have seen is this? Definitely I've seen it. What do you see in their mouth?

What do you see in their mouth? It's usually froth.

That's a larva. They usually start taking the last breath you say they are taking their last breath, which basically means the soul is out is here. Then you see them gasping we call it? If that person in that stage, there is no more Toba?

That's it.

So hamdulillah I'm walking, I'm talking. I'm seeing you you're listening to me were alive or have been harmed I have the chance. As long as I am alive, there is never too late. The only time too late if it gets here has been over to Hong Kong as a loss of lives and sort of on the soul comes to hear.

So to eat Allah He told it or not. That's number one. What are the this is very nice work again, I'm gonna say it again as the same book. We've talked about it last last week. And here is about 100 pages of October.

More than 100 pages of October. We started last year in the year of knowledge over one year.

Because it's so detailed Subhanallah first thing he says, how about I don't want to do Tober or I think I'm doing I'm fine. Why you're giving me this? I'm absolutely convinced I'm okay. What did Allah says, Well, my labia tuba, felt like a home of volume. You don't want to do it. I'm fine. I don't need it. I'm okay. Okay. And Allah didn't say anything. This is the beauty of the words of Allah. He always leave it to you to decide. I love this. If you if you look at the Quran in this way, you will see it. He never very few times, especially if he talks about Cofer, he will say Jana, but most of the time, he will leave you to a description. And he says you don't want to repent to

Allah subhanaw taala that's okay. You're the wrongdoer. Okay, you know, when you sometimes you say to people, your friends, you say we're going out, you wanna come with us? They said, now I'm tired. Okay, you're the loser. Don't we say that to everyone? And then you come back and says you don't know what you missed? That's what Allah says.

You don't want to repent or millennia tube for icon volume.

You don't want to repent to Allah subhanaw taala you're the

wrongdoer.

This is a very powerful and it's a little bit painful. But it's okay today is SubhanAllah.

And he's saying here, do you know why we sin?

Something related to Allah subhanaw taala Why do you sin?

Why do I say something? I shouldn't say it. Why do I look at something haram?

Why do I do whatever that's not pleasing to Allah, You know what they say?

And that moment?

Allah pulled his protection from you, and he left you to do it.

Hon Allah is He says,

Allah he's always Subhana always trying to protect us. Again, this is beyond you and me. You know when you have your child, always think this one you will understand you have a two year old baby and he or she is starting to walk well

Do you normally do, you're behind them? You're letting them walk, but you're behind them. And then it's like, oh, you jump, because they're going to fall. Or they're going to the, let's say to the electric outlet and you said Nana,

that's Allah with you and me.

He doesn't want you in me to fall,

or to disobey. So he keeps sending you and me things to protect me.

Reminder, someone say a word, something happened, an incident, you wanted to disobey along the internet, went off something, that's his protection. But when he left me, this obey, he leaves me. They say at this moment, he left you

imagine if you love someone, and that person leaves you

how you feel.

He left me This is why I always say,

What did I do that you gave hope on me in that moment? Not all the time or in that camp. But that moment? I didn't word something in his eyes. And he led to me.

And that's what he was saying. Because he said if you are always connected with Allah subhanho wa Taala you will truly love Him. And you truly know Him. He's going to protect you. What are similar Billa

who am I?

And yet my Mala? One yet? Manasa that's what he said. He says hold on. This isn't sorted Hajj, hold on to Allah.

Hold on Tala. You know how do you hold on for Allah doesn't mean you're going to stand up five hours in the night pray. That's beautiful. But that's not only you're coming to the masjid. And as you entered, you set yourself Ya Allah. Please, let me act inside the masjid the way that pleases you. After some tea will now you asked for him and he is going to protect you.

Versus you don't remember. You just go in and you're looking at your phone as we all do, or talking on the phone, you will have to and you left him temporarily. And he said Okay, stay with your phone

and see what will happen.

How's it sound biller? That's why always make dua for yourself.

Always Don't be miser. Make your heart for yourself, because we're all weak. If Allah is not going to protect me, nobody will stay on the straight path. Holy for example, the ephah human beings were created weak. So remember this to go back to Allah subhanaw taala less the no blesses I am better and the what I need from Allah is to protect me. And one of the drawers I always do every time I come to speak wherever I am speaking you know what I make dua to myself, make me speak what pleases you.

Not what pleases people? Because I could speak to please people are not pleasing him. After some tibula.

You asked for his protection. And who's better protector than Allah? I'll have you. Is there another one? I'll happy that you know, is there another one who can protect you? Do you know? There isn't SubhanAllah? Look at this one.

How many of us don't show me hands? Because that's a tough question. But I want you to think of it. How many of us disobey Allah subhanaw taala. And we are happy.

Not happy with disobeyed Allah.

The whole happy in what we are doing. I like it. I'm watching this movie. And this movie is full of disobedience of Allah. And you're enjoying it.

You're seeing things because you're upset with this person, she or he. And I'm just venting as the word we use. Then you're happy. says ah, it's out of my chest.

A sign that Tober is for is when I enjoy the sun.

So singing itself is we all

and this is the landmark. If I enjoy it, the problem is huge. It's a huge that's what the scholars tell if I do it, but I feel bad during or after. Why did I do that? Why did I say this? Why did I keep watching? You have a heart that is alive. That's what this caller says. If you enjoy Allah, He put a beautiful statement here. And he said, If you are enjoying your sins, go and find a new heart. Your heart is that and he's talking about spiritual one.

This is how you know I am okay. Meaning I am not perfect. Nobody is perfect. But I am struggling. Because I was like why did I do it? Why did I say versus

and worse if you come in the morning and talk about it

Tell people or share it, or text people did you see this movie, make sure you go and see it. And the movie is full of disobedience of Allah.

You not only enjoyed it, and you're not only not regretting it, but you are making other people because we are vulnerable.

But we're really easy to move this direction or that direction.

Three signs that your Tober is pure. Is is good is excellent, is gonna cleanse you look at Tober as you have a dirty dish.

That's our daily life. And you're going to come and wash right?

What do I need to clean that plate? Normally, what do we need three things we need, right? We do water at this point. And we need a detergent. How does not done? What about Toba? What do I need?

So the plate will come back as clean? I need three things. Number one is the quality regret

Nederman Muslim they call it? It's a pain in me.

You know, how many of you have been to Makkah?

Hamdulillah. What's happening if you missed the Jamal and the Haram

in Makkah, what it was going to happen.

Why didn't you wake me up? And you're like, I'm coming to Makkah, I paid all this money. And I didn't go to the haram for one salah. That's not them.

And you feel it and you're so sad and you get upset. And you tell your roommate, make sure you go do you wake me up? Am I right? That's another you will regret.

Regret does not live together with justification.

The moment you tell me, but I stopped listening. You're justifying it.

The moment you say I didn't mean it. You're justifying it.

Say, I don't it was wrong.

But I was so weak. I don't know why I was weak, but I was weak, and he's going to help me. That's what you need. Naadam number one, number two, which is extremely important. This is practical. You need to remove the cord and allow one is dumb. You need to stop doing it. Now easy said how easy it is to be done. What do you have to do?

Let's let's talk about a sin that we all do. May Allah forgive us all? What is the commonest sin we all do? And don't be angels in this room. Backbiting

whether backbiting texting with an backbiting, posting whether backbiting, calling, whether backbiting, leaving a voice note, these are the way of communication or backbiting talking? Right? What should I do?

I'm not going to do it next time is not going to work. Because you will do it.

You need to take steps and a color or they call it you know when the plane takeoff. What is the plane doing is actually leaving all the earth behind it. They call it a cloud in the Arabic is the same word is takeoff. So let's you and me take off from a sin and we said backbiting

What do you have to do?

Number one, what made you backbite?

Who? I'm sorry,

anger. Usually it's number one is anger, which under the anger is Kibber is arrogance. She thinks she's better than me. No, I am better and you start texting and says, Oh, you don't know what she does on and on and on and on. Because you want to put her down because you want to be better.

Jealousy is one of the reasons we backbite What do I need to do I need to remove there's two things I need to do to stop sinning. Number one is hold to Allah. As we said, the let the song you ask him you beg him, your Allah I'm invited. I'm going to this house. I'm going to see people I know I'm going to get weak. I'm going to do this. What do you need to do? If you're strong enough, don't go.

If you know you're going to disobey Allah don't go

well, that's not easy in the beginning what I'm going to go so what I'm going to do, I'm not going to sit next to her. Because if I sit next to her I know I'm gonna say it.

You see the point? Help yourself to obey Allah. I always say this to all my friends. Don't help me. To disobey Allah. I have inner forces helping me already. Me works. shaytaan works. I don't need people. I need people to tell me. You know what, let's stop doing this.

So number two is you have to really stop doing it and help yourself and number three

which I loved it actually it's called allotted or you ask forgiveness from Allah.

You know, when when I hurt you, and I know I did, or someone come to me and says, Why did you say it this way? It's really hard to do. I said, Really? Yeah. Look at her. So I come to you. And I said, I didn't didn't mean it. Please forgive me. How do you feel?

That's when you ask Allah for forgiveness.

And don't say don't put excuses to Allah Subhan Todd, you know what? You have to go and say

one word

sorry, absolutely. But why did you do it? He will ask me he's not going to ask me, but I feel it.

I'm weak.

I'm weak. I love it. Don't Don't Don't deny it. Because when I say Allah, I love it. And I know I should not love it. What he's going to do to me.

He's going to make me hated.

Wallaby I love

and if you start having this relationship with Allah, when you start talking, says your law. I love this thing. But I know you don't like it. Take it out of my heart.

Make me hate it. Because when you hate something, it's very easy not to do is when you love something is the hardest one. So feel, and this is and I'm going to share this with you. It's amazing. This man how he writes. He says, when you talk to a loss pantalla say the following. This is not a DUA, he's, he's he's talking to online, he says you're alone. I'm just translating here. He said, I have no excuse for this sin. So I don't know how I'm gonna ask for forgiveness. I don't have anyone to help me. I don't have power. And no one's gonna help come and help me. But I am a sinner, asking for forgiveness.

I love this when you are so

you are who you are in front of Allah. You know, when people forgive you, when they know you're truthful, when they see it in your eyes, that you really didn't mean it. Very rarely they will not. But when they see that you are faking it.

So you tell Allah subhanaw taala you know what you're doing? I have no excuse. I am just a sinner asking for forgiveness. Allahu Allah is really your Allah. I don't have any excuse. And it is absolutely your right. This is very important in the relationship with Allah. It's absolutely your right. If you want to punish me that you can you say to somebody, you know, if you're not going to forgive me, it's your right. But you are generous.

You are the merciful. You use all the names, the beauty Names of Allah for in a vote for Hakuna.

Look at this one. And if you forgive me, you have all the right tools.

What our relationship with Allah subhanho wa Taala

the reality of Toba and this will be the last thing.

The more you look at your sins

as sins, the more genuine your Toba will be.

When you look at what did I do? Not what did I do?

Your repentance will be more powerful. They call it tau they will jenaya For example, you think now and you say I missed my goal. There is two ways of looking at this. I'm gonna say You know what, I was tired. I was busy at work. You know, I didn't have time. And I just didn't pray love.

You didn't look at it as a major sin.

Versus you say Subhanak you'll find me. You gave me breakfast. You gave me the job. You gave me the car. You educated me. And you only wanted from me five minutes. And I couldn't give you the five minutes. Now look at the difference.

Look at the difference of the same sin to how they want to deny you really have to look and says you're Allah. And they say this is very beautiful is we need to be jealous.

But for Allah, the quarter Vera Tula

whether I disobey Allah or you disobey Allah, and I come and I get upset, not because you are doing it, but because who you are disobeying. And Allah loves that person.

You know, when you love someone, and somebody else is talking negative about them and you defend them. How happy you will be if this is you. That's how Allah He loves when he is being disobeyed. someone stands up and says this is not right. In the right way in the nice way. But in general, one of our problems these days, you know what? It's ideal as we say in the hobby, it's fine. What is the big deal?

Almost half of people don't pray that doesn't make it to write. Have half the people do this doesn't make it right. He said don't do it.

There's a dua which I this is what I'm going to end up with.

It's he wrote it here and he actually brought it from more than 100 and he says,

when you really feel you want Allah to forgive you.

And and this is from me, and I say, take a place where you're alone in the house, move your phone, and move everything else make to make performable

at its face, Allah subhanaw taala

and think about what you did. And then you can say the following Allahumma a certain cobia Zika was only I ask you by your mind, and my humilation

Why do Allah homeless Oh Kabir is you were duly ill or huntin by your mind and my

human relation but you will forgive me

as Luca will overtake our Barfi I asked you by your mind and your strength and my weakness. We have a NACA anime I love this one. I asked why the fact you don't need me.

Allah doesn't need us Yeah, you are not optimal for Allah it Allah. Allah who will Anil Hamid people Allah doesn't need you. You think Allah honey and your Salah, do you think Alana your hijab? Do you think Allah needs your stiff ah doesn't need to think so can be Hinako or *ery or the fact you don't need me and I need you. How do you know sia to hottie ative caddy but this is my forehand

that will witness of all what I have done.

And the line going

Have you ever been to Casa Cathy, you have so many other servants who will obey you and love you way more than I am

true or false? I read your question via Kathy but will essentially say you don't see work. I have no master but you you have so many other options, alternatives but I had no Allah.

If you watched again the video yesterday, the only word you hear is what? Allah Allahu Akbar. We have no one else.

You have so many other servants but I have only you.

La manager Willa menjamin kala lake, there is no refuge and no running away. This is the beautiful relationship we have with Allah, no refuge and no running away from you. But to you. They say the relationship we have with Allah is like a baby who loves his mother.

And the mother got upset with him.

And he starts crying.

And she's really upset. What does he do? He goes to her and Hank to her. And he's crying. That's us for the law. That's us with Allah as Luca. This is actually a dua for Roswell. This part is a dua for Roswell is sort of a cielo consolatory Miskin I asked you the way a poor and helpless person ask what attacked you they kept the harder harder. They read and I implore to you the way someone who's humiliated and abused asking what a doctor look at this one feel it and see how your DUA will change what I do okay? If your body or I asked you like I am a blind person and I'm so scared

you know one of the things I was thinking yesterday when these people woke up with this shaking What did they say? Where does my phone

where is my friend? What did they see? Ya Allah

your Olara metric I was literally started trying to think if this was me your Allah Rama Tokyo Allah save me La Ilaha illa Allah your Allah forgive me. That's what he's saying. Sake ask Allah with this feeding when you're scared and goon blind in the middle of the night how you will ask him. So Allah Mahabharata karamba, to robber to the way a person who's their neck is under your control.

Whatever he might account for, and the nose is a form of speech where you no one else will humiliate you but Him

will follow the click Aina and the eyes is shedding tears. What will occur

and the heart is humilated to you.

This will not come unless you love him.

That's why

I started with love the relationship with Allah Who needs to change from I want what I need. We are a B, two, I love you

and I'm not doing enough for you. I want to serve you not because of Jana, not Hamed, another agenda No, because you deserve it. You gave me on this.

If we think this way, the relationship is completely different. So what you wake up at three o'clock in the morning and you stand up now you understand why rasool Allah saw to Sinatra he used to stand up till his feet bleeds, because we always think how does that can happen? Because you love someone when you love someone how long you talk with them on the phone?

hours?

Are you tired? No. How come two hours or three hours because you love them. You have this attachment, your feelings. That's where we need to start. Know him. Remind yourself day and night of what he gave you and what he bestowed on you and how he can take it in a second.

In a minute. It's all gone. And then change it. Slo comma Selatan Muskegon, I asked you as a beggar as a woman who loves you. I always ask Allah subhanaw taala to love me I was like, I didn't do much. I don't deserve your love. But I want you to love XM to Elektra to him. When I asked you by your name, your Allah he will love me. Maybe he will hear me. Not maybe for sure he hears me. But in sha Allah He would respond. Ask Allah this way that you change the relationship with Allah from hate to love. And the last thing I am going to say is, you do not love someone and you do not really care about someone unless you always remember them.

I was Topanga also reading recently about the signs of love in general not love of Allah love in general. You know what they say? And you always think of them.

You know you love someone when you always think of them. How often we think of Allah and ask him that's why the DUA Roswaal is sought was around when he looked at Sade Nimrod. He said I love you. I love you Yamaha Allah, I wish it was you and me. And he said, make sure after every Salah What do you say? Allahu Allah, any other Vickery commercial cricket or sniper Additi your Allah helped me I can do it helped me to remember you

and to be grateful. And Hosni Mubarak not only worship you, whatever, two minutes Salah proper worship, I need to remember him. I need to ask him, I need to beg him. Everything Allah subhanaw taala sent to us young and old. The people who were in their buildings, they were not 50 years old and above. I told you some of you came late was a video it was online. Subhanallah this was a mother. She's probably not older than 30. She was out. And the children is under the rubbles.

It's a killer.

So when death comes in, doesn't know the age and doesn't know you're still you're still young and you still have to graduate. And you still have to do this. It comes. Let's work. Let's act from today. Maybe your stepfather and my stepfather and your DUA and our dua were saved the people. They pulled out children I'm sure you've seen it. They chill. They pulled out a baby yesterday Baby Baby this big. It's actually in northern Syria. So you're Doha. You're still far your Toba. You're going back to Allah. Maybe us in this group. We're safe people there. But don't go like nothing happened. And don't keep doing the way you are doing. LME. Any living ama no and Tasha Cordova humbly the

Karela woman has other mental health hasn't time yet arrived for people's hearts, believers heart to submit to Allah

and to what Allah sent from truth, the Sahaba when they read this was sent to the Sahaba said yes, your Allah time has come. And I will say this to everybody, myself. Number one, for sure time has come. And we are actually behind. And may Allah Subhana Allah accept from all of us. May Allah Spanish Allah make us of those who is pleased with May Allah subhanaw taala lift all the hardship on all the Muslims, especially those in Turkey and in Syria. And may Allah subhanaw taala make us always people who remind others, each one remind the others and most importantly of the people who won they are reminded they listen and they follow the rest of it. Subhanak Alohomora behind the

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