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Are you?

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And I saw Coby fight his last fight right?

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And something really caught my attention with. Like he's a main character. And he plays a big role in the film in the law cartel. They do a lot of witch craft. They deal with a lot of gin over there in Mexico. And for me that was like, just like, oh, like, like stories to scare kids, right?

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I felt this gin grabbed my ham brother. He grabbed his his fingers were so long that he went like

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Bismillah Alhamdulillah. Assalamu Aleikum green is a peace. Welcome to the deen Show. I'm your host. Now our next guest was living in a very dark world in a very dark place in life. The only thing he believed in was death, as he had encountered so much of it. He was a high ranking member of one of the main cartel organizations in Mexico gunfights with government agents, and other cartels, until he thought of actually killing himself because he had touched the rock bottom in life. So we want to find out with our next guest, how Islam and the Quran impacted his life so much so that he's actually on the D show with my next guest. Go ahead and subscribe right now. Hit that notification

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notification bell. Thank you very much. Enjoy the show Salaam and don't forget to support us on our Patreon page. Well money comm brother welcome Salaam Rahmatullah Africa. How you doing? My brother? I'm doing pretty good. How are you? I'm good. 100 allies. So. So you are you're you are actually at a high ranking member in the cartel? Yeah.

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I belong to several cartels. Before I went to jail, I worked for a first for a small cartel down in Mexico City. I ended up going to jail. And then I ended up going back to the cartels working for a bigger organization because of

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what I did inside of jail. You know what I had the reputation I had an inside of prison.

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But it was really difficult now, it's been

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it's been a really long journey.

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So for people that don't know what the cartel is, we're gonna go ahead and share with them a short little video here. So you can kind of get an idea, the kind of lifestyle you have on record. Despite hopes that the COVID-19 crisis would slow down violent crime. It's had the opposite effect. More than 17,000 people were murdered in the first half of this year alone. And kuliah can a city of about 800,000 in the headquarters of the notorious and lower cartel, no one is off limits for an esto Martinez. It's the brutality of the killings that stand out.

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So what happened? Think withdrawn akintola, policia municipale

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mentally Coronavirus, paces manuelle was a 42 year old local police officer a few days before he turned up dead. He'd been kidnapped by cartel members again the healer that's his brain Hey,

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man, really? Why would they have done this? Like what what was he involved with them in some way? Let me punto de esta persona edmontonians para esta persona Lesotho de Dallas and the Clara Lucas

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show I'm sure people get the point now. You know so how do you go from you're born in Mexico raised came at an early age to California. And now how do you end up in such a organization

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um, you know, they I was

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I was taken to California when I was like a year I don't have I don't have memories of Mexico.

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I grew up in California went to school in California. You know, the the type of lifestyle in California, a lot of gangs. You grew up with a lot of racism.

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And it was like, my, my family. My family actually was my family's question, right? I grew up in, in a Christian church going to a Baptist Church. But something happened when I was really young.

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My family got torn apart. My father ended up in state prison. And it was it's actually something really, really, really personal in my in our life, what he did to our family, he broke our family apart, right? And it was like, I would our I was really young. When that happened. The last time I saw him, I think I was 10.

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And I haven't seen him since you know, but

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I was really mad at the time. Because like, I would say to myself, like out

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I will see my mom and my mom was going to church. And she would always take us to church and and i would say like why did why did this happen to us? If If my mom was looking for, for God, you know?

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I was too young to actually like really believe in God. But I would never like

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I would never see that. Like I would see Christianity sometimes, you know, like,

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wondering like, why why would you guys worship a human being what was so special for him to be crucified to be killed.

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I, when I was younger, when I when I was younger, I was I was really like I was I was

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grown to be like, I grew up being proud of who I was being proud of I was Mexico's Mexican, you know, that it was a it was all about that that brown and proud Mexican pride. That like always came up like, like, that's the type of person I was, um,

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when when when my family was broken apart, like I started doing things I shouldn't do, you know, hanging around with the wrong people.

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I ended up

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you know, like, like any normal kid, you know, stealing, just like, I would sometimes like try to like, do softies like trying to help my mom because I would, I would see my mom, like,

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at 910 12 at night crying, you know, because she had a, she was left alone with four kids, I was told just one. And she had never worked in the US. She didn't speak English. She spoke only Spanish. And I really like I was I was too young now to see what what had happened. While my father had done in my family,

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the way that he had destroyed my family, you know,

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I started just like looking for an excuse to belong to gangs, you know, to start doing criminal criminal activity.

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Basically, my mom told me like, Hey, if you're gonna follow that life, like, stay away from your brothers, because you're gonna give them back sample, right?

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And I was, like,

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always tried to, like blame that what had happened with my father

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in our family, and like, I would always try to blame that like, Oh, I'm, I'm, I'm falling the way I'm going because because of what he did to our family.

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But I was just looking for an excuse, right on,

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I start getting into trouble. And I was like, I had to leave the I leave the US and just try to like, look for something different because of the problems I was.

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I was getting into.

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But I didn't know that. It's, it's very difficult in Mexico. And it's even even more crazier. I had no idea to what extent I was going to get involved, right. You had no no idea what was waiting for you. Exactly. Like I thought that that was bad like that. They were like they were bad. Like they were they were real gangsters. I have no idea of what the human being is capable of doing. You know, I came down to Mexico.

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Life was really hard, right? Because there's like, it's a third world country.

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This is not a lot of money. Um, I went to the south part of Mexico. It's delicious. There's a small state called Guerrero.

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I was there for a couple of months. I didn't like it. And I moved to a state that's close to Mexico City.

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But I still felt like I felt I felt alone because I didn't I didn't know anybody, right. Um, I met a person that I consider my brother because like, he saw that he saw what I was going through.

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It's been a long time since I've

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Seeing my mom, when I left them. I was really young when I started walking by myself when I started trying to like live by myself, so it's like,

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for me like Christmas, New Year were really bad days, like, because I would see like, all the families get together, right. And I remember what happened to my family how my dad had affected our family. And a lot of people like they they will probably want to know, I don't want to share what happened to my family. Because I

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I don't want to like

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it was something definitely No,

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I don't want to say it, but it was

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there that was really personal. That I think that if I would have been like, if, if that would have happened if my dad would have done what he did. When I was a little bit older, I would have probably took in his life, you know, at time. I couldn't because I was too young. No, I was too scared. And and and what he what he had done, what he had done, affected us really hard. Um, so when I came down here, I met this this person that I really that he really cared for me his name, his name was Martine he had a we call them his nickname was Nino de You know, he was from border brothers from from San Diego. But he was living in the south. And and he went when I met him, he's like, Hey, I'm

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gonna show you some homie love, you know, and he gave me some stuff and he's like, whenever you want to kick it, you come down here. So I psychic you know, with him, you know, he was he was a small store for, for, for for criminal organization, right? But he started showing me loyalty. And he started showing me that I wasn't alone.

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I had already done a couple of things, you know, I hadn't been that involved

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and in the type of life that that requires you to be in the organization.

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So I like a lot of people ask me like, why did you join like did you join because of you need money? You need power? I didn't. The government so crud down here. And like society so corrupt. Now you gone.

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They killed they killed him in front of his kids, right? They gunned them down in front of his kids. This friend of yours? Yeah, this friend of mine. And they when when that happened, you know, like, I went to his funeral. And I noticed that, you know, you don't have friends. Like before he got killed, like a lot of a lot of like, almost all like in that viral in that lotto. A lot of a lot of friends. He would have a lot of friends when he was alive because he would sell drugs that he sold. We like there's because there's different types of drugs. But, um, I would say that they're like, everybody was his friend while he was alive. But when he got killed, I consider him a friend because

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I was very loyal to him because he showed me he showed he showed me a lot of cabinet leaves. And you know, a lot of brotherhood. when when when he killed when he got killed. Um,

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I was like, Well, I was only one me and me and a 13 year old kid, that would that he, to this day, he would he tells me you guys were like, you were like, when you guys were like my big brothers, you know? Cuz we were we were like, tell him Hey, what are you doing? Like, don't hang around with those people? Because they're smoking crystal. They're doing cocaine? No, we were always trying to like even we're like a steam school, you know, like, try to take her on because we knew where we're at. And we knew where we're heading. When this happened. Like, I had a lot of luck. I had I had a lot of

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anger in my heart. I wanted to get revenge for what happened, right. So I got, I got in contact with the people that he was working for. And and they were like, do you have experience? What have you done and like I told him what I have experienced. I'm Oscar and

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Arthur Lesko. They took me, they gave me they gave me

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equipment, they gave me people and I started working, I started working, but with that mentality that I'm gonna get, I'm gonna get those person, I'm gonna get those people back. I'm gonna get those people back.

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When when I was I wasn't able to bury him because those same people that killed them, they were trying to they were looking for me as well.

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And it really hurt me, you know, to see that that none of them none of those, those those persons that would say that they were your friends. They don't they're not there when when you die, you know? Those are just fake friends that the world gives you. And when I started getting involved in this, you know, I started like,

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growing because I was not afraid. You know, I've always been like that type of I've always had that type of warrior mentality. I found my damn I'm gonna die fighting you know.

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And I did, I did start getting those people that had done that to my brother.

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But I ended up in a situation where I got

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Caught up, you know, I caught up with, with weapons and with some drugs, you know, I got caught up. I got I got caught by the by the Mexican government. So they they catch me and they give the torsion, right? They're like hey, you're not because I had already been I had already been once caught because I got caught with the with the nine millimeter because we were going to go to do a business but the government caught us. But I went I went to, to the holding cells and like, the cartel got me out real quick. The second time they got me there, like you're not gonna leave them, but are like, I know the laws here. So I was like, like, I'm just gonna go pay them, I'm gonna pay

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the fine for the for the for the weapons, I'm gonna sign for the drug and I'm gone.

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I didn't I wasn't expecting that, that the Mexican government was going to change, change things around and they were going to put me on murder case, you know, because they knew I was working for that organization. They knew I didn't say anything about the organization because I know how things are here. You know, when you say something when you rat someone out, you get dealt with. And sometimes by the same by the same government, the government like he's just testing you. If you say if you talk about if you talk about the mafia, if you talk about the cartel, they won't report you they you got they they you they have you they'll take you and they'll they'll give you so you got to

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see a lot of different scary things how you talk about this being just a really dark world. Okay, yeah.

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When when this happened I when they put me when they got when I was that murder when I got that murder case?

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Um, I went into prison right? And I will see a lot of like, I wasn't a believer like I didn't believe like even if I had that Christianity, like I had been in it as as a kid I had been I grew up in Christianity. I didn't really believe in it. I started seeing a lot of weird things you know, like down here in Mexico there's no but they believe in a lot of a lot of people believe in the Holy death. Right. Have you have you heard of that? Have you heard of her? or? Yeah, let me actually I was definitely gonna ask you. There's a couple couple video clips here. I wanted to

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ask your question on this.

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Are you are you familiar with Google? Yes.

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Thank you

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This is this is the old video was mine. El Chapo was fun

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the audience tell us in the reason I play this clip because I wanted you you talked about there's a lot of different weird things and a lot of different things they worship but this talisman actually around his neck is that familiar? Is this yeah yeah they're they're amulets you know you get them from from higher from a higher ranking witches are or how do you say how do you how do you call them?

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talismans? Yeah, they like they basically they they kill someone and like, they'll they'll offer them to a specific deity or whatever they believe in. Wow. And then that will protect you. So give our audience this person now that the authorities are catching he caught him like hell broke loose man. They don't like the government has let organizations grow so big. He's a main character. And he plays a big role in the film in the civil law cartel. When when they when they caught them when they caught them by accident like they were trying to get them like hell broke loose in kuliah con like 100 to 500 trucks came down from the from the fill in the from the Sinhala Sierra, the mountain

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ranges. They came specifically to free him or they were going to start a war and it got crazy man. He got really crazy but it just it's just a small demonstration. And this is this is a main city of Mexico. And they had this much impact now this is what you see in the city. Like where we were at and where we at where I've been like I've seen to 1000s of trucks like up to 10,000 strong cartels like my cartel is one of the is what is the one it's like

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they have a they have a pact with with this cartel right with the Sinaloa Cartel because there's been a lot of cartel works from from the half of Mexico.

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trickle from work worse in the lower is up to North, they control that part. And we're down in the south, we're hitting with the border. So there's a lot of alliances between cartels, right. And there is a lot of like, there's a lot of wars also.

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Three mi,

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mi, Santa Maria.

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masumi. To see.

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To see.

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Alright, so is this what you were talking about? Yeah, that's what I'm talking about. So before, before I joined the before I fell into prison, like I had already seen a couple of people with with the holy death, you know, I've never been like a believer in in that I was very superstitious of anything that was paranormal, right.

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And none of those things. So So you have these, these superstitions that people believe this whole week and then you have so many cases of shift now you obviously know as your new Muslim, but you know, what, obviously, the difference between the pure monotheism tauheed versus the fidic so you see a ton of * happening. Tell us we're almost out of time. What happened now? How did Islam How did you in the depths of all this darkness, get exposure, you talk about you heard the Quran, and it brought you to tears. Um, basically, when I when I left prison, I left with with a lot of experience, right? Because I, we had a couple of situations going inside. And I started believing in

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the holy desk, because like, I will see that a lot of people that were helped me out were believers in this in her. When I came out, I joined I joined a very, very large organization. And I spend a lot of time doing things I wasn't supposed to, I started growing in there. But at the same time, I started seeing that people that you're just upon in the in a big in a bigger in a bigger game. When when you don't, when when you're not when you're no longer, you're no longer required, you're going to get cut off by the same team. And maybe like night, and then maybe it's not even like it's not even from the top someone else that that one for you. He's gonna do he's gonna do something to take

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that away. I have run into a lot of hard situations where we had encountered government and we we we've we've had to really fight our way out.

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And my mentality was was in, in that I knew I was going to die there. I knew that my life was going to end fighting and and and belonging to these cartels.

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And that mentality of knowing that I was going to die, I wasn't afraid of it, you know, I was ready to die. And we had we have been really close to death a lot a lot of times.

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But we actually started scaring me was that I wasn't scared of dying. But what was there to come after death. Like, I started noticing a lot of things. I

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Allah, Allah sent me a dream before I left, before I left the organization, and I saw myself getting killed by my own people, right? by the people that I was working for.

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I didn't know about God, I really didn't believe in it. But I just said like, out of nowhere, like,

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I just had to leave, you know, I just I had that that necessity in my heart just to leave like, Just what are you doing? Like you're you're gonna you're gonna die for something that has no has no, no value, you're going to die for people that are that they're not loyal to. So I decided to leave, like out of nowhere, just out of left in the morning. When they woke up. They were looking for me like crazy because I had a lot of people that were working for me. And I had a good control over some large territory of that cartel.

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I just left I ended up in a small city

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a small room. One had nothing just by myself, you know?

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And I really didn't know what was like the what was the purpose of my life? I didn't know why I was still alive when I was when I had to be dead right.

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And I started getting into depression because of what I had and what I did to what I was where I was at. And I had that little voice like you're a coward like you're a coward. I thought you were gonna I thought you were gonna die for those people. Okay, I thought you were gonna die in the fight you know, that says like

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I felt really lost like really realized man so again, scared because like of the whispers out here like, I couldn't find peace like I couldn't find something. You know. It got to the point where

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I sat down on my bed. And I was thinking of like, should I kill myself man I like I'm not I have not

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Anything beneficial for no one here in this life? You actually got to a point where you're contemplating suicide oh yeah no definitely brother that I got really scared and that's that's where the moment where I don't even like I just close my eyes and I I say like I don't know if you really exist or if you're hearing me this but man like

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guys merciful weather

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and it's hard

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because they I don't know how

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you know like

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I look at my life and and I guess that guy's most merciful

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I just asked him like I don't even know how to call on him no because I had never looked towards him

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and I knew that I had no I hadn't done I hadn't been, I hadn't been a good person

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and I just asked him like, let me know that you're there you're real let me know guide me to something that is real.

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Because I am going to lose myself you know, I'm gonna lose myself here where I am

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the next day

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I'm into boxing, right? I do muy Thai.

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I'm into sports You know, I've I've always liked to kill myself really healthy.

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And and I saw Coby fight his last fight right.

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And something really caught my attention when

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when at the end of his fight,

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he would always give glory to God, you know?

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And I started like looking up because the only thought I don't think I knew about Islam was that day, like, what would the West show you? What would they would they try to

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show teach you about it like that nobody cares.

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Unless when I start hearing the rest of Tate like

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recitations of the holy crap.

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Like my heart was looking for something I

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was looking for something real man, when I heard it, it would break it would break me. And until this day, man,

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I'm thinking of writing a book of whatever because he's like, My story is very long.

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And that point was the point that was like

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I had to know more, I had to know more.

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And it's true what

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what the Quran says the only only God guides who he wills.

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So you are asking that you are a living testimony, that if someone is sincere, and they can be in the cartel, they can be in the mafia, they could be in the darkest place in the darkest room on the darkest night, the darkest hole wherever they are in life. But if they do what you did sincerely asking the creator the heavens in the earth, you didn't know how to call upon him you just asked for the guidance you said guide me. Exactly. Got it. You didn't you didn't pray to a saint. You didn't pray to human being to an angel to Jesus to anybody but the one who Jesus prayed to the one who the messengers pray to the one who we are called to pray to the one who created creation the one and

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only created the heavens and earth God Almighty Allah so you prayed to the creator directly and alone and you asked for guidance you didn't call them you at that time? You didn't say Allah? No, what did you say you were just in Spanish or what was in English? I just close my eyes because I was I was getting to the point where I was looking where to hang myself from right in prison. I learned how a lot of people a lot of people in prison a lot of our some of my friends they hate themselves because they had so you were you were looking left? Right where to hang yourself in that time. You're now asking this is your last it was just like, it was like Am I breaking my breaking point,

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you know? Because like I was mad I was mad towards myself because I like there was a part of me that was saying like, You're a coward man. Like you're ready to die. Why did you leave right? Why did you leave everything behind? shaytan is coming now shaytan is starting to Oh, and he got worse man. It got worse like I had never had experienced with widgeon until I actually

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came by until actually was striving to to follow

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the teachings of Islam and and instead of getting like stead of being scared or even anywhere in

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Africa, like it made stronger my belief in what I was what I was looking for, you know, because at that point, like I

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I always take care of myself, right? I'm always taking care of myself legally.

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Because I don't want to get caught back up. I said, I'm not going back to prison and I'll die. I rather fight with government and then go back to prison. Because what are the experiences that I learned in prison? Now that I turn around, and I look at my life and I see that God has guided me to a different to a different place. everything falls in, everything falls in, everything falls into perfect

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into into a perfect plan he is most used the most great. And he had the perfect plan. Because a lot of people I got a lot of my friends that I still talked to, they asked me, like, they don't they don't believe that, like, when you're talking about man, you're the you're the devil.

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Because what we what we what we've done as far as cartel members,

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there is no forgiveness, you know, that I would, before I before I became a Muslim, I would say like, I have no forgiveness. Whatever the shahana I, I have,

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I knew I was gonna die.

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The way I was gonna die because of the things that I have done, you know.

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And we're not and when I got when I was in that point, their breaking point where I was already looking for a way where to hang myself.

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And it was scary, man because like,

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identify, I couldn't find a purpose I what made like, you were so scared of dying. When you were ready to die when you had encountered so many, so many problems in so many very dangerous situations. Like, I had bullets flying like I had, like the cars that we were driving like they would get shot up by the army by by by government. And nothing happened to me. And a lot of people would tell me like, because because I started believing in this in this same in our in our carry out carrier attachment as well, you know, like protection. And one of the front, one of my friends told me like, you know that she only takes care of you for a certain time. And then and then your time

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Your time's up? No. And I told him like, We're not afraid of dying, bro. Like, this is what this is who we are.

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To the extent that the devil shaytaan misleads people to that, to that extent, and because I didn't know, I didn't know better, you know, and now I now I know that it wasn't her that was taking care of me. It was, it was Allah,

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God Almighty, the creator. It's really like, it's, it's really, it's really difficult to swallow that pill, you know, that he is over everything else. And nothing happens because nothing happens until he says it, you know, and I and I knew like they would everybody will tell me like, even when I was in prison, I had no family, I had nobody to that, that would take care of me. And every time there was someone there, that that was taking care of me.

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I found out that they were like, they were doing witchcraft on me right? With with this with this particular thing. And that they were working me with,

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with, they call it

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the Aurora Pantheon.

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What is it, they go to a certain

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cemetery. And they work they work you so you can you can die. So they, they do a lot of which craft they deal with a lot of gin over there in Mexico, but I wasn't a believer, you know, I had never like I would even even though like I had it, I had her there. I was like manic. But now Now that you know, from studying Islam, you know that this is what they were dealing with making connections with jinns Yes, where they are the evil spirits. But you know what, like, and now I know, like, be like, the person that was that was doing this to me. He thought that that that those people were gonna, that those that they were gonna affect me. But God use these people to take care of me

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all all the time in prison, the same people that would come up would be believers would be believers in this in this in this thing.

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And then instead of causing me harm, they would benefit me and benefit me in the form that like, there, there were like they imprison you find out who you Who are your real friends, because you can't give them anything.

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And instead of them like looking down on me, they will help me out and they will tell me like you're going to be someone that you're different. They would always tell me that like you're different. You have different you you have a different mentality. You're a very smart person. And our and like I would always say, I'm not here to stay. You know, I even though I knew I'm where I had murdered and I was facing up to 20 or 35 years in prison. I was gonna spend the rest of my life there. I was not scared. You know, I will tell them like, I'm not here to stay man. I'm here to grow. I'm here to learn and I'm going to come out even stronger.

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Not knowing that, not knowing that I was gonna find guidance to what I now know No, but to go ahead

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when I came out and I was in I was doing that a certain friend that was really involved in in witchcraft and and and, and all this he told me he's a that there's this there's this

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witch that wants to do a cleaning on you because he's saying that you have that they're that they're working

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and as a mom grandma is he says that you're going to end up you're going to end up very in a very bad position

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any any like and they're working you with you would that same thing that you have on your on because I had a I had a talisman, right? He's like they're working with with they're doing something to you. And not knowing, not knowing what what like what they were doing. Like, I didn't really pay attention to it. But a lie, Allah was protecting me from everything that they were doing, because nothing that they would do, would actually get to me.

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When and when I left everything. When I started when I when I when I left everything behind. I even like they the day that I decided to leave, I ripped it off my neck.

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I threw it and and I said to myself, like

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what am I doing? Like, I didn't even believe in this. And I'm falling into this. Because I will see things going on in my life. When I decided to accept Islam, and I was doing my prayers.

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It was difficult because I don't have anywhere to go, you know, to this day, I don't have anywhere to go to like, try to get knowledge. The only knowledge that I have is by reading the Quran and what Allah gives me to understand, you know, and seeing your videos, man, I'm a big fan of yours. I always see your videos and they they really motivate me, you know, I had the I will go for fighter prereq

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I went I went back to bed and I started looking at how shaytan became an and his purpose. Brother, like not a minute past when I felt like something get on top of me, right.

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I couldn't move. I tried to I try to talk and I felt that like my lips were sealed.

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I had never had any type of encounter with gins like that, like I had. For me that was like just like go like, like stories to scare kids. Right?

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I felt this gin grabbed my hand brother. Like he grabbed his his fingers were so long that he went like this. And he wrapped he grabbed his hand like online.

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And, and I was fighting like I was laying down without like not being able to move. And I even tried to move my hand and I he grabbed like he grabbed ahold of my twice I felt his fingers go like this. He picked me up out of my bed and turned me head like head bottom. And he dragged me in the middle of the room. I was scared that he was gonna let me go and I was gonna like I was gonna break my neck.

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Lonely thing I could say like the only thing that I would that I remember was

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this is what i like i murmured it because I couldn't speak.

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But I said a lot. But give Brother What did you say? A lot. But luck, but oh, you praise Allah just just

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the greatest just by like murmuring. Like, I fell back in my bed and like the gin left, right? You felt the grip like go

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just by by just by trying to say because I couldn't speak but just by making the intention of glorifying God. Like this, Jen dropped me. Boom. Back on my bed.

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I woke up in my heart was night. I had never had never encountered that right.

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Here in Mexico, they have like they have like a lot of people say that they see demons and they see genes and

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my neighbor that I didn't even like talk to because I'm very like, I don't I don't have friends. Man. I keep everything to myself. I don't go out. Like he knocked on my door and it's a Can I can I tell you something? I was like, Yeah. What's up, man? He's like,

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there was I want to tell you something but don't get scared.

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Yeah, he didn't. He didn't. He doesn't know who I am. Right. He's like, there was there was three. There was three things. There was three people standing outside your house yesterday. I'm like, What do you mean? He's like,

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they weren't people.

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He's like they were deemed like, demons. Right? That's like there were there were gin that there were three door talk three dark torches outside my outside of my house.

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And I told him like, Oh, yeah, I know, man. Don't worry. We left. And I went back into my room. And I just sat at home the villa God. Because the devil the devil did not does not want to did not want to let me go he was mad, you know?

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You you connected because the previous lifestyle all of the horrible things you did from the past? Yeah, you're a good worker for him. Hmm, exactly. And, and he wanted like he wanted, he knew he knew because like, there's a lot of things that have happened in my life that I couldn't find explanation to right.

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A lot of things happened in my life. And I've had a lot of things happen that I would like, I would say to myself, man, maybe you're crazy. Like, why are you having these? Why do you have? Why are you seeing these things? When I didn't believe in them. And when when when I started, like looking for for a long sight, like concentrating on saying I'm gonna change my life, I'm gonna be something better if I was willing to die for those for those wrong reasons. Now, I'm willing to do that for all the right reasons. Brother, I got this job, right.

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The second day, I became Muslim, they fired me.

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Like, everything started going against me.

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I everything.

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And instead of, instead of me getting mad, you know, I, I asked myself like, this is a test. To know, if you're, if you really want to change, or at the first at the at the first at the first encounter of problems, you're going to run back to what you know what you used to know, because that was all I know, I knew to do what I used to do before. I don't I don't really want to say what I did, because it's like glorifying that.

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But I was a very evil person, you know,

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I will take care of business without feeling any type of without having a heart.

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And when when when I started looking for God, like I started seeing how I lost my job. Everything was going downhill

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brother like

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people would call me up like, Hey, we know you, we know you left, but we want to, we want you to take care of business, we're gonna pay you this much money. Like the money that they were offering was 50 grand to take care of business.

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offers were coming and coming for me to to to run back. Anybody would like anybody would run back to that, right?

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If I was if I didn't know what I had encounter, and I did if I didn't know what what ally had guided me to have done it because I had that was my life. That was stuff that was what I used to do. That was my business.

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But I knew that

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inside of me, I would say

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are you going to turn your back on your Creator now that he has guided me to something that is true? That is true.

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I am 100% sure this is

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this is the true religion? Because like I talked to Muslims, and they asked me, How did you know about how did you find out about Islam?

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There's so much preach to you. And someone shared that with you

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Mashallah, the grid is

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continued to bless you, my brother, we want to get you on these last couple of minutes we have we want to connect you. How can people now for the Spanish community, you know, to go ahead you talked about you don't really have a community there. And now you want to continue to learn you want to grow. There's one new Muslim Academy Academy online that we recommend is for new Muslims right after to take Shahada. It's a course now, but then also bigger than that. We want to connect you we want to go ahead and you know, get you with the right people. There's our brothers from Islam and Spanish calm. Have you heard of this website? Islam in spanish.com? Have you heard of that? I think I have.

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Yeah. But how can some of these brothers, you know, our Hispanic Latino brothers, you know, connect with you. You. You're currently are you in California? You're in Mexico. I'm still in Mexico. I'm close to the border.

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I don't really want to say where I'm at, because that's what you're that's how you were wearing the glasses and the hat. Yeah, a lot of people want to see me on a female a very bad place because

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I can imagine, so if I'm, well, we'll have them reach out to would you say

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They can reach out to you. Yeah. And, and and you can you can your email, I'll give you your Yeah, you have my information, you know, okay, basically I will, that's why I try to reach out to you man like, because here like I, I sometimes like, I'm striving, you know, and and like, I'm not going to give up, I'm not going to give up now that I know what is what is real because I've seen it firsthand in my life, you know, and when I started learning about the companions of Prophet Muhammad peace be upon them. Like, I would get goosebumps, you know, because I was like, Man, I'm a warrior like I would have loved to been, I would have loved to be in there, you know, knowing that I was

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gonna die for the right cause because that's what, that's what I would always like that was that was my main goal, you know, like, I'm a warrior. But now I know that before, before being a warrior, I'm a slave of Allah, you know. And I just, I asked him for guidance every day. And like, I have, I've been going through some tough, some tough,

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the most,

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the most important thing that we can that we can have, and that they can never take away from us, we can lose everything, we can lose freedom, we can lose everything we can lose in this world, this world. But the guidance that he gives

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is something that we really have to appreciate. Because not everybody is guided, not everybody has, the knowledge that we have, and the knowledge that we have been given.

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And it's really true, I really hold that dear, that He guides who he will

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know. And that's why we see so much people going astray and so much people falling in that because they are they're still not guided. But if you do if you do have guidance, and you do believe in it, don't ever let it go because that is

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that is most

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that's the most greatest thing we can have the guidance of the Creator of the heavens and the earth.

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Absolutely. And they can never take that away, you know, we can lose everything.

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I've lost everything, and the only thing I have is him. And that's the only thing I know. So I'm happy, I'm happy. I'm doing everything. I know, everything's gonna

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everything's is getting to that point. And I really want to learn more because like, I talked to my friends, you know, I have a lot of friends still in that business. And like they they tell me like, Hey, we respect you, man.

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We know we did right here. We're not you're not the type of person that that just like, turned your back but but we've been in a gunfight with you like we've been in contrast with you. You're no coward.

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But you know, and now I understand that I have this agreed or disagreed classroom.

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I can I

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have on my heart, I want to be able to tell those people that are in the mafia, they're in the cartels, because a lot of people like they, they think they don't have heart, we have a lot of heart. And I know that a lot of them are there because of they have they can have their own reasons.

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But I want to share this message because we're here in Mexico, there's basically no Muslims, you know, there are very, very few inshallah women can get this, you can get this message to them, and share it with them. So we'll try to inshallah connect you now will many people will see this episode, and inshallah they reach out to us, and we'll try to make some connections. And then shall I go from there. And I appreciate you giving me the opportunity to share because I really didn't want to lay. I was thinking of it. I yesterday, I was just reaching out. So like, so you can give me some advice. I didn't really want to come on the show. And like, I wasn't that I was like, oh, what

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am I doing, but very, very, very inspirational story. Live testimony to again, someone who could be in the darkest of places in the world, but so many gems from your story. And one of the greatest is to call on the creator alone without any talisman without any shidduch without any saints, but just the one God created the heavens and earth and ask for guidance like you did. And when you were looking around left and right, where are you going to hang yourself? You were asking right before that for the guidance and you got guided and that's why you're here with us on today's show. Turn to the credit heavens, the earth in Islam, and I've been a month a month striving to become a better

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Muslim. Keep moving forward. Keep pressing forward, young brother. Check out this this, this website, new Muslim academy.com it's a really good website. And we'll try to make those other connections inshallah we'll send you the enchilada. Okay, nice. It was nice meeting you. Like we are blessed for you to bring that opportunity. You welcome Salama life. I'm like

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wow. Can you imagine being in that position now that you go from California to Mexico

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And now you're in the cartel. And you're just doing you can imagine he don't want to go into the details of any of the horrific things that he did. But then he just hightail it out of there. And then he's like a, he's about to, I mean, the, just the darkness, you know, has overtaken the heart and the soul. He's about to commit suicide. He's looking round from the left to the right where to hang himself, but he does look. He don't know about Islam, the only thing he heard about Islam, he's thinking these guys are terrorists. And now but he's doing something that's innate in the human being, he's calling upon the Creator, the heavens on earth alone, he's calling upon the Creator.

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He's saying, look, guide me. He didn't call upon and see and say, Jesus, he didn't see but say God, he didn't say a law. He just said, guide me he but he was calling sincerely to the one creator, the creator. That's what the main takeaway you can be in the worst place in your life. You're not living with purpose. But now you are sincerely wanting to know your purpose in life. You want to know where you're going when you die while you're here. Ask the creator the heavens and earth ask from the depths of your heart and soul sincerely guide me guide me guide me. And you'll be surprised what happened. Look what happened to our brother, our brother there this amazing story, and look at the

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perseverance make dua for him so he can remain steadfast. Thank you for tuning into the show. Subscribe if you haven't already. Go ahead and feel free to share all of our episodes out there with the world. Because through the stories, we're changing lives, we're inspiring people, so they can go ahead and find their purpose, live their purpose, inshallah, God wanna thank you, peace be with you. I said, I want a gum.