Sins #09 – The Poison That Kills The Heart

But can I ask everyone with children less than 15 Please go up with your parents and there is no food in this place. So masala number one is the house of Allah number two. And we cannot learn and we are eating whatever we are eating. So anybody with children need to go upstairs, please. Because the topic is especially today, I need you to be focused and children may Allah reward them. It's beautiful to have children the maths, but don't expect child as I said last week to come and sit here. That's it's difficult. So anybody with a children less than 15, please go upstairs. And if I ask the woman in the back, please don't if you want to chat with each other. You know what, there's

other places you can do that. So let's learn to I say this to myself before anyone let's learn to respect the island the knowledge in one day if Allah wills and I will not live yet because that's only for the onsite people. There is etiquettes of learning. And unfortunately, this is the first thing we all need to learn. You don't learn by coming to a class or coming to the masjid as if you're going to Walmart

there are sweis Focus wise think wise you will not and this is the problem we all complain off I keep getting to this I keep getting all these classes I kept and nothing is changing. Because I am not

changing internally and this is what we're going to be talking about today. So this is what I want you all if you're young, come and sit on the floor. All of you in the back come and sit in the front. go against your naps are not there Masha Allah, may Allah reward them for coming. But whatever your neffs tells you go against it. Sit on the floor, it's not the most comfortable, it's fine.

It's fine. Because you will learn because learning the process of learning is absolutely not fun. Tell me about it. And the more you go against your neffs the more you start enjoying it. I really mean it I am again what I'm saying is this is not something you read in books. This is something you will learn by your teachers will teach you and by you practicing again anyone with children less than 15 Please go upstairs, may Allah reward you or the child can go upstairs if you if you think they will handle it. But for the downstairs. Let's leave it for the adults. And please forgive me this is for your benefits not for mine. So let's go ahead and get started with Nila. We are a little

bit late. No Hamdulillah we are already on. So Bismillah Alhamdulillah wa Salatu was Salam ala Rasulillah while he was happy human Juana La Molina, Mayan found our foreign Habima antenna in the Caribbean would you would do our llaman Yeah. Oh, do we come in and million will be Lionshare on FC letteratura. What do I use? For Bonilla to the Kaluga Nevada is Haddington will have been a little Kurama. Indica intello hub will be struck me Saudi wastefully, only one won the tournament recently have come a pole humbler brand mean, this is the ninth class about sins, and this is going to be the last one. And then Inshallah, after the New Year SubhanAllah. In couple of weeks, we'll start a new

series, we will let you know about it. What I'm going to do today, which is the most important one. And as we always say we keep the best for the last what sins will do to my heart.

And we never think of that. We all talk about bone health. We talk about fitness. We talk about blood pressure, we talk about blood sugar, we talk about all this, but we never talk about is my spiritual heart healthy.

Is my actually is my spiritual heart alive.

If I ask each one of you here, and the same thing people with online, do you think your spiritual life is alive?

Is it alive? Or is it dead?

And if it is alive, which I think it is, because you're not be here. So this is this is the first system hamdulillah

how alive is it? How lively it is and how often it is alive. Because remember, we change we all change. Young and old. You wake up in the morning you do the bus schedule, and then you miss your walk. What happened? Or the opposite. You missed your schedule and then Antosha you're crying.

So these two questions you have to ask is Where is my heart spiritual? Which the one that connects me with a law. My body doesn't connect me with a law my body when I'm in the grave is gone.

This is just the external and one of the most beautiful parables of the heart is the computer. Heart is the heart heart is the hard drive. If the hard drive

It dies nothing will work in the computer right? If you have the most fancy desktop, it's not going to work. It's done is black.

So number one overview. Analyze your heart. Come here. Have you come to

analyze your heart, where am I in my journey with Allah's pantalla that I am going to eat with my heart? Where is it? Have I started? Have I started and stopped? Have I went way far and now I'm back? No hamdulillah I'm still and I compare myself I'm so ready for Ramadan, Allah, please let me live to that time. Now if it is not healthy all the time, that's where we are talking today. It's because of what I do.

I'm not going to say you it's me.

The market so that a deacon it's because of what we are doing. And you need to take this as a fact. Don't get upset. Don't say this is too hard, then you know what, I'm not gonna change.

I'm gonna say your Allah. This is difficult for me, but it is reality. Every time I sin, and I want you all young and old. Don't think only the worst sins,

adult sins more. It's just a different, different way of cynic. Every time I assume you and we major minor. The effect will go directly to my heart, and we don't see it. There is when many ways but I'm just going to cover five because of the time five things that when we sin when I and your sin, what will happen to the heart and this is from Imam IAM, they call him the psychiatrist of the hearts. He said put them sins in Miami to Alabama kills the heart kills the heart and everything I'm going to tell you, I'm going to give you the verse from the Quran or I'm going to give you the hadith of Roswaal it's not my opinion and yours doesn't work here. And Islam doesn't work my opinion and

yours. That's what I'm lost. So what the Roswaal ASR to Samsung, so either it's going to kill my heart, or it's going to make it sick, as severe sickness. And the third one, which we all suffer from, it's going to make it weak. Weikart I want to do it. I want and I know it is good for me. I just can't. I don't know why, but I don't. Or I know I shouldn't do that.

I know I shouldn't watch this. I know I shouldn't say this. I know I shouldn't be with that company. But I do it because my heart is weak. And then this is actually from North Tyneside. These are three things whether dead or weak, or it is sick will lead to the eight things that are also highly sought. Seek refuge and and you all know this hadith that I'm gonna share Allahumma me out obika Meaning

I hear it

a number one. Alemany one hasn't well how to deal with cancer. Well, Germany won one dang well hello better region eight.

Eight, when my heart is sick now compare it with your life. What do we worry about in life? I woke up this morning I don't feel well. Oh, you don't know how many things I have to take care of today. I'm so worried I have this or that. And what are these? So he said Yeah, Allah, I seek refuge from you. Number one, he said Alhamdulillah has him worry.

Something you worry about what worries you doesn't worry me. And what worries me doesn't worry you but it's a worry. If I give you a now a piece of paper and I say write down things that you're worried about this moment at least you're gonna give me three.

He said he sought refuge in Allah from being in a state of worry.

And then hasn't sadness. I don't know why. Some people patients tells me that everything is going very well. I don't know why I'm sad.

It hasn't sad to so these two is actually you combine them how many will has a will and Z will cancel. This is very important as in capability. It capacity I'm incapacitated. And Kassar laziness. So I'm not doing it either. I can't physically or I am lazy.

And this is a huge problem for us lazy. I don't know why I'm not doing it. I'm healthy. I'm fine. Right? Why don't I fast on Monday?

I'm just lazy, and we all even see it. So this is the fourth things have me we'll have to worry and sadness and the hydrofoil person, incapacity and laziness. Then while juggling one ball cowardness and miserliness. Six and the last two

Hello, but then mobile average one hour then wahala battery job when I am in severe debt, and people have power over. This is the eight things he sought sought refuge in Roswaal ASR to memorize this hadith, at least the meaning when you wake up in the morning, always asking what to protect you from this, because I easily can be lazy, or incapable or worried or sad, someone is gonna come and control me or so or I am going to be in debt, or I have a lot of money, but I don't want to pay. I don't want to do anything. Because I love it. Seek refuge. He says this is how we connected. He said when my heart gets sick or dead, these are going to be the result. Now tell me why there is a lot of

mental illness these days. Why where humanity is not happy?

We live in a time the least time that human beings are happy.

Am I right? Am I exaggerating?

Look at if you still have your grandmother alive in her 80s Tell her when she was your age. They had nothing of what we have. There was no phone. There's no internet, there is not even dishwasher. They're not even a washer. But they were much happier. What is it?

What is it? They were in they're way more connected to Allah than us. less distracted than us, their hearts, Pura

I'll just share this with you because this moved me this morning somebody may Allah reward her shade this. And it's a small clip. And it's obviously a non Muslim, British man, very educated the way he spoke, tend to be we became a Muslim and the title is started by saying I didn't become a Muslim because I read the Quran which was really interesting for me, or because I read this or I met this chef. He said, I became a Muslim. Listen to this. It wasn't Egypt actually. He said I was walking in the streets of Egypt in a young man, a young child, he said, You know what he was doing? He claimed he shined shoes. And he said every morning when I walk this young man says Salonika as smiling. It's

stuck in his mind. And then how a lot took him starting from this to become a Muslim.

This young boy is a shoe shiner, how much money he has. Don't tell me. But he'd smiled and made a human being became a Muslim. And look at you and me living in the hole.

Where do we start? Where do we end? We're worried and anxious. I'm not happy. You hear this from a lot of people. So this is what he said. He said, he sought refuge from these eight things. It is the result of my heart is sick. And the only reason my heart is sick. And I'm talking about spiritual heart when it's far from Allah.

And the reason I'm far from Allah Now remember the eight

topics we covered is because I am sinning. whether intentionally or unintentionally, I know what or I don't know it. So then he comes and says, the heart the following says

Roswaal is salatu salam said this hadith I shared that with you number one, when I sin now let's let's think of it physically or think of the heart as a crystal ball. This is one of the easiest way for me to understand this topic. And they send it the more I send what will happen let's say I missed my salah today, let's say I backbite somebody look down at someone, any of these things, what will happen to the heart spiritual now the physical the sin one will do what? There will be a black spot. We don't see it. Right. And as these more and more because what do we normally do when we when we send most of us? What do we say? What did I do? What is the big deal? Allah's awful Rahim you

know all these things? I don't run me and I say y'all Allah wa Yoruba, please forgive me. Rarely, maybe. But as these accumulate, could be in a day could be in a week could be in a month. It depends. The heart will have what

it will be sealed completely. Like you know, these are these days is what holiday seasons. What does people do these days. If you want to make money, just learn how to wrap gifts. And you will make a lot of money these days because they are up. That's the ceiling of the heart. The Crystal vase, the shiny the beauty, it will become covered completely covered

Sometimes we'll even put a bow on top of it because it looks nice. The inside is covering meaning nothing goes in.

So when I hear a verse from the Quran, nothing happens to me because it's not going, it's covered.

And i'll give you the verse and you all know the verse in Jerusalem. And Allah said this kala vignarajah Anna Karoubi him McIndoe,

Yak Cebu, ne oran literally the run is when you have a metal that becomes rotten.

You know if you have let's say silver, a silver plate and then you leave the silver outside after a week or two what happens to it becomes what color black that's the run

and good luck come and clean.

How hard is it if you have tried it kettlebell Iran and why your Allah Bhima can we actually wound because of what they are doing?

What we are doing, again, young and old.

Practicing not very practicing. It doesn't matter. We all sin Culebra, Adam hotpot, all the children of other more common sense. So the first thing is, when I commit one after the other, I'm going to just share with you a couple of the meanings of the rhyme of the cover hasn't been both. So he says the following. He says, one sin after the other, all of you when you go home today, and don't do it to anybody, just to yourself, sit down for five minutes. You just slide down what sins he did today.

Just like the dumb you and Allah knows it. It's already written, but it's good for me to know. And then he says one after the other. So the heart becomes completely blind.

covered completely doesn't see anything.

What is the sign my heart is blind.

When you told me something that is right.

And I don't see it right?

When you told me Don't say this, this is not pleasing to Allah, not because it's not pleasing to people.

This is not pleasing to Allah. This is not how he wants me to be. And I look at you and I said, What's wrong with it? And my heart is blind. I'm not seeing it. Why? Because I'm singing and I'm singing and I am selling are a soiree salatu salam said and this is the explanation either in the lab day either

when the son of Adam committed sin can you show me hands how many of you have committed a sin today?

Don't be shy. Don't be shy. Right? The question is when I sin What did I do?

We'll come to it so he said in an update either aka Hapa here we are all of us hamdulillah what will happen you on this wall? And he said Nikita to be hungry he looked at and soda and black dots as if you're you know if you draw and you put the heart Beautiful and then I said this

black dot look at that look the two soda now what do I do? That's what I'm sharing this hadith either Anessa Stofer if he immediately or she immediately said

how did I say that?

Oh, why did I look at this way? Why did I respond this way? One wasn't I page you know whatever we did good news. It's removed

the black.is removed that's why I want to share with you because I don't want you to despair. This Dean every issue. Every problem or not. Every problem has a has a solution.

But sometimes we don't know. So here I am. I did it.

I acknowledge it's affected my heart no problem. What is this soap? It's like a plate. What is the soap? A Stanford ALLAH. So he that's what he said. And then he said what he

did it again.

And he did not ask no soap. That's when they start accumulating. What what Ronald dinakaran law and then this becomes one on top of each other and the whole heart will be wrapped. Wrapped. Exactly. It's going to be Masada wrapped completely think of a gift. When someone gives you a gift. It's beautiful. But I have no idea what is inside it. When the heart is wrapped inside it is that it's dirty. is black. So since absolutely affect my heart, and second, which is this is very important for all of us because we

Robots will learn hundreds don't hurt as I said that the heart will not be here second is what we are when I sin

my heart will become weaker in which way and what I used to run five miles now I'm running two miles no man my determination my resolve to do a good deed will become weaker

give you an example from Alana is less than three months by the way

absolutely three months from now

and look at yourself back in Ramadan or look at your desire in this Ramadan can I say this from Allah I'm going to Tara we have reading this Ramadan I want to really read at least few pages a day you have them what we call it determination in determined the resolve

out outside Ramadan, I may or may not have it when I have it and I don't do it. That's the question when you say to yourself this day I am going to be going in my usual day and I am not going to disobey Allah I don't know if I share this with you had a friend of her mom she used to send herself every morning you know the little notification we get don't forget do this do that why she sent herself every morning she liked it Don't disobey the law today

what our reminder

so I say this but then during the day I get weaker

I woke up out it's a Sunday I said to close tomorrow I'm gonna fast these are the shortest days of the year from today is going to start become longer 21st and as across this Thursday on fasting, I've got to be able to fast in the summer, Omaha's a 30 and if you really and you determine you walk up for in for your support and guess what happened? By 10 o'clock.

I miss that breakfast or a friend calls you and says yes okay, let's fast tomorrow, let's go. You weakened your this resolve your energy become weaker. Why? I have disobeyed Allah in that time.

So every time I sin, I become weaker, weaker in my intentions and weaker in my ability to do the things we can the termination strengthen the opposite the power to do more since

I said one word and then I didn't say a stop for a while. So stayed in my heart. Next thing I'm going to say another word, more words. I'm going to look one time I looked and I didn't say it's not. Okay, next thing I see more. I was watching and I wanted to stop watching but I didn't. And now I continue to watch. So it becomes weaker and weaker and stronger to disobey Allah and the desire to do repentance because this is extremely important. Look at repentance, the soap, you all wash dishes, or you wash your hand, the soap that will clean my heart is Stafford even if you even if it's from the tip of your tongue, say it, say it and unlock will bring you and make it and put it in

your heart. But don't let it go. Don't leave it. So it will weakens my determination. And it is basically and this is our suave sought to set up memorize this hadith. This hadith makes me smile.

And I say that I have hope

every time I read them like hamdulillah because this is what he said that was why they sought to since the Hadith, he said Allah subhanaw taala said,

in unmarketable has an accuracy Yet Allah subhanaw taala have explained to ask what is good deeds, what is bad deeds. And then he said, Whosoever for one Hammurabi, Hassan whomsoever intended to do a good deed. You didn't do it, but you're really sincere in doing it. That's the beauty of my deen and yours from an humblebee Hassan follow me Allah. I didn't do it, but I really wanted to do. For example, you really wanted to come today to the class, you're ready as something happens, you didn't.

You did a good deed, and it will be written as a good deed and Mark will reward you

kuchibhotla Who has no one? If you did it, it will be written how much 10 What about the opposite?

What about the opposite? I was about to say this. I was about to look at this. I was about to do this disobedience. I had the intention. How was determined, but I didn't do it.

Whether you didn't do it, whether it didn't happen, what will happen?

Nothing, nothing.

The right angel will write nothing

on hammer BC Flm, Yamaha lamp Dr. Blah.

What a beauty.

And if you didn't do it intentionally, it will be a good deed for you.

So here you go, you're about to see something. It's like, okay, let me go and check my Instagram. I think I'm gonna see this. And it came. But you turned your face.

You wanted? You went on the phone. But you didn't do you didn't look. That's a good deed.

That's why say nom de la nobis has this famous line, you know, the people often are off. You know, on the Day of Judgment, here will be Jana, Robbie, may Allah invite us all and be there. And there's the people off what I had to build up people off Jana, in between is what

it's called The Art of the heights, there's people there who the angels are

unsure. Because it's 5050.

The book of the right is equal to the book of the left 5050 That's why they are in the middle. They are not. They haven't done extra to go to Jannette. They haven't done extraordinaria they will have to go they are standing right there. And so you now have the log Now that said this. Now think of the Hadith I just shared. He said, I wonder how can a Muslim be of a person of the height? And every good deed is timestamp?

Do you know what that means? It means for every good deed I did. I determined by this. Now they became a call.

So every time you're weak, I am weak. I'm about to do it.

Don't go stop. It's a good deed.

And this is one of the things that will keep my heart not only clean but stronger. Because the once I do it, my heart will become weaker and weaker and weaker. Nestled, pneumatic says and this is also a very beautiful Hadith whenever you really want to do something good. And there was some obstacle.

I remember this hadith last year when I was going for O'Meara Subhanallah the day before we all did, of course COVID test and the day before I was going and the tests came back as positive.

So you can imagine

right and I was taking group polls Subhanallah and then I remember this hadith and I'll share it with you enable Medina to Acoma master Tomasi, Iran, well, apart from Meridian Illa can mark on your so Allah will humbly Medina, or the NAM will humble Medina have a solo adoption. He was coming back from the expedition of taboo. So he's going back and telling Marina and he was telling the Sahaba there's people in Medina, they didn't leave. They didn't go with you and us. But every step you took, every value went down, and every step you went up, they got the same reward. So they also lock this thing in Madrid. They didn't even get out of their bed. He said yes, I have so horrible. The

reason they didn't come out because of an obstacle.

So when you really want to do something good and you couldn't, for example, again, you wanted to come today, you really you call your friends, I'm coming I'm gonna pick you up, guess what you went out to the garage and the car didn't work. You call the Uber nobody, no Uber, or you get stuck in the traffic and you didn't come have as a homeowner or you have a valid excuse.

This is what I need you to all on. There's a valid excuse. And there is an excuse I make

a valid excuses don't disappear. Don't say every time I want to do something good something happened. You know what Allah wants to give you the the reward and you didn't even put an effort Alhamdulillah

but don't put excuses that are not valid.

This is extremely important. I do not justify the sin, let alone bring excuses for the sin.

And this actually they all most of what I shared with you is actually from an Imam, Bukhari and Muslim. Now they said the sins dark in the heart so either wrap it completely

or it makes a dark. Think of a dark let's see if we allow that to happen. We lost electricity and this room is completely dark. What will happen

other than you're going to be panicking, whatever.

What will happen yes.

I can't hear you haven't

know. Let's say your phone is dead.

No light, I can see. And normally if you stay in a dark room, what do they tell you? Stay for about three four.

minutes, and then your eyes usually that's from the creation of Allah will adapt, and you start gradually seeing. But in the first three, four or five minutes, you'll see nothing. If you want to work, you're going to start doing like a blind person.

That's what sins does to my heart. It becomes like it's in a dark place. What does that mean? To beautiful words, but what does it mean?

When someone come and tell you, our loss have this or Swati salatu salam said this, you don't see it.

You don't see it.

When someone tells you, for example, they must do more my needs to be this and this and this and that. We don't see it. You see what everybody else is doing. Although that what they are doing is not pleasing to Allah.

That means my heart is black.

I need the church. I need to turn the light on in my heart. And by the way, all of us when we are born, there is light in the heart or there isn't. I want to hear it. Absolutely there is. And it's actually in the allotment over summer what you will own in the words of slaughter knew the parable Allah give every one of us regardless, the state you are born in meaning Muslim or non Muslim, the heart has already ignited Allah put in it. And then it depends who are I and you do. So when I don't see reality as reality. I need light. I need my phone. I need a torch.

Give me an example. Anybody here that I don't see something that is so obvious, and I don't see it. Because my heart lost electricity.

Spiritually, I need you to start thinking spiritually. I need to move spiritually, something very obvious, but I don't see it.

There's so many examples. Just give me one.

You remember or law other than that?

You don't see it. It's obvious. But you don't see.

Yes.

Can't hear it.

So creation of Allah, I don't see it as a creation of Allah. The one that came to my mind is death.

Death.

My friend this morning was talking to me that her cat is going to be they told her it's going to die. She was really sad.

And I said, You know what? That's how you mind

the cat will die. The bird will die and I will done and he will die. I don't see it. What do you mean? I don't see it. Of course I see people go and there is a graveyard and I go and do something now. What I mean I don't see it. I don't work for it. And what it's going to come after it. Because my heart read the torch.

What is the best torch now of the heart? This is all spiritual today. What is the torch of the heart? I can't hear you.

What is the torch of the heart

in an equally che in Sakana or Sakala to the crooner. Everything has a cleansing agent. And the cleansing agent of the heart is a remembrance of Allah. So any form you go outside and you see beautiful baby, you say subhanallah That's it. That's it. Instead of how beautiful call all these words

it's fine. But I missed the light.

And it's not going to cost me anything. Nothing, just the word.

So always second is my heart Dead The answer is no. Is my heart weak? The answer is yes. Is my heart blind dark The answer is I don't know you answer but when I don't see things the right way that I should see it. I need light

and I and the light the strength of the light how strong is the bulb 4060 100 LED regular depends how dark is my heart. So since the more I sin, the more my heart becomes darker and darker and darker and then it becomes completely covered run and becomes dead it's it doesn't die right away goes through process. thing how many of you have been talking about this is like the time a lot of people are going how many of you have been to show me hands any of the youth? None not yet? No. May Allah invite to any of the young girls have been tambura may align right? Like you've been mashallah, right? Anybody? Ombre hedge right. When you come back the first day how are you?

You're a different person.

The glowing people look at you and says What happened to you? It's one week, right one week. And you see yourself full of energy and I have a long list. I've seen the lists after a long list of I'm going to do I'm going to do I'm going to do, let's talk about after a month. What happened. This week, one week was full of light.

And my heart came in clean, shiny, strong, I can do it. Then I come back and I went back to my life. Gradual, gradual, we don't go right away gradual one by one, one by one after a month.

Allah knows how much lifted so we can since we can the heart as I say it Imam Malik said this to say Imam Shafi Imam Shafi was a student was a young boy, they said he was like seven or eight. What did he see in him? Like gifted students these days? Teachers don't give to the students, what did they see in them. So he looks at him and says, young,

young boy, in the Quran, and Allah at Qaddafi, RB canula, I see, this is the teacher, that Allah throw in your heart light,

the light what we are talking about, don't extinguish it. By the darkness of the sense. I remember, one of my friends Subhanallah, her son that he was nine, they were my neighbors, we used to go to photo together, work, Masjid was very close. Literally, this boy, for a one week, everyday he see of us what they saw.

And I don't think he was lying for the day, I was like, second day.

And I talked to his mother. And I brought this and I said, this is a special boy.

Don't let him go in the usual way of life.

Because that light will extinguish.

And it did.

It did.

Because unless this is a gift, Allah gave it, not all of us has it.

And unless I know the the value of this gift, and work on it, subhanAllah he really, he really wanted to do things. But then you know, the usual parents wants all their children to, you know, carried on whatever, whatever.

And then yeah, start taking us. So look at yourself, you may be that person, younger, or you may be that person, doesn't matter how you look externally, I don't care. I know, it doesn't matter what you're saying or doing you don't know, it's maybe still deal, maybe it's just a little bit left. Maybe it is.

And don't extinguish it more by the sending.

Because it's all we don't, there will be dark. And when there is little bit light, it's easier. Think of a deal I think of

can candle

when the candle,

when does the candle die, and you will not be able to

light it anymore. When when colors that you've used it all. I don't want my heart to be that candle. As long as there's still something in a cleft, I can bring the lighter and it will turn on and that light, what is left in it. The light to turn it on is as I said the care of a lot and stay away from disobedience. And unless again, I and I'm going to repeat this saying it again and again. Unless I acknowledge that I am committing sins. I will never change Look at this beautiful say, say now beloved novice, and he said the following. How many of you have seen someone who says you don't want she has a light on her face? Or he has a light on his face? Sure we have we all have seen the fact

something in their face, right? We don't know what is it? And when you tell them they tell you what.

See what he says say number love numbers he said the following in an isolated area. Go good deed putting light on the face.

One good deed one one. Don't underestimate what's a good deed. We must a lot of a lot of us underestimate this. What did I do? Or you don't know what I did? Don't worry about that. In Hassan.

One good deed brings light to your face one wrong and bring the light in the heart. Now, which we all want dunya or see atone for risk and an expansion in the sustenance your score and your GPA was less than four and guess what? You got accepted. I've seen people like that. Literally 3.6 GPA they got accepted to Stanford.

How's that?

How is that

when things beyond the expectation happens, I always say they have something with Allah.

He made the impossible possible. When I depend on me and me and my ability and my smartness and my intelligence, it doesn't work all the time. Nor so good deed shows on the face and there is a light in the heart, and then you will have expansion of your sustenance and you will over time feel burden and you will be strong in your body. Or my habit to people who will Hulk and people will love you What else you want.

What else you don't want people to love you all of us. We get so upset. She doesn't love me. They don't invite me they don't call me okay. I don't have enough money Don't you want that? I'm weak look at her mashallah she exercised she does this and I can Don't you want that?

House obey Allah Spandana what is the problem?

Why don't we do it? You all are looking at me. I was like she's saying, right? But we don't know why.

Because we've all put one plus one equal to once you start thinking of things deeper, but simpler. Life becomes much easier. Much easier. And the opposite. What is the opposite? Yeah, so you know, blah, blah, blah. We're in there to see sin. Disobedient one act? He said one. So why don't we watch? It's going to show on your face. Subhan Allah So why then Phil would? Well Voluma timeful up cover and we'll be darkness in the grave. And in the heart. Or what mental burden weak weakness in the in the body. One knocks on the wrist? Less sustenance. Wobble 10 people who will help people don't watch how many times you've seen someone says I just don't like

I don't know how I just met her once. I just don't feel comfortable around. Why?

Or people will say this about me.

It's what it's between me and him. Because who puts the love of the people? Or who puts the love of me in the heart of people? It's not my deeds is launched me Who?

Who? Yes in a lie that I have that I've done. You know this heavy when Allah loves someone called your brain says yeah, Jabri I love this person. Tell the people of the earth that I love. And then once you breed say to the people of the earth, I Alaba Allah will put the law of that person in the hearts I love her. I feel comfortable around him. I don't even know.

And the opposite is true. Good deed. Your face will shine you don't need to do all these whatever are all these makeup all its shines. Literally I've seen share 104 You know what 104

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this is what it is. Your face shiny, your heart is pure. You have sustenance or you may have nothing you don't maybe not too much, but you're happy with what you have. That's what we want. And you're strong. And the opposite is true. It is a since this is what seems to do to us.

Number four sins. The more I sin, the more to push me away from good deed.

Learn this. They are opposite each other.

opposite each other. They don't come together. They only live in the same house. They don't live in the same room.

I disobeyed on live let alone I say this to myself before anyone. I actually look at it in the other way when I don't feel I want to do a good deed first thing I said what did I do?

What did I get why I'm not strong today like I was yesterday. Since push the good day they are opposite like negative and positives. You know when you have the battery to science. It will make us weaker, weaker and weaker. So the they say here is very nice. I'm going to read it the effect of sins on the heart is like a disease on the body.

When you get fever these days people's Palla a lot of people are getting sick. It's the time of the year flu and even the flu this year this year is different than the usual flu. Everyone is getting very sick Subhan Allah may Allah protect us all. What happens to the body? Somebody calls you and says I can't even move my hand. Or my head is so heavy, right? It's fever. Same thing with the heart.

When the heart gets sick, when the heart gets sick, it gets very weak. I can do any good deed. Even you say, salam, if I have disobeyed Allah you said a good set out to me. I just don't feel like answering you. We say I don't feel like doing it. What does that mean?

It's weak. And the weaknesses because of the scenes, you sit down on that couch, watch that thing on that TV. And tell me how was your Russia afterward? If you played it?

That's it. One plus one equal to it's very clean, simple, simple math. It's not complicated. And the last but not the least, and they say

yeah, usually the alasa Listen, so lots and fine. Yeah, you're moving to Amman, in Allah. Ya Allah calm.

For Ana, while you're free. lukou Allah Allahu

Allah says, Yeah, you're live in Amman. This is not to the kaffir is not the people who doesn't believe in Allah. This is you and me. Are we all believers?

Are we all believers? Why? I'm not kidding. Yeah.

Don't make me wonder and doubt. So yeah, you want to give me your ears? As a loved one, Minnesota or Ohio. When you hear this in the Quran, I already know Hello, listen, alas telling me something. When you say to your mom, listen to me. I want you to be focused. Don't talk on the phone. Don't don't spend time in the kitchen. I want you to give me your focus. Or do you say this to your spouse? Or do you say this to your sister when somebody when Allah says yeah, I'm gonna meaning Give me your full attention. Okay, Allah, what do you want me to learn? So I need to sit properly. Now the only thing that I'm and now yes, your law teacher telling me in technical law, when you have a lot of go

a lot conscious, meaning my sins will be much less. Okay, what will happen? You are looking for on he's gonna make you see wrong from right for Khan is which one of the names of the Quran is the Pet Barrier? Are the divided between false and true, or falsehood and truth. So sometimes you come in and says, I can't see why eating chips will make me gain weight.

I just can't see it. Or junk food. What is wrong? I say this from patients. What's wrong with junk food, it's yummy. I mean, this fries is really the best thing ever, which is true. It's very yummy.

But it's very harmful. I don't see it. I don't see it. I see it as a physician because I see the result of when I and you My heart is clear. I am focused on Allah, I Don't disobey Allah or start seeing things as it is. I come here and I see this as a masjid. I don't see this as whatever.

I see the Quran as the words of Allah I don't see the Quran as a burden. Please forgive me.

I see salah. Look at this one. I see Salah as my connection with Allah. I don't see Salah as a burden. Why do I have to pray? What I'm going to get out of it.

I don't have this. I had this the clear vision. You know clear vision GPS, when you put it there. And then it gives you clear direction and you follow it by the letter. That's when you have a forearm. And the way I will get this is when I obey Him. And every time I obey him step by step don't jump to everything you can step by step the more I obey the more I see it one minute

I see it clearly as the term in the Quran is repeated dial your pain. You know what I know your pain is when you see it as if it is happening. Some of the Sahaba saw Janna as if it is in front of them. And how is that? Because the heart is clear. You may find this

little bit difficult or what is she talking about? An issue Shiva.

And if you work on it, this doesn't come free of charge. If you work on it, number one you wanted. Like Jamar, show me what is this? What is this? And I remember Subhanallah one of the first advice I was given when I saw that the speaker and I was so impressed because he has this and this and this study of the world dunya and he's so knowledgeable in Quran everything I was done. I'm running to him and I say how did you do it? But this question, I get it all the time. Now, and you know what he said? One word. One line actually. He said if you really wanted Allah will give it to you.

That's the advice

If you really want to lead, and I'm gonna say the same as I was told 20 years ago, you really want to have a clear heart. You really don't want to disobey Allah really not. Because today I'm saying, Listen, the moment I leave dunya, we'll take a look at yourself three months from now, three months from when Ramadan comes.

You need to wanted like you want and I'm going to speak to everybody according to their age, like you want to go to Harvard, or you want to go to Stanford and you want to have the best child, you want to have the best spouse? Do you really want to have this clear heart free of sins? Crystal clear, connected with a more yes or no? Your answer. You want to really see what you're giving you.

See how you will make it easy, easy, you will be so shocked how disobedience of Allah becomes more harder. And not even that it's even better. You don't like it?

You don't like it, you don't enjoy it. Talk to people who used to listen to music. We all grew up on music, lovers.

And then once you get closer to Allah and you start having the Quran in your heart, you know what happens? You don't struggle anymore. You just don't like it.

When you don't like something it's very easy not to deal with. We don't like coffee, who cares? You don't like spicy food.

This is what you all need. If you want to wrap up this series is sins will affect us all affect me individually affect my home, affect my children, affect the community affect the Earth, but most importantly affect this, which is the vessel which Allah is going to look at on the Day of Judgment in Allah Allah Jambo has already Comarch some Allah does not look at how you look and what size you are, and how beautiful is your body or not what I can number

Latifi so they will come he looks at the heart that's inside your chest. Work on your hearts ladies. The path to Allah is with the hearts the path with Allah is not with the body. One Moroka one proper Roca unit of Salah you do it properly, see what happens to your heart. And let's start the journey. It's only three months left for Ramadan. Let's start Sahaba prepared for Ramadan six months before and six months after they just pray that Allah accept from them. Let's start the change. And if I die tomorrow, he knows on lie I was sincere you will know that I really liked it. I want to change and you took me start the process helping each other and I'm gonna say this specially to this

community. Most of you know each other.

Help each other to obey Allah don't help each other to disobey Allah. Don't make disobedience beautiful. So other people will like it and will love it. And don't say to anyone if you remember nothing from this series, just remember this word to say to anyone who disobey Allah It's okay. It is not okay.

And you all learn to why it is not okay to say to them what I say to myself, I disobeyed Allah the Allah helped me I don't want you to dispute idols. When we need to be take actions we need to change and then the needy Latina ammonoid TASHA on a warm is Aquila has in time have come for the believers for their hearts to surrender to Allah to change. This is to the Sahaba and they responded right away but I agree yes your long time has come your way till tomorrow. I don't know if there will be tomorrow. From now this moment you're the snack sada that's going to come make a different

and doesn't matter where you are. He will pull you He will pull you Subhanallah to Zakouma la Highlands one o'clock lot more behind the shadow online.

Stuff we look forward to bullying salam ala Sayyidina Muhammad Allah Allah He was Hydrotest Freeman cathedral this will be the last series the last one and I'm not going to be here for the next three weeks inshallah. But the Tuesday program will continue by ask everyone like you did last week. Please leave properly no say salaam to everybody upstairs because the brothers needs to come to hear his album a lot.