It’s ok to feel afraid

Musleh Khan

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Salam Alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh Hello everyone, and welcome to an exclusive presentation titled, it's okay to be afraid. And I'm just gonna jump right into this just because of how important this subject is. And I hope that insha Allah, you find this somewhat meaningful and fruitful, Bismillah heater Allah. So why are we talking about this subject? It's really simple. Do you know that during this time, just turn this put this all in silent, okay. So during this time, that we're all consumed with this covid 19 outbreak, we're consumed with what the news is telling us to do, and everybody's just engulfed around this particular problem. And for good reason. I mean,

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it's the biggest global issue on the planet. However, there are some of you out there that might be listening to this, and you still have marriage problems, you still have problems, you know, personally within yourself, a lot of you who are out there, you still have issues, that you're struggling with mental issues, issues that in your personal life struggles that you have, it could be relationship could be social, it could be anything else, aside from this virus outbreak. And because the world is just consumed with this particular issue, it's really hard for you to get any attention and get the support that you need. And where am I getting this from? Well, it's really

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simple. Until now, there are many brothers and sisters that keep emailing me and messaging me that they want to set up an appointment they want to meet, they still have their issues and struggles they're going through. But unfortunately, because I don't have an office right now, all the massages here are closed. There's nowhere to meet. And we're told to isolate, we're told to distance ourselves. So I can't even meet these these people anywhere else either. And as of today, almost every restaurant and coffee shop, you name it, it's closed, there's no dining allowed anyway. So what do you do? These people pretty much we forget about them, and they kind of get shoved to the

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side, because we're so consumed about this outbreak. Look, here's a couple of things that I want to share with you. And from the situations like that, but also what we're hearing and we're listening, and how we're trying to adapt to it. The first point is that a lot of us may be afraid, we may be scared of the current situation, the uncertainty that might unfold in the next few weeks in the next few months. And so this is really for you to hopefully reinforce some strength and confidence, be optimistic in your religion, but even more importantly, to trust your Creator, trust Allah that Allah is Allah z. So Hakeem, he knows what he's doing. And he is the most wise, so he knows when

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he's doing and he knows why it's happening. And it's happening. Now, whilst you and I, we are alive in this world, for a long time for ages for years and years of our lives. And for most of us, including myself, probably our entire lifetime, we've always been accustomed to the idea that if we were sick, there was medicine to take, if we were feeling weak, or we weren't, well, we could stay home, spend a little bit of time, you know, dose down on medication, get some rescue all of those little things, and you're back to normal. And this is probably one of Allah subhanho tireless ways to remind us that you're not always going to have medicine, you're not always going to have

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treatment, and the only medicine and the only treatment you will get is your devotion with him. subhanho wa Taala. And so with that being said, despite that we have all of the spiritual things in our life, to encourage us and to keep us strong and keep us confident. Very often Muslims forget the human side, in each and every one of us. There's a human in us, that is scared, that is confused, that is frightened, that is wondering and thinking, what's the future going to be like? What's the outcome going to be like? Unfortunately, guys, there are some Muslims out there that when they hear these kinds of sentiments, they respond and say, what kind of Muslim Are you You shouldn't be afraid

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you should have tawakkol in Allah, you should just trust him. I mean, I even read some posts online that some Muslims were saying things like when the massage dude decided to close their doors, they were like, look at these Muslims running away from death. How can we be afraid of death? I mean, really, Come on, guys. Where do we don't look forward to dying. Nothing in our religion teaches us to look forward to death. But we look forward to a good death a death that is pleasing to a large soldier. Secondly, we don't know when we're going to die. So our priority right now is to maximise on the time that we have in this world, we utilize it well, and we devote that time as much as we

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can to the worship of Allah subhanho wa Taala in preparation for whenever and however death will come. And this is why Allah tells us in the port and we're meant to do it and so many

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taxable harder. Well, methylene fcba, Albert intermode, you don't know where, what you're able to do tomorrow. So in other words, this poor man's way of saying, don't think about the actions you need to do tomorrow, do them now, woman attended enough soon to be a gentleman, you don't even know which spot you'll be standing on or sitting on. You don't know which hospital bed has your name on it. And that's where death finds you. I mean, this particular verse at the end of sort of look, man really is one of the most frightening verses for me, with respect to the subject of death, because Allah uses the word other than other than literally means the spot that you're standing on the tile, the

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piece of carpet, the step that you're on, whatever stair you might be climbing one of those stairs, has your name on it. And that's probably where potentially somebody could fall to their death. And that's what a lie saying is like, no matter every footstep you take and where you are, death could find you. And that could be your last moment. And so it begs the question, Who thinks of death like that? Who thinks of death, like every tile that I walk on? One of them could be it like, you'd become literally obsessed with the idea. But then at the same time, our religion tells us, balance your time, devote your time read, studied all of these little things in between. So what do you do

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with all of this? Well, the point is, at the end of the day, brothers and sisters is that life can be very overwhelming. We're seeing and experiencing that now. I have no shame in admitting that even I, myself, you know, as a leader in the community, as an Islamic teacher, as somebody that people will come up to me and look for strength. Look, for some guidance, look for some answers of how to cope with what we're coping with right now. There's a part of me within, I'm afraid to, I'm afraid for myself, I'm afraid for my kids, I'm afraid for my family. And I just want to say to all of you, that's all key. What is most important is how we channel that feeling of fear and anxiety and

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stress. What do you do with that? And so this particular presentation is not going to be very long, guys, maybe 1520 minutes, and I'm done. I just want to share with you a couple of things. The first point is that realize that being afraid as a human being, we are not the first ones to experience that. But this has been happening since the beginning of time. I don't know where to begin. So the first story that pops out to me to capture this particular emotion and feeling of fear is Musa alayhis. Salaam. I just want you to put yourself in the shoes of musala. He sat down for a minute, here is a man, he has no army, he has no resource he's poor, he's by himself. And when he

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accidentally took the life of a man who was oppressing others, they accidentally took the life of the oppressor. He couldn't believe himself what had just happened. He was trying to do something to try to stop that individual from oppressing and torturing this, the other man that he was beating literally to death. So he stopped the oppressor and instead end up killing the man. He runs away runs out of Egypt, he's by himself. Now you think that when a man is alone in the middle of the desert, there's a campaign going on in Egypt, one of whom Allah he assembled for a half a year to learn a lesson sort of shoot out on that musala Islam. One of the things that he was afraid of is

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that there was a campaign going looking for him. There were people searching for him. Just imagine they're like these wanted posters all over Egypt Moosa, we need Marcel, where's Moosa? This is the reward. So he knows that there that that's out there, but he's also afraid that it's not accurate. There could be other tales. You know, when a story is juicy, we add more layers and layers and then before you know, it becomes completely false. So mozzarella histogram is thinking about all those things, and he's saying to himself, maybe they don't even know exactly what happened and why it happened. They think I'm a murderer. They think I'm a killer. So he's afraid of that as well. But

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then Allah subhanho wa Taala does something. Honestly guys, like when I read this, I was just amazed I couldn't believe despite how Musa alayhis salaam was feeling. And he's admitting this to Allah. What is a lot tell him his hub, Isla theater around in the hotel, her go to fit around, he's a tyrant. Then Allah continues and here are some of the things that will help us channel that feeling of fear. That that feeling of anxiety and stress in the times that were isolated in our homes, we're distancing ourselves from each other. The first thing Allah subhanho wa Taala, after he orders muesli, someone wants you to go to fit around, go to the men, the most powerful human being at that

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time, and I want you to confront him. Now more so just look at the predicament for a minute, right? He's gonna walk into a palace, and there's a good chance that there is a bunch of security guards fit around guards, the most powerful of men, they have their swords, they have their spears in their hand, and they all know they all have

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orders from their master fun fit around that if Musso takes one footstep, in this palace or in this part of the world, I want him. So musala who sell them, just imagine the dilemma. A lot tells him to do something he goes into scenario now we'll find that he goes into here and I obey, walks into this palace, despite what people are thinking of him, despite the taking the risk that he could be killed before he even reaches fit around. Here's another benefit to that brothers and sisters, there's a good chance that Allah soften the hearts of even the security around Egypt for Musa alayhis salam. Because just think about it. Even common sense would tell you, this is the most wanted man of Egypt,

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yet he was able to walk in and confront the man who has the most security the most guards and tell him, Hey, listen, fit around, you're a tyrant, you're unjust. And you need to stop doing that. I mean, it's just, it's unbelievable. Now we're talking about fear, and it's okay to be scared. Let's continue. I'll let tells him to go and confront your own fine, he does that. But musalla, he said, um, look at how he expresses his fear with a lot. He's scared to do this. So he says parlato beshara. His surgery, or Allah ishiura is suddenly shadow has his poor ants way of teaching us to be calm, lm nasura helical sandarac as a surah, you all know. So when we, when we describe this

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concept, literally we translate at a national level is the degree we open your chest, it's poor man's way of saying, didn't we calm you down? We made you relax, how does a lot do that? He gifted us with the power n. So if you're feeling scared about COVID-19, or any other stress or problems or difficulty in your life, guess what? The first thing you have to do is ask a lot to keep you calm us a lot to keep you relaxed to keep you focused. It is a scary world. And if you haven't learned this in life, you're learning this now. We need each other for survival sake. It's unhealthy, it's abnormal. And I argue it's even impossible for a human being to live alone without any contact with

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people. And so we're seeing this right now, we just been isolated in our homes for what just a few hours of the day, a lot of us are still going out where some of us might still be working, we're still going out to the grocery stores, were going to the doctor, we're still doing regular things. And so this tells you that the sooner of how Allah designed life is that we need each other, we have to look out for one another. And we just need that connection. And that bond. You know, I watched the documentary A long time ago of astronauts that fly out of space to the International Space Center, right. So when they fly out, there was a experiment done a few years ago by one particular

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astronaut and an entire team from the United States, Scott Kelly, who was one of the most famous astronauts in the world. He was part of an experiment where they sent him and a team of other astronauts from Russia and other places to spend one year in space. So one year, they had to be isolated inside the International Space Center, which rotates the entire Earth. I mean, it's only the two or three of them, they're in this massive unit. And they have to sit there for one year, there's no contact with people. I mean, sure you have the Skype, you can look at pictures, you can get emails, you can get videos, and you can talk to everybody back home. But one of the things that

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was interesting about that documentary is that the, the the the narrator said that one of the things that you can never replace, no matter how many avenues of communication you give, no matter what you say, no matter what you do, there is nothing on this planet like human contact. You know, when you want to hug, when you want to sit, you want to see that person, you want to feel their presence, you want to make sure that you have that human connection. When that's not there, it feels like the entire world. You're the only person sitting there. And some of you probably listening to this. You probably feel like you are the only person in the world in your own house, let alone you live with

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your spouse, you live with your kids. But it's those moments of stress and pain that you've harbored within for so long. And you feel like you can't tell your own children. You can tell your own family. As a matter of fact, you can even tell your own parents how you feel. And so you put on this brave smile. You put on this brave act, you show others that you've got everything under control, but really and truly inside

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You're terrified, you're scared, you're lonely, you're sad and you just don't know who to say this to. I want to say to you that it's okay to feel that way. And it's okay to express that. Don't listen to the Muslims out there that tell you things like, why are you crying? You should trust Allah. Yahoo. Why are you doing this? Why you? Why are you so scared? You scared of a loss putter? No man, I'm a human being. That's what it is. I'm just a human being like anybody else. Our Prophet Mohammed sallallahu alayhi wa sallam he was scared to. And there are so many examples. Let me just give you a couple. The first one is when he receives the revelation for the first time jabril

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alehissalaam, captures him, squeezes him and tells him to put a read read. I mean, just that alone, it's pretty aggressive. It's pretty intense. You're sitting on top of a mountain, you're just spending time with yourself, then all of a sudden you feel this pressure on you. You don't know where it's coming from, then all of a sudden, you hear this voice than the sky is covered with the presence of this angel, a creature you've never seen before. It's got hundreds of wings coming at it, and it talks to you. And the only thing it says is not your name. It doesn't introduce itself to you. God didn't say Oh, Mohammed, by the way, before I scare you, just by letting you know I'm

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Djibouti alayhis salam, I'm working with Allah. He doesn't do any of that. He just squeezes the Prophet. It starts with Sam tells him to read. He process them. He's so innocent. Like somehow to lunch. This is something that when you tell kids to do this is how they respond. Well give you tell your kid, okay, try to read this word. They'll tell you, Mommy, Daddy, I don't know how to read. And so the prompts I sell them. It's like this innocent person in him. He doesn't know what else to say except Matt and a bit cloudy. And I don't know what to say. I don't know how to read. And it happens a few times. And you guys know the story. But here's the point. He's so scared by that entire

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experience. What does he do? He runs down the mountain and runs to his wife Heidi God alone on her and he tries to do his best to get some comfort for her to calm him down. And she says xmd and he says to her is MB loonies, MB loonies. MB Looney is MB Looney is the kind of word that you don't really hear that often. Arabs don't use this word very often. xnb Luni comes from the word xnb. And zambelli, literally is one of the names for a plastic bag. So the prophecy Selim is so scared, he's actually telling his wife, wrap me, you know, take your arms and rack me as if you were to put me in a plastic bag and just hold me and hug each other, the loved one, her being the woman that she was

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the strong, strong woman strong in her faith, strong and wisdom and knowledge. She comforts her husband Salalah who it was. So the point is, is this, the prophets I send them was scared. When he heard the thunder and lightning, what did he used to do? He would go outside and stand under the rain and what does he do? He starts making dua to Allah subhanho wa Taala. Why? Because this is one of the things that he was fearful of his life, he was scared of thunder and lightning. I mean, I'm sure a lot of you listening to this, you're probably feeling the same way as well. When you hear thunder and lightning. For me personally, I actually have earplugs. That's how terrified I am of

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thunder and lightning and I plug my ears when I hear it's so terrifying. And so the point is there are several examples in the Sunnah of our Prophet alayhi salaatu wa sallam still being afraid of just day to day things. But here's the point who did he ultimately trust and turn to for strength, for motivation, in order to reinforce that confidence in him that he could get through those difficult times? He never let go of a lot.

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mozzarella, his solemn he says to Allah, O Allah number one, keep me calm will be shortly suddenly keep me relaxed. Because when you're relaxed, you can focus you can see things clearly. And so no matter what level and how much of your issues and struggles you have in your life, always ask Allah to be sure he suddenly this is the door you should memorize if you are listening to this and you don't know this door. This is the only homework the takeaway point that I'm going to ask you to do take away rubbish or any soldering and then number two wire securely Emery then he asks Allah to make this easy for me make this a make this easy for me. So whether it be the the virus, whether it

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be anything else, ask a lot to make it easy for you know why? Because it's not going to become easy based on your efforts. You're going to do what you need to do but ultimately the result the outcome of your efforts. That's that's a less terrible

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Toria you can't do anything about that. I can't do anything about that. So we just have to beg Allah, Allah just make this easy for me. You asked me to do something you asked me to isolate, you asked me to be alone You asked me to confront these problems, were simply Emery up the time me Listen If possible, probably. So musala is also asking a lot to make me fluent, make me when I express myself that I can actually speak to fit around. And I can express myself in a way that he understands me. So a lot of you who are into public speaking or your teachers or speakers and things like that, this is for all of us. I mean, I'm, I'm in public speaking, a lot of you listen to this

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are in that as well. This is for all of us. One of the things that we always ask Allah for is that to untie the knots in our tongue, what that means important is that allow me to be able to flow and my words become fluid. And musalla he said, I'm actually said this not about himself. He said this about his brother in Sudoku puzzles, Sudoku puzzles, Musashi Salaam asked Allah for help. And Allah gave him his brother, he asked for his brother and Allah gave it to him. But musar lays them described his brother held on to Allah and said, Whoa upstyle Mini, he's actually more eloquent and more fluid than I am. So bring him with me because if he's with me, he can do most of the talking.

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But he'll he's not going to be as nervous as I am. He's not going to be afraid as I am. Now, despite all of this all that's happening so far musala stem is confronting federalism is asking a lot of keep him calm. Why? Because he was scared to begin with. So it's a puzzle as captured this. That Musa alayhis salaam, he says Paulo Robbie, in Neil Patel, two men whom left center a half way in the UK to loan me said, Oh Allah, I actually took the life of someone amongst them. And I'm afraid listen to his words, for a half way up to two, I'm afraid that they're gonna do the same thing to me. And then when the campaign went out, Musashi Stein is worried that they got the story all wrong.

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So then he says, for a half way you cut the bone, I'm afraid they're going to tell lies about me. And we know what's amazing.

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Every time Allah tells Mussolini's, to do something, mozzarella is always tells Allah, I need this. I need that I can't do this. I'm scared. I'm nervous. Oh Allah, only you can make this happen. It's like, there wasn't a time where Moosa just went into autopilot that as soon as Allah asked him to do something, he just jumped in and did it because he knew Allah would have his back anyway. So you see what I'm saying? Like every order, he follows it up with all luck. Could you help me? All luck? Could you just keep me calm? Could you keep me relaxed? Allah? Could you give me that power, or law or law or law, even though he knows Allah will give it to him anyways, he still keeps asking a lot.

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This is what Allah loves and what he wants from all of us. Don't stop talking to him. Don't stop asking him for things.

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I saw a post earlier today, somebody posted the can prayer alone cure the covid 19 outbreak. And there was a nice article that was written about like not prayer in and of itself. You have to live the life of somebody who prays. So if you pray, the result of prayer affects everything in your life. So if you're praying correctly, then yes, from that perspective, you can say that prayer will resolve this and anything else in this world. I always say to my students that prayer is the thing that solves things in this world that human beings don't have the ability to solve. Prayer gives cures to things that human beings can't cure. And prayer provides solutions to life that the world

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does not have answers to. That's what solo does. And so with that being said, I'll be sure who sadly, we are silly me when we wrote the Tamil essene, fo Polly so that I can express myself untie the knots of nervousness and stutter from my tongue so that when I'm speaking to around, he'll understand what I'm saying. It doesn't end there. Because then musalla is Salaam now ask Allah for help. And this is the final thing that I'm going to leave you guys with in sha Allah, when you're scared. You have this connection with a law that's that hasn't been disrupted. And let's just say that that connection is there. You pray you fast you do everything that Islam asks of you, but

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you're still afraid. still nervous. As a matter of fact, even when you're praying, you're still like in fear. You're scared, you might be crying, just because like your insula, and it's still having that effect on you. So this is for you. While john Lee was here on early held on early mozzarella, his seller asks Allah for help, what kind of help not just

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from Allah, He asks a luck and somebody come with me well generally was zero mean, and he could you get somebody to follow me for my family. So what does this tell you? The first place you go to, for support for friendship, for companionship is you go to your family, they're the people that by default will always be there for you. And I get it, I know that there are bad families out there. Maybe the circle that you come from may not be the most ideal. I get that. But the point is, is when Allah subhanaw taala says, Haley, what do you even consider as family to you? Who are your close friends and relatives? Who are the people that you trust? Okay, go to them. And so musala is, what

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we get from this is that he doesn't confront fear by himself. But he does this with people around him with people that are closest to him that he can trust. And he actually tells a lot, which it was zero mean, and he held on how long my brother could he come with me. And so I'll give him that. And then Allah tells him later on fat Tia, both of you go to fit on 30th or flop hula. And both of you say to him, Colin, Lina

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Subhana Allah, then Allah tells him when you go and confront fear around, be nice to him. Yeah, the man that's killing babies, that's killing women and children, go up to MySpace. I know it's tempting, what you might want to do, but don't do anything. Just be nice to him. But cooler, Lahore Cola, Lina. Lina means the chi. Don't just be nice to him, like you say, Hello, fit around. I hope you die. None of those things. Lay in a means that you be nice to him in every single sentence and every single word you use. So everything has to be nice, not just your introduction, not just your hello and goodbyes have to be nice. But everything in between, you're threatening and cursing the

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person. No, lay in it from the beginning to end just be nice. In other words, a Lessing, stay calm and just handle this properly. And so with that being said, brothers and sisters, let's put all of this together and then I'm done.

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Being afraid is okay, we've established that from the Prophet Mohammed Ali salt was salam to Musa alayhis salam, and all of the prophets and messengers, same thing. It's okay. Number two, how do you channel that fear? How you channel that emotion is crucial. That is what is most important. And what do you do the first thing, don't ever lose hope with a love, don't lose the connection with him. When you don't have a lot in your life, then everything in the world will frighten you and scare you, you will never develop the courage to overcome what might appear to be the worst of the worst in this world. That's what having Allah does to you. It gives you confidence to see something to see

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strength where everyone else is blind to it. You know, a long time ago, one of my friends, you know, we were looking out on a river. And me I'm terrified of a river. Like I can't go swimming in a lake or a river. I just that's just me, I just can't do it. I have a problem with if I can't see the bottom of an ocean or lake, I don't want to go into it. But one of my friends was looking out on the window and the sun was piercing down on the onto the ocean. And you know that when the sun is piercing down, you could when you look at the ocean, it kind of looks like it's there sparkles on the ocean. And that's just a reflection from the sun. So I'm just seeing this terrified ocean in my

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brain. I'm like, man, if this if there was a tsunami here right now, we'd all be done. Like this river is just so massive. That you know what he saw. He saw when he looked at the sparkles, the glitter on the waves. He saw Muslims. And you know what he said to me? He said, where the Muslim? You know, those sparkles that sheen that you see over the ocean? That's us. That's Muslims. And I'm looking at him and I'm like, What do you mean? And he said, around all of those sparkles. It's the dark ocean. You said the Muslims are the sparkles and the rest of the world are the dark ocean sun like, okay, you said that no matter how much the world tries to bury the oneness of Allah, ie Islam.

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No matter how much the world tries to distort the message of Allah, or to bury and eliminate and erase the message of a lot. We still continue to shine. We still find a way through the cracks and people will see the beauty. So that shining is that spark that glitter. It's there and it will never disappear because that's a lost promise. It'll be there forever. And I thought to myself, men, when you're scared or you're afraid

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Or you're confused, you definitely become lost. And you could you almost become somewhat emotionally blind to certain things that can actually change your life. And so with that being said, we talked about being calm, and musalla, he seldom asks a lot for that all of these things are still keeping him connected. But then the final point is help support people. So those of you who might be feeling scared, and you know, especially in these times, it's okay, reach out to people reach out to friends, and just talk. And those of you who probably don't have that problem, but you might be in a position to listen to hear people's confusions and issues, you have no idea how how much of an

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effect that could have for somebody to just be given the opportunity to unload a little bit of that emotion, you have no idea how you could change their life. And you could actually be the reason why that person will never be afraid again, or at least not be afraid of that moment. And so in the midst of COVID-19, I will be the first to admit to you that there is a part of me that is scared. You know, I went to my Masjid earlier today at the Islamic Institute of Toronto. And for the first time ever since I've been there, for the first time in my life. I drove up to go into the the parking lot, but the gate was closed. I didn't even know what to do. I just I stopped at the side of

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the road. And I just parked there and I started messaging like board members, I start messaging different people, employees of the message, I'm like, What do I do? How do I even get in. And then eventually I got in. But it was just such a surreal, weird feeling to walk into a building that you're accustomed to see full. And kids and people of community, everybody's just walking around doing different things. It's just a live, all of that was extinguished, all of that was gone. And it was a move for a moment. For me it was a bit frightening. And I just couldn't like the more at one point I couldn't even imagine what does this place look like when it's full and when it's active?

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It's almost as if I was forgetting that. And so there was a part of me that felt scared but felt fear. But once you have Allah

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once you pray, once you keep that connection, once you stay in contact with people, you talk to them, you unload, you share experiences and feelings once you have that Sharla you'll be okay. We need each other to strengthen and support one another. No human being can live on earth by themselves. And so with that being said, I pray that Allah subhanho wa Taala gets us through together through this difficult time. gets us through it with patience with strength and support long I mean that's all I want to say guys. Man it's a panel A lot of you have been I don't know what you're doing it looks like a wave or something that's all new to me. Sorry, guys. I'm I don't have

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the skills when it comes to this whole life thing. I don't really do this as much anymore. But since I'm home most of the day, I have a lot of time when my I have my hands. Some of you have messaged me asking me what do I do? What how I've been spending my time at home. For me personally, I've got my books, I've been doing a lot of work that I had left behind. So I'm preparing a lot of different things, some brand new programs and courses, I still keep up with my studying. Because Ramadan is around the corner, I spend a portion of my morning just reviewing, I'm kind of thinking about doing total week this year in sha Allah. So I'll keep you posted if any of you are interested in that,

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where and where I'll be doing that. So I'm preparing myself for that as well. And other than that, other than those two things, when I'm not praying and we're not studying what I'm not reciting and reviewing, I'm just enjoying my time with my family guys, it's really as simple as that. Try to spend time with the kids and do whatever it is that we can at home and just spend time and enjoy every single moment with family. So I hope that you all are doing something similar. Enjoy the time that we have with one another. And only Allah subhanho wa Taala knows will meditate at nefs will be a Nintendo donya Allah subhanho wa Taala knows that you and I we don't have a clue when our last

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moment on this earth will be. So we pray that Allah subhana wa Taala puts about okay in our time with spot okay in our life. May Allah subhanho wa Taala cure this plague that has befallen the entire globe, anybody and everyone who is afflicted by it. May Allah subhanho wa Taala protect them and cure them alone. I mean, I also want to take a moment to acknowledge and pray for those individuals that are on the front line with respect to this outbreak, the doctors, the nurses, you know today, I think

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got a call from a nurse from one of the health clinics nearby my house. I actually called them about a week ago, because I thought I had symptoms of the virus, I was coughing, I felt a headache, I felt weak and started to become fatigued. So at one point, I actually thought that I had it so it called the health line. Nobody answered, I left a message. And about five or six days later today, they called back and I just set it I was like, Listen, you can call me back anytime. I'm just glad that you did. I can't imagine how busy you are. And so panela this, this nurse on the phone, it's as if she started to become emotional, I could hear her voice shake over the phone of just when I when I

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mentioned to her that you guys are overwhelmed and and actually said to her look, I just want to pray that God keeps you safe and healthy, you and everybody else. And it's almost as if she became emotional and she just kept saying, Thank you so much. That means so much to me. That means so much to all of us. We really need that. Thank you. Thank you, thank you. Then of course, she reassured me that Alhamdulillah guys I don't have the virus I don't have the system, the symptoms. Now lucky makes me my family safe May Allah keep all of you safe from that as well. But it was just a precaution I wanted to make sure so I got that today. It was just I wanted to pray and an Eskimo

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subhanho wa Taala to keep them strong, keep them safe and keep them healthy. They are in the frontlines when it comes to this outbreak. So May Allah village will protect all of them. And you and I that's all I want to say guys in sha Allah if you have any questions then by all means, just send them out to me. I'm going to try to do this a little bit more because they let eternal Okay guys, so take care I'm starving so I'm gonna go eat just echo ohana. We'll do this again soon inshallah. So Mr Alaykum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh