I Left My Heart in Gaza

Haifaa Younis

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The speaker discusses their experiences with COVID-19 and the need for everyone to think differently. They talk about hospital visits, the importance of learning and communicating with others, and the need for everyone to be aware of negative consequences. They also discuss the need for everyone to think differently and not let anyone convince them to do anything they can do.

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Zakmallahu alaihi everyone for coming. Apology for the

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delay because I prayed at home actually. So

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InshaAllah next week we'll do tata'i so everybody

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can pray

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comfortably.

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So you know the subject,

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and honestly I know what I'm gonna say.

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It's

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there's no words to describe what I saw

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and lived.

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It was 8 days

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in Gaza itself,

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and it was 2 days of travel. One

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day took to arrive,

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and was one day they moved us, and

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there you don't argue

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at all.

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Whatever they tell you, you do. Just to

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give you an example,

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we were in Deir el Balah, the,

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Mustash Fashuhada Al Aqsa, the Martyrs of Al

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Aqsa. It's the only

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still functioning, if you wanna use this word,

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in the middle of Gaza. Because Gaza, there

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is 3 parts. There's the north where Gaza

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city, and there is the middle which is

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there, Balah, and then there's the south which

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is Rafah, which now everyone is talking about.

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We ended up also in Rafah one day.

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So

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the,

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what I saw from the day we arrived

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in the border to the trip,

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And just to give you an idea, we

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arrived 1 hour before

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the World Kitchen

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car,

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and they took exactly the same road we

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took. We arrived at 8 o'clock to the

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hospital. They brought them dead at 9 o'clock

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to the same hospital.

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It's

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the thing I'm I'm gonna try the reason

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I'm I'm speaking about it, and I'm gonna

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speak about it in Dallas, and Sunday we

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have a program with the 2,

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the physician and the nurse who went with

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me from SoCal.

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It's not only to make you feel sad.

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Sad is not the word. There is no

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word to describe the feelings.

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What you are seeing is nothing.

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Whatever is on the social media is nothing.

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And when I say nothing I mean it

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because I lived it.

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What I want you all to do is

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2 things, and this is the main, actually

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three things because I asked everybody there what

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do you want from us?

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What do you think they said?

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Speak about it and tell people that we

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exist

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and that we are not leaving

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and this is our land.

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It's everyone.

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I spoke,

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can share with you because and then inshallah

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on Sunday we have presentation. We're gonna put

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pictures and and videos.

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First thing I wanna tell everybody is when

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you want something Allah will give it to

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you. From the day I heard that there

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is groups going

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to ghazah as physicians, I wanted to go,

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and I can't tell you how many applications

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I filled.

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No one answered.

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And I was like, subhanAllah, you Allah, you

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don't want me to go. There is a

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reason.

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And then just the second day of Ramadan

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as I was flying to,

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Jeddah, a friend of mine said fill this

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application. So I filled it, and I thought

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this is gonna happen. 10 days I didn't

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hear from them.

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I was like, SubhanAllah,

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again you Allah, you don't want me to

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go. And I hear people going and coming

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back. I have friends who went.

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And then finally SubhanAllah made me remember. This

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is why I want I'm sharing this story

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with you.

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He made me remember. There was a post

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on a group I am with Physician,

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maybe 3 weeks before I remembered, that there

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is a physician who went there, they put

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her picture, and she was saying all these

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things, and they put her phone number in

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that group.

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I just texted her

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and I said,

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Is there a group going? I want to

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go.

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And she said, Oh, hey, Fayounis.

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You really wanna go?

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And I said, Yeah. I do.

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She said, Okay.

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I can take you on 15th this week.

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Now a group already left. I said, I

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can't. I only have the last 10 days

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of Ramadan because that's the only time I

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take vacation. I have to be back on

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15th for work.

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And she says, I don't know. We have

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to do there's a lot of approvals.

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It's not like you just decide and you

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go. She said, you know what, I'm gonna

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apply, we're gonna have to have approval from

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1 and 2 and 3 and 4,

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and even when you get to Egypt put

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in your mind that you may end up

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not getting to Egypt or you will not

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get to Gaza. There's nothing guaranteed. They keep

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reminding you. There's nothing guaranteed.

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And I said fine, I'll do it.

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So I fly with Lilah Alhamd, arrived in

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Egypt with Lilah Alhamd. Next morning we left

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the hotel at 4 AM. There's

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stations they have to make sure you are

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checking a lot of issues.

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We ended up in the hospital at 8

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PM.

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The journey took about 14 hours, and we

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were wali lah alhamd, all of us were

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fasting.

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That journey, other than it's long, wasn't an

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issue. You haven't seen anything yet.

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Before we left, they said

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expect nothing. This is actually the message we

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were getting. There's no food.

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Literally. They said there's no food.

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Bring with you whatever dry you can eat.

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So we all packed protein bars.

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And then take something to make the water

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healthy to drink. So the it's like capsules.

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So that's what we packed. And then they

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said anything else you can bring,

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that you give it to people.

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And that's what everybody did.

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So we arrived at 8 o'clock, 8 PM.

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It was dark. There's no electricity for 6

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months.

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Since

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October 7th, there's no electricity in that part

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of the world,

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and the reason the hospital has because there

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is a generator.

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So we entered, we couldn't see much because

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it was dark. They took us to a

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building which was the hospital administration,

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and we get there exactly 8 PM. What

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were they doing?

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Absolutely.

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In JAMA'a.

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We dropped our bags because no one welcomed

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us.

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We dropped our bags, and we joined the

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jama'. So they did Isha. Right? And they

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did all Taraweeh.

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And every rukkah in Taraweeh, I had no

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idea who was leading, but everybody was reading

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better than the other. They changed. Then I

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came to know who they are. Every Iuka,

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they get they are 2 or 3 aya.

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They didn't do it too long. You can't

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because there is noise on top. I didn't

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know what it is. There's a constant noise

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above us.

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Every verse in the Quran that talks about

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patient,

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steadfasting,

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Jannah you heard it.

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Amazing.

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Amazing shirk, amazing knowledge,

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and I was like overwhelmed.

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And everybody in scrubs.

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So it turned to be the

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the,

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director of the hospital, the director of the

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nursing, all the big people in the hospital

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were the leaders.

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Room, alhamdulillahrubang.

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I mean the room

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this is a palace.

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This is a palace to what I saw.

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And he welcomed us and said, I'm sure

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you all are hungry. Of course we're hungry.

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We had only dates,

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and it's from above. He said, okay. We

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prepared Istar for you in your rooms.

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Me and you, Istar in the room. And

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I have pictures. We're gonna show it to

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you on Sunday.

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And he said, we're not gonna I'm sure

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you're all very tired. They get

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gave us dates and a coffee, which is

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something is like you pay $1,000,000 to get,

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said let's go on rest and tomorrow we

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will take

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you and we'll start the work. Okay? So

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go to the room.

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What is the room?

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I have pictures of it. Me and it

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was me and another physician from DC and

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then then the man. So they put us

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in the

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room. You have 2 options:

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either you sleep or you sleep because you're

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exhausted.

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And then they knocked on the door after

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and they said the iftar,

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and the iftar was 1 can of hummus

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and 1 can

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of beans,

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and because it is us they got us

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bread.

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So of course we're hungry, so I ate.

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Spent the whole night throwing up.

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Yeah. The spoiled woman coming from America.

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That's the whole who we are.

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That's who we are. I'm sharing the reality

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with you. And then alhamdulillah,

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we woke up in the morning, right? Don't

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ask me about the bathroom. Don't ask me.

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Next door opened and a woman comes out,

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literally next door,

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dressed of course I didn't see a hair

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in the 10 days.

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Allah is my witness.

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I did not see any woman not covered,

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covered properly.

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I didn't see jeans.

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I didn't see anything. If anything there were

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scrubs of the hospital, on top of it

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is the white coat. So the woman opened

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the door welcoming us, and she says me

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me this and this. I'm actually a surgeon,

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but I'm displaced from the north for the

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last 6 months,

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and I'm living in this room.

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The room is

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a little bit bigger than where I am

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sitting. Half of it is stuff, we don't

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know what it is, she and her son.

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Where is your husband and the rest of

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the family? They stayed in the north, they

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didn't wanna leave the house. Do you still

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in contact? She said, Yeah, sometimes we do,

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sometimes we are. Smiling surgeon.

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And she said, Welcome to Azza, hamdullilah, rubbile.

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Next day they took us to the tour

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and here we start.

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How many of you are physicians here in

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this room?

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How many have been in hospitals

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for whatever there is? Right? Normally, when you

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enter a hospital, what do you see?

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Right? There's usually an entrance, a parking place.

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Right? No.

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And there is some maybe maybe grass, maybe

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flowers, cleanliness, and then there's the main entrance

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of the hospital. There's usually corridors, right?

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No.

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Not in Gaza.

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It was all tense

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from the door open

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up till I get to the there's 2

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main buildings. 1 is the ER and the

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hospital, and the second building was used to

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be the maternity hospital. They changed it completely,

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the trauma

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center. It's like this and this. From here,

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this is the gate, from here to here,

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it's all tense.

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Sometimes you say please excuse me, I need

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to move.

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All these people are human beings like you

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and me,

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and they are living in these tents.

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Then you enter,

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and on my left, and I see this

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simple mattress

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on the floor, and there's a woman in

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her fifties.

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I paid attention. I was like, literally on

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the door, like on the door. I didn't

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speak to her that day yet. So we

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went and they start showing us the hospital.

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What do I see? I have actually a

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video of it. When you get to the

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second floor, because that's where we are gonna

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be mainly working,

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you start seeing the hospital beds.

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And what is on these hospital beds?

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Every injured person.

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Most of them have no limbs.

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The target is on the legs and the

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hands.

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And doctor Jawadi will he will there is

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pictures. I said don't put it. This is

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too graphic.

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But most of the young men, the target

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is toward their legs.

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It's amazing cruelty.

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Amazing cruelty, SubhanAllah.

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And you turn on the right, you see

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this, you turn on the left, you see

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this. Then we go and says this is

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the place for the children. Where is the

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children?

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Then you go to the NICU. The only

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clean place was the NICU. She said those

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were from before

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we closed the maternity and it was looking

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okay, alhamdulillah.

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Then they said let's go to the ER,

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and they said

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I'm an OBGYN so should the OBGYN hospital

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is about 15 minutes from here but we

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don't think it's safe for you to go

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there so we'll keep you in the hospital

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and any emergency comes to the ER you'll

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take care of it. I said okay, whatever

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you say I'll do, I'm here to help

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any way you you see me,

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so go to the ER.

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That scene

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I I I have never seen. So to

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get to the ER,

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this is the building you have to go

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through. This is all tents. You have to

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go through a like a corridor.

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The corridor on the right, on the left,

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people on the floor. It's like you are

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sitting.

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I don't know if these are displaced. I

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don't know if these are family. I don't

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know if these are patients. I have no

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idea who these people are.

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Every age you see

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a lot of women, a lot of children,

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but also you see much less older people

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and definitely much less younger men.

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Then you enter, and this was supposed to

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be the ER.

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Literally, like you are now, if I want

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to walk, I have to say please excuse

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me, please excuse me.

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People are moaning,

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people are bleeding,

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pea it's beyond.

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Then they took us to they said the

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ER, they took us to the

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head of the ER department. His room is

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smaller than this. I don't know how the

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man is functioning,

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honestly.

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All these people who are head of departments

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in that hospital,

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they have not gone to their home, slept

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in their home since October 7.

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Everybody, everyone was telling me, especially in Ramadan,

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we may go for 2 weeks for 2

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hours, break the fast and come back. Don't

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tell me shower.

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Don't tell me shower. There's no water.

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We were lucky because we were in a

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hospital.

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I don't know what they did, but everybody

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was clean, at least the people who are

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working in the hospital.

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So we go in there, and they said

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that he was

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explaining to us that the ER is divided

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now because of this into 3 parts, green,

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yellow, and red. The green is is like

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outpatient, yellow is less serious, and the

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red is the ICU. The ICU, I went

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there, again I have a picture of it,

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and look at me, I was like, okay.

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There's a patient vaginal bleeding. Can you give

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me a glove? They look at me.

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They do.

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And normally here, you say size small

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or medium or large, and I need a

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sterile glove. Nothing was there.

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Whatever they give you, take it. Large. I

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said give it to me.

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There's nothing under the bed of this woman.

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Nothing. There's no sheet.

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It's it's it's I can't tell you. So

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I examined her, and hamdu liaribulani,

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and the family was with her, it wasn't

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something serious. As I was examining her next,

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like a curtain, next they just brought somebody

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who was because the norm is they bring

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people who are, being bombed, shell, you name

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it. So they brought, I don't know, but

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I'm hearing the person with her, she was

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I think a young girl,

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the one with her the one the the

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girl was like not shouting, but she was

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crying, she was in pain. The person next

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to her was reading to her Quran and

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says this is not what we do when

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we are in pain. This is what we

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do when we are in pain.

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Wahidillah. This is you keep hearing this, and

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the real Muslims you hear them. Wahidillah, Sayla

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ilaha illa Allah, and he reads Quran to

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her, subhanAllah. Then I met the first physician

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who I spoke to, who I posted yesterday

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on the social media. He's an orthopedic resident,

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highly highly educated,

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and when you literally you can sit with

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this young man for hours speaking.

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And I said, what do you feel?

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I asked him actually.

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We are in a survival mode.

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We don't have a time to cry for

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the people we lost.

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You know when you hear this,

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like like look at your faces, imagine I'm

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hearing this,

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and in front of me and I see

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around me blood everywhere,

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injured everywhere.

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And then he said,

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and I kept asking people,

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if you go back to the October 7,

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do you want it to be different? Majority

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said no.

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You would be so surprised.

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They said because somebody has to do something.

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Someone has to remind people we exist.

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Someone has to people who are in jail

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and in an open jail.

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Yes. We were living okay. We're living in

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good,

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good, not by my and your standard. And

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when there was food, there was family, there

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was relatively

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peace.

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But somebody has to know that this part

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of earth

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belongs to us, and they need to know

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we exist.

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SubhanAllah.

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They took me and I said, took take

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me to see more people. So there was

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one of the representatives in the hospital, he

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said, you want to go to a camp?

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And I said, yes, take me out. We

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cannot move a lot so we have to

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go just by walking.

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So I walked and maybe less less than

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5 minutes, like, from this building to the

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next building.

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In the street,

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there is no services in that part of

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the world.

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Garbage is on the street.

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And this is all planned.

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This is all

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the plan is to make it inhabitable

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so they leave,

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and they don't wanna leave.

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Everyone looks at me and says go where?

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They told us go to the to the

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south. They told us leave the north, you

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will be safe. Here we are, and we

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are not safe. And we're gonna go to

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the south, and we are not safe. Where

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do we go?

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And somebody like Sarkis says, yeah, you can

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go to Egypt. You go to Egypt, do

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what?

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So they're staying. They said that's it. We

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will die. We will die. People have to

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die for a cause, and we're all gonna

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die. This is how they speak.

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Then I had this woman, so I I

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said, get I need to talk to to

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people

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who were in the they did not let

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us go to the north. Absolutely.

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As I said, Gaza is north, middle, and

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the south is Rafah,

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middle where we were, and the north is

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where the beginning of the war. A Shefa

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hospital, you all have heard about it. Right?

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So this woman said, I lived in she

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was giving us all the it's a long

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video, and we're trying to translate and then

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I will post the idmilyah. So a young

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woman came to me, she's probably not 40,

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So eloquent, and this is the amazing thing.

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They all speak very well.

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They speak eloquent,

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And and I said, tell me your story.

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And she said, well, we lived in a

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in the north, and she gave me the

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place, which turned to be a very good

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neighborhood.

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And then they dropped on us papers, says

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leave,

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and they sometimes give them 2 minutes

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only.

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And I asked one of them, what do

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you take in these 2 minutes?

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She said whatever we can grab because we

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cannot go heavy because we are walking. So

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normally we go out with one bag. Imagine

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this is you and me in the house

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and someone says, leave. What are you gonna

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take with you?

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So I I said okay. So she said

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we left

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from our home

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and we went that's from October 7. Then

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we went to they said go to this

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place. We went stayed there for 2 months.

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I said, okay. And then and she said,

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the bombing start, and they said move.

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So we moved. She, 4 of her kids,

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and the husband. I said, Where did you

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go? She said, A friend who's Christian and

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he is living in the church. He said,

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Use my house.

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So we stayed in the house.

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2 months.

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And says well okay in the beginning, by

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the last 10 days, she start we start

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hearing they know every artillery,

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every war machine. They know the name and

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they know how it sounds.

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She said we start seeing and hearing

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the tanks,

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and they are calling in Arabic and sometimes

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in broken Arabic, leave.

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And she says where do we go?

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Where do we go?

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Right? This is a very educated woman. I

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mean she captured my attention for about 10

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minutes when she's saying her story.

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She said we stayed because and then she

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said I responded, we are civilians.

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I we are not Hamas. We are not

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Fatiha. We are civilians.

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And she says they start

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bombing

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everywhere. She kept looking at me, she says

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I don't know how I'm alive and talking

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to you.

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Everywhere they have certain

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machines or certain technology where they can know

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there is a living blood,

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moving blood, so they know the person is

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alive.

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And she says, you see it on top,

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we go down. They go down, we go

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up. I know I am alive in me

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and my

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family.

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And then all where we were, the house

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of the Christian man is all done except

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2 walls.

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Then they came.

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They came to her and they said, They

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separate us.

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They put them, my husband and her son,

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19 year old,

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and

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the girls on the side.

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They stripped the

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husband and the son in front of the

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family.

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And then they you know the pictures you

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saw?

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And then they put band band on their

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eyes

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and they took them. Before they took them,

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they looked at

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her and says you go south.

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And then she was very smart.

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She took her daughter,

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she walked,

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and then she said

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to her daughter so her husband knows where

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they are going because she said once if

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he's gonna be alive, and they will let

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him go, he needs to know where are

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we.

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She said, 2, 3 days before this I

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heard that people are going to the hospital

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where we are, so I decide I'm gonna

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go to that hospital. So looked at her

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daughter and says, we're going to the hospital,

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and she put the name of the hospital,

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so the husband knows. Said he kicked me,

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the the soldier. He knew what she was

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doing.

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For 9 days, this woman, she said, we

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didn't eat.

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I I I don't know how they survived

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it.

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Other than, she said, the only thing was

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in that house, sugar cubes

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and a little bit of water.

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So whenever the children are hungry, I give

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them little bit of sugar cubes.

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Then we had to leave because they told

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us leave.

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And he kept she kept saying, now when

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you go to Gaza, Gaza is on the

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sea,

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So here you go, it's we walked it

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actually but not from the north. It's a

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seashore, you walk.

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And then in here because of the war

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they put like

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all sand,

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small like hills,

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and she said, the soldiers were on the

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hill,

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and they

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asked us to walk after 8 PM,

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so cold, and we were all bare footed.

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And I said, how much you walked? She

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said, 10 kilos.

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It's like more than 5 miles.

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So at one point, that young man young

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boy, his name is Mu'min, 12 years old,

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he said, I can't go anymore. I'm starving.

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He ran to the soldier

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and he spoke to him in Hebrew and

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says I'm hungry.

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Allah saved them, these people. I mean, he

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easily can

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would have killed him.

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The the soldier gave him, she said, like

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a piece of cookie this size and a

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little bit of water.

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So when she saw her son up, she

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said, I went up and I said, you

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Allah, you save me, because all the soldiers

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are up. She went up.

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When the son was there,

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next to them were tank,

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and the tank was open. The sun

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jumped on the tank tank, wanted to see

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what's inside the tank.

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Wow.

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I looked at him and says, Rui said,

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yeah. I wanted to see. What are they

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gonna do to me? This is how they

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talk to you. What are they gonna do

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to me? They're gonna kill me. They are

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scared for me. This is how they answer,

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12 year old. And he said, I looked

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down,

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and the soldier in the tank pushed back.

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He was scared.

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And his mom grabbed

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him and took him. She said, when we

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went down, walked

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till we reached about 10, 15 minutes

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from the hospital, and then the hospital because

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they know that there's an area where all

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the displays they call the they come and

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they pick her

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up. Now what is the the amazing part

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of the story is not what I told

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you.

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It's what she told me at the end.

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She looked at me and she said,

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you know what?

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This life is nothing.

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I never lived

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even before this for this life.

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I lived for jannah.

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Allah, I have it

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recorded,

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and I wanna go to Jannah. This life

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is gonna end.

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Today, tomorrow this is how she was talking

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to me. Today,

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tomorrow,

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we all are going, and that's why we

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sleep with our hijab.

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And I said, why? She said, so when

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we are dead, we are covered.

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She even looked at me and she started

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reciting the Luqa.

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I was like,

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what is this?

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What is this? Then I looked at the

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boy

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and I said, weren't you scared from the

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soldier? No. You didn't know Qur'ania?

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I know 4 Azza.

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And he starts reciting for me.

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Then I went back to this woman who

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really

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stayed in my mind. Why did we pray

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tara wihantahajjud,

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and who was the imam?

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The call room

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is where sleeping,

00:27:01--> 00:27:03

there's a court there's like an opening before

00:27:03--> 00:27:05

you get to their room. Don't ask me

00:27:05--> 00:27:06

how clean and not clean that's not the

00:27:06--> 00:27:07

issue.

00:27:08--> 00:27:10

We pray there. We pray tahajjud

00:27:11--> 00:27:12

from 1 to 3

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because we kept saying what is this? What

00:27:33--> 00:27:35

is this? Oh, alhamdulillah, you're hearing it.

00:27:36--> 00:27:38

There's no bombing. Get scared when you don't

00:27:38--> 00:27:39

hear it.

00:27:40--> 00:27:43

So the the the Abdullah, his name,

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and I thought he was he was like

00:27:45--> 00:27:47

a nurse or a physician in the hospital.

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Last day I spoke to him, He said,

00:27:48--> 00:27:51

no. I'm displaced. I just moved from the

00:27:51--> 00:27:53

north. I've been living in this room.

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I don't know since when?

00:27:55--> 00:27:56

And Abdulla Haafil?

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And I said, Abdulla,

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you're half he's like 22, 23

00:28:00--> 00:28:00

alone.

00:28:01--> 00:28:03

Where is the family? Don't ask me.

00:28:03--> 00:28:04

And I said, you're Haafil.

00:28:05--> 00:28:07

Look what he said to me. He said,

00:28:07--> 00:28:10

I'm not half old. I'm from a Safwa.

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Safwa,

00:28:13--> 00:28:14

the special,

00:28:14--> 00:28:15

the chosen.

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And I said, what does that mean?

00:28:19--> 00:28:20

He said, In Gaza,

00:28:22--> 00:28:23

we have this tradition.

00:28:24--> 00:28:26

When people finish memorizing the Quran,

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there's couple, this group

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who

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then once once you do this they will

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call you a halfwolf, and I said you

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do what? He said you recite the whole

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Quran

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in one sitting.

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In one sitting.

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And I said, really? He said, yeah. The

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norm

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is 8 to 2 PM.

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And I said how about you? He said

00:28:53--> 00:28:55

I was a little bit longer because I

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just made a little bit of mistakes.

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And I said, and how long was that?

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He said 8 to 4.

00:29:03--> 00:29:04

That, Abdullah,

00:29:05--> 00:29:08

every night he did tahajjud for us from

00:29:08--> 00:29:09

1 to 3.

00:29:12--> 00:29:13

Perfect recitation.

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Beautiful talk about the du'a.

00:29:16--> 00:29:19

I normally normally I don't feel much when

00:29:19--> 00:29:21

other people are making du'a because I wanna

00:29:21--> 00:29:23

I want to talk to Allah Subhanahu Wa

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Ta'ala except with this man.

00:29:26--> 00:29:28

You Allah, when he was making dua for

00:29:28--> 00:29:29

Allah to lift this,

00:29:30--> 00:29:32

You Allah suborna, he used to say, You

00:29:32--> 00:29:33

Allah, give us patience.

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Give us patience till your victory comes in.

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Look at the dua.

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Give us patience till our your victory comes

00:29:40--> 00:29:41

in.

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Long.

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Who did we meet in one of the

00:29:44--> 00:29:47

nights? Can't remember which night was it.

00:29:48--> 00:29:49

It was 2 AM.

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Suddenly, because we are in the back, only

00:29:52--> 00:29:53

me and the other physician,

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and a young boy, 13 year old, comes

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in 2 AM,

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alone,

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Join the Taraweeh.

00:30:02--> 00:30:02

12 year,

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13.

00:30:04--> 00:30:04

12, 13.

00:30:05--> 00:30:07

They act like 30, if not 40,

00:30:07--> 00:30:09

of the men here.

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Finish the turuka at Abdullah. He looked at

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him. The young boy went to him. Now

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we then we understood he wanted to lead,

00:30:19--> 00:30:20

and Abdullah allowed him to lead.

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He led.

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Tarawish turqar, bleeding, amazing.

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Finished.

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He was so confident, and this is under

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between bombing and drones. Don't forget that. This

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is the background for 10 days.

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And then he started doing an ashid about

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Palestine,

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the love of Palestine.

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I don't remember because we were all crying.

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Who was that boy?

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It was a boy on social media. I'm

00:30:50--> 00:30:53

sure you've all seen his video. They were

00:30:53--> 00:30:56

doing cast for his arm, and he was

00:30:56--> 00:30:57

reciting Quran.

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Have you seen it?

00:30:59--> 00:31:00

That was the boy.

00:31:01--> 00:31:02

Where is his family?

00:31:03--> 00:31:04

All gone.

00:31:06--> 00:31:07

They divide

00:31:08--> 00:31:10

the casualties or the lib the survivors

00:31:11--> 00:31:13

there into 3 categories,

00:31:14--> 00:31:15

and they even have,

00:31:16--> 00:31:20

like, letters for them. The first category

00:31:21--> 00:31:22

is single

00:31:23--> 00:31:23

children

00:31:24--> 00:31:25

with no living parents

00:31:28--> 00:31:28

Alone.

00:31:29--> 00:31:30

The child is alone,

00:31:31--> 00:31:33

and you talk about 11 or 12.

00:31:34--> 00:31:36

We saw 1 they put his video recently

00:31:36--> 00:31:37

on

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who was

00:31:39--> 00:31:40

I I talked to him. I think he

00:31:40--> 00:31:43

told me either 10 9 or 10.

00:31:43--> 00:31:45

He was wearing scrubs.

00:31:47--> 00:31:48

Did you see that video?

00:31:49--> 00:31:50

And I and I joked with him and

00:31:50--> 00:31:53

I was like oh, Masha'Allah, the young physician,

00:31:53--> 00:31:54

he looked at me, yeah, I'm gonna be

00:31:54--> 00:31:56

an orthopedic surgeon in Arabic.

00:31:57--> 00:31:57

Alone.

00:31:58--> 00:31:59

Lost everyone.

00:32:00--> 00:32:02

Living in this hospital. What does he do?

00:32:02--> 00:32:03

He pushed the

00:32:03--> 00:32:04

patient's

00:32:04--> 00:32:05

beds to the OR.

00:32:07--> 00:32:09

Where does he sleep? What does he eat?

00:32:09--> 00:32:12

What shower he takes? If there is something

00:32:12--> 00:32:14

called shower, what about the feelings, what about

00:32:14--> 00:32:17

the anxiety, don't talk about these things. These

00:32:17--> 00:32:17

are luxury.

00:32:19--> 00:32:19

SubhanAllah.

00:32:20--> 00:32:21

The day

00:32:22--> 00:32:23

that the World Kitchen

00:32:24--> 00:32:26

you all heard about it.

00:32:26--> 00:32:28

So Monday Tuesday there was no food.

00:32:29--> 00:32:31

From where where our room was, there was

00:32:31--> 00:32:33

a window. I can look and I see

00:32:33--> 00:32:34

the street,

00:32:35--> 00:32:36

and the norm mode of transportation

00:32:37--> 00:32:37

is what?

00:32:39--> 00:32:40

A BMW. Right?

00:32:42--> 00:32:43

It's usually

00:32:44--> 00:32:46

usually it's a donkey,

00:32:46--> 00:32:47

and the donkey

00:32:48--> 00:32:51

either alone or the donkey is pulling a

00:32:51--> 00:32:52

carriage.

00:32:52--> 00:32:53

The donkey itself

00:32:54--> 00:32:55

needs to retire.

00:32:58--> 00:33:01

Old, probably not fed, definitely not clean. So

00:33:01--> 00:33:04

I used to see, especially before iftar,

00:33:04--> 00:33:06

and you see one shop it's not a

00:33:06--> 00:33:08

shop, it's one place at the door of

00:33:08--> 00:33:10

the hospital where they

00:33:10--> 00:33:12

present what they have.

00:33:14--> 00:33:15

And one day my friend

00:33:16--> 00:33:17

looked at me and says do you see

00:33:17--> 00:33:18

eggs?

00:33:18--> 00:33:21

This was like 4 days after we arrived.

00:33:21--> 00:33:23

And I said, I think this looks like

00:33:23--> 00:33:24

eggs.

00:33:25--> 00:33:25

Eggs,

00:33:26--> 00:33:27

we ran down.

00:33:29--> 00:33:30

I bought 4 eggs,

00:33:31--> 00:33:33

and I paid for it

00:33:33--> 00:33:34

$4.

00:33:36--> 00:33:37

Four eggs.

00:33:40--> 00:33:42

Others, they don't know what eggs means.

00:33:42--> 00:33:44

2 days this is all after

00:33:45--> 00:33:45

the death

00:33:46--> 00:33:46

of those

00:33:47--> 00:33:49

where you can start because when we came

00:33:49--> 00:33:50

through the border,

00:33:51--> 00:33:54

there were huge line of trucks, all has

00:33:54--> 00:33:56

things, but they were not inside.

00:33:59--> 00:34:01

The next day or 2 days later

00:34:02--> 00:34:02

my

00:34:03--> 00:34:05

my friend who was working in the yard

00:34:05--> 00:34:07

texted me and said, there is orange.

00:34:09--> 00:34:11

And I said, orange? She said, yes.

00:34:12--> 00:34:13

Went down

00:34:13--> 00:34:16

to buy an orange. Only one place.

00:34:16--> 00:34:18

I bought 5 oranges

00:34:19--> 00:34:19

for $5.

00:34:22--> 00:34:24

The head nurse the head nurse of the

00:34:24--> 00:34:25

maternity

00:34:25--> 00:34:28

and the second one, they all work in

00:34:28--> 00:34:30

the hospital 24 hours. You don't go home.

00:34:30--> 00:34:33

In between, come back. It's very unsafe. So

00:34:33--> 00:34:35

they stay for 24 hours, then they go

00:34:35--> 00:34:37

for 3, 4 days, and then they come

00:34:37--> 00:34:39

back, and Allah knows that they will come

00:34:39--> 00:34:39

back.

00:34:39--> 00:34:41

So I was with them talking and she

00:34:41--> 00:34:43

said I said, Where do you live?

00:34:44--> 00:34:45

She said, I live about

00:34:46--> 00:34:47

15 minutes

00:34:47--> 00:34:47

walk

00:34:48--> 00:34:51

from the hospital. We live in a farm

00:34:51--> 00:34:54

absolutely at the border between us and the,

00:34:55--> 00:34:56

the other side.

00:34:57--> 00:34:59

And I said, Yeah. Oh, alhamdulillah.

00:34:59--> 00:35:01

A farm. Look at me. And she said,

00:35:01--> 00:35:03

Yeah. Half of the farm.

00:35:04--> 00:35:06

It's not ours. I said, what do you

00:35:06--> 00:35:06

mean?

00:35:07--> 00:35:09

She said, we cannot get close to it.

00:35:09--> 00:35:11

If we get close to it, we'll be

00:35:11--> 00:35:11

dead.

00:35:12--> 00:35:12

It's like

00:35:13--> 00:35:16

a free zone, but it's their place, and

00:35:16--> 00:35:18

they cannot plant. They can do anything in

00:35:18--> 00:35:18

it.

00:35:19--> 00:35:21

And the rest we can. She said, I

00:35:21--> 00:35:22

have 3 children,

00:35:24--> 00:35:25

and the 3 children got sick.

00:35:26--> 00:35:28

And please forgive me, they had diarrhea.

00:35:29--> 00:35:32

So I needed to buy diapers for them.

00:35:33--> 00:35:35

She bought the diapers for $60,

00:35:38--> 00:35:39

each one package.

00:35:41--> 00:35:44

She said a 180 shekels, about $50.

00:35:44--> 00:35:46

And I said, what is your salary?

00:35:47--> 00:35:48

800 shekels.

00:35:49--> 00:35:50

She said the whole salary

00:35:50--> 00:35:51

went

00:35:51--> 00:35:52

for the diapers.

00:35:54--> 00:35:56

And there's questions you just can't ask anymore.

00:35:56--> 00:35:59

I mean, human dignity. So she she as

00:35:59--> 00:36:00

if she

00:36:01--> 00:36:01

she she

00:36:03--> 00:36:05

learned any she she figured out what I

00:36:05--> 00:36:08

wanna say, and she says, alhamdulillah, we have

00:36:09--> 00:36:11

farm and we eat from the farm.

00:36:12--> 00:36:13

We used to have chickens.

00:36:14--> 00:36:16

Chickens like like

00:36:16--> 00:36:18

treasure. We used to have chickens. They killed

00:36:18--> 00:36:19

them all.

00:36:24--> 00:36:25

Then I met a girl. As I go

00:36:25--> 00:36:28

to my I mean, there's stories and stories.

00:36:29--> 00:36:31

As I go in the corridor

00:36:31--> 00:36:33

to go to my room,

00:36:33--> 00:36:34

she

00:36:35--> 00:36:36

9 years old.

00:36:37--> 00:36:38

Legs is all wounded,

00:36:40--> 00:36:41

and I think they saved her leg. I

00:36:41--> 00:36:43

think the team with us, the vascular surgeon,

00:36:44--> 00:36:45

saved her leg.

00:36:46--> 00:36:48

And as I go, she smile and she

00:36:48--> 00:36:51

greets you. And what's your name in Arabic?

00:36:51--> 00:36:51

Naini Room.

00:36:52--> 00:36:54

So I gave her my name, Right? Every

00:36:54--> 00:36:56

morning. Then one day she looked at me

00:36:56--> 00:36:58

and says, do you see how happy I

00:36:58--> 00:36:59

am?

00:36:59--> 00:37:01

And I said, yeah. Why?

00:37:01--> 00:37:03

She says, I'm gonna go to Egypt to

00:37:03--> 00:37:04

get treated.

00:37:06--> 00:37:08

And I said, who's going with you? I

00:37:08--> 00:37:09

don't know,

00:37:10--> 00:37:12

but at least I'm gonna get treated.

00:37:13--> 00:37:14

9 year old,

00:37:15--> 00:37:17

what they should be happy for?

00:37:20--> 00:37:21

9 year old.

00:37:21--> 00:37:22

Right?

00:37:22--> 00:37:23

Literally,

00:37:23--> 00:37:24

those children,

00:37:24--> 00:37:27

their childhood stripped from them.

00:37:27--> 00:37:29

I didn't see a child.

00:37:30--> 00:37:32

I saw a child but I did not

00:37:32--> 00:37:33

see a child.

00:37:34--> 00:37:35

There's no child whining

00:37:36--> 00:37:37

about ice cream,

00:37:38--> 00:37:40

or the food is not good,

00:37:41--> 00:37:43

or whatever we whine about.

00:37:45--> 00:37:45

SubhanAllah.

00:37:46--> 00:37:48

This woman who I told you the day

00:37:48--> 00:37:49

1 that she was

00:37:49--> 00:37:50

on the side of the entrance

00:37:51--> 00:37:52

of the hospital,

00:37:53--> 00:37:54

Every time we go for tahajjud,

00:37:55--> 00:37:57

her her mattress is right there,

00:37:58--> 00:37:59

and she's sitting on the mattress.

00:38:00--> 00:38:01

So I was like, I'm gonna talk to

00:38:01--> 00:38:04

this lady. So one day actually somebody, this

00:38:04--> 00:38:05

was like 3 days

00:38:06--> 00:38:08

before we leave, somebody got us cookies,

00:38:09--> 00:38:10

they baked at

00:38:11--> 00:38:12

home. Wallahi, when I saw the cookie, I

00:38:12--> 00:38:15

can't tell you. I was like cookie, something

00:38:15--> 00:38:15

fresh.

00:38:19--> 00:38:21

Yeah. He was reminding us of what we

00:38:21--> 00:38:22

have

00:38:22--> 00:38:23

and how ungrateful

00:38:24--> 00:38:26

and how we take things for granted.

00:38:27--> 00:38:28

So I had 2,

00:38:28--> 00:38:30

I was coming, I looked at the lady

00:38:30--> 00:38:32

and I said, Khala, do you want one?

00:38:32--> 00:38:33

I said sure.

00:38:34--> 00:38:34

Okay, alhamdulillah.

00:38:36--> 00:38:36

Then

00:38:37--> 00:38:38

I asked her

00:38:38--> 00:38:41

and she said, From the 7th October

00:38:41--> 00:38:44

we were living in Gaza. And everybody when

00:38:44--> 00:38:45

they tell you we're living in Gaza like,

00:38:45--> 00:38:47

you know, I was living in California

00:38:49--> 00:38:50

and we had to leave.

00:38:50--> 00:38:52

I took not much with me,

00:38:52--> 00:38:55

and I came in here and she looked

00:38:55--> 00:38:56

at me and says, I've been living in

00:38:56--> 00:38:57

here

00:38:57--> 00:38:59

for the last 6 months.

00:39:00--> 00:39:02

I said, where do you go for bath

00:39:02--> 00:39:02

food?

00:39:03--> 00:39:04

She said, with the patients.

00:39:06--> 00:39:07

What do you eat

00:39:07--> 00:39:09

Whatever they get me.

00:39:10--> 00:39:12

Where is your family? She said, my daughter

00:39:12--> 00:39:14

with me, she was next to her, and

00:39:14--> 00:39:15

the other

00:39:15--> 00:39:17

are in Gaza. I don't know what's gonna

00:39:17--> 00:39:19

happen to us.

00:39:20--> 00:39:22

And you look at her, of course, cupboards

00:39:23--> 00:39:24

completely. They all wear

00:39:25--> 00:39:27

the prayer have you have seen it? They

00:39:27--> 00:39:28

all wear the same.

00:39:28--> 00:39:29

Everybody.

00:39:29--> 00:39:30

Everybody.

00:39:31--> 00:39:32

SubhanAllah.

00:39:37--> 00:39:38

There was one night

00:39:38--> 00:39:40

the most scared, I thought I am not,

00:39:40--> 00:39:42

we're not gonna make it.

00:39:42--> 00:39:44

It was so scary.

00:39:45--> 00:39:45

It was nonstop

00:39:46--> 00:39:47

drones

00:39:47--> 00:39:48

and bombing,

00:39:48--> 00:39:50

drones and bombing,

00:39:50--> 00:39:51

And they were threatening

00:39:52--> 00:39:53

that they will

00:39:53--> 00:39:54

invade.

00:39:55--> 00:39:57

And I remember when I was praying my

00:39:57--> 00:39:57

Aisha,

00:39:58--> 00:40:00

yeah because that night I think we didn't

00:40:00--> 00:40:02

go yet for tarawiyah, they said pray Aisha

00:40:02--> 00:40:03

in your room and let's see what's what

00:40:03--> 00:40:06

are we gonna do. I remembered when Allah

00:40:06--> 00:40:08

Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala said in Suratul Fattah,

00:40:09--> 00:40:10

waladi anzalasakinatafiquluwbe

00:40:11--> 00:40:12

mumineena

00:40:12--> 00:40:14

izdadu imana ma imani.

00:40:15--> 00:40:17

You all read this, He is the one

00:40:17--> 00:40:19

who sent tranquility to the heart of the

00:40:19--> 00:40:21

believers. We read it, but we don't know

00:40:21--> 00:40:22

what it means,

00:40:22--> 00:40:23

right?

00:40:24--> 00:40:25

I remember I that night

00:40:26--> 00:40:28

I made all that dua to Allah just

00:40:28--> 00:40:30

make me feel serene.

00:40:30--> 00:40:33

I mean it's it's almost impossible, but you

00:40:33--> 00:40:35

Allah you are capable, make me feel serene

00:40:35--> 00:40:36

so at least I can pray, at least

00:40:36--> 00:40:37

I can make dua,

00:40:38--> 00:40:39

And Khalas said, this is how it is,

00:40:39--> 00:40:41

this is how it is. We're all gonna

00:40:41--> 00:40:42

die.

00:40:43--> 00:40:46

It was one of the most scariest night,

00:40:46--> 00:40:48

and this was nothing because this morning they

00:40:48--> 00:40:51

texted me and they said you should see

00:40:51--> 00:40:52

the last two nights.

00:40:52--> 00:40:54

Because if you heard now they are getting

00:40:54--> 00:40:56

to the middle. And Musayrat,

00:40:56--> 00:40:58

their camp, is about 10 minutes walk from

00:40:58--> 00:40:59

the hospital.

00:41:00--> 00:41:03

And they are bombing and bombing and bombing.

00:41:04--> 00:41:07

The day before I left, they said we

00:41:07--> 00:41:09

can take you to the maternity hospital today.

00:41:10--> 00:41:12

It looks it is a little bit quieter

00:41:12--> 00:41:14

because there were this was the day of

00:41:14--> 00:41:16

negotiation. I think it was Sunday

00:41:17--> 00:41:19

when they're they were in Egypt negotiating. When

00:41:19--> 00:41:21

there is negotiation usually,

00:41:21--> 00:41:23

you get a little bit better, but then

00:41:23--> 00:41:24

it gets very worse. They are so scared

00:41:24--> 00:41:26

when it gets better.

00:41:26--> 00:41:28

They say if it gets quiet then that

00:41:28--> 00:41:30

means we will get it.

00:41:33--> 00:41:34

So I went to the hospital. Of course

00:41:34--> 00:41:35

you go with the,

00:41:36--> 00:41:38

ambulance, and literally you say, Ira iraha illallah

00:41:38--> 00:41:40

Muhammadu Rasool Allah cause you don't know what

00:41:40--> 00:41:42

is gonna come on your head.

00:41:42--> 00:41:44

Streets, no streets,

00:41:44--> 00:41:45

no streets.

00:41:45--> 00:41:48

They're either bombed on the right, on the

00:41:48--> 00:41:48

left,

00:41:49--> 00:41:51

Things are standing, things are lower.

00:41:52--> 00:41:54

We get to the hospital. The hospital looks

00:41:54--> 00:41:55

from the outside still

00:41:56--> 00:41:56

intact,

00:41:56--> 00:41:58

looks nice.

00:41:59--> 00:42:01

So when I entered, went to the 2nd

00:42:01--> 00:42:02

floor, and they were and they said, oh,

00:42:02--> 00:42:04

yeah. This is the private hospital that it

00:42:04--> 00:42:06

opened only 2 years ago.

00:42:07--> 00:42:09

We used to do private hospitals, so we

00:42:09--> 00:42:11

used to do maybe 5 deliveries a day.

00:42:13--> 00:42:15

And then they looked at me and said,

00:42:15--> 00:42:16

and now

00:42:17--> 00:42:18

50 delivery a day

00:42:19--> 00:42:21

because there's no other place to deliver. They

00:42:21--> 00:42:23

do between 9 to 10 c sections a

00:42:23--> 00:42:25

day. I did 2 in that day.

00:42:26--> 00:42:27

So I go to the OR

00:42:28--> 00:42:29

and what do I see?

00:42:31--> 00:42:33

And I just did the c section yesterday

00:42:33--> 00:42:33

here.

00:42:35--> 00:42:37

Anyway when I was doing it yesterday I

00:42:37--> 00:42:39

was like, Yeah Allah, aren't they human being?

00:42:39--> 00:42:41

Are human beings only here?

00:42:42--> 00:42:43

What lie?

00:42:44--> 00:42:46

The woman they brought her, there is nothing

00:42:46--> 00:42:48

on that table. I mean if any of

00:42:48--> 00:42:50

you had surgery, you know there's always

00:42:50--> 00:42:52

sheets and then they put pads,

00:42:53--> 00:42:55

right? It's more comfortable.

00:42:56--> 00:42:58

It's drier. It's humanity,

00:42:58--> 00:43:00

right? So usually

00:43:00--> 00:43:01

this is under.

00:43:01--> 00:43:04

There was nothing under that. They put her

00:43:05--> 00:43:06

on

00:43:06--> 00:43:08

the leather. She's usually very cold.

00:43:09--> 00:43:09

Like,

00:43:10--> 00:43:10

they had anesthesia.

00:43:11--> 00:43:13

They did, and they gave her a,

00:43:14--> 00:43:15

spinal. I don't know how good it was

00:43:15--> 00:43:17

because she was feeding,

00:43:17--> 00:43:19

but not shouting, but that's it.

00:43:20--> 00:43:21

And then

00:43:22--> 00:43:24

they opened a green cover,

00:43:25--> 00:43:27

and I didn't say anything because at that

00:43:27--> 00:43:30

point I was like don't think of America.

00:43:30--> 00:43:31

This is very different.

00:43:32--> 00:43:33

For those of you who have seen or

00:43:33--> 00:43:35

you can go on Google, usually when we

00:43:35--> 00:43:37

do surgeries, they bring

00:43:37--> 00:43:40

the instruments in a container, and the container

00:43:40--> 00:43:42

is usually covered with sheets. It's part of

00:43:42--> 00:43:44

the sterilizing

00:43:44--> 00:43:44

process.

00:43:45--> 00:43:48

Right? That's usually in here is usually taken

00:43:49--> 00:43:50

aside or thrown,

00:43:51--> 00:43:53

and then you have sheets to cover the

00:43:53--> 00:43:53

patient.

00:43:54--> 00:43:55

None.

00:43:56--> 00:43:59

And this surgeon looked at me and says,

00:43:59--> 00:44:00

we are creative.

00:44:01--> 00:44:03

The need makes you think

00:44:03--> 00:44:04

better.

00:44:05--> 00:44:06

It was I have a picture of it.

00:44:06--> 00:44:07

It's the

00:44:08--> 00:44:10

green, long. They cut it in the middle

00:44:10--> 00:44:11

to the point where you can see the

00:44:11--> 00:44:13

c section wound,

00:44:13--> 00:44:15

and that was it. Her legs were not

00:44:15--> 00:44:17

her legs. Her foot was shown.

00:44:19--> 00:44:21

Normally you don't. You cover the patient fully.

00:44:22--> 00:44:25

Where is the coterie? It's an instrument we

00:44:25--> 00:44:26

use to stop bleeding,

00:44:28--> 00:44:29

and they said we don't use it.

00:44:31--> 00:44:32

Gloves.

00:44:33--> 00:44:35

I normally do 5a half. I said, I'm

00:44:35--> 00:44:38

sorry, doctor, there's only 7a half.

00:44:39--> 00:44:39

7a

00:44:39--> 00:44:41

half. It's double my size.

00:44:41--> 00:44:43

I did the c section 7a half.

00:44:44--> 00:44:46

Do you have antibody? They say yes. I

00:44:46--> 00:44:47

said, what do you give them for pain

00:44:47--> 00:44:49

medication? Whatever is available.

00:44:50--> 00:44:52

Then as as we finished the c section,

00:44:52--> 00:44:54

they called us to the recovery room

00:44:55--> 00:44:57

because there was a patient who was bleeding.

00:44:58--> 00:44:59

What is the recovery room?

00:45:01--> 00:45:03

How do they call it recovery room?

00:45:03--> 00:45:04

No monitors.

00:45:05--> 00:45:07

You know when you do surgery, if any

00:45:07--> 00:45:08

of you have done surgery or you visit

00:45:08--> 00:45:10

somebody surgery, there's usually monitors.

00:45:11--> 00:45:12

None.

00:45:12--> 00:45:13

None.

00:45:14--> 00:45:15

There's no blood pressure cuff.

00:45:16--> 00:45:18

And I just literally, you know, you know,

00:45:18--> 00:45:21

when when when you are in a nowhere?

00:45:21--> 00:45:23

So I just because she was bleeding,

00:45:23--> 00:45:25

and I just touched her pulse. I said,

00:45:25--> 00:45:27

no. Her pulse is okay. Just give her

00:45:27--> 00:45:28

a fluid, and there is nothing to hold

00:45:28--> 00:45:31

the fluid in. Somebody was holding the fluid.

00:45:32--> 00:45:34

There is no blood testing in that hospital.

00:45:36--> 00:45:37

Literally me and,

00:45:37--> 00:45:39

doctor Hanga, and I was like she said

00:45:39--> 00:45:41

nothing. I said, you can't do a CBC?

00:45:41--> 00:45:42

She said nothing.

00:45:43--> 00:45:45

They don't have it.

00:45:45--> 00:45:47

We you really have to think.

00:45:48--> 00:45:49

Use your judgment.

00:45:50--> 00:45:51

That's how it is.

00:45:52--> 00:45:53

That's how it is.

00:45:54--> 00:45:56

You talk to the physicians and everybody, they

00:45:56--> 00:45:58

say, you know what? That's what we have.

00:45:59--> 00:45:59

We will

00:46:00--> 00:46:01

work.

00:46:02--> 00:46:03

What is the casualties?

00:46:05--> 00:46:06

What is the casualties?

00:46:07--> 00:46:08

They say

00:46:09--> 00:46:12

the numbers you're seeing, these are the accounted

00:46:12--> 00:46:12

for.

00:46:13--> 00:46:14

They accounted for.

00:46:15--> 00:46:16

There's at least double

00:46:17--> 00:46:18

or triple

00:46:19--> 00:46:20

that number under the rebels.

00:46:21--> 00:46:22

Or those

00:46:22--> 00:46:23

who were,

00:46:24--> 00:46:27

and it's very gross, the woman, that the

00:46:27--> 00:46:29

woman who was walking next to the,

00:46:30--> 00:46:30

sea,

00:46:31--> 00:46:32

she said, by Allah,

00:46:33--> 00:46:33

by Allah,

00:46:34--> 00:46:35

I saw

00:46:35--> 00:46:36

dead people,

00:46:36--> 00:46:38

and the dogs were eating them.

00:46:41--> 00:46:42

SubhanAllah.

00:46:45--> 00:46:47

And she was right because there was talk

00:46:47--> 00:46:48

about that. She said I saw it with

00:46:48--> 00:46:50

my own eyes and that 12 year old

00:46:50--> 00:46:50

saw that.

00:46:51--> 00:46:53

What trauma this 12 year old will have?

00:46:55--> 00:46:57

So they see the casualties.

00:46:57--> 00:46:59

That's the 33, 34.

00:47:00--> 00:47:01

There's at least double.

00:47:02--> 00:47:05

We estimate they were the representative of the

00:47:05--> 00:47:07

Ministry of Health was telling us we estimate

00:47:07--> 00:47:08

75 to 80000,

00:47:09--> 00:47:11

and the number is much higher because there's

00:47:11--> 00:47:13

people who already have already decayed. If they

00:47:13--> 00:47:16

died on October 10th, they're gone. This is

00:47:16--> 00:47:17

6 months now.

00:47:18--> 00:47:19

And I

00:47:20--> 00:47:22

said, do you think this will come back

00:47:23--> 00:47:24

and how long it will take? He said

00:47:24--> 00:47:26

we we looked at that. He said if

00:47:26--> 00:47:29

the war stops today, and this was last

00:47:29--> 00:47:29

Tuesday,

00:47:30--> 00:47:32

it will take 2 years

00:47:33--> 00:47:34

to remove the rubles

00:47:35--> 00:47:37

If the people have the right instruments and

00:47:37--> 00:47:40

they work 20 fourseven because they live

00:47:40--> 00:47:41

all they live in buildings

00:47:42--> 00:47:43

and the buildings are not,

00:47:45--> 00:47:48

it's not wood. They all are they build

00:47:48--> 00:47:50

with brick and cement,

00:47:50--> 00:47:51

so this is heavy.

00:47:52--> 00:47:54

He said 2 years to remove everything and

00:47:54--> 00:47:56

at least 5 years

00:47:58--> 00:48:01

to get to back to where people can

00:48:01--> 00:48:02

live in homes.

00:48:04--> 00:48:05

I said, what about education?

00:48:06--> 00:48:08

Schools are either done or people are living

00:48:08--> 00:48:09

in schools.

00:48:10--> 00:48:11

This is what I loved,

00:48:14--> 00:48:16

the strength. He looked at me and he

00:48:16--> 00:48:17

said, well,

00:48:18--> 00:48:19

the world lived

00:48:20--> 00:48:21

during COVID,

00:48:21--> 00:48:23

and they didn't go to school.

00:48:24--> 00:48:26

We can do the same.

00:48:28--> 00:48:29

In every

00:48:29--> 00:48:30

camp,

00:48:31--> 00:48:31

tents,

00:48:32--> 00:48:34

group of tents, you know what they did?

00:48:35--> 00:48:36

One tent,

00:48:37--> 00:48:40

they make the kids memorize Quran and read

00:48:40--> 00:48:41

Quran,

00:48:41--> 00:48:43

and if there is a teacher, we'll teach

00:48:43--> 00:48:43

them.

00:48:46--> 00:48:48

If there is a teacher we'll teach them.

00:48:48--> 00:48:50

And when we went the last day they

00:48:50--> 00:48:52

moved us for security, they moved us from

00:48:52--> 00:48:54

the middle, they moved us to the south

00:48:54--> 00:48:54

to Rafah,

00:48:55--> 00:48:55

and

00:48:56--> 00:48:58

we were there, and then we saw

00:48:59--> 00:49:00

a big tent and they said this is

00:49:00--> 00:49:02

the Quran tent, and I said what does

00:49:02--> 00:49:04

that mean? Said the Quran tent is where

00:49:04--> 00:49:07

the kids during the day go to there,

00:49:07--> 00:49:09

read or memorize or review.

00:49:10--> 00:49:12

When was the last time you read Quran

00:49:12--> 00:49:13

since Eid?

00:49:14--> 00:49:17

You hear it all the time, all the

00:49:17--> 00:49:18

time. I didn't hear music.

00:49:19--> 00:49:21

I didn't hear singing

00:49:22--> 00:49:24

at all for 10 days. And if any

00:49:25--> 00:49:25

anybody

00:49:26--> 00:49:28

feels down and they need entertainment,

00:49:28--> 00:49:29

it should

00:49:29--> 00:49:30

be them.

00:49:32--> 00:49:34

Everyone I interviewed, they said that I'm gonna

00:49:34--> 00:49:36

end up with you, they said talk about

00:49:36--> 00:49:36

it.

00:49:37--> 00:49:38

Don't forget us.

00:49:39--> 00:49:41

Talk about us,

00:49:41--> 00:49:42

whatever you can do.

00:49:43--> 00:49:46

Allah will give us victory. They all say

00:49:46--> 00:49:48

this. We just don't know when.

00:49:48--> 00:49:49

Victory is gonna come,

00:49:50--> 00:49:50

but meanwhile,

00:49:51--> 00:49:52

everybody

00:49:52--> 00:49:53

talk about it.

00:49:53--> 00:49:56

Post, they love what we post because they

00:49:56--> 00:49:58

know there's people think of them and remember

00:49:58--> 00:50:00

them. Imagine,

00:50:00--> 00:50:02

you and me, may Allah protect us and

00:50:02--> 00:50:04

never get us tested the way they are.

00:50:04--> 00:50:06

We are all living in here.

00:50:06--> 00:50:08

This is literally how it is. All of

00:50:08--> 00:50:10

us living in this room with 1 bathroom,

00:50:10--> 00:50:13

and you can't go outside and minimum food.

00:50:14--> 00:50:15

How do you feel?

00:50:15--> 00:50:18

And the Internet is extremely choppy,

00:50:19--> 00:50:20

and this is we. We are in the

00:50:20--> 00:50:20

hospital.

00:50:22--> 00:50:23

But people outside, they have to go and

00:50:23--> 00:50:25

buy a SIM for 1 hour to see

00:50:25--> 00:50:26

what is going on in the world, and

00:50:26--> 00:50:27

they follow the news.

00:50:29--> 00:50:30

So imagine if we are here, all of

00:50:30--> 00:50:34

us, stuck in here, bombing on our head,

00:50:34--> 00:50:36

no one cares about us, and then in

00:50:36--> 00:50:38

this one hour when they are on the

00:50:38--> 00:50:40

net, they see someone speak about us.

00:50:40--> 00:50:41

How do you feel?

00:50:42--> 00:50:44

So don't you get numb.

00:50:44--> 00:50:46

Don't you say it's too long. Don't you

00:50:46--> 00:50:48

say it's not me.

00:50:48--> 00:50:49

No, it is us.

00:50:50--> 00:50:52

These are our brothers and sisters.

00:50:53--> 00:50:54

One day could be you and me, may

00:50:54--> 00:50:57

Allah protect us. There is no guarantee in

00:50:57--> 00:50:57

this world.

00:50:58--> 00:51:00

And the most important thing, and this is

00:51:00--> 00:51:02

actually the reason I went, is when I

00:51:02--> 00:51:03

am in front of Allah,

00:51:03--> 00:51:05

I said, You Allah, I did everything I

00:51:05--> 00:51:06

can.

00:51:07--> 00:51:08

Did you?

00:51:09--> 00:51:11

Did each one of you

00:51:12--> 00:51:14

did everything in your ability? You can't go

00:51:14--> 00:51:16

and fight. I can't go and fight. But

00:51:16--> 00:51:19

can each one of you do something to

00:51:19--> 00:51:21

those people? The answer is

00:51:28--> 00:51:28

usual.

00:51:29--> 00:51:31

Can't we? At least we hear, at least

00:51:31--> 00:51:32

your dua,

00:51:33--> 00:51:35

at least whatever help you can, anything. They

00:51:35--> 00:51:38

said send us anything. They even took my

00:51:38--> 00:51:38

scrubs,

00:51:39--> 00:51:40

shoes,

00:51:40--> 00:51:42

everything they took. We literally,

00:51:42--> 00:51:44

most of the team came in with at

00:51:44--> 00:51:45

least 2 or 3 suitcases.

00:51:46--> 00:51:47

We went back with our backpack

00:51:48--> 00:51:49

or carry on.

00:51:51--> 00:51:53

So don't get numb,

00:51:53--> 00:51:55

don't take it casual,

00:51:55--> 00:51:56

don't tell me

00:51:56--> 00:51:59

it's not my issue. It is an issue.

00:51:59--> 00:52:00

It's an issue of injustice,

00:52:01--> 00:52:04

number 1. It's an issue of genocide. It's

00:52:04--> 00:52:05

a clear genocide.

00:52:06--> 00:52:08

Why do you target legs of people?

00:52:10--> 00:52:12

Why do you target children? Why do you

00:52:12--> 00:52:13

make them starve?

00:52:14--> 00:52:15

Why do you cut the water on them?

00:52:15--> 00:52:17

They are civilians in hospitals.

00:52:18--> 00:52:20

So this is what we all need and

00:52:20--> 00:52:21

teach your children

00:52:21--> 00:52:22

everything about Palestine.

00:52:24--> 00:52:25

Talk to your co workers.

00:52:26--> 00:52:26

I showed

00:52:27--> 00:52:29

the physician this morning, I showed her pictures

00:52:29--> 00:52:31

of the c section in the video.

00:52:31--> 00:52:33

She was in tears.

00:52:33--> 00:52:35

I said talk to the representatives.

00:52:36--> 00:52:38

Put pressure. Even if nothing happened,

00:52:39--> 00:52:41

at least in front of Allah I'm gonna

00:52:41--> 00:52:42

say you Allah.

00:52:42--> 00:52:43

I tried,

00:52:44--> 00:52:46

and I did everything in my ability. I

00:52:46--> 00:52:47

didn't take it.

00:52:48--> 00:52:50

I didn't say it's not my cause.

00:52:50--> 00:52:52

I didn't say I don't care, none of

00:52:52--> 00:52:53

us say I don't care, awwdubillah,

00:52:54--> 00:52:56

but I can't do anything. No we can,

00:52:56--> 00:52:59

whatever we can. The result is not in

00:52:59--> 00:53:01

our hand, the result in Allah's hand, but

00:53:01--> 00:53:03

the effort is what He

00:53:03--> 00:53:04

want

00:53:04--> 00:53:06

want from me. May Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala

00:53:06--> 00:53:08

really don't forgive them in your dua.

00:53:08--> 00:53:11

You Allah, Ilfaal Ummah and Hadil Ummah

00:53:11--> 00:53:12

Remove this,

00:53:13--> 00:53:16

remove this test, remove this tragedy, remove

00:53:16--> 00:53:17

this atrocity

00:53:18--> 00:53:20

from the brothers and sisters. They all say,

00:53:22--> 00:53:23

I don't know about you but I can

00:53:24--> 00:53:26

buy Allah and they're all better than me.

00:53:27--> 00:53:29

And their relationship with Allah, the ones I

00:53:29--> 00:53:29

saw,

00:53:30--> 00:53:33

their relationship with Allah and their faith and

00:53:33--> 00:53:35

their they they they're amazing.

00:53:36--> 00:53:37

The the the war

00:53:37--> 00:53:39

brought the best in them.

00:53:40--> 00:53:42

SubhanAllah. I wonder if it was us, what

00:53:42--> 00:53:44

is gonna come out of us? So don't

00:53:44--> 00:53:46

forget them in dua, You Allah, You Allah,

00:53:46--> 00:53:47

Inna Qalaqulli shayim Qaliya.

00:53:50--> 00:53:52

Just say kun You Allah, stop it.

00:53:53--> 00:53:54

Enough is enough.

00:53:55--> 00:53:56

That's what the head nurse was telling me,

00:53:56--> 00:53:58

their Torah tabna. This is exactly what she

00:53:58--> 00:54:01

said in Arabic. We're so tired,

00:54:01--> 00:54:02

and I don't blame them.

00:54:03--> 00:54:06

10 days was like I lived I aged

00:54:06--> 00:54:07

10 years.

00:54:07--> 00:54:10

Imagine those people with no end of the

00:54:10--> 00:54:11

tunnel

00:54:11--> 00:54:14

and not a single person did not lose

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a member of their family.

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Not a single person I spoke to.

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So this is why I made this. It's

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not just to make you feel sad. No.

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We need to be aware of what's going,

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and do whatever you can. You speak to

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the students, with you, and the school. Don't

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be political.

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Just just present facts, what I just shared

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with you.

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These are human beings like you and me.

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Every human being deserve

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deserve

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decent life,

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respect,

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food,

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water.

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Every child

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should have should not be an orphan by

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8 and 9.

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Why?

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So don't take it lightly.

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Do your best. Talk about it. Keep talking,

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send letters,

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put pressure on your,

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representatives.

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Nothing happened. In front of Allah, I did.

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In front of Allah I tried.

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It changes, Alhamdulillahi

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Anybody has any question, I'll be

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Anybody has any question, I'll be