Maryam Amir – Quran Journey from Bosnia Ustada Amina Mujela Butic

Maryam Amir
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The speaker discusses their journey with learning the Quran and finding a place where one person is. They emphasize the importance of finding a place where one person is and being kind to their Lord. They also stress the importance of learning the Arabic language and finding a place where one person is. They encourage students to practice and find a place where one person is.

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			Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Akbar,
subhanAllah, Alhamdulillah,
		
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			illallah, Allahu. Akbar,
subhanAllah, Alhamdulillah, Allah,
		
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			ILAHA, illallah, Allahu, Akbar Wa
Alaikum, asmaahi, wabarakatuh,
		
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			waalshi, wa rahatu, subhanAllah,
alhamdulillahim. Jihad, Ahn Imam.
		
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			Jihad, such a blessing to have you
here. Imam Baraka Lo Fi, Abdullah,
		
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			your comments are not welcome at
all. You are welcome to be blocked
		
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			after this. Subhanallah
Alhamdulillah, Allahu. Akbar.
		
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			Subhanallah Alhamdulillah, Allahu.
Akbar, so great to see you. Masha,
		
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			Allah, Wa Alaikum, Asmaa, Salahi,
what I get to Subhanallah
		
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			Alhamdulillah. We have our staff
with us. This is Subhanallah
		
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			Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah,
finally, this day has come,
		
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			a blessing to see you. Masha,
Allah, how are you doing?
		
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			Alhamdulillah, I'm fine. I'm just
currently at my workplace. So this
		
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			is the library where I work in so
at hand, I'm kind of getting in
		
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			touch from here.
		
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			Awesome. Let me introduce you.
Inshallah.
		
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			Alhamdulillah, we have such a
blessing of having said that amino
		
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			that's today, mashallah from
Bosnia. This is so exciting. A lot
		
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			excited to hear her story
Mashallah. She has spent so many
		
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			years working with Quran, working
with scholars and memorizing
		
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			Quran, teaching Quran Mashallah.
She also teaches Arabic. She has a
		
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			master working towards in Islam in
Europe, and she already has a
		
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			bachelor's in Islamic studies. So
mashallah, she comes not only from
		
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			the place of working with Islamic
knowledge, but also someone who
		
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			focuses on Islam in Europe,
specifically, and Bosnia has such
		
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			a long history with Islam in
Europe, so Subhanallah, it's so
		
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			wonderful to be able to speak with
you in person and Inshallah, learn
		
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			about your journey, and to hear
about the Journey of Bosnian woman
		
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			and their process with the Quran.
So can you share with us today
		
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			about your journey to the Quran?
Inshallah,
		
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			oh Subhanallah, when I was
thinking about, what would I say
		
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			if you asked me about my journey
with the Quran, I would just say,
		
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			like one common place where we
were both Bosnians here and the
		
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			Europeans and generally the
Americans, that all of those non
		
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			Arab people come from, this the
same baseline is that we do not
		
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			know Arabic. So all of us who want
to learn the Quran, who want to
		
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			read the Quran, the first kind of
place, the first dot that we all
		
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			have to start from, is to learn
how to read,
		
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			and that is a struggle by itself.
So all of those who have been on
		
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			this place know how it is. So my
journey on first reading the
		
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			Quran, because to learn the Quran
by heart was not my first option.
		
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			It was just to kind of get to know
		
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			was about eight years eight years
old. However, because it was
		
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			because we have here in Bosnia, it
is called the maced it is kind of
		
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			like the basic Islamic education
for children, and it is organized
		
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			by different Imams here in Bosnia.
So every child who wants to learn
		
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			the basics of Islam, they can go
to a mactab and to learn the
		
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			basics of it. So I started there,
and I started with my first
		
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			teacher in the MEK school. Her
name was Fatima May Allah, bless
		
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			her.
		
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			And unfortunately, I had this kind
of
		
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			tendency to kind of give up easily
on things. So my journey took of
		
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			learning only the Haru learning
only the letters. My journey took
		
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			more than about even, I think, six
years. Was it six years, and it
		
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			was like, every year I would
start, and I would go for about a
		
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			month or two months and three
months, and I would just like, oh,
		
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			I cannot do this. I would give up.
And then when I was, when I was
		
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			about 12 years old, a new teacher
came to us, and his name was
		
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			Professor Nazif, may Allah bless
him, and may Allah accept from
		
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			him. And he said, like, No, we are
not going to do this again. You're
		
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			not going to start this all over
again, and then, like, stop at the
		
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			in the middle. We're going to
start and we're going to finish it
		
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			so that.
		
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			He kind of made the intention
straight from the light from the
		
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			beginning. So then, like we
started, and then like we came to
		
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			the, I think the tenuine was the
sign that we did together the last
		
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			and then a new teacher again came.
And then with the third teacher, I
		
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			just finished my journey of how
knowing, knowing how to read the
		
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			Quran, and her name is admira. And
		
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			I then realized that in order for
me to be able to learn the Quran
		
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			and to be kind of able to read it
properly, I would need a tough
		
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			teacher, so not someone who is
like too calm and generous and
		
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			like too sweet and like kind of
		
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			respective, etc, I would need
someone who kind of says, you have
		
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			to do this. You do not have
choice, yeah, to get it up.
		
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			So that's what I went when I
finished. It was like, No, you do
		
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			not have a choice. You do not have
an option here. You just have to
		
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			finish it. And then, then, I had
finished my the Arabic letters. So
		
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			anyone there who has the same
struggle, I know how you feel. I
		
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			know how it is, because it took me
for so much, so many years, and
		
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			when I finished it, then the real
fortune came to me, because I then
		
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			realized
		
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			how beautiful this book that I was
reading was, and how kind of, even
		
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			though I was a child, I was kind
of aware of how beautiful a
		
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			feeling it came to me when I read
it. It was like whenever I read
		
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			the Quran. I kind of felt like
this calmness in my heart that I
		
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			never felt in any other book. So
even though I didn't know what I
		
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			was reading, I didn't know the
meanings of it, I didn't know what
		
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			was behind all of those letters
and words and the sentences and
		
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			ayat I was just reading it and
just the
		
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			the process of reading the Quran
only the reading was really
		
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			enjoyful for me.
		
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			So yeah, it is not easy, but it is
worthy of it, because, like, after
		
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			that, I never kind of forgot the
letters. And
		
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			this journey of this hard journey
that all of us can come through,
		
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			and I know my I have a lot of
students, and they kind of have
		
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			the same struggles, especially, it
is especially when we come, for
		
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			example, for for the al haruf, al
musakham, for example, the HA and
		
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			the rain and the ain, when he come
to the rain, it is like, Oh, we
		
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			cannot do this. Where is this sign
gonna come? Where did is this
		
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			sound gonna come from? Where Where
should I put my tongue? Where
		
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			should I do this? So, yeah, it is
a struggle, and I know how you
		
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			feel, but it is worthy of it.
Because, like, the pleasure of
		
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			reading the Quran afterwards, and
what, what it comes from to you
		
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			with, with all of its messages,
etc, is it's, it's much more
		
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			worthy than the struggle that we
come through during the reading of
		
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			during the learning of the
letters, etc. So I'm sorry,
		
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			because maybe this answer took too
much of the time. I'm sorry.
		
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			So awesome. That's why you started
with just being introduced to the
		
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			letters in the Arabic language.
But so people learn Arabic, and
		
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			they don't memorize your Quran.
Why did you want to memorize Quran
		
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			after that, if you
		
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			still wonderful, but why did you
especially because you didn't
		
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			understand what you were reading?
So why did you choose to memorize
		
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			so my memorizing process started
when I was in my high school. So
		
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			here in Bosnia, we have the so
called Islamic high schools,
		
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			meaning, like, you can go to a
madrasa, which lasts for four
		
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			years, and then you can go, like,
to learn from, like, the basics of
		
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			aqidah, of fiqh, of Sierra, of
history of Islam, of many
		
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			different aspects of Islam. So to
go to there. It was a little bit
		
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			of a struggle, because my parents
were not for going to this Islamic
		
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			High School, and because in that
time, my parents were not really
		
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			religious, so I had to kind of
		
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			struggle to get into it, and kind
of to get their trust in that I'm
		
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			not going to go extreme, that I'm
not going to start bombing myself,
		
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			etc. So it was like a struggle,
because they were afraid that
		
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			something might happen to me.
That's not a problem here, but
		
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			kind of, they're afraid that their
religion, their main concern was
		
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			that religion is going to close my
not to, kind of to close me in a
		
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			box, so to say, not to give me the
freedom that they thought I
		
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			needed. They were afraid that I'm
gonna like, stay stuck and not
		
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			being able to educate myself and
not being like many different
		
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			things. So it was just any other
parents. They were concerned that
		
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			their child, their their their
daughter, you.
		
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			It's the best education that she
has to so I just told them, it is
		
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			my biggest wish. It is what makes
me happy, and I will not be happy
		
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			if I do not go to this Madras and
learn about Islam. And I think
		
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			then the love and the accepting
part of my parents kind of stood
		
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			there, and they told me, of
course, if you wanted to go, we
		
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			respect you, we respect your
decisions, and it's okay. It's not
		
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			that we agree upon that, but we
respect your decisions.
		
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			And
		
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			yeah, it's so powerful, because
they're just talking to a
		
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			teenager, but they're listening to
you and work with you. Yes, and I
		
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			had really opinions in that time.
I know that when I wanted to do
		
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			something in my life, then I would
just do all. I would go through
		
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			walls, but I would do it. I was
like, oh, there is no other
		
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			opinion for me. It's gonna make me
happy. I know that this is
		
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			something that I need, and it was
something that I need, because
		
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			during the madrasa period, I put
on my hijab, I started, like,
		
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			learning about Islam. I started
praying regularly, and I started
		
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			kind of getting to know about
things about Islam. It's the
		
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			basics of it can be really good,
well known here in madassa in
		
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			Bosnia,
		
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			but when I wanted to maybe this
would be interesting for some of
		
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			the viewers
		
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			the second like struggle because
and the third one is going to be
		
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			the Quran. The second struggle
that I had was, again, how to put
		
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			my hijab on. I was only 15 years
old, and I was about in that
		
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			school for only about two or three
weeks, and I then I immediately
		
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			wanted to put my hijab to be, to
be the hijabi all the time. So
		
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			until then, we had, like, the
opportunity to put on the hijab
		
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			during the classes, but outside
the classes, we didn't have to.
		
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			We're on the hijab regarding the
rules in the madrasa. And
		
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			when I when I wanted to start
during the hijab, I was like,
		
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			concerned. Oh, what's gonna happen
now? And I kind of felt it in my
		
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			heart. I remember sitting one day,
and
		
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			I remember, like reading a an Ayah
from like there was a board and
		
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			there was the ayah when, and it
says, Well,
		
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			no, I cannot remember one by one
word. So it said about the hijab,
		
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			ayah, meaning the cover the hijab,
that kind of
		
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			says to the women to kind of put
the hijab on and it I read that to
		
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			Aya a lot of many times before,
but that time when I was reading
		
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			it, I just kind of felt in my
heart that, oh, this is Allah
		
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			talking to me. This is something
that Allah wants for me. I am his
		
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			believer. I am someone who wants
his mercy. I want I'm the one who
		
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			wants his forgiveness and and he's
the one who gives me the best of
		
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			this life, and He is the one who
wants to be the best for me. And
		
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			when I realized who was talking to
me in that ayah, I kind of right
		
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			away felt in my heart now I want
to be someone who is a real Muslim
		
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			to him, meaning like
		
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			someone who kind of wishes what he
wishes for someone who desires in
		
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			his his life, what He desires for
us. And kind of I felt the
		
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			comments in deciding that I want
to swear the hijab. And there was
		
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			no other opinion in that period
for me. And then when I came home
		
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			and I told my parents, I wonder, I
want to start wearing it, they
		
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			kind of said, Oh, but you're too
young. How can you wear the hijab
		
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			and you're only 15? What's good?
What? What the other people will
		
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			say? What if you change your mind
later on? What will happen then?
		
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			And then I said, I will not think
about that. I will just hear it
		
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			now, and I will start doing it
right now, because I I know that
		
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			this is something that I want. And
then, yeah, I remember my mother.
		
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			She was so angry at me because she
was, like, so scared what is going
		
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			to happen next?
		
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			And then I started wearing it. And
later on, and now, when I talk to
		
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			her, because about 10 years or
more have passed since I started
		
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			wearing it, and now she says,
		
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			What if only I knew what is going
to come next, and how happy you're
		
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			going to become because of that,
and how happy you're going to
		
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			Islam is going to how much
happiness and beautifulness in
		
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			your life Islam is going to get
you. I will never, kind of be
		
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			angry at you, I would never, kind
of stop you from any of those
		
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			things, because now she kind of
realizes how,
		
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			how this religion is really a
source of happiness for us, even
		
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			in this world, even though we go
through many, many different
		
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			struggles and we have
		
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			many insecurities, we.
		
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			Have so many things that we go
through, but because we have
		
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			someone who really rely upon and
whom we can talk to, and whom we
		
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			can kind of ask from to give us
what we need. And kind of it gives
		
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			so much calmness, and it gives so
much joy and happiness that it
		
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			cannot be compared to anything
else, and we can go and buy things
		
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			the kind of new things can give us
some joy, but
		
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			from those new materialistic
things that we buy or get, etc,
		
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			they give us a joy or happy
feeling for a couple of days,
		
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			maybe, or even the weeks. But
after that, we kind of get bored,
		
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			we kind of get over it. We do not
feel any more the joy. But this
		
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			would have the faith in yourself.
It's something that kind of
		
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			gets you more and more if you're
going to go go deeper and deeper.
		
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			And it's SubhanAllah. And even
when we read this book, this
		
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			beautiful Quran at Allah sent that
sentence.
		
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			If you read it, you read an ayah,
and you read it in one way, one
		
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			day, and you kind of understand it
in one day, and then you come in a
		
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			couple of days or months or years,
and you kind of read the same
		
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			ayah, but you are not the same,
and you kind of look, look into
		
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			the same ayah. It's completely
differently from how you saw it in
		
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			before. So, so this is, yeah, this
is the joy of our of our religion,
		
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			and this kind of the joy and the
beautifulness of our Islam. And
		
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			then after, like, putting the
hijab my first year of classes, I
		
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			started, started from going to the
second class, and then I met one
		
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			of my then one of my friends told
me that she was starting to learn
		
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			the Quran by heart. And I like,
Okay, you were learning in
		
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			Mashallah. It's beautiful, it's
nice. But I kind of was, No, it's
		
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			not for me. I'm not like, I'm not
worthy enough to learn the Quran
		
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			by heart. That's what was one of
my main thoughts.
		
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			I cannot do it. I cannot do it.
It's kind of, yeah, I am too like,
		
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			sometimes I get lazy. Sometimes I
get like, stuck in my thoughts and
		
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			stuck in many things. Sometimes,
like, I cannot even I hardly get
		
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			up and pray at all. And how will I
be if I'm not like praying every
		
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			night the Lail and how am I going
to be half alive? I'm not like all
		
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			this additionally, additionally,
additional, additionally.
		
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			And I was kind of getting, I was
like, feeling it like
		
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			I had to go, I have to get to a
certain degree of my Iman, of
		
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			everything about me. And then I
will be worthy enough to learn the
		
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			Quran by heart. And like I was, I
had to be something in order to be
		
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			able to learn by heart. And then
Subhanallah, I realized, and you
		
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			do not have to get into any point
to learn the Quran by heart. Allah
		
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			has sent you the Quran to benefit
from it, subhanAllah, and you do
		
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			not have to get to any level to
learn it. It is open for you if
		
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			you really want to learn it. And
then I kind of,
		
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			I kind of stopped thinking about,
where should I be in order to be
		
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			able to learn the Quran, and what
should I know before it? And what
		
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			should I accomplish? All of these
accomplishments such, I know the
		
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			Quran is there for all of us in
all times you do not it is there
		
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			for you, even though, if you're in
the baddest in the worst place in
		
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			your life, as it is for you in
your if you are in the best place
		
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			in your life, meaning, like in the
happiness in the sorrows. So
		
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			kind of when I kind of stopped
thinking about where should I be
		
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			in order to be able to learn the
Quran by heart? Then it kind of
		
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			came and I started learning it.
And by learning it, then many
		
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			different than many other
struggles came in. But yeah, just
		
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			to start learning it, it was kind
of from there. I do not have to be
		
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			anyone to be able to learn the
Quran or to recite it, or to come
		
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			closer to Allah, right? Is so
inspiring, and it left me with
		
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			chills, and my heart feels fuller,
and my eyes just feel like I can
		
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			feel the love of Allah's Panama
Tala that you have just brimming
		
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			over your tears. Mashallah, may
Allah, bless you. You talked about
		
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			learning the Arabic. You talked
about how you, you know, felt
		
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			unworthy for the Quran, but felt
like, Okay, this ayah is talking
		
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			to you and how it impacted your
life and the happiness that your
		
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			mom even sees in you after this.
Masha Allah,
		
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			what did you go to actually trying
to understand the meaning of what
		
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			you're memorizing. Was that part
of the process of you memorizing,
		
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			or was it like, you know,
separate? How was that for
		
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			you?
		
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			Understanding the meanings of the
Quran is something that I'm still
		
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			kind of working on, and I think
about working.
		
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			Work on it. As long as my life
goes and I will kind of work with
		
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			my whole life,
		
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			to be honest, my Arabic Now is not
on the place where I wanted to be
		
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			like it is I'm like on the some
place where I can understand it.
		
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			But my my speak level is not like
my level of how to communicate and
		
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			speak it. It's not on the place
where I want it to be. However, I
		
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			do not let it to stop me from
understanding the Quran, because,
		
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			yeah, I just kind of think that
		
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			understanding the meanings of the
Quran, meaning like understand
		
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			each word or many words from the
Quran, can benefit us as well.
		
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			I started learning the grammar
from my high school, and then I
		
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			continued learning grammar very
begin during the faculty period as
		
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			well. And then I, when I started
working, I came Alhamdulillah,
		
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			here in nahlah. We, kind of,
		
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			they gave me the opportunity to
teach the linguistic tafsir
		
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			meaning like we can go word by
word, translating some Surahs and
		
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			understanding them deeper. And my
first course that I taught there
		
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			was the linguistics tafsir, word
by word, meanings of the surah
		
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			class, like they were the basic
surahs, so to say. And so many,
		
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			many people here in Bosnia know
these Surahs by heart, but I think
		
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			if they, if you ask them what the
surahs mean, and how do you kind
		
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			of practice these Surahs in your
everyday life? Unfortunately, they
		
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			wouldn't be able to kind of
translate them and understand what
		
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			they mean. But they'll, for
example, recite them every day in
		
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			their prayers as like a sort of a
protection in the mornings, in
		
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			life, in the evening, etc. So I
was thinking, why do we not know
		
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			these surahs, these words, they
are not basic, they're advanced,
		
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			if they if we understand the
meanings of them. And then I
		
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			started kind of going through one
by one word. And how does why
		
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			Allah chose this word in order to
to start this surah, and how the
		
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			different meanings kind of
complete the overall message of
		
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			the Surah, etc. And, wow, when I
started doing that, it kind of
		
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			bring my it brought my my level
and my connection to the Quran to
		
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			a completely new level, Subhan
Allah, to know one by one word and
		
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			to know kind of a deeper meaning
of what we read and recite in the
		
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			Quran. It is completely subhanall.
It's something so beautiful. It's
		
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			kind of
		
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			when you see, for example, why
Allah has when you read it in, for
		
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			example, we have the translation
of the Quran here in Bosnia. And
		
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			everyone who, everyone who wants
to know the meaning of the Quran,
		
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			we you can read it in you, and you
have many different translations
		
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			of the Quran in Bosnia.
		
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			And it is on one level, so to say,
really nice and useful, etc.
		
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			However, when you go and kind of
start reading it and trying to
		
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			understanding, to understand it
word by word, and kind of try to
		
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			find the connection between the
words and what is the kind of
		
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			what, what meanings can we get
behind these like letters and
		
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			words that are connected, one
after the other, the connection to
		
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			with the Quran becomes really more
beautiful. And I know my students
		
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			used to tell me, like I kind of,
they said, I kind of have the
		
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			connection with these Buddhas on a
completely new level, because now
		
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			when I recite them in my prayers,
it is like I'm talking to Allah.
		
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			Now that when I'm reciting in my
prayers, I know what I'm saying
		
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			and know what I'm seeking, the
protection from, and who am I
		
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			talking to, etc. So yeah, even
you, even from when you go, from
		
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			the basics, you can go to advance
if you understand and know how to
		
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			go to get into it. And then I
didn't stop the journey there. So
		
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			this year, Alhamdulillah, we, I
had this course called The and I
		
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			am having speech is still ongoing.
And having this course of
		
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			linguistic, again, a tafsir of
Surah Mariam. And it is a
		
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			completely, again, a journey. It
is a beautiful journey. And we
		
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			cover, for example, each week
about three to four ayat, and it
		
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			is only about one by one word, and
then we cover the whole page of
		
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			the Surah Mariam for a month. So
we do one page a month, and it is
		
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			really slow, and our students are
learning the hips of the surah as
		
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			well as the the meanings and wow
it is. Their hips is strong. Their
		
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			their
		
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			understanding of the surah is is
beautiful. So it is completely new
		
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			level to learn it this way. And my
Inshallah, my goal, let me, Allah,
		
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			make it easy for me and all of us
who want, want to do it this way,
		
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			is to kind of understand the whole
Quran in these like small levels,
		
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			like.
		
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			Understand it word by word going
you go into this. It's deeper
		
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			meanings like that. So, yeah, it
is a completely different
		
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			perspective, and it is a
completely new level of of
		
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			connection with the Quran. Because
you kind of get, I know, when I
		
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			start reading the swaram Now,
		
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			I kind of get, like, triggered by
some words that are that I didn't
		
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			but that I wasn't triggered, not
what, what? What's the meaning of
		
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			trigger? Meaning like, it gives me
the chills. It gives me the
		
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			warmness in my heart. It gives me
the tears. It gives me the feeling
		
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			of, wow. This is, this is what
Allah has told us, in the in the
		
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			in the Surah Mary, I mean, this is
his choice of the words and kind
		
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			of these, what this like, read so
many small words so to say, of
		
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			suramarium, they kind of give me
these new feelings that I have
		
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			never had before, and that's all
because of these kind of
		
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			beautiful, beautiful meanings that
I have learned throughout this
		
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			year. And may Allah bless him,
Shaykh abd Nasir, I have learned,
		
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			I have listened to his Surah,
Maryam, it was a must for me in
		
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			order to prepare my own So may
Allah bless him, and may Allah
		
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			accept from him for doing the
linguistic perspective of the
		
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			surah as well. So beautiful
		
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			that someone can teach the tafsir
and not realize that maybe in
		
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			another country, they're going to
be using it to understand the
		
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			Surah, Subhan, Allah, JazakAllah,
khairan, that, Oh, beautiful.
		
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			You've been talking about people
learning the meaning of the Quran
		
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			in Bosnia. Can you share with us
what is the culture of Quran for
		
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			women in Bosnia? Do women actively
take classes for and memorize
		
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			Quran? Is it? Is it? Is it
something that is you know, a lot
		
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			of women do. What is the culture
there?
		
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			So women here learn and recite the
Quran just like on a daily basis.
		
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			And they learn, they teach, and
they kind of recite the Quran that
		
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			on the same level, so to say, as
men. So just from the beginning,
		
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			for example, when we start from
the Mecca period, the basic
		
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			Islamic education period.
Altogether, women and men like the
		
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			children go together, and they
learn the letters. They learned
		
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			how to recite it as well. And then
the high schools usually there as
		
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			many men. There are women as well.
There are girls and boys, and they
		
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			continue their journey. And one
interesting point, and this is
		
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			maybe something that some some can
benefit from. We have this kind of
		
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			yearly competition in reciting the
Quran. So my first kind of public
		
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			reciting, or my first kind of the
competition in the Quran, was when
		
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			I was about 17. I think I was 17
years old. And then we learned
		
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			five Jesus of the Quran by heart.
		
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			And then, kind of, we came to this
competition, and it was like, wow.
		
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			What is going to be beyond this
competition? Who am I going to
		
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			compete out against? And there
were so many different half a lot
		
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			or men and women who were
competing and who were like, Oh,
		
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			am I going to make a mistake here?
Or I'm not. So the competition was
		
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			like, if you're on the five
judges, a competition that you get
		
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			two to three pages that you have
to recite in front of the of the
		
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			board, so to say in front of the
board of their recitation. And
		
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			they said they kind of choose a
random page, but by random I mean
		
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			like the hardest pages,
		
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			like you never get the easy ones,
you get only the hardest.
		
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			So, yeah, and then they just want
to test their your hips, how we're
		
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			going to finish the ayat, how
we're gonna kind of,
		
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			how we're gonna connect it between
different ayat, etc. And on that
		
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			competition, Alhamdulillah one, I
was the second, and that on the
		
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			state, state competition, together
with my two colleagues, and one of
		
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			them won the first play, the first
place, she's now Hafez. She is
		
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			Akia kawabat. And the third place
was, again, my my colleagues,
		
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			because we were really good group,
and we were a really good team.
		
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			And our half of was our teacher
was kind of preparing us, the
		
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			whole like here, and he was like
pressuring us, you can do it. You
		
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			can do it. You don't. You cannot
give up. You have to prepare, and
		
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			we did it, and Alhamdulillah made
a beautiful scores, and like the
		
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			whole school was so proud of us.
And so there is no limitations for
		
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			women to kind of participate in
these events. There's no
		
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			limitations for women to
participate in learning the Quran,
		
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			in reciting the Quran.
		
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			In teaching the Quran.
		
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			And there are many, but for
example, it is usually. It is
		
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			usually divided, like women teach
women, the Quran and men teach
		
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			men. Usually it's like that. And
we have, for example, many
		
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			different schools of Quran. Here
in Bosnia, we have like female,
		
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			specified, so to say, School of
schools of the Quran in In which
		
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			the focus on, the focus is
teaching the women the Quran. And
		
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			these schools of Quran have made
so many good results, and they
		
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			kind of have 10s of half a lot a
year. So for example, last year,
		
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			we know, for example, now in
Bosnia we have around 300 Hafez
		
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			hafaz, we have, like, those are
both men and women together. And
		
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			the last year, for example, was
one of the best, not one of but
		
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			the best year in the number of
hafas, or number of half elders
		
00:31:03 --> 00:31:07
			who learned the Quran by heart.
And after you learned the Quran by
		
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			heart, here in Bosnia, for
example, you have to go to recite
		
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			the Quran in front of the so to
say his board. It is called the
		
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			heifs board, and it is kind of
consisted of what for the whole
		
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			country,
		
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			yes. Yes, yes. So you have to,
like you have to, if I understood
		
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			it well. So they have, if you want
to kind of understand the if or
		
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			not, if you finish the
		
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			Quran, then you go to the kind of
to recite the Quran in front of
		
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			the hips of the board. And this
hip to the word is consisted of
		
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			eight members. So they kind of sit
and listen to your recitation for
		
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			15 days. And you recite two Jesus
of the Quran each day, and you
		
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			have to recite them. I think the
flat here recite these juices in
		
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			about an hour or so, in our hour,
hour and a half. So they have to
		
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			recite really quick. And their
Tajik kind of goes off during
		
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			during that period. But yeah, they
have to recite it pretty quickly.
		
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			And they finish it in about 15
days. And there are even her flat
		
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			who had finished it in about three
days. They recited the whole Quran
		
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			in three days, for example. And
there is all there is also one
		
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			hafillah. It is. She's female, and
she recited the whole Quran in one
		
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			day. So she kind of sit in front
of the board, yes, and she sit in
		
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			front of the board. And she
started in the morning, and she
		
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			was like finished until salatul
magibadi in the evening. We also
		
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			have half of there, our half a
lot, or from all from different
		
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			ages and backgrounds. For example,
we have, we had one half of that
		
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			he he finished the the recite,
recitation in front of the board
		
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			yesterday, and he's like, 59 years
old, and he was like, like, almost
		
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			in his pension days. And he
finished it. We also have half a
		
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			lot that are 1516, years old, and
they all kind of committed into
		
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			reading the Quran, learning the
Quran by heart, and reciting it in
		
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			front of the board. So it is not
like limited there are, I think
		
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			one of our youngest have. Her
father was about 12 or 13 years
		
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			old. So now there is no age limit.
Allah chooses whom he wants to and
		
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			we can only pray that Allah
chooses us to kind of be the
		
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			carriers of his book, and to kind
of carry it, not only in our
		
00:33:29 --> 00:33:32
			minds, but to carry it in our
hearts. Inshallah,
		
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			so incredible and interesting. So
there's no way that we would in
		
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			the United States be able to have.
We don't have, like a system to
		
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			see who memorize, how many people
memorize. So, so you're, you're,
		
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			you're, is it like expected that
any person who finishes memorizing
		
00:33:51 --> 00:33:54
			with their teacher, they go to
this board, and then the board
		
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			will kind of keep a record of all
the have felt in the whole country
		
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			that is yes, yes, yes. And not
only that, you kind of have these
		
00:34:03 --> 00:34:07
			kind of periods of your
memorization process. So the first
		
00:34:07 --> 00:34:11
			period is like just memorizing,
learning the whole Quran by heart.
		
00:34:12 --> 00:34:15
			And then the second kind of step
of the process is to get your hips
		
00:34:15 --> 00:34:21
			so strong that you can recite two
Jesus of the Quran in one hour or
		
00:34:21 --> 00:34:24
			in one hour and a half. So you'd
have to kind of get just really
		
00:34:24 --> 00:34:25
			good.
		
00:34:26 --> 00:34:30
			Not everyone can go to that board
and kind of just recite after they
		
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			finish, etc. So it is challenging.
It is really stressful for the
		
00:34:34 --> 00:34:38
			HAFA, but it is really worth it,
because when someone goes to the
		
00:34:39 --> 00:34:43
			board and they recite the Quran in
these 15 or days or less, for some
		
00:34:44 --> 00:34:49
			they kind of their hips. You know
that their hips is on a level. You
		
00:34:49 --> 00:34:52
			know that it is a really strong
cubes that they not cannot, you
		
00:34:52 --> 00:34:58
			kind of are you can lean on their
hips, etc. So, yeah, so the first
		
00:34:58 --> 00:34:59
			kind of goal.
		
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			Is to finish the Quran in front of
your teacher. And then the second
		
00:35:03 --> 00:35:06
			one is to finish it in front of
this board. And yes, they keep the
		
00:35:06 --> 00:35:13
			record of how many have finished
it in each year. And kind of,
		
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			yeah, there are eight of them.
Unfortunately, we are missing a
		
00:35:18 --> 00:35:20
			woman in the board, but Inshallah,
it's going to be
		
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			inshallah. It's going to be one
day. So let's hope to it inshallah
		
00:35:26 --> 00:35:31
			that it gets soon that we have
nine member boards, of the members
		
00:35:31 --> 00:35:36
			of the board, etc. So it is a
really, really prestige title here
		
00:35:36 --> 00:35:39
			in Bosnia to be a hassle. And you
know that someone, when someone
		
00:35:39 --> 00:35:43
			recites that in front of the in
front of this board, that you know
		
00:35:43 --> 00:35:47
			that he's a really good half
feels, that his half his really
		
00:35:47 --> 00:35:52
			strong, and that, yeah, we can,
you can just end like it's with a
		
00:35:52 --> 00:35:56
			prayer that he, that he continues
to to kind of maintain his, his
		
00:35:56 --> 00:36:00
			his as strong as it was during
that period. And then later on we
		
00:36:00 --> 00:36:04
			have kind of a gather, gathering
that where we kind of,
		
00:36:05 --> 00:36:10
			kind of congratulate the the new
Hefa, that they're the they're
		
00:36:10 --> 00:36:13
			finished their realization of the
heaves. And then, yeah, that's
		
00:36:13 --> 00:36:18
			kind of, that's kind of it so. And
then we can just pray that they
		
00:36:18 --> 00:36:22
			have stays the same strong during
their whole life. So that's kind
		
00:36:22 --> 00:36:23
			of their process of, of
		
00:36:25 --> 00:36:30
			of learning the Quran here, so
beautiful Mashallah. It's like
		
00:36:30 --> 00:36:33
			people who memorize Quran are so
honored. And are, you know, it's,
		
00:36:33 --> 00:36:36
			it's something that people
seriously, take it seriously the
		
00:36:36 --> 00:36:40
			way that they memorize Masha
Allah, um, can you give us any
		
00:36:40 --> 00:36:43
			advice, because mashallah, you've
already given us so much, so many
		
00:36:43 --> 00:36:47
			gems and so much advice in the way
that you are speaking about
		
00:36:47 --> 00:36:51
			approaching Arabic and approaching
Quran. What if someone like you
		
00:36:51 --> 00:36:55
			starts the Arabic letters and
they're like, oh, no, I just
		
00:36:55 --> 00:36:58
			can't. I don't want to keep going.
Or they start memorizing and they
		
00:36:58 --> 00:37:00
			say, Oh, this is just so
difficult. I've been trying for
		
00:37:00 --> 00:37:04
			three years. I can't I can't do
it. What advice do you have for
		
00:37:04 --> 00:37:06
			them to keep going, to feel
motivated? How do they keep
		
00:37:06 --> 00:37:09
			feeling motivated to go to the
Quran?
		
00:37:11 --> 00:37:16
			Oh, subhanAllah, I think it's
something that it is individual.
		
00:37:16 --> 00:37:18
			Each person kind of has its own,
		
00:37:19 --> 00:37:24
			his his or her zone, like motives
or inspirations, or motivations
		
00:37:24 --> 00:37:25
			from the Quran,
		
00:37:26 --> 00:37:32
			I think in my previous period, one
of my main motivations was to when
		
00:37:32 --> 00:37:36
			I when I kind of get to through
the struggles of, how am I going
		
00:37:36 --> 00:37:39
			to going to finish, when I'm going
to finish, and I have so much to
		
00:37:39 --> 00:37:44
			left to to learn I was my my
motive or my motivation would
		
00:37:44 --> 00:37:47
			always be like remembering that on
the Day of Judgment, my parents
		
00:37:47 --> 00:37:51
			are going to wear a crown on their
heads. And it was a really
		
00:37:51 --> 00:37:55
			motivating thing for me, and I
really enjoyed it. However, when
		
00:37:55 --> 00:37:59
			the time passes on and when I was
thinking about it more thoroughly,
		
00:37:59 --> 00:38:01
			I just came to a realization that
		
00:38:03 --> 00:38:06
			it is beautiful that your parents
are going to bear the crown or the
		
00:38:06 --> 00:38:11
			crown on the Day of Judgment.
However, I kind of see it now more
		
00:38:11 --> 00:38:17
			as a result, not the reason, if I
have explained it well meaning,
		
00:38:17 --> 00:38:23
			like I want to learn the Quran in
order to be myself closer to to
		
00:38:23 --> 00:38:28
			Allah, because the Quran is first
of all going to benefit you, and
		
00:38:28 --> 00:38:32
			you should first of all learn it
for Allah. And kind of
		
00:38:33 --> 00:38:38
			the second thing is like, remember
whose word you're memorizing,
		
00:38:38 --> 00:38:43
			SubhanAllah. You remember that he
chose, that he chose. He is the
		
00:38:43 --> 00:38:46
			one who taught you, and he's the
one who chose you to even be able
		
00:38:46 --> 00:38:50
			to read it, even to be able to be
to remember, to kind of be more
		
00:38:51 --> 00:38:54
			inspired or motivated to learn
even the letters. There are so
		
00:38:54 --> 00:38:59
			many people who do not, who maybe
were not even like thinking about
		
00:38:59 --> 00:39:02
			learning even the letters. So who
is the one who gave you the
		
00:39:02 --> 00:39:06
			inspiration to even learn the
letters, and who is the one who
		
00:39:06 --> 00:39:11
			gives you like the world in a to
even read it in translation, etc?
		
00:39:12 --> 00:39:17
			So pray to Him to kind of make it
easy for you to learn it by heart
		
00:39:17 --> 00:39:21
			and continue with your
recitations, because it is first
		
00:39:21 --> 00:39:25
			of all benefit, beneficial for you
and me. It is first of all
		
00:39:25 --> 00:39:27
			beneficial because it's going to
		
00:39:29 --> 00:39:34
			your heart is going to be melted
by its meaning and by its words,
		
00:39:34 --> 00:39:40
			by only reading it if you if you
know whose words are those, if you
		
00:39:40 --> 00:39:45
			if you know that it is he who who
takes care of you every day. He it
		
00:39:45 --> 00:39:47
			is if you know that he, it is He
Who
		
00:39:49 --> 00:39:54
			gave you life in this earth, who
has given you, who has been with
		
00:39:54 --> 00:39:58
			you through all of your struggles,
through all of your the best and
		
00:39:58 --> 00:39:59
			the worst times in your life and.
		
00:40:00 --> 00:40:03
			Has never given up on you, then
you should know that it is an
		
00:40:03 --> 00:40:07
			honor to be able to read his book,
and it is an honor, and it is
		
00:40:07 --> 00:40:11
			something that we should do in
order to be kind of, it is a sign
		
00:40:11 --> 00:40:15
			of a gratefulness towards our Lord
to learn his book by heart, kind
		
00:40:15 --> 00:40:19
			of to say, Allah, I'm learning
this because I'm grateful to you
		
00:40:19 --> 00:40:22
			that you have given me my life.
Allah, I'm learning this book
		
00:40:22 --> 00:40:25
			because I'm so happy to be
		
00:40:27 --> 00:40:31
			honored to be your slave. I'm so
happy to learn this book because I
		
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			just want to see your your face,
your
		
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			to see you on the Day of Judgment.
There's nothing else it needs you
		
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			to, kind of to give you more
motivation than this, your Lord,
		
00:40:43 --> 00:40:47
			your God, who is the one with who
is always with you through all the
		
00:40:47 --> 00:40:54
			times. So no not. There is no
bigger motivation in our lives
		
00:40:54 --> 00:40:58
			than he to kind of his closeness
to us, to motivate us in our
		
00:40:58 --> 00:41:02
			everyday life. So if that is
something that motivates you on
		
00:41:02 --> 00:41:06
			your why you're doing good deeds,
why believing, etc, then it is
		
00:41:06 --> 00:41:11
			something that should motivate you
in your reading process. So yeah,
		
00:41:11 --> 00:41:14
			that's it. I'm not going to I
don't want to kind of get too
		
00:41:14 --> 00:41:16
			long. I'm sorry if this is too
much.
		
00:41:18 --> 00:41:21
			Hey, all of us are just crying.
Masha, Allah, the love that you
		
00:41:21 --> 00:41:26
			speak about doing this for the
love of Allah, just out of this
		
00:41:26 --> 00:41:30
			pure desire to just know Him and
be grateful to him, is just so
		
00:41:30 --> 00:41:33
			powerful and so beautiful and so
inspirational. Subhanallah, may
		
00:41:33 --> 00:41:38
			Allah bless you and honor you and
allow us to feel that same love
		
00:41:38 --> 00:41:40
			that you're talking about and
increase you and that Allah, Amin,
		
00:41:41 --> 00:41:45
			I love to also ask you about your
studies. You are studying
		
00:41:47 --> 00:41:50
			Mashallah. You're doing your
masters in Islam in Europe. What?
		
00:41:50 --> 00:41:52
			What exactly is your studies
about? Because that's something
		
00:41:52 --> 00:41:57
			that you know, there's so much
history for Muslims in so many
		
00:41:57 --> 00:42:00
			different parts of the world, and
being able to learn about Islamic
		
00:42:00 --> 00:42:04
			history in those parts, allows us
as Muslims, wherever we are, to
		
00:42:04 --> 00:42:08
			feel more connected to our whole
ummah. So can you share with us a
		
00:42:08 --> 00:42:09
			little bit about that as well?
		
00:42:11 --> 00:42:15
			So Islam in Europe as a Master of
Studies here in Bosnia, in the at
		
00:42:15 --> 00:42:18
			the Faculty of Islamic Studies is
something that is a new program,
		
00:42:18 --> 00:42:22
			master program here in Bosnia, and
it is in English. It is the first
		
00:42:22 --> 00:42:26
			masters masters program in
English. So anyone here who is
		
00:42:26 --> 00:42:30
			like, even from the United States
or from the Europe, pardon, and
		
00:42:30 --> 00:42:33
			who wants to join this masters can
can join it. I think there is
		
00:42:33 --> 00:42:37
			like, if you, if you like, visit
the f i n.pa
		
00:42:38 --> 00:42:41
			This is the website, www, f i
n.ba,
		
00:42:43 --> 00:42:46
			so you can visit there, and you
can kind of check out the more
		
00:42:46 --> 00:42:47
			information. So what it meant to
me?
		
00:42:49 --> 00:42:52
			First of all, it was a new
experience for me, because it was
		
00:42:52 --> 00:42:57
			my first master's studies, that it
was my first, like, official
		
00:42:57 --> 00:43:01
			studies that I did in English. So
this is we do not have, like the
		
00:43:01 --> 00:43:06
			full time programs about Islam
here in Bosnia in English. So it
		
00:43:06 --> 00:43:10
			is like, Oh, I saw that this is an
opportunity to learn Islam and to
		
00:43:10 --> 00:43:14
			learn it in English, because I
love English, and this is and I
		
00:43:14 --> 00:43:17
			love, kind of using it in my
everyday life, and I kind of see
		
00:43:17 --> 00:43:22
			it as a really useful tool to kind
of spread this beautiful message
		
00:43:22 --> 00:43:28
			of Islam. So that was one of my
like first thoughts when I saw
		
00:43:28 --> 00:43:33
			this, like a fly, a flyer about
the studies. The second thing is,
		
00:43:34 --> 00:43:39
			when we say Islam in Europe, it is
a really weird thing to think
		
00:43:39 --> 00:43:42
			about, because when you see, like,
you have friends, you have the UK,
		
00:43:42 --> 00:43:45
			you have the state, you have,
like, many different countries
		
00:43:45 --> 00:43:50
			where, where Islam is not really
like, recognizable by you cannot
		
00:43:50 --> 00:43:55
			think about, you only like, see
the Islamophobia part of these, of
		
00:43:55 --> 00:43:59
			these, of these countries. So I
kind of wanted to know, what does
		
00:43:59 --> 00:44:03
			it mean to be a Muslim in Europe.
What does it mean to understand
		
00:44:03 --> 00:44:08
			Islam from a European perspective
or from a European view? And then
		
00:44:08 --> 00:44:11
			throughout, throughout that
masters, I learned that
		
00:44:12 --> 00:44:16
			that the translation, for example,
of the Quran, happened so long
		
00:44:16 --> 00:44:20
			time ago, and it was like in the
Latin language, and it was like in
		
00:44:21 --> 00:44:24
			from for all different reasons,
and then it kind of brought me a
		
00:44:24 --> 00:44:27
			new perspective of the Quran.
People will, kind of,
		
00:44:28 --> 00:44:32
			they will read the Quran, but it
will not guide them. And we always
		
00:44:32 --> 00:44:35
			asked ourselves, how is that? Some
people read the Quran, but it
		
00:44:35 --> 00:44:39
			doesn't guide them. It is by your
intention that it is guiding you,
		
00:44:39 --> 00:44:43
			or this guiding you, the Quran is
like that. So there are, there
		
00:44:43 --> 00:44:48
			were people in our history who
recited the Quran, or who knew,
		
00:44:48 --> 00:44:52
			who have read the Quran, they
translated it into different
		
00:44:52 --> 00:44:57
			languages, but they never became
Muslims. Why? One of the reasons
		
00:44:57 --> 00:44:59
			that I see is that they didn't
want it to be.
		
00:45:00 --> 00:45:04
			Guided by this book. They didn't
try to find guidance in it. They
		
00:45:04 --> 00:45:09
			just saw it as a piece of like a
paper or a book that comes from
		
00:45:09 --> 00:45:13
			the enemy, or for someone who we
do not know, or someone who that
		
00:45:13 --> 00:45:13
			we do not like.
		
00:45:15 --> 00:45:17
			And I kind of always see it that
		
00:45:18 --> 00:45:23
			Quran comes to you the way you
want to come to it, the way you
		
00:45:23 --> 00:45:27
			kind of it is always like on two
two sides to it is a two way
		
00:45:27 --> 00:45:32
			street, so to say, not only one.
So what you expect from it, you
		
00:45:32 --> 00:45:35
			will get from it. What you want
give to it, you will get again
		
00:45:35 --> 00:45:35
			from it.
		
00:45:36 --> 00:45:42
			What else? Maybe. Another really
nice part of this master studies
		
00:45:42 --> 00:45:45
			is that you kind of get to know
many international students. So we
		
00:45:45 --> 00:45:49
			have students from Bangladesh, we
had students from the US. We had
		
00:45:49 --> 00:45:53
			so so many different students. And
you kind of get to know new
		
00:45:53 --> 00:45:57
			perspectives. You kind of don't
think about how
		
00:45:58 --> 00:46:02
			different is it is to be a Muslim
in Bangladesh and in like India
		
00:46:02 --> 00:46:07
			and in Bosnia, and then on the
other way of the world, in the US.
		
00:46:07 --> 00:46:12
			When you get to know these people,
you kind of get get to know more
		
00:46:12 --> 00:46:17
			of the beauty of Islam. How, how
so many, there are so many people
		
00:46:17 --> 00:46:23
			who try to live this, this, this
religion, this faith, and they
		
00:46:23 --> 00:46:26
			love it, but they live, they live
it, maybe in a completely
		
00:46:27 --> 00:46:30
			different way than you how you see
it today, and you have, like, the
		
00:46:30 --> 00:46:33
			same things that that were shared
in common, like the prayers, like
		
00:46:33 --> 00:46:38
			the fast, the basics of Islam.
However, for example, they their
		
00:46:38 --> 00:46:40
			the look of their hijab is
completely different. And then how
		
00:46:40 --> 00:46:45
			the men are like covering and how
they are dressed. It is completely
		
00:46:45 --> 00:46:49
			different, but it is all a part of
our religion. It is all a part of
		
00:46:49 --> 00:46:53
			our beautiful faith, and it kind
of gives you the kind of a
		
00:46:53 --> 00:46:57
			perspective that Subhanallah, this
is what Allah promises in the
		
00:46:57 --> 00:47:02
			Quran Wa jalnakum, Kaba, or open
waqabah In a little arafu
		
00:47:02 --> 00:47:06
			Subhanallah, so that we can know
each other more. And by knowing
		
00:47:06 --> 00:47:11
			each other more, you will get
aware of Allah more, because we
		
00:47:11 --> 00:47:15
			will know that this is that's what
Allah has created. It is not by
		
00:47:15 --> 00:47:17
			someone else. It is he who
		
00:47:18 --> 00:47:23
			kind of joined us together, and it
is He who made a decision to kind
		
00:47:23 --> 00:47:27
			of create us differently. He if he
wanted, we can we could all be the
		
00:47:27 --> 00:47:31
			same, we could all look the same,
we could always the same, but he
		
00:47:31 --> 00:47:36
			didn't want it. So it is His mercy
and it is his wisdom to create us
		
00:47:36 --> 00:47:39
			differently, and we have to
respect those differences, and we
		
00:47:39 --> 00:47:43
			have to kind of try to find a
matching point for all of us to,
		
00:47:43 --> 00:47:43
			kind of
		
00:47:45 --> 00:47:51
			to find a aid or a place or a
thought or a.or that connects us
		
00:47:51 --> 00:47:56
			together, if we, if we manage to
find this.or this place, this
		
00:47:56 --> 00:48:00
			topic, this opinion, that kind of
gets, gets us all together, then
		
00:48:00 --> 00:48:05
			we can come over all differences.
And if you go to a Muslim in
		
00:48:05 --> 00:48:07
			Europe, you go to a Muslim in
		
00:48:08 --> 00:48:12
			in Asia, in the US, in every part
of the world, if you ask them, Do
		
00:48:12 --> 00:48:16
			you believe in Allah? Of course
they will say, they do. Do you
		
00:48:16 --> 00:48:19
			believe in in the Prophet
sallallahu, sallam? Of course they
		
00:48:19 --> 00:48:24
			will say they do so if you share
this point of view at the
		
00:48:24 --> 00:48:28
			beginning, if you if they believe
in Allah, they if they say Laila,
		
00:48:28 --> 00:48:32
			illallah, Muhammad or Rasulullah,
then it is, it is the most
		
00:48:32 --> 00:48:35
			important basic point that you can
		
00:48:36 --> 00:48:40
			that you can start from, if you
want to kind of build this sense
		
00:48:40 --> 00:48:44
			of uniqueness and kind of to feel
like the part of one Ummah, one
		
00:48:44 --> 00:48:51
			like one community that is all
over the world. So this belief of
		
00:48:51 --> 00:48:56
			having Allah and having his
messenger in our lives is a
		
00:48:56 --> 00:49:01
			treasure. It is a gem. It is
something that is so beautiful and
		
00:49:01 --> 00:49:03
			worthy for all of the Muslims.
		
00:49:04 --> 00:49:07
			And that is something that we
should all kind of remind
		
00:49:07 --> 00:49:13
			ourselves, if we share this basic
belief together Inshallah, then we
		
00:49:13 --> 00:49:18
			can overcome all of our
differences in our opinions, etc,
		
00:49:18 --> 00:49:23
			because we respect each other
based on this. So yes, the way
		
00:49:23 --> 00:49:26
			that you speak so much love for
the Quran, so much love for Allah,
		
00:49:26 --> 00:49:29
			so much love for this ummah, and
it's something so beautiful to
		
00:49:29 --> 00:49:33
			witness, because so many times
when we see people talking about
		
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			Islam, it's kind of this, like,
very negative, like, we have so
		
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			many problems, we're so far away.
But the way that you talk about is
		
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			he's there for us, and we can, you
know, reach him, and we can reach
		
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			one another through him. It's just
so beautiful. Masha Allah,
		
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			JazakAllah, khayr, for so such
uplifting message and so much
		
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			hope. Masha Allah, in our final
few minutes that we have,
		
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			if somebody.
		
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			Is really struggling with their
relationship with Allah, because
		
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			the way you're speaking about
Allah is really based in so much
		
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			love, you know, what if? What if
they don't feel that same love?
		
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			What if they're struggling with
feeling love for Allah? They know
		
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			they believe in him, but they
don't. They haven't developed that
		
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			love yet. How to develop that
love? What do you recommend for
		
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			someone to develop that
		
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			they always say, like, in order to
kind of accept someone or to
		
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			respect someone, you should first
of all get to know him. So my
		
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			first advice to anyone there who
is struggling in their own
		
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			relationship to Allah, and this is
something that all we get, all of
		
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			us get through. This is something
that none of us kind of was
		
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			saved from. I'm getting through
these troubles as well. I think
		
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			you do, you start. I hope I think
that you are, because this is
		
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			something that we, all of the
people who want to get to, Allah,
		
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			they have these periods of time in
their lives where just they do not
		
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			feel it they have like it is, like
it is as if there is a barrier
		
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			between them and Allah, that
something that something stopping
		
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			them to get there, to get to feel
the deepness of that relationship.
		
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			And this is something that all we
all feel that you are not the so
		
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			you're not weird, you're not like
different, you're not bad person
		
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			because of that. It is just the
way we do. It is the basics of our
		
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			nature as humans. And when I get
to these,
		
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			when I have two things that I
would recommend, and first one is,
		
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			if you are in this, in this, in
this spot in your life, then first
		
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			of all, get to know your Lord. If
you know Him, you will first of
		
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			all respect him, and then you will
love him. I know what I read
		
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			Subhanallah, whenever I kind of
try to increase my taqwa, and
		
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			whenever I try to increase my
awareness of Allah, and read about
		
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			it, I first, I always felt like
first, this the sense of
		
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			a deep, deep kind of
		
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			admire, admires of I admired Allah
subhanho wa taala, first of all,
		
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			kind of wow, what a beautiful
creator he is. Wow, what a loving
		
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			Creator he is, and how merciful he
is. And I kind of always kind of
		
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			felt this admire in my heart, in
my heart, and then, of like, with
		
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			so much respect towards him. And
then, like after that respect, I
		
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			kind of always felt Subhanallah,
if anyone is worthy of being
		
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			loved, then it is him, because
he's nobody is like him, and
		
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			nobody will is you can be compared
to him. So kind of when I when we,
		
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			when we get to know him better and
not know him by information. It is
		
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			not about I know about Allah. I
know his 99 names. I know about
		
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			what, how he creates. I know he
created this, uh, he sent this
		
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			book. I know he all of that. No to
know it by heart, meaning like to
		
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			internalize it and to feel it in
your heart. Subhanallah, what does
		
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			it mean that he is Al Kareem al
Rahman al Rahim. What does it mean
		
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			in your everyday life? How do you
see this Allah's name in your
		
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			everyday life? Subhanallah, if you
see him his names in your life,
		
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			then you will know Him better by
your heart. And that's the main
		
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			most important thing, and it is
doesn't matter how many
		
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			information you possess and how
many things you know. The the most
		
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			important thing is how quality of
your information is not the
		
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			quantity, not the amount, but of
course, it is better to increase
		
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			in it in the amount, but the
quality is much better meaning
		
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			when you learn something, try to
internalize it in your heart, try
		
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			to kind of connect to it, try to
live it, and then go after it. And
		
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			the second thing that kind of,
that kind of always gets me, and
		
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			gives me so much motivation in my
everyday life, when I get into in
		
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			the in the period. So I love
Allah. I try to have the
		
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			connection with him. But then this
period comes when I feel, when
		
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			there is a lot of stress in my
life, and there is like we feel
		
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			anxiety. We'd have so many
obligations to do. We have so many
		
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			things that are waiting for us.
And we kind of decrease our
		
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			relationship with Allah, we kind
of decrease our awareness. We kind
		
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			of become more like Rafi. I cannot
remember the translation. We kind
		
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			of do not think about it so much
as we should, and as we kind of do
		
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			when we are increasing our
relationship with Allah. And then
		
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			when that that period comes to me,
I kind of always like to explain
		
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			myself to Allah, meaning to kind
of say, Allah, I'm struggling.
		
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			Allah, having a really hard time.
It is really hard for me. I cannot
		
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			do this anymore.
		
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			I I'm struggling. Is I'm not
feeling you.
		
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			Close as much as I wanted to, not
kind of I feel so far from you,
		
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			please, Allah, give me the way out
from this. And when I kind of open
		
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			my heart, it is like opening your
heart towards Allah. When I,
		
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			whenever I open my heart, I always
feel like, oh, he has given me a
		
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			way out. I always, at least like
after, just right after the DUA,
		
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			even though nothing was changed in
my life, I always, I immediately
		
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			feel like the sense of relief. I
do not know it is what, how Allah
		
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			gives it, but I immediately always
feel like the sense of relief,
		
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			because, oh, Allah will solve it.
Everything is going to be fine. Do
		
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			not panic. Not do not go like
overboard, and then later on, if I
		
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			keep on going with that, if I keep
kind of trying to explain again,
		
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			how am I going? How am I feeling?
How am What am I going through to
		
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			Allah, kind of
		
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			through time. Everything goes on
on the right place, not maybe
		
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			always in the time when I want it,
but on the time when Allah wants
		
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			it and when it is with the best
for me. So to kind of have that,
		
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			not kind of expect respect from
Allah, to kind of solve all of
		
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			your problems and all of your
sorrows when you want it. No,
		
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			Allah doesn't work like that. He
gives it to you when, when you
		
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			when it is the best for you. And
we have to accept it, even though
		
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			it is not so easy for us all the
time to kind of accept this, this
		
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			way of thinking in our life. So
may Allah, May Allah guide us to,
		
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			first of all, remember him, to get
to know Him, and to kind of when
		
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			we know him, to to know him by our
hearts, by our deeds, by what we
		
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			are talking and where we are
going, etc. The second is, may
		
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			Allah give us
		
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			when we come to the to the places
and times when we do not feel him
		
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			as close, may Allah give us open
our hearts and our the doors to
		
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			him, so that we do not get too
much away from him, and that we do
		
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			not kind of get that our heart
doesn't stuck in that, in that
		
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			like feeling of being being away
from Allah, because there is not a
		
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			greater
		
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			hardship in our lives than being
aware far from Allah, all of you
		
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			can, kind of, you can kind of get
all
		
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			over, All of the things and all of
the temptations and struggles in
		
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			our in our lives. But if you are
from far from Allah, you you can
		
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			never, never be Yeah, I can never
be happy. I think those periods
		
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			when I feel far from Allah are the
worst ones in my life. So may
		
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			Allah save me and all of us from
it. May Allah protect us from
		
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			being away from him and kind of be
neglected towards him. And May
		
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			Allah guide, May Allah guide us to
understand him, to understand his
		
00:57:49 --> 00:57:53
			book and to understand its
meanings and to kind of practice
		
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			it in our day or day lives. That
was so beautiful. And as you were
		
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			talking about the names of Allah,
there's a beautiful book called
		
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			reflecting on the names of Allah,
and it's by Gina and Yusuf, the
		
00:58:04 --> 00:58:08
			Jina and Yusuf. And she actually
has a journal that you can also
		
00:58:08 --> 00:58:11
			purchase with it, that you can
write your journey to the names of
		
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			Allah and learning about his names
and how they interact with your
		
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			life. So I really recommend
reflecting on the names of Allah,
		
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			by Jinnah and Yusuf. And
definitely, if you feel like you
		
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			have spiritual trauma, definitely
work with a therapist to process
		
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			it so that, Inshallah, you can
move forward. That is such a
		
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			beautiful, beautiful way to close
with such important advice for all
		
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			of us. Bottle of Fiji, who said
that, I mean, this was so
		
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			beautiful. Masha Allah, it was
just such a gift to hear your
		
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			words and to learn about how to
come closer to Las montalla. I
		
00:58:42 --> 00:58:45
			know that we started talking about
Quran, but as our conversation
		
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			evolved, I just felt like there
are so many different aspects that
		
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			you can teach all of us, and we
will continue to benefit from you.
		
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			Your handle on Instagram is
family, F, A, M, I, L, y, b, o, t,
		
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			i, c, and if anyone wants to
contact you can they send you a
		
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			message through that account? Of
course they can. Of course they
		
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			can. They're very welcome. Yes,
actually, my husband and I,
		
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			together kind of use that account
because I we do not use Instagram
		
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			as much, so we kind of joined,
join the accounts together. But if
		
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			they are, they want, they can send
me a message. And of course, I'm
		
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			available on Facebook as well. So
it is only my account on Facebook
		
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			if they it, if it is easier for
them, so we can send it
		
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			afterwards, if it's okay.
		
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			And mashallah, her husband, is
also a huge dairy Masha Allah, He
		
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			worker in Dawa, and someone who
calls to Allah has shared his
		
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			story just so powerful. And
subhanAllah, you're a power
		
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			couple. Who is calling people to
Allah. May Allah bless you and
		
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			your relationship. Bless your
relationship with Allah, SWT,
		
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			bless the work that you both do in
calling people to him. Masha,
		
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			Allah, I mean, I mean, may Allah
use us. May Allah use us as his
		
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			tool to kind of call people to
him. May Allah uses as his tool.
		
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			It is the most, the biggest.
		
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			Honor. This whole earth is truly
such a huge such honors panel
		
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			about alofiki. Thank you so much.
And Inshallah, we will see you
		
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			again soon.
		
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			Inshallah,
		
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			for you to come to like Baraka
lofiki, and thank you all for
		
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			joining salam alaikum. You