Maryam Amir – Being People Who Remember
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The speaker discusses their experience with women in their work, including struggles with finding work and finding women to work with. They share a narration about the importance of living the operation and viewing the numbers to make it happen. The speaker emphasizes the need to live the operation and make it happen.
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To Go. Alhamdulillah, had the honor of going to Medina. And for
Medina, a very special place to go is the road. I wanted to visit the
rodam, the Prophet sallallahu, alayhi wa sallam. And I was only
in Medina for 15 hours. For any of you who've gone to Medina, you
know, getting into the Roda for women in particular is
exceptionally difficult, even if you're there for a week. I was
only there for 15 hours. So I went from one gate to the next, asking,
please, please, can Can I get into the role? I'm not trying to cut
from anyone. There's 1000s of people. But would you tell me what
is the time that I can come to get into the Rolla.
I sat and I made dua, and I begged ALLAH to open the doors of the
Rolla for me. And there was no way I could get in because the woman's
slot was closing, and they told me come tomorrow. At this time in a
child I will get in.
I came tomorrow before that time, and do you know what I saw
before the time? They told me I saw them admit
the last woman, and they closed the gate in my face.
I left larola,
unable to look at the sky of Medina.
I couldn't look at the Earth of Medina. I could not look at the
masjid of Medina.
I felt like I did something so great that Allah made me is
displeased with me. How can I be in Medina
and not be able to go into the ruler
and as I'm walking away from the robot, walking back to the hotel,
all of a sudden, the ayah that came to my mind was about the
three companions of the Prophet. So long are they he was they are
mentioned in tort soba, and they are described
to have felt
help them all
unto any love.
They felt like the whole entire earth is just constricting them.
Themselves. Are being constricted.
There's nowhere to go from Allah except to Allah.
This is in terms of Toba I memorized sort of Toba years
before,
and I'm going to tell you very openly
that when I was memorizing it, the very first day I met with my
teacher, she was so excited at the time I was studying in Egypt, and
She said to him,
I was nervous. Starts at topa, is very heavy,
and that emotion never changed for me. But starts at Toba, I
memorized her tobah, and it was the hardest Surah for me to
memorize. I would review sorts of Toba, and it was so hard for me to
remember the verses. And while, of course, we all believe and love
all parts of the Quran, I didn't have an emotional connection with
sorts of Toba. I had no deep connection with sorts of Toba. And
I would make dua
for my heart to feel love the emotional connection to swords. It
Toba
when this happened, and the first and only verse that came to my
mind was in swords and Toba.
All of a sudden, the emotional connection that I could not have
felt for years opened.
Now, when I am in pain, I go to swords and Toba. The entire
playwright back was just listening for almost 15 hours on playing
sorts of Toba,
Sora. Toba for me has become a surah of refuge.
And that door would not have opened for me in that way, had it
not been such a devastating closure for me in this way.
Alhamdulillah, I was blessed with going to Medina this past
December. Again, I was there for a very short time. Now they didn't
have this that last time, but this time, they have a new system. You
have to apply through an
app, and you can only go one time in a whole year, and you only can
apply for the spot that's available when it opens up. No
spots were available at all.
I went from one person to the nest asking, How can I get in? They
told me go to the app client. Hours and hours of asking. I spent
hours asking, trying to get in, hours. And I remember that there
was a sister who had told me, literally, the month before, she
had gone to Medina and she had made in the roadblock room.
Need to get into the Robo. So I'm looking at bash.
She may draw me in the Robo. To get into the room, I have to get
into the room. There's no way about me. She may draw me in the
Robo. Then I get to the line, I wait, get to the end. I explain my
situation. I'm here for a short time. There's no spots on the app.
Can I get in? And the lady says, Sorry.
I say, Ya, Allah,
I turn away from the
and I wake up the next morning. And Sheik Akram najali is speaking
hafiahua scholar of Hadi. He's done so much harm on women of
Quran scholars, and he was speaking in the hotel next to me
after salatul Fajr, and I wanted to attend, so I go to the hotel
next to me, and it did huge hotel. I don't know where he's speaking.
I just know it's in the hotel. So I see a group of people speaking
in English, and I approach them, and I say, Excuse me, are you here
with alguna which for shift from speech? And they say, No, we're
with another group. I say, okay, Giuseppe Lafayette, I walk away,
and a sister from the group sees me, and she's like, Oh, are you
Miriam? I have Claudia. So she's talking to me about clariah for a
little bit. So I'm so grateful. Which, by the way, if you weren't
here yesterday, of Claudia, is the Quran reciters app for women.
Please download it. It's free. Q, A, R, I A, H, Claudia. So this is
just telling him to let she use his body. I'm so grateful. So
because we're standing here for a second, there's a whole bunch of
women and a group guy. There's a brother who's a guy. So he comes
up to me and the sister, because we're a little bit away from the
group. So he comes up to us and he says, he looks at me, he says,
Sister, are you coming with us to the roll up? I
said, No, no, Hi, I'm not part of this group. He said, you'll not
come with us to the robot.
I said, I'm not, I'm not part of your group. I have a permit. He's
like, you'll love us when I come
to the
I cannot explain to you the thought process for me, the first
time I blamed myself so much. What am I doing in my life? That's
displeasing to Allah.
But you know what? I didn't think
policy, because the majority of men get into the world, and that's
because the world is open. 24/7 for men, women have very short
times and 1000s upon 1000s upon 1000s of us are trying to get in.
I saw 1000s of women in line. I saw hundreds turn away because
they are not rich enough to have a smartphone.
They don't have data that's available at all times because you
can't show a screenshot. It has to be a Live app. They don't speak
English or arrogant, which are the only two languages that they could
choose. There are lots of ways in which access is not available to
get into the Loblaw for sisters. And yes, I definitely have things
to work on. But also sometimes, as women, we blame ourselves before
we look at what externally can I do to Yes, improve myself
Inshallah, but also change the reality for other sisters not to
have to go through what I'm going through and blame themselves and
then see it as a projection onto who Allah is being people who
remember Allah. Are people who remember Allah, yes, when we are
tested on a personal level, but also when we are tested because we
are a woman. And as we end, I want to share with you a narration of
Judea Ibn multi
because when we're talking about being people who remember Allah,
being people who remember the Quran, being people who when we
look around the world, we see through the lens of Quran,
sometimes we are very hard on ourselves, because we should be
hard on ourselves in the sense of we want to improve, okay, but not
to the point that we hate ourselves because we wish we used
to be better like we wish we used to be the person before we had
children. We wish we used to be the person when we could spend
hours in the night worshiping. We wish we could be the person when
we were 15 or 20 or 30. We think back to when we had time and
health and energy. And I wish I could be or we look at other
people and we think, I wish I could be like that. I want to get
to that place, but I'm not there. When will I ever get there? How
will I ever get there? And this companion is a companion of the
Prophet salallahu alayhi wa salam. He had already converted to Islam.
He was praying Muslim with the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa
salam. And when he is praying Muslim with the Prophet sallallahu
alayhi wa salam, the prophet Messiah. Were they created from
nothing?
Were they created from nothing? I.
Then the next verse talks about how Allah created the heavens and
the earth like so much greater than and yet they're still living
a belief. He said it was the first time I truly felt faith hit my
heart and it felt like I was going to fly, like my heart was going to
fly.
Abu Bakr only Allah. When he was the Khalifa, a group came from
Yemen, and they came and heard the Quran, and they began to weep. And
do you know what he said? He said, Hajj,
we used to be like this. And what does that tell you? Companions of
the Prophet SAW Abu, he would
recite Surah Mariam, where it says that they would make such death,
and they would weep. They would weep. And they would make such a
he makes such death. And he would say, Where are the tears? This is
the Sisha. Where are the tears? Sophia, ODI, Allahu, Akbar. Also,
people were reciting the same ayahs. They made Sasha without the
tears. And she said, Where are the tears? These are companions of the
Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam. And there were times that
they wept so uncontrollably because they were so scared of
going to *, even though they were promised paradise, some of
them.
And they were companions who were weak because of the beauty of the
Quran, and they were companions who would weep because they missed
the revelation, and they were companions who felt like they were
not good enough at times with the Quran because they were not
weeping. If that was the Companions, then what about me?
And me? There are angels that roam the earth looking for you,
reciting the Quran at any level of recitation or understanding or
trying to come closer to the Quran. And if there are times that
you don't feel the emotional connection with a squirrel, like I
struggle with swirl, or there are times that maybe, as a woman, you
struggle, I want you to know that there were women and men of
centuries past who have gone through that journey, who have
already left to me Allah subhanahu wa and there may be, Right now, a
tree that they planted that they are getting the reward for every
time a bird eats from that tree, or every time a little squirrel
seeks shade under it, that they forgot they even planted. And yet
the reward continues to go there is something you might have done
or do. Maybe you've taught your child how to say a pendulum, and
when they teach inshallah their child and their child and their
child and your great grandchildren inshaAllah, all that reward goes
back to you inshaAllah. Allah is so much more generous and kind
than we are to ourselves. So remember to be of the people. How
to be of the people who remember Allah salah. It's by living the
Quran and viewing the way that making insha Allah changed the
world through the words of the revelations.