Hosai Mojaddidi – Maryam (AS) A Woman Who Tasted the Sweetness of Faith

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The speakers discuss the impact of stories on women, including the importance of not denying one's love for a partner and not over-delivering. They also emphasize the importance of not letting people overburden and not limiting their emotions. The segment emphasizes the power of story for women and how it can restore connection with others. They also mention a woman named Mary who provided assessments to her and how she was impacted by young girls.

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			From the Mercy of Allah. Now,
there's a hadith, that competitive
		
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			narrative deposits and said, every
newborn babies touched by Shavon
		
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			when it's boring, and the baby
starts crying because of this
		
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			touch, except for many young men,
her son, Thomas panda actually
		
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			protected her hurt in that state's
Department. Now, imagine her
		
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			father actually passed away before
she was even fourth. Somebody I'm
		
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			never knew her father. So her
mother decided to send her to her
		
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			maternal. And so Hannah sister,
who was married to Prophet deputy.
		
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			So basically, they took on the
charges, and decided to raise her
		
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			in the service of the mess, she
can't, and she becomes a student
		
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			of progressivity about profit,
just right away, you can see some
		
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			of the openings.
		
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			Right? That she's now becoming a
student of comfort.
		
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			So one of the requests or the one
of the one of the blessings of
		
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			again, having being in his service
was that she had access to the
		
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			masjid. And she was given a
special chamber. That was entirely
		
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			hers. Okay. So she's included
herself. And this is, you know, as
		
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			a very young girl, this is just
what she did. She just had this
		
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			deep, profound love for us to
splinters off of family and people
		
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			and she just devoted herself to
worship of wholeness. What does
		
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			that really a narrates that there
are many times when we would enter
		
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			her room SubhanAllah. After weeks
days, she wouldn't step out. And
		
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			she never left her chambers and
maybe sort of leave herself but
		
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			she was very, very devoted in her
worship. And he would come into
		
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			her muscala. And he would find
fruits that were out of season in
		
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			her room.
		
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			Right. So imagine it's summer, and
there's winter fruits a lot in her
		
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			room, or expenditure, and there's
summer fruits in her room. And so
		
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			you would ask her, where did you
get these foods from? You never?
		
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			How did you even get them? Right?
It's out of season. And her
		
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			response. She said,
		
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			he said to me away from wherever
you bought this and she said, this
		
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			is from on, Verily Allah provide
sustenance to those.
		
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			So Allah subhanaw taala would
deliver to her beautiful fruits,
		
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			again, we're talking about those
who are coming in story of
		
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			medieval knights. And the topic
that I was given was to talk about
		
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			the sweetness of faith. So I
thought the story really captured
		
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			that. And here's just one example.
Again, the sweetness of faith and
		
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			fruits being delivered
		
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			to your room. And of course, a law
is capable of all things. So she
		
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			SUPREME LAW spends her days and
nights where she rarely sees
		
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			people and then all of a sudden,
we know this part of the story,
		
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			right? One day, something strange
happens to her someone she's never
		
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			seen before insurance, her room in
the form of a man. This is angels
		
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			review, I said, and she's
completely frightened and
		
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			terrified. This is a woman, a
young girl, not even a woman who
		
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			did not meet with people, and to
have suddenly a strange man in her
		
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			room. You can imagine how
terrifying that was. For her day,
		
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			she warned him to fear a lot,
thinking that he's there to hurt
		
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			her and he tells her mind only a
messenger from your Lord to
		
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			provide you to give him a
righteous son. So again, you know,
		
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			try and place yourself in her
shoes for just a moment. Rewind
		
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			your brain 1000s of years back.
Like she's so innocent, has no
		
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			concept of what is happening to
her. And he's telling when she's
		
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			about to have a child. Any of us
would have, you know, clearly a
		
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			breakdown or some type, but some
time a lot in that moment. She
		
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			stunned and says and how can I
have a son when you're in such me
		
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			and I do not commit? We get x and
he responds that will be your Lord
		
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			says it's easy for me and we will
make him assign to the people and
		
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			diversity from us. And it is a
matter already decree. So
		
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			basically, almost pilot can do su
wills. So she in that moment did
		
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			she pretest she breakdown she
rather than hysterics. Her faith
		
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			is now being seriously tested.
Right? Her family and Michelle
		
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			she's displayed her devotion
clearly. She loves Allah
		
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			paradata he loves her in return is
evidence. Now the test is coming.
		
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			So this is for us to surprise here
for a moment, when we reflect on
		
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			the stories, whether it's the
profits of these incredible
		
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			people that you know, the stories
that we hear of other people as
		
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			well,
		
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			who are tested, despite their
incredible faith, we have to then
		
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			come back and remember that yet
that that is just the, you know,
		
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			the what happens on our people are
tested, every single one of us
		
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			will face tests in this life. And
it's just part of being here part
		
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			of this experience, because the
video is designed to test us. So
		
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			we have this is from almost says,
you know, do they say that they
		
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			believe and they don't expect to
be tested. So he's telling us
		
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			right and in their expense tests.
Right? This part of how is she
		
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			thought, of course, he will, you
know, this is part of his tactic
		
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			to make you question, doubt, put
doubt in yourself doubt in a love
		
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			that just fill you with all of
these negative negative thoughts
		
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			when the tests come. But the
response that you have, really is
		
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			where you prove your faith, how
you respond to this. So
		
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			if you protest, why me, woe is me,
or you reject it, and you are
		
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			angry, I actually heard this from
a before where he expressed anger,
		
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			like, this is an injustice, I
don't deserve this, I did
		
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			everything right. And as the hot
up, you know, people get really,
		
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			really angry sometimes because
they don't understand almost have
		
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			this decree. But again, if you
have that concrete in your head,
		
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			you're very clear on that, that
you will be tested with how you
		
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			respond is where you grew your
faith, then it becomes clear that
		
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			accepting the Creoles
		
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			is the best choice instead of
resisting, right. And that's
		
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			exactly what she did. So it's the
kind of law as steady as she is.
		
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			She accepts her degree, to realize
breathes in to her role. And she
		
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			comes.
		
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			She goes through all the horrible
signs of pregnancy. And then the
		
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			rumors of course, the strike.
People notice these things, right,
		
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			even though she was,
		
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			you know, in her chambers, when
she did not leave you for
		
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			specific things, people notice
she's growing, she's
		
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			experimenting, and cell phone
while rumors began to spread. So
		
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			she decided that point, again, I
want you to think about her age
		
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			and the incredible pressure she
must have felt to protect her
		
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			reputation, right to protect the
reputation of her families. She
		
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			makes this decision as a young
girl who barely ventured out of
		
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			her chambers, let alone walked
alone in the, you know, into the
		
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			streets of where she works, she
made the decision to completely
		
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			leave. Right, so she leaves and
runs away.
		
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			According to the fear, she ran
away. And when she reached that
		
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			area between a sham in Egypt, she
was overcome by Labor paints.
		
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			And another narration this took
place eight miles from the Sacred
		
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			House of Jerusalem in a village in
Bethlehem. So just you know if
		
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			you've ever been in these parts of
the world that you can visualize
		
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			that. But she went really far from
her
		
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			from her home from her chambers.
		
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			And she knew that she was going to
be tested with the birth. She knew
		
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			people were not a sister who were
already spreading rumors about
		
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			her, they would not believe her
story. And, you know, especially
		
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			because she was known to be so
developed, right? And now to
		
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			imagine that people are spreading
rumors about her that she's a
		
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			foreign caterer, she's done this
horrible deal. She just knew that
		
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			she couldn't depend on anything.
She had to do this by herself. So
		
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			in her anguish and pain, and I'm
just imagining these words coming
		
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			from her, she said wood that I had
died before this and had been
		
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			forgotten and out of sight. So
sometimes, you know, this, things
		
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			can get overwhelming for you,
right? I mean, here's this little
		
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			girl, pretty much young girl going
through such a deep tribulation.
		
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			And don't you know, people often
get very
		
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			sanctimonious and self righteous
when they judge people's pain and
		
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			rush and they don't realize that
people process and cope
		
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			differently. And if you make a
momentary statement out of pain,
		
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			or just, you know, it's
overwhelming you don't let someone
		
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			shame you and make you feel like
		
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			I made a statement of cover and
what's wrong with you. You see
		
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			people even after someone dies, a
loved one, they're already being
		
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			policed about what they should
should say,
		
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			This is wrong. And you have to
stop that as a community and
		
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			realize that sometimes in the
moment, because you will become so
		
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			overwhelmed, and they don't
understand they made a statement
		
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			by the ocean, just die, you know,
and that's not doesn't mean that
		
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			they're terrible people, and they
all have faith, and they don't
		
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			have even a means not a moment,
their heart is broken. And they
		
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			really don't understand and you
should reach out with empathy and
		
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			love. And with compassion instead
of judgments. Gender is very, very
		
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			ugly quality. And we, you know,
unfortunately, though, it's just
		
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			very common that people will react
that way. So here, we just look at
		
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			this example. She made a statement
like that, because I was too
		
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			overwhelming for her.
		
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			Right, but she reviews, divining
striper self Rolando, she is
		
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			hailed as one of the four perfect
women.
		
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			So again, take comfort that these
are human emotions, and we're
		
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			allowed to be human.
		
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			So
		
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			she finally is
		
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			and is incredibly weak. And all
over again, imagine her situation.
		
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			She's under a tree. There's
nobody. I mean, anybody, how many
		
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			students here have delivered a
child? Right? How many have been
		
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			completely alone, delivering a
child like nope, not a single
		
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			soul? I think so. The idea of
going through something like that,
		
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			for the first time as a young,
fragile age 10 is terrifying.
		
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			That's how a lot
		
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			you know, when you have almost a
potluck on your side, you can get
		
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			through anything. And her story is
a perfect example. So here, she's
		
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			under this tree or family,
husband, no siblings, nobody holds
		
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			her hand to comfort her through
what she's just been through.
		
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			So she, of course, is in this
agonizing state, with some kind of
		
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			love her Lord was guiding her all
along, the voice came down to her
		
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			in that state, do not grieve. Your
Lord has provided very few there
		
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			was a stream, right for her to
have fresh water and fold it and
		
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			shake toward you the trunk of the
palm tree, it will draw upon you
		
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			right and fresh sheets. So this
was called on to her. So eat and
		
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			drink and be contented. And if you
see
		
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			these analyses, remember a direct
order to her. If you see anybody,
		
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			any human being, say, indie I have
valid to the most versatile,
		
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			abstention. So I will not speak to
anybody.
		
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			So somehow the law does such a
powerful thing. She's gone through
		
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			so much. She didn't feel like she
could count on any human being.
		
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			And I was part of that because
again, confirming you don't need
		
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			any of them. You don't need to
talk to any of them.
		
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			Okay, I am with you.
		
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			The people actually went out
		
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			spreading, they're very concerned
about what happened to her. She
		
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			just disappeared out of thin air.
They went out to vote for her
		
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			people are asking other people
along the way. If they saw her,
		
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			they actually found a shepherd.
And he said that he didn't see her
		
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			but he saw something very strange
that he'd never seen before. I
		
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			said he saw a bright lights and
his cattle, all of them
		
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			did something that he hadn't seen
before they prostrated in the
		
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			direction of where the light came
from. So somehow on the witness
		
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			that all we said at that time
		
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			with his legs was shining so
bright. So he pointed them in
		
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			Mary in the meantime, her gathered
some strength and she decided at
		
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			that point to collect herself. She
remember that she was ordered to
		
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			do do not talk to anybody. She
collected herself. She gathered
		
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			her new infant
		
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			please, of course please
		
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			don't please. So haha, and she
decided to head back.
		
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			So she now is walking back and she
actually runs into the very group
		
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			that went out to look for her.
		
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			And they you know, surrounded her
and now it's there until it is
		
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			your man as a young girl. You have
this new Barbie and you cannot
		
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			tell
		
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			You've been ordered to silence.
And they're all standing there.
		
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			What are you doing? You know, the
shame that you brought a color
		
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			family, you know, like, accusing
her of all of this, but how could
		
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			you do this? How could you do this
to them? They treated us so well
		
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			he took you in when your father
passed away, and she just has to
		
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			stand up. She's taking their
abuses, taking their acquisitions
		
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			approach, she just didn't do it
all by herself.
		
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			All she could do was communicate
through sign language like, you
		
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			know, just trying to like, let
them know, they're about battery.
		
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			And so suddenly,
		
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			she points to the right.
		
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			And they said, how can we like
because she tried to tell them
		
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			like I'm talking to you.
		
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			Just wasn't any like, if you want
answers, and then like, what, how
		
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			can we speak to this?
		
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			Young, maybe how can we speak to
someone.
		
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			This is crazy, more, you know,
acquisitions, more abuses are
		
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			launched. And then somehow, worse,
we believe others capable of
		
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			anything. So he created that
infant, Isa, sleeves and he
		
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			responds, indeed, I am the servant
of all law. He has given me a
		
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			searcher and made me a Prophet.
And he has made me blessed
		
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			wherever I am, and doesn't join
the army prayer and so fat as long
		
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			as I remain alive, it made me
dutiful to my mother, and he does
		
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			not make the Election tyrant and
peace is army the day I was born
		
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			and the day I will die. And the
day I pray. So I
		
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			really just imagine if
		
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			this is it. This is why I always
say you don't need to defend
		
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			yourself. You don't need to speak
to anybody. I will do that for
		
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			you. And of course, immediately,
her honor was restored. And
		
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			everybody felt terrible. The
accusations are false that they
		
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			thought of her and it was elevated
her amongst and she had gone
		
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			somewhere peacefully with her son,
she never married again to shame
		
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			team that title of the Virgin
Mary, until she left this world.
		
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			There are so many incredible
lessons from this story that we
		
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			can draw on first before we
continue. Anybody have any
		
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			questions or comments to share?
		
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			Yes. So after the birth of the
Santa Fe, she didn't undergo any
		
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			other
		
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			VR this all of your what happened
to him was also a test for her as
		
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			a mother. Yes.
		
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			He was alive.
		
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			Yes. According to Yes.
		
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			Yes, I
		
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			talked about she was
		
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			that she actually
		
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			was a healer. And
		
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			mashallah, there might be
different accounts of her history.
		
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			So much on scholarship at this
beautiful. I'm sure it's true
		
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			Shama, but for the most part, it
was in her again, countless just
		
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			note about her that she felt the
majority of the majority of her
		
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			time she spent in her chambers
		
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			in devotion.
		
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			So, you know, the, the lessons are
hard to pull from this because
		
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			there's so many actually proceed
her story
		
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			in a sense that we looked at her
other right, let's look to Hannah,
		
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			and the power of sincere God,
because it's very natural. For
		
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			some of us who've been wanting or
yearning for something. Maybe
		
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			you've been making off for weeks
for months, maybe even years right
		
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			for a specific thing. And it
enters our hearts like you know,
		
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			it was a lot of the same stuff a
lot of people have these thoughts
		
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			to see here me. Am I there's
something wrong with me? Am I not
		
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			worthy? Where do you think these
types of thoughts come from? 100%
		
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			If you ever have a thought about
software alone, that listening to
		
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			you really tear every piece that
statement up, it's his last words,
		
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			right? Because almost nobody hears
everything. He's had knowledge of
		
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			everything. So the idea that he
doesn't listen to software the
		
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			last one or something is outside
of our we don't believe in that.
		
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			He listens to everything. There's
nothing that escapes his
		
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			knowledge. So write that in there.
You have to first know that's what
		
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			says appreciate it.
		
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			But then even when he makes you
doubt your self worth, because a
		
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			particular thought isn't being
answered, I can't tell you how
		
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			many people I've talked to that
immediately raced to that judgment
		
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			about themselves, that there's
something wrong with me. Because
		
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			I'm not my answer. My God isn't
the answer.
		
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			Supine a lot. You know, how many
people in history? Or how many
		
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			stories? Have you heard of people
who've been tested and tried by
		
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			something being withheld from
them? Or a loss? Right? You never
		
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			does anything suffered more than
he did. So suffering? Not, you
		
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			know, getting your dog answered,
or not having, you know, this
		
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			happy, perfect, I don't even know,
you know, what, what we think, you
		
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			know, sort of ideals we create
about, about life here on Earth,
		
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			but like, those are not proofs of
anybody's standing alone. If, in
		
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			fact, the opposite is true, that
people who are closer to them are
		
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			tested.
		
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			So you have to reject those
thoughts right away and say,
		
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			actually, if I'm being tested in
sha Allah, this is a good sign.
		
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			I'm being purified, right? We all
sin, we all are heedless, we all
		
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			do things that we shouldn't do.
And so this dunya is
		
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			that we should, we should welcome
being purified in this world, as
		
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			opposed to living it up and
having, you know, thinking that
		
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			we're, everything's fine. And then
someone showing up on the Day of
		
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			Judgment, full of surprises, I
don't want to know, we don't want
		
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			to surprise somebody in judgment,
right? We don't want to think that
		
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			oh, because I pray five times a
day, and I've worked out and I
		
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			faster in Oman, and everything
just seemed so perfect and good.
		
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			That you know, then you show up
and stuff like that. The balance
		
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			is not in your favor. That's not
we shouldn't want. So it should
		
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			look like no one. If these are
happening to me in this world. And
		
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			even though they're difficult to
bear, I have to be patient. How do
		
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			I just have to accept that this is
a real true blessing for most.
		
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			And so that's the power of you
know, again, sincere go out. And
		
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			she wanted a child for many, many
years. And it took that one moment
		
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			where she, you know, saw this
beautiful exchange and the mother
		
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			burning their check what she made
that daughter, sometimes
		
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			they say, oh, and that will bring
you to your knees. Right? Because
		
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			of that,
		
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			of your devotion in that moment.
So if you're, if you're asking
		
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			like, you know, prepare your
disciple, Allah give you this, and
		
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			it's kind of like a rush job.
		
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			You know, the Quality Matters
sometimes. And so if you have a
		
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			need, that you've wanted
fulfilled, for example, and you've
		
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			never once thought to make up for
the hedges, but yet, you wonder,
		
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			why isn't it being answered, maybe
that's the vehicle that you need
		
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			to take, that's the means with
which the dog might be accepted.
		
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			Or set up, there's so many
different ways that we can almost
		
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			like expedite, you know, our draw,
right? And you have to look at
		
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			what those opportunities are
fasting, giving, you know,
		
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			activity in the service of people
feeding people who are hungry,
		
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			doing things like that are ways to
inshallah increase the, the
		
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			chances of your dog being
answered, sometimes you just say
		
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			God is asking for gifts and
shoulders. Good enough, never
		
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			limit that. Take it to the next
level, because it could just be
		
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			that one moment of absolute
sincerity, where your heart is
		
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			broken, and you're crying, and
you're just like y'all please, I
		
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			really need this, as opposed to,
you know, just sort of casually
		
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			mentioning something. So think
about that equality.
		
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			And then think also about what
Hannah did when she received news
		
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			about her pregnancy. This is also
another great lesson opportunity
		
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			for us that when we want something
for like single sisters, for
		
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			example, are sisters who do want
children, sisters who are married
		
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			and maybe they they're sad,
they're having difficulty with
		
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			their spouses. When you're making
the offer something if you're
		
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			stuck on just the material thing
that you want. You're also
		
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			limiting the power to take your
advice to the next level. Right?
		
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			So if you want to be married,
don't want to be married just to
		
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			be coupled and have a fairytale
life just so that you can buy a
		
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			house and have you know
		
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			with perfect wedding and all the
things that people dream up about
		
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			marriage, we made the intention in
that moment that I want to be
		
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			married so that I can have, you
know, they can do incredible
		
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			things for y'all along with my
partner, that my partner and I are
		
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			like, we're, you know, the next
board members of MCC are like, you
		
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			know, doing amazing things for
this community. We're out there
		
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			serving, you know, Southern Lee
for kids Life Foundation, you're
		
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			helping orphans, but we're,
there's much more meaning in our
		
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			union than just the material from
a worldly aspect, right. Or if you
		
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			want a child the same way that
made her, you know, she balance
		
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			was that she was going to raise
her child in service of him. Take
		
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			that, you know, take your dog for
a child's at that level. Like I
		
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			don't want to just childhood how
to be getting co DS or s chakra
		
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			stroller, like pulling too close
and taking pictures. Right? And
		
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			then you're not so good at
		
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			what you want this child for? Why?
You know, in our cultures, I know
		
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			many of our cultures, it's like a
numbers game with women, right?
		
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			You have one shot one shot, you
have two wins, your next is never
		
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			enough.
		
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			For what purpose? You know, for
what purpose? Do we bring children
		
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			into this world? This is a place
of difficulty of challenge. If
		
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			it's selfish, things are so cute
nowadays, ask Allah, whether we
		
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			carry by name, you know, it's like
so limiting, so worldly. But how
		
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			about because I want them to be
the next. You know, so I haven't
		
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			been
		
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			I want them to do amazing. Very, I
want them to do amazing things.
		
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			These are the kinds of,
		
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			you know, intention, we should add
for, for whatever we want in this
		
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			world, even for wealth.
		
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			You know, if you want wealth, have
a good internship, but that
		
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			wealth, if you want success in
your job and your work, whatever
		
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			it is that you want us to give you
from the world, it's okay to ask.
		
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			But it beautifying the attention
by attaching it to love for him as
		
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			well. It's not just whatever
benefit you get. And this is what
		
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			we've learned from him this
example.
		
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			She could have, you know, throw it
right and write that in there, you
		
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			know, invite all her friends
called, you know, this is how we
		
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			react to us. But she took a moment
to really to feel the weight of
		
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			what happened to her, someone else
had that opens doors for you. If
		
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			you're really engaged, if you just
found that you're pregnant. If you
		
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			are falling in love in the moment
right now with someone
		
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			to take a moment to really
appreciate what's happening.
		
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			Take a moment to really pause and
look at that blessing those type
		
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			of feelings even if you already
have children.
		
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			Really, and how many times do we
sit there and look at them. And
		
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			just today, for example, I
		
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			just happen to have that I was
looking at my son, as he said,
		
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			strange. And he said, Why is this
child like? Well, I said somehow,
		
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			like I sometimes look at you and I
can't believe your son.
		
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			Because for so many years, I
wanted a child and I didn't think
		
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			I've ever had it
		
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			for eight years, posted it and
		
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			I just accepted that.
		
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			And then all of a sudden gave me
this child and now he's
		
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			10 years old. So I was just
looking at it because I had that
		
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			moment like somehow what a gift.
Right? How often do we do that for
		
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			what we have?
		
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			Not for what we want but for what
we have. So we have to take those
		
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			moments where you really stop and
even you know if you're married to
		
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			your husband and
		
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			all of your
		
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			shaving shirts all of
		
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			that is never close
		
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			yeah, they can drive us crazy.
Crazy too, but it's important
		
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			to
		
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			share these
		
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			good work
		
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			but you know it's a
		
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			important to just stop and think
past all of the things that annoy
		
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			you or bother you. And just look
at this person and say Subhana wa
		
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			Shawlette, he works. And he's a
good provider, because a good
		
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			father, and just say no.
		
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			Like, I was getting someone who
comes home.
		
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			And he, if I call him and say,
pick up this from the grocery
		
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			store, Sure, anything else you
need, and he's very tired, and
		
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			half the time they're exhausted,
but they're still like, pick up
		
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			things, right? And do things in
sha Allah, or he comes in the
		
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			house. And he's, you know, at
least a little helpful here. And
		
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			they're just thank God and be very
grateful for that you have a warm
		
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			body, a companion, because there
are a lot of people who want that.
		
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			They're really lonely, and they're
isolated, and they have never felt
		
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			a loving touch before. So if
you've had that in your life, make
		
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			sure to follow us upon the four.
But we can do this for every
		
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			little thing, you know, and this
is true gratitude is that you take
		
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			count all the blessings, and you
really, really ponder where you
		
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			would be without those blessings.
And that what it does is it
		
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			instantly
		
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			should restore
		
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			your connection homeless, because
you realize that all along, he's
		
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			been he continues to give you
every day,
		
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			every day we breathe with ease. I
mean, just think about that. If
		
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			you've ever had a terrible chest
cold or a sinus infection, how
		
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			miserable Are you right? Today,
this fall, there's only going to
		
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			be once a year, a week or two. But
for the rest of the year, you read
		
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			fine. There's so many things to be
grateful for.
		
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			But when you reflect on, again,
what you have, this is what it
		
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			does, it increases your love for
him to pile up. Where would where
		
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			would we be without this? Where
would we do that is compassion.
		
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			And all of us, even those who
reject Him for denying that they
		
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			still have siblings at his mercy.
		
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			So this is
		
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			the most generous or
		
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			another thing to also remember is
the power of the story for women
		
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			in general. Because Providence,
certainly,
		
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			you know, he took married to his
mother's care, but she had a
		
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			profound effect on him.
		
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			He's a prophet of Allah. Here, he
sees this young girls. In her
		
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			devotion, it seems coming to her
and he's just like, he was
		
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			incredibly impacted by her. So he
actually in his old age, having no
		
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			children, because of seeing Mary's
devotion, he turned to us and how
		
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			about and he said, My Lord D, my
bones have weakened, and my
		
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			headedness filled with white and
never have been in my supplication
		
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			to my Lord, I'm happy. And indeed,
I fear the successes afternoon My
		
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			wife is embarrassed. So give me
from yourself an heir, who will
		
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			inherit me and inherit from his
family of Jacob, and make him my
		
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			word easy to you. This law of
Zakah yet was the cause of Mary
		
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			saw an old man being impacted by
young girls falling on girls in
		
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			here, don't let anybody ever limit
you, or make you think that you
		
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			can't do as much as a mannequin.
Right? This is a perfect example
		
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			of the impact that a young girl
		
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			unprofitable one. So he was
thought of that again, do you we
		
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			give you good tidings of a boy who
whose name will be John? Yeah, we
		
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			have not assigned to any before
this thing. And he said, My Lord,
		
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			how will I have a boy with my wife
has been barren, and I have
		
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			reached extreme old age and an
angel. Thus it will be your Lord
		
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			says is easy for me. I've created
you before, while you were
		
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			so far off. So again, reflecting
that a prophet was impacted by a
		
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			girl. So these are all just good
things to just take for as women,
		
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			that there's so many beautiful
gems in our history, that really
		
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			again, show us how those elevated
us and then we have to know these
		
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			stories we have to learn from
other women and that's why my
		
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			Sharma has documented here and all
of the
		
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			people who work with her these
events I'm just here as a guest.
		
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			It's so important that we continue
these
		
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			these lessons these classes. And
we learned for you hear these
		
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			examples and we inspire each
		
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			other
		
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			and
		
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			also left on this
		
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			is
		
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			spots to be found?
		
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			Again, like, where do you get this
and she just, this is from Allah.
		
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			Verily Allah provides assessments
to whom he wills without limits.
		
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			So sometimes we impose limits on
ourselves, but we have to really
		
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			have the best available. So he
says, what? I'm in the opinion of
		
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			my servant. So if you think, Well,
I was a pilot, and then anything's
		
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			possible those,
		
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			the more you have conviction in
that, the more you will preview
		
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			it.
		
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			But if you doubt that, no, no, no,
and you let those doubts enter.
		
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			That's what you're gonna see. You
won't have confirmation or you'll
		
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			have that confirm for you. But you
won't get get what you want.
		
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			Because you're filled with doubt.
So. So here, we have to realize
		
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			it's really very much in our
hands.
		
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			short one, any questions about
that? This is from last. But it
		
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			comes in Sharla, maybe a cigar
someone else? Maybe it's, you
		
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			know, this promise is true. When
you go to difficulty. In
		
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			Charlotte, it's easy. Sometimes if
you've endured a lot, and you
		
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			suffer, especially if you're in a
press situation right now, don't
		
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			underestimate your dog. Right?
There's not there's incredible
		
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			offensive power in the lobby of
the press. So if you're in a
		
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			situation where you are not, you
know, someone's taking your rights
		
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			from you, and you're feeling the
effects of that don't limit your
		
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			thought just keep pushing wake up
for the edge and ask us for that
		
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			turn to Him. And inshallah His
promises true, you will be
		
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			relieved. But you know, we like I
said, we have to believe in that.
		
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			Yeah, pain. worry if you have a
lot, the one who will approve you,
		
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			right.
		
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			Any questions?
		
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			Oops, a few is left. The
instructions. I'm out. We're gonna
		
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			go until eight o'clock. And then
		
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			there's a secret here. So I think
those really want you guys to
		
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			attend that talk, Shama.
		
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			Any questions or comments?
		
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			Such a large group? No. Yes. Well,
I was just gonna show off, you
		
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			know, I haven't tried this,
everything. Sometimes I think it's
		
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			your job, you get shown what a lot
feels in ways that you don't even
		
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			realize.
		
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			I remember that, like, two years
ago, I was with someone who was my
		
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			closest friend. And I was with her
as she was taking her last
		
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			breaths.
		
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			But it was watching that, and is
sad. And, you know, as you know,
		
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			depressing, and mournful as it is,
the thing that I learned was that
		
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			everything happens for a reason.
		
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			And then you get to see in the
most elementary way, everything
		
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			Allah says is true, like, you see
the last breaths you see, you
		
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			know, that it can, you know, death
comes to all of us, because I just
		
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			talked to her, you know, it can
come like a beast, it's just, you
		
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			know, for some people, it can be
the worst of it, it can be like a
		
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			beast thing. And you see, when you
see it, you know, it's was like,
		
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			for me personally, as difficult as
it was, maybe a person, it's
		
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			still, it's still a blessing,
because you get to be reminded
		
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			that, you know, we're all going to
be there. Unless we pray to Allah
		
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			subhanaw taala, we do our best to
follow what he's put us on as a
		
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			path. You know,
		
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			we have to set what we want the
next life to be like, when
		
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			you're reflecting on death is
definitely one of the most
		
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			rewarding things that sounds like
dark because our society runs.
		
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			Like,
		
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			why would you do that? And so
depressing. But actually, as you
		
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			said, when you actually reflect on
that what it means death is a
		
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			process but what is the ultimate
destination? Right, is that your
		
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			child step closer to us. But it
makes you appreciate the value of
		
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			what time you have here,
especially when you see someone
		
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			your own peer group, I'm assuming
right, someone who's close to you
		
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			and age go now
		
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			little girl she was she was my
adopted mom. And she had taken her
		
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			shahada at the age of 65. And then
she thought at the age of 69, she
		
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			learned Arabic and probably prefer
on
		
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			some.
		
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			So, I mean, the best thing that
they came is that all the sisters
		
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			that came to the hospital because
we, this is one of the few
		
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			chapters who actually know that
death is coming. We knew we were
		
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			obviously a problem. So we knew it
was coming. And we were able to
		
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			read so I guess, see for her, we
were able to keep reminding her as
		
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			the breath, we're going to choose
three breaths. We were reminding
		
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			her what to say when the angels
come reminding her say Lila, it
		
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			was really as hard and difficult
as the situation on the
		
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			cross. It was still a it was
actually as morbid as this might
		
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			sound was someone who was actually
a beautiful situation, because we
		
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			actually had the opportunity of
helping somebody, take that next
		
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			step. And sometimes you just have
to be envious of the fact that now
		
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			they get to see where they stand
with us. I know it's unfortunate,
		
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			but it was just a sad yet amazing
experience to be with someone. I
		
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			relate to that very much I lost my
father three years ago, alone have
		
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			won all of us
		
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			because we can feel that I mean,
it's just a very spiritual
		
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			experience to watch someone go,
especially Nyan shallow on St.
		
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			Lucia. And they're finally free
from those constraints of this
		
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			world. We live in this body that
was you know, they were separate.
		
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			We just felt peace. It was
incredibly peaceful for us. We
		
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			were setting
		
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			and I said and we just said how
hard he walked in this year. It
		
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			was like some of euphoria that we
think that we're crazy because
		
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			we're just like smiling and we had
already cried. We cried for weeks
		
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			watching. suffer. It was a moment
he says allow your pilot to
		
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			say
		
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			so
		
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			good