Youssra Kamel Kandil – Tests and trials

			Salam aleikum wa rahmatullah wa barakatu. Today I want to share with you an area that's very dear to
my heart, and is three that's very personal, but I will share it with you anywhere in sha Allah. So
the area or part of the as as what was there and the crochet and Wahoo Hyrule Lakhan. Was and to
Hibou che and who shall relax? Allahu Allah? And don't let Allah Moon maybe it is that you what,
detest or dislike something and in it, there is lots of good and maybe it is that you love
something, and in it what there is evil or harm for you. And Allah knows and you do not know. Now,
the story that I want to share with you is something where I experienced this I went through
		

			something and I saw a lot of harm, or a lot of evil in it. And I couldn't see the good. I couldn't
understand. I didn't know that sometimes of all Spano Tala puts us through these trials, to see our
faith to see if we you know, have patience over his wisdom Subhana wa Donna. So story starts about
10 years ago, and I had my first child and she was not yet crawling and I thought to myself, You
know what, this is the best time to perform pilgrimage or Hajj you know, can leave her with my mom,
she's not yet moving, perfect timing. So we decided that we're going to go to Hajj Inshallah, and
wrote up the check, and I just moved into this new apartment, I was still going through the process
		

			of applying for my paperwork here in the States and whatnot. And I throw up my check, you know,
going to the, to the company. And then I opened my mailbox and I find a letter of deportation. I was
like, oh my god, okay, this is really not good. So, of course, I had to follow up with that. And
hamdulillah it was an issue from their side, I had changed my address they sent for an appointment,
and they did not update the address in their system and handle it was taken care of, but it took a
couple of months. But that meant that I had to go right away and cancel my check and my plans for
Hajj that year. And I was heartbroken. The first thing I thought to myself, Why am I being deprived
		

			from Hajj? Is obas Panatela upset for me? What did I do wrong? Took me for the longest time ever.
Whenever I thought about it that I could not go to Hajj that year, my heart would cringe will lie, I
cannot explain to you. I was so sad. And fast forward two years, and I'm at my you know, my
relatives house. And we're sitting down casually two and a half years exactly later. And then this
auntie and uncle are talking with us. And the lady tells me you know you're struck uncle went to
hush two and a half years ago, blah, blah, blah. I was like, Oh my God, that's so cool, exciting.
How was it? Tell me about it, blah, blah, blah, and this and that. And he says it was miserable. It
		

			was the worst thing ever company was a fraud. We were on the street for two days sleeping, they took
our passports and our luggage would have closed. We're almost even Misawa he's like, I can't tell
you how bad it was. I asked him what company did you go with?
		

			And guess what he tells me the same company that I was going with on that same year
		

			Subhan Allah, will law allow them I was in tears. And all I could think of was what? Maybe it is
that you dislike or hate something and it is good for you. Subhanallah I'm thinking to myself, had I
gone on that trip because I was gonna go on that trip, what would have I gone through would I have
been even able to make it to hotfile would have been able to keep the patient's having to sleep on
the street for a couple of days and losing the luggage and losing the company altogether. Subhan
Allah, sometimes Allah subhanaw taala or not sometimes a lot always has a wisdom that we as human
beings fail to see, right? We go through so many tests in lives, right? Whether it is, you know, a
		

			financial issue, or it's, you have kids that are, you know, giving you a hard time or you can't have
kids, or you're going through, you know, a marriage and you have all these difficulties or you're
not married and you can't find the proper spouse or your health, whatever it is. Sometimes we see it
as something that is evil or harm for us, but will lie you will lie. And I try to remind myself
before you because we're human beings and sometimes we lose that patience, or we lose the ability to
see beyond what is in front of us. Have faith. Wherever you are in your life, whatever it is that
you're going through right now. That maybe it is something that you don't like, but I am sure insha
		

			Allah in sha Allah, I'm sure in it there is good for you. Well law we are alum, we're going to let
Allah moon and ALLAH knows and you do not know me last panel to how to give us Europe the wisdom to
understand what he puts us through and give us the patience to have, you know, acceptance reader and
COBOL. Maybe we're not in love with what we're going through in our lives. But at least we have
written the code the iList panel to Hello, we're accepting Allah Spano to Hannah's desk
		

			Sonny, and will these destined for us, right? And maybe in sha Allah one day, you will understand
why you went through this. Maybe you won't, but have faith that in sha Allah Insha Allah, whatever
it is you're going through, it's harder for you. It's the best for you cinematic or whatever you
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