Suhaib Webb – Ramdn Reflections 5 I Abandoned Them! By

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The speaker discusses their struggles with their conversion to Islam and the physical aspect of it, including restriction on eating and drinking at home. They also talk about their desire to avoid being invited to the mosque and the importance of fasting to create a stronger spiritual capacity.

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			Explaining Ramadan to my girlfriend was difficult.
		
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			Been together for a few years,
		
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			you know, prior to my conversion and then
		
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			just sitting down with her and trying to
		
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			explain to her,
		
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			like, I'm not gonna eat for 30 days
		
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			or 29 days. I'm not gonna drink.
		
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			Why would you not eat or drink, man?
		
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			Like, McDonald's got the new McRib sandwich out.
		
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			I can't eat pork either, baby.
		
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			It's just, like, a difficult situation. And then,
		
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			of course, the physical aspect of it already
		
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			being prohibited in Islam
		
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			and using that really to distance myself from
		
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			from the forbidden, that was tough.
		
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			My family,
		
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			my mother, and my father,
		
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			man, south.
		
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			Dinnertime in the south is, like,
		
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			key,
		
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			you know, for families, at least 3 or
		
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			4 times a week.
		
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			No restaurants eating at home. Mom was cooking
		
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			and telling her, like, I can't eat with
		
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			you.
		
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			And explaining to my mother
		
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			that this is something that Christ did. It's
		
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			something that's in your religious tradition. We just
		
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			do it a little differently.
		
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			Coworkers and my friends, you know, I went
		
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			hard. I just I just abandoned everybody, even
		
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			even
		
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			even a girl.
		
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			And it's weird, you know, when I go
		
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			back and visit people in Oklahoma,
		
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			one of the things that I hear from
		
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			some of the homies is like, why'd you
		
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			disappear, man?
		
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			I think sometimes
		
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			when I converted, it was an era where
		
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			you just cut everything out.
		
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			My parents, I didn't even invite them to
		
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			the mosque or to eat. There was no
		
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			seating at the eat. If I could go
		
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			back and talk to myself
		
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			and talk to those people because at that
		
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			time, I admittedly
		
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			I don't think I knew really what Ramadan
		
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			was, you know. There wasn't a lot of
		
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			information
		
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			out there, but I would invite people
		
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			that were close to me to take part
		
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			to take part in the month of May.
		
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			And I'm sure, you know, Allah will soften
		
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			hearts.
		
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			Allah can soften the heart of that that
		
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			biker in Phoenix. What about my girlfriend,
		
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			my boys,
		
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			my parents?
		
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			Ramadan is really about stepping back.
		
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			The word fasting means to stop in in
		
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			Arabic. Right?
		
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			Stop and
		
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			turn down
		
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			turn down the desire for this world and
		
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			turned up the desire for the hereafter.
		
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			Every Ramadan, we create a greater spiritual capacity
		
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			because
		
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			we're staying away from the permissible. So if
		
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			we can stay away from the permissible, then
		
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			it should be easy to stay away from
		
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			the wrong.
		
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			So I would remind myself that fasting is
		
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			about repenting for food and drink and all
		
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			of those things, refining the character
		
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			in order to create a stronger relationship with
		
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			Allah