Nouman Ali Khan – I Feel Guilty

			What I want to share with you is where does guilt go? My guilt is supposed to go first towards Allah
subhanaw taala. And there's a huge difference between the guilt I have towards Allah and the guilt I
have towards a person. And let's understand that a little bit. I'll give you practical, realistic
examples. Like for instance, we have the case of, you know, Jacoba alayhis salaam sons in the Quran,
right? So his sons messed up pretty bad. And they hurt their father for many, many years. They
abused him, they called him insane. They taught their children to call him insane, they caught they
taught their wives to call him insane. In fact, they weren't even home. They were with use of the
		

			histogram. And when Jacoba Alayhis Salam heard the scent or smelled the scent of use of shirt, you
know that the story, right? He wasn't home alone, he was with his daughter in laws and his
grandchildren. Because the sons were not home. They were elsewhere. And he said Lola, and Tiffany
Dawn. He said in the law, God, her use of Lola and Tiffany, he said, I can scent I can smell the
scent of use of despite the fact that you people, who's the you people, that's his daughter in laws
and his grandchildren. You people think that I'm insane? Where did they learn to call him insane
from his own sons. And these are the sons that know that their father is in fact a prophet. They
		

			know that they actually know that they know that he's the son of his Hawk, who is the son of Ibrahim
alayhis salam, while he was salam. So he, they know all of that, and yet they committed these
horrible crimes inside of the family is one thing that you owe the best to your father, because he's
your father. On top of that, he's a prophet too. So the level to which they messed up cannot be
undermined, it is a pretty serious degree of crime here. But at the end of it all, at the end of it
all, the Quran seems to indicate that they felt bad about what they did. When they were finally
confronted, when they were finally humbled. They feel bad about what they've been doing. And they
		

			come towards their dad. And they say that you should, you know, please make a step far for us.
Please pray for us, which is a way of saying By the way, you cannot pray for someone if you hate
them, or if you have a grudge against them. Right? So they're saying two things in one, they
combined, forgive us and pray for us all in one statement, because you cannot pray for you. He
cannot pray for them if he hasn't already what? forgiven them, right. So when they said, you know,
can you make us that far to your rub for us? Then, at that point, they're asking Him to forgive but
he's a human being. And Jacoba the salon has cried so much that he's lost his sight for a long time
		

			that Allah brought back because of the shirt. So it's not an easy like, it's not Oh, this one time
you hurt my feelings. This is years, years and years and years. And not only did they hurt Yusuf Ali
salaam, and their father, in fact, use of, you know, full brother, Binyamin. They kept abusing him
too. They kept hurting him too. So this is a long history of crimes. So just one saris not gonna
cut, it looks like good enough. So even their father turns to them and says sofa istockphoto.com.
Robbie. He says, I will not just yet. So the sofa, some of us don't comment here. You should elect
here. There's a little bit of a delay. He's saying, I will get there. I'm not there yet. I'm not
		

			ready to forgive you yet. So they're feeling guilty towards their dad. And they're saying sorry, to
their dad. And their dad is saying, I'm not entirely ready to pray for you yet. I will. Hopefully,
I'm not there yet. The reason I wanted to bring this up, is because we have to understand the
difference between the human ability or inability to forgive right away. And the difference between
that and who Allah is. Allah forgives right away. Allah forgives, right? You can be committing
crimes against Allah for years and years and years. Sins on top of sins on top of sins, knowingly
and unknowingly. Y'all Allah I knew I had to pray. I still didn't pray. I knew that was wrong. I
		

			still did it. I knew that was haram. I still earn money that way. I knew that was wrong. I still
lied about it in court. I still did this I still did that. I did hurt this person because I was
angry. I did this because I didn't care about it. I did this good because I just didn't want to hear
anything else. I was selfish at the time. I was drunk on my own emotions at the time, whatever it
was. And you can have so many crimes against Allah for so so so so long. And at the end of all of
that, Allah just says just make tau by just make us that ha right. And he says in Allah your fear of
the noble Jamia?
		

			Yeah, by the Alladhina slothful Allah and foresee him that Rahmatullah in Allaha frozen over Jamia
my sleeves that have been crossed that have done been done crossed the line. I just thought awful,
you know, they went past the line and they've been going
		

			Pass the line, they have lived a life of crossing the line. Don't lose hope and Allah is loving
care, Allah will forgive all sins. Just come back just make us the far right. But then the then that
sounds too easy. And because we only we know that when you ask somebody else for forgiveness, they
don't forgive that easily. So what we do is something that we don't realize we're doing, we do
something in psychology, they call it projection. So we project, the human inability to forgive
right away, because people are not forgiving. So you start assuming that Allah is also not
immediately forgiving. How can ALLAH forgive? You know how much I messed up? I mean, I know I've
		

			heard the ayat about Allah forgiving, but bro, seriously, I did some Olympic level stuff. Like my
stuff is the gun on another level. So I don't think you understand how how far off from forgiveness.
I particularly am, I cannot begin to tell you how many people write to me tells me I know Allah is
angry with me. I know Allah hates me. I know Allah hates. It's an incredible volume of Muslims that
believe that they are beyond forgiveness. They're beyond redemption. They are beyond that. And what
I want you to know is first of all, guilt is a good thing. That's where I started. Guilt is a good
thing. But the wrong kind of guilt. The wrong kind of guilt is what Allah will never forgive me. I'm
		

			too far gone, you know, who believes Allah will never forgive him a bliss.
		

			He actually believes that. And if I share that belief with him, that I've joined the wrong team.
		

			I cannot believe that about myself. You cannot believe that about yourself that Allah will never
forgive, you cannot do that. You can't do that to yourself.
		

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