Naima B. Robert – What is vaginismus Advice for Muslim women on painful sex @amirahzaky

Naima B. Robert
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The speaker describes their experience with first-time sex, which was a long period of marriage and healing, and how it helped them overcome their fears and myths about sex. They discuss their healing process, including using dilators and teas, and how it helped them feel nervous. They also talk about the importance of having sex in marriage, including the experience of physical pain and nervousness, and how it will bring the couple together on the same page. The lack of education and teamwork in marriage will lead to the couple achieving the same point.

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			So this is what was happening to
me, I was experiencing vaginismus.
		
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			And it felt good to know that it
had a name to it. And then I
		
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			started thinking, Okay, if this is
what I'm going through, Surely
		
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			there must be a way to treat it,
there must be a way to overcome
		
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			it. And that really came from
starting the journey of educating
		
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			myself about *, I didn't realize
that was like, what that was what
		
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			I was doing. But that's really
where my journey towards *
		
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			education for myself started.
		
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			badassness is a condition in which
a woman's pelvic floor muscles. So
		
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			the pelvic floor muscles are the
muscles that surround your *.
		
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			So in vaginismus, the pelvic floor
muscles contract automatically
		
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			involuntary involuntarily. And
when those pelvic floor muscles
		
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			contract, it makes the *
really narrow. I didn't know that
		
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			that was happening to me until I
read about vaginismus. And you can
		
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			imagine if the * is becoming
narrower. Now, if something's
		
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			trying to go in, such as during
penetrative *, it's going to be
		
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			painful and difficult, there's
going to be that friction due to
		
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			the narrowing of the *, from
those pelvic floor muscles
		
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			contracting. So this is what was
happening to me. I was
		
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			experiencing budget isness. And it
felt good to know that it had a
		
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			name to it. And then I started
thinking, Okay, if this is what
		
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			I'm going through, Surely there
must be a way to treat it, there
		
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			must be a way to overcome it. And
that really came from starting the
		
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			journey of educating myself about
*. I didn't realize that was
		
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			like, what that was what I was
doing. But that's really where my
		
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			journey towards * education for
myself started, is I had to
		
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			educate myself about my own body
about my female sexual anatomy, I
		
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			had to educate myself about how do
I now get these muscles to relax?
		
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			If the issue is that they're
contracting on their own? How do I
		
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			consciously get them to be relaxed
so that my * is nice and wide
		
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			open for pain free penetration.
And so I took that journey, I
		
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			eventually was able to overcome
it, I was eventually able to have
		
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			pain, free * with my husband
truly for the first time. So I'm
		
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			saying that because of how long
after was that, how long are
		
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			Subhanallah it literally took me
about four or five weeks to
		
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			overcome it, which is a short
amount of time for most women,
		
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			it's it takes a bit longer. But
for me, it was like, it just was
		
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			like that I don't know how to
describe it was like the initial
		
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			education. So actually, I say four
or five weeks, five weeks, but
		
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			maybe it was longer. Actually, it
was four or five weeks, once I
		
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			bought myself a set of tools,
they're known as dilators. They're
		
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			essentially like tampons, but they
come from like, really small
		
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			sizes, and then they kind of
gradually increase. It was from
		
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			the moment I ordered those
dilators and received the dilators
		
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			and started using them from then
it's when it took me four to five
		
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			weeks. But after your marriage was
that, so how many that was more
		
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			than a year later, more than a
year, so at least a year and a
		
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			half after my marriage.
		
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			So I was then I treated myself,
and that treatment wasn't just
		
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			physical treatment using the
dilators. That was one part of it.
		
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			But it was also, you know, I
didn't realize I was doing this,
		
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			but I was also healing myself
mentally from those fears, and
		
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			those myths that I believed about
*. And I was then able to
		
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			finally have true first time *
in a completely pain free way. And
		
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			why I say true first time is
because the previous times, when I
		
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			tried to have first time * when
they were painful, I don't see it
		
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			as my true first time I saw it as
kind of like something that I
		
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			wasn't meant to experience. I
wasn't meant to experience painful
		
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			for some *, but I did. And it
was painful because of their lack
		
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			of education. And so once I had
the right education, and I treated
		
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			myself and my husband's penis was
finally able to fully go in my
		
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			*. And I saw for myself, Wow,
there is no pain. I take that as
		
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			my true first time. And that is
what I want for every single woman
		
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			is to if they're not married to go
into a marriage with the right
		
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			education about her body, knowing
how to relax her pelvic floor
		
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			muscles, and experience true pain
free first time *. And when I
		
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			eventually told my family about
it, and so I didn't tell them
		
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			initially, I told them many years
later, I told my siblings that
		
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			initially before my parents, when
I told them, and I remember I was
		
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			I was telling them because it was
one of my younger sisters. She was
		
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			about to be married. And for some
reason one of them asked me what
		
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			was your first time like? And I
said to one of my siblings. I
		
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			couldn't have * on my wedding
night. And they were shocked. They
		
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			were like what? Like, what do you
mean, you couldn't have *? And I
		
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			was like it was
		
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			exactly.
		
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			I said, Look, it just couldn't
happen. It was too painful. And I
		
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			went through this condition called
vaginismus. And I explained it to
		
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			them. And they were surprised and
actually they were shocked. They
		
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			were like, Why didn't you tell us
we would have you know helped you
		
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			all
		
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			to Yeah, exactly.
		
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			Nothing just ending like
everything is Yep, Everything's
		
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			fine. Everything's nice.
		
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			Your mom never asked you your
aunties never asked. After the
		
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			fact how was it? Are you okay or
anything? No, they didn't. Yeah,
		
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			no, they didn't. And I don't blame
them for that my mom was raised.
		
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			You know, she grew up in Thailand.
And you know, I suppose even in
		
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			Thailand, she wasn't raised
Muslim, but she is now a handler.
		
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			Even in Thailand, I think it's a
topic that you discuss, you know,
		
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			talking about *. And the same
with my dad, he grew up in Egypt,
		
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			you know, he never talked to me
about it at all. I'm gonna ask,
		
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			you
		
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			know, neither of my parents or
family members, or anyone asked me
		
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			initially, I think they just
assumed that it would all be fine.
		
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			They I think they just assumed
that I was no longer a virgin. I
		
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			think that was the assumption that
they made. But they didn't ask me
		
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			how it was.
		
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			But ya know, it handler. And so I
think what the point I was trying
		
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			to make through sharing this whole
story is that there is this there
		
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			is so much expectation on Muslim
couples to do it on their first
		
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			night to have * for the first
time on that night. And, of
		
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			course, you can, it's now halau,
for you to have *, but only do
		
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			it only have it only, only engage
in your first sexual experience
		
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			with your new spouse. If both of
you are ready, mentally,
		
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			emotionally, spiritually,
physically. And if one or both of
		
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			you are not work together, you're
now in this marriage when our team
		
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			work together, to raise each other
up to get to that same point where
		
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			you're both on the same page,
because that is going to be a much
		
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			more pleasant, pleasurable,
enjoyable, intimate experience.
		
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			When you do engage in it, it will
be so much more worth it Insha
		
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			Allah, rather than going through
the frustration and disappointment
		
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			of your first time because of the
lack of education and the lack of
		
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			teamwork, it's bringing each other
to the same page.