Maryam Amir – When your eyes well tears
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The transcript describes a woman who experienced overwhelming desire to be with the Prophet's realm and lost her wealth. She turned to God and eventually reached a point of overwhelmed and sadness. She also shares a story about a sister experiencing similar struggles and lack of faith in God. The importance of finding comfort and relief for others is emphasized, as well as the recording of emotional contact during difficult situations.
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Reflection,
Mariam, before Is yours
a lotto. Salama, if we can, please have the ayah put onto the stage
inshallah. So this verse is speaking about people, young
people, who came to the Prophet sallallahu, alayhi wasallam and
they wanted to go with Prophet. Saw them on a military expedition,
and Allah is saying about them, nor is there any blame on those
who came to you, oh prophet. So I saw him for mounts. Then when you
said, I can find no mounts for you. We can go to the next part of
the translation. They left with their eyes overflowing with tears
out of grief that they had nothing to contribute. These are young
people who wanted to go with the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wasallam
on an expedition. And the reason why they were unable to is simply
because they didn't have the means to do so. And what when we right
now, so many of us are looking at avasa, we're looking at Sudan.
We're looking at all these places in this ummah and the vulnerable
communities in any part of the world, and our hearts burn and we
wish that we could be there. We wish that we could do something.
We turn with our eyes filled with tears, just wishing that we could
do something to change. I want us to be aware that even if it feels
like nothing changes with all of our tears, that Allah is recording
them, that Allah is aware that they are overflowing with, with
with with immense sadness, desperation, wishing, longing to
be able to do more than cry and Make dua and boycott and protest
and everything else but, but the tears matter. The tears matter to
Allah so much so that he chose to record this moment in the Quran.
Allah could have simply said, Some people came. Well, the Quran could
have mentioned about how people came and they were not able to
join, and they were sad about it, but he recorded the the tears
subhanho wa taala. And when I reflect on this verse, it reminds
me of something that, someone that I know mentioned she told me that
one time she told me this because we were talking privately about
the the very personal witnessing of Allah's
recompense his generosity, and moments where you need his
generosity and you don't know where to expect it from. So if you
if, if you have heard that Allah will always, he will always reward
you, not just once or twice, but 10 times or more than the amount
that you give, and that is also with your desire to do so, even if
you're unable to do so, you have the intention and you wish you
could do it so much so that if you could have taken every single
means, and you did even try to take every single means, but you
were unable to, Allah reward you as if you did so. And so she
shared with me this moment where she was in a fundraiser for a
community that had just been severely affected by natural
disaster, and she was was hearing this call to fund, to fund, they
were trying to raise a million dollars, and she said she was
suddenly overwhelmed and overcome with this immense sadness that she
didn't have a million dollars to be able to give. So she turned to
the wall, and her eyes filled with tears, and she began to weep, and
she said, Oh Allah, if I had a million dollars, Oh Allah, I would
have given a million dollars. And she just started making this, Oh
Allah, accept it as if I gave it, because I wish that I could have
given it. Okay, she told me, 10 years later, 10 years later, Allah
facilitated for her to come across a large amount of wealth that she
had never in her life imagined that she would have been able to
come across and Subhan Allah, she was able to give over many, many,
many years, not a million, but, but, but, but 10s of 1000s of
dollars, a wealth she would have never imagined. And she told me
that she attributes that generosity back to that moment of
sincerity and her intention that at the time, she was a young
student who barely, you know, had a like a
job, that a part time job, as she was going to school, she didn't
have that much money she wanted to give everything she had. And yeah,
Allah, Spano, at Allah, he recorded this, this, this, these
tears of hers, and perhaps because of that moment, gave her more that
she was able to give at a different time in her life. Now
she obeyed Allah. May Allah raise his ranks and bless him, he
mentioned this idea of tears that, you know, he like sometimes we are
taught in a culture, especially American culture, that it's not
mainly for men to cry, that you know, that that that tears can
sometimes also be very difficult to cry. Some, some people don't
easily cry. And so I want us to also be very clear that while.
Verse is recording their tears. It's not a requirement for anyone
to cry. And this is something I talk about all the time, because I
never want one of us to walk out of Ramadan feeling like we didn't
cry enough this Ramadan, and then therefore we are not righteous
enough, or Allah is not that pleased with us, or we are not
that committed to Him because we didn't cry enough, and Allah does
not require our tears. He asks about our actions. He asks us to
focus on our actions. He tells us that the way that we come closer
to him, closest to him, is through the obligation, and then through
after the obligation we do the the extra nowhere in this this space
is and also weep as much as you can however, however, acknowledge
that your emotional commitment is also a form of worship, your
emotional interaction, your emotional
vulnerability in front of Allah, is a form of worship, and
sometimes that emotional connection can also be a means of
it being recorded as if you are talented amongst the people. And
I'm going to close with another story of a different sister who
shared with me a very similar circumstance, where she when we
were studying in Egypt for any of for the Shiu here, may Allah bless
them and raise their ranks. And for anyone who has ever studied
there, mashallah, Egypt is filled with the coolest, funnest people,
mashaAllah, tabarakallah, but there is very real injustice and
poverty that the people are experiencing. It's such oppression
and injustice towards them. And because of this, there are a lot
of you know women and children. Who are you know women with their
children on the streets asking for money. And so someone I knew when
we were studying in Egypt, every time she would pass a certain
street on the way to go to school, all the women who were gathered
there with their children would come. They would walk to her,
follow her, ask for money from her, and all the way until she
would walk even all the way up to our apartment. We had people that
would follow us. And subhanAllah, she did not have the money to
give, and it would burn her heart that she couldn't because she
could not afford to constantly give. And if she would give, then
it would bring an even bigger crowd to give, and she could not
give to everyone. And so instead, what she started to do is ask. She
started to ask the names of these mothers, the names of these
children. How old are you? Just getting to know them. And she told
me that after some time, they would never ask. And they started
asking her, how can we make dua for you? What dua Do you want us
to make for you? And so they would start making dua for anything that
she was asking for. They would make dua for it. And she told me
that every single dua that these women made became accepted, every
single dua. And there's a statement of Ibn claim that you
may be asleep, but the doors of heaven are being knocked upon by
10s of supplications of a person who was poor, who you,
who you, who you helped with wealth, a person who was sad that
you made happy, a person who was going through hardship, that you
gave them ease. You may feel like you're not doing enough in Ramadan
or in general. But is there a child whose diaper you're changing
and you're providing relief for them? Is there a sibling who you
are on the phone with when they are going through emotional
difficulty? Are you donating whatever you can to help people in
very difficult circumstances? What are you doing that you think is
not a big deal and yet Allah records it as a big deal. And
Allah only knows the people that are praying for you in the night,
when you are asleep, you're doing nothing but sleeping, which can be
an act of worship with the intention. And there are people
praying for you, for your daughter to be answered and for you to be
admitted into the highest paradise. And may Allah make all
of us Adams. That either in that software to commit to waiting.
Yeah.