Maryam Amir – Studying in Egypt and At Home

Maryam Amir
Share Page

AI: Summary ©

The speakers discuss their experiences studying Arabic in Egypt and the challenges faced in learning it. They express their desire to continue studying and bring their own personal development to the field. They stress the need for one-on-one relationships and personal development to maintain friendships and personal development. They recommend reaching out to a mentorship program for women and recommend specific areas for pursuing a master's degree in Islamic language. They also recommend a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a recommendation for a

AI: Summary ©

00:00:23 --> 00:00:28
			On behalf of the organization who
seems connected, I warmly welcome
		
00:00:28 --> 00:00:31
			you all to today's online
gatherings, being that we cannot
		
00:00:32 --> 00:00:37
			gather in person and host our
usual monthly gatherings. So just
		
00:00:37 --> 00:00:41
			a little background before we
begin. We are a group of students
		
00:00:41 --> 00:00:46
			currently studying in Cairo, Egypt
who began hosting transition.
		
00:00:59 --> 00:01:03
			So we began hosting monthly
gatherings for English speaking
		
00:01:03 --> 00:01:07
			students because we found that
there wasn't really any space or
		
00:01:07 --> 00:01:11
			any platform specifically for
English speaking students to come
		
00:01:11 --> 00:01:15
			together while they were while
there are student bodies for
		
00:01:15 --> 00:01:19
			particular nationalities or
countries. There wasn't really a
		
00:01:19 --> 00:01:22
			space or a platform for all
students to just come together and
		
00:01:23 --> 00:01:27
			get to know each other. So while
there are many classes that take
		
00:01:27 --> 00:01:31
			place on a regular basis,
especially around the Asmaa Street
		
00:01:31 --> 00:01:35
			area, they are all in Arabic. So a
student who is new to Cairo
		
00:01:35 --> 00:01:39
			wouldn't be able to benefit from
these classes immediately, and
		
00:01:39 --> 00:01:43
			they will definitely find that
they must spiritually uplifting
		
00:01:43 --> 00:01:46
			gatherings, as I did when I first
came to Cairo.
		
00:01:48 --> 00:01:51
			So you did need a good level of
understanding before you'd be able
		
00:01:51 --> 00:01:54
			to attend these doulos and
gatherings. And sometimes you just
		
00:01:54 --> 00:01:59
			want a spiritual boost of iman
from a gathering of knowledge, of
		
00:01:59 --> 00:02:04
			sacred knowledge. So as I said,
someone who's new to Cairo
		
00:02:04 --> 00:02:08
			wouldn't be able to benefit and
would most likely miss spiritually
		
00:02:08 --> 00:02:12
			uplifting gatherings, as I did
when I first came to Cairo. So the
		
00:02:12 --> 00:02:15
			purpose of our events is, of
course, to benefit from the
		
00:02:15 --> 00:02:19
			scholar that we host, as well as
network and make friends with
		
00:02:19 --> 00:02:22
			fellow students from all over the
world.
		
00:02:23 --> 00:02:28
			We started in October last year
with hosting Sheik Mohammed bin
		
00:02:28 --> 00:02:33
			Yahya and niwi, and since then, we
hosted Habib pahir al hadda from
		
00:02:33 --> 00:02:40
			Yemen, munif Dr Hisham Helia,
Sheik Ahmed Al azhadi Dr Waleed,
		
00:02:40 --> 00:02:44
			Mossad, Sheik Ahmed, zahar Ali and
Habib Arli. GP
		
00:02:46 --> 00:02:52
			is not even yet. Okay, so we are
really honored to be hosting Sheik
		
00:02:52 --> 00:02:57
			Hamar all the way in the USA to
share her advices for students of
		
00:02:57 --> 00:03:02
			Dean and her personal experiences
here in Cairo there after, we will
		
00:03:02 --> 00:03:05
			be having a question and answer
session. So please put your
		
00:03:05 --> 00:03:10
			questions in the chat box, and we
will try to get through as many
		
00:03:10 --> 00:03:14
			questions as we can in the time
that We have together Inshallah,
		
00:03:36 --> 00:03:46
			as salaam alaikum to Sheik stadha.
Miriam, I got to know about you
		
00:03:46 --> 00:03:49
			when I was memorized in the Quran,
when I was doing my heap, quite a
		
00:03:49 --> 00:03:53
			few years ago, I came across your
articles on virtualmas.com
		
00:03:54 --> 00:04:01
			And Alhamdulillah, grateful to you
for sharing your time with us and
		
00:04:01 --> 00:04:05
			sharing your experiences with us.
I'm really, really grateful to
		
00:04:05 --> 00:04:08
			you. So Shukran shazaki Lahore is
melahi.
		
00:04:20 --> 00:04:27
			So let me handle that on Play.
Even more confused while you were
		
00:04:27 --> 00:04:28
			to get to
		
00:04:29 --> 00:04:35
			when Deanna asked me about this
conversation, I was like, how am I
		
00:04:35 --> 00:04:39
			going to speak to people who are
much Allah, definitely more
		
00:04:39 --> 00:04:42
			knowledgeable than me on this path
to knowledge, have the opportunity
		
00:04:42 --> 00:04:47
			to be in Cairo longer than I
probably did. And it was I stood
		
00:04:47 --> 00:04:50
			for a second without like I have
nothing to say.
		
00:04:51 --> 00:04:56
			Subhanallah, just hearing salva
was via speak right now, I became
		
00:04:56 --> 00:04:59
			so emotional because you're in
Cairo right now in such a blessed.
		
00:05:00 --> 00:05:03
			Place, and they're being able to
study SubhanAllah.
		
00:05:04 --> 00:05:09
			But then when I was told about the
whole circumstance of covid and
		
00:05:09 --> 00:05:12
			not being able to study and some
people needing to travel back,
		
00:05:12 --> 00:05:16
			that was something I realized I
could touch upon, because studying
		
00:05:17 --> 00:05:19
			when you've been in Cairo, when
you plan to stay in Cairo for some
		
00:05:19 --> 00:05:23
			time, whether or not you're there
right now, but can't continue your
		
00:05:23 --> 00:05:27
			studies. That's something that I
definitely had to process for many
		
00:05:27 --> 00:05:31
			years. So Inshallah, today, I'm
going to start by sharing my Cairo
		
00:05:31 --> 00:05:36
			story with you. A little bit of it
only because I think that when I
		
00:05:36 --> 00:05:39
			was going through the process of
studying, hearing what other
		
00:05:39 --> 00:05:43
			people struggled with afterwards
was very helpful for me to know
		
00:05:43 --> 00:05:45
			the direction I needed to head in
		
00:05:46 --> 00:05:52
			as I as I finished. And inshallah
will also talk about some ideas in
		
00:05:52 --> 00:05:55
			terms of like, when you're in
Cairo, when you're out of it, what
		
00:05:55 --> 00:05:59
			are things to kind of be
considering as you're on this path
		
00:05:59 --> 00:06:00
			to studying inshallah?
		
00:06:01 --> 00:06:06
			Alhamdulillah, I was so blessed to
go to Egypt when I was graduating
		
00:06:06 --> 00:06:09
			right after college. The day after
I graduated from my bachelor
		
00:06:09 --> 00:06:14
			degree, I moved to Cairo. My dad,
he flew there with me, and he
		
00:06:14 --> 00:06:18
			helped me find a place and get
settled in. And then he went back
		
00:06:18 --> 00:06:22
			a few days later, so I was
supposed to be there just studying
		
00:06:22 --> 00:06:26
			Arabic and Quran in the beginning
for about 11 months. That was the
		
00:06:26 --> 00:06:31
			plan. But I had intended that
Inshallah, I would be able to
		
00:06:32 --> 00:06:37
			continue and study in alzahar at
the time. And Alhamdulillah, Egypt
		
00:06:37 --> 00:06:40
			was the most beautiful place to
me. I heard so many negative
		
00:06:40 --> 00:06:43
			stories about Egypt before going.
And I know some of you have as
		
00:06:43 --> 00:06:47
			well before you went there, maybe
you experienced some difficulty
		
00:06:47 --> 00:06:50
			right now. But when I was there,
Alhamdulillah, before I went,
		
00:06:50 --> 00:06:54
			everyone was like, be careful.
People are going to be this way to
		
00:06:54 --> 00:06:57
			you. Men are going to be this way
to you. Watch your back every
		
00:06:57 --> 00:07:00
			second. Get some pepper spray.
Every single positive, negative,
		
00:07:00 --> 00:07:03
			possible, negative thing that
somebody could tell me about
		
00:07:03 --> 00:07:08
			Cairo, that was the feedback that
I heard about Egypt. But
		
00:07:08 --> 00:07:09
			Subhanallah,
		
00:07:11 --> 00:07:15
			it was so important to me to go to
Egypt and recognize that this was
		
00:07:15 --> 00:07:21
			such an honor to be there. And
when I was back in America. My
		
00:07:21 --> 00:07:22
			senior year of
		
00:07:23 --> 00:07:27
			my undergrad, one of my friends
had just moved to Egypt, so at the
		
00:07:27 --> 00:07:30
			time, Imam soheibweb was studying
there, and he was the Imam of my
		
00:07:30 --> 00:07:34
			local Masjid who was going to
Cairo during the year, and then
		
00:07:34 --> 00:07:38
			coming back to the masjid during
the summers to continue to teach.
		
00:07:39 --> 00:07:43
			And then we had a small group of
people like Sheik Mul permal and
		
00:07:43 --> 00:07:48
			Sheikha, Saira, lari, Sheik Ali
ADA. There are so many sisters
		
00:07:48 --> 00:07:53
			mashaAllah who had gone there for
the same time period. And one of
		
00:07:53 --> 00:07:57
			them, I'm there's so many names.
I'm only I only mentioned like
		
00:07:57 --> 00:07:59
			three. But there were so many
sisters mashaAllah from different
		
00:07:59 --> 00:08:01
			parts of the world. But I was
talking to one of these sisters,
		
00:08:01 --> 00:08:06
			and we were on line on Gmail,
chatting, and she was saying,
		
00:08:06 --> 00:08:10
			like, Oh, it's so hard. I'm here
studying Kitab el SAS. Like, I
		
00:08:10 --> 00:08:13
			wish I was studying Quran, like,
I'm studying about use of going to
		
00:08:13 --> 00:08:17
			the bank. And I just stared at her
on the screen. I didn't stare at
		
00:08:17 --> 00:08:19
			her because I don't think video
chat was like a thing at that
		
00:08:19 --> 00:08:22
			time. Was like Skype, but I was
like, just like, text, like
		
00:08:22 --> 00:08:26
			messaging, like, I'm writing a
paper for my undergrad. Like, how
		
00:08:26 --> 00:08:30
			Subhanallah what I would give to
me studying about use of going to
		
00:08:30 --> 00:08:34
			the bank in Egypt. So remember
when I went there and I couldn't
		
00:08:34 --> 00:08:37
			believe that Allah facilitated
this route for me, Allahu Akbar,
		
00:08:38 --> 00:08:41
			if you are in Egypt, or if you
have gone to Egypt even for a
		
00:08:41 --> 00:08:44
			short period of time. You have
already heard this, probably by,
		
00:08:44 --> 00:08:48
			you know, from everyone else, that
Allah facilitated a way for you to
		
00:08:48 --> 00:08:52
			be there. And people ask me all
the time about wanting to study,
		
00:08:52 --> 00:08:55
			women especially, ask me all the
time about wanting to study, you
		
00:08:55 --> 00:08:58
			know, study overseas, studying in
Egypt. But they won't. They they
		
00:08:58 --> 00:09:01
			aren't able to because of their
parents or because of our
		
00:09:01 --> 00:09:05
			circumstance, they just can't
leave. And when you recognize how
		
00:09:05 --> 00:09:10
			fortunate you are to be really
chosen to go and study and just be
		
00:09:10 --> 00:09:15
			able to do this on this path, it's
so it's so easy for us to get
		
00:09:15 --> 00:09:18
			caught up in the middle of being
in Egypt and not only studying
		
00:09:18 --> 00:09:22
			Quran, and not only studying, not
only studying these Islamic
		
00:09:22 --> 00:09:24
			issues, like going through alza
and why do you need to take a
		
00:09:24 --> 00:09:27
			geography class, like all of these
random things that don't make
		
00:09:27 --> 00:09:31
			sense, but in the end,
subhanAllah, you were chosen to be
		
00:09:31 --> 00:09:34
			there for a reason. And having
that, that that perspective,
		
00:09:34 --> 00:09:38
			sometimes, when you're feeling
really down, it's very easy for me
		
00:09:38 --> 00:09:41
			to have been an undergrad and say,
like, how could you be complaining
		
00:09:41 --> 00:09:44
			about Egypt, but then going there
and recognizing that, subhanAllah,
		
00:09:44 --> 00:09:49
			it's not just the process of what
you're studying, it's also where
		
00:09:49 --> 00:09:52
			you are and how you're interacting
with people and the way that
		
00:09:52 --> 00:09:55
			people are with you. So
Subhanallah, here, I was going
		
00:09:55 --> 00:09:58
			into Egypt hearing so many
negative things about Egypt, but
		
00:09:58 --> 00:09:59
			Egypt was just so incredibly.
		
00:10:00 --> 00:10:04
			Double. There is so much poverty
in Egypt. There's so many systems
		
00:10:04 --> 00:10:06
			there, the political system.
There's so much infrastructural
		
00:10:06 --> 00:10:11
			problems that they have. But when
you look at the people themselves
		
00:10:11 --> 00:10:15
			and what they go through, and the
way that they maintain their their
		
00:10:15 --> 00:10:22
			connection to Allah, their
connection to their service to
		
00:10:22 --> 00:10:27
			other people. For the creations of
Allah, you will find gems of
		
00:10:27 --> 00:10:33
			people everywhere, and part of the
process of studying is looking for
		
00:10:33 --> 00:10:35
			that in other people.
		
00:10:36 --> 00:10:38
			I remember so many times where
		
00:10:40 --> 00:10:43
			Subhanallah, you know what?
Actually I these stories for the
		
00:10:43 --> 00:10:46
			end. We're going to keep we're
going. I'm just going to tell you
		
00:10:46 --> 00:10:48
			my story quickly. Inshallah, we're
going to keep going with these
		
00:10:48 --> 00:10:52
			stories for the for the next part.
Inshallah, but when, when I was
		
00:10:52 --> 00:10:55
			there, I was planning to study
there, and I was planning to do
		
00:10:55 --> 00:10:57
			the exams at that time,
		
00:10:58 --> 00:11:02
			that's when my Alhamdulillah, my
husband now from delivery for 11
		
00:11:02 --> 00:11:07
			years, he proposed to my family,
and I had no idea that this was
		
00:11:07 --> 00:11:11
			going to happen. He was somebody
who I knew from a very far
		
00:11:11 --> 00:11:15
			distance because of our work on
different parts of the of the
		
00:11:15 --> 00:11:20
			state through email like email
list serves, I had never talked to
		
00:11:20 --> 00:11:25
			him on a personal level. So it
was, it was a surprise, and that
		
00:11:25 --> 00:11:29
			he had approached my parents
directly, and I was in Cairo, so I
		
00:11:29 --> 00:11:31
			came back so that I could get
married. And my plan was that,
		
00:11:31 --> 00:11:35
			Inshallah, we were going to try to
come back together and then
		
00:11:35 --> 00:11:39
			continue to study together. But at
the time, we also needed to get
		
00:11:39 --> 00:11:42
			scholarships to be able to support
us studying for a number of years
		
00:11:42 --> 00:11:46
			is that was something that was a
little more common here at the
		
00:11:46 --> 00:11:51
			time And subhanAllah we we also
tried to make sure that we had a
		
00:11:51 --> 00:11:54
			backup plan, because we didn't
know if we were actually going to
		
00:11:54 --> 00:11:57
			get that. You know, so many years
of
		
00:11:58 --> 00:12:01
			support through an organization,
we didn't know exactly what we
		
00:12:01 --> 00:12:03
			were going to do. And I think that
was one of the themes. And I don't
		
00:12:03 --> 00:12:06
			know what it's like in Cairo right
now, but one of the themes for us
		
00:12:06 --> 00:12:10
			was that sometimes people who were
with us in Cairo who wanted to go,
		
00:12:11 --> 00:12:14
			we weren't exactly sure what we
were going to do when we came
		
00:12:14 --> 00:12:17
			back. And there are a lot of the
manship positions available for
		
00:12:17 --> 00:12:23
			men, but also not so many, and
there were really no positions
		
00:12:23 --> 00:12:25
			available for women when I went.
So there was this question of,
		
00:12:25 --> 00:12:28
			okay, you're going to go and an
organization is going to sponsor
		
00:12:28 --> 00:12:31
			you, but what are you going to do
after that? And very few people
		
00:12:31 --> 00:12:34
			were coming back after that, and
they were trying to figure out
		
00:12:34 --> 00:12:38
			what they what their
accountability was going to be to
		
00:12:38 --> 00:12:40
			these people who supported them
going. So
		
00:12:42 --> 00:12:44
			in the meantime of waiting to
figure out what we were going to
		
00:12:44 --> 00:12:47
			do, I started working for that
year, and I started applying to
		
00:12:47 --> 00:12:52
			grad school. And Alhamdulillah, at
the end of that year, we heard
		
00:12:52 --> 00:12:54
			that we had a scholarship to go to
Cairo,
		
00:12:55 --> 00:12:59
			and I also heard that I got into
UCLA for a master's program, and
		
00:12:59 --> 00:13:03
			it was a master's in education.
They're one of the top schools for
		
00:13:03 --> 00:13:06
			this program. And Alhamdulillah, I
also got a scholarship to the
		
00:13:06 --> 00:13:11
			school. And I will tell you that
I'm going to say something so
		
00:13:11 --> 00:13:15
			privileged right now. And I'm, I
am embarrassed to say this, in a
		
00:13:15 --> 00:13:20
			sense, because so many people I
this is like the point 1% or
		
00:13:20 --> 00:13:23
			point, not even 1% of people can
say that they got a scholarship to
		
00:13:23 --> 00:13:28
			a school like this. And I just I
didn't want to go. All I wanted to
		
00:13:28 --> 00:13:32
			do was go back to Egypt, go to
Azhar. This was my dream. Coming
		
00:13:32 --> 00:13:37
			back after Egypt was so painful, I
cried like every single day for
		
00:13:37 --> 00:13:40
			six months because I missed Egypt
so bad. Until today, seeing the
		
00:13:40 --> 00:13:43
			Salah was fear brought tears to my
eyes. I can't think about Egypt
		
00:13:43 --> 00:13:48
			without becoming so emotional. But
hamdana, I'm so grateful. I came
		
00:13:48 --> 00:13:52
			back and Allah has the best plan
for us no matter where we are. And
		
00:13:52 --> 00:13:55
			he he gave me so much that I can
never be enough. You know,
		
00:13:55 --> 00:13:58
			grateful enough for and when you
look in your own life, I'm
		
00:13:58 --> 00:14:02
			positive you would have the same
to say. But when I contacted my
		
00:14:02 --> 00:14:06
			mentors and my teachers at the
time, they were like, go do your
		
00:14:06 --> 00:14:10
			master's program. There is so few
opportunities to get a scholarship
		
00:14:10 --> 00:14:13
			for something like this and take
this back to Alzheimer go back to
		
00:14:13 --> 00:14:16
			Al zahar with critical studies,
you'll be able to do better
		
00:14:16 --> 00:14:19
			research. You'll be able to take
advantage of the knowledge there,
		
00:14:19 --> 00:14:23
			because you have the tools and the
resources in your repertoire
		
00:14:23 --> 00:14:26
			because of your studies
beforehand. So that was my plan. I
		
00:14:26 --> 00:14:29
			went to UCLA for two years having
that. I studied critical race
		
00:14:29 --> 00:14:33
			theory. I got my master's in
education and social justice
		
00:14:33 --> 00:14:37
			education. I learned so much about
working as an educator, but also
		
00:14:37 --> 00:14:39
			working on identity and how to
bring
		
00:14:41 --> 00:14:44
			the identities of people of color,
of minority, students, of
		
00:14:44 --> 00:14:48
			minorities like us in different
parts of the world, and let us
		
00:14:48 --> 00:14:52
			feel this type of their isa with
it, of course, grounding that
		
00:14:52 --> 00:14:55
			understanding in what Islam
already teaches us. So I was
		
00:14:55 --> 00:14:59
			trying to take the theory and then
Islamic application and put them
		
00:14:59 --> 00:14:59
			together and.
		
00:15:00 --> 00:15:03
			And of course, having that social
justice education is so
		
00:15:03 --> 00:15:06
			incredible. It's so important for
Muslims to be a part of this, the
		
00:15:06 --> 00:15:09
			process of bringing Betterment to
all all parts of society,
		
00:15:09 --> 00:15:11
			especially when you're in Cairo,
you have the opportunity to do
		
00:15:11 --> 00:15:17
			that on a daily basis. So anyway,
I the whole time I'm sitting in
		
00:15:17 --> 00:15:22
			UCLA, I'm also studying for my
other studies, and I love teaching
		
00:15:22 --> 00:15:25
			in inner city schools. That was my
favorite thing to do. And it
		
00:15:25 --> 00:15:28
			started becoming like, I really
want to, you know, continue with
		
00:15:28 --> 00:15:31
			us. And of course, I really want
to teach in inner city schools
		
00:15:31 --> 00:15:34
			like this is where I'm so
passionate about the the grounding
		
00:15:34 --> 00:15:38
			of youth. And I mentioned the
struggle, because so many people
		
00:15:38 --> 00:15:42
			come back and they find that they
don't continue in an Islamic only
		
00:15:42 --> 00:15:47
			path. They choose to start working
or they become a full time parent.
		
00:15:47 --> 00:15:51
			They have so many different
pathways that they didn't envision
		
00:15:51 --> 00:15:55
			for themselves. While they were in
Cairo itself, I always knew I
		
00:15:55 --> 00:15:58
			wanted to work in the inner city,
and I always knew that I wanted to
		
00:15:58 --> 00:16:02
			work as an educator, but I didn't
exactly know what that looked
		
00:16:02 --> 00:16:05
			like. And so for me, I never gave
up on wanting to go back to Egypt,
		
00:16:05 --> 00:16:08
			but I started to think about what
that might look like as well. So
		
00:16:08 --> 00:16:13
			I'm studying for my Azhar exams
this whole time, and I'm working
		
00:16:13 --> 00:16:18
			with a mentor who in Cairo were
Skyping, and he helps people get
		
00:16:18 --> 00:16:23
			into Azhar and take their exams
over there. And so I graduate from
		
00:16:23 --> 00:16:27
			the two years, my plan is and I'm
gonna go for the next round of
		
00:16:27 --> 00:16:30
			exams. So I have about six months
to study, and that's all I'm
		
00:16:30 --> 00:16:33
			doing, just every single day, all
day, preparing for Asha exams,
		
00:16:33 --> 00:16:37
			memorizing all of the books for
that. Then AWEA, preparing, and
		
00:16:37 --> 00:16:39
			then Subhanallah, when I was
		
00:16:40 --> 00:16:47
			when I was in my graduate studies,
the photo happened, and then the
		
00:16:47 --> 00:16:52
			coup happened. And the coup
happened about a week before I was
		
00:16:52 --> 00:16:57
			supposed to go back. I had a
ticket. I was supposed to go back
		
00:16:58 --> 00:17:02
			the The mentor is like, don't come
to Egypt. It is crazy here as
		
00:17:02 --> 00:17:06
			closed down, they postponed exams,
and I'm just staring at him, and
		
00:17:06 --> 00:17:09
			I'm just like, Well, I'm not
staring at him, because we don't
		
00:17:09 --> 00:17:12
			use video, but I'm thinking, I'm
staring at the screen, and I'm
		
00:17:12 --> 00:17:13
			thinking,
		
00:17:15 --> 00:17:18
			Subhan Allah, this is still so
emotional for me to talk about,
		
00:17:18 --> 00:17:23
			because this was all my dreams to
go back to Egypt, to go to Azhar,
		
00:17:23 --> 00:17:28
			to study there, and I can't, I
can't go. And how selfish Am I to
		
00:17:28 --> 00:17:31
			only be thinking about myself and
my studies when an entire country
		
00:17:31 --> 00:17:35
			is going through this fight for
justice and going through so much
		
00:17:35 --> 00:17:39
			oppression, and all I'm thinking
about is I wish also would stay
		
00:17:39 --> 00:17:42
			open, because I need to study. And
of course, my heart was with the
		
00:17:42 --> 00:17:45
			people too, of course, but I want
to bring up these kind of selfish
		
00:17:45 --> 00:17:48
			parts of studying, because,
Inshallah, when we talk about the
		
00:17:48 --> 00:17:50
			stories, there's something to keep
in mind as you're going through
		
00:17:50 --> 00:17:55
			the process of actually being
there. So I had to cancel my
		
00:17:55 --> 00:17:58
			ticket two days before going
because of the political
		
00:17:58 --> 00:18:02
			situation. I called when I tried
to get a hold of Sheik Al Azhar so
		
00:18:02 --> 00:18:03
			that I could get
		
00:18:05 --> 00:18:09
			potentially, a possibility of
hearing that yes, we can just keep
		
00:18:09 --> 00:18:10
			on exams.
		
00:18:11 --> 00:18:14
			But I got to the advisor of Sheik
Azhar, and he told me about the
		
00:18:14 --> 00:18:18
			online program, and I was
devastated, because I didn't want
		
00:18:18 --> 00:18:20
			to do this online. I wanted to do
this in Cairo for the next four or
		
00:18:20 --> 00:18:25
			five years, my plan had been with
my husband and I that he had
		
00:18:25 --> 00:18:28
			started working full time. By
then, he was going to May Allah,
		
00:18:28 --> 00:18:31
			bless him, he was going to support
us, and I was going to study part
		
00:18:31 --> 00:18:36
			time in Egypt and spend part time
here in California.
		
00:18:37 --> 00:18:42
			But she, a advisor, told me to
start the online program, and
		
00:18:42 --> 00:18:46
			after so much istikhara, I finally
accepted that this is what I'm
		
00:18:46 --> 00:18:49
			going to do, and I will tell you
that that came with a lot of
		
00:18:49 --> 00:18:52
			tears, as you can tell from my
very personal, unnecessarily
		
00:18:52 --> 00:18:57
			personal story. Here it came with
a lot of pain, because that wasn't
		
00:18:57 --> 00:19:01
			what I had envisioned for my path.
I had envisioned being in Egypt, I
		
00:19:01 --> 00:19:04
			had envisioned going to Azhar and
then studying in the masjid and
		
00:19:04 --> 00:19:08
			then studying with all of the
teachers around us. I wanted to
		
00:19:08 --> 00:19:12
			study so badly. I wanted a degree
in Sharia. I wanted to do all the
		
00:19:12 --> 00:19:17
			Kira acts and all the mats and
everything, just the Arab Egypt
		
00:19:18 --> 00:19:23
			and SubhanAllah. Now I'm staring
at a computer, and it was such a
		
00:19:23 --> 00:19:25
			hard transition for me,
		
00:19:26 --> 00:19:30
			but I want to tell you that it was
such an important one, I am so
		
00:19:30 --> 00:19:34
			grateful that Allah honored me
with being able to continue
		
00:19:34 --> 00:19:38
			studying in a different way.
There's this quote that my mother
		
00:19:38 --> 00:19:42
			in law, her name is noahri, she is
a therapist, and she's written
		
00:19:42 --> 00:19:46
			this book called Positive
Parenting for the Muslim home. And
		
00:19:46 --> 00:19:50
			I share that book title with you
because even though it's about
		
00:19:50 --> 00:19:53
			parenting, her philosophy really
helped ground me through this
		
00:19:53 --> 00:19:56
			whole process, as well as my
parents, hum dudak, who were
		
00:19:56 --> 00:19:59
			really like, you know, Allah has
given you this time in Egypt.
		
00:20:00 --> 00:20:02
			And now he's given you other
opportunities and use them in the
		
00:20:02 --> 00:20:06
			way that Allah has facilitated for
you. Just a reminder from people,
		
00:20:06 --> 00:20:11
			from mentors like, look, use bloom
where you're planted. Use what
		
00:20:11 --> 00:20:15
			Allah has given you in the time
he's given it to you, and use it
		
00:20:15 --> 00:20:18
			in the in the best way that you
can. So I started studying online,
		
00:20:18 --> 00:20:22
			and Hamilton program online is
incredible. I graduated in 2017
		
00:20:22 --> 00:20:27
			2017 so I don't know what it's
like today, but it was. It was
		
00:20:27 --> 00:20:30
			such a blessing because the class
sizes were small. They were very
		
00:20:30 --> 00:20:32
			small. We had direct access to,
		
00:20:33 --> 00:20:38
			for example, like the dean of the
tifseor department, like they were
		
00:20:38 --> 00:20:42
			all heads of departments of
themselves, and Alhamdulillah, all
		
00:20:42 --> 00:20:43
			the classes were
		
00:20:44 --> 00:20:48
			live, so we had a lot of, you
know, ability to ask questions
		
00:20:48 --> 00:20:54
			directly, have conversations. And
at the same time, I did two
		
00:20:54 --> 00:20:57
			things. One, I started working
with Shiu here and in other parts
		
00:20:57 --> 00:21:01
			of the West, directly asking them
question seeking, taking personal
		
00:21:01 --> 00:21:04
			classes with them while I was
doing the online program, and
		
00:21:04 --> 00:21:06
			seeking them as mentors. Because
these are people who have already
		
00:21:06 --> 00:21:09
			graduated from their online from
their from their programs in
		
00:21:09 --> 00:21:11
			different parts of the world,
whether it was a or Kuwait or
		
00:21:11 --> 00:21:15
			Medina, and they've already
graduated. They've been working
		
00:21:15 --> 00:21:18
			here for some time, and so they
can merge Islamic Studies and
		
00:21:18 --> 00:21:22
			classical scholarship with what
the reality of the of the of the
		
00:21:22 --> 00:21:25
			circumstance of where you're going
back to, Soham. Do they not I had
		
00:21:25 --> 00:21:29
			such, such a such, such an honor
being able to study with them and
		
00:21:29 --> 00:21:32
			at the same time do my other
studies. And that was so
		
00:21:32 --> 00:21:35
			important, because online is, of
course, such a gift, especially in
		
00:21:35 --> 00:21:40
			times like covid. But at the same
time, it's not enough. So it's so
		
00:21:40 --> 00:21:43
			important to have that one on one
relationship with people, where
		
00:21:43 --> 00:21:46
			you're getting that personal
mentorship. And then the second
		
00:21:46 --> 00:21:49
			part why this was such a big
blessing for me was that I slowly
		
00:21:49 --> 00:21:52
			was able to start working in the
community as well, so I could
		
00:21:52 --> 00:21:53
			continue to work
		
00:21:54 --> 00:21:55
			with
		
00:21:57 --> 00:22:00
			the community here on the issues
that people were really struggling
		
00:22:00 --> 00:22:03
			with. And something that I
recognized was that some of the
		
00:22:03 --> 00:22:07
			some of my wonderful friends, who
I respect beyond myself and who
		
00:22:07 --> 00:22:11
			are know so much more than me,
because they weren't here all the
		
00:22:11 --> 00:22:15
			time. They it took them some time
to come back and adjust to some of
		
00:22:15 --> 00:22:18
			the issues that were happening
here. Because when you're gone for
		
00:22:18 --> 00:22:22
			four or five or six years, things
change. I mean, subhanAllah, just
		
00:22:22 --> 00:22:24
			in the past five years, so much
has changed on like, for example,
		
00:22:24 --> 00:22:27
			social media and the way that
people interact with another and
		
00:22:27 --> 00:22:30
			the way that that's impacted their
community relationships, and the
		
00:22:30 --> 00:22:32
			way that that's impacted their
Iman and their own relationship
		
00:22:32 --> 00:22:36
			with Allah. So like, sometimes you
get a glimpse of that when you're
		
00:22:36 --> 00:22:38
			living far away, but sometimes you
don't see it till you're immersed
		
00:22:38 --> 00:22:41
			in the community. So
alhamdulillah, because of the
		
00:22:41 --> 00:22:45
			opportunity to be able to be here
while I continued those types of
		
00:22:45 --> 00:22:48
			studies, I felt very fortunate
because I was able to focus my
		
00:22:48 --> 00:22:52
			studies on the things that were
really happening right now within
		
00:22:52 --> 00:22:56
			the communities that I was, you
know, very humble to serve
		
00:22:56 --> 00:22:58
			hamdullah. So really, what I want
to share with you, when you're
		
00:22:58 --> 00:23:01
			thinking about, like, what are you
going to continue with? There's
		
00:23:01 --> 00:23:03
			really two points to this. Whether
you're in Cairo right now, whether
		
00:23:03 --> 00:23:06
			you're in cholera you're planning
to be there for the next 10 years,
		
00:23:07 --> 00:23:09
			or whether you are back home
because of covid or whatever
		
00:23:09 --> 00:23:12
			reason, and you didn't get to
finish the way you wanted to,
		
00:23:12 --> 00:23:16
			there's there's two things. One
is, what is the what are you
		
00:23:16 --> 00:23:18
			personally going to use your
knowledge for? And I'm sure you've
		
00:23:18 --> 00:23:20
			asked yourself this question so
many times
		
00:23:21 --> 00:23:25
			I've heard feedback, feedback from
people who went to Egypt before I
		
00:23:25 --> 00:23:29
			did, and came back before I did,
and they came back, they started
		
00:23:29 --> 00:23:32
			working in a field unrelated to
explicitly Islamic work. Of
		
00:23:32 --> 00:23:36
			course, everything is Islamic with
the attention almost everything.
		
00:23:36 --> 00:23:40
			But they they're not working
explicitly and not in many ways.
		
00:23:42 --> 00:23:45
			And they really question, what was
the benefit of them going to
		
00:23:45 --> 00:23:50
			Cairo? So many of these people had
forgotten their Arabic. They're
		
00:23:50 --> 00:23:53
			not Arab. Like me, you know, like
most, many of you, probably we're
		
00:23:53 --> 00:23:57
			not Arab. We go to Egypt to learn
Arabic, and in order to maintain
		
00:23:57 --> 00:24:00
			that, that learning, you have to
come back and continue. And for
		
00:24:00 --> 00:24:05
			me, I was, you know, I came back
and I'm doing my Masters, and I'm
		
00:24:05 --> 00:24:08
			teaching, and I was also
memorizing the Quran, continuing
		
00:24:08 --> 00:24:12
			with my memorization at the same
time. And so I didn't have time to
		
00:24:12 --> 00:24:16
			just sit and read for hours on
end. And Alhamdulillah, now,
		
00:24:16 --> 00:24:19
			Alhamdulillah, I can,
Alhamdulillah, open, you know,
		
00:24:19 --> 00:24:22
			classical books and read them. And
yes, there will be words that I
		
00:24:22 --> 00:24:25
			don't understand. Still, and he's
a dictionary for that, but when I
		
00:24:25 --> 00:24:28
			first came back, I could not do
that. It took me years because of
		
00:24:28 --> 00:24:32
			the very small amount of time I
could spend just practicing
		
00:24:32 --> 00:24:35
			Arabic. It wasn't until I really
started focusing on preparing for
		
00:24:35 --> 00:24:40
			alzad. And even then, the fenawi
books were still too high of a
		
00:24:40 --> 00:24:43
			level for me to understand
completely on my own. At that
		
00:24:43 --> 00:24:46
			time, I still needed a mentor to
help me process them, because I
		
00:24:46 --> 00:24:49
			had only studied Arabic for 11
months. So like, give yourself
		
00:24:49 --> 00:24:53
			time. People go there and they
come back and they completely
		
00:24:53 --> 00:24:56
			forget an entire language. And
it's not that they've forgotten
		
00:24:56 --> 00:24:59
			it's still there, but they don't,
they don't invest in.
		
00:25:00 --> 00:25:02
			It's not that they don't invest. I
want to use those words because
		
00:25:02 --> 00:25:04
			that doesn't I don't mean to say
that they don't invest. Not like
		
00:25:04 --> 00:25:07
			that you get busy with life. You
get busy with priorities. You get
		
00:25:07 --> 00:25:11
			busy with the responsibilities,
absolutely, but like, what's so
		
00:25:11 --> 00:25:15
			critical is whatever you're going
through, spend some time every
		
00:25:15 --> 00:25:18
			single day studying right now.
Hamda de la I have a two year old
		
00:25:18 --> 00:25:20
			and a four year old hamdu. They
hit over the island. I'm so
		
00:25:20 --> 00:25:25
			grateful and so blessed for that.
And they take up all my time, all
		
00:25:25 --> 00:25:30
			of my time there. It's so so
incredibly busy being a mom,
		
00:25:30 --> 00:25:34
			especially of young children, they
need you all the time. So my
		
00:25:34 --> 00:25:38
			studying time is, is this time.
This is my studying time. And this
		
00:25:38 --> 00:25:42
			is only possible because I'm so
hamdullah means so blessed and so
		
00:25:42 --> 00:25:46
			fortunately that to have such a
supportive husband who's such as
		
00:25:46 --> 00:25:49
			who's such an involved father, but
I might not have that at all if
		
00:25:49 --> 00:25:51
			that wasn't possible. True,
because my kids woke up at 5:15am
		
00:25:52 --> 00:25:56
			today. It's 7:36am right now. I
wouldn't have this time to speak
		
00:25:56 --> 00:26:00
			right now if I speak with to learn
from you, if I had my kids with me
		
00:26:00 --> 00:26:03
			right now, so normally I have
about an hour in the mornings
		
00:26:03 --> 00:26:06
			between the time they wake up and
the time my husband starts working
		
00:26:06 --> 00:26:11
			during the weekdays to just study.
And sometimes I don't. Sometimes I
		
00:26:11 --> 00:26:14
			pass out because I'm so exhausted.
Sometimes I'm just so bleary, like
		
00:26:14 --> 00:26:19
			I can't focus. But I try my best
that, you know, every single day
		
00:26:19 --> 00:26:22
			there's a small amount of time
that I'm going to be studying, and
		
00:26:22 --> 00:26:25
			I'm not trying to give you an
example of me saying, like I'm the
		
00:26:25 --> 00:26:27
			right thing to do. I'm the I'm the
worst. Don't take me as an
		
00:26:27 --> 00:26:30
			example. I'm all of your examples
are better than mine. I'm just
		
00:26:30 --> 00:26:33
			trying to say the struggle is very
real. When you come back and
		
00:26:33 --> 00:26:37
			you're immersed in life, and
making time to study, even if it's
		
00:26:37 --> 00:26:41
			as small as 30 minutes a day, is
going to, Inshallah, further your
		
00:26:41 --> 00:26:44
			studies, and also Allah SWT puts
about okay in your time from
		
00:26:44 --> 00:26:47
			places you don't expect, and
energy in your life from places
		
00:26:47 --> 00:26:49
			you don't expect. So,
		
00:26:51 --> 00:26:54
			trusting in Him to facilitate
that, and trying to continue to
		
00:26:54 --> 00:26:58
			just do that, and making the
intention constantly renewing your
		
00:26:58 --> 00:27:03
			intention, I would recommend you
write your personal goals. Why are
		
00:27:03 --> 00:27:06
			you studying? Yes, of course,
we're all studying because we want
		
00:27:06 --> 00:27:08
			to be better Muslims. We're all
studying to become closer to
		
00:27:08 --> 00:27:13
			Allah. But what is it specifically
for you? What is the passion of
		
00:27:13 --> 00:27:16
			your studies? And you might not
know that yet, but as you study,
		
00:27:16 --> 00:27:20
			what is it? What are you going to
do with it in your own personal
		
00:27:20 --> 00:27:23
			life, of course, in your
relationships, to your family, to
		
00:27:23 --> 00:27:27
			your loved ones, of course, but
also for the community. And that's
		
00:27:27 --> 00:27:31
			my second point. I mentioned that
there's possibilities of Imam
		
00:27:31 --> 00:27:35
			ships, a lot of times for men, not
for women, of course, to be in the
		
00:27:35 --> 00:27:40
			Imam of the masjid, but a lot of
times, also, being an imam doesn't
		
00:27:40 --> 00:27:44
			provide enough financially for a
family, unfortunately, because, at
		
00:27:44 --> 00:27:47
			least here, because of the way
that we've structured Imam ships
		
00:27:47 --> 00:27:51
			and the board politic all of those
things. So a lot of people who've
		
00:27:51 --> 00:27:55
			gone to Egypt come back and either
they go from Masjid to Masjid,
		
00:27:55 --> 00:27:58
			because, unfortunately, it's so
difficult sometimes to work in the
		
00:27:58 --> 00:28:02
			masjid space. And that's very,
very difficult, you know, for
		
00:28:02 --> 00:28:06
			anybody or they realize that they
actually need to start working.
		
00:28:06 --> 00:28:09
			For example, maybe they got their
Bachelor's in engineering or
		
00:28:09 --> 00:28:12
			computer science before they went
to Egypt. They come back and they
		
00:28:12 --> 00:28:15
			work in that field. And then on
the side, they maybe give a halapa
		
00:28:15 --> 00:28:19
			here and there, which is a
wonderful option. But the point is
		
00:28:19 --> 00:28:25
			that banking on an imam position
isn't even always 100% for men and
		
00:28:25 --> 00:28:27
			for women. When I went there,
		
00:28:28 --> 00:28:32
			social media, I wasn't on social
media. I think Facebook had just
		
00:28:32 --> 00:28:35
			been created when I was in
college. I had never been on it.
		
00:28:35 --> 00:28:38
			Instagram didn't exist. So, like,
it was basically like
		
00:28:39 --> 00:28:43
			writing, you know, articles I was
writing for suhaibweb.com, at the
		
00:28:43 --> 00:28:47
			time, it's virtual mosque.com now,
um, so like writing articles was
		
00:28:47 --> 00:28:50
			basically like everything I saw a
woman do. I didn't see women
		
00:28:50 --> 00:28:53
			giving lectures at the time. I
thought it was haram Roman to give
		
00:28:53 --> 00:28:55
			lectures. But then after studying
from delay that, you know,
		
00:28:55 --> 00:28:59
			evolved, but I didn't see
positions for women, there was
		
00:28:59 --> 00:29:03
			really like nothing for women to
do. And so I remember talking to
		
00:29:03 --> 00:29:05
			Shaykh al muslime perma about
this, and she's like me said,
		
00:29:05 --> 00:29:09
			you'd need to hire resident female
scholars. Like as we hire Imams,
		
00:29:09 --> 00:29:15
			we also need to hire women who are
there to serve women and to answer
		
00:29:15 --> 00:29:18
			their questions, even to teach
classes to men and women. Like
		
00:29:18 --> 00:29:22
			it's so critical to have positions
that we create for women to go and
		
00:29:22 --> 00:29:25
			study and come back. Come to that
in the 11 years since I've been
		
00:29:25 --> 00:29:28
			back, there have been some
institutes that have opened and
		
00:29:28 --> 00:29:32
			are hiring women in these
positions. But that's not
		
00:29:32 --> 00:29:36
			necessarily widespread. And so if
you're a male or a female, you're
		
00:29:36 --> 00:29:38
			you know you have you, I'm sure
you're thinking about what you're
		
00:29:38 --> 00:29:41
			going to do when you come back,
but also think about like, what if
		
00:29:41 --> 00:29:45
			there is nothing for me to do when
I come back? What is it going to
		
00:29:45 --> 00:29:48
			look like? Then, what is the need
of the community you're coming
		
00:29:48 --> 00:29:51
			back to? And what are you going to
create? Sheik Muslimah and Sheik
		
00:29:52 --> 00:29:53
			jabab, they created
		
00:29:54 --> 00:29:59
			the Majlis, which is like a an
institute. Imam sohib Webb created
		
00:29:59 --> 00:29:59
			an institute.
		
00:30:00 --> 00:30:02
			These are people who are
responding to the needs of the
		
00:30:02 --> 00:30:05
			community, so maybe that's
something that you're going to be
		
00:30:05 --> 00:30:10
			doing for me. I recognize that my
my role is really with working in
		
00:30:10 --> 00:30:12
			women's issues, as I'm very
passionate about
		
00:30:13 --> 00:30:20
			women and the misunderstanding of
so many wonderful, critical Hadith
		
00:30:20 --> 00:30:24
			and ayat that are so empowering,
but unfortunately, caused so many
		
00:30:24 --> 00:30:27
			women to question their Imaan. And
so for me, I've really been
		
00:30:27 --> 00:30:31
			working in the research aspect of
that and the Quranic aspect of
		
00:30:31 --> 00:30:34
			women. So for you, as you're
studying and figuring out what am
		
00:30:34 --> 00:30:38
			I doing this for, also figuring
out who am I going to serve with
		
00:30:38 --> 00:30:40
			this, I think is really important.
		
00:30:41 --> 00:30:45
			And with that, that concept of
serving Inshallah, I'd like to end
		
00:30:45 --> 00:30:47
			by talking about three parts,
whether you're sitting in Egypt or
		
00:30:47 --> 00:30:51
			wherever you are now, to kind of
consider in your journey of
		
00:30:51 --> 00:30:55
			serving and how that impacts your
knowledge. So the first thing is
		
00:30:55 --> 00:30:56
			that when you study,
		
00:30:57 --> 00:31:01
			and you know this way more than I
do, and I'm so excited about Q A
		
00:31:01 --> 00:31:03
			because I'm the only one who's
gonna have questions for all of
		
00:31:03 --> 00:31:06
			you, and shell I can't wait to
hear hear from all of you.
		
00:31:07 --> 00:31:12
			So the the first thing is, like,
who you serve, how you serve,
		
00:31:12 --> 00:31:16
			obviously impacts your knowledge.
Being in Egypt, there are so much
		
00:31:16 --> 00:31:21
			poverty is so painful to see, and
I remember being followed so many
		
00:31:21 --> 00:31:26
			times as probably you have, by
people who would, you know, ask
		
00:31:26 --> 00:31:29
			for money. They would follow me up
to my apartment door. They would
		
00:31:29 --> 00:31:34
			grab me, and they would ask for
something. And in the beginning, I
		
00:31:34 --> 00:31:37
			was like, Oh, my God, of course, I
have to give them something, even
		
00:31:37 --> 00:31:40
			though I really didn't have much
with me at all. But that would
		
00:31:40 --> 00:31:44
			cause this huge crowd of people
like to, you know, oh, she gave
		
00:31:44 --> 00:31:47
			me, you know, one ganay, and so
there's like, 10 other people who
		
00:31:47 --> 00:31:49
			want that ganay, and they're
coming, and all of a sudden you
		
00:31:49 --> 00:31:53
			have, like, I don't, I don't have,
I like, don't have that amount of
		
00:31:53 --> 00:31:57
			money. And it's just so sad. Like,
I'm not laughing because I'm like,
		
00:31:57 --> 00:31:59
			I don't have that. I don't mean
that. I mean, like, the shock,
		
00:31:59 --> 00:32:02
			like, there are children who are
living on the street. And you
		
00:32:02 --> 00:32:06
			might not be able to solve all of
Egypt's poverty, but what you can
		
00:32:06 --> 00:32:10
			do is you can give people dignity
and humanity. So taking the time
		
00:32:10 --> 00:32:14
			to just learn about people who you
see on the street, making an
		
00:32:14 --> 00:32:17
			effort to go up to them and just
befriend their family, speak with
		
00:32:17 --> 00:32:20
			them, have conversations about
them, ask what their children's
		
00:32:20 --> 00:32:24
			names are be a part of the
community that you're surrounded
		
00:32:24 --> 00:32:25
			by.
		
00:32:26 --> 00:32:31
			You don't have to solve the
poverty problem for all of Egypt,
		
00:32:32 --> 00:32:38
			but what you can do is help people
feel like they mean something to
		
00:32:38 --> 00:32:41
			you and they matter. And that's
something that, of course, is
		
00:32:41 --> 00:32:45
			going to impact your knowledge
Inshallah, and when you're seeking
		
00:32:45 --> 00:32:48
			that knowledge, making the
intention that your intention is
		
00:32:48 --> 00:32:52
			that you're doing this asking
Allah SWT to humble you and to
		
00:32:52 --> 00:32:55
			forgive you and to help you in the
studies that you seek.
		
00:32:56 --> 00:33:01
			There was a sheik who recital
Quran so incredibly in Egypt, and
		
00:33:01 --> 00:33:05
			i i The Quran for me is just
that's, you know, one of my
		
00:33:05 --> 00:33:10
			passions. And so I wanted to ask
him, like to teach this group of
		
00:33:10 --> 00:33:12
			women who really wanted to ask,
		
00:33:13 --> 00:33:17
			how are we going to study the
Quran, the way that you studied
		
00:33:17 --> 00:33:21
			it? Would you be able to teach us?
So I went and I asked him
		
00:33:21 --> 00:33:23
			directly, asked the hadima of the
masjid to connect me with him. It
		
00:33:23 --> 00:33:26
			was kind of like weird. They were
like, you want to talk to the
		
00:33:26 --> 00:33:30
			Imam. Okay, so I went, and I'm
like, stuttering in Arabic, trying
		
00:33:30 --> 00:33:32
			to ask him if he teaches group a
woman. He's like, I don't teach
		
00:33:32 --> 00:33:36
			woman. And I was really
devastated. And I went back up to
		
00:33:36 --> 00:33:40
			the masjid, and I saw this group
of women had these Egyptian, you
		
00:33:40 --> 00:33:44
			know, wonderful, incredible women
had gathered, and I don't know who
		
00:33:44 --> 00:33:46
			they are. They're just bringing
the message. They're like, did you
		
00:33:46 --> 00:33:51
			talk to that shit? And I was like,
Yes. And I think I don't know if
		
00:33:51 --> 00:33:53
			it was like, you know, at that
message, they didn't talk to the
		
00:33:53 --> 00:33:57
			Imam, but they were like, What did
you ask him? And I was like, I
		
00:33:57 --> 00:33:59
			wanted to ask him if he teach
woman Quran. I was like, well, we
		
00:33:59 --> 00:34:02
			will all wear knockoff and all be
behind a wall like, you don't have
		
00:34:02 --> 00:34:05
			to see any of us. We just want to
learn from you. But he's like, I
		
00:34:05 --> 00:34:10
			just don't teach women at all. So
anyway, the sister, one of the
		
00:34:10 --> 00:34:13
			sisters who was there, she was
like, subhanAllah, you went to ask
		
00:34:13 --> 00:34:17
			him about Quran. And here I am,
and I'm going to be teaching it to
		
00:34:17 --> 00:34:19
			see her class. And then she gave
me a book.
		
00:34:23 --> 00:34:24
			I'm so sorry I did.
		
00:34:28 --> 00:34:29
			She was
		
00:34:30 --> 00:34:36
			She said, Allah saw that you were
truthful, and so he provided a way
		
00:34:36 --> 00:34:39
			for you. And I'm not crying
because that's true, because Allah
		
00:34:39 --> 00:34:43
			knows how untruthful My heart is
and how much I struggle, but
		
00:34:44 --> 00:34:48
			because this sister's name was
asmaath, and when the coup
		
00:34:48 --> 00:34:53
			happened, she was standing, her
husband had been hurt in Rabat,
		
00:34:53 --> 00:34:58
			then he was in the hospital, and
she was standing at a window, and
		
00:34:59 --> 00:34:59
			there was a.
		
00:35:00 --> 00:35:05
			Sniper that shot her in the back
from the hospital window. And
		
00:35:05 --> 00:35:10
			subhanAllah, she, of course, she
was murdered Rahmatullah. And
		
00:35:10 --> 00:35:14
			subhanAllah, I had her number, and
I thought about how Asmaa sat up.
		
00:35:14 --> 00:35:17
			I just thought about how
Subhanallah, Allah gave me this
		
00:35:17 --> 00:35:22
			one moment to meet her, and she's
already passed away. And
		
00:35:22 --> 00:35:25
			subhanAllah, the impact that this
one person had on my life, I can't
		
00:35:25 --> 00:35:29
			tell you how many times I think
about her, how often she has
		
00:35:29 --> 00:35:34
			inspired my studies away from
Egypt and sometimes for you, like
		
00:35:35 --> 00:35:38
			you're in a place where the doors
are closing for you when you don't
		
00:35:38 --> 00:35:41
			expect them to close, and
sometimes you're just knocking and
		
00:35:41 --> 00:35:44
			knocking. You've you've left
everything to come to ikai Road to
		
00:35:44 --> 00:35:48
			study, and now there's covid, and
you're stuck. And there's so so
		
00:35:48 --> 00:35:51
			many doors that just keep closing
for you. We don't know how long we
		
00:35:51 --> 00:35:56
			have here. We have no idea how
short our time is on this earth
		
00:35:56 --> 00:36:01
			serving Allah, but there are some
people like Asmaa. So may Allah
		
00:36:01 --> 00:36:04
			raise her ranks and give her fear
just on a and there are people
		
00:36:04 --> 00:36:08
			like that who come to you in a
moment of need, and they give you
		
00:36:08 --> 00:36:12
			this hope, and Subhanallah, that's
all that that you need in the
		
00:36:12 --> 00:36:14
			hereafter for someone to make, to
offer you, even when you're gone.
		
00:36:15 --> 00:36:18
			And so sometimes, when you're
trying to study and the doors
		
00:36:18 --> 00:36:23
			close for you, look at why they're
closing. Why is, why is the store
		
00:36:23 --> 00:36:26
			closing? Maybe Allah, SWT has
something different planned for
		
00:36:26 --> 00:36:30
			you, and how are you going to use
that door, and how are you going
		
00:36:30 --> 00:36:33
			to, how are you going to serve
other people in the process of
		
00:36:33 --> 00:36:36
			that door opening for you? Another
one. Inshallah,
		
00:36:37 --> 00:36:41
			also, I wanted to share I know
that I have a few more minutes, I
		
00:36:41 --> 00:36:44
			think, Inshallah, I'll end very
quickly. Only have two more
		
00:36:44 --> 00:36:48
			stories to share. One of them is
specifically about being a woman
		
00:36:48 --> 00:36:51
			in Egypt. Males, Patala, by the
way, I just wanted, I wanted to, I
		
00:36:51 --> 00:36:54
			didn't want to make that an
awkward transition. But may Allah
		
00:36:54 --> 00:36:58
			have mercy on Asmaa and all of the
people who have passed away and
		
00:36:58 --> 00:37:01
			who've been murdered and who've
been harmed and hurt of our OMA
		
00:37:01 --> 00:37:05
			and the vulnerable Europe. But I
mean and help us Europe, we still
		
00:37:05 --> 00:37:08
			have time to do good in their name
Europe.
		
00:37:10 --> 00:37:14
			When I was in Egypt, one of the
things that people kept telling me
		
00:37:14 --> 00:37:18
			was about men specifically, and
how terrible the men of Egypt are,
		
00:37:18 --> 00:37:21
			and how, you know, they're so
lewd, and they're gonna call out
		
00:37:21 --> 00:37:23
			to you. They're gonna say all
these awful things. I cannot count
		
00:37:23 --> 00:37:28
			the number of times people told me
that. So what do you I mean, what
		
00:37:28 --> 00:37:31
			was I expecting when I go to
Egypt? I'm in California, there
		
00:37:31 --> 00:37:34
			are lots of there are lots of men
who do really, you know, messed up
		
00:37:34 --> 00:37:37
			things to women. But for some
reason, this was the number one
		
00:37:37 --> 00:37:40
			piece of advice I got when I went
to Egypt from other other
		
00:37:40 --> 00:37:44
			Egyptians and non Egyptians. So I
go to Egypt, and of course, I'm
		
00:37:44 --> 00:37:47
			like, looking, you know, behind me
for a couple of times, but then I
		
00:37:47 --> 00:37:51
			fell in love with Egypt. Right
now, if I pass by a big pile of
		
00:37:51 --> 00:37:55
			garbage and I inhale, I'm like,
Egypt. And I don't mean that to be
		
00:37:55 --> 00:37:59
			offensive. I don't mean to I don't
mean for that to be offensive. An
		
00:37:59 --> 00:38:02
			offensive statement. There were
lots of garbage piles that I
		
00:38:02 --> 00:38:07
			passed by there. And for me, that
was obviously not a fault of the
		
00:38:07 --> 00:38:10
			people. That's an infrastructure
problem. That's a that's a
		
00:38:10 --> 00:38:13
			something that the politics need
to change. But at the same time,
		
00:38:14 --> 00:38:19
			that was a scent for me that gave
me hope, like I love, I just loved
		
00:38:19 --> 00:38:24
			everything about Egypt and
Subhanallah, the people were so
		
00:38:24 --> 00:38:28
			caring and loving and wonderful.
But there was still this part of
		
00:38:28 --> 00:38:31
			me that remembers what people told
me. And so one time in Ramadan, I
		
00:38:31 --> 00:38:35
			was walking back from taraweeh,
and so it's like, I think it was
		
00:38:35 --> 00:38:38
			like midnight, I was going to my
apartment, which was pretty close
		
00:38:38 --> 00:38:41
			by. There were lots of people on
the street, and there were these,
		
00:38:42 --> 00:38:46
			this car that slowed down, and
they're there. I'm hearing them
		
00:38:46 --> 00:38:48
			speaking in Arabic, right? And
I've only been there for about
		
00:38:48 --> 00:38:52
			maybe two months at this time, so
my Arabic wasn't very strong, but
		
00:38:52 --> 00:38:55
			I'm like walking slowly, and this
car is going, there's these two
		
00:38:55 --> 00:39:00
			men in it, and I hear this word
that I was told means that a man
		
00:39:00 --> 00:39:06
			is hitting on you. And I was like,
like, Ah, it's Rama bon. I will
		
00:39:06 --> 00:39:11
			not get let anyone get away with
this type of action. And so I
		
00:39:11 --> 00:39:15
			turned and the car window was
open, and I screamed, I
		
00:39:17 --> 00:39:21
			like, screamed this into their
car. Then they both looked at me,
		
00:39:21 --> 00:39:24
			and then they looked at each
other, and they looked at me, and
		
00:39:24 --> 00:39:27
			they were like, what? And then I
realized, like they were not
		
00:39:27 --> 00:39:32
			talking to me, they were having a
conversation. And here I am
		
00:39:32 --> 00:39:35
			hearing a word that sounded
similar to a word that I kept
		
00:39:35 --> 00:39:40
			being warned of. And I kept
hearing this message of people
		
00:39:40 --> 00:39:43
			saying that men in Egypt are so
terrible and they're constantly
		
00:39:43 --> 00:39:46
			going to be after you just because
you're female, whether you wear
		
00:39:46 --> 00:39:50
			nakab or whatever you wear. I
mean, like, I was into them in a
		
00:39:50 --> 00:39:53
			huge hijab my entire time, but my
friends who were nakab told me
		
00:39:53 --> 00:39:56
			that they got hit on like, you
just need to be a female and it's
		
00:39:56 --> 00:39:59
			going to happen. And so, like, I'm
like, screaming into their car.
		
00:40:00 --> 00:40:03
			And they're just two young men who
are having a conversation, and
		
00:40:03 --> 00:40:05
			then we're like, Sorry, what? And
I was like, what, and they're
		
00:40:05 --> 00:40:07
			like, what. And I was like, bye. I
just walked.
		
00:40:10 --> 00:40:13
			But Subhanallah, it's not about
you, I guess is what I want to
		
00:40:13 --> 00:40:15
			say. Like, sometimes things
happen, it's nothing to do with
		
00:40:15 --> 00:40:20
			you. And if anything, it's an
opportunity for self reflection.
		
00:40:20 --> 00:40:22
			Like, sometimes people will say
things to you about Egyptians or
		
00:40:22 --> 00:40:27
			about being in Egypt. And it's not
just I guess. What I'm trying to
		
00:40:27 --> 00:40:31
			say is look beyond that. Look
beyond our own heads, our own
		
00:40:31 --> 00:40:35
			heads as foreigners in Egypt, and
to see the good of everyone. There
		
00:40:35 --> 00:40:39
			is good in everyone. I remember
once in Ramadan, I was standing at
		
00:40:39 --> 00:40:42
			an ATM machine. I was with my
roommate. It was after today, we
		
00:40:42 --> 00:40:45
			want to straw money, and there
were two men in front of us, and I
		
00:40:45 --> 00:40:47
			don't know what happened. I don't
know if they were like, I was
		
00:40:47 --> 00:40:49
			first. I was first. No, I was
first. The first night of Ramadan,
		
00:40:49 --> 00:40:52
			they started fighting, like,
yelling at each other, pushing
		
00:40:52 --> 00:40:56
			each other, and my roommate was
like, Oh my God, what do we do?
		
00:40:56 --> 00:41:00
			But I stepped up, and I was like,
hey, hey. Like, it's rambled on.
		
00:41:00 --> 00:41:04
			It's rumbled on, and they kind of
looked at me like, why are you
		
00:41:04 --> 00:41:07
			talking to us? But that calmed
them down, and they kind of, like
		
00:41:07 --> 00:41:10
			calmed down, and they started
moving away from each other. And
		
00:41:10 --> 00:41:13
			the only reason I wanted to
mention that story is because
		
00:41:14 --> 00:41:18
			sometimes we might feel like we're
not Egyptian, like we can't speak
		
00:41:18 --> 00:41:20
			to these circumstances. Like,
obviously we can't speak to the
		
00:41:20 --> 00:41:23
			circumstances that Egyptians are
going through, obviously, but at
		
00:41:23 --> 00:41:28
			the same time like these are
people who, when you remind them
		
00:41:28 --> 00:41:33
			of Allah so often, they just take
a step back and they realize,
		
00:41:33 --> 00:41:36
			like, we were caught up, right?
Like SubhanAllah. That's all of
		
00:41:36 --> 00:41:40
			us, of course. But there is just
so much goodness in people. And
		
00:41:40 --> 00:41:44
			when you see something that you
don't think is like, solid like
		
00:41:44 --> 00:41:47
			that doesn't look, you know, like
that doesn't look like a heart
		
00:41:47 --> 00:41:51
			that that I want in my in my own,
in I don't want that heart well,
		
00:41:51 --> 00:41:54
			like, recognize that that's our
heart, right? Like we are all one
		
00:41:55 --> 00:41:58
			ummah. And so when we see things
that frustrate us and confuse us,
		
00:41:58 --> 00:42:01
			it's not a moment to be like, Oh,
that's what I was expecting from
		
00:42:01 --> 00:42:04
			an Egyptian which I heard so
often, like so often when I was
		
00:42:04 --> 00:42:07
			with sisters, they would make
those comments. And I don't know
		
00:42:07 --> 00:42:10
			what the culture is like there for
foreigners right now, so forgive
		
00:42:10 --> 00:42:13
			me, because I don't mean to
impose. You know what we
		
00:42:13 --> 00:42:16
			experienced to you? I don't know.
Maybe you're completely different.
		
00:42:16 --> 00:42:19
			How many this doesn't exist, but
for us, like hearing those
		
00:42:19 --> 00:42:22
			comments so often, even when for
people sitting in Egypt, like,
		
00:42:22 --> 00:42:25
			take the second to look, to look
at. Like, we are brothers. We are
		
00:42:25 --> 00:42:28
			mirrors of one another, brothers
and sisters. So take that time and
		
00:42:28 --> 00:42:32
			like, if I see a reflection that I
don't like, like, what can I do to
		
00:42:32 --> 00:42:36
			gently help create a different
reflection? Because that's my
		
00:42:36 --> 00:42:40
			reflection, too. And so how can I
help? How can I help this
		
00:42:40 --> 00:42:43
			circumstance, even if it's just
making to offer this situation.
		
00:42:44 --> 00:42:48
			And the final thing I wanted to
share is that I was really big on
		
00:42:48 --> 00:42:52
			book studying. Oh, it's kind of I
remember one of my friends came
		
00:42:52 --> 00:42:54
			from each group for the first
time. It was, like, the first week
		
00:42:54 --> 00:42:58
			of her in Cairo, and she was like,
so I want to see everything like,
		
00:42:58 --> 00:43:03
			you know, take me sightseeing. And
I was like, Okay, let's go. So we
		
00:43:03 --> 00:43:06
			were gonna go out to dinner. So
we're gonna go to city stores to
		
00:43:06 --> 00:43:10
			have a meal. And we're like, okay,
we you know, she had already done
		
00:43:10 --> 00:43:12
			all these other like Islamic
sightseeing throughout the week
		
00:43:12 --> 00:43:16
			with other people, and we were
gonna go out to eat. And my
		
00:43:16 --> 00:43:19
			roommate brought kita wala SESI,
and I brought my Mustaf, and we
		
00:43:19 --> 00:43:22
			sit down, and I share with my
friend who had just come from
		
00:43:22 --> 00:43:25
			Egypt, and, like, we just sit
down, and we're like, not even
		
00:43:25 --> 00:43:28
			looking at the menu yet. And I was
like, Hey, can you? Can you? Can
		
00:43:28 --> 00:43:31
			you help me review for the surah?
Can you help correct me? She's
		
00:43:31 --> 00:43:33
			staring at me, and she's like, I
thought we went out to dinner. And
		
00:43:33 --> 00:43:38
			I was like, Yeah, but like, every
second we can study. And I I
		
00:43:38 --> 00:43:41
			really chalk that up to like, I
hope Inshallah, like youth,
		
00:43:41 --> 00:43:45
			zealous youth ism but also like, I
don't think that was appropriate.
		
00:43:45 --> 00:43:48
			There is a time and a place for
study, and there's a time and a
		
00:43:48 --> 00:43:51
			place for social interaction, and
it's so important to take the time
		
00:43:51 --> 00:43:54
			to study. We used to have halakhas
hamdullah every Thursday, we used
		
00:43:54 --> 00:43:58
			to gather my apartment. Hamdullah
had started before I came. Imam
		
00:43:58 --> 00:44:01
			Suhaib used to give us halakhas.
Different sisters gave us Hala
		
00:44:01 --> 00:44:04
			Paz, and it was wonderful, such a
special gathering. Like, like, it
		
00:44:04 --> 00:44:08
			sounds like you have, but if it
wasn't a halapa, I wasn't going,
		
00:44:08 --> 00:44:11
			like, if it was just a bunch of
people socializing, I rarely went,
		
00:44:11 --> 00:44:15
			and I regret that. And it wasn't
because just of the bonds that you
		
00:44:15 --> 00:44:18
			build, like, that's so important
and long lasting, but also
		
00:44:18 --> 00:44:21
			because, like, you get to study
when you're with people, they you
		
00:44:21 --> 00:44:25
			practice your Arabic with people
who understand, like, you take the
		
00:44:25 --> 00:44:29
			time to just, like, live and learn
with other people. So I just want
		
00:44:29 --> 00:44:32
			to say that, like, I was there and
I was like, we should study every
		
00:44:32 --> 00:44:36
			single second, but like, I wish
that I had included in my
		
00:44:36 --> 00:44:40
			understanding of studying being
with people. I interacted a lot
		
00:44:40 --> 00:44:42
			with Egyptians. I made the end.
Everywhere I went, I tried to
		
00:44:42 --> 00:44:46
			speak Arabic, as broken as it was
at the time. I tried my best, and
		
00:44:46 --> 00:44:49
			I thought that was a part of my
studies, because it was helping me
		
00:44:49 --> 00:44:51
			learn the language and learn the
culture and be with the people.
		
00:44:51 --> 00:44:54
			But I was like, Oh, we're all
gonna be speaking in English. I'm,
		
00:44:54 --> 00:44:57
			you know, we're just gonna go out
to ice cream, but I wish I had
		
00:44:58 --> 00:44:59
			just encouraging, like.
		
00:45:00 --> 00:45:04
			Systems are so important. Yes,
Sheik Ahmed, that is so important.
		
00:45:04 --> 00:45:06
			But also, just like
		
00:45:07 --> 00:45:10
			learning from people, learning
from their perspectives, and when
		
00:45:10 --> 00:45:13
			you come back, you need that the
bond that I have with the sisters
		
00:45:13 --> 00:45:15
			from Egypt is so different from
the bond that I have with anyone
		
00:45:15 --> 00:45:19
			else. And subhanAllah, we still
feel so connected to one another
		
00:45:19 --> 00:45:22
			and cry with one another over the
time that we miss, of the Hijjah,
		
00:45:22 --> 00:45:25
			especially, of Ramadan,
especially. And then the last
		
00:45:25 --> 00:45:29
			thing I wanted to share is when
it's safe Inshallah, if you're
		
00:45:29 --> 00:45:32
			able to travel. I didn't travel
when I was in Egypt because I
		
00:45:32 --> 00:45:34
			thought it was haram at the time
to travel without a maharam. I've
		
00:45:34 --> 00:45:38
			changed that opinion since then.
My dad flew me to Cairo. I lived
		
00:45:38 --> 00:45:41
			in Cairo. He flew me back with my
mom, so I didn't do any traveling,
		
00:45:41 --> 00:45:45
			but afterwards, when my husband
and I got married, we went back to
		
00:45:45 --> 00:45:48
			Egypt, and we spent the summer
there studying together before we
		
00:45:48 --> 00:45:49
			started,
		
00:45:50 --> 00:45:54
			we before we started school and
work, and Alhamdulillah, we had
		
00:45:54 --> 00:45:58
			the immense honor of going to
meshah from Egypt at the time. And
		
00:45:58 --> 00:46:01
			I am so grateful to Allah for
facilitating that and honoring
		
00:46:01 --> 00:46:04
			that with for me, especially
because when I was in Egypt
		
00:46:04 --> 00:46:07
			myself, so many sisters would go
to meshful Aksa, like they would
		
00:46:07 --> 00:46:09
			just go over the weekend, and I
was like, I can't. I don't have a
		
00:46:09 --> 00:46:11
			mushroom. How do I do it? They
didn't have Muhammad either. They
		
00:46:11 --> 00:46:13
			took the other opinion Bahamut
		
00:46:14 --> 00:46:17
			that, you know, they had the
opportunity, and I'm so grateful I
		
00:46:17 --> 00:46:20
			did, too. But my point is that if
you don't take that opinion, and
		
00:46:20 --> 00:46:22
			and you're like, Oh, I can't leave
Cairo because I just need to
		
00:46:22 --> 00:46:25
			study. Like travel. Traveling is
going to increase your knowledge.
		
00:46:25 --> 00:46:27
			It's going to increase your
understanding. Of course, you
		
00:46:27 --> 00:46:30
			already know that the Quran tells
us to see the world and to take
		
00:46:30 --> 00:46:34
			the science from that, but go to
mashal Aqsa. Take advantage of the
		
00:46:34 --> 00:46:39
			privilege that you have, if you
have the privilege to go, go and
		
00:46:39 --> 00:46:44
			and make it a point to be, to show
that Palestine matters, to show
		
00:46:44 --> 00:46:48
			that you care about the masjid and
that people care, and that we
		
00:46:48 --> 00:46:50
			haven't forgotten about it, and
take the time to visit other parts
		
00:46:50 --> 00:46:53
			of Egypt that have so much
history. Just going my brother
		
00:46:53 --> 00:46:55
			hamilah visited when I was in
Cairo, so I got to go see where
		
00:46:55 --> 00:46:59
			Musa alaihi salam was like taking
advantage of those places that
		
00:46:59 --> 00:47:03
			inshallah will help you become
stronger in your understanding of
		
00:47:03 --> 00:47:05
			what the Quran and what the
Ahadith talk about when it talks
		
00:47:05 --> 00:47:09
			about these incredible places
inshallah. Finally, the very last
		
00:47:09 --> 00:47:13
			sentence that I want to leave you
with is, oh, I got to make this a
		
00:47:13 --> 00:47:18
			sentence. Now, don't focus only on
the next 237, years you're
		
00:47:18 --> 00:47:21
			Inshallah, in Egypt for or
wherever you are now. Focus on the
		
00:47:21 --> 00:47:25
			long term. In 20 years, where do
you want to be, and how can you
		
00:47:25 --> 00:47:30
			make all of your actions work
towards that direction? And don't
		
00:47:30 --> 00:47:33
			just focus on 20 years. Focus on
the Hereafter. And I know we all
		
00:47:33 --> 00:47:36
			say we walk through del Salado, of
course, Ya Allah, we beg of you
		
00:47:36 --> 00:47:40
			for that. But what are the actions
that are going to get you there?
		
00:47:40 --> 00:47:42
			And we don't get there because of
our action. We get there because
		
00:47:42 --> 00:47:45
			of Allah SWT, of Allah SWT mercy.
But how can I facilitate, like the
		
00:47:45 --> 00:47:49
			companion who facilitated by
making lots of sujood? How can you
		
00:47:49 --> 00:47:53
			work towards that in a very
specific way that's not only for
		
00:47:53 --> 00:47:54
			yourself, but also for your
community?
		
00:47:55 --> 00:47:59
			I'm done talking. I'm sorry that
was probably not very helpful.
		
00:47:59 --> 00:48:02
			There was a lot of emotional
stuff. Not that that's not
		
00:48:02 --> 00:48:04
			helpful. Emotions are very
helpful. We should all have
		
00:48:04 --> 00:48:07
			emotions. But I guess what I'm
trying to say is I don't know if
		
00:48:07 --> 00:48:10
			any of, any of this is helpful. I
am looking very forward to
		
00:48:10 --> 00:48:12
			inshallah reading your questions,
or if you're going to speak them,
		
00:48:12 --> 00:48:15
			that'd be even better. I would
love to hear your experiences
		
00:48:15 --> 00:48:19
			inshallah chronicle behind the
conditional on that you let into
		
00:48:20 --> 00:48:23
			this. Going to wait that was
really, really inspiring,
		
00:48:23 --> 00:48:28
			inspiring and uplifting and just
encouraging, especially for me,
		
00:48:28 --> 00:48:35
			Judy has given me that renewed
sense of humor to study harder and
		
00:48:35 --> 00:48:38
			to really, really just make the
most of my time here. Can
		
00:48:38 --> 00:48:41
			definitely relate to a lot of what
you're saying, and especially also
		
00:48:41 --> 00:48:45
			about just coming here and being
positive and having positive
		
00:48:45 --> 00:48:49
			attitude. I also, Alhamdulillah,
have not have any negative
		
00:48:49 --> 00:48:54
			experiences or bad experiences, or
I can't complain about anything at
		
00:48:54 --> 00:48:58
			all like Alhamdulillah mean, and
that's really just by, you know,
		
00:48:58 --> 00:49:01
			consciously seeing the good in
every situation and overlooking
		
00:49:01 --> 00:49:07
			the negatives that are present. So
once again, there is a question,
		
00:49:08 --> 00:49:12
			Assalamualaikum. Shehar, I want to
study a through distance learning
		
00:49:12 --> 00:49:15
			from the USA before applying for
the bachelor's program online.
		
00:49:15 --> 00:49:18
			What level of Arabic Should I have
from? Where can I get the
		
00:49:18 --> 00:49:23
			certificate in Arabic for the
admission Thursdays. So to be
		
00:49:23 --> 00:49:27
			honest, I applied in 2012 so I
don't know what it's like right
		
00:49:27 --> 00:49:31
			now. I have absolutely no clue at
the time. What I submitted was my
		
00:49:31 --> 00:49:35
			due answer. I studied Arabic and
UN so I submitted that sort of
		
00:49:35 --> 00:49:36
			that certificate.
		
00:49:37 --> 00:49:40
			So I don't know where you'd get
the certificate in Arabic for
		
00:49:40 --> 00:49:42
			admission. If you haven't done
that, to be honest, I think you
		
00:49:42 --> 00:49:45
			should directly contact them and
ask them, what level of Arabic
		
00:49:45 --> 00:49:49
			should you have to start? You need
to be able to read, write and
		
00:49:49 --> 00:49:51
			speak in Arabic and plus, task
specifically,
		
00:49:53 --> 00:49:55
			does it have to be like at the
level where you're able to open a
		
00:49:55 --> 00:49:59
			classical text and understand
everything? No, you'll be able to.
		
00:50:00 --> 00:50:02
			You know, the more that you study
Inshallah, the more that you're
		
00:50:02 --> 00:50:05
			going to your Arabic level will
increase as you're going through
		
00:50:05 --> 00:50:08
			the process. So Inshallah, your
Arabic will increase as you're
		
00:50:08 --> 00:50:12
			going through the process. Um, but
definitely, you need at least a,
		
00:50:12 --> 00:50:16
			not just a basic level is not
enough, like you'd need to be able
		
00:50:16 --> 00:50:19
			to read at least some, some, you
know, books in Arabic, even if
		
00:50:19 --> 00:50:22
			it's not like classical level
status. I'll give you an example.
		
00:50:22 --> 00:50:24
			I studied tafsir sabuni When I was
doing
		
00:50:25 --> 00:50:31
			my Arabic studies. That's a very
basic tafsir book. Read a sabuni.
		
00:50:31 --> 00:50:34
			See if you can understand it in
Arabic. It's like modern it's
		
00:50:34 --> 00:50:38
			modern words. It's a lot easier
than some of the other classical
		
00:50:38 --> 00:50:41
			tafesir, some of the classical
tafesir. See how your level of
		
00:50:41 --> 00:50:44
			Arabic is with that, how much you
need help understanding and then
		
00:50:45 --> 00:50:48
			kind of make, kind of kind of base
it kind of
		
00:50:50 --> 00:50:53
			on something like that. Inshallah,
for answering that question, I
		
00:50:53 --> 00:50:58
			would recommend is that the person
who asked made contact with it as
		
00:50:58 --> 00:51:02
			if they do have a website and
there are contact details that
		
00:51:02 --> 00:51:05
			they can get hold of, or if they
know anybody here they can
		
00:51:11 --> 00:51:11
			Okay.
		
00:51:27 --> 00:51:30
			Muted your names if you'd like to
ask the question you
		
00:51:48 --> 00:51:50
			message in the chat box.
		
00:51:52 --> 00:51:55
			Okay, quick question for Okay,
maybe not so much of a question.
		
00:51:57 --> 00:51:57
			Okay, I
		
00:52:01 --> 00:52:04
			don't think there are any more
questions. So she closed so much
		
00:52:04 --> 00:52:06
			for your time. I know later, time
is really precious, especially as
		
00:52:06 --> 00:52:10
			a mom of two little ones. I'm sure
if anybody else has any questions,
		
00:52:10 --> 00:52:15
			they can DM you on Instagram and
you can reply in your own time. So
		
00:52:15 --> 00:52:19
			if anyone isn't on one point, if
anyone isn't following sheikho
		
00:52:19 --> 00:52:24
			Miro, sheikho, Maria mamil, please
follow her at the mauriyam amid on
		
00:52:24 --> 00:52:29
			Instagram. So again, once again,
on behalf of Muslims connected we
		
00:52:29 --> 00:52:32
			thank you. I see there is a
question coming through Salam. She
		
00:52:32 --> 00:52:35
			What are your thoughts on
institutes for study in Western
		
00:52:35 --> 00:52:39
			countries such as zaytuna or Kalam
or Ibrahim in UK,
		
00:52:42 --> 00:52:46
			SubhanAllah? I really don't know
the curriculum of any institute
		
00:52:46 --> 00:52:50
			here, but I will say the fact that
there are institutes that that
		
00:52:50 --> 00:52:53
			that our options now is so
incredible. I have met some of the
		
00:52:53 --> 00:52:56
			graduates of zaytuna and of
column, again, I can't speak to
		
00:52:56 --> 00:52:59
			their curriculum, but some of the
teachers are incredible.
		
00:52:59 --> 00:53:02
			Mashallah, I know, I don't know
much of the work of zaytuna, to be
		
00:53:02 --> 00:53:05
			honest, at all, but I do know a
lot of the work of Kalam and
		
00:53:05 --> 00:53:10
			mashallah chef Abdul Nasri Genta
is an incredible resource. So
		
00:53:10 --> 00:53:14
			there are so many, I think,
opportunities that we have now
		
00:53:14 --> 00:53:20
			that didn't exist when we could,
when we when we came back, I would
		
00:53:20 --> 00:53:24
			take advantage of anything you can
do. You know, maybe it's, maybe
		
00:53:24 --> 00:53:27
			it's studying here at an
institute, and that's amazing. Do
		
00:53:27 --> 00:53:32
			that. If that's, if that's the
option that you have, yes, I would
		
00:53:32 --> 00:53:36
			agree that, you know, students can
study in their home countries
		
00:53:36 --> 00:53:39
			first before coming to Egypt. It
definitely would save a lot of
		
00:53:39 --> 00:53:43
			time and effort you know, spent
here in Egypt, if you have your
		
00:53:43 --> 00:53:48
			basics of your Arabic and your
foundational subject covered. So
		
00:53:48 --> 00:53:50
			the question that analyst had was,
		
00:53:52 --> 00:53:53
			just give me a moment
		
00:53:54 --> 00:53:57
			so she for Mariam, could you
elaborate on how you reached out
		
00:53:57 --> 00:54:01
			to mentors and to work in your
country? This is this an issue for
		
00:54:01 --> 00:54:03
			a number of women students here?
		
00:54:04 --> 00:54:08
			Yeah, subhanAllah, I was very, you
know, fortunate. I was working at
		
00:54:08 --> 00:54:10
			the time on the website
suhaiweb.com
		
00:54:11 --> 00:54:16
			which is now virtual mosque.com
There were a number of Shu working
		
00:54:16 --> 00:54:19
			on that site. They had graduated
from everywhere. Had been working
		
00:54:19 --> 00:54:22
			for years. So Han tale that I have
the extreme privilege of already
		
00:54:22 --> 00:54:25
			having access to all of these
scholars who were I was working
		
00:54:25 --> 00:54:29
			with, and who I could approach
privately and ask for mentorship.
		
00:54:29 --> 00:54:32
			That is not the circumstance for
most women. Most women ask me this
		
00:54:32 --> 00:54:37
			question, and honestly it's very
hard. It really depends on where
		
00:54:37 --> 00:54:41
			you live, what I what I before I
went to Egypt, excuse me. And
		
00:54:41 --> 00:54:45
			before I had those opportunities
to study with those people,
		
00:54:45 --> 00:54:46
			scholars, excuse me.
		
00:54:47 --> 00:54:48
			I
		
00:54:49 --> 00:54:53
			I would just find any ma'am who
who I felt like I could study
		
00:54:53 --> 00:54:56
			from, or a sister, even, who
wasn't necessarily a she, but who
		
00:54:56 --> 00:54:59
			was learned, and I would just ask
to study with her. Um.
		
00:55:00 --> 00:55:03
			And also there's a lot of online
options right now where there are
		
00:55:03 --> 00:55:07
			people who are, for example, I'll
give you the example of robota
		
00:55:07 --> 00:55:13
			robleta Is Dr Nancy Tamara gray.
She's a Sheikha. She has her, you
		
00:55:13 --> 00:55:16
			know, she's a she's a scholar.
She's also has her PhD. She
		
00:55:16 --> 00:55:20
			founded an institute just for a
woman. And it's not just online
		
00:55:20 --> 00:55:23
			classes, but there's also
mentorship programs embedded in
		
00:55:23 --> 00:55:27
			that. Jenna Institute is another
one. Dr Haifa Eunice has started
		
00:55:27 --> 00:55:31
			it. Gems of light. Dr shewaish,
Aisha was less started it. So we
		
00:55:31 --> 00:55:34
			have, like these scholars who
have, who are women, who started
		
00:55:34 --> 00:55:38
			foundations, or, excuse me,
institutes for women. So what I
		
00:55:38 --> 00:55:42
			would recommend is reaching out to
one of those institutes, becoming
		
00:55:42 --> 00:55:45
			a student, even if it's an online
process, it's wonderful. It's a
		
00:55:45 --> 00:55:48
			great option, because it's not
just the online general class that
		
00:55:48 --> 00:55:51
			you're taking, but it's also
privately, being able to ask
		
00:55:51 --> 00:55:54
			questions from women who are
scholars or women who are in the
		
00:55:54 --> 00:55:58
			process of studying. So there's
Jenna Institute, there is gems of
		
00:55:58 --> 00:56:02
			light, and there's Rubble talk
that I that I know of the founders
		
00:56:02 --> 00:56:05
			in Mashallah. They're, they're
mashallah, such incredibly
		
00:56:06 --> 00:56:09
			knowledgeable scholars. Another
question, Assalamu alaikum, is
		
00:56:09 --> 00:56:12
			pursuing a master's degree in
Islamic Studies essential before
		
00:56:12 --> 00:56:14
			serving our community?
		
00:56:15 --> 00:56:20
			Ah, no. I mean, I think that. I
think there's a there's a level of
		
00:56:20 --> 00:56:23
			serving, and it looks like, what?
What are you? What is serving to
		
00:56:23 --> 00:56:27
			you? Like serving could be
teaching an Islamic Studies course
		
00:56:27 --> 00:56:30
			for seventh graders. You don't
need a master's in Islamic studies
		
00:56:30 --> 00:56:33
			to teach that. I often give that
example as a frustrating one,
		
00:56:33 --> 00:56:37
			because women, sometimes they come
back and they are graduates from
		
00:56:37 --> 00:56:40
			Alzheimer and Mashallah. They, you
know, they can answer so many
		
00:56:40 --> 00:56:44
			questions Sharia, and the only
place that they can get a job is
		
00:56:44 --> 00:56:47
			at an Islamic school teaching
elementary students, which is
		
00:56:47 --> 00:56:52
			wonderful, amazing and incredible
option, but that's not what they
		
00:56:52 --> 00:56:55
			want. They've studied Sharia so
that they can teach women Sharia,
		
00:56:55 --> 00:56:59
			but then there's no opportunity to
teach women Sharia. So, I mean, it
		
00:56:59 --> 00:57:03
			really depends on what you want to
do. What if you are, you know,
		
00:57:03 --> 00:57:07
			having a specialty in a certain
field, yeah, like, don't give
		
00:57:07 --> 00:57:10
			lectures on something very
specific until you have the
		
00:57:10 --> 00:57:13
			knowledge to do it. But a Masters
means you've done a bachelor's,
		
00:57:13 --> 00:57:17
			probably in Islamic city, so you
have some form of knowledge. So
		
00:57:17 --> 00:57:20
			just stick to that lane and only
teach in that lane while you
		
00:57:20 --> 00:57:23
			continue to further your studies,
Inshallah, I will tell you until
		
00:57:23 --> 00:57:27
			today, I don't, I'm not Sheikha. I
don't understand why people call
		
00:57:27 --> 00:57:30
			me Sheikha. I keep corrupting
people when they come she I'm not
		
00:57:30 --> 00:57:34
			Sheikha, but I will say that I'm
often asked to address questions,
		
00:57:34 --> 00:57:37
			and I'm like, I don't, I just
don't have the knowledge for that.
		
00:57:37 --> 00:57:39
			There are so many things that I
feel like I'm not qualified to
		
00:57:39 --> 00:57:43
			speak on, and that's a lifelong
process. And so just sticking to
		
00:57:43 --> 00:57:45
			what you have studied, and when
you don't know, you just say, I
		
00:57:45 --> 00:57:48
			don't know. And then Shali, you'll
be able to connect them to other
		
00:57:48 --> 00:57:49
			people who do
		
00:57:50 --> 00:57:53
			know, who can help you. Giuse, we
have a question from Sheik Ahmed
		
00:57:53 --> 00:57:56
			from California, thoughts on
continuing higher education or
		
00:57:56 --> 00:58:01
			academia. Post al as her undergrad
studies in western institutes,
		
00:58:01 --> 00:58:05
			institutions or universities. What
are your thoughts? I think it
		
00:58:05 --> 00:58:07
			depends on what you're studying.
Like, are you talking about
		
00:58:07 --> 00:58:12
			studying Islamic sciences, for
example, are you talking about
		
00:58:12 --> 00:58:15
			like, you finish al Assad and then
you want to go, do you know your
		
00:58:15 --> 00:58:18
			Bachelor's in, like, social
science? Like, it really depends.
		
00:58:19 --> 00:58:23
			So it just depends on what you're
what you're planning to do long
		
00:58:23 --> 00:58:23
			term.
		
00:58:25 --> 00:58:29
			So there's another question so
long any recommendations for those
		
00:58:29 --> 00:58:33
			who are trying to memorize any
place in Cairo or elsewhere, or
		
00:58:33 --> 00:58:35
			even online, you would recommend
		
00:58:36 --> 00:58:37
			in
		
00:58:38 --> 00:58:42
			Cairo? I studied my kids seeing me
now in Cairo. I studied
		
00:58:42 --> 00:58:48
			Alhamdulillah with a direct with a
she who was in Cairo, who now has
		
00:58:48 --> 00:58:52
			moved so she's not there anymore.
So I don't know that. I know there
		
00:58:52 --> 00:58:55
			were institutes at the time that
sisters were studying in, but I'm
		
00:58:55 --> 00:58:59
			not the right person to ask. Maybe
she was spear. Can give you that
		
00:58:59 --> 00:59:03
			that information? Inshallah
online. Unfortunately, I also used
		
00:59:03 --> 00:59:06
			to recommend an organization, but
someone here knows why. I don't
		
00:59:06 --> 00:59:10
			recommend them anymore, so I can't
recommend them elsewhere. I would
		
00:59:10 --> 00:59:12
			say that there are
		
00:59:14 --> 00:59:19
			definitely options. Robota again,
does women's Quran classes. I
		
00:59:19 --> 00:59:22
			can't think of anywhere else that
I could recommend off the top of
		
00:59:22 --> 00:59:25
			my head, I will say, will say if
you're willing to move to LA. LA
		
00:59:25 --> 00:59:29
			is where my Quran teacher lives.
He is the best Quran teacher,
		
00:59:29 --> 00:59:34
			tabaticala in the entire world. He
has the Quran so incredibly, like
		
00:59:34 --> 00:59:38
			down. It's not just like he never
looked at the most half, because
		
00:59:38 --> 00:59:41
			he knows the Quran so well in all
the tira ads. Is so incredible.
		
00:59:41 --> 00:59:45
			Every time I even like think of
his name, I feel like my Iman
		
00:59:45 --> 00:59:48
			increases because of his
relationship to the Quran is Sheik
		
00:59:48 --> 00:59:51
			Mohib, fool come and study with
him. The most amazing Quran
		
00:59:51 --> 00:59:55
			teacher. Move to LA he will,
Inshallah, absolutely be an
		
00:59:55 --> 00:59:59
			amazing, amazing, amazing chef for
you. Shalom. Khadija.
		
01:00:00 --> 01:00:05
			To go online instead of, I wish,
but he's like Egyptian chef who's
		
01:00:05 --> 01:00:06
			a grandfather, he's not.
		
01:00:09 --> 01:00:12
			Another question, do you have
cases or people you would
		
01:00:12 --> 01:00:15
			recommend studying within Cairo or
Egypt for females?
		
01:00:17 --> 01:00:22
			I All of my studies in Cairo for
Arabic was at d1 and another
		
01:00:22 --> 01:00:24
			institute, which has since, I
don't think it's still open, it's
		
01:00:24 --> 01:00:28
			closed down, and then it was
private studies. So I studied
		
01:00:28 --> 01:00:32
			privately with people. So I don't,
I don't, I can't give you
		
01:00:32 --> 01:00:36
			recommendations now, because
especially now, the places that my
		
01:00:36 --> 01:00:39
			friends all had studied have all
changed. It's been a long like
		
01:00:39 --> 01:00:43
			they're the way that they teach
have changed. I would recommend
		
01:00:43 --> 01:00:46
			asking that to someone who's
there, like she for example.
		
01:00:51 --> 01:00:56
			Okay, so back to just Sheik
Ahmed's question. He says, in
		
01:00:56 --> 01:00:59
			Islamic studies. So your thoughts
on continuing higher education,
		
01:00:59 --> 01:01:03
			academia, postal as it undergrad
studies in Western institutions or
		
01:01:03 --> 01:01:07
			universities. So I can't, so I
would say that I can't say that
		
01:01:07 --> 01:01:10
			this is a broad answer. It really
depends on, like, any single
		
01:01:10 --> 01:01:14
			person, and their background,
their grounding, the mentors that
		
01:01:14 --> 01:01:17
			they have, like, what they're
going to do with it long term.
		
01:01:17 --> 01:01:22
			Definitely, there's a huge, you
know, I haven't done this in a
		
01:01:22 --> 01:01:26
			Western Institute, so I can't
speak for every curriculum, but my
		
01:01:26 --> 01:01:30
			what I've consistently heard is
that there is a push to kind of
		
01:01:30 --> 01:01:35
			focus on secularizing Islam, or
making it like an orient
		
01:01:35 --> 01:01:40
			Orientalism study, which has
problems in and of its own. So
		
01:01:40 --> 01:01:42
			really, if someone were to
undertake it, you need to be like,
		
01:01:42 --> 01:01:46
			DR Yes, or Gaudi, who has the
background, who's able to go and
		
01:01:46 --> 01:01:49
			refute the issues that might come
up. I remember just as an
		
01:01:49 --> 01:01:53
			undergrad student, before I went
to Egypt, I was like, I'm going to
		
01:01:53 --> 01:01:56
			take this class on Islam and women
so that I can refute everything
		
01:01:56 --> 01:01:59
			that they say. And say how amazing
Islam is. And they brought up a
		
01:01:59 --> 01:02:03
			hadith I had never heard of before
opinions from scholars I was I had
		
01:02:03 --> 01:02:07
			no clue how to respond to my Iman
was so tested, so hamdullah, I'm
		
01:02:07 --> 01:02:10
			so grateful that now I have the
knowledge to respond to those
		
01:02:10 --> 01:02:14
			issues. But had I continued to
take classes like that without the
		
01:02:14 --> 01:02:18
			knowledge to respond to it, I'm
not really sure how a person would
		
01:02:18 --> 01:02:22
			process all of that. So I would
recommend that if you are planning
		
01:02:22 --> 01:02:24
			to do something like that, make
sure you look at their curriculum
		
01:02:24 --> 01:02:27
			and the people who are teaching
their curriculum, sometimes their
		
01:02:27 --> 01:02:31
			instructors are actually actual
who are doctors, who have their
		
01:02:31 --> 01:02:34
			doctor and are actually professors
teaching. So that's amazing. I
		
01:02:34 --> 01:02:38
			think Dr Jonathan brown maybe
teaches, I can't be too sure, but
		
01:02:38 --> 01:02:40
			I'm pretty sure he teaches at a
university and he teaches Islamic
		
01:02:40 --> 01:02:44
			sciences. So there are scholars
who do teach in universities that
		
01:02:44 --> 01:02:49
			you can use as like Dr Sherman
Jackson, for example, he teaches
		
01:02:49 --> 01:02:52
			at a private university here in
California. So like being if
		
01:02:52 --> 01:02:54
			you're able to, like align
yourself with someone who can
		
01:02:54 --> 01:02:57
			mentor you through the process,
maybe that could be an option in
		
01:02:57 --> 01:02:57
			shell as well.
		
01:03:00 --> 01:03:04
			Hero once again, I know your kids
are waiting for you, so we really
		
01:03:04 --> 01:03:07
			thank you, and we thank your
husband for his support and your
		
01:03:07 --> 01:03:11
			kids as well. My old bless you and
increase you and just grant you
		
01:03:11 --> 01:03:15
			the very best of this junior and
the ahira and raise your ranks in
		
01:03:15 --> 01:03:18
			the year of tangierly. Just
protect you and grant you to
		
01:03:18 --> 01:03:21
			continue to be a means of
inspiration and guidance to women
		
01:03:21 --> 01:03:24
			and the Ummah in general. We
really make the best of ours for
		
01:03:24 --> 01:03:29
			you, and we hope that you will
join us again in the future for
		
01:03:29 --> 01:03:32
			all of you and all of your loved
ones that have been all of us. Any
		
01:03:33 --> 01:03:35
			honor to be here about a colophy
home. Thank you. And if you have
		
01:03:35 --> 01:03:38
			any other questions, you can
message me. I'll put my Instagram
		
01:03:38 --> 01:03:40
			on here, so that if you have
questions that we didn't get to
		
01:03:40 --> 01:03:42
			here, it's just Miriam, what am I?
		
01:03:45 --> 01:03:49
			Just message me and Shaw, I'll
definitely get back to you. Sure.
		
01:03:49 --> 01:03:54
			Okay. And on behalf of our student
organization here in Cairo, Egypt,
		
01:03:54 --> 01:03:56
			Muslims connected, we say a huge
thank you.