Lauren Booth – Witness To Genocide – A Sister’s Testimony

Lauren Booth
AI: Summary © The speaker describes their experiences of feeling sad and nervous, scared, nervous, and scared during the hol impressing war. They describe the devastation of their neighborhood, including destroyed houses, electricity outages, and injuries to their family. They express anxiety and fear, urge others to help save their lives, and express their desire to return to their hometown of Qatar. They also discuss the consequences of stopping people from traveling outside their country due to the pandemic, the occupation of their country preventing them from traveling, and the importance of protecting their safety and doing things like not to go to a place they don't want to go to.
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Do you blame October 7th? No. No. I

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don't blame them

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because, you are,

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I told you before, we are suffering from

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them

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all our lives. Did your family and did

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your neighbors think

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think that the west was going to come

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and help you? Was there a knight in

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shining armor called the United Nations? He hugged

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me

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at the dream,

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telling me I'm good.

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I'm alive.

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I told him that, no, you are dead.

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I saw you on the video

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where you are killed.

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Assalamu alaikum. I'm in Doha right now.

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I'm here because I wanted to meet

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to listen to

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survivors

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of the holocaust

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being inflicted upon the people of Palestine

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and the genocide upon the people

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of Gaza right now. And

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so I'm meeting sisters who are survivors,

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and

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let's have a look at their stories

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because

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the sister I'm meeting today is prime example.

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They can't give their names. They don't feel

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comfortable

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sharing, and yet they're being brave enough to

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share.

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Assalamu

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alaikum.

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I'm going to call you Mariam, but your

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name's not Mariam. And I'm going to say

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that you look like you're in a niqab,

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which you don't normally wear niqab. Yeah.

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Because we have,

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we still have that fear from this,

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war and, from those criminals, people who attacked

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us everywhere. Even even if we are in

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Doha,

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we still afraid about our relatives

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in Gaza

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and Palestine.

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We suffer a lot.

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And,

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so we still have this fear of this

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experience.

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Sister,

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it's important that

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we look at

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the lives of our brothers and sisters in

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Gaza as more than a a scroll experience.

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It's a very weird time, isn't it, to

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be watching a genocide

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unfurl before our eyes? Yeah.

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We are human beings. We have stories. We

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have, we are like other human beings on

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the world. We have stories. Each of, each

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one in Gaza

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have

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his own story.

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You just

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they are not just photo and numbers,

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and just a score, beyond these pictures. They

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are not just pictures. They are human being.

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Each one have a family. Each one have

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kids.

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Each one have,

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each one of

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Palestinian people have emotions

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and they are free, they are suffer, they

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are,

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in sad

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mood all the time.

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This war was

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very, very, very harsh one.

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On each one,

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on, in in each Palestinian.

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I want to talk about you you named

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me as a survivor,

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but I am a survivor in just in

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flesh in my body

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without soul, without

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health,

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without

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a real human being.

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I'm now feel that I am very, very,

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very sad. And I

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I can't

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continue my life, but we should continue.

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We should continue

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and,

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struggle to be alive. I was,

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a wife

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to

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a real husband, a perfect one, a great

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father for his kids.

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We were in deep love,

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since the childhood.

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And then we are married

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at

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the age of university,

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and we studied

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and worked together. We built our life.

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We have children. We love life. We love

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our children. He

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he love his children,

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more than himself. He loved me more than

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him himself. We love each other. What how

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did you know each other? What age did

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you They we are cousins

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living at the same building.

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He was,

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my husband was one of my relatives.

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This war prevent

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me from my husband. They killed him in

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this war.

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Okay. I was, I have that, beautiful family

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with

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my kids and him and a beautiful house.

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We struggle to build this house.

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Each

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each,

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our money we put all our money on

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building this house to build to make a

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a good future

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to our kids.

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So that was

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my life before the war. A wife with

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her husband, with her kids, strong one,

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working,

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and getting money to build

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her future

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and to be happy with her children and

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her husband.

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We have entertainment. We go to the sea

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with each other. We look after our children

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very carefully. We raise them

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in a very careful way.

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Okay.

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But in this war,

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at the 6th day

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of this war,

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they attacked

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us.

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We are civilians.

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We didn't do anything to them. We are

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a civilian

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family

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who live and work,

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living normal life. We didn't do anything to

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them

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just because we are Palestinians

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or Gazan citizens,

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so you are

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our target. Okay.

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They attacked,

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the house of our neighbor.

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Tell us about,

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the days leading up to the attack.

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What was it like on October 7th? What

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was the atmosphere in Gaza?

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We wake up at,

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at the October 7th, we wake up at,

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the voices of, mussels,

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bombing

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around us.

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We didn't know what is the situation is.

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We didn't know anything. We are at home,

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sleeping,

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want to wake up to go to school.

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I want to go to school to

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deliver my children to their school.

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We are sleeping safe at our home. We

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didn't do anything.

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We are as as others,

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we got weked

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up, founding muscles,

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bombing,

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something

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dangerous. We realized that there is something dangerous

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happening, but we didn't know why. What what

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is it? Is it attack from, another attack

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from Israeli? That we don't know why. What

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what is it? What's this situation is? We

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feel very very

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very,

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frightened from this situation. My kids was screaming.

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I was very nervous.

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What's this? What we can do? Where we

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where to go still in our home or

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where to go?

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This was the situation.

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And then,

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they cut electricity

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at the,

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1st day. On the 1st day? There is

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no electricity.

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So we have,

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a lot of,

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bad connection of the Internet.

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They hit the ground. So,

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so the streets were damaged

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at the at the first days, so you

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can't move to another place.

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At the 6

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days, after 6 days of stress and fear,

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they attack

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our neighbor

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home or our neighbor house.

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This muscle,

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this attack they destroyed all the neighborhood.

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So our house

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destroyed.

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I got injured

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in the at that moment. What do you

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remember about the the the moments

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of a missile?

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Can you hear it from the sky? Does

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it cut? No. I feel that there is

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a very big explosion,

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and I saw,

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some fire, a little fire around me, then

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I got in coma.

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It was a very, very, very frightened moment.

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I can't

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I up to now, I can't,

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forget that moment,

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the big explosion.

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And then,

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so the fire and stones,

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a little fire and stones around you.

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And then I got in coma.

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What about the rest of your family? How

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are you sitting?

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We are in the same place around us.

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All of us got under the rebels.

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Yeah. The

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our house damaged. All of our house

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damaged because of the attack on the our

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neighborhood.

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My kids

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wounded at that time. How many children were

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they? I have 4 children.

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The 4th,

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the What ages?

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The first one

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is,

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11 is 11 years old. The second is

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10 years old. The third is 4th years

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old,

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And

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the youngest one

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is

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at that time, she was 6th month. Now

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she is a year.

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At that moment at that moment,

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this one, the little baby

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is throwing or thrown from the,

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the hands of her

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father,

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far from

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us,

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6 meters.

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Yeah. And she is,

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on

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she is,

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hid

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the wall,

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and some blood on her face.

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That moment, we up to now, we can't

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forget

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it. It very shocking

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moment. It,

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I was in coma,

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I end I I am I wake up

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at,

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the screaming of all my family,

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crying,

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screaming for help. Please help ambulance. Ambulance.

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Please help us. We are under the rubble.

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Please. All of all of my family

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screaming and crying, kids, sisters, father, husband, all

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of us screaming, but I am in

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in some Unconscious.

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Unconscious. Unconscious. I didn't realize what happened because

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I got a very serious injury.

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After

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because there is an there's no connection to

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call the ambulance. They cut the connection.

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So you

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to get the signal, you have to try

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more than more than one than more more

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than one time.

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My husband after a time, told me that

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I called the ambulance for the first, second,

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third, for there is no response because there

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is no signal.

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After a while,

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the ambulance came,

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evacuated me alone

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and took me to the hospital.

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My my kids went to another hospital.

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My,

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my kids went to another hospital. My family,

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they got them to another hospital, so we

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are separated.

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When I wake up, I asking where my

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kids, where my husband,

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where my father,

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and still is there and get in a

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coma for

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another time.

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It is repeated for more than one time,

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through the way to the Ashifa hospital.

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When

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I arrived at Ashifa hospital, when I arrived

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at Ashifa hospital,

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I wake up at screaming of women,

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screaming of children, screaming of wounded people.

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Ah, all of them screaming.

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Oh, all my family gone?

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Yeah. I am destroyed now, and I I

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have this fee

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feeling of fear, but this voices and this

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crowded people who all

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many of them covered over blood, they are

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from different places from from Gaza Strip.

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You don't know them.

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But I'm crying about them because they're screaming.

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It's they still in my mind up to

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now. 1 of them,

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still still screaming,

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oh, my kid's Lulu. She's 3 years old.

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Just 3 years old. She asking her father,

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is it dead? Really? Is it dead? Why

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they did they kill this Lulu? Why? Why?

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And another

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I I remember that another man came screaming,

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all my family can. My wife gone. My

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are you serious?

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Is it really that,

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my kids did my son's kid, my daughter's

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kid?

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All of them all of them kids, these

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all the voices around the hospital. So I

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came to hospital to be recovered. No. They

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this was very damaging to me and I

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don't want when I open my eyes I

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see saw blood around me,

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cut its people without

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some parts of their body. So I got

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an for another time from the sisters in

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a coma.

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And

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waiting for time because there is not enough

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doctors there,

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emergent in the emergency,

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it's a very, very terrible, very,

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they are

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don't have,

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we don't have

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in Palestine,

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many members to

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heal or to check every

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patient

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to give his,

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right of of taking care or or treatment.

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Okay.

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After,

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some minutes, they I when I was in

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the coma, they took me to the ICU

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and

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after waking up from the ICU I found

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that my husband came

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to the hospital. I he

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he was very he was crying

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on me,

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frightening

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that,

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he was afraid that he lost me or

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I am died. I still remember

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that he was shocked of my injury

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and I was, he was afraid of me,

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because I am in

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dangerous situation.

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He is a man, he doesn't cry, but

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in this difficult situation, look at him.

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And I,

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I have a little voice and

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I told him that I'm good.

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How are my kids? How are you? All

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of his clothes

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were covered with blood from me. What were

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your injuries?

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I had

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fractions in my spine in the 11th

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and second,

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vertebrae. Vertible.

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And I have both shoulders,

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was broken. And the vertebra,

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This Clavicle. Clavicle.

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The right clavicle

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also,

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also,

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broken.

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And I have some

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injury here

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here in this in my body.

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I can't, at that time, I can't move,

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I can't walk.

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I can't,

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raise my neck or head.

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I can't move them nor left nor right.

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I was, on the bed without

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can't move anything of my body. Just

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talking with little, little voice because I can't

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breathe at that time. Strong. Yeah.

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So,

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because of the pressure

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at the hospital

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and the huge

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number of injured and dead people at that

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time,

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they didn't check me well.

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And they said

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the fractions on

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your shoulders

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will

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be

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good after 2 months. So,

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she is stable now.

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We,

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manage,

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her blood and her pressure. She's stable, bitter

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than the others who are bleeding, who are

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in

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a continuous

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coma, so took her to home.

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How how can how can I go home?

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I can't I can't walk.

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There is no one

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one one to carry me.

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So they my husband call an,

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his friend from the hospital asking for ambulance.

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So they took me after, 2 days to

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without taking any treatment, just

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a little medicine, which doesn't make anything to

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my pain. Tell me about tell us about

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the pain. I mean, it must have been

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it's very, very

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I can't I can't describe this pain.

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You feel that you will die after this

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moment.

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You can't handle. You can't I can't

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cough. I want to laugh or cough or

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speak. I can't because of the fractions of

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my shoulders.

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I can't move

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I can't move

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myself

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just a little because of my back.

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The pain of my back, it is it

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is still up to now,

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but but not,

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this,

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the same as the first moment when I

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injured.

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So, he took me to home,

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to another home because our home is bombed,

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to my sister home. He took me to

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my sister home

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with all my kids. They were, they were

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shocked.

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My little kids

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who, who is,

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4 years old, shocked,

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doesn't

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speak

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for 2 days.

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My little

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baby

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crying

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all the day for 4 days. Mhmm. Was

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it what do you think it was pain?

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If she is throwing

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Yeah. She's throwing,

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far away far away for further,

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5 for 5 meters.

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Maybe

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because of this fall. Brooks. Broke some are

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broken.

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They were they giving her some

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to,

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some to

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be to be quiet a little bit.

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She was crying,

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my sister holding her, taking her taking care

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of her because I can't do anything to

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myself.

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My sister,

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feed me. My sister,

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my sisters

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carry

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me to go to the bathroom

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for,

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3 months. Sabah.

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3 months of suffering. Can't walk. Can't carry

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anything with my hands

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and at home. Not just me. A lot

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of people, injured people at home,

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just take their first treatment and go home

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because there is no enough place, no bed

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at hospital. It was disasters.

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Lot of people injured. Lot of people killed.

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Lot of people,

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missed their kids and,

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try to find them

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because we are separated.

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The the people come to help you,

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take 1 put this and this ambulance, this

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and this, and be each one go to

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another hospital. So what

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I've always wondered what's what what is the

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conversation like in the families at this time

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about?

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You're considering it a war at the time.

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You know, what are people what are you

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watching TV? Are people having

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this is gonna happen. Is there political talk

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or is it just panic? What what's it

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like? We are in panic. We are in

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panic all time.

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Does it will repeat it again?

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Does will they bomb us again?

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Where to go?

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What's the solution?

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What we can do? The we can't do

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anything.

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Regardless mentioning

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that that there is no

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electricity. There's not enough food. There is not

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enough water. There is not enough,

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comfortable zone to yourself to be alone or

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to take care of your children or to

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sleep.

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We are crowded.

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All families crowded at one place

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because there is there is

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no places left to us to be. They

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bombed all all or most of the houses.

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Not just me. All the families suffer from

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this,

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thing.

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I wonder, did you think that, after 3

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months

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first of all, what what how was it?

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How did you begin walking again? And then

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did your family and did your neighbors think

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think that the west was going to come

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and help you? Was there a knight in

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shining armor called the United Nations?

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Did were you thinking this is gonna end

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soon? It must. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. We

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we think that,

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the world will move for us.

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We are innocent. They will watch our suffering.

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They will move. Each day, we have the

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hope to end this war. They want to

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to steal our land,

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steal our homes.

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This is our land.

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They came from

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the western

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and live in this land.

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So they want to clear to kill all

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of us,

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to steal our lands. Gaza were was beautiful.

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What was your favorite place? What has always

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been your favorite place in Gaza?

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A city A special place to you. A

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special

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place in Gaza were sitting in front of

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the sea.

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You it's the most beautiful place in Gaza.

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Sitting in front of the sea or at

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Rashid Street,

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it was very, very beautiful.

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Now they destroyed

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all this street,

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all the places

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where we was sitting on the on the

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sea.

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They destroyed all the beautiful places,

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all the houses.

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It's not Gaza.

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You don't

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maybe some people doesn't know Gaza. They think

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that she is

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a destroyed place not beautiful. No. It's the

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most beautiful

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place in the world. I love Gaza

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and I when it will be rebuilt, I

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will back to Gaza. They think that we

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will go

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and, want back to Gaza. No. No.

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We I just came to Qatar to take

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a treatment,

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not to leave Gaza

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to them. We won't

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leave Gaza to them.

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It's their dream.

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But we are

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strong and will,

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live in Gaza again and rebuild it again.

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Insha'Allah.

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Insha'Allah. Insha'Allah.

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When you,

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I've often spoken to Palestinians

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about this, something about the land. There's something.

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Is there a a spirituality?

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Is is there tell us about that. Yeah.

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We have,

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disconnections to this land.

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It's a beautiful it's

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mentioned in the holy Quran. It's a holy

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place.

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We have a lot of goodness in it.

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Their people are,

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kind,

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beautiful, generous, love

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to see peoples from around the world. They

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are they will come, all the people to

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come and visit again.

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All the people who visited Palestine and Gaza

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come and again and again

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because of the goodness of,

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of Palestinians

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people.

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Okay. If I want to come back

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to my story,

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also, we have this,

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experience again.

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They are attacked us, attacked our neighbors again.

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And the rebels,

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the smoke,

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this this bad experience, the smell of the

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I can't up to now, I can't forget

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the smell of this smoke from the muscles.

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You can't breathe,

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all the children will cough cough,

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so we evacuated

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from,

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our aunt

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at that night.

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At the the middle of the night, we

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evacuated to the street. We slipped at the

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street,

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at that night

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and hearing all the air strikes,

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the shells of the tanks around us, it

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was a very, very terrifying night. Are you

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praying then? Are you

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We are all the time praying,

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God to save us. Please, God, save us.

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Please, save us.

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Protect us from these criminals

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all the night

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up to the

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when the,

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at

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the day

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in the morning

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of that night, we went back to our

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aunt's

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house. It was damaged,

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but we can live in it. So,

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we clean.

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My family cleaned

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that house

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and get back to it because there is

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no another place to live. This Zionist

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army doesn't differentiate

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between

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kids,

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women's,

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innocent people.

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The shells of the tanks does didn't

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stop for a moment

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for a moment.

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From the 10 PM

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from the 10 PM up to the 6

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PM,

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all the time, boom boom boom.

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And we didn't sleep at that night, or

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we holding each other,

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all all that sudden crying,

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nervous stress, panic,

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so,

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we made a decision.

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Yeah, honey, you should move. We should move.

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We should

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move from this place.

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You you say I want to move. I

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want but they

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throw

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still attack attack around you, around area. So

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you

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be forced

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to displace to another place. We are displaced

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from Gaza by forest,

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not by

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volunteer or by ourselves or,

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our nature. When we're watching these atrocities, we're

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like, how can human beings do this?

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How is it possible to Yeah. Go home

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and feed your baby and then off to

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work the next day and

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hurt somebody else's baby. Yeah. I don't know

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how how they they how they

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have these hearts, harsh hearts to,

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harm people

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and killing them

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and to live your life with this criminal

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with you all the time.

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I don't know how they live, how they

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committed these crimes and go on in their

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lives and laugh and taking

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shots and videos

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on TikTok,

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laughing at our sufferings

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and

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our blood.

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We are in Palestine,

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care about others,

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have

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have responsibility

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about others and our

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actions.

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We in Islam

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in Islam itself

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prevent you to harm any animal.

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Are you,

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do you blame October 7th? No. No. I

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don't blame them

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because,

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you are,

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I told you before, we are suffering from

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them

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all our lives.

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They prevent us of to to travel.

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If want if we want to travel to

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another place from Gaza,

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there's some procedures you have to take there.

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The the Zionist present prevent you. Yeah. Approval

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from them to travel. It's our,

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simple right to travel from Gaza and have

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work.

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Okay. They prevent some, a lot of things

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from us in Gaza. We, in Gaza, live,

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in prison.

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So you are living in prison, suffering a

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lot to, a lot of your life.

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Each 4 years, you have a war from

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them. They start the war. Oh, each 4

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years, they started a war.

00:29:36 --> 00:29:37

From my childhood

00:29:37 --> 00:29:40

to being an other people, and I suffer

00:29:40 --> 00:29:42

and see a lot of blood and kill

00:29:42 --> 00:29:45

be innocent innocent people around me.

00:29:45 --> 00:29:46

So you have this,

00:29:48 --> 00:29:48

hate for

00:29:49 --> 00:29:50

this criminal army.

00:29:51 --> 00:29:52

So it's,

00:29:54 --> 00:29:55

a self defense.

00:29:55 --> 00:29:58

It's a reply for their actions.

00:30:01 --> 00:30:02

Many people have described,

00:30:04 --> 00:30:06

that moment of coming through Rafa Crossing.

00:30:07 --> 00:30:09

Even as a even as a visitor myself,

00:30:09 --> 00:30:11

I remember leaving and thinking, I wanna go

00:30:11 --> 00:30:12

back.

00:30:13 --> 00:30:15

It it's very difficult to leave

00:30:16 --> 00:30:18

just as a visitor. But when it's your

00:30:18 --> 00:30:19

special place, when it's your heart, when it

00:30:19 --> 00:30:22

is the lungs of your body Yeah.

00:30:22 --> 00:30:22

Every

00:30:23 --> 00:30:25

every grain of sand Yeah. Has one of

00:30:25 --> 00:30:27

your names on it. Every Yeah. Wave on

00:30:27 --> 00:30:31

the beach Yeah. Yeah. Praises Allah. Yeah. You

00:30:31 --> 00:30:33

know every date tree and every Yeah. It's

00:30:33 --> 00:30:36

our yes. It's our place from our heart.

00:30:36 --> 00:30:38

We love it from our heart.

00:30:40 --> 00:30:42

And we don't like any others to come

00:30:42 --> 00:30:44

and destroy it. We have the right to

00:30:44 --> 00:30:45

defend

00:30:45 --> 00:30:48

to defend our to defend ourself.

00:30:48 --> 00:30:50

How long ago did you, were you evacuated?

00:30:52 --> 00:30:54

I evacuated at,

00:30:56 --> 00:30:56

since,

00:30:57 --> 00:30:58

December.

00:30:58 --> 00:30:59

December.

00:31:00 --> 00:31:01

Did you,

00:31:01 --> 00:31:03

were you taken by ambulance

00:31:04 --> 00:31:05

through through Yeah. Yeah. Were were you in

00:31:05 --> 00:31:08

Rafa already there? Yeah. I I moved from

00:31:08 --> 00:31:08

the middle,

00:31:09 --> 00:31:12

to the south. We live in the south

00:31:12 --> 00:31:14

on Rafah. Right. Me and my husband and

00:31:14 --> 00:31:17

my father and my kids. Yep. So, I

00:31:17 --> 00:31:17

travel

00:31:18 --> 00:31:20

On your own? No. I traveled,

00:31:21 --> 00:31:22

to,

00:31:23 --> 00:31:24

Egypt

00:31:24 --> 00:31:27

by ambulance. They took me by ambulance, me,

00:31:27 --> 00:31:29

and I took my 4 kids

00:31:29 --> 00:31:30

and my sisters.

00:31:31 --> 00:31:33

They prevent my husband to come with me.

00:31:33 --> 00:31:34

Who prevented?

00:31:36 --> 00:31:38

The the clearance or the approval

00:31:38 --> 00:31:40

from the,

00:31:41 --> 00:31:43

Zennist or Jewish people

00:31:44 --> 00:31:44

before

00:31:44 --> 00:31:45

you

00:31:45 --> 00:31:48

travel to Egypt or have the name

00:31:49 --> 00:31:51

in the checklist of, the injured people.

00:31:52 --> 00:31:54

You to have this name, you have to

00:31:54 --> 00:31:56

take approval from them. See, this is what

00:31:56 --> 00:31:58

occupation means. This is what occupation

00:31:58 --> 00:31:59

means.

00:31:59 --> 00:32:01

They prevent you

00:32:01 --> 00:32:04

from traveling. They put these procedures

00:32:04 --> 00:32:07

to prevent anyone to live. They prevent any

00:32:07 --> 00:32:08

man,

00:32:08 --> 00:32:10

any injury man

00:32:10 --> 00:32:13

to travel outside of Gaza. Up to now,

00:32:14 --> 00:32:14

each

00:32:15 --> 00:32:15

each,

00:32:16 --> 00:32:17

male

00:32:17 --> 00:32:18

Yeah. Whose

00:32:19 --> 00:32:19

age

00:32:20 --> 00:32:20

under,

00:32:21 --> 00:32:24

above 18 Yeah. And under 60,

00:32:25 --> 00:32:26

this age. Yeah.

00:32:27 --> 00:32:29

Is it prevented up to now to go

00:32:29 --> 00:32:30

outside

00:32:30 --> 00:32:33

Gaza and get a treatment? I don't understand

00:32:33 --> 00:32:34

how

00:32:35 --> 00:32:35

health

00:32:36 --> 00:32:36

officials

00:32:37 --> 00:32:39

I don't know where where they allow this.

00:32:39 --> 00:32:41

Where is the equality in treatment?

00:32:41 --> 00:32:44

I don't know where they're, where they rule.

00:32:44 --> 00:32:46

Where What's the rule? Absence. Abs they are

00:32:46 --> 00:32:46

absent.

00:32:47 --> 00:32:49

Don't care about us.

00:32:49 --> 00:32:50

There is

00:32:51 --> 00:32:54

a lot of youth and male,

00:32:57 --> 00:32:57

people

00:32:58 --> 00:33:00

are injured in Gaza. Up to now, still

00:33:00 --> 00:33:01

in Gaza.

00:33:01 --> 00:33:03

They didn't take their treatment.

00:33:03 --> 00:33:05

They didn't make any surgery because there is

00:33:05 --> 00:33:06

no supplies

00:33:07 --> 00:33:09

and no equipment to make this surgery.

00:33:10 --> 00:33:11

The the occupation

00:33:12 --> 00:33:15

is still preventing them to travel outside Gaza.

00:33:15 --> 00:33:17

You got to Qatar with your 4 children,

00:33:18 --> 00:33:20

and you're in a compound. You're getting treatment.

00:33:21 --> 00:33:23

Yeah. When did you last speak to your

00:33:23 --> 00:33:23

husband?

00:33:27 --> 00:33:30

At Ramadan before a month from now.

00:33:30 --> 00:33:31

I was,

00:33:31 --> 00:33:34

having a dinner with my family

00:33:35 --> 00:33:36

and my sisters.

00:33:37 --> 00:33:37

I

00:33:38 --> 00:33:39

after the dinner,

00:33:40 --> 00:33:42

I took my phone

00:33:43 --> 00:33:44

checking the news.

00:33:44 --> 00:33:45

I saw a message.

00:33:47 --> 00:33:49

I saw a message from

00:33:49 --> 00:33:50

his sister

00:33:50 --> 00:33:51

who is

00:33:52 --> 00:33:54

his sister who is in the north, still

00:33:54 --> 00:33:56

in the north, his sister and family. They

00:33:56 --> 00:33:58

didn't see him they didn't see him

00:34:00 --> 00:34:01

since 6th month.

00:34:01 --> 00:34:03

My husband was in Rafa

00:34:04 --> 00:34:06

and his family was in the north.

00:34:07 --> 00:34:09

Though, from the people who stand in the

00:34:09 --> 00:34:11

North and didn't evacuate,

00:34:11 --> 00:34:13

his mom and father and

00:34:14 --> 00:34:16

sister and the brother.

00:34:17 --> 00:34:18

So I got a message

00:34:19 --> 00:34:20

from his sister

00:34:20 --> 00:34:21

telling me,

00:34:24 --> 00:34:25

he is dead.

00:34:27 --> 00:34:30

Reading this I read this message,

00:34:32 --> 00:34:33

I shocked.

00:34:34 --> 00:34:35

What what what she's saying?

00:34:36 --> 00:34:37

How is he killed?

00:34:38 --> 00:34:40

I don't believe this message.

00:34:41 --> 00:34:41

She is,

00:34:42 --> 00:34:43

I think she is a,

00:34:44 --> 00:34:46

it's a lie. I think it's a lie.

00:34:46 --> 00:34:48

This is not true. I don't believe this.

00:34:48 --> 00:34:50

Maybe she is in the north and

00:34:51 --> 00:34:52

here

00:34:55 --> 00:34:56

wrong news.

00:34:57 --> 00:34:58

She doesn't know. No. No. No. It's I

00:34:58 --> 00:35:01

don't believe this. I don't believe he is

00:35:01 --> 00:35:01

dead.

00:35:02 --> 00:35:03

So,

00:35:04 --> 00:35:05

I call my family

00:35:06 --> 00:35:08

I call my family my dad,

00:35:10 --> 00:35:10

asking,

00:35:11 --> 00:35:12

checking,

00:35:12 --> 00:35:14

is he did real?

00:35:14 --> 00:35:15

Is

00:35:15 --> 00:35:16

it real?

00:35:18 --> 00:35:19

My husband did?

00:35:19 --> 00:35:21

The how he did? What he did?

00:35:22 --> 00:35:25

How they kill, how they kill him?

00:35:25 --> 00:35:26

What he did?

00:35:28 --> 00:35:29

Screaming.

00:35:30 --> 00:35:32

My father told me, yes.

00:35:32 --> 00:35:34

He was on the road

00:35:34 --> 00:35:36

going to, the mosque,

00:35:37 --> 00:35:39

and he they bombed a group of people.

00:35:40 --> 00:35:41

And he one of the people,

00:35:42 --> 00:35:44

4 children killed,

00:35:44 --> 00:35:45

and one is,

00:35:46 --> 00:35:48

70 years old and my husband.

00:35:48 --> 00:35:49

7.

00:35:49 --> 00:35:52

Four kids, my husband and another man.

00:35:53 --> 00:35:55

He was walking to the mosque,

00:35:56 --> 00:35:57

saw

00:35:57 --> 00:36:00

and killed at the moment at the and,

00:36:01 --> 00:36:01

and,

00:36:01 --> 00:36:03

he was dead in the street.

00:36:04 --> 00:36:06

He was dead in the street. I got

00:36:06 --> 00:36:07

on the coma.

00:36:08 --> 00:36:09

I did in the coma.

00:36:10 --> 00:36:11

Unconscious,

00:36:13 --> 00:36:14

it's a very very

00:36:18 --> 00:36:20

sad moment. I can't

00:36:20 --> 00:36:23

forget this moment to lose your husband, to

00:36:23 --> 00:36:25

lose to lose your love,

00:36:26 --> 00:36:28

to to lose the father of your kids.

00:36:29 --> 00:36:30

I was screaming

00:36:31 --> 00:36:33

my husband, my love, my soul,

00:36:33 --> 00:36:36

all my kids around me crying

00:36:36 --> 00:36:37

upon their father.

00:36:38 --> 00:36:40

We thought that we are in Qatar. We

00:36:40 --> 00:36:42

are safe. We will live

00:36:43 --> 00:36:45

until the world ends, and we will back

00:36:45 --> 00:36:46

to Gaza,

00:36:47 --> 00:36:48

to be together,

00:36:49 --> 00:36:50

me and my husband.

00:36:51 --> 00:36:53

And I seek to travel him from

00:36:55 --> 00:36:56

Gaza

00:36:56 --> 00:36:57

to Egypt,

00:36:57 --> 00:36:58

but

00:37:00 --> 00:37:01

but

00:37:01 --> 00:37:05

the Egyptians prevent him to travel, so he

00:37:05 --> 00:37:06

still in Gaza.

00:37:07 --> 00:37:09

This dream to continue your life

00:37:10 --> 00:37:11

with your husband

00:37:11 --> 00:37:13

and kids to live

00:37:14 --> 00:37:15

a comfortable,

00:37:16 --> 00:37:19

safe life. Just just to live with your

00:37:19 --> 00:37:19

husband

00:37:20 --> 00:37:21

no matters

00:37:21 --> 00:37:23

what you don't have, your house, your job,

00:37:23 --> 00:37:26

your money. But, just live your has you

00:37:26 --> 00:37:27

and your husband,

00:37:28 --> 00:37:29

beloved one,

00:37:30 --> 00:37:33

the most generous and great father for his

00:37:33 --> 00:37:33

kids.

00:37:33 --> 00:37:35

To live without him

00:37:35 --> 00:37:36

is very painful.

00:37:37 --> 00:37:38

I can't

00:37:39 --> 00:37:41

I am I feel very sad upon

00:37:41 --> 00:37:44

killing him. I don't I hate all the

00:37:44 --> 00:37:45

world.

00:37:46 --> 00:37:47

I hate all the world.

00:37:48 --> 00:37:48

I hate

00:37:49 --> 00:37:51

all this life because

00:37:52 --> 00:37:54

it prevented me from my

00:37:54 --> 00:37:56

soul. He is who is my husband.

00:37:57 --> 00:37:58

They prevent

00:37:59 --> 00:37:59

me to

00:38:00 --> 00:38:03

witness the moment he will die and put

00:38:03 --> 00:38:04

him on the grave.

00:38:05 --> 00:38:07

So up to now, I don't believe that

00:38:07 --> 00:38:08

I lost him.

00:38:09 --> 00:38:10

Up to now, I

00:38:11 --> 00:38:13

still reading his message to me.

00:38:15 --> 00:38:17

When I was in Qatar, each day, I

00:38:17 --> 00:38:18

call him by video.

00:38:19 --> 00:38:20

Me and my kids.

00:38:21 --> 00:38:23

My my little kids,

00:38:23 --> 00:38:24

the

00:38:24 --> 00:38:26

who is 1 years old,

00:38:27 --> 00:38:29

she used to call her father.

00:38:30 --> 00:38:32

So, after his death,

00:38:32 --> 00:38:33

each day

00:38:33 --> 00:38:35

she bring the phone

00:38:35 --> 00:38:39

and told me dad dad, baba, baba,

00:38:40 --> 00:38:41

call him.

00:38:41 --> 00:38:44

What I can I what can I answer

00:38:44 --> 00:38:45

to her?

00:38:45 --> 00:38:47

I show her her I show her her

00:38:47 --> 00:38:48

picture

00:38:49 --> 00:38:49

his picture,

00:38:50 --> 00:38:53

but she insist on to call. She knows

00:38:53 --> 00:38:55

that this is a picture.

00:38:55 --> 00:38:57

This is not her father.

00:38:58 --> 00:39:01

Maybe the war will end, but our safar,

00:39:01 --> 00:39:04

me and a lot of women here and

00:39:04 --> 00:39:06

in Gaza who lost their belongs,

00:39:06 --> 00:39:08

who lost their sons,

00:39:08 --> 00:39:11

who lost their husband, who lost their dad

00:39:11 --> 00:39:12

and mom

00:39:12 --> 00:39:15

will stay suffer up to we can't forget

00:39:15 --> 00:39:16

them.

00:39:16 --> 00:39:18

We will suffer

00:39:19 --> 00:39:20

at the end of our lives.

00:39:21 --> 00:39:24

How we can recover? How we can? SubhanAllah.

00:39:24 --> 00:39:26

Bring them back.

00:39:26 --> 00:39:27

We can't.

00:39:30 --> 00:39:32

Some brothers and sisters have had dreams about

00:39:32 --> 00:39:35

people who've passed in Gaza.

00:39:35 --> 00:39:37

Yeah. I had that dreams.

00:39:39 --> 00:39:42

I cry all the night upon him and

00:39:42 --> 00:39:42

missed him.

00:39:44 --> 00:39:46

So he came to me at the dream.

00:39:47 --> 00:39:49

I was very happy to see him again.

00:39:50 --> 00:39:51

And, he hugged me

00:39:52 --> 00:39:53

at the dream,

00:39:54 --> 00:39:56

telling me I'm good,

00:39:56 --> 00:39:57

I'm alive.

00:39:58 --> 00:40:00

I told him that, no, you are dead.

00:40:00 --> 00:40:01

I saw you in the video

00:40:02 --> 00:40:03

where you are killed,

00:40:04 --> 00:40:06

and I saw the blood on you

00:40:06 --> 00:40:09

and have injury in your neck and your

00:40:09 --> 00:40:09

legs

00:40:10 --> 00:40:11

from this airstrike.

00:40:12 --> 00:40:13

He told me, no. No.

00:40:13 --> 00:40:17

I'm good. I'm alive now. I am in

00:40:17 --> 00:40:18

a safe place now.

00:40:19 --> 00:40:20

Be happy.

00:40:20 --> 00:40:21

I am

00:40:22 --> 00:40:23

alive. I said, no.

00:40:24 --> 00:40:25

I am in a dream.

00:40:26 --> 00:40:27

I don't believe

00:40:27 --> 00:40:30

that. He's insisted that I am alive.

00:40:31 --> 00:40:32

I am good,

00:40:33 --> 00:40:36

And I feel relaxed after this dream.

00:40:37 --> 00:40:40

And I feel relaxed in this dream. But

00:40:40 --> 00:40:42

when I wake up, I shocked

00:40:43 --> 00:40:46

because I will live again without him.

00:40:47 --> 00:40:48

And I sucked,

00:40:49 --> 00:40:50

it was a dream.

00:40:51 --> 00:40:54

Now now now, I don't feel any I

00:40:54 --> 00:40:55

don't feel happy.

00:40:55 --> 00:40:57

I don't smile. I cry all the time.

00:40:59 --> 00:40:59

I

00:41:00 --> 00:41:02

I try to be strong in front of

00:41:02 --> 00:41:03

my kids.

00:41:04 --> 00:41:04

I tell

00:41:05 --> 00:41:05

I told

00:41:06 --> 00:41:08

told my kids that

00:41:08 --> 00:41:09

your father

00:41:10 --> 00:41:12

is a victim for this war

00:41:12 --> 00:41:15

and he is alive in Aljannah,

00:41:15 --> 00:41:16

in paradise.

00:41:16 --> 00:41:19

He is in a better place,

00:41:19 --> 00:41:20

better than us.

00:41:21 --> 00:41:22

He

00:41:22 --> 00:41:23

is now safe

00:41:24 --> 00:41:25

and happy

00:41:25 --> 00:41:26

with God

00:41:27 --> 00:41:28

to make them,

00:41:30 --> 00:41:31

good and,

00:41:31 --> 00:41:33

to let them live their lives.

00:41:36 --> 00:41:37

There's a lot of,

00:41:39 --> 00:41:41

first of all, I I just think that's

00:41:41 --> 00:41:42

such a beautiful dream. I just

00:41:44 --> 00:41:44

may

00:41:45 --> 00:41:48

that may there's there's truth in these dreams,

00:41:48 --> 00:41:50

you know, their their their visions, their visions.

00:41:50 --> 00:41:52

Yeah. He, yeah, he said the truth

00:41:53 --> 00:41:55

that they are that their their souls are

00:41:55 --> 00:41:57

alive in God and they

00:41:58 --> 00:42:01

may they feel of us. Maybe maybe they

00:42:01 --> 00:42:03

feel of us. I feel that he there

00:42:03 --> 00:42:05

is some connection between us because because we

00:42:05 --> 00:42:08

are in deep love for life. We didn't

00:42:08 --> 00:42:11

have any problems. He was the best husband

00:42:11 --> 00:42:11

to me.

00:42:13 --> 00:42:14

If I will

00:42:15 --> 00:42:17

live all my life, I won't

00:42:17 --> 00:42:17

find

00:42:18 --> 00:42:20

anyone like his manners.

00:42:21 --> 00:42:22

Alhamdulillah.

00:42:22 --> 00:42:24

May may Allah bring you together again Inshallah.

00:42:25 --> 00:42:27

In general. I wait for him to meet

00:42:27 --> 00:42:30

him in general. Ameenah, man. Generally give you

00:42:30 --> 00:42:31

strength. I just

00:42:31 --> 00:42:33

want to have one last consideration, and that

00:42:33 --> 00:42:34

is that

00:42:35 --> 00:42:38

in your whole life as a Palestinian in

00:42:38 --> 00:42:38

Gaza,

00:42:39 --> 00:42:41

the world has been silent about the suffering

00:42:41 --> 00:42:43

of the Palestinian people. Yeah. All the time.

00:42:43 --> 00:42:46

And now we see young people in

00:42:47 --> 00:42:47

universities

00:42:48 --> 00:42:51

in the US being brave. We are happy

00:42:51 --> 00:42:54

very, very happy to hear that. Yeah. And

00:42:54 --> 00:42:55

we witness and

00:42:56 --> 00:42:57

follow-up their news, and

00:42:58 --> 00:43:01

we are encouraging them to continue because their

00:43:01 --> 00:43:02

actions,

00:43:03 --> 00:43:04

are healed.

00:43:05 --> 00:43:08

We in Palestine, very proud of them. They

00:43:08 --> 00:43:11

are brave in that universities in the Western

00:43:11 --> 00:43:13

and they can make

00:43:13 --> 00:43:16

effort and they can they can make impact

00:43:17 --> 00:43:18

on their government

00:43:18 --> 00:43:19

to stop this war.

00:43:20 --> 00:43:21

We are

00:43:22 --> 00:43:23

happy with their actions

00:43:24 --> 00:43:26

and encouraging them to continue.

00:43:26 --> 00:43:27

Thank you so much for,

00:43:28 --> 00:43:29

bravely

00:43:29 --> 00:43:32

sharing your pain and your story and

00:43:33 --> 00:43:34

everybody, you know, we're we're going to be

00:43:34 --> 00:43:36

making so much to offer you. Yeah.

00:43:36 --> 00:43:38

You Allah. May I may he give you

00:43:38 --> 00:43:42

full shefa, Insha'Allah. Yes, sir. Your children ease

00:43:42 --> 00:43:44

and, your heart ease and give you strength

00:43:44 --> 00:43:46

in the future and end this this terrible,

00:43:47 --> 00:43:47

situation.

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