Hosai Mojaddidi – Hijab is Our Crown, Not a Crime (World Hijab Day Celebration)

Hosai Mojaddidi
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The speakers emphasize the importance of finding the right person to ask for guidance and finding the right person to show one's appearance. They stress the importance of faith and trust in individuals, as it is crucial for one's faith. They also emphasize the use of headcovering and sharia, and offer guidance on finding the right person to ask for. The importance of faith and not giving advice to anyone who is nervous is emphasized, along with the importance of finding the right person to ask for and finding the right person to ask for guidance.

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			Just it's very great to be here
with all of you. And this, you
		
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			know, this day, you know what it
means what it symbolizes for all
		
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			of us here is so important. That's
why putting something like this
		
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			together, especially for our
younger generations, is really
		
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			commendable. So you want to really
please make dua for again, the
		
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			organizers. I wanted to kind of
keep this casual. Normally when I
		
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			present I always have a
presentation of some type. But
		
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			because this is such a deeply
intimate and personal topic,
		
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			hijab, right, even though we're
celebrating, you know, the
		
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			recognition of hijab through this
holiday, I think the topic of
		
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			hijab as all of us know, whether
we wear it, we've been wearing it
		
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			for a long time, whether we're
inspired to wear it one day,
		
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			inshallah maybe we wore it, and we
had a difficult time, and we took
		
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			it off. And now we're in this
transition, you know, or the
		
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			experiences of women are, of
course, they differ because we are
		
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			not a monolith. No one was no
women, not all women are the same,
		
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			right? We're also different, and
our lives are different, our
		
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			temperaments are different, our
personalities are different. And
		
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			so I really wanted to just have a
conversation and intimate
		
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			conversation. And I love the fact
that we're finally in person to
		
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			have this, it's not behind the
screen, that makes it even more
		
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			special. So I thought it was
fitting to start this off by
		
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			sharing my hijab story. Because I
didn't always wear hijab and and
		
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			then you know, speaking on a few
different points from from the,
		
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			you know, from our sacred texts,
and then inshallah really having
		
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			conversation, I would love to hear
from you all. So I want this to be
		
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			a more of a dialogue as opposed to
a presentation. So please feel
		
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			free to interject with any
questions or stories of your own,
		
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			if you've had any experiences that
have been inspiring for you. And
		
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			maybe that's something that you
can think about now, like, what,
		
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			what would you want to share if
someone asked you, what was your
		
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			what is your most favorite memory
of hijab or what inspired you to
		
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			wear the hijab? Think about that,
as I'm speaking, and then please
		
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			participate, I'll open it up to
all of you in Sharla. So I'm going
		
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			to take you back to just a little
bit to my childhood, and then kind
		
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			of bring you up to two where I
was, you know, inspired to wear
		
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			the hijab. So I was born and
raised in Afghanistan. Sorry, I
		
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			was born in Afghanistan, and I was
raised here in the US, so I was
		
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			born there. But like many Afghan
families who are here now we came
		
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			as refugees from the war with
Russia. So although I was born
		
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			into a Muslim Afghan family, the
topic of hijab was definitely not
		
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			something that I ever was familiar
with. And no one in my family
		
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			immediate family wore the hijab,
you may be familiar with the
		
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			Afghan dress and although when I'm
honest, on, you know, the
		
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			childhood either the blue, you
know, long, you know, covering is
		
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			common. They're here are many of
the OBGYNs that I had witnessed as
		
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			a young child in my own family,
they did not dress like that ever,
		
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			I never saw a single person wear
that in my life. The only thing
		
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			that I was exposed to was a very
thin it's like a, I think it's I
		
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			forgot the actual material, the
fabric, but it's a very thin,
		
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			covering head covering that yes,
my mom and other elders in our
		
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			family would wear but usually
their hair was still showing
		
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			invisible, it was more cultural.
So hijab from what I later came to
		
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			know of it was very foreign to me.
And just Islam in general, we had,
		
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			I think, like a typical experience
that many people have here, where
		
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			Islam was something that was
infused in our day to day, but not
		
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			something taught. You know, it
wasn't like we were being
		
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			instructed daily with Quran and
Hadith, or anything like that was
		
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			more just the general you know,
lessons that we learned of Tobia
		
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			Have you know been of serving your
parents of being you know, truth,
		
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			truthful, all of those things,
infused in our cultures. And dress
		
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			modesty was definitely part of, of
our, of our culture, your as
		
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			Afghan women. So we were taught to
always dress modestly and we had
		
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			codes of dress for sure even as
young children for example, we
		
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			weren't we couldn't swim like me
and my sisters we were not allowed
		
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			to learn how to swim or swim
because you know those usually
		
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			required very revealing clothing
in my father was super
		
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			conservative. So we just never
learned how to swim as children my
		
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			brothers of course learned so
there were those elements that I
		
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			just I don't think I ever
questioned because they were
		
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			common. All my cousins had similar
experiences. So anyhow, Dean was
		
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			something that I really only
recognized as being something
		
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			really prominent around Ramadan
eid, and that was really it other
		
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			than that, it was kind of in the
background, you know of my life
		
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			and
		
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			And then fast forward to high
school, where I had the very first
		
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			experience ever of listening to a
born or an American convert.
		
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			Muslim speaker teacher who I felt
related like relatability to
		
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			because every other person who I
saw as a religious authority was
		
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			from an immigrant background
usually had a very thick accent.
		
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			And I just did not relate to. And
so in high school we actually had,
		
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			this was many, many years ago, but
we were privileged to hear from I
		
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			mean, Abdullah medic, Eddie, who
was here in our community, my
		
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			shot, he's in the Oakland
Community, but he came to speak to
		
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			us about the topic of Malcolm X,
because the film was going to be
		
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			released soon. And I think it was
just a really relevant topic, like
		
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			in the news. So we invited him to
speak. And this was the first time
		
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			I'm ever hearing someone speak
about Islam without a thick
		
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			accent. And he was, of course,
he's a dynamic, amazing speaker.
		
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			He had me so engaged, I was like,
so inspired by everything he was
		
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			saying, and I felt so much pride,
I feel like that was this first
		
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			seed, really, that was planted in
my heart to feel pride as a
		
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			Muslim. Prior to that I had a
strong Afghan identity, but
		
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			Muslim, it was there, but not
really. So when I heard him speak,
		
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			I was like, Oh, my God, I'm so
moved. And I immediately went to
		
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			the library, I got the
autobiography of Malcolm X. And I
		
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			read it, I read it within the next
maybe few days or so. And that was
		
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			definitely a really big part of
my, my journey coming into Islam
		
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			is reading his story, because it
was transformative. And then it
		
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			was also American. And I did feel
very American in my identity, even
		
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			though I had a bi, you know,
cultural life, I had to add to
		
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			dual realities. At home, we spoke
our language, we ate our food, we
		
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			had to, you know, live according
to our culture. But outside of
		
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			course, as many people know, in
public life and public school,
		
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			you're totally different. So,
anyhow, when I had that experience
		
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			of feeling moved to be more strong
in my Islamic identity, you know,
		
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			it took time and it took a few
more years or a couple of more
		
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			years for that really to solidify
and an experiences and that's the
		
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			thing about, you know, Islam,
Islam is a journey, right? It's,
		
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			it's, it's not something that
overnight, necessarily, I mean,
		
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			some people may have realizations
that are very powerful. But
		
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			really, when you look at the
message that we're constantly
		
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			told, in our deen, that this is,
you know, we're in this for the
		
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			long haul, or the law, you know,
it's a long game, I mean, not
		
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			game, but you know what I mean,
it's not something that you want
		
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			to rush through, right, you have
to really feel, you know, or
		
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			understand have knowledge, of
course, and really understand the
		
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			weight of what you're doing when
you take on, you know, your
		
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			practice and you have a strong
identity. And so over several
		
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			years of going through high
school, finishing high school, and
		
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			then my first year of college, was
part of that right part of that
		
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			evolution, that just gradual
understanding of what it meant to
		
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			be a Muslim, as opposed to an
young African American Girl. And
		
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			the next seed, what came in my
first year of college, and this is
		
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			actually probably I mean, it is
the biggest seed was really when
		
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			the garden I guess you could say
flourish. But what happened? First
		
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			was I lost someone, right? Anybody
experienced loss, like a real big
		
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			loss? Okay, how many of you have
experienced loss in your youth?
		
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			Like, either young age, right
child or high school? College?
		
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			Yeah. So this was my very first
big loss. first year of college,
		
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			it was my grandfather, who I was
very close to, and experiencing
		
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			death on that level where you
don't know what it means, right?
		
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			Someone is with you, and then
they're not and, and then you see
		
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			adults that have never showed
weakness or emotion before
		
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			breaking down. And it's very, you
know, destabilizing for youth to
		
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			see your grandfather, for example,
crying, right? Because he was my
		
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			father was always the, you know,
pitted me of strength. And so
		
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			here, I'm seeing him like that.
And I don't have any point of
		
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			reference to understand what what
is happening, because I don't know
		
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			about what's the next phase of
death. We never really studied
		
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			that, like what happens after a
person dies, and am I ever gonna
		
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			see this person again? So that was
actually a very traumatic
		
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			experience for another reason to I
was misinformed. Someone told me
		
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			and for some reason, and this is
why it's so important to learn
		
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			your deen yourself and really take
initiative of that. I'm just you
		
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			know, that's a little footnote.
But at that time, I was told that
		
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			my grandfather because he was sick
in the hospital, that he would not
		
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			die because in order for a person
for Allah to take this person's
		
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			soul, all of his children have to
be
		
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			with him, and we had one uncle who
was still in Pakistan. So here I
		
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			am this very naive, you know, girl
thinking, Oh, everything will be
		
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			fine. Why are people so worried
because I had the secret
		
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			information. I don't know why I
thought it was true, but I just
		
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			did. So I believe that my father,
my grandfather is going to come
		
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			out of the hospital, everything
would be fine, but just another,
		
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			you know, routine visit. And then
so when he was actually gone, I
		
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			felt my cry as I was like a crisis
of faith. Like, what, this isn't
		
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			what was supposed to happen. And
something, you know, really, I
		
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			mean, it definitely affected me.
So that was very traumatic. And
		
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			then in that period of time,
		
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			some other events happen, and I'll
get to the hijab story. But prior
		
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			to me even being in that position
of mourning my grandfather,
		
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			I have to rewind a little bit
because I forgot a big part of the
		
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			story. But I was because I always
had, you know, I guess, social
		
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			personality. I don't know, just,
you know, I had friends and I made
		
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			friends easily. So when I went to
the campus, this was a junior
		
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			college here in, in Pleasant Hill
called Diablo Valley College. Some
		
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			of you may know it, but that
campus, there were Muslims on
		
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			campus. And there was one sister
in particular, who was he Jabby.
		
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			She was one of two girls that I
knew that wear hijab, I didn't
		
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			know anyone else. And I always,
you know, I just thought they were
		
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			really extreme. Like, I thought,
Whoa, like that family is super,
		
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			super extreme Muslim, because I
never saw that before. But she was
		
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			really sweet. And she came to me
one day, and I remember, she just
		
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			said to me, you know, Jose, you
should you should wear, you should
		
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			wear the hijab.
		
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			And, and I looked at her like so
puzzled, because I thought like,
		
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			there's no way that I could, you
know, do that in my mind. Of
		
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			course, I wasn't rude to her. I
was just like, sure, you know,
		
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			like smiling along as though it
was a possibility. But in my mind,
		
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			I recollect thinking that she was
completely out of her mind,
		
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			because hijab was such a foreign
concept to me at that time. But
		
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			the reason why she said I should
wear hijab is because I was
		
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			encouraged by some of the Muslim
students to be to take on the
		
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			leadership role of the MSA to be
the president of the MSA. So she
		
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			just felt like I'm in a leadership
position on the front face of this
		
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			club. And I should represent
Islam. Well, and she just was
		
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			giving me general Naseeha. Right.
But I just didn't have that
		
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			knowledge. And I'm just thinking,
okay, she's trying to push me, you
		
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			know, into something I don't want
to do. But I was still polite. So
		
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			I remember thinking that and I
remember looking at her like,
		
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			yeah, right. And then Subhanallah,
a few months go by and I
		
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			experienced this loss. And I'm
really starting to question life
		
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			and death. And everything is just
really strange. For me, there's
		
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			just because when you experience
death, it's it shakes your
		
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			reality, right? You're just
everything just felt fuzzy. I
		
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			don't know how else to say it. But
it didn't feel real. But I was
		
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			requested as the president of the
MSA to accommodate a speaker. They
		
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			said there was going to be a
speaker, and she was from an
		
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			African nation. I think it was
either Somalia or Sudan. And she
		
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			was going to come and she needed
to she was going to address the
		
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			college on the topic of FGM,
which, hopefully, you guys know
		
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			what that is. And the the school
administration really wanted the
		
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			support of the Muslim students,
because they felt like she needed
		
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			to be supported. This was a very
traumatic experience for her. And
		
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			so I said, Okay, sure. So I
gathered the MSA, and we said,
		
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			Let's go there, and let us hear
this speaker. And when she went up
		
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			on stage, unfortunately, I found
out on the spot because she
		
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			started insulting. The Provost was
sort of making horrible remarks
		
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			that she was not Muslim. She had
left Islam because of whatever.
		
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			And she was disparaging our dean.
And so there I'm sitting in the
		
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			audience with my other fellow club
members looking at this person
		
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			that I'm supposed to be
supporting. And she's disparaging
		
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			our dean, and I'm shocked and I'm
angry. And I'm just like, I need
		
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			to do something, because this is
this is getting out of control. So
		
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			the from the law, we I requested
the mic, you know, they were
		
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			passing out the mic for questions.
And so I went up and I just said
		
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			to her, you're You are insulting
us. You're lying about our faith
		
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			and about our, you know, Prophet
and you need to stop. You're not
		
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			here to talk about Islam. You're
here to talk about what happened
		
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			to you, you know, that's a very
political or cultural experience.
		
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			Why are you doing this? And so I
was very visibly mad and they cut
		
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			off my mic.
		
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			So when they cut off my mic, I was
like, Whoa, because the just keep
		
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			in mind, the audience was huge.
First of all, is a big packed
		
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			auditorium. Fully.
		
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			I mean, there are many everybody
was seated, but there were a lot
		
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			of people there. And then most of
the people there were like in
		
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			women's studies, they were, you
know, kind of liberal, West, you
		
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			know, what I mean? Feminist
leaning, because this was, you
		
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			know, such a serious topic for
them anyway, so they, they wanted
		
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			to be there and they had an
		
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			agenda. So when they hear me going
after their guest who's flown over
		
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			here from all the way across the
world, I'm the enemy now, right?
		
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			So they all turned on me. And that
was really shocking because I
		
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			wasn't wearing hijab obviously, at
that point, I just looked like
		
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			everyone else. And so they all
turned on me. And I felt like,
		
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			Whoa, this is it got really
serious, you know, at that point,
		
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			but I wasn't done. So, you know, I
felt like there's more to say
		
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			because she kept going, she kind
of, you know, got the mic back.
		
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			And she started going on and
saying stuff about me. So I was
		
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			like, oh, no, no, no, this is this
isn't, you know, we're gonna we're
		
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			gonna end this. So then
hamdulillah my friend hubba. May
		
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			Allah bless her, she passed away
all that haha. But at that time,
		
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			she, she's, she had these big,
beautiful blonde curls. You know,
		
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			she's Egyptian. All the Egyptians.
Here are the Egyptians. I want to
		
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			show I love the curls. She had
these big, beautiful girls. And so
		
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			she didn't look Muslim at all. She
actually looked very, you know, I
		
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			mean, she could pass for anything.
So I said, Hey, raise your hand
		
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			for the mic. She was seated a few
seats down from me. So they gave
		
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			her the mic, and then she threw it
to me.
		
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			So this is part two of
		
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			unleashing on this woman and 100
Allah, Allah gave me the words, I
		
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			don't know what I said, I wish I
had a record of it. But I don't
		
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			know. But I know that it got to
the point where the hall went
		
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			crazy. And they had to shut down
the entire event, which was for
		
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			me, fine, Allahu Akbar. Because
that's what I wanted. I thought
		
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			she was she just didn't deserve to
be up there. So when that
		
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			happened, this was the second
major seed for me. Because, again,
		
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			now it was a matter of this
question that we all have to ask
		
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			ourselves, every one of us at
every point of our life, who am I?
		
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			Right? And what am I doing? Where
am I going? These are questions
		
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			that even though Quran Allah
subhanaw taala asks us, right? For
		
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			Aina to have bone right, where are
you going? But the question of who
		
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			am I was a was a question that
really stayed with me. And I felt
		
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			very puzzled because I had such
conflicting identities. Right? I
		
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			am African American, I already
mentioned that I so that what does
		
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			that mean, I have this culture at
home. And then I have this
		
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			identity outside where I look like
any other western woman, you know,
		
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			I work like scoopneck T shirts,
which was were revealing. I had my
		
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			hair done, I would wear makeup,
sometimes short sleeves. I didn't
		
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			be on that, you know, were more
revealing clothing. We were We
		
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			were not allowed to. But I still
looked so Western that people
		
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			would never looking at me.
presumed that I was Muslim,
		
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			because actually everybody thought
I was Latina. And when they would
		
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			speak Spanish meant to me and I
was like, I don't know, unless
		
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			it's like the old they thought I
was like a liar. You know, like,
		
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			no, no. And then, you know, I went
to different trends where I would
		
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			pass for like, even Native
American. I was like, no, no, you
		
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			know, so the point being, I don't
know who I am, what am I? What do
		
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			I where am I going? And then death
was looming around me. So I'm just
		
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			like, starting to really, really
have no this internal existential
		
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			crisis of like, you need to think
about things seriously, you know,
		
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			this life is temporal. You just
witnessed someone that you, you
		
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			know, loved and had such a strong
relationship buried in the ground.
		
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			These people that you look like,
you act like you listen to their
		
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			music, you dress like them.
They're so different from you,
		
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			they were about to turn on you,
you know, so who are you? And then
		
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			even my friends on campus? I had a
dream Subhanallah it's just the
		
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			reason why I share this is because
you see, when I was proud that
		
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			says he's the only one who guides
in misguides This is the
		
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			experience of people who've
experienced you know, who've come
		
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			through a path of guidance from
Jehovah, right, you come, you'll
		
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			see the, the all of the dots
connecting. So all these things
		
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			are happening at the same time.
And then I had this dream and the
		
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			dream was really the final point.
For me. The dream was my friends
		
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			Heba. I mentioned her May Allah
bless her Aloha, and some other
		
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			friends who are non Muslim. Those
are my core people. So even in my
		
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			friends I had like a mixture of
this is like, Who are you right?
		
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			But in my dream, I come out and I
am looking at I'm standing on the
		
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			front of my house, and I'm looking
at the moon. And the moon is so
		
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			beautiful and I still remember how
love is these details of that
		
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			dream. But in the middle of it is
flashing Allah Muhammad, Allah
		
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			Muhammad, like these beautiful
calligraphy, you know, letters,
		
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			and I'm just in awe. So I call my
friend Heba. And my other friend,
		
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			her name is yoga. And I said, have
a yoga come here? And I was like,
		
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			oh, and they came to me. They were
really far when I called them.
		
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			They came and they stood right
next to me. They said, look, and
		
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			they both were like, What are you
talking about? They you know, they
		
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			didn't see what I saw. And I was
like, look again, and then every
		
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			time I would look over them, they
would be further and further and
		
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			further.
		
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			or they're further away. And so
anyway, there was a lot of
		
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			symbolism in that dream. But you
know, I had it interpreted and
		
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			someone said, Well, you're you're
kind of on your own path. And
		
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			that's the thing that I also
understood early. And you know, we
		
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			have to realize as women, because
we're so usually tied to other
		
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			people, right in our households
growing up, obviously, our
		
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			siblings, our parents, then we
immediately usually just, you
		
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			know, for some of us anyway, maybe
not all, we move into the next
		
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			phase of life, right after school
and living with our families, we
		
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			suddenly jump into a relationship.
And now we're tied to our
		
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			partners, and then our children
come along, and we're tied to
		
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			them. So this idea of, you have
your own path, you no matter how
		
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			many friends you have in your
life, or no matter how many shared
		
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			common interests you have, you are
your own. You're this, you know,
		
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			this is your own journey. And I
really took that to heart, because
		
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			I wanted to have support, right?
It's very natural, when you are
		
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			making changes in your spiritual
practice, to wish to have people
		
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			doing it with you, right? How many
of us have been felt inspired, and
		
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			we want to share it with our loved
ones, because we want them to feel
		
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			the inspiration, but they don't
have the same reaction, right? I
		
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			mean, that's happening, how many
times right? You read an AI
		
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			Hadith, you hear a story or a
talk, and you're like, Oh, my God,
		
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			you have to hear this. And then
the response from that person is
		
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			like, now, Mashallah.
		
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			And you're like, come on, you
know, I felt like this, you know,
		
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			big awakening, how could you not
have? Well, that's a proof that
		
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			Allah subhanaw taala, you know, is
speaking to us through these, you
		
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			know, mediums in different ways.
And if we're not, on the, we're
		
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			not, it's not meant for us at that
time, there's a veil, right,
		
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			there's a veil and, you know, tied
to this theme of hijab, right?
		
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			That's, that's what the word hijab
is, it's a veil. But when I got
		
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			that, when I had that dream,
that's when I understood what all
		
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			these, you know, experiences meant
for me that Jose, you need to
		
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			start taking your life seriously.
What is your identity outwardly is
		
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			not matching your reality
inwardly. And until you bring
		
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			those two together, you are going
to feel this tug and pull and this
		
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			fragmented identity, right?
Because you're, you're not solid
		
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			in who you are. And so I needed to
take some time and 100 out with
		
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			Allah's guidance and good people
around me, I decided to I need to
		
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			wear hijab. So that was my
intention. I was like, this is the
		
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			only way that I'm going to
solidify my identity. Because if
		
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			you if I am a Muslim woman, and I
believe in this faith, which I
		
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			did, I had a belief and I I wanted
that nearness to Allah subhanaw
		
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			taala. Right. I wanted to know
him. I really wanted to know Him.
		
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			If you think about how much we
		
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			when we love someone, or we love
something, how much we dive into
		
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			that, right? You when you get
fixed on something that you love,
		
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			whether it's a hobby or even
people get infatuated with people,
		
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			right, maybe there's a particular
I mean, I remember I used to have
		
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			when I was a teenager posters, I
honestly don't know how my parents
		
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			allowed me to have huge closet
size life size posters of like,
		
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			New Kids on the Block in my room,
and I'm like, how did that happen?
		
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			You know, like, we weren't allowed
to talk to boys at school, but I
		
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			could stare at them every single
day in my room. So just really
		
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			bizarre you know, experiences like
that. But when we love something
		
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			we dive so into it right that we
It absorbs us it it consumes us,
		
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			right when you love a song? I
mean, I don't know how many of you
		
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			are like this. I'm notorious if I
like a song, it's on repeat
		
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			forever until I absolutely can get
sick of it. And then I hate it. Or
		
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			like even I remember a group of
friends. We used to get together
		
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			for holidays. And there was there
were these snacks. They were was
		
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			it. Gold something pretzels.
Anyway, someone brought these
		
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			pretzels and every time we got
together we'd we'd have those same
		
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			pretzels and pretzels until the
point where we're all so disgusted
		
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			by that pretzel. Like okay, we
need to stop going to the extreme.
		
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			But this is human nature right
when we some of us are like that
		
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			some may have a little bit more
self control. But usually when we
		
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			claim love of someone or
something, there is action to
		
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			follow. So when it comes to these
claims that we have about our
		
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			Lord, right, we have to call
ourselves into account like you
		
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			you love Allah subhanaw taala you
love Allah, you claim you love
		
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			Allah. Where's where's the
evidence? Right? Where's the
		
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			evidence of your love?
		
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			If someone came to you right now
and said, I love you, right? I'm
		
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			in love with you. But then their
actions proved otherwise. Would
		
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			you believe them?
		
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			No. So this is the same standard
we have to have for ourselves when
		
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			we make claims and I think that
realization hit me that I say I
		
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			love
		
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			Like, I want to be close to him
and I want to know Him. Therefore,
		
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			how can I do that unless I fully
embrace his call. And his call for
		
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			us as women, is to adopt a very
noticeable, strong identity as
		
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			Muslim women. And it's not for
him, he doesn't need this. Right,
		
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			none of what we do, whether it's
our hijab or our prayers, nothing,
		
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			not a single thing that we do is
for Allah, it's for his sake,
		
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			because He commands us to, but out
of His love and Russia, he
		
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			commands for us what we would
otherwise not do for ourselves,
		
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			even though it is the best for us,
because we don't always have our
		
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			best interests in mind. So that's
why he makes it a command. Right?
		
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			If you left it optional, if you
left all of the good, that would
		
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			benefit us optional. Most of us
are too weak, we wouldn't fall you
		
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			know, follow up think of Ramadan.
It's about to start soon. How many
		
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			of us
		
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			if fasting was optional, and
Ramadan would not fast, let's just
		
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			be honest. Right? That's, that's
how you get to the heart of your
		
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			you know, to the truth of your own
self. Right? To to really call
		
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			yourself out and to know who you
are. This is what self awareness
		
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			really means is to be like, Yeah,
you know, fasting is tough for me.
		
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			For those who had stuff for right
I probably wouldn't do it if it
		
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			was optional. But because Allah
makes it mandatory fuddled, we do
		
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			it. Right. So there's certain
things in our Sharia, Allah knows
		
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			that if we had the option, we
wouldn't, even though it's better
		
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			for us. So hijab, like all of the
prayers, they all are, fall under
		
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			that our prayers are the same. If
our prayers are all optional, we
		
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			would likely squeeze them all in
maybe, or not doing them at all
		
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			right? Like we do them all, like,
let's just say, Allah said, just
		
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			do five prayers a day, we probably
do them all in the morning and go
		
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			now I'm free for the rest of the
day, right? Because we're being
		
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			efficient. But that still is one
of the nuts because in your
		
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			efficiency, you're actually
opening the doors of fitna for
		
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			yourself, because the purpose of
the prayer is, is to spread them
		
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			out so that at every interval of
your day you check yourself like
		
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			you're not going to go and do
haram if you know you got four,
		
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			five prayers ahead of your day.
But if you squeeze them all out of
		
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			the way, and you you know, got
them out of the way then where's
		
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			the reminder? Where's that?
signpost that says, Hey, watch
		
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			out, you know, don't do this. So
I'm good for you. Danger, danger,
		
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			right? Those are that's what the
prayer is. And similarly he jab.
		
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			He jab is the same, right? He jab
is Allah subhanaw taala,
		
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			protecting us from the dangers,
right, that are around us. Because
		
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			the world is a dangerous place.
Not I mean, that's not to, you
		
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			know, bring us all into a state of
panic. But we have to be
		
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			realistic, that there are things
in this world that take us away
		
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			from the remembrance of Allah
subhanaw taala and that is
		
00:28:01 --> 00:28:06
			dangerous for our souls. Right?
When we are heedless when we are
		
00:28:06 --> 00:28:10
			in a state of overflow, and we
forget Allah subhana wa Tada. We
		
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			are in a very dangerous state. And
if that continues, and we
		
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			habituate to those things, we're
doomed. It's very serious, right?
		
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			Unless, of course, Allah calls us
back and He guides us. But this is
		
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			why we have to see the hijab for
what it was. So at that time in my
		
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			life, when I started to
contemplate deeply about my own
		
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			sincerity and claim of love of
Allah subhanaw taala, I was left
		
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			with no choice but to say,
homicide, despite your family,
		
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			who's telling you what are you
crazy? And I did I had family
		
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			members who are like, what are you
crazy? Why are you wearing a
		
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			hijab? You're not 50 You're not
60? You haven't done hudge that's
		
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			what they thought the hijab was?
Why would you wear that? How are
		
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			you going to get married, nobody's
going to even like you, you're
		
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			going to look so weird. People are
going to attack you. And they had
		
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			all these negative things to say,
maybe one or two people at that
		
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			time in my life, were actually
telling me, encouraging me like,
		
00:29:04 --> 00:29:06
			you know, mashallah, if Allah is
calling you to the hijab do it.
		
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			But this is where you have to go
back to the point that I made.
		
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			This is your journey. You can't
sit here and listen to everyone
		
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			else, because everyone's always
got an opinion. And they're going
		
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			to come from their frame. So my
parents are coming from their
		
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			frame. My friends are also coming
from I had friends very close
		
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			friends who discouraged me from
wearing the hijab at that time,
		
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			because they don't they think
like, I'm going to be too weird
		
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			now, right? When you're have like
a group identity, right with your
		
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			friends, and everybody kind of
dresses the same and you look the
		
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			same and you liked the same
things. When there's an outlier,
		
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			it, you know, affects the group.
So people will tell you advice
		
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			based on them and their interests.
Unless you get goodness you how
		
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			who are looking for you. And when
someone tells you in a car that's
		
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			for you. It's there factoring in
your asset, other factoring and
		
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			all of the things that really
matter. So at that time, I didn't
		
00:29:58 --> 00:29:59
			have a lot of those
		
00:30:00 --> 00:30:04
			voices which again, put me in that
situation like I need to make this
		
00:30:04 --> 00:30:08
			decision on my own. And I just
prayed a lot. I asked Allah like
		
00:30:08 --> 00:30:12
			y'all please, I want to do this
but I'm scared I have no support.
		
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			Nowadays look at this mashallah,
we didn't have anything like this
		
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			20 however, many years ago, it's
been maybe 30 something years now,
		
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			I'll close to 30 years since I
wear hijab.
		
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			There was nothing like this, I
could not go out to any place and
		
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			just expect to see a hijab now,
mashallah, I almost always see a
		
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			hijab be somewhere in the car at
the store. Wherever I am, I've
		
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			gone to really remote places,
like, you know, so I will lie,
		
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			it's happened to me, I've gotten
to like, you know, halfmoon Bay
		
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			and somewhere where it's like, oh,
look, my own private beach, and
		
00:30:44 --> 00:30:47
			then you turn around, there's,
like, oh, I guess we both had the
		
00:30:47 --> 00:30:51
			same idea. Mashallah. But like,
it's so common now to see jobbies.
		
00:30:51 --> 00:30:54
			Even in those experiences, I
didn't have this then. So I had to
		
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			really sit with myself and this is
the beauty of our deen is that we
		
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			come into this world alone, every
single one of us I mean, unless
		
00:31:02 --> 00:31:08
			you're a twin, or triplet, or, but
we come into it spiritually, you
		
00:31:08 --> 00:31:14
			know, different independent of
anyone else, that even we join, or
		
00:31:14 --> 00:31:18
			share a room with. And we leave
this world alone as well, our
		
00:31:18 --> 00:31:21
			spiritual journey is completely
solitary, is why it's important to
		
00:31:21 --> 00:31:24
			study. You know, like the book,
for example, the mom and dad dad's
		
00:31:24 --> 00:31:28
			the lives of men, that goes into
the different journeys of the
		
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			soul. Because what that does is it
puts all of us in a position of
		
00:31:31 --> 00:31:35
			really understanding the
uniqueness of our existence.
		
00:31:35 --> 00:31:38
			Right, when you really appreciate
who you are, that Allah made you
		
00:31:38 --> 00:31:42
			independent of all of these other
8 billion people that share the
		
00:31:42 --> 00:31:46
			planet with you, that you are an
idea in, in in his, you know, and
		
00:31:46 --> 00:31:49
			I mean, God created you, and that
he puts you brought you into
		
00:31:49 --> 00:31:56
			existence for a reason, then it
puts the weight of your existence
		
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			on you suddenly, like, wow, I am a
significant creature, right? I'm
		
00:32:00 --> 00:32:03
			significant, because if I wasn't
significant, first of all, I
		
00:32:03 --> 00:32:08
			wouldn't be here. Second of all, I
wouldn't be a human, I wouldn't be
		
00:32:08 --> 00:32:11
			in the OMA of the Prophet
salallahu, salam, all of these
		
00:32:11 --> 00:32:14
			things are reasons enough for us
to know our worth and our value.
		
00:32:14 --> 00:32:18
			But we forget, we're forgetful,
right? Because we get caught up
		
00:32:18 --> 00:32:22
			with the dunya. And the dunya is
messages are very, are low or
		
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			much, are much lower, right? A lot
what Allah calls us to, doesn't
		
00:32:27 --> 00:32:30
			compare to what we call sometimes
ourselves to or what people call
		
00:32:30 --> 00:32:34
			us to, right. Because for as women
I mean, right, like society
		
00:32:34 --> 00:32:38
			cultures, what are we usually
we're, we're boxed in, right?
		
00:32:38 --> 00:32:41
			We're told that we only,
		
00:32:42 --> 00:32:45
			you know, are fitting for this
role or that role. Right? I know,
		
00:32:45 --> 00:32:48
			I mean, even nowadays,
SubhanAllah. I know, people
		
00:32:48 --> 00:32:54
			currently in 2022, whose family
cultures are, are it's tragic that
		
00:32:54 --> 00:32:58
			this exists, but that they, you
know, their their culture, teaches
		
00:32:59 --> 00:33:02
			young girls that there's no real
point even in striving for
		
00:33:02 --> 00:33:05
			education, because, you know,
what's the point you're just gonna
		
00:33:05 --> 00:33:09
			get married. And that's the plan
that ultimately, that they just
		
00:33:09 --> 00:33:13
			need to have, you know, be married
and have children, which is, of
		
00:33:13 --> 00:33:15
			course, a great station a great
honor, and nobody's taking away
		
00:33:15 --> 00:33:19
			from that. But to set those limits
right away from such an early age,
		
00:33:19 --> 00:33:22
			to tell a girl that she doesn't
need to focus on developing her
		
00:33:22 --> 00:33:27
			intellect and finding her calling,
find her passion. And to just put
		
00:33:27 --> 00:33:29
			her in a box that says you're just
going to be a homemaker, just
		
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			leave it at that. This is what
human beings do, right. And this
		
00:33:32 --> 00:33:36
			is unfortunately, where when you
study the history of women and
		
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			what we've had to overcome, right,
as a, as a gender, I try to
		
00:33:40 --> 00:33:43
			overcome all of these different
systems of power that work against
		
00:33:43 --> 00:33:47
			us. A lot of it is because they've
suppressed us, they've told us
		
00:33:47 --> 00:33:52
			that we are only this, where Islam
is constantly elevating us, and
		
00:33:52 --> 00:33:56
			telling us that your significant,
right that you are the other half
		
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			of the greatest of all creations
because humanity or human beings,
		
00:34:00 --> 00:34:04
			when we know Allah subhanaw taala.
And when we strive for his
		
00:34:04 --> 00:34:07
			pleasure, we rise above even the
angels, right? And this is known
		
00:34:07 --> 00:34:10
			and so where the other half,
there's, of course, man and woman
		
00:34:10 --> 00:34:14
			were a pair, but we also
intellectually, spiritually, all
		
00:34:14 --> 00:34:17
			of our efforts and endeavors are
the same in value. There is
		
00:34:17 --> 00:34:21
			absolutely no difference between
the prayer of a man and the prayer
		
00:34:21 --> 00:34:23
			of a woman, the reading of the
Quran of a man and the reading of
		
00:34:23 --> 00:34:27
			the Quran of a woman to fast,
there's a cat, it's all in the
		
00:34:27 --> 00:34:31
			sight of God, I bet that and it's
all the same, we are elevated and
		
00:34:31 --> 00:34:36
			Allah calls us to have these lofty
aspirations lofty goals, but human
		
00:34:36 --> 00:34:39
			beings call us to what focus on,
you know,
		
00:34:40 --> 00:34:45
			making sure that your hair looks
this way that your nails look this
		
00:34:45 --> 00:34:49
			way that your body looks this way,
your eyebrows are like this, your,
		
00:34:49 --> 00:34:54
			you know, constant emphasis on the
external, stripping us away of all
		
00:34:54 --> 00:34:58
			of the other beautiful facets of
our existence, reducing us to
		
00:34:58 --> 00:34:59
			nothing but
		
00:35:00 --> 00:35:05
			Again, trophies, right like dolls,
you know, how can we, you know,
		
00:35:05 --> 00:35:10
			trim this and cut this and fix
this, like molding us into just
		
00:35:10 --> 00:35:14
			these little. That's what women
have become in this society and in
		
00:35:14 --> 00:35:18
			the world. No longer are we
inspired to learn, you know,
		
00:35:18 --> 00:35:23
			someone was telling me yesterday
about a story of some of I have a
		
00:35:23 --> 00:35:28
			sister who, at 60 years old became
a half of the Quran. And I just
		
00:35:28 --> 00:35:32
			said somehow I love our deen
because women are never told to
		
00:35:32 --> 00:35:35
			stop like it's, Oh, you're too
old. Now your kids are older.
		
00:35:36 --> 00:35:40
			Forget about it. You know why why
even bother know, up until your
		
00:35:40 --> 00:35:43
			last breath? You want to go into
this field? You want to go into
		
00:35:43 --> 00:35:48
			that field? Do it? If it's halal
and it's you're able to manage all
		
00:35:48 --> 00:35:52
			the other responsibilities, do it
there are no glass ceilings in our
		
00:35:52 --> 00:35:57
			deen for women. It's just, you
know, prioritize know what, what
		
00:35:57 --> 00:36:00
			Allah expects of you, but you
don't have these limitations that
		
00:36:00 --> 00:36:04
			humans impose. So Allah is always
calling us to elevate ourselves.
		
00:36:04 --> 00:36:08
			It's just that we, we of course
fall we fall into these other
		
00:36:08 --> 00:36:13
			narratives, where we're told to
focus on these things that are
		
00:36:13 --> 00:36:15
			going to they're not going to
matter. Right. And that's one of
		
00:36:16 --> 00:36:19
			the beautiful things about Hijab
is that what you do when I when I
		
00:36:19 --> 00:36:23
			really understood the reason why
hijab was imposed on women, of
		
00:36:23 --> 00:36:26
			course, this takes time. And I
didn't have all these realizations
		
00:36:26 --> 00:36:32
			when I was in it. It was over many
years of looking around, seeing
		
00:36:32 --> 00:36:35
			women in different situations,
seeing exploitation, seeing women
		
00:36:35 --> 00:36:36
			confused about who they are.
		
00:36:37 --> 00:36:41
			And constantly, you know, focusing
again, on all the wrong things,
		
00:36:41 --> 00:36:45
			that I began to learn that what
ALLAH SubhanA wa Tada was doing,
		
00:36:45 --> 00:36:49
			by giving us the hijab and telling
us to where it was to say, take
		
00:36:49 --> 00:36:57
			the reins, right, take hold of
your path, because the hijab is so
		
00:36:57 --> 00:37:01
			it's yours, it's personal. And
it's your, what, you know, your
		
00:37:01 --> 00:37:05
			you your effort with Allah
subhanaw taala, it has nothing to
		
00:37:05 --> 00:37:09
			do with anyone else. And that's
why it's not a uniform, right? How
		
00:37:09 --> 00:37:13
			many, how many times is the word
hijab mentioned in the Quran
		
00:37:17 --> 00:37:21
			five times. And those references
do not have to do with what I'm
		
00:37:21 --> 00:37:24
			wearing, or what we're wearing
here. Because hijab literally
		
00:37:24 --> 00:37:31
			means veil, right? So the word
hijab has been used and made to,
		
00:37:32 --> 00:37:38
			to hype to emphasize this one
aspect of the body of a woman in a
		
00:37:38 --> 00:37:43
			way that historically and socially
is really meant about, you know,
		
00:37:43 --> 00:37:47
			kind of keeping her away from
public life. That's why the actual
		
00:37:47 --> 00:37:50
			verse that has to do with what the
covering is came out of the word,
		
00:37:50 --> 00:37:54
			right, but we see this word hijab
over and over again, because part
		
00:37:54 --> 00:37:58
			of that is it's a term that is
used to basically keep women out
		
00:37:58 --> 00:38:04
			too right to keep them away from
public life. But we have over or
		
00:38:04 --> 00:38:09
			misunderstood, really the essence
of why we cover because we get
		
00:38:09 --> 00:38:12
			fixated on labels, we get fixated
on terms, we get fixated on
		
00:38:13 --> 00:38:17
			meanings and definitions like oh,
that hijab like I saw Post
		
00:38:17 --> 00:38:20
			recently on you know, the proper
hijab and then there's like,
		
00:38:20 --> 00:38:25
			different women, some are wearing
the full, you know, chador, the
		
00:38:25 --> 00:38:29
			full veiling, others are wearing
niqab some are wearing like a rap.
		
00:38:29 --> 00:38:32
			And, you know, the whole post was
so negatively framed because it's
		
00:38:32 --> 00:38:37
			basically saying that there's only
one right way and if you're not
		
00:38:37 --> 00:38:41
			doing it that way, you're you're
wrong. And this is also we have to
		
00:38:41 --> 00:38:44
			be careful of using that type of
language because the it's
		
00:38:44 --> 00:38:48
			something that is there's rules to
it. Of course, you know, we know
		
00:38:48 --> 00:38:52
			that when you look at our Sharia
and our descriptions of what a
		
00:38:52 --> 00:38:57
			hijab entail. It is very simple,
right? Very simple. Basically
		
00:38:57 --> 00:39:03
			cover your your outer cover your
private parts, and don't show your
		
00:39:03 --> 00:39:07
			adornments don't be too that's why
we don't wear tight clothing.
		
00:39:07 --> 00:39:10
			That's why we don't wear see
through clothing. We wear clothing
		
00:39:10 --> 00:39:15
			that is covering our beauty our
adornments and as long as we are,
		
00:39:15 --> 00:39:18
			you know, we can show our face we
can show our hands and of course,
		
00:39:18 --> 00:39:21
			you know there's different fifth
opinions about feet from the mala
		
00:39:21 --> 00:39:26
			head. But other than that, you
have the the right. It's actually
		
00:39:26 --> 00:39:32
			in the Quran to beautify yourself,
as long as your intention is not
		
00:39:32 --> 00:39:36
			to be seductive and to be you
know, using your body or your
		
00:39:36 --> 00:39:39
			hijab in an inappropriate way. But
you have the right to wear
		
00:39:39 --> 00:39:43
			colorful scarves, you have the
right to wear patterns and prints.
		
00:39:43 --> 00:39:46
			And that's why it's behind law
when you see hijab represented in
		
00:39:46 --> 00:39:51
			different cultures look around,
where do you see a uniform concept
		
00:39:51 --> 00:39:55
			of hijab, right? Historically, you
find I mean, in every culture, you
		
00:39:55 --> 00:39:57
			go to China, you go to parts of
Africa, you go to parts of
		
00:39:57 --> 00:39:59
			unassign you see
		
00:40:00 --> 00:40:04
			Cultural iterations of what the
hijab means, right? Because that's
		
00:40:04 --> 00:40:10
			Islam. Islam doesn't come to say,
yeah, there's this again, one way
		
00:40:10 --> 00:40:13
			of interpreting these things we
are allowed as human beings to be
		
00:40:13 --> 00:40:19
			human. Some people have very
artistic, you know, inclinations
		
00:40:19 --> 00:40:22
			they love. I mean, I have friends
who are very much into fashion,
		
00:40:22 --> 00:40:26
			and they love it. And so to tell
them that, oh, you know, your your
		
00:40:26 --> 00:40:30
			two sister, your dress is too
beautiful. And this is not
		
00:40:30 --> 00:40:34
			appropriate because you're showing
wearing too many colors. It's just
		
00:40:34 --> 00:40:37
			tragic that, you know, we're
sending those messages, especially
		
00:40:37 --> 00:40:40
			in this day and age, when we want
to give our girls a really strong
		
00:40:40 --> 00:40:43
			identity of what it means to be
Muslim. So this is why again, we
		
00:40:43 --> 00:40:46
			have to go back and say, Well,
what does our deen say about these
		
00:40:46 --> 00:40:50
			things? Right? And I wanted to
share a verse that I think really
		
00:40:50 --> 00:40:55
			kind of hits hits the nail on the
head is in terms of how we need to
		
00:40:55 --> 00:40:57
			understand hijab because you're
gonna get different
		
00:40:57 --> 00:41:00
			interpretations and different
meanings and different messages,
		
00:41:00 --> 00:41:03
			but I think if you get these
verses, Inshallah, you'll have a
		
00:41:03 --> 00:41:06
			really solid grounded
understanding of what hijab is.
		
00:41:06 --> 00:41:12
			This is in surah, the I think,
chapter seven, verse 26, Allah
		
00:41:12 --> 00:41:17
			subhanaw taala says, Yeah, Benny
oedema cadenza la la, comme
		
00:41:17 --> 00:41:23
			Lieberson Euro so, so Adhikam
where he share when he bears a
		
00:41:23 --> 00:41:28
			taqwa, liquefier, that he came in
I Atilla Hilah, Allah homea, the
		
00:41:28 --> 00:41:30
			karoun. What does this mean?
		
00:41:31 --> 00:41:34
			Oh, Children of Adam, we have
bestowed upon you clothing to
		
00:41:34 --> 00:41:41
			conceal your private parts, and as
an adornment, but the clothing of
		
00:41:41 --> 00:41:46
			righteousness that is best, that
is from the signs of Allah that
		
00:41:46 --> 00:41:48
			perhaps they will remember.
		
00:41:50 --> 00:41:55
			So this is look at the way the Vs,
you know, is explained here,
		
00:41:55 --> 00:41:59
			right? That Allah subhana has
given us clothing, He's given us
		
00:41:59 --> 00:42:01
			the ability to manufacture the
fabrics. I mean, just look at the
		
00:42:01 --> 00:42:05
			textiles, look at the colors. Look
at the patterns, the the way that
		
00:42:05 --> 00:42:09
			he's these are all from him,
right? We understand. I mean, if
		
00:42:09 --> 00:42:13
			anyone is anyone colorblind here,
I have, I know people who are
		
00:42:13 --> 00:42:17
			colorblind, and I'm always like,
subhanAllah, that they can't see
		
00:42:17 --> 00:42:22
			certain colors. But for those of
us who have, you know, average or
		
00:42:22 --> 00:42:27
			regular sight, we can perceive an
array of different colors that a
		
00:42:27 --> 00:42:31
			lot of people can't, or people who
can, you know, who have
		
00:42:31 --> 00:42:34
			sensitivities, maybe to certain
fabrics, just think of like, the
		
00:42:34 --> 00:42:39
			range, right? The the variety,
that Allah Subhana Allah has given
		
00:42:39 --> 00:42:43
			us as human beings to be able to
appreciate you know, these things.
		
00:42:43 --> 00:42:47
			But he's he's the one who's given
us that why to conceal our private
		
00:42:47 --> 00:42:52
			parts. So this is the crux of it.
This is it. He's given us these
		
00:42:52 --> 00:42:56
			means, so that we can dress
modestly, because in the absence
		
00:42:56 --> 00:43:00
			of modesty, what do you have, you
have a lot of problems look around
		
00:43:00 --> 00:43:04
			you, it's evident when you don't
behave and dress modestly. You get
		
00:43:04 --> 00:43:08
			a lot of, you know, social
societal problems that come out of
		
00:43:08 --> 00:43:11
			that. So of course, he knows us
better than we know ourselves. So
		
00:43:11 --> 00:43:14
			he's told us, tells us that he's
bestowed upon us clothing to
		
00:43:14 --> 00:43:18
			conceal and as an adornment, so
this is where the permission comes
		
00:43:18 --> 00:43:23
			from the we are allowed to and,
you know, the FCA many of them if
		
00:43:23 --> 00:43:27
			I sit in agree that this explains
the permissibility for us to
		
00:43:27 --> 00:43:31
			beautify ourselves in our
clothing. As long as we are
		
00:43:31 --> 00:43:36
			abiding by the rules, we're not
dressed again, in too tight
		
00:43:36 --> 00:43:38
			revealing clothing, we're not
showing our nakedness because
		
00:43:38 --> 00:43:42
			nakedness isn't just skin shape.
You know, when you see these
		
00:43:42 --> 00:43:44
			women, you know, May Allah guide
them, they they're just under the
		
00:43:44 --> 00:43:47
			spell of, of the beauty or
whatever fashion industry of this
		
00:43:47 --> 00:43:52
			society. But when they're wearing
yoga pants, you have to realize
		
00:43:52 --> 00:43:57
			that that is a very toxic message
to send to women to go out. And in
		
00:43:57 --> 00:44:02
			the name of comfort and ease and
convenience, walk around naked
		
00:44:02 --> 00:44:06
			because they are that is a naked
woman who's dressed like that. So
		
00:44:06 --> 00:44:09
			please, I mean, if you weren't
dressed like that, surely you
		
00:44:09 --> 00:44:12
			should not to dress like that,
because it is nakedness in our
		
00:44:12 --> 00:44:16
			Sharia that is a version of
nakedness. It's not just about
		
00:44:16 --> 00:44:19
			showing skin, because you're
showing your shape. And if someone
		
00:44:19 --> 00:44:22
			can look at you and see the
outline of every single curvature,
		
00:44:22 --> 00:44:26
			that is nakedness, right? So this
is a message that young girls now
		
00:44:26 --> 00:44:30
			not even women, young girls, you
have young elementary school
		
00:44:30 --> 00:44:34
			girls, they make brands for these
girls that are encouraging them,
		
00:44:34 --> 00:44:38
			conditioning them to start to
dress in this way, so that by the
		
00:44:38 --> 00:44:42
			time they develop, and they have
you know that they look like women
		
00:44:42 --> 00:44:45
			that they have already acclimated
to wearing either very short
		
00:44:45 --> 00:44:46
			shorts, right? How many
		
00:44:47 --> 00:44:52
			stores do you remember the phase
of of the short shorts? Right? I'm
		
00:44:52 --> 00:44:55
			sure they're still there, but how
many stores catering to young
		
00:44:55 --> 00:44:59
			children did we see with those
types of clothing, it's horrible.
		
00:45:00 --> 00:45:03
			To start to exploit young
children, especially girls, and
		
00:45:03 --> 00:45:06
			you'll see there's many people
have written blogs about this. But
		
00:45:07 --> 00:45:11
			finding modest clothing for girls
is almost impossible. Because
		
00:45:11 --> 00:45:15
			there's always they target them so
early. So we have to question
		
00:45:15 --> 00:45:18
			these things. Why? Why do we live
in a society that reduces women to
		
00:45:18 --> 00:45:24
			just focusing on basically giving
and show shit giving our bodies to
		
00:45:24 --> 00:45:27
			for the pleasure or for the
exploitation of other people? Or
		
00:45:27 --> 00:45:30
			for whatever? Why? And why? Why
does Allah Subhana Allah tell us
		
00:45:30 --> 00:45:33
			to do the opposite? Because who
has our interests in mind? Do you
		
00:45:33 --> 00:45:35
			think the society has your
interests in mind? Do you think
		
00:45:35 --> 00:45:38
			they care about you, as an
individual, you're just a
		
00:45:38 --> 00:45:41
			consumer, all they care about is
your money, they don't care about
		
00:45:41 --> 00:45:45
			your safety, they don't care that
someone could attack you. And you
		
00:45:45 --> 00:45:48
			know, that's not victim shaming or
blaming. That's reality, people
		
00:45:48 --> 00:45:53
			target women who dress a certain
way. So they don't care that you
		
00:45:53 --> 00:45:57
			know, that. They want you to just,
you know, make them walk around,
		
00:45:57 --> 00:46:01
			like walking billboards for their
brands, so that other people buy
		
00:46:01 --> 00:46:04
			their brand and make them rich.
Whereas the last panel tells us
		
00:46:04 --> 00:46:09
			dress modestly, cover yourself,
because if you don't you give up
		
00:46:09 --> 00:46:14
			agency you give up, right, your
protection that this will help you
		
00:46:14 --> 00:46:18
			and not to say that Muslim women
are never attacked. Yes, I mean,
		
00:46:18 --> 00:46:21
			we see this horrible crisis that's
happening in places like India and
		
00:46:21 --> 00:46:25
			others where women are fighting
for their right to wear hijab,
		
00:46:25 --> 00:46:28
			they are being pulled, the hijab
has been pulled off of them. So
		
00:46:28 --> 00:46:32
			there are Muslim women who are
attacked as well. But what this
		
00:46:32 --> 00:46:38
			does for us is it gives us control
right, of what we want to share
		
00:46:38 --> 00:46:41
			with other people. And that's why
almost, that calls us to it. But
		
00:46:41 --> 00:46:43
			we are, of course, allowed to
beautify it, right? And then Allah
		
00:46:43 --> 00:46:48
			says, So He gives us this
instruction. And then he finalizes
		
00:46:48 --> 00:46:53
			the message by saying, the
clothing of righteousness that is
		
00:46:53 --> 00:46:58
			best. So what is that telling us?
That as much as hijab is always
		
00:46:58 --> 00:47:02
			the central focus of almost every
talk around women. Right, which I
		
00:47:02 --> 00:47:05
			mean, today is obviously fitting
because we're celebrating World
		
00:47:05 --> 00:47:08
			Hijab Day. But usually, whenever
you hear a talk on women, Muslim
		
00:47:08 --> 00:47:12
			women, it's always like the Jab,
Jab, Jab, Right? Of course, hijab
		
00:47:12 --> 00:47:15
			is essential. It's fun, but
nobody's gonna dispute that. But
		
00:47:15 --> 00:47:20
			it is not. It is not the the
defining quality of a Muslim woman
		
00:47:20 --> 00:47:24
			character is. And that's what we
have to understand that Allah is
		
00:47:24 --> 00:47:28
			reminding us here in this verse,
right? Clothing of righteousness.
		
00:47:28 --> 00:47:31
			So what does it mean to have
clothing of righteousness? This is
		
00:47:31 --> 00:47:35
			where your character matters? Are
you a good person? Right? Do you
		
00:47:35 --> 00:47:40
			understand that as a, as a
creator, as just a human, not just
		
00:47:40 --> 00:47:44
			a woman? Because, of course,
modesty and good character. And
		
00:47:44 --> 00:47:46
			all these virtues apply to both
men and women. But do you
		
00:47:46 --> 00:47:51
			understand that aside from your
outward external display, that
		
00:47:51 --> 00:47:55
			what matters most to Allah?
subhanaw taala is your core who
		
00:47:55 --> 00:47:58
			you are as a human, how you treat
people, you know whether or not
		
00:47:58 --> 00:48:03
			you are kind and generous, and
you're adaptable, you're flexible?
		
00:48:03 --> 00:48:07
			Are you harsh? Are you cruel? Are
you judgmental? So if we are
		
00:48:07 --> 00:48:11
			outwardly looking the right way,
because we wear a hijab, but
		
00:48:11 --> 00:48:14
			internally, we have all these
diseases in our heart.
		
00:48:15 --> 00:48:18
			Does that mean anything? Are we
you know, what does that mean? It
		
00:48:18 --> 00:48:22
			means we've completely missed the
message. The message is not hyper
		
00:48:22 --> 00:48:26
			focus on the outward, and then
judge every woman according to how
		
00:48:26 --> 00:48:28
			she looks externally. That's what
these people do. Let them do that.
		
00:48:29 --> 00:48:32
			Allah tells us simply these are
the rules. But the more important
		
00:48:32 --> 00:48:34
			thing is develop your character,
get rid of the diseases of your
		
00:48:34 --> 00:48:38
			heart, be a good person follow the
prophetic example. And constantly,
		
00:48:39 --> 00:48:42
			right is that like, question
yourself, but more focused on
		
00:48:42 --> 00:48:48
			yourself. And this is really the
essence of what hijab is. But the
		
00:48:48 --> 00:48:54
			the beauty of why, again, the
external matching the internal is
		
00:48:54 --> 00:48:59
			essential, is that it's such an I
had this realization Subhanallah
		
00:49:00 --> 00:49:02
			you know, when I, when I started
wearing hijab,
		
00:49:03 --> 00:49:08
			that because I wear hijab, it's
actually facilitating my journey.
		
00:49:09 --> 00:49:14
			And what I mean by that is, when I
wasn't wearing hijab, I got away
		
00:49:14 --> 00:49:18
			with a lot, because no one knew
that I was Muslim, right? So I
		
00:49:18 --> 00:49:21
			could like I used to, you know,
I'm not proud of it, but I used to
		
00:49:21 --> 00:49:22
			curse.
		
00:49:23 --> 00:49:27
			Like, I used to say bad words when
I was in high school, especially
		
00:49:27 --> 00:49:29
			because everybody did it. I didn't
know.
		
00:49:30 --> 00:49:36
			So when I did that, nobody was
making me accountable because Hey,
		
00:49:36 --> 00:49:39
			aren't you muslim? Like should not
be cursing, right? Because I
		
00:49:39 --> 00:49:43
			didn't openly tell people I was
Muslim. They may have known they
		
00:49:43 --> 00:49:47
			may have not, but it didn't even
matter. But when you wear hijab,
		
00:49:48 --> 00:49:49
			can you get away with that?
		
00:49:50 --> 00:49:55
			Right? Someone's gonna look at you
sideways, like, wow, you know?
		
00:49:56 --> 00:49:59
			And think of that in terms of your
goals.
		
00:50:00 --> 00:50:03
			If your goal is to start checking
yourself to be better and to hold
		
00:50:03 --> 00:50:08
			yourself accountable, isn't that a
huge favor, that God is actually
		
00:50:08 --> 00:50:12
			making other people a witness to
you so that you stop yourself from
		
00:50:12 --> 00:50:16
			being bad? Like what a great
favor, right? And I realized, like
		
00:50:16 --> 00:50:21
			Subhanallah, that's a huge
blessing of the hijab that I think
		
00:50:21 --> 00:50:24
			is lost on a lot of people who
wear hijab, that by wearing hijab,
		
00:50:25 --> 00:50:29
			we police ourselves better.
Because I'm like, you know, I used
		
00:50:29 --> 00:50:33
			to do this, again, I'm not proud
when I drove as a, you know, young
		
00:50:33 --> 00:50:37
			teenager with my license, I
couldn't care less about cutting
		
00:50:37 --> 00:50:41
			people off, I would, you know,
zoom past them, I'd flip them off,
		
00:50:41 --> 00:50:44
			if they bothered me, I didn't
care. Because I didn't have
		
00:50:44 --> 00:50:47
			anything to hold myself
accountable to or they couldn't
		
00:50:47 --> 00:50:51
			sit there and make me feel bad. I
was just a stranger. But guess
		
00:50:51 --> 00:50:56
			what the responsibility, right of
like, oh, this is gonna reflect
		
00:50:56 --> 00:51:00
			really poorly on Islam and
Muslims. And it's shameful. And
		
00:51:00 --> 00:51:04
			how confusing Am I I'm supposed to
be this pious person. Because, you
		
00:51:04 --> 00:51:07
			know, why else would I be wearing
this, and then I go in, I cut
		
00:51:07 --> 00:51:10
			people off, and I curse them and
I, you know, do things that are
		
00:51:10 --> 00:51:14
			reprehensible, it doesn't match.
So this is where aligning the two
		
00:51:14 --> 00:51:18
			makes perfect sense. And that's
one of the natural, just gifts
		
00:51:18 --> 00:51:22
			that come from wearing hijab is
that you become more aware of
		
00:51:22 --> 00:51:27
			yourself and it's not, you know,
it's, it's, it's to facilitate
		
00:51:27 --> 00:51:31
			your path to Allah. Because why.
And this comes from again,
		
00:51:31 --> 00:51:35
			studying the human beings studying
the nature of the human being, it
		
00:51:35 --> 00:51:40
			is essential that we know that
Allah subhanaw taala, created us
		
00:51:40 --> 00:51:45
			as triune. Okay, what does that
mean? We have three different
		
00:51:45 --> 00:51:50
			aspects of our creation, all of
them, we have to understand them,
		
00:51:50 --> 00:51:54
			we have the intellect, right, the
reasoning, the ability to perceive
		
00:51:54 --> 00:51:58
			the ability to know, to all of the
faculties that we have that fall
		
00:51:58 --> 00:52:03
			under that right, then we have
emotions, right? The emotions that
		
00:52:03 --> 00:52:09
			are forces, they compel us, right?
So when you're angry, how are you
		
00:52:09 --> 00:52:12
			when you're happy? How are you
when you're sad? How are you? We
		
00:52:12 --> 00:52:15
			likely look very different in all
of those three states, right?
		
00:52:15 --> 00:52:19
			Because emotions are forces and
are very powerful. And then we
		
00:52:19 --> 00:52:25
			have appetites, appetites that can
control us. Right? So this is
		
00:52:25 --> 00:52:28
			where the three, you know,
different distinct aspects. And so
		
00:52:28 --> 00:52:32
			I'm gonna have Sally and others,
they have analogies. So for the
		
00:52:32 --> 00:52:35
			intellect, it's like a man, you
know, or a human. You think of
		
00:52:35 --> 00:52:39
			like a person, a little person
guiding you, right? They're
		
00:52:39 --> 00:52:43
			driving the ship, hopefully. Then
you for emotions, they have the
		
00:52:43 --> 00:52:48
			analogy of a dog, right? A guard
dog? Because if you have control
		
00:52:48 --> 00:52:52
			of a dog, or a guard, dog, anybody
a dog owner here, maybe
		
00:52:54 --> 00:52:58
			not one. Oh, my gosh, I'll get
nice. I mean, I love animals. So
		
00:52:58 --> 00:53:02
			I'm like, what not even good. Dogs
are amazing, right? Especially, I
		
00:53:02 --> 00:53:06
			mean, they're man's best friend.
But when you train a dog, they are
		
00:53:06 --> 00:53:09
			so loyal to you. And they're very
useful to you. So like a hunting
		
00:53:09 --> 00:53:12
			dog or a guard dog. When you
dispatch them, you give them a
		
00:53:12 --> 00:53:15
			signal, you give them a command,
boom, they do it, and they come
		
00:53:15 --> 00:53:19
			back, you're in control, right? So
that's what emotions do they serve
		
00:53:19 --> 00:53:23
			you the way that a dog a guard dog
does, then appetites, the analogy
		
00:53:23 --> 00:53:29
			is a pig. Think about that. So all
of us, have the intellect have
		
00:53:29 --> 00:53:33
			this dog that needs to be trained,
and dispatched when useful,
		
00:53:33 --> 00:53:37
			because emotions are useful when
they're trained. And then you have
		
00:53:37 --> 00:53:41
			appetites, that have to be
governed that have to be under the
		
00:53:41 --> 00:53:46
			command of who, who should. The
emotions and the appetites be
		
00:53:46 --> 00:53:49
			under the command of the
intellect, right? So this is
		
00:53:49 --> 00:53:54
			where, you know, understanding
these aspects of our creation will
		
00:53:54 --> 00:53:58
			help us to see that we are weak,
right? That we are weak to our
		
00:53:58 --> 00:54:02
			appetites were weak to our
emotions. But if we think of our
		
00:54:02 --> 00:54:06
			if we use our reasoning skills, we
can navigate this complex world.
		
00:54:06 --> 00:54:09
			And that's why hijab isn't
something that we should be
		
00:54:09 --> 00:54:12
			politicized. It isn't something
that should be an emotional thing.
		
00:54:13 --> 00:54:16
			It isn't something that you know,
it should be something that you
		
00:54:16 --> 00:54:20
			really think through and start to
reason and understand things like
		
00:54:20 --> 00:54:24
			this is there's a reason why Allah
made this a requirement for us.
		
00:54:24 --> 00:54:27
			And it starts to make sense,
logical sense when you look out
		
00:54:27 --> 00:54:31
			into the world. And you see the
way that women are treated. And
		
00:54:31 --> 00:54:35
			I'll tell you, the very first day
I wore hijab was again, life
		
00:54:35 --> 00:54:38
			changing. And I know I'm probably
going over saw, Oh, can I get a
		
00:54:38 --> 00:54:41
			time check? Just so I know. So I
don't go over, like two minutes.
		
00:54:41 --> 00:54:47
			Okay. The very first day, I wear
hijab, one of the most, like eye
		
00:54:47 --> 00:54:51
			opening things for me, and this
was really when it was like whoa,
		
00:54:51 --> 00:54:55
			was the way I was treated by men.
And what I mean by that is prior
		
00:54:55 --> 00:54:57
			to that, like I said, you know, I
used to wear like, you know, just
		
00:54:57 --> 00:54:59
			open neck lines and so at that
		
00:55:00 --> 00:55:03
			Hi, um, I just always had, you
know, this negative energy around
		
00:55:03 --> 00:55:07
			just men and I felt like very, I
just, I would never was
		
00:55:07 --> 00:55:11
			comfortable around them because
they had nothing to stop them, you
		
00:55:11 --> 00:55:14
			know, they that was very normal in
a society to look at women in a
		
00:55:14 --> 00:55:16
			weird way or treat them
differently or whatever. So I
		
00:55:16 --> 00:55:20
			always was uncomfortable by that.
But so I had a lot wear hijab, and
		
00:55:20 --> 00:55:23
			our very first day, I'm like, What
is this? Men are opening doors for
		
00:55:23 --> 00:55:28
			me, ma'am, excuse me, I'm like,
Never in all my years have I
		
00:55:28 --> 00:55:33
			experienced that level of instant
respect. And I said, Subhan Allah,
		
00:55:33 --> 00:55:37
			Allah knows what we need. And I
felt so much more comfortable, so
		
00:55:37 --> 00:55:40
			much more comfortable to be around
in those spaces, shared spaces, I
		
00:55:40 --> 00:55:44
			could talk to, you know, men at
that point not feel weird, because
		
00:55:44 --> 00:55:49
			they had a signal a very clear
sign for me, that you need to take
		
00:55:49 --> 00:55:52
			me seriously. You know, I'm not
letting you have access to
		
00:55:52 --> 00:55:56
			anything anymore. Except for this,
right? You just this. And that was
		
00:55:56 --> 00:55:59
			a signal that I was giving. And
they and hamdulillah understood.
		
00:56:00 --> 00:56:02
			And that's been the case. I mean,
I've been wearing like I said,
		
00:56:02 --> 00:56:06
			close to 30 years on him that I
was sugar Allah, I love the hijab,
		
00:56:06 --> 00:56:11
			I pray to Allah subhanaw taala
that all of us come to love the
		
00:56:11 --> 00:56:14
			hijab. And if you're struggling
with it, know that that's common,
		
00:56:14 --> 00:56:18
			but there's likely emotional
things that are going on
		
00:56:18 --> 00:56:21
			internally with you. You know,
maybe you just you just need to
		
00:56:21 --> 00:56:24
			really pace yourself. Maybe you
were rushed into it. humanize
		
00:56:24 --> 00:56:28
			yourself but call on Allah, call
on Him, turn to Him, ask Him for
		
00:56:28 --> 00:56:32
			strength. And know that if you
really understand the wisdom, of
		
00:56:32 --> 00:56:35
			why we wear it, than you realize
why there's so much cause to
		
00:56:35 --> 00:56:39
			celebrate it in sha Allah, may
Allah increase us all, protect us
		
00:56:39 --> 00:56:42
			all, just like a little kitten for
your time. I apologize if I went
		
00:56:42 --> 00:56:46
			over, but hamdulillah Thank you.
So I'm on the way here but to get
		
00:56:46 --> 00:56:46
			to
		
00:56:52 --> 00:56:55
			I'm Sheila, we're so blessed to
have speakers like this does FSI
		
00:56:55 --> 00:56:58
			like she mentioned you know, when
we were younger, we didn't have
		
00:56:58 --> 00:57:02
			this kind of support. So we're so
blessed and we're so thankful to
		
00:57:02 --> 00:57:06
			have our female scholars helping
us here and inspiring us.
		
00:57:06 --> 00:57:11
			Mashallah. Powerful reminders. So
important to self reflect? Like
		
00:57:11 --> 00:57:15
			she said, Inshallah, we'll go into
the question answer session. We
		
00:57:15 --> 00:57:17
			have some questions here. We can
also if you want to raise your
		
00:57:17 --> 00:57:22
			hand, we can call on you, insha
Allah. We have many of the
		
00:57:22 --> 00:57:27
			questions asked, were kind of
covered in the talk. But I do have
		
00:57:27 --> 00:57:28
			a question here.
		
00:57:29 --> 00:57:33
			What is a good age to start
wearing hijab? Mashallah,
		
00:57:34 --> 00:57:36
			first of all, I'm sorry, I totally
turned everything off. I don't
		
00:57:36 --> 00:57:40
			know why I forgot about the q&a
session. The good time to start
		
00:57:40 --> 00:57:43
			the hijab. It's such a subjective
thing. As I said, from the very
		
00:57:43 --> 00:57:47
			beginning, this is a personal
journey. So we can give you the
		
00:57:48 --> 00:57:52
			answer and say, as soon as a girl
becomes bilevel, and she's, you
		
00:57:52 --> 00:57:54
			know, reached age of puberty, this
would be certainly the time to
		
00:57:54 --> 00:57:58
			begin. But I think it's much
better. I mean, I don't have
		
00:57:58 --> 00:58:02
			daughters, but I have many nieces.
And I have friends who have
		
00:58:02 --> 00:58:06
			daughters. And I feel that you
have to plant those seeds early
		
00:58:06 --> 00:58:10
			before you just expect it. Because
I actually have seen that
		
00:58:10 --> 00:58:13
			backfire. When it's like, oh, no,
you're you know, you're getting
		
00:58:13 --> 00:58:16
			your period next year, wear the
hijab right now, I think that
		
00:58:16 --> 00:58:20
			message is a little too strong for
our young girls, they need to be
		
00:58:20 --> 00:58:23
			prepared well in advance. So if
you wear the hijab, and you wear
		
00:58:23 --> 00:58:27
			it with pride, then naturally what
should happen is your daughter
		
00:58:27 --> 00:58:30
			should want to wear it because she
wants to be like Mommy, and she
		
00:58:30 --> 00:58:34
			sees the pride you have, it's a
crown, you're wearing it with real
		
00:58:34 --> 00:58:39
			strength, and she's just modeling
after you. And so for many people,
		
00:58:39 --> 00:58:43
			that's the natural course. But if
you feel like you're struggling,
		
00:58:43 --> 00:58:46
			and your daughter just doesn't
want to wear it, please do not
		
00:58:46 --> 00:58:50
			force your daughter, please,
please, please remember, she has
		
00:58:50 --> 00:58:54
			her own journey to Allah subhanaw
taala. And what your job is to do
		
00:58:54 --> 00:58:59
			is to guide her through her,
whatever issues that are going on
		
00:58:59 --> 00:59:02
			for her. So maybe there's pressure
in her friends group, maybe at
		
00:59:02 --> 00:59:05
			school, she goes to a public
school or a place where there
		
00:59:05 --> 00:59:07
			aren't many other Muslims and she
doesn't want to be singled out.
		
00:59:07 --> 00:59:10
			Maybe there are other internal
things that have happened that you
		
00:59:10 --> 00:59:15
			don't know about. But I would
spend much more time building her
		
00:59:15 --> 00:59:20
			up and reminding her that her
relationship with Allah, even if
		
00:59:20 --> 00:59:22
			she doesn't wear hijab is
something she should develop.
		
00:59:22 --> 00:59:26
			Right? That it's not just oh, if
you you know, you wear hijab, and
		
00:59:26 --> 00:59:30
			that's the only you know, way that
you could find Allah No, let's
		
00:59:30 --> 00:59:33
			work on your prayer. Let's give
you good company and Sahaba let's
		
00:59:33 --> 00:59:36
			bring you around spaces like this
where you see other strong Muslim
		
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			woman, those things if you do them
then gradually in sha Allah when
		
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			she's ready, and her time, but if
in Allah Allah subhanaw taala will
		
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			open the door for her to embrace
the hijab. But if you make it an
		
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			either or situation, it's going to
backfire. Please do not do that.
		
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			Just like
		
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			our next question
		
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			shun is when you receive hate,
because of your hijab, or someone
		
01:00:04 --> 01:00:09
			from your family is pushing you to
not wear hijab. How do you respond
		
01:00:09 --> 01:00:13
			motional love this is also a very
just unfortunate,
		
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			tragic reality of our time that
people are, whether it's external,
		
01:00:19 --> 01:00:22
			outside of their community or
within their own family systems
		
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			experiencing those things. But I
think, you know, it depends
		
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			because obviously sama phobia is
real. And if you're living in an
		
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			area or region where you feel like
there's hostility towards you, you
		
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			have fully the right to safeguard
yourself. So you can you know, if
		
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			it's a working environment, for
example, you feel like there's
		
01:00:41 --> 01:00:44
			negative energy there or in a
schooling environment, I would
		
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			absolutely speak up to anybody
who's in a place of authority and
		
01:00:47 --> 01:00:51
			tell them what you feel, if you
have neighbors, who you feel
		
01:00:51 --> 01:00:55
			hostility towards, I would
absolutely try to, you know, have
		
01:00:55 --> 01:00:57
			dialogue. But if they're shutting
dialogue down, and you feel like
		
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			they really have a lot of hatred
and animus towards you, then
		
01:01:00 --> 01:01:03
			certainly file a police report.
Because, you know, there are
		
01:01:03 --> 01:01:07
			unfortunate situations that have
happened in the past where people
		
01:01:07 --> 01:01:10
			because of their, you know,
goodwill and just thinking, Oh,
		
01:01:10 --> 01:01:14
			maybe this person will get over
it, they've unfortunately, been
		
01:01:14 --> 01:01:17
			harmed. So we want to always
safeguard ourselves with whatever
		
01:01:17 --> 01:01:20
			means we can, dialogue is
important. But if it's not
		
01:01:20 --> 01:01:22
			possible, then go to the point,
people have authority. Now in
		
01:01:22 --> 01:01:26
			family systems, you need allies.
So if you feel that there is a
		
01:01:26 --> 01:01:30
			person who's targeting you, don't
put yourself you know, in harm's
		
01:01:30 --> 01:01:35
			way, because if it's a parental
figure or someone, adults that you
		
01:01:35 --> 01:01:38
			feel like, okay, they're really
being harsh. You need to find
		
01:01:38 --> 01:01:42
			other people in the community,
maybe an extended family, you
		
01:01:42 --> 01:01:45
			might have grandparents or aunts
and uncles or people that you can
		
01:01:45 --> 01:01:49
			turn to as allies for you to say,
Hey, can you please speak to mama
		
01:01:49 --> 01:01:53
			or Baba or uncle or grandma, or
whoever the person is? And tell
		
01:01:53 --> 01:01:57
			them that they need to back off?
Because that's not acceptable? And
		
01:01:57 --> 01:02:00
			you should never feel like, well,
uh, well, there's no point it's
		
01:02:00 --> 01:02:04
			your mom, it's your dad. No,
there's always some way recourse.
		
01:02:04 --> 01:02:07
			Inshallah, I'll open that for you.
It could be in your family, it
		
01:02:07 --> 01:02:10
			might be outside of your family,
maybe you need to contact you
		
01:02:10 --> 01:02:13
			know, the local imam or chef or
some other person who has a
		
01:02:13 --> 01:02:16
			position in the community that can
also talk to your family member
		
01:02:16 --> 01:02:20
			and give them the see her to say,
Listen, you need to stop this is
		
01:02:20 --> 01:02:24
			unacceptable. And sometimes the
threat of people knowing about
		
01:02:24 --> 01:02:28
			these things is enough to shut it
down. Right? Like I will expose
		
01:02:28 --> 01:02:33
			this behavior to someone else. If
you don't stop that could do it.
		
01:02:33 --> 01:02:37
			Because oppressive people and
people who abuse their positions
		
01:02:37 --> 01:02:40
			of authority get away sometimes
because they think no one's ever
		
01:02:40 --> 01:02:43
			going to find out. So silence is
not the answer. But ultimately
		
01:02:43 --> 01:02:47
			safeguarding yourself making sure
that you're really choosing the
		
01:02:47 --> 01:02:51
			right course for your particular
situation is important. So turn to
		
01:02:51 --> 01:02:54
			someone that you can ask them to
see her from first before you go,
		
01:02:54 --> 01:02:58
			you know, you act, always
sickness, you had to say, Listen,
		
01:02:58 --> 01:03:02
			this person or that person is
being harmful or hateful towards
		
01:03:02 --> 01:03:05
			me about my hijab? What do you
recommend and see if there's
		
01:03:05 --> 01:03:09
			someone that you that you can turn
to who can give you good counsel
		
01:03:09 --> 01:03:12
			about your specific situation?
Because giving general answers
		
01:03:12 --> 01:03:16
			like this is hard, right? Unless
you know more than we can get more
		
01:03:16 --> 01:03:19
			into the specifics, but always
seek goodness, hi, inshallah. And
		
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			may Allah make it easy for you,
but safeguard yourself.
		
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			Our final question, and then we'll
turn it over to the floor, if
		
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			anyone has a question is how do
you respond when someone asks, Why
		
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			do you wear that? Very good. As
well, in my years, you know, you
		
01:03:37 --> 01:03:39
			get different answers all the
time. But I think you know, the
		
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			best thing to do. And this is
something that I've actually
		
01:03:42 --> 01:03:45
			really appreciated about this
generation that like the Gen Z's
		
01:03:45 --> 01:03:48
			and the Gen Xers millennials, that
you're unapologetic about a lot of
		
01:03:48 --> 01:03:53
			things. And I actually admire that
because as a Gen X er, we had to
		
01:03:53 --> 01:03:55
			kind of we were forced to, in a
way be apologetic Muslims, because
		
01:03:55 --> 01:03:59
			911 happened. And everybody kept
turning to us and expecting
		
01:03:59 --> 01:04:02
			answers to everything right. So I
was like, sorry, sorry, sorry, but
		
01:04:02 --> 01:04:05
			I actually don't think you need to
explain to anybody anything and
		
01:04:05 --> 01:04:09
			just say because I want to,
because God tells me to and keep
		
01:04:09 --> 01:04:12
			it at that you don't need to go
into long winded explanations.
		
01:04:12 --> 01:04:15
			Because when people ask you
questions like that they're trying
		
01:04:15 --> 01:04:19
			to, you know, put you in a
position right of weakness, like
		
01:04:19 --> 01:04:22
			it's a it's a power play. Don't
give in to people who do power
		
01:04:22 --> 01:04:26
			plays because people have respect
would never come to you and put
		
01:04:26 --> 01:04:29
			you in that position. Usually it's
a rhetorical question and
		
01:04:29 --> 01:04:32
			rhetorical questions framed that
way or coming from a place I mean,
		
01:04:32 --> 01:04:34
			again, you have to pick up the
tone if someone's like, why do you
		
01:04:34 --> 01:04:38
			wear that? Obviously, it's obvious
right? If someone's really curious
		
01:04:38 --> 01:04:42
			and says Why do you wear that even
saying because it's a command of
		
01:04:42 --> 01:04:46
			God should be sufficient That's
it. I'm I'm a believer and this is
		
01:04:46 --> 01:04:46
			a command of God.
		
01:04:50 --> 01:04:53
			There you go, why not? Put it back
on them to answer the alternative?
		
01:04:53 --> 01:04:56
			Excellent. I love it. But this is
because the thing is, you know,
		
01:04:56 --> 01:04:59
			this is where learning what is the
motive behind that?
		
01:05:00 --> 01:05:03
			Question is important. And yes, we
shouldn't be suspicious. But if
		
01:05:03 --> 01:05:07
			you feel that that person is
genuine, sometimes we think we
		
01:05:07 --> 01:05:11
			have to over explain, and we have
to go into well, you know, because
		
01:05:11 --> 01:05:14
			a hijab does this, and then this
and that, and that's not you know,
		
01:05:14 --> 01:05:17
			it's kind of like fasting, like,
why do you fast? Well, it's really
		
01:05:17 --> 01:05:19
			good for you. And you know,
there's poor people, and we want
		
01:05:19 --> 01:05:23
			to, you know, it's like, yeah, you
can have all those additional
		
01:05:23 --> 01:05:28
			reasons. But the ultimate reason
why we do anything, is because
		
01:05:28 --> 01:05:33
			Allah commanded us to, and we are
believers. And to be honest, that
		
01:05:33 --> 01:05:35
			actually gets a lot of respect
from people, because they're like,
		
01:05:35 --> 01:05:40
			Wow, you are really sincere. You
don't it like, faith isn't lip
		
01:05:40 --> 01:05:44
			service for you, right? You're
just you're a person of real
		
01:05:44 --> 01:05:47
			seriousness with your faith, you
take it seriously. So it's
		
01:05:47 --> 01:05:51
			actually enough to end it there.
Right. Now, did you have
		
01:05:56 --> 01:05:57
			Mary, the mother of Jesus?
		
01:05:58 --> 01:06:04
			She had in her cover? Yes. This
command is for us. The Muslims?
		
01:06:05 --> 01:06:07
			Are all the people described
before us.
		
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			Before us, yes, Allahu Akbar. And
that's
		
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			me.
		
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			Absolutely. And that's a very good
way to also explain that this is
		
01:06:19 --> 01:06:25
			not a foreign act only exclusive
to Muslim women. Because, again,
		
01:06:25 --> 01:06:29
			modern society, when they don't
see other examples of hijab, they
		
01:06:29 --> 01:06:32
			think, Oh, these oppressed women
of Iran and Saudi Arabia and Oman,
		
01:06:32 --> 01:06:35
			Hassan who have no choice,
they're, there's a gun to their
		
01:06:35 --> 01:06:37
			head, they have to wear these
things, this is what they think.
		
01:06:38 --> 01:06:40
			But when you actually explain to
them that Did you know that in
		
01:06:40 --> 01:06:44
			other traditions, headcovering is
actually in the sacred text
		
01:06:44 --> 01:06:48
			message? I mean, sacred texts of,
you know, of, you know, the Bible
		
01:06:48 --> 01:06:52
			and Judaism and other religious
traditions that women even
		
01:06:52 --> 01:06:57
			nowadays, there's Orthodox Jews,
there's even look at what do they
		
01:06:57 --> 01:07:00
			think it's called? Mennonites,
right? Or Amish? Or other people
		
01:07:00 --> 01:07:05
			in other Christian, you know,
sects, they also were the
		
01:07:05 --> 01:07:08
			headcovering, then it becomes, Oh,
you're right. Oh, I didn't even
		
01:07:08 --> 01:07:11
			think about that. Okay. And you
start to realize that this is just
		
01:07:11 --> 01:07:15
			something that is, you know, it's
a devotional act.
		
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			Any questions from the floor?
		
01:07:22 --> 01:07:26
			All right, in sha Allah, then
after our we wrap this up, we'll
		
01:07:26 --> 01:07:30
			move into our age based
activities. So our leads, if we
		
01:07:30 --> 01:07:35
			can get you guys to go to the
rooms and set up. On a final note,
		
01:07:35 --> 01:07:40
			positive note, what do you say to
someone who is on the fence? They
		
01:07:40 --> 01:07:43
			want to do it? They feel it in
their heart, but they're nervous,
		
01:07:43 --> 01:07:46
			they're afraid? How are my friends
gonna tear my family going to
		
01:07:46 --> 01:07:50
			react? What advice do you have for
those people? Beautiful, Michelle,
		
01:07:50 --> 01:07:53
			just like you're looking at and,
you know, as I mentioned, we may
		
01:07:53 --> 01:07:57
			have people here who are in those
crossroads and kind of not sure.
		
01:07:57 --> 01:08:01
			It's part of, you know, life that
we're going to be faced with
		
01:08:01 --> 01:08:04
			choices and every situation,
right, we're always at a
		
01:08:04 --> 01:08:09
			crossroads of something. But when
it comes to what will propel you
		
01:08:09 --> 01:08:12
			or draw you closer to Allah
subhanaw taala, you have to kind
		
01:08:12 --> 01:08:16
			of, you know, start thinking that
that should the answer of that
		
01:08:16 --> 01:08:20
			choice should be pretty simple,
right? And hijab is one definite
		
01:08:20 --> 01:08:24
			way that we draw near to Allah
Subhana. Because any action where
		
01:08:24 --> 01:08:28
			we obey, Allah draws us closer to
him, right? But as I said, it
		
01:08:28 --> 01:08:31
			might be a matter of time for you
of when to do that. So you want
		
01:08:31 --> 01:08:36
			to, you know, pace yourself, but
just make a lot of dA. I'm always
		
01:08:36 --> 01:08:38
			telling people, like, if you're
really, really confused about
		
01:08:38 --> 01:08:42
			something, where's the istikhara?
Where's the tahajjud? Get up and
		
01:08:42 --> 01:08:47
			cry to Allah subhanaw taala really
show the sincerity of the crisis
		
01:08:47 --> 01:08:50
			you're in or the confusion you're
in. And watch what happens.
		
01:08:50 --> 01:08:54
			Because when you do that
sincerely, like you're confused,
		
01:08:54 --> 01:08:57
			Allah Subhan, Allah will start to
make things very easy for you.
		
01:08:57 --> 01:08:59
			He'll make it very obvious for
you. And all of a sudden, you'll
		
01:08:59 --> 01:09:03
			realize you know what, this is,
this just feels right. And also,
		
01:09:04 --> 01:09:06
			this is a follow up to that.
		
01:09:07 --> 01:09:09
			Don't look at hijab as something
you either have to wear
		
01:09:09 --> 01:09:14
			permanently or never wear at all.
Please don't do that. Because for
		
01:09:14 --> 01:09:19
			some people like prayer, it comes
incrementally. So some people
		
01:09:19 --> 01:09:22
			start praying like Fajr and Asia
and then they add on the hurrah
		
01:09:22 --> 01:09:27
			set, and some people do all five
at once, with the hijab, the best
		
01:09:27 --> 01:09:30
			thing to do and I actually learned
this from one of my closest
		
01:09:30 --> 01:09:33
			friends who for years, everybody
thought she was a hijabi. But she
		
01:09:33 --> 01:09:39
			wasn't. What she did is she wore
it most of the time, in places
		
01:09:39 --> 01:09:43
			where she felt very supported to
wear hijab. And she became a
		
01:09:43 --> 01:09:48
			hijabi you get it? Because as she
wore it more and more like to the
		
01:09:48 --> 01:09:52
			grocery store to Trader Joe's to,
you know, the gym to the doctor's
		
01:09:52 --> 01:09:56
			office, the identity of becoming a
hijab. He became one with her
		
01:09:56 --> 01:09:59
			identity, but she didn't have this
rule that said, Oh, I have to wear
		
01:10:00 --> 01:10:04
			it or I don't and I think that is
a very detrimental message that
		
01:10:04 --> 01:10:07
			women get because you would never
tell someone who's struggling with
		
01:10:07 --> 01:10:10
			their prayer. You can't pray any
of the prayers until you pray all
		
01:10:10 --> 01:10:15
			five would you do that? Of course
not. You would say pray make you
		
01:10:15 --> 01:10:18
			know make it the best effort
possible and inshallah in your
		
01:10:18 --> 01:10:22
			prayer and then the action of
doing your prayer consistently
		
01:10:22 --> 01:10:25
			Allah Subhana Allah will then
begin to facilitate for you and
		
01:10:25 --> 01:10:27
			next thing you know you'll be
praying all your prayers Same with
		
01:10:27 --> 01:10:32
			the jab so where it like to the
masjid where it to gatherings of
		
01:10:32 --> 01:10:35
			you know where you feel supported,
where it to places where you feel
		
01:10:35 --> 01:10:41
			safe where it in the car, if you
can just become infused with the
		
01:10:41 --> 01:10:45
			hijab so that one day you wear it
and you don't ever take it off
		
01:10:45 --> 01:10:47
			inshallah I mean eventually but
you know what I mean?
		
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			Vertical RPKI Allah, masha Allah
Baraka, Luffy Costanza, this has
		
01:10:54 --> 01:10:58
			been such an inspiration Masha,
Allah, we're so blessed to have
		
01:10:58 --> 01:11:00
			you in sha Allah, give it a second
		
01:11:03 --> 01:11:05
			hamdulillah The honor is mine.
Thank you again for organizing
		
01:11:05 --> 01:11:07
			this beautiful event. And just
like a little credit to all of you
		
01:11:07 --> 01:11:11
			for coming out. And support my
show was really been so beautiful
		
01:11:11 --> 01:11:15
			to just look at all of your faces
and all with the masks, but you
		
01:11:15 --> 01:11:19
			know, to see your hijabs and just
to see you here, so just to thank
		
01:11:19 --> 01:11:21
			you hamdulillah
		
01:11:25 --> 01:11:26
			Allahu Akbar
		
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			and to see Subhanallah all the
different age ranges and the
		
01:11:32 --> 01:11:35
			diversity and we're all here
together supporting one another,
		
01:11:35 --> 01:11:38
			celebrating one another,
especially in today's day and age,
		
01:11:38 --> 01:11:41
			the age of social media, like such
as I was saying, pulling us into
		
01:11:41 --> 01:11:45
			different directions and here
together we know ourselves we know
		
01:11:45 --> 01:11:48
			our identities and hamdulillah and
we're always here to support one
		
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			another in sha Allah. We