Abdur Rahman ibn Yusuf Mangera – Muhasibi’s Risalah Part 6 Sacrificing Hajj for Your Patient An Amazing Story

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			Bismillah al Rahman al Rahim Al
hamdu Lillahi wa Salatu was Salam
		
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			ala say you didn't want saline
water the early he was Safi about
		
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			a coastal limit the Sleeman
cathedral Ilario Medina Amma beret
		
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			and Omaha CB says was Starmie
lillahi, Aquila, kabhi, Turkey, VT
		
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			was Tammy Lilla he iClicker be
targeted. We were staring below
		
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			here Allah sorrowful makadi.
		
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			He says that, for the sake of
Allah subhanho wa Taala use your
		
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			uncle
		
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			by abandoning
		
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			too much planning.
		
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			Now it sounds I mean, what does
that mean? Right? So what that
		
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			means is, don't
		
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			rely
		
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			on
		
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			just the planning of your
intelligence
		
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			fully, do not fully and completely
just rely on what your intellect
		
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			says about something
		
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			that you think it's like this, or
you think this is how it's
		
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			supposed to be. Because Farrell,
actually who do don't
		
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			the intellect has a certain
jurisdiction beyond which it can't
		
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			go, you know, it has a certain
reach
		
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			you and the he Basa rule are clear
in
		
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			the sight of the intellect, the
vision of the intellect as such,
		
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			there is a limit at which it
stops, it cannot penetrate. Beyond
		
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			that. We're in nama Aliko ously
mooloolah he fitted bat he made up
		
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			the bill as viability America
beha. So
		
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			you have to fully submit to Allah
subhanaw taala
		
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			in his planning
		
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			with regards to his planning,
		
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			while adopting all the means that
you need, that He has commanded
		
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			you to do so.
		
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			So let's untangle that a bit. What
he's saying is that you have to
		
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			take whatever means that we have
to take in this world because this
		
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			world is in a boat of means and
hence we have to use us Bob as
		
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			much as possible wherever
possible.
		
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			But we have to be fully submitted
to Allah subhanaw taala in terms
		
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			of what he has actually planned,
		
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			in terms of what the result may
be, the consequences may be, I am
		
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			going to use all my efforts to try
to get this to happen, or to try
		
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			to attain this or acquire that.
But I must be fully submitted that
		
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			at the end of the day, Allah also
has a plan. And I've always got
		
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			that at the back of my mind. And
that is my insurance basically, in
		
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			the sense that if whatever I do,
I've put all my effort and we
		
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			should put all of our effort in
there completely and entirely. But
		
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			if something does go wrong, and it
doesn't materialize the way I
		
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			think it should do the way my my
uncle tells me that it should do,
		
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			then I know that that's because I
have to fully submit to Allah and
		
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			he has a grand plan in which this
particular way is not the best
		
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			way.
		
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			So somebody goes with his son or
his daughter for a proposal. And
		
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			his son or daughter has huge
potential huge qualifications, all
		
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			the qualities that he thinks
somebody would snap up instantly.
		
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			It's a deal. Why not? But then he
gets rejected.
		
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			said we'll tell you, we'll We'll
think about it. So as soon as they
		
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			say we'll think about it he
expected like yes, yes, yes,
		
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			definitely when you want to do the
vetting? straightaway, you know,
		
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			because you think it's such a good
deal. You don't want it to go, he
		
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			expects them to react like that.
They say, Okay, well think about
		
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			it, I immediately that dampens
your entire, you know, ambition,
		
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			and your your thoughts and dashes
your wishes. And then after a
		
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			week, they still don't respond to
you. And that makes it even worse,
		
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			because sometimes, you know,
waiting is worse than death.
		
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			And then eventually you have to
ask them. Okay, so what do you
		
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			think you It humbles you to do
that? It makes you humble, you
		
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			know, it forces you to be humbled.
		
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			And of course, you've gone to them
because of the idea that they are
		
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			a suitable match and you want them
as much as you think they want you
		
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			but in your mind, you think that
you have more value than they have
		
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			to offer?
		
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			So eventually, when you contact
them, and they say no, we
		
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			discussed it, but there's this
issue and that issue. Now what
		
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			so if we do understand at the back
of it that Allah subhanaw taala
		
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			has a grand plan and this
particular method did not feature
		
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			well inside there. And that's why
it didn't happen, then would you
		
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			feel bad about it, you won't feel
too bad about it. You think are
		
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			hamdulillah then Allah will give
me something better. When you
		
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			start doing that, then you start
relying on Allah
		
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			100 watada more. But if you didn't
have Allah subhanho wa Taala
		
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			featured in this in any way
whatsoever, then you will feel
		
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			extremely lost, dejected.
		
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			So meta forward will Amara la he
SubhanaHu wa Kiba, tema, UCAT, the
		
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			Rue La caminata in our Herrmann
exactly what I said,
		
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			then after that, you know, once
you've done the ASVAB, and you've
		
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			submitted to Allah as well, then
some are tougher with all umbra,
		
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			then you consign your message to
Allah subhanaw taala, in terms of
		
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			the consequence of what he will
have planned for you, or what He
		
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			has planned for you,
		
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			in either giving you that or in
depriving you of that, I thought,
		
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			oh, Herrmann is one of those two.
		
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			For in who, why, why should we
think this for inner who are
		
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			hameau becoming sick, because
Allah subhanaw taala is actually
		
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			more merciful to you, than your
own self to yourself.
		
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			That takes a while for us to
understand if we've, you have to
		
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			really be selfless, and really
have a lot of reliance on Allah to
		
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			be able to think that way. How can
Allah be more merciful to me, than
		
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			me for myself?
		
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			You know, generally we think that
we are the greatest well wishes
		
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			for ourselves.
		
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			But we realize that we're not,
when you start thinking about it,
		
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			we actually realize we're not
because what happens is, we
		
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			realize that when we commit a sin
become overpowered that by our
		
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			shower and desire, and we then
realize that the that is actually
		
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			blasphemy, that is actually
disobedience, then, where we
		
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			really good for ourselves, we
indulge ourselves, it's like the,
		
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			the parents who are feeding their
children in parties or giving them
		
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			bits of wine and, you know, the
young teenagers, right? Or they're
		
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			letting you know, maybe maybe
they're in to drugs or something.
		
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			And they're allowing their
children to be part of that,
		
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			thinking, what's the big deal?
Right, thinking that making them
		
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			open minded, and so on, that they
can dabble in all of these things.
		
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			And then after that, they realized
one day that it's been so harmful.
		
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			They've allowed their children to
go out and do this, that on the
		
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			other, and then they realized that
I wasn't indulging them, I was
		
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			actually
		
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			making monsters out of them. So
it's that kind of the thoughts.
		
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			Because Allah doesn't fall to any
emotion. Allah subhanho wa Taala
		
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			doesn't become prey to any
pressures or forces. He is the
		
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			perfect planner, he understands he
knows where we fit in terms of the
		
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			grand scheme of things. He knows
that if you don't get this, but
		
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			you get the other thing, which you
thought was bad for you, that will
		
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			actually turn out to be better for
you in the long run. There's so
		
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			many of these kinds of things.
		
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			We've got quite a few Kitabi Hill
Karim Allah Who Yeah, and the more
		
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			into military, the moon.
		
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			And Allah subhanaw taala says in
his book, in the Quran, and Allah
		
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			subhanho wa Taala knows, and you
do not know, is a very interesting
		
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			story that I came across the other
day, an incident actually about
		
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			hedge, which Subhanallah it's just
		
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			amazing. There was a
		
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			person called Saeed is sitting in
the airport. After finishing his
		
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			head, you know, and you have to go
and sit and wait on your way out
		
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			and hope that your flight is going
to be at the time that they say
		
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			and did the airport coming back
that's that suits you out and
		
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			purifies any other remaining sins
that we have that we haven't been
		
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			forgiven? And how did the
airport's does that for you?
		
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			Right? It pre washes you and
they're not supposed to wash. So
		
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			when you go into pre washes you
write gets you prepared and
		
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			everything. And then after that
when you leave, then it gives you
		
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			a post wash as well post rinse,
just to make sure that everything
		
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			is fine on the Rila
		
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			how else are you going to think
about it, otherwise, it is so
		
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			frustrating. We are standing in
that line for hours line, not
		
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			sitting down, but you're standing
in line for hours. And then you're
		
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			standing there and you expect that
your flight will be next and then
		
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			somebody brings somebody else's
line and goes in front of you. And
		
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			for three 400 people they've got
one scanner, and they put
		
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			everybody through it.
		
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			And this is Saudi Arabia, you know
and you think Subhan Allah and
		
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			then you just think, alas this
must be a post, you know, post
		
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			rinse just to finish everything
off. So anyway, sorry. They're
		
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			sitting at the waiting area in
Jeddah airport. And of course next
		
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			to him is another person who just
completed the Hajj. So the man
		
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			next to him, he says, I work as a
contractor and Allah subhanaw
		
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			taala mashallah, you know, make
contractor who sounds like
		
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			somebody from India, Pakistan or
something, you know, like
		
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			contractor is a big job. You get
more money out of that, and this
		
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			is my 10th hedge.
		
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			This is my 10th hedge
		
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			because in the West we don't
really think about what job as
		
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			long as you got the money Halas
because everybody's got money
		
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			here. But in those countries
generally it depends on your job.
		
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			You know, I work for the
government. I'm a civil servant or
		
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			something that means that
		
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			askeaton hace Unison but here, it
doesn't make doesn't make a
		
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			difference whether you're signing
I mean this is the same thing you
		
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			live and go for Hajj. Subhanallah
Jeeva Allah Allah has given us
		
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			Allah Tala allow us to use it
properly.
		
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			So he said this is my 10th Hajj.
So this brother sir Ed says to him
		
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			hijab rule may Allah accept
forgive you. So the minds demand
		
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			smiles. And he says, I mean, then
he said, Have you performed Hajj
		
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			before this time? Like, is this
your first Hajj? Have you
		
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			performed Hajj before this? And
this poor sorry, the he's
		
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			hesitating to tell him this, you
know, to tell him. And then he
		
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			says, It's a long story. And I
don't want to bore you with my
		
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			story. Right about my past. So the
man laughs and he says, Look, just
		
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			tell me, right? We got nothing to
do. We're still waiting anyway.
		
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			So say smiles and he says,
		
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			waiting is the start of my story.
This is the story of my life to be
		
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			waiting is a story of my life.
Anyway, I've been waiting for
		
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			years, so that I can go to hutch,
as it did. Everybody who goes to
		
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			hajj has a very individual unique
story that Allah knows everybody
		
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			and he gives everybody
accordingly.
		
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			He says after working for 30 years
as a physiotherapist, right in a
		
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			private hospital,
		
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			I was able to finally save enough
money to go for Hajj.
		
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			When I went to get my final salary
before the Hajj, I get my salary.
		
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			I came across one of the mothers
who's got a paralyzed son, and
		
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			I've been treating him paralyzed
son.
		
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			And I could see that her face is
very worried and anxious.
		
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			And she said, she saw that, you
know, she knew I was going for
		
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			Hajj. So So I leave you to Allah's
keeping? Right?
		
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			No, I don't think No, I don't
think she knew he was going for
		
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			Hajj. She just said to she said to
him, that this is probably the
		
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			last time I'm going to be able to
see you at this hospital. Right.
		
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			Now there were ongoing treatment
that they used to do. And there
		
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			was some benefit in that treatment
as well. But she said this is the
		
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			last time I'm going to see you. So
I was surprised why she's saying
		
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			that? Because I thought maybe
she's not happy with my treatment.
		
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			And that's why she wants to now
move to another hospital.
		
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			So then she said, No, no, that's
not the reason. Allah is a witness
		
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			that you have treated my son like
a, like a father, you know, you've
		
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			been like a father to my son. And
you've helped him in his treatment
		
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			when we pretty much lost all hope.
		
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			And then after that she left.
		
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			So this person who is sitting next
to he says, that's strange if she
		
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			was pleased with your treatment,
		
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			then why did she leave? You know,
it's a question that maybe his
		
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			second is doubting her. So say it
said, That's what I thought too,
		
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			at the time that maybe she's just
giving me an excuse to make me
		
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			feel good. But otherwise, she's
going. So then I went to the
		
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			administration to find out what
really happened, what's her notes,
		
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			what she's saying. They told me
that the this, her husband had
		
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			actually lost his job. And because
his he lost his job, he was unable
		
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			to continue paying for his son's
treatment. And believe me, this is
		
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			a reality in most countries of the
worlds, except in some countries
		
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			in Europe, where we have this
system where you know, nobody is
		
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			going to be turned away from
hospitals. And we keep complaining
		
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			that it takes five hours and six
hours, right? I've been in America
		
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			where I've had to pay huge amounts
of money for this kind of stuff.
		
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			Right? Unless you have insurance,
and even then you pay money even
		
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			if you have insurance.
		
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			So this is an absolute blessing.
		
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			The man said that
		
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			how poor they are, you know, how
did you deal with that issue? So
		
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			say he says that I went to the
manager of the department the
		
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			hospital and I pleaded with him to
continue treating the boy at the
		
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			hospital expense. Like you know,
Loki is doing well. So you must
		
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			have some kind of charity or some
kind of funding that you can do
		
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			this with. But he said no, this is
a private institution. We don't
		
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			know charity. That's how these
hospitals are they just after your
		
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			money most of the time because
that's big money making business
		
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			that is. So he said I left the I
left this office, really
		
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			heartbroken, really feeling bad.
Then I suddenly realized I put my
		
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			hands in my pocket and I had all
my budget money in my pocket
		
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			because I was going to be probably
going to go and pay his ticket or
		
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			whatever. He's just got a salary.
So I stood for a while thinking
		
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			should I shouldn't i? And then I
said Oh Allah, I talked to my
		
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			Allah and I said, Oh Allah.
		
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			You know how I feel. And you know,
there is nothing more beloved to
		
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			me than for me to go to your house
and to do Hajj and to visit your
		
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			messengers Masjid is something
I've been obviously saving for a
		
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			huge amount of time and when you
finally got it, and you're gonna
		
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			get it, it's not like okay, I've
saved up enough for that new TV
		
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			sets for that new car. This is
going for Hajj. You know,
		
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			something that you know
		
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			You have to do once, you know at
least. And he says, you know that
		
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			I've been working all my life for
this moment.
		
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			But I feel that this lady should,
		
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			and her son, they should get the
treatment. So don't deprive me of
		
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			your favors. This is what you call
submitting to Allah. Don't deprive
		
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			me of your favorite he can see his
open Allah is trusting Allah. But
		
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			he is taking the leap. Allah wants
to see us take the leap, suspend
		
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			ourselves, risk ourself, put
ourselves over our comfort zone.
		
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			And then he will give allowance to
see that tipping point.
		
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			I went to the accounts desk and I
paid all I had for his treatments,
		
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			which covered the next six months,
that was six months of treatment.
		
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			And I then begged the accountant,
the finance office to just let the
		
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			lady know that this is something
the hospital had come up with for
		
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			us for special cases. And not to
tell them it's me.
		
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			Now this person next door, who is
who's listening to him, is
		
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			obviously very affected by this.
And he has tears in his eyes. He
		
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			says you know, Barack, Allah fake,
you know that Allah subhanaw taala
		
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			that there are people like you.
		
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			But the person is a very curious
person. So he says to him, If you
		
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			donated all the money, how are you
here today, then you're just
		
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			finished your hedge? How have you
finished your hedge them?
		
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			Suicide said that well, I went
back to my house and that day.
		
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			I was very sad, obviously, for
having lost the opportunity of a
		
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			lifetime for doing damage.
		
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			But on the other hand, my heart
was actually filled with happiness
		
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			that removed the distress from the
lady and her son. Now just imagine
		
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			yourself in this situation, you
have two conflicting emotions that
		
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			are fighting with each other in
your mind. One is something that
		
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			you've been wishing, desiring,
planning working towards, for, for
		
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			as long as you can remember to go
for Hajj. And you know, when
		
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			you've had this desire to see
someone to see something, and that
		
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			be Allah, you know, with all the
Iman that you have, then you can
		
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			imagine what kind of pressure that
is on you. You know, and then now
		
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			you've just given that money away,
you thought you were so close, and
		
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			then you suddenly gave it away.
And on the other hand, you've just
		
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			really satisfied somebody and if
you're a caring soul as this
		
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			doctor seems to be, then
		
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			it brings you a lot of relief. But
is your sadness greater? Or is
		
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			your relief greater?
		
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			They're vying and competing with
each other. So we talk about
		
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			conflicting emotions. This is
where most people fail. This is
		
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			where most people fail the test.
These are the tests in our life,
		
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			conflicting emotions. Do I get
this minus once it? No, you
		
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			shouldn't get it because it's
haram. This is the conflicting
		
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			emotion. Now think about anything
you want. But these are the
		
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			emotions will be this type of an
emotion that will be fighting
		
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			within us. We have to strengthen
the side that will help us to be
		
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			closer to Rasulullah sallallahu
something disregard
		
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			so he said that
		
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			I slept that night with a tear on
my cheek.
		
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			I had a dream and I was making
thought of her on the cover I mean
		
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			Subhanallah you could say that he
you know, whatever thoughts you
		
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			have in your in your data and
that's what you see at night so
		
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			you can just pass it off as that
that he had thought of he was
		
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			doing tawaf around the Kaaba and
people were saying salaam to me.
		
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			And you were telling me hajima
Bourassa EADS
		
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			for you have performed Hajj in the
heavens before you performed hajj
		
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			on the earth.
		
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			Now I take this as the Prophet
sallallahu sallam said, you know
		
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			that sometimes somebody praises
you, you know, like somebody comes
		
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			in praise you for something good.
You've done. That is still Karachi
		
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			to Bushnell movement, that is the
advanced glad tidings that a
		
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			believer receives sometimes that's
from others. Now here he is
		
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			receiving in his dream. Now if he
just saw himself in tawaf, you
		
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			could say that this is just his
thoughts, playing with his mind.
		
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			But this additional aspect that
somebody tells him that you your
		
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			Hajj has been performed in the
heavens before you performed hajj
		
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			on the earth, he never thought
about this. This is definitely
		
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			something not from the shaytaan
show. You don't want to do
		
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			something like that. Right? I
immediately woke up
		
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			and felt an indescribable
happiness. This is what you call
		
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			being from Allah when you've
consigned yourself to Allah. This
		
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			is the kind of happiness it gives
you. physically doing something or
		
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			not, is a totally different thing
to when Allah satisfies you with
		
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			something and you are spiritually
satisfied. I praise Allah for
		
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			everything. And I was then pleased
by his decrease so then I no
		
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			longer felt as bad as it was. When
I got up from my sleep. My phone
		
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			rang
		
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			In the hospitals manager, he
called he told me that
		
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			the owner of the home remember
this is a private hospital so they
		
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			have an owner. The owner of the
hospital wants to go for Hajj this
		
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			year.
		
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			And he wanted to take his personal
therapist with him. But the
		
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			personal therapist is unable to go
because his wife is expecting
		
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			the personal therapist wife is
expecting that means a personal
		
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			therapist cannot go because she's
due final days of pregnancy he
		
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			can't leave her
		
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			Would you do me a favor? Would you
accompany him on the Hajj
		
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			this is obviously I could not
believe it. I made such the of
		
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			sugar to Allah.
		
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			And
		
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			it's almost like Allah had granted
me a free Hajj without having to
		
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			pay anything.
		
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			After that, he says, the owner of
the hospital he even
		
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			insisted on giving me something to
accompany him like a wage, you
		
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			know, for accompanying him. But
then I told him the story of the
		
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			lady and her son.
		
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			And then he demanded when he heard
the story, you know, when you're
		
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			going for Hajj, it softens your
heart.
		
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			So when I told him the story of
the lady and her son,
		
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			he demanded that the boy be
treated at the hospital from his
		
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			own expenses, meaning from the
managers expenses, not the
		
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			manager, sorry, the owners
expenses. And then after that,
		
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			what he did was he placed a
donation box in the hospital for
		
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			the treatment of needy patients,
so anybody can donate in there,
		
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			and then we will use this fund
eventually.
		
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			And on top of that, he gave the
father of the son of this boy, a
		
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			job in one of his companies.
		
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			He even returned the money I had
initially spent for the boys
		
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			treatment.
		
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			What a story.
		
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			Furby a rugby coma took as the
bomb, which of the favours of your
		
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			Lord, will You then
		
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			did I,
		
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			the man next to him, hugged him
and just just told him that
		
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			Subhanallah never felt this kind
of shyness that I'm feeling now.
		
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			I've been performing Hajj one year
after the next. And I thought I
		
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			was doing something great. I had
the money I could do it. I thought
		
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			I was doing something great.
		
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			And that my place with Allah would
be elevated as a result of it.
		
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			I've never seen a dream. Never
seen any signs of acceptance like
		
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			that. But now I understand that
with this one Hajj of yours is
		
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			equivalent to 1000 of mine.
		
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			I went to the house of Allah, I
paid my way to the house of Allah,
		
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			but Allah invited you to his
house.
		
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			May Allah accept your church
		
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			for his one act of kindness in
that conflicting moment of
		
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			emotions, the benefit is that it
benefits so many people that one
		
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			act of kindness, it has benefited
so many people because it brought
		
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			up the case of the person he had
to do the one act of kindness.
		
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			Then Allah just set everything in
motion in Allah Allah EULA Euro
		
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			Marga. Coleman had the euro, euro,
maybe unforeseen, Allah subhanaw
		
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			taala doesn't change people until
they start making that change. And
		
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			then after that, he just sends a
shower of change, a shower of
		
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			benefits. So he started off by
making this very difficult, very,
		
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			very difficult Believe me, that's
a very difficult decision to make.
		
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			Forget hudge if it was anything
else, you probably would find it
		
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			difficult to give that money up.
Very few will give money up like
		
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			this, right? For something else
like this in which is going to be
		
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			a thankless job, nobody's going to
thank you for it except the
		
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			person. It's not like for the
world is it? You're not going to
		
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			put it in into the papers. But
then the benefit is that this gag
		
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			this kids get gets treated not for
six months, but for you know, as
		
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			long as he needs his father gets a
job. He gets his money back. He
		
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			sees this dream of acceptance from
Allah subhanaw taala you know, can
		
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			you see the whole chain of events?
		
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			That's a chain of events we're
talking about.
		
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			Just for this one act of kindness.
And that's why Allah subhanaw
		
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			taala says in the Quran, are tall
and a higher homage Ruth.
		
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			This is a gift from Allah you know
when he says that Medina certainly
		
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			do fulfill agenda at the Holiday
Inn fer Masha Allah, that those
		
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			people who are studied firstly
speaks about the people who are
		
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			Sharkey, who are wretched in the
Hereafter, and what they get. Then
		
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			Allah subhanaw taala speaks about
the people who are salaried
		
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			meaning who are the fortunate
ones, and what they will be given
		
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			by Allah subhanaw taala then Allah
describes at the end of it, he
		
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			describes this gift from Allah as
alpha and a hero image of Ruth,
		
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			which means Arthur giving which is
		
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			Never ending, continuous giving.
And one very interesting
		
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			interpretation that I read of it
the other day, that the people who
		
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			will be given this are the people
who are always giving themselves
		
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			the people who are always
charitable themselves, they will
		
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			be the one given this, because
giving is the response. This
		
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			giving this continuous bounty from
Allah is the reward for continuous
		
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			giving in this world. So those who
are continuously giving, and you
		
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			don't have to be continuously
giving with your money, that's not
		
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			the point here is to actually be
giving with yourself, donating
		
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			your services, assisting others,
helping people being charitable,
		
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			smiling at people and all of these
other cards that Allah subhanaw
		
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			taala has, has designated for us
as the Prophet sallallahu sallam
		
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			said Kulusuk, Salama ignore Adam,
Salama ignore Adam,
		
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			every limb of a human of a human
being in the morning, a sadaqa is
		
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			doing it.
		
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			And then he describes the
different forms of sadaqa, which
		
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			is not just by money, but which is
actually by
		
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			which is actually by giving a
smile to somebody when you meet
		
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			them, helping somebody out picking
something away. That is harmful,
		
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			maybe from the from the road, and
all of these kinds of things.
		
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			This is this is all about giving.
But for us to be able to do this,
		
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			maybe for some people, it's easy,
but for other people is not the
		
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			way to do this is to develop your
love with Allah subhanaw taala
		
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			because you do this for the sake
of Allah subhanaw taala then it is
		
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			useful. So if you develop your
love for Allah, your Tawakkol, our
		
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			Tawakkol will increase. That's why
the Prophet Lawson was the
		
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			greatest giver, because he knew it
came from ALLAH SubhanA wa Tada.
		
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			And he knew that he is not going
to become poor by giving. In fact,
		
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			the more he gives, the more he
will get, he had fully a keen on
		
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			this. That's why he said that in
Nama and kassym Allahu yoti, that
		
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			I am just the distributor, it's
the Allah Who gives. So you just
		
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			keep giving in every way shape or
form, but it's about making that
		
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			decision and acting upon it, which
is very difficult. But once you
		
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			start, then it gets easier, and
you have to build up. So you start
		
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			giving a bit bit by what you don't
like to give and then after that
		
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			you will be able to give bigger
things and then you will realize
		
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			that nothing matters anymore.
Because it's all from Allah
		
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			subhanaw taala May Allah subhanho
wa Taala grant us that Sophie
		
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			just a few additional points he
makes, which is
		
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			called an alien or the Allahu Anhu
		
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			with no seek assistance with Allah
subhanaw taala in
		
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			in basically administrating your
entire planning of everything. And
		
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			earlier the Allahu Anhu says that
Oh, son of Adam,
		
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			letter from Bill, Xena don't get
so excited and start exalting over
		
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			the wealth that you've been given.
		
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			Well, a taco not what a taco not
bill fuckery. And also, if you
		
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			don't have anything, then don't
become completely despondent and
		
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			hopeless.
		
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			While it hasn't built Bella, and
don't become overly grieved
		
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			by challenges and tests and
trials, with a tougher the Raha at
		
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			the same time, again, don't get so
excited inside exulting with your
		
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			prosperity.
		
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			For in the hub, your genre will be
now
		
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			we're in the lab, the soil, your
genre will billbergia.
		
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			And the reason for this is gold is
only tested, cleansed and purified
		
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			with fire. It has to be put in a
furnace to be able to do that. And
		
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			likewise, if gold is what has to
go through that process, then
		
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			likewise a righteous servant and
slave of Allah is also purified
		
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			and tested through these trials.
May Allah subhanaw taala guarantee
		
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			success in our trials? May Allah
subhanaw taala grant Safira May
		
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			Allah subhanaw taala grant us Afia
and may Allah allow us to have
		
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			such an insight into our deen and
our heart be so strongly connected
		
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			to him that when these kinds of
conflicting emotions come to us,
		
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			oh Allah grant us the ability to
think right and to make the right
		
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			decisions working with our annual
hamdulillahi rabbil Alameen
		
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			Allahumma Salli ala Sayidina
Muhammad Why don't you see that
		
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			video about ecosystem? Lava and
just to know I mean, because Salam
		
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			debark the other generic with the
Quran, Allah Allahumma salli wa
		
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			salam ala Sayidina Muhammad wa ala
Elisa either now Mohammed or
		
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			vertical Salam.
		
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			O Allah accept our gatherings Oh
Allah we ask you to shower
		
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			As we do Mercy of Allah we ask you
to shower us with your bounties of
		
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			Allah We ask for your compassion
of Allah we ask for gentleness of
		
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			Allah we ask for Your Mercy of
Allah We ask that you accept our
		
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			doors, Allah we ask that you
accept our gathering here of Allah
		
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			the small amount of liquor and
remembrance that we do. Allah we
		
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			ask that you allow that to have a
complete, complete benefit in our
		
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			hearts and to make our hearts
closer to you to enliven our
		
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			hearts to remove the
		
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			the dirt from our hearts to purify
our hearts of Allah make our
		
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			hearts the way you want them to be
of Allah turn our hearts in your
		
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			direction, our lucky paths fully
and always connected to you. Oh
		
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			Allah, Oh Allah.
		
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			Every day we have a new challenge
in front of us we have always
		
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			dealing with conflicting emotions.
And many many times we make the
		
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			wrong decisions of Allah Our
knifes overcomes us many other
		
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			things. They dominate us. We ask
that you grant us the ability to
		
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			think correctly. The way your
messenger sallallahu alayhi wa
		
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			sallam would make his decisions of
Allah we ask you for basura we ask
		
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			you for insight. We ask You for
Your light to guide us. Oh Allah
		
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			we ask that you surround us with
your light place it in front of
		
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			us. Oh Allah above us on our right
on our left Oh ALLAH in our sight
		
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			in our ears or Allah in our speech
in our hearts. Oh Allah. Oh Allah
		
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			infuse us with your light of Allah
we ask that You grant us the same
		
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			telecoil Oh ALLAH the same
submission to you as you gave to
		
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			the Sahaba Oh Allah, we ask that
You grant us similar similar
		
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			qualities to the Sahaba of Allah
and we ask that You grant us the
		
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			best of this world the best of the
hereafter. You take us over and
		
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			over again to your house of Allah
to the heart I mean, and you
		
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			accept this from us, our Allah
while we are here you save us from
		
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			all of the challenges that we have
around us, our Allah protect us
		
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			and our progeny until the day of
judgment of ALLAH from all of the
		
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			challenges that are out there. of
Allah allow us to be accepted for
		
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			the service of your deen of Allah
allow us to be accepted somehow or
		
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			the other of Allah we may know not
know what we can do but Allah you
		
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			know, and we give ourselves up to
you so that you can use us for the
		
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			service of, of your deen of Allah.
		
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			We ask you to grant us beneficial
knowledge of Allah and accepted
		
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			actions. We ask you to free us
from all the impurities that we
		
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			have in our minds and our hearts
and our Allah to also remove all
		
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			forms of physical ailments of
Allah and whatever other kinds of
		
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			ailments we may any of us may be
suffering, especially our
		
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			spiritual ailments. We ask you to
purify us, our Allah we ask you to
		
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			purify us, Oh Allah, accept
whatever we have done, Allah,
		
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			allow us to only do what's right
for the future. Subhan Allah be
		
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			globalized at your mercy for Noah
Salam o Allah Marcelino Al hamdu
		
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			Lillahi Rabbil Alameen