Abdur Rahman ibn Yusuf Mangera – Muhasibi’s Risalah Part 6 Sacrificing Hajj for Your Patient An Amazing Story
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He says that, for the sake of Allah subhanho wa Taala use your
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by abandoning
too much planning.
Now it sounds I mean, what does that mean? Right? So what that
means is, don't
rely
on
just the planning of your intelligence
fully, do not fully and completely just rely on what your intellect
says about something
that you think it's like this, or you think this is how it's
supposed to be. Because Farrell, actually who do don't
the intellect has a certain jurisdiction beyond which it can't
go, you know, it has a certain reach
you and the he Basa rule are clear in
the sight of the intellect, the vision of the intellect as such,
there is a limit at which it stops, it cannot penetrate. Beyond
that. We're in nama Aliko ously mooloolah he fitted bat he made up
the bill as viability America beha. So
you have to fully submit to Allah subhanaw taala
in his planning
with regards to his planning,
while adopting all the means that you need, that He has commanded
you to do so.
So let's untangle that a bit. What he's saying is that you have to
take whatever means that we have to take in this world because this
world is in a boat of means and hence we have to use us Bob as
much as possible wherever possible.
But we have to be fully submitted to Allah subhanaw taala in terms
of what he has actually planned,
in terms of what the result may be, the consequences may be, I am
going to use all my efforts to try to get this to happen, or to try
to attain this or acquire that. But I must be fully submitted that
at the end of the day, Allah also has a plan. And I've always got
that at the back of my mind. And that is my insurance basically, in
the sense that if whatever I do, I've put all my effort and we
should put all of our effort in there completely and entirely. But
if something does go wrong, and it doesn't materialize the way I
think it should do the way my my uncle tells me that it should do,
then I know that that's because I have to fully submit to Allah and
he has a grand plan in which this particular way is not the best
way.
So somebody goes with his son or his daughter for a proposal. And
his son or daughter has huge potential huge qualifications, all
the qualities that he thinks somebody would snap up instantly.
It's a deal. Why not? But then he gets rejected.
said we'll tell you, we'll We'll think about it. So as soon as they
say we'll think about it he expected like yes, yes, yes,
definitely when you want to do the vetting? straightaway, you know,
because you think it's such a good deal. You don't want it to go, he
expects them to react like that. They say, Okay, well think about
it, I immediately that dampens your entire, you know, ambition,
and your your thoughts and dashes your wishes. And then after a
week, they still don't respond to you. And that makes it even worse,
because sometimes, you know, waiting is worse than death.
And then eventually you have to ask them. Okay, so what do you
think you It humbles you to do that? It makes you humble, you
know, it forces you to be humbled.
And of course, you've gone to them because of the idea that they are
a suitable match and you want them as much as you think they want you
but in your mind, you think that you have more value than they have
to offer?
So eventually, when you contact them, and they say no, we
discussed it, but there's this issue and that issue. Now what
so if we do understand at the back of it that Allah subhanaw taala
has a grand plan and this particular method did not feature
well inside there. And that's why it didn't happen, then would you
feel bad about it, you won't feel too bad about it. You think are
hamdulillah then Allah will give me something better. When you
start doing that, then you start relying on Allah
100 watada more. But if you didn't have Allah subhanho wa Taala
featured in this in any way whatsoever, then you will feel
extremely lost, dejected.
So meta forward will Amara la he SubhanaHu wa Kiba, tema, UCAT, the
Rue La caminata in our Herrmann exactly what I said,
then after that, you know, once you've done the ASVAB, and you've
submitted to Allah as well, then some are tougher with all umbra,
then you consign your message to Allah subhanaw taala, in terms of
the consequence of what he will have planned for you, or what He
has planned for you,
in either giving you that or in depriving you of that, I thought,
oh, Herrmann is one of those two.
For in who, why, why should we think this for inner who are
hameau becoming sick, because Allah subhanaw taala is actually
more merciful to you, than your own self to yourself.
That takes a while for us to understand if we've, you have to
really be selfless, and really have a lot of reliance on Allah to
be able to think that way. How can Allah be more merciful to me, than
me for myself?
You know, generally we think that we are the greatest well wishes
for ourselves.
But we realize that we're not, when you start thinking about it,
we actually realize we're not because what happens is, we
realize that when we commit a sin become overpowered that by our
shower and desire, and we then realize that the that is actually
blasphemy, that is actually disobedience, then, where we
really good for ourselves, we indulge ourselves, it's like the,
the parents who are feeding their children in parties or giving them
bits of wine and, you know, the young teenagers, right? Or they're
letting you know, maybe maybe they're in to drugs or something.
And they're allowing their children to be part of that,
thinking, what's the big deal? Right, thinking that making them
open minded, and so on, that they can dabble in all of these things.
And then after that, they realized one day that it's been so harmful.
They've allowed their children to go out and do this, that on the
other, and then they realized that I wasn't indulging them, I was
actually
making monsters out of them. So it's that kind of the thoughts.
Because Allah doesn't fall to any emotion. Allah subhanho wa Taala
doesn't become prey to any pressures or forces. He is the
perfect planner, he understands he knows where we fit in terms of the
grand scheme of things. He knows that if you don't get this, but
you get the other thing, which you thought was bad for you, that will
actually turn out to be better for you in the long run. There's so
many of these kinds of things.
We've got quite a few Kitabi Hill Karim Allah Who Yeah, and the more
into military, the moon.
And Allah subhanaw taala says in his book, in the Quran, and Allah
subhanho wa Taala knows, and you do not know, is a very interesting
story that I came across the other day, an incident actually about
hedge, which Subhanallah it's just
amazing. There was a
person called Saeed is sitting in the airport. After finishing his
head, you know, and you have to go and sit and wait on your way out
and hope that your flight is going to be at the time that they say
and did the airport coming back that's that suits you out and
purifies any other remaining sins that we have that we haven't been
forgiven? And how did the airport's does that for you?
Right? It pre washes you and they're not supposed to wash. So
when you go into pre washes you write gets you prepared and
everything. And then after that when you leave, then it gives you
a post wash as well post rinse, just to make sure that everything
is fine on the Rila
how else are you going to think about it, otherwise, it is so
frustrating. We are standing in that line for hours line, not
sitting down, but you're standing in line for hours. And then you're
standing there and you expect that your flight will be next and then
somebody brings somebody else's line and goes in front of you. And
for three 400 people they've got one scanner, and they put
everybody through it.
And this is Saudi Arabia, you know and you think Subhan Allah and
then you just think, alas this must be a post, you know, post
rinse just to finish everything off. So anyway, sorry. They're
sitting at the waiting area in Jeddah airport. And of course next
to him is another person who just completed the Hajj. So the man
next to him, he says, I work as a contractor and Allah subhanaw
taala mashallah, you know, make contractor who sounds like
somebody from India, Pakistan or something, you know, like
contractor is a big job. You get more money out of that, and this
is my 10th hedge.
This is my 10th hedge
because in the West we don't really think about what job as
long as you got the money Halas because everybody's got money
here. But in those countries generally it depends on your job.
You know, I work for the government. I'm a civil servant or
something that means that
askeaton hace Unison but here, it doesn't make doesn't make a
difference whether you're signing I mean this is the same thing you
live and go for Hajj. Subhanallah Jeeva Allah Allah has given us
Allah Tala allow us to use it properly.
So he said this is my 10th Hajj. So this brother sir Ed says to him
hijab rule may Allah accept forgive you. So the minds demand
smiles. And he says, I mean, then he said, Have you performed Hajj
before this time? Like, is this your first Hajj? Have you
performed Hajj before this? And this poor sorry, the he's
hesitating to tell him this, you know, to tell him. And then he
says, It's a long story. And I don't want to bore you with my
story. Right about my past. So the man laughs and he says, Look, just
tell me, right? We got nothing to do. We're still waiting anyway.
So say smiles and he says,
waiting is the start of my story. This is the story of my life to be
waiting is a story of my life. Anyway, I've been waiting for
years, so that I can go to hutch, as it did. Everybody who goes to
hajj has a very individual unique story that Allah knows everybody
and he gives everybody accordingly.
He says after working for 30 years as a physiotherapist, right in a
private hospital,
I was able to finally save enough money to go for Hajj.
When I went to get my final salary before the Hajj, I get my salary.
I came across one of the mothers who's got a paralyzed son, and
I've been treating him paralyzed son.
And I could see that her face is very worried and anxious.
And she said, she saw that, you know, she knew I was going for
Hajj. So So I leave you to Allah's keeping? Right?
No, I don't think No, I don't think she knew he was going for
Hajj. She just said to she said to him, that this is probably the
last time I'm going to be able to see you at this hospital. Right.
Now there were ongoing treatment that they used to do. And there
was some benefit in that treatment as well. But she said this is the
last time I'm going to see you. So I was surprised why she's saying
that? Because I thought maybe she's not happy with my treatment.
And that's why she wants to now move to another hospital.
So then she said, No, no, that's not the reason. Allah is a witness
that you have treated my son like a, like a father, you know, you've
been like a father to my son. And you've helped him in his treatment
when we pretty much lost all hope.
And then after that she left.
So this person who is sitting next to he says, that's strange if she
was pleased with your treatment,
then why did she leave? You know, it's a question that maybe his
second is doubting her. So say it said, That's what I thought too,
at the time that maybe she's just giving me an excuse to make me
feel good. But otherwise, she's going. So then I went to the
administration to find out what really happened, what's her notes,
what she's saying. They told me that the this, her husband had
actually lost his job. And because his he lost his job, he was unable
to continue paying for his son's treatment. And believe me, this is
a reality in most countries of the worlds, except in some countries
in Europe, where we have this system where you know, nobody is
going to be turned away from hospitals. And we keep complaining
that it takes five hours and six hours, right? I've been in America
where I've had to pay huge amounts of money for this kind of stuff.
Right? Unless you have insurance, and even then you pay money even
if you have insurance.
So this is an absolute blessing.
The man said that
how poor they are, you know, how did you deal with that issue? So
say he says that I went to the manager of the department the
hospital and I pleaded with him to continue treating the boy at the
hospital expense. Like you know, Loki is doing well. So you must
have some kind of charity or some kind of funding that you can do
this with. But he said no, this is a private institution. We don't
know charity. That's how these hospitals are they just after your
money most of the time because that's big money making business
that is. So he said I left the I left this office, really
heartbroken, really feeling bad. Then I suddenly realized I put my
hands in my pocket and I had all my budget money in my pocket
because I was going to be probably going to go and pay his ticket or
whatever. He's just got a salary. So I stood for a while thinking
should I shouldn't i? And then I said Oh Allah, I talked to my
Allah and I said, Oh Allah.
You know how I feel. And you know, there is nothing more beloved to
me than for me to go to your house and to do Hajj and to visit your
messengers Masjid is something I've been obviously saving for a
huge amount of time and when you finally got it, and you're gonna
get it, it's not like okay, I've saved up enough for that new TV
sets for that new car. This is going for Hajj. You know,
something that you know
You have to do once, you know at least. And he says, you know that
I've been working all my life for this moment.
But I feel that this lady should,
and her son, they should get the treatment. So don't deprive me of
your favors. This is what you call submitting to Allah. Don't deprive
me of your favorite he can see his open Allah is trusting Allah. But
he is taking the leap. Allah wants to see us take the leap, suspend
ourselves, risk ourself, put ourselves over our comfort zone.
And then he will give allowance to see that tipping point.
I went to the accounts desk and I paid all I had for his treatments,
which covered the next six months, that was six months of treatment.
And I then begged the accountant, the finance office to just let the
lady know that this is something the hospital had come up with for
us for special cases. And not to tell them it's me.
Now this person next door, who is who's listening to him, is
obviously very affected by this. And he has tears in his eyes. He
says you know, Barack, Allah fake, you know that Allah subhanaw taala
that there are people like you.
But the person is a very curious person. So he says to him, If you
donated all the money, how are you here today, then you're just
finished your hedge? How have you finished your hedge them?
Suicide said that well, I went back to my house and that day.
I was very sad, obviously, for having lost the opportunity of a
lifetime for doing damage.
But on the other hand, my heart was actually filled with happiness
that removed the distress from the lady and her son. Now just imagine
yourself in this situation, you have two conflicting emotions that
are fighting with each other in your mind. One is something that
you've been wishing, desiring, planning working towards, for, for
as long as you can remember to go for Hajj. And you know, when
you've had this desire to see someone to see something, and that
be Allah, you know, with all the Iman that you have, then you can
imagine what kind of pressure that is on you. You know, and then now
you've just given that money away, you thought you were so close, and
then you suddenly gave it away. And on the other hand, you've just
really satisfied somebody and if you're a caring soul as this
doctor seems to be, then
it brings you a lot of relief. But is your sadness greater? Or is
your relief greater?
They're vying and competing with each other. So we talk about
conflicting emotions. This is where most people fail. This is
where most people fail the test. These are the tests in our life,
conflicting emotions. Do I get this minus once it? No, you
shouldn't get it because it's haram. This is the conflicting
emotion. Now think about anything you want. But these are the
emotions will be this type of an emotion that will be fighting
within us. We have to strengthen the side that will help us to be
closer to Rasulullah sallallahu something disregard
so he said that
I slept that night with a tear on my cheek.
I had a dream and I was making thought of her on the cover I mean
Subhanallah you could say that he you know, whatever thoughts you
have in your in your data and that's what you see at night so
you can just pass it off as that that he had thought of he was
doing tawaf around the Kaaba and people were saying salaam to me.
And you were telling me hajima Bourassa EADS
for you have performed Hajj in the heavens before you performed hajj
on the earth.
Now I take this as the Prophet sallallahu sallam said, you know
that sometimes somebody praises you, you know, like somebody comes
in praise you for something good. You've done. That is still Karachi
to Bushnell movement, that is the advanced glad tidings that a
believer receives sometimes that's from others. Now here he is
receiving in his dream. Now if he just saw himself in tawaf, you
could say that this is just his thoughts, playing with his mind.
But this additional aspect that somebody tells him that you your
Hajj has been performed in the heavens before you performed hajj
on the earth, he never thought about this. This is definitely
something not from the shaytaan show. You don't want to do
something like that. Right? I immediately woke up
and felt an indescribable happiness. This is what you call
being from Allah when you've consigned yourself to Allah. This
is the kind of happiness it gives you. physically doing something or
not, is a totally different thing to when Allah satisfies you with
something and you are spiritually satisfied. I praise Allah for
everything. And I was then pleased by his decrease so then I no
longer felt as bad as it was. When I got up from my sleep. My phone
rang
In the hospitals manager, he called he told me that
the owner of the home remember this is a private hospital so they
have an owner. The owner of the hospital wants to go for Hajj this
year.
And he wanted to take his personal therapist with him. But the
personal therapist is unable to go because his wife is expecting
the personal therapist wife is expecting that means a personal
therapist cannot go because she's due final days of pregnancy he
can't leave her
Would you do me a favor? Would you accompany him on the Hajj
this is obviously I could not believe it. I made such the of
sugar to Allah.
And
it's almost like Allah had granted me a free Hajj without having to
pay anything.
After that, he says, the owner of the hospital he even
insisted on giving me something to accompany him like a wage, you
know, for accompanying him. But then I told him the story of the
lady and her son.
And then he demanded when he heard the story, you know, when you're
going for Hajj, it softens your heart.
So when I told him the story of the lady and her son,
he demanded that the boy be treated at the hospital from his
own expenses, meaning from the managers expenses, not the
manager, sorry, the owners expenses. And then after that,
what he did was he placed a donation box in the hospital for
the treatment of needy patients, so anybody can donate in there,
and then we will use this fund eventually.
And on top of that, he gave the father of the son of this boy, a
job in one of his companies.
He even returned the money I had initially spent for the boys
treatment.
What a story.
Furby a rugby coma took as the bomb, which of the favours of your
Lord, will You then
did I,
the man next to him, hugged him and just just told him that
Subhanallah never felt this kind of shyness that I'm feeling now.
I've been performing Hajj one year after the next. And I thought I
was doing something great. I had the money I could do it. I thought
I was doing something great.
And that my place with Allah would be elevated as a result of it.
I've never seen a dream. Never seen any signs of acceptance like
that. But now I understand that with this one Hajj of yours is
equivalent to 1000 of mine.
I went to the house of Allah, I paid my way to the house of Allah,
but Allah invited you to his house.
May Allah accept your church
for his one act of kindness in that conflicting moment of
emotions, the benefit is that it benefits so many people that one
act of kindness, it has benefited so many people because it brought
up the case of the person he had to do the one act of kindness.
Then Allah just set everything in motion in Allah Allah EULA Euro
Marga. Coleman had the euro, euro, maybe unforeseen, Allah subhanaw
taala doesn't change people until they start making that change. And
then after that, he just sends a shower of change, a shower of
benefits. So he started off by making this very difficult, very,
very difficult Believe me, that's a very difficult decision to make.
Forget hudge if it was anything else, you probably would find it
difficult to give that money up. Very few will give money up like
this, right? For something else like this in which is going to be
a thankless job, nobody's going to thank you for it except the
person. It's not like for the world is it? You're not going to
put it in into the papers. But then the benefit is that this gag
this kids get gets treated not for six months, but for you know, as
long as he needs his father gets a job. He gets his money back. He
sees this dream of acceptance from Allah subhanaw taala you know, can
you see the whole chain of events?
That's a chain of events we're talking about.
Just for this one act of kindness. And that's why Allah subhanaw
taala says in the Quran, are tall and a higher homage Ruth.
This is a gift from Allah you know when he says that Medina certainly
do fulfill agenda at the Holiday Inn fer Masha Allah, that those
people who are studied firstly speaks about the people who are
Sharkey, who are wretched in the Hereafter, and what they get. Then
Allah subhanaw taala speaks about the people who are salaried
meaning who are the fortunate ones, and what they will be given
by Allah subhanaw taala then Allah describes at the end of it, he
describes this gift from Allah as alpha and a hero image of Ruth,
which means Arthur giving which is
Never ending, continuous giving. And one very interesting
interpretation that I read of it the other day, that the people who
will be given this are the people who are always giving themselves
the people who are always charitable themselves, they will
be the one given this, because giving is the response. This
giving this continuous bounty from Allah is the reward for continuous
giving in this world. So those who are continuously giving, and you
don't have to be continuously giving with your money, that's not
the point here is to actually be giving with yourself, donating
your services, assisting others, helping people being charitable,
smiling at people and all of these other cards that Allah subhanaw
taala has, has designated for us as the Prophet sallallahu sallam
said Kulusuk, Salama ignore Adam, Salama ignore Adam,
every limb of a human of a human being in the morning, a sadaqa is
doing it.
And then he describes the different forms of sadaqa, which
is not just by money, but which is actually by
which is actually by giving a smile to somebody when you meet
them, helping somebody out picking something away. That is harmful,
maybe from the from the road, and all of these kinds of things.
This is this is all about giving. But for us to be able to do this,
maybe for some people, it's easy, but for other people is not the
way to do this is to develop your love with Allah subhanaw taala
because you do this for the sake of Allah subhanaw taala then it is
useful. So if you develop your love for Allah, your Tawakkol, our
Tawakkol will increase. That's why the Prophet Lawson was the
greatest giver, because he knew it came from ALLAH SubhanA wa Tada.
And he knew that he is not going to become poor by giving. In fact,
the more he gives, the more he will get, he had fully a keen on
this. That's why he said that in Nama and kassym Allahu yoti, that
I am just the distributor, it's the Allah Who gives. So you just
keep giving in every way shape or form, but it's about making that
decision and acting upon it, which is very difficult. But once you
start, then it gets easier, and you have to build up. So you start
giving a bit bit by what you don't like to give and then after that
you will be able to give bigger things and then you will realize
that nothing matters anymore. Because it's all from Allah
subhanaw taala May Allah subhanho wa Taala grant us that Sophie
just a few additional points he makes, which is
called an alien or the Allahu Anhu
with no seek assistance with Allah subhanaw taala in
in basically administrating your entire planning of everything. And
earlier the Allahu Anhu says that Oh, son of Adam,
letter from Bill, Xena don't get so excited and start exalting over
the wealth that you've been given.
Well, a taco not what a taco not bill fuckery. And also, if you
don't have anything, then don't become completely despondent and
hopeless.
While it hasn't built Bella, and don't become overly grieved
by challenges and tests and trials, with a tougher the Raha at
the same time, again, don't get so excited inside exulting with your
prosperity.
For in the hub, your genre will be now
we're in the lab, the soil, your genre will billbergia.
And the reason for this is gold is only tested, cleansed and purified
with fire. It has to be put in a furnace to be able to do that. And
likewise, if gold is what has to go through that process, then
likewise a righteous servant and slave of Allah is also purified
and tested through these trials. May Allah subhanaw taala guarantee
success in our trials? May Allah subhanaw taala grant Safira May
Allah subhanaw taala grant us Afia and may Allah allow us to have
such an insight into our deen and our heart be so strongly connected
to him that when these kinds of conflicting emotions come to us,
oh Allah grant us the ability to think right and to make the right
decisions working with our annual hamdulillahi rabbil Alameen
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debark the other generic with the Quran, Allah Allahumma salli wa
salam ala Sayidina Muhammad wa ala Elisa either now Mohammed or
vertical Salam.
O Allah accept our gatherings Oh Allah we ask you to shower
As we do Mercy of Allah we ask you to shower us with your bounties of
Allah We ask for your compassion of Allah we ask for gentleness of
Allah we ask for Your Mercy of Allah We ask that you accept our
doors, Allah we ask that you accept our gathering here of Allah
the small amount of liquor and remembrance that we do. Allah we
ask that you allow that to have a complete, complete benefit in our
hearts and to make our hearts closer to you to enliven our
hearts to remove the
the dirt from our hearts to purify our hearts of Allah make our
hearts the way you want them to be of Allah turn our hearts in your
direction, our lucky paths fully and always connected to you. Oh
Allah, Oh Allah.
Every day we have a new challenge in front of us we have always
dealing with conflicting emotions. And many many times we make the
wrong decisions of Allah Our knifes overcomes us many other
things. They dominate us. We ask that you grant us the ability to
think correctly. The way your messenger sallallahu alayhi wa
sallam would make his decisions of Allah we ask you for basura we ask
you for insight. We ask You for Your light to guide us. Oh Allah
we ask that you surround us with your light place it in front of
us. Oh Allah above us on our right on our left Oh ALLAH in our sight
in our ears or Allah in our speech in our hearts. Oh Allah. Oh Allah
infuse us with your light of Allah we ask that You grant us the same
telecoil Oh ALLAH the same submission to you as you gave to
the Sahaba Oh Allah, we ask that You grant us similar similar
qualities to the Sahaba of Allah and we ask that You grant us the
best of this world the best of the hereafter. You take us over and
over again to your house of Allah to the heart I mean, and you
accept this from us, our Allah while we are here you save us from
all of the challenges that we have around us, our Allah protect us
and our progeny until the day of judgment of ALLAH from all of the
challenges that are out there. of Allah allow us to be accepted for
the service of your deen of Allah allow us to be accepted somehow or
the other of Allah we may know not know what we can do but Allah you
know, and we give ourselves up to you so that you can use us for the
service of, of your deen of Allah.
We ask you to grant us beneficial knowledge of Allah and accepted
actions. We ask you to free us from all the impurities that we
have in our minds and our hearts and our Allah to also remove all
forms of physical ailments of Allah and whatever other kinds of
ailments we may any of us may be suffering, especially our
spiritual ailments. We ask you to purify us, our Allah we ask you to
purify us, Oh Allah, accept whatever we have done, Allah,
allow us to only do what's right for the future. Subhan Allah be
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