Abdur Rahman ibn Yusuf Mangera – Has God Given You or Deprived You [Hikam 83]
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PAGE 194 of the book of wisdoms. So, this is what Natale law says
it's a very short wisdom but it's amazing in its profundity. It's a
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but that means is he saying that sometimes he gives you while
depriving you.
And sometimes it deprives you in giving.
So sometimes he gives you but deprives you. And other times, it
deprives you but gives you so in his deprivation is a giving. And
when he deprives you, he's actually giving you something.
And when he gives you some, in some cases, if he gives you
something that you really want, he's depriving you from something
better. So that's what it is, is Allah subhanaw taala isn't the
law, Allah subhanaw taala has system, Allah subhanaw taala, his
way of doing things, he's the master, he's the creator. He is
above all in charge of everything he knows what he wants to do. He
knows what he wants, where he wants it, and at what time he
wants it. And we're just part of that system. So he has this huge
system where he's dealing with everybody at once. We are just one
clog very, very, very small club in our system. But somehow we try
to think that we're much bigger than we are. When we try to
control things in a certain way, of course, we have a bit of
control, He's given us free will. So we've we can definitely control
things. And things are predictable. So if I raise my
hand, it will rise up, if I reach out to get something, I will
normally be able to pick it up. So the world is definitely a
predictable place. But it's not a guaranteed place that everything
you will try to achieve you will get. So while at the same time,
it's not that you will get everything that you set out to
achieve. But at the same time it is not so up there in the air are
so fickle, or so unpredictable, that even if you go and make an
effort that you never get it. So you have a
if you have a glass and you have some water and you want to pour
into the glass, if you do it correctly, most people are gonna
get that right.
It is never going to be that I'm trying to do it right. But the
water is somehow right above, it's above, but somehow it's actually
going there or going here and it's not falling into the cup somehow.
That's kind of absurd. I mean, I mean, I know this is obvious
stuff. But in the grand realm of things we know we can understand
putting water into a cup or meat opening this and drinking from
here, it's quite obvious. But we need to think of even the big
matters in the same way that if we do things in the right way it will
happen. If I want to marry somebody, and I do the right
things, it's possible that it will happen. But it may not happen as
well. In this case, obviously there's somebody else involved
here as well. They have a whole life. They've got people
associated with them, they've got decisions, they've got factors
that they have to consider. It's not just me that I want to marry
that woman. So I must get her.
There's too many factors involved here. You have to remember there's
her, there's all her family members, there's her
circumstances, there's her internal feeling, all of that has
to also be right for that to come together. And then to stay
together.
That's very difficult. That's why Allah subhanaw taala is the best
of planners of all of these things, because he knows all of
these things. And he is the one who is in charge of all of the
factors. At the end of the day, we have only a certain amount. So
we're just a small aspect of this world, we try our best within the
dimension within the realm of our control, perceived control at
least, and then we have to leave it. Now what this is giving us is
a philosophy. What this is giving us is a philosophy if people can,
this is these are words that could be really, really inspirational.
People can just just take them to heat that thing. Sometimes you'll
receive something that you really want. But what that has done is
they've actually deprived you for something bigger. You may only
find out
about that, and then you think, oh, no, why did I do it this? Or
why did I choose this option should have chosen that option.
Look how beautiful that is. Now, look where that's gone look at
that investment, I think a good example would be that I chose to
invest here and not here. And then there was a problem.
Simpler, still something on a daily day to day basis,
I should have taken that road. But I took this one instead, I thought
this was gonna get there faster, they got there much faster, and I
got stuck in half an hour traffic.
That's our control. Allah, that's the limit of our control. That's,
that's what it is. So that's what he's saying that sometimes he
gives you what you want, but he's depriving you from something
that's more important. And sometimes he will deprive you,
that's the tough part, you see the one about he gives you you feel
good at that time, I've got what I wanted. Right? And then you may
regret later.
Or you may not never had never even know.
But you could have been much better, but you never know. So
maybe you're not even upset. But in most cases, I guess for this
work that you will find out. But in other cases, it's where we want
something and we don't get it that's more upsetting. Because
hey, I didn't get this. And you have to wait that out. And then
you get the happiness later. Whereas in the first case, you're
quite elated. First, you're quite excited first, that you've gotten
what you want. And then after that, you're like, oh, no, why did
I get that? I've been deprived now of something better. So I don't
know, which is worse. I think the second one is worse generally for
people because they think that they're losers because of that.
So it's a really interesting idea, but it really sums up our world.
And if if we understand that, that's Allah subhanaw taala behind
everything make things easy for us to understand that what this
hinges on is ultimately, Allah Tala has wisdom and his foresight,
and his absolute knowledge of everything. So if we can just say,
Look, I'm going to do my best, I'm going to worship Allah, I'm going
to show my devotion to Him, I'm going to remember him, and I'm
going to thank him. And I'm going to have patience when there's
difficulties, then I'm going to make an effort though, in trying
to get what's beneficial for me, because that's what the Prophet
sallallahu Sallam told me to do. And that's what I'm required to
do. That's what I've been built to do by Allah subhanaw taala. But if
I don't get sometimes, then I'm going to realize that it's
probably something better in this absence, in this prevention from
me in this hindrance from me, I'm going to get something better. And
sometimes, I must be careful that if I do get something, well, maybe
I've lost out on something better. So let me not get too excited
about this laminate, not get too excited about it. Nothing wrong
with getting excited and happy about something that you receive.
It's not like every time we receive something, that there's
going to be something better that we should be worried about that,
hey, why didn't we get this and why did we get it we shouldn't
become our life should not become like this. But the idea is that
don't get so excited, because we may discover that actually, there
may have been a better option in that case. Okay, so let us see
what our ignore RGB Rahimullah tells us about this. He says, See,
if we go down to our knifes, and our
behavior, our psychology, the knifes, Amara,
and the lawanna. Until we get to multiply in which we've discussed
in previous lessons in the solo series as a whole Sufism series,
there's a whole discussion about this, but when a person has the
evil, inciting self, the lower ego and also the lawanna which means
the blaming soul, it feels good when we're given something
everybody feels good when they're given something, you receive your
new phone you mashallah, you know, you have a good sleep, you feel
good. So anything that we're given any good experience that we have
our knifes expanse and feels good, and has a sense of enjoyment. And
the other problem is that when we, when we don't receive something,
when we're prohibited from something, when we're prevented
from something, when we miss out on something, it contracts, you
feel bad.
That's the dopamine rush, you don't get a dopamine rush. There's
other chemicals that are probably released. That's why it makes you
feel a bit down. And then after that, if there's something that
good comes about, you get a good cheat, you achieve something well,
then again, it opens up as well, again, the problem with that is
people get really addicted to this and that can be sometimes very,
very wrong. A human being is supposed to be satisfied with
Allah as long as they're doing the right thing. They should be
satisfied with whatever state Allah subhanaw taala puts them
into.
And what the what social media has done today is that it's given you
a very easy way. Because all you for some people, especially when
they're beginning they just like they just need a few likes. Just a
few ticks a few likes. That's really wonderful. That's a lot
revalidation. So it's excitement. It's that excitement. Now, when
you get the same number of likes, you start thinking that that's
become the standard. So then you have to do something to get more
likes higher likes more following, because the purpose is not to
necessarily educate someone else, or to just tell a story to someone
or whatever it's actually to get feedback, positive feedback, so
that we can feel good. It's a very noisy enterprise. I mean, I'm
using social media, I completely understand this. It's a very nifty
enterprise, you have to be very careful because you, you get
caught up, because that's what it's all about. That's what you're
supposed to do. You're supposed to, there are tutorials out there
to tell you how to get better
on social media, how to become more popular. That's what it's
about. It's not like somebody's doing this in some kind of, you
know, hidden way that these are just hidden ways. And no, this is
open, this is what it is, this is what you do on Facebook, and
Twitter and Instagram, and so on so forth. Not to say it's wrong to
do that if you've got the right purpose for doing it. But it's
very easy to get caught up in that. How do you sift if you're
into the data? If you're into a great if you're into business?
Understandable, right? It's Halal to do business on social media,
promote your business.
So how do you know it's just it's just that when you think you're
being rewarded for your good work that you're doing on there, and
then it's actually really for the knifes and it's not really for the
good work, or the good work is a secondary issue. That's when it
gets a bit more complicated.
So avoid the bad enough, still a majority will lawanna and dumbass
the poor Bill atop one copy of the bill men, when we receive
something, we we have a dopamine rush and the soul expands. Lovely.
And it contracts when we're prevented from something. Reason
is obvious that when you receive something, when you're given
something, that is what the desire of the knifes is, so you've
fulfilling a desire, your enjoyment, it's indulgence.
So it's going to have to expand by that that's obvious, right? It's
going to expand by this. And if you're prevented from something,
you're not giving it its food. When people don't have food, they
have issues, when they have not had a meal, they get aggravated,
or not had their sleep.
They have a problem.
They've done a survey of they've done a research, they've done
research on deep sleep to deprive people. It's so bad, you know, to
be sleep deprived, although that's another subject is that they
deprive somebody they deprived people from sleep for like a week
or something. And then they tested them with certain decisions and
everything. They found that they act very similar to people with
mental health problems. That's how important sleep is. It's going to
contract with that when you when you're deprived of something it's
going to happen.
And all of this so all of this is because of the jolly harbour of
Bihar is because of its ignorance and unawareness of their Lord of
their Sustainer of the one who is in charge of all of these things
for them. That's why they've just misunderstood this, they've just
not understood it. If they'd had understood about Allah subhanahu
wa taala, you would know sometimes that when he prevents something
from you is actually giving you something
when he prevents something from you, when something doesn't come
to you, you're gonna get something else, there's another benefit
that's going to ensue from there. And sometimes if he's giving you
something you don't realize this is when you're going to forget
because you're so excited. Right? If he doesn't give you something
sorry, if he gives you something, then he's actually preventing you
from someone else from something else.
So the best thing for a Muslim to do is to understand their Lord and
have that refined understanding of their true truth Oh hate Allah
subhanho wa Taala and more so if somebody is connected to Allah
subhanho wa Taala at some level, but in a negative sense in when
they don't get something they start blaming Allah subhanaw taala
then that is probably even worse, to blame Allah subhanaw taala
because you're supposed to have some awareness but you've got a
complete wrong idea about Allah subhanaw taala so there's somebody
will won't even bring a line to the picture they'll just be upset.
There's others will be upset and then blame Allah that Why didn't
you give me this? Why? Why are you just choosing me to deprive Why is
it always me? I don't know which ones worse. One is unawareness.
The other one is
that he thinks he's aware of a lie thinks he is. I don't know. I
don't know which one is worse. Allah prevent us from both. So
anyway, what happens is that Allah subhanho wa Taala sometimes he
gives you that which you're not that which knifes desires that
wish the ego and people desire. But what he does is that he then
prevents you so you've got something that's going to so
excite you and engross you and distract you, but it's
What he's done in that is actually by that he's prevented you from
presents with the Holy One.
You've missed the next prayer because of that. You have Miss
going to the masjid because of that.
Now you might think, what's the big deal
of just miss going to the masjid because I was trying out my new
car or trying out my new game or trying out my new computer while I
was eating at that very good restaurant, right? I was with,
with friends. What's the big deal? Well, okay, maybe you've just
missed 25 times more reward. Right? You've also miss being in
the house of Allah, which you could have been in, right and all
of that Rama and mercy. Right? You've just missed that part of
the mercy of bearing witness for you on the Day of Judgment. Just
so many this can open up in so many ways. I'm just talking about
that particular scenario. Sometimes he will prevent you from
what your enough desires, but by that you will have much more
presence with Allah subhanho wa taala. And you will gain more
comfort with him.
Because you will turn to alone that you've been getting
everything you've been after so far, and you've been forgetting
Allah. So now
he is prohibited from you. So you started
coming off your high horse and started thinking about Hey, what
is it? Yeah, Allah what is what have I done wrong, oh Allah. And
then you start worshipping Allah subhanho wa taala. So you gain
comfort with Allah. Sometimes Allah subhanho wa Taala will give
you from the enjoyment and the adornments of this world, but then
he will prevent you from the adornment of His presence and the
shine of that presence and the light that comes from that
presence. Sometimes he will give you a adornment, or sometimes he
will prevent you from the adornment of well, but then he'll
actually give you being present with him in with him and gaining
his vision.
Sometimes Allah subhanahu wa taala will give you
the sustenance
and the provisions of what bodies what humans receive. So you will
get abundant money, abundant food, abundant supplies, but he is
preventing from you the supplies and the provisions of the heart.
So mashallah, you've got lots of food,
and ability to eat where you want and where whatever you want. But
he's just prevented you from giving anything to your soul.
And sometimes he will actually give for your soul. But you may
not have the outer,
the intelligence or the even the food for the outer self mazing
system, Allah subhanaw taala. And there are such people, they're
very poor. But they're very satisfied. Somehow, their heart is
being fed, which is even more important. And yet, there's others
who have a lot to eat a lot to wear, a lot to choose from, but
they have emptiness. They have inner emptiness, as a Muslim, any
Muslim, any Muslim, just the fact any Muslim with the basic
understanding of the Aqeedah has a lot more, has a lot more than
somebody who doesn't believe in God.
Right? Maybe not all the time, you'll see that. But you will see
that time at the time of difficulty, just the mere small
amount of belief. And that's why Muslims, you see, there's a lot of
people out there. There's a lot of people out there. And there's
other people who can tell them what to how to make money. There's
lots of that. There's a lot of them. There's a lot of people out
there who can tell him how to gain comfort. We Muslims don't need to
be telling him that. What we need to be telling them is to share
what we have. We have an antidote to emptiness.
Believe in Allah subhanaw taala hasn't Allah helped you in your
moment of vulnerability?
This people, this is the biggest thing that people are suffering
from an emptiness. And a lot of this modern tradition of flux of
just do what's good. Just do what you think is good for you. With no
limit with no destination with no goal, it's just going to change
every year. That just shows you the emptiness that they're looking
for something which changes every other trends change every year.
This was taboo 20 years ago, and now it's completely fine. And then
there's going to be more and more and more and more of that. Because
there's emptiness you're looking for something to fill into with
Muslims are failing to that with Muslims, you've got an idea. You
just have to learn that more. And there's a limit. There's a
objective, there's a goal, and we know our purpose. If anybody who
knows the purpose of where you came from, where you're going, and
why you are here,
then that is so much better than a lot of other people who don't have
that. So as Muslims, that's the biggest way that we can give is to
just fill hope. For example,
Pull. If there's somebody, you know, you got somebody who never
gets too agitated, imagine you work in an in a normal environment
in an office somewhere. And there's a guy in the office, he
never gets too agitated. He's always quite calm. He deals with
challenges quite decently. And he doesn't get involved in the
gossip. He tries to avoid the gossip and backbiting and all that
doesn't use curse words, not very insulting is a pleasant person to
be around. Yes, sometimes he's been doing a few weird things like
in a corner in the room or something like that, you know,
bowing down and things like that.
People are gonna wonder why you're so calm.
Now, that's a Muslim, he's a Muslim.
He's a Muslim, that's what what is it in that faith that he feels so
wholesome.
And he doesn't seem so empty, that he has to resort to all of these
other things that people do.
That's the biggest THAT or WHICH other data do you want to do?
openly, there's a lot of data, if you know how to do it, speak the
Speak, you know, speak the words, but this is the data that is going
to help the people
fill their emptiness in action.
This is what this is teaching us of how to understand Allah and to
react to different situations.
Sometimes, Allah subhanho wa Taala will grant you the attention of
creation, you will be very popular.
But then he will prevent you from the attention of Allah subhanaw
taala. And sometimes, Allah subhanho wa Taala would prevent
you from having the attention of people, but he's given you comfort
and the attention of Allah subhanaw taala.
Sometimes Allah subhanaw taala may give you various different forms
of knowledge, and will open up to you the, the doors of
understanding so you will get things you're very smart. But the
problem is that he will then prevent you from knowing the
reality of things as they should be known in terms of the benefit
of the Hereafter. And for you to really know how you're gonna you
the truly living and the self subsisting one, you won't know
that you'll understand everything else, you'll be the biggest
scientist, biggest thinker in the world, but you just don't know
what's important for you. And how many of those kinds of people have
we had?
They've been deluded just about this one point. They've
reinterpreting ways that they know it doesn't even understand. I
mean, what does? What does dancing to your DNA mean? How does
somebody dance to their DNA? What kind of an explanation is that?
It's like absurd, but because it's coming from a person who's
considered to be, you know, quite smart and intelligent, there must
be some understanding on it, we just don't get it must be
something about it. So people actually will start using that
terminology, that statement without really understanding it.
This is the weirdest part, the clean tech lead works everywhere
in a blind following, just because you've seen an authority and
you've gained some respect for the authority. So you will take what
they say without really understanding it is very
interesting, our humans work.
I've seen this when we have students who are writing fatwas,
if there's another Mufti that they trust in another scholar, and One
scholar has said that you just take it so so when I questioned
them. I said, What do you mean by this? What's the evidence behind
it? They don't know. But he said it. So that's not we need to know
evidences back to, you know, our main sources, people do tech lead
and everything. So they do it in this as well. They don't know what
they're following. They just say the same thing. Sometimes Allah
subhanaw taala will prevent you from knowing so many various
different sciences, but he will give you such comfort and such
tranquility, with him, the living and the self subsistent one. And
afterwards, you will actually become completely encompassing of
everything that is out there that is that others will not know you
will get a basura and the divine insight into that Subhanallah
sometimes Allah subhanho wa Taala will give you the honor of the
dunya but he will deprive you of the honor of the hereafter. But
sometimes Allah subhanaw taala will prevent you from having honor
in this world. But he'll give you the honor of the you know, and
there's been so many people like that.
They were disgraced in this world. They were on the hook. They were
on the truth, but the battle was very prevalent at the time. And
they had to go they were persecuted but they get the
benefit of the hereafter. Now you never know these things. You see,
you never know these things. That's the only way to gain
comfort with this is to know your deen and know Allah subhanaw taala
and continue to worship him that way. Sometimes Allah subhanahu wa
taala
will give you the ability to be to be honored by having a lot of
people around you
But then Allah subhanho wa Taala will not be in your life. So you
will be prevented from that. And sometimes Allah subhanaw taala
will prevent you from having so many people around you, but then
he'll give you the ability to be with the King of all kings.
Sometimes Allah subhanaw taala will allow you and give you the
service of all people. So they will serve you, they will do your
bidding. But the problem is that he will prevent you from
witnessing the one who allows all of these things to happen, the one
who creates all of these things. And sometimes Allah will prevent
you from receiving the services of others, that he will allow you to
witness the one who gives everything and who produces and
creates everything.
Sometimes Allah subhanahu wa taala will not allow you will hinder you
from being able to do whatever you want. But he'll give you something
else of the higher realms to benefit from. But other times.
So it just, sometimes Allah will prevent you from whatever you want
to do it. Whatever you do, you just gotta get frustrated, but
then he'll give you something higher, as long as you recognize
him, and so on and so forth. This is basically like, just think
about it. Don't get too perturbed by what you lose. Because maybe
Allah subhanaw taala has something better for you. And you know, once
you lose it, you see, you might think that this is a kind of a cop
out. It is not. It really helps a person. This is how Allah has
created this is the reality that when you don't get something when
you've tried to get it, you've done everything that you have
tried to get it and you didn't get it So alhamdulillah what else are
you going to do afterwards? Why don't you assume that he's
prevented? You mean he's going to give you something better? Because
that's a reality it happens. That's why ignore louder
and higher team. Ignore RBL Hi, Timmy says either monitor further
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just summing up this thing. He says that if you have been
prevented, and that's his giving, and if you were given, and that
could be his prevention, that could be him preventing. So choose
the abandonment, over the acquisition sometimes that's
better for you. And I think this is all summed up with the verse
that I read right in the beginning, Allah subhanaw taala
says what inserter Bacara as an integral who shaitan Hahaha You
don't like? What I said unto him? Boo shaitan Whoa, Sheldon lecom
Allah Who Yalom want to military, the moon. Right? That perhaps you
dislike something, whereas it's actually better for you. And
sometimes you love something, you prefer something but it's actually
bad for you. You don't know Allah subhanaw taala knows everything
But you don't know. If you say you're believers in Allah. Right?
And you don't get this. What kind of a belief do you have in Allah
subhanaw taala? If this is, if it's not if your belief in Allah
subhanaw taala is not going to help you here. What is the point
of that belief?
The belief in Allah subhanho wa Taala should be so active, should
be so active, that it should benefit you in everything. It
should be part of everything because that's how the belief in
Allah is Allah the belief in Allah should be totalizing effecting
everything that we know, if it's only going to come when we pray,
or if it's only supposed to come when we sit and remember him, then
what about the rest of life? Isn't that a place that's more a place
in fact, where we need Allah because that's when you need to
make decisions. So Allah should be there at the forefront in
everything that we do, whether that's something that you've just
received as enjoyment. If you do a business and you receive good
business, you need to be thanking Allah for that. And you'll only
get more if you receive the shortcoming then you need to
realize exactly the the nasiha of today. So may Allah subhanaw taala
grant us that let us read what she had the luck and go here Rahim.
Allah says about this as well. He says it. So this is based on this
aphorism Rabbana our taka from an aqua Obama Mina Agatha our talk
sometimes he gives while depriving you and sometimes he deprives you
in giving the off it often happens that on account of the worldly
adornments luxuries and pleasures that Allah Most like grants one,
one becomes a moderately involved in these mundane activities. To
the extent that one is deprived of the success and sweetness of
obedience Halawa, Iman had our dilemma to the extent that one is
deprived of the success and sweetness of obedience. When the
ego is engaged in the pleasures of the world. It cannot experience
the pleasures of obedience.
When we're so focused on small screens, right, even large screens
when they so focused on them, we don't
Focus on the screen of this world.
So we can't see Allah subhanaw taala because we're so
concentrated on artificial things.
That actually, Allah is saying, look around, but we're so focused
on something smaller, Ramadan is coming.
And that's the time to open up the hearts to open up the spiritual
heart. That's where Allah says, sends it to us.
So, he then says, it also often happens that one's deprivation of
worldly pleasures, is regarded as a misfortune. However, one is
given the success and sweetness of worship in lieu of it. The servant
should not therefore focus his gaze on the superficial, worldly
bestows and deprivations he should understand the reality, the Haqiqa
of everything and discharge the right of every occasion. May Allah
subhanaw taala grant us a true understanding and implementation
of this so that we can actually
remain content with the decree of Allah subhanaw taala here that
we're not until hamdu Lillahi Rabbil Alameen olam and
the Quran Allah on the same as any minor so you're going to Mohammed
Varna and you see that maybe one day because the name Allah forgive
us yeah Allah forgive us God Allah forgive us. Yeah Allah purify us.
Yeah, Allah grant us forgiveness for our shortcomings, our wrongs,
our defects that were excesses of Allah, those we remember,
especially those that we've forgotten. Oh Allah, make the rest
of our life better than the previous part of our life. Make
every subsequent day better, and superior and make the best of our
days.
Our final days, Oh Allah, allow us to stand in front of you. And we
love to meet you and you want to meet us Oh ALLAH contest your love
and love of those whose love benefits us in your calls. Oh
Allah grant us love of your obedience and our Allah. Grant us
hatred for your disobedience. Oh Allah make your love Beloved to
us. Oh Allah, we asked you shower your * with your generosity,
your benevolence, your clemency, your forbearance? Oh Allah showers
at the mercy of Allah showers with your Rama. Allah grant us your
light and allow us to see by your light both in this world, but
especially in the hereafter. Oh Allah bless all of those who hear
and are law who are listening to this love bless those who
facilitated this in our life accept us and our Allah allow all
of our permissible needs and projects to be fulfilled and
completed accept us all for the service of your deen and prevent
us from all of those things which are worthless and useless and have
considered time wasted. No Allah grant us blessings in our work in
our jobs and in our businesses and in our investments in our assets,
especially regarding the hereafter. Oh Allah accept and
allow us to full follow in the footsteps of our messenger
Muhammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam grantors his company in the
hereafter. Subhanallah because our beloved city and Milesi foreigner
Salam anonimo Sabina Al Hamdulillah