Abdur Rahman ibn Yusuf Mangera – 1 3 Prayers for Forgiveness
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This topic about a stick for repentance, seeking forgiveness,
it's a very vast topic, even though
it seems to be something very simple, something that
doesn't sound so comprehensive, so vast, so
expensive.
And that's what we're going to try to inshallah better understand it.
So Inshallah, if we better understand this, then hopefully,
we can do a better job at so far. The way I look at so far, as
we've discussed, actually, in the beginning of the press forgiveness
book, which will be Inshallah, in the second part of this session,
we'll be looking at some of the STL file from Hassan bacillary
Rahmatullah here are they, because they're very profound. And they've
really opened up our eyes to what is the fire is all about, I'm just
going to
start off with
I'm just going to start off with one just to give us an
understanding of how in depth the the whole institution of a stick
fire is, because it relates to our deepest thoughts. It relates to
some of the most important decisions we make in our life, it,
it relates to habit, it relates to what we do at different times. And
the way we think and the way we approach things, I think it just
permeates every aspect of our life. Because that's what stick
fire is about, isn't it? It's about making sure that if we've
done anything against how Allah subhanaw taala has wanted us to
be, how Allah subhanho wa Taala has directed us to be, whether
that be in what we've been thinking about, whether that's
been in our practice, what we've said, what we've done to someone,
what we haven't done, that Allah subhanaw taala has told us to do,
and essentially where we've been absent from Allah subhanaw taala
has told us to be, or we've been present where Allah subhanaw taala
has told us not to be right, whether that be in mind, or body,
or however that may be so it's so far relates to all of these
things. And the way it relates to all of these things is that it's
that boundary between us and the great place in general for those
and
essentially staying away from hellfire. So when you look at it
like that, so for example, I'll just take one of Hassan Busey
Rahmatullah This is too far he says
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is a torta who Allah. Yeah.
So that's one of them. And the other one is Allah who may need a
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Torani ally, for no way to a tuba ileka Minh, who were on sea to an
estoppel federal caminho and Sonny has shaytaan. Now, just these two,
and I picked them at random. They embody the whole challenge that we
have, and our day to day life. And, and the approach of a decent
Muslim who tries to do the best, who wants to make a step far, who
wants to make amends this, these two, they essentially embody that
entire thought. So we're talking about number 22. And number 23.
The first one, Oh Allah, I seek Your Oh Allah, I seek your
forgiveness. For every sin upon which I embarked, thinking, well
have you? So I embarked on this sin thinking well of you that Oh,
you're gonna forgive me.
He's forgiven. He's never done anything to me in the past. I've
done so many sins and nothing's happened yet. I haven't reached
any disgrace in this world. You know, nobody's found out about it.
Essentially, I've been successful. I've been successful in this sin.
I mean, that's the whole thing. I've done it. I've done it
successfully. Nobody's found out nothing's happened.
You understand?
And that's essentially what we're speaking about.
So I'm doing this sin. So I'm seeking forgiveness for every sin
Which I embarked upon thinking well of you having good thoughts
about you that you're, you're really good, you're going to
forgive me, you're compassionate. You're very merciful. You're just
going to forgive me, as you've done in the past, I'm going to do
anything to me.
And that you would forgive me for it and not punish me.
And then it says, he says Ivus audaciously, continued in
committing sins, while relying with my knowledge of your
generosity
on you not to disgrace me after having concealed it for me all the
time in the past. So since I've been doing this since I was 15
years old, you might say, right, and you've never disgraced me.
I've never had a problem. Nobody's ever found out this dark secret of
mine. So I continue to do it, because I've never been disgraced.
Now, that's when I first picked up these Istighfar. Right. And I
started reading them, they were just amazing, because they just
tell you every aspect of your life, it's the inner struggles,
it's the challenges. It's the challenge of a believer, not of a
non believer, not of somebody who doesn't care for the hereafter
doesn't care about Allah who doesn't care about anything like
that. Because then that person is just additionally audaciously
going to be boldly going to be committing sins over and over and
over again, enjoying them, justifying them thinking that
absolute rights is free will to do so. And he's got, you know,
there's no, there should be no hindrance. This is you live the
you you live this life once, right, enjoy it, you know, just do
it, and so on. I mean, these are the kinds of things that people
are challenged by. But this is still far here. This prayer for
forgiveness reflects a believer who's challenged between the two.
And
it's related
by one of the
scholars that once shaytaan he
put himself
he came to this profit,
pretending that he's going to help him out. Right? Like, can I come
and give you some advice? So the Prophet immediately recognized him
and said, you know, what kind of advice you're going to give me get
away from him? And then he said, No, no, he took this opportunity.
He said to him, I believe this was about Yeah, he Alehissalaam that's
it's related. Either way, the moral of the story is very
interesting, right? So he says to him, that
tell me categories of people that you deal with, in terms of your
stress level shaytaan stress level, how shaytaan deals with
different types of people and how they are a challenge to you?
Because obviously, not everybody's probably so easy for shaitan,
right? There's people that are going to be difficult for him to
overcome. So who are these people? And you know, give us the
categories? He says to tell him tell the truth. He said that the
first category, right? So shaytaan, agreed, shaytaan agreed
to analyze the people that he's dealing with as human beings, and
probably Jen as well and tell him
tell the Prophet, what people are like. So you said the first group
that the most irritating,
they do not let us sleep is talking about the shale team, the
Shaytaan, The Devil's in general, he says that the first group of
people that we deal with among the human beings, for example, the
servants of Allah,
they are the most irritating, they really causes major hassle. We
have to constantly be on our feet, they don't let us rest. You know,
they are really depressing. Because we sometimes we think
we've succeeded, but then we find out that we haven't succeeded. And
they're constantly like that. They are always a challenge for us.
Right? So we suddenly think that, you know, we've got them on our
side, and suddenly they've gone again, and then we have to go
after them again. We just have to be on our feet. We just go We've
attack them. And then we've come back and then we've heard Oh, no,
they've turned around again, who are these people? They're the
people who do wrong. But then immediately make us think for
the people who do wrong and they make a stick for then they do
wrong again. So we think we've succeeded, but then they make a
stick for the Matoba they repent to Allah subhanaw taala right. So
we have to go back again, you know, we have to go back and chase
them again. And they just keep doing this over and over again.
And they are the most depressing lot for us.
Personally, I believe that that is Mashallah. That is the, you know,
a significant proportion of the Muslims like that. Right, which is
really good.
Since then, the second category are those who we have absolutely
no problem with, they're guaranteed for us, you know, they
they're sorted in the sense that they are totally misguided by us,
and they're comfortable in that misguidance and we don't have to
worry
about them at all, you know, they are secure investment. They don't,
you know, it's sorted. And the third group are those who we've
tried and we failed with them. And they're very secure in their piety
in their connection with Allah subhanaw taala. These are, of
course, those who Allah subhanaw taala has given the tofield. And
who've crossed the threshold, you know that first category, they've
crossed the threshold where they've tried and trade and made
enough effort against themselves that they've purified the heart
and they've made, they've allowed the good part of them to dominate
the bad part. So they just have less problems.
Now, they're not prophets, prophets will never have a problem
because they're divinely protected by humans, that the remaining
human beings including the Sahaba, they're not divinely protected
from error where they can never do it. That way, they can never,
never commit a sin. Only prophets have Masumi or Esma, which is
divine protection, infallibility, everybody else who is fallible, so
even the most pious wali of Allah subhanaw taala. Beyond the
prophets, what they mentioned is that even he will might slip
sometimes because of just what it means to be a human being we could
slip sometimes, but the difference between a weenie of Allah subhanaw
taala, and somebody who is not a Wali, and who hasn't exerted
themselves enough to become a weenie of Allah, right, is that
when the nun Wali, the non Friend of Allah, that the one who's not
so close yet, right, when he falls down, he finds it much more
difficult to get up and get back on track and start running again.
And it could stay down for a much longer time. Whereas the worry of
Allah, they might suddenly fall down for a while they might fall
down, but they immediately get up and carry on. So they're rebounds,
right? They come back as much faster, because that's the more
permanent state. And the other way that has been explained by some
scholars is that
the person who is close to Allah subhanaw taala, is is already on
the path and has crossed the threshold and tried in their life
to purify themselves and they've removed the, you know, the
shaytani influences, and they've dominated themselves, then they
like the trained horse. So although the trained horse is
still a beast, at the end of the day, it's still a wild beast, and
it could return to its wildness once in a while. Right? There's no
doubt about that, because that's the way animals are, they're well
trained, but sometimes it could just be in one of those hormone
problems, or whatever it may be, and just go off track, but then
they come back on track, because they trained, and they constantly
in that training, whereas a non trained horse, you know, you've
got more risk with them. So that's essentially the way described by
them. The second mistake for that I want to
mention here, the one I read already, which is 22 said, Oh
Allah, I seek your forgiveness for every sin that I committed in
front of you, knowing full well that you are watching me, yeah,
Allah.
So sometimes when we're committing a sin, it actually comes to us
that Allah is watching us, but the heat of the sin, the enjoyment and
the pleasure that we're gaining is just so much
that
even though Allah subhanho wa Taala is watching us, I don't know
what kind of justifications we may be making, at that time. Maybe
thinking, Allah subhanaw taala
I hope he forgives me or we will probably just try to in fact
the fact that we even think that Allah is watching us at the time
is a good thing.
But you know what most people will probably do at that time when
they're in the heat of the moment. They will actually take the
thought of Allah subhanaw taala away from their mind their hearts
ajeeb Allah is coming in our hearts. Right, which, generally
for 24 hours, if Allah was in our heart, that'd be great. In this
case, we've got some goodness out there. So it's, it's emerging,
Allah is coming into our hearts. But we actually ignore it at that
time because the sin is a bit more important for us.
So
Oh Allah, I seek your forgiveness for every sin like that, where I
committed which I committed in front of you, knowing full well
that you are watching me.
Now that's serious, deep thought, isn't it? When he says I intended
to, I intended to turn towards you in repentance for it.
But I was made to forget to invoke your forgiveness. I wanted to make
a stick far as well afterwards.
But I was made to forget.
So now he's obviously saying somebody made me forget who was
it? It will shaytaan that made me forget.
Now
you can only
do that in justification in front of Allah subhanho wa taala. When
you're in that form of regret, you can't blame everything on the
shaytaan, just like that, oh Shangela is going to make me do
it, I'm going to do it tomorrow.
Right?
I'm going to do it because shaytans making me forget, you
can't rely on that for the future, you can't rely on that to justify
something that you want to do. But when it comes in front of Allah
subhanaw taala, then you can start blaming the shaytaan. Because you
genuinely want forgiveness.
Right? So you can say what shaytaan made me forget, I'm
really, you know, and so on. But you can't then say, I'm going to
say that and carry on like that, that can't be the thought in our
mind.
So Inshallah, in the second part, we'll be covering more of Hussen
Basirhat alleles is still far, and looking at them in a bit more
depth. But for now, I want to start off with something else.
The main thing that I want to speak about is, I think, if we
provide a modern day,
if we if we provide a modern day example, or a parable, right, in
our lives,
right now, my computer could work faster.
Right? My desktop is cluttered.
It doesn't look very good.
And, you know, sometimes if you've got a phone, there's certain
phones they need to be, you know, they don't have enough memory on
it. For example, some of these Windows Phones recently, somebody
had one and you can't download any more apps, because there's just
not enough space.
So what do you have to do, you have to either reset it,
or you have to spend hours and hours cleaning it up.
So that it works a bit faster, then you defrag it, you know, you
somehow get rid of the junk files, you get rid of the temp files, you
get rid of
links and other things that you're not so you don't need. Same with
email.
If you have a lots of email, and then suddenly you're looking for
something unless it's been properly indexed, and that is very
difficult. And eventually, over time, you might have kept an email
there for a while like thinking I might need it. And then after
that, you you going through your emails after three years, like I
haven't had to consult this email for three years. And I really need
you can start getting rid of this stuff. Essentially, there's a
cleansing that's required in all of these things. Otherwise, it
just doesn't work fast enough. Likewise, with our cars as well,
you need a service once in a while, you need to change the bad
oil, right, you need to change the fluids, you need to maybe some
worn out parts need to be updated. You need to just spark plugs etc.
Same thing with our life we can't just keep going on without is too
far. Because we pick up a lot of junk on the way there's things if
not major sins that somebody blatantly does or missing of Salah
to whatever the case is, then there's definitely minor sins that
you continue to do they become major, and that's what becomes
problematic. So
there's a hadith that's related by Montero maybe from Abu Huraira,
the Allahu Anhu.
He relates that the Prophet salallahu alayhi salam said that
when a believer commits a sin,
a black dot appears on the heart. When when a believer commits a sin
a black dot appears on the heart. If he repents and seeks
forgiveness, then this black.is removed and the heart remains
pure. Now we're assuming that we started off with a clean heart.
Right? And this one dot has appeared. So we're starting off
we're talking about somebody who's just become mature, right? They've
had a clean heart. They're coming into the real world, right? We
shaytaan is not going to Washington's been attacking
anyway. But now they're responsible for their deeds and
actions. black dot appears make us think far. Imagine if we were
taught to make a stick far from a young age. And it was dominant in
us we'd be purified, we'd be it'd be so much easier. Right? You
know, some of you have a white cloth, right? You have white
cloth. Now, eventually, after three or four years of wearing it
and washing it all the time, eventually, it's not going to be
the same as a brand new white cloth. It's going to be slightly
it's going to look worn out. It's not going to be it's not going to
have the same sparkle. That's why in India, I remember some of the
students and others they would actually use this what they call
the blue indigo. Right? They would actually put that into the water
when they would wash their clothes because after years it starts
looking worn out. So they actually put a bluish hue to it to the
cloth so it looks a bit more sparkling. Right.
But at the end of the day, it's there's nothing like new The thing
about the heart though is that it can become like new because Allah
subhanaw taala can make the sins to be full
cuttin that's why he said it will make them become in love
amberleigh The one who seeks forgiveness or repent from sins,
He's like the one who has no sins. So although he knows that this
person had committed a sin before, and it may be even in the books
and so on, but the those angels and so on who are going to deal
with you, and the people in the world, the Olia of Allah subhanaw
taala, who can, you know, kind of gauge sometimes the status of a
person sometimes, right? Because you get the vibe, I mean, this is
not miraculous or anything like that. I mean, sometimes you sit
with a person, you can just by the way they speak, by the way they
move, you can tell whether, you know, these guys on the right
track or not. I mean, sometimes you can just tell that just by the
haircut sometimes, right? Just sometimes by what they're wearing,
or just the way they move themselves. It's that simple. So
So can you imagine that what we're speaking what this hadith is
speaking about is somebody with a clean heart just got $1. And he
made one mistake, one, you know, one one sin. So Buddha, the alarm
relates that the prophets, Allah, some said, when he seeks
forgiveness for that sin, it becomes purified, he's got a clean
heart again. And then these blocks, if he advances in the sin,
though, and he doesn't seek forgiveness, then the black dots
increase one after the other. Now even you know, if you take the
heart, how, however, Allah subhanaw taala has,
you know, has, would you call it depicted this, what he exactly
means by that Allah knows best exactly what we mean by heart? Is
it representing something where the black dots really appearing on
our hearts? Are they appearing somewhere else? Right? Clearly, we
know that the heart is a cardiological.
It's an organ of the body that pumps the blood, but then he also
has a spiritual element to it. And only in the last 2030 years, are
the neuro psycho cardiologists discovering that the heart
actually has the same kind of neurons around the brain that it
does, it does comprehend things as well. And before that, they just
thought it was the organ and the brain was the organ that thought,
whereas the heart was just a pumping organ for the rest of the
body. But now they're discovering that know, the same kind of cells
that are available in the brain are also available in the heart.
And more and more is being understood. This is what the
element of Islam have been saying for years and years because the
prophets and Larson said from before that there is this Mudra in
the heart, there is this piece, there is this piece of flesh in
the body, which is the heart, which If sound is sound, the whole
body will be sound, otherwise, the whole body will be corrupted, that
is corrupt. Now, we know that every piece of fat, you know,
every bit of fat, and cholesterol, and all of these things that
create a problem in the heart, right around the heart. So the
same kind of thing can be understood through sins. I mean,
we have Subhanallah we have so much graphic detail this these
days, about the way these things influence our hearts. And I'm sure
we can just put, you know, every bit of cholesterol every bit of
whatever, into these black dots. So the Prophet sallallahu Sallam I
mean he was very graphic when he said when he said this, he says if
he advances in the sense, the black dots increase until they
overcome his heart, these black dots can still constitute the
incrusted pollution run gullible Rana Allahu
Allah subhanho wa Taala mentions that in the Quran, Ron comes from
Ratan which refers to rust. It's a pollution. Right? It's corrosive
is it's corroded, essentially, that's what it is from an
spiritual sense.
He says these black dots eventually they constitute the
incrusted pollution that Allah Almighty refers to in the verse,
no indeed, colorable bill, but in crusted over their heart is what
they have earned.
As Allah subhanaw taala mentions.
Now the problem with that I
can say, well, it doesn't matter. Let it build up, I will sort it
all out. Right? electric toothbrush, right? Somebody who
doesn't brush their teeth, they use an electric toothbrush is not
gonna make a difference is, but essentially, if we think that let
it accumulate, and then we'll just clean it one day, right, because
we all want to make Toba. I mean, everybody wants to make Dover
that's a believer, generally. It's just that life doesn't always give
them the ability to do so. But that's not the problem here. The
problem here is not that am I going to get a chance to do Toba
or not, that's not the problem.
There's a worse problem. There's a bigger issue here. The bigger
issue is that once the heart has this interest, it becomes blind,
unresponsive to spiritual realities and that is the bigger
problem. So the more that becomes incrusted on it, the less likely
we have to get out of it.
That I believe is the biggest problem because if it's just about
okay we'll do is take four once a week, call us no problem. But when
we do is when we get round to do
fingerstick for once a week, how many of us have heard Beyonce
lectures read about a stick father we think we need to do is take
four should do it every day. And you know, with real concentration,
Sirius is different not just reading stuff or lust for Allah
without reading real foot. Right? So, but we don't get round to
doing it, why don't we get around to doing it? It's because when
there's so much on our hearts already, it actually pre makes a
prevention a barrier
from any spiritual reality is coming in any necie head that we
listened to really penetrating our heart is going to have to be a
serious Naziha.
So we're not we don't feel inspired to do things, it effects
our prayer effects are solid. We don't feel good in our prayer. We
don't feel like even praying, sometimes, we don't feel too bad
if we miss the prayer. So that is the problem with the hearts that
when it becomes encrusted like this, it's not just about removing
it. It's what it does. In the meantime, when he's not removed
that it prevents good things from coming in there. It prevents us
from being receptors of good.
I mean, the simple example is you got a dirty cup, right? leftover
from somebody saying you want some milk in it.
It's just not going to be nice, it's going to be polluted.
Right but at least you can put some milk in there but in this
case if you become so bad that there is no colorable Rana Allah
coulby him, in fact, Allah subhanaw taala when he discusses
in the Quran,
how he mentioned well Baba Allahu Allah coleauxv But Allah subhanho
wa Taala has sealed their hearts. Now he didn't just choose a few
people at random, right? Right from a young age and says I'm
going to seal their hearts and we're gonna be able to do good.
The reason why their hearts are sealed is because of the wrong
they did in the first place. Of course, Allah knew he was going to
do this because he knew what people were going to do with their
own free will. But people have done and there are certain
mistakes, certain, certain sins, certain things that we say that
actually eventually prevent a person from gaining guidance. And
if Allah subhanaw taala well taba Allahu Allah kuruva him, if Allah
subhanaw taala puts this on their hearts, then after that it becomes
locked.
But we can't blame Allah subhanaw taala for that, because he didn't.
He did that as a punishment as a response to something that we were
doing. Not that Oh, I just don't like that guy, right from an
island like that kid and I'm just going to do that to him.
Because Allah subhanho wa Taala didn't create individuals to just
send them to * for nothing.
He sent them to be successful. That's where he started off in
paradise, or the mighty Hassan went to paradise. And then Allah
subhanaw taala wanted to wanted people to achieve paradise for
themselves. So he sent other money salaam, you know, through an
incident that took place, he sent him back to the earth, okay, now
go and try and do your best. And then we'll see who goes to
paradise and who goes to hellfire.
So that is, I believe the worst thing. That's why, for example,
one thing that we hear some people like to go around saying that
anybody who misses three, Friday, June was men, right? Who misses
three Friday Juma prayers, that Kaffir that's what a lot of people
say, right? They go on warning for your brother, you're gonna be a
cough. And if you do that, right, you're not a Muslim anymore if you
miss three Fridays. Now, that's not what the Hadith says.
But that could be the end result of what the Hadith says. What the
Hadith says is that anybody who misses three consecutive Friday
prayers is referring to men in particular, right? Because Friday
prayers, not July is not necessarily women. Right? Allah
subhana their hearts become sealed.
hearts become sealed means that now the goodness is not going to
enter. So if goodness is not going to enter, they're not going to
have Tofik divine guidance in inclination to go and make Toba
and to do good deeds, even if you've missed three Friday
prayers, it takes a lot to do that.
It takes a lot to miss three Friday prayers. Of course, the
Hadith mentions not the person who does it out of a valid excuse. But
the person who does it thinking lightly of it.
Thinking lightly of it is not that important. We're busy people I'm
sure Allah will understand. I'm sure this is only for people in
the villages. There is I'm saying this because somebody who said
that to me. Really nice guy that, that I knew once right? He was in
our community, another community and very wealthy guy and
everything like you know, you're such a nice guy should come from
Friday prayers and so on, you know, necessary so but and this is
what the Prophet sallallahu even mentioned this hadith to him, And
subhanAllah it looks like the effect of that was there already.
So you know what he said to me, he said but the Sahaba and that they
weren't as busy. You know, that was kind of more farmers and
things like that they could take time.
stuff like that. That's the gist of what he said, not his exact
words. But that's the gist of what he said.
So
you can only say something like that out of ignorance, because you
don't have the knowledge
of the importance of this task. And then when you even hear about
it, you're able to justify it differently. Because your
projection of what you think you are, and what we think we are in
this world is different from, you know what we think somebody else
was SubhanAllah.
Believe me, everybody, in every time and age is always going to
think they're busy.
Compared to some previous time, it's all relative, at the end of
the day, you think people in the past thought they just had these
long lives, and, you know, they weren't busy. They were busy in
their own right, but the world just moved according to, or their
mind was actually just made up in terms of the way they were world
moved.
Probably, you know, 100 years down is going to be different. They're
going to think we had a lot of time. Whereas we absolutely do not
have a lot of time. As your grandparents did you guys have a
lot of time. Yeah, they might relatively say in terms of what
they see now and what they saw in the young age. And we can say the
same thing. Did we have more time when we were young, only maybe 10
years ago, 20 years ago, didn't we have a bit more time?
Right, used to be playing out all day long, and it was such a long
day, and not a day just goes past. That's just that's just a
different thing.
So we must, that is what Ramadan is really a good time for that to
make lots and lots of Istighfar because there's no shaytaan to
take us away from it. That's the benefit of Ramadan. You can do all
of these things without the attack. Because any other time you
do it, you go on and suddenly it's there again. Right suddenly you
you feel like doing the cylindrical shaytan is going to be
constantly attacking with the benefit of Ramadan, you've got
about 30 days to just keep doing this thing called Clean, clean,
clean, and purify, purify, purify, and hopefully by the end of it the
heart is clean.
And the benefit of data that I've seen is that if you try to get a
pure heart in Ramadan as pure as possible, it will last you for
several months.
So it will take much longer for things to effect you that effected
us before Ramadan before this last Ramadan
that's why one person said that he did a lot of effort in Ramadan it
was one Ramadan a few Ramadan ago, and then he counted he saw it I
mean, he had Hamdulillah he after Ramadan, he was able to abstain,
abstain, abstain from these wrongs that he used to generally do. And
then after about seven months, I think it was an end of the seven
months or eight months or something like that. He said that
he committed that actor again. But seven months was a record for him.
He couldn't go, you know, a few weeks without committing the bad
act that he was talking about. He said he'd stuck it for seven
months. And then after that, it started going and then he had to
wait for next Ramadan. I don't know what happened after that for
the next subsequent Ramadan. But essentially Ramadan is the time
when there is no influence of the shaytaan. So it's just about
removing these these things and doing lots and lots of good deeds
so that light comes into our heart, so that inshallah it can
take us for the next 11 months. But if Ramadan is seriously spent
properly, I believe it could probably take us for the next 11
months without much of a problem. That means making lots of lots of
stuff or asking Allah subhanaw taala for help, and doing lots and
lots of good deeds, and the fast that helps us as well.
So how does one clean the hut, Allah subhanaw taala he's promised
cleanliness of the hearts of a purification of the hearts through
Of course, remembrance of Him. The more time we remembering him is
going to keep us away from doing wrong things anyway, thinking of
the wrong things, planning wrong things plotting, and so on so
forth. And that when the more newer that comes into our heart,
it pushes the blackness away. So the more thicker we do, it pushes
the blackness away. It strengthens the heart essentially, that's
probably what vicar does when you say La ilaha illa, Allah Subhan
Allah hamdulillah Allahu Akbar, what it does is that it
strengthens the heart against what's going to happen in the
future. So that we'll have more resistance. So really, at the end
of the day, if we are
making lots of mistakes far.
So we repenting from sins, but we keep pulling them back into them,
then maybe what's missing is that we're not doing enough so far. So
our heart isn't strong enough. It's like a guy, he's going to
people in the, you know, in his block of flats or whatever it is,
right? And they constantly make him do something. He doesn't want
to do it. But he can't resist either because he doesn't have
enough support. He doesn't have enough self confidence right there
his friends at school or whatever they want to go out to smoke. He
doesn't really enjoy smoke. He hates this stuff, but the only he
has to do it because he's too weak. And if he doesn't do it,
then he'll be ridiculed made a mockery of and so on.
How is he going to gain strength? How is he going to get self
confidence. So that's what it is. I remember there was one guy in
the madrasa and people used to make fun of him all the time. It
was his big guy. But people used to make fun of him all the time.
And he was like a fool.
I remember he was burned by tea, hot tea fell on him. So he he left
for about three or four months. Right, he left for about three or
four months to go to hospital, he went back home. Now this was in in
a madrasa. He went to whichever city he was from, and then he came
back after, you know, four or five months, or whatever it was. And I
remember after that he just had this amazing self confidence that
he should have had a long time ago. He no longer was that full.
And that's why when certain people tried to make fun of him, he was
able to respond in a way that
told them Don't mess with me.
I actually saw that change. I mean, this is an individual change
that I saw. I mean, I'm telling you, whenever you pass, even young
kids would make fun of this guy.
Right? It's just a mock. It was just, you know, like this thing
that everybody would make fun of him. But when he came back, he
sorted himself out. In fact, I think he was an overly confident
right so he was getting everybody back, it seems afterwards. But
that's what we need with with when there's no strength in the heart,
then we can't resist.
That's why even if it is a small as just reading is too far,
but with concentration Subhanallah Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akbar
salawat and the prophets Allah Allah so even 100 times each a day
helps a lot because it strengthens us the next time we want to
abstain so if we're just going to make a stick one we want to
abstain we don't like it. We feel bad about it. But we're not
getting anywhere we keep failing, failing, failing falling then
let's read some Quran. With concentration let's connect
ourselves with Allah subhanaw taala and that will give us
inshallah the resistance.
So it's still for seeking forgiveness, repentance Toba
remembrance of Allah subhanaw taala humbly turning to Allah
subhanaw taala in penitence, which means just saying, Look, Allah, I
want to come back to you. I've been away from you. I want to come
back to you. So that kind of Toba
and the prophets of Allah Islam despite being inerrant, it's
mentioned in one Hadith that he's sick for 70 times a day in another
it says 100 times a day. Why does he need to make so much as the
fall and we can't even make it at one time a day? Right? And you can
imagine a here's a stick for was not just like this, the speed that
he used to do like spawn as possible. Now, let's get it out of
the way could you have to do 100? You know, these are the people who
have actually managed to do this B. I know the people who are not
doing anything, the people who are doing this B already swung as far
as well, you know, and so on. So that's why Robbie, but three,
Robbie about three or she used to say that is still far Oh, now
Yeah. Third, you realize the four
hour so far are in need of a stick for. So seriously, we could tell
Allah subhanaw taala you know, the Toba I'm making because we're not
fulfilling all of their conditions. Or like, just forgive
me for making a joke. They're not serious. It's too far.
What's the benefit then, of doing so far and purifying ourselves?
One we've already said that, you know, it removes the obstacle from
good deeds. The another way to look at it is that when people
run, right, when you're going to go hiking or climbing, or running,
there are special clothing, right, the special clothing that you get
for yourself.
Right, I discovered half of these things, you know, a few months
ago, when I had to go climbing. So one is don't wear cotton. Because
cotton attracts the sweat. And it gets heavy. And then suddenly, if
it gets cold, you'll feel cold because it's wet. And if it gets
hot and sunny, you'll get too hot. Right? So what should you get now
they've got climber cool. Right? I don't know which company that is.
But it's climber cool. Essentially made of 100% polyester, I believe
that wicks away the heat. You've got boots that are you know, that
are waterproof, but a breathable, any jackets like that that are
waterproof. They don't let the rain in, but at the same time they
breathable. So don't and then you're tall don't carry too much
stuff. You might feel like you know you're carrying or you don't
want to carry a whole kitchen up there they say, right? You want to
carry a few things.
Same thing with life. We are constantly facing irritations in
our life problems and we becoming depressed. And it's keeping us
away from the good deeds and so on is because we carry a lot of
baggage,
baggage of sin. And that's what the problem is. We're burden we're
running with this big mountain of sins on our back
And that's why we don't feel like doing good things we just about
surviving. So by making a mistake for him removes that burden. And
the question that, you know, we're going to do it again, fine. But at
least you're purified for the last, so many sins that we've
committed. Now we're starting again, okay, we might pick a few
more on the way but then we can, they'll be corrected again.
At the next time we make a stick far, which is tomorrow.
Allah subhanaw taala says that even if you're making it this many
times, you know, 70 100 times a day, but you're making Toba after
it, I'm willing to accept your job as long as it's sincere.
Allah says I will never like stop
accepting your Tober because even a person who is a Kaffir, his Toba
will be accepted as long as he makes it. You might be thinking,
Well, you said that, you know, three, three, Fridays, if you miss
them, then Allah puts a seal on the hearts. How does that work
then? Right? How did you get the trophy? Well, it's simple. The way
you get the trophy is that if you are able to make the Tober then it
means that this lock will be broken, the seal will be will be
broken.
So the fact that you've made dough but Allah subhanaw taala is
willing to forgive a coffee that has been doing wrong all their
life.
So why not now? That's but the problem is that those states make
it very difficult to make dough but that's the problem but if
you're able to overcome it, because ALLAH SubhanA that is also
from the Tofik of Allah.
That is also from the Tofik of Allah.
Right, that you we get the Tofik to do good to make Toba even after
being out of it for such a long time.
So not only should we be making Toba but we should also be asking
ALLAH SubhanA wa Tada. And these are still far I think there's so
comprehensive that they they cover all of these points, that oh Allah
give us the Tofik to make Toba. Whenever we do fall down Allah
protect me from falling down, protect me from sinning but when
we do sin, then give us Tofik to make Toba and repent from that sin
because we are human beings and Allah subhanaw taala has told us
our nature.
You know, if the Prophet sallallahu sallam said so clearly,
he said that if you people were not sinners, then Allah will take
you away give you Jana
and then bring up another type of people who would sin but make us
the far so they'd have the ability to make a stick far and they would
sin. So if you people were like, like angels in the sense that if
that's how I had made you, I don't have need for you though. Because
you are those who will fall down but you've got to wait to come out
of it.
And I think the main thing here is that if we look at the Quran,
Allah subhanaw taala says
yeah, but er Eva the Alladhina so for Allah and fusi him doc on a
tumor Rahmatullah.
For in New
York filled with Vinoba Jamia find Allah in Allah Yasuda Jamia in the
who will afford a Rahim that, oh my servants who have committed
excesses against themselves.
Yeah, EBA de are my servants. This is so different from a mother who
we know loves her child. And she's constantly you know, saying my
child my son, my this my my love my heart, my you know my
everything. Right?
But when the child does something wrong sometimes and the father
comes home and she's a bit angry at that time, sure that your son
is like this and your son's like, that's not my son anymore.
Your son is like this. He did this again, the husband's I think,
what's wrong? Well, how can we became my son today? I'm the bad
guy. Right? So becomes my son today. And when he's good, that
he's my son, my son, my son, or my daughter, right? So
Allah subhanaw taala is now addressing the people who've done
wrong. And he's saying, Oh, my servants, he's addressing them
directly or my sons, my servants. So we're servants to him says, All
My servants are my servants. Here I by the Alladhina, a software
alone for seeing all my servants who have committed excess against
themselves. So he's talking to us specifically,
that duckula To Mirabella don't think that I'm ever going to be
because sometimes you got people I mean, I've had these cases where
people have come in, they said, my dad, he's just unforgiving.
He's always favoring my brother. I can do everything. But my brother
does hardly anything. And it's always him. It's always him. He
gets give stuff to him. He talks nice about him. And he's always
criticizing me even though I'm the one who's doing one of his kedma
Sometimes you have parents who do that kind of stuff.
Do you understand sometimes you
Parents do that.
But Allah subhanaw taala is saying no Allah Tacna to me Rahmatullah.
I'm telling you you might not be willing to make the Toba you might
be feeling depressed and despondent and feeling like it's
so lost and so on, learn to connect to me Rahmatullah do not
become despondent of the mercy from the Mercy of Allah
Rahmatullah.
So now look at the beauty of the way this is even being said,
yah eBuddy so, first he said it in the first person, oh my servants,
because it's important there. Say My servants, it's important to
attach, attribute that to himself.
Yeah, a buddy AlLadhina asafo Allah unforeseen la takana to me
Rahmatullah. So he's giving the he's telling us do not become
despondent. Why? In the law, your follow through by Jimmy, then
here, he shifts. It's what you call this a pro Gnomeo shift. He
shifts from the first person to the third person. And then he
says, Because Allah forgives all sins. Right? Generally when we
write if we're writing in the first person will continue to say
and I will forgive all sins. But now it would it just more powerful
to say Allah will forgive all sins in the La Jolla FIRA de novo Jamia
because you're attaching the name of Allah there. They're saying My
servants in Madras close to because Allah will forgive your
sins. Right? So people know about Allah, the people know Allah. They
want Allah to forgive the sins. So the word Allah is used in a small
Gela they call it the name of majesty. That's Allah's Name of
majesty. So it's the most majestic one, he's going to forgive you,
Allah subhanaw taala is going to forgive you, He forgives
everything. Allah subhanaw taala very effectively in the Quran uses
these polynomial shifts, right to create more effect in the writing
in the speech.
And Allah subhanaw taala is offered on Rahim, Allah is the
most forgiving and the Most Merciful. So He's forgiving. So
when is somebody's forgiving, but if they've also got a merciful
nature, it means they're even more forgiving. So once you know you've
got somebody who's forgiving, right, there's generally forgiving
person, decent, sensible person. But he's, you know, the thing is
that sometimes you've got a very
forgiving person, but they're very principled. So they're still going
to punish you and take you to task for something, but they're
forgiving in general, right. But when you've got somebody who's
merciful on top of it, he's going to let go of a lot more than a
person who is not so merciful and more principled. As such, I want
to say principle, I mean, you know, who's gonna take, you know,
penny for a penny type of thing.
Right, but some people are more personally willing to overlook a
lot more. And as Allah subhanaw taala, he's most Merciful. And at
the same time, He's forgiving as well. Two beautiful titles that
he's bringing here, just to show even greater. So the whole effect
of that verse is that it's open Allah subhanaw taala, saying, I'm
here for you.
And finally, for this session, when somebody asks Allah subhanaw,
taala, if we get the trophy, we need to, we need to ask Him
earnestly.
You can't, we can't say things like,
sometimes you finish a salad. And if you know that, after every
salad, there's a there is a DOORS accepted. So a lot of people they
miss this point altogether, they're making Salah Al
Hamdulillah. And the Bronx, Allah Some said that one of the fastest
ways to be accepted, or those that will be accepted are those after
the fourth prayer. So you've made your first prayer, and you're off.
Now, if you've realized that, look, this is a chance that I
can't miss. What I tell my wife to I tell the students sometimes to
get it into their head is a look, if you don't want to make an I
think that was something somebody told me once maybe. So look, if
you've got, you've got this opportunity, after every prayer,
you've suddenly got this wish, your wish will be accepted after
every prayer, right? So your dollars will be accepted. Now, if
you're missing your wishes, and you got so many after every pray,
you're missing them, they don't accumulate, the times gone
afterwards. So if I've told the children a few times, and they
haven't done it, then what I'll say one day to them is
and I've told you guys so many times. Now I'm going to tell you
that after every Salaat if you don't want to make dua for
yourself as you seem not to be wanting to do because you just
walk off all the time, then please at least make it for your parents
and make me make it for me. So don't do it for yourself. It's
okay. But because you've got that every one of you every one of us
has the opportunity. We don't want to waste that opportunity because
we need to at least make it for your parents to sit down and make
dua for your parents after everything. Oh Allah make my
parents good. My parents gonna give them Barack I mean
give them this make my teachers whatever, just do it for them
because you owe it to them and do it for us. Don't do it for
yourself. It's okay.
The point is to make a habit of sitting down and doing it. That's
the whole struggle of life. I think that example just gives the
struggle of life so what happens sometimes is you're in a hurry, as
you're always right we're always in a hurry, aren't we? So it makes
we finished somewhere when we've done our soon enough and whatever,
we suddenly get up and go oh, I should do Ah, so we do do our
walking.
Right Subhanallah you just suddenly realized, you know, I
haven't made my dua today so you get up and you or sometimes what
I've noticed, I make a fast I've made a fast dua. Right. And maybe
I was thinking about something so I was thinking about something and
making you know, because eventually when you get used to do
us, you just make them with your tongue and you don't really put
your hearts in them. And then suddenly, you got to do anything
well I haven't made that do and you just make it as you go along.
Oh Allah give me that as well. But I mean, what is that dog going to
be accepted?
That's the question is that dog going to be accepted like walking
around you notice that you've gone to somebody to petition something
you petition a few things and then after that you walk in you
remember something because he didn't give me that as well
instead of going back there sitting down and say you know
there's another thing I forgot right if you don't mind is that
something else in you know, you're setting the scene again this like
your walk here is like oh, don't forget that one is not your friend
or you're speaking to here
you know, how many is so casual when he's gonna give it to you
regardless, they don't forget to bring that throw that thing in as
well.
It's not like that is it?
So that is the state of us but believe me, I think if we can just
focus off the every prayer to make dua
sustain that.
Right, whether it's straight after the fourth prayer or
after the Sunnah, Knuffle relax, and just make that two minute,
three minutes or whatever. And we actually make it with
concentration, the benefits of that come and there's no doubt of
it, that's where you get your stick for. You can't just make a
quick stick for because that's not a stick for a stick for is
something from the heart these words that we use, they just they
just carry us for it. So make a stick for earnestly we can't say
Oh ALLAH forgive me if you wish
to tell us that they mentioned that in the books but
I don't know. Does anybody do that? Oh ALLAH forgive me if you
wish.
Did you think people would do that?
Like be so so blatant.
Forgive me, if you wish. Why would they even ask? Maybe somebody
who's just really tired and depressed about something
anything? Nothing's happening.
become hopeless despondent, maybe he'll say something like that.
Forgive me, if you wish.
We might say it in attentively. We might see without concentration,
but I don't know if we would ever actually say it like that. unless
somebody's really depressing, just doesn't have any hope anymore. So
we're going to look at that aspect later.
Okay, Inshallah, we'll have a
10 minute break.