Yousuf Raza – I cheated on my fianc how do I live myself

Yousuf Raza
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The speaker discusses the struggles of relationships with
fiance, including guilt and negative

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			of it.
		
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			So this question comes from a 26 year
		
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			old gentleman, and I'm going to try to
		
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			change details as much as possible to maintain
		
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			anonymity and so you cannot understand or try
		
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			to reach as to who that person is.
		
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			Right?
		
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			So yeah, so this person, 26 year old
		
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			gentleman, God knows who he is, where he's
		
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			from, saying that he is struggling with his
		
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			relationship with his fiance.
		
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			He says that we've known each other since
		
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			our teenage and it's what's everything was okay.
		
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			We got engaged a couple of years ago,
		
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			and everything seems to be compatible.
		
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			Family is similar.
		
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			Education is similar.
		
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			All of that is good, but I don't
		
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			think she's comfortable with the idea of marrying
		
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			me for no apparent reason.
		
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			And we don't have that much of a
		
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			communication.
		
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			We're not on very good terms with each
		
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			other.
		
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			And we hardly ever talk.
		
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			Okay, so that's one part of the problem.
		
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			Second part of the problem, this gentleman says
		
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			that I have this guilt because I happened
		
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			to cheat on my fiance at some point,
		
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			there was some someone that I had an
		
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			intimacy with that I wasn't able to refuse.
		
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			And even though I realized my mistake, and
		
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			I thought never to do something like that
		
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			again, but that still haunts me that that
		
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			guilt is holding me back.
		
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			And that guilt is one of the reasons
		
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			why I feel that maybe it's just not
		
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			meant to be that my this is me
		
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			getting punished for a sin that I've committed.
		
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			And so I should just let it be.
		
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			Or he's saying that there's two options that
		
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			I have.
		
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			Should I be judge jury and executioner on
		
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			myself on the basis of that guilt and
		
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			back away?
		
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			Or I should let it continue for whatever
		
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			it is.
		
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			Okay, so my response to this particular gentleman
		
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			and his situation would be that if you
		
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			are to back away from this relationship, if
		
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			you are to stop considering continuing in this
		
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			particular relationship, guilt is not the reason.
		
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			See, guilt is one of the best teachers
		
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			that anyone can have.
		
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			But if the outcome of that guilt is
		
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			constructive, it is practical, if it is something
		
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			that we can take constructive, positive action as
		
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			a consequence.
		
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			For instance, you mentioned in this particular question
		
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			that you pose that you had that particular
		
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			action that you get according to your own
		
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			value system, according to your religious values that
		
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			you conform to and your commitment to your
		
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			fiance, that was something that you should not
		
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			have done.
		
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			And that's what your guilt is telling you
		
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			that a you had responsibility.
		
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			So you shouldn't have done it and be
		
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			you had the ability to not do it.
		
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			So you should not have done it.
		
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			Right.
		
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			So that's what guilt is teaching you.
		
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			Now you draw a lesson from that guilt
		
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			and you back away from any such action
		
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			in the future.
		
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			And you're holding yourself true to that.
		
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			And with whatever respect, you were unfaithful, let's
		
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			say you're trying to compensate, you're trying to
		
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			overcome that particular lapse in your relationship towards
		
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			that particular person, being more dutiful to them
		
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			being more sincere to them being more fulfilling
		
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			in your relationship towards them.
		
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			So you're doing all of that.
		
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			That's what guilt requires for you to improve,
		
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			not do what you did before and try
		
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			to continue to compensate practically rather than wallowing
		
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			in this self-hatred and the self-punishment.
		
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			That's not the kind of outcome we want
		
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			from guilt.
		
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			That's pathological.
		
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			That's the sickness that we don't want.
		
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			That's not something that's constructive.
		
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			That's actually for your personality, for your spirituality.
		
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			It takes you a step down.
		
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			It actually takes you on a downward spiral.
		
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			And we want to get the most benefit
		
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			out of guilt as possible rather than allowing
		
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			for that guilt to be used for our
		
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			own downfall.
		
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			Right?
		
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			So not because of the guilt do you
		
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			step out of this particular relationship.
		
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			But there are indications in your question that
		
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			your fiance does not seem to be interested.
		
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			If I were in your place, I'd be
		
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			very straight up in communicating and in telling
		
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			her that, listen, I love you or I
		
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			want to love you and I want to
		
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			love you for the rest of our lives.
		
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			But we got to get things straight here.
		
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			Is it me?
		
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			Are you not interested in me?
		
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			Is it something I said?
		
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			What is it?
		
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			We need to know.
		
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			Is it the idea of marriage?
		
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			Because we shouldn't be able to go on
		
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			like this.
		
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			Right?
		
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			So why is it that she's uncomfortable?
		
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			Maybe there is a possibility that coming from
		
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			the cultural values that you do or that
		
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			she may come from, she may be saying
		
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			that I don't want to get into any
		
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			particular emotional attachment prior to getting married.
		
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			Maybe that's her perspective.
		
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			Or if that's not the case and you
		
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			are the reason she's not happy with you
		
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			or she doesn't have any feelings for you
		
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			or maybe she has feelings for anyone else.
		
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			It doesn't matter.
		
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			You need to find out.
		
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			You need to have a conversation.
		
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			You need to have a candid conversation.
		
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			Bring these things on the table.
		
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			And if it is your guilt that is
		
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			holding you back from bringing these things on
		
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			the table, then don't let it.
		
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			Have that conversation.
		
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			Let her decide and respect that decision.
		
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			If it is family pressure that you guys
		
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			know each other, your families know each other,
		
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			that is forcing her to conform to this
		
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			relationship or she has a difficulty in saying
		
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			no, refusing you after two years of being
		
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			engaged to you and she's changed her mind
		
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			but she can't get herself to express that
		
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			she's changed her mind.
		
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			Whatever the situation may be, you need to
		
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			give her the room to express herself and
		
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			the room to make a choice that she
		
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			wants to make.
		
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			Sometimes the best action, the best manifestation of
		
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			your love for someone is letting them go.
		
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			So if that's what it is, if that's
		
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			what this particular relationship entails, by all means,
		
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			that's what it should be.
		
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			But you don't know that until you have
		
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			that conversation, until you find out what it
		
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			is that is keeping her back from not
		
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			participating in this relationship or giving off signs
		
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			that she's not interested, talk about it.
		
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			Because if you're not going to just assume
		
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			that, okay, fine, let's just let it go
		
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			the way it is.
		
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			Maybe once we're together, she'll fall in love
		
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			with me and everything will be hunky dory.
		
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			No, don't go for that.
		
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			You don't want to do that to you,
		
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			to yourself or to her.
		
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			That you take that risk that somebody does
		
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			not seem to be all that okay with
		
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			you and you make such a lifelong commitment
		
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			with them.
		
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			So I hope that somewhat addresses your issue.
		
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			Again, those of you who are listening in
		
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			similar situations, we draw lessons from it.
		
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			But do they apply to a particular situation?
		
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			We have to be very, very careful.