Omar Suleiman – Why Me #26 How Can I Accept That I am Dying
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The speakers discuss the concept of death and rebirth, including witnessing past mistakes and the importance of forgiveness and staying in a state of contentment to receive blessings. They also touch on the inspection of one's body for disease and the holy eye, with a mention of a book and a person with leprosy in all weapons. The importance of forgiveness and staying in a state of contentment is emphasized.
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If you were to just find out now
when exactly you were going to die,
how would you react?
Are you alarmed?
Fearful?
Angry?
Reminders of death come to you throughout your
life.
The death of your loved ones,
tragic deaths,
sudden deaths,
young deaths.
We hear the announcements
and witness the janazos.
And then you have near death experiences.
Your hair turning gray,
all the joy of people coming into the
world
only then followed by their seemingly untimely exit.
And all around us, we constantly witness the
death and rebirth of nature all the time.
Wakayim
min ayatinfisamaawati
walarliya murun a'alaiha wahumma'anha
mo'lidun.
How many signs in the heavens and earth
do they pass
while they continue to turn away?
And then the ultimate sign comes down that
cannot be ignored.
You're told that you only have a few
months to live.
You've stored so much in your heart,
and now you await the day
that its secrets will be divulged.
A few years ago I had a dream
where everybody
knew exactly when they were going to die,
and the graveyard
became like an airport.
Everybody knew that they had to go to
their grave
at a set time and they could take
with them only one suitcase.
And so in that dream, I'm taking someone
with me to the graveyard
and I'm trying to comfort them
as they're getting ready
to go to their new destination.
And I want you to imagine if that
was the way that we lived our lives.
Every single one of us had a clock
and we knew that once that clock expires,
we get dropped off there
and we take with us just that one
suitcase,
but with our good deeds.
You have a terminal illness.
It's not called cancer.
It's actually called life.
And in one narration, the prophet sallallahu alaihi
wasallam said, badiru bil aamali saban. Hasten to
do good deeds before you are overtaken
by 1 of 7 trials.
He said fakranmunsiyan
auhinan
mutghiyan
Poverty which causes you to forget your worship
or prosperity which corrupts
you. Awmardanmuffsidan
awharamanmufanidan
Disease that disables you or becoming senile in
a way that renders you immensely incapable.
Then he said, awmautanmujhizan
Awad dajal,
or sudden death, or ad dajal.
And then he finally said, Awisaaatafasa'aato
adha wa amar,
or the hour and how tragic and bitter
is the hour. And the prophet SallAllahu Alaihi
Wasallam used to seek refuge in Allah from
sudden death in multiple ways, mawturfuja'a.
Even though if that's what comes to you,
it's also good. Just as the case of
the shahid, the martyr who sees his place
in paradise no later than the first strike.
But if Allah has given you a diagnosis
where you're told that you're on your way
out,
or Allah gifts you to start to feel
like your time is coming
without anyone in this world even telling you.
It gives your family a chance to say
sorry
or goodbye,
and it gives you a chance to say
the same.
And it gives you all the chance to
turn back to Allah
and to beg him for his mercy and
guidance.
You have a chance to reflect on all
the moments when you didn't properly thank him,
and now you can say Alhamdulillah.
The blessings you may have taken for granted,
the sins you haven't yet repented for,
the good deeds that you can still do
and the good deeds you've done and hope
Allah accepts.
If Allah gave you a long enough life,
surely there are things in front of you
that make you proud, even as some things
in the past continue to make you ashamed.
Or if what's ahead makes you nervous.
How merciful is Allah that he gave you
all those blessings and chances despite your shortcomings.
Tasabih bihamdi rabbika
was staghfir.
So declare the perfection of your Lord
and seek forgiveness for your own imperfections.
This was the last command Allah gave to
the prophet SallAllahu Alaihi Wasallam after his unparalleled
life of good.
So what then of your last days?
And when they inspect your body for disease,
inspect your body instead for its deeds.
Abu Bakr radiAllahu ta'ala Anhu was narrated to
have said, When death comes to a man,
an angel is told
shummarasahu inspect his head.
And the angel goes to his head and
inspects it and says, ajidoo fi rasi hil
Quran. I find the Quran in his head.
And then the angels told, inspect his heart.
So the angel goes and inspects his heart
and says, ajidoo fiqalbihisliam.
I find in his heart fasting.
Then the angels told, now inspect his feet.
And the angel comes back and says, adidoo
feeqadamihil
qiyam,
I find in his feet standing in qiyaam.
And so then it is said, hafilanafsahu
hafilahullah.
This man protected himself
so surely Allah will protect him. And you
hope that Allah finds you grateful as these
blessings start to flee away.
Khalafibnu Isma'e rahimahullah
once spoke about a person who had leprosy
in all of his limbs and most of
his body.
And he said, by your glory, oh Allah,
if poisonous insects had taken hold of my
body and you shredded me to pieces like
torn threads,
I would only increase by your permission in
patience.
And I would only hold by your mercy
to nothing but contentment,
nothing but riblah.
But what about those after me?
Who's going to take care of them? When
Umar ibn Abdul Aziz Rahimullah was passing away,
he had 11 kids with each of them
inheriting only 19 dirhams each, 19 small coins.
And so one of his advisors was worried
and he called him and he said, You
Amir al mumineen, we've gotta do something about
your kids.
And Umar responds and he says,
imma anyakoonus
saliheen
fallahu yatawalas saliheen
Look, if they are righteous,
then Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala takes care of
the righteous.
And if they're not from the righteous,
then I don't want to give them what
they will then use to disobey Allah with.
And Allah asks me on the day of
judgment why I assisted them in disobedience.
Kayfayushriyukuqalbunsuarulaqwani
How can the heart be illuminated
while the mere forms of creatures are reflected
in its mirror?
How can it journey to Allah while it's
shackled by its passions?
How can it desire to enter the presence
of Allah
while it has not yet purified itself of
the stain of forgetfulness?
How can it understand the subtle secrets in
front of it while it has not yet
repented
of its obvious offenses?
When Allah sent Adam to the earth, he
said, faman tabi ahu daya yafa lahawfun alihim
walahum yazanoon.
So whoever follows my guidance
shall not fear nor grieve. Likewise, when the
angels take your soul from this earth, they
say to you, if you were righteous,
allatahafuwala
tahzanu,
do not fear and do not grieve.
The scholars mentioned that do not fear means
do not fear what is to come, and
do not grieve means do not grieve over
what you are leaving behind.
Death is not only hard on the loved
ones when they think of who they are
losing,
but it's also hard on the one who
is dying,
when he thinks of who will take care
of his loved ones once he's gone.
You might think about the loneliness of your
spouse,
or the finances of your household,
or you might worry about what is to
become of those children.
Rabbanahabilanaminazwajina
wuthuriatinakurrataaayun
wajahalna
lil muttaqina imama.
Our Lord grant us and our spouses and
offspring the coolness of our eyes
and make them leaders of the pious.
The coolness of your eyes is in seeing
them in a state of worshiping Allah.
But whether you have children or not,
the true coolness of your eyes
is in what Allah is about to show
you
that no eye has ever seen,
and no imagination has ever grasped.