Omar Suleiman – Is Allah Punishing Me?

			Brothers and sisters, when a person is being tested, there are often a few questions that come to
their mind that
		

			found the pain of that trial or that test. You know, one of the things that they talk about is the
need for closure. And the need for closure is in multiple ways. In one way a person needs to feel
like they can see the end of that trial, within their own lifetime or within sight. On the other
hand, it's also a form of closure to be able to come to terms with why or why not, you know, and
what, what, what the purpose of is this and what purpose it serves in my life, is it bringing me
closer to Allah subhanaw taala? Is this happening to me because of something that I've done? And
when you're in the midst of a trial, it's a lot harder to grapple with those questions. When it's so
		

			much easier to give that advice to someone else, when they're in it, you know, we grow up our whole
lives reciting sort of Loja, you understand the idea of a burden that is at some point lifted, but
when you're in the midst of a trial, there are certain elements that can really bring all of those
concepts into question and cause you to question yourself, amongst them is the idea of Allah
punishing me because of something that I might have done. And that usually comes when there is some
sort of prolonged nature to this test or trial or when the trial comes when I feel like I was at the
best state of my faith. You know, I feel like this was a time when I was doing everything, right.
		

			And that's when this all came, or trials come, you know, in succession. And that's usually the way
that it works. One hits you and then the next one hits you in the next one hits you. You start
asking these questions like What have I done? What what did I do for this to happen? Is there some
sort of punishment that is behind this? Is it some sort of disobedience that I have committed? And a
question that I get asked multiple times is how do I know if I'm passing the test? And this is
really where I want to focus on inshallah Tada towards the end of this Holtville? How do I know if
I'm passing the test? I know I'm being tested. It's very obvious right? Now. How do I know if I'm
		

			passing this test from Allah subhanho wa Tada. Now, first and foremost, I want to cover this
concept, from the perspective of punishment, the reason being, because we have to actually ask the
question, Does Allah subhanaw taala punish people in this life for their deeds? Is this the place
where punishment takes place you read about nations of the past that were destroyed, but we know
that this is not the norm of how Allah subhanaw taala deals with nations post, what we read about of
those destroyed nations in the past, overall, there is a loss of buttock there's a loss of blessing.
There could be destruction that comes upon a people of tyranny. And we know that tyranny provokes
		

			destruction in the long run, but at the same time, you don't see the immediacy that you hear about
in the stories in the Quran. So there are a few ayaats number one, Allah subhanaw taala says, No,
you won't be Marchesa Bula gentleman, Had Allah subhanaw taala called them to account for what they
have earned them, surely he would have hastened their punishment, of course isn't sort of caf, which
we read every Friday. If Allah was going to call them to account for what they had done, he would
have certainly hastened their punishments. What does that mean? Can you imagine the nature of our
relationship with Allah subhana wa Tada if we immediately faced consequences for our sense, believe
		

			or disbelieve, or whatever it may be, you know, if every single time you commit a sin, something bad
happens to you, like you're wearing a device that shocks you with pain, every single time you commit
a sin. But it doesn't work that way. Because instead, Allah subhanaw taala delays you and gives you
a chance to be reminded and to repent, and to actually turn that sin into a good deed because the
sin that you repent from will ultimately show up in your book on the Day of Judgment, as a good
deed. And Allah azza wa jal says this is for everyone. When oh you ask you the law NASA below me him
ma Tanaka, la Hammond dabba tin Well, I can you hear him either as an in Muslim, ALLAH SubhanA.
		

			Allah says And if Allah were to seize mankind, for their wrongdoing for their transgressions, He
would not leave on it's a single moving creature meaning there would not be a single creature on
earth, that would be able to survive that because we all slip sometimes no one would survive that
type of relationship with Allah subhanaw taala in this life, none of us would get past that. But
instead Allah subhanaw taala says Is he postpones them that either Jaja home now is that you don't
ascend, right and when I stepped to the moon, and when their term comes to a conclusion, they cannot
		

			delay it for a single moment, nor can they bring it forward, when the time comes for that reward,
and for that punishment, there is no way that you can move it forward. And there is no way that you
can delay it. So this is the first thing that Allah has uncovered in the nature of this
relationship, that it's for your benefits, that there isn't an immediate consequence or reward for
your deeds.
		

			That would completely defeat the purpose of the test of this world as a whole. If things happen with
immediacy, right, this whole concept of belief in the unseen and another realm where the
consequences are greater and eternal, that would defeat the purpose of believing in a lord that is
unseen. All of that would go out the window, and it's truly to our benefit that we're not seized
every, every single time, we commit a sin. And Allah azza wa jal says, Send us to read your home in
Haifa in the morning, this was the one that used to scare the Companions, that sometimes, in fact,
we will reel them in from places that they don't realize blessings can be a form of punishment,
		

			because a person increases and tyranny increases in sin. And what they see as a result of that is an
increase in goodness in this life. And so that provokes a certain type of arrogance, and
invincibility that you start to see in the tyrants in the Quran, right, that prototype that here I
am increasing in my transgression. And it seems like things are only getting better for me. And in
the process, they're actually only being reeled in to a greater punishments, because they're
increasing their share of punishments, in the greater sense in the Hereafter. And why were the
Sahaba scared of this because the Sahaba lived through moments of great difficulty. They lived
		

			through moments where they didn't think they were going to survive the trials of this world, they
were persecuted, they were ambushed. They, they had their loved ones mutilated. They struggled from
poverty, they struggled through the hits, not through the migration, they live through the worst of
times, and then they got to see the glory days in this worlds. Allah bless them, and they were given
victory and they got to see goodness. And so who used to worry most from this is all normal
hypocotyl the low tide on home,
		

			people abandon and rot or the Altana and who you hear about these people that went through great
difficulties. And one of the things about being in great difficulty, and some of us might be able to
reflect back on some of our most difficult times, as you say to yourself, you know,
		

			at least I knew at that time that I was close to Allah. Some people interpret trial the exact
opposite way. I knew at that time when I was struggling when I was going through this and that for
the sake of Allah subhanaw taala that I was enjoying a certain closeness to him. I knew where my
rank was with Allah subhanaw taala. And now, the blessings are actually confusing me. The ease of
the situation is, is confusing me because I don't know where I stand in that regard. So Allah says,
Some people send us the regional human hatred area and the moon. They're being reeled in from a
direction that they don't expect. And subhanAllah look at the believer on the other hand, well,
		

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Tessa, whoever is conscious of Allah subhanaw taala Allah will make a way out for them, and provide
for them from ways they don't expect. And so they have directions of sustenance, directions of
sustenance, pathways of goodness, that they may not be considering. Just as on the other hand, there
could be directions of punishment that the others are not considering. So you're not really
understanding that this door of risk, this pathway of goodness that came to you is directly tied to
this, just as a person might be punished with something that seems so good, but they don't realize
		

			that that's actually a direction of pulling them away from ALLAH SubhanA wa Tada and to ultimately
what will not be of benefit to them. And the scholar is also mentioned here, notice that when Allah
talks about the discourse of those who are being punished with blessings,
		

			even if everything on the outside seems good,
		

			there's still the void on the inside.
		

			That actually lends itself to a tortured existence. So you see someone and you're like, why do they
have all this despite their disobedience, despite the horrible things that they do? Why do they have
all this goodness in this world? And what does Allah subhanaw taala say? That thelotter gibca and
wild Humala, Hola, Domina Marie de la Julio Zeba, on behalf of Phil higher to dunya what has her and
Fusa home or home Catherine las Panatela says, Do not be amused by what they have of their wealth
and of their children and things of that sort of worldly possessions that have been given to them.
That in fact as a means of punishment for them, because the more they're given in this life, and
		

			still not feeling a sense of fulfillment and happiness
		

			on the inside that can only come with ima the more frustrated and dejected they're actually getting.
So it seems to be great on the outside, the exterior seems to be getting better and better and
better. And you might just be seeing the exterior and thinking to yourself, Wow, that seems like a
great life. Why are all these great things happening for them? This seems to be a life of glamour.
And this is, of course, one of the problems that you always see other people's blessings, but you
only see your own hardships, you don't see your blessings and their hardships, you see their
blessings, and you see your own hardships, and your hardships are magnified. And their blessings,
		

			which are the ones that are usually being put out there are masking hardships that you don't see. So
Allah saying that even if they have the blessings of this world, and the goodness of this world,
there is still punishment in the emptiness on the inside that can only be filled with ima, and so
don't envy them. Don't be amused. And it's punishment for them in this life. And it's even worse
when the soul departs from them in that state. Right, and they have to face the consequences of
their deeds, and of those actions. So the believers on the other hand,
		

			the righteous, they're given Baraka on what they have, they're given blessing in what they have.
They always have perspective because of the faith that is inside their hearts. Because of what is
inside the vessel, they always have perspective, either mentally or unreal movement, the Prophet saw
his son MC said, he said, How strange and amazing is the affair of the believer. It's the man that
allows the believer to have perspective, they have perspective with the good that they have. They
have perspective with the hardships that they have. They use it always to propel them to be closer
to Allah subhanho wa taala. And nothing goes to waste in this life or in the next. As long as they
		

			maintain that precious provision of a man of faith. They keep it on the inside. And so everything
around them makes sense. As long as they have that on the inside, not the specifics of the decree of
Allah subhanaw taala but the nature of their relationship with Allah and blessings and trials. It
all makes sense to them in that sense. The most important takeaway from this and then I'll move on
inshallah Tada.
		

			And I want you to remember this. This life is not DoD or Aesop, this is not the realm of
accountability. This is daughter, Lana. This is the realm of deeds. This is not daughter hisab. This
is daughter, Emma, this is not the realm in which Allah subhanaw taala alots punishments and rewards
so when you try to read duck on someone else, or on yourself, you're going to fail. This is the
realm of the test, Leah blue ACOEM ayoko Cinerama Allah, this is the realm where you're tested with
what you're going to do.
		

			And that should be your focus. So someone would say, Well, is there a framework, at least in the
deen for classifying trials? Is there some sort of framework to where I'm not completely in the dark
them? And the answer is, yes, three frames, the first frame
		

			tests that are endured because you did good.
		

			When you endure a trial, because of something noble that you did, fee sebelah you missed out on
something. Because of your insistence on your principles, you were taken advantage of because you
weren't dirty like the other person. You did not harm. You refuse to oppress you put forth something
for the sake of Allah you gave of your time of your wealth of your health, whatever it may be, for
the sake of Allah for something noble, and you endured a test in that that is the best thing that
could happen to you. Because that means Allah subhanaw taala has stored the entire reward of that
for the hereafter taking the entire word of the day. And you know, that sort of word that's not a
		

			punishment from Allah subhanaw taala when you are tested in the capacity of doing good when you can
directly tie the trial to a good deed. And so I just want everyone to leave with this in particular
in this first frame. never regret something you do for the sake of a loss penalty ever, ever, even
if it yields the most difficult things in this life. Never regret something you do for the sake of
Allah subhana wa Tada. Not not in relationship to him alone, or as it is in regards to other people.
Don't regret your lesson. Don't ever regret your good doing because a trial that comes in the
capacity of that is a reward from Allah subhana wa Tada because all it means is that there's a
		

			greater reward for you that Allah has stored for you in the hereafter. So that's frame number one.
frame number two second category of trials are tests that are directly tied to a sin. So you commit
a sin and you're tested within that sin or in a way that is directly tied to that sin. That is
certainly a punishment, just like category one is certainly
		

			reward. That's certainly a punishment.
		

			However, that punishment could be a reminder to repent. And it turns that punishment into something
of your favor.
		

			So even then it's not an absolute punishment, because you still have an opportunity to take it from
being a punishment to being something else. But if something happens to you in the capacity of
you're doing wrong, then of course, you take that as a punishment from Allah Spano town. Of course,
you take that as a wake up call that Allah is sending you a very specific message. To leave off that
disobedience category three is everything else, every other test the tests that you can't directly
tie to a good deed, nor can you directly tie to a sin. And that's where that test could either be a
punishment, or it could be a reward. Or it could be a reminder. And you don't know. And the only way
		

			that you can know at that point, whether it's punishment or reward is by your response. How did you
respond to it, the way that you respond to it is going to determine whether it's a reward or a
punishment. If you respond to it with obedience with good, then it's a reward. If you respond to it
with that, then it's a punishment. So it is entirely predicated on your response. And this is the
majority of the tests that come our way.
		

			It's about your response.
		

			You will not get to the specifics of the decree. But you understand the specifics of your response.
How are you going to respond to that test and to that trial that comes to you? And so the believer,
does not focus on why Allah is testing them in this dunya. But how you're doing with the test of
Deen? It's not about how Allah is testing me in the worldly sense, how am I responding with the
revelation that he has sent to me? Now, I want to end on this because it's probably the most
important point here in sha Allah because it's very, very often missed. We know that the Prophet
slicin them said, A Sabra and the submitter Lula, you know, when people ask how do I know if I'm
		

			passing the test patients is at the first strike. The Scholars say this is of two types. The first
strike is the immediate response to the trial when it comes to you. But we all know that sometimes,
you know, I actually respond well, in the beginning, but then I lose myself later on some trials,
they hit you, and your initial response is actually decent. It's when the test is prolonged, that
you start to fall off the path, right? Some trials and most people, right, it's the it's the first
moments where the character that you showed the response that you showed is going to determine your
response all along. But I know that some of us have been through something where in the beginning,
		

			it was like okay, and Hamdulillah. But then like, when the pain of that lingered on the trial
lingered on or when I realized what has actually been lost by that loss that I encountered. It
started to get harder, right.
		

			And so the scholars say this and this is very important. When it comes to patience with those long
trials and knowing whether or not you pass the test.
		

			Do not get tied up with the specifics of the test. However, measure your patience by your progress
and obedience to Allah subhanaw taala most simple sentence I want you to remember measure your
patience by your progress what is patience look like in the very beginning at hamdulillah in Allah
who went early Roger, you praise God. And you say that to him we belong to Him we return that's a
submitted Hola, the long standing part of that it's not your posts online about how you're being
patient. It's not just saying 100 After that, it's whether or not there is progress in your
obedience to Allah subhana wa Tada progress in your relationship with Allah subhanaw taala. So you
		

			trace back everything to the only criteria that you know the criteria of obedience and disobedience.
Am I becoming a better Muslim?
		

			Am I becoming a better believer as a result of this test and trial that's coming to me? Or am I
actually maintaining status quo in regards to my relationship with Allah subhanaw taala? Are things
actually being transformed? Or am I insisting on disobedience to Allah, if you're insisting on
disobedience to Allah, the first strike of patience has already passed where he said, hamdulillah
it's not just saying 100 At that point, because it was meant to be a reminder to you to
		

			go back to that criteria and measure your patients by your progress. So again, dear brothers and
sisters, I know the questioning gets to us the the need for closure gets to us don't get caught up
in the beginning. Don't get caught up in the specifics. Go back to the criteria, as one of the
scholars said that you know, when a person
		

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			To send and then they cry about it, but then they go back to the same sin. So at least Hill High for
many of Kym Sahoo I need a person who truly fears Allah subhanaw taala is not someone who just cries
and then wipes their tears lacking and hypomania. trochu. When you have when you have SIBO, Allah
Ali, the one who's truly a fear afraid of Allah subhanaw taala are the consequences of that sin is
the one who leaves that which is causing them to have that apprehension in the first place. It's not
about just shedding tears. It's not about just the emotional sense of patience, the emotional sense
of repentance. How do I get back to actually making progress in my journey to Allah subhanaw taala
		

			May Allah increase us in obedience and in righteousness and goodness, with the blessings that He
gives to us and with the trials, may the ease that he sends to us be a reminder that all of those
blessings come from Allah subhanaw taala and that they are there to pursue the greatest blessing of
his pleasure in entrance into His Paradise, and may the hardships that come to us in this life be a
reminder that there will come a time that all that we have in this life will be gone, and that the
greatest hardship is the hardship of the Hereafter, we ask Allah Subhana Allah to Allah to grant us
the best of this life and the best of the hereafter and to protect us from the punishment Robina
		

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