Numan Attique – How Do I Know If My Heart Is Pure

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The speaker discusses the importance of acknowledging one's actions and not letting them continue to lead to sin. He emphasizes the need to purify one's heart and not let it continue to lead to sin. He also discusses the importance of avoiding sin and allowing oneself to be rewarded for their actions.

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			How do how do we know if our
		
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			heart is blackened, and how can we fix
		
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			that? You'll never know.
		
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			It's like most things in life.
		
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			Do we know ours
		
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			our good deeds are accepted?
		
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			Do we know our sins are forgiven? No.
		
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			The same way you will never know if
		
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			your heart is pure. You will never know
		
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			if you have achieved sincerity in anything. But
		
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			you continue
		
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			to strive and struggle
		
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			towards the path of purification.
		
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			That's why it's a path.
		
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			And it ends and at the end of
		
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			that path is Allah
		
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			and Jannah. And if you deviate, there's Jannah.
		
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			And so the hope is you constantly keep
		
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			coming back to that path.
		
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			And part of being on that path is
		
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			purification of the heart.
		
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			And so the things that remove sins that
		
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			we discussed yesterday Yeah.
		
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			Are part and parcel of how
		
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			you cleanse your heart. Right?
		
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			But like a point that I want to
		
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			make here is we should be able like
		
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			we should be aware of ourselves. Most people
		
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			are not aware
		
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			of what's going on inside. Right?
		
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			To be able to slow down,
		
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			take a deep breath, and think about
		
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			where I'm at right now. Right? You're not
		
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			always gonna be up here.
		
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			There will be lots of times when you're
		
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			quite down here.
		
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			You need to be able to know when
		
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			you're here
		
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			and when you're here.
		
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			So that each moment
		
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			of these two,
		
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			you know,
		
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			days one day is a good day, the
		
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			next day being the bad day you need
		
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			to be able to know how you're gonna
		
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			function in each day.
		
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			So
		
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			when you're down here you should be
		
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			gathering your strength to be up here again.
		
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			But that doesn't mean you don't do the
		
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			bare bone basics.
		
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			And it also means you don't let yourself
		
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			completely go.
		
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			Because one of the greatest
		
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			actions of shaitan is to say, if you
		
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			did this you might as well just
		
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			not do anything
		
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			or just keep going
		
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			in sin. Right? Sure, I started talking to
		
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			a girl.
		
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			Now this is gonna lead to
		
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			more.
		
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			Right? But part of that purification of the
		
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			heart is to stop yourself at that point.
		
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			Don't let it go further.
		
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			Right?
		
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			Don't let it proceed to that which comes
		
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			later.
		
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			So being able to gather your strength at
		
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			a low point
		
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			to work towards a higher point is important.
		
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			Right? And the same goes with, like,
		
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			you know, the same goes with, trying to
		
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			purify your heart. You're like, sometimes you might
		
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			feel like there's nowhere to
		
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			go. How am I supposed to get better?
		
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			And obviously you need to renew your hope.
		
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			Part of that is recognizing
		
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			the different things that
		
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			would cleanse you from sin.
		
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			And we can say that
		
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			something very unique is that punishments
		
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			in this dunya are a way of Allah
		
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			forgiving you in the Hereafter.
		
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			Right? So,
		
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			we see
		
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			trials and tribulations and this dunya to be
		
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			negative
		
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			when,
		
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			we should see everything in essence to be
		
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			positive.
		
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			Everything in essence is positive. Even though the
		
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			the appearance of it is very ugly, it's
		
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			distasteful,
		
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			but there is goodness. In the grander scheme
		
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			of things, everything is good.
		
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			Whether we understand it, we don't understand it,
		
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			there is goodness. The bigger picture is always
		
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			bright
		
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			even if there's dots within the painting that
		
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			are black.
		
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			And those and they are black. They look
		
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			black. They are black.
		
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			On the grander scenes things, the picture is
		
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			bright
		
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			because it's because it's the picture of God.
		
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			Right?
		
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			There,
		
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			you know, that's one perspective when you're going
		
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			through difficulty.
		
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			Sometimes sins another thing that,
		
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			we don't
		
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			think of enough
		
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			is sins don't need to be what darkens
		
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			your heart but rather they can be what
		
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			lightens your heart.
		
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			Sins can be blessings.
		
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			You just have to figure out how they're
		
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			a blessing.
		
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			Let's think about that.
		
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			How can a sin be a blessing?
		
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			Sins can be blessings
		
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			if they turn you back to Allah, if
		
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			they stir fear,
		
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			they stir love.
		
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			If they bring you back to Allah, it
		
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			was a blessing. You can be the greatest
		
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			of blessings at times.
		
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			Most peep many people, they find their
		
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			their awakening, their Youqawah,
		
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			within a sin.
		
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			Sometimes they're in the middle of a sin.
		
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			They'll say, you Allah, where where am I?
		
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			How how many people do we know like
		
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			that? I know there's one brother who used
		
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			to
		
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			be very high up in the entertainment industry.
		
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			Very very high up. And this one time
		
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			he was sitting in
		
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			his condo on the top floor.
		
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			I'm not sure what that condo is called.
		
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			What's that one called? The
		
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			one that's on the top floor, and it's,
		
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			the biggest Like the suites, like the master
		
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			suite maybe kind of something like that. There's
		
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			a specific name for it. But anyways, it
		
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			has a specific name, the one that's on
		
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			the top and it's really big, you know.
		
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			He says that he was sitting there and
		
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			he was, like, drugged up after, like, a
		
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			private party at nighttime. And there's, like, random
		
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			girls coming into the house.
		
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			And
		
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			they're they'd wanna take pictures because it's the
		
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			top floor, etcetera, etcetera.
		
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			And,
		
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			he says, at that point, I realized that
		
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			many of these girls are Israelis.
		
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			And he's like, me as a Palestinian
		
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			man, I how did I get this far
		
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			that I don't even have enough ezih for
		
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			my people in Versa? And he's like, that's
		
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			when I realized I have hit rock bottom.
		
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			And then he changed his life around. But
		
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			sins can be blessings
		
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			if if you allow them to be
		
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			if you let it turn you back to
		
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			Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala.
		
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			It's when you continue in that sin and
		
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			you don't let it lead to greatness. So
		
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			say for instance you're stuck in a pattern
		
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			and it seems to be
		
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			a compulsive pattern for you.
		
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			It looks like an addiction. Might not be.
		
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			It looks like one. And you're stuck there.
		
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			And you're telling yourself, this has darkened my
		
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			heart. There's no way out.
		
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			If within this cycle of sin,
		
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			each time you finish
		
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			you do tawba and it's a sincere one
		
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			and you push yourself to greater heights and
		
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			goodness outside of that,
		
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			that's fechunas.
		
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			That's understanding yourself.
		
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			That you allowed a sin to propel yourself
		
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			to goodness in many other ways.
		
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			So that in the grander scale of things
		
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			you did more good than evil.
		
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			In alhasarat
		
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			Good deeds push out sins.
		
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			So,
		
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			sometimes
		
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			it's not about addressing something straight forward directly,
		
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			you know, in a in a direct way,
		
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			but rather it's it's changing the environment in
		
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			which it exists.
		
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			So you started doing more good. That made
		
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			you feel good. Allah blessed you to do
		
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			even more good.
		
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			He put even more sweetness in your heart
		
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			through goodness. And there comes a point where
		
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			this sin in comparison to everything around you
		
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			becomes so small.
		
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			It becomes weak
		
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			in your heart and you're able to overcome
		
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			it.