Naima B. Robert – The Woman You Become Along the Way Tumkeen, Muslim Author and Poet

Naima B. Robert
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The hosts of Muslim Rights Summit discuss the importance of writing to heal and finding one's hero in oneself. They share stories about women who became writers and eventually become authorheimers, and emphasize the importance of finding the right words to use in writing and finding the right connection with people. They also talk about the challenges of writing and finding the right connection with oneself and finding the right way to go, as it is a journey of self discovery.

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			going live
		
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			with salatu salam ala Rasulillah
Salam aleikum, everyone welcome to
		
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			this session in the Muslim Rights
Summit. 2022 I pray that no day or
		
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			your evening we are not going well
at you've been enjoying the other
		
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			videos in this series. We are on
day four. And yeah, it's been an
		
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			amazing ride meeting amazing,
amazing people, some wonderful
		
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			writers sharing their books,
sharing their journeys, sharing
		
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			the insights and it's been a real
honor and a privilege to to just
		
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			be here for their stories.
Mashallah. So this session is a
		
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			keynote by Tom Kean. And if you do
not know who Tim Kee is, then Tim
		
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			Kaine is an award winning author,
poet and speaker. She lives in the
		
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			United States with her husband and
six children. Some keen highlights
		
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			her passion for faith, family and
nature through her deeply healing
		
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			and personal writings. Her debut
book was a best seller. The name
		
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			of the book is breathe,
reflections and poetry from the
		
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			2020 look down and it was released
in 2021. In one day rate crest
		
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			award for poetry amongst other
literary awards, Mashallah. And
		
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			currently Temkin is writing a
memoir about her journey through
		
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			motherhood, mental health, and
midlife as Tom Kean likes to say I
		
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			am writing to heal, a healing to
write. And today Tom King's talk
		
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			will be a woman you become along
the way. So Tina, salaam alaikum.
		
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			Welcome. Welcome Aslan. Glad to be
here. And Hamdulillah.
		
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			Okay, so if I go, everyone, thank
you for joining us today.
		
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			I am a little bit nervous, I'm
going to put that out there. If I
		
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			can do this little thing I do with
my hands. I mean, I'm, I'm a
		
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			little nervous here. But that's
the right part about this title
		
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			about the world and becoming along
the way is is harnessing all that
		
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			energy, and still pushing forward.
		
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			So I'd like everyone to do is to
take a deep breath in with me.
		
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			And let's just release all the
morning talk in our head, like
		
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			when it's morning here in
Michigan. So I have a lot of
		
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			things on my head. And I just like
to clear it out. So I can focus.
		
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			And I'd like you to focus on who
you are as a woman.
		
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			Now, Naima mentioned that I'm a
writer, and I'm a poet, author,
		
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			100 law. But I also happen to be a
daughter,
		
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			a sister, a wife, a mother, and
Alhamdulillah, for all the roles
		
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			that I play. But I am a person as
well. And I have a story. I have a
		
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			life that I've lived experiences
that I've went through, and the
		
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			unique to my own.
		
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			A lot of us go through life facing
challenges. And it becomes like,
		
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			I'm the only one. I'm the only one
facing this. And I'm the only one
		
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			who is suffering through this. But
what we don't realize is that
		
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			there's a story that's being
written. And like any story,
		
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			and most stories that we read,
there's always the hero in that
		
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			story.
		
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			The hero doesn't know that they're
a hero, what they're doing is
		
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			they're simply going through life
experiences. And just wanting to
		
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			get to the other side, wanting to
attain something. Sometimes the
		
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			hero is wanting to meet someone,
sometimes a hero is trying to get
		
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			to a better place a new place, to
be a better version of himself, to
		
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			be about to meet a better version
of something else.
		
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			The hero rarely knows that they
are the hero.
		
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			But what makes them the hero is
that they keep pushing forward.
		
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			They keep moving forward. And the
beauty of this life is that Allah
		
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			subhanaw taala has made us all
heroes of our own stories.
		
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			We are not realizing that amidst
the fear amidst the amidst all the
		
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			things that happen to us. We have
the courage to move forward. We
		
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			have the power, the strength that
we are born with, to keep going.
		
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			But we get stuck. We get stuck in
our heads we get stuck in our
		
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			thoughts that I'm not good enough.
I'm not bold enough. I'm not that
		
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			enough.
		
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			Funny thing is, we were born to be
enough.
		
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			It's just a we're going through
life in search of it. And perhaps
		
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			even looking for it in people's
eyes to people's words by someone
		
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			telling us, validating us and
saying us to us that we are enough
		
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			that we are a hero.
		
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			The woman you become along the way
is recognizing that you are
		
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			already her.
		
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			So I'm going to share a little bit
of like a story. So
		
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			I'll hear my talk today is a
little bit different than the ones
		
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			I've done before. I haven't
written it all out, it's not typed
		
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			up in new pages. It's I'm kind of
going with the feel of, of, of my
		
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			heart because this title for me,
the woman you become along the
		
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			way.
		
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			It was a heavy one.
		
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			I've said it many times, I've
heard it so many times from
		
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			Neymar. But it's so heavy with me.
And it's that heavy with me
		
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			because it felt like it felt like
a journey. And I can't tell you
		
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			about a journey with looking from
a paper, I have to feel to it. And
		
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			so I'd like you to feel through it
with me.
		
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			I was 12 years old, when I
realized, perhaps even before but
		
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			12 was my age that I could
articulate, that I wanted to be a
		
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			writer, an author, a poet. I
wanted it so bad. And I would say
		
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			I'm going to be a writer one day,
I'm going to be an author. One
		
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			day, I'm going to be a poet.
		
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			But that 12 year old version of me
was saying when I grow up, what
		
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			she didn't realize she was always
a poet. Because the words just
		
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			flowed from her. Allah made it so
		
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			she was always a writer, because
she wrote wonderful stories, and
		
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			they were funny, and they were
elaborate and they were poetic.
		
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			She loved writing cards that made
her a writer. She loved drawing
		
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			pictures that weren't the best,
but had stories and words to it.
		
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			And that showed how artistic she
was. She went through life
		
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			thinking when I grow up, I'm going
to be a writer and author.
		
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			How many of us go through our
lives, thinking that we are going
		
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			to be someone not realizing that
we are.
		
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			Let's journey back. Let's journey
forward to 2019 in autumn when one
		
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			day I suddenly thought I wonder
how many new copywriters are out
		
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			there how many new Fabi authors
are out there women who are
		
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			covered their face, wear hijab,
Muslim women were writing and
		
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			making and and you know making the
lists doing well as women who
		
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			decide to cover themselves and yet
be public about their writing. And
		
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			the name Nyima be Robert came to
me like instantly,
		
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			it was almost like a divine
whisper into my ear to go in this
		
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			direction.
		
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			I quickly got onto my computer. I
tapped it typed up her name, went
		
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			to her Facebook page.
		
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			And like destiny often writes
itself. There was a webinar or
		
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			masterclass that she was offering
was called Be the hero.
		
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			That was was a little strange. I
was again a little bit. What does
		
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			that mean be the hero. I didn't
even know how to be the woman I
		
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			was, but I will get to that later.
		
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			So be the hero. Interesting. I was
into that phase of my life. Now I
		
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			turned 40. And I wanted to do
something with my life. I wanted
		
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			to move forward, I wanted to not
be stuck in the mental health
		
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			issue state that I was that had
enveloped me for so long.
		
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			Depression, anxiety, postpartum
depression, all those things that
		
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			were weighing me down. After I
turned 40, I thought to myself,
		
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			there has got to be more. There's
this burning in me to do something
		
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			to be something to write
something.
		
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			And I don't know if I'm good
enough. I don't know if I have it
		
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			in me. But the words be the hero.
		
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			It was it was it was just so
beautifully put three little three
		
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			words, and it spoke volumes for
me. So sure enough, I signed up
		
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			for that webinar.
		
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			And she went through the words and
she was speaking and she spoke
		
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			about everything and everything
she spoke I remember it was like
		
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			arrows to my heart, one after the
other after the other after the
		
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			other penetrating my heart and my
soul with these, with these
		
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			thoughts of dreams about a boat
about getting the story out about
		
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			accepting and embracing
imperfections about reclaiming
		
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			your voice reclaiming your space
in the world. And I thought
		
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			is this sister really making me
dream?
		
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			I have been raising six children
for the past at that point. For
		
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			the past 1516 years. Was I really
at a place at that point in my
		
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			life where
		
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			I could be a hero because I
thought heroes are these
		
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			courageous brave women who stand
confidently and stand up to the
		
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			world and say this is who I am.
But not me. Not a woman who has
		
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			was just a few years after the
birth of her sixth child riddled
		
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			with so much anxiety that she she
could literally hear screams in
		
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			the back of her head who would not
know how to make a decision
		
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			between eating this or that. A
woman who would not step outside
		
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			the house because she was afraid
of what people think about her
		
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			when people would say about her
		
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			and how she would be so she just
hid. I hid I hid for years,
		
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			perhaps even decades.
		
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			Could I really be a hero? I mean,
I want to be.
		
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			And there she was telling me that
I could be.
		
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			Sure enough, she was offering me
to be the hero program.
		
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			And I signed up for it because I
felt like, I just couldn't say no,
		
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			I just, it was the right step to
take. So as often confer on
		
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			important decisions, I called up
my husband was also my best
		
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			friend. And I said to him, I have
to do this, I'm gonna sign up for
		
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			this program, because it's just
what she's saying. Makes sense to
		
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			me. So I did.
		
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			I did. And in those program, and
in the coaching that I've been
		
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			with her, she has always said,
it's not about that dream that you
		
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			want about that degree that you
want about the book that you want
		
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			to write about being published
about, about that story that you
		
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			want to tell. It's not about what
you want that dream that you're
		
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			trying to attain the when you want
to reach. It's the journey.
		
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			It's the woman you become along
the way.
		
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			I wonder if that woman was worth
meeting,
		
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			becoming.
		
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			I wasn't sure if I was ever happy
with who she was.
		
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			But nevertheless,
		
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			I want to reach the dream.
		
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			The part about her saying the
woman you becoming along the way
		
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			and kind of I was skeptical about
that one.
		
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			But Alhamdulillah I trusted her so
far, and being with me, my coach,
		
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			my mentor, in becoming this hero
of my own story.
		
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			So I continued with her.
		
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			And sure enough, 2020 quarantine
came about. And at that time, I
		
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			had transferred from our program
from being the hero into showing
		
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			up
		
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			as politically as Allah subhanaw
taala has, right, right, our
		
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			stories, it was so fitting. So I
showed up, I was trying to show up
		
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			for my dreams.
		
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			In that program, and before
between the two of them, there was
		
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			a moment and she remember this and
we've talked about this anyone who
		
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			knows me, who's been following my
writing, who's met me through the
		
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			programs knows that I talked about
this is that one day I found
		
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			myself at a coffee shop by my
house.
		
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			The one I drove past for years.
And I thought just one day I want
		
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			to go in, sit at the coffee shop
like other other people do open up
		
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			my laptop and write like writers
to I want to be that woman I want
		
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			to be able to be careless and
carefree and, and not have to go
		
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			places or be someone I just wanted
to sit at that coffee shop with my
		
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			coffee in hand and type my story
out.
		
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			And so I found myself one day
finally finding that courage or
		
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			bravery to just do that thing I
wanted to do.
		
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			I drove up, went inside, I had my
laptop with me when inside there
		
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			too, with it, opened it up and
broke down in tears.
		
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			This is what it was feeling like
to be a hero.
		
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			To claim my story to claim my
voice to claim that little bit of
		
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			power that I didn't know existed
and saying, you get to do it. You
		
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			get to be her.
		
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			I wrote up a piece out.
		
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			I sent it to Naima she she read
it. We I shared it on my social
		
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			media. I posted it with for my
sisters who are with me in the
		
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			program.
		
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			And I cried again, because they
understood how important it was
		
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			for me, they understood how much
it took for me to let go of my
		
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			fear and to show up
		
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			in that short program as the 2020
locked down came in.
		
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			Again, that sentence the woman you
became along, you become along the
		
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			way, resided at the back of my
mind. And whenever I did trunking
		
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			and then I'm thinking you know, I
don't know about writing a book.
		
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			You know, people say it and some
people have mentioned it to me,
		
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			you should. I don't know if I have
it in me. I don't know if I'm good
		
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			enough if anyone will read it. So
all those fears came back to me.
		
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			But while I was sitting there and
getting a little bit more hold in
		
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			my life, I remember when the
lockdown came in, and I've written
		
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			this in my book in breeds about
how I stood there and for a minute
		
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			I thought do I go back to that
place of being in fear all the
		
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			time, that place of fear and worry
and anxiety and stress and worried
		
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			about what's to come the
challenges of being in quarantine
		
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			and locked down not knowing what's
going to happen in the world. We
		
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			were all there. We saw the footage
of of the drone cameras showing
		
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			deserted empty streets of New York
City with no one there flashing
		
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			flashing lights at the signals.
They said green or red that
		
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			usually means go or stop but there
is nothing to flow.
		
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			Images of hospitals have in
makeshift tents outside in their
		
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			parking lot. So they were they
were supposed to be
		
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			From morgues and, and freezer
trucks lined for miles outside,
		
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			and we're watching these images of
unfold, people standing in their
		
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			balconies in Spain and Italy is
singing to each other. So they may
		
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			connect and have that human
connection. Children being taught
		
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			at school that they don't know
when the schools will be opened
		
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			up. This is my story that when
they would open up, coming home
		
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			with backpacks filled, asking mom,
what's going to happen, and I'm
		
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			saying, I don't know, my child
breaking down in the back of the
		
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			car, not knowing what's gonna
happen to the grandmother,
		
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			grandfather, because the news at
that time was, this thing is
		
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			deadly for older people, young
people might survive. So with all
		
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			that in mind, I thought, No, I
don't want to go back to that
		
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			negative place. Again, I've come
too far. So I decided to start
		
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			writing for 30 days straight in my
book brief, I started writing
		
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			every single day. But it just just
a collection of books of writing.
		
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			And the name on one of our
coaching calls said you are going
		
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			to publish that, aren't you? Cuz,
you know, you wrote that you have
		
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			a book young you published my
book, these are just like my
		
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			reflections, they're just my
poetry, it's like, and I don't
		
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			even know if that's good enough,
who's gonna want to read it.
		
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			And sure enough, she often does,
she inspired me to dream a little
		
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			bit more.
		
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			And then a hero story, you'll see
that there's always that person, a
		
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			mentor, a coach, like I call it
like the the old person who lives
		
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			on the top of the hill, who's
there for the guidance and the
		
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			wisdom and the hero has to track
and meet her. And then she kind of
		
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			gives these words and you kind of
like, feel like you see the light.
		
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			And so when she said that I'm
like, Oh, here she is, again,
		
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			making me dream, making me want
something better for myself. Sure
		
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			enough, I discussed it with my
family, obviously, was going to be
		
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			an investment of time and effort
and money to go ahead and proceed
		
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			with getting this book out.
		
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			Here's another woman I was
becoming again, imagine myself
		
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			months ago, who would not even
want to go into a coffee shop to
		
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			buy a coffee for herself and sit
there and drink was now talking
		
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			about investing in an editor in
publishing her book that she had
		
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			written it has it had nothing else
but my words in it. Meaning I was
		
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			giving myself the ability to have
take a chance on something that
		
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			was just me.
		
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			But when I went with that fear
setting again, the fear of
		
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			rejection, the fear of no one
wanting to read what I wrote the
		
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			fear of not being good enough, the
fear of people will know that I'm
		
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			not good. I've always known I'm
not good. Now, people are gonna
		
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			know that they're good. They're
gonna buy a book, and they'll be
		
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			like, Oh, she sucks.
		
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			So all of these fears started
piling on. And even though my
		
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			editor got back to me and wrote
and emailed and let you know, all
		
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			the notes, I never opened that
email. It was months before I
		
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			opened that email.
		
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			When I opened that email up,
eventually, months later, when my
		
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			husband said, Hey, we were going
ahead with the story in this book,
		
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			and you haven't even done anything
with it. What are we doing with
		
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			it?
		
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			With the conversation we had back
and forth, I said, Fine. Finally
		
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			open the email, I opened the
email, and she wasn't throwing up
		
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			on it. She wasn't saying all these
negative words. She wasn't saying
		
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			that. Not maybe not. She said,
Okay, let's go. You know, you have
		
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			a little minor edits, as we always
do. But you know, we should
		
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			proceed with this book. And the
fear of success came to me.
		
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			Am I good enough? Will I really be
good enough? What will I do? Like,
		
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			I've never really taken a chance.
So when I take a chance and exit
		
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			succeed, well, I recognize this
woman, because I'm used to being
		
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			negative with her. I'm used to
thinking she's not good enough.
		
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			She never will do anything with
her life. And she will just this
		
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			is how it's going to be.
		
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			But I realized with fear, there is
also courage. With rejection.
		
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			There's also perseverance
		
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			and the fear of being called a
phony and all of those things.
		
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			Were just me telling myself stay
safe. Don't go out there. Don't go
		
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			on that journey. You don't know
who's going to be there.
		
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			Fear setting again, and I didn't
take any action.
		
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			Couple months passed again, until
Nyima and, and my editor hand she
		
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			they contacted me and they said
you know what's going on? What's
		
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			what's going on with your book. I
hope you're going with it. I
		
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			didn't have me to tell them that I
had already given up before I
		
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			started.
		
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			Sure enough, one or two days after
the coaching and named. My husband
		
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			asked me and he said, What about
that dream of seeing your book,
		
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			your name on a book, that thing
that you wanted all your life? You
		
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			said all I want is to have my name
on a book, sitting on someone's
		
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			table and knowing that a part of
me is going to be out there. What
		
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			about that dream you're telling me
about it?
		
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			So after a lot of encouragement
and support from the people around
		
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			me who were believing in me, even
though I wasn't believing in
		
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			myself, I went ahead and I decided
to self publish my book.
		
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			When I self published this book,
it was January 2021, it came out
		
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			there, I held it in my hand and
said, Oh, my God, this is my book,
		
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			this my book, I finally have my
book.
		
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			I cried tears of joy. But
something was missing inside of
		
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			me.
		
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			I didn't want anyone to know. So
because of like, yeah, it's the
		
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			happiest thing ever in the world
is my dream come true. You know,
		
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			I've been waiting for this for 32
years of my life. And finally
		
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			here, I finally arrived. And,
		
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			but there was still something
missing. And I didn't know what it
		
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			was, I didn't want to tell anyone,
I just what it was, but there was
		
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			something missing. Sure enough,
the book got into the bestseller
		
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			list. And I was showing a lot of
people were reacting to it, people
		
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			were reaching out to me, and
saying that, you know, it touched
		
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			them, they felt something
connection with that book.
		
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			And I didn't know I couldn't
believe it. I didn't understand
		
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			the success, I didn't understand
or believe the words coming out.
		
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			What I realized now
		
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			is that it wasn't about the book.
It wasn't about this published
		
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			piece of thing it was because the
book gave me the passport, the
		
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			visa, to allow me into a territory
where I was now on a quest of self
		
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			discovery, we have to sometimes
give ourselves the permission, we
		
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			have to give ourselves the the
allowance to proceed away from the
		
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			common place that we know. And we
are comforted by one name, I like
		
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			to call the comfort zone.
		
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			What I've learned from from her
about the comfort zone, and she
		
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			used to say you're at the edge,
you're at the edge of that comfort
		
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			zone where that fear is coming in
where you're like going to that
		
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			other side, you're now leaving
behind your home. And I imagined
		
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			and picture to be like I'm leaving
my home with a suitcase. And the
		
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			homeless there with my comfortable
bed and my blanket and my clothes.
		
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			And everything that feels nice and
familiar is there. But I'm going
		
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			on a journey now.
		
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			What I realized when people would
contact me or I would can be
		
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			contacted for podcast interviews,
or the interviews and the reviews.
		
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			And the opportunities
Alhamdulillah that I've gotten in
		
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			the past year
		
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			is that I would say oh, it's
because they liked the book, and
		
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			Alhamdulillah many of them did
resonate with the book. And and
		
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			until I spoke to many people and
their experiences living to the
		
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			COVID era.
		
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			What was showing up was me, I was
the one showing up at those
		
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			interviews, I was the one having
those discussions, I was the one
		
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			who who was in that opportunity to
sit up opposite of of great people
		
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			and be and be talked to
		
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			be spoken with.
		
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			I was putting myself out there and
my name out there. And I was
		
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			showing up
		
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			amid the fear amid the rubbing
hands amid the sweats. And I don't
		
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			want to do this I want to be safe
and covered was me showing up
		
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			every single time. It was the
woman I was becoming along the
		
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			way.
		
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			And I discovered something I used
to think that the woman you become
		
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			along the way is the woman that
		
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			is on the other side of the
success meaning she's not you that
		
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			the one who is successful, the one
who has published the one who has
		
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			written her book was fulfilled a
dream, who is living a dream is a
		
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			woman who is successful, and the
woman I am is not. What I never
		
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			realized was that this is the same
woman who gets there, but has to
		
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			journey to be encompassing all
versions of herself.
		
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			I didn't realize this part of the
journey until I started writing my
		
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			memoir, which funny enough was in
the same month, as when this book
		
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			was released in January 2021.
		
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			I sat there at night after night,
on my computer, typing out words
		
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			it just flowed that just flowed it
flew. They were filled and rich
		
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			with stories of my past of my my
struggles with mental health as a
		
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			teenager and as a young mother and
then as a woman who was getting to
		
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			her midlife. It was filled with
stories about me feeling stuck in
		
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			a place and learning and
discovering more about myself. It
		
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			was filled with stories about me
accepting my physical state of
		
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			with my weight issues and what I
didn't like about myself and and
		
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			leaning into my faith to accept
those versions of myself. And I
		
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			just just poured out of me
		
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			To the point that I wrote, within
one week, I had the first draft of
		
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			my book, ready to go 30,000 words.
And I was, I thought, Okay, this
		
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			is good.
		
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			It just flowed from me.
		
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			But when I sat with it, and I
looked it over, and I realized
		
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			that it was just this word vomit,
really, that came out of me, there
		
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			was something deeper that was
hidden inside that I had not
		
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			touched yet. And it was ready to
immerse it was beyond that surface
		
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			level words that were there were
being spilled out, there was
		
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			something deeper inside.
		
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			And that version is when that hero
comes to that quest, where to that
		
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			next place in the journey, where
they're learning something about
		
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			themselves, but they didn't know
what deep inside, they are now
		
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			uncovering, it's like opening up a
box, and seeing this version
		
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			immersive themself. And in that
version, that immersed myself, I
		
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			realized that there still are much
more stories that are deeper
		
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			inside of me than the surface
level ones that I had shared so
		
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			far. And those deeper stories were
the ones where I was the most
		
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			vulnerable. They're the ones that
talked about my failures. Those
		
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			are the ones that talked about not
what was happening to me. But what
		
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			had I what had happened with me.
		
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			And I realized, to get to the next
point, I was at the point that I
		
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			had to embrace my imperfections.
		
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			And I wasn't becoming someone
else. I was taking all of that.
		
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			And saying, I accepted.
		
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			What a writer does, when they
write their stories, is the first
		
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			thing they write for themselves to
get out the story that that's
		
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			within them. But then the second
part of that journey is writing
		
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			the story where someone else reads
it and says, that could have been
		
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			me. Like that's, that's just like
me, or I could have written the
		
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			story, I could have told the
story.
		
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			And that's the part that turns you
in from someone who writes into
		
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			becoming a writer, because now you
are writing with a mission with an
		
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			intention. So that what was what
was missing with me, my first
		
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			version was for myself, that was
just a splurge of words that was
		
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			out there. The second version that
I worked on, that I began to write
		
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			again in March
		
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			was the story that I wanted to
share the experience, I wanted to
		
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			share the journey, I wanted to
take you the reader with me, as I
		
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			am doing right now.
		
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			And it was in that place that I
realized that I'm not hiding or
		
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			running away from my fears. I'm
accepting the fact that public
		
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			spaces scare me, I'm accepting the
fact that this new journey I'm on
		
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			where I'm, I might be more visible
online, or I'm speaking to
		
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			somebody like I did back in
December at the Detroit Women's
		
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			Leadership Network when I was
invited to speak as a keynote
		
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			speaker there, that all these
places that I'm I'm that I'm going
		
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			to and that are scary and that
they are okay to be scary. But I'm
		
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			going to show up anyways, that is
going to be vulnerable, as
		
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			anything to put my life
experiences in a book, where I'm
		
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			going to talk about my
relationship with my children and
		
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			how I've struggled with that. And
I feel that that and I have, I
		
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			have had challenges with that,
where I discussed that my body
		
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			made the weight that I enshrouded
myself and shrunk me. But yet, it
		
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			was a part of me, I carried it
with her I can hate those parts of
		
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			myself. They are what brought me
to this point today.
		
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			And so in doing all those things,
I realized that the writing
		
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			journey, the publishing journey,
being an author, it's not just
		
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			about, about having a name printed
on a book, it's about all the
		
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			parts of you that show up to that
interview, or the parts of you
		
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			that show up on those social media
feeds and lives and all those
		
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			things are not even that it's the
version of you that shows up in
		
00:29:01 --> 00:29:04
			the book that the reader reads,
they connect with you because a
		
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			human wrote that book. It's not
these words that were just spat
		
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			out by a computer, Allah subhanaw
taala made us humans and gave us
		
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			all these emotions like fear and
sadness and anger and love and and
		
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			hate and all those words, but he
also gave us the means to harness
		
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			that and then ride it in the
direction that we choose to ride
		
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			it. Now, he has advised us to say
in showed us that this is the
		
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			right way and this is not the
right way in where this leads us
		
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			and where that leads us. In the
same way we are in this quest
		
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			because we are not just writers we
are Muslim, our writers. That
		
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			means we are writing with
intention. We are writing with
		
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			purpose, that there is something
there we believe in
		
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			accountability. We believe in the
book of deeds as writers. We are
		
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			writing this book and this book is
what can be our book of deeds. It
		
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			shows us that everything has
		
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			As an accountability, every word
has a weight to it.
		
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			And so it wasn't just about
writing a book and getting it out
		
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			there. It was about writing a book
and making that connection. I
		
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			remember yesterday at the summit
itself, I think I was listening to
		
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			Lauren boots live. And she was
talking about how, how this the
		
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			purpose is intention and how it's
that we have another, we have
		
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			another goal there, we have a
further place to go. And so when
		
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			when I sit with this idea of the
women I become along the way,
		
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			I realize that the way is still
far.
		
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			The way I became when I was
writing this book is a woman I
		
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			realized there was worth
discovering, that was worth
		
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			learning more about. Because with
all the things that I have hidden
		
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			about myself, where I've shunned
away and thought, I'm not supposed
		
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			to be like this, I'm supposed to
be like that.
		
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			That is denying who I am as a
person. And that denies me and my
		
00:31:00 --> 00:31:05
			creativity as a writer. So once I
get that splurge of words out, and
		
00:31:05 --> 00:31:08
			we get into the depth of the
words, is where the real story
		
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			begins.
		
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			Yes, you may not have the best
book. And it may not be the book
		
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			that sells the best. I mean, it's
your story. It's your words, some
		
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			1000s of people have might have
written about, about about the
		
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			quarantine, 1000s of people might
have written about their mental
		
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			health issues or their struggle
with postpartum depression. But
		
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			nobody has said it in your voice.
Nobody has said it with your
		
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			background with your journey.
Nobody has said it like you.
		
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			There will be challenges, but
nothing in life is free, not even
		
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			Jana.
		
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			And so the challenge is that you
are able to bring yourself to
		
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			accept and the ones you are able
to face, regardless of what
		
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			happens after what happens after
it's all written for you anyways,
		
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			but the challenge of you showing
up shows your willingness to move
		
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			forward. And that is what I
realized about myself, all those
		
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			years that I've I, I stood back.
And there was this burning in my
		
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			heart to do something better to be
something better to show up to be
		
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			a hero to do all those wonderful
things, was missing, Safe at Home,
		
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			and not opening the door to step
outside and see the journey that
		
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			was waiting for me to have and it
was my journey. No one can take it
		
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			from me. It belongs to me. It's
part of my destiny. It's part of
		
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			my quest. But I wasn't willing to
take that step.
		
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			When we meet as writers, and we
support each other, and we listen
		
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			to each other, it is important not
only to be critical, and and be
		
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			honest with each other, but it's
also important to realize that we
		
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			are we are each together and we're
our journeys and our stories are
		
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			unique to us and supporting each
other in that helps us to grow
		
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			better.
		
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			And so I'm just gonna finish up
here by saying by reading a little
		
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			thing that that I had written and
I was hoping to share that with
		
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			you. I don't know if I kind of
went on but I think I did. But
		
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			anyhow, that's what happens when
you go a little impromptu. So I
		
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			just wanted to read something with
you if, if, if you allow me to.
		
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			And it's this is a poem I written
it's called, if you love a memoir.
		
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			If you love me, set me free. Let
me go on this journey of self
		
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			discovery. I promise I love you
more than I did before. There's so
		
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			much more we have in store. Let me
tell you what happened a long time
		
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			ago, a woman fell in love and let
herself go. She made her love the
		
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			world and more she closed herself
in and locked the door. She was
		
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			fine with that decision. She made
loyalty her love and never
		
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			betrayed. The love had flourish.
They brew avoid a bitterness that
		
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			harness that she tried to avoid
but there it was simmering on low
		
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			even heat. That faint voice
whispering What about me? She gave
		
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			herself to others year after year,
being their shield while drowning
		
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			and fierce. She built a fort to
bury herself in with walls of fat
		
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			held tight with skin but her
spirit to bed and let it fall
		
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			asleep let a World of Darkness
pull her in deep. Her love would
		
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			wonder how can a woman be this
way? But no care for appearance no
		
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			not seeing her for days, but the
love was unaware that she was at
		
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			war. The Darkness she fed now
snarled and wore a monster was
		
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			made a cynical beast with venomous
delts and belittling teeth, claws
		
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			of anger and fists of hate left
her tired in an irritable state.
		
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			Hands class together she so called
called sadness and fear she
		
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			surrendered herself with words
she'd hear. She was no good
		
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			nothing not worthy enough the
beast ever mind made it just too
		
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			tough.
		
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			Though her love saw her for the
flower she was her mind saw weeds
		
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			it smelled of dust. She wondered
why he never why he ever loved
		
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			There's so much be happy with her
and reach for her touch. His love
		
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			was real and he believed in her
deep sorrow, her sadness, but not
		
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			the monster that creeped. His wish
and hope was that one day she
		
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			could see that she was the earth
and he was the tree. He flourished
		
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			only if she stood strong and wide
be the assuring shore to a strong
		
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			high tides. She wanted that too,
but just a little bit more to slay
		
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			the Dark Beast and step out of the
door. So one day she did just
		
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			that, but it wasn't all dead round
when it was weakened and escaped.
		
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			Instead, the monster still lives
but seems crippled at least lurks
		
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			in the shadows but no longer a
beast. That woman was awakened
		
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			from a summer of too long she
hurried in our steps and her
		
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			persistence was strong. She was
too much to she has too much time
		
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			to cover a fleeting clock ships
and searching waters not ready to
		
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			dock but it's not it's not just
the excitement the rushes or along
		
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			is the anticipation of a monster
coming back strong. What is she to
		
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			tell the world about the enemy
within that the battles she fights
		
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			are inside of her skin?
		
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			Because you love me, let me go let
me plant myself and watch me grow.
		
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			You love me through seasons bright
and dark. Now let go of my hand as
		
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			I begin to walk. I see a woman
distantly waiting for me that may
		
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			sit for a while and talk to her
please. We'll catch up on who we
		
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			were and what will be for the
story of the Battle woman is the
		
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			story of me. Jessica Lachlan so
much for allowing me to be here
		
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			and I hope that you learned
something and once again, thank
		
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			you so so so much
		
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			You're welcome. I'm delighted to
be calling you here beside me.
		
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			Hope you can hear me insha Allah.
Yes, I can hear you
		
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			while you're
		
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			at pulled them over your audience,
just so they might be easier.
		
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			Yeah, our connection isn't great.
So just want to thank the audience
		
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			for their attention. Guys, please
search up Tom keen on Facebook and
		
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			Instagram. Buy her book in her
list to get a new one. And share
		
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			this with other people Temkin have
always found your story very, very
		
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			inspirational for so many reasons.
I mean, we could do a deep
		
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			Yes, I think Naira has frozen out.
		
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			Okay, no, we're back.
		
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			But, uh, my bandwidth is not.
		
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			We're challah and we'll see you
guys in the next session, where
		
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			we're going to be talking about
building platforms. See you in the
		
00:37:49 --> 00:37:52
			next session and sha Allah, go
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			this session Temkin, we love you
for the sake of Allah and we wish
		
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			you the best. See you in the next
session. Insha Allah Assalamu
		
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			aleikum wa Salam
		
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			is over the second.
		
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			Thank you. That was a
		
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			decision. I'm gonna end the
webinar. Yeah, I'm going to end it
		
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			because I don't ever like