Naima B. Robert – Secrets of Successful Wives conference divorcees, widows and starting again

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The speakers discuss the journey of women in Islamic society, including challenges of divorce, step parenting, and parenting. They emphasize the importance of healing and breathing journey, managing expectations, and creating a stable and predictable connection to Allah. The journey is a loss and reclaiming oneself, and the importance of educating oneself on potential outcomes and creating a "has been a blessing." They stress the need for healing work, finding the right person, and building a positive mindset to avoid negative consequences.

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			Welcome to day 3
		
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			of the secrets
		
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			of successful wives conference.
		
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			It's been an amazing 2 days, and we
		
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			are starting off on a 3rd day of
		
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			awesomeness insha'Allah
		
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			with a very
		
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			much needed panel discussion
		
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			on the journey
		
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			after an initial marriage.
		
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			After initial marriage, it's either due to widowhood
		
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			or divorce,
		
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			and what happens afterwards, whether it is life
		
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			as a divorcee,
		
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			negotiating remarriage,
		
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			the life inside a remarriage in terms of
		
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			step parenting, blended families, etcetera.
		
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			I truly believe that we don't talk about
		
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			these enough.
		
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			We have certain talking points that are very
		
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			common, either pro or against,
		
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			but the the the details
		
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			and the the realities
		
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			of this journey,
		
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			I don't think that we have enough open,
		
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			honest discussions about them. So I have my
		
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			wonderful guests
		
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			here who are all,
		
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			subhanAllah,
		
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			experts in their own ways, which they're going
		
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			to tell you inshallah, but I know that
		
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			I invited them on here because they are
		
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			going to give you guys
		
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			such a perspective inshallah that probably you've never
		
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			heard before, you've never seen before. So I'm
		
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			super excited. So sister Raeesa,
		
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			tell us a little bit about you and
		
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			what you do.
		
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			I'm Raeesah Aggie Wala. I'm the divorced Muslim
		
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			coach and I support a woman,
		
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			to heal after their divorce
		
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			and in a way
		
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			that they become closer to Allah and to
		
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			elevate in their character in this life and
		
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			the next through and.
		
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			So good. Khadija Alcudor.
		
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			Tell us a bit about yourself.
		
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			Assalamu alaikum, everyone. So my name is Khadija
		
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			Aqador. I am an awakened
		
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			and pride motherhood
		
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			expert. So I'm a degree qualified parenting coach.
		
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			I have a mother of 5 boys, and
		
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			I,
		
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			have been
		
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			helping mothers to reclaim themselves, to,
		
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			rediscover themselves basically and
		
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			to reclaim their self love and their conscious
		
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			parenting and come back to their connection to
		
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			their true place that they are from their
		
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			true connection to Allah.
		
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			And I have 24 years
		
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			of marriage and 2 marriages. So it's yeah.
		
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			End of the journey.
		
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			And, Salat Sully, we love to hear from
		
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			you as well.
		
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			Assalamu alaikum. Warakum. Assalamu alaikum. Assalamu alaikum. Assalamu
		
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			alaikum. Assalamu alaikum. Assalamu alaikum. Assalamu alaikum. Assalamu
		
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			alaikum. Assalamu alaikum. Assalamu alaikum. Assalamu alaikum. Assalamu
		
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			alaikum. Assalamu alaikum.
		
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			My name is Salatasuli.
		
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			I am,
		
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			mother of
		
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			I usually break up the number of kids
		
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			I have.
		
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			One biological child,
		
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			3 boys if you count what someone called
		
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			my bonus children
		
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			and then 100 more because I'm a teacher,
		
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			I've worked in a secondary school since 2,020
		
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			2003. Yeah.
		
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			What do I do? I teach. I also
		
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			coach and mentor,
		
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			the head of training and development in the
		
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			school where I work. And a lot of
		
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			what I do revolves around character building and
		
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			development and trying to live a meaningful life,
		
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			live a life that,
		
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			has
		
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			life, if you can put it that way,
		
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			and,
		
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			root all that one does in the Islamic
		
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			spirit and understanding
		
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			of Islam, being a Muslim every day, whether
		
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			that has to do with one's job or
		
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			dealing with life, coping with
		
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			life, and trying to just be real from
		
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			moment to moment.
		
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			I've been married twice,
		
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			widowed, then I got married again. So total
		
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			of about since 2006,
		
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			the year of my first marriage, so that's
		
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			about 20 20 something years. So
		
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			happy to be here.
		
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			Thank you so much for being here. And,
		
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			you know, obviously,
		
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			we're having a conversation about
		
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			divorce, widowhood,
		
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			step parenting because all of you have been
		
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			through that. We've all actually been through this
		
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			journey. And,
		
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			was actually surprised at the number of other
		
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			speakers as well who some of them have
		
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			been married 10, 15, 20 years, but were
		
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			divorced before that,
		
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			including, Mufti Menck, which we talked about in
		
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			the interview the other day. SubhanAllah. So, you
		
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			know, I guess the first question I would
		
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			like to for us to have, you know,
		
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			a conversation is about is, you know, from
		
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			your vantage point,
		
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			what are
		
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			the major challenges
		
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			that women face
		
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			when they're on the other side of a
		
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			divorce or a widowhood
		
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			and they're contemplating
		
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			getting married again? From your different vantage points,
		
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			what are the major challenges that they face?
		
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			Reese, you know we're looking at you because
		
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			you're the coach.
		
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			Alright. Let's go. Kick us off, Insha'Allah. I
		
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			know you've got the whole list. You could
		
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			literally write the book on this, but it's
		
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			Fardari. Go ahead.
		
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			Yes. Alhamdulillah.
		
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			From my own experience
		
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			and supporting other women through this, I feel
		
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			like when women
		
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			a lot of us don't when we're in
		
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			a when we're in a marriage, we're we're
		
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			almost so primed and conditioned
		
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			our whole life as we grow up to
		
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			to be a wife, you know, and to
		
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			be a mother, and that's what we focus
		
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			on.
		
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			And then when that when that ends, the
		
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			marriage ends, and now you're single again, whether
		
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			you have children or you don't, you
		
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			so many of us don't know who we
		
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			are. So we're either trying to grasp to
		
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			find ourselves,
		
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			and to see whether, okay,
		
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			sometimes
		
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			I think women a lot of times are
		
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			hesitant and, okay,
		
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			will I repeat the same patterns?
		
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			Will I, you know, end up with the
		
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			same type of person? I think that's a
		
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			huge fear,
		
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			especially for women who,
		
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			want
		
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			to be in a in a in a
		
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			marriage, in a relationship again. There's this there's
		
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			this challenges of
		
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			what if I end up in the same
		
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			type of situation.
		
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			And I think that's a that's a really
		
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			big big one because
		
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			we have
		
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			we started
		
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			identifying
		
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			ourselves to our roles,
		
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			such as wife, such as mother.
		
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			And we we're not we don't we haven't
		
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			been taught how to separate us as a
		
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			individual
		
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			female servant of god first.
		
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			And so we tie our identity
		
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			to the to those roles of wife, mother,
		
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			daughter. Right? And we and we lose ourself.
		
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			And I'm saying we because I found the
		
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			same experience and and this is the experience
		
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			that,
		
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			women that I've worked with have shared with
		
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			me.
		
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			So I think it's the
		
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			finding yourself,
		
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			how to know that you won't have a
		
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			repeat performance,
		
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			you know,
		
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			making sure that,
		
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			whoever you end up marrying is gonna be
		
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			good for you and your children if you
		
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			have children because that's a huge responsibility as
		
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			well.
		
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			That's another,
		
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			I think,
		
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			big challenge.
		
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			And I think that's just the biggest fear.
		
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			And then,
		
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			in within that, there's another fear of, am
		
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			I gonna be alone my whole life? I
		
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			I think a lot of times when the
		
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			women get separated, it's such a as a
		
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			Muslim woman,
		
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			in our culture, it's really
		
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			it's it's a challenge to live life on
		
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			your own whether you have children or not
		
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			because that's, you know, marriage is half our
		
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			deen. Right?
		
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			So,
		
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			I think it's having the fears of, am
		
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			I going to be alone for the rest
		
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			of my life? And then, am I going
		
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			to repeat the same type of performance, or
		
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			will I attract the same type of partner,
		
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			I think, is the biggest things. And how
		
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			what will happen to my kids in this
		
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			scenario with the decisions that I'm making?
		
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			And I'm sure the rest of the ladies
		
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			can can add to this.
		
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			Yeah. Yeah. It's a free flowing conversation. So
		
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			please.
		
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			For some of the challenges I've experienced, what
		
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			I experienced in working with the women that
		
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			I've worked with, I've worked with a lot
		
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			of divorcee women,
		
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			is exactly all the things that Arias is
		
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			mentioning.
		
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			It's because you're in a place all the
		
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			time when you've just had the breakdown of
		
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			marriage, there's definitely a sense of transitioning to
		
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			something. There's a healing process. There's a breathing
		
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			process.
		
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			There could be,
		
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			you know, there's certain beliefs and ideas and
		
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			put downs or whatever. There's a lot of
		
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			stuff going in your head at that time
		
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			at that time. You feel lost. You can
		
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			feel like you just failed at the marriage
		
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			because, you know and like what Ray was
		
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			saying,
		
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			we we,
		
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			you know, many women stay in marriage marriages
		
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			because marriage, you know, stigmatized. You know, many
		
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			women have said to me, I'm staying in
		
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			a marriage because
		
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			I don't want to be eligible for me.
		
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			And so the whole cultural conditioning, the ideas
		
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			that we've had culturally, I've had women who
		
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			stay in the marriage because, you know,
		
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			because their parents wanted them to say, no.
		
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			What will people think? So there's so much
		
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			going on sometimes when you're going through that
		
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			divorce process. And then you're kind of in
		
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			this place and then you're reclaiming yourself. You're
		
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			having to then shed some of the beliefs,
		
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			ideas, unspoken rules, messages that other people have
		
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			kind of put onto you
		
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			and say, wait a minute here, what do
		
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			I need and
		
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			what is,
		
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			my most important connection and relationship, which is
		
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			Allah.
		
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			So almost like a whole awakening process. Because
		
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			everything shifts in your life and everything shifts
		
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			for the children and you have children in
		
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			that process. So I think,
		
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			it to me, it's a place where you
		
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			feel a bit lost
		
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			and you've got to just kind of stop
		
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			or pause and then,
		
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			really assess yourself, who you are, and come
		
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			back to who you are. And exactly what
		
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			Raisa said, so many fears. So many fears
		
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			you're gonna end up alone. Financial fears, especially
		
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			if you didn't have a good financial
		
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			income or and I know I worried about
		
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			my boys'
		
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			income and because the father wasn't supporting the
		
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			financial. You know, it's a huge worry in
		
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			fear. You know, something I got really anxious
		
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			at night about, you know, many nights worrying
		
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			about, you know, the finances and how am
		
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			I gonna juggle work and juggle leaving their
		
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			needs, as well as grieving the process of
		
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			failing at a marriage, and then the idea
		
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			of even moving on. And so and there's
		
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			so many unfortunate
		
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			connotations that are put to us as women
		
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			when we're in the divorce stages and especially
		
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			those of us as single mothers that will,
		
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			you know, will lose food. So, you know,
		
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			so many comments that you get where people
		
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			will will will make those comments. So there
		
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			are a lot of challenges.
		
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			It is a very, very,
		
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			it's a hard period to be
		
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			SubhanAllah. 100%
		
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			agree with you. Salatu, I think, you know,
		
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			you and I both know that the the
		
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			journey sort of after losing a husband
		
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			and becoming a widow is is is slightly
		
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			different. What would you say that the challenges
		
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			that widows face,
		
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			would be?
		
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			I would like to start by saying,
		
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			the journey is slightly different, but in many
		
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			ways, the journeys are the same
		
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			because there is always that sense of grieving.
		
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			It's just sometimes if you're widowed then people
		
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			give you permission to grieve. It's okay.
		
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			But if you're a divorcee, there might be
		
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			other questions such as what did you do
		
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			wrong? Was it your fault? Wasn't it your
		
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			fault? But there's always that sense of something
		
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			that was precious to you is not there
		
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			anymore, and so there's always that sense of
		
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			something is broken or missing.
		
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			And
		
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			sister Reza and sister Khadija talked about that
		
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			sense of being lost and feeling adrift.
		
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			Some of the challenges that you might then
		
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			start facing is
		
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			pressure, pressure to remarry
		
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			for some people depending on the culture, the
		
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			circumstance, your family, and background. There might be
		
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			that pressure to marry again and one thing
		
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			that
		
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			divorcees and widows face is
		
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			learning how to deal with that pressure,
		
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			learning how to find a way to not
		
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			give in to the pressure from other people
		
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			to rush up and get married. Another challenge
		
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			that,
		
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			they face, especially when they
		
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			are considering marrying again is how to handle
		
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			the past.
		
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			What I mean is,
		
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			if maybe someone is divorced,
		
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			you are coming with stuff that came from
		
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			that divorce. Divorce is always a difficult journey
		
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			from those
		
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			ladies I've spoken with who've been divorced. There's
		
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			always it's very hard for it not to
		
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			be,
		
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			acrimonious, right, not to be for there not
		
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			to be some bitterness
		
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			and you come with that. If you're widowed
		
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			and the marriage was great, you still come
		
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			with the fact that this was a great
		
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			marriage and it ended against my will. I
		
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			didn't see it coming. I didn't expect it.
		
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			So you've got that past with you. Now
		
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			when you're going to marry again,
		
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			you'll even find in some cultures,
		
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			they would actually say don't take anything from
		
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			your past with you. So you've got to
		
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			have a whole new wardrobe. You've got to
		
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			don't go with anything from your previous
		
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			marriage or life. Now that is even tolerable
		
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			because you can probably go out and buy
		
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			new clothes and new,
		
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			utensils and new furniture.
		
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			But you even find in some places the
		
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			issue of what part of your past to
		
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			bring along
		
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			might be your children.
		
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			What are you going to do with your
		
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			kids when you're going to going into this
		
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			new marriage, this new home? In some cultures
		
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			there is an understanding that for a woman,
		
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			you don't take a child from a previous
		
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			marriage to your new marital home. Your child
		
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			goes somewhere else.
		
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			If you are divorce, then the child can
		
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			go back to their father or go to
		
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			your extended family. And even where the culture
		
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			is not that's not the culture, it's always
		
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			an issue on the table
		
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			that what happens with your kids? Another thing
		
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			about dealing with the past is,
		
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			if we look at women who've been divorced,
		
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			there are definitely things that went down that
		
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			weren't right in their previous marriages. Do they
		
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			come with the lessons from the past without
		
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			necessarily bringing the past with them?
		
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			Learning
		
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			what is the lesson I meant to learn
		
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			and how do I bring that lesson with
		
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			me forward
		
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			without staying stuck in the past. There are
		
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			also those assumptions that we carry forward whether
		
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			as divorcees or
		
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			with the, women,
		
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			some assumptions about how a man is going
		
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			to be, how the marriage is going to
		
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			be. Some people are still, okay. I've been
		
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			married before. He did this. He did that.
		
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			He did that. I know now. I'm never
		
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			going to let it happen again. I know
		
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			all the signs. And once this new person
		
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			acts a certain way, it's like,
		
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			yeah, yeah, this is how it started. So
		
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			we also have these assumptions and you have
		
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			to know, am I reading the signals right?
		
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			Am I seeing this person clearly or am
		
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			I seeing this person through the prism of
		
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			my, ex husband
		
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			or my late husband, especially if your late
		
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			husband was a great guy? Am I going
		
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			to keep measuring? So it's I think there's
		
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			a lot around that
		
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			handling the past and the present and the
		
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			future, and what do you bring with you
		
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			and what do you leave behind. And I
		
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			think sometimes people don't understand
		
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			this aspect of the struggle. It's just leave
		
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			it all behind.
		
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			When I got widowed, I had my late
		
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			husband's picture up on my in my office.
		
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			It was on the wall. I had his
		
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			picture as my,
		
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			DP,
		
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			and
		
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			a few people tried to tell me you've
		
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			got to take it down now because you're
		
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			planning to remarry.
		
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			And I really didn't know how to explain
		
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			to them that
		
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			you don't have a flip but a button,
		
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			you don't have a switch for switch of
		
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			the old life and switch on the new.
		
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			You don't have a switch, that there is
		
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			a process you've got to go through, and
		
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			people telling you do this or don't do
		
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			that, which is also part of the pressure
		
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			I mentioned earlier,
		
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			doesn't always help.
		
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			Yeah. These are some of the challenges.
		
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			SubhanAllah. You know, just as you were mentioning
		
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			about the picture,
		
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			and I think what's common to what we've
		
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			you know, you've all said is this need
		
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			to heal,
		
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			is to need to heal from
		
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			this the the the impact of this loss.
		
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			Right. Whether it was wished for or not.
		
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			You know, maybe you asked for the divorce,
		
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			maybe you pushed for it, maybe you didn't
		
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			want it at all. And usually in terms
		
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			of widowhood, you didn't ask for it. But
		
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			maybe the marriage was wonderful. Maybe it wasn't.
		
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			I know sisters who've lost their husband
		
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			at
		
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			a time when the marriage was a bad
		
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			place.
		
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			And then now before this person and they,
		
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			you know, they're in a and it's, you
		
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			know, it's a different it's a different dynamic.
		
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			But I think the need for for acknowledgment
		
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			that
		
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			there is healing work to be done,
		
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			that that you're definitely carrying some baggage. Right?
		
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			You're carrying something from this relationship.
		
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			And maybe it's a good idea to see
		
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			what that baggage is, what it's looking like,
		
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			where it's coming from and try to get
		
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			rid of as much of it as possible
		
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			before you move on.
		
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			And like you said, sister Salatu,
		
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			you know, different cultures have different ideas. Don't
		
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			they, Riese? I'm sure you're aware of this.
		
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			Different cultures have different ideas about what is
		
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			appropriate
		
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			for a divorcee or the woman. So Salati,
		
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			you and I talked about this on our
		
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			Instagram live where in in your culture in
		
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			Nigeria,
		
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			you know, if you lose your husband, I
		
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			believe,
		
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			the the the hope and the wish is
		
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			you will marry again, like, quickly.
		
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			Don't be sitting out here.
		
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			Like, we, you know, get married, you know,
		
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			and so we'll find some for
		
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			you.
		
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			I know because
		
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			it's a complete taboo for a widow to
		
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			talk about getting married again. You know? It's
		
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			it's actually something
		
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			disgusting almost
		
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			to consider, you know, to talk about being
		
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			married again as a and it's the same
		
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			with divorcees. In some cultures, if you're divorced,
		
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			they want you to find someone as soon
		
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			as possible or they find someone for you.
		
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			And in other cultures, you're a pariah. Nobody
		
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			wants to talk to you. Nobody wants to
		
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			is interested in you in shape, size or
		
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			form.
		
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			So we've got these different cultural,
		
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			sort of, you know, tendencies.
		
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			But I think the need for healing is
		
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			something that is is is really is something
		
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			standard across all cultures.
		
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			So what would you say then how
		
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			and, actually, I think one of the challenges
		
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			that a lot of divorcees face, especially the
		
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			he's not so much widows, I think, but
		
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			divorcees
		
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			do of the stigma,
		
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			and the the difficulty of
		
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			the fact that your options in in terms
		
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			of re marriage are maybe not the same
		
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			as they were when you first got married.
		
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			And I think that that can come as
		
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			a as a disappointment
		
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			to a lot of sisters is that they're
		
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			like, you know, you want someone better
		
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			than what you had especially if it was
		
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			a difficult marriage.
		
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			You want somebody who's better than what you
		
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			had. So if your husband was abusive
		
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			you want someone who's not abusive. Right? If
		
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			your husband
		
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			didn't take you once you marry for sure,
		
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			you're hoping for somebody who is going to
		
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			be an upgrade
		
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			from your previous,
		
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			relationship. But,
		
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			unfortunately, especially if it's, you
		
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			know, some several years down the line,
		
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			I think it is a challenge for a
		
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			lot of divorcees to find that the pickings
		
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			are kind of slim,
		
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			and the ideal
		
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			that you now realize would be your ideal.
		
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			They they can be hard to find.
		
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			That can they can be hard to find.
		
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			But then how can we equip ourselves then
		
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			for I'd love to hear from each of
		
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			you. How can we equip ourselves
		
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			to be a to do the healing work,
		
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			to to to to manage expectations? Khadija, you
		
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			and I have talked and I've talked about
		
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			this. How can we equip ourselves so that
		
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			we are best placed
		
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			to remarry,
		
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			choosing
		
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			the right person
		
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			and a marriage that will last.
		
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			Right? Because we know that the second and
		
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			subsequent marriages have a higher failure rate than
		
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			first marriages,
		
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			particularly speaking.
		
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			So how can we, you know, how can
		
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			we equip ourselves
		
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			not only be in the best place to
		
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			be married,
		
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			but to know the right person to look
		
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			the right things to look for and then
		
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			how to be in that marriage so that
		
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			it actually is a marriage that lasts
		
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			inshallah. What are your thoughts on that?
		
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			You know,
		
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			such a polite panel today.
		
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			Everybody's waiting to get to take
		
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			their
		
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			time. Sister Naima, my beloved.
		
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			As I was listening to you talking about
		
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			when you when a woman
		
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			is looking to get married again and she
		
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			is aspiring and she has hopes for
		
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			a partner that is better than the experience
		
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			that she had before. Right?
		
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			There's this hope and then there's also this
		
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			fear at the same time. And what I
		
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			would say is that
		
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			for the woman, as a woman to take
		
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			that time
		
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			to check-in with herself
		
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			and Allah at the same time. Because in
		
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			order to in order to attract and have
		
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			that upgrade,
		
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			as you said, you know, for the next
		
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			partner,
		
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			have you upgraded?
		
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			Asking yourself that question, wait a minute, how
		
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			did I show up in this marriage?
		
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			Can I be better? I mean,
		
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			what will it what will that look like
		
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			for me? What will it take? What do
		
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			I need to work on? Because we I
		
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			think we we get so stuck on
		
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			the other person
		
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			having all these faults and being the problem.
		
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			We need to pause and check back into
		
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			ourself.
		
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			And and and part of this is is
		
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			that that level of, conscious awareness that talks
		
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			about a lot. Right? And and how I
		
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			like to describe it is that this level
		
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			of self awareness, self consciousness
		
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			is the key to having god consciousness, which
		
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			is
		
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			taqwa. Because without taqwa of Allah
		
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			in your life,
		
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			you're not gonna be able to have
		
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			taqwa of Allah in a relationship,
		
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			you know, such as one that fulfills half
		
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			your deed.
		
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			And so I think that Mhmm.
		
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			As sister, Salatu was saying is that what
		
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			lessons have you learned? What have you learned
		
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			about yourself
		
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			that you can bring as an upgrade to
		
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			your next relationship?
		
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			And I and to speak to the point,
		
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			so there there needs to be some reflection,
		
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			some healing, some processing,
		
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			some, you know, getting the support that you
		
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			need to help you because none of us
		
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			can really do this on our own because
		
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			can we be honest with ourselves in the
		
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			way that is required
		
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			to find those answers? And and I think
		
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			that's really, I think we all need help
		
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			and support with that,
		
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			because it's easy to deflect and it's easy
		
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			to
		
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			blame,
		
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			and not look at the self.
		
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			I I think one of the other things,
		
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			that I wanted to mention was that,
		
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			it can
		
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			be feel really disheartening when you look at
		
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			the situation and the circumstance and
		
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			of what's around us. However,
		
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			when we see what is around us, it
		
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			doesn't necessarily mean
		
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			that is truth. It's how we're perceiving things.
		
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			But Allah is the one who controls everything.
		
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			Right? And Allah is the one who can
		
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			send the one, the right person for you.
		
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			So Allah
		
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			tells us also that he's not gonna change
		
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			our condition unless we change what is within
		
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			ourselves, and that's what I was talking about.
		
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			And so
		
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			having that per
		
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			that,
		
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			outlook and that hope in Allah that he
		
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			you are worthy of that. You are deserving
		
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			of having, you know,
		
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			the perfect partner for you or the one
		
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			that you you deserve.
		
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			And that Allah can give it to you
		
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			even if there's nobody out there that you
		
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			can see.
		
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			It's not about what you can see,
		
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			but it's about what Allah can give you
		
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			and you and how you think of Allah,
		
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			how you perceive Allah, your relationship with Allah.
		
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			And I think
		
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			that is the first part and of the
		
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			the pause, the self reflection, the self assessment,
		
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			and asking yourself, what is it that you
		
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			have to offer? You know? How are you
		
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			shifted? How have you changed?
		
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			And can you show up as that high
		
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			level,
		
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			Muslim
		
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			so you can meet this high level man?
		
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			I love you. You jumped on
		
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			some of my buzzwords there. I just wanna
		
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			just jump in to say, what you said
		
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			about,
		
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			upgrading yourself,
		
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			and I like that you paired it with.
		
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			Right?
		
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			Because we know and many of us have
		
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			have had this experience of
		
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			going through a divorce and leveling up,
		
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			But our leveling up is
		
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			maybe work wise, career wise, right? We start
		
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			to become this amazingly successful woman.
		
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			Mashallah.
		
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			Hoping, I think, that we will qualify for
		
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			a really successful man now that we are,
		
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			you know, this we are this woman, right?
		
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			Obviously, men look for different things and men
		
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			are looking for different things in a wife.
		
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			And I think
		
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			I think it's important
		
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			for sisters to realize that that if a
		
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			man chooses to marry you, especially taking you
		
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			on with your children,
		
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			it's not because you're this amazingly successful woman
		
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			that he admires. Because men don't marry because
		
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			they admire your professional
		
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			qualifications
		
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			and your professional aspirations.
		
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			They admire you as a person and as
		
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			a wife,
		
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			right? So
		
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			upgrading as a wife and as a human
		
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			being and as a slave of Allah,
		
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			don't forget that that's the thing that allows
		
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			you to kind of, you know, I don't
		
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			know what the word is, but
		
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			a person chooses based on that, not on
		
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			how amazingly you've done on your social media
		
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			channels or, like, how much money you've made
		
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			even. Right?
		
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			I I I think
		
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			Inshallah.
		
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			Yeah. I I I think to add to
		
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			that Go ahead. Go ahead. It's really about
		
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			how do you define success. When we say
		
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			success,
		
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			what makes a person successful? And then we
		
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			have to really understand
		
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			what is your definition of success
		
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			Because that's gonna be different for different people,
		
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			and you want to be able to match
		
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			yourself up with people who are in alignment
		
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			with your answer and your definition of success.
		
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			100%. Khadija, go ahead. You, I jumped in
		
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			when you wanted to answer. Sorry. No problem.
		
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			I think also that
		
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			we can't forget that some women, especially those
		
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			who've gone through domestic violence or abuse or,
		
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			all different things that women go through in
		
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			a divorce is that,
		
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			this upleveling doesn't
		
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			suspending you in such a survival mode. And
		
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			so the whole idea of up leveling things
		
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			a lot. So
		
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			while I agree, yes, there is that process
		
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			of up leveling and that that is a
		
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			journey in itself.
		
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			For many women, it is that time of
		
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			just,
		
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			acknowledging
		
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			what have they just gone through. And to,
		
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			like Grace has said, that self discovery and
		
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			acknowledgement and going through the grieving process of
		
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			the things that they went through and a
		
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			shedding process, kind of like a surrendering and
		
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			letting go process or letting it flow of
		
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			some of the messages, beliefs,
		
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			triggers,
		
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			attachments, codependencies,
		
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			some of the behaviors and patterns that haven't
		
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			filled them. And, you know, that is definitely
		
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			a conscious awareness journey. And for many,
		
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			many of us only learn our true healing
		
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			and our true understanding ourselves in relationships.
		
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			So definitely when I walked into my second
		
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			marriage, I was not a 100% healed in
		
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			no way. But I had done some some
		
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			some
		
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			ability I had worked on some. I was
		
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			consciously aware enough to be aware of what
		
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			I didn't want in a marriage and and
		
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			what was the red flag that I didn't
		
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			want in a second marriage. But then the
		
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			number one thing that made the hugest difference,
		
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			and I think I've seen this with women
		
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			that I've worked with, and exactly what Lisa
		
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			was saying, is about
		
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			that really reliance
		
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			on the expectation that we have all of
		
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			our talent. This is the time the most.
		
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			And I see women do this all the
		
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			time when they they they want to remarry.
		
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			They get really focused on the outer appearance.
		
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			They get really focused on
		
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			the kind of,
		
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			getting out there and being out there. But
		
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			this is the most important time that you
		
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			do the internal connection to Allah.
		
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			Your alliance to Allah at this time is
		
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			like a not another is an up leveling
		
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			itself.
		
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			Like, your connection and and your expectation of
		
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			Allah. Because Allah's already got he's done his
		
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			face cover. He's already done his planning. And
		
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			Ola says he replaces with data. You know,
		
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			he made that. And that was kind of
		
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			my motto at that time, that Ola replaces
		
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			with data. And I kept thinking of what
		
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			Ibrahim said, and I had some a lot
		
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			on them. I don't know if
		
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			is sufficient for me. Allah is sufficient for
		
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			me with or without a man. And I
		
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			think this is really important
		
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			because your happiness and your healing is your
		
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			responsibility. And the women a lot of women
		
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			come into
		
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			responsibility.
		
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			And the women a lot of women come
		
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			into marriage, the will heal fixed me or
		
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			heal help me to support me. That is
		
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			a recipe for disaster.
		
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			Because you're expecting another another human being to
		
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			basically do your own internal work. And you
		
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			you you know, human by nature, we want
		
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			this belonging. We want to feel validated by.
		
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			We want that sense of love and connection.
		
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			But we first like Ariesta said, we have
		
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			to work on our own internal upliftment. We
		
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			have to connect that to
		
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			Allah because his
		
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			his
		
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			love doesn't
		
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			doesn't
		
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			his love and connection doesn't change depending on
		
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			another human's mood
		
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			or some attachment to what another human thinks
		
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			of you. But your connection to Allah is
		
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			permanent,
		
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			Regardless what happens around you because people are
		
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			good. People are temporary. Things will happen. But
		
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			connecting to that and really
		
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			working on the past is not your reference
		
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			point is a huge one. Because many of
		
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			us, including myself,
		
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			were one of the mistakes, let's say, going
		
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			into a separate marriage was I was still
		
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			holding some past things in the past trauma
		
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			to that path path, which is okay. I
		
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			could work through that. Right? But when those
		
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			past thoughts
		
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			contaminate
		
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			the now,
		
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			basically my triggers,
		
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			which triggers are your past moments, your past
		
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			experience, your past pattern. When and the perception
		
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			as as a perception of what that experience
		
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			is in that moment, when that triggers and
		
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			this happens to so many foster women, ma'am.
		
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			So many. Because I work with a lot,
		
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			And they have to kind of work. We
		
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			we literally have to work with them. I
		
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			work with them trying to let go of
		
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			some of the patterns that don't serve them
		
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			anymore. Some of the thinking that doesn't serve
		
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			them anymore. I had to go on a
		
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			huge journey around not fearing men in my
		
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			second marriage. And I was raising I'm raising
		
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			5 boys now. So that was a huge
		
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			journey. I had to have a real you
		
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			know, there's a lot of,
		
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			not just cultural conditioning, but social media conditioning
		
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			that is kind of sent out subconsciously to
		
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			us women about men. And so we can
		
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			and one of the best advices, subhanAllah, I
		
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			went to a 3 day
		
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			Muslim conference. It was about women prophets, women
		
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			around the Messenger.
		
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			Sheikh Darwud Butt from Canada
		
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			had come to give the lecture in my
		
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			home city for 3 days. And he'd just
		
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			come from Malaysia, done a talk. For 3
		
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			days, he was just talking about the women,
		
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			the sisters, the women around the Commonwealth and
		
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			other. And he said we have the biggest
		
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			issue and he and he's he's in marriage
		
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			counseling. He's done lots of work with the
		
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			law firm. And he said the biggest issue
		
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			is expectations get in the way.
		
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			The expectation
		
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			stopped your own healing and happiness because you
		
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			come into the next marriage with expectations
		
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			that he's gotta be a replacement father. He's
		
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			gotta do that. He's gotta do that. So,
		
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			honestly, the most important internal work that you
		
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			do, yes, building a
		
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			for sure and reliance on Allah and really
		
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			turn into Allah. If you really want you
		
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			want something, you're gonna get up into Hajj
		
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			and you're gonna turn to Allah. Like, you're
		
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			gonna use that, but then you gotta use
		
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			the other part of me, which is
		
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			do the internal work. Do the internal the
		
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			biggest one is your mindset because you're holding
		
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			on to past contaminated thoughts.
		
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			It's going
		
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			to check it's gonna affect the reality, the
		
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			blueprint
		
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			of how you're gonna show up in the
		
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			2nd night. Your 2nd night doesn't fix things.
		
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			So many women are going naively
		
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			kind of thinking, yay. You know? And I
		
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			don't wanna remote I don't wanna romanticize
		
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			a second marriage. You know, you have that
		
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			hope. And and I'm not trying to be
		
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			a, you know, crusher in any way. But
		
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			I just you have to have a realistic
		
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			expectation
		
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			that, yes,
		
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			if you do your internal work and you
		
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			rely on Allah inshallah, Allah will replace the
		
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			boat better. My biggest draw was Allah to
		
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			give me someone that is gonna help me
		
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			into into Jannah. That was my and that
		
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			was my goal. And and you are so
		
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			powerful. Right? Give me some and and, also,
		
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			I think the other thing that affects us
		
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			women is that we with the expectations. Right?
		
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			You're listed and I'm not saying that you
		
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			have to lower your expectations. What I'm saying
		
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			is you have to be realistic in the
		
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			situation that you're in right now. There are
		
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			certain things you're not going to you need
		
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			to know your values and prioritize what is
		
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			important for you in the process of wanting
		
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			to remarry. I had to get so clear
		
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			what my values were. What was the most
		
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			important two values that we had to have?
		
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			Honesty and trustworthiness.
		
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			Because I hadn't experienced that, and that was
		
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			like to me, that's more important than good
		
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			looks and income. If you had honesty and
		
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			trustworthiness, this was so important to me. You
		
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			gotta get clear of yourself, your values. You
		
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			gotta get clear of what do you actually
		
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			want. Because if not, people are gonna come
		
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			and go. And you're just gonna kind of,
		
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			like, sway, and it's not gonna help you
		
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			emotionally.
		
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			So it's it's it's definitely
		
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			really doing that internal connection to Allah. Connecting
		
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			back to Allah. Allah, what do you want
		
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			from me right now? What what's important to
		
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			me? Like, I'm working through the past that
		
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			does not support you because your past is
		
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			not your reference point anymore. And and and
		
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			and not allowing that to contaminate your now
		
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			or your future
		
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			marriage.
		
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			Assalamu Alaikum.
		
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			Great listening to sister Khadija and sister Aissa.
		
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			Alhamdulillah.
		
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			I think I'll just pick up from the
		
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			same thread because I'd like to start there.
		
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			When I lost my,
		
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			husband and
		
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			I thought about and people would mention this
		
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			whole idea of marrying again, I absolutely didn't
		
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			want to.
		
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			I had seen so many horrible marriages
		
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			growing up that at a certain point actually
		
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			believed 99.9%
		
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			of men were horrible human beings.
		
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			For the number of,
		
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			conscious,
		
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			real Muslim men I started encountering
		
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			when I got more involved in Muslim student
		
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			activities,
		
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			which helped to shift my paradigm.
		
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			Even so I still saw a lot of
		
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			marriages go south,
		
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			no matter how well they started, no matter
		
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			how great the couple seemed in the beginning,
		
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			that's when I got married and,
		
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			I found out my husband was someone that
		
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			was really a great human being. When he
		
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			passed away, I actually just believed
		
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			that it would be hard to find someone
		
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			like that, and I felt I was so
		
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			blessed
		
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			and being blessed
		
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			like that once that there was no way
		
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			I was going to,
		
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			be happily married again. So I actually just
		
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			made the mental note, I'm not marrying again,
		
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			not doing that. So I would politely,
		
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			agree to connect with people, who are interested
		
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			in marrying me. But even before
		
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			the first phone call I had already made
		
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			up my mind I'm not marrying again, I'm
		
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			just being polite here.
		
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			However
		
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			what I do know I kept doing was
		
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			making du'a continuously
		
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			that Allah would guide me, would protect me,
		
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			would give me what's good for me and
		
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			1 du'a I kept saying again and again,
		
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			I used it a lot to handle, to
		
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			manage my grief
		
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			and I kept using it is that, dua
		
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			That line, I loved that line. Don't leave
		
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			me to myself even for a second.
		
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			And each time I said that line, mentally
		
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			I would list all the decisions I had
		
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			made, all the resolutions I had made to,
		
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			not marry again, to continue working where I
		
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			was, to do a b c. So mentally
		
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			I would run through a quick list of
		
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			all my personal decisions and resolutions and ideas
		
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			and convictions
		
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			and say, Allah, if any of these things
		
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			is not going to be okay for me
		
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			in this life, in the hereafter, then just,
		
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			you
		
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			know, change my path whether I want it
		
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			or not.
		
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			So when I
		
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			I sometimes jokingly say I accidentally
		
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			remarried
		
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			because it wasn't something I intended to do,
		
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			I didn't see it coming, Let me just
		
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			put it that frankly.
		
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			And afterwards, people people would sometimes ask, what
		
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			did you do? How did you do it?
		
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			You've been married twice and each time the
		
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			marriage was great. What did you do? I
		
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			would actually sit and think, I didn't do
		
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			anything.
		
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			But I do know I made dua a
		
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			lot for Allah to guide. So that is
		
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			why I say I want to connect with
		
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			what sister Rais, Hossein and Sister Khadija said
		
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			that,
		
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			for some women that I've interacted
		
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			with, when they want to marry again, they
		
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			they see the new marriage as it's going
		
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			to heal the wounds of the past one
		
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			or if they were widowed, it's going to
		
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			make them feel better. Suddenly life is going
		
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			to be fine, life is settled. It's almost
		
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			feeling as though you've arrived at paradise
		
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			now because
		
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			you are marrying again.
		
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			Whereas
		
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			I think it should actually be more about,
		
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			as they said again and again, it's about
		
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			yourself, it's about Allah because the whole of
		
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			life, if you see what makes a beautiful
		
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			life, a Muslim life, it's where you put
		
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			Allah first, then you put yourself yourself second
		
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			because it's your connection with him.
		
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			You are always going to be responsible for
		
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			yourself, accountable for yourself first before anybody else.
		
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			When Lord?
		
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			That's
		
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			a question.
		
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			Between you and whoever you are serving who.
		
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			Not who is your lord and who is
		
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			your husband
		
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			or who is your lord and who is
		
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			your child, who is your lord and who
		
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			is your mother, it's who is your lord.
		
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			So for
		
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			women who are looking at remarrying,
		
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			one definitely thing to equip themselves with is
		
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			to have that understanding.
		
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			Now some get very religious
		
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			and very prayerful
		
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			because they are praying constantly for a husband,
		
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			a good husband.
		
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			That is great. However,
		
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			it makes
		
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			it it looks like,
		
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			Eli is here, then the husband is there.
		
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			So the husband is the goal and Allah
		
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			is the the the way to the goal
		
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			whereas it should be the other way around.
		
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			It's Allah is the goal
		
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			and I am next, my connection with him,
		
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			then the husband if he will help me
		
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			stay connected.
		
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			So the husband part has to be conditional
		
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			if he will help me stay connected.
		
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			When we look at, Suratul
		
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			Talaq the verse, I think that's verse 3,
		
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			2 and 3 where Allah starts off talking
		
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			about
		
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			if you rely on him,
		
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			he'll be enough for you. If you, have
		
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			taqwa, you're conscious of him, he'll be enough
		
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			for you. If you rely on him, he'll
		
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			provide you from where you do not expect.
		
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			And I love the way those
		
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			particular lines, how Allah says them because he
		
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			keeps talking about him. You rely on him,
		
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			you have faith in him, depend on him,
		
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			you are conscious of him, he will be
		
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			enough for you.
		
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			And enough is enough for whatever it is
		
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			your worries might be. The worries that come
		
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			with being divorced, people would say
		
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			it's my fault, I was too demanding, I
		
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			wanted too much.
		
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			Some would say something like well, what do
		
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			you expect? You are so into your professional
		
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			life. You are so into your business. You're
		
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			such an independent woman. You don't know how
		
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			to be submissive. What do you expect?
		
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			Now some of those things may be true
		
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			but they hurt nonetheless,
		
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			they sting nonetheless.
		
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			So sometimes women
		
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			run want to run away from that and
		
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			rush into marriage and then they they then
		
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			use prayer as a way to try and
		
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			accelerate things.
		
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			Whereas,
		
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			that period after losing one's husband or getting
		
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			divorced is meant to be a period where
		
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			you deliberately slow things down so you can
		
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			pause,
		
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			so you can breathe,
		
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			so you can do all those things, the
		
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			conscious awareness, sister Khadija talked about, sister Asa
		
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			talked about it again, finding yourself and healing,
		
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			so you can do that. So that's definitely
		
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			one way of preparing
		
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			to marry again.
		
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			But I keep saying it shouldn't be marry
		
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			again as the next big thing.
		
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			It should be
		
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			to live,
		
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			to be alive, to truly be alive from
		
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			the inside out,
		
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			to close whatever gaps you found. And even
		
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			if you're looking at your past marriage and
		
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			saying,
		
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			did I contribute to the breakdown of that
		
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			marriage in any way whether by omission or
		
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			commission,
		
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			or was there something that if I had
		
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			known how to do it better, do it
		
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			differently,
		
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			I would have been able to do certain
		
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			things maybe to make the even the breakup
		
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			easier.
		
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			To look at all of those things and
		
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			do those things and reflect upon them more
		
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			to build yourself up than to make yourself
		
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			viable for another marriage.
		
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			Because marriage is in paradise,
		
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			getting married a second time is not paradise,
		
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			It's no guarantee of anything, suhannulla, and I
		
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			think we'll talk about that in a moment.
		
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			When I was getting married a second time,
		
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			I did feel like,
		
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			wow, alhamdulillah,
		
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			second time lucky and it's pretty easy, alhamdulillah.
		
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			And after the marriage, as I started to
		
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			see the normal bumps that you would always
		
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			see in marriage, I just-
		
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			I actually smiled at myself and said, 'look
		
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			at you, what made you think you have
		
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			passed,
		
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			you've gone over the worst of stuff?
		
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			What made you think that? No this is
		
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			another human being so the dynamics are different.
		
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			Yes he's been married before, you've been married
		
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			before, you both feel like oldies in the
		
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			game, but this game is different, it's new,
		
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			so you have to build from the bottom
		
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			up. Which which leads me to the last
		
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			thing I'll mention on this, how do you
		
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			prepare yourself for another marriage, is to just
		
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			treat yourself like you don't know anything about
		
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			marriage.
		
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			Just assume that I don't know anything about
		
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			marriage.
		
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			I knew about how to be married to
		
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			so and so before, but this person I
		
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			knew about being married to this person. So
		
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			treat this person as news. So you ask
		
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			questions, you explore,
		
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			you you open your eyes wider this time.
		
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			You ask more if you see red flags,
		
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			you
		
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			you you mention it. I'm concerned about that.
		
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			I'm concerned about this.
		
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			You do the work from the ground up.
		
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			Not, oh, I've been married before, been there,
		
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			done that, I know it all, oh marriage
		
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			is difficult, I know, I know, I know,
		
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			I know. No you don't know, this is
		
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			a new person
		
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			and if either of you
		
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			have child, has a child from a previous
		
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			marriage or you are
		
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			going to go into a blended family situation
		
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			then you know for sure
		
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			you've got more people in that marriage from
		
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			the beginning. You don't even have
		
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			that space that young couples do before they
		
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			start having kids. No, it's like you're married
		
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			and already you've got kids and if they
		
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			are grown up and they have their ideas
		
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			and they have their thoughts about who's this
		
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			woman in my father's house, what's she doing
		
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			here, or who is this strange man in
		
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			my mother's life, what's she doing here?
		
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			You've got your work cut out, sister. And,
		
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			yes, I don't want to crush you, like,
		
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			sister said, but we have to be real.
		
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			I think sometimes we are not real enough.
		
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			We just mash a lot about the land,
		
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			then you make love for them, and it's
		
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			alright. Go get married. No. I think we
		
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			have to be real.
		
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			No. I I love that, and I think
		
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			you're so right. And it's a really nice
		
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			segue into this really important part of today's
		
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			panel. We could literally talk about
		
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			this particular subject about preparing for remarriage for
		
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			the next 2 hours, But I don't think
		
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			we can do that today because we've gotta
		
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			move on. However,
		
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			you know, this issue of of the step
		
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			parenting and the blended families, you know, that
		
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			look. Let's look at the reality. Yeah. The
		
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			reality is
		
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			for many, many Muslims,
		
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			we get married and we have children quite
		
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			soon after the marriage. Okay. Whether it's with
		
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			1, 2, 3 years,
		
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			quite soon. We also tend to have a
		
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			lot of children. Right? So you can find
		
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			somebody who, you know, has been married 5
		
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			years and has 3 children
		
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			or has 4 children, right? And 5 years
		
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			is not a lot of time if you
		
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			look at it. The marriage could have been
		
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			bad for 5 years. Okay. Like it could
		
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			have been, you know, she could have been
		
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			suffering all those 5 years, but of course
		
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			the children are still coming. Right? So
		
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			when you when we when we're looking at
		
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			remarriage in the Muslim context,
		
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			what we
		
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			have to be honest about is that there
		
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			are always going to be children involved,
		
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			almost always going to be children involved.
		
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			Right?
		
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			And I think, you know, Khadija, you and
		
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			I were saying that
		
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			this journey of step parenting
		
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			and blending families
		
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			is one that we do not talk about
		
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			enough.
		
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			There's an assumption
		
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			made
		
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			that if a man marries a woman with
		
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			children, he will become the father figure, he
		
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			will step in as the dad, whether financially,
		
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			emotionally, physically,
		
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			the expectation is a societal one and is
		
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			the woman's one. But as most sisters who
		
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			are who have children and are looking to
		
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			get married, they are looking for the man
		
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			perform the father role, you know, and most
		
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			sisters are quite open about that. And it
		
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			I think
		
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			it's almost a baseline expectation today that of
		
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			course, you know, I have kids, right? Of
		
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			course, you're gonna accept me and my kids.
		
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			And we talked about expectations before, but let's,
		
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			let's, let's get real and granular now about
		
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			some of our things that we're carrying that
		
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			are challenging or making the situation of step
		
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			parenting and blended families even more challenging. Khadija,
		
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			we talked about this. I want you to,
		
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			to, to jump in inshallah.
		
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			Yeah, definitely. Like I my first marriage was
		
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			a stepmother straight away. So I had 2
		
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			stepsons. So I had experience
		
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			raising 2 stepsons out of stepmother.
		
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			Went 18 years later, divorced,
		
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			remarried a year later. And then now my
		
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			husband was the stepfather to my children.
		
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			And I was in this position. I was
		
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			like, wow. I know But I'm I to
		
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			me, I thought I knew exactly what the
		
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			journey is. But being a stepfather is very
		
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			different than stepmother.
		
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			And and and last year, I think I
		
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			worked with 10 different stepmothers,
		
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			or they were women whose children will have
		
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			stepmother to their children. In every single situation,
		
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			every single one, I I think I'd say
		
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			9 out of 10, there was some jealousy
		
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			towards stepchildren.
		
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			There was some jealousy towards a child that
		
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			was not your own child. It was really
		
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			interesting particularly if they were girls.
		
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			And and this was really interesting for me
		
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			because when I got married, I was very
		
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			young, 17.
		
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			So my stepsons to me were quite I
		
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			tripped on my younger brothers. So I didn't
		
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			actually have I didn't feel that, but I
		
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			think I did at times. So I was
		
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			really honest to myself at times. I had
		
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			a little bit jealous it would come up.
		
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			I kinda have that, oh, that's back for
		
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			coming next week. I'm gonna have to adjust
		
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			my time at the job. Now
		
00:47:02 --> 00:47:02
			me remarrying
		
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			in my head, and this is the head
		
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			so this is a 100% of the time
		
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			with most women who remarried.
		
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			The thing is I need to get that
		
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			role model for my children. Right? I need
		
00:47:13 --> 00:47:15
			that good male role model. And that is
		
00:47:15 --> 00:47:17
			that's consistent. If any woman I've worked with,
		
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			that is consistently their that, you know, I
		
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			want this this male role model. The thing
		
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			is this is not part of the children.
		
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			And so there's this whole
		
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			process in your own mind that you have
		
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			to go through to accept that you are
		
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			not this is not the father of the
		
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			children's father. This is a totally different person.
		
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			And that your expectation
		
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			that you're gonna put on to this person
		
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			creates,
		
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			will create more issues. And, you know, the
		
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			expectation
		
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			you put on yourself too. I went into
		
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			marriage 6 months later trying to meet my
		
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			4 boys' needs,
		
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			meet my new husband's needs, and I serve
		
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			him, be that new wife. She can build
		
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			a relationship
		
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			with each other, whilst still an ex husband,
		
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			whilst still in finances, whilst working part time.
		
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			And I remember one day, 6 months of
		
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			marriage,
		
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			and he and,
		
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			my oldest son is in hospital.
		
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			It was very hot days at that time.
		
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			He's coming to and back from the hospital.
		
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			And I remember
		
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			I got up budget the next day, and
		
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			I collapsed. I physically collapsed. Like, I found
		
00:48:21 --> 00:48:23
			myself on the ground at support. It's like,
		
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			where am I? And I realized,
		
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			wow. I my body is breaking me down
		
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			because I'm trying so hard to be the
		
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			new good wife and make sure I fulfill
		
00:48:32 --> 00:48:35
			all my kids' needs and, you know, get
		
00:48:35 --> 00:48:36
			that finances to the job. And I was
		
00:48:36 --> 00:48:39
			trying too hard because I was in a
		
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			place where I want this to work. I
		
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			want this to work. So I was coming
		
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			from a place
		
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			of trying to fix it and and showing
		
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			up in that place.
		
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			And so, pardon Allah, that breakdown, you know,
		
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			had a concussion, big, big, you know. They
		
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			took it to hospital and was like, have
		
00:48:52 --> 00:48:54
			your husband's last year? I'm like, no. I
		
00:48:54 --> 00:48:54
			just collapsed.
		
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			You know, big, big my body physically
		
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			hardly my body physically collapsed because
		
00:49:00 --> 00:49:03
			it couldn't handle the emotions and everything that
		
00:49:03 --> 00:49:05
			I was trying at that time. So I
		
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			that was it. I just my body literally
		
00:49:07 --> 00:49:09
			stopped. And the reason I'm telling you this,
		
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			it's not easy. That process of that year
		
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			of remarriage when we have children and stepchildren
		
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			and we're trying
		
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			to create a new pathway
		
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			for many of us. And you've got your
		
00:49:18 --> 00:49:20
			own healing work as well. And you've got
		
00:49:20 --> 00:49:22
			different needs because children react in different ways.
		
00:49:22 --> 00:49:25
			Especially teenage boys, they react to their father's
		
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			stepfather things over and over again in many
		
00:49:28 --> 00:49:29
			steps,
		
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			families where a mother has neither
		
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			are married in and they've got sexual and
		
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			this, you know, it happens so often. There's
		
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			issues between the children, you know, because your
		
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			children have rights for you. It's issues of
		
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			discipline. You know, there's so many aspects to
		
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			this area. There's your expectation. There's kids' expectation.
		
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			So it's definitely worth I I could personally
		
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			and honestly say, that wasn't comfortable in the
		
00:49:52 --> 00:49:54
			hardest times of my life. It was a
		
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			joyful time. And I really was great meeting
		
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			a new person and bringing that person to
		
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			my life and my children's life, but it
		
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			put a big toll on myself. And so
		
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			I would want you to learn from the
		
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			lessons that I learned. The lesson was is
		
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			that you have to
		
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			you have to really know yourself
		
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			and be able to articulate
		
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			your needs. Because if you're depleted, you can't
		
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			do that. You saw that with what happened
		
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			to me physically. I just I literally broke
		
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			down. My body couldn't do it anymore. And
		
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			so it's it's knowing your needs in life.
		
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			It's knowing kids' needs. It's knowing it's it's
		
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			coming from a place that everyone's going to
		
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			transition differently. We all struggle with that. We
		
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			all transition.
		
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			This love and compassion
		
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			that we have to have for each other
		
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			and our children in that situation
		
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			is so essential.
		
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			Knowing our triggers is so essential in this
		
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			situation.
		
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			Too many of us expect him to walk
		
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			in and kind of fix it. Be that
		
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			guy. You know, just do your thing. And
		
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			it doesn't work that way. It it requires
		
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			lots of communication,
		
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			lots of misunderstanding,
		
00:51:00 --> 00:51:02
			lots of understanding each other,
		
00:51:03 --> 00:51:04
			stepping back and pausing,
		
00:51:05 --> 00:51:08
			creating safe emotional space. I can't emphasize this
		
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			enough.
		
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			Emotional safety.
		
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			Creating that emotional state is we can both
		
00:51:13 --> 00:51:17
			express each other's commitment without taking it personally.
		
00:51:17 --> 00:51:20
			When we take our ego takes it personally
		
00:51:20 --> 00:51:22
			how another person feels. I can remember having
		
00:51:22 --> 00:51:26
			this conversation, sat down, and my my 12
		
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			year old son at the time was struggling
		
00:51:28 --> 00:51:29
			with the stepfather.
		
00:51:29 --> 00:51:31
			Equivalation, 1st 2 months, and his father took
		
00:51:31 --> 00:51:33
			some stuff and, anyway, he was struggling.
		
00:51:33 --> 00:51:35
			And he sat down. We had an assurance.
		
00:51:35 --> 00:51:37
			We sat down an assurance. We sat down,
		
00:51:37 --> 00:51:38
			walked, communicated.
		
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			And he said to his stepfather,
		
00:51:41 --> 00:51:42
			you're
		
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			a stranger. You came into my house and
		
00:51:45 --> 00:51:46
			you're a stranger. I have to, like I
		
00:51:46 --> 00:51:49
			don't know you. You know? And I had
		
00:51:49 --> 00:51:50
			got the boys to meet him a few
		
00:51:50 --> 00:51:52
			times, but I don't know you. It was
		
00:51:52 --> 00:51:55
			like almost trying to force a bond. And
		
00:51:55 --> 00:51:57
			I remember his stepfather said to him, you
		
00:51:57 --> 00:52:00
			know, you're right, Ayo. You don't know me,
		
00:52:00 --> 00:52:02
			and that's okay. Let's get to know each
		
00:52:02 --> 00:52:04
			other. And so if that and one of
		
00:52:04 --> 00:52:06
			the biggest things that really helped me was
		
00:52:06 --> 00:52:08
			because I had been a stepmother,
		
00:52:08 --> 00:52:10
			I knew that I craved a position
		
00:52:11 --> 00:52:14
			to be in my stepchildren's lives. So I
		
00:52:14 --> 00:52:16
			automatically and I let him become part of
		
00:52:16 --> 00:52:17
			the family.
		
00:52:17 --> 00:52:18
			Him being the,
		
00:52:19 --> 00:52:20
			I really,
		
00:52:21 --> 00:52:23
			gave that right to him. Knowing very well
		
00:52:23 --> 00:52:25
			my children's needs and everything, but keep making
		
00:52:25 --> 00:52:27
			him the army, letting him be pilot. He
		
00:52:27 --> 00:52:30
			felt like the outsider. Right? He was the
		
00:52:30 --> 00:52:32
			outsider. So coming in and letting him be
		
00:52:32 --> 00:52:33
			the army.
		
00:52:33 --> 00:52:34
			Me not taking it personally,
		
00:52:35 --> 00:52:38
			you know, how and discipline's a blessing. Discipline
		
00:52:38 --> 00:52:39
			comes after building a connection.
		
00:52:40 --> 00:52:42
			It's a transition. It's a journey.
		
00:52:42 --> 00:52:44
			So it's it's not something that people can't
		
00:52:44 --> 00:52:46
			understand to be in it. It's hard to
		
00:52:46 --> 00:52:48
			describe it, Naima, when you until you've actually
		
00:52:48 --> 00:52:50
			been in it. Does that make sense?
		
00:52:51 --> 00:52:54
			People don't know how difficult it is, SubhanAllah.
		
00:52:54 --> 00:52:56
			And, you know, I think even that question
		
00:52:56 --> 00:52:57
			about, you know,
		
00:52:58 --> 00:53:00
			what part is this this husband going to
		
00:53:00 --> 00:53:01
			play? Right?
		
00:53:02 --> 00:53:04
			You know, it's 1 because I think in
		
00:53:04 --> 00:53:07
			the West, the majority of situations is the
		
00:53:07 --> 00:53:08
			woman has the kids
		
00:53:09 --> 00:53:10
			in the home
		
00:53:10 --> 00:53:13
			and the husband marries and joins her in
		
00:53:13 --> 00:53:15
			the home, in her house with her kids,
		
00:53:16 --> 00:53:18
			which already is like is is a challenge.
		
00:53:18 --> 00:53:19
			Right? Because,
		
00:53:20 --> 00:53:21
			you know, depending on what kind of setup
		
00:53:21 --> 00:53:23
			you guys are hoping for, if you're putting
		
00:53:23 --> 00:53:26
			him as the Amir, but it's your house
		
00:53:26 --> 00:53:28
			and they're your kids and you guys have
		
00:53:28 --> 00:53:30
			got a culture and a structure
		
00:53:30 --> 00:53:32
			and you guys do things the way you
		
00:53:32 --> 00:53:33
			do.
		
00:53:38 --> 00:53:41
			He he brings you guys into his place,
		
00:53:41 --> 00:53:42
			which is very rare,
		
00:53:42 --> 00:53:45
			in the west, I think, that that rarely
		
00:53:45 --> 00:53:45
			really happens,
		
00:53:46 --> 00:53:48
			unless the children are very young or there's,
		
00:53:48 --> 00:53:50
			like, only 1 or 2 of them. But
		
00:53:50 --> 00:53:52
			if you're already an established family with an
		
00:53:52 --> 00:53:54
			established home, typically, he moves in with you.
		
00:53:54 --> 00:53:56
			So, yeah, lots of conversation,
		
00:53:57 --> 00:54:00
			lots of talking through everything, and I think
		
00:54:01 --> 00:54:02
			managing expectations
		
00:54:02 --> 00:54:04
			and trying to get rid of assumptions that
		
00:54:04 --> 00:54:05
			you make.
		
00:54:06 --> 00:54:07
			Assuming that
		
00:54:07 --> 00:54:09
			he's going to do this or he's not
		
00:54:09 --> 00:54:10
			gonna do it, assuming that your kids are
		
00:54:10 --> 00:54:12
			gonna feel this way or they're not gonna
		
00:54:12 --> 00:54:14
			feel this way. Salata, what do you think?
		
00:54:14 --> 00:54:17
			What how can we best manage this, you
		
00:54:17 --> 00:54:18
			know, rather tricky
		
00:54:18 --> 00:54:19
			situation
		
00:54:20 --> 00:54:20
			of stepparenting
		
00:54:20 --> 00:54:23
			and blending families? And, you know, as Khadijah
		
00:54:23 --> 00:54:24
			said, bringing
		
00:54:24 --> 00:54:26
			more or less a stranger into our children's
		
00:54:27 --> 00:54:28
			lives and and hoping that they can play
		
00:54:28 --> 00:54:29
			house together.
		
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			Play house together. I like that part.
		
00:54:35 --> 00:54:38
			Because when we picture it before the marriage,
		
00:54:38 --> 00:54:39
			you actually picture
		
00:54:39 --> 00:54:42
			the playing house situation. Everybody's getting along like
		
00:54:42 --> 00:54:44
			a house on fire and all is fine
		
00:54:44 --> 00:54:46
			and all is well now and,
		
00:54:47 --> 00:54:49
			you sometimes assume that the kids are going
		
00:54:49 --> 00:54:51
			to be grateful, they're going to be happy,
		
00:54:51 --> 00:54:54
			that now we've got a mother in the
		
00:54:54 --> 00:54:56
			house or a father in the house, but
		
00:54:56 --> 00:54:58
			those are assumptions that we make based on
		
00:54:58 --> 00:54:59
			what we expect.
		
00:55:00 --> 00:55:02
			It doesn't match the reality.
		
00:55:02 --> 00:55:05
			I know people's stories will be different but
		
00:55:05 --> 00:55:05
			something,
		
00:55:05 --> 00:55:08
			a few things that I would say looking
		
00:55:08 --> 00:55:08
			back now
		
00:55:09 --> 00:55:11
			I would want to just share. The first
		
00:55:11 --> 00:55:14
			is that having an agreement about a culture
		
00:55:14 --> 00:55:15
			for your new home
		
00:55:16 --> 00:55:17
			helps a lot,
		
00:55:17 --> 00:55:20
			not because the children are going to accept
		
00:55:20 --> 00:55:21
			the
		
00:55:21 --> 00:55:24
			different bits of the family culture that you've
		
00:55:24 --> 00:55:27
			put together but because it helps in your
		
00:55:27 --> 00:55:27
			conversation
		
00:55:28 --> 00:55:29
			with your new spouse,
		
00:55:30 --> 00:55:31
			it helps to prevent certain,
		
00:55:32 --> 00:55:32
			misunderstanding
		
00:55:33 --> 00:55:34
			from occurring,
		
00:55:34 --> 00:55:37
			to prevent certain arguments from being stretched too
		
00:55:37 --> 00:55:39
			far because you both agreed on a or
		
00:55:39 --> 00:55:42
			b or c. And it helps you,
		
00:55:42 --> 00:55:45
			know how to respond to certain situations without
		
00:55:45 --> 00:55:46
			overthinking it.
		
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			I know one challenge we tend to have
		
00:55:48 --> 00:55:50
			is you overthink everything.
		
00:55:50 --> 00:55:53
			If I especially where maybe you've got your
		
00:55:53 --> 00:55:56
			biological kids and then your step kids or
		
00:55:56 --> 00:55:58
			as I as someone once said, your bonus
		
00:55:58 --> 00:56:00
			kids in the house And you're thinking, if
		
00:56:00 --> 00:56:01
			I say this,
		
00:56:02 --> 00:56:04
			would they think I'm saying it because it's
		
00:56:04 --> 00:56:06
			my biological child or would they think I'm
		
00:56:06 --> 00:56:09
			saying it because it's not my biological child?
		
00:56:09 --> 00:56:12
			And that can be very stressful emotionally for
		
00:56:12 --> 00:56:13
			you, especially if you care about doing the
		
00:56:13 --> 00:56:16
			right thing. You care about being unfair and
		
00:56:16 --> 00:56:18
			being balanced and not being misunderstood.
		
00:56:19 --> 00:56:21
			So you if you already have a culture
		
00:56:21 --> 00:56:22
			then you always,
		
00:56:23 --> 00:56:24
			have something to go to. It's like the
		
00:56:24 --> 00:56:26
			principle or the rule. This is what we
		
00:56:26 --> 00:56:28
			do in this family. This is how we
		
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			do it. So it doesn't matter which kid
		
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			you're dealing with. That's 1.
		
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			Secondly is this whole idea of discipline
		
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			because when you have,
		
00:56:37 --> 00:56:39
			a step parent and the step parent is
		
00:56:39 --> 00:56:40
			just there to
		
00:56:41 --> 00:56:43
			play with them, have fun and provide
		
00:56:44 --> 00:56:45
			their needs, what they want,
		
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			you don't actually have a lot of friction.
		
00:56:48 --> 00:56:50
			The friction comes up when you want to
		
00:56:50 --> 00:56:51
			enforce
		
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			rules, when you want to establish discipline.
		
00:56:54 --> 00:56:57
			From my personal experience and from speaking with
		
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			other people that's where the things start to
		
00:56:59 --> 00:57:01
			go sideways, could start going sideways,
		
00:57:01 --> 00:57:04
			especially as the children grow older. Now there's
		
00:57:04 --> 00:57:06
			a temptation to assume that they are acting
		
00:57:06 --> 00:57:07
			out because
		
00:57:08 --> 00:57:09
			this is their step parent,
		
00:57:10 --> 00:57:13
			to always assume that there's that, temptation and
		
00:57:13 --> 00:57:15
			that's the trend. And people say, oh, it's
		
00:57:15 --> 00:57:17
			because, you know, it's because you're not the
		
00:57:17 --> 00:57:19
			mother. It's because you're not really the biological
		
00:57:19 --> 00:57:20
			dad.
		
00:57:20 --> 00:57:23
			But I had to learn over time to
		
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			separate issues
		
00:57:24 --> 00:57:26
			and to understand that a child is a
		
00:57:26 --> 00:57:27
			child
		
00:57:27 --> 00:57:30
			And when I would then remember certain,
		
00:57:30 --> 00:57:31
			instances,
		
00:57:31 --> 00:57:32
			maybe growing up,
		
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			challenges I had with my own parents or
		
00:57:35 --> 00:57:37
			times when I argued with them, I wasn't
		
00:57:37 --> 00:57:39
			happy with something they had done, and even
		
00:57:39 --> 00:57:42
			conversations with friends over time who would sometimes
		
00:57:42 --> 00:57:43
			say, you know, at one time I was
		
00:57:43 --> 00:57:45
			so convinced that my dad wasn't my dad
		
00:57:45 --> 00:57:47
			or my mom wasn't my mom because we're
		
00:57:47 --> 00:57:50
			always having these quarrels and arguments
		
00:57:51 --> 00:57:52
			and finally I had to just like, oh
		
00:57:52 --> 00:57:54
			yeah really she is my mom or He's
		
00:57:54 --> 00:57:55
			my dad.
		
00:57:55 --> 00:57:58
			With a step child, you don't have that.
		
00:57:58 --> 00:58:00
			They don't fall back on that. So you
		
00:58:00 --> 00:58:03
			might sit there thinking they're acting out because
		
00:58:03 --> 00:58:04
			this person is a step parent, but they
		
00:58:04 --> 00:58:07
			may be acting out because this person is
		
00:58:07 --> 00:58:09
			new. They don't have a strong enough bond,
		
00:58:09 --> 00:58:11
			the bonds that can handle the friction that
		
00:58:11 --> 00:58:12
			comes from discipline.
		
00:58:13 --> 00:58:15
			Because when we think about our own biological
		
00:58:15 --> 00:58:17
			kids it's not every time you tell them
		
00:58:17 --> 00:58:20
			no that they say yes, dear Martha,
		
00:58:20 --> 00:58:22
			your word is my command, you say I'm
		
00:58:22 --> 00:58:23
			happy.
		
00:58:23 --> 00:58:25
			It's not all the time, sometimes you tell
		
00:58:25 --> 00:58:26
			them no. 100%.
		
00:58:26 --> 00:58:27
			I'm
		
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			going to unfriend you, I'm not going to
		
00:58:29 --> 00:58:30
			talk to you for the next 2 days,
		
00:58:30 --> 00:58:31
			each time you call me I'm going to
		
00:58:31 --> 00:58:33
			grant instead of responding,
		
00:58:34 --> 00:58:36
			that's your own biological child. But because you
		
00:58:36 --> 00:58:38
			have a history with them, if you have
		
00:58:38 --> 00:58:40
			the mother, they they they've been hearing your
		
00:58:40 --> 00:58:42
			voice from the time they could hear in
		
00:58:42 --> 00:58:45
			your womb, They they knew you. They know
		
00:58:45 --> 00:58:47
			your touch from the beginning. If you're their
		
00:58:47 --> 00:58:49
			father, they probably heard your voice when you
		
00:58:49 --> 00:58:52
			did call the Adana in their ear when
		
00:58:52 --> 00:58:54
			they were born. So you have a bond
		
00:58:54 --> 00:58:56
			that no matter how far they run away
		
00:58:56 --> 00:58:58
			from you because right now they are hating
		
00:58:58 --> 00:58:59
			you and they think you are just a
		
00:58:59 --> 00:59:01
			hater, you are winning their life and you
		
00:59:01 --> 00:59:04
			are killing their smirk, they usually swing back
		
00:59:04 --> 00:59:05
			to you.
		
00:59:05 --> 00:59:08
			If you don't have a bond like that
		
00:59:08 --> 00:59:10
			with a stepchild, which you don't because you're
		
00:59:10 --> 00:59:11
			wearing there from their beginning,
		
00:59:12 --> 00:59:15
			it becomes harder. So when the friction starts,
		
00:59:15 --> 00:59:17
			then there's nothing to contain it and
		
00:59:17 --> 00:59:20
			everything can go south. It has helped to
		
00:59:20 --> 00:59:22
			have others that they trust,
		
00:59:22 --> 00:59:23
			that they
		
00:59:23 --> 00:59:26
			have known far longer than they've known you
		
00:59:27 --> 00:59:28
			to do a lot of the talking
		
00:59:29 --> 00:59:29
			and
		
00:59:30 --> 00:59:30
			they,
		
00:59:30 --> 00:59:33
			set in some of the boundaries, especially their
		
00:59:33 --> 00:59:34
			biological parents.
		
00:59:34 --> 00:59:36
			So I know the mistake some of us
		
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			make is insisting that you're marrying this person,
		
00:59:39 --> 00:59:41
			he's going to work right in and start
		
00:59:41 --> 00:59:42
			being the father figure
		
00:59:42 --> 00:59:43
			in every way.
		
00:59:44 --> 00:59:46
			I think sometimes we have to learn to,
		
00:59:47 --> 00:59:49
			play the go between, to do more of
		
00:59:49 --> 00:59:50
			the enforcing,
		
00:59:50 --> 00:59:53
			and allow him to establish a strong enough
		
00:59:53 --> 00:59:53
			relationship,
		
00:59:54 --> 00:59:57
			establish enough trust to make that happen, but
		
00:59:57 --> 00:59:59
			we can't even force that process.
		
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			I'm learning now to just settle in for
		
01:00:02 --> 01:00:02
			the long haul.
		
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			As a step parent of 2 boys, I'm
		
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			learning now to just sometimes just let some
		
01:00:07 --> 01:00:09
			things go and just settle in for the
		
01:00:09 --> 01:00:11
			long haul and know that it takes time
		
01:00:11 --> 01:00:13
			to build a relationship where they trust you
		
01:00:13 --> 01:00:16
			enough to not say you must be telling
		
01:00:16 --> 01:00:18
			me to do this because you are not
		
01:00:18 --> 01:00:18
			my mother.
		
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			I'm learning that and it's a great lesson
		
01:00:21 --> 01:00:23
			to learn. So those are 2
		
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			and then to keep talking I think. Each
		
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			time even when you feel that the situation
		
01:00:28 --> 01:00:31
			is not working well and you feel that
		
01:00:31 --> 01:00:33
			you are not parenting right or you want
		
01:00:33 --> 01:00:33
			your
		
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			spouse to step up more, to be ready
		
01:00:36 --> 01:00:39
			to have that conversation as difficult as it
		
01:00:39 --> 01:00:41
			might be, as fractious as it might as
		
01:00:41 --> 01:00:44
			it might get to be ready to have
		
01:00:44 --> 01:00:47
			the conversation because it's an ongoing process. Every
		
01:00:47 --> 01:00:49
			relationship is an ongoing negotiation. So as long
		
01:00:49 --> 01:00:51
			as you're in the marriage, you are the
		
01:00:51 --> 01:00:53
			step parent to these kids or he's a
		
01:00:53 --> 01:00:55
			step parent to your kids, you have to
		
01:00:55 --> 01:00:55
			keep having the
		
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			discussion and then keep making dua.
		
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			And just
		
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			have that
		
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			hope.
		
01:01:07 --> 01:01:09
			I loved how you mentioned it's like that
		
01:01:09 --> 01:01:11
			transition. It really is a transition, and it's
		
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			that, you know, when a a child feels
		
01:01:13 --> 01:01:16
			a sense of belonging, they're more likely to
		
01:01:16 --> 01:01:18
			listen to instruction. They're going to feel, you
		
01:01:18 --> 01:01:20
			know, that connection and that sense of belonging
		
01:01:20 --> 01:01:23
			and respect. That has to be built first.
		
01:01:23 --> 01:01:24
			And if you're sitting in the bed, ma'am,
		
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			or you have a perception that this child's
		
01:01:26 --> 01:01:26
			taking
		
01:01:27 --> 01:01:29
			time away from my new husband or my
		
01:01:29 --> 01:01:32
			new wife, that's going to impact. So our
		
01:01:32 --> 01:01:34
			perception of that child is gonna be the
		
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			number one thing to check-in for ourselves.
		
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			What is what is how are we perceiving
		
01:01:38 --> 01:01:41
			that stepchild? What's what's the thoughts or feelings
		
01:01:41 --> 01:01:43
			or triggers that's coming up for us? Because
		
01:01:43 --> 01:01:44
			a lot of the time, the child is
		
01:01:44 --> 01:01:46
			a beautiful innocent. I had so many,
		
01:01:47 --> 01:01:50
			mothers or, that had a stepchild
		
01:01:50 --> 01:01:52
			and what I worked with, and they were
		
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			jealous of a 7 year old stepchild.
		
01:01:55 --> 01:01:57
			If you're a grown woman, you're so jealous
		
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			to the point where she's embarrassed in the
		
01:01:59 --> 01:02:01
			the level of jealousy that she has to
		
01:02:01 --> 01:02:01
			her stepchild,
		
01:02:02 --> 01:02:04
			then that's your issue getting in the way.
		
01:02:04 --> 01:02:06
			That's your stuff that needs to be worked
		
01:02:06 --> 01:02:08
			through. Because a 7 year old child is
		
01:02:08 --> 01:02:11
			not causing your trigger. Your perception of that
		
01:02:11 --> 01:02:13
			7 year old child is causing the misery
		
01:02:13 --> 01:02:15
			within your heart. And so we really have
		
01:02:15 --> 01:02:16
			to do that powerful.
		
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			When I asked my husband to go close
		
01:02:18 --> 01:02:19
			to my youngest
		
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			child, and he was 3 years old when
		
01:02:21 --> 01:02:23
			we when we, I remarried.
		
01:02:23 --> 01:02:25
			He's 8 years old now. He's not always
		
01:02:25 --> 01:02:26
			9. We've been together about 5 and a
		
01:02:26 --> 01:02:28
			half years. I said, what's the biggest thing?
		
01:02:28 --> 01:02:30
			We all bond. He said, can you do
		
01:02:30 --> 01:02:31
			you go have taqo?
		
01:02:31 --> 01:02:33
			You gotta have taqo. Like, I love this
		
01:02:33 --> 01:02:35
			child like my own child, but you gotta
		
01:02:35 --> 01:02:36
			have taqo. And it's true. When I was
		
01:02:36 --> 01:02:38
			a stepmother, I had to keep thinking can
		
01:02:38 --> 01:02:40
			you just have taqo? You know? I treat
		
01:02:40 --> 01:02:42
			my children like I treat my stepchildren. I
		
01:02:42 --> 01:02:44
			exactly aren't children this.
		
01:02:45 --> 01:02:46
			You're a very lucky woman if you are,
		
01:02:46 --> 01:02:47
			stepmother
		
01:02:47 --> 01:02:49
			or stepfather, because Ola gave you
		
01:02:50 --> 01:02:51
			of a child that was not yours
		
01:02:52 --> 01:02:55
			into your home. You've Ola knows that he's
		
01:02:55 --> 01:02:56
			been put a burden for anything you can
		
01:02:56 --> 01:02:58
			bear. Ola knows that you you can you
		
01:02:58 --> 01:02:59
			can step up with it. You can show
		
01:02:59 --> 01:03:02
			up in this role and be a contributor
		
01:03:02 --> 01:03:04
			to that child's life. I still get flowers
		
01:03:04 --> 01:03:06
			from my my stepson till, like, 28
		
01:03:07 --> 01:03:09
			now for my 1st marriage because of the
		
01:03:09 --> 01:03:10
			bond I created with them. You know? They're
		
01:03:10 --> 01:03:12
			really and they can treat me better than
		
01:03:12 --> 01:03:13
			my sons. One of my oh, one of
		
01:03:13 --> 01:03:14
			my sons. Do I have to say that?
		
01:03:14 --> 01:03:16
			You know, but then love and bond. So
		
01:03:16 --> 01:03:17
			don't underestimate.
		
01:03:18 --> 01:03:20
			I'll have never never ever think that any
		
01:03:20 --> 01:03:22
			action or effort you do because you can't
		
01:03:22 --> 01:03:24
			see the reward in this tangible
		
01:03:24 --> 01:03:27
			life. You don't know what's holding you for
		
01:03:27 --> 01:03:27
			the hereafter
		
01:03:28 --> 01:03:29
			for all that he's given you. And remember,
		
01:03:29 --> 01:03:31
			the problem on the first one, he was
		
01:03:31 --> 01:03:31
			a stepfather
		
01:03:32 --> 01:03:33
			to daughter,
		
01:03:34 --> 01:03:35
			She had a daughter.
		
01:03:36 --> 01:03:37
			So don't underestimate.
		
01:03:37 --> 01:03:40
			You know, this is something that is such
		
01:03:40 --> 01:03:40
			a
		
01:03:40 --> 01:03:41
			such a
		
01:03:42 --> 01:03:44
			a beautiful gift that I was presenting you.
		
01:03:44 --> 01:03:46
			The lessons that can be learned from this
		
01:03:46 --> 01:03:49
			involved in me, definitely my younger being stepmother.
		
01:03:49 --> 01:03:52
			And seeing the bond of their stepfather to
		
01:03:52 --> 01:03:54
			the children and allowing things that come up.
		
01:03:54 --> 01:03:56
			There's gonna be conflicts. There's gonna be disagreements.
		
01:03:56 --> 01:03:58
			There's gonna be allowing
		
01:03:58 --> 01:04:01
			allowing allowing that to build that
		
01:04:01 --> 01:04:04
			and not mindset sometimes I was fighting too
		
01:04:04 --> 01:04:06
			quickly. I just allow that relationship to flow
		
01:04:06 --> 01:04:08
			because I have to respect that that's a
		
01:04:08 --> 01:04:08
			different
		
01:04:15 --> 01:04:18
			I know I tried to rush Absolutely. Election
		
01:04:18 --> 01:04:21
			and friendship to being able to enforce, I
		
01:04:21 --> 01:04:22
			think I rushed
		
01:04:22 --> 01:04:24
			it. I felt we knew one another well
		
01:04:24 --> 01:04:26
			enough to do that. It was much later
		
01:04:26 --> 01:04:28
			years down the road I realized
		
01:04:28 --> 01:04:30
			I think I should
		
01:04:30 --> 01:04:32
			have slowed things down a lot. I
		
01:04:33 --> 01:04:36
			totally feel that, step parents need a sort
		
01:04:36 --> 01:04:38
			of support group where they help one another
		
01:04:38 --> 01:04:39
			and talk through things.
		
01:04:40 --> 01:04:42
			So if, people who are planning to get
		
01:04:42 --> 01:04:43
			married and they're going to have a blended
		
01:04:43 --> 01:04:46
			family situation, talk to me now. I always
		
01:04:46 --> 01:04:48
			emphasize don't rush to enforce anything.
		
01:04:48 --> 01:04:50
			I'm not saying don't be disciplined.
		
01:04:51 --> 01:04:53
			Talk about discipline and what your terms are
		
01:04:53 --> 01:04:54
			with your spouse,
		
01:04:55 --> 01:04:57
			but don't be in a hurry to be
		
01:04:57 --> 01:04:59
			the one pushing it. You're going to create
		
01:04:59 --> 01:05:01
			friction and your relationship with that child may
		
01:05:01 --> 01:05:02
			not be
		
01:05:03 --> 01:05:05
			strong enough to handle the friction.
		
01:05:08 --> 01:05:09
			100%.
		
01:05:09 --> 01:05:11
			I think that's a beautiful way for us
		
01:05:11 --> 01:05:13
			to to close-up this panel. Like I said,
		
01:05:13 --> 01:05:15
			we could be here for another 2 hours.
		
01:05:15 --> 01:05:15
			And,
		
01:05:16 --> 01:05:18
			you know, Raeesah, Khadija, Salatu, thank you so
		
01:05:18 --> 01:05:21
			much for just being so open and honest.
		
01:05:21 --> 01:05:24
			I think when it comes to this particular
		
01:05:24 --> 01:05:26
			trajectory, there's there's so many extremes in this
		
01:05:26 --> 01:05:29
			conversation. Right? And I think that what I
		
01:05:29 --> 01:05:31
			was hoping for was to open up a
		
01:05:31 --> 01:05:33
			conversation where there's balance
		
01:05:33 --> 01:05:36
			in where we we are realistic about the
		
01:05:36 --> 01:05:37
			challenges,
		
01:05:37 --> 01:05:40
			but we are also hopeful for the outcomes
		
01:05:41 --> 01:05:44
			because we know that anything is possible and
		
01:05:44 --> 01:05:46
			and and two things can be true at
		
01:05:46 --> 01:05:46
			the same time.
		
01:05:47 --> 01:05:47
			So,
		
01:05:48 --> 01:05:49
			a a second marriage
		
01:05:50 --> 01:05:51
			can be more difficult
		
01:05:51 --> 01:05:53
			and also have potential for more reward at
		
01:05:53 --> 01:05:56
			the same time. Right? So it's not that
		
01:05:56 --> 01:05:58
			the second marriage is gonna be a breeze.
		
01:05:58 --> 01:06:00
			It's not that the second marriage is gonna
		
01:06:00 --> 01:06:01
			be a disaster.
		
01:06:01 --> 01:06:04
			It's more being aware and educating yourself on
		
01:06:04 --> 01:06:06
			the challenges so that you can show up
		
01:06:06 --> 01:06:07
			differently
		
01:06:08 --> 01:06:10
			in that situation to mitigate
		
01:06:10 --> 01:06:13
			whatever the the challenges are. And I love
		
01:06:13 --> 01:06:15
			the fact that everybody here has spoken about
		
01:06:15 --> 01:06:17
			that personal responsibility because,
		
01:06:18 --> 01:06:20
			you know, that is the one thing
		
01:06:20 --> 01:06:22
			that empowers us.
		
01:06:23 --> 01:06:25
			How we can do things differently, how we
		
01:06:25 --> 01:06:28
			can make dua, how we can respond differently.
		
01:06:28 --> 01:06:29
			And subhanAllah,
		
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			I think we can all attest to the
		
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			fact that
		
01:06:33 --> 01:06:34
			when we show up differently
		
01:06:34 --> 01:06:37
			it impacts the situation. It impacts others. It
		
01:06:37 --> 01:06:39
			invites others to show up differently and at
		
01:06:39 --> 01:06:40
			the very least
		
01:06:41 --> 01:06:43
			even if they don't change their behaviors,
		
01:06:43 --> 01:06:45
			the way that we are showing up and
		
01:06:45 --> 01:06:47
			the way that we have decided to be
		
01:06:47 --> 01:06:48
			in the choices that we make can mean
		
01:06:48 --> 01:06:52
			that our experience of the situation is not,
		
01:06:52 --> 01:06:54
			you know, as as painful or as toxic
		
01:06:54 --> 01:06:56
			or whatever the case may be as it
		
01:06:56 --> 01:06:58
			would have been if we had not made
		
01:06:58 --> 01:06:58
			the decision
		
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			to be who we're going to be
		
01:07:01 --> 01:07:04
			regardless of, you know, what the challenges that
		
01:07:04 --> 01:07:05
			we face are. So
		
01:07:06 --> 01:07:08
			sisters, I wanna thank you. We're gonna put
		
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			your info in the description on YouTube and
		
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			we'll be sending it out to the email,
		
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			subscribers as well inshallah.
		
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			I think it's over 10,000,
		
01:07:17 --> 01:07:17
			10,000,
		
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			people who claimed their free ticket. Masha'Allah. So
		
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			we'll send your details out so that after
		
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			they've listened to this, they can definitely get
		
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			in touch.
		
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			I hope to invite you guys back, onto
		
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			one of these episodes of the marriage conversation.
		
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			Maybe when we do a Sunday livestream, we
		
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			can just come on and just do pure
		
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			q and a because I know people want
		
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			the q and a. But inshallah, that is
		
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			it for this this session. Thank you all
		
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			so much for being with us. We're going
		
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			to take a 5 minute break before we
		
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			go on to the next one, sisters.
		
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			So,
		
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			That was amazing.
		
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			Thank you.