Naima B. Robert – Experienced Muslim Wives Give MAD Marriage Advice!

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The speakers emphasize the importance of finding one's own path in marriage and elevating oneself to make better versions of oneself. They stress the need for love and prioritizing intentions to achieve success, including physical and mental challenges. The challenges of marriage include reflection of one's values and desire, breaking marriage, and managing behavior. The speakers also stress the importance of growth and inspping oneself before marriage, as well as breaking the cycle of marriage and building a new generation of Muslims. They end with a reminder of upcoming talks and a video.

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			Everyone. Welcome. Welcome. Welcome.
		
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			Welcome to our evening session.
		
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			And
		
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			really, really happy to have
		
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			you all back again for another evening.
		
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			Evening. Everyone. Welcome. Welcome. Welcome.
		
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			Welcome to our evening session. And
		
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			I'm really, really happy to have
		
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			people back again
		
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			for another learning learning. Then there's a replay
		
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			happening in YouTube, which shouldn't be there. Hold
		
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			on.
		
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			SubhanAllah assalamualaikum everyone just say give me
		
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			a thumbs up tell me who you are
		
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			where you're calling from
		
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			where you're attending from, and is this your
		
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			first talk of the weekend?
		
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			Or have you been with us
		
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			all weekend since Friday, masha'Allah?
		
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			If you have, fantastic.
		
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			Let me know which talks you've been enjoying
		
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			so far.
		
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			This tech thing, may Allah help us.
		
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			But we'll get there in the end, Thank
		
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			you so much for your patience, everyone.
		
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			Alright. Bismillah, so we've got that.
		
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			So we're gonna give,
		
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			way early. Those of you who are here,
		
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			you're early.
		
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			So you can just take some time
		
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			to take a picture,
		
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			let people know where you're at.
		
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			Make sure that you like the livestream.
		
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			Leave a comment. Give us a salaam. Make
		
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			sure you subscribe to the channel and
		
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			share the link for the live stream inshallah.
		
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			Tonight is
		
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			going to be a very, very interesting panel.
		
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			We're gonna be talking with OG wives. And
		
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			if anyone's not clear what OG means,
		
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			it's basically,
		
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			you know, wives who've been
		
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			wifing for a long time.
		
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			So wives who've been married for 10, 15,
		
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			20 years,
		
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			giving advice,
		
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			to hopefully the rest of us, insha'Allah.
		
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			So, Assalamu alaikum from Sydney, I've got here,
		
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			Masha'Allah.
		
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			Where else, where is everybody else phoning in
		
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			from? Everyone else, where are they attending from?
		
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			Let me know, insha'Allah.
		
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			And I am going to just leave you
		
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			guys to chat and chit chat and do
		
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			the liking, the commenting, the subscribing, and the
		
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			sharing.
		
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			And kick off inshallah on the hour when
		
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			all our speakers are here inshallah. Barakallahuwikum.
		
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			Salaam alaikum everyone
		
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			right
		
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			let's get this party started
		
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			can you all see me can you all
		
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			hear me let me know
		
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			let me know if all is clear on
		
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			your end insha'Allah.
		
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			If you hear a cat in the background
		
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			not to worry she's a cat and she's
		
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			reached that time of her life when she
		
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			wants to live her best life and do
		
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			her thing. So if you hear her in
		
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			the background
		
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			then you know what that's all about insha'Allah.
		
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			Let's see. I've got my lovely speakers here,
		
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			masha'Allah. Sisters, feel free to put your videos
		
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			on,
		
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			and we'll be able to get you live.
		
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			So let me see. Let's go into the,
		
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			the chat and see where everybody is.
		
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			So I've got my,
		
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			my wonderful speakers are here. Hey, ladies. Assalamu
		
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			alaikum. Nice to see you, mashallah.
		
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			Wonderful to have you here. I'm so excited.
		
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			Alhamdulillah. So I've let everybody come on video
		
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			inshallah. Let's see what's happening in the chat.
		
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			So Fatah says having a having a fun
		
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			rollicking time
		
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			at this barakah full conference.
		
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			I haven't heard a fun working time. I,
		
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			you know what? If you like it, I
		
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			love it. It sounds really good.
		
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			Madiha says, loving the vibe, sis. Mashallah amazing
		
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			speakers amazing hosts are and the conversations are
		
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			epic yes I will have to agree the
		
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			conversations are epic guys let me know if
		
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			my volume is too high When I was
		
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			watching the interview with Mufti, I was getting
		
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			so annoyed at myself because I thought that
		
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			my volume was really so so high compared
		
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			to his. So I was like,
		
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			time to do something about that.
		
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			But, what else have we got, guys? Let's
		
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			see.
		
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			Alright. People can hear. Madiha says he he
		
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			is enjoying as well. He, I assume he
		
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			is the hubby,
		
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			is enjoying as well. I'm the luck that
		
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			I've had so many moments.
		
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			This conference has changed my perspective on marriage.
		
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			SubhanAllah.
		
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			Wow. I'm in the first
		
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			and then become a student of anything else.
		
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			Allahu Akbar. My volume is fine. Alhamdulillah. That's
		
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			wonderful.
		
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			Really appreciated the Mufti Menk conversation. Alhamdulillah. Yeah.
		
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			What did you guys think about? Did you
		
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			ladies manage to check it out? Let's unmute,
		
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			lady. Let's let's, let's jam it up in
		
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			here.
		
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			Ruby,
		
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			nice to have you here. Masha'Allah.
		
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			How are you doing, Ruby?
		
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			And
		
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			thank you to all the viewers that are
		
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			here today.
		
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			Yeah.
		
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			I think it's gonna be a a good
		
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			session. People have been looking forward to this
		
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			one.
		
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			And,
		
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			if you hear Zainab saying, the session was
		
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			absolutely amazing. It was awesome. What I really
		
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			enjoyed, to be honest, part on my side
		
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			was just how honest he Mufti was about
		
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			lots of things that,
		
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			you know, in the interview, certain things
		
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			have become, like, deal breakers for us, right,
		
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			in the community. You know? It's it's a
		
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			huge red flag. It's a deal breaker. You
		
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			know? And, actually, let me tell you a
		
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			secret.
		
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			It's not a secret now, obviously, if I
		
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			tell you, but, I had done a thumbnail
		
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			for our interview.
		
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			And the thumbnail the text on the thumbnail,
		
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			the first iteration of it said,
		
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			divorced 2 kids broke.
		
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			Right? Would you accept his proposal? That was
		
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			gonna be my title. Then I sent it
		
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			to him, and I said, do you think
		
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			this is disrespectful? And he was like, no.
		
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			That's not gonna come. No. I'm not I'm
		
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			not happy with that. But the reason I
		
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			thought that, you know, we changed it. But
		
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			I wanted people to to get real to
		
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			that because
		
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			we do have this idea that certain people
		
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			are like cream of the crop.
		
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			But as he said,
		
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			if he had you know, most people had
		
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			met him when he was first, you know,
		
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			starting out, when he married his wife,
		
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			he was
		
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			that divorced, 2 kids, broke, living at home,
		
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			you know, the kind of guy that most
		
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			people, you know, would really not would say
		
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			no to, basically.
		
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			Oh, anyway, alhamdulillah. I I enjoyed his candor.
		
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			Right. So I've got 2 other guests. Not
		
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			sure they came in.
		
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			Not sure where they are.
		
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			Isa, we need you to,
		
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			we need you to pop up on your
		
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			video,
		
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			and Zainab as well.
		
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			Now one of the things that I want
		
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			to say inshallah guys is
		
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			if you've been following,
		
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			then you know that we've had serious problems
		
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			with internet here in Egypt mainly because of
		
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			the weather.
		
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			The weather has been very rainy,
		
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			and Egypt doesn't do well with rain.
		
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			When it's raining,
		
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			the the whole place just shuts down. So
		
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			there is a chance that I could pop
		
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			off. Okay?
		
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			But you guys are all cohosts,
		
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			so the show must go on. Inshallah, the
		
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			Zoom will continue recording. It will continue on
		
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			to YouTube. But inshallah, I'll put my the
		
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			questions that we discussed
		
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			in our chat. So if if if laqad
		
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			rala,
		
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			I'm kicked off, please please please just continue
		
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			And, and and hopefully, the sisters will get
		
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			the benefit from the session.
		
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			Yeah. Is that okay with everyone?
		
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			Yes.
		
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			Is that okay? Are you guys hearing me?
		
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			Yes. Definitely.
		
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			Okay. Cool. I'm not hearing you guys.
		
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			Oh, yeah. Hearing me?
		
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			Yeah. We can hear you now, Ma. Okay.
		
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			Alright. Cool. Alright. Lovely.
		
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			How are you?
		
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			Good. Good to see you. Good
		
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			to see you. I'm really excited about this
		
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			session.
		
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			And as I said, you know, we've had
		
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			these,
		
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			some of these issues with regards to the
		
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			connection.
		
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			So, inshallah, we're just gonna wing it and,
		
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			inshallah, all is going to be well.
		
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			Let's get started. We've got another panelist who's
		
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			joining us inshallah. Hopefully, when she comes in,
		
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			we'll be able to get her on.
		
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			But, yeah, let's get going inshallah. Let's not
		
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			keep the wait people waiting any longer.
		
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			If you'd like to ask questions, guys, in
		
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			the q and a, please then just put
		
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			them in the q and a box in
		
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			Zoom.
		
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			And if we have time, then our OG
		
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			mamas will be able to, answer them. So,
		
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			Bismillah, let's get going.
		
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			Bismillah, Wassalaatu, Assalamu
		
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			Alaikum, Warahmatullahi,
		
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			wabarakatuh. Welcome
		
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			to the OG wives panel
		
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			in the secrets of successful wives conference.
		
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			Now,
		
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			a lot of people may have heard this
		
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			term OG wives and not really understood, you
		
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			know, what we're talking about. What is an
		
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			OG wife? Well, OG,
		
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			obviously, it stands for original gangster, but none
		
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			of our wives are really gangsters.
		
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			But I use the term OG to say,
		
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			like, from the old school, from back in
		
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			the day. So I specifically reached out to
		
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			you and and invited sisters who've been married
		
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			for
		
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			10, 15, sometimes 20 years and plus
		
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			to come on this panel and talk some
		
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			real talk.
		
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			And I did this for very selfish reasons.
		
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			And these selfish reasons are that
		
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			I, Insha'Allah,
		
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			believe
		
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			that it's necessary for the sisters who have
		
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			had the experience,
		
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			who have lived through the ups and downs
		
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			of marriage,
		
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			who have been, you know, on the journey
		
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			for a longer time
		
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			to be able to give advice
		
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			and to talk candidly
		
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			to the generations coming up.
		
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			I believe that there is a lot of
		
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			talk,
		
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			mainly online we can say,
		
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			by all sorts of people about all sorts
		
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			of things,
		
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			but the loudest voices I find are the
		
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			ones that have less experience,
		
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			and the, you know, the quieter voices are
		
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			the ones with more experience, and I think
		
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			that that's
		
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			wrong. I think that what happens is we
		
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			end up getting advice from inexperienced people or
		
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			from
		
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			there's a
		
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			there's a lot to learn from longevity.
		
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			It's easy to be happy
		
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			in the 1st 2, 3 years
		
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			and, you know, do a course or a
		
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			program or, like, you know, make an Instagram
		
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			account or whatever to show how happy we
		
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			are at, you know, in year 2 or
		
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			year 5 or even year 7.
		
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			But if you have been in the game
		
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			for 10, 15 years, you know, and you've
		
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			been through that process, you really just have
		
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			a different
		
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			lens and a very different perspective
		
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			on what makes a marriage work and what
		
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			makes a marriage last. So that is really
		
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			exactly what we're here to talk about insha'Allah
		
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			today.
		
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			So if I can just ask each of
		
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			you to introduce yourselves,
		
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			just tell us your name, what you do
		
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			and how many years you've been married and
		
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			then inshallah we can get into the questions
		
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			we'll start with you sister ruby since you're
		
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			you're like kind of on my right
		
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			Yes.
		
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			In the name of Allah.
		
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			Yeah. I am Ruby Khosur. I'm the I
		
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			am the happy marriage coach.
		
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			And I've been married for 11 years now.
		
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			Well, I have been married before,
		
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			had been divorced,
		
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			and then I got married a second time
		
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			after a long time.
		
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			So
		
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			that's me.
		
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			Wonderful. What about you, sister Sarah?
		
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			Assalamu alaikum. Peace be upon you.
		
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			Hello, everybody. Hope you guys are okay.
		
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			Please say hello in the comments. Got any
		
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			questions, whatever, before I start, just please let
		
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			us know in the comments because I know
		
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			sister Naomi, just like me, would like to
		
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			have these as interactive as possible.
		
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			Yeah. My name is Sarah Saleh. I am
		
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			a mom to 4.
		
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			I've been married for we were trying to
		
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			work this out yesterday. Always get it wrong.
		
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			16 years.
		
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			I am a
		
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			a online business consultant,
		
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			and, yeah, I'm really, really excited to be
		
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			here.
		
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			We had a really good Facebook live, didn't
		
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			we, when we speak about this subject the
		
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			other day as well. So I've been really
		
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			excited to come on and hear everyone's thoughts
		
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			and just really get down to talking about
		
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			this because a lot of people don't really
		
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			speak about this stuff online and especially myself.
		
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			Like you said, I've always been one of
		
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			the quiet voices, and the reason that is,
		
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			I'll be honest, it's probably a little bit
		
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			maybe paranoid, but an evil eye.
		
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			When I tell people about my marriage, people
		
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			like, oh, you know, oh, good for you
		
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			kinda thing and things like that. So InshaAllah,
		
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			hopefully, I can give a positive aspect as
		
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			well.
		
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			What? We lost Naima? She gone? I think
		
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			she may have gone. Was it me? I
		
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			I was gone, and I'm back. Okay. Omaisa,
		
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			it's it's like a roller coaster.
		
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			I'm in. I'm out.
		
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			Scarlet Pimpernel.
		
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			Omayesa,
		
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			what about you?
		
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			It's an honor to be here.
		
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			My name's,
		
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			Naima as well.
		
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			My name's Nikhia,
		
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			also known as Amarisa.
		
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			I'm actually a a hobby seller, but I've
		
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			actually been in Dower for over 20 years,
		
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			and especially in the community in supporting women.
		
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			And alhamdulillah,
		
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			I
		
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			just been married 19 years. So alhamdulillah. It's
		
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			Masha'allah.
		
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			It just flew by.
		
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			And Omaisa was determined not to be on
		
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			this panel. I just want you all to
		
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			know that she was like, I'm still learning,
		
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			mate. I'm not coming there to lecture anybody.
		
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			But I said no because we've spoken so
		
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			many
		
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			times and, you know, obviously, we know each
		
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			other personally so I was like, no. No.
		
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			No. Because when you drop the gems, you
		
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			drop the gems. So inshallah,
		
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			it's not too much for you to, inshallah,
		
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			be able to share it with others as
		
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			well. Masha'Allah. Last but not least, sister Zainab
		
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			Waladapo.
		
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			Welcome. Assalamu Alaikum. Assalamu Alaikum. Assalamu Alaikum. Thank
		
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			you for having me on here.
		
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			So,
		
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			I'm Zaina Baladakpo, and
		
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			I live in Nigeria in the beautiful city
		
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			of Abuja. I'm a mom of 5,
		
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			and I've been married, alhamdulillah, for about 15
		
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			years.
		
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			However,
		
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			this is a second marriage. I was in
		
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			an earlier marriage, which was abusive, which I
		
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			walked out of. And Alhamdulillah,
		
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			so I've seen, like, both sides of,
		
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			you know, of a thing and,
		
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			yeah, so I'm a transformative coach to,
		
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			Muslim women
		
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			and
		
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			the thing is I have been through so
		
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			much in my life that if I continued
		
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			with the introduction we probably would be finished
		
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			before the end of the hour so I'm
		
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			gonna leave it at that. Initially, I would
		
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			there'll be points in time when I can
		
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			share what I went through that really impacted
		
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			how I was showing up in my marriage.
		
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			And the journey to where I am now
		
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			where I can see Alhamdulillah
		
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			I
		
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			I am in a happy marriage and a
		
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			thriving one that seems like it's just even
		
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			starting out. So SubhanAllah.
		
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			Yeah. I love that.
		
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			Wonderful. So we've got a real
		
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			variety of experiences here, and I think there
		
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			may even be some points of, you know,
		
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			that you have in common as well. Masha'Allah.
		
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			Sounds like it on your journeys.
		
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			So okay. Going to this point that, you
		
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			know,
		
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			people who have been married for longer
		
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			have a different perspective,
		
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			right, on what works, what doesn't work, etcetera.
		
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			So my first question to every each one
		
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			of you
		
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			is could you name or describe or explain
		
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			three things that make a marriage last long
		
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			term?
		
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			What are your thoughts on that?
		
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			Yeah.
		
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			3 things.
		
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			I'm on the spot now, but I'm gonna
		
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			try.
		
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			I think
		
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			mutual understanding
		
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			and when I say compromise,
		
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			okay, I don't mean compromise with a negative
		
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			connotation.
		
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			I mean, compromise
		
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			certain things for your for your marriage, and
		
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			that doesn't necessarily have to be a negative
		
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			thing. So when people say I'm not compromising,
		
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			you know, like you said, online, there's a
		
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			lot of things
		
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			that are being put on the media. Oh,
		
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			I want this. I'm a strong independent woman.
		
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			I deserve to have this, that, the other,
		
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			you know, all this sort of thing.
		
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			There has to be compromises sometimes.
		
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			And
		
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			it it takes a lot to build that,
		
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			but that you can make that a really
		
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			good foundation for your marriage if you kind
		
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			of have a mutual understanding and understand. You
		
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			know, your husband's gonna give things up as
		
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			well as you are. So it's not just
		
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			about a one way street. It's about having
		
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			that mutual understanding.
		
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			I think being able to be friends and
		
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			speak to your husband about literally anything,
		
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			really, like, being compatible
		
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			on that aspect,
		
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			I think, is fine. You know, me and
		
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			my husband, we we've been married, what, you
		
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			know, like I said, 15, 16 years, and
		
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			we've we still sit up all night talking.
		
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			Like, literally, we'll just sit talking all the
		
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			time. And he'll phone me from work, and
		
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			he'll be like, hi. What are you doing?
		
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			Like, literally, and
		
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			we've been married this long, and it's still
		
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			like that. So kind of keeping those things,
		
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			you know, what's things that are mutually in
		
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			common, and we kinda have grown together on
		
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			that. And, also, it's, yeah, it's it's kind
		
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			of not giving up
		
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			at the first hurdles.
		
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			Not giving up. Like, not giving up. It
		
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			is hard. Sometimes life is hard.
		
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			Yeah. Life is hard. Marriage can be difficult.
		
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			I've been
		
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			through so many different things in my marriage.
		
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			We've had,
		
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			you know, we've had
		
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			different things,
		
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			you know, we wanted different things in life.
		
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			We've been through infertility.
		
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			We've been through, you know, my husband losing
		
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			his job. We've been through, you know, financial
		
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			things. We've been up and we've been down,
		
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			but we've always, always, always tried to make
		
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			it work, and we've never gone to sleep
		
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			on an argument ever.
		
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			We've always saw it.
		
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			I don't hold any grudges. I just get
		
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			away sometimes. So
		
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			that's the 3 things that I can offer
		
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			that works for us.
		
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			And, you know, before I go to the
		
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			other sisters,
		
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			just, you know, one of the things that
		
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			I'd like to just maybe touch on
		
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			is the idea that of, you know, people
		
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			changing and growing in the marriage. Right? Because
		
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			I know that you you and your husband
		
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			were in one place and then, you know,
		
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			things changed in terms of life style, in
		
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			terms of Dean, etcetera.
		
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			Can you maybe speak to that? Because some,
		
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			a lot of people, especially now, you know,
		
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			where maybe the woman is on a journey,
		
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			maybe at one point, people were getting married
		
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			and then maybe the brother would become more
		
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			practicing. Right? Or he married somebody who wasn't
		
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			Muslim and he wasn't practicing, but then he
		
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			became practicing and then it became this shift,
		
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			And now as well, a lot of sisters
		
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			are, you know, maybe developing themselves and kind
		
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			of up leveling in terms of their professional
		
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			and career,
		
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			and that is in itself causing, you know,
		
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			like a change in the dynamic. Maybe if
		
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			you could just speak to that briefly, Insha'Allah,
		
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			how you manage that.
		
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			I
		
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			think not you're not doing this alone.
		
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			When you're up leveling, you're up leveling together.
		
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			Whatever you're doing to up level yourself personally,
		
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			professionally, in your family, in your team, you're
		
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			up leveling together.
		
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			You are in this marriage together, and it's
		
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			not about him and me and this. It's
		
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			if you're gonna think about, you know, like
		
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			you said,
		
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			starting a new profession, you wanna do something,
		
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			you wanna do a training course, you wanna
		
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			change profession,
		
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			start, you know, touch like, for example, me,
		
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			leaving last week, about 3 weeks ago, I
		
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			saw some touch week classes being advertised. And
		
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			I said, I thought, well, I'm gonna do
		
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			it. I didn't go ahead and book them.
		
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			I'm gonna do tudgewood class. I knew my
		
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			husband wouldn't mind. But I said to my
		
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			husband, he's in the morning cups. Yes. Look.
		
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			I've seen these tudgewood classes.
		
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			They're in the weekday. What do you think?
		
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			You know? And he was like, yeah. Great.
		
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			Go ahead. If he would have said, oh,
		
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			maybe start next week, and he would have
		
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			given me a a reason why or whatever,
		
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			It would have been fine because I know
		
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			he didn't mind, but it's like, I always
		
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			okay. I I can say I even sometimes
		
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			ask his permission. I know I don't have
		
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			to ask his My husband has never stopped
		
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			me doing anything except pierce my nose. That's
		
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			the only problem. That's the only problem. That's
		
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			the only problem. That's the only problem. That's
		
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			the only problem. That's the that's the only
		
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			problem.
		
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			Years ago, by the way. I was like,
		
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			why don't you want my nose pierced? You
		
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			know, I think it looked nice. He was
		
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			like, please don't get nose pierced. But yeah.
		
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			You know?
		
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			I almost asked his permission. I say to
		
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			him, look. Do you mind if I do
		
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			this or can I do this or is
		
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			it okay?
		
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			I'm thinking about doing something. And, you know,
		
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			we do these things together. He's the same
		
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			with him and his work. You know, my
		
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			husband's worked away a lot, and he's always
		
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			said to me when he wants to do
		
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			something different in his career or he's got
		
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			something that's happened at work and he's got
		
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			a big decision to make, he says to
		
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			me, is that okay? Like, even a couple
		
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			of weeks ago, he was like, you know,
		
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			I might have to go to Ireland for
		
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			a little bit and work and stuff like
		
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			that. I'm gonna try and get over. I
		
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			said, it's absolutely fine. If you've gotta do
		
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			that for you, you've gotta do it. He
		
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			hasn't just come home and gone, it's work.
		
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			I've gotta do this. You know, we kinda
		
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			speak about it together.
		
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			So I think that's where a lot of
		
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			people get it wrong. They don't
		
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			they go off on their own path, and
		
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			that's fine if you're finding it yourself. But
		
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			leave your husband or your wife with
		
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			you. Say, you know, we're gonna go on
		
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			this path together. Let's try and do it
		
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			together, you know, even do things to get
		
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			involved with each other. You know, see, if
		
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			you're on a spiritual journey
		
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			and you feel you're growing apart, it's because
		
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			maybe you're not kind of getting them involved.
		
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			You're not asking them to come with you
		
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			on that path. So, you know, it's just
		
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			that again, that's just something for you guys
		
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			to think about. I liked when he said
		
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			earlier about, he says you didn't wanna lecture
		
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			people. I'm not trying to. I just wanna
		
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			kinda offer advice of what's worked for me.
		
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			And if you guys do resonate with that,
		
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			please do take that away and ask me
		
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			any questions you like as well.
		
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			And thank you so much. And I think
		
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			this issue of sort of being on journeys
		
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			and how the sister said he's not there
		
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			yet, I I would like to circle back
		
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			to that inshallah. But I would like each
		
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			one of you to answer the question about
		
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			the three things that make a marriage last
		
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			inshallah as far as your experience is concerned.
		
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			Ruby, would you like to go next?
		
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			Okay.
		
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			Yeah.
		
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			You know, when you said 3 things,
		
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			I said, oh, wow.
		
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			3 only 3?
		
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			There are so many,
		
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			like, you know, successes. I could speak all
		
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			day about it.
		
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			But the biggest success
		
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			in my marriage,
		
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			and I have got a story to tell,
		
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			and I'm not sure whether we have time
		
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			for that today.
		
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			But
		
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			the biggest success has been
		
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			to understand me.
		
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			Understand me
		
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			because so many times
		
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			that I
		
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			expected and wanted
		
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			for my husband to understand me. And that
		
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			used to really, really kill me because I
		
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			wanted him to understand me.
		
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			But only
		
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			when I
		
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			understood
		
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			myself,
		
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			that's when
		
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			my marriage
		
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			changed.
		
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			It did not change before that.
		
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			I tried so hard,
		
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			so hard
		
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			before that to change it,
		
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			trying
		
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			to get him to understand me.
		
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			Well, the tables are reversed.
		
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			I understand me,
		
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			and that
		
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			has been the transformation.
		
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			A real
		
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			transformation
		
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			that happened
		
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			not because
		
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			I wanted him to change
		
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			and he changed,
		
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			and so my marriage transformed.
		
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			No.
		
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			Didn't do it like that.
		
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			I understood me
		
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			and the transformation
		
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			that came
		
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			came from within me.
		
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			It came from Allah.
		
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			It didn't come trying to get him to
		
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			change.
		
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			So my biggest success
		
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			was
		
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			the transformation from within,
		
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			and that was from Allah.
		
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			So I have to say that first.
		
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			And so
		
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			the way it happened was that I understood
		
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			the way I think.
		
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			I no longer think the way I used
		
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			to think before
		
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			about my husband,
		
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			and that was a real,
		
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			real
		
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			change.
		
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			And rather than say change,
		
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			I'd like to say
		
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			awakening
		
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			because
		
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			awakening
		
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			is permanent.
		
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			It's my consciousness,
		
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			my taqwa,
		
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			from Allah,
		
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			that
		
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			changed.
		
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			Like, I
		
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			woke I woke up.
		
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			And that was a a gift and a
		
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			blessing from the almighty.
		
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			It doesn't just come.
		
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			It's like,
		
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			I wanted
		
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			I wanted it so bad.
		
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			And so
		
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			that was the biggest,
		
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			transformation
		
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			that came from within, and I woke up
		
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			to see it. I woke up to see
		
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			the way I was thinking
		
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			about my husband.
		
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			And
		
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			when that happened,
		
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			I found the greatness in me,
		
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			in who I was.
		
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			And before, I used to feel broke and
		
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			upset, and I need fixing, and I need
		
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			improving.
		
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			I need to do this and I need
		
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			to do that. And I and I absolutely
		
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			debit
		
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			the whole of Facebook and
		
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			Google
		
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			and every book you can think of, and
		
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			I did everything.
		
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			Everything.
		
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			And so
		
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			when I understood the way I think,
		
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			my
		
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			everything changed
		
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			from,
		
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			being very loving,
		
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			very giving,
		
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			very,
		
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			giving
		
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			to myself first,
		
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			and
		
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			grateful.
		
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			Gratitude
		
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			just fell from my lips.
		
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			I didn't have to do gratitude journals,
		
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			which I used to do.
		
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			Now
		
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			gratitude
		
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			just
		
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			falls
		
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			from my lips
		
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			to the divine,
		
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			and I I it it can come anytime.
		
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			I don't know how I don't have to
		
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			make it. I don't have to be sitting
		
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			here. Oh my god. I've gotta be grateful.
		
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			I've gotta be grateful. No.
		
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			And that
		
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			brings that gratitude
		
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			through his wisdom,
		
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			through
		
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			my mind
		
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			in the moment
		
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			because gratitude
		
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			is in the moment.
		
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			So the success
		
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			blew my mind.
		
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			I did not expect it the way it
		
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			came.
		
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			I did not. I really did not.
		
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			It it's it's like
		
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			I I was searching for truth.
		
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			I really was all my life.
		
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			I searched for it. I searched for it,
		
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			and I've written a poem on it. And
		
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			if you'd want me to share it, I
		
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			I I
		
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			can
		
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			whenever you feel that there is time on
		
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			this,
		
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			but I want to give time
		
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			for the assistance.
		
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			That's so beautiful.
		
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			So would you say that the for you,
		
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			the you know, one of those things that
		
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			leads to the longevity in marriage is knowing
		
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			yourself
		
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			and just becoming aware of yourself and and
		
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			who you really are.
		
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			When I
		
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			was on the journey to know me, guess
		
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			what?
		
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			I knew a lot.
		
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			The one who knows his Lord
		
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			knows
		
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			himself.
		
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			The one who knows themselves
		
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			knows his God,
		
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			and that
		
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			was so beautiful.
		
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			I cried and I cried and I cried.
		
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			My tears was
		
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			a gratitude.
		
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			I cried for days
		
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			because I've searched for it all my
		
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			life. And here I was. I thought, oh
		
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			my god.
		
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			You Allah,
		
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			you
		
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			have given me
		
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			something that I never expected
		
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			even though I prayed for it.
		
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			I prayed and prayed and prayed, but it
		
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			didn't come when I wanted it.
		
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			It came
		
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			when
		
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			he wanted
		
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			me to see the truth.
		
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			It came from him.
		
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			SubhanAllah.
		
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			JazakAllah Khayron for sharing that with us, sis.
		
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			That's beautiful. Masha'Allah. You know, people in the
		
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			chat are, you know, obviously, it's resonating what
		
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			you're saying. Masha'Allah. Fantastic.
		
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			Omayesa, what would you say are the 3
		
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			things that lead to a marriage lasting? Allahumabarak.
		
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			Masha'Allah. So powerful. Yes.
		
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			I need you to unmute inshallah.
		
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			You can hear me now. Right? Yes. We
		
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			can.
		
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			So I think I think perseverance is one
		
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			word that comes to mind. You know, is
		
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			having,
		
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			with one another. You know? I think
		
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			one of the things as well is that
		
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			whenever we do something, we should make our
		
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			intentions first for Allah.
		
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			If we're going to do something to please
		
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			our husbands, we should solidify our intentions first
		
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			and make it for Allah
		
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			because
		
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			we have expectations. And
		
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			this is another thing, you know. It's it's
		
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			it's difficult to
		
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			do things or serve someone and then have
		
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			expectations as well. You know?
		
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			It's important that
		
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			expectations is something that causes pain. That's what
		
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			I think. Because they they might they may
		
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			not they may not appreciate what you've done.
		
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			They may not,
		
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			give you the reaction that you may want.
		
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			I think,
		
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			sometimes we expect to them to love us
		
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			how we
		
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			love them.
		
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			So I think if I'm going to give
		
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			an advice, I'd say, first of all, whatever
		
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			action you do, do it first for the
		
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			sake of Allah.
		
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			Solidify it because however it is received,
		
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			if your intention is good, then your reward
		
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			is with Allah.
		
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			Sometimes you may feel disappointed.
		
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			I remember, you know, it might be that
		
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			you serve them and you want something from
		
00:36:10 --> 00:36:11
			them
		
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			a reaction, and they may not have reacted
		
00:36:13 --> 00:36:15
			the way you want. But if you do
		
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			things
		
00:36:16 --> 00:36:17
			for the sake of Allah,
		
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			no good deeds are left, are lost in
		
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			the sight of Allah.
		
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			So another thing I was saying is, obviously,
		
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			it comes down to, like, love languages as
		
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			well. You know, they say, like, the 5
		
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			love love languages.
		
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			Sometimes we tend to love people or love
		
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			love our spouses, love our husbands the way
		
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			that
		
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			we feel
		
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			we need to be loved.
		
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			It's important to love them how the what
		
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			their needs are. We're all needy.
		
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			We're all needy when it comes down to
		
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			marriage.
		
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			We all have needs that need to be
		
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			fulfilled whether they're emotional
		
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			or whatever it is.
		
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			So give how
		
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			give how they they
		
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			fulfill
		
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			their needs, how they they need it fulfilled
		
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			really.
		
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			You know, not necessarily how we would.
		
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			And then
		
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			not to kind of expect what we want,
		
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			love according to them.
		
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			There might be certain things that,
		
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			I might not necessarily like. I might not
		
00:37:18 --> 00:37:20
			be flattened by flattered by,
		
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			you know, an item of clothing, for instance.
		
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			But your partner might. Right? I might not
		
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			be
		
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			flattered by,
		
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			I might a a night out in a
		
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			fancy restaurant. I might just be like, yeah,
		
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			you know, just give me time. That's more
		
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			important. So I think it's important to understand
		
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			one another
		
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			and to love them according to their
		
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			kind of, you know,
		
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			needs.
		
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			They're not us. Their giving is different
		
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			which is why
		
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			we should look and see what he or
		
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			she needs. In our case, obviously, what our
		
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			husbands need
		
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			and how can we fulfill their needs.
		
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			I think that's,
		
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			you know,
		
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			one of the things I would say is,
		
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			you know,
		
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			like I said, solidify your intentions
		
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			and make our actions really
		
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			invested with a lot of.
		
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			I would say,
		
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			another one I would say is
		
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			spending time.
		
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			You know, sometimes,
		
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			like, for me, I've got 6 kids.
		
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			Over time, you forget to
		
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			have time
		
00:38:28 --> 00:38:28
			alone
		
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			outside of the bedroom.
		
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			You know, it tends to be, you know,
		
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			talking, I think, just mainly about what to
		
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			buy in the house or
		
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			kids or communication just end up being about
		
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			the running of the home.
		
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			So I think it's really important to have
		
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			time set aside,
		
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			and you're involved in activity both for walk.
		
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			For me,
		
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			cycling is very big at the moment. I'm
		
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			cycling in shock, so many of the sisters
		
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			know,
		
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			from me, from Cycle Sisters as well.
		
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			So,
		
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			you know, my husband's an ardent cyclist as
		
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			well. So we go and cycle together and
		
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			this is something that a lot of sisters,
		
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			have started to do now
		
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			in the evenings. Maybe
		
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			if they've got older children, they could go
		
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			go for a cycle, go for a walk,
		
00:39:18 --> 00:39:19
			go for a drive,
		
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			go for a coffee on the weekends.
		
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			I think it's really important.
		
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			I think it's so much actually,
		
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			but,
		
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			let's give a chance to others to contribute,
		
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			inshallah. I know we've got quite a few
		
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			people.
		
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			Yeah. I mean, this is one of the
		
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			reasons why I said, I said only three
		
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			reasons because it's really hard actually to
		
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			to to pin it down, isn't it? But
		
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			sometimes when we have to pin it down,
		
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			we have to come with our very best
		
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			points,
		
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			Sister Zaynah, what say you? What are the
		
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			three things that make a marriage last
		
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			in your opinion?
		
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			Yeah.
		
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			Okay.
		
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			Before I go into answering the question, I
		
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			want to give a bit of context
		
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			to what my answer will be.
		
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			And it is that
		
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			I have been in 2 marriages.
		
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			1 was abusive and, alhamdulillah, I was able
		
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			to get out of it
		
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			very early.
		
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			And this marriage would have been in for
		
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			over 15 years, and alhamdulillah.
		
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			When I came into this marriage
		
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			I did my
		
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			homework
		
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			before I agreed to marry my husband.
		
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			So I came into a marriage.
		
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			I wasn't even expecting problems, and at hand,
		
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			like I say, I've had major problems. And
		
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			that is because
		
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			contrasting with where I was coming from, where
		
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			I had experienced before.
		
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			I don't I mean, it's like,
		
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			what would they I don't think there's anything
		
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			that
		
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			can be done again.
		
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			So long as I had done my homework
		
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			and I knew that this person is not
		
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			this
		
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			kind of person I married before. So it's
		
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			like,
		
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			I'm in this place, like,
		
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			is like it's already, like, beautiful
		
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			before I even get in.
		
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			So
		
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			it was okay. I didn't think the marriage
		
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			was gonna be a problem.
		
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			What happened was I came into the marriage
		
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			being a problem for me.
		
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			So
		
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			the three things
		
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			that
		
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			I believe would
		
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			make a marriage work,
		
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			first is
		
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			you understanding
		
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			that
		
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			marriage
		
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			is a creation.
		
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			It's like a work of art.
		
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			You put in love,
		
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			dedication.
		
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			There's a lot of exploration.
		
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			There's a lot of experimentation.
		
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			A work of art. You're wanting to create
		
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			a masterpiece.
		
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			You don't go into it. You don't
		
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			in that process,
		
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			rush yourself,
		
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			or judge yourself,
		
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			or beat yourself up.
		
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			Because that's what art is.
		
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			It's a process to enjoy.
		
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			So being able to understand that it is
		
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			a creation, it's something you create, It's
		
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			cocreated.
		
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			So what it means is that if it's
		
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			a cocreation,
		
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			that means that
		
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			whatever each of
		
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			the
		
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			part is bringing to the marriage
		
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			is
		
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			what creates
		
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			whether it's whatever my own part, what I
		
00:43:02 --> 00:43:03
			was bringing into the marriage
		
00:43:04 --> 00:43:07
			was me feeling I was a problem, living
		
00:43:07 --> 00:43:08
			in the state of being a problem for
		
00:43:08 --> 00:43:09
			me.
		
00:43:09 --> 00:43:10
			Before we got married,
		
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			because I
		
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			had a very serious anger issue
		
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			which if there is a I might go
		
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			into the genesis but might not be relevant,
		
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			However, I remember that there was a time
		
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			before we got married that I, wanted to
		
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			talk
		
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			to wanted to talk to. I I went
		
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			I had a a meetup with my,
		
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			before then then I was he was asking
		
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			to marry me and all that. And then
		
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			he didn't come up on time. I was
		
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			mad.
		
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			Like, I told his friend that I really
		
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			like, you know, when somebody blows up.
		
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			I was upset. I was like a keg
		
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			of gumball. I blew up. I just basically
		
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			spewed onto this friend of his.
		
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			Of course, I didn't like it, but that
		
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			was what I was showing up then.
		
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			He still married me.
		
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			So I don't know what he saw anyway.
		
00:44:01 --> 00:44:02
			I I asked him,
		
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			I asked I've asked him after that and
		
00:44:05 --> 00:44:06
			said, I mean, but why did you marry
		
00:44:06 --> 00:44:08
			me when you knew I had all this
		
00:44:08 --> 00:44:08
			stuff?
		
00:44:09 --> 00:44:11
			He was like well I just knew that,
		
00:44:11 --> 00:44:13
			if you get angry to that point I
		
00:44:13 --> 00:44:15
			mean I just need to just douse a
		
00:44:15 --> 00:44:18
			lot of cold water on so you'll be
		
00:44:18 --> 00:44:19
			fine, I knew I could handle it.
		
00:44:20 --> 00:44:21
			So that
		
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			was what he brought into the marriage. But
		
00:44:26 --> 00:44:27
			on my own part,
		
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			I had an experience in life where I
		
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			came from being sexually abused at 9 years
		
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			old. By the time I was 11 years
		
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			old I was exposed repeatedly to explicit material
		
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			which basically messed up my head because we
		
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			know that's what * does,
		
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			and then I was, so I just basically
		
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			had no self confidence, almost no sense of
		
00:44:45 --> 00:44:46
			self worth,
		
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			self esteem, 0 basically. I went through life
		
00:44:50 --> 00:44:52
			like that. I was angry at the world
		
00:44:52 --> 00:44:54
			and all that, went into
		
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			an abusive marriage. I mean, I basically walked
		
00:44:56 --> 00:44:58
			into it eyes wide open. So that was
		
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			so I had all that baggage. So I
		
00:45:01 --> 00:45:02
			was in the marriage with it.
		
00:45:03 --> 00:45:03
			But
		
00:45:05 --> 00:45:07
			when so the marriage was fine.
		
00:45:08 --> 00:45:09
			Alhamdulillah, I was okay.
		
00:45:10 --> 00:45:12
			But I wasn't okay.
		
00:45:12 --> 00:45:14
			So I couldn't experience
		
00:45:15 --> 00:45:16
			the fact that I was in a marriage
		
00:45:16 --> 00:45:18
			that wasn't troubled like many others.
		
00:45:20 --> 00:45:22
			I was basically suffering
		
00:45:22 --> 00:45:25
			in a marriage that should be okay. That
		
00:45:25 --> 00:45:28
			is really okay. So what happened is,
		
00:45:29 --> 00:45:30
			of course, I wanted to fix myself. I
		
00:45:30 --> 00:45:33
			was broken. I did so much personal development
		
00:45:33 --> 00:45:35
			work, all kinds of stuff.
		
00:45:35 --> 00:45:38
			I spent 1,000 of dollars on personal development
		
00:45:38 --> 00:45:40
			trying to fix myself.
		
00:45:40 --> 00:45:42
			Alhamdulillah I got to the point where
		
00:45:43 --> 00:45:45
			I was able to understand how the mind
		
00:45:45 --> 00:45:47
			works and how we create our own experiences.
		
00:45:48 --> 00:45:51
			And that helped me drop off all these
		
00:45:51 --> 00:45:52
			baggage.
		
00:45:52 --> 00:45:54
			That was when
		
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			I started to see that this marriage could
		
00:45:57 --> 00:45:58
			be a masterpiece.
		
00:46:00 --> 00:46:00
			So
		
00:46:01 --> 00:46:03
			that second point is the fact that
		
00:46:03 --> 00:46:04
			we need to
		
00:46:06 --> 00:46:07
			see yourself
		
00:46:08 --> 00:46:10
			in the mirror for how you're showing up.
		
00:46:11 --> 00:46:12
			It's not about judgment.
		
00:46:14 --> 00:46:14
			It
		
00:46:15 --> 00:46:16
			is compassion.
		
00:46:17 --> 00:46:19
			So for me, that was the one thing
		
00:46:20 --> 00:46:21
			that I'd
		
00:46:22 --> 00:46:23
			see changed
		
00:46:24 --> 00:46:27
			the game. Being compassionate with myself through everything
		
00:46:28 --> 00:46:30
			that I had experienced in life and how
		
00:46:30 --> 00:46:31
			I was seeing it,
		
00:46:31 --> 00:46:33
			and then bringing that compassion to my husband.
		
00:46:33 --> 00:46:35
			Because of course, I mean, yeah, he's a
		
00:46:35 --> 00:46:37
			great guy, but he's not perfect either.
		
00:46:38 --> 00:46:40
			But living with compassion,
		
00:46:41 --> 00:46:42
			seen through compassion.
		
00:46:42 --> 00:46:43
			And
		
00:46:44 --> 00:46:45
			the third one
		
00:46:47 --> 00:46:48
			is seeking for help
		
00:46:50 --> 00:46:52
			seeking Allah's help.
		
00:46:53 --> 00:46:55
			And I know that was what took me
		
00:46:55 --> 00:46:55
			to that transformation
		
00:46:56 --> 00:46:57
			that I experienced because
		
00:46:57 --> 00:46:58
			one of
		
00:46:59 --> 00:47:00
			my biggest duas
		
00:47:01 --> 00:47:01
			was
		
00:47:04 --> 00:47:04
			Yajabar
		
00:47:05 --> 00:47:05
			Uchburini.
		
00:47:07 --> 00:47:09
			Because that was how I felt, I was,
		
00:47:09 --> 00:47:10
			I felt broken.
		
00:47:11 --> 00:47:12
			Even though I had everything going on for
		
00:47:12 --> 00:47:14
			me, I had beautiful kids. I had a
		
00:47:14 --> 00:47:16
			great career. I had everything on the outside,
		
00:47:16 --> 00:47:19
			success boxes ticked, but I wasn't
		
00:47:19 --> 00:47:20
			okay on the inside.
		
00:47:20 --> 00:47:23
			I asked Allah for help and Allah helped
		
00:47:23 --> 00:47:23
			me.
		
00:47:25 --> 00:47:27
			I could go on and on, but then,
		
00:47:28 --> 00:47:30
			because the beauty of Al Jabbar is the
		
00:47:30 --> 00:47:33
			fact that the way he mends a broken
		
00:47:33 --> 00:47:33
			bone
		
00:47:34 --> 00:47:36
			is how he mends you. But it doesn't
		
00:47:36 --> 00:47:38
			mean you mend all at once.
		
00:47:39 --> 00:47:41
			You mend in faces.
		
00:47:42 --> 00:47:44
			And that was the experience I had.
		
00:47:44 --> 00:47:46
			And at this point in time, I can
		
00:47:46 --> 00:47:47
			see I have gotten to I mean, I've
		
00:47:47 --> 00:47:50
			experienced that. No. I know there's there's no
		
00:47:50 --> 00:47:53
			peak. There's a long there's more to go.
		
00:47:53 --> 00:47:55
			I've gotten to this point where in the
		
00:47:55 --> 00:47:56
			creation of my marriage
		
00:47:57 --> 00:47:59
			I make naughty duors.
		
00:47:59 --> 00:48:01
			There's this one I'm gonna share, it's like,
		
00:48:01 --> 00:48:01
			yeah,
		
00:48:02 --> 00:48:04
			this is what I made recently because a
		
00:48:04 --> 00:48:05
			lot of like things are fine but yeah
		
00:48:05 --> 00:48:08
			it can be more fun I say that
		
00:48:08 --> 00:48:08
			a lot
		
00:48:09 --> 00:48:12
			let's have doing intimacy let's have multiple orgies
		
00:48:12 --> 00:48:13
			so that I can praise you.
		
00:48:14 --> 00:48:15
			That's kind of the words I make now
		
00:48:15 --> 00:48:16
			just for fun
		
00:48:17 --> 00:48:19
			but I take action as well.
		
00:48:20 --> 00:48:23
			The other part of seeking help is seek
		
00:48:23 --> 00:48:24
			professional help
		
00:48:24 --> 00:48:25
			for you
		
00:48:26 --> 00:48:28
			Because I struggle all through this myself,
		
00:48:29 --> 00:48:30
			thinking
		
00:48:30 --> 00:48:32
			I don't have to tell anyone, but asking
		
00:48:32 --> 00:48:35
			for help from Allah, and then from people
		
00:48:35 --> 00:48:38
			helped put me where I was able to
		
00:48:38 --> 00:48:39
			experience that
		
00:48:41 --> 00:48:41
			transformation
		
00:48:42 --> 00:48:43
			from within.
		
00:48:43 --> 00:48:45
			It wasn't about the things I was doing
		
00:48:45 --> 00:48:47
			outside because I did everything, everything we did
		
00:48:47 --> 00:48:49
			as wise, learn to make makeup, I hate
		
00:48:49 --> 00:48:51
			makeup, but I learned to do makeup and
		
00:48:51 --> 00:48:52
			stuff but that didn't
		
00:48:52 --> 00:48:55
			help. The change, just like sister Ruby said,
		
00:48:55 --> 00:48:56
			it happened within.
		
00:48:58 --> 00:49:00
			So right now the co creation of this
		
00:49:00 --> 00:49:01
			marriage is
		
00:49:01 --> 00:49:02
			more fun.
		
00:49:03 --> 00:49:04
			So even when anything goes wrong, yeah, we
		
00:49:04 --> 00:49:06
			experience a lot of things, financial sector, everything,
		
00:49:06 --> 00:49:08
			but then that is what it is,
		
00:49:09 --> 00:49:09
			and
		
00:49:10 --> 00:49:11
			the experience of it is different.
		
00:49:12 --> 00:49:13
			So I gotta, I think I need to
		
00:49:13 --> 00:49:15
			stop now so I don't like take up
		
00:49:15 --> 00:49:17
			the whole time, Inshallah.
		
00:49:18 --> 00:49:19
			He's like he's all hiring.
		
00:49:22 --> 00:49:23
			Just a really
		
00:49:23 --> 00:49:26
			a really a really, really moving account. Masha'Allah.
		
00:49:27 --> 00:49:27
			Very soothing.
		
00:49:28 --> 00:49:28
			And,
		
00:49:29 --> 00:49:31
			you know, you mentioned something right at the
		
00:49:31 --> 00:49:32
			end where you said
		
00:49:32 --> 00:49:34
			it's not the circumstances,
		
00:49:35 --> 00:49:35
			because
		
00:49:36 --> 00:49:39
			and everyone, I think, on this panel can
		
00:49:39 --> 00:49:40
			attest to the fact that
		
00:49:41 --> 00:49:44
			any couple that's been together for over 2
		
00:49:44 --> 00:49:47
			years, 3 years, into 5, 7, 9, you
		
00:49:47 --> 00:49:49
			know, 10, 12,
		
00:49:50 --> 00:49:50
			etcetera,
		
00:49:51 --> 00:49:52
			have been through some trials.
		
00:49:53 --> 00:49:56
			And the thing is this is this life,
		
00:49:56 --> 00:49:59
			isn't it? This life, this this dunya is
		
00:49:59 --> 00:50:00
			a place of test and examination.
		
00:50:01 --> 00:50:03
			So whether the test is,
		
00:50:03 --> 00:50:04
			you know,
		
00:50:04 --> 00:50:07
			in laws or or or or, you know,
		
00:50:07 --> 00:50:09
			elderly relatives or, you know, your mother getting
		
00:50:09 --> 00:50:11
			sick or, you know, like we had today,
		
00:50:11 --> 00:50:12
			infertility,
		
00:50:13 --> 00:50:15
			you know, or having many children at once
		
00:50:15 --> 00:50:18
			and struggling their financial situations, health worries,
		
00:50:18 --> 00:50:20
			you know, things to do with other people
		
00:50:20 --> 00:50:23
			around us, you know, moving countries, living apart,
		
00:50:23 --> 00:50:25
			all of these different things that many of
		
00:50:25 --> 00:50:27
			us have dealt with. What I I think
		
00:50:27 --> 00:50:29
			the message that I would like to make
		
00:50:29 --> 00:50:32
			sure that we convey to everybody who's listening,
		
00:50:33 --> 00:50:34
			especially the unmarried ones,
		
00:50:35 --> 00:50:36
			is that
		
00:50:36 --> 00:50:39
			life will throw you curve balls regardless.
		
00:50:40 --> 00:50:40
			Okay?
		
00:50:41 --> 00:50:44
			It's not just, oh, you're married, therefore, life
		
00:50:44 --> 00:50:45
			is tough. You know? Because we're all here.
		
00:50:45 --> 00:50:47
			We're talking about marriage and we're talking about
		
00:50:47 --> 00:50:50
			ups and downs. The reality is that life
		
00:50:50 --> 00:50:53
			is like that. It's simply a different a
		
00:50:53 --> 00:50:55
			different form of those challenges and those tests
		
00:50:55 --> 00:50:57
			and those trials. And we know
		
00:50:58 --> 00:51:00
			we know for a surety that those tests
		
00:51:00 --> 00:51:02
			and trials are not here to break us.
		
00:51:02 --> 00:51:04
			Rather they are here to elevate us and
		
00:51:04 --> 00:51:07
			make us better versions of ourselves. And Allah
		
00:51:07 --> 00:51:09
			Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala puts barakah in those tests.
		
00:51:10 --> 00:51:12
			So I love the fact that you mentioned
		
00:51:12 --> 00:51:13
			you know we've been through this we've been
		
00:51:13 --> 00:51:15
			through that we've been through this and everyone
		
00:51:15 --> 00:51:16
			on this panel I know that you can
		
00:51:16 --> 00:51:18
			say the exact same thing I could say
		
00:51:18 --> 00:51:21
			the same thing as well anyone else probably
		
00:51:21 --> 00:51:22
			who's married can say the same thing
		
00:51:23 --> 00:51:24
			the difference is
		
00:51:24 --> 00:51:25
			our
		
00:51:25 --> 00:51:28
			experience of that maybe in the moment because
		
00:51:28 --> 00:51:30
			of where we were emotionally but also
		
00:51:31 --> 00:51:32
			our memory of that
		
00:51:33 --> 00:51:35
			Because things happen.
		
00:51:35 --> 00:51:38
			We process those things and we understand them
		
00:51:38 --> 00:51:40
			in a particular way and therefore we feel
		
00:51:40 --> 00:51:42
			a particular way about them and that's in
		
00:51:42 --> 00:51:45
			the moment. But then 1, 2, 3 years
		
00:51:45 --> 00:51:46
			later,
		
00:51:46 --> 00:51:48
			when you think back on it, subhanAllah,
		
00:51:49 --> 00:51:51
			it's it's a different ballgame. Right? I mean,
		
00:51:51 --> 00:51:53
			guys, what do you think? I mean, I
		
00:51:53 --> 00:51:55
			think that when you look back on some
		
00:51:55 --> 00:51:57
			of those tests and those trials that you
		
00:51:57 --> 00:51:58
			may have gone through, you know, whether it
		
00:51:58 --> 00:52:00
			was, like I said, all the different things
		
00:52:00 --> 00:52:03
			that people go through when they're doing life
		
00:52:03 --> 00:52:03
			as a family.
		
00:52:04 --> 00:52:06
			Maybe in that moment, in that time, it
		
00:52:06 --> 00:52:09
			was so tough. It was so challenging. It
		
00:52:09 --> 00:52:11
			was, you know, maybe the worst experience of
		
00:52:11 --> 00:52:12
			your life. And then
		
00:52:13 --> 00:52:15
			a year, 2, 3 years later,
		
00:52:16 --> 00:52:17
			you look back and you say, you know
		
00:52:17 --> 00:52:19
			what? That that made us,
		
00:52:19 --> 00:52:21
			you know, or that that made us closer,
		
00:52:22 --> 00:52:25
			or I really gained respect for you in
		
00:52:25 --> 00:52:27
			that moment, you know or I realized I
		
00:52:27 --> 00:52:29
			could trust you in that moment when we
		
00:52:29 --> 00:52:31
			were in that trial what do you guys
		
00:52:31 --> 00:52:33
			think about that would you say that that's
		
00:52:33 --> 00:52:35
			that that's true? Because that's certainly been my
		
00:52:35 --> 00:52:38
			experience of of marriage, you know, for the
		
00:52:38 --> 00:52:38
			long term.
		
00:52:42 --> 00:52:43
			Yeah. Definitely.
		
00:52:45 --> 00:52:48
			We do like you said, there are so
		
00:52:48 --> 00:52:49
			many trials in life.
		
00:52:50 --> 00:52:53
			And we often sometimes we blame people,
		
00:52:54 --> 00:52:55
			and we say, why is this happening to
		
00:52:55 --> 00:52:58
			me? We lose our dean, or we start
		
00:52:58 --> 00:53:00
			blaming our partner. We blame our in laws,
		
00:53:00 --> 00:53:01
			everybody else.
		
00:53:02 --> 00:53:03
			But,
		
00:53:03 --> 00:53:05
			like, some of the things, like, I've we
		
00:53:05 --> 00:53:07
			me and my husband went free fertility for
		
00:53:07 --> 00:53:08
			the first five years of our marriage.
		
00:53:12 --> 00:53:14
			Surprise long baby.
		
00:53:15 --> 00:53:16
			Well, you know, and I look back and
		
00:53:16 --> 00:53:19
			think of those times, and it was difficult.
		
00:53:20 --> 00:53:22
			It was really difficult going through that and
		
00:53:22 --> 00:53:24
			tests and hospitals and, you know, it must
		
00:53:24 --> 00:53:26
			have been very difficult for my husband as
		
00:53:26 --> 00:53:27
			well. Like, we often forget
		
00:53:28 --> 00:53:29
			about the other person's feelings of how they
		
00:53:29 --> 00:53:30
			are, especially
		
00:53:31 --> 00:53:32
			when there's a lot of things when we
		
00:53:32 --> 00:53:34
			are kind of wrapped up in our own
		
00:53:34 --> 00:53:35
			difficulties.
		
00:53:36 --> 00:53:38
			We kind of we forget. And, again, what
		
00:53:38 --> 00:53:39
			the other sister mentioned about reaching out and
		
00:53:39 --> 00:53:41
			getting help, it's not just about getting help
		
00:53:41 --> 00:53:43
			from outside your marriage. It's about getting help
		
00:53:43 --> 00:53:44
			from your partner
		
00:53:44 --> 00:53:45
			as
		
00:53:45 --> 00:53:47
			well. And, you know, asking them,
		
00:53:48 --> 00:53:49
			you know, I need help.
		
00:53:50 --> 00:53:52
			You know? If they because sometimes
		
00:53:53 --> 00:53:56
			we we especially as women, we can walk
		
00:53:56 --> 00:53:57
			around in the mood all day, and our
		
00:53:57 --> 00:53:59
			husband's some the search sometimes is such so
		
00:53:59 --> 00:54:00
			so simple.
		
00:54:01 --> 00:54:02
			I think I saw a Mimi the other
		
00:54:02 --> 00:54:03
			day. It was a woman. She wrote this
		
00:54:03 --> 00:54:05
			big long text about, oh, my husband was
		
00:54:05 --> 00:54:07
			really quiet in the car and I think
		
00:54:07 --> 00:54:08
			he's going to finish me, and what he
		
00:54:08 --> 00:54:10
			was thinking was is there was something wrong
		
00:54:10 --> 00:54:12
			with his motorbike. It was like, you know,
		
00:54:13 --> 00:54:15
			so we're kind of misunderstanding the marriage as
		
00:54:15 --> 00:54:15
			well.
		
00:54:19 --> 00:54:20
			Yeah. 100%.
		
00:54:21 --> 00:54:24
			Okay. So I had another question for everybody,
		
00:54:24 --> 00:54:25
			which, you know, inshallah, I'd love you to
		
00:54:25 --> 00:54:27
			answer as candidly as possible.
		
00:54:28 --> 00:54:29
			Even if it's a bit cringe,
		
00:54:30 --> 00:54:32
			but I would like to know from every
		
00:54:32 --> 00:54:34
			one of you, what is one, like, really
		
00:54:35 --> 00:54:37
			big mistake you made early on? Like what
		
00:54:37 --> 00:54:39
			were you doing early on
		
00:54:40 --> 00:54:42
			that may have been sabotaging and your marriage
		
00:54:42 --> 00:54:45
			and that may have actually sabotaged your marriage
		
00:54:45 --> 00:54:46
			if you hadn't
		
00:54:46 --> 00:54:48
			stopped doing it or changed what you were
		
00:54:48 --> 00:54:49
			doing. What are your thought?
		
00:54:56 --> 00:54:57
			You'll need to unmute, Insha'Allah.
		
00:54:59 --> 00:55:00
			Somebody has to speak.
		
00:55:01 --> 00:55:02
			I'll speak again.
		
00:55:02 --> 00:55:03
			I think it was trying to be too
		
00:55:03 --> 00:55:04
			independent
		
00:55:05 --> 00:55:05
			Yeah.
		
00:55:06 --> 00:55:08
			Which I know a lot of this is
		
00:55:08 --> 00:55:10
			probably gonna go totally against the grain of
		
00:55:11 --> 00:55:13
			every single kind of narrative that is out
		
00:55:13 --> 00:55:15
			there at the moment. You know, we have
		
00:55:15 --> 00:55:16
			to be
		
00:55:16 --> 00:55:18
			look at the, you know, the example of
		
00:55:18 --> 00:55:18
			the leader,
		
00:55:19 --> 00:55:21
			She was a businesswoman. She was strong. She
		
00:55:21 --> 00:55:24
			was divorcing, all that sort of thing. But,
		
00:55:24 --> 00:55:25
			yes, that's amazing.
		
00:55:26 --> 00:55:27
			She was an amazing woman, but
		
00:55:28 --> 00:55:30
			I was trying to be too independent. And,
		
00:55:30 --> 00:55:32
			obviously, that was coming from a personal experience
		
00:55:32 --> 00:55:32
			because
		
00:55:33 --> 00:55:34
			I wasn't even on my own for a
		
00:55:34 --> 00:55:35
			long time.
		
00:55:36 --> 00:55:38
			I was my independent person. I had a
		
00:55:38 --> 00:55:40
			job. I had this and had that, and
		
00:55:40 --> 00:55:41
			I was trying to kinda hang on to
		
00:55:41 --> 00:55:43
			that. Again, it goes back to the
		
00:55:43 --> 00:55:45
			being trying to I was trying to be
		
00:55:45 --> 00:55:46
			in a partnership,
		
00:55:47 --> 00:55:48
			And I I wasn't sorry. I wasn't trying
		
00:55:48 --> 00:55:50
			to be in a partnership. I was still
		
00:55:50 --> 00:55:52
			you know, that was me and I want
		
00:55:52 --> 00:55:53
			my own life kind of thing. But you
		
00:55:53 --> 00:55:55
			have to kind of adjust.
		
00:55:56 --> 00:55:57
			And again, I'll go back to what I
		
00:55:57 --> 00:55:59
			said earlier, the compromising.
		
00:55:59 --> 00:56:02
			And it's not making compromises in a negative
		
00:56:02 --> 00:56:03
			way.
		
00:56:03 --> 00:56:06
			It's, it's more than a mutual understanding as
		
00:56:06 --> 00:56:08
			well. It's sometimes giving up a couple of
		
00:56:08 --> 00:56:09
			things that you like
		
00:56:10 --> 00:56:12
			for the sake of your marriage or a
		
00:56:12 --> 00:56:13
			couple of things that
		
00:56:14 --> 00:56:16
			you think, okay, fine. This is, you know,
		
00:56:16 --> 00:56:18
			it can be anything. It can be like
		
00:56:18 --> 00:56:20
			going out with your friends too much.
		
00:56:20 --> 00:56:22
			It can be working long hours in a
		
00:56:22 --> 00:56:24
			certain job. It can be
		
00:56:24 --> 00:56:27
			so many different things. Not being able to
		
00:56:27 --> 00:56:28
			cook or your husband not being able to
		
00:56:28 --> 00:56:30
			cook, and you want him to cook more
		
00:56:30 --> 00:56:31
			or he wants you to cook more. There
		
00:56:31 --> 00:56:33
			are so many different little things.
		
00:56:33 --> 00:56:35
			You know, if you don't cook, learn how
		
00:56:35 --> 00:56:36
			to cook.
		
00:56:36 --> 00:56:37
			If you
		
00:56:37 --> 00:56:39
			there's a job that you want, but you're
		
00:56:39 --> 00:56:41
			gonna be working long hours
		
00:56:42 --> 00:56:44
			and you're not gonna be at home, that's
		
00:56:44 --> 00:56:45
			gonna affect your marriage.
		
00:56:46 --> 00:56:48
			Yeah. These little things, it will affect your
		
00:56:48 --> 00:56:50
			marriage. If you're gonna be out long hours,
		
00:56:50 --> 00:56:52
			it will affect your marriage. No matter what
		
00:56:52 --> 00:56:53
			anyone else says,
		
00:56:53 --> 00:56:55
			At these days, you know, obviously, we in
		
00:56:55 --> 00:56:57
			the western world, 2 people do have to
		
00:56:57 --> 00:56:59
			work a lot of the time. Alhamdulillah. I've
		
00:56:59 --> 00:57:01
			been blessed that I I've been I have
		
00:57:01 --> 00:57:03
			been a, you know, a housewife and a
		
00:57:03 --> 00:57:04
			homemaker.
		
00:57:05 --> 00:57:07
			But, you know, there are things that sometimes
		
00:57:07 --> 00:57:09
			you do have to give up. And at
		
00:57:09 --> 00:57:11
			the time it can feel really difficult and
		
00:57:11 --> 00:57:13
			you can sometimes have other people whispering away
		
00:57:13 --> 00:57:15
			and say, oh, what are you doing that
		
00:57:15 --> 00:57:17
			for? You're this, you deserve more and all
		
00:57:17 --> 00:57:19
			this kind of thing. But it's not necessarily
		
00:57:19 --> 00:57:21
			a negative thing because in a year or
		
00:57:21 --> 00:57:23
			so time, you think why was I being
		
00:57:23 --> 00:57:25
			so trivial or trivial of that small thing
		
00:57:26 --> 00:57:27
			about me wanting to work long hours and
		
00:57:27 --> 00:57:29
			work away or do a job that I
		
00:57:29 --> 00:57:32
			thought was gonna fulfill me, but it wasn't
		
00:57:32 --> 00:57:33
			fulfilling my marriage.
		
00:57:34 --> 00:57:36
			It's kind of having the full trying to
		
00:57:36 --> 00:57:37
			have a bit of foresight for that as
		
00:57:37 --> 00:57:38
			well.
		
00:57:38 --> 00:57:41
			And, again, I am quite a traditional person.
		
00:57:41 --> 00:57:43
			I am a traditional person in the sense
		
00:57:43 --> 00:57:45
			where I do I am at home. I
		
00:57:45 --> 00:57:47
			do kind of the cooking and I look
		
00:57:47 --> 00:57:49
			after the children. My husband does that, alhamdulillah,
		
00:57:49 --> 00:57:51
			he does, but he works full time. And
		
00:57:51 --> 00:57:53
			I don't expect him to come home and
		
00:57:53 --> 00:57:53
			do
		
00:57:54 --> 00:57:56
			the housework and the cooking and the cleaning
		
00:57:56 --> 00:57:57
			and look after the kids. We all do
		
00:57:57 --> 00:57:59
			that when my husband comes home and throw
		
00:57:59 --> 00:58:00
			the baby at him and run off to
		
00:58:00 --> 00:58:02
			the toilet and things like that, but, you
		
00:58:02 --> 00:58:04
			know, I am a traditional person in that
		
00:58:04 --> 00:58:05
			sense. And I think
		
00:58:06 --> 00:58:09
			that's probably gonna be very, very surprising to
		
00:58:09 --> 00:58:10
			a lot of people because a lot of
		
00:58:10 --> 00:58:12
			people see me. They see me. I'm visible
		
00:58:12 --> 00:58:13
			online.
		
00:58:13 --> 00:58:14
			I'm outspoken.
		
00:58:15 --> 00:58:17
			You know, I do what I want to
		
00:58:17 --> 00:58:18
			do. I do a lot of things online,
		
00:58:18 --> 00:58:20
			but that's because I've got the support of
		
00:58:20 --> 00:58:22
			my husband as well. But, you know, I
		
00:58:22 --> 00:58:24
			am traditional in the sense of the way
		
00:58:24 --> 00:58:26
			that our marriage is set up.
		
00:58:26 --> 00:58:28
			And where where maybe that has been a
		
00:58:28 --> 00:58:30
			success factor for me. I think I saw
		
00:58:30 --> 00:58:32
			in the chat that somebody said,
		
00:58:32 --> 00:58:35
			they've they they shared an online link in
		
00:58:35 --> 00:58:36
			regards to
		
00:58:37 --> 00:58:39
			people being able to live separate lives when
		
00:58:39 --> 00:58:42
			they're married. Now that's absolutely fine, but both
		
00:58:42 --> 00:58:44
			partners need to be on the same wavelength.
		
00:58:45 --> 00:58:48
			And I guarantee you from experience, I've also
		
00:58:48 --> 00:58:50
			worked in sister support and revert support and
		
00:58:50 --> 00:58:51
			the revert support project for three and a
		
00:58:51 --> 00:58:53
			half years, what, Ash did in Redding.
		
00:58:54 --> 00:58:56
			And I guarantee you, there's always gonna be
		
00:58:56 --> 00:58:59
			one party that wants more, that wants more
		
00:58:59 --> 00:59:01
			of an emotional connection, that doesn't wanna go
		
00:59:01 --> 00:59:02
			on the holiday on their own. They want
		
00:59:02 --> 00:59:04
			their partner and their partner might be wanting
		
00:59:04 --> 00:59:05
			to go out
		
00:59:05 --> 00:59:07
			with their friends and all that sort of
		
00:59:07 --> 00:59:09
			thing. But, you know, maybe that guy has
		
00:59:09 --> 00:59:11
			to give that up for his wife. You
		
00:59:11 --> 00:59:13
			know, it it takes 2. So,
		
00:59:13 --> 00:59:15
			yeah, that's just my little take on it.
		
00:59:17 --> 00:59:19
			Anybody want to jump in with that mistake
		
00:59:19 --> 00:59:21
			that they made or a response to what
		
00:59:21 --> 00:59:23
			Sarah had actually because you said a lot,
		
00:59:23 --> 00:59:25
			girl. She's gone on. She's like, okay. I'm
		
00:59:25 --> 00:59:27
			out. But she said a lot. Guys, tell
		
00:59:27 --> 00:59:28
			me in the chat. What are you saying?
		
00:59:28 --> 00:59:30
			Are you like, yes. Oh, she by the
		
00:59:30 --> 00:59:32
			way, she's team Naima. You saw that. Right?
		
00:59:32 --> 00:59:34
			You saw that. You guys don't know what
		
00:59:34 --> 00:59:36
			team Naima, team Mariam is. It's about cooking
		
00:59:36 --> 00:59:38
			and who should be doing the cooking. But
		
00:59:38 --> 00:59:40
			anyway, never mind. We're not gonna bring the
		
00:59:40 --> 00:59:41
			drama. What do you think, Zaynam? You look
		
00:59:41 --> 00:59:43
			like you wanna jump in.
		
00:59:43 --> 00:59:45
			Yeah. I wanna jump in because there's something
		
00:59:45 --> 00:59:48
			I did earlier in my marriage that's now
		
00:59:48 --> 00:59:49
			I just wanna, like, oh my god.
		
00:59:50 --> 00:59:51
			Okay. I
		
00:59:52 --> 00:59:54
			yeah I was like bringing this in.
		
00:59:56 --> 00:59:57
			It's the fact that
		
00:59:58 --> 00:59:58
			I
		
00:59:58 --> 00:59:59
			actually
		
01:00:01 --> 01:00:02
			ran away from intimacy,
		
01:00:03 --> 01:00:05
			like I would literally like almost if I
		
01:00:05 --> 01:00:07
			had a walk in wardrobe I would lock
		
01:00:07 --> 01:00:09
			myself up, and I'm, I'm, I'm sure, I
		
01:00:09 --> 01:00:12
			know this was from my history of having,
		
01:00:12 --> 01:00:15
			sexual related trauma and all that, but then
		
01:00:15 --> 01:00:18
			since subhanAllah that that I know now is
		
01:00:18 --> 01:00:19
			a big disservice.
		
01:00:19 --> 01:00:21
			If you do that girl stop
		
01:00:22 --> 01:00:24
			because it had the bedroom actually is your
		
01:00:24 --> 01:00:25
			superpower,
		
01:00:25 --> 01:00:28
			seriously, and not just for your husband, for
		
01:00:28 --> 01:00:28
			yourself.
		
01:00:30 --> 01:00:30
			That is
		
01:00:31 --> 01:00:32
			that's that's just it.
		
01:00:33 --> 01:00:35
			Do not run away from the bedroom affairs,
		
01:00:35 --> 01:00:36
			As in, I
		
01:00:36 --> 01:00:38
			did. Like, I would run.
		
01:00:39 --> 01:00:40
			And we joke about it now and all
		
01:00:40 --> 01:00:43
			that, but it's it's it's it's different
		
01:00:44 --> 01:00:45
			now. I mean,
		
01:00:47 --> 01:00:49
			I mean, that one well, yes. Then those
		
01:00:49 --> 01:00:51
			then it's also about
		
01:00:52 --> 01:00:52
			the
		
01:00:53 --> 01:00:54
			having expectations.
		
01:00:54 --> 01:00:56
			I mean, this is a very big one.
		
01:00:56 --> 01:00:57
			Having expectations
		
01:00:58 --> 01:00:59
			having expectations
		
01:00:59 --> 01:01:00
			is,
		
01:01:01 --> 01:01:02
			wow.
		
01:01:02 --> 01:01:05
			It's like you create this. This has to
		
01:01:05 --> 01:01:08
			happen in this exact manner at this exact
		
01:01:08 --> 01:01:08
			time,
		
01:01:09 --> 01:01:11
			etcetera. And then what happens?
		
01:01:11 --> 01:01:13
			It doesn't? I get disappointed.
		
01:01:14 --> 01:01:16
			So this is something I did over and
		
01:01:16 --> 01:01:18
			over and over and over again. And this
		
01:01:18 --> 01:01:21
			wasn't just expectations for my husband,
		
01:01:21 --> 01:01:22
			also expectations
		
01:01:23 --> 01:01:25
			for me that I should be doing things
		
01:01:25 --> 01:01:27
			this way. I should be doing things that
		
01:01:27 --> 01:01:29
			way. If I don't,
		
01:01:29 --> 01:01:30
			then
		
01:01:30 --> 01:01:32
			it's this and this and this, and I'm
		
01:01:32 --> 01:01:35
			building stories and creating unnecessary psychological suffering for
		
01:01:35 --> 01:01:37
			myself and all that so
		
01:01:37 --> 01:01:38
			that itself
		
01:01:39 --> 01:01:40
			you know and also expecting you know the
		
01:01:40 --> 01:01:42
			in laws to do this or they shouldn't
		
01:01:42 --> 01:01:45
			be doing this and all that the world
		
01:01:45 --> 01:01:46
			what we create with expectations
		
01:01:48 --> 01:01:50
			subhanAllah if we're able to let it go
		
01:01:51 --> 01:01:53
			we'd have more peace because
		
01:01:53 --> 01:01:56
			I can't guarantee I will do something that
		
01:01:56 --> 01:01:58
			I see I want to do.
		
01:01:59 --> 01:02:01
			I can only say I'm gonna make effort,
		
01:02:02 --> 01:02:03
			but I can't guarantee that I'll be doing
		
01:02:03 --> 01:02:04
			as a result. Sometimes I say I'm gonna
		
01:02:04 --> 01:02:05
			do something, and I'm not able to do
		
01:02:05 --> 01:02:07
			it because something happens. So how can I
		
01:02:07 --> 01:02:09
			expect somebody else to be able to do
		
01:02:09 --> 01:02:11
			something in a certain way all the time?
		
01:02:11 --> 01:02:12
			I mean,
		
01:02:12 --> 01:02:14
			so I, I did that for,
		
01:02:14 --> 01:02:15
			for a very, very long time.
		
01:02:16 --> 01:02:18
			Yeah. So I think that's those are 2
		
01:02:18 --> 01:02:20
			things. And the third one, yes, I always
		
01:02:20 --> 01:02:21
			like saying this, compassion.
		
01:02:22 --> 01:02:23
			I was not compassionate
		
01:02:23 --> 01:02:24
			with myself
		
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			at all.
		
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			If we know how powerful compassion is,
		
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			how powerful it is
		
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			for ourselves. And I've experienced this in my
		
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			life.
		
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			It's a game changer, really.
		
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			It is a game changer. So I'll leave
		
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			it at that.
		
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			I love that. Masha'Allah. And,
		
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			yeah, like you said, ladies, if you're running
		
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			away from the bedroom affairs,
		
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			stop doing that. We'll talk about that another
		
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			time. That is the topic of another conference,
		
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			Inshallah, in March.
		
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			So, yeah, mark your calendars Insha'Allah.
		
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			Ruby, what mistakes did you make early on?
		
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			What's one mistake that you made early on
		
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			that could have sabotaged everything?
		
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			I have got loads.
		
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			You have to pick just one and see
		
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			how pivotal it was inshallah.
		
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			Okay.
		
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			Just one. Okay. The biggest mistake
		
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			the biggest biggest mistake
		
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			was
		
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			blaming
		
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			him for the way I felt.
		
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			Blaming him for the way I felt.
		
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			And
		
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			that
		
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			just killed my marriage.
		
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			That really sabotaged it
		
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			because I was in rage,
		
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			I was screaming, I was shouting,
		
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			I was angry.
		
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			You're wanting him to stop his behavior, whatever
		
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			he what I wanted him to do.
		
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			And it could be trivial things like cleaning
		
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			the car or something or whatever.
		
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			And it just used to drive me crazy.
		
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			It really drive me crazy. And so I
		
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			the mistake that over and over and over
		
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			and over again
		
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			was
		
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			blaming him for the way I felt.
		
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			And like I've said earlier,
		
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			only when I understood
		
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			the way I think,
		
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			it disappeared
		
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			in a moment.
		
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			Mhmm. Moment.
		
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			Not
		
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			months of therapy and counseling and all that
		
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			kind of thing. No.
		
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			It it was
		
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			straight away. It's almost like a spell is
		
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			broken, isn't it? When you have that kind
		
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			of
		
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			moment, when you realize, for example, in your
		
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			case, when you realize it's not him, it's
		
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			me, or it's not that, it's this, or
		
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			it's not gonna come from there, it's coming
		
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			from here. It's like
		
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			It's like reverse.
		
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			Yep. Because,
		
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			the
		
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			when I understood
		
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			where my feelings came from,
		
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			oh my God, that just changed everything because,
		
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			because
		
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			now I understood, wow. I've been blaming him
		
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			the way I'm feeling all the time.
		
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			I've been blaming him.
		
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			And
		
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			even when he is angry or he is
		
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			in the mood or whatever, I know
		
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			that
		
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			his feeling has got nothing to do with
		
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			me either, so is boss.
		
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			It's like before, it's like
		
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			mistake was
		
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			throwing bullets at each other. Bullet, bullet, bullet,
		
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			bullet, bullet.
		
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			Now, no. There's no bullets.
		
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			I went through a year where I was
		
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			having argues and battles, like, nearly every day,
		
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			weekly.
		
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			Can you imagine
		
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			one argument in a whole year?
		
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			Wow.
		
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			Whole year.
		
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			Who doesn't want that?
		
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			Yeah. Who doesn't want an argument?
		
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			Honestly.
		
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			And this
		
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			was so huge,
		
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			and this was so beautiful
		
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			that
		
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			the mistake was obviously, like you say, Ron,
		
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			but there's so many, is that marriage just
		
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			doesn't require hard work.
		
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			It is effortless,
		
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			Effortless.
		
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			And effortless
		
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			only comes from the divine.
		
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			It comes from within.
		
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			There's nothing to do.
		
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			And you think, wow.
		
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			Wow.
		
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			I wanna shout this to the world.
		
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			I wanna shout this to every single wife.
		
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			You know?
		
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			And
		
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			this is why I'm here.
		
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			This is why I'm on this journey.
		
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			I'm sharing my mistakes,
		
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			you know, which is so important,
		
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			you know, to prevent other wives from making
		
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			the same mistake.
		
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			100%. And this is the whole point of
		
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			this, you know, and masha'Allah,
		
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			sister Ruby, as you said, and, you know,
		
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			as you can see in the chat, I
		
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			think,
		
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			you know, very few of us have
		
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			had honest conversations
		
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			with older
		
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			wives. Right? Often with our friends and our
		
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			peers.
		
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			Yeah. Okay. We might talk honestly and maybe
		
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			we talk honestly, but to hear from someone
		
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			who's been in the game longer, you know,
		
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			who's been married longer, many of our mothers
		
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			maybe didn't speak to us, honestly, candidly,
		
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			and, you know, break things down for us,
		
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			honestly candidly and you know break things down
		
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			for us aunties
		
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			maybe they're not the best either because sometimes
		
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			the advice aunties been given
		
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			you know, it's a bit
		
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			it's a little bit maybe not, maybe yeah.
		
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			Anyway, I will say less about that. Oh,
		
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			Maisa, what say you, my dear? This mistakes
		
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			that you made one mistake that you made
		
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			early on that could have wrecked the whole
		
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			show.
		
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			I think I'm still kind of,
		
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			in that process, you know, still learning and
		
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			still adjusting. I think
		
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			marriage is just like parenting goes through different
		
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			phases, you know. When you're
		
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			single and you're together and then you just
		
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			get married and you're in that honeymoon period,
		
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			then when they there's children. There's always different
		
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			challenges that bring out a different different challenges,
		
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			different phrases bring out different challenges, different tests,
		
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			and then how you would, you know, respond
		
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			to that is really important. I think it's
		
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			something sometimes ongoing as well. It's it's it's
		
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			a learning, and we develop. And then as
		
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			we mature,
		
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			as we go through different stages within ourselves,
		
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			and then
		
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			now, you know, in our forties plus, hormonally
		
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			as well,
		
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			there's always different challenges. And I think for
		
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			me, that's why I said I'm still in
		
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			the game, You know, I'm still learning. I'm
		
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			not quite like, sister Ruby where I couldn't
		
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			say I've only had one argument
		
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			in a year. Allahumma Barik.
		
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			I would say though, I wish,
		
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			there's so many things actually that are coming
		
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			to my head.
		
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			One is that I wish that I was
		
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			more domesticated,
		
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			and a bit more grounded because
		
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			I'm the 4th daughter with older siblings, the
		
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			6 of us, so I'm number 5, and
		
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			I got away with a lot.
		
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			And so for me, I was involved in
		
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			Dawa, going to talks, going to events, going
		
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			to different kind of projects, and
		
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			mom just supported me in that. And I
		
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			never really got involved in a lot of
		
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			housework.
		
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			The sisters kind of did that.
		
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			And so when I got married,
		
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			yeah, I think it would have been better
		
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			if I'd had been a bit more domesticated,
		
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			a little bit more organized.
		
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			But,
		
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			you know, my husband cooks, and he's always
		
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			supported me,
		
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			and he's good like that. My in laws,
		
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			they're mega organized, and I've learned lots and
		
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			lots from them.
		
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			But I definitely think that what if I
		
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			could say,
		
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			another 2 things. 1 was that one was
		
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			that I wish that I'd learned to respect
		
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			my husband in according to his the reject
		
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			over me, his kind of station
		
01:09:54 --> 01:09:56
			that he has over me. I think I
		
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			went into marriage,
		
01:09:59 --> 01:10:01
			like, he's like my buddy. He's my friend,
		
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			which, alhamdulillah, like, you know, you go to
		
01:10:04 --> 01:10:06
			talks together, you go to parks together, you
		
01:10:06 --> 01:10:09
			go to holidays together, you do activities together,
		
01:10:09 --> 01:10:11
			you enjoy each other's company as a partner.
		
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			But I think I saw him as my
		
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			mutual equal.
		
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			And
		
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			when he would say something, I think I'd
		
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			and I still probably do is challenge it
		
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			rather than accept certain things.
		
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			And I'd always want an answer, a a
		
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			justification, but why? You know, why can't we
		
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			go here? But why can't we do this?
		
01:10:31 --> 01:10:34
			But I don't understand. And I think sometimes
		
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			that creates unnecessary conflict as well, and I
		
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			think, you know, you have to choose your
		
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			battles, you know.
		
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			And I think that that it's not to
		
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			say I'll just be completely you know, don't
		
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			have a voice, be voiceless. I'm not saying
		
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			that, but I'm saying don't nitpick either, you
		
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			know, like, you have an opinion, you have
		
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			things, but I think I kind of was
		
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			yeah. Just want to get an explanation for
		
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			everything,
		
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			and not kind of respecting him for his
		
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			decisions that he's making.
		
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			And, obviously mean you are argumentative,
		
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			Omasa?
		
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			You're argumentative.
		
01:11:07 --> 01:11:08
			You know, it's a weakness, you know. He
		
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			it's,
		
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			but that's another thing is that remember I
		
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			was saying to you, and we were saying
		
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			this on the chat as well, is that
		
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			rather than listening to understand
		
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			in marriage, we sometimes
		
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			just listen to respond
		
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			because if something has been said to us,
		
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			we then sometimes feel like it's an attack
		
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			on us And it's like
		
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			and we have to keep justifying our actions
		
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			or decisions.
		
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			Sometimes it's good to just
		
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			refrain from the response,
		
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			take in what the other person is trying
		
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			to say to you,
		
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			and acknowledge them, value them, respect them. And
		
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			I think that these are some of the
		
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			key things that I'm still trying to learn.
		
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			You know you know, thank you so much
		
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			for being honest. You know that you've touched
		
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			on a topic
		
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			that I I think I'd like us to
		
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			address.
		
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			It's it's this is for me what I've
		
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			noticed is, like, the new taboos.
		
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			Right? Even in the Muslim community.
		
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			Whereas at one point in time,
		
01:12:06 --> 01:12:07
			all the talks
		
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			were 2 sisters
		
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			about what?
		
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			Obey your husband. Right? At one point in
		
01:12:13 --> 01:12:15
			time, like, that was what you knew and
		
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			I'm sure people have grown up in times
		
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			where it was, you know, ingrained drummed into
		
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			you. You know? That's your husband. You respect
		
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			him. You obey him at one point in
		
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			time. And I think the You're not, isn't
		
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			it? Yeah. Right. It's not obedience to him.
		
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			It's obedience to Allah.
		
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			All of the things. Right? All of the
		
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			things. Now
		
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			and I think what's interesting actually,
		
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			yesterday in one of the talks,
		
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			sister said sister Haile said,
		
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			what would you say if your husband said
		
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			to you, go and make me some dinner?
		
01:12:48 --> 01:12:50
			You would and she was saying it in
		
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			the sense of you should have a halakh
		
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			with your husband and you want him to
		
01:12:54 --> 01:12:56
			do something. Right? You should be sweet and
		
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			pleasant and ask him nicely. So in order
		
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			to illustrate that point, she said, well, how
		
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			would you feel if your husband just said
		
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			to you, get me a a cup of
		
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			tea. Yeah? Or make me a drink. Right?
		
01:13:07 --> 01:13:09
			And the sisters in the chat were like,
		
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			I tell her to go make it himself.
		
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			Oh, he's not talking to me like that.
		
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			You know? Like, who do you think you're
		
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			talking to? Which I found very interesting.
		
01:13:17 --> 01:13:18
			And of course it was a moment of
		
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			levity and I don't mean to be a
		
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			party pooper.
		
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			But I I really again
		
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			wanting to keep things balanced.
		
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			We don't talk about respecting the husband
		
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			anymore,
		
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			because we don't really talk about respecting men
		
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			anymore in society. Okay? Just let me know
		
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			in the chat if if I'm off base
		
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			on this.
		
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			But it's coming down to that what I
		
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			what I said when you said what are
		
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			the prices, one of the ones I said
		
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			is solidifying your intention.
		
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			When you do something for Allah, regardless of
		
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			how he is, you know, regardless of what
		
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			response you want,
		
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			you do it for Allah,
		
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			Allah
		
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			will open up ways for you.
		
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			But if you're gonna be like, oh, conditioning
		
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			it,
		
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			I don't like the way he spoke to
		
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			me. I don't like the way he asked
		
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			me.
		
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			If we keep taking our actions back first
		
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			to Allah, obviously, no one wants to be
		
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			spoken down to. No one wants to be
		
01:14:08 --> 01:14:08
			disrespected.
		
01:14:09 --> 01:14:11
			But this is also the game changer
		
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			That are you the one who's gonna take
		
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			the first step to do a khair for
		
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			one another? Do a for one another. Exercising
		
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			that kindness towards who? Someone who's fulfilling half
		
01:14:20 --> 01:14:21
			your deen.
		
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			And then the other half, prophet said, is
		
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			patience. So be patient with maybe the way
		
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			he spoke to you, but
		
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			that repels
		
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			bad with good. This is what Allah subhanahu
		
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			wa ta'ala has told us.
		
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			You know, the sister said in the chat
		
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			actually, she said that, you know, these that
		
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			type of thing. And again, just let's not
		
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			get it twist.
		
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			I'm not saying that that is the correct
		
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			way to speak to a spouse, and if
		
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			that was the point of the example, was
		
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			that you wouldn't look for someone to speak
		
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			to you that way. However,
		
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			I found the response of this is interesting
		
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			because
		
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			in our society in general,
		
01:14:58 --> 01:15:01
			respecting and, again, this is West. Okay? Because
		
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			I know we have a lot of sisters
		
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			here from Nigeria, from the continent where it
		
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			is probably not the case, so this doesn't
		
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			apply
		
01:15:07 --> 01:15:10
			in that society. But certainly in the west,
		
01:15:10 --> 01:15:12
			the idea of respecting men
		
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			is just not a thing. In fact, men
		
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			are there to be disrespected and to be
		
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			talked down upon and made fun of, etcetera.
		
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			And obedience to the husband,
		
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			sorry,
		
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			it's not sexy. Right? It's not cool. Like,
		
01:15:27 --> 01:15:29
			nobody wants to talk about that. Right? Right.
		
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			Zainab, what's up you?
		
01:15:34 --> 01:15:35
			But but
		
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			and while it's not the most pleasant thing
		
01:15:39 --> 01:15:40
			to talk about, it's not the most kind
		
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			of, you know, uplifting or whatever empowering thing
		
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			to talk about.
		
01:15:44 --> 01:15:47
			If we are going to speak about this
		
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			this role as an act of Ibadah,
		
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			we know that Ibadah, act of Ibadah are
		
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			the 2 conditions for them to be accepted.
		
01:15:55 --> 01:15:58
			Right? The first is that they're done sincerely
		
01:15:58 --> 01:16:00
			for the sake of Allah, And the second
		
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			that they're done in the way that it
		
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			should be done according to the Quran and
		
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			sunnah.
		
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			So
		
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			it's not befitting for us as believers
		
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			to pretend
		
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			as if we don't have to obey our
		
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			husbands.
		
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			It just doesn't for me, it just doesn't
		
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			make sense. Right? Zaina, what do you think
		
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			about that?
		
01:16:18 --> 01:16:19
			Absolutely.
		
01:16:20 --> 01:16:21
			You know, till today,
		
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			and not because I have to,
		
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			I will still ask for permission. There's this
		
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			ladies hangouts happening on 3rd. Right? Like, have
		
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			whole day with my friends and stuff like
		
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			that. I still would ask him.
		
01:16:34 --> 01:16:36
			Can I have do I have permission to
		
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			go?
		
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			Not because
		
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			I think he would say no or yes
		
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			or whatever, but to
		
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			put him on that place of that pedestal
		
01:16:47 --> 01:16:47
			that
		
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			I submit to you. So it's and this
		
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			is a shared understanding
		
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			among the parties. It's not about
		
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			it's not a battle. It's not
		
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			it's not a battle.
		
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			I remember one of the very first things
		
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			I did when I was time, earlier on
		
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			it's it's not I'm shocked I did it.
		
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			Here, we also are westernized
		
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			as it were. Yes. I'm in Nigeria, but
		
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			still, I mean, we call I called him
		
01:17:13 --> 01:17:16
			my name. But culturally here, you don't you
		
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			you shouldn't call your husband by his first
		
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			name. Right? I did. But at some point,
		
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			just occurred to me that, okay.
		
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			I do not call people with respect titles.
		
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			That's another story on its own. It has
		
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			to do with the whatever happened in the
		
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			past. So I struggle, but I just decided
		
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			to call him with that respect title. I
		
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			stopped calling him by his first name.
		
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			The day he did it, he looked at
		
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			me, and I saw something shift.
		
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			That's what happens.
		
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			Men are that's how they've been created.
		
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			They they need to see the respect, the
		
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			obedience, the submission, but submission doesn't mean
		
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			being trampled on. No.
		
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			It's it's just you can't have 2 captains
		
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			in a boat.
		
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			That's it.
		
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			Speak.
		
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			Speak, sis. I want you to speak with
		
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			your lovely honey voice. Tell the sisters
		
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			he took me of this.
		
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			Back.
		
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			And, you know, that is how to show
		
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			up powerfully as a wife.
		
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			Stepping back. Let them steer.
		
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			But you do your thing at the background.
		
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			You do your thing.
		
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			It's that's the reality.
		
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			So I still ask him, oh, I wanna
		
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			go to, like, I I traveled, like, I
		
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			came to see my mom,
		
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			and he has to house sit, like, for
		
01:18:35 --> 01:18:37
			a couple of days. I still asked permission
		
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			to come.
		
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			It it was it's
		
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			I didn't it's like
		
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			I just and he asked permission
		
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			not because
		
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			just for that reason.
		
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			Submission.
		
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			Let them feel that
		
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			you submit.
		
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			And it's a beautiful thing.
		
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			It is, actually.
		
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			Sister says here, submission is
		
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			sister says his submission is a bit of
		
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			a game to okay. So check this out.
		
01:19:06 --> 01:19:08
			Submission is a bit of a game to
		
01:19:08 --> 01:19:10
			massage his ego.
		
01:19:12 --> 01:19:14
			So this is saying that it's it's it's
		
01:19:14 --> 01:19:16
			a bit of a game to massage his
		
01:19:16 --> 01:19:17
			ego and keep the peace.
		
01:19:19 --> 01:19:20
			No. Not really.
		
01:19:22 --> 01:19:24
			I think I think that it's that okay.
		
01:19:24 --> 01:19:26
			Okay. Let's take a few steps back.
		
01:19:27 --> 01:19:28
			Yeah. Can we agree
		
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			that
		
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			and again and the you know what? If
		
01:19:32 --> 01:19:33
			I may add here,
		
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			I you for me,
		
01:19:37 --> 01:19:39
			submission was a trigger word. Right?
		
01:19:40 --> 01:19:43
			Nobody could say, oh, wife submit to her
		
01:19:43 --> 01:19:45
			husband. Certainly, my husband never used that language
		
01:19:45 --> 01:19:46
			with me because he knew I couldn't take
		
01:19:46 --> 01:19:49
			it. Right? I came from a feminist background,
		
01:19:49 --> 01:19:51
			you know, and, you know, in that paradigm,
		
01:19:52 --> 01:19:54
			you can't use words like that. They have
		
01:19:54 --> 01:19:57
			so many connotations. Masha'Allah. Even the sisters are
		
01:19:57 --> 01:19:59
			mentioning, you know, of being trampled on, of
		
01:19:59 --> 01:20:02
			being oppressed, of having no voice, you know,
		
01:20:02 --> 01:20:04
			and all of that that baggage that comes
		
01:20:04 --> 01:20:05
			with the word.
		
01:20:05 --> 01:20:07
			Right? So I had that baggage. And I
		
01:20:07 --> 01:20:09
			think a lot of sisters do have that
		
01:20:09 --> 01:20:11
			baggage because when we check the chat, when
		
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			we see the comments on this video over
		
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			the next few days, for sure, there's gonna
		
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			be people who feel uncomfortable with this conversation.
		
01:20:17 --> 01:20:19
			But it's okay, Inshallah. It's okay.
		
01:20:20 --> 01:20:21
			What I've come to understand and what I
		
01:20:21 --> 01:20:23
			didn't realize, I thought
		
01:20:23 --> 01:20:25
			that the brothers who talk about, you know,
		
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			men leading and, you know, wives submitting to
		
01:20:28 --> 01:20:30
			their husbands, I thought they were all male
		
01:20:30 --> 01:20:30
			chauvinists.
		
01:20:32 --> 01:20:34
			Straight up. I thought they were male chauvinists.
		
01:20:34 --> 01:20:36
			I thought they had issues. I thought they
		
01:20:36 --> 01:20:38
			were traditionalists. Like this is not Islam. It's
		
01:20:38 --> 01:20:40
			just culture and all of this stuff.
		
01:20:40 --> 01:20:42
			Come to find out
		
01:20:42 --> 01:20:43
			that
		
01:20:44 --> 01:20:44
			men
		
01:20:45 --> 01:20:47
			and not just Muslim men, but men who
		
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			are masculine
		
01:20:48 --> 01:20:50
			and who are leaders
		
01:20:50 --> 01:20:51
			love
		
01:20:51 --> 01:20:52
			a submissive woman.
		
01:20:53 --> 01:20:56
			They crave that because when a woman submits,
		
01:20:56 --> 01:20:59
			it shows to them that she trusts them
		
01:20:59 --> 01:21:00
			to lead.
		
01:21:00 --> 01:21:02
			She can be in her feminine. He can
		
01:21:02 --> 01:21:04
			be in his masculine. Right?
		
01:21:04 --> 01:21:05
			Now again,
		
01:21:06 --> 01:21:07
			we're gonna have exceptions to everything.
		
01:21:08 --> 01:21:09
			And, of course, we know that in today's
		
01:21:09 --> 01:21:11
			day and age, so many of the roles
		
01:21:11 --> 01:21:13
			are kind of reversed and switch you know,
		
01:21:13 --> 01:21:16
			swapped around and sisters are working. Women are
		
01:21:16 --> 01:21:18
			providing and becoming breadwinners and men are the
		
01:21:18 --> 01:21:20
			I know there's all of that,
		
01:21:20 --> 01:21:21
			but I think fundamentally
		
01:21:22 --> 01:21:24
			there is still that need in the man
		
01:21:24 --> 01:21:27
			for kawam and to to feel like his
		
01:21:27 --> 01:21:28
			wife
		
01:21:28 --> 01:21:31
			respects him and trusts him enough to to
		
01:21:31 --> 01:21:33
			let go and let him
		
01:21:33 --> 01:21:35
			steal ship like you said, sis.
		
01:21:36 --> 01:21:39
			And you know, sometimes it's hard. I know
		
01:21:39 --> 01:21:41
			sisters who for example, the husband isn't great
		
01:21:41 --> 01:21:42
			with money.
		
01:21:43 --> 01:21:45
			Right? He's, he's just not great with money.
		
01:21:45 --> 01:21:46
			He's not wealthy.
		
01:21:46 --> 01:21:48
			You know, when he gets money, he uses
		
01:21:48 --> 01:21:50
			it in foolish ways. He doesn't keep track
		
01:21:50 --> 01:21:53
			of it. And so she was trying to
		
01:21:53 --> 01:21:56
			micromanage the situation for years. And and it
		
01:21:56 --> 01:21:58
			was a source of contention in their marriage
		
01:21:58 --> 01:21:59
			because
		
01:21:59 --> 01:22:02
			she was trying to control an area that
		
01:22:02 --> 01:22:04
			she felt he should be, you know, taking
		
01:22:04 --> 01:22:06
			care of. And so she felt resentment, frustration,
		
01:22:06 --> 01:22:08
			and everything. And then I said to her,
		
01:22:08 --> 01:22:09
			do you think that he will let you
		
01:22:09 --> 01:22:10
			guys starve?
		
01:22:11 --> 01:22:12
			She said, no. No. I don't think he
		
01:22:12 --> 01:22:14
			would. So I said, so why don't you
		
01:22:14 --> 01:22:15
			let him
		
01:22:15 --> 01:22:17
			take control of of like, let him have
		
01:22:17 --> 01:22:19
			the banking app. You erase it from your
		
01:22:19 --> 01:22:21
			phone. Give him
		
01:22:22 --> 01:22:24
			just give him permission to lead on this.
		
01:22:24 --> 01:22:26
			She couldn't do it. She couldn't do it.
		
01:22:26 --> 01:22:27
			She could do it because she was scared
		
01:22:28 --> 01:22:29
			because she did not trust that he would
		
01:22:29 --> 01:22:31
			be able to look after him and and
		
01:22:31 --> 01:22:33
			be who she needed him to be.
		
01:22:33 --> 01:22:35
			In the end, Alhamdulillah,
		
01:22:36 --> 01:22:38
			she decided, you know what? This headache is
		
01:22:38 --> 01:22:41
			too much and it's it's changing things between
		
01:22:41 --> 01:22:42
			us.
		
01:22:42 --> 01:22:44
			I I don't want this responsibility anymore. I'm
		
01:22:44 --> 01:22:46
			a let you take care of it.
		
01:22:46 --> 01:22:49
			She let him have the app. He sorted
		
01:22:49 --> 01:22:49
			it out.
		
01:22:50 --> 01:22:52
			He sorted it out and now that's just
		
01:22:52 --> 01:22:54
			not now that is not an issue between
		
01:22:54 --> 01:22:58
			them anymore. But anyway, let's let's let's go
		
01:22:58 --> 01:22:59
			back to the submission and obedience thing.
		
01:23:01 --> 01:23:01
			Go on, Lisa.
		
01:23:02 --> 01:23:04
			I said, is that is that a control
		
01:23:04 --> 01:23:06
			thing? You know, women like to be in
		
01:23:06 --> 01:23:06
			control.
		
01:23:07 --> 01:23:07
			Yeah.
		
01:23:08 --> 01:23:09
			Yes.
		
01:23:09 --> 01:23:11
			We do. And I think that's what this
		
01:23:11 --> 01:23:13
			is what I hear the brothers saying
		
01:23:13 --> 01:23:14
			again and again
		
01:23:15 --> 01:23:17
			that this is where the power struggles come
		
01:23:17 --> 01:23:19
			in because the sister wants to be in
		
01:23:19 --> 01:23:22
			control. She wants to control. She wants to
		
01:23:22 --> 01:23:24
			to dictate how things are done when things
		
01:23:24 --> 01:23:27
			are done and have it her way
		
01:23:27 --> 01:23:29
			as well and and just be in control
		
01:23:29 --> 01:23:31
			of this whole thing and it's it's what
		
01:23:31 --> 01:23:33
			her sister Harley was saying yesterday is that
		
01:23:33 --> 01:23:35
			if you are she what did she say
		
01:23:35 --> 01:23:37
			yesterday? She said,
		
01:23:37 --> 01:23:40
			don't challenge your husband to an arm wrestle.
		
01:23:41 --> 01:23:43
			If you challenge your husband to an arm
		
01:23:43 --> 01:23:46
			wrestle, he's gonna drop you. And that will
		
01:23:46 --> 01:23:49
			be that. Like, that's not the way to
		
01:23:49 --> 01:23:51
			deal with your husband to try and go
		
01:23:51 --> 01:23:53
			head to head with him and try and
		
01:23:53 --> 01:23:56
			beat him down because the likelihood is that
		
01:23:56 --> 01:23:58
			you're going to lose. And if you win
		
01:23:59 --> 01:24:02
			results even worse because, Zainab, go on. Speak
		
01:24:02 --> 01:24:03
			to a girl.
		
01:24:06 --> 01:24:08
			Yeah. She was on mute.
		
01:24:10 --> 01:24:12
			Yeah. No. You you just said, I'm agreeing
		
01:24:12 --> 01:24:14
			with you as in there's no point.
		
01:24:15 --> 01:24:17
			That thing about the control,
		
01:24:17 --> 01:24:19
			I I get it. I was that woman
		
01:24:21 --> 01:24:23
			who wanted to control. And that financial thing,
		
01:24:24 --> 01:24:26
			my husband is a risk taker. He's in
		
01:24:26 --> 01:24:28
			business for himself. He takes risk. He could
		
01:24:28 --> 01:24:31
			take it every single dime we have and
		
01:24:31 --> 01:24:32
			go put it on one investment,
		
01:24:33 --> 01:24:34
			and we probably don't even have food in
		
01:24:34 --> 01:24:35
			the house.
		
01:24:35 --> 01:24:37
			But the same thing,
		
01:24:37 --> 01:24:38
			I wanted to control
		
01:24:40 --> 01:24:42
			because I had my own money story issues.
		
01:24:42 --> 01:24:42
			Right?
		
01:24:44 --> 01:24:46
			So I'd put in my own money into
		
01:24:46 --> 01:24:48
			the house. He didn't ask me.
		
01:24:48 --> 01:24:50
			So that's another thing we do. We take
		
01:24:50 --> 01:24:51
			on responsibility,
		
01:24:51 --> 01:24:52
			their responsibility,
		
01:24:52 --> 01:24:54
			even when they don't ask.
		
01:24:55 --> 01:24:55
			That was
		
01:24:56 --> 01:24:58
			one of the biggest mistakes I made for
		
01:24:58 --> 01:24:58
			many years.
		
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			But when I let it go,
		
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			he took on his thing.
		
01:25:05 --> 01:25:07
			He didn't ask for help in the 1st
		
01:25:07 --> 01:25:07
			place,
		
01:25:08 --> 01:25:10
			but I I I gave the help and
		
01:25:10 --> 01:25:12
			that's a mistake that I made. But
		
01:25:13 --> 01:25:15
			I mean, that's just agreeing with you.
		
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			We don't need the control.
		
01:25:18 --> 01:25:20
			When we let it go, we can enjoy
		
01:25:20 --> 01:25:21
			the marriage more.
		
01:25:22 --> 01:25:22
			Seriously.
		
01:25:26 --> 01:25:28
			It's as the sister said, you know, is,
		
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			this, sorry. Ruby, would you like to chime
		
01:25:31 --> 01:25:31
			in? Yes.
		
01:25:32 --> 01:25:35
			Yeah. I just wanna say something about this
		
01:25:35 --> 01:25:35
			control.
		
01:25:36 --> 01:25:38
			And I myself have worked with women over
		
01:25:38 --> 01:25:39
			the last 20 years
		
01:25:40 --> 01:25:41
			in domestic abuse.
		
01:25:43 --> 01:25:45
			And power and control is one of the
		
01:25:45 --> 01:25:46
			biggest things that,
		
01:25:47 --> 01:25:49
			is the underlying reason
		
01:25:50 --> 01:25:50
			for,
		
01:25:51 --> 01:25:51
			drastic
		
01:25:52 --> 01:25:53
			abuse.
		
01:25:53 --> 01:25:56
			Now but what happens is that
		
01:25:58 --> 01:26:00
			the control thing,
		
01:26:02 --> 01:26:05
			is something that sometimes we think we are
		
01:26:05 --> 01:26:06
			not
		
01:26:07 --> 01:26:10
			trying to control. Oh, I'm just trying to
		
01:26:10 --> 01:26:13
			I'm this very loving, kind wife, and and,
		
01:26:13 --> 01:26:16
			you know, I I'm not controlling my husband.
		
01:26:16 --> 01:26:17
			But guess what?
		
01:26:20 --> 01:26:20
			I thought
		
01:26:21 --> 01:26:23
			I was that wife
		
01:26:24 --> 01:26:27
			who was not trying to control her husband.
		
01:26:28 --> 01:26:28
			And
		
01:26:29 --> 01:26:32
			but it came as a shock
		
01:26:33 --> 01:26:36
			because you don't see it until you consciously
		
01:26:37 --> 01:26:37
			understand
		
01:26:39 --> 01:26:39
			how
		
01:26:40 --> 01:26:41
			we think
		
01:26:42 --> 01:26:42
			then,
		
01:26:43 --> 01:26:45
			oh my god, I saw
		
01:26:45 --> 01:26:46
			that
		
01:26:47 --> 01:26:47
			my ego
		
01:26:48 --> 01:26:50
			wanting to be right and
		
01:26:50 --> 01:26:52
			wanting to have control
		
01:26:52 --> 01:26:54
			was in real
		
01:26:54 --> 01:26:54
			operation.
		
01:26:56 --> 01:26:56
			Real operation.
		
01:26:57 --> 01:26:58
			And
		
01:26:59 --> 01:27:01
			this was a a shock to be honest
		
01:27:01 --> 01:27:03
			because I thought, well, I'm not that kind
		
01:27:03 --> 01:27:04
			of person.
		
01:27:05 --> 01:27:06
			But guess
		
01:27:06 --> 01:27:07
			what? And
		
01:27:07 --> 01:27:08
			underneath,
		
01:27:09 --> 01:27:10
			that's exactly what I was.
		
01:27:11 --> 01:27:13
			And that kind of went
		
01:27:14 --> 01:27:14
			because,
		
01:27:16 --> 01:27:17
			it's
		
01:27:18 --> 01:27:20
			control that I didn't see.
		
01:27:21 --> 01:27:22
			It's such a
		
01:27:22 --> 01:27:25
			clever clever one because you you think you're
		
01:27:25 --> 01:27:26
			not, but really
		
01:27:26 --> 01:27:27
			deep down,
		
01:27:28 --> 01:27:30
			you are trying to control. But only on
		
01:27:30 --> 01:27:33
			your when you understand yourself, like I've just
		
01:27:33 --> 01:27:36
			been going on about this understanding self
		
01:27:36 --> 01:27:37
			is powerful.
		
01:27:38 --> 01:27:39
			It's absolutely powerful
		
01:27:40 --> 01:27:40
			because
		
01:27:40 --> 01:27:41
			now
		
01:27:41 --> 01:27:43
			I'm not wanting to
		
01:27:43 --> 01:27:45
			always be right
		
01:27:45 --> 01:27:48
			even though I will speak the truth in
		
01:27:48 --> 01:27:50
			what I think is right or my opinion
		
01:27:51 --> 01:27:52
			and it matters in
		
01:27:53 --> 01:27:54
			in what I want to say.
		
01:27:55 --> 01:27:56
			But
		
01:27:56 --> 01:27:59
			it's not trying to have a a battle
		
01:28:00 --> 01:28:02
			of who's right and who's wrong anymore,
		
01:28:04 --> 01:28:05
			as she used to be.
		
01:28:06 --> 01:28:08
			I love that. SubhanAllah. And, you know,
		
01:28:09 --> 01:28:12
			obviously, sisters, you know, we know that there
		
01:28:12 --> 01:28:14
			are men who don't take care of their
		
01:28:14 --> 01:28:15
			responsibilities.
		
01:28:16 --> 01:28:18
			We know unfortunately that this is a fact.
		
01:28:19 --> 01:28:21
			So again, as I've been saying,
		
01:28:21 --> 01:28:24
			you know, if this applies to you, you
		
01:28:24 --> 01:28:26
			will know. You'll hear yourself, you know. You'll
		
01:28:26 --> 01:28:28
			you'll be able to hear and identify, oh,
		
01:28:28 --> 01:28:31
			yeah. That's me and that's my husband. If
		
01:28:31 --> 01:28:33
			it's not, you know, and if you're in
		
01:28:33 --> 01:28:35
			a situation where, you know, the the husband
		
01:28:35 --> 01:28:37
			is not taking the responsibility and you are
		
01:28:37 --> 01:28:40
			doing everything, then obviously it's a different dynamic.
		
01:28:40 --> 01:28:43
			And so what we're saying about submitting maybe
		
01:28:43 --> 01:28:45
			may not apply to you subhanAllah.
		
01:28:46 --> 01:28:49
			So, you know, sisters who, you know, are
		
01:28:49 --> 01:28:50
			don't have the you know, have to take
		
01:28:50 --> 01:28:51
			control
		
01:28:51 --> 01:28:53
			due to being single parent or being in
		
01:28:53 --> 01:28:55
			an abusive relationship or not getting the help
		
01:28:55 --> 01:28:57
			while the children are, you know, with you,
		
01:28:57 --> 01:28:59
			it doesn't we're not talking about that. We're
		
01:28:59 --> 01:29:02
			talking about, I guess, just, you know, average,
		
01:29:02 --> 01:29:04
			you know, male dynamics,
		
01:29:05 --> 01:29:05
			subhanAllah.
		
01:29:07 --> 01:29:09
			Wow. So we've said a lot. We said,
		
01:29:09 --> 01:29:11
			did you want to jump in before we
		
01:29:11 --> 01:29:12
			go on to some of the questions?
		
01:29:15 --> 01:29:16
			You know what? Sometimes I forget that I'm
		
01:29:16 --> 01:29:19
			actually on the panel because I'm just sitting
		
01:29:19 --> 01:29:21
			here taking in the gems and just I
		
01:29:21 --> 01:29:23
			feel like I've because I've been watching
		
01:29:23 --> 01:29:25
			it since yesterday. I just feel like I'm
		
01:29:25 --> 01:29:26
			just watching the
		
01:29:27 --> 01:29:30
			yeah. So I'm just I'm just taking it.
		
01:29:30 --> 01:29:32
			Just soaking in. Just soaking it in.
		
01:29:33 --> 01:29:35
			Sarah, you had your hand up.
		
01:29:36 --> 01:29:37
			Yeah.
		
01:29:37 --> 01:29:39
			Just before I say anything, I did like
		
01:29:39 --> 01:29:41
			I just wanted to reiterate what you said.
		
01:29:42 --> 01:29:43
			When we're talking about
		
01:29:44 --> 01:29:46
			submission, and obviously, I spoke a lot a
		
01:29:46 --> 01:29:48
			bit about this when I first introduced myself
		
01:29:48 --> 01:29:49
			and spoke about
		
01:29:50 --> 01:29:51
			letting our husbands take control
		
01:29:52 --> 01:29:54
			and, you know, being a bit
		
01:29:54 --> 01:29:56
			and obeying our husbands.
		
01:29:56 --> 01:29:59
			There are exceptions. Don't get me wrong. And
		
01:29:59 --> 01:29:59
			actually, unfortunately,
		
01:30:00 --> 01:30:02
			a lot of the time when we're online
		
01:30:02 --> 01:30:03
			or we hear we hear the we hear
		
01:30:03 --> 01:30:05
			a lot of the bad stories.
		
01:30:05 --> 01:30:07
			So when we talk when we say you
		
01:30:07 --> 01:30:08
			have to have your hope and there are
		
01:30:08 --> 01:30:10
			gonna be a lot of women that watch
		
01:30:10 --> 01:30:12
			these videos or hear the voice speaking about,
		
01:30:12 --> 01:30:14
			like, no way. My husband does this and
		
01:30:14 --> 01:30:16
			I'm, you know, traveling. What if this? What
		
01:30:16 --> 01:30:18
			if that? What if this? What if that?
		
01:30:19 --> 01:30:22
			We're talking about earth skies in a marriage,
		
01:30:22 --> 01:30:22
			speaking about
		
01:30:23 --> 01:30:25
			what what we do in in our relationship
		
01:30:25 --> 01:30:27
			to what work like you said, for the
		
01:30:27 --> 01:30:29
			average marriage or something when there's a bit
		
01:30:29 --> 01:30:31
			of an unbalance. And when we speak about
		
01:30:32 --> 01:30:33
			control or being
		
01:30:34 --> 01:30:36
			submitted, we have to think about
		
01:30:37 --> 01:30:37
			what are we
		
01:30:38 --> 01:30:38
			losing
		
01:30:39 --> 01:30:41
			by letting our husband take control?
		
01:30:42 --> 01:30:43
			What are we losing
		
01:30:43 --> 01:30:45
			by making our husband a drink?
		
01:30:46 --> 01:30:47
			My husband all those those times will be
		
01:30:47 --> 01:30:49
			sat with your tail and go, oh, should
		
01:30:49 --> 01:30:50
			I have a cup of tea? And I
		
01:30:50 --> 01:30:51
			go, oh, yeah. Kind of. I won't even
		
01:30:51 --> 01:30:53
			say I said, oh, I'll go make one.
		
01:30:53 --> 01:30:54
			What am I losing
		
01:30:55 --> 01:30:57
			by getting up or making my husband some
		
01:30:57 --> 01:30:59
			food or making him a drink? But I'm
		
01:30:59 --> 01:31:00
			gaining so much.
		
01:31:01 --> 01:31:03
			And in regards to one of us wanting
		
01:31:03 --> 01:31:06
			to control things and, you know, nagging and
		
01:31:06 --> 01:31:09
			wanting everything our way, that comes back to
		
01:31:09 --> 01:31:10
			us, not
		
01:31:10 --> 01:31:13
			to the actual, you know, the actual thing
		
01:31:13 --> 01:31:15
			of obeying your husband or being a significant
		
01:31:15 --> 01:31:15
			wife
		
01:31:16 --> 01:31:18
			because that's our mindset. So you need to
		
01:31:18 --> 01:31:20
			think about if you're thinking if you feel
		
01:31:20 --> 01:31:22
			a bit triggered or you feel a bit
		
01:31:22 --> 01:31:24
			Yep. Taken back by the way that we're
		
01:31:24 --> 01:31:26
			speaking, and we use the words like submissive
		
01:31:27 --> 01:31:29
			because it has again, like I said, compromise.
		
01:31:29 --> 01:31:31
			Compromise has got a very negative connotation. It
		
01:31:31 --> 01:31:34
			probably has got that meaning, but when I
		
01:31:34 --> 01:31:36
			say compromise, it is a submissive
		
01:31:36 --> 01:31:37
			related to that.
		
01:31:38 --> 01:31:39
			And we like I said, we just need
		
01:31:39 --> 01:31:40
			to think about
		
01:31:41 --> 01:31:43
			where we are in our marriage. What is
		
01:31:43 --> 01:31:44
			our role in our marriage? What is our
		
01:31:44 --> 01:31:47
			husband's role? If he if your husband is
		
01:31:47 --> 01:31:49
			fulfilling his role in the marriage and he's
		
01:31:49 --> 01:31:51
			providing for you and things like that, and
		
01:31:51 --> 01:31:52
			I know I get it. In our west
		
01:31:52 --> 01:31:54
			in this world, Westernwood, a lot of people
		
01:31:54 --> 01:31:55
			have to work 2 jobs.
		
01:31:56 --> 01:31:57
			But we have to go back to the
		
01:31:57 --> 01:31:59
			point is, we should be getting married if
		
01:31:59 --> 01:32:02
			we can't afford to. And that's probably gonna
		
01:32:02 --> 01:32:03
			be a lot of people gonna say, what?
		
01:32:04 --> 01:32:06
			But, you know, why are we gonna be
		
01:32:06 --> 01:32:07
			talking to your marriage if our rights are
		
01:32:07 --> 01:32:09
			not gonna be fulfilled?
		
01:32:09 --> 01:32:09
			And,
		
01:32:11 --> 01:32:13
			yeah, I got married young. I didn't even
		
01:32:13 --> 01:32:15
			think about anything about that, finances and all
		
01:32:15 --> 01:32:16
			that sort of stuff. My husband just said,
		
01:32:16 --> 01:32:18
			I'll look after you. Don't worry. You know,
		
01:32:18 --> 01:32:19
			all this kind of thing when when, you
		
01:32:19 --> 01:32:21
			know, we you were looking about thinking about
		
01:32:21 --> 01:32:22
			getting married and all that sort of thing.
		
01:32:22 --> 01:32:25
			So it's just, again, thinking about
		
01:32:26 --> 01:32:26
			us.
		
01:32:27 --> 01:32:29
			What is your role? Who are you? What
		
01:32:29 --> 01:32:31
			is your role as a wife? What is
		
01:32:31 --> 01:32:32
			your role as a mother? Because they these
		
01:32:32 --> 01:32:33
			are all connected.
		
01:32:34 --> 01:32:36
			What is it that he wants as well
		
01:32:36 --> 01:32:37
			as what you want?
		
01:32:38 --> 01:32:41
			And are you gonna be losing something so
		
01:32:41 --> 01:32:43
			bad? You won't and, again, when I say,
		
01:32:43 --> 01:32:45
			you know, compromise, I'm not talking about losing
		
01:32:45 --> 01:32:47
			your identity because that's a completely different subject
		
01:32:47 --> 01:32:48
			than something
		
01:32:49 --> 01:32:50
			that that I did.
		
01:32:50 --> 01:32:52
			You can keep your identity
		
01:32:54 --> 01:32:56
			independence and be a submissive wife, and let
		
01:32:56 --> 01:32:58
			let go some of the control as well.
		
01:33:00 --> 01:33:02
			I wanna just thank you so much for
		
01:33:02 --> 01:33:03
			that, Sarah. And I just wanna just
		
01:33:04 --> 01:33:06
			just jump in here to say as well
		
01:33:06 --> 01:33:07
			that
		
01:33:08 --> 01:33:10
			for many of us, I think, you know,
		
01:33:10 --> 01:33:12
			I can say certainly for myself,
		
01:33:12 --> 01:33:14
			you know, the type of programming that we
		
01:33:14 --> 01:33:16
			have, many of us are unaware of it.
		
01:33:17 --> 01:33:19
			So if your husband does ask you to
		
01:33:19 --> 01:33:20
			get him a drink, for example,
		
01:33:21 --> 01:33:22
			it's a request.
		
01:33:23 --> 01:33:23
			Now
		
01:33:24 --> 01:33:25
			some people,
		
01:33:25 --> 01:33:28
			yeah. Sure. Go and do it. Love it.
		
01:33:28 --> 01:33:30
			Yeah. You know what? I'm thinking a tea
		
01:33:30 --> 01:33:31
			would be nice as well. I'll go get
		
01:33:31 --> 01:33:33
			it. I'll go get it. For someone else,
		
01:33:33 --> 01:33:35
			again, it's that perception.
		
01:33:35 --> 01:33:38
			It's that understanding. What is being triggered?
		
01:33:38 --> 01:33:40
			What do you think I am? A glorified
		
01:33:40 --> 01:33:42
			maid? What do you think I am just
		
01:33:42 --> 01:33:44
			here to serve you? And and the thing
		
01:33:44 --> 01:33:46
			is sisters, let's keep it a buck because
		
01:33:46 --> 01:33:48
			I'll when I when we having even comments
		
01:33:48 --> 01:33:50
			in here and in the YouTube and just
		
01:33:50 --> 01:33:52
			in general on social media, this whole thing
		
01:33:52 --> 01:33:53
			of a glorified
		
01:33:54 --> 01:33:54
			maid,
		
01:33:55 --> 01:33:57
			we need to stop with that. Okay? We
		
01:33:57 --> 01:33:59
			need to stop with that because
		
01:33:59 --> 01:34:02
			these are messages that we've taken from the
		
01:34:02 --> 01:34:02
			society
		
01:34:03 --> 01:34:03
			that certain
		
01:34:04 --> 01:34:07
			acts of service are below us, are beneath
		
01:34:08 --> 01:34:10
			us, that we are better than that.
		
01:34:10 --> 01:34:12
			Whatever, for whatever reason because,
		
01:34:12 --> 01:34:15
			you know, we're educated or because we we
		
01:34:15 --> 01:34:17
			have careers or this or that. We are
		
01:34:17 --> 01:34:20
			too good to serve. We're too good to
		
01:34:20 --> 01:34:21
			serve in laws. We're too good to serve
		
01:34:21 --> 01:34:23
			our husband. We're too good to stay home
		
01:34:23 --> 01:34:27
			and raise children because society has told us
		
01:34:27 --> 01:34:29
			that those tasks are menial
		
01:34:29 --> 01:34:30
			and are not worthy
		
01:34:31 --> 01:34:32
			and other tasks,
		
01:34:32 --> 01:34:35
			masculine tasks, money making tasks
		
01:34:36 --> 01:34:38
			are of a higher value and are of
		
01:34:38 --> 01:34:40
			more value and that's really what is worthy
		
01:34:40 --> 01:34:43
			of respect. And I think that that's firstly
		
01:34:43 --> 01:34:44
			from our dean
		
01:34:46 --> 01:34:48
			Lee not the case because we know as
		
01:34:48 --> 01:34:50
			you guys are each of you have said
		
01:34:50 --> 01:34:51
			in your own way,
		
01:34:51 --> 01:34:53
			everything that we do in these relationships
		
01:34:54 --> 01:34:55
			is an act of the.
		
01:34:56 --> 01:34:57
			We make intention.
		
01:34:57 --> 01:34:59
			We get reward for it. Whether it's
		
01:35:00 --> 01:35:01
			paying a bill,
		
01:35:01 --> 01:35:03
			making cup of tea,
		
01:35:03 --> 01:35:06
			weaning a child, you know, supporting the start
		
01:35:06 --> 01:35:08
			of business, whatever it is, this is all
		
01:35:08 --> 01:35:11
			Ibadah. And if it's done, like Omasa was
		
01:35:11 --> 01:35:13
			saying for the sake of Allah, what will
		
01:35:13 --> 01:35:14
			you lose?
		
01:35:14 --> 01:35:17
			What will you lose? Can I just say
		
01:35:17 --> 01:35:18
			here as well? I'm just listening to you
		
01:35:18 --> 01:35:21
			guys talk about submission. Right? And
		
01:35:22 --> 01:35:24
			trigger word, submission. But I think it's comes
		
01:35:24 --> 01:35:26
			down to our battle with our own nuffs
		
01:35:26 --> 01:35:28
			as well, you know, and and it comes
		
01:35:28 --> 01:35:30
			down to what the things that we enjoy.
		
01:35:30 --> 01:35:33
			So you might have that serving the the
		
01:35:33 --> 01:35:33
			tea issue,
		
01:35:34 --> 01:35:35
			but I think it's also obedience
		
01:35:36 --> 01:35:37
			comes into for me,
		
01:35:38 --> 01:35:40
			my battle has been where it's things that
		
01:35:40 --> 01:35:41
			I want to do,
		
01:35:42 --> 01:35:43
			things that I enjoy doing,
		
01:35:44 --> 01:35:45
			and
		
01:35:45 --> 01:35:48
			certain things that he doesn't think it's appropriate.
		
01:35:48 --> 01:35:49
			For instance,
		
01:35:49 --> 01:35:51
			maybe staying out too late if a sister
		
01:35:51 --> 01:35:52
			has a,
		
01:35:52 --> 01:35:54
			you know, a get together and it goes
		
01:35:54 --> 01:35:58
			out like crazy hours. You know? Some sisters,
		
01:35:58 --> 01:36:01
			husbands may think it's okay because they're as
		
01:36:01 --> 01:36:03
			long as you're driving safe, you're with sisters,
		
01:36:04 --> 01:36:06
			you know, your environment is generally okay. I'm
		
01:36:06 --> 01:36:08
			just giving an example. Things that you may
		
01:36:08 --> 01:36:11
			have done as the norm, pre marriage,
		
01:36:11 --> 01:36:13
			and then you get married and and and
		
01:36:13 --> 01:36:15
			they were good things. They were fun. They
		
01:36:15 --> 01:36:15
			were sisterhood.
		
01:36:16 --> 01:36:18
			They were your me time, but then now
		
01:36:18 --> 01:36:20
			he's objecting it.
		
01:36:20 --> 01:36:22
			It's gonna be like
		
01:36:22 --> 01:36:24
			sometimes it could be why are you taking
		
01:36:24 --> 01:36:26
			away something that I enjoy,
		
01:36:26 --> 01:36:27
			1.
		
01:36:27 --> 01:36:28
			2,
		
01:36:28 --> 01:36:30
			he'll say, look, do your thing. Do it
		
01:36:30 --> 01:36:31
			during the day. I'm just giving you an
		
01:36:31 --> 01:36:33
			example, you know, but I don't want you
		
01:36:33 --> 01:36:35
			out at late. I have friends as well
		
01:36:35 --> 01:36:37
			whose whose husband say, I don't want you
		
01:36:37 --> 01:36:39
			out of the market, you know. So
		
01:36:39 --> 01:36:41
			but they were used to going out of
		
01:36:41 --> 01:36:43
			the market before, for instance.
		
01:36:43 --> 01:36:45
			It's this thing where it's the bitter pill
		
01:36:45 --> 01:36:47
			to swallow sometimes as well. And then we
		
01:36:48 --> 01:36:49
			but but so and so is going, but
		
01:36:49 --> 01:36:52
			so and so's husband's allowing it. And I
		
01:36:52 --> 01:36:53
			think also here, when it comes down to
		
01:36:53 --> 01:36:55
			submission, one thing I want to bring in
		
01:36:56 --> 01:36:58
			is it's very important that we have a
		
01:36:58 --> 01:36:58
			support network.
		
01:36:59 --> 01:37:01
			And it's not just a support network when
		
01:37:01 --> 01:37:03
			times are tough,
		
01:37:04 --> 01:37:05
			a good friend to talk to or someone
		
01:37:05 --> 01:37:07
			to go to who would
		
01:37:08 --> 01:37:10
			give you good advice. Not what you wanna
		
01:37:10 --> 01:37:12
			hear, what you should hear. There's a difference.
		
01:37:12 --> 01:37:13
			Right?
		
01:37:13 --> 01:37:15
			But you should also have friends who won't
		
01:37:15 --> 01:37:17
			mock you due to your submission,
		
01:37:18 --> 01:37:20
			you know, not make your situation worse. If
		
01:37:20 --> 01:37:22
			you turn around and say to your friend,
		
01:37:22 --> 01:37:24
			you know, my husband said I can't come.
		
01:37:24 --> 01:37:26
			You know, I went to a gathering last
		
01:37:26 --> 01:37:28
			week. He doesn't want me going out again
		
01:37:28 --> 01:37:29
			this weekend.
		
01:37:29 --> 01:37:30
			He's saying
		
01:37:30 --> 01:37:32
			no. You know? He just said no. You
		
01:37:32 --> 01:37:33
			know,
		
01:37:33 --> 01:37:35
			you can't go. I'm just saying.
		
01:37:36 --> 01:37:38
			I'm not saying that he's saying you can't
		
01:37:38 --> 01:37:40
			go at all. He's saying, well, you've had,
		
01:37:40 --> 01:37:42
			like, 3 gatherings this week already and now
		
01:37:42 --> 01:37:44
			another one on the weekend. You know?
		
01:37:44 --> 01:37:46
			Just example. Right?
		
01:37:48 --> 01:37:49
			And then the sisters are like, yeah, but
		
01:37:49 --> 01:37:50
			tell your husband,
		
01:37:51 --> 01:37:52
			like, you know,
		
01:37:52 --> 01:37:54
			they were other sisters. You know, what about
		
01:37:54 --> 01:37:57
			us? You know, give us our time. You
		
01:37:57 --> 01:37:58
			know, give us,
		
01:37:58 --> 01:38:00
			you know, if you went with other sisters
		
01:38:00 --> 01:38:02
			or you did whatever, why are you gonna
		
01:38:02 --> 01:38:04
			miss out? Gathering's not gonna be the same
		
01:38:04 --> 01:38:05
			without you, you know.
		
01:38:06 --> 01:38:08
			Oh, you're missing out, and all of this
		
01:38:08 --> 01:38:09
			stuff they egg you on in in a
		
01:38:09 --> 01:38:12
			way where you feel like you're missing out.
		
01:38:13 --> 01:38:14
			But you're trying to please your husband at
		
01:38:14 --> 01:38:16
			the same time that your friends and girlfriends
		
01:38:16 --> 01:38:19
			and your homies are custom Yeah. You out.
		
01:38:20 --> 01:38:22
			It's not good. And then you feel, like,
		
01:38:22 --> 01:38:24
			resentment towards him saying and then afterwards, they'll
		
01:38:24 --> 01:38:26
			send you pictures of the food. They'll tell
		
01:38:26 --> 01:38:28
			you pictures of what they did, and then
		
01:38:28 --> 01:38:31
			they're like, you missed out, girlfriend. You missed
		
01:38:31 --> 01:38:32
			out. You just stayed at home. What did
		
01:38:32 --> 01:38:34
			you do? You know? And it's Don't tell
		
01:38:34 --> 01:38:36
			them what you did when you stayed home.
		
01:38:36 --> 01:38:38
			You just don't tell them. Let them stay
		
01:38:38 --> 01:38:39
			with their pictures.
		
01:38:40 --> 01:38:41
			No. That's true. But I'm But, you know
		
01:38:41 --> 01:38:44
			yeah. It it creates an unhealthy environment. And
		
01:38:44 --> 01:38:45
			I think sisters sometimes do this to one
		
01:38:45 --> 01:38:48
			another as well. I'm just saying sisters should
		
01:38:48 --> 01:38:50
			be careful as well. If a sister says
		
01:38:50 --> 01:38:51
			my husband said no,
		
01:38:52 --> 01:38:54
			don't encourage the sister to challenge her husband
		
01:38:54 --> 01:38:56
			because I see that culture quite a lot
		
01:38:56 --> 01:38:59
			as well. Like, you know, sometimes it could
		
01:38:59 --> 01:39:00
			be go and work your magic, you know,
		
01:39:00 --> 01:39:03
			see. But sometimes the sister has to judge
		
01:39:03 --> 01:39:04
			her situation herself.
		
01:39:05 --> 01:39:07
			She says she can't come out.
		
01:39:07 --> 01:39:09
			Leave it, man. You don't know what's going
		
01:39:09 --> 01:39:10
			on in these 4 walls.
		
01:39:11 --> 01:39:13
			So It's like, you know, Amisa, as you
		
01:39:13 --> 01:39:14
			said no. No. No. It's I I get
		
01:39:14 --> 01:39:16
			it. And I think even for for for
		
01:39:16 --> 01:39:18
			me, like, I you know, I'm sure I've
		
01:39:18 --> 01:39:19
			been there. I'm sure we've all been there.
		
01:39:19 --> 01:39:21
			Right? We are like, oh, why is he
		
01:39:21 --> 01:39:23
			giving her a hard time? Oh, he's so
		
01:39:23 --> 01:39:25
			difficult. Right? You know, because there's good Muslim
		
01:39:25 --> 01:39:27
			husbands and there's bad Muslim husbands. Right? The
		
01:39:27 --> 01:39:29
			good ones are the nice easy ones that
		
01:39:29 --> 01:39:30
			let you do whatever you like. The bad
		
01:39:30 --> 01:39:32
			ones are the ones who've actually got something
		
01:39:32 --> 01:39:33
			to say about things. You know? This is
		
01:39:33 --> 01:39:34
			a joke.
		
01:39:34 --> 01:39:37
			And then I had a it's on in
		
01:39:37 --> 01:39:38
			one of the interviews for the marriage conversation.
		
01:39:38 --> 01:39:39
			But, anyway,
		
01:39:40 --> 01:39:42
			I think even us as sisters, as you
		
01:39:42 --> 01:39:42
			said,
		
01:39:43 --> 01:39:44
			respecting
		
01:39:44 --> 01:39:45
			your husband.
		
01:39:46 --> 01:39:48
			So for example, when we were putting the
		
01:39:48 --> 01:39:49
			posters for this together,
		
01:39:49 --> 01:39:51
			I asked you for a picture and I
		
01:39:51 --> 01:39:53
			said, do you want to have a picture
		
01:39:53 --> 01:39:55
			on the poster? And, you know, do you
		
01:39:55 --> 01:39:57
			want to have it with Nakab or not?
		
01:39:57 --> 01:39:58
			Because in because I know you and I'm
		
01:39:58 --> 01:39:59
			thinking to myself,
		
01:40:00 --> 01:40:01
			I, you know, I don't know whether
		
01:40:02 --> 01:40:04
			family is cool with that or not. And
		
01:40:04 --> 01:40:06
			if the family hadn't been cool, I'm saying
		
01:40:06 --> 01:40:08
			the family like the brothers do. But if
		
01:40:08 --> 01:40:10
			your husband hadn't been cool, if he had
		
01:40:10 --> 01:40:11
			been like you know I don't really want
		
01:40:11 --> 01:40:13
			you out there like that, but okay cool
		
01:40:13 --> 01:40:15
			no problem that's you know we don't we
		
01:40:15 --> 01:40:16
			can work without that.
		
01:40:17 --> 01:40:18
			And I think that
		
01:40:18 --> 01:40:20
			like I said, it could be certainly a
		
01:40:20 --> 01:40:22
			western thing. It could be that in other
		
01:40:22 --> 01:40:24
			parts of the world that's a given. But
		
01:40:24 --> 01:40:26
			certainly in our communities is the way they're
		
01:40:26 --> 01:40:27
			shifting.
		
01:40:27 --> 01:40:29
			It's kinda like, no. No. No. They'll be
		
01:40:29 --> 01:40:32
			fine or whatever. But, subhanallah, it's the there's
		
01:40:32 --> 01:40:34
			a lot a lot to say on this
		
01:40:34 --> 01:40:35
			topic.
		
01:40:36 --> 01:40:39
			Parting advice. Well, no. No. Actually, no. Not
		
01:40:39 --> 01:40:41
			parting advice. We've got good questions here.
		
01:40:41 --> 01:40:43
			Wait a minute. These are some very, very
		
01:40:43 --> 01:40:45
			good questions, and we need to answer some
		
01:40:45 --> 01:40:45
			of them.
		
01:40:46 --> 01:40:48
			This is very interesting and I wanna hear
		
01:40:48 --> 01:40:51
			everybody's views on this. Sister says,
		
01:40:52 --> 01:40:54
			we have, I to have a relationship
		
01:40:55 --> 01:40:56
			where we have stuff to share
		
01:40:57 --> 01:40:59
			even when it's trivial is lovely.
		
01:40:59 --> 01:41:02
			However, my prospective spouse keeps saying he has
		
01:41:02 --> 01:41:04
			nothing to say and he makes me feel
		
01:41:04 --> 01:41:05
			kind of lonely.
		
01:41:06 --> 01:41:08
			Should this be a red flag?
		
01:41:10 --> 01:41:14
			Yes. If yes, Why? No. If no, why
		
01:41:14 --> 01:41:14
			not?
		
01:41:16 --> 01:41:17
			So it seems like they don't have much
		
01:41:17 --> 01:41:19
			to in common or much to talk about.
		
01:41:20 --> 01:41:22
			And she's she wants a relationship where they've
		
01:41:22 --> 01:41:24
			got stuff to talk about, I guess. Red
		
01:41:24 --> 01:41:26
			flag. Yes. No.
		
01:41:28 --> 01:41:28
			Personally, from my
		
01:41:31 --> 01:41:32
			own perspective,
		
01:41:34 --> 01:41:35
			personally, from my own perspective,
		
01:41:37 --> 01:41:39
			you need to have that spark
		
01:41:39 --> 01:41:42
			in in that relationship and be on the
		
01:41:42 --> 01:41:43
			same kind of intellectual level
		
01:41:45 --> 01:41:47
			to to be able to get through your
		
01:41:47 --> 01:41:49
			marriage because your things are gonna get pretty
		
01:41:49 --> 01:41:50
			boring pretty quickly.
		
01:41:50 --> 01:41:52
			It might be that he's just a bit
		
01:41:52 --> 01:41:52
			shy.
		
01:41:54 --> 01:41:55
			It might be that. He might be just
		
01:41:55 --> 01:41:57
			nervous. He might be shy. You've got to
		
01:41:57 --> 01:42:00
			remember before you get married, obviously I'm a
		
01:42:00 --> 01:42:00
			read but
		
01:42:02 --> 01:42:02
			you,
		
01:42:03 --> 01:42:05
			especially in a in culture
		
01:42:05 --> 01:42:07
			or being told not to speak to men.
		
01:42:07 --> 01:42:08
			And then all of a sudden, you've got
		
01:42:08 --> 01:42:10
			to marry 1, and you've got to talk
		
01:42:10 --> 01:42:13
			to us. And then it's like, what? And
		
01:42:13 --> 01:42:15
			then a lot of lady That's a good
		
01:42:15 --> 01:42:16
			point, sis.
		
01:42:21 --> 01:42:22
			This is me
		
01:42:23 --> 01:42:26
			of perspective that I'm coming into Muslim the
		
01:42:26 --> 01:42:26
			Muslim faith
		
01:42:27 --> 01:42:29
			and, you know, in my in my 20.
		
01:42:29 --> 01:42:31
			And it's like, you know, and and it's
		
01:42:31 --> 01:42:33
			like, can you imagine not being speaking to
		
01:42:33 --> 01:42:35
			someone, then all of a sudden you've got
		
01:42:35 --> 01:42:36
			this girl talking to you and she's like,
		
01:42:36 --> 01:42:38
			oh, I'm doing my nails and seeing my
		
01:42:38 --> 01:42:39
			friends. Because a lot of girls, when you're
		
01:42:39 --> 01:42:41
			in your early twenties, you you've got so
		
01:42:41 --> 01:42:43
			much to talk about as well. And if
		
01:42:43 --> 01:42:45
			you're you've got this idea in your head
		
01:42:45 --> 01:42:47
			that you've probably even sometimes, I know
		
01:42:48 --> 01:42:49
			the girls that
		
01:42:49 --> 01:42:52
			that have made books, and they've taken cuttings
		
01:42:52 --> 01:42:54
			about what their wedding's gonna look like, what
		
01:42:54 --> 01:42:55
			their marriage is gonna be like, and they're
		
01:42:55 --> 01:42:57
			gonna do all this traveling and have all
		
01:42:57 --> 01:42:58
			this fun with their husband.
		
01:42:59 --> 01:43:00
			And then when they're up to come and
		
01:43:00 --> 01:43:02
			talk to someone, the guy just freezes up.
		
01:43:03 --> 01:43:05
			I might say the wrong thing. I might
		
01:43:05 --> 01:43:07
			say the bad thing. You know? So I
		
01:43:07 --> 01:43:08
			would try and price it out a little
		
01:43:08 --> 01:43:11
			bit more. I wouldn't necessarily say it's a
		
01:43:11 --> 01:43:13
			red flag the start. It may be a
		
01:43:13 --> 01:43:15
			red flag in the sense of you might
		
01:43:15 --> 01:43:16
			not be compatible,
		
01:43:16 --> 01:43:18
			but I wouldn't say it's not someone you
		
01:43:18 --> 01:43:20
			can't get married to. I would just keep
		
01:43:20 --> 01:43:21
			that in mind
		
01:43:22 --> 01:43:24
			that they could be just a bit shy
		
01:43:24 --> 01:43:26
			or not really sure what to say or
		
01:43:26 --> 01:43:28
			how to converse with you or they're still
		
01:43:28 --> 01:43:30
			trying to keep the hair. They're trying did
		
01:43:30 --> 01:43:31
			you know they're trying to keep that boundary
		
01:43:31 --> 01:43:33
			still? Married. Or is it No. It's a
		
01:43:33 --> 01:43:35
			perspective. It's a perspective
		
01:43:36 --> 01:43:36
			spouse.
		
01:43:38 --> 01:43:40
			What's what's say you? Rapid fire.
		
01:43:41 --> 01:43:43
			For me, I I think that that, you
		
01:43:43 --> 01:43:46
			know, I really feel that brothers and sisters
		
01:43:46 --> 01:43:46
			should meet
		
01:43:47 --> 01:43:49
			and have a meeting because,
		
01:43:50 --> 01:43:52
			you know, you you get a sense of
		
01:43:52 --> 01:43:52
			chemistry,
		
01:43:53 --> 01:43:53
			you know.
		
01:43:54 --> 01:43:56
			And even if there's not a lot of
		
01:43:56 --> 01:43:58
			dialogue, you can just see if the if
		
01:43:58 --> 01:43:59
			you're bouncing off one another.
		
01:43:59 --> 01:44:02
			And if he's not talking, maybe it's he's
		
01:44:02 --> 01:44:05
			not quite like sister Sarah saying interested in
		
01:44:05 --> 01:44:07
			or doesn't know how to respond to what
		
01:44:07 --> 01:44:09
			you have to say because of what you're
		
01:44:09 --> 01:44:11
			speaking about. But maybe try and I would
		
01:44:11 --> 01:44:13
			say ask him about his interests
		
01:44:14 --> 01:44:16
			and the things that his hobbies or his
		
01:44:16 --> 01:44:19
			pastimes, and maybe that will get him kind
		
01:44:19 --> 01:44:21
			of talking in a little bit more comfortable.
		
01:44:22 --> 01:44:25
			I think also women in general have a
		
01:44:25 --> 01:44:27
			lot more confidence in this area or they've
		
01:44:27 --> 01:44:30
			done more thinking about it. Right? So when
		
01:44:30 --> 01:44:33
			they go into a marriage conversation, they've got,
		
01:44:33 --> 01:44:35
			like, a whole list of questions
		
01:44:35 --> 01:44:37
			and so many boxes they wanna tick and
		
01:44:37 --> 01:44:39
			things they wanna make sure, make sure, make
		
01:44:39 --> 01:44:40
			sure. And a lot of the time, the
		
01:44:40 --> 01:44:42
			brothers haven't really given it that much thought.
		
01:44:42 --> 01:44:44
			They just like, if I like her, I
		
01:44:44 --> 01:44:45
			like her in it. Who was, Ayla, what
		
01:44:45 --> 01:44:47
			do you think? Should is this a red
		
01:44:47 --> 01:44:48
			flag? Is it something she should look out
		
01:44:48 --> 01:44:49
			for?
		
01:44:49 --> 01:44:51
			Or, you know, or is it an absolute
		
01:44:51 --> 01:44:52
			no? Just forget it.
		
01:44:57 --> 01:44:59
			For me, I look at it as
		
01:45:00 --> 01:45:02
			an opportunity for exploration.
		
01:45:03 --> 01:45:04
			Mhmm. Right?
		
01:45:05 --> 01:45:06
			And exploration
		
01:45:07 --> 01:45:10
			and I'm deliberate about using that word exploration
		
01:45:10 --> 01:45:11
			because exploration
		
01:45:12 --> 01:45:14
			doesn't come from a place of judgment.
		
01:45:15 --> 01:45:16
			Because
		
01:45:17 --> 01:45:19
			if I'm looking at this person as he
		
01:45:19 --> 01:45:21
			doesn't like talking. He doesn't say anything, whatever.
		
01:45:22 --> 01:45:24
			There is He doesn't tick that box. He
		
01:45:24 --> 01:45:26
			doesn't tick that box of mine. Yeah.
		
01:45:26 --> 01:45:28
			There could be some judgment there. So if
		
01:45:28 --> 01:45:29
			I were to set aside the judgment and
		
01:45:29 --> 01:45:31
			come from a place of curiosity.
		
01:45:32 --> 01:45:35
			So it's still a prospective spot. So that
		
01:45:35 --> 01:45:37
			means there's still exploration going on.
		
01:45:38 --> 01:45:38
			So curiosity,
		
01:45:40 --> 01:45:43
			There's hardly anyone who can avoid,
		
01:45:44 --> 01:45:45
			you know, interested
		
01:45:46 --> 01:45:46
			questions.
		
01:45:49 --> 01:45:51
			You know? Because that's where curiosity
		
01:45:51 --> 01:45:54
			leads to. Interested questions. It's not like an
		
01:45:54 --> 01:45:55
			interview, you know?
		
01:45:56 --> 01:45:57
			It's really about
		
01:45:57 --> 01:45:58
			being interested
		
01:45:59 --> 01:46:02
			in whatever about this person's life,
		
01:46:03 --> 01:46:04
			and it's possible
		
01:46:05 --> 01:46:07
			to see what's going on. And then to
		
01:46:07 --> 01:46:10
			actually will find out and maybe even see
		
01:46:10 --> 01:46:11
			why they're not
		
01:46:11 --> 01:46:13
			willing to so share. It's not like, oh,
		
01:46:13 --> 01:46:15
			I want us to talk. Let's talk.
		
01:46:15 --> 01:46:17
			It can happen that way. It's really about
		
01:46:17 --> 01:46:18
			being curious
		
01:46:19 --> 01:46:20
			and all that, so I don't see that
		
01:46:20 --> 01:46:22
			as a red flag. I see it as
		
01:46:22 --> 01:46:23
			an opportunity
		
01:46:23 --> 01:46:25
			for, you know, genuine curious
		
01:46:26 --> 01:46:27
			exploration,
		
01:46:27 --> 01:46:29
			and then you can actually see
		
01:46:30 --> 01:46:31
			what would happen out of there.
		
01:46:32 --> 01:46:34
			So sisters mentioned that the red flag is
		
01:46:34 --> 01:46:36
			not the fact that he can't converse,
		
01:46:37 --> 01:46:39
			the lonely feeling, and I I'd like to
		
01:46:39 --> 01:46:40
			speak to that if possible.
		
01:46:45 --> 01:46:47
			Let let let let let sister Ruby go.
		
01:46:47 --> 01:46:49
			That that Sister Ruby, go ahead. What say
		
01:46:49 --> 01:46:51
			you what say you to this? There too.
		
01:46:51 --> 01:46:53
			Yeah. There's something there.
		
01:46:53 --> 01:46:55
			I wanted to just sort of
		
01:46:56 --> 01:47:00
			reply to the, red flag as the lonely
		
01:47:00 --> 01:47:00
			feeling.
		
01:47:01 --> 01:47:03
			And I would say that's a 100% true,
		
01:47:04 --> 01:47:05
			because
		
01:47:07 --> 01:47:09
			wives can be lonely.
		
01:47:10 --> 01:47:12
			Or if you're not married yet, you can
		
01:47:12 --> 01:47:14
			have you can be lonely in a family.
		
01:47:14 --> 01:47:16
			You can have people around you, and you
		
01:47:16 --> 01:47:18
			can still be lonely.
		
01:47:18 --> 01:47:21
			So the feeling of loneliness
		
01:47:23 --> 01:47:26
			does not come from people.
		
01:47:28 --> 01:47:29
			It doesn't.
		
01:47:30 --> 01:47:31
			The feeling
		
01:47:32 --> 01:47:32
			of loneliness
		
01:47:34 --> 01:47:36
			comes from a place called thought.
		
01:47:37 --> 01:47:38
			You're having
		
01:47:38 --> 01:47:39
			a thought
		
01:47:40 --> 01:47:43
			that you're thinking that you are feeling lonely
		
01:47:44 --> 01:47:47
			because of this guy not saying anything.
		
01:47:48 --> 01:47:50
			No. No. No. No. No. No.
		
01:47:51 --> 01:47:53
			This guy might have all sorts on his
		
01:47:53 --> 01:47:53
			mind.
		
01:47:54 --> 01:47:54
			Okay?
		
01:47:55 --> 01:47:57
			You know, he he his his mind is
		
01:47:57 --> 01:47:58
			busy elsewhere maybe.
		
01:47:59 --> 01:48:00
			But that
		
01:48:01 --> 01:48:02
			feeling of our loneliness,
		
01:48:04 --> 01:48:05
			it is not coming from him.
		
01:48:07 --> 01:48:10
			100% wrong. And when we see that,
		
01:48:10 --> 01:48:11
			then
		
01:48:12 --> 01:48:14
			we get out of our own way
		
01:48:15 --> 01:48:15
			first,
		
01:48:16 --> 01:48:17
			and then we have a connection.
		
01:48:18 --> 01:48:20
			And that's where the conversation starts.
		
01:48:22 --> 01:48:25
			I love that. I love that. And,
		
01:48:25 --> 01:48:27
			subhanAllah, just the
		
01:48:27 --> 01:48:29
			the the bit that I wanted to kind
		
01:48:29 --> 01:48:31
			of just alert
		
01:48:31 --> 01:48:33
			whoever feels this way too is
		
01:48:34 --> 01:48:35
			just be aware
		
01:48:36 --> 01:48:38
			that as sister Ruby said,
		
01:48:38 --> 01:48:41
			whatever you are thinking about what's happening is
		
01:48:41 --> 01:48:43
			what's impacting the way you feel. Right? It's
		
01:48:43 --> 01:48:46
			your thoughts that create the feelings and the
		
01:48:46 --> 01:48:46
			emotions.
		
01:48:47 --> 01:48:48
			So for example,
		
01:48:48 --> 01:48:50
			when we have expectations
		
01:48:50 --> 01:48:53
			for example of the zing and the zing.
		
01:48:53 --> 01:48:54
			Okay.
		
01:48:54 --> 01:48:55
			If you guys know what the zing and
		
01:48:55 --> 01:48:58
			the zing is it's like that lightning chemistry
		
01:48:58 --> 01:48:59
			when you, you know, you look in someone's
		
01:48:59 --> 01:49:01
			eyes and you know
		
01:49:01 --> 01:49:04
			he's the one. Right? Or you know, you
		
01:49:04 --> 01:49:06
			you've met your soul mate and he just
		
01:49:06 --> 01:49:09
			gets you. You know, like he just understands
		
01:49:09 --> 01:49:11
			me, right? All of that stuff that we
		
01:49:11 --> 01:49:13
			read about and we hear in the songs
		
01:49:13 --> 01:49:14
			and everything.
		
01:49:15 --> 01:49:15
			If
		
01:49:16 --> 01:49:18
			you are looking for that feeling,
		
01:49:20 --> 01:49:21
			you may,
		
01:49:22 --> 01:49:22
			a,
		
01:49:24 --> 01:49:25
			miss red flags
		
01:49:25 --> 01:49:28
			because you're so invested in chasing a feeling.
		
01:49:28 --> 01:49:31
			Whatever that feeling is, the feeling of not
		
01:49:31 --> 01:49:33
			feeling lonely, the feeling of being desired, the
		
01:49:33 --> 01:49:35
			feeling of being wanted, the feeling of being
		
01:49:35 --> 01:49:36
			seen,
		
01:49:36 --> 01:49:37
			all of these feelings,
		
01:49:39 --> 01:49:41
			when we're chasing those feelings, it can lead
		
01:49:41 --> 01:49:43
			us to ignore real red flags. Okay? Like
		
01:49:43 --> 01:49:46
			real red flags, flaws in someone's character.
		
01:49:47 --> 01:49:48
			Clear incompatibility.
		
01:49:48 --> 01:49:51
			Right? Clearly not being on the same page.
		
01:49:51 --> 01:49:54
			Clear, you know, wrong intentions and all of
		
01:49:54 --> 01:49:55
			that kind of thing. So sisters,
		
01:49:56 --> 01:49:57
			just a word of advice,
		
01:49:57 --> 01:50:00
			be very careful of chasing feelings,
		
01:50:00 --> 01:50:03
			okay, when you going into looking for a
		
01:50:03 --> 01:50:05
			a spouse. Because subhanAllah,
		
01:50:06 --> 01:50:08
			if there's anything that I've learned, you know,
		
01:50:08 --> 01:50:10
			over the years and masha'Allah from all my
		
01:50:10 --> 01:50:12
			wonderful sisters and other sisters who've been in
		
01:50:12 --> 01:50:14
			20 almost 30 year marriages
		
01:50:15 --> 01:50:17
			is that feelings change.
		
01:50:18 --> 01:50:21
			Emotions go up and down and emotions are
		
01:50:21 --> 01:50:24
			constantly changing all around us. And the the
		
01:50:24 --> 01:50:25
			feelings and the emotions,
		
01:50:25 --> 01:50:27
			they are not the things that keep you
		
01:50:27 --> 01:50:30
			going. They're not the things that, you know,
		
01:50:30 --> 01:50:32
			that that that make anything last. It's
		
01:50:33 --> 01:50:35
			the intention. It's the commitment. It's the dedication.
		
01:50:36 --> 01:50:38
			It's the loyalty. It's the hard work. And
		
01:50:38 --> 01:50:40
			all of that stuff is not feelings. It's
		
01:50:40 --> 01:50:42
			it's a decision. Right? So the first thing
		
01:50:42 --> 01:50:44
			I would say is that don't chase feelings.
		
01:50:44 --> 01:50:46
			And the second thing I would say is
		
01:50:47 --> 01:50:48
			don't expect
		
01:50:48 --> 01:50:50
			to get all of the things that you
		
01:50:50 --> 01:50:51
			think
		
01:50:52 --> 01:50:54
			is, is what a normal, you know, interaction
		
01:50:54 --> 01:50:56
			is like the spark, like the feeling of
		
01:50:56 --> 01:50:58
			being seen or all of these things. Don't
		
01:50:58 --> 01:51:00
			expect all of those
		
01:51:00 --> 01:51:02
			when you first meet someone.
		
01:51:03 --> 01:51:05
			If you don't, those things,
		
01:51:05 --> 01:51:07
			all of a sudden you're disappointed.
		
01:51:07 --> 01:51:10
			You think this is not the one, you
		
01:51:10 --> 01:51:11
			know, there's, there's a, you know, it's, it's
		
01:51:11 --> 01:51:14
			not right. It's not right. But really what
		
01:51:14 --> 01:51:15
			we should be doing, and I wanna give
		
01:51:15 --> 01:51:18
			game to my young sisters, especially in this
		
01:51:18 --> 01:51:20
			this who are just going into marriage. Get
		
01:51:20 --> 01:51:22
			clear on what the marriage is about. What
		
01:51:22 --> 01:51:23
			marriage is about.
		
01:51:24 --> 01:51:26
			What you want to build.
		
01:51:26 --> 01:51:28
			What kind of person you want to build
		
01:51:28 --> 01:51:30
			with. Not the laundry list,
		
01:51:30 --> 01:51:33
			but the bare basics. The foundation.
		
01:51:34 --> 01:51:36
			Right? What kind of life do you want
		
01:51:36 --> 01:51:37
			to live? What is it you want to
		
01:51:37 --> 01:51:40
			go to Allah with? And what kind of
		
01:51:40 --> 01:51:42
			man do you want to build that with?
		
01:51:42 --> 01:51:44
			And use that as your as your as
		
01:51:44 --> 01:51:47
			your kind of checklist rather than all the
		
01:51:47 --> 01:51:50
			the the romantic fairy tale fantasy stuff.
		
01:51:50 --> 01:51:53
			The real stuff that makes a difference in
		
01:51:53 --> 01:51:55
			the long term. Because a feeling is a
		
01:51:55 --> 01:51:57
			feeling. And trust me that feeling can dissipate
		
01:51:57 --> 01:51:58
			within 3 months.
		
01:51:58 --> 01:52:01
			Right? And and the feeling can come within
		
01:52:01 --> 01:52:03
			3 months as well. Right?
		
01:52:04 --> 01:52:06
			So I'm not saying you marry somebody who
		
01:52:06 --> 01:52:08
			you've got zero feelings for and there's no
		
01:52:08 --> 01:52:10
			spark whatsoever and you don't get along. Of
		
01:52:10 --> 01:52:13
			course not. But don't make the spark the
		
01:52:13 --> 01:52:14
			deciding factor.
		
01:52:14 --> 01:52:17
			Don't make the desire the deciding factor. Don't
		
01:52:17 --> 01:52:19
			make the zinger the zinger the deciding factor
		
01:52:20 --> 01:52:22
			because this is big work that you're embarking
		
01:52:22 --> 01:52:24
			on and you wanna make sure you're with
		
01:52:24 --> 01:52:25
			someone solid,
		
01:52:26 --> 01:52:26
			respectable,
		
01:52:27 --> 01:52:29
			dependable, committed.
		
01:52:29 --> 01:52:31
			That's the person that you wanna commit to.
		
01:52:31 --> 01:52:34
			And inshallah to Allah, remember that love, the
		
01:52:34 --> 01:52:35
			hearts are between the fingers of ar Rahman,
		
01:52:36 --> 01:52:38
			you know and allah puts that love between
		
01:52:38 --> 01:52:40
			us you know that he is the source
		
01:52:40 --> 01:52:41
			of that love subhanAllah.
		
01:52:41 --> 01:52:42
			Sorry if anybody wants to jump on that
		
01:52:42 --> 01:52:44
			we can and then if not we'll go
		
01:52:44 --> 01:52:45
			on to the next question. Sorry. I just
		
01:52:45 --> 01:52:46
			wanted to just insert that in there.
		
01:52:47 --> 01:52:48
			With regards
		
01:52:49 --> 01:52:51
			to the list that you were saying, you
		
01:52:51 --> 01:52:53
			know, you need to know where you're compromising
		
01:52:53 --> 01:52:56
			in that as well. You know. If conversation
		
01:52:56 --> 01:52:56
			and,
		
01:52:57 --> 01:52:59
			you know, one is is that person generally
		
01:52:59 --> 01:53:02
			quite quiet as well by personality?
		
01:53:03 --> 01:53:04
			My sister was saying to me yesterday, she
		
01:53:04 --> 01:53:06
			has a friend who's been married, like,
		
01:53:07 --> 01:53:08
			25, 30 years,
		
01:53:10 --> 01:53:12
			but her husband is very quiet,
		
01:53:12 --> 01:53:14
			very quiet, but they've got a good connection.
		
01:53:14 --> 01:53:16
			They've got a good marriage. They've got good
		
01:53:16 --> 01:53:18
			understanding. And her, his wife I mean, the
		
01:53:18 --> 01:53:20
			sister, she's very outspoken.
		
01:53:20 --> 01:53:23
			She's that's her personal personality, and that's his
		
01:53:23 --> 01:53:23
			personality.
		
01:53:25 --> 01:53:27
			And she's sometimes people they're laughing, you know,
		
01:53:27 --> 01:53:29
			whether they converse because he's just such a
		
01:53:29 --> 01:53:30
			quiet guy.
		
01:53:31 --> 01:53:32
			But they have their
		
01:53:33 --> 01:53:35
			they they know what they're invested in, and
		
01:53:35 --> 01:53:37
			I think this is something that's quite key
		
01:53:37 --> 01:53:39
			as well is that marriage is an investment,
		
01:53:40 --> 01:53:42
			you know, and you work for it. It's
		
01:53:42 --> 01:53:43
			not just the red carpet or a bed
		
01:53:43 --> 01:53:45
			of roses that just magically appears and says,
		
01:53:45 --> 01:53:48
			right, here we go. And this prince charming
		
01:53:48 --> 01:53:50
			is there. There's gonna be give and take.
		
01:53:50 --> 01:53:52
			So you have to see what other deal
		
01:53:52 --> 01:53:52
			breakers,
		
01:53:53 --> 01:53:55
			what other must haves, what's really important for
		
01:53:55 --> 01:53:57
			you for you. And I think this was
		
01:53:58 --> 01:53:59
			something that's really important is that we and
		
01:53:59 --> 01:54:01
			I think some of the sisters were saying
		
01:54:01 --> 01:54:03
			here as well is finding themselves. If you
		
01:54:03 --> 01:54:06
			know who you are and what you need,
		
01:54:06 --> 01:54:08
			then it's easier to know
		
01:54:08 --> 01:54:09
			what you're looking for.
		
01:54:10 --> 01:54:12
			What are the must haves? What are the
		
01:54:12 --> 01:54:12
			compromises?
		
01:54:13 --> 01:54:16
			And sometimes Allah brings certain people to you
		
01:54:16 --> 01:54:16
			that you think,
		
01:54:17 --> 01:54:20
			nah, this one's not right. But sometimes Allah
		
01:54:20 --> 01:54:22
			not sometimes. Obviously, Allah knows best.
		
01:54:23 --> 01:54:25
			Sometimes we think that something's bad, but there's
		
01:54:25 --> 01:54:26
			good in it.
		
01:54:26 --> 01:54:28
			Some so we have to look what's the
		
01:54:28 --> 01:54:31
			main picture here. The guy he's on deen,
		
01:54:31 --> 01:54:32
			he's praying.
		
01:54:33 --> 01:54:34
			These are like,
		
01:54:34 --> 01:54:37
			no. I'm not gonna compromise on this. He's,
		
01:54:37 --> 01:54:38
			financially stable.
		
01:54:40 --> 01:54:42
			And then it might just be, okay, dude,
		
01:54:42 --> 01:54:43
			it's a little bit quiet. But you have
		
01:54:43 --> 01:54:46
			to understand yourself first. Can you be with
		
01:54:46 --> 01:54:48
			someone who's not really responding?
		
01:54:49 --> 01:54:51
			And I think that that's what you have
		
01:54:51 --> 01:54:53
			to see is when you have the conversation,
		
01:54:53 --> 01:54:56
			see what his expectations are, what's his long
		
01:54:56 --> 01:54:58
			term goals in the marriage, common goals? Maybe
		
01:54:58 --> 01:55:01
			he's someone who doesn't wanna at home educate,
		
01:55:05 --> 01:55:07
			you know, but this is something you're very
		
01:55:07 --> 01:55:10
			passionate about. You know, so understand what what
		
01:55:10 --> 01:55:10
			you want,
		
01:55:11 --> 01:55:12
			and I think that will kind of give
		
01:55:12 --> 01:55:14
			you a lot of clarity, but you're not
		
01:55:14 --> 01:55:15
			gonna get the complete package.
		
01:55:16 --> 01:55:17
			No matter how much you
		
01:55:17 --> 01:55:20
			create it in your head, that sometimes creating
		
01:55:20 --> 01:55:22
			false expectations for yourself as well.
		
01:55:25 --> 01:55:26
			100%.
		
01:55:27 --> 01:55:29
			I would like one of you to answer
		
01:55:29 --> 01:55:31
			this very important question if you can.
		
01:55:31 --> 01:55:34
			And that is explaining the notion of marriage
		
01:55:34 --> 01:55:35
			being half one's deen.
		
01:55:38 --> 01:55:40
			So this has been one thing that when
		
01:55:40 --> 01:55:42
			I think about it, I want to hold
		
01:55:42 --> 01:55:44
			on to my marriage despite the hardship.
		
01:55:44 --> 01:55:47
			Anybody feel equipped to answer this?
		
01:55:48 --> 01:55:50
			If not, we'll move it to another day.
		
01:55:50 --> 01:55:53
			But does anybody feel equipped to answer just
		
01:55:53 --> 01:55:54
			need like an Emmy answer?
		
01:55:55 --> 01:55:57
			Because the marriage being half your dean is
		
01:55:57 --> 01:55:59
			quite quite a a deep statement.
		
01:56:00 --> 01:56:03
			I I can speak from on that matter
		
01:56:03 --> 01:56:04
			from my perspective.
		
01:56:08 --> 01:56:08
			We
		
01:56:09 --> 01:56:10
			are always,
		
01:56:11 --> 01:56:13
			like you said beautifully, just just,
		
01:56:14 --> 01:56:16
			few minutes ago that we are chasing a
		
01:56:16 --> 01:56:16
			feeling.
		
01:56:17 --> 01:56:19
			We're always chasing a feeling.
		
01:56:20 --> 01:56:21
			We're always wanting to feel happy.
		
01:56:22 --> 01:56:24
			And a lot of the times I hear
		
01:56:24 --> 01:56:27
			conversations even from scholars saying, oh, you've got
		
01:56:27 --> 01:56:29
			to make each other
		
01:56:29 --> 01:56:30
			happy.
		
01:56:32 --> 01:56:33
			Make
		
01:56:33 --> 01:56:34
			each other happy.
		
01:56:35 --> 01:56:36
			Well,
		
01:56:36 --> 01:56:38
			that that puts a lot of burden on
		
01:56:38 --> 01:56:42
			you. Like you are responsible for making somebody
		
01:56:42 --> 01:56:42
			else happy.
		
01:56:43 --> 01:56:45
			Like, and then when you don't feel happy,
		
01:56:45 --> 01:56:47
			you think, oh, it's your fault.
		
01:56:47 --> 01:56:50
			You're the reason that I'm not happy.
		
01:56:50 --> 01:56:51
			But on the other side,
		
01:56:53 --> 01:56:56
			we all know where happiness comes from.
		
01:56:56 --> 01:56:57
			That's the almighty.
		
01:56:58 --> 01:57:00
			Love, happiness does not come from people.
		
01:57:02 --> 01:57:04
			And this is a myth
		
01:57:04 --> 01:57:07
			that people think that they're going into a
		
01:57:07 --> 01:57:07
			marriage
		
01:57:09 --> 01:57:09
			accepting,
		
01:57:10 --> 01:57:10
			wanting,
		
01:57:11 --> 01:57:11
			feeling
		
01:57:12 --> 01:57:12
			happy,
		
01:57:13 --> 01:57:14
			love, whatever feeling.
		
01:57:15 --> 01:57:16
			So marriage,
		
01:57:16 --> 01:57:17
			half your deen
		
01:57:18 --> 01:57:19
			is knowing
		
01:57:20 --> 01:57:21
			who you really are,
		
01:57:23 --> 01:57:23
			is knowing
		
01:57:24 --> 01:57:25
			within,
		
01:57:26 --> 01:57:27
			is knowing yourself.
		
01:57:28 --> 01:57:31
			And if you know yourself
		
01:57:33 --> 01:57:34
			within from within,
		
01:57:35 --> 01:57:36
			you are already halfway there.
		
01:57:37 --> 01:57:40
			You are halfway already there. And the rest
		
01:57:40 --> 01:57:43
			of the half, obviously, all the practical stuff
		
01:57:43 --> 01:57:44
			that you do,
		
01:57:44 --> 01:57:46
			supporting each other, doing everything
		
01:57:47 --> 01:57:48
			that is a barber,
		
01:57:48 --> 01:57:51
			everything that you want to do as a
		
01:57:51 --> 01:57:54
			team, everything, all that's there. But before you
		
01:57:54 --> 01:57:57
			go into a marriage, marriage is half your
		
01:57:57 --> 01:57:57
			deen,
		
01:57:59 --> 01:57:59
			is
		
01:58:00 --> 01:58:00
			knowing
		
01:58:01 --> 01:58:01
			yourself.
		
01:58:04 --> 01:58:07
			It's knowing yourself before you go into a
		
01:58:07 --> 01:58:09
			marriage. And when you get into the marriage,
		
01:58:10 --> 01:58:12
			wow. Wow. Because I wish I had known
		
01:58:12 --> 01:58:15
			that before I got married.
		
01:58:17 --> 01:58:17
			Honestly,
		
01:58:18 --> 01:58:19
			that that is
		
01:58:20 --> 01:58:22
			the game changer. That is the whole
		
01:58:24 --> 01:58:25
			the the,
		
01:58:26 --> 01:58:29
			what someone says, like, what everybody's looking for.
		
01:58:30 --> 01:58:31
			Lexia.
		
01:58:34 --> 01:58:34
			The.
		
01:58:37 --> 01:58:38
			Yep. Yep.
		
01:58:38 --> 01:58:39
			100%,
		
01:58:40 --> 01:58:42
			the importance of knowing yourself. Yes, Zayn. Have
		
01:58:42 --> 01:58:43
			you had your hand?
		
01:58:44 --> 01:58:46
			Yeah. I wanted to add to
		
01:58:47 --> 01:58:48
			what Ruby
		
01:58:48 --> 01:58:50
			said to respond to that question.
		
01:58:51 --> 01:58:53
			The moment the the first marriage was in
		
01:58:55 --> 01:58:57
			the moment I realized the reason why I
		
01:58:57 --> 01:58:59
			was able to make the decision to leave
		
01:58:59 --> 01:59:00
			the marriage
		
01:59:00 --> 01:59:02
			was when I realized that
		
01:59:03 --> 01:59:05
			I could get to Jannah,
		
01:59:05 --> 01:59:06
			Insha'Allah,
		
01:59:06 --> 01:59:08
			even if I was not married.
		
01:59:11 --> 01:59:13
			That's what I wanted to say.
		
01:59:15 --> 01:59:18
			Interesting that you say that, SubhanAllah, ladim.
		
01:59:18 --> 01:59:19
			Because I wonder
		
01:59:20 --> 01:59:21
			how many of us
		
01:59:23 --> 01:59:23
			who are
		
01:59:24 --> 01:59:25
			not as happy
		
01:59:26 --> 01:59:28
			as we'd like to be since this is,
		
01:59:28 --> 01:59:31
			you know, we're not as happy, satisfied as
		
01:59:31 --> 01:59:33
			we'd like to be for whatever reason.
		
01:59:34 --> 01:59:35
			I wonder if
		
01:59:36 --> 01:59:36
			I have a friend
		
01:59:37 --> 01:59:38
			and her husband,
		
01:59:38 --> 01:59:39
			remarried.
		
01:59:39 --> 01:59:41
			It was very, very hard for her, and
		
01:59:42 --> 01:59:44
			she she she's still working through it, I
		
01:59:44 --> 01:59:48
			think. But she had a baseline. Right? And
		
01:59:48 --> 01:59:50
			this was her baseline. If it makes sense
		
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			for you, Alhamdulillah, take it. You know, sister
		
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			Zaina, what you said is is really really
		
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			powerful mash'Allah.
		
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			But she just said,
		
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			as long as I can worship Allah,
		
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			I'm keeping my family together.
		
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			As long as I'm okay here and I'm
		
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			okay here to continue worshiping Allah
		
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			and nothing in this situation stops me. Either
		
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			emotionally,
		
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			mentally, spiritually, or physically.
		
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			Nothing stopping me from worshiping Allah and being
		
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			the best version of myself.
		
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			I will not break my home. I'm not
		
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			I'm not going to give up on, you
		
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			know, what we've built. Alhamdulillah. So that was
		
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			her baseline.
		
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			And I thought that that was a really
		
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			I found that very admirable actually.
		
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			Because as you said, most of us are
		
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			chasing a feeling.
		
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			And there's a question here about a spouse
		
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			who is reluctant to grow.
		
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			Okay.
		
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			Meaning
		
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			personal development,
		
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			spiritual, mental, physical.
		
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			So in this case, the husband doesn't stop
		
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			her, but over time their interests have diverged.
		
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			There's a huge issue that we keep seeing
		
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			again and again in the community.
		
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			I've talked about it a lot, but I
		
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			would love to know maybe in our this
		
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			can be our last question.
		
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			You know, would your answer be to that
		
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			sister?
		
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			Spouse doesn't want to take do the the
		
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			personal development work. He's not interested. He doesn't
		
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			stop her, but he himself is not interested.
		
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			And so now their interests have diverged. So,
		
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			obviously, as far as she's concerned, this is
		
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			a problem. What do you guys say to
		
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			Zayna?
		
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			I see you.
		
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			My husband doesn't do personal development.
		
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			Preach it.
		
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			He doesn't.
		
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			And personal development
		
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			is
		
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			our generation. Right?
		
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			Mhmm. In the past,
		
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			didn't we have
		
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			people who transformed?
		
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			There wasn't personal
		
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			development.
		
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			So
		
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			just like we shouldn't should ourselves into I
		
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			should be growing, I should be transforming,
		
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			I shouldn't be here, I should have grown,
		
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			We shouldn't be shooting our husbands.
		
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			Then the other thing,
		
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			which seems to have flown out of my
		
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			head, I was gonna say, okay, now I
		
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			remember is that
		
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			transformation
		
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			comes from Allah
		
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			at his time,
		
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			and that's it.
		
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			It's not in your hands.
		
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			Just dropped the mic.
		
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			Oh, but, Isa, what do you say to
		
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			that?
		
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			Well, it can be said after that. You
		
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			know, I think it's a beautiful thing that
		
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			everyone's on their journey and character
		
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			building,
		
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			actions speak louder than words.
		
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			You keep developing yourself,
		
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			investing in yourself,
		
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			keep trying to nurture yourself
		
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			in your deen, in your iman,
		
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			and in your
		
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			love and obedience to him,
		
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			inshallah,
		
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			that's
		
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			that's
		
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			he will learn because why? Because you will
		
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			then become the company of Musk around him.
		
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			You know? If you are husband and wife,
		
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			you know, they say be careful of your
		
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			company. You know, because you rub off onto
		
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			each other.
		
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			So even though he may not be invested
		
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			but he's not preventing you from something,
		
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			he is then still benefiting from your beautiful
		
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			fragrance
		
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			of your character.
		
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			That you the person said I was not
		
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			sent except for what? Perfecting the character.
		
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			So investing in character building
		
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			and investing in your own personal development,
		
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			this is a noble thing. This is a
		
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			it's from the dean. But we can't if
		
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			we're on a journey, we can't then
		
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			expect
		
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			them to be on the same thing.
		
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			The fact that he's not preventing you from,
		
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			your own personal development, it's a beautiful thing.
		
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			He's on his journey, and you're on yours.
		
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			And he is going at his pace. You're
		
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			going at yours.
		
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			And and and and this is how Allah
		
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			has created us at different
		
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			levels. Not everyone could be an alim, not
		
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			everyone could be a scholar, not everyone could
		
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			be a sports person, not everyone could be
		
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			a well, I was gonna say writer, but
		
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			I wouldn't say that one because,
		
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			someone's saying this.
		
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			As we know,
		
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			now you must say there's a writer within
		
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			everyone.
		
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			But,
		
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			you know, so we have been designed for
		
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			different things. So he may not be so
		
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			invested in his own personal development that there'll
		
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			be another hair in him.
		
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			And this is the advice of the prophet
		
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			that
		
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			if there's something you dislike
		
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			within your partner
		
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			or your spouse,
		
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			not spouse as in as in your wife
		
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			who's addressing the Sahaba here, then look to
		
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			something better.
		
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			Allah
		
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			hasn't made us 100% bad, you know. We
		
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			are Muslim.
		
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			We have hair in us. Allah
		
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			saw our hearts and saw hair in us
		
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			that he guided us over much of mankind.
		
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			Subhanallah, this alone is a niyama. The Allah
		
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			has seen something in him by making him
		
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			Muslim.
		
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			That given him the blessing of Hidayah and
		
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			guidance.
		
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			So let us also look to the good
		
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			and try and bring out the good, inshallah,
		
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			and celebrate it and appreciate it.
		
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			I think you're on mute,
		
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			Naima. I know you're talking because you see
		
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			the hand like that. Yes. The hands came
		
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			out. The hand. No. I mean, I I
		
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			feel I feel very strongly about this.
		
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			And the reason I do is because I
		
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			know how
		
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			your own perception of as sister Zainab said,
		
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			you know, you should want to do x
		
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			y zed. Right? We should want to do.
		
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			And I'm sure there are husbands who will
		
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			listen to this whose wives have said to
		
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			them, but don't you want to be better?
		
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			Don't you want to improve? We should. As
		
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			muslims, we should we should. Right? And sometimes
		
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			it's an Islamic thing. A lot of the
		
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			time it's not an Islamic thing if we're
		
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			honest.
		
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			I mean these types of questions
		
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			and again, I could be wrong.
		
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			Happy to be corrected if I am. But
		
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			I'm not seeing these types of questions coming
		
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			from people who are studying deen
		
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			or doing heft of Quran. I'm not seeing
		
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			that. I'm seeing it from people who are
		
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			studying other things. Right? Maybe physical,
		
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			you know, up leveling physically, up leveling professionally.
		
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			Okay. Maybe confidence, maybe public speaking, maybe any
		
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			of the other things. Right? The other things
		
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			that we can, you know, we call personal
		
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			development, you know, whatever it is. So so
		
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			what I want to say, firstly, there's a
		
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			couple of things. There's one is that your
		
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			journey is your journey.
		
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			And it Alhamdulillah it's a that you have
		
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			the the the the
		
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			the drive
		
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			and the space
		
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			the the head space to go on that
		
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			journey. Alhamdulillah,
		
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			that's a blessing because a lot of people
		
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			don't have the drive and a lot of
		
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			people don't have the head space either because
		
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			they have too much responsibility or they're taking
		
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			care of too much, too many other commitments.
		
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			They can't even begin to think of investing
		
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			in themselves and, you know, and and taking
		
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			programs and going for courses and stuff like
		
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			that. So already you, masha Allah, you're privileged
		
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			and you're blessed.
		
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			The second thing I'd like to address is
		
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			this issue of our interests have diverged.
		
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			I'm sorry.
		
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			So what?
		
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			So you're reading Tony Robbins
		
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			and he doesn't read?
		
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			What's the big deal?
		
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			You 2 are not buddies. Yeah. You're not
		
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			buddies who have to have the same hobbies
		
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			and enjoy listening to the same lectures. It's
		
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			cool if you do,
		
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			but your work together is much much more
		
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			important than that.
		
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			You your interests
		
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			are,
		
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			each other and your children and your family.
		
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			Okay. And that's it. Anything else is a
		
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			bonus. Okay. I'm gonna just this is how
		
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			I see it. And why I keep saying
		
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			guys lower the expectations,
		
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			lower the expectations
		
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			because if we have
		
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			more realistic
		
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			expectations,
		
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			and in fact, I shouldn't say lower them,
		
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			manage them,
		
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			manage them,
		
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			right?
		
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			Manage the expectations
		
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			because it's those expectations
		
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			again and again, we're hearing
		
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			single speak can think. Our high expectations are
		
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			destroying us,
		
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			destroying our marriages. And when our marriage
		
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			does
		
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			the family is destroyed and it's, you know,
		
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			and I've, I'm going to keep saying this
		
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			again and again.
		
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			When you decide that you've had enough of
		
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			your husband,
		
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			when you decide that, you know what, I
		
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			deserve more or I can't deal with this
		
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			anymore or like it's too much. And when
		
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			you give up,
		
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			and we're not talking about extreme cases here
		
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			again, I have to preface this, but if
		
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			you check out,
		
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			you may find out on the other end
		
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			of your checking out, you feel so much
		
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			lighter. You feel so much better. Because now
		
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			you're not struggling anymore. You're not fighting. You're
		
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			not dealing with all of that la la
		
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			la la. However,
		
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			that's not where the story ends.
		
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			It's not happily ever after from that point
		
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			because when you break up a marriage,
		
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			it's not just you free of your husband,
		
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			your children,
		
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			your ex, who is now your ex,
		
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			your in laws, who were previously your in
		
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			laws, your family,
		
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			the whole ecosystem that was built around your
		
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			marriage
		
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			and this, this home that you built,
		
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			halas,
		
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			everyone suffers.
		
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			So sisters, when I say, yeah, we can't
		
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			afford to take the cavalier approach
		
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			to, to, to marriage and divorce that these
		
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			people out here do.
		
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			As at the moment,
		
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			it's perfectly reasonable for a woman to have
		
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			an epiphany phase and say, oh,
		
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			you know, I need more. I'm going to
		
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			travel to India. I want a divorce.
		
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			Who who's seen eat, pray, love? Okay. Who
		
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			knows this story. Right? This story of a
		
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			woman waking up one day looking in the
		
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			mirror and saying,
		
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			I deserve more. Or I never thought my
		
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			life would turn out this way. I need
		
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			to go and find myself. Oh really?
		
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			It's supposed to be this hero's journey. This
		
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			wonderful narrative of a woman's empowerment and her
		
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			liberation and all of this stuff.
		
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			They don't show what really happens.
		
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			They don't show what happens to the husband
		
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			who's been ditched for no reason except that
		
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			he was boring.
		
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			Right?
		
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			Except that he, Halas said, he couldn't give
		
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			her the lifestyle that she feels she deserves
		
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			or whatever or that he just didn't turn
		
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			out to be her fantasy. That's how he's
		
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			been ditched now by it. See you. And
		
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			then the
		
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			children. The children who no longer have their
		
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			father in their life full time.
		
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			Right? And we can talk about co parenting
		
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			and we can talk about all that. But
		
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			you guys know let's not fool ourselves.
		
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			When Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala explained to us
		
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			and showed us that divorce, yes it's allowed
		
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			but it's hated.
		
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			It's not because
		
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			every man and woman are gonna be happy
		
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			together. It's because of the compound effect of
		
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			breaking that union that came together for a
		
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			higher purpose to complete half their deen and
		
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			to build the next generation of Muslims.
		
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			So let's not get like,
		
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			let's not,
		
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			let's not fall into the traps
		
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			that are being set for us everywhere to
		
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			say divorce is easy. You know, it's a,
		
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			it's a freedom for you. And, you know,
		
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			at the end of the day, like, life
		
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			is better and all of this
		
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			is like this so much as goes with
		
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			that. It's a decision you never want to
		
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			take lightly. It's something that you never want
		
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			to take for a superficial
		
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			reasons. Or dunya wii reasons, you know, that
		
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			have really nothing to do with akhirah and
		
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			nothing to do with the reason that you
		
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			2 got together in the first place. I'm
		
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			sorry guys. If I come off like an
		
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			an angry old auntie, it's because I'm upset.
		
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			You know, and I and I want
		
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			I want us to be to wake up
		
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			and not get tricked
		
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			into making a decision
		
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			that we one day regret.
		
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			Because once you've made that decision
		
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			and a year later, somebody asks you about
		
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			like, you think it was the right thing
		
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			though? Of course, your pride will say, Alhamdulillah,
		
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			you know everything is from Allah.
		
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			You know, everything is from Allah.
		
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			We lost connection.
		
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			Okay.
		
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			I think
		
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			yeah. I think,
		
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			I think she's,
		
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			she's
		
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			she's
		
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			She's frozen with her hands on us.
		
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			Yeah.
		
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			Yeah. I think one thing I'd I'd like
		
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			to add to that the same.
		
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			Okay.
		
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			Yeah. I know.
		
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			We can let's just carry on because I
		
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			think we've all got things we can add
		
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			to that at the end anyway.
		
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			One one thing I'd like to
		
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			to add to that is, and I think
		
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			this is okay. This thing about getting a
		
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			divorce,
		
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			what she was saying, Sanema, about it's not
		
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			something I should be jumped into. Yes. I
		
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			know I did one, but I still don't
		
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			I have lots of women come to me
		
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			to say, I want to divorce my husband,
		
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			blah, blah, blah, all that.
		
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			Then I never say, yeah. Go ahead and
		
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			divorce.
		
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			Because
		
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			I did it. Yes. But it doesn't mean
		
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			that is the right thing for everyone.
		
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			Someone
		
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			I work with someone who was in a
		
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			marriage,
		
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			where she had left the marriage three times,
		
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			basically. Like, she left, came back, left, came
		
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			back, and all that.
		
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			And after the conversations together,
		
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			she said she's seen her own parts in
		
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			the whole dynamics,
		
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			and what she was how she was showing
		
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			up that wasn't creating a marriage that would
		
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			work, that wasn't creating a marriage she wanted.
		
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			And then she said to me, I want
		
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			this marriage to work. The reason why I
		
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			mentioned this example is because she's someone who
		
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			is financially, basically, running the house.
		
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			So what it means is that
		
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			it's not the circumstances.
		
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			Of the marriage,
		
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			but how you are within and how you're
		
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			showing up in the marriage. So yeah. Yeah.
		
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			That's what everybody's doing. And the other thing
		
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			is that looking for more, that more is
		
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			an illusion.
		
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			There isn't any more
		
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			anywhere.
		
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			Everything you need is within.
		
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			And, yeah, that's what I wanted to add
		
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			to what she's I'm still here listening.
		
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			On on the on the on the development
		
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			of personal development and
		
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			specific on the question, obviously, I don't know
		
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			the context around it. It said,
		
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			I didn't
		
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			get the feeling that there was anything going
		
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			on behind
		
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			it, but it was just a sister that
		
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			started
		
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			wanting to grow herself,
		
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			profession,
		
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			in all aspects of her life. Obviously, I've
		
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			said earlier in the conversation in regards to
		
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			bringing your husband on board if you're doing
		
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			something, but she's no she's they've noted there
		
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			that her husband is supportive of what she's
		
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			doing
		
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			in her growth.
		
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			And to me, that is one of the
		
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			best things you can have because you could
		
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			have a husband there that's like, I don't
		
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			wanna do it. I don't wanna do it.
		
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			Maybe he's got his own reason. It's like
		
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			sister Naomi said, you know, he could be
		
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			worked. He I don't look. So we don't
		
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			have the context around context around it. But
		
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			when you say growth,
		
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			he doesn't want to grow. Maybe he doesn't
		
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			need to grow right now.
		
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			Maybe
		
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			that's not
		
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			his path right
		
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			now.
		
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			And then this is physically,
		
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			you know, scrutiny. There are a lot of
		
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			things. There are a lot of
		
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			programs,
		
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			and there's a lot of things again
		
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			from the base
		
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			about, you know, moving on.
		
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			Growing into different people and things like that.
		
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			So I think we need to look at
		
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			what what do you want him to grow
		
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			into?
		
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			What are you looking for him to grow
		
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			into?
		
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			Obviously, you're growing as a person. Maybe he's
		
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			not what do you want him to grow
		
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			into because you've always said that I want
		
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			him to grow
		
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			mentally, physically. I wanna pay to grow for
		
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			he's as I wanna grow himself. What's wrong
		
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			with him at the moment? That's what I
		
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			mean. Maybe he's thinking, hang on a second.
		
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			I'm working. I'm doing this. I'm doing that.
		
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			And you want me to do this as
		
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			well? So it's like it's just thinking about
		
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			what the other person wants and where they
		
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			are at the moment.
		
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			It could also be that he's just comfortable
		
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			where he is. You know? He's just not
		
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			And he's supporting me.
		
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			Yep.
		
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			Yeah. He's not on that And I think
		
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			it speaks to that that same thing that
		
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			we were talking about about wanting to control
		
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			our husbands
		
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			and feeling like we need to pull them
		
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			up. We need to raise them. We need
		
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			to bring them up to our standard, our
		
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			level.
		
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			And, yeah, I mean, from a man's point
		
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			of view, to be honest, I can imagine
		
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			it being so off putting,
		
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			if that's how it's received, You know? It
		
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			could not be received that way. It could
		
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			be that you have that that relationship where
		
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			you guys, you know, that's just how you
		
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			how you roll.
		
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			But anyway,
		
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			ladies, you know, we could probably go on
		
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			for an hour or 2.
		
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			But, it has been just absolutely fantastic.
		
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			Oh, I've enjoyed this session so much.
		
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			Sister Sarah,
		
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			Zaynah, Ruby. It's our first time together.
		
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			Many of us, it's our first time kind
		
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			of seeing and meeting each other, but I
		
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			just feel
		
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			just so much so much
		
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			groundedness
		
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			on this panel.
		
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			So I really appreciate every single one of
		
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			you for taking the time to come out
		
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			and share with our younger sisters. I pray
		
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			this is not the last time. I know
		
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			it's not gonna be the last time insha'Allah
		
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			even if some have to be dragged kicking
		
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			and screaming
		
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			kicking and screaming to the stream insha
		
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			Allah but may Allah bless every single one
		
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			of you in your all your affairs.
		
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			Bless your marriages give you another 10, 15,
		
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			20, 30 years,
		
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			and may you open the fast with your
		
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			grandchildren.
		
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			And everybody who's here, thank you so much
		
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			for rocking with us.
		
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			It's been a great evening. Thank you so
		
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			much for your attention today.
		
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			Make sure that you let other people know
		
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			about this. We have a whole day of
		
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			talks again tomorrow,
		
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			and insha'Allah
		
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			we want to see you guys there and
		
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			all we need to do insha'Allah please do
		
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			like the video leave a comment, share that
		
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			link with somebody else, and subscribe to the
		
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			channel. And ladies,
		
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			also the other side inshallah. Jazakamalahu
		
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			Khairn. Have a
		
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			Thank
		
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			you.
		
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			I love that.
		
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			I love that. I loved
		
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			it. Are we offline? I loved it. Thank
		
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			you so much. That was so, so cool.
		
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			No one offline yet. We're still on YouTube.
		
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			Hold on a second.