Maryam Amir – Youre not worshipping a feeling youre worshipping Allah

The Prophet sallallahu, alayhi wa sallam is leading maglib salah,

and he says this, ayah, am julipum in lady Shay in Mhm.

Or were they created by nothing? Or are they their own creators?

This verse and the ones following it speak about Allah's creation

art. How He created us? Did they create the heavens and the earth?

Did we? Did we create the heavens and the earth? Allah is asking

these, these type of rhetorical questions, and Juba anhu, he is

hearing this as the Prophet saw them as leading and then he says

that it was the first time he felt his heart fly. The first time he

felt his heart fly as he is feeling his Eman. So he believed,

but he didn't have that like flying heart experience until this

moment with the Prophet, saw them, and when we say he believed, it

meant he was already a companion of the Prophet. So I said that

this is a companion who's seeing. The Prophet SAW who's who's with

the Prophet, sallAllahu, alayhi wa sallam. But this is the moment

that he really felt it in his heart, the emotional moment that

all of us seek in Ramadan. And the reason why I want to start with

this story is because we are, at the end of Ramadan, Alhamdulillah

Allah blessed and honored us with witnessing. And many of us at this

point are wondering if we've wasted all of Ramadan, or we don't

feel like we've had an emotional connection to Ramadan. And let's

be honest, we are witnessing a genocide in in rasa. We are seeing

the oppression in Sudan and in Congo and in all different parts

of this OMA people here in the United States, we have so many

realities of pain and oppression, and with all of that, it does

affect your mental health. It does affect your ability to feel the

same way you might be able to feel otherwise, and the overwhelming

guilt at having safety and not being able to do anything to stop

a genocide that we're witnessing really, really affects our Any,

any, any human being who has a heart. It affects any person who

has a heart, on one level and on the other level, some people are

trying to protect themselves from the complete shutdown that they

have because they can't function when they witness it, and so they

have to shut it out, and then they feel guilty for the fact that they

are doing so there's those emotions are very real now, on top

of that, we are all struggling with our own things, and here at

celebrate mercy, when we did the Friday program at the beginning of

Ramadan, someone asked a question. It was an anonymous question, and

they said they have a habit, a bad habit, of binging and purging.

They binge and they purge. And when they binge and purge, which

means that they they eat and then they vomit,

they promised to Allah that they're not going to be doing that

this Ramadan, and on the first day of Ramadan, they did so, and when

they did, they felt so bad, because they felt like Allah

wouldn't want to answer their dua, or wouldn't want them to pray,

because they loved the habit More than they loved a lot. Like, if

they loved a lot more, they would have just been able to stop the

habit of not binging and purging. And we discussed at that time that

binging and purging eating disorders are not a bad habit. We

would never say to someone with cancer, you just need to love a

lot more and then it will go away. No, we national support. We need

doctors, we need treatment. We need therapy. And there can be

times that even fasting with an eating disorder can be dangerous

for you. So consulting with a scholar who is aware of your

reality and eating disorders and working with a therapist doctor is

so important. But when someone gets to this part of Ramadan the

end and they are struggling with an eating disorder, or you have

children, and someone messaged me saying they have children with

special needs, and it's been very hard for them to focus. You know,

even for five minutes on Ramadan, because they are always on, they

always have to be on for the protection of their children in

their particular circumstance, when you are someone who is caring

for a parent and you are worried about your parent, or maybe you've

spent this part of Ramadan in a hospital, when you are somebody

who has been trying to focus. And you've, you've tried, and you you

have, but you haven't been able to get to where you want to go. And

now it's the 27th and you feel like you've wasted all of Ramadan

in all of those circumstances, or whatever your circumstance is. I

want you to remember Jube. I want you to go back to his story,

because this is a companion of the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa

sallam. This is someone who loved the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa

salam. This is someone who absolutely had the

commitment to Islam, and yet he didn't say every single time I

heard the Quran I was weeping, he didn't say every time I prayed

behind the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa salam. I felt a special

connection. Of course they did. They're the companions. Of course

they did. But at the same time,

why did he tell us that it was in that moment his heart was flying

I want us to give ourselves permission to worship Allah.

ALA, and that our worship, the action of the worship, is a

testimony to our love for Allah, even if we are not a puddle of

tears because our iman taste so sweet when we differentiate

between I'm going to be so committed to the act. I'm going to

be so committed to my belief that I will continue to act, and if I

make a mistake, I will, I will repent. And did you know that it

is unbecoming of a believer? The other day, I had my I had, I had,

I was doing Quran with one, with one of my teachers. Name is Chef

Abdul lady. Many of you, I'm sure are aware of him, masha Allah,

tabakola, he has one of the shortest sentence of the world.

And we were talking, and I said something about myself. I was

like, oh. And I said something that was about my own insecurity,

and he responded, and he said, It is not allowed for a believer to

put themselves down. He said, You are not allowed to put yourself

down. There's a difference between humility and there's a difference

between putting yourself down and when we put ourselves down and

when we constantly think that we are not good enough for Allah, and

we haven't been weeping enough and we didn't feel rumbled on the way

we want to. I want us to remember to give ourselves permission to

focus on the action. Are you still going to be committed to the

Quran, even if you don't feel like your heart is flying? Are you

still going to pray every single salah, even if you don't feel like

while you're praying, you have this overwhelming, overflowing

love for Allah, because you do have it. That's why you're

praying. You do have the commitment. That's why you care.

You do want to feel it. That's why you feel guilty. So instead of

focusing on the fact that you are chasing a feeling that is not

required, you are not worshiping a feeling. You're not worshiping a

feeling, you are worshiping Allah. And what else? What more to affirm

the fact that you are worshiping Allah than the fact that you don't

feel the feeling, and you're still going you're not chasing the

feeling, you are chasing Allah's pleasure. You're not worshiping to

Allah. You are worshiping with him. You are worshiping walking

with Allah. You are working for the sake of Allah, span Tala, with

Allah. Allah is your goal. Getting to Allah's final is your goal. And

what does Allah tell us? You do the action that is how we come

closest to him, and then the extra. And the extra is how that

love continues. The extra is how that love increases. So if you are

at this part of Ramadan, and you are hating yourself, and you have

so much self loathing, I want you to remember jubeirah, a companion

of the Prophet Salla salah, felt it in a moment inshallah. Once in

a while, you'll feel that moment inshallah. We all will. But

whether or not we feel it, we are committed. We are committed to our

love for Allah through action, our love to Allah, our love for Allah.

Are being obsessed with Allah through our action, and you're

already doing that. That's why you're here. And another action

you can do tonight is donate generously to celebrate mercy.

Celebrate mercy is an amazing organization that is allowing for

all of us to come together in community this panel. What a gift

on the 27th or whatever, whatever it is for you to come and remember

ALLAH, please invest and celebrate mercy tonight and Inshallah, that

reward of your investment will be multiplied you.