Maryam Amir – Your Heart and the Quran

Maryam Amir
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The Quran is positively impacting people at different age groups and has an emotional impact on their lives. It is important to teach the Quran in order to make it more impactful and meaningful for people, as well as to avoid getting hit by snakes. The speakers discuss the difficulties of working in a busy atmosphere and the importance of bringing a complete Arabic musthave with them. They also discuss the importance of understanding the Quran in Islam and the difficulties of working in a busy atmosphere.
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We don't feel like we can actually connect, and one of the reasons is

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because we don't look at this book as a relationship, just like any

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relationship, like your mom, your dad, a sister, a brother, you

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might mess up. Your parents might hate you sometimes, and you might

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hate your parents sometimes. But does that mean you want to

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completely disown them, maybe sometimes, yes, but in general, in

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general, no. There's still something that keeps you together,

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whether or not you feel like you deserve that relationship. There's

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something that ties you together. With the Quran. You are always

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good enough for the Quran, and the Quran Inshallah, will help you and

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me inshallah go and recover through the difficulties that

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we're facing and ride with the Mercy of Allah through the ease

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that Allah has blessed us with. Sha Allah. In this class, our

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goals are going to be having an emotional and intellectually

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interactive Quranic experience. Emotionally. That means we're

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going to connect with the Quran we're going to listen to verses

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with beautiful reciters. We are going to have contemplation

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exercises. We are going to have moments when we just have peace

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with the Quran. We're going to have emotional times when we cry

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with the Quran. Inshallah, this is going to be a very emotional

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experience, connecting with the Quran. The second thing inshallah

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is we're going to have an intellectual experience. That

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means Inshallah, we're going to be connecting with tafesir. We're

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going to be talking about how verses affect us at certain times

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and how they affect other people, how they can help us affect other

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people in our lives. Inshallah, we're going to use both of these

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experiences to make an action plan of how to inshallah actually fall

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in love with the Quran that is the goal of this workshop. Inshallah,

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number one, fall in love with the Quran. And number two, have an

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action plan of how we can not only establish that relationship, but

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how we can maintain it throughout our lives. Inshallah, secondly,

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Shala, we're going to learn to teach. Some of you may feel like

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I'm never going to be a Quran teacher. I'm never going to be

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someone who teaches it. But all of us are teachers in different ways,

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whether we actually are Quran teachers, whether we have kids who

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we by example, show what the Quran is like, whether we have a

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sibling. Could be a relative. It could just be someone at school

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who has a question about Islam. You are going to be someone who

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teaches the Quran? You will be in that situation. So Inshallah,

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we're going to talk about how to teach the Quran, how to teach it

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effectively, and how to impact people at different age groups,

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how we can make the Quran super awesome and fun with kids, but how

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to make it deep meaning and spiritual, meaningful and

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spiritual for someone who's looking for that grounding with

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the Quran, what we're going to begin with. Inshallah tonight is

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talking about how the Quran has transformed people's lives.

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Inshallah, I'm going to begin with the story of Malik Ibn dinar.

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Who's heard of this name before? Malik Ibn dinar,

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Okay, a few people have heard of him. Malik Ibn dinar is a great

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scholar. He's a scholar of Islamic history, but he wasn't always a

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scholar. He didn't start out as a scholar, like many of us, raise

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your hand if you are someone you know came to Islam later in life,

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whether you converted or came back to Allah, even if you were born

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into a Muslim family, raise your hand if that was your story. Okay,

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that was many of our stories. Many of us came back to Allah later in

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life. And this is the story of Malik Ibn dinar. Malik was a

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policeman. He was somebody who used to drink excessively, and he

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was someone who was known to be unjust and a little bit brutal

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with people. But one thing that Malik had was a daughter. How many

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of you have young kids who are like, in their toddlers, like

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three year olds, that kind of age, or a sibling around that age?

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Okay, would you say that those kids are kind of like, cute? They

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kind of like make you happy. He likes seeing them when they smile.

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They ask really curious questions. They kind of make you laugh. This

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daughter that he had was someone he loved deeply. He loved her more

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than everything. Malik realized that he shouldn't be drinking,

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especially because of his daughter, but one day, a lot took

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his daughter's life, she just died. And in his grief, in his

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immense emotion, what did Malik do? He began drinking. He drank

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and drank and drank and drank until he got drunk and he passed

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out. So now he's drunk. His daughter just died, he's passed

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out and he has a dream. What happens in this dream? Malik

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dreams that it's a day of judgment. No one is around him.

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He's completely alone. And suddenly Malik sees a snake, and

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this snake isn't like a garden snake, it's not a little

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rattlesnake. It's an enormous snake with an enormous mouth

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that's chasing him because it wants to eat him alive. How many

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of you could say that kind of seems scary?

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Not everyone. All of you are afraid of human eating snakes.

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Well, you would be on the day of judgment. God protect all of us.

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So what happens is Malik is being chased by the.

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Snake. He's being chased, and he's looking around. No one is there to

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help him.

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Suddenly, he sees an old old man. As he sees this old man, he goes

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and he says, Help me, please. You see what's going on? There's a

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snake. It's attacking me, the old man. He just sits. He's so weak,

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he's so old. And he looks at Malik, and he says, Don't you know

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I'm so weak, I'm so old, I can't I can't do anything for you, but run

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in that direction. So Malik listens to him. He starts running

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in this direction. As he runs into this direction, he suddenly

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realizes that he's at the edge of a cliff, and he looks down and he

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sees the Hellfire in front of him is the Hellfire behind him is a

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snake that's trying to eat him. And suddenly he hears a voice that

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says, go back. You're not from the people of the *

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so he turns back. He runs. Who does? He approaches. He's running

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that old man. He goes back to that old man. Help me. Please look at

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the snake. The man says, Look at me. I can't help you. Go in that

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direction. So Malik starts running in this direction, and as he's

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running in this direction, all of a sudden, who do you think he

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sees? His daughter? Was that gonna be your answer?

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MashaAllah, may Allah reward you for that awesome answer that you

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didn't actually say out loud, but you were thinking, Can you

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pass back? Thank you. May Allah make you and everyone related to

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you and everyone around you in your whole life. Emmy

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so Malik suddenly sees his daughter, and all of a sudden

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everything comes down.

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Yes. Was that what you were thinking, too. You were Inshallah,

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he's going to share his chocolate with you.

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Just kidding. I was just kidding. Talk to me after Shala. So he

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suddenly sees his daughter, and he's so happy to see his daughter,

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and Subhanallah, the snake, goes away, and he sees this love that

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he had for his daughter, and he sits with her like they used to

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sit when she was alive. I

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want you to think about someone you know in your life who's a kid.

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Maybe it's just a student, maybe it's someone you saw at the masjid

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once. Think about their innocence. Think about losing them, and then

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think about what it's like to suddenly be with them in your

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dream, sitting just like you used to do. He's sitting with her, and

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he says, Tell me about the snake, he asks her, and she says, that

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was your bad deeds.

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They were so many, and that old man, that old man, was your good

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deeds, but you had done so many bad things that your good deeds

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were not strong enough to help you get over the difficult situation

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of the Day of Judgment. Don't you know my beloved father that on the

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Day of Judgment, your deeds take a form, a physical form, that old

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man couldn't help you store somewhere, and someone came up to

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you and spoke a language that you didn't understand. They come up to

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you, they're speaking, and they're stoic. They don't use their hands.

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They're just like men wouldn't Jareth done. And you're like,

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what? And they keep talking to you, and they make you feel

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uncomfortable. They have no expressions whatsoever, so you

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have no clue what they're trying to get at. You don't understand

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their language. There's no body language. Do you think it could be

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like, kind of frustrating trying to understand what they're saying?

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Awkward? Now, imagine if you had that experience over and over and

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over with that same person, wouldn't you kind of be like, oh,

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there's that system and lock out when you try to be getting away

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from that person, because it's kind of awkward. The same thing

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with the Quran. It's awkward. Sometimes we open it and it's

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like, oh, God, I don't even understand what this is saying.

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Reading it in Arabic, if we don't practice, it's like, takes six

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hours to go through one verse, and we know we sound horrible. Or

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sometimes we think we sound good, and then we record ourselves and

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I'm like, God, I really sound bad. Other times we might go to the

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Quran because it's like a time of need. Maybe like that person who

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we just talked about, who we really didn't understand. Maybe

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they were the only person around, and we needed their cell phone

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because ours ran out of battery, and we had to call our mom. So we

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run to them, like, Hey, dude, can I use your phone for a second?

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They don't really understand, but you're like, you know? And finally

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they get it, they get it. They give you your phone. You needed

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them for a moment, and you appreciate that next time you see

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them. But that doesn't necessarily mean you want to be best friends.

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You just got over that awkward situation, that awkwardness, and

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you asked them for help. Same thing with the Quran. Sometimes we

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are going through a hard time in our life. In that moment we open

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the Quran, wow, it helped us. That's amazing. That's it. We

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don't have that connection every time we open the book, like the

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brother was saying. So it's hard for us to get over the awkward

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conversation. So we don't move forward. What we're going to do,

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Inshallah, is talk about how to get over these awkward

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conversations with the Quran, so that, like a human being, we begin

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to establish relationship with the Quran. How many people here met

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someone for the first.

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Time, maybe it's even your current spouse. You met them, and then

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you're like, oh, you know, we don't really click. But with

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exposure, with constantly hanging out with them, you started

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realizing that, like, this is, this is a cool person. I'd like

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them to be my friend. Raise your hand if that situation has ever

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happened to you. Okay, it's a situation that, if it hasn't

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happened to you personally, I'm sure you can understand what that

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situation looks like. It's just like that with the Quran. Over

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time, Inshallah, we become friends with the Quran, and then once we

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become friends, maybe we start realizing we like the Quran, just

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like you might start realizing you kind of have a crush on someone.

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So you're like, are we more than just friends?

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Oh, what does that even mean? Am I ready for this relationship?

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And then you think, yes, I'm in love. I want to get married. This

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is the time. So then we propose to the Quran. We ask the Quran, will

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you be mine? And the Quran always says, yes. You say, I do. The

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Quran says, yes. The Quran will never reject you. Will Never think

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you don't look good enough. We'll never think you don't make enough

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money. We'll never think your career isn't good enough for them.

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We'll never think you're not emotionally supporting them. We'll

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never unfulfill you in any way. The Quran will always, always

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accept you. The question is, how to build that relationship. What

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these steps tangibly mean when we talk about the Quran is awkward

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conversations look like having Quran fun. What's Quran fun? It's

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having games with the Quran. So we're going to play games through

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the weekend. Inshallah, have to do with the Quran. I'm so excited

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about this, my favorite game in the world. Inshallah, we're going

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to play Quranic games so that we can start having a bit of a

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comfortable relationship with the Quran. We're becoming friends,

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getting over the awkwardness that relates to being able to

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understand the Quran in our language, understanding it, having

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a habit of actually connecting with it, reading it in in a

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consistent basis, in a way that we understand, contemplating it,

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making

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studying the verses of it in tafsir so It talks about actually

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becoming friends, understanding what the Quran is about, just like

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you would understand what a person is about. Then we go to more than

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just friends. That's when we decide to memorize the Quran. We

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realize we can't always have a book around that we can read. We

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can't always just bring out our phones. Sometimes it's awkward to

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just bring out your phone in a situation. That's when you

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realize, I want these verses in my heart. I want them with me all the

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time. So we're going to talk about memorizing the verses. What are

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different methodologies of memorizing? Are you too old to

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memorize? How to memorize in an effective way? How will work for

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you as a memorizer? Then we're going to go to saying I do. Saying

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I do is talking about reviewing the Quran, because just memorizing

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it. All of you, I'm sure, either have a concern of, if you start

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memorizing, you'll forget it, and then you'll be punished for

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forgetting the Quran. Have you ever heard this before? Many

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people talk about that being the reason that they don't start

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memorizing. Or some of us may start memorizing, and because we

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haven't reviewed in maybe, like, six years, we totally forgot the

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verses we memorized. It's like God is such a process saying I do

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entails renewing that relationship. Just like when we

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get married, we have to form habits. When you first get

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married, maybe the first like, you know, six months is like you're on

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this high. The next six months is like you're still on that high.

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The next five years, you're still on that high. And then maybe you

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start dipping a little bit just because you're not as new to one

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another anymore. So you have to figure out ways to help that

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relationship deepen and feel that love. It doesn't mean you're not

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in love. It doesn't mean you're not awesome with each other. It

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just means you need new ways to kind of spice up your life, or

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have habits that'll help you feel closer to one another, just like

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that. With the Quran, shall we're going to talk about Quranic habits

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that we can implement once we start that plateau, once we start

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feeling like I'm not really feeling that emotional high that I

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used to feel with the Quran. We're also going to talk about learning

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to teach. Like I mentioned, we're going to talk about specific ways

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on how to teach the Quran, because, like I said, whether or

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not you're planning to be a Quranic teacher, you will be in

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situations where you have to be someone who's a teacher of the

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Quran. It could be for one of your kids, it could be for a cousin, it

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could be for someone on campus who comes up to you and wants to know

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about the Quran. You will be a Quranic teacher, whether or not

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you've memorized the whole Quran. How can you teach it in an

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effective way? And finally, we're going to talk about changing the

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world through the Quran stories of people who've been impacted by the

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Quran and how they've changed personally because of it, and how

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their stories have helped benefit society. Now, Inshallah, as we

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move forward, I'm going to go into talking about a personal love

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story I'm going to share with you the moment that I said I do. I'm

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going to talk about how I committed to learning the Quran.

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And the reason I want to share the story with you is because I'm

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going to go through specific verses that affected me in

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specific time periods of my life, with the hope, Inshallah, that

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when you're hearing my story, you will be thinking about your own

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love story. You will be able to connect to some of the some of the

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situations that I talk about in my life. You may have the exact same

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verses that affected you in similar situations and Inshallah,

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through what I hope will be an example that will help your mind

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start thinking about your own love story, inshallah. From there, I'm

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going to ask.

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Ask you to take a moment share your love story with someone near

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you, and then we're going to hear a few personal love stories.

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Inshallah, the reason this is important is because when you hear

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stories of the way the Quran has affected other people, it starts

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to make you and it starts to make me appreciate the Quran and the

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power that it has to affect someone's life. So Inshallah,

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we're going to go through that process of how coming to feel in

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love with the Quran is going to affect us. We're going to listen

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to the verses that affected me by the reciters who affected me

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inshaAllah. I'm going to recite some verses for you as they

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affected me in situations. And just in case you're wondering

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about a woman reciting in front of men, there are differences of

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opinion about it. My teachers, who have asked, especially when it

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comes to learning and teaching, have encouraged the absolute

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permissibility of this so that Inshallah, it can be for the sake

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of knowledge. So hopefully, Inshallah, that rests your heart,

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if that's a concern. Now, again, I'd like you to start thinking

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about your story as I begin mine inshallah

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and inshallah. After we talk about your stories, we're going to talk

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about inshallah wrap up with a quick way that we're going to

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continue with actually making our love plan this weekend. I know

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that not all of you have had a love story, yet some of you may

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don't. May not even feel connected. Some of you may be here

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for the first time in a masjid some of you may not even be

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Muslim. You may never have had a relationship, or you're having a

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current relationship, and that's why you're here. You're starting

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to explore this relationship with the Quran. So every person's

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personal story is going to be different, and that's okay. I

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don't want you to listen to mine and think that needs to be my

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story. Your story is unique for a reason, because, Inshallah, your

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story will hook the people that are around you. So as I say that,

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Inshallah, I'm going to begin when I was growing up, my parents, both

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of them basically embraced or had an Islamic identity. When they

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were in college, they came to the United States when they were in

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their teens, my dad went to UC Davis, my mom went to Iowa State,

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and they both didn't have any type of religious background. They may

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have had families who identified as Muslim, but they didn't

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necessarily understand what that wasn't a practice for them. And my

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dad didn't believe in a hereafter. He didn't know if he believed in

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God. So he went to UC Davis, and while he was there, he had

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roommates who were evangelical Christians, very, very good

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people, who invited him to go to church with them. So he started

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going to church, started reading the Bible, and that's what started

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making him think about God in the first place. Now, as he's going

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through that experience, my mom at Iowa State, even though my mom is

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actually five years older than my dad, how old? That's so awesome,

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right? Masha, Allah, may Allah, bless both of them. I think that's

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the coolest story ever. So anyway, my mom, she is going to Iowa

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State. This is a different time period. She also happens to have

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evangelical Christian roommates who invite her to church. So she

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starts going to church with them. They start asking her about

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religion. She's like, I don't really know anything. So she

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starts studying all these different religions. They study

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Judaism, both of them study Hinduism, Buddhism, looking to see

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what the right religion might be. Finally, both of them, two

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separate schools, two separate time periods, go to the Quran. My

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dad, when he opened the Quran, it was a 10 day period, where, right

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before it those 10 days, he said, if you're out there, I don't know

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what's right. Guide me. He fell sick the next day for 10 days. So

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he couldn't go to school, he couldn't do anything. And all he

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did those 10 days was read the Quran. And as he read the Quran,

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he especially got to last verses of the third chapter of the Quran,

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the last the last section, he was so affected by those verses that

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he said, This is the truth. And that's when he decided he wanted

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to be Muslim. And he took his actual trip to the masjid and

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formally started practicing Islam. He was very afraid to come to the

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masjid because he's worried there might be terrorists or something

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in there. So alhamdulillah, that was how he was blessed with Islam.

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My mom, Cat Stevens, converted to Islam in that time period. So when

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she heard Cat Stevens convert to Islam. So like, if it's good

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enough for him, it's good enough for me, that wasn't the only thing

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she said he did too. She read the Quran. She did her own research,

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but that was a beautiful experience in her time period, and

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so that's something that affected her. Now, Alhamdulillah, they both

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became Muslim. They both started practicing Islam in their lives,

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and then they got married, and then they had me. So I was born

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into a family that identifies as Muslim. They have a religious

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background, they have spiritual connection, and of course, that's

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how they want me to be, but that's not how I felt. I was born and

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raised in California. I had no desire to be any type of spiritual

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person. Going through school, I went to public school basically my

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whole life. I really didn't want to be someone who was different

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from everyone else. And you'd okay only one person, Sabrina

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specifically, and if Imam Sohaib is somewhere here at Imam Sohaib

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would be the only other person know me well enough to know that I

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am an extremely, extremely, extremely energetic person, and I

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love being everywhere, and I just love being wild and crazy, and

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Islam just seemed all the opposite of all of that. So for me, going

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into high school, I didn't care about religion. I thought that

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Islam would dampen my ability to become popular and awesome. So

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that's what I started doing. I started trying to be popular. That

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was my goal in life. And of course.

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First being popular isn't praying all day and fasting all day. Now,

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that's what I think popularity is. You know, in moderation, balance

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Islam is completely applicable to every situation in life. But then

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come on,

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I'm a 14 year old in high school. Britney Spears was cool back then,

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not like some praying person. So I really didn't connect with Islam,

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and I didn't want to connect with Islam. When I was nearing the end

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of my freshman year of high school, my mom and dad had a

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family meeting and said, we are going to Mecca. And I was like,

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no, no. Can you believe someone's reaction to say no, I was so

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afraid that I would go to this holy place and I would come back

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as some type of spiritual person, and there goes all my efforts in

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being popular and awesome.

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So I remember actually telling someone on campus, I was like,

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Dude, I'm just afraid, like, I don't want to change, like, all my

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swag will be gone, and that's my perspective, going to Mecca. So we

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go to Mecca. How many of you have been to Mecca before?

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Wow, may Allah, take every single one of you next year. Amin, this

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year. Emin, whenever is good for you multiple times in your life,

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and everyone you love. Emin, we get there. And how many of you

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have seen pictures of it? Yeah. Okay. So the Kaaba, the house of

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Allah, is in the middle, but it's surrounded by a big masjid, right?

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So you saw that masjid, masha Allah, may Allah take you many

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times in your life, and your parents, Emmy, everyone who love

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and everyone in this room with you. Emmy, so the Kaaba is in the

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middle, but there is a there's a masjid surrounding it. So as we're

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walking through the masjid to get to the Kaaba, my dad says, look

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down, so that when you get to the front, the first thing you will

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see will actually be the Kaaba. So as we're walking, our heads are

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down. My parents are crying. I can hear them crying. It's a very

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emotional experience for them. But me, as I'm going through I don't

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feel anything. I don't feel anything. And it's the first time

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in my life I actually think maybe there's something wrong with my

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heart. I just think I'm in this supposedly super spiritual place,

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and I think the mall would be like more emotional for me to be at.

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So we're walking through, my parents are crying as we get to

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the front, my dad says, look up. So that's the moment when I looked

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up. And as soon as I saw the Kaaba, my heart was so affected,

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and I just started to bawl. It was just a moment where I felt this

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tangible presence of Allah. And before this, I wasn't sure if God

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existed. I started wearing hijab in eighth grade, not for the right

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reasons, but the point is, I wore some type of covering. And I

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remember when I was that young, thinking, well, Christianity

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doesn't make their followers cover, although, in Christianity,

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in certain areas of the world, Christian women do cover. But here

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in school, none of my Christian friends covered. I didn't want to

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be like a Muslim. I wanted to be like them. I was the only person

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who covered in like a school of 1000 people hated it, and I didn't

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do for the right reason in the first place. And Alhamdulillah

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wasn't forced by my parents in any way. I've been very blessed with

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my parents hamdullah anyway, so I had already doubted whether or not

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Islam is the truth and whether or not God existed. And as I go and I

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see the Kaaba, I realize God exists. And then I start crying

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because I think about my life and how I've wasted and have not done

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anything right with it. And as an experience happens, and I'm going

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around the cabin, I'm like, oh, Allah, help me. I realize I need

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to change. Fast Forward, come back to America, back to the same high

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school, back to same set of, you know, peers, nothing has changed

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around me, but I've had this experience. I want to keep that

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feeling because I'd never felt that before. I had never felt that

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sweetness before, and I really wanted it. It was hard not to fall

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back into my habits, right? I mean, that's we're back in the

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groove of what you do. So I realized that I watched a lot of

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TV. This was before Facebook and all that stuff probably would have

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been on there instead. But I used to watch hours of TV a day, and I

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thought, you know, if I could watch hours of TV a day, I could

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read, like I could read the translation of the Quran. Ooh, I

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missed up. That's not what I was supposed to say. I'll tell you

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that in a second. I didn't think of a translation I was going to

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read the Quran. So I haven't read the Quran ever. I mean, not

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really. My parents are not Arab. I wasn't really speaking Arabic. The

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only reason I knew how to read it is because, like, you know, many

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parents in here, you put your kids in, like, Sunday school or

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something, so they know how to read it. So I knew kind of how to

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read it. But it was, like, slow. It was so slow. So I decided I'm

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gonna read five pages a day. Shala, I go home, I open the

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Quran, and I start reading, reading, reading. And it's so

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painfully slow. Takes me, like, an hour to get through five pages, if

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not longer. And one day, my mom is passing by my room, and she's

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like, Miriam, why don't you read the translation that way you're

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understanding what you're reading. And I thought, dude, I read

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English so fast. What a great idea. I'll just like speed through

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it. So I started reading the translation in the Quran, and at

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the same time, I started reading the Arabic, the Arabic of.

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Still slow, but with lots of practice, until I got faster. But

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the translation of the Quran changed my life. I went from

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someone who's like, you know, do a lot of things that I'm not I

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wouldn't, you know, it's not cool, but reading it, the more I read

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it, the more I wanted to change, the more my outer wanted to

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change. My inner wanted. I just wanted to change because I wanted

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to reflect what the Quran was teaching me. The more that I read

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it, the more that I started realizing how close God is to me.

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And one of the things that affected me greatly was listening

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to the chance listening to the Quran as I was driving around in

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the car. So one day it was rumble dawn. This is just a few months

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after I came back after my experience in Mecca, I've been

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reading the translation for a while, and as we're in the car,

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we're going, my dad has a recitation

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on he has a tape on a tape back in the day, so I'm listening to it,

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and this shaykh is just crying. He's bawling, and I don't

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understand anything he's saying, but it affects me so much. So

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Inshallah, we're going to listen to the same verses that I listen

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to. I want to warn you, I don't completely agree with this video.

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It's just nature, but there's a part that talks about hellfire,

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and it's really scary. So kids, please close your eyes, and

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adults, close your eyes too. But you can listen to what happens,

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because the way he recites are very, very Effective. You

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different

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you

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had To

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Yes, I do have

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will

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Be A

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we're

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gonna skip the rest of the video, but the verses he comes to talks

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about people in the hellfire and how their faces are burned and

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then their like teeth are just showing. And that image affected

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me so much. I had no idea what the sheik was reciting, no clue, but I

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heard him weeping. And when he stops weeping, because he's crying

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so hard he has to stop, I hear people weeping behind him, and I

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just thought, What could possibly be affecting someone to the point

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that they're crying that hard, and that when they're not crying,

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people behind them are bawling. So I asked my dad, what is this? And

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he said, This is the 23rd chapter of the Quran, and they're talking

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about the hereafter, and they're talking about *. So I went to

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the Quran that night. I opened it, I went to Suratul moenon, and I

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started reading the translation. And the translation affected me so

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much that in that moment, I said, I have to memorize the Quran. That

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was my moment of deciding I want this. I want to understand this.

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I'm going to memorize her to what me doing. I didn't know Tajweed. I

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know anything. I just like I'm going to memorize the surah. And

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that's what I did. Took me months, months and months and months. I

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would listen to it, I would read it, I would read the translation,

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because I wanted to memorize the translation so I knew what I was

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saying. And that was my first exposure to actually memorizing

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the Quran as I'm memorizing it again. I'm starting to see my

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life.

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Changed, but at the same time, I'm still questioning. Many of us go

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through that. We have that connection with the Quran, we have

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that Imaan Hai, and then all of a sudden, we're like, is the law

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really listening to me? Are my dua is really being answered,

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especially when we pray for something that's not happening for

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months, for years. Why can't I get married? What's going on in my

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life? Why are all these trouble? Why are all these things happening

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to me? Many of us have those experiences, and we wonder, Is

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Allah even listening? So one day, I was sitting and I was making

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dua, and I'm like, Is God even listening to my prayers? Is he

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even like out there for real? I mean, this is great. I feel

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connected. But is this really the truth? Han, Allah, as I'm thinking

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this, I open the Qur'an and I read, what either salaki Would

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says, when you ask, when my servant asks, I am Close, I answer

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the person who is asking me so follow my way. Is that not exactly

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what I was wondering opening the Quran and suddenly seeing that

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Allah is telling me, I'm listening to you.

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Come on. He's listening to you. This is your story too. Just

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because I'm telling it doesn't mean this is only my special life.

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This is all of our stories. When I went to school, people started

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spreading a rumor about me, and I was very, very affected. They said

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that I was involved with things that I wasn't. And I got home and

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I was crying, just bawling, like Allah. How could they say this

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about me? How could I say that I did this stuff. I'm crying. I

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opened the Quran,

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and the verse that I get to is not written here. Why?

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Oh, did I

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Oh, thanks.

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He had my back right now. I just didn't know. So the verse that I

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get to is In ladinah, Mina, Morina, Allah saying the

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P the people who say things about women who are chaste, they don't

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even think about these things, don't you think Allah is gonna

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hold them accountable? There's, there's a serious punishment for

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these things. So I'm bawling. I'm like, oh, Allah, how can they say

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these things about me? I opened the Quran. What verse is there,

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subhanAllah, that just wouldn't make me go crazy like whoa.

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Seriously, listening to me, who cares what other people say? He

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knows the reality of my situation.

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And then Subhanallah,

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what happens? I hear these amazing verses. We're gonna listen to This

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Inshallah, quickly. I

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Be Your OH.

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Okay, who knows where those verses are?

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May Allah raise you with the mbN. And everyone in this room with

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you. I mean, you're welcome.

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Okay? So those verses are like amazing recitation, right, right?

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I want you to go through this experience with me, because I want

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you to see my emotions. I really hope this isn't boring for you.

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Please forgive me if it's too much detail, is it too much detail? All

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this? Sister said that, of course, you have to say No, I'm asking

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what he was saying. Yes. Okay. Well anyway, so those verses were,

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like, amazing to hear that recitation. They used to walk

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around in high school under my hijab. This is why hijab is so

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cool. Got my mp three player on walking through the school. Then I

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used to be like, salaam, Alaikum, Miriam. And then I'd be like, I

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can't hear you. I'm listening to Quran right now. So went to high

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school together me. And then, all right, so that was really

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Subhanallah verses that affected me. And through high school, I

00:36:09 --> 00:36:13

started becoming closer to the dean. When I got to college, I

00:36:13 --> 00:36:16

decided I need to formally memorize Quran. So I go to Quran

00:36:16 --> 00:36:21

teacher, and she starts helping me memorize. But this was a very,

00:36:21 --> 00:36:24

very rocky time period, as many of you may have gone through, or may

00:36:24 --> 00:36:26

have seen in other people, when you first connect to the deen,

00:36:26 --> 00:36:29

you're so excited about it, then you start taking classes. And as

00:36:29 --> 00:36:31

you start taking classes, maybe the people who teach you are not

00:36:31 --> 00:36:35

necessarily the best fit to teach you, especially a current Islam.

00:36:35 --> 00:36:38

Alhamdulillah, I was ALLAH. Bless me. Bless me. Bless me. With Imam

00:36:38 --> 00:36:41

Suhaib being my teacher when I was going to that very rocky time

00:36:41 --> 00:36:44

period, hamilham, to the hamiltonham, to the I do not know

00:36:44 --> 00:36:47

if I would exist right now if he if he wasn't there for me or be

00:36:47 --> 00:36:51

Muslim, but I was going through times where people were trying to

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mentor me and tell me certain things, like, women are absolute.

00:36:54 --> 00:37:00

Fitna, Your existence will make a guy just like fall over. So stay

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away as much as possible, stay at home as much as possible. Never

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ever speak in public. I thought this was the most haram thing to

00:37:05 --> 00:37:08

do ever. My personality just completely started changing. And

00:37:08 --> 00:37:12

as I started doubting Islam's validity of women's empowerment,

00:37:12 --> 00:37:15

as I started fearing my relationship with God, instead of

00:37:15 --> 00:37:18

one of hope and fear, it became one purely based on fear. I

00:37:18 --> 00:37:22

started fearing he's displeased with the at this moment, did that

00:37:22 --> 00:37:25

guy who just said salam to me want to marry me? All of a sudden,

00:37:25 --> 00:37:27

maybe I became fitna. Maybe I'm going to go to *. Because of

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that, I started becoming like OCD with Islam. And this is not just a

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personal experience. Women talk to me all the time about this being

00:37:35 --> 00:37:37

their reality too, and I see some of you nodding your heads, and

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maybe it's true from brothers in other ways. So I'm going through

00:37:41 --> 00:37:44

all of this, and one day I am sitting and I'm watching the

00:37:44 --> 00:37:47

Haram, you guys like, know, the live haram stream, where you can

00:37:47 --> 00:37:51

see Mecca, live prayers. And I thought I despair, and despairing

00:37:51 --> 00:37:54

in Allah is a major sin. I didn't have hope in Allah at all. I

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thought I go to college, right? I would skip classes to go to the

00:37:59 --> 00:38:01

library. They're praying like 12 racades of Toba because I thought

00:38:01 --> 00:38:06

I did something wrong. It was horrible. And going through that,

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I thought, how can I keep this lifestyle up? How can I be Muslim?

00:38:09 --> 00:38:13

How can I keep this going? And while I'm just so concerned about

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being a female and being a Muslim woman, going through this

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experience, going, Oh, Allah, how SubhanAllah. Right then, as I'm

00:38:20 --> 00:38:28

crying, Allah swt has, the reciter in Mecca, recite my favorite verse

00:38:28 --> 00:38:32

in this time period, which is allahumu semawa Tiwa.

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He recited the verses of God as the Light of the heavens and the

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earth. How can that not be hopeful? How can you have despair

00:38:41 --> 00:38:46

in someone who brings light to everything, who is the Light? And

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that made me, Hamdulillah, start realizing that I can have hope in

00:38:50 --> 00:38:53

Allah, that he can be there for me, and that he will see me

00:38:53 --> 00:38:56

through this difficult time. Alhamdulillah, as I went through

00:38:56 --> 00:38:59

college, I continued to memorize the Quran. I started memorizing

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when I was 17. I finished when I was 24 It was a long process.

00:39:03 --> 00:39:07

Yesterday, someone at the northeastern she asked me if it's

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too late for her to start. And I was like, How old are you? And she

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said, 18. I was like, come on, there are people who are 80 years

00:39:13 --> 00:39:17

old and they memorize the Quran. And that's real. Imagine saying I

00:39:17 --> 00:39:20

spent 50 years of my life memorizing the Quran. That's a

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relationship you never want to end. So I spent seven years

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working on this. I started in college. I couldn't find a

00:39:25 --> 00:39:28

consistent teacher, and when you don't have a consistent teacher,

00:39:28 --> 00:39:30

it's so hard, because then when you start with a new teacher, they

00:39:30 --> 00:39:33

want you to re recite everything you've already memorized. So there

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goes six months, and then you start again, and then they're

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busy, and then you're stuck, and then start with a new teacher,

00:39:38 --> 00:39:40

start the process over six months of waiting for a teacher in

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between that time took a long time because of all these

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interruptions. So I had a friend. Her name was israat me Allah

00:39:45 --> 00:39:49

blesser. We would sit on campus and we would just memorize

00:39:49 --> 00:39:52

together. We would recite to one another and hamdullah after

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college, the next day after graduation, I flew to Egypt.

00:39:54 --> 00:39:58

Alhamdulillah, my parents finally let me go. My dad went with me so

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that he could make sure I was cool. There.

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Living there at the time may Allah, bless him. So when we went

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to Cairo, I was on sor Tula Naida. I had memorized from Bakara to

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annisad. So I was on swordsul Naida. So when I go to Cairo, sor

00:40:13 --> 00:40:17

tunaida Is the surah that I'm memorizing the first one, right as

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I'm memorizing it anywhere I go in Egypt, sword Naida is playing. I

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sit in a taxi. The taxi driver has on serto Naida. I walk into a

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restaurant, and I sit down, and I'm like, that sounds familiar,

00:40:29 --> 00:40:32

dude, I just memorized those verses from swords of Naida. And

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I'm like, telling my roommate, like, I just those. She's like,

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What? Like, you know, you know, you do not you memorize Brian too.

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SubhanAllah. We would walk into the mall, and then the TV channel

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they have, like, we're en playing in some of the stores. Sor

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tulnaida And my brother came to visit me, and I'm like, dude,

00:40:49 --> 00:40:53

everywhere I go, so Tana is playing. He's like, Yeah. And then

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we walk somewhere, and I'm like,

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he's like, okay, fine, I get it. But the point is, everywhere I

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went to hanala, I felt like this connection. Because as I started

00:41:03 --> 00:41:06

memorizing it in Cairo Subhanallah, it's everywhere with

00:41:06 --> 00:41:09

me. Why am I sharing this with you? Because this is your story,

00:41:09 --> 00:41:14

too. The Quran is with us everywhere. It can be the one that

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helps us when we go to somewhere new, when we leave our families,

00:41:17 --> 00:41:20

when we're all alone. I used to look at I was lived on the eighth

00:41:20 --> 00:41:23

story of the apartment, and just look at I miss my mom and dad, I

00:41:23 --> 00:41:25

miss my brother, I miss my friends. I was alone. I loved my

00:41:25 --> 00:41:28

roommate, Tamil. I loved Egypt. I love Egypt so much. May Allah

00:41:28 --> 00:41:32

bless the Egyptian people. May Allah bless every single person in

00:41:32 --> 00:41:35

the world, except for the bad, evil transgressor people, and

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guide them and if not, then take them away from the world. I mean,

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but Egypt was,

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Egypt was utopia for me, and when I smell turn smells like trash,

00:41:45 --> 00:41:50

I'm like, whoo, Egypt. You're just not all trash. But sometimes you

00:41:50 --> 00:41:52

know that whiff, it's like, oh, oh yeah, that garbage pile. Anyway,

00:41:52 --> 00:41:55

point is sword. Samatha helped me through that process, because I

00:41:55 --> 00:41:57

felt like Allah was connecting with me through all of this.

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And then I moved back to America by now, I'm on sort hood, and I

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moved to LA with my husband, so we're in Los Angeles. I can't find

00:42:06 --> 00:42:09

a teacher. Can't find a teacher anywhere who will teach a woman. I

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can't find a teacher who will teach a woman. And Alhamdulillah,

00:42:13 --> 00:42:17

I finally heard of someone named Sheik Mohib. Sheik Mohib is the

00:42:17 --> 00:42:21

best Quran teacher in the entire world. Allah, seriously, massively

00:42:21 --> 00:42:24

blessed me. Alhamdulillah, he's Egyptian. He doesn't speak that

00:42:24 --> 00:42:27

much English. He speaks an Egyptian dialect. But he is an

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amazing, amazing teacher. He is so powerful with women's empowerment

00:42:32 --> 00:42:35

and scholarship. He has a picture of a woman who memorized the

00:42:35 --> 00:42:39

Quran, who had the highest chain in Egypt, who would teach people.

00:42:39 --> 00:42:41

And he would say, like, look, all these men are studying under her.

00:42:41 --> 00:42:43

All these men studied in her. She had passed away. May Allah have

00:42:43 --> 00:42:47

mercy on her. He said, that can be you. You need to do it. He would

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ask me to recite in like, banquets, and I'm like, Shay, if

00:42:50 --> 00:42:53

I'm a woman, and the men are gonna be like, I'm gonna get out of

00:42:53 --> 00:42:56

here. This is like, haram. And he's like, those men women need to

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be scholars, so not to bang on the men all. I don't mean like

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personally, may Allah, bless all of you. I'm just saying that,

00:43:02 --> 00:43:04

like, as a female, you know, we have a lot to tread, and brothers,

00:43:04 --> 00:43:07

you have a lot to tread too. In our community, there's a lot of

00:43:07 --> 00:43:10

expectations. But anyway, he was all about female scholarship. And

00:43:10 --> 00:43:13

Sheik Wahid, he's someone who hated memorize the Quran. As a

00:43:13 --> 00:43:15

kid, his parents put him in schools where they had to memorize

00:43:15 --> 00:43:20

the Quran, and when they were in school, what would happen is he

00:43:20 --> 00:43:23

hated going to class so much that what he started doing is hurting

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himself so he wouldn't have to memorize he would take dirt and

00:43:26 --> 00:43:29

put it in his eyes so he would have to go to the hospital and not

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go to class. He broke his own ankle so he wouldn't have to go to

00:43:32 --> 00:43:36

Quran class. That's how bad it was. Finally, his dad made a deal

00:43:36 --> 00:43:39

with him and said, If you memorize the Quran, then you don't have to

00:43:39 --> 00:43:43

go anymore. Just memorize it. No more class. And he said, fine. So

00:43:43 --> 00:43:45

that's what he did. Once he finished his memorization, his

00:43:45 --> 00:43:48

teacher said, You're a really, really good student. I'm going to

00:43:48 --> 00:43:51

make you my intern. He's like, I don't want to be your apprentice.

00:43:51 --> 00:43:55

I'm done. But too late, he had to be his apprentice. Alhamdulillah,

00:43:55 --> 00:43:59

as he did, he became so in love with the Quran. Anytime you sat

00:43:59 --> 00:44:02

with Shaykh Mohib, you're going to come out of there feeling like you

00:44:02 --> 00:44:05

are flying on the Quran, and you're going to be like, what's

00:44:05 --> 00:44:08

wrong with me? Why don't I read it every day? Your risk with the

00:44:08 --> 00:44:11

Quran. Allah provides for you. For the Quran you want the best life.

00:44:11 --> 00:44:14

Hook up with the Quran. He will help you understand the importance

00:44:14 --> 00:44:17

of it, because he understands the Quran. So alhamdulillah, that's

00:44:17 --> 00:44:21

when I started memorizing with him, And Alhamdulillah completed

00:44:21 --> 00:44:28

my memorization. Ramadan came about soon later, and I'm going

00:44:28 --> 00:44:31

to, Inshallah, end with this story when I

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when Ramadan happens. I love praying in my hometown, Masjid,

00:44:36 --> 00:44:38

because Sheik Sayyid Jibreel. Have you heard of Muhammad Jibreel?

00:44:38 --> 00:44:42

He's a big, famous reciter. His brother leaves tarawiah At our

00:44:42 --> 00:44:46

masjid and his mother just passed away a couple days ago. May Allah

00:44:46 --> 00:44:50

have mercy on their mother, subhanAllah, to have two sons that

00:44:50 --> 00:44:53

are crazy in love with the Quran Mashallah. Inshallah, her rank is

00:44:53 --> 00:44:57

very high. May Allah give her the highest Jannah, he said, so I love

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listening to his recitation last 10 nights. I just want.

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Be in the masjid, and I flew up from LA so that I could spend

00:45:03 --> 00:45:07

those last 10 nights with my parents and going to go to the

00:45:07 --> 00:45:11

MCA. So as I fly up, the day that I fly up, my dad picks me up from

00:45:11 --> 00:45:13

the airport, and he tells me that my grandpa

00:45:14 --> 00:45:18

couldn't breathe and he's in the ER, but it looks okay, and

00:45:18 --> 00:45:22

Inshallah, he's going to be fine. We go to visit him, and they say

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that he had, they had done like, a surgery to help him breathe easier

00:45:25 --> 00:45:29

because he couldn't breathe on his own. He's 95 and they said that

00:45:29 --> 00:45:32

tomorrow we're going to, like, monitor him. He'll be stable.

00:45:32 --> 00:45:34

He'll be here for like, three days, and then we'll take him off

00:45:34 --> 00:45:36

the machine. So we said, okay, and they wouldn't let anyone stay

00:45:36 --> 00:45:39

overnight. They said he's sedated. He wasn't conscious at all. So

00:45:39 --> 00:45:43

they said, Come back tomorrow, so that the next day we get a call in

00:45:43 --> 00:45:47

the morning, and when we get the phone call, they say that he has

00:45:47 --> 00:45:50

dramatically fallen down and he's not doing well, and come and start

00:45:50 --> 00:45:55

saying your goodbyes. So we go to the hospital, and when we get to

00:45:55 --> 00:45:58

the hospital, we're there for a few hours. And my grandpa was

00:45:58 --> 00:46:02

like, my best my he used to be like, I love you, I love you more.

00:46:02 --> 00:46:04

I love you more. I love you more. I love you more I love you more.

00:46:04 --> 00:46:08

He was so loving, so generous. Just when you when you were around

00:46:08 --> 00:46:13

him, you just wanted to be with him. So when my grandpa passed

00:46:13 --> 00:46:16

away, may Allah have mercy on him and bless everyone. My second

00:46:16 --> 00:46:18

grandpa passed away two months after him, and I'm sure many of

00:46:18 --> 00:46:21

you have had parents, grandparents, children, loved

00:46:21 --> 00:46:24

people, loved ones who have passed away. May Allah have mercy on all

00:46:24 --> 00:46:27

of them. May Allah make it easy for all of you. We've had that

00:46:27 --> 00:46:31

experience when I was going through that it was so hard to

00:46:31 --> 00:46:36

lose someone who I'm so close to, and after we had the janaz

00:46:36 --> 00:46:38

Alhamdulillah, it was in the last 10 nightham was on a Friday. May

00:46:38 --> 00:46:41

Allah bless him and bless my other grandpa and all of your loved

00:46:41 --> 00:46:44

ones. It was comforting for us to go through that, but it was so

00:46:44 --> 00:46:51

hard. And I went to the masjid and Subhanallah, this is the time of

00:46:51 --> 00:46:55

TM, so this is like three in the morning. There's not that many

00:46:55 --> 00:46:59

people. It's a beautiful Masjid to be in. We start praying. And there

00:46:59 --> 00:47:01

are verses in the Quran that I don't want to miss. I don't want

00:47:01 --> 00:47:04

to miss certain verses praying in Ramadan, behind, behind the

00:47:04 --> 00:47:07

reciter, but that Ramadan in LA I had switched from so many masjids

00:47:07 --> 00:47:10

because of reasons that I didn't get to hear certain verses, and I

00:47:10 --> 00:47:13

was really sad that I missed those verses as Ramadan. So we walked

00:47:13 --> 00:47:16

into the Masjid. My grandpa had just passed away. May Allah have

00:47:16 --> 00:47:18

mercy on him. We had done the janazah. It was very, very

00:47:18 --> 00:47:21

difficult to go through that experience. And then as we get to

00:47:21 --> 00:47:24

the masjid and we start praying, I know he's not going to be on the

00:47:24 --> 00:47:27

verses that I missed, because it's last 10 nights. He's supposed to

00:47:27 --> 00:47:30

be way, way ahead. But Subhanallah, for some reason, for

00:47:30 --> 00:47:33

the first time in my history of my life, he didn't start in the

00:47:33 --> 00:47:36

beginning of the Quran. Excuse me, in the middle. He didn't start in

00:47:36 --> 00:47:39

the beginning in the 15th night. He started in the last 10 which

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means that by the time I got there, the verses that he was

00:47:42 --> 00:47:45

reciting were the verses that had to do with Mariam alaihi salam,

00:47:45 --> 00:47:48

the verses that had to do with her mom realizing that she's pregnant,

00:47:49 --> 00:47:50

asking Allah to accept from her,

00:47:52 --> 00:47:58

and when she has the baby, she realizes Waldo untha had a girl,

00:47:58 --> 00:48:02

Wallah, Alamo, Bima, Wada, Allah knows greater than you know me,

00:48:02 --> 00:48:07

that what I've had when I said that Karu ka wainism made to her

00:48:07 --> 00:48:11

Mel William, I named her Miriam, and I seek refuge with Allah from

00:48:11 --> 00:48:18

the shale time. And then Allah says, fatal come in Has any one

00:48:18 --> 00:48:22

better? And he talks about how zakiriya alaihi salam, he took

00:48:22 --> 00:48:28

care of her in the

00:48:29 --> 00:48:33

* is all. Every time that Allah, excuse me, zakiri alaihi

00:48:33 --> 00:48:36

salam would go and, like, visit her, she had some type of like,

00:48:36 --> 00:48:39

provision. Allah provided her with something beautiful, like fruit

00:48:39 --> 00:48:44

that was out of season, he says, Ola, ya know, Yamo and nakihada.

00:48:44 --> 00:48:46

Where did you get this?

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This is from Allah. In Allah. He

00:48:58 --> 00:49:05

said, Allah provides whoever He wills without taking account more

00:49:05 --> 00:49:09

over and over and over. And that's when Huna hunaliq, that's when

00:49:09 --> 00:49:12

Zachary alaihi salam goes immediately and starts making dua,

00:49:12 --> 00:49:15

as you provided her provision, as you provided her fruit that's out

00:49:15 --> 00:49:18

of season, provide me with the child when my wife is out of

00:49:18 --> 00:49:21

season. And then the angels give him the glad tidings that, yes,

00:49:21 --> 00:49:24

Allah is going to grant you a child. You a child. He realizes

00:49:24 --> 00:49:26

that if Allah can provide for Maryam, alaihi salam, that Allah

00:49:26 --> 00:49:29

can provide for him and for his wife, and, of course, for the

00:49:29 --> 00:49:33

whole ummah. So I'm hearing these verses having gone through the

00:49:33 --> 00:49:36

most difficult experience of my lifetime, death the first time,

00:49:36 --> 00:49:38

especially when you're Alhamdulillah, I'm very blessed

00:49:38 --> 00:49:41

that I could live all the way to 25 without having had someone die

00:49:41 --> 00:49:45

in my family, I can't imagine what the people who are losing loved

00:49:45 --> 00:49:48

ones from the beginning of their lifetime as children, as orphans.

00:49:48 --> 00:49:51

It's I can't even imagine it, SubhanAllah. May Allah protect

00:49:51 --> 00:49:55

everyone hearing these verses. Comfort me when I was going

00:49:55 --> 00:49:57

through such a hard time when I wasn't supposed to hear them, the

00:49:57 --> 00:49:59

sheik wasn't supposed to be reciting them. Help.

00:50:00 --> 00:50:03

Me reconnect with the Quran, even through a time that I felt like I

00:50:03 --> 00:50:06

was being tested. Sometimes we go through hard times and we feel

00:50:06 --> 00:50:06

like,

00:50:07 --> 00:50:10

why is Allah doing this to me? Why does this have to happen to me? We

00:50:10 --> 00:50:13

have these questions. Sometimes the reason it happens is so that

00:50:13 --> 00:50:16

we can go back to Allah, and he tells us that in the 32nd chapter

00:50:16 --> 00:50:19

of the Quran, he tells us that sometimes we're tested with with

00:50:19 --> 00:50:22

things that seem like torment, so we would go back to him before the

00:50:22 --> 00:50:26

great torment of the Hereafter. So these verses affected me. And as I

00:50:26 --> 00:50:29

was preparing for this presentation, Thursday night, I

00:50:29 --> 00:50:33

was getting, excuse me, Wednesday night, I was getting ready to

00:50:33 --> 00:50:37

come, I went to swalesha, and as I'm praying, the Imam starts

00:50:37 --> 00:50:40

reciting the same verses I played for you this verses of minuen,

00:50:40 --> 00:50:43

those, those same verses I was going to have this presentation

00:50:43 --> 00:50:47

start with. And the reason I want to share my personal story for

00:50:47 --> 00:50:51

you, as I mentioned, is because I am not some, like, special person

00:50:51 --> 00:50:53

that has special connection with the Quran. And I know people say

00:50:53 --> 00:50:57

this, but like, really, I have so many weaknesses with my Quran. I

00:50:57 --> 00:50:59

have so many weaknesses with my life. Ask my husband, or ask

00:50:59 --> 00:51:03

anyone who knows me, well, I have so much that I need to get like,

00:51:03 --> 00:51:06

you know, work on, and I'm very afraid of dying right now because

00:51:06 --> 00:51:11

I am not ready. But this doesn't have to be my special Quran story.

00:51:11 --> 00:51:15

This is your special Quran story. Maybe you have already had a love

00:51:15 --> 00:51:18

story that you're ready to share. Maybe you're working through that

00:51:18 --> 00:51:21

process and trying to have a love story with the Quran. Maybe you

00:51:21 --> 00:51:23

haven't ever had a good relationship with the Quran, and

00:51:23 --> 00:51:26

that's why you're here, because you want to start having that

00:51:26 --> 00:51:30

relationship. Maybe someone in your life is so far away from what

00:51:30 --> 00:51:34

you want them to be that you weep over their situation every single

00:51:34 --> 00:51:37

day, and you wish that you could be a means of helping them come

00:51:37 --> 00:51:40

back to Allah. If that is what you're going through, no one is

00:51:40 --> 00:51:43

going to understand it better than Allah, and the way that he talks

00:51:43 --> 00:51:47

to us is through his words. The way that we can connect with Allah

00:51:47 --> 00:51:52

is through having this Quranic love, romantic relationship. What

00:51:52 --> 00:51:57

I'd like you to do, Inshallah, tonight, we were going to actually

00:51:57 --> 00:52:01

have you share your stories, but only in 10 and eight minutes. So

00:52:01 --> 00:52:05

Inshallah, what I'm going to do is ask you tonight, think about your

00:52:05 --> 00:52:10

love story. Think about what your love story is and what you want it

00:52:10 --> 00:52:10

to be.

00:52:11 --> 00:52:18

Are you single? Are you divorced with the Quran? Are you just

00:52:18 --> 00:52:22

friends? Is it complicated? What is your relationship with the

00:52:22 --> 00:52:26

Quran? Where do you want your relationship to be? Think about it

00:52:26 --> 00:52:29

tonight Inshallah, and tomorrow Inshallah, what we're going to do

00:52:29 --> 00:52:32

is we're going to talk about our action plan. We're going to go

00:52:32 --> 00:52:35

through the steps of having an intimate relationship with the

00:52:35 --> 00:52:37

Quran. And if you already have one, Inshallah, how to enhance it.

00:52:37 --> 00:52:40

And if you feel like there's no way my relationship with the Quran

00:52:40 --> 00:52:42

could ever be enhanced, how you can inshallah teach it? Because

00:52:42 --> 00:52:45

what may not be applicable to you right now is inshallah applicable

00:52:45 --> 00:52:48

to the people inshallah you're going to help teach the Quran

00:52:48 --> 00:52:52

with. So finally, I'd like to end with Adnan. He's going to come up

00:52:52 --> 00:52:55

here. He's going to recite those verses when so calf come on up,

00:52:55 --> 00:52:55

bro

00:52:56 --> 00:53:00

and Inshallah, we are going to be amazed by how young of this person

00:53:00 --> 00:53:05

is mashallah, but how he's so excited to recite these verses to

00:53:07 --> 00:53:19

us. Bismillah, him in a shaitani, rojim, Bismillah, Rahman era, himI

00:53:19 --> 00:53:26

Kanu, canumin Aya, Tina Abu a jab is a well fit yet to is a well fit

00:53:26 --> 00:53:29

here to eleka FIFA, call you Robin

00:53:30 --> 00:53:33

for call you Robin a Tina,

00:53:35 --> 00:53:45

Min karama, hey, Elena, roshada for the ROB now a then. For the

00:53:45 --> 00:53:46

ROB.

00:53:47 --> 00:53:52

Now today, him was

00:53:53 --> 00:53:54

it?

00:53:56 --> 00:54:05

Now? Who the water? But now cool lube. Him is como? Facalura, buna,

00:54:05 --> 00:54:07

robusama, what you will? Art

00:54:08 --> 00:54:10

Lenna, do I mean, do me

00:54:12 --> 00:54:16

11? Okay, tell us. Tell us. When did you memorize these

00:54:19 --> 00:54:21

verses? Um, tell us, when did you memorize these verses?

00:54:23 --> 00:54:27

Like two years ago. How old were you two years ago? Nine? Akbar,

00:54:29 --> 00:54:33

what made you decide to memorize those verses? I fell in love with

00:54:33 --> 00:54:34

the story of ashabil. KEF,

00:54:35 --> 00:54:39

really. Come on. At nine years old, you fell in love with the

00:54:39 --> 00:54:44

story? Yes, whoa. I'm shocked. Tell me why.

00:54:48 --> 00:54:53

I don't know. I just found it a great story. Oh, my God, may Allah

00:54:53 --> 00:54:54

make me like you. Emmy

00:54:55 --> 00:54:59

nine, where's your parent? Who's like your dad? Yeah, Mahalo.

00:55:00 --> 00:55:04

May Allah bless you, protect him forever. And every single parent

00:55:04 --> 00:55:07

in here and every single one of your children, may Allah make you

00:55:07 --> 00:55:09

of those who fall in love with the Quran all the way through your

00:55:09 --> 00:55:12

whole life, and everybody in this room, and every one of our

00:55:12 --> 00:55:15

progeny, and every one of our relatives, and everyone we love

00:55:15 --> 00:55:18

Emmy. And what is some advice you have for people who want to fall

00:55:18 --> 00:55:19

in love with historians?

00:55:22 --> 00:55:24

So my advice is that

00:55:26 --> 00:55:28

you guys think of it

00:55:30 --> 00:55:35

as a story that can have impact, or, like, something that has to do

00:55:35 --> 00:55:41

with your life. So like, not just like, think about like, oh, that's

00:55:41 --> 00:55:46

in the past. Forget it. It's never gonna happen to me. But keep this

00:55:46 --> 00:55:50

in mind that, like, if it happened to our like, to people who are

00:55:50 --> 00:55:56

before us, it might happen to us. So, so yeah, that's my advice.

00:55:56 --> 00:55:59

Sure you're 11. I'm sure

00:56:00 --> 00:56:05

Masha Allah Baraka, lope. Adnan, may Allah, bless you for dunya Al

00:56:05 --> 00:56:08

aqhira and everybody who's surrounding you in this room right

00:56:08 --> 00:56:11

now. Emin

00:56:12 --> 00:56:17

Masha, Allah, is anyone shocked right now? Feeling shocked? Adnan,

00:56:17 --> 00:56:18

can you teach our class tomorrow?

00:56:19 --> 00:56:20

Okay,

00:56:22 --> 00:56:25

I gotta, I gotta follow up on that. So now that we've heard

00:56:25 --> 00:56:28

Adnan's ridiculous story, we're going to go home and cry over our

00:56:28 --> 00:56:32

states, and then we're going to come back and say, I'm hopeless.

00:56:32 --> 00:56:34

Just kidding. Inshallah, we're going to figure out how we could

00:56:34 --> 00:56:37

be like Adnan tomorrow. Inshallah, protect him, Baraka, lofi,

00:56:37 --> 00:56:41

mashaAllah and every one of us. So again. Inshallah, tonight, please

00:56:41 --> 00:56:45

do me a favor. Think about your situation. Think about what you

00:56:45 --> 00:56:48

need to do to have a relationship with the Quran. We're going to

00:56:48 --> 00:56:51

start inshallah with this slide tomorrow morning. Do me a favor.

00:56:51 --> 00:56:54

If you are coming to class tomorrow, bring a must have that

00:56:54 --> 00:56:58

you can give away. Inshallah, what I'm going to ask you to do is

00:56:58 --> 00:57:02

bring an extra Quran, and I'm going to have you trade it with

00:57:02 --> 00:57:04

someone in the class, even if you've never met them. And

00:57:04 --> 00:57:07

Inshallah, whenever they read from that must have, or if they make

00:57:07 --> 00:57:10

the commitment to memorize from it, as they get the reward of

00:57:10 --> 00:57:13

their memorization, you get the reward of them reading and their

00:57:13 --> 00:57:17

memorization. And as you read from their must have, they get the

00:57:17 --> 00:57:20

reward from you reading and you memorizing from it. So tomorrow,

00:57:20 --> 00:57:24

Inshallah, please make sure to bring a complete Arabic musthave

00:57:24 --> 00:57:27

with you, if you have one, and if you have an extra, bring an extra

00:57:27 --> 00:57:30

just in case someone forgets or isn't here tonight. And if you

00:57:30 --> 00:57:33

have a translation, whether if it's even on your phone or on your

00:57:33 --> 00:57:35

computer, please make sure you bring that as well. For some of

00:57:35 --> 00:57:38

the activities that we're going to do. Ask Allah to make all of us of

00:57:38 --> 00:57:41

the people who love Him, who love His book, and who he loves and who

00:57:41 --> 00:57:46

the Quran loves. Who will be of the people who the Quran will be

00:57:46 --> 00:57:49

with them in the grave when no one is with them, who will be of the

00:57:49 --> 00:57:53

people who the Quran will be an intercessor for in the grave and

00:57:53 --> 00:57:56

on the Day of Judgment, who will be with the people who Allah

00:57:56 --> 00:57:59

chooses to mean be a means of guidance for their family members

00:57:59 --> 00:58:02

and their loved ones and all of the world through the Quran. May

00:58:02 --> 00:58:05

Allah SWT bless you and make you of the people of the Quran and

00:58:05 --> 00:58:11

make us of the people too. So panic Allah Ana either. So if you

00:58:11 --> 00:58:12

don't want to believe it,

00:58:23 --> 00:58:27

hi. Assalamu alaikum, everyone. Just to let you know, in case you

00:58:27 --> 00:58:30

do not, that we are having your heart and the Quran tomorrow at

00:58:30 --> 00:58:33

Northeastern it's in the Snell engineering building, and we're

00:58:33 --> 00:58:39

starting at 10 o'clock register you, but because you lost me and

00:58:39 --> 00:58:43

the difficulty of losing a child, especially at such a young age,

00:58:43 --> 00:58:46

because you lost me, there's chant, there's hope for you.

00:58:47 --> 00:58:57

And then she asked her father, my father, alamilin decrila, hasn't

00:58:57 --> 00:59:02

it become time? Isn't it time for the people who believe, for their

00:59:02 --> 00:59:07

hearts to be affected by the Quran. Isn't it time that you wake

00:59:07 --> 00:59:10

up? Isn't it time that you listen to the Quran and allow it to

00:59:10 --> 00:59:15

affect your life? Malik woke up in that moment, screaming, oh, Allah,

00:59:15 --> 00:59:19

I repent, I repent, I repent, I repent. It happened to be time for

00:59:19 --> 00:59:23

feger. He gets up, makes wudu, goes to the masjid. As he walks

00:59:23 --> 00:59:30

into the masjid, he hears that's exactly what the

00:59:31 --> 00:59:34

Imam is reciting as he walks in.

00:59:35 --> 00:59:39

I want you to think about how that will impact you, if you're going

00:59:39 --> 00:59:43

through such a difficult time in your life, and all of a sudden you

00:59:43 --> 00:59:46

hear the Quran in a dream that's telling you to wake up, and you

00:59:46 --> 00:59:50

walk into the masjid and the Imam is reciting the same verse. Do you

00:59:50 --> 00:59:52

think that would change your life? Do you think that would affect

00:59:52 --> 00:59:58

you? Allah is telling you, he's telling you, I am here. I am

00:59:58 --> 00:59:59

listening.

01:00:00 --> 01:00:05

I just need you to take the steps to me, this is Malik's story of

01:00:05 --> 01:00:09

his repentance. And as he repented, He then started studying

01:00:09 --> 01:00:12

Islam, and he became one of the greatest scholars of our ummah. He

01:00:12 --> 01:00:17

went from someone who used to drink to somebody who we still

01:00:17 --> 01:00:22

quote in our books. Now, Malik became someone. He used to stand

01:00:22 --> 01:00:26

in the night crying, weeping to Allah, saying, Oh Allah, you know

01:00:26 --> 01:00:29

who the inhabitants of the paradise are, and you know who the

01:00:29 --> 01:00:33

inhabitants of the Hellfire is. So whichever one of these two men I

01:00:33 --> 01:00:36

am, O Allah, make me of the people of the Paradise, and don't make me

01:00:36 --> 01:00:40

of the people of the Hellfire. He used to beg Allah, weeping to him.

01:00:41 --> 01:00:45

Now, the Quran changed Malik's life. But Malik isn't just one

01:00:45 --> 01:00:49

special celebrity scholar who was touched by the Quran, and that's

01:00:49 --> 01:00:55

it. Malik is me, and Malik is you. The Quran can be like this for

01:00:55 --> 01:00:57

each and every one of us.

01:00:58 --> 01:01:03

The real question is, though, why isn't it? Why is it that we have a

01:01:03 --> 01:01:05

difficult time connecting with the Quran? What are some of the

01:01:05 --> 01:01:08

reasons we don't establish a regular relationship? What I'm

01:01:08 --> 01:01:11

going to ask you to do inshallah is just take one minute talk to

01:01:11 --> 01:01:15

someone next to you about some possible reasons why, and then

01:01:15 --> 01:01:17

Inshallah, we're going to come back and we're going to talk about

01:01:17 --> 01:01:20

some of the solutions. So go ahead and take a minute on timing you,

01:01:20 --> 01:01:23

and if you're not talking to someone, Michelle, I'm going to

01:01:23 --> 01:01:25

spot you and make you talk to someone. So please Do

01:01:42 --> 01:01:42

it. You

01:03:16 --> 01:03:17

all right, and we're back in three,

01:03:19 --> 01:03:20

We're back in two,

01:03:21 --> 01:03:22

we're back in one,

01:03:23 --> 01:03:24

we're back in zero.

01:03:30 --> 01:03:33

I lost track of time because mashallah, some incredible young

01:03:33 --> 01:03:35

people were telling me their Quranic stories, and Inshallah,

01:03:35 --> 01:03:38

one of them is going to recite some Quran for us tonight. So what

01:03:38 --> 01:03:40

are the things you came up with? What are some of the reasons that

01:03:40 --> 01:03:43

we don't establish a relationship with the Quran relationship with

01:03:51 --> 01:03:51

the

01:03:55 --> 01:03:59

Quran, right? It's not applicable to us. We're going through all

01:03:59 --> 01:04:01

these problems, and it's like, oh, you know, it's just like we're on,

01:04:01 --> 01:04:04

but like, when you're dealing with your kids not listening to you,

01:04:04 --> 01:04:07

and your parents are getting older, and you're dealing with all

01:04:07 --> 01:04:09

these frustrations as a person, and then you have to work, and you

01:04:09 --> 01:04:12

have to go to school, and maybe I don't know, all these things, it's

01:04:12 --> 01:04:14

like all this, you know, it's just a book that I'll read in Ramadan

01:04:14 --> 01:04:17

for sure. You know, yes, I think that's applicable to all of us. I

01:04:17 --> 01:04:21

saw a hand. Wait, we're gonna do brothers, sisters, sisters. Yes,

01:04:26 --> 01:04:28

I only heard the first sentence one more time.

01:04:33 --> 01:04:36

Okay, we don't understand what it's saying. How many people don't

01:04:36 --> 01:04:39

understand the Arabic version of the Quran? I mean, that is the

01:04:39 --> 01:04:45

Quran? Yes, okay, even if you speak Arabic, I would say 99.9% of

01:04:45 --> 01:04:48

people do not speak classical Arabic. They speak like street

01:04:48 --> 01:04:51

language. So or an isn't in that language. So even if you, if you

01:04:51 --> 01:04:53

come from an Arab speaking country, that doesn't mean you're

01:04:53 --> 01:04:56

going to understand it. So yes, that's one of the biggest reasons.

01:04:56 --> 01:04:58

And then it's work to have to read the translation and try to

01:04:58 --> 01:04:59

understand absolutely.

01:05:00 --> 01:05:02

Yeah, all of us go through that. What else? Give me another one?

01:05:02 --> 01:05:04

Oh, sorry, sorry, brother. And then yeah,

01:05:10 --> 01:05:14

oh yes, that's a big one. You know, you're not gonna have, like,

01:05:14 --> 01:05:17

an emotional experience with it. You don't believe that you

01:05:17 --> 01:05:19

personally could benefit from it to that level. It's not that you

01:05:19 --> 01:05:22

don't think you could benefit the crime's amazing. Of course, we all

01:05:22 --> 01:05:24

believe that. Amazing. Of course, we all believe that in Islam,

01:05:24 --> 01:05:27

right? But it's not like when I watch a movie that'll make me cry

01:05:27 --> 01:05:29

and then make me feel awesome, right? It's different. We're not

01:05:29 --> 01:05:31

We're not affected by it like that. Absolutely, yes,

01:05:32 --> 01:05:35

yes, big one. It's just like, but it's so much easier to be on

01:05:35 --> 01:05:39

Facebook right now. Yeah, let me just Instagram myself on Facebook.

01:05:39 --> 01:05:39

Yeah. I

01:05:43 --> 01:05:44

Sorry, one more time.

01:05:46 --> 01:05:50

Oh, 100% we're so busy. Just life moves fast with so many

01:05:50 --> 01:05:54

responsibilities, it's very hard to keep up absolutely sisters,

01:05:57 --> 01:06:00

our hearts are filled with other things. They're so full that it

01:06:00 --> 01:06:02

makes it hard for us to make room for the Quran 100%

01:06:03 --> 01:06:04

brothers,

01:06:10 --> 01:06:14

yes, if we realize what it could do for us, what kind of way it

01:06:14 --> 01:06:17

could affect us, we might spend a little more time in it, just like

01:06:17 --> 01:06:20

you do a degree. Because you know getting your degree will help you

01:06:20 --> 01:06:23

in your job exactly, help you get a job. That's not always true, but

01:06:23 --> 01:06:26

with the Quran, it is okay. Sisters, yeah.

01:06:32 --> 01:06:36

Wow. So sometimes we go to the Quran because things are horrible,

01:06:36 --> 01:06:39

and we're like, oh my god, life is so hard. Oh Allah, help me. And

01:06:39 --> 01:06:42

then you don't know how to come to Allah, so you just open the Quran

01:06:42 --> 01:06:44

and you close your and you close your eyes, and you point to a

01:06:44 --> 01:06:46

verse and oh, that's the answer, right? But other times things are

01:06:46 --> 01:06:48

smooth, Alhamdulillah. So you know, it's not like you don't

01:06:48 --> 01:06:51

think of Allah. It's just you don't really need him that much.

01:06:51 --> 01:06:53

May God protect us and forgive us Absolutely. All of us have this

01:06:53 --> 01:06:54

Yes,

01:06:57 --> 01:06:57

big Uh huh.

01:07:06 --> 01:07:06

Yes,

01:07:10 --> 01:07:10

100%

01:07:12 --> 01:07:15

when we have the Iman high, whether it's reading Quran or like

01:07:15 --> 01:07:17

in Ramadan, when we're paying tadawiya, there are times that we

01:07:17 --> 01:07:20

just feel like, wow, I just connect with Allah so much. Like

01:07:20 --> 01:07:25

30 pages today, or maybe two. And when we get so excited like that,

01:07:25 --> 01:07:28

but then slowly, you know, things change, like our iman starts

01:07:28 --> 01:07:30

dipping. And that's normal. The Prophet saw some told us about

01:07:30 --> 01:07:33

that, that our Imaan goes up and down. If you feel like, what's

01:07:33 --> 01:07:35

wrong with me? I used to be so excited. That's a normal

01:07:35 --> 01:07:38

experience. And the Prophet saw some taught us the way to Revive

01:07:38 --> 01:07:41

Our Hearts is by constantly remembering Allah. So one of the

01:07:41 --> 01:07:45

reasons that we go away is once we had that intimate relationship,

01:07:45 --> 01:07:48

we're like, dude, what happened? We don't have that relationship

01:07:48 --> 01:07:50

anymore, and it makes it hard for us to be consistent with it. Thank

01:07:50 --> 01:07:52

you so much for all of your answers.

01:07:53 --> 01:07:56

Many of you alluded to the fact that it's hard because we don't

01:07:56 --> 01:07:59

necessarily feel that connection. There's not really that emotional

01:07:59 --> 01:08:02

connection. We don't see the benefit to it. It's hard to be

01:08:02 --> 01:08:05

consistent. It's hard with just life. It's hard when other things

01:08:05 --> 01:08:10

keep you busy. It's hard when it's just easier not to since things

01:08:10 --> 01:08:14

are not that hard. But one of the things that all of that alludes to

01:08:14 --> 01:08:18

is the fact that we see the Quran as a book. We do see the Quran as

01:08:18 --> 01:08:21

a book right there are so many of them right there. But one thing

01:08:21 --> 01:08:24

that we need to just shift our perspective with inshallah is that

01:08:24 --> 01:08:29

the Quran isn't a book. The Quran is a relationship. The Quran is a

01:08:29 --> 01:08:33

relationship. What we're going to inshallah do talk about the steps

01:08:33 --> 01:08:37

of a relationship, number one, recognizing why we need the Quran

01:08:37 --> 01:08:40

as our lifelong partner. How many of you know someone who wants to

01:08:40 --> 01:08:41

get married.

01:08:42 --> 01:08:48

Come on, don't be shy. Seriously. Yes, we know so many people, maybe

01:08:48 --> 01:08:53

ourselves. But why do you want to get married? You might know it

01:08:53 --> 01:08:55

could be like, yeah, man, I just want a soul mate. I almost want

01:08:55 --> 01:08:59

someone to emotionally connect to. I want someone to get physical

01:08:59 --> 01:09:03

with. There's so many reasons why we want to get married. Look at

01:09:03 --> 01:09:07

the Quran, though. Why do we want a relationship with the Quran?

01:09:07 --> 01:09:10

Some of us don't even know, but if it was a real relationship, like a

01:09:10 --> 01:09:15

person, we could understand why we want to be friends. Like, I don't

01:09:15 --> 01:09:18

know. I could see a sister that I met at the ECI retreat, and then

01:09:18 --> 01:09:21

I'm like, Whoa. She's here again. I can't wait to reconnect with her

01:09:21 --> 01:09:24

because she has some amazing calligraphy skills. I have a

01:09:24 --> 01:09:26

reason why I want to connect with her. Many of you can think of

01:09:26 --> 01:09:30

people that you want to connect with in your life after meeting

01:09:30 --> 01:09:33

them and seeing how awesome they are. So one of the ways that we

01:09:33 --> 01:09:36

connect with the Quran is by viewing it as a relationship that

01:09:36 --> 01:09:39

we need, understanding why we need this relationship. The second way

01:09:39 --> 01:09:43

is getting over awkward conversations, it could be awkward

01:09:43 --> 01:09:47

to meet someone you for the first time. It could be like, Oh, wow,

01:09:47 --> 01:09:50

that person's just awkward. Hashtag, awkward. Have you guys

01:09:50 --> 01:09:55

ever been in those situations? What about for example, if you

01:09:55 --> 01:09:57

went to school or you were at work in a.

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