Maryam Amir – You are Not a Hypocrite

Allah doesn't say the MAS, the MAS. Who are like striving to do

every prayer on time, and way more than that, and constantly in this

state of extremely amazing worship,

Amanu is people whose faith have entered their hearts, but it

hasn't quite settled. Their actions are not fully there. If

you were someone who is struggling with sinning or shortcomings, or

you feel like an old Dawn, you're one way, and the rest of the year

you're another way. That doesn't make you hypocritical, it makes

you someone who's struggling to be firm and close to Allah, and then

you falter, and then you come back and think about Yusuf Ali and

salam. How many trials have Yusuf alaihi salam go through in his

life? I mean, think about the reality of his family issues being

thrown into a well by your siblings. Think about even after

all the time of being, you know, pursued by a number of women,

being jailed, and after all of this, being placed in a position

of power to have those same brothers to your face not

recognize you, how badly about that brother who they had? Like?

How would that make you feel, emotionally like, ripping open old

wounds? You're finally like, now having to die. I'm in this space.

I'm like, you know, in a place of privilege, and I can use that in

the right way. And those same people look at you through all of

that. They still think those terrible things about you. You

suffered his Salam. He had difficulty in his life, but

obviously he's better than all of this combined. And yet he says

antiwali

Yousef Ali Islam uses the word Wali, the name Al Wali. So when

you and I are going through something, when I go through

something like a miscarriage, may Allah protect everyone. When I

went through something like a miscarriage, may Allah protect you

all, bless you all. When you go through depression, when you're

struggling with doubts and faith, when you're going through an

addiction, whenever you're going through Remember who you have. And

what he is your friend and your guardian. And that includes those

of us who struggle with sin over and over and over. Some of us feel

so far away because we feel like there's no way we can get over

something that we keep doing. But think about the companion of the

Prophet's voice of the Abdullah. He used to constantly drink. He

used to drink alcohol. He was commander of the Prophet told

lower they would send them he would be punished for his public

drinking, over and over to the point that the Companions got

frustrated, and they were like, what's up with this guy? He's

constantly sitting in the same exact way.

And they they cursed him. They were saying things about him that

were just wrong, and the Prophet sallallahu alayhi was sent them

himself stood up for this man, and he declared that this man loves

Allah and the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, if the prophet

himself, sallallahu alayhi wa salam could declare how much this

man loves a lot in his prophet, and he's a companion of the

Prophet, who sees the Prophet on a regular basis, who has the

opportunity to become the best of Muslims that have ever existed,

because he's literally, physically sitting with a prophet. Then why

don't we knew that are struggling in America that are dealing with

Islamophobia, that are dealing with all types of different racism

or sexism, or anything else that you're struggling with, and on top

of that, you're struggling to be Muslim and Ramadan with crazy,

long fasting hours. Maybe you have a crazy schedule, and you're still

fasting through it. What about me and you? Of course, Allah's

Panama, Tala is Inshallah, hopefully looking at us, even when

we make mistakes, and saying that's a servant that loves me. We

pray that we be of those people. He's not looking for perfection.

He loves you anyway. And when we look at those who turn to him, you

know, sometimes in your heart, have you ever wanted to you know

you wanted to do something and you knew it was wrong, and it didn't

make you happy that it was wrong, but the action itself made you

happy. Like, let's say you knew a relationship was wrong, but it

made you happy to be in it, or like you knew not praying or

mother right, let's say Mother missing was wrong, but you wanted

to watch that movie in the theaters, and you're gonna walk

out. Okay, so you that action, in and of itself, is wrong, but it

made you happy to watch the movie you got me, but the Prophet

sallallahu alayhi was sent them. He talks about a believer being

the person who they're they're the things that they do that are good,

it makes them happy. The things that I do that are wrong, it makes

them sad. So even if you didn't do the right thing, the fact that it

didn't make you happy, that you were doing the wrong thing, that

in and of itself, is a description of a believer. In and of itself,

that's a description of who you are. And the Lost parental says

familiar.

Taba, a him, Leah, Tubu, that then he turned to them in repentance,

so that they would turn to Him. If, when Allah, saying that Imam

Abuja talks about he, he turns to you in repentance before you turn

to Him. If you've ever had in your heart for a moment, this feeling

that you want to come back to Allah that's not coming from you,

that's literally coming from Allah. He wants you to come back

to him. So he puts this feeling inside of your heart to come back

to him. And if you haven't felt that feeling, it doesn't mean

there's no hope for you at all

in we all pray that Allah puts that feeling in our hearts and

that we turn to him once we feel that feeling. So even if you

haven't felt it, there's so much hope for you still, as in so many

Ahadith talked about, if you just turn to Him, that He accepts you.

Subhanho wa taala, sometimes maybe it's just that you're struggling

with who you are today versus who you used to be like today. You may

not be able to do the type of worship you used to do, and it

makes you feel guilty. You maybe feel overwhelmed. And this is

something one of my teachers taught me, which I panelized like

saved me this from Al Dawn, may Allah bless him. Even atwa Idah

says something incredible that you looking outside of the Allah has

placed in front of you for ways to come close to him is a hidden type

of Hawa. Let me explain that. What that means sometimes the way to

Allah, after praying your obligatory prayers, like the basic

obligation, the way to him after that is taking care of your

parents, or the way to that to him after that is working so you can

provide for your family, or waking up at 6am because your toddler

does, even in Aldon, this is my son. Please pray for

us every morning I

am so tired. Tired. Second point, the point is when you're too tired

to pray, even to muqas after Isha because you're collapsing because

you have to take care of a child the next morning,

that is what Allah has placed for you. And Rahim, Allah talks about

pawli at all. What these are the obligations of the time that Allah

has placed in front of you? So when you have a crazy, big exam,

or when you have to work, you have to take care of your health, your

mental health, whatever it is, and it's stopping you from doing those

things that all those other believers are doing, all the

people who are praying here for hours at a time, who love fasting

can't wait for Ramadan, all those excited Ramadan, faster worshiper

believers, and you don't feel like you're one of them. You know what

you're doing. Instead, you're taking the Asmaa, the means that

Allah has placed in front of you to draw closer to Him, and if you

were to try to remove those just because you wanted to feel a

spiritual high, since you didn't have those responsibilities,

that's not closeness to Allah. That's you trying to find a way

out of the responsibilities he's given you, and the guilt that's

induced from that is not something pious. Instead, find ways to come

close to Allah in the worship he's put in front of you, even if it

doesn't taste sweet, that spiritual sweetness doesn't always

come from changing an explosion diaper. It really doesn't, and it

also doesn't come from having to work crazy, long hours when you're

exhausted, but at the same time, that is the worship that Allah is

putting in your place to come closest to him, SubhanAllah.

And subhanAllah, we know that the Prophet saw someone told us in the

bindiyat that indeed, actions are by intention. So whenever you make

the intention, whatever you're doing that Inshallah, in and of

itself is worship.

There was a man who the during the time of Prophet saw them. It

was,

excuse me, he was strong, and he looked, I guess, strong, and so he

was walking, and the Companions saw him, and they were talking.

The prophets left them, and they're like, Wouldn't it have

better? Been better if this man was out, you know, out in the

Cause of Allah. And the Prophet saw them responded and said, If he

went to work to provide for his young children, he was out in the

Cause of Allah. If he went to work to provide for his old, elderly

parents, he was out in the Cause of Allah. If this man was out to

work so that he would be able to sustain himself and not beg

people. He was out in the Cause of Allah, Oh SallAllahu, alayhi wa

sallam. But the prophet saw some of his teaching has said, unlike

the very narrow view we have of what closest to Allah looks like,

everything we do, including the emotional struggles that we have,

those are forms of worship, and those are forms that all.

Allah loves and uses for us to draw closer to Him.

Allah subhana wa Taala is aloli to the one who draws close to him

through the obligatory so he tells Sina Hadith putsi, that he's a

Wali, that he's on your side, that when you do the obligations.

That's how you come close to him. That's it. That's what's asking

you. He's not asking you to do the obligations and also weep in sola

all night. He's not asking you to the obligations and also smile

with extreme vigor at your love for doing worship inshaAllah will

be blessed with those feelings one day. But that's not what's a

requirement for you, the action, in and of itself, is what Allah is

asking for, and when we are trying to do more, that's awesome. Let's

try to do more, because we should strive to be better believers. But

when what that is holding you back from Allah, your own self, because

of how guilty you feel, then recognize that's not from Allah.

He wants you however you turn to Him. When I was studying in Egypt,

a few sisters and I went to dinner, and we had a bunch of

money left over after we pulled our money together for the food.

So we decided that we were going to go and give this homeless boy

who used to sleep in front of a grocery store with his little pet

dog, the extra money. And we walked for 20 minutes to get to

this place where this little boy was he's a teenager, or this

teenage boy used to sleep. So we finally get there, and he's

nowhere. But this puppy is there, and there's this tiny puppy, and

he's trying to open a water bottle with his paws, and he can't get it

open. And so we came and we opened the bottle, and we poured some

water out, and this puppy drank so much water, and then once it was

done drinking its water, it just just kind of ran away. I was

thinking, SubhanAllah. We are a group of foreigners. We're a group

of American students going to a restaurant with some extra money.

Our intention was to donate. We walked 20 minutes only to open a

bottle cap for this adoptive bunch of thirst. And if Allah's

penalties is going to take care of his creation like a small,

innocent puppy who doesn't pray and struggle with worshiping Him,

obviously, all creations of Allah believes okay, but I mean, like

we're struggling to worship Him. So if he's going to facilitate all

of this for this tiny puppy, then what is he going to facilitate for

the person who is going through the hardships that you're going

through and trying to think good of him too? Allah tells us I am as

my servant thinks I am. So when you think great of Allah, when you

have hope in Allah, when you are certain that Allah will accept

your repentance, and certain that Allah understands your struggle

inshaAllah, he will do all of that because he is your wali in any

circumstance, in any space you're in. He is there to be your loving

guide. It's just about reframing our minds and our framework so

when we approach Him, we know he's on our side, and then trying our

best to live our lives in a way that even when we falter, it's

okay, we just go back to him, because that's what a loving

friend does. They constantly guard you. They protect you. They're

your ally, and they accept you. We always want to talk in this thing,

except every single one of us and everyone

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