Maryam Amir – When youre feeling far from Allah

Are you feeling far from Allah?

Listen to this.

I had Quran class with Sheikh Abdullah Deeb

yesterday and I was in tears when he

stopped me at a verse.

The verse included in it said to the

prophet, peace be upon him, you are only

a warner, you are only but a warner.

Sheikh Abdullah is one of the foremost Quran

scholars in the world.

He's one of the shortest sanads in the

world and I had stopped here because there

is a part that you can stop in

this ayah and he told me some salawa

on the prophet because this verse is referencing

the prophet being a warner.

And then he told me about a Quran

scholar in history who had different intentions for

the moments that he did the khatm of

the Quran.

He said he had a khatm for Allah,

a khatm for the prophet, peace be upon

him, and a khatm for the anbiya, the

prophets.

I didn't understand what he meant.

What does it mean to have a khatm

for a completion of the Quran for the

sake of Allah?

Of course we always recite for the sake

of Allah, but what does it mean to

intend that it's going to be for Allah?

And he shared with me that every single

time this scholar would recite the Quran, he

would stop at a name of Allah subhanahu

wa ta'ala.

And I want you to think about how

many names of Allah there are in the

Quran.

Every time he would stop at a name

of Allah, he would just start making dhikr,

praising Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala.

It would take him months to complete that

reading of the Quran and then he would

start with another one with the intention that

every time he passes a verse that has

to do with the prophet that's talking to

or referencing the prophet, peace be upon him,

he would stop at the appropriate spot and

send salawa on the prophet.

And then there was a third intention that

every time he read and there was a

name of another prophet or the prophets that

he would send peace upon them.

I want you to think about the effect

of your heart.

How does that affect your interaction with the

Quran?

You are interacting with the He asked me

a question and he said, what if you

didn't respond?

What if you ignored my question and you

just kept reciting?

He said, wouldn't that be so rude for

you to just keep talking and ignore what

I've asked you?

Then what about when Allah talks to you?

Why aren't we responding when the verses are

asking us?

It's a conversation between you and Allah subhanahu

wa ta'ala.

This scholar, when he was passing away, his

son narrates what he saw.

He said his father suddenly looked up and

he said, welcome, oh prophet, peace be upon

him.

Welcome, oh prophet Ibrahim, peace be upon him.

Welcome, oh granddaughter of the prophet, peace be

upon him, Zaynab.

He said, welcome, am I deserving of all

of this?

Am I deserving of all of this?

Whatever he was seeing, subhanAllah.

And then he made the shahada and he

passed away.

You may feel very distant from Allah.

What I want to remind you is that

the Quran was sent to you because Allah

loves you.

It's a conversation with you.

So respond to the conversation.

And if you don't understand the Arabic, begin

reading it in the English translation.

When you talk to Allah subhanahu wa ta

'ala in dua, He responds to you with

the Quran.