Maryam Amir – Intellectual catastrophe

			Started working on designs from a new secret
		

			project. I then got the phone and went
		

			to get a haircut. My dear brother was
		

			just murdered. He was murdered by Israel. And
		

			I keep thinking about the fact that he
		

			covered up his project because it's a secret,
		

			and he wasn't ready to share it. And
		

			I keep reflecting on the intellectual catastrophe,
		

			the catastrophe of this genocide intellectually.
		

			How many people have secret projects that they've
		

			been working on that they wanted to produce,
		

			and what a loss it is not on
		

			a just a personal level, but, like, all
		

			of us have lost opportunity
		

			to ever know what his secret project was.
		

			And the
		

			180,000
		

			plus others like him. May Allah enter them
		

			into the highest paradise. I constantly think about
		

			people having secrets with Allah. And something like
		

			this. I think about the secrets that someone
		

			like this has with Allah that nothing is
		

			ever lost. That if he made the intention
		

			and he wanted to seek this, that maybe
		

			Allah will bless someone with knowing his idea
		

			and being able to bring it into the
		

			world insha'Allah. And insha'Allah it'll be a salal
		

			kajari for him that even if he wasn't
		

			able to do it, that he made the
		

			intention that he wanted to, that Allah will
		

			write it as if he did and insha'Allah
		

			he'll get the reward of that. But I
		

			say those things just to make myself feel
		

			better because, of course, I believe them and
		

			I know that they're true and there's a
		

			hereafter for a reason. How do you process
		

			genocide? This young brother was murdered. He had
		

			an entire life and secrets that he wanted
		

			to share with the world, but he wasn't
		

			ready yet. How do you justify
		

			the cultural devastation,
		

			the intellectual devastation?
		

			And yet, Al Azza teaches us life.