Hamzah Wald Maqbul – 26 Ramadn 1442 Late Night Majlis Rm and the Sickness Which is Better Than the Cure
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Here in the, Ummah Center in Columbia Station,
Ohio.
We continue our, late night majlis on this
Mubarak
26th night of Ramadan.
Allah
write us all from the and from those
whose necks are men emitted from the
prison of the hellfire, Amin.
So we continue,
reading
of
the saviors of the Islamic Spirit,
with regards to Mulan Jalaluddin
Rumi
under the
subheading,
the love of God.
The impetus received by the movement of rationalism
and scholasticism in the 7th century of the
Muslim era had cooled the yearnings of the
human soul for the
apprehension of the divine.
From one end of the Islamic world to
another, leaving a few illuminated souls here and
there. Nobody seemed to have any taste for
divine manifestation and illumination of the heart.
It was as if an apathy or coolness
had overtaken
the hearts of people. It was a situation
expressed by Iqbal in the following verse.
The fire of love has cooled down. What
a calamity it is. The Musalman is naught
but a heap of ashes.
What's ashes? It's the wood, but the heat
is already gone.
It was at this critical stage that Rumi
sounded the note of alarm and exhorted the
people to be take the path of love.
His call fired frenzy of love once again,
and the entire world of Islam,
answered.
Rumi explained what he meant by love and
to what sublime eminence it could raise people.
He says
it's a quote from the Masnavi
By love, bitter things become sweet. By love,
pieces of copper turned to gold.
Who who's the copper?
It's you and me.
Who's the gold? Insha'Allah, it's you and me
as well.
Who's the bitter one? It's you and me.
But who's the the sweet afterward? InshaAllah, by
Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala, it's you and me
as well. He says, By love, bitter things
become sweet.
By love, pieces of copper turn into gold.
By love, dregs become clear.
By love, pains become healing. You know what
dregs are?
Drag? Dreg,
d r e g.
It's like it's like the like, if you
have, like, like, it's in wine, like, the
rot
of the wine is the dregs.
Like, you have some rotten grape juice that's,
like, actually just moldy grape part that got
caught in it and that didn't get filtered
out. So the person who's drinking the wine,
they throw the they throw the drags out.
And you could have it like an orange
juice or whatever if you see, like, it's
gone bad, the part, the gross part that
floats, you know. So this is by love,
dregs become clear, meaning it returns to the
non disgusting state.
By love, pain becomes healing.
By love, prisons become a garden, and without
love,
gardens
become desolate.
By love, prisons become a garden, and without
love, gardens become desolate.
By love, illness contributes to health.
Illness contributes to health,
and the scourge becomes a blessing.
By love, the dead is made living, and
by love, the king is made a slave.
You saw that, right?
The
whatever. Queen Elizabeth's grandson, fell in love, and
now he's like he abandoned the whole palace
and he's gone. He's like in LA or
whatever. I don't you know what I mean?
Like,
it does strange things. So if you're gonna
fall in love with someone, that's fine. I'm
sure that his wife is a lovely woman.
I'm not trying to say anything bad about
her, but you fall in love with someone
worthy of your love, and maybe you might
end up somewhere nicer than LA.
Rumi describes the vigor of love and its
virtue in these words.
Through love, the earthly abode soared to the
skies. The mountain began to dance and become
nimble.
Love inspired Mount Sinai, o lover, so that
Sinai was made drunken and, Moses fell in
a swoon.
And this is a passage that describes what?
This is this is this is a a
passage of the Quran that he's describing.
That it was it was what the the
tajalli of Subhanahu wa ta'ala you know, in
that mountain it completely rent the mountain ascender
and say the Musa alayhis salam,
he he he fell he fell in a
swoon. What is that? If it's not if
it's not Mahaba. So he's saying that that's
what it is that the intensity of connection
that,
Sayyidina Musa had with Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala.
And this is a very special something that
people should think about. You go for Hajj,
you see the Jabal Noor.
Right? This is a place that has no
less value or no less importance in the
history of humanity than
the Jabal Tur, that the
Wahi came down and say the Musa alaihis
salam. That Rasulullah
sallallahu alaihi wasallam, he didn't
know
how many juz the Quran is gonna have.
Which month of the year he's gonna be
fasting.
Or
what the arkan
and sunnahs of Hajj are?
Or how much what percentage zakat is going
be. But there was something that called him
to it.
And by the barakah of that thing,
what what he would go literally, go 6
for 6 months, he would go and just
just he wanted to be alone with Allah
and nobody else.
And that's that's what he's saying by love.
That's what love is. Love is thing that
makes a person draws a person to something
that other people will think that they're
crazy. And,
but, you know, to them, it makes more
sense than, what sense is of other
people. He says through love, the earthly body
soared to the skies.
And the mountain began
to dance and became nimble.
Love inspired Mount Sinai, O lover, so that
Sinai was made drunken and Moses fell in
a swoon, alayhi salam.
Moana Abu Hassan Ali Naddui continues. He says,
love is so dignified and high souled that
it cares nothing for empires.
One who
has once drunk at the spring of love
looks at this looks with disdain at all
worldly possessions.
Iqbal has expressed the same idea in the
couplet in which he says,
listless, it turns the heart from heaven and
earth. How should I describe
what the flavor of love is like?
The lover hardly cares for anything. He is
mad after the supreme beauty.
Rumi says, love turns heedless of the worlds,
this or that.
A thousand madnesses it imbibes in the lover's
heart.
The lover becomes a king of kings and
the object of true love. He tramples underfoot
the crown and scepter of authority.
Overt and latent quote,
to the empires
his wonders are,
for those who rule the heart aspire for
him. He treads a path different from others.
Even the throne of the king is under
his foot.
This is a quote from the Masnawi.
Speaking of love,
arrogant and stately,
Rumi himself becomes enchanted by tremendous spiritual enthusiasm,
and he says,
worldly dominion is lawful only to those who
indulge the body. We lovers are devoted to
the everlasting kingdom of love. Meaning what? If
a person has the love of Allah Subhanahu
Wa Ta'ala, he doesn't care anymore for these
things.
Really Rasool Allah SallAllahu Wa Salam didn't care.
Sayyid Abu Bakr Siddiq Radhiallahu Anhu, Sayyidna
The companions, the Khulafa Rashidun, they're like In
some ways we would think they're like Majzub
people. Why?
Said Abu Bakr Siddiq
he like, they had to convince him even
to take
a stipend for
his work.
Sayyidina Umar alayhi wa ta'ala Anhu used to
take Paylullah, he used to take his daily
nap in the masjid.
The other people had enough adab to know
that if someone comes from outside and they
say, I wanna talk to Umar, I'd like
to stop them from waking him up because
if he doesn't rest it's gonna like harm
his health. Otherwise, he himself didn't care for
any of those things.
Anyone else who does something like that or
who rules in a way like that, it's
not gonna work, it's gonna fall apart.
But this is this is like the,
the state that this Mahaba of Allah subhanahu
wa ta'ala put in them. They really didn't
care.
They really didn't care. Sayyidna,
Abu Huraira
they complained that he was sent to be
the governor of Bahrain. The people complain that
all he does
is he prays the Hajjud all night and
fast all day, and like he's bent over
of hunger all of the time. It's hard
to even like get anything done with him.
Said, Nama
Ralli literally called him back and said, you
know what? Keep teaching hadith. This, you know,
ruling is not for you. It's not your
gig.
Why? Because they didn't care anymore.
And it doesn't mean that they weren't effective
rulers. Saeedullah alayhiallahu was a very effective administrator.
Saeedullah
alayhiallahu was actually a very effective ruler and
Islam expanded in his reign in a way
that it didn't expand in other people's reign.
They're very sagacious people. They're very wise people.
The decisions they made,
it seems like the Ummah, basically, after their
rule ended, the Ummah has just been coasting
ever since then. The sacrifices that they made
and things that they put in place, everything
that's right with Islam that works, it was
from their era.
And so what is, you know, what what
does it mean? It doesn't mean that if
you're like in love, you know, that if
you have love in your heart, you don't
eat or drink anymore. It's just you don't
care about these things anymore. They no longer
capture your, attention. This is one of the
reasons, you know, especially in the in the,
in the Persianate or in the Ajami cultures
of the east,
these types of works are given a lot
of importance. Why? Because the people don't have
a connection with the Quran.
And so these are simple
ideas that are put forth simply in order
to describe the of the companions
of the of the mashayikh,
in order to revive that that kind of
fascination that people used to have with the
love of Allah Ta'ala. That this is my
rub and I'm going to make him happy,
and like to * with the rest of
the world. What is it gonna do if
Allah ta'ala is with me? What else what
else is it what is it is it
gonna do? And it's there in the hadith
of the prophet
Quran All of them, you know, if they
all got together the instant, the jinn, the
first of the the creation and the last
of them, in order to benefit you with
something that Allah Ta'ala wrote that you're not
gonna benefit from it, then, it's not gonna
benefit you. And if they all got together
in order to harm you with something Allah
Ta'ala wrote that it's not gonna harm you.
It's not gonna harm you. This is the
deen of Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala.
The sad part is now what happens is
that the Arabs are no longer Arabs anymore.
They need no longer they no longer have
connection with
the language either.
It's just an identity now.
It's just a flag.
It's just an identity. In the old days,
if an Arab was a,
a profligate, if he's a fasihq, what would
he do?
Get drunk
and listen to hamriyat, listen to poets like
say wine poetry, there's a fasihah in it.
At least if you can understand that poetry,
you'll understand the Quran.
It's not good.
It's definitely a bad thing. It's not something
I recommend. The American Liver Association definitely doesn't
recommend it either
but, nor do the nor do the fuqaha,
you know, give fatwa in its in its,
permissibility.
But at least that's one thing is that
you would be able to understand. They would
be those people would be able to understand
when they heard the Quran it would affect
them.
But,
unfortunately, sadly now that's gone as well, that
ability to access that,
that message of of of of a type
of love that like,
you know,
help me out.
Right? That,
the queen
built peace of Saba, she she said that
like, we don't want this army to come
here because this is kings their habit is
when they enter into
a country,
they completely turn it upside down,
and they make the most noble and most
honored people in that country, they humiliate them
the most.
Why? Because they are trying to show there's
a new system in town. So the governors
and the judges and the people who are
prominent people, they humiliate them the most And
they let the like riffraff go. They don't
mess with them.
And so it's it's interesting that you know
the masha'i from the who made tafsir of
this ayat. They said that they said that
Allah ta'ala one of his one of his
attributes is what? That Allah ta'ala is Al
Malik. Allah ta'ala is the king. Allah is
the king of kings. Allah is the
That when Allah love enters into a heart,
that's exactly what it does. It completely turns
it upside down. Completely turns it upside down
to the point where those things that a
normal heart would find
so important.
Those are the things that because of the
love of Allah ta'ala,
the heart of the lover now
takes a special joy
in
disrespecting them.
What is it that everybody loves so much?
Right? Money, property,
power.
Right? The masha'i, they
used to take a special enjoyment, a special
pleasure in showing Allah that these things mean
nothing to me. These things mean nothing to
me.
And so the thing is look, this is
a Maqam not everybody is going to
make it to this station
and not everyone's there. And for most people,
there are some exceptions, but for most people
the one who aspires to it, it takes
a very long
life filled with hard work in order to
attain it.
However, just the love of this nakam and
the celebration of it, the idea that this
is a good thing, this is a sign
of kherin people.
Because the wilayah of the awliya, the sainthood
of the saints,
itself
is a very lofty and high position with
Allah.
To bear witness to it is itself
a type of hulia as well.
Imagine the Rasool Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam who he
was.
No one else is going to be him.
Right?
The companions were the Allahu and whom were
the companions what? Because they saw him and
they said, this is we bear witness that
you're the messenger of Allah.
That's itself a station.
And so this is a this is kinda
like like money on the table, like you
don't put in business terms, we're leaving money
on the table here. That if you're not
gonna be like that, you're like, Sheikh, I
kinda do like money and it's nice to
be in a nice house and this and
that. It's okay. I I I love money
too, masha'Allah. I love all sorts of dunya
things. Trust me. Right? But the thing is
this is at least to say like these
people, this is the one who really loves
Allah.
But what is it nowadays that we do?
No, you know, Shaykh, this is extreme. This
is this. This is that. This is extreme.
This is a dream. This is,
you know, cream. I don't know, like, this
is maybe they, you know, we should like,
you know, don't you guys pray too much
in the masjid, and you should pray less,
and you should read less Quran, and you
should have less rakas, and you should have,
you know, and, you know, we should cancel
Jum'ah just for for another year, just for
fun. Like, the danger is gone. When when
there's danger, even I say, okay, go ahead.
Cancel Jum'ah. I don't want people to die,
you know? But like, when the danger is
gone, let's cancel this and cancel that and,
you know, it's haram. I don't say everything
is haram. It's all halal. It's okay. People
are trying to discount from every side,
from every side until the deen itself become
discount so heavily discounted it just becomes cheap.
Where's the love then?
Where's the love that's left, right? You go
home and your wife, you know, or, you
know, your husband for the sisters, right, ask
what's the proof that you love me?
What are you gonna say? You'll be like,
you remember that one time like I did
something that I didn't wanna do, I only
did it because I Love you. Love you.
Right? You're not gonna be able to be
like, oh, you remember we went to that
dinner to the one restaurant that I like
and we ordered the thing that I like
and you paid for it? Is that a
proof of love?
No dude, that's bogus like
she's gonna start reevaluating
the foundation of this relationship, right?
And then look on the flip side, when
you go on Hajj, what do you do?
You throw
rocks
at
the
at the at the jamarat.
The Rasulullah says when you throw a rock
at the Jamarat for every rock that's thrown,
for every stone that's cast,
One sin is forgiven
that is such a sin that if Allah
were to take you to account fully for
that sin you would have gone to the
* fire. Such a sin is forgiven.
But like think about it like a like
think about it like not from fiqh and
not from theology, think about it from like
very human point of view. Right?
Imagine there's like a young couple, right? And
the young lady catches her Romeo like
looking as another
young lady walks by. She's like, what were
you looking at? What is he gonna say?
He's like, no no, she's nothing. She's that
oh, no, not her.
Her hair is disgusting or she's like this.
I would never she's nothing compared to you.
Right?
What is it? It's a very human thing.
It's a very human thing. If the fiqh
is there and if all the other things
are there but the love is gone, where's
the where's the where's the benefit? Otherwise, there
are many people who walk by and they
just
they're just hucking rocks at a thing. Otherwise,
it's like, what's the point of it? If
Allah doesn't accept it, what's the point? That
they're hucking rocks at the at the thing
but the love isn't there.
That they don't and you see on the
flip side there are some people, mashallah, very
simple villagers they go on Hajj
and they go like overboard
when when they, you know, when they go
like,
and they're like as if they're like, you
know, like fire a rocket at
a at a tank or something, or like,
you know, in the old days, the the
the
yeah, man. You know, they're they're they're cussing,
some people start cussing at the thing like
using foul language and things. It's like not
in shaitan, it's just like a stone pillar,
like it's a stone wall, you know. It's
not actually shaitan.
And like or in the old days they
used to have the pillar, it was actually
a pillar, now it's like a wall, right?
It's actually it used to be a pillar,
people would get on it and start beating
you with their and, like, with their ship
ship, they start beating it and, like
and okay, the fiqh is wrong. If you
ask the Mufti, is this good? No, you
can't do that, I'm like, what are you
doing? Get that person off of there. Right?
The mazub, mazkeen, like, lost their mind. But
at least the heart's in the right place.
At least
the heart is in the right place. And
if their heart is in the right place,
who knows maybe that you know like kinda
like bogus like Hajj or bogus jama'at that
they did, maybe Allah loved it and forgave
them anyway,
you know. Again, this is like don't do
this at home. If you guys if you
and me do it, we're gonna be faking
because we saw someone else. But I'm just
saying that those are genuine feelings that people
have. If you can combine that knowledge of
fiqh with this genuine feeling, that's where the
barakah is. That's the word of Rasool sallallahu
alaihi wasallam came with. That's what he taught.
That's the khulafa rashidur. You combine the knowledge
with this genuine feeling and that's that's,
where it's supposed to take you.
So
he continues.
He says love is so dignified in a
high soul that it carries nothing for
empires.
One who has once drunk at the spring
of love looks with disdain at all worldly
possessions.
He says that,
this is the
this is Rumi says, love turns the heedless
of the worlds love turns 1 heedless of
the worlds this or that. A A thousand
madnesses it imbibes in the lover's heart. The
lover becomes a king of kings and an
object of true love. He tramples underfoot the
crowns and scepters of authority.
Speaking of love,
arrogant and stately, which is a very strange
thing. He could describe Milan as arrogant in
a sense but like meaning what indignant I
think maybe a better word to use.
Rumi himself becomes enchanted by a tremendous spiritual
enthusiasm.
Says worldly dominion is lawful only to those
who indulge the body. We lovers are devoted
to an everlasting kingdom of love.
It says lover love is the only sickness,
the only malady welcomed by its sufferer who
never desires to recover from it. The lover
really desires a continuous increase in his affliction.
Quote, all the sick hope to be cured,
but this sick one sobs, crying, increase my
sickness.
I have found no drink sweeter than this
poison and no state of health that can
be sweeter than this disease.
After the illness of love, no other sickness
can overtake the lover. Quote,
the words spoken by him deliver you from
the words of idle disputation,
and the sickness of love inspired by him
lets you escape from
the sickness of this world.
If love is a sickness, it is a
1,000,
worth a 1,000 healths.
It pains and pinches
but still it is sweeter than a 1,000
pleasures.
Therefore the sickness of love
is the very soul of health. Its pains
are the envy of every pleasure.
Rumi
says that love essentially is a spiritual passion.
If,
it is to be regarded by regarded as
a sin, virtue can be rightly be sacrificed
as at its altar.
In so far as it serves to purify
the soul, it helps to ascend to divine
favor in a moment, that years of penance
and prayer may be unable to attain.
What does that mean? Like is this just
something you know like some goofy sufi stuff
that they made up?
Rasulullah
literally
a bedoon walked into the masjid in madinah
of Munawara and asked
That a Bedouin walked into the masjid, saw
the companions
and says, what do you say about a
man who loves a people but is unable
to be as good as they are?
And what did Rasulullah
say? He says,
a person will be with the one that
they love.
So what does What is that? What is
that? So Rumi says that love essentially is
a spiritual passion even if it is to
be regarded
as a sin, virtue can be rightly sacrificed
at its altar. In so far as it
serves to purify the soul and helps to
ascend to divine favor in a moment.
In a moment,
that which years of penance and prayer may
be unable to attain.
That a person through the love of their
companions radhiyallahu ta'ala anhu.
If he was just to sit in the
desert himself and just
do his Istighfar and his salat,
that love would never have had a place
to enter into his heart.
But he came in and saw how much
better these people are than he is
and instead of being a hater because what
happens people are like haters, you know. They're
like, oh, you know,
a Pakistani, you know, what does he know
or whatever. Like what does, you know,
this okay. Fine. Like maybe that's fine. What
do I know? But you see somebody else
doing good or you see somebody else in
a good position and you like, you become
jealous or hate or resent them for it.
Instead of that, if you
love them for it, what's the recompense? Is
that even if they have a state that
you would have never been able to achieve
through the barakah of love, what will happen?
You'll get
you'll connect with them somehow.
You won't literally become them but somehow you'll
connect with them. Whatever they're getting from that,
you'll also get a share of it. Allah
will write for you some portion of
what they have.
No act of piety can be better than
this sin.
This is obviously, this is the metaphor of
of of literary people, right? When you write
poetry and things like that, it's not written
like a law book. It's not really a
sin. But he's saying that if somebody wants
to be a hater and say, oh, you
guys are all just goofballs.
Say, no act of piety can be better
than this quote unquote sin. Years in comparison
with this moment are
are are nothing.
They're just like a short period of time.
Meaning what? Years of hard work,
there's a lot of barakah in them. But
one moment of love will transport the heart
from one place to another in a way
that the years of work can't do.
And, you know, we should do both. It's
a sunnah to do both.
Sunnah to do both. You can't just you
can't just abandon, you know, one or the
other.
In fact, the person who says, oh yeah,
I'm just gonna do love and I'm gonna
abandon the years of work, then you have
to wonder, is this really love or not?
Because that's not how lovers talk.
But if you're gonna do the work anyway,
you're gonna put in the hard work anyway
and you know that this is a bonus
that comes with it.
Which is that if you look with the
eye of love, and if you feel with
the heart of love, something that you somebody,
you know, like they pass salat and they're
like, how wonderful is this salat? How wonderful
is this Quran that's being recited?
How high and noble is its kalam, and
how beautiful is the things that it commands
to, you know. Just that one moment of
of the light of Mahaba inside of a
person's heart,
you know, that will
that will take all of those hours of,
you know, listening and standing in Tarawi and
driving for miles, it'll take that and it'll
just
launch it into the into the stratosphere.
The blood of a martyr,
of love is purer than water. For the
martyr does not need a purifying bath and
ablution.
It's a that we don't give a whistle
to the we
to the shayid.
For martyrs,
blood is better than water. This fault committed
by him is better than a 100 right
actions of another.
Why? Imagine a person, a normal person when
they die, you give whistle to the body,
whereas the shahid,
the the blood and the wounds are left
the way they are.
And the hadith of the prophet salallahu alaihi
wa sallam is what?
That the person that shahid will be called
on the day of judgment and their wounds
will bleed,
crimson like the blood in this world.
But it won't be it won't be blood,
it won't be najis rather, it will be
more fragrant than misk. It will be like
a sign of honor on that day.
So which person is going to want to
be shayid? Nobody wants to die.
Someone said hey, sheikh, you know, you wanna
get a paper cut? I don't even wanna
get a paper cut.
It's horrible, sucks. You know what I mean?
I don't I don't still to this day,
I have all these doctors, you're still to
this day, I despise getting vaccinations.
This is not anti vaxxer. I'm just saying
general. Right? Whatever vaccination it might be. Because
it hurts, not because it's not efficacious or
whatever. Right?
But then you see what
the maqam that the shahid has with Allah
and there are generations of people who
desired that shahada.
The only thing that can make that happen
inside your heart is what?
It's this love.
This love that we don't talk about anymore.
It's this love of Allah that makes people
desire these things. The hadith of the prophet
that whoever desires and ask Allah Ta'ala with
with sincerity.
That you should take me as a shahid.
That you should take my life for your
sake. That I should be a martyr in
your path. Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala will write
for for that person
the reward of a shahid even if he
dies in old age on his bed.
What is the good deed being done there?
It's not shahada, it's not actual martyrdom.
It's what? It's the love.
That's what Allah loves and that's what he
accepts. Otherwise if a shayid, someone goes out
to show off how tough they are or
whatever, just because their friends are going, they
don't think about it, and they die, And
of course that that person's Maqam will not
be like the Maqam or the person who
knew what he was sacrificing
but wanted to sacrifice it for the sake
of Allah because of the love of Allah
ta'ala.
The distraught lover of God is not liable
to follow the laws and ordinances promulgated for
ordinary folk.
How can tithe be levied on a village
already devastated?
So how can you how can you tax
a village when it's already been burned down?
Says, To lovers, there is a burning which
consumes them in every moment.
Tax and tithe are not imposed on a
ruined village.
Love is the heritage of our father Adam
while Satan bequeathed artfulness and cunningness.
Quote.
He that is blessed and familiar with spiritual
mysteries
knows that the intelligence,
what the intelligence of Iblis is and knows
what the love of Adam is.
The cunning and artful depends on his wits
and craftiness while the lover seeks asylum from
his friend and entrusts himself to his care.
Cunningness and artfulness are like swimming in a
deluge while love is like
the ark. Right? Cunningness and artfulness is like
learning to swim when the flood comes. Whereas
love is like the ark which is gonna
be the thing that saves you. You're not
gonna have you swim the entire across the
from someone drops you in the middle of
the ocean, you're gonna swim across us. It's
not gonna work. You need something else. You
need something else to take you across.
And has anyone seen the crafty and the
cunning coming off safely from the great deluge?
Or has anyone seen Sadanu alayhi salam's ark
submerging unit?
Intelligence is like swimming in the seas. He
the swimmer is not saved. He is drowned
at the end of his business.
Love is as a ship for the elect.
Seldom is calamity the result.
For the most part, it is deliverance.
Allah
make us from the people of Mahaba. Allah
give
us true Mahaba.
Allah give us true knowledge. Allah give us
true Mahaba for Allah and for his deen
and for his rasul
and for the his sunnah of his rasul,
sallallahu alaihi wa sallam. Allah make us from
those who love to sacrifice for his sake,
and who are enchanted, and whose
attention, and whose
imagination is captured,
by the one thought, that my rub should
be happy with me, that he should be
pleased with me, and that the best day
of my existence should be the day that
I return to him. May Allah make it
so.