Haifaa Younis – Stories from Gaza – What It’s Actually Like There

Haifaa Younis
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The speaker describes a doctor who called a patient to ask for permission to use their picture on a group in Southern California, and shares their experience of being in the hospital and praying for her victory. They also discuss a woman in their room reciting the Bible and a woman in their family's minds who experienced dissatisfaction with a male's actions. The speaker encourages people to apologize for their mistakes and reminds them to talk about their experiences.

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			I'm completely different than,
		
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			doctor, actually.
		
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			I bugged people to go,
		
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			Honestly, since I learned there was physicians going,
		
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			I don't know how many applications I filled.
		
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			For some reason, Allah didn't want it to
		
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			happen.
		
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			And then I was going to Umrah and
		
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			in the plane, I was filling application. My
		
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			friend says, this is gonna happen.
		
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			And 10 days, nobody answered me. Then I
		
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			made the dua, and that's the first thing
		
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			I want everybody
		
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			to really know. And I'm not saying this
		
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			bragging.
		
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			But when you really want something from Allah
		
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			and you are wanting it only for
		
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			him, he opened it. Suddenly, I remembered. I
		
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			was in Mecca. I was also in Umrah.
		
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			The last 10 days of Ramadan is my
		
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			only vacation the whole year, and I booked
		
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			it and I paid and everything.
		
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			And then I remember there was a physician
		
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			from Canada where somebody put her picture on
		
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			a group that we have in Southern California
		
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			and says doctor Elvie went.
		
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			So I texted the I texted her.
		
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			And I don't know the woman, and she
		
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			said, doctor Hayford, do you really wanna go?
		
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			And I said, yes. I do. She said,
		
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			we can't get you on the April 1st
		
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			because it's full. We'll get you on 15.
		
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			I said, I can do the 15. I
		
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			work. I'm back on 15. She said, let
		
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			me see. We have to get a lot
		
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			of there's a lot of approvals you have
		
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			to go. And you're talking here I think
		
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			we were like day 12 or 13 of
		
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			Ramallah.
		
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			Long story short, she said, yes. You are
		
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			going, but that doesn't mean anything
		
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			because you can easily get to Cairo, and
		
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			then they will deny you. I said, fine.
		
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			I'm completely opposite everybody. I didn't tell anyone.
		
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			I told only 1
		
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			3 people. 1 of them was actually a
		
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			person who I said, if I don't come
		
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			back, Jannah Institute will be
		
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			for you.
		
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			And I didn't tell my family because they
		
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			will go crazy, and I didn't see anybody.
		
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			I took all this. I didn't, post anything
		
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			when I was there.
		
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			And if I can have the slides, because
		
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			I want you to read the first thing
		
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			that I put in this slide. I have
		
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			a lot of much longer, but I just
		
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			made it as short as possible. This was
		
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			supposed to be a medical mission,
		
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			but it was not a medical mission. It
		
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			was anything but a medical mission.
		
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			The first thing you see here is April
		
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			1st is when we actually enter Gaza,
		
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			and that day will be with me till
		
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			the day I leave this world.
		
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			Nothing like
		
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			the feeling when you enter Gaza, and this
		
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			is what you see.
		
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			If I have I think I have to
		
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			move. Please forgive me. Am I? The
		
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			next. Yes. The next. Yes. This is what
		
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			you see. As you come out from the
		
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			immigration from Gaza, you you look and you
		
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			see and this is exactly what is I
		
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			love Gaza.
		
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			Right? We reached there about 5 o'clock, if
		
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			I remember, and we left the
		
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			hotel in
		
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			Cairo at 4 AM.
		
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			But we didn't leave till after Maghrib.
		
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			And Allah had a reason because we could
		
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			be the people that were bombed. SubhanAllah. We're
		
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			the last people to leave that.
		
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			And the beauty of it and I have
		
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			a video, but again, because of the time
		
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			that as we were there
		
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			and suddenly I hear somebody reading Quran, if
		
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			you remember,
		
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			the young man who was reading Al Ait,
		
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			of course. This is something
		
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			norm in Gaza.
		
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			Everybody reads Quran beautifully,
		
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			young and old. You don't ask people, are
		
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			you a hafel?
		
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			Literally, it's an insult
		
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			because they will look at you and says
		
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			5 of that, 10. Oh, I'm not yet
		
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			a hafl. Oh, I'm not only a hafl.
		
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			You remember, Abdullah,
		
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			on the software, on the special one. As
		
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			you enter, as you're going closer to the
		
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			hospital, this is what you see.
		
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			This is the norm.
		
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			Children,
		
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			donkey is the main way of transportation,
		
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			and children are,
		
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			guiding it. And then people are walking.
		
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			And then you come in here, and then
		
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			what I heard and then I I've never
		
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			seen
		
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			that you will see that what no eyes
		
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			have seen and no,
		
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			ear have heard, this is Gaza.
		
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			The things you see, whatever words somebody
		
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			just asked me, and I said words are
		
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			hollow, has no meaning because what you see.
		
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			It's the misery, but at the same time,
		
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			the resilience.
		
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			The the sadness at the same time is
		
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			the happiness.
		
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			And it's it's amazing, SubhanAllah. And if you
		
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			go to the next, and this is especially
		
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			for the youth.
		
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			If I can get this bigger, remove my
		
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			picture because I want you to see. The
		
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			one on the left,
		
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			will be your right,
		
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			the cans.
		
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			So we arrived to the hospital at 8
		
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			PM.
		
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			Where is everybody? They took us to the
		
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			administration offices. Where are they?
		
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			They all were praying Isha, if you remember,
		
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			And we joined. Was it only Isha? Now
		
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			you're talking about drones, and any minute we
		
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			can get a missile or an f 16.
		
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			They did a full.
		
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			The amazing is you don't know who's the
		
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			imam because every 2 rukaats, somebody go back
		
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			and saw another person come to the front.
		
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			All of them reading beautifully,
		
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			and they were
		
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			because they chose from the Quran. They didn't
		
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			read like the whole Jews. They picked up
		
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			ayaat and every ayah,
		
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			the imamrad is related to where they are.
		
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			Talk about sabr. Talk about don't despair. Talk
		
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			about Allah's victory is coming. It's amazing.
		
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			And then they we met them and they
		
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			said your
		
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			iftar is in the room. So you go
		
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			to the room and that's what you get.
		
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			It was 3 cans, and we were lucky
		
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			because we were physicians.
		
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			They actually gave us a piece of bread.
		
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			So, of course, I was personally very hungry.
		
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			So I ate only the hummus, the the
		
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			did you see it open?
		
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			And all night, I was thrown up.
		
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			And I said, may Allah forgive us.
		
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			The spoiled people coming from America, we cannot
		
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			even eat this.
		
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			And they were living on it.
		
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			3 days later,
		
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			after the World Kitchen,
		
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			they were killed.
		
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			Now you start seeing more things coming,
		
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			and I couldn't believe when I saw eggs.
		
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			3 days later from my window, and I
		
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			told doctor Hina was my roommate, I think
		
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			I'm seeing eggs. He said, I think so
		
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			too.
		
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			Run down. I bought 4 eggs
		
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			for 10 shekels.
		
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			It's almost $3,
		
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			4 eggs. And we were wondering how I'm
		
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			gonna do the boiled egg.
		
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			The
		
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			the head nurse, she said, don't worry, doctor.
		
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			We can fix it. When I ate the
		
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			eggs,
		
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			may Allah forgive us.
		
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			As if I ate whatever you everyone in
		
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			this room loves.
		
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			Because before that, we were we were eating
		
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			on protein bars 3 days.
		
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			Subhanallah.
		
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			Now if you go to the next one,
		
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			this is one of the memorable moment for
		
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			me in that trip.
		
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			This is where we prayed
		
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			Taraweeh,
		
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			and we prayed qiyam. And the qiyam starts
		
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			about 12:15, 12:30
		
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			till 3, 3:30.
		
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			The imam, Abdullah, is 21,
		
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			22
		
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			reading
		
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			amazingly,
		
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			fluently,
		
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			enjoying it normally. And again, I'm sharing. I'm
		
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			not a person who loves
		
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			the, the,
		
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			dua that everyone does. I love to ask
		
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			Allah me except with Abdullah.
		
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			The way he was making dua, the way
		
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			he was asking Allah, you can tell,
		
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			and I'm sure Allah will respond to him.
		
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			It's just the timing. We don't know when.
		
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			The boy that the young boy on the
		
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			left, it's probably on your right side,
		
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			that boy his his his, video was viral,
		
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			if you remember. There was a video online
		
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			where the boy was had a broken arm,
		
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			and then they were doing cast, and they
		
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			didn't have pain medication, and he was reciting
		
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			Quran.
		
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			It was that boy.
		
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			How did I notice? We were praying and
		
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			then this is 1:30 AM under the drones
		
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			in a room least to say uncomfortable.
		
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			Don't talk about the bathrooms.
		
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			And this boy comes in and join
		
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			join the man like a young man.
		
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			And then, Abdullah finished the turukat,
		
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			and this young man run to Abdullah. I
		
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			don't know what they were talking. Suddenly, this
		
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			boy becomes the imam.
		
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			He led us
		
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			and then had not done.
		
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			Sad looked at us and he start making
		
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			an
		
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			about Palestine.
		
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			What of words? They all speak fluently
		
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			excellent
		
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			eloquent Arabic.
		
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			Those were raised to be leaders.
		
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			More than one boy. I I what I
		
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			was impressed is by the boys and by
		
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			the woman.
		
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			Amazing. If you look at the next one,
		
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			this is the scene. This is the hospital.
		
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			This is actually the door of the
		
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			parking. Now it's all tense.
		
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			Everything is tense.
		
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			If you go to the next one, this
		
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			is a video actually.
		
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			It's the drone which you also I don't
		
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			know if I'm gonna okay. These, pay attention.
		
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			These are the bullets
		
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			that
		
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			they
		
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			target
		
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			one part of the body, and,
		
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			doctor
		
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			showed a lot of it. They
		
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			target legs,
		
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			Subhanallah, legs.
		
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			And you see all these, the,
		
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			the the bullets.
		
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			This is the scene. The next one
		
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			is the scene from the ER, and you
		
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			lived it.
		
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			Literally, the ER is like this room right
		
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			now.
		
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			If I want to go to see a
		
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			patient, I am gonna say, excuse me. Please
		
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			excuse me.
		
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			Please excuse me. And now you're sitting and
		
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			you're comfortable. In between, you see people on
		
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			this side,
		
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			bleeding. There's gauze on the floor. People are
		
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			mourning. There's people who don't know who they
		
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			are. It's amazing scene.
		
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			I've never seen it in my life.
		
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			The impressive thing from everybody, in 8 days
		
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			we lived this,
		
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			I have never heard a word of complaint.
		
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			Only one word, and it is not a
		
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			complaint.
		
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			And this was actually from the head nurse.
		
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			She looked at me, and I said, how
		
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			are you feeling? She said, the,
		
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			we're tired.
		
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			That is
		
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			it. For 8 days, this is what we
		
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			heard. Doctor, I got day, finally, they allowed
		
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			me to go to the, maternity hospital
		
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			because the they're aware the maternity hospital was
		
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			inside the Shefa. I'm sorry. In inside the
		
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			Aqsa, but because of the war, they made
		
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			it all trauma center, and they moved all
		
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			the deliveries
		
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			to this hospital. So the last day, I
		
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			was actually fortunate to go.
		
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			They used to do 5 deliveries a day.
		
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			Now they do 50 delivery a day,
		
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			10 c sections per day. I did 2.
		
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			Out of patient privacy and, I couldn't put
		
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			it.
		
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			They don't have they don't have scrubs.
		
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			They don't have sheets to cover the patient.
		
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			Normally, they bring the instruments,
		
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			and then you open the instruments here and
		
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			then you throw it. They don't throw it.
		
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			That
		
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			they cover the patient.
		
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			And I said and said, doctor Haifa, what
		
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			size gloves you are? And I said,
		
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			I'm 5a half. They said, we're sorry. It's
		
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			only 7a half.
		
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			The instruments they showed me literally needs to
		
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			be in the museum.
		
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			I understand. And that's how they work. They
		
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			take the patients to the recovery room. There
		
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			is no monitors.
		
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			There's no blood pressure.
		
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			Your wife did a c section. They actually
		
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			they called us in the middle. Patient was
		
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			bleeding. And I said, what is her blood
		
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			pressure? They all looked at me.
		
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			And I literally did the old way. I
		
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			held her pulse and I said her pulse
		
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			is fine. She's okay. Just get a fluid
		
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			and there is no stance to put fluid.
		
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			Somebody was holding the fluid.
		
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			Doctor Haifa, in in the last minute, if
		
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			I may ask you,
		
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			now that you talk about this this particle,
		
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			aspect of it, the ladies in Gaza.
		
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			The next What's your experience with those ladies
		
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			in Gaza? Next slide if I can have
		
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			it.
		
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			Ladies,
		
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			everyone I this is this is one who
		
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			really left an impression on me. It's a
		
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			long story, but because of the time, I
		
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			actually put it on the social media for
		
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			those of you who follow.
		
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			Ladies,
		
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			for 8 days, this is what I saw.
		
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			I did not see a hair
		
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			in this all 8 days.
		
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			Every lady was covered,
		
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			young and old.
		
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			And they and I and I looked at
		
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			them, and one one of them, she said
		
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			to me,
		
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			so we if we die, we die covered.
		
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			I don't know. This is how they talk.
		
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			That's number 1. Number 2, they're strong. I
		
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			didn't see a woman whining.
		
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			Where is your husband?
		
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			Martyr. Shuhada, the name is like martyr. Where
		
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			is your son? He's still in the north.
		
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			Where is your daughter? She went with her
		
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			husband to the,
		
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			to the south.
		
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			They are this is how I feel. Allah
		
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			prepared them for this.
		
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			Allah knows if it was us,
		
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			how we would have responded.
		
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			Every woman,
		
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			The the
		
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			you hear about,
		
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			you read about, I did see them with
		
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			my own eyes. There
		
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			was a woman who I put her picture
		
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			after I took her permission.
		
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			You enter the hospital on the left on
		
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			the right side. Remember?
		
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			You all remember because this is where the
		
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			you we go where we pray. There was
		
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			a small,
		
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			literally mattress.
		
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			The woman is maybe in her fifties there.
		
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			I go in, she's there. I come out.
		
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			Finally, I spoke to her, and she said,
		
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			I've been living in this for the last
		
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			3 months.
		
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			Where is your husband? Husband and the son
		
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			still in the north with my daughter. What
		
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			do you eat? Whatever they give us. Please
		
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			forgive me. Where do you go with the
		
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			bathroom?
		
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			Whatever everybody else goes.
		
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			Not a single word of complaint.
		
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			Nobody said why me? No. Why us? You
		
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			know how this is common for us? No
		
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			one.
		
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			Subhanallah.
		
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			And then this is as we were the
		
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			last day they moved us earlier to the
		
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			south. Again, they said for security,
		
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			this is what we saw.
		
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			This is the norm.
		
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			On your right, on your left, everything is
		
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			destroyed.
		
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			And then here,
		
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			one of the best memory is the.
		
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			The last, maybe 20 years, every,
		
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			I'm in Mecca.
		
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			Nothing like this.
		
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			Nothing like this site. The the mosque, actually,
		
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			they told us, don't go. It's very dangerous.
		
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			They may attack
		
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			because there was a rumor inside the hospital
		
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			that the Eid will be.
		
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			They throw some, like, brochures saying will be
		
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			black. So they told us, don't go.
		
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			We went.
		
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			And if you pay attention to the window,
		
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			the window is shattered.
		
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			And then these are the girls coming for
		
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			aid.
		
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			We gave little bit of chocolate.
		
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			Remember? And it was riots,
		
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			and we stopped.
		
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			And I was like, yeah, Allah, what is
		
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			a chocolate?
		
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			Let alone if you wanted to give
		
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			money. But they were look at the girls.
		
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			They were smiling. They were fine. They were
		
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			that's how it is. Yeah. You leave the,
		
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			and this is what you see.
		
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			The norm these kids are alone, they there's
		
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			a category
		
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			called orphan with no parents. Alone. No parents,
		
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			no family by himself.
		
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			That's one of the examples. This was in
		
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			the European
		
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			hospital in the last day,
		
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			and this was the last the the this
		
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			is a smile.
		
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			This is a girl
		
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			displaced. She was in the European hospital. She's
		
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			an artist,
		
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			and she was painting
		
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			on the walls of the hospital. And this
		
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			one says.
		
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			Your real aid is the day you are
		
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			victorious.
		
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			This is she, and then she showed me
		
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			all her portfolio. Says I keep
		
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			painting.
		
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			This is a displaced girl living in a
		
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			tent. I'm glad she has a a piece
		
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			of paper and,
		
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			a pen, and she was absolutely happy.
		
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			And talk,
		
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			I asked everybody I met, what do you
		
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			want from us?
		
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			Actually, I asked if we even do anything.
		
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			I mean, you really feel your I am
		
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			useless
		
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			in front of all this tragedy.
		
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			They said, no. Your presence
		
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			was the best gift you give us. So
		
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			I I second Understood. Anyone can go.
		
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			And you know what? People tell me you
		
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			went to your death. I said, wherever we
		
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			are, we death is gonna come to us.
		
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			Humble. If I was supposed to die, I'm
		
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			I'm gonna die.
		
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			So if you can go, definitely go. And
		
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			the second thing they said to me, and
		
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			I'm sure to all of you, is talk
		
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			about
		
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			us. Don't let people forget us. We exist.
		
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			And may Allah
		
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			make it easy on them.
		
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			May
		
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			Allah forgive our shortcomings.
		
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			I reward you for your for your experience
		
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			over there and for being there for our
		
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			brothers and sisters as well too. And, what
		
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			what a what a, a, a, a privilege
		
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			really to to be in the presence of
		
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			you guys.