Ahmad Arshad – Discourse At Khanqah #28

Ahmad Arshad
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The importance of transformation for individuals is discussed, including the need for transformation and being present in one's life to achieve their goals. The speaker emphasizes the importance of shaping oneself to handle the "hasn't happen" situation and avoiding blaming oneself. The importance of letting go of people who attract one another and staying true to Allah's rules is also emphasized. The speaker stresses the need to be mindful of the "hasn't happen" situation and avoid giving oneself too much responsibility, and to avoid drinking alcohol and staying true to Allah's rules.
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My dear brothers,

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the journey that we embarked on a month

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ago is

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coming to an end, coming to a closure.

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We remember succinctly

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the excitement that we felt that Ramadan

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is upon us,

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and the passion and the desires that we

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had while we were entering it.

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And we understood

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this month to be one of the greatest

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gifts

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from Allah

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to his servants and slaves.

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People who want to get close to Allah

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but

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owing to their own shortcomings,

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owing to their own procrastination,

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lack of energy, lack of vigor, lack of

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shout and

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doubt.

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They were unable to experience that closeness and

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nearness.

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And so Allah,

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as he always does,

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he showed mercy and compassion,

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and he allowed us to experience this month

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once again.

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But

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this month,

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while it is an opportunity,

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it also comes with some fine prints.

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And that is that you must make use

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of it to transform yourself,

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to change yourself, to

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realize

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the goals of this month. Otherwise,

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because of lack of other,

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lack of appreciation,

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because of lack of gratefulness,

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then a person can become a target of

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what is called a baddua from Hatha Jibrain

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and an ameen from Rasulullah

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We all know that hadith and Mubarak that

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was

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upon his pulpit.

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And when he said Amin

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3 times.

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And Sahaba Qarab Islamullah Hijmein asked him,

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why

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did you say ameen?

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And he said that Jibril alaihis salam came

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to me.

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Or what was meant was that Dibra'el alayhi

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salaam was sent to me by Allah

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And he made some duas.

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The first duas that

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made that person be destroyed and annihilated.

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Who has their parents

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in their old age, but

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he does not get themselves forgiven

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by their service.

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And so Nabi said, Amin to that.

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And the second hadith the second

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Amin was that may that person be annihilated

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and destroyed, that here's my blessed name, Muhammad

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sallallahu alaihi wa sallam.

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And he does not send salawat.

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And Rami Sallallahu alaihi wa sallam said, army,

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of course,

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who can be a greater muslim to us

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than Rami Sallallahu alaihi wa sallam?

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Who can

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want greater Hayr for us than Nabi salallahu

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alayhi wa sallam? And if the least we

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cannot do is send salawat on our blessed

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Nabi salallahu alayhi wa sallam,

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that he said we really need to be

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destroyed and annihilated.

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And the third time

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was when Jibril al Islam said that, need

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a person who

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experiences

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this month of Ramadan, this gift from Allah

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but doesn't utilize this to get themselves forgiven.

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May that person be destroyed, and

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It is a deep because

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we know that we saw some is rahmatullilal

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al Amin.

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And he has the best

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wishes for his ummah.

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We are this ummah.

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So why would he say to something like

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this? Because

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there are so many blessings in this month

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that even a blind person

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you know, just like a blind person, they

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may not be able to see. They can

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still

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feel when it is daytime or nighttime. They

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can still sense that.

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So even a blind person like us whose

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whose hearts have

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rotted out,

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whose hearts are so hardened, so rusted,

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can become so darkened because of a lifetime

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of sin.

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A lifetime of disobedience,

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a lifetime of serving our own desires and

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whims,

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submitting

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to whatever we wanted,

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to whenever we wanted,

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wherever we wanted.

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And so

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if a person does not get them forgiven

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in this month,

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then such a person is what is known

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as

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Rejected, dejected.

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And so that person should be destined for

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jihad.

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And so as

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we we use the end of it, we

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have to look back what they call retrospection.

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Look back at what have we been able

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to achieve because

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the eye of the Quran, it sets some

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goals for us

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That people who claim to iman, people who

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profess to

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people

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who

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raise or rise up to this challenge.

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Show me that you can become those people

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who are conscious of Allah

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in their existence.

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A deep consciousness

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that

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protects us from a life of fear.

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That anytime

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our hand is

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reaching towards any

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tool of sin, the

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you know, the heart just wakens up. Say,

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what are you doing?

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This is what taqwa is. This is what

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is.

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It wakes up

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that, oh,

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oh, slave of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala, what

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are you doing?

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And then you stop because of that

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that

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that that you experience in that in that

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moment. This is what taqwa is.

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And so 1 month,

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1 month of

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terbia, 1 month of boot camp was exactly

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this.

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It wasn't

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about hunger

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or starvation

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or thirst

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or so you can stay away from halal

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relationships. It That was just so

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we can show to Allah

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that Allah,

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you are so dear to us

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that your love,

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our heart is so engrossed with it

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that for your sake, we are willing to

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sacrifice even things that are halal for us.

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Eating and drinking,

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those aren't, you know, things that we

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want. Those are the things that we need.

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They are

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what keeps that curse alive.

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Procreation is what keeps the humanity going.

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And so for 1 month, what do we

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do?

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If I am willing to

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and if I'm able

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to stay away from

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even those things that are halal, that are

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my needs as a human person.

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I'm not why is it that I'm not

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able to leave what is

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what is doubtful, Allah, what is haram? Of

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course, Allah, I will leave those things for

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you as well. So this was a practice.

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A practice one for the rest of

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the rest of the year, but also a

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practice one for the rest of our lives.

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And that is why our masha is right

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that,

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you know, this month is really like a

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a template, a blueprint

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of what the rest of the year will

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look like.

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So if we have been able to focus

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in this month,

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attach ourselves Allah

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attach ourselves to the Quran,

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attach ourselves to the sunnah,

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be able to do

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of Allah being able to bring in extra

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nawafil.

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Meaning, that is what transformation is? That is

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what true tawba is?

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Transformation.

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Change.

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Change. Tawba isn't that we continue going in

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the direction that we were going. Tawba means

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to return back,

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to turn back to something original.

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And so when we say

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I understand that I was, I took the

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wrong exit. I understand that.

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It was a mistake.

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It was my weakness. It was my jahalat.

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It was all of those things. I took

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the wrong turn,

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but then you have to make a u-turn.

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That is what is.

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And that is really what we'll have to

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assess now. Have we been able to make

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it a u-turn in our life or not?

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And that's an answer that nobody can answer

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for us. It is an answer we have

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to

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seek out within ourselves.

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What are we willing to give up for

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Allah

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What are we willing to sacrifice? Just like

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in this month,

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You know, we woke up early.

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You know, those who words used with tahajjud,

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they were paying the hajjud,

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they were paying isharat, they were paying jas.

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They were praying Awadeen.

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20 rakats a day during the normal year,

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we cannot even think about 20 rakats a

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day.

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And now every single day, we we stood

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out, we listened to the Quran, we read

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the Quran.

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You know, there was

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all of those things.

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It means we have the energy to do

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it.

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It means that the spark is there.

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Right?

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It's just that what happens is that as

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soon as Ramadan

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ends, we just let go of it. We

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don't do hifa of it.

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And that is a big problem.

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And so what I really wanted to focus

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on, you know, for a few minutes

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was just this you know, because people will

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say,

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how is Ramadan? It was such an amazing

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Ramadan night.

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You know, was basking in the mercy of

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Allah

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It was just an experience that I could

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not have imagined that I I would have

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been able to.

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2 days

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later in Shawwal,

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and, you know, you start getting messages. Oh,

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Sheikh, I committed this, and Oh, Sheikh, I

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committed that thing. Oh, Sheikh, this happened to

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me. Oh, Sheikh, that happened to me. You

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know, I don't know what happened.

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And we're looking for an answer.

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The answer is really there. And the Quran

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itself in these ayahs in Surah Baqarah, Allah

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Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala talks about this.

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Where Allah says that,

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you know, this ayah and the next ayah,

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You know, it talks about that, you know,

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when my Ibad, when my servants and slaves

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ask about me,

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Tell them that I am kareem, that I

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am near them.

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All they need to do is

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make dua to me because I I I

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accept the dua of Allah

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of my slaves and servants. So Allah is

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telling us, giving us the hint

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that he remains here past. But I mean,

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let's be honest about us. Who

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draws ourselves away from us? Who runs away

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from Allah

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You know, it is like the whole month

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we were knocking on the door. You Allah

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open the door. You Allah open the door.

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Allah, I want to become your. Allah, I

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want to get close to you. Allah, I

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want to experience what this nearness feels like,

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what the halalut of iman is. You know,

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I I want to feel what this

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these words that I have read, but I've

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never experienced them. And

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Allah gives us this this month. Sure. Go

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ahead.

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Experience

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it. And when the time comes to actualize

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this for the rest of our life, what

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do we do?

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Right from Layla to

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on the day of the

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Eid, next day, the next day,

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constant and instant hafna is so ajeev.

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Instant hafna.

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You can't even blame, you know, oh, shaitan

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did this. You know, shaitan was chained.

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And now because we let go of the

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zikr, of course, shaitan is going to fill

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the vacuum.

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Shaitan is going to fill the vacuum. We

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were told in narrations that shaitan is there

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just

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waiting to inject

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his venom, his poison into the hearts of

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the mumineen.

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As long as the person does

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that is the

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shield. That is the garment stick.

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And as soon as a person

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falls into,

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guaranteed,

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Shaitan just injects that IV solution and

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That's it.

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1, 2, 3. And shaitan does not care

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Does not care what sin we indulge in

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as long as we're indulging in some sin,

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because everything,

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you know, creates or erects this wall between

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us and Allah subhanahu. It doesn't matter if

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it's Zahiri,

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doesn't matter if it's Botany, but the

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I don't have to do all of

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And so when the question comes, oh, you

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know, will I be able to do this

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for the rest of the year? Of course.

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You think Allah does not want to guide

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us?

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Of course, Allah wants to guide us.

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But, you know, we have been given this

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free will. You know, 2 things that we

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have been sent down in this world with.

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1 is our consciousness, this sha'ud, this zuhuwah.

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And the other is this free will. I

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mean, you know, free will, you can say,

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is another word for our nafs.

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The free will assume. You you do this?

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Yeah. Fine. You want to do this? Fine.

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You want to do that? That's fine.

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For limited amount of time,

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the free will is

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so what do we do? You know? And

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let's ask ourselves, like, last year, the year

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before, the year before,

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what was the moment that we crashed and

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broke?

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Wasn't it when we fell in

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Wasn't it when we started,

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you know, opening up our cell phones again,

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turning our TV back on, and, you know,

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falling on the Internet again, you know, talking

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to people, we're like, oh, I'm not gonna

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talk to you for a month. And as

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soon

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as

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Right? This is what isn't isn't this what

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we do?

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So how can we even blame? Or who

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can how can we lay this blame on

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anyone but ourselves? How can we say, oh,

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You Allah, you

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know, this is a test, this and all.

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Stop blaming Allah for this. I mean, we

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made the choices.

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We had the fever.

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Telling us, I am near

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you. And I am closer to you

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than your own carotid artery.

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You should get that awareness, that vigilance, that

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that I am near with you. And that

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will give you a life that is a

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careful and cautious life. A life

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of, a life

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of that anytime

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you are tempted You know, there are a

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lot of temptations around us.

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You are tempted,

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you know, you will put a break on

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it because of that.

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Allah is watching me.

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Allah is

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watching me. And it will be a tragedy,

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my brothers.

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If we stop ourselves because some other person

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is watching us, we feel

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And what will this person say? What will

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that person say?

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And we don't have this much

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that we cannot stop ourselves

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after knowing that Allah

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is watching us. Can there be a greater

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nifa' than this?

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Can there be a greater than this?

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We care about Mahmud more

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who cannot give us any nafar, who cannot

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give us any nafar, no benefit, no harm,

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who can't do anything.

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But because our self image might be

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shattered, what if they find out?

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Okay. Okay. You know what? Just just wait.

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Wait till this person goes and then

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I'm going to do my after that.

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Sadie?

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It's the same Allah

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Does Allah how to build a a rub

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change after Ramadan? It's the same Allah.

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But that doesn't mean that Barakah sees to

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exist

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on Shawwal first. They don't.

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So when the question comes out, how do

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I do

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of my

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because

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some some of us felt this change.

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We were able to spend time with the

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Quran.

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There were people who read 3, 4, 5,

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6, 7 you know, multiple Quran, masha'Allah.

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So we were able to attach ourselves to

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it.

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We did zikr, you know, people were able

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to sit and do zikr like all night

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long

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And they were able to exercise the self

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control and restraint,

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and control their nafs.

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They were able to do that,

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and now if you want to continue with

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that, you know, the ball is in our

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court.

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The ball is in our court. So some

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of the things we really need to be

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careful about. Right? First of all,

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close the doors of.

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This is this is a need we have

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to make.

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We cannot say, I'm going to leave 99%.

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You know, that's just one that's

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just one one, you know, saying I can't

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leave as

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from. We can't say that.

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There is no small and big. You know,

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when we say,

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right? That sahirah and kabeera are

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relevant to each other.

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Right? Relevant to each other whether a sin

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is big or small.

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Not when it comes to our relationship with

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Allah, everything is big.

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There is no small.

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Okay? Because every sin is a crime against

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Allah Every sin.

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So we cannot say,

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Look at how many

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I'm doing, masha'Allah.

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You know, I'm doing this and I'm doing

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that, you know.

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No. That Allah wants complete submission.

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Complete submission to Allah

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There is no halfway.

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There is no halfway. You cannot,

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you know, have your legs in 2 boats.

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I

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want to make you razi as well, but

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I want to make my nafs razi as

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well. It doesn't work that.

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So in,

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we really need to close the doors.

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That means

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we have to let go of the sunbat

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of people who

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attract us towards our life.

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They're not our friends.

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They're not our friends. You know, our masha'i

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called this najinski.

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Najinski,

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you know, people

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whose najinski or companionship

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just points you towards duniya.

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It may not even be like, you know,

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they're actively involved in a life of sin.

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But they are involved in.

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Heaklessness.

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And when they go in that direction, you're

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getting pulled. Let's go out and hang out

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in the mall, and

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it's Eid

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and Oak Tree Road,

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So many opportunities.

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Let's

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we cannot. So these are not our friends.

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So suhbat and our jinns, we have to

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let go. And, you know,

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people who are sensitive, who are whose spirituality

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is sensitive to these changes,

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a little bit of wrong sukha can have

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huge impact.

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You know, I was reading

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that a person,

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you know, he spent some time with an

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with

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an with an with an. You know, doing

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like

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etcetera etcetera.

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And it just

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it just took all of his internal

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and his attention and his

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and he started getting about

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and Rasulullah

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So he went to the Sheikh. He's like,

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you know, Sheikh, I don't know what happened.

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And then he explained that I was spending

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time with an Aamil and he was doing

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all sorts of

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etcetera etcetera.

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And so when he again spent time with

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his elders, with his masha'il,

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then Allah,

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you know,

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evades the darkness that he was feeling inside.

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So this is what so much of Najid

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imagine what we'll do.

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It is written by Sheikh Al Hadid Hazemullah

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Zapri

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that there was a new Muslim. There was

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a new Muslim.

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And,

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you know, sometimes, you know, in the madrasah,

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they get break and it's Saharanpur. Right? So

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they had a break and some children were

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playing and this person liked to walk. So

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he was walking around and

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he came across like a sadhu, like a

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yogi.

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And you know how yogis are not careful

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with their clothes, and they put stuff on

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them and so this guy,

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you know, this child, you know, he became

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entrusted in. And so he's just, like, standing

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there looking at, you know, what is this

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yogi doing?

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And then, you know, when he returned, you

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know, he said he just felt like the

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imam was taken out of from his heart

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because he was sensitive to that.

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And so he went to, you know, Sheikh

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Khadis, he's like, Hazrat, you know, this is

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what I feel. I don't I feel like

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hardness inside.

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I feel I can't feel my iman anymore.

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That fire, that flame,

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I can't feel it anymore.

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So Sheikh Al Adi

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asked him, what happened?

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This is what I do. I went, you

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know, after I spent time with Sukhbat with

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that yogi,

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this is what I thought. And so, Sheikh

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Khaladhis

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said, you know, go to Raipur, Hazrat, you

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know,

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Hazrat Zayput

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go and tell him that this has happened.

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So he took the journey, he went to

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Raipur,

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and he spent time there,

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and the sheikh kept him with him for

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3 days, and his and

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the of the zikr.

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After 3 days, you know, he felt. He

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said that I feel like this darkness is

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like melting away from my heart, and now

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I can feel that iman in my heart.

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You know, I I read that and I

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was like, Allah answered.

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It was just like looking at a yogi.

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What do we look at

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24 hours a day, 7 days a week?

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We'll walk outside, you know, we'll sit in

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the madrasa,

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you know, Masjid Hanukkah. We'll walk outside and

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we can't control our gaze,

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sir. Weigh darts fitter.

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Up and down, up and down, up and

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down. We can't control.

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If this person

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felt that darkness within him, just by spending

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time,

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with the yogi, imagine

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what kind of effect

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must we have inside ourselves. We can't control

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it. No control with the gaze,

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no control over our tongues, no control over

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our ears, no control over

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situation of the heart, dilpang,

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no control over our desires, no control over

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our thoughts.

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And look at how conceited we are. Look

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at, like, how smart we think we are.

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Nobody can see my thoughts.

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They're just you know, they can look at

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my life, so we pretend to be this

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righteous and pious and virtuous self.

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Only we know.

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We know

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What kind of felt

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lives within us? We know it.

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You don't need to tell anyone.

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The problem is that on the day of

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judgment, Allah is just going to open it

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up.

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Oh, I thought you were such a righteous

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person.

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Oh, my husband,

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oh, my father, oh, my brother,

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oh, my son. You know, you pretended to

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be so righteous.

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But this is what you're carrying inside?

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Imagine

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standing in front of Rasoolullah

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and all that filth comes out.

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So the title of transformation and change is

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now.

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So So that is the first thing. We

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have to let go of this.

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Okay. We have to become serious Muslims. That

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means that enough. We just have enough. No

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more.

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Everybody makes mistake. Nobody's perfect.

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But you know what we do? We insist

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on it.

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Insistence on sin is called rebellion.

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That

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is what Shaitan did.

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That arrogance and you know, that led him

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to rebellion against Allah

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That is what he did.

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And so we do exactly the same thing.

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It's not that, you know, it's a big

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or small thing. It's like we make

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or we you know, we make these things

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our habits.

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I'm just gonna keep this.

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1%,

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my pleasure, you know, my thing.

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And so, you know, Allah does not like

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that.

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Because that is still a sort of an

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idol within.

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Idol within ourselves.

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Second thing is

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after making sure that we are letting go

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of a life of and

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letting go of,

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you know, suhbat of Najin's

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suhmat that attracts us away from Allah

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is that we have to be very extremely

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careful with, you know, what we consume as

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well.

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You know this halal haram thing?

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People think that it does not have an

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impact. It surely does an impact.

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It impacts our spirituality on such a deep

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level that

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certain

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the person is unable to feel because they

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cannot do of their naf just by eating

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everywhere.

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You know, there was a there was a

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shirk in Darulun.

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His name was Nenemiyah.

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And he was a very poor person.

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He used to cut grass.

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And he used to sell the grass and

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and, you know, he used to collect, you

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know,

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whatever he used to make from that all

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year long. And then

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once a year, he used to give Dawud,

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Ishayya, to all the

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ulama of Dawud.

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And all the teachers of Dawud would look

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forward to that day. Why? They used to

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say

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that once we eat the

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once we eat from from, you know, from

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Hazal,

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For many many days at a huzuri, in

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our salah, in our tahajjud, it stays with

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us.

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So it means we have to be careful.

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Now I'm not saying stop eating your pizza

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and falafel.

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But, you know, we have to be careful.

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Who is cooking our food?

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You don't think there's going to be difference,

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a person reading,

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you know, Quran while they're preparing food, and

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a person who doesn't even care about if

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they are properly washed or not.

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You don't think that has an effect? Of

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course.

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A poison is a poison even if you

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take a little bit of that.

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And so we need to kinda be very

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careful about that. You know?

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There was a discipline that came with Ramadan.

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We ate twice a day.

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Inshallah, let's try to keep the discipline a

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little

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bit.

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Try to control our eating habits twice a

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day. If we can survive,

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for 3 days, you won't think we can

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survive for 11 months? Of course we

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can. And, you know, alhamdulillah, you know, we

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have our mothers and our wives,

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and at home,

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we should, you know, we should try to

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come into the habit of just eating from

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home.

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Try to avoid eating outside if it's possible.

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Okay? There's more barakah in it. People who

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will make wudu and people who are doing

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while you're preparing your food

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will see that effect.

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Okay? So keeping that discipline.

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Keeping that discipline. We were reading Quran throughout

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this month. Doesn't mean that on 1st of

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Shawwal, you read, that is the first thing

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that we read. Okay.

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If you can't read

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one, that's okay.

00:30:00 --> 00:30:03

Whatever you can read with and shock. That's

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because that is what is required.

00:30:05 --> 00:30:07

It's not the quantity. I'm not gonna I

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never wanted the quantity.

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If you can do, let's say, 2 rakuos

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with zalk,

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with that longing and yearning, with the sense

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of presence, 2 rakus

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again. If you can do quarter part, quarter

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is okay. If you want to read 3,

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that's fine too.

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But consistency,

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keeping with

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that. Keeping with that. Alhamdulillah,

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we

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stayed up after isha, which is

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very much a surprise. Right?

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And then we

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for hours, 2 hours, we did Tarabi. Okay.

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So there's no Tarabi afterwards.

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But what

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about? What about just maybe 2 extra?

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We stayed you know, we woke up early

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in the morning for, you know, for suhoor,

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and some of us, you know, we prayed

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tahajjud as well. Why not

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keep doing that?

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Why is it that on the first day,

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that is the first thing that goes? I

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remember that I went to, Hanukkah.

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And,

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you know, the the masha'ikh, they they were

00:31:08 --> 00:31:09

saying that, you know, for

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for every Muslim, of course, there are 5

00:31:12 --> 00:31:12

times

00:31:13 --> 00:31:14

prayers that are mandatory.

00:31:16 --> 00:31:18

But a person who wants to become a

00:31:18 --> 00:31:20

true salikh, a mureed,

00:31:20 --> 00:31:22

a seeker of Allah

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they should

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make sure that they're doing extra 5 salah

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as well. Like, what extra 5 salah? So

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they should also pay the Hajj.

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They should also pay isharat.

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They should also pay jashd. They should also

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pay as,

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and then, you know, if they can, they

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should also try to read salatul tasbih as

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well. If they can do it everyday, at

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least every week, you should try to do

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it. Why? Why is it necessary?

00:31:53 --> 00:31:55

Because we are showing to Allah, Allah to

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Allah, only You matter to us.

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That's what it is. That is what it

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is. You know, you go outside and,

00:32:02 --> 00:32:04

you know, you buy something, you know, your

00:32:04 --> 00:32:05

your wife sends you to go

00:32:06 --> 00:32:07

grab some milk, and you come back and

00:32:07 --> 00:32:09

you buy these extra flowers. Look, I was

00:32:09 --> 00:32:12

thinking about you. Yeah. I know you didn't

00:32:12 --> 00:32:13

ask for the milk, but here are some

00:32:13 --> 00:32:14

flowers.

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How do you think that makes the wife

00:32:17 --> 00:32:18

feel?

00:32:20 --> 00:32:22

Like, oh, subhanallah, you were thinking this way,

00:32:22 --> 00:32:23

you brought these extra flowers.

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You know, that's the sign of muhabbat. It's

00:32:26 --> 00:32:28

the sign of muhabbat of Allah

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is that we want to do

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more and more and more, and we can't

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get enough.

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And also try to make this takamah. One

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thing we learned during Ramadan was what exactly?

00:32:42 --> 00:32:44

It'staka'al. It wasn't that we

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fasted one day, and then we, you know,

00:32:46 --> 00:32:47

we did not fast for like 2 days.

00:32:47 --> 00:32:48

It was it'staka'al.

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Constant aml.

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Day after day after day, fasting, praying, zikr

00:32:55 --> 00:32:56

al, Quran.

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So we need to bring a little bit

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of istakamah in our life.

00:33:00 --> 00:33:02

This Amal with istakamah

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are more beloved to Allah

00:33:06 --> 00:33:07

than Amal with Isdal.

00:33:08 --> 00:33:08

So,

00:33:09 --> 00:33:10

what that means is that don't

00:33:11 --> 00:33:13

try to be a rocket. And for 2

00:33:13 --> 00:33:14

days, I'm just going to do everything.

00:33:15 --> 00:33:17

Like, every hadith that I've read and every

00:33:17 --> 00:33:18

zikr in that hadith, I'm going to do,

00:33:18 --> 00:33:21

and and after 2 days, you're like sore

00:33:21 --> 00:33:21

burned

00:33:22 --> 00:33:24

that it becomes difficult for you to even

00:33:24 --> 00:33:25

pray 5 times

00:33:26 --> 00:33:27

Okay?

00:33:27 --> 00:33:29

So we need to we need to become

00:33:29 --> 00:33:30

very much

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introspective about these things, and

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carry these lessons of this blessed month with

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us for the rest of the year.

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For the rest of the year.

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And if people are, let's say, suffering from

00:33:44 --> 00:33:46

certain kinds of diseases, you know, we need

00:33:46 --> 00:33:47

to challenge ourselves.

00:33:48 --> 00:33:49

I've mentioned this before.

00:33:50 --> 00:33:53

You know, Hazrat Tablihir Muttalat used to say

00:33:53 --> 00:33:53

that,

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every morning you start by challenging your nafs.

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Every day is a different day.

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You know, you do this you challenge your

00:34:01 --> 00:34:02

nafs. Oh nafs,

00:34:03 --> 00:34:05

I'm going to keep you in check.

00:34:05 --> 00:34:07

I'm not going to do this, this, this,

00:34:07 --> 00:34:09

this. So you challenge yourself.

00:34:10 --> 00:34:12

And throughout the day, you are in a

00:34:12 --> 00:34:13

state of

00:34:14 --> 00:34:16

means vigilance, awareness.

00:34:17 --> 00:34:19

Is my nafs like pulling me in this

00:34:19 --> 00:34:22

direction that We know our trees, honestly. You

00:34:22 --> 00:34:24

know, we know when we're about to sail.

00:34:24 --> 00:34:25

We know it.

00:34:27 --> 00:34:29

And so we stop ourselves,

00:34:30 --> 00:34:30

right,

00:34:31 --> 00:34:32

nip the evil in the body.

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This is the

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and at night, we do a

00:34:42 --> 00:34:43

Then we need to do our

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before

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accounting is done.

00:34:48 --> 00:34:49

So that's what we do. What did I

00:34:49 --> 00:34:50

do the whole thing?

00:34:50 --> 00:34:52

Did I control my eyes? Did I control

00:34:52 --> 00:34:55

my tongue? Did I do hibat? Did I

00:34:55 --> 00:34:56

slander? Did I lie?

00:34:57 --> 00:34:59

Did I sink of bad thoughts? I mean,

00:34:59 --> 00:35:00

we need to do this muhasiba.

00:35:00 --> 00:35:02

And the last thing he said is the

00:35:02 --> 00:35:03

Mu'as Hajjab,

00:35:04 --> 00:35:05

punishing your own lust.

00:35:05 --> 00:35:08

Isn't this ajib that will punish our children

00:35:08 --> 00:35:09

for lack of discipline?

00:35:10 --> 00:35:12

But we won't punish our own self for

00:35:12 --> 00:35:13

lack of discipline?

00:35:14 --> 00:35:16

If a child is does not have self

00:35:16 --> 00:35:17

control, like,

00:35:18 --> 00:35:21

can't control yourself, what's wrong with you,

00:35:22 --> 00:35:23

go to your room,

00:35:23 --> 00:35:24

no more dinner.

00:35:25 --> 00:35:26

We'll punish

00:35:26 --> 00:35:28

our children, but we won't punish our own

00:35:28 --> 00:35:28

selves.

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So

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the is why do we say no? You

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know what? You did this,

00:35:39 --> 00:35:40

you're not getting cold water.

00:35:41 --> 00:35:42

You're skipping a meal.

00:35:42 --> 00:35:44

You're not sleeping on a warm bed.

00:35:45 --> 00:35:47

Sleep on the floor. You know,

00:35:48 --> 00:35:49

try it once,

00:35:49 --> 00:35:50

inshallah. Try it once.

00:35:50 --> 00:35:52

Sleeping on the on the floor without a

00:35:52 --> 00:35:53

pillow,

00:35:54 --> 00:35:54

please

00:35:55 --> 00:35:57

It's just because we're not used to it.

00:35:58 --> 00:35:59

The does whatever it wants.

00:36:00 --> 00:36:03

I'm like, wait, man. It's okay. It's alright.

00:36:08 --> 00:36:09

That's what we do.

00:36:10 --> 00:36:11

So

00:36:12 --> 00:36:13

we have to,

00:36:14 --> 00:36:15

you know, we have to really

00:36:16 --> 00:36:18

make sure that our tawba is pakka.

00:36:18 --> 00:36:20

Tawba is tawba to nusur.

00:36:20 --> 00:36:23

That when we say, we are going to

00:36:23 --> 00:36:25

turn back to you, we are going to

00:36:25 --> 00:36:27

make sure that You Allah, we are Your

00:36:27 --> 00:36:29

true slaves and servants, that we are true

00:36:29 --> 00:36:31

in what we are saying.

00:36:31 --> 00:36:32

And All

00:36:32 --> 00:36:34

we need to do is just have

00:36:38 --> 00:36:40

that There is no doubt Allah subhanahu wa

00:36:40 --> 00:36:43

rashes. His mercy rushes. His his his, you

00:36:43 --> 00:36:46

know, his Tawfiq rushes to such a person.

00:36:46 --> 00:36:47

But you have to have this sincerity.

00:36:49 --> 00:36:50

Sincerity in the tawbah that we are doing.

00:36:50 --> 00:36:51

And

00:36:52 --> 00:36:55

Allah is so amazing. It doesn't matter. You

00:36:55 --> 00:36:57

know, we you know, there could be a

00:36:57 --> 00:37:00

kafir of a 100 years, but that sincerity

00:37:00 --> 00:37:01

in its tawbah

00:37:02 --> 00:37:04

is enough that even on their deathbed, if

00:37:04 --> 00:37:06

they do that, it's enough to

00:37:07 --> 00:37:09

clear all their life of sins.

00:37:10 --> 00:37:12

It's just enough. There's so many stories like

00:37:12 --> 00:37:14

that, Allahu Akbar. And you read that, you're

00:37:14 --> 00:37:17

like, Allah Allah, know, we just want to

00:37:17 --> 00:37:17

sacrifice ourselves

00:37:20 --> 00:37:21

to We don't deserve it. We don't deserve

00:37:24 --> 00:37:26

I'm not gonna just lost to forgive. And

00:37:26 --> 00:37:28

this is the dua for these last 10

00:37:28 --> 00:37:28

days.

00:37:33 --> 00:37:35

SubhanAllah, may Allah send mercy upon us

00:37:35 --> 00:37:37

who's hard as this. You Allah, you love

00:37:37 --> 00:37:39

to forgive. It's not something you just you

00:37:39 --> 00:37:39

just do.

00:37:40 --> 00:37:42

It's something that you love doing.

00:37:43 --> 00:37:44

So Allah forgive me

00:37:45 --> 00:37:47

because you love doing you love to forgive.

00:37:47 --> 00:37:49

So do something that you yourself like doing.

00:37:49 --> 00:37:51

You're not gonna forgive me.

00:37:55 --> 00:37:55

So,

00:37:58 --> 00:37:59

whether on this

00:37:59 --> 00:38:01

which could be the second of the last.

00:38:01 --> 00:38:02

So

00:38:04 --> 00:38:06

this is a a time of

00:38:06 --> 00:38:07

for

00:38:07 --> 00:38:08

sure. You know, our

00:38:08 --> 00:38:11

but you read the the Quran with a

00:38:11 --> 00:38:12

lot of talk and shawkh and

00:38:13 --> 00:38:15

people who came to listen to the Quran,

00:38:15 --> 00:38:16

Assumdulillah.

00:38:17 --> 00:38:19

And now that we're finishing, this is this

00:38:19 --> 00:38:20

is a sunnah of Rasulullah,

00:38:21 --> 00:38:23

that, Hadid Ibrahim alaihis salaam,

00:38:24 --> 00:38:25

you know, he used to do a dawd

00:38:25 --> 00:38:27

with Nabi Salam, and Nabi Salam used to

00:38:27 --> 00:38:28

repeat the Quran

00:38:29 --> 00:38:31

every single nah.

00:38:32 --> 00:38:34

And we all know from narrations that this

00:38:34 --> 00:38:36

is a this is the month in which

00:38:36 --> 00:38:39

the Quran had his nuzu, from the Asmani

00:38:39 --> 00:38:42

to this physical universe. Right?

00:38:43 --> 00:38:44

And all the rest of the books also

00:38:44 --> 00:38:46

came in this month of Ramadan. So there

00:38:46 --> 00:38:47

is that

00:38:47 --> 00:38:48

special relationship

00:38:49 --> 00:38:50

with the qalam of Allah

00:38:52 --> 00:38:53

special relationship with Allah

00:38:54 --> 00:38:55

Allah This is a month of barakasul.

00:38:56 --> 00:38:57

Even one day

00:38:58 --> 00:39:00

that is left, you know, we can't say,

00:39:00 --> 00:39:02

oh, you know what? I couldn't change. No.

00:39:02 --> 00:39:03

One day is enough.

00:39:03 --> 00:39:05

It's coming in on. One day is enough.

00:39:06 --> 00:39:07

So let's say if

00:39:09 --> 00:39:12

we were not able to show our best

00:39:12 --> 00:39:14

game during the last 28, you know, days.

00:39:14 --> 00:39:14

It's

00:39:15 --> 00:39:16

just one more day is not don't don't

00:39:16 --> 00:39:17

despair.

00:39:20 --> 00:39:22

Do not despair

00:39:22 --> 00:39:23

to mercy of

00:39:24 --> 00:39:26

Allah One day is enough, we wake up

00:39:26 --> 00:39:27

and say, Allah Kareem,

00:39:28 --> 00:39:30

I make tawma of and you know,

00:39:31 --> 00:39:32

I make.

00:39:33 --> 00:39:35

You Allah, I'm not going to, Allah,

00:39:36 --> 00:39:38

indulge in anything that displeases you. You're lucky.

00:39:38 --> 00:39:40

Allah, bring your hifazah for me, Allah, and

00:39:40 --> 00:39:42

protect me from nafsashayk.

00:39:43 --> 00:39:45

And that one day will be enough. I

00:39:45 --> 00:39:46

can guarantee you that.

00:39:47 --> 00:39:50

One day is enough to experience the highest

00:39:50 --> 00:39:51

levels of nafsain shaydha. Just one day is

00:39:51 --> 00:39:52

enough.

00:39:52 --> 00:39:54

But it has to have that sirk.

00:39:55 --> 00:39:57

Nobody can force that sirk. You can you

00:39:57 --> 00:39:59

you know, you cannot have a nobody can

00:39:59 --> 00:40:01

force a truth over others.

00:40:03 --> 00:40:04

In other Sufyan Zohri he

00:40:05 --> 00:40:06

mentions that,

00:40:08 --> 00:40:11

you know, one of his neighbors who passed

00:40:11 --> 00:40:11

away,

00:40:14 --> 00:40:16

and, you know, he was an open fasr.

00:40:16 --> 00:40:18

And, you know, some of our ulama and

00:40:18 --> 00:40:19

masha'i, they refused

00:40:20 --> 00:40:23

to lead jamaat, the salatul janaazah of open

00:40:23 --> 00:40:23

fasil.

00:40:24 --> 00:40:25

People who are open sinners.

00:40:26 --> 00:40:28

So this person was a heavy drinker.

00:40:29 --> 00:40:31

So Sophia Amsolli said, now am I going

00:40:31 --> 00:40:33

to participate in this?

00:40:33 --> 00:40:35

He went and started, you know, for for

00:40:35 --> 00:40:36

a siesta for.

00:40:37 --> 00:40:40

And in his dream, he heard a voice.

00:40:41 --> 00:40:44

He said, Sofia Ansari, one of our has

00:40:44 --> 00:40:46

passed away in your neighborhood. Go

00:40:47 --> 00:40:49

and lead his salatul jannahs.

00:40:50 --> 00:40:52

He woke up and he found out maybe

00:40:52 --> 00:40:54

there's another person saying, no, this is the

00:40:54 --> 00:40:55

only person who has passed away.

00:40:56 --> 00:40:59

So he went and behind Padra, he asked

00:40:59 --> 00:41:02

the the the wife of the the person

00:41:02 --> 00:41:04

who had passed away, you know, what was

00:41:04 --> 00:41:04

the condition?

00:41:06 --> 00:41:08

What was the state in which this person

00:41:08 --> 00:41:09

passed away?

00:41:10 --> 00:41:12

And she said, you know, Sheikh, you already

00:41:12 --> 00:41:14

know that he was an open sinner,

00:41:15 --> 00:41:17

and he was completely rational.

00:41:18 --> 00:41:19

From Allah

00:41:19 --> 00:41:22

He did not do irimada. None of that.

00:41:22 --> 00:41:24

But the only thing is that while he

00:41:24 --> 00:41:27

was passing away, while he was taking his

00:41:27 --> 00:41:28

last

00:41:28 --> 00:41:31

breaths, he just turned his face to the

00:41:31 --> 00:41:32

sky and he said, oh Allah,

00:41:33 --> 00:41:34

oh Allah,

00:41:34 --> 00:41:36

show mercy on that person

00:41:37 --> 00:41:40

that neither has this dunya nor has.

00:41:41 --> 00:41:42

Oh, Allah,

00:41:43 --> 00:41:45

show mercy on that person who neither has

00:41:45 --> 00:41:47

the dunya that I wasted away my dunya.

00:41:48 --> 00:41:50

That time that Allah you gave me,

00:41:50 --> 00:41:51

I wasted it.

00:41:52 --> 00:41:53

And because of that, you Allah,

00:41:54 --> 00:41:56

I don't even anticipate that I am going

00:41:56 --> 00:41:58

to have an after as well. So I

00:41:58 --> 00:42:00

turned to you only, you Allah, for your

00:42:00 --> 00:42:02

mercy. There's nothing I can present to you.

00:42:03 --> 00:42:04

Because the

00:42:04 --> 00:42:07

there's nothing to patient in front of you,

00:42:07 --> 00:42:09

I'm not kidding. Just have mercy. Your father,

00:42:09 --> 00:42:11

your is the only thing that I can

00:42:11 --> 00:42:11

count on.

00:42:12 --> 00:42:13

And he said that, and he

00:42:14 --> 00:42:15

took his last breath.

00:42:16 --> 00:42:18

And those last words of humility,

00:42:19 --> 00:42:19

humbleness,

00:42:20 --> 00:42:22

when the heart broke,

00:42:23 --> 00:42:25

I have nothing here. I have nothing left.

00:42:37 --> 00:42:38

And so

00:42:38 --> 00:42:40

the value of the what was to go

00:42:40 --> 00:42:43

and leave the janaza of my wife. Subhanahu.

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So never despair

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in the mercy of Allah

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The only thing that we have to worry

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about, the sincere

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and

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the

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of our

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Mhmm.

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You

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really need to have the

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Become a true mureed. That loves, you know,

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murid.

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You know, we have our, you know, brother

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here. His name is murid as well.

00:43:15 --> 00:43:18

Murid, you know, murid means somebody who has

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true

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true

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and

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we have to become true

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of Allah

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Allah. I have made this iradah.

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Oh, Allah, that I have submitted my heart

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and I have become yours. I have become

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yours. So

00:43:36 --> 00:43:38

yours. I have become yours. So

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with that passion and with this niyah, we

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will end this beautiful month of Ramadan

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and we'll ask Allah that he extends his

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protection over us, protects us from shaitan and

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our own lafus.

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