Ahmad Arshad – Discourse At Khanqah #03

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The process of accountability and metaphysical transformation for people is crucial for personal success and fulfillment. Personal control and setting goals are essential for personal success. The speaker emphasizes the need for personal control and personal accountability, including setting goals and realizing success through a daily process. The importance of conditioning oneself and monitoring one's own conditions is also emphasized. The speaker also emphasizes the need for awareness and seeking out the company of elders to be mindful of one's own connection to Allah.

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			When a person engages
		
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			in and
		
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			sincere
		
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			That is the beginning of a journey.
		
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			It certainly is not the end of it.
		
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			Now
		
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			to show that a person is sincere in
		
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			that,
		
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			they have to make sure that they create
		
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			a mechanism
		
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			of accountability,
		
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			a mechanism
		
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			of reckoning.
		
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			And so the have
		
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			called this kefir, and this is also a
		
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			metaphysical condition. It's called.
		
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			We touched based on this a little bit
		
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			yesterday,
		
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			but I think the the best way
		
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			that has been explained is by.
		
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			And he talks about this as a
		
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			stage by stage step by step process.
		
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			He says that, you know and I'll give
		
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			you an example of when we
		
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			wake up in the morning,
		
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			there is an idea in the mind that
		
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			we have to eat suhoor,
		
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			and then, you know, we have to pray
		
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			and then, you know, we have to not
		
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			eat every day,
		
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			not drink every day, and, you know, we
		
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			keep or we try to be mindful of
		
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			that.
		
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			And after comes and again, you know, we
		
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			are mindful that we can only eat after
		
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			Maghrib.
		
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			So there's a process. There's a step by
		
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			step, you know,
		
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			framework that we follow.
		
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			Similarly,
		
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			when it comes to Mahasibah, he says that
		
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			it starts by
		
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			you or the person, the salik, the person
		
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			who's traveling the path
		
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			of doing a or
		
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			kind of challenging your own lives.
		
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			And, again, you know, you don't challenge yourself
		
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			physically. It is a
		
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			discussion with your own self. It is
		
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			a conversation with your own self. It is
		
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			a reflection on one's own.
		
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			And so the
		
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			is that, you know, you do a
		
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			that you say that I challenge you that
		
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			you will stay away from certain things, and
		
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			I challenge you that you will be able
		
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			to accomplish certain things. So that is
		
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			the challenge of the nafs.
		
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			And so, basically, in other words, we set
		
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			up some goals for ourselves every morning.
		
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			Like every morning when we get up, we
		
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			thank Allah
		
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			for giving us life after death. And so
		
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			when this life, this gift has been given,
		
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			you challenge yourself and you set some goals
		
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			for yourself. Okay? So this is the.
		
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			And then he says that, throughout the day,
		
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			you remind yourself of
		
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			the challenge that you have made, the goals
		
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			that you have. And this is called.
		
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			Mhmm.
		
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			Is really,
		
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			to, you know, take care of those goals
		
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			and making sure that you are walking towards
		
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			them.
		
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			For example, if you said that today
		
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			I'm going to control my gaze,
		
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			you remind yourself throughout the day and you
		
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			you know, keep an eye on yourself. You're
		
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			mindful that
		
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			I'm going to do that. Or if you
		
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			say that I'm not going to,
		
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			say anything that is hurtful to others, so
		
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			you are mindful of your tongue and you're
		
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			mindful that you don't utter any words that
		
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			might
		
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			be considered hurtful or a lie or a
		
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			slacker, etcetera, etcetera.
		
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			So the whole day, we do this.
		
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			And at the end of the day, just
		
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			like we do after, the end of the
		
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			day is with this concept of that you
		
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			just
		
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			check yourself.
		
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			You check yourself. Okay. These were my goals.
		
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			Were was I able to attain them or
		
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			not? Right?
		
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			And
		
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			if you have to write them down, you
		
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			can write them down. You know, every person
		
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			to himself,
		
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			every person is different. Some people like to
		
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			write down their goals. Some people just have
		
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			them in their head.
		
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			You know, but it's it's important that they
		
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			are in front of you, that we are
		
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			working towards something.
		
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			And so the end is.
		
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			And maha'aseebah is kisab. Right? It's it's holding
		
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			yourself to account.
		
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			It's it's the, you know, time of reckoning
		
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			for ourselves. Right? And that's the best reckoning
		
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			we do we can do. Right? So rather
		
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			than having other people and, you know, some
		
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			people also do that that can you, you
		
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			know, keep me accountable?
		
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			But, you know, that's
		
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			not
		
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			doable in all circumstances.
		
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			So, you know, we start to hold ourselves
		
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			to account.
		
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			So, okay, was I able to do this?
		
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			Was I able to do this?
		
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			Or, you know, if I wanted to accomplish,
		
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			you know, praying this many times, nafal or
		
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			doing this, was I able to do this
		
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			or not?
		
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			That is muhasibah. That is why it says
		
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			that you have to hold yourself to account
		
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			before Allah holds you to account. And we
		
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			all know that that time is coming in
		
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			fast approaching for each and every one of
		
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			us. Right? You know, we are not growing
		
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			up. Really, our clock is winding down. You
		
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			know, this is a back calendar that every
		
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			single day is one day off of our
		
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			flight.
		
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			It's a very,
		
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			before we know it, I can guarantee you
		
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			that before we know it, you know, Malakul
		
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			Mote would be there and,
		
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			you know, he will be taking Abu, and
		
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			we'll be thinking, you know, what did I
		
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			achieve in this life and what did I
		
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			do or what was I supposed to be
		
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			doing?
		
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			And in the end, you know, sheikh says
		
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			that the last thing is called.
		
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			Is
		
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			that, you know, once you have,
		
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			you know, once you have done this process
		
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			of,
		
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			you you
		
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			you punish yourself if you find yourself lacking
		
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			in your own goals.
		
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			Again, you don't need anybody else's doubt. You
		
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			don't need anybody else's scolding. You don't need
		
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			anybody to come in and
		
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			and punish you or or
		
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			any of that.
		
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			You know, it's the reminder. And this is
		
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			where the maha'zaba comes in because it's not
		
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			only that we keep ourselves in check,
		
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			we keep ourselves in check-in in relation to
		
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			our our
		
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			connection with Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala. And so
		
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			when we find that the connection has weakened,
		
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			for example,
		
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			we do the that, oh my nafs, this
		
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			is your doing.
		
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			And because of your and because of your
		
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			weakness and because of your jahalat and, you
		
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			know and a lot of times, you know,
		
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			these are, you know, within the within the
		
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			nafs. For example,
		
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			we spoke about that I think last Ramadan
		
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			or the the time before. Is this procrastination,
		
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			this feeling of
		
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			Bezani.
		
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			Not feeling the longing and yearning and, you
		
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			know, this is a a very deadly kind
		
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			of feeling. And the naps has that. He
		
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			just gets tired.
		
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			It gets tired of worship. It gets tired
		
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			of dikka. You know, because ultimately, nuffs likes
		
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			enjoyment. Nuffs likes pleasure.
		
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			And so if you,
		
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			try to expose it to
		
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			too much of of sacrifice,
		
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			too much of
		
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			and whatnot. If it's not conditioned well,
		
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			it becomes, you know, this of
		
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			tired.
		
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			I don't feel like
		
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			it. You know? And,
		
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			you know, and it creates that sort of
		
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			within the as well.
		
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			So, you know, it's important that, you know,
		
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			we hold ourselves to account to do that.
		
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			And, you know, it it requires some in
		
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			that as well because we are mature, so
		
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			sometimes you have to really
		
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			do some intellectual conditioning that this is what
		
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			I need to do. Even if the nurse
		
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			doesn't want to do it or even if
		
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			the heart is not into it, you have
		
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			to do it.
		
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			But that that eye that keeping an eye
		
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			on one own condition and state is is
		
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			key because
		
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			that's a reflection of who we are, you
		
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			know, as as an Abdullah.
		
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			Right?
		
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			If we say that we love Allah
		
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			and we find that there the the longing,
		
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			the yearning is is is faltering, then,
		
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			you know, it's a it's a it's a
		
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			red flag. It's a red flag. What that
		
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			requires is, you know, that we do stefar.
		
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			What that requires is that we make extra
		
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			dua.
		
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			What that requires is that, you know, we
		
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			we seek out, you know, the company of
		
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			our elders of
		
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			of of
		
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			our hopefully with their duas and with their
		
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			sukva, you know, Allah rectifies the situation.
		
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			But it's not something that we should normalize
		
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			living with.
		
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			It's not something that we should just, oh,
		
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			you know, this is what's happening. But look
		
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			at me at least I'm praying because now
		
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			the heart is not in in it.
		
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			And then
		
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			it's it's good. You know, it's getting that
		
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			you're you're getting
		
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			the done, but
		
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			without the jazz or emotion or
		
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			without that real, you know, feeling of of
		
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			servitude and and submission,
		
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			you know, it becomes a very mechanical and
		
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			robotic thing. And, you know, Allah subhanahu wa
		
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			ta'ala doesn't want that. Allah wants
		
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			a person to really have that.
		
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			Then
		
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			whatever we're doing,
		
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			we marinate
		
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			selves or we bask into that fragrance of
		
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			iman and and all of that.
		
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			So if you find that it's not there,
		
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			then, you know, that requires a little bit
		
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			of as well. You know, usually, it's some
		
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			usually, it's
		
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			some, you know, some kind of
		
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			You
		
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			know, some something like that of the sword
		
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			that that will cause a person to fall
		
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			into that.
		
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			So
		
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			also requires that we keep an eye, a
		
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			key keen eye and a close eye on
		
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			one's
		
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			own towards Allah
		
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			And if you find that, you know, somehow
		
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			they are
		
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			trembling, they're shaking, they're they're not what they're
		
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			supposed to be, what do we do? We're
		
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			going to the.
		
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			We're going to the. We ask,
		
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			you know, I cannot live like this. You
		
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			know, with with this kind of, like, heart
		
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			and with this kind of battle,
		
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			well, you know, it it's only your
		
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			that can that can save me from this
		
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			this and,
		
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			you know, you will find Allah
		
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			is certainly, certainly, without any doubt,
		
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			most merciful, most compassionate, and he loves to
		
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			give. Allah Allah Allah Allah loves to give.
		
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			He says that, you know,
		
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			that he says that ask me and I
		
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			will give. If Allah has saying in the
		
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			Quran that ask me and I will give,
		
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			so who are we to doubt that? Yeah.
		
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			So we should ask,
		
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			if we find ourselves in that situation. So,
		
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			this of
		
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			let's try to bring that
		
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			in in this Ramadan and make sure that
		
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			we are doing this every single day
		
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			and analyzing ourselves rather than analyzing others,
		
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			analyzing ourselves
		
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			and analyzing our situation and analyzing
		
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			our connection with
		
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			Allah. So may Allah make it easy for
		
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			all of us.
		
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			For a few minutes,
		
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			hold your eyes, bow your head.
		
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			In humility and humbleness,
		
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			let go of all the thoughts of the
		
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			and everyone in
		
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			this. Bring your focus and attention down to
		
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			your bulb, 2 fingers below your left chest,
		
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			and make intention. May du'a Allah
		
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			his father, he's cut up.
		
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			Mister jaliyah, and what are for you, za'at,
		
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			that descending upon us, entering our bulb,
		
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			and our bulb is absorbing those
		
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			and feel that all the darkness, hardness,
		
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			and all the lust is exiting, and then
		
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			feel your calling out to your beloved.
		
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			Feel that your
		
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			saying, Allah, Allah, Allah,
		
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			and that you're listening
		
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			to.