Abdur Rahman ibn Yusuf Mangera – Living and Dying for Allah
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Amma Barrett, my dear respected brothers and sisters, As Salam
aleikum wa rahmatullah wa barakato.
It's really nice to see such a big crowd
for the sake of the Day of Judgment,
in sha Allah, may Allah give us the trophy to translate this into
real practice.
So that inshallah we can show this further when we die.
Allah subhanaw taala says we're living in Amman or I should do
herbal Allah, those who believe they are.
They are, they have great strength in their love for Allah subhanho
wa taala, they are very avid in their love for Allah subhanho wa
taala.
Most of the
attendants that I see here
seem to be less than 40 years of age,
unless you look a lot, a lot younger than you are.
Which is a good thing, because we still have some time.
What I speak about here is that rhythm I have mentioned that a
person when they they've given some milestones, they say that
when a person reaches the age of 40, and if they good has not
overcome their bad,
then it's a sad case, essentially.
Because 40 is the age where a person mentally matures, 40 years
of life is sufficient for a person to track out their ways you see,
because when you're young, when you're young, when you're when
you're in the age of youth, which YBNL Josie says is from the time
you become mature, physically mature 1213, until you're about 33
years of age. So that's a good length of youth, isn't it. And
youth has been considered to be a degree of insanity. And the reason
for that is because that's when people normally discover their
abilities, they discover their potential, and they want to follow
that potential. They want to pursue their, their so called
desires. Now they are going to now start questioning many things that
they see around them, they're no longer just going to be just
followers of orders as such, they are going to think independently
as such. Right? You know what I mean, right?
You can say, yes, it's okay.
So
when a person goes through this stage, and passes the stage, I
mean, if we take 33, as the as the end of youth, that's a long time.
By that time, we must have made up of our mind. Because normally, in
the age of youth, if somebody is able to protect their youth and do
something that that sets the course right of their life, then
it's smooth sailing. That's why it is such a great reward for those
who are good in their youth that are attached to Allah subhanho wa
taala. In the youth, they're one of the seven that will be in the
shade on the Day of Judgment.
However, once we reach the age of 40, and if the good has not
overcome the bad, then there's a great warning about that. And the
reason is that it's very difficult to change after
not that it's impossible. There's nothing impossible in this world
hamdulillah when it comes to changing, the Hadith makes it very
clear that a person could be all their lives doing evil, and at the
last moment when there's literally a small distance between him and
the hellfire, that a person changes for the good. And but then
there is the flip side of this as well, where it said that there's a
person who's good throughout their life, but then there's a small
amount of time left between him or small distance or ham span,
essentially, that's what the Hadith mentions, and the person
turns bad. That could also happen. But the good thing is that the
reader might have mentioned from observation and experience, that
it's normally a turn from evil to good than the good to evil. The
reason is that good cause to more good. And evil is something that
can overcome a person that can that can be subdued once a person
gets older and starts thinking and reflecting. But the age of 40 is
the age of maturity of good or bad as well. So if a person hasn't
been able to rectify themselves by the age of 40, then there's a big
warning about that. And the reason for that is that after the age of
40, it's very difficult to change. It's more difficult to change.
It's not impossible, but it's more difficult to change.
So
The other thing, though, is that if we're listening to this, and
we're thinking, I've got another 10 years to go, I'm 30 right now,
or those who are younger, say, I've got 15 years to go, I've got
20 years to go, believe we don't rely on that. Time flies for one
thing. Number two, what we do, essentially calls to the same kind
of action. So if we're involved in just having a good time, then
we'll just want to have more good time. Because the ways that in
which we're having a good time right now will only become boring
eventually. And we'll find other ways more extreme ways. See a
person who goes and you know, he does some weird things with cars,
eventually, they're going to start doing even more weirder things,
because eventually it kind of gets boring, doesn't it? Right, just
doing the little wheel spin here and there. Right, or just driving
at 100, for example, gets a bit boring. So people want to do more
than that.
Right? So when we get to the AI, if you're thinking that I've got
10 years left, believe me from experience, don't don't relate to
that, we want to set the course right. It's like if anybody's
played golf,
where you hit the ball is very, very important. If you hit it just
a millimeter or two off the center, the distance that the
distance of change the distance of difference, where it will land
will be a lot more than just two millimeters. That will be
magnified where it hits and essentially the same thing is with
our lives.
Remember the hola Juan
used to ask who they for Ebola man or the hola Juan over and over
again? What is it? Do you know anything about me that the
prophets of Allah has told you that I need to be concerned about
and the reason for this is that he held the he held the secrets of
the prophets, Allah lorrison prophesy, Lawson told me many
things which had not told anybody else, the names of the hypocrites
of the time, people who didn't really believe inside but expose
the Islam only outside only outwardly almoradi alone is
concerned all the way through that am I one of those Am I one of
those that might change towards the end from the good to the bad,
and you're so concerned, that's O'Meara, the Allah who won,
despite all of the great achievements of his life, and so
on. This is his thought process is very important. There's a poet.
There's a poem which says that, when a person is written as
fortunate in the Hereafter, as one of the successful ones in the
Hereafter, that it doesn't matter how they spend their life, they
will end up being like that.
And if there's a person who's written as being unfortunate and
wretched in the Hereafter, that is how they will eventually become
evil despite whoever nurtures them and brings them up. So it says For
Musa Lizzie Europa who fear I will know Marcelo were Musa la vie
robber who are Musa la vie Raba, who Jabri Luca, Pharaoh, the
manifested in mentioned that Samiti if you've heard of somebody
who has mentioned in the Quran, who is the one who misled the Tome
of Musa the people of Musa Elisa and when he had gone to with for
his meeting with Allah subhanaw taala sermon he was the one who
misled them and cause them to start worshipping the calf the
golden calf he took it took everything and he made a cough and
and he got them to start worshipping it. Apparently what
the first city in mentioned about him is that he was a survivor. He
was a survivor on a shipwreck with an his mother and everybody had
passed away. He had rolled up onto an island and Gibreel Ali Salaam
for some reason the angel had decided to take care of him. And
they move to Sydney in dimension, all sorts of ways of how he used
to feed him and so on. And he was brought up by Gibreel
Alehissalaam, initially before he went and joined the community, but
he then became to be a bit careful and a mushrik apologist, despite
being brought up by an angel, on the other hand, you had Musa
alayhis salam, the story is famous. He was picked up by the by
Pharaoh and his wife, they brought him up so the biggest calf here,
we used to call himself God, right in the world at the time Pharaoh
who used to enslave people brings up Musashi salaam, turn and he
turns out to be a prophet, because the decree takes over the ending
takes over. And this leads us to two concepts which are very
important. And may Allah subhanaw taala allow us to be successful
with the positive one that Sue will hurt him and his personal
hurt him. Personal hajima is the good sealing states. The ending
state which is good and pleasant for a person and the evil sealing
state is the suit will hajima where we're about to die, the
angel is there the soul is coming out and we cannot say La ilaha
illallah
that is an evil ceiling state brothers and sisters. That is what
you call the evil ceiling state in the mail. Armello Bill Hawa team.
Actions are according to the endings. Actions are according to
the ending
Regardless of how a person has lived their life, if the last
point is where you cannot say the Kadima for the loop nor EOD, one
of the great aesthetics of the past. He says that he was once a
relates that he was once invited quickly in very urgently to a
student of his house. The family is inviting him and saying that
you need to come quickly because your student, he is on the last
the last few minutes of his life, but as much as we try he will not
say La ilaha illallah This is a man who was becoming a scholar.
This is a man who is studying the knowledge of Allah subhanho wa
Taala studying under none other than for the look nor yards. I
Abidal Hara main as I'm delighted and boxes Yeah, I'll be the Hora
Maynila absorb tener la limited, unlikeable arriba, that it'll Abu,
the famous famous poem about him. He was considered the worshipper
of the two horns, the two sank the two sanctuaries, his student is
unable to c'est la ilaha illallah, despite for the luminaria coming
there and trying to tell him and so on. He refused eventually, this
is what he said. He says, he says, I am a disbeliever in what you are
telling me.
Not only did he go silently, that he just refused to read it. That's
one thing but to say that I disbelieve in what you're telling
me to read, I just believe in the creme de la ilaha illAllah. That's
what he said.
Upon making inquiry later, there were two things that were
discovered about this person. One is that this person
had two problems, he had a lot of jealousy, envy, and number two, he
had a certain kind of illness and for that he used to take small
amounts of liquor, small amounts of wine or something, which is
supposed to be a cure it or something of that nature.
These two things Subhanallah lead to a bad ending,
lead to a bad ending Ranima have discussed this issue. And here
Inshallah, we will provide some detail of these issues that
normally prevent somebody from gaining the Kalama La ilaha
illallah on their deathbed, despite despite whatever they do
in their life.
One is neglecting Salaat. Now, I'm not just going on about it, right?
You know, every speaker talks about salad, but believe me,
brothers and sisters, it's not something that we can take
lightly. That's the fact. Salads need to be done. And if they are
missed, for whatever reason, then they need to be repeated. They
need to be made up.
Salad is one of the biggest things it says that an abandonment of the
prayer leads to this. Because essentially there are some
narrations we'd say that the difference between Iman and Cooper
is abandonment of solid
Subhanallah
that's one thing number two is neglect zakat payments.
The young guys need to think about is not the cat is not just for the
old men and old women. It's actually for the younger of us as
well who have the nisab, which may be five 600 pounds, if that's how
much you owe. I mean, I don't have the time to go into the laws of
zakat. But if that is how much you've retained, from the
beginning of the year to the end, about four or 500 pounds, you may
have to be giving zakat 2.5% of that. So think about it, do
consult your odema as Ramadan is coming up.
Cheating, when you give measure, giving people less measure when
you waste stuff. I mean, most of us may not be involved in that.
But if you give less measure than you are promising people, they
think they're getting a pound of something or a kilo of something,
and Mishti you know G Luffy and you're getting less than that. You
guys like G Luffy? Right?
Jollibee jalebi here.
We're in Whitechapel, so we have to say G Luffy.
Right.
defrauding others, this is what we're speaking about. And one of
the big things that they speak about is intoxicants. A person who
is in who takes intoxicants, that means wine and drugs, because they
own intoxicants, that person will be in an intoxicated state when
they die. Now think about it. The whole point of this, this thing is
that at death, when you're in a critical moment, what do you say?
What do people say when they sleep talk? What do people say when they
initially are woken up all of a sudden? What do people say when
there's a when they frightened? Who do they call out to? We
normally call out to things. Just Just imagine this thing. If we cut
off by somebody when we're driving what comes out of our mouth?
Right? Fr for I don't know, whatever it is, right?
That's not a bad word. But the whole thing is a bad word. Right?
So no, that's a bad word.
So don't say to anybody eff off as well. Sorry. Yeah.
And please don't laugh too. It's not supposed to be a comedy. It's
supposed to be about the Day of Judgment. SubhanAllah. Right,
anyway,
that this is critical, because at the end of the day, when we're
about to die, what's going to happen to us? What are we going to
say when you're frightened when somebody is just cut you up?
Somebody's just done something to you. It's something to think about
what is it that we would say what do we say? In law? You were in LA,
you wrote your own? La hawla? Wala Quwata illa biLlah?
Or will we swear? That's very important to understand that?
It's really important to think about that, believe me, we can
take it lightly today. But seriously, by the age of 40, we
want our good to overcome the bad.
People can change.
And that's the great thing about our Islam. People can change and
they can change in a minute. But you have to have the desire to
change. And that's what's important to have the desire to
change.
There's a
it's related
by if knowledgeable.
immuno Kodama al makdisi, in his Kitab Otowa been humbly scholar
that used to funnel Hussein says that I was once with the noodle
mystery, the noon the Egyptian he was a very pious ascetic of that
time. He says that we were at the edge of a lake. We were at the
edge of a lake. And suddenly what I noticed, I noticed this really
large Scorpion, I noticed a very large Scorpion that the largest
one I'd ever seen. It was at the bank of the lake, it was just at
the at the edge, as though it's waiting for the next ride.
Literally, it just seemed like that.
Suddenly, a turtle comes along, Turtle swims up, this this
Scorpion gets onto the turtles back in the water as as mythical
as it sounds, I mean, this is
this is a narration from them. It gets onto the back of the turtle,
and this turtle takes it across to the other side. As soon as it gets
to the other side. The noodle mystery is reporting that this
Scorpion was an omission in the hovel, akorbi le Shannon it was on
a mission in knew what it was doing. It wasn't just idly walking
around.
It carried on and so if the non missus said to his companion
quickly, we need to watch what's going on because this is
extraordinary. So he they carried on following it. And it seemed to
know exactly what it was going suddenly in the distance. They
noticed that there is a drunken drunken young guy sleeping,
probably, you know, sleeping it out sleeping, sleeping it off as
such. And as the scorpion is going in its direction he notices that a
snake is slithering towards it comes on to this man stomach onto
the front from the navel area and starts climbing up it was
supposedly going towards the ear for some reason.
As soon as the scorpion reaches there, you think that both of them
are going to attack they're competing for the attack? No, the
scorpion goes off to the snake and attacks the snake and the snake
dies and falls off and the scorpion goes back and the turtle
comes back it gets on its back. It crosses it over and it goes to the
other side.
Do normal the normal missus absolutely taken aback dumbfounded
astonished. He wakes this guy up. Yeah, Fatah Oh young guy over me
man a jerk Allah. Look what Allah subhanaw taala has just protected
you from this guy just suddenly wakes up. He looks around what's
going on? Right? He sees the snake lying on its side. And then the
noon explains look at that Scorpion that's going across
that saved your life. This was the turning point for this young guy
he just needed that wake up call. It was the turning point.
The noon began to say to him yeah hola Manuel de la Rosa who? Sorry
ya feelin well jelly la Russo, who mean coolly su in your dog boo.
Feel good to me. Can you fit a normal or you know unmedicated
that T him in who for? For what? You don't need me. That team in
HuFa. A donate. I mean, he addresses him he says oh heedless
one. Oh heedless one, while the most majestic one is protecting
him from every evil that that crawls on that crawls in the
darkness. How can the eyes sleep? How can the eyes sleep in
heedlessness from the Sovereign King from whom comes the greatest
of these bountiful benefits? This young guy just suddenly woke up
He suddenly came out of his stupor. He snapped out of it. He
said Allah He had a fear Luca Beeman. ISOC for K for riff Cuca
Bhima ut rock. This is what you do with someone who is disobedient.
This is the way you deal with somebody who's disobedient. How is
your dealing with those who are obedient to you?
I asked him, Where are you going? The noodle Missy says, I asked him
where you're going. He says, it'll Bardia I'm going to the jungles,
I'm going away from the towns I will never return to the towns.
That's where all the fitness for me so I'm returning to the towns.
I'm not returning to the towns. This is not what we're not saying
that this is the answer to everything, but sometimes that may
be the answer. But we have to learn to worship Allah subhanaw
taala and be obedient to him while we are living within the
community. It can happen this is how a single person was saved by
Allah subhanho wa taala. We need to know Allah subhanaw taala loves
us. We need to know Allah subhanaw taala looks after us. If Allah
subhanahu wa taala was to seize us and take us to account for the
small, the small or large, wrong things that we do. Can you imagine
where we would be today? If everything was written on our
doors as to what we did? If there was an announcement made and
everybody could see the wrongs that we did this big list of
things behind us? Can you imagine? Where would be the greatest one of
the greatest bounties of Allah subhanaw taala is that he conceals
us so that we can go and show our face to somebody else, and they do
not consider this to despicable SubhanAllah.
There's a
another story
of Harris Alola. See, great, pious individual of the past. He wasn't
always pious though. He relates again, if no Kodama like this, he
relates this. Here. He asks one of you he told one of his students
one day he says that that he gave a kind of a marito Betty, do you
know that how I became like this? And he said, No, I don't. He said,
I was a young man who used to enjoy himself, who used to just
take time and do whatever he wanted. I wasn't I wasn't into
religion or anything of that nature. I used to just enjoy
myself.
One day, I was in the state of heedlessness, I was just walking
around he guess he didn't have an eye. He didn't have a he didn't
have an iPhone. You know, he didn't he didn't have
Twitter or whatever. So that, you know, talking to your friends,
even when you're walking, right, I'm walking on White Chapel Road
right now. So what
you know.
So he's just walking around doing aimlessly, I guess you guys have I
mean, I guess people have things to do. Now they can twitter, you
know, while they're walking. Anyway.
He says, as I was walking around, I saw this, oh, I saw this really
disabled kind of person that was lying on the side of the road, a
disabled kind of person lying on the side of the road. He seemed to
be very ill and kind of suffering. So for some reason, I mean, these
guys, they don't care for anybody today. The people like that the
very selfish is just about them how they look, you know, they're
worried that if they go and touch that person, you know, they might
get a speck on their clothing, they might not look good enough,
or the jeans might be pulled up or pulled down a bit more, right or
something of that nature.
He says for some reason, I went to him and I said, Hello Krishna He
che and Do you want anything? Is that do Do you want anything? Do
you need anything? Is there something I can get for you? So
the person asked him strangely enough for a pomegranate for a
Romana pomegranates. So I went he says I went and I found a
pomegranate. Right. Just imagine on the street, you found somebody
asking you for a pomegranate or for you know, for an orange juice
or something because he's got, you know, he's suffering from low
blood sugar because of diabetes or something. You go to the local
shop, you find some orange juice, you know, you go back to the
person, okay.
I put it in front of him and he looked up at me. He looked up at
me. And he said that Allahu Allah, the DUA that came out of his mouth
was dub Allahu Allah. May Allah forgive you, may Allah accept your
Toba. I had never thought of making Toba. That's what he says.
I never thought that thought of repenting, but the DUA the person
made for me stab Allahu Allah, which means May Allah except your
Tober, which means you have to make Toba first.
He says, it wasn't even nightfall. Yet, that same day before
nightfall came before Maghrib time came, my heart had changed. My
heart had changed, and everything in it that I had of just enjoying
myself and just going beyond going after frivolous activities and
just these pleasures and, and so on. All of that disappeared from
my heart. No longer did that appeal to me. And hope and fear of
Allah subhanaw taala entered into my heart.
I got rid of everything that I had that was to do with enjoyment and
amusement, and I went out to go for Hajj. I went out to go for
Hajj. I used to walk during the night look
had this person look how solid His intention was. He says, I used to
travel at night. Because in the daytime if I, there was too much
fitna, and I could relapse. So to protect myself, I used to sleep
during the day and hide during the day. And I used to travel during
the night.
I mean, nowadays, you can even travel during the night.
As I was traveling one day, one of those days as I was going towards
the Harlem, I was at nighttime, there was suddenly a group of
people on the site. When they saw me, they called me and made me sit
down next to them. They gave me some drink, can some some food,
and
I said to them, I need to relieve myself. Can you take me to a place
to relieve myself? I had a little bowl. So they got this young
person to take me to a clearing. You know, those days, there's
probably no cubicles or public bathrooms. So took me so
when I was at a distance from them, and there was this young
person with me, I said to him, can you just kind of turn around and
go a distance so I can relieve myself? You know, I need some
privacy. So he turned away, and I disappeared. I ran into the
jungle. I just didn't want to go back into that place. So I ran
into the jungle. I got into the jungle. And there suddenly I'm
confronted by a wild beast.
I'm confronted by a wild beast.
I'm saying if I go back there's that fitna, if I go here, there's
danger. What should I do? He made a dua to Allah subhanho wa Taala
Allahumma in Nicotero, Allah will metric to Allah Houma in the Qatar
Allah mu methodic. To woman mother homage to
our Allah, you know very well what I have abandoned, you know very
well. What I have just come out from first three Phoenicia, her
her the suburb, remove the evil of this wild animal from me. As soon
as he made that the other animal just turned around and
disappeared.
I went back onto my path, and I got to Morocco, Morocco, Rama and
that's where he got there. And he began to study among the scholars
total change of life.
Do not think it's beyond Allah subhanho wa taala. Ramadan is
coming. Even though Kodama relates another story, which is the final
story we'll finish with this one.
in Madina, Munawwara. I'm sure many of us can relate to this in
Madina Munawwara there was a woman, very pious woman.
Have we got moms that tell us off? Right, don't do this, don't do
that change, you know, become like this become like that. So there
was a really pious woman, and she had a son who used to just enjoy
himself. He wasn't into the Masjid. He was in he wasn't into
the salaat. And he wasn't into worshiping Allah subhanho wa Taala
used to just go and enjoy himself. In fact, he was considered to be
the biggest * of Madina, Munawwara at the time, he was
literally considered to be the biggest * of Madina
Munawwara of the time. She used to continue to, she used to continue
to advise him and counsel him and say, Yeah, Bonilla would call
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she used to say, just think of the stories of those people who were
evil before you what happened to them, all those things, people who
thought they were bold and great and so on. What was their
consequence? Think about
the descent of your death soon. And he used to say to her when she
used to persist on him, and she used to kind of get tired of
listening to her. He used to say politely he used to say to her,
Goofy, I need that 31 Low me was the Pz min Synod in Nomi in New
York, to feel that he will be what our say to Kofi lomi or Zhu Min if
dolly hito button then coolamon Coleman Illa Comey he used to say,
oh mother refrain from telling me off and censoring me continuously
wake up from the some slumber of your sleep.
Even though I have sent my heart behind my desires, even though
I've been allowing my heart to go behind my desires and have
disobeyed you, in your counseling me I've constantly disobeyed you,
despite your advice, I hope of His grace. This is what you have to
realize, I hope of His grace for repentance, and for transforming a
person from one type of a person to another person,
despite the fact that he was enjoying himself and he was doing
all of that he had Iman in his heart and he knew that Allah
subhanaw taala would help him. That is very important. Do not
ever be so despondent and depressed that this is my life.
Allah will never do something for me. Keep a window open to Allah
subhanho wa Taala and it will make a difference. This is the poetry
that he used to
Return they'd read to his mother. One day after Tara we had
finished.
Ramadan time, people suddenly gathered around and
a visitor had come to Madina, Munawwara he was the great
preacher, Abu Hamad Al Bonanni, very famous individual. He was
considered the preacher of ages, the western border of Arabia,
Malcolm Medina and everywhere. So when he came in Ramadan, people
asked him that if he could sit after taraweeh prayer like we do
nowadays, and give a lecture, give give some advice. So he agreed to
do that. In the masjid of Rasulullah sallallahu, some in
Masjid in Masjid Nabawi. So it was a Jumaa. It was a night of Jumuah
Torah we had finished, people had gathered around Abu middle buena
Annie, and this young man came along. He sat down with this group
of people. This is the first time he sat in that gathering. There
may be people here brothers and sisters, who may be the first time
that they've sitting along, their friend has pulled them and made
them come. They've always made excuses. But today they've come
along. This may be your day, and those who always come in Sharla
this is all our day as well. Right? We're all in the same boat.
We all want to get close to Allah subhanaw taala. That day he sat
down and who I am it was a very powerful preacher. He continued
to, to warn them and to relate heart rendering, softening stories
to them, until the hearts were totally overtaken by him. And
people became extremely desiring of Jana. He created this desire of
Jana in their hearts. And for this young man does not see her and
advice a found the place in his heart. His color changed. He got
up and he went to his mother. And he began to weep in front of his
mother for a very long time. He continued to weep in front of his
mother. She's wondering what's happening to him. And he said,
again, he was he was poetic. He said them to Leto, but he urged
him early. Were to katawa early. What, up to what Toba? To cut feta
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says to his mother. He says,
I had, I have made full firm a decision to make Toba and I have
come while those people who have who give me guy who gives me
advice have come very close to me, meaning the person who heard in
the masjid, I've returned, and the Toba has opened up. Because you
see until now, despite the fact that he wanted to do good he
couldn't it was just like he was stuck. So he says the Toba that I
have decided to do has opened up the locks from every one of my
limbs, I've suddenly become free. When the Inspire
has inspired my heart to go and worship my Lord, then he has
removed all my shackles. And I have responded to him by saying
love bake. I am here for you. Such a great Warner and advisor
who has removed me from my heedlessness, oh my mother. Now
he's very worried, oh, my mother will My Will my Lord forgive me?
Will my Lord accept me? Based on whatever I had done of my past and
what had been my state will he accept me?
How evil it will be if he if he rejects me as a loser. And my Lord
does not accept my coming towards him.
And then he began to worship Allah subhanho wa taala. And he was then
so excessive in his worship, that he used to make Iftar after
taraweeh please, this is my crew to do so do not I mean, this is
not something you do. Right. But he was just so overtaken that he
used to make.
He used to make he used to make a star after taraweeh. He never used
to sleep until after the sun rose. One day his mother went close to
him with the Iftar and he refused to eat this day. He just refused
to eat. He said that i i have i have a heavy fever today. And I
feel that my time is coming to an end. He was only he was a young
man. But he said My time is coming to an end. Then he went to his
place of prayer. And he stayed there doing dhikr of Allah
subhanahu wa taala for four days on the interstate without eating
anything. His mother was really, really worried. He then faced the
Qibla one day and he said ILA he I say took a Covidien. Oh my Lord, I
have decided
We'd disobeyed you while I was strong Well I thought to cut the
Ethan and now I am being obedient to you while I am weak what Scott
took a gelatin waha them took a knife and I I made you angry while
I was very strong and powerful and now that when I'm very weak and we
can thin that's that's when I'm coming at your service for later
shoddy Hulka built Honey Are you are you going to accept me? And
then after that he fainted. He fainted
his mother standing around him and saying Yeah thermadata For the
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coolness of my eyes oh gladness of my eyes respond to me say
something to me respond to me. Eventually he came back to
consciousness and he said yeah Amma herbal Yom Allah the Quinta
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Fini for your Sofia, Allah Yamaha earlier Oma. He said, Oh, Mother,
this was the day. This was the day that you had been warning me
about. This is the day that you had been frightening me from
all those days that have passed in heedlessness Oh mother in Neha if
another NFC and your tool if in a hurry has Finnerty hub see, I have
so much fear of Allah subhanaw taala that I'm gonna have to stay
a long time in the Hellfire Billahi alayka OMA, I swear by
Allah to you Oh, my mother called me further eg lucky Allah hottie
Hatta. Aloo Katara Missoula Allahu your harmony. Oh my mother, I
swear to you stand up and put your foot on my put your foot on my
cheek so that I can I can feel some humiliation. I can feel some
humiliation so that Allah subhanaw taala when he sees that, He will
have mercy on me. He will see that his mercy will come into power